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darkficsyouneveraskedfor · 2 days ago
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Look, Don't Touch 3
Warnings: this fic includes noncon/rape, stalking, breaking and entering, possible blood and violence, and femcel energy. Tags are not exhaustive and more may be added as the series progresses.
This is a dark!fic and explicit. 18+ only. Your media consumption is your own responsibility. Warnings have been given. DO NOT PROCEED if these matters upset you.
Summary: You get bored of watching and that makes you careless. (dark!reader)
Characters: Steve Rogers, Bucky Barnes
Note: my back hurts.
As per usual, I humbly request your thoughts! Reblogs are always appreciated and welcomed, not only do I see them easier but it lets other people see my work. Thanks to everyone who reads this one and thank you for all your energy.<3
Love you all like snakes love Woody’s boots. Take care. 💖
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Bucky's snores roll through the apartment. He's just as irritating asleep as he is awake. Your back racks and your legs cramp as you slump in the chair. Your eyes droop now and again only the roll open and flick to the blue digits of the clock. 
The minutes tick by like hours. His peaceful tempo irks you. It adds to the restlessness of your captivity.  
You don't blame him entirely. You're a dumb fucking bitch. Why didn't you do some scouting before you waltzed in? Wait it out to make sure it's clear. 
You go back and retrace your steps, over and over. Fuck. You're so stupid. So stupid. But not as stupid as that fucker thinks. 
Or as weak. 
He has that chip on his shoulder. He thinks his trauma overrides everyone else's. That no one else has been through shit. What you've been through you don't fucking think about because it's not worth it. He doesn't realise he's wasting his energy being such a miserable shit. 
You stare through the window for a while. The city sparkles here. Not like in your apartment where it blares like a broken television. 
Your head sinks down as your fatigue clouds your obstinacy. Your eyelids meet and your body slackens as much as it can within your bounds. The last look at the clock read about 3am. 
Your mind swirls in a miasma. Thick and viscous. Your skull thumps like sledge on concrete. Then all at once you're awake and shivering. 
The ice cold water seeps into your clothes as you gasp and gulp. Your lashes are webbed with moisture as you drip with the frigid rivulets. Bucky chuckles as a bucket hangs from his grip. 
"Morning sunshine." 
Your teeth chatter as you sneer back at him. You glance over at the city skyline. It's still a dusky mix of grey and blue. 
"0500. Up and at 'em," he proclaims chipperly. 
You shut your mouth and bite down on your shivers. This is what he wants. He's trying to break you. Well it's not gonna happen so soon. You've seen the videos on the dark web. You won't be scared by this emo bitch.  
"Gotta keep a routine." He taunts. 
You roll your eyes. Your gaze catches on the shine on the floor. You must've been out like a light. There's plastic under you. Maybe not just for the water. Well, you're not squeamish. 
"I usually start with a run. What do you do when you crawl out of your hole at one in the afternoon? Probably just the thought of Steve gets your heart pumping," he grits. 
"It helps," you snicker. "I've seen the real thing so... I'm certain my imagination is much better. The vibrator too." 
"Fucking smart ass," he mutters and stomps away. 
It's not a victory but it isn't defeat. You can match his energy, even if he's got you tied up like a dog. You wiggle in seat as that thought tickles something in you. You're twisted just like he said but he doesn't get to do that to you. Only Steve.  
He shuffles around in the bedroom. He emerges in track pants and a long sleeve tee. The legs are a bit too long for him. Steve's got a few inches on him, probably in more way than one. 
"I'll do about an hour," he taps on his watch. "Now you don't go getting into trouble." 
He scoffs and heads for the door. You tempo your breath as the goosebumps prickle over you in waves. Your clothes are soaked through. The door snaps shut and you huff. 
There's not much you can do. You close your eyes again. You're not going to sleep but you'll save your energy. As you languish in the slow drip of water pattering onto the plastic, your clothes grow stale and tepid. The wet fabric is sandpaper on your skin. 
He returns, whistling. He doesn't acknowledge you as he sets up in the kitchen. He puts his earbuds in the case and lets his music blast from the speaker. It's the kind of rock music a teenager listens to when they try to show off. 
You don't move. You're not going to let him see you squirm. He rattles around in the kitchen. 
"Gotta get lots of protein after a workout," he calls through as a pan sizzles. The aromas crawl over you and fill your lungs. Your tongue floods with saliva. "Lots of eggs, bacon, hm, oh Steve got the good greek yogurt." 
You don't answer his mocking monologue. You know what he's doing. Well if he thinks you've never gone hungry, that's his own martyr complex fueling his ego. 
He comes out with a full plate and sits across from you. He plants his feet wide, his plate in one hand as he shovels greedily with the fork. He stuffs his mouth and hums. 
You watch him calmly. He smirks and keeps pigging away on the food. There's enough for both of you and then some. You grimace. 
"How are you feeling? Hungry?" He asks. 
"Repulsed. You have grease on your chin." 
He pokes his tongue as he try to lick it up. You nearly gag at the remnants of food in his mouth. You don’t, you won't, look away. 
"I can hear your stomach," he says through a mouthful. "And your heart. Your lungs, too." 
"Yeah, I know you're a freak. Do you even know how the Russian fucks mangled you or did that go out the window with all the murder?" 
He gnashes his teeth down and narrows his eyes. His smile faded. It's your turn to grin. 
"Real fucked up from what I saw. There were some leaked classified docs after that weirdo Sokovian went off and planted those bombs." You tisk. "Children? Really? That's really der--" 
He's fast. Well, he is a super soldier. In an instant, he's in front of you, the plate is on the floor, and the fork is standing in your thigh as pain sears through your muscles. 
