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traghoul · 2 years ago

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‘don’t run away anymore.’ naoki never really noticed how small seiji’s hands were until they were held fastly in his. his hold remains gentle, but solid, as if to lock her within his company. maybe it was selfish of him to ask this, maybe it was a proposal…. or maybe a wish. ‘… stay with me forever.’

before he took her hands , she couldn’t feel a thing. she had trudged along - tattered. a marionette with her strings unraveling. it was cold. naoki’s touch revives her. seiji feels everything. sticky blood, fuzzy wrists, warm hands. ( she realizes she’s lost her kuma somewhere along the shore. )

naoki’s hands are warm. they’re strong. they’ve locked her there.

seiji blinks. blinks again. blinks. & then her face crumbles. she doesn’t know what to do anymore. she hadn’t realized naoki was eye - level with her. ❛ ━━ sorry. ❜ when her legs give out and she’s buried in him, she doesn’t stop apologising. she’s still crying.

❛ ━━ i didn’t know what else to do. ❜

#i guess tw for the self harm but u get it #i'm tore up #7hell

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heybiji · 3 months ago

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how nice it is to meet people as oneself.

#dnd #dnd art #dnd character #dnd oc #drow #ocs #dandelion treehollow #“my name's not robin. i'm getting sick of hearing her name actually.”#he wrote something like that to an old friend he'd forgotten about #(i say old friend but actually it is his ex-fiance)#he tore up the letter in a bout of self hatred before sending it though #anyway #dande's always introducing himself to people #and creatures...#he's the face #charisma caster #sketch

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etapereine · 5 months ago

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Tadej Pogačar & Jonas Vingegaard + Hands (2024 edition)

2024 Tour de France, Stage 1 | 2024 Tour de France, Stage 2 | 2024 Tour de France, Stage 7

2024 Tour de France, Stage 11 | 2024 Tour de France, Stage 11 | 2024 Tour de France, Stage 11

2024 Tour de France, Stage 12 | 2024 Tour de France, Stage 15 | 2024 Tour de France, Stage 15

2024 Tour de France, Stage 16 | 2024 Tour de France, Stage 17 | 2024 Tour de France, Stage 18

2024 Tour de France, Stage 19 | 2024 Tour de France, Stage 20 | 2024 Tour de France, Stage 20

2024 Tour de France, Stage 20 | 2024 Tour de France, Stage 20 | 2024 Tour de France, Stage 20

2024 Tour de France, Stage 21 | 2024 Tour de France, Stage 21 | 2024 Tour de France, Stage 21

2024 Tour de France, Podium Ceremony | 2024 Tour de France, Podium Ceremony | 2024 Tour de France, Podium Ceremony

#somehow. somehow. despite the fact that they only shared one race this year. this is still the longest of these posts by far?#almost twice as long as last year?#also find it hilarious that almost half is just from the podium ceremony #they truly tore those divorce papers up and threw them in the fire #tadej pogacar #jonas vingegaard #tadejonas #pogagaard #tadejonas hands #listen i know the season isn't over but it seems almost certain that jonas won't race again this year so i'm posting this now #if he decides to turn up somewhere else this year and we get more? we'll just cross that bridge when we come to it i guess.

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spacegirlsgang · 4 months ago

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DBD x Met Gala (1/4): Edwin Payne and Heavenly Bodies: Fashion and the Catholic Imagination (2018)

#oh met gala boards how I've missed you ;_;#ok so Edwin. our wonderful smart kind Edwin.#obvi I went the Catholic route OF COURSE I DID #if it ain't broke don't fix it etc etc #but so ok my own personal theme for this was playing off of Edwin's time in hell PLUS the sin of lust #because I just think it's very interesting that lust almost tore him away from Charles I'm just saying IM JUST SAYING!!!!!#I chose some fun Alexander McQueen collections to go through for this one too #the first being the Dante collection obvi inspired by the inferno and it's a really fun collection so I'd definitely recommend looking it up #the second collection was one called Voss which was inspired by madness and the natural world #the last two pieces are both from 2024 one is a SS and the other is a FW look #the one with the body popping out of the back is a look by Robert Wun for his SS24 collection #and the body piece is from Thom Browne's FW24 collection #both of these pieces and collections are super interesting as well so I'd def recommend taking a look at those as well!#but yeah! I loooove this series so much and it's really fun to dive into it again!#if you're interested I did met gala boards for Merlin and for the old guard!#dead boy detectives #dead boy detective agency #dbd #dbda #edwin payne #dbd netflix #mine #dbd met gala

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respectthepetty · 7 months ago

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I don't think I've ever been this excited for an eleventh episode!