You yipe then muffle it to a groan. You take a deep breath as your lashes flick and you stare at the blood staining around the tines. You exhale through your lips and look at him. You don't stop smiling. 
You cackle, "hoooooo, I got you, Buck. I fucking got you." 
He stands straight and kicks the plate, scattering whats left of the eggs and bacon. He stomps away and balls his fists, grumbling and snarling. You laugh if only to keep from whimpering. 
There's pain beneath the swell of adrenaline. It's going to really hurt in a few minutes but right now, you feel great. You're awake. 
📷
Bucky appears again. His hair is damp and his skin is speckled with the aftermath of a shower. He has only a towel around his waist. Are you supposed to be impressed? 
He doesn't say a word as he moves around the apartment. He goes to the windows and looks out at the city. You stare at the couch dully. You're getting bored and your leg is throbbing. 
He circles around as you raise your brows, biding off the fatigue. Suddenly, he's behind you. He reaches around a rips the fork free. You grunt as blood pools up and spreads further along the denim.  
He wipes the tines on your sleeve, "I didn't get the artery, in case you're scared." He strides around and twirls the cutlery, "strange cause judging by your pulse, you're pretty fucking content with yourself." 
"Ha, is that what you want, hm?" You pout mockingly. "You wanna make a girl's heart race. Poor widdle winter baby don't got no place in this world. He wants to be wanted--" 
"You talk a pretty big game for someone as tiny as you are." He comes around and bends to look you in the eye. "What do you got going on? Who's going to even know you didn't make it home?" 
You hiss through a gritted smile, "you say that like I care. I've been pretty honest with you and myself. Maybe try a bit of introspection." 
"There's different types," he backs up and sits again. "The quiet ones. The violent ones. The talkers. Now, there's different kinds of talkers. The ones who threaten, then there's the ones who ramble. They talk so they don't gotta feel--" 
"You got me, Mr. Barnes. I'm so fucking scared of you I'm gonna piss my pants. You wanna watch again?" 
He chortles, "there ya go." 
"There I go." You sneer. "What's the game plan here, buddy? Starve me out? Think it'll happen before baby boy gets back? You gonna save some for him? Let him know you saved his ass. For once it wasn't the other way around huh?" 
"Shut up." 
"Or maybe that's a bad plan, huh? Steve might lose his shit a little. Realise he's not untouchable. I mean, a worm like me crawled right in--" 
"I said shut up," he snips. 
"You said it, I'm a talker. I gotta talk so I don't shake in my boots. Must feel like a big man. I mean I don't got Hydra juice in my veins and you could snap me like a twig," you scoff. "It's gotta make you a little hard." 
He tilts his head and squints, "you ever think of anything else?" 
"Don't worry, you're not in here," you nod your head. "It's all for the Captain. Second best again, sergeant." 
"You can't help yourself," he leans his elbows on his legs. 
"Well, I broke in, didn't I? Pretty clear I'm a bit off--" 
"No fucking shame." 
"It's really weird, don't you think? We only talk about shame when it's a woman. Men, they can do whatever the fuck they want and they're called outgoing and brave or committed, whatever." 
"Cut that shit," he snips. 
"It's true. But maybe that's not what this is. Maybe this is something else. Something more personal. Maybe you're jealous," you try to shrug. "The winter bozo got no fans to stalk him. Mm, sad." 
He stares at you then his gaze falls to your leg. He stands up and marches off. No answer. Typical. That's the thing about men, they can't admit when they're wrong. Can't own up to their faults but everyday a woman has to pay penance for just existing. 
He stomps back to you and slaps his hand down on your injured leg. The burning sensation of his palm tears a yowl from your and you look down as thick grains of salt tumble out between his fingers. He mashes the salt into your wound. You gnash your teeth and grunt. 
"FUUUUUUUCKKKKKKKK!" You seethe through your clamped jaw. 
He laughs, "this is kinda fun." He puts his forehead against yours. "And I can't help but agree with you, doll. Why the fuck am I fighting my programming?" He squeezes your leg and you wheeze. "Let's get nice and cozy with the soldier. He's got all the good ideas." 
You snort and twitch, halfway between agony and amusement. You push against him and snap your teeth. 
"Finally, something interesting." You rasp. 
He smirks and pushes of you. You groan as he turns cracks his neck. He tosses the salt onto the plastic sheet. You watch his metal hand open and close. 
He spins and struts into the kitchen. He comes back with your notebook. A strike of rage swells in you. Fuck. 
He stands in front of you and licks his fingertips. He clears his throat and flutters through the pages. 
"'I went to his place. It's nice. Different than being outside. His bed is big, it's a wonder he never fucks in it. Seems like Cap is afraid of commitment.'" He guffaws. "You really think you know him?" 
"Stream of consciousness." You utter. 
"Sure," he skims the lines on the pages. "'I think I had my biggest O in his bed. Just with my fingers. I could smell him around me. If I closed my eyes, he was there--'"  
He shifts and the towel twitches. Your lips slant. Disgusting. 
"Do you really think he'd want to touch something like you?" 
"I can draw a line between fact and fiction. How about you?" You chirp. "You can't even remember how many innocent people you killed--" 
"It's getting old," he growls.  
"Maybe Stevie won't want a piece. I'm not delusional, just obsessive. But you-" you nod to his crotch. "Seems like you're getting a bit too into this." 
He lowers the notebook and grins. "You ever actually fucked a guy?" 
"What does it matter?" 
"Is that it? You think Steve wants to pluck the flower in your dusty little garden?" 
"It was never--" you huff and wiggle in the chair. "Look, you don't get it. It was never supposed to be real. It's like a TV show. A distraction. Something to do." 
"Wow, that's sad." 
"Yeah, but it's the truth. A lot of people can't face themselves in the mirror." 
"Oh virtue," he scoffs and throws the notebook on the couch behind him. "Is it honesty or self-pity?" 
"Bit of both." You look up defiantly as he steps closer. "Look at me. I know what I am. I'm a creep but I don't deny it. What you are, you can't even say it out loud." 
He exhales and his chest compressed. He puts his hands on his hips as he glowers at you. His towel tents and you frown. 
"Dude, get that away from me." 
"What's the matter? Is this the closest you've been?" He taunts. 
You lean back and keep your eyes up, "I've seen a dick. Touched a few even. Trust me, I'm not interested." 
"I could put on the suit. There's a back-up in his closet." 
"Nasty." 
"Look who's talking," he retorts. "You think I'm fucking serious?" 
"I know the things you're capable of, soldat." You challenge. 
His eyes flare and his knuckles flash across your vision, bone snapping against your cheek. You close your mouth as it floods with iron. You swallow the blood and wiggle a back tooth with your tongue. You snicker. 
You face him as the swelling thrums hotly under the surface. He glares back at you. You lean back and round your eyes. You've never been good at that cutesy shit. 
He smirks, "keep going, baby. We'll see who breaks first." 
You lower your lashes and sniffle. He hovers and you steel yourself. You lurch forward and open your mouth. The chair tilts with your weight and you bite through the cotton as your teeth meet the towel. You pinch something beneath it. Him. 
He exclaims and punches your head. He grunts as the chair tips and falls on its side. Your head bounces against the chair. The towel heaps next to you as he growls and cradles his erection. 
"The fuck? You are deranged!" 
"I told you to move back," you slur as silver stars spatter across your vision.  
"Fucking bitch," he hisses and leaves you on the plastic. You laugh until it fades into a dry crackle. You hit your head pretty good and he got a few good shots in too. 
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nameless-jamie · 1 day ago
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Can we get some PA and Jamie’s mum and Simon interaction? 💙💙💙
The Tartt's
Masterlist
Jamie Tartt x fem! PA reader
TW: cursing
A/N: Sure, I love this idea. Guys keep sending me more ideas, love your requests. Ready for some pushy loving parent moments?
As his personal assistant, Y/N had gotten used to handling all aspects of Jamie Tartt’s life—from scheduling his training sessions to making sure he actually showed up to interviews on time. But coordinating a surprise visit from his mum and Simon? That was a new challenge entirely.
The last few weeks Jamie was very well-behaved. He was still annoying, but he worked hard to show up on time and make Y/N's life as his assistant and friend way easier. He was also very hard-working and trained his ass off. That paid off because he scored 5 goals in the last three matches!
As a little treat Y/N wanted to surprise him with his favourite people in the world. His mum and step-dad Simon. They live 3 hours away from Richmond in Jamie's hometown Manchester. He doesn't have time to visit them much, so any updates Georgie, Jamie's mum gets, are from Y/N.
Y/N and Georgie text and call often, not only to keep her updated on Jamie's life... Georgie and Simon had always been a fan of Y/N, calling her love and darlin’ whenever they met or talked. Asking Jamie where Y/N is at, whenever he FaceTimed them. Georgie would gush about how lucky Jamie was to have Y/N keeping his life in order, while Simon, in his usual dry humor, would mutter something about her being the real MVP of the family.
Georgie is also sure that Y/N is going to be her daughter-in-law... But she wouldn't rush those kids. She just knew.
And now? Well, now, they were showing up at Nelson Road to surprise Jamie at training.
Y/N stood outside the training ground, scrolling through her phone when she spotted the familiar couple heading toward her. Georgie’s face lit up the second she saw her.
“Y/N, my love!” Georgie beamed, pulling her into a warm hug before Simon wrapped an arm around her shoulders in greeting. “Oh, it’s been too long! Jamie giving you any trouble? Bet you’ve got your hands full. Love that boy to pieces, but he's a bunch of work sometimes.”
Y/N laughed. “You have no idea. But he's been good the last few weeks. I missed you guys so much and I know he's missed you too. So let's go surprise him!”
They started the walk to the pitch. Simon snorted wrapping an arm around Y/N and Georgie. “Reckon you’re the only reason he’s not showin’ up to training in his bloody dressing gown, right Y/N? By the way I brought your favorite shortcakes.”
"You guys spoil me and I'm not even your daughter!"
Georgie linked arms with Y/N as they headed toward the facility. “Who says you're not our daughter! Honestly, love, I don’t know how you do it. If Jamie were my boss, I’d have quit ages ago. Does he still sleep bottomless?”
Y/N blushed after hearing Georgie call her, her daughter. “Oh, believe me, Georgie, I've considered quitting like every day,” Y/N joked. “But then who else is going to make sure he eats actual food instead of just protein shakes and gummy bears?”
Georgie shook her head fondly. “That boy. Honestly. You are a saint, Y/N. And you know you’re basically family at this point, right? He should just marry you already...”
Y/N smiled, warmth blooming in her chest. “Well, I—”
Before she could finish, a voice interrupted from across the pitch.
“Mum? What the fuck?”
Jamie stood a few feet away, brows raised in confusion as he took in the sight of his mum, Simon, and Y/N looking very chummy.
Y/N grinned. “Surprise.”
"Language, Jamie!" Georgie shouted, angry at Jamie's fruity outburst.