I need to see Ming a little beat down but still being a big bitch.

But even more than that, I need to see this man finally be served justice because this is the same actor who played Joke's dad in Hidden Agenda, and his ass got off way too easy (GMMTV always lets the parents off easy).

So I'm going to be thrilled to see him play another horrible father who catches Joe with Ming but also figures out that Mike was the one who let Joe in the house.

Is it bad that I'm hoping he has a heart attack trying to hit Joe? I don't care. I'm going to hope for it anyway!

Because the only one who can hurt Joe is Ming, and he is going to make sure of that.

*rubs hands together like a 90s movie villain*

#my stand in #my stand in the series #bring me the cursed episode eleven!#I'M READY!#and I'm openly rooting for that dad to drop dead since he wants to hit Joe #I also hope Tong gets tore up

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arctic-hands · 27 days ago

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I can't stand granola types who ask for "vegan wool" (or "vegan leather") bc they want to maintain the aesthetics of being vegan. You're soo concerned about the animals that you're willing to fill their environment and food with microplastics. Because that's what your vegan alternative is: plastic

#for whatever reason a discussion on r cottagecore popped up on me feed #and it's for a granola girl wanting to know where to get a 'vegan wool' alternative to a cloak that was advertised to her #bc wool is sooooooo unethical and plastic is sooooo good in comparison. blech #I'll wear polyester in winter bc wool is hard to come by cheap but at least I take no moral high ground in it #I used to have a GuppyFriend laundry bag but it tore and I'm not sure it ever actually worked AND it was plastic as well #maybe I should start handwashing my polyester clothes? but man it's such a bitch having handwashed a sweater I just got #that i didn't realize was handwash only because of its wool and silk content #seeing as I have to hand wash two other articles of clothing I have I might as well handwash my synthetics since I'm getting a drying rack #anyway #ow my back (preemptive)

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slutsosweet · 5 months ago

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i just think it's hot that Daddy can make me bleed with his huge cock 🥺

#yes i realize i should get this checked #will try calling up a doc office on monday #i'm just depraved and like thinking that he quite literally either tore me open or pounded my cervix bloody #or both 👀#r@pe fantasy #cnc k!nk #r@p3 #r@pe k!nk #cnc free use #tw r4p3 #soft cnc #rough cnc #bd/sm pet #tw blo0d #tw blood #cw blood

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kingoftheu · 8 months ago

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the correct way to deal with the escaped dinos in the Jurassic World Series is to kill them. Kill them all. Invasive species, absolutely going to ruin every ecosystem they enter. no we do not have to live in harmony with them, they are unnatural beasts in fact anyone with any enviromentalist backbone would say you need to kill them to keep nature safe. i do not hold this against chaos theory because "rawr dinosaurs" is a fun show I love it, but if I lived in universe you have to understand I would be calling for their eradication and calling Darius and Ben stupid fucking idiots on national television.

#Jurassic park #Jurassic world #jurassic series #jurassic world chaos theory #jurassic world camp cretaceous #jurassic world: dominion #jurassic world evolution 2 #seriously you are going to collapse the entire country if you just let countless invasive species roam #i'm not worried about them killing us i'm worried they get into the national parks and push out a keystone species #i promise i am normal #i enjoy these shows #i love these characters #but i need to vent somewhere #if a bunch of robots came in and tore up the enviroment we'd be like “so sad what we have done to nature”#but the minute the human made monstrosties are dinos (and not even real ones) letting them ruin everything is livinf in peace with nature

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flufflecat · 3 months ago

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Painting something for my gravity falls shelf

#painting #the teeth are little bits of paper that I tore up bc I didn't feel like committing to painting right away #tomorrow I'm gonna buy some teensy tiny nails and hammer them around the edges #so I can do string art over the top of it #I'm just experimenting and having fun rn 🥰#fluffle art

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call-me-copycat · 4 months ago

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i'm so sorry about what you're going through!! i know what it's like to be a "gifted" kid and suddenly not be able to pass everything so easily, it's a pretty terrible feeling (◞‸◟；)

i sincerely hope you get through this, i have no doubt it will all work out in the end, so please take care!! <2

Thank you for your support, definitely need it right now (⁠;⁠ŏ⁠﹏⁠ŏ⁠)

It's not technically the worst case scenario since I still have some time before the semester ends, but I still definitely need to learn how to cope with so much more to handle (and also how to deal with failure/rejection)

I'm going to try to discuss with a professor or advisor, but I can only go from there >⁠.⁠<