Jamie blinked. “Why—how—”
"Surprise, baby!" Georgie squealed, throwing her arms wide, and before Y/N could even register it, Jamie was bolting across the grass, launching himself at her like a six-year-old.
She oofed at the impact, but Jamie just clung to her, his head buried in her shoulder.
“Mum,” he muttered, voice muffled but so full of love. “What’re you doin’ here?”
Y/N folded her arms, grinning as Simon walked up beside her. “He’s such a mumma’s boy.”
Simon chuckled. “The biggest. Watch this.”
Georgie’s face lit up. “Oh, Jamie, look at you. You’ve been eating well, right? Getting enough sleep? Moisturizing?”
Jamie sighed, leaning into her touch like an overgrown golden retriever. “Mum, yes. I’m fine.”
Georgie turned to Y/N. “Is he lyin’ to me?”
Y/N smirked. “You know what? He has been skipping breakfast.”
“Mum, no I haven’t—”
Georgie gasped dramatically, smacking his arm. “Jamie! That’s awful for your metabolism! You need to eat in the mornings, baby, I told you this!”
He turned to Y/N, slightly betrayed that she told on him, but happy. “You did this, huh? Brought them 'ere” he gestured towards his parents.
“Obviously.” She crossed her arms. “You haven’t seen them in ages, and I figured you could use some family time instead of annoying me all day.”
Georgie beamed, patting Jamie’s cheek. “She’s right, you know. You’re lucky she puts up with you.”
Jamie scoffed, blushing a little. “Yeah, yeah. Everyone loves tellin’ me how lucky I am to have her.”
Simon clapped a hand on Jamie’s shoulder. “Well, mate, you are.” Then, with a smirk, he turned to Y/N. “Tell me, love, how long you plannin’ to put up with him before you make it official?”
Y/N choked on air. “Wait, what?”
Jamie turned bright red. “Simon, mate, shut up.”
Simon ignored him, grinning. “Oh, come on. We all know it’s gonna happen eventually.”
Georgie nodded enthusiastically. “Absolutely. I’ve already decided Y/N’s my daughter-in-law, whether you two want it or not.”
Y/N laughed nervously. “Jesus Christ.”
Jamie groaned even louder, now totally embarrassed. “Bloody hell.”
“Oh, don’t act like it’s a bad thing,” Georgie said, waving him off. “You love her.”
Jamie scoffed, folding his arms, but there was a telltale blush creeping up his neck. “Mum! I do not. Don't say stuff like that.”
Simon raised an eyebrow. “Really? So why’d you spend all last Christmas on FaceTime with us, complainin’ that she wouldn’t answer your texts?”
Jamie’s face flamed. “I did not—” He turned to Y/N. “I didn’t, okay?”
Y/N grinned. “Mhm. Sure.”
Georgie nudged her playfully. “You should’ve heard him, love. Walkin’ around all moody, muttering, ‘Dunno why she’s ignorin’ me, I’ve been proper nice to her this year.’”
Simon snorted. “Proper sad, it was.”
Jamie groaned. “I hate both of you.”
Y/N, thriving off of his suffering, smirked. “Aw, Jamie, you missed me?”
He huffed. “You know I did.”
The way he said it—low, almost begrudging, but completely honest—made Y/N’s stomach flip.
Georgie waggled her eyebrows. “See? You do adore her.”
Jamie rolled his eyes dramatically. “Right, well, this has been proper fun for everyone except me. I need to shower.”
He turned to Y/N, eyes flicking over her with something way too mischievous.
“Fancy helpin’ me pick out my clothes, love?” he teased. “Heard my mum...You are my future wife, after all.”
Y/N scoffed, trying to ignore the heat crawling up her neck. “You’re impossible.”
Jamie winked. “You love it.”
Georgie sighed dreamily. “God, you two are ridiculous.”
Simon nodded. “Just date already.”
Jamie and Y/N groaned at the same time.
“No one asked you!”
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wynsummers · 3 days ago
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felt like combining two of my biggest interests so this is my ranking of buffy characters by how much they would enjoy the rocky horror picture show
honorable mention - anya. i can't decide if anya would love or hate rocky. the more chaos-loving anyanka side of her would have a lot of fun with it, but i think she might also hate the idea of going to see a movie only to have it talked over by a bunch of hecklers. especially if she went to a theater where they throw/spray props. so i guess it would depend on whether she went to a showing for the experience or the film itself.
9. angel would walk in, sit in the back row, stare with an intense face at the screen for the entire hour and forty minutes of the film and then stand up and leave without saying a word. he would never come back.
8. xander - xander would enjoy rocky for all of the wrong reasons. he is the cishet man who only goes to see the lingerie-clad women. i've met so many xanders in my time. they always have that smug laugh when someone tries to interact with them, but they're too cool to do anything that they can't use to (attempt to) impress a woman
7. cordelia - i don't think rocky is really cordy's scene, no disrespect intended. i think she could have a good time but some of the more extreme traditions might put her off (especially if someone threw/sprayed something at her, i think she would hate that). she would look at it as that fun thing she did once, probably because someone invited her. that being said, though, if she ended up in a shadowcast, she would put her entire heart and soul into playing janet.
6. oz - i can't explain it but oz is both too cool not to be at rocky and too cool to be at rocky. like, oz has been going to rocky every week for two years but the scoobies only find out when they go as a group and everyone in the theater knows him already. i don't think he's ever said a callback in his life but he definitely has a bunch of them memorized
5. buffy - ok now hear me out. buffy needs something like rocky in her life. she needs a place where she can unwind, yell loudly, dance around, and just have fun. i don't think she'd be super into it right away, but i don't think it would take long for her to get into the rhythm of it. i can't see her going so far as to be in a shadowcast, but i can totally see her being a frequent audience member who tells all of her friends about this awesome thing she found
4. tara - listen, tara is a lesbian witch in college. rocky was made for her. season 4 tara is too shy to participate, but i can see it being a place she returns to a lot, and season 6 tara is definitely in the front row of the theater every friday gleefully yelling at the screen. she might even dress up as janet or magenta (shoutout amber benson for performing toucha touch me)
3. willow - this may be controversial, since early seasons willow is kind of reserved and seems like she would be really overwhelmed by rocky. but often that's the exact kind of person who thrives in rocky the most because it gives them a chance to come out of their shell. at her first show, she probably wouldn't participate at all, but something would compel her to come back, and slowly but surely, she'd start doing more. cut to a few months later and she's going full vampire willow in a theater full of people. i think later seasons willow wouldn't have as difficult of a time at first but i still don't think she'd get into it right away. but once she got it, she'd be a regular for life
2. spike - i think spike has been going to the shows for a long time; it's definitely his scene. it wouldn't surprise me if he invented some of the callbacks. yelling stupid snarky shit at a movie screen is so him. i don't know if i can see him dressing up as a character though.
giles - obviously. fucking obviously. in his ripper days he was frank at his local theater and he still goes to the shows all the time. maybe on special occasions they bring him back as frank for a special show. it wouldn't surprise me if he saw the rocky horror show before it was a movie. if buffy and the scoobies found out about his double life they would faint. (if you haven't seen anthony head as frank, do yourself a favor and look it up)
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mommyownsmee · 1 day ago
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Mommy I've been scrolling through your blog so long and now I'm so wet and needy.....my legs are spread open the whole time and I feel how much I'm leaking...I so badly want you to touch me, fuck me like I'm just a lil toy.
Fuck I want it so bad....mommy can I touch myself? Can you tell me how? Please...I'm ready to beg
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[Here‘s a lil something I came up with while reading your message <3 I hope you like it!]
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The dim glow of your laptop screen was the only source of light in the room, casting soft, flickering shadows against the walls. The air was still, heavy, thick with something unspoken—something desperate. The only sound was the subtle hum of your own breathing, uneven and strained as your fingers ghosted over the trackpad.
You had been scrolling through my blog for what felt like hours, your eyes devouring every word, every command, every lingering tease meant to sink deep into your mind and take root. Each carefully chosen sentence settled inside you like a spark, igniting something restless, something raw. Your thighs had fallen open long ago, your body responding instinctively to the overwhelming need coiling low in your stomach.
You were soaked.
You could feel it—the slick heat between your legs, the way your skin prickled with anticipation. Every muscle in your body was drawn tight, wound up so painfully that you were barely breathing. You weren’t even sure when the ache had become unbearable, but now? Now it was impossible to ignore.
But you knew better than to act without permission.
Your fingers hovered over the keyboard, your mind slipping further into submission with each passing second. You had been trained well. Conditioned to wait. To ask. To beg if necessary.
And you were so, so close to breaking.
The anon you sent me was hurried, needy, bordering on pathetic—but that was exactly what I wanted from you, wasn’t it?
Mommy, I’ve been scrolling through your blog for so long, and now I’m so wet and needy… my legs are spread open the whole time, and I feel how much I’m leaking. I so badly want you to touch me, to use me like I’m just a little toy. Please… Can I touch myself? Can you tell me how? I’m ready to beg.
You hit send, your breath catching in your throat. The waiting was excruciating. Every second that passed without a response felt like another layer of torment, your body clenching with the effort of holding still.
The need to move was overwhelming. To press your thighs together, to dip your fingers between them, to relieve even the smallest fraction of the ache—but you wouldn’t. You couldn’t.
Because good girls waited.
When the notification lit up your screen, your pulse skyrocketed. You swallowed hard, opening my answer with trembling fingers.
Good girls don’t touch without permission. And you’re a good girl, aren’t you? Tell me how much you need it. Show me you deserve it.
A whimper slipped from your lips before you could stop it. Your thighs twitched, but you forced yourself to stay still. The words on the screen felt like a hand around your throat, like soft lips against your ear, whispering things that made your skin burn.
Your fingers shook as you typed the next anon, the pressure inside you growing unbearable.
Mommy, please, I need it so bad. I can’t stop thinking about it. I’m aching. I want to be good for you. I want to do exactly what you say. I’ll do anything. Please, tell me what to do.
My response was almost immediate.
I want you to feel everything. One hand between your thighs, but don’t rush. Just tease. Make yourself wait. Let the desperation sink in. Show me how much you can take.
Your body shook. My words slowly sank deep, curling around your spine, making your skin burn hotter. The idea of holding back, of teetering right on the edge and not giving in—it made the ache sharper, more unbearable.
A shudder wracked through you as you obeyed, your hand sliding between your thighs, the heat radiating against your fingertips. You whimpered softly as you traced slow, lazy circles over yourself—barely applying any pressure, just the lightest touch, exactly as instructed.
It was torture.
You could already feel how soaked you were, how easily your fingers slipped against slick, sensitive skin, but it wasn’t enough. Not nearly enough. Every instinct screamed at you to press harder, to move faster, to take what you so desperately craved—but you couldn’t. Not until I let you.
Your hips bucked involuntarily, your body betraying you, searching for friction that you weren’t allowed to have. You whined, the sound soft, pleading, but there was no mercy coming. Just the steady rhythm of your own touch, teasing, taunting, denying you the relief you needed.