Thanks again for being here :⁠-⁠)

#🩹#📎#💬#It's not fun failing since it makes you feel stupid in the end #But i think it's partly my fault since I'm taking 4 classes when i know how much i work #At least if i do end up failing i might be able to retake the class #It'd just be a massive pain considering just how much effort i tore from myself to put into this class #I have another big exam tomorrow actually #2 major exams only 1 month into school this math class is truly horrid #but finally having others to discuss it with helps a ton #IRL i don't have anyone i can talk about it with #I love my blog :⁠-⁠)#my friends ♡

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sysig · 1 year ago

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Anyway, back to testing (Patreon)

#Doodles #Portal #GLaDOS #Chell #Curiosity Core #Space Core #Cave Johnson #So many GLaDOS'!! She needs all the <3 #And then also featuring some others lol ♪ Replaying 1 really made me want to fill out the cast a bit more!#I'm still the most used to drawing her Portal 2 design tho - which is a shame because her 1 design is so weird!! I like it :D #I still haven't given her a proper study but I do like how in the audio commentary they talk about how she has a feminine edge hehe #She does! They did a good job with her design ♪ And improved upon it in 2 I think :D I still haven't gotten to that audio commentary #I'm so curious as to what they'll say about her there hehe ♫ But I'm still just playing normally for now! I forgot how much longer it is :0 #I tore through it the first time so now taking my leisurely time feels funny haha ♪ I am enjoying myself tho :3 #Anyway!! Back to what I love about 1 <3 <3 Her tone switch literally Always has my heart ♥ Ughhh I love herrr #I also quite like Chell's design from both games :) I wonder if GLaDOS keeps making remarks on her appearance because of the changes :0 #She does have fuller cheeks in 2! She's not as gaunt - and she looks like....made-up? Make up made up? Y'know? :0 #Not that we get a particularly good look at her in-game but hm! The differences #As well as in her long-fall boots! The braces really were just stuck on her legs in 1 weren't they :0 No wonder the Curiosity Core was rude #I do really love the Curiosity Core tho haha ♪ Probably my favourite canon Core :D I think she'd get along well with Space Core lol #And then leaving off with that one little human-GLaDOS headcanon thing I posted about! Impatiently lol #I made these like The Day after posting that I couldn't help it I was too deep in the paint XP It was fun ♪#I really do think she'd look so much more like Cave still! Especially after replaying the bit where he says to put Caroline in ''his'' place #Is that retrofitting? Was it designed with him in mind initially? Hmmmmm #I also figure if I'm going to give her a human design I might as well go the whole way and not just slap robot parts on her face lol #It's hard to imagine her with two eyes tho! Like I might even go so far as to say she can have three eyes but not two! Only one or three #Her third ''eye'' would be the mole next to her eye lol - how would her vision work in that case :0 #Would she have panoptic depth perception or like triple vision or what?? Or maybe just leave her with one functioning eye lol #Handplates!Gaster-core (Core lol); turtlenecked one-eyed evil scientist with labcoat lol #Y'know it's funny - when I first drew GLaDOS several years ago I compared her to Gaster at the time too. Huh. Sure that's nothing :)

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sheliesshattered · 5 months ago

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one of the most satisfying feelings in the world is ripping woven fabric along the grain to get good square pieces to sew with

#sewing #fabric #my sewing #in the sense that I am in fact preparing fabric to be sewn #I washed up three yards of that navy blue 100% silk satin that I ordered and then dried and ironed it #measured twice to figure out the three different rectangles I need #then just snipped through the selvedge and tore the rest of the way across in a nice crisp line #it's way faster and more accurate than cutting if you want to stay on the grain #and it makes SUCH a good noise #it's just so satisfying #2024 pillowcase project #and the little sleepmask I'm making the left-over fabric #should be a nice quick sewing project that results in immediately-usable items #which is nearly as satisfying as that ripping sound lol

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menlove · 7 months ago

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throwback to my tween bedroom where I had 2 million beatles things everywhere. clocks. books. posters. printed out images. drawings. need to bring back that energy

#until my mom tore it all down and ripped it up or threw it away lol #and broke all my vinyls and 45s 🫶#fwuegshhs the trauma that made me pretend I never liked them at all I'm ngl 💀#BUT. rn I have a white album poster ziggy gave me #need more beatles things around to feel sane I think but my gf would be so tired #the way my room would be insane rn if I lived alone perhaps it's for the best that I do not HSHSHSJSJ

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2mimikyute4u · 10 months ago