You bit your lip, trying to focus, trying to keep your movements slow, careful, teasing. You didn’t want to disappoint me. You wanted to be good. But it was so hard. You decided to send me another anon.
Mommy, please, I need to cum. I can’t hold it back. I’ve been so good. Please, please, let me. I’ll do anything. I need it so bad. I want to be good for you, please let me come.
You didn‘t have to wait long for my answer.
Beg.
The single word wrecked you. A desperate, choked sound left your throat, your free hand fisting into the sheets as you forced yourself to obey.
The silence that followed your begging was unbearable. Every second that passed felt stretched too thin, your body teetering on the edge of desperation. Your fingers trembled where they rested against your slick skin, waiting, waiting—because you wouldn’t let yourself break the rules. You wouldn’t come until I said so.
Then, finally, the screen lit up and your breath caught in your throat.
Good girl. You can come for me now. But I want to hear it. Let me feel how much you need this. Don’t hold back. Ride it out for me. Let me see how far you can fall apart.
Your mind barely processed the words before your body obeyed. Your entire body shook with relief. A wrecked whimper slipped past your lips, your thighs tensing, your fingers pressing down harder now, finally able to move the way you needed—the way I wanted you to.
A sharp, shattered cry ripped from your throat as your body seized, your muscles locking up as the pleasure crashed over you like a tidal wave. It was overwhelming—too much—your back arching, your free hand grasping helplessly at the sheets, at anything to ground yourself. The waves of pleasure rolled through you mercilessly, dragging you under, making you tremble and sob from the intensity of it.
But your fingers didn’t stop. Couldn’t stop. Even as the sensitivity became unbearable, even as your breath stuttered and your thighs twitched, you pushed through. You worked yourself through the aftershocks, milking the pleasure for every last drop, just like I wanted.
You whimpered, gasping as your legs shook violently, tears slipping down your flushed cheeks. The pleasure didn’t fade—it lingered, dragging out, stretching beyond your limits, making you feel used, ruined, completely spent…
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bunatee · 1 year ago
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The back arm is a fucking struggle. None of them seem right and I'm dying inside about it.
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deoidesign · 4 months ago
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I met the me who made different choices
#idk what this means so dont ask#got the words stuck in my head and this is what I wanted to draw for it immediately#me at my desk. so.#I dont look exactly like this obviously. doesnt matter. anyways#hard time recently in a lot of different ways#lots of work to do!#given up on getting everything done I kind of failed at that. it was too much#so now I'm just trying to get anything done that will make the next 6 months not kill me again#ideally. 3 episodes. or the book#or like at least close enough to that that its basically that#I'm feeling really screwed LOL#I dont know how I've been working every day for so long and still havent done enough...#(its because the work load is way too much)#every time I take 1 hour for myself. to cook. or clean. or draw something else. or play a game. I feel so guilty auauau#I hate webtoon I hate this damn green app...#DOESNT MATTER!!!#what DOES matter is my art is good as hell... look at this shit...#the light. the colors. I love you red I love you green#I need to get more red pants I only have the one pair.#I saw this guy with red pants that had skeleton legs on them and I was like FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!! I need them!!!!#I need to start sewing again. I dont have a sewing machine cause my apartment is too small so I havent sewn in years but I really want to..#I want to make clothes again... I need some vests I need some dresses..#I will not make pants or sleeved shirts because I dont hate myself#sketch#art#vent art I guess LMFAO its not#its just this fun little thing we like to call self expression#also this isnt how my desk setup actually is I scooted things around cause I didnt wanna draw anything twice. fuck it we ball#ok back to work
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bestagons · 8 months ago
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What Dan and Phil Text Each Other 4 + Familect (article)
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dreamlogic · 2 months ago
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aye can i get a fuckin uuuhhhh
break. on my burger
#shit chat#family cw#got sicker than i have been in years my bank closed my checking account on accident work is nightmarishly busy#and my mother is sending strings of long voice memos in the family group chat again#i simply will not be listening to them. at most i'll ask my dad or brother for the sparknotes version#bc her pattern for the better part of this year has been radio silence. no attempt at communication whatsoever#and then BAM like 5-10 min worth of voice memos screaming crying sobbing shaking#I DON'T KNOW WHAT I HAVE TO DO TO GET MY CHILDREN TO FORGIVE ME. I'M CRAWLING ON MY KNEES ON THE DESERT FOR A HUNDRED YEARS REPENTING#WHAT THE FUCK IS FAMILY FOR YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING AND I'M SUFFERING SO MUCH AND I'M ALONE BECAUSE#MY FAMILY ABANDONED ME. I HAVE NO ONE. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I DID BUT I'M BEGGING. I NEED HELP I NEED MY KIDDOS AROUND ME PLEASE I'M DYING#followed by several minutes of sordid updates on her shitty miserable life#which is tbf pretty shitty & miserable. she's extremely physically disabled & mentally ill#her partner had a severe stroke a couple months ago and is still recovering. they've both been in & out of hospital#neither working. partner's adult son who lives with them is the only income in the household#partner's permanently disabled mother also lives with them. plus 2 large dogs 6 cats and 3 each of chickens & ducks#they're in court suing their landlord bc he's trying to evict them but the property is an uninhabitable shithole to begin with#but like. whenever i do make the mistake of responding to one of her groupchat tantrums#she's just like 'oh you know me im a survivor :) i just miss yous is all :) now that you're here i'm gonna bitch about my life for an hour#and ignore everything you have to say and show active disdain & boredom whenever you tell me anything about yourself or your life :)'#and if i offer help she refuses it#like it's just a bid for attention. expecting unconditional love and absolution and salvation from us bc That's What Families Do#she doesn't actually seem to give a shit about any of us as real people. just this ironclad delusion of unconditional family support#that she frankly has not earned#my brother actually did go visit her in the hospital on thanksgiving. driving 2hrs out of his way to do so#and she was a raging passive aggressive bitch to him and threw the gift he'd brought her back in his face#ma'am i know you're Going Through It but so are the rest of us & frankly you've given me zero reason to want to interact w/ ur caustic ass#plus this is petty but yet another way in which she doesn't listen to me & makes no attempt whatsoever at genuine relationship#i've told her numerous times that responding to groupchat voice memos is hard for me. that i love & miss her#and if she wants to see me or needs help or whatever to please contact me one on one either by call or text#nope. refuses to respond to/initiate individual contact. ONLY traumadumping in the fam chat. TLDR MY MOM IS A DISFUNCTIONAL TOXIC NIGHTMARE.
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moregraceful · 1 month ago
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EVERYBODY SHUT UP!!!!!! PAT SIELOFF IS PREGNANT!!!!!
1. Birthday cake from Sierra and Kelly; 2. Gritty soft serve ice cream cup; 3. Sign for Erik Johnson's 1k celebration; 4. Jersey Devil Christmas tree ornament.
#just got taken very off guard by a big room remix of mozart's lacrimosa and the experience did NOT spark joy#horrible. i keep going back to the playlist it was on and listening to 30 seconds and getting mad all over again#not bc i believe in the sanctity of lacrimosa but bc i don't like it#ko and sierra aren't responding to my messages probably because they are spending quality time with family!!#but EYE do not have quality time with family. and my brain is swiss cheese from too much church#please god let him be a girl dad do not let him have a boy to put into hockey#i mean you can put the girl in hockey but we do NOT need pat sieloff jr (boy) into hockey#pat sieloff continuing proof that every single bone in your body can be broken and you have like negative muscle ligaments#but you can still be so so so so cute and happy with your wife in pictures announcing baby sieloff 🥰🥰#the weather is making me UNWELL. like physically i was not built for this weather i was built for heat not cold#BUT mentally also. please explain to me why i outlined an entire advent liturgy -- all four sundays -- based around hockey#LIKE NOBODY NEEDS A PRAYER OF CONFESSION AROUND HOCKEY#and it fucking WHIPS is the worst part. it was only an outline but if i spent more than 3 hours on it. well someone should a do wellness ch#ck is what should happen. we don't need hockey liturgy no one needs that#the thing is i am so fucking burnt out and just exhausted by all of it (<- what christmas/advent will do to a mfer) but i love#writing liturgy. it's so fun. it's like creative nonfiction#so then i was like well what if i did lent and baseball. which tracks much better yk ending the darkness and the coming light#and then i was like. interesting. what urgent tasks am i avoiding by doing all this. what medication am i not taking#white knuckling it ONE DAY LEFT OF CHURCH NONSENSE AND THEN I CAN ROT IN MY LIVING ROOM FOR THE REST OF THE YEAR#oh my god is it past midnight already i've been working on this post for like two hours and keep getting distracted#if the classical music station played ''mozart's final rave (lacrimosa)'' by oliver heldens at 7am i would certainly get out of bed :/#fresno oilers.txt
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pine-arten · 2 years ago
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i spent all yesterday making a semi-realistic slugcat base. i used sphinx cats as a reference, so they’re pretty cat like here
 i imagine they hold themselves different than an actual cat though, plus more robust shoulders for bipedal-ism
this is the survivor btw :) i think i’ll do monk next
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everymadara · 2 years ago
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Chapter 622
#naruto#madara#madara uchiha#uchiha madara#hashirama flashback#+ hashirama#[FBI looking through my laptop voice] why the fuck have you been looking at this and crying for the past 3 hours#Also fun fact: I used to not really like the language of ''revealing your guts'' I felt it was just very ugly and un-poetic phrasing#But I've come to appreciate it in the sense that it conveys a pretty thorough idea of vulnerability that reveals a lot of how Madara#perceives it.#His phrasing of revealing vulnerability is incredibly visual; people quite literally opening themselves up for him to see. Related is how#his greatest discomfort is people standing behind him. You know. where he can't see them.#Also most Uchiha characters having common motif threads related to their eyes.#In Madara's case they're tied specifically to how he'd like to have full awareness and understanding of what's around him; and by extension#he'd like to have a measure of influence over them.#Something standing where he can't see it though he knows it's there is the most vulnerable position he can imagine himself in.#In multiple different ways! In this particular panel it's mostly related to trust and emotional vulnerability.#Which is a very fun character trait to have when you grow up in the conceiling yourself and backstabbing profession#And you are also very fatalistic and under the impression that people just can't change#you WOULD think the only solution would be if everyone could just magically rip themselves open
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marinsawakening · 25 days ago
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I own a Wii and Twilight Princess at this point btw. I could set it up at any time. But what if. Instead of doing that. I just played more Majora's Mask.