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*gripping the sink with white knuckles* your value isn't dependent on others' treatment of you, your value isn't dependent on others' treatment of you, your value isn't-

#rsd #trying to remind myself of this but it's so fuckign HARD #i dared to let someone in and it tore me to shreds and I'm still trying to glue together the pieces of my self esteem #vent post #if they wanted to they would #low self esteem is so hard to fix???#and I've been trying so fucking hard but like agfshsjsshsggsjs UGHHHH #i never want to let someone make me feel this way ever again #i never want to feel like a constant second choice or like a burden or anything like that #like i had enough begging to be loved growing up thanks i dont need more #since clearly I'm bad at it anyway

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starlene · 11 months ago

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So @neroushalvaus told me that in the current Finnish production of Så som i himmelen, after a big assortment of other questionable choices, they interpret the finale as some sort of Literal Vision of Heaven... and in there, Tore magically heals of his disability.

The more I think about this, the more disappointed and angry I feel about it.

I mean. The whole entire point of the character of Tore is that the others learn to accept him exactly as he is, and that he has a unique, valuable voice just like everybody else. Besides that, he's a very rare instance of disabled representation within musical theatre. Sure, he's often played by non-disabled actors – but the Helsinki production showed us how you can achieve great results by splitting the role between a disabled and a non-disabled actor, so the role can also be an opportunity for disabled actors, given that they're provided enough support throughout the process.

Or it can be an opportunity for a non-disabled actor to treat disability like a costume you can simply take off when you're done with it and for a production to imply that disabled people are not good as they are, I guess. Cool beans!

Incredibly disappointed with the director and everyone else involved.

#they also cut the whole prologue and have Daniel coughing up blood and whatnot #unlike the Tore thing those choices are not offensive or anything. but I do think they're very very dumb #dunno! this detail has just been haunting me #I'm sure the actor and/or the director could explain why they've made such a choice...#but personally tbh I'm not super interested in hearing that #I think they're sending an awful message re: disabled people no matter the reasoning #oh well! I guess it's high time we had a trash fire production after so many strong ones #also I guess ymmv if you're not a big fan of the show. but I am. so there's that.#🎶 I had such hopes and now those hopes are shattered 🎶#Så som i himmelen

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medicinemane · 7 months ago

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Should make a pain killer that actually kills (or even touches) pain

#not that I have access to ultra hardcore stuff #but even when I had... pretty sure it was vicodine for my wisdom teeth; it didn't do a thing for me #cbd based stuff seems like it maybe helps; certainly does more than nsaids which do nothing for pain (great for inflammation though)#but I just... I'd really like something that actually makes my muscles and joints feel like... good; unpain #I'm sure it would be classified as addictive whatever it was but like... fuck man... I just want to not hurt #I can't tell if I have chronic pain cause... I kinda forget to pay attention when I'm hurting a lot of the time #I'll just... kinda realize I've been hurting bad all day and just not really focusing on it #and I also don't know how often it happens; if it's once a day or once a month or what; not great at noting that stuff down #but man... I don't even like most meds; so many meds either do nothing for me or make me feel like shit #like... benedril? however you spell it; someone gave me some once said it would help me sleep... help me be awake feeling like ass more lik #but like... love to see if muscle relaxants actually like... relaxed my muscles; but you get it; you get why I'll never be able to try it #though honestly I think therapeutic massage might help me a lot #but my doc says that really only gets authorized by physical therapy and... well for me physical therapy is useless #cause I forget to do the exercise; like it's me failing a physical therapy; not a probably with physical therapy #if I ever think I can keep up with it I'd love to try physical therapy for my back again; but I don't want to waste all my chances at it #not when... I descriptively didn't do it when I was in it before; I'd never remember to do any of the exercises #anyway; bonus story from when I was in urgent care when the infection came back (that's still never been solved)#I tell the doc 'last time it tore open a drainage hole it was the worst pain I've ever felt'... cause it was #I said 'I'll need something a bit stronger than an nsaid cause the nsaid did nothing but cut inflammation last time'#she's like 'don't worry; I got you'... wanna guess what she gave me? a newer nsaid #it didn't do shit; I was just lucky and it wasn't as painful... maybe the old drainage hole tore open easier this time #but I didn't even take the nsaid she prescribed; so I'm gonna say it wasn't that med helping #like I get it; you don't want to give opioids... and would it shock you to know that wasn't what I was looking for either #there's gotta be something between nsaid and fentynol man #...well... maybe the cdb has almost got my muscles... hurting less at least; only taken all this time I've been writing #they still hurt for sure... I don't know... get tired; you know?#mm tag so i can find things later

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