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girlcrushau · 11 months ago
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#me? about to use tumblr as a diary again? in 2024? unfortunately:/#but here have a waterfall i saw on a hike last week as payment#i am sO tired and exhausted emotionally after dating#there's this guy that i fr thought was going to last and be around for a long time. we spent like every moment together that we could for 2#months straight and if we werent physicaly together we were texting or calling or on ft . just every part of our day had the other in it#not once did i ever feel unwanted undesired or uncared for. not once did i feel that i wasnt sure of his intentions. i felt safer with him#in those 2 months than i ever did with any one else i could think to compare to.#until one day he just didnt think it important to communicate any more. after 3 days of nearly nothing .. hardly any talking . i asked if#he was ok if we were ok. what was going on in his head. he said some ive just been with my buddies and family and havent been on my phone#and just. immediately thats heartbreak yanno. thats :// thats what they say when theres a new girl. but there'd never been a reason to think#there was another girl so i was like ok we're gonna trust bc this dude has been So good in every way. so i said imy but i understand. enjoy#your time with your buddies and with your fam -- i cant wait to hear about it (and hold you)#and i havent heard from him in the 3 weeks since. just randomly#so last night#i send the dreaded 'i miss you' text.#i dont expect to hear back and i accept the hurt that will come with that and the confusion that i've felt settles deeper into my heart#until this afternoon i hop on ig and see a hard launch that was posted an hour after my text was sent#that shit kinda hurt different. but also sent me into a bit of a delirious state where all i could do is laugh bc are you for fucking real#did she see my message? i know it. bc i know him and i know that he wouldnt hide anything from the person he's giving his heart#and his softness to. i can almost imagine how he showed her and promised her theres nothing to worry about#and there really isnt anything to worry about because he genuinely is the type to give his all to the relationship he's in#which feels silly to say after what happened w us. like no there wasnt a title ever#it sucks to call it a situationship because a month ago we were laughing in bed together about how we could never bc we were all in.#just the timing of the hard launch makes me giggle. did my text push them to have a conversation about what they are. was she really the#reason that he went away on me.#im trying not to blame myself . trying not to think about the phone calls i didnt answer. about what i could have done differently. trying#not to think about where we would be if i didnt let my anxieties hold me back. if i wasnt scared about what he'd think of the parts of me#that i keep hidden just a little bit longer than the rest.#and at the same time im trying not to put him on a pedestal. but that pedestal is just where i wholeheartedly believe he belongs#he set the bar for me. he set the standard. i was never too much. i was never too little. he made me feel perfect just as i am
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running-in-the-dark · 3 months ago
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I've got a psychiatrist appointment tomorrow. mostly to discuss if the new sleep medication is working. it is.. not? I don't know. it sorta makes me stay asleep better but tbh that only really means it's even more impossible to wake up when I need to.
idk at this point I'm getting close to just saying you know what? thank you for trying to help, mr. nice old psychiatrist guy, but let's just give up! who needs sleep anyway (me, like 12-16 hours a day). I'm just not gonna do it anymore! that sounds more doable than ever figuring out how to sleep normally!!
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seafoam-taide · 6 months ago
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Weird having an actual favorite band and knowing it. I don't really have many favorites it is hard to understand my feelings and even harder to pinpoint a 'better and more' feeling about one specific thing. But I know all of their songs, I listen to them all in a big playlist and never get bored, I am always happy to hear any song by them, I have every song's lyrics memorized, like ... they are my unequivocal favorite. There is nothing like it. Yes, I can get really into other songs, there are probably singular songs I can say I like more than any one song by this band. But I guess having a favorite is like what people say about getting married. I'm not explaining myself on that one actually I do have a point there that's an actual metaphor but I've decided explaining it is a bad use of my time. It's one of those artists that are popular enough and artsy enough that they can crop up as fic titles occasionally and no matter the lyric or song it comes from I can always tell immediately. I don't remember what the point of this post was I'm deep in my panic phase and it's 4 am and I was just sitting there singing I Have Made Mistakes to myself bc I can just do that, the whole song, and because it is very funny to go I have made mistakes I have made mistakes and I will continue to make them while in the middle of freaking the fuck out about existing or something. Bc you know yeah im one spoon away from setting the ends of my hair in fire because if I'm kindling for a little while at least I'll feel of use ????????? Yeah this post for sure had a point and it's devolved.
#tide of consciousness#Sorry that's a lot of text wow#Can we talk about the existential panic. I've been dying to talk about the existential panic#<- doesn't talk about it#Does anyone else get this. The feeling that is like the world is ending and its drowning and burning and it burns and nothing will ever beo#My best guess is I just have anxiety but it is very hard to believe that bc it feels so all consuming and terrifying and so so so much so m#The worst part is I'm not actually even feeling it I'm just sitting here using words that I know describe it bc it's like it just#Is happening. Behind a wall. And I'm here feeling the heat on the doorknob#Translating between the space where the feeling exists and the space where I reside#At some point I just go oh. I've been experiencing the world-ending terror for hours now#Like reading a letter!!!!!!!!! I just get a letter from my brain that goes 'emotions report. It all burned down years ago'#It's like and I know if I was in it I'd be crying and shaking and despairing so deeply and throwing myself around the room#And I feel like this EVERY OTHER DAY. Which is obviously why I apparently partitioned myself away from the feeling#Because you literally just you can't function with that#But surprise it's still there actually and I'm still having 2 breakdowns minimum a week#But now it looks like I'm normal and functioning to everyone else#So I seem like a horrible lazy fucking asshole who doesn't do anything but sit around accomplishing maybe 3? 4? Total minor tasks per day#Because I can't HANDLE ANYTHING ELSE !!!#HOW THE FUCK DO YOU FIX THIS#This is for sure something I shouldn't post but you know that's a rational thought for rational people
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numbuh424 · 7 months ago
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decided to make some stuff last minute for lawlight week cause I've got just a bit of free time and wanted to mess around with some brushes. tell me why I'm fucking COOKING rn.....
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