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sorry these kinds of comments have been really pissing me off recently lol
#it's been kinda hard for me to pinpoint WHY exactly these sort of comments feel insulting#but i think it's mostly because it implies my original work is purposefully and inherently derivative of things i have no connection to#while i think being derivative in art is. kinda unavoidable in a sense (and something i'm aware i do consciously and unconsciously)#it feels like a slap in the face when people imply that my work cannot hold its own merit and need to be compared to#something in the popular conscious#and like sometimes people don't know it's original art which is fine#but it also doesn't hurt to ask if it's original instead of just. immediately assuming or comparing it to something else#i know this will only get more difficult as i continue to drift away from fanart and fan works#but i really want to be able to be proud of my original work and i want to share more! because it's a part of me!!#but its really hard when it feels like i'm always going to be compared to things people care about more!!!! AAAUGH#god. ok sorry i need to get that off my chest. if anyone compares computer angel to TMA again im gonna start eating drywall#fern's sketchbook
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My page for @kairizine. It was such a huge honor to be part of this wonderful book with everyone, I had so much fun!
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#kingdom hearts#kh#kh kairi#kh xion#kh namine#i don't really feel proud of my own stuff usually but#i really think this is the drawing i'm most proud of from this past year!! it made me think 'oh maybe i can draw' haha#i'm still kinda bad with colors but something clicked with this one. and i feel like i got the sentimental feeling i wanted!#ooh but this project's about flower symbolism so ramble incoming:#protea symbolizes resilience transformation and diversity; hollyhock means 'please remember me.'#so my general theme was finding a sense of self.#these 3 have struggled with finding their own identity; they tend to get left behind both in-universe and in general plotwise#and naminé and xion both resemble kairi and were overshadowed by her memory. but i feel like all 3 have transformed into their own people#xion and naminé have their faces covered partially by hollyhock to show their wish to be remembered for who they are-#instead of the parts that they share with someone else#and the protea bouquets show how they each held on and resiliently grew into their own person despite it all#i put a little swervy path on the hill behind kairi to give that hopeful sense of growth and moving forward. it's a little hard to see#hopefully that makes sense! i really love symbolism but i think in visuals so i'm really bad with words#but gosh working with everyone on this project was so fun. it was like impossible not to get swept up by the team's hype for this zine#i need to hunt down everybody's work and rb it#ohh and everybody's flowers are so crisply drawn it's insane!! i think if i lined all these flowers and leaves i'd die haha#fan art#my art#project stuff
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While I'm posting old stuff here's a bunch of Loop battle portraits I did in February. I never ended up posting them on tumblr because I couldn't find a good way to recreate the overlays for the low HP/KO sprites in hi-res and eventually enough time passed that I didn't like them enough to keep looking
#codacheetah#my art#isat#in stars and time#isat loop#isat spoilers#<- vaguelyyyy. if you squint#they're kinda jank like i'd love to redo these maybe next february...year improvement type thang#but idk i was really proud of them when they were new so i feel bad letting them rot in my files forever#i've gotten past the hoop of perfectionism abt them enough time has passed that i'm detached
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the sky was awfully gorgeous first thing this morning
#pics by maya#also I'm kinda proud of this picture#like ive never been much of a photographer but i have a few ive taken over the years i really love#maybe I'll try to start taking more who knows
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how bout them apples
#millions knives#trimax spoilers#trigun#was gonna wait to post this one bc i wanna draw a similar one with a tree for vash but. im gonna forget lmao#besides i'm kinda proud of it. and it took a lot of work. related im never drawing a fucking snake again#trigun spoilers#trigun maximum#drawing#artists on tumblr#my art#illustration#comic#manga#fanart#traditional art#ink drawing#something about apple trees and knowledge corrupting and how fuckin small the tree is#growing up is hard huh#sucks you turned out that way knives. the way tristamp's goin i dont think it's gon get any better for you. good luck my guy#posting the before and after bc im gon be real i felt like i really overcooked with the grays and red#for the scan at least. i think it looks great in person lol
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Missing Limbs - Espera, Vessel and the crowd 🥺🩷💙
The girls look so so beautiful here and LISTEN TO THEM. Vessel sobs HARD at the end 🥺💔
#ignore me singing ignore the glitches etc etc#this is probably my most favourite video of last night (from the ones i took)#they were incredible. Espera are so amazing it's unreal. Their voices simply carry over the arena with such a beautiful grace#and Vessel? well#it's extremely hard to put into words just how that much more in love with that man i am#he was so! idk guys. it was surreal#if he sounds amazing here imagine irl. it really is a completely different experience#i am so so thankful and proud of that guy it's insane.#he really puts 1000% of himself there and it SHOWS and you can tell and it's just amazing#and the crowd. guys. it was beautiful 🥺💖#i kinda have no words rn to fully explain it. i'm simply in awe. my heart was real tight the whole time 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺#AAAAAAAAAAA i love him so much and i love you guys and the girls and the rest of band SO SO MUCH and the crew and aaaaaaaa#yeah 🥹💖#sleep token#sleep token vessel#espera#sleep token tog tour#london ritual
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bun ny bunny bu nny bunny ? @wolfertinger666
#salem#original character - salem#wolfertinger666#Hi Ryeders This Is The Dawing I Said I Would Post#dropping that act AA i'm really proud of this actually#i usually will just fill bucket or default pen to colour#but this time i used a TEXTURED MARKER B) and did it manually it was awesome !!#i've wanted to draw salem art for a while now!!!#his art is rlly inspiring to me!! i've drawn more straight up furry things rather than ke/mono/mimi things because of him :]#and experimenting more with style too :D#and also he's kinda relatable :) as a fellow fat black trans man with no top surgery who came from a heavily religious background and is..#..now living with his mom that is transphobic to the point that it is almost life-threatening#it's really great to see him here despite everything ya'know?#so i can go on too :)#Well Anyways Ryeders Thank You For Reading#I Will See You Next Time I Post Something#Which May Be Soon. Like A Week Or Two Maybe#All In MsPaint Sourry..#Okay Bye Ryeders I Love You !!#bad art tw#<- art tag goes at the end this time because NO!!! This is NOT bad#so sourry if u don't like being tagged in rando fanart
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Ok, i made this edit for tiktok but it was flagged due sexual content, i mean...so i gonna just post here for someone can see it.
#bridgerton#bridgertonedit#i know chappell roan is for the lesbian but hornyness is an universal feeling#i'm kinda proud of it i'm finally getting the hang of after effects and it was really fun to do this
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In the middle of the lab a werewolf lays on his back. His legs and arms chained to the ground.
You would think he would protest more but the amount of drugs and aphrodisiac coursing through his veins prevent it.
It also helps that you're currently riding his dick in a desperate attempt to milk him dry. He is in utter bliss, drooling with his tongue hanging out of his maw.
You're in a cowgirl position. Wearing nothing more than a tiny chastity cage and your sweat. On the cage there is yellow warming label attached. The following text printed beneath it.
"Extractor is in use. do not remove!"
Officially you are designated as a biological extractor unit, and property of the laboratory. But the lab personal has given you the nickname "fleshlight". To your own drugged and hypnotised satisfaction.
You whimper as you're desperately try to get past his knot. You want it so bad! You want to be praised for a job well done! You want to be a good fleshlight!
A person wearing a lab coat approaches you. You're so out of it you don't ever hear them approach.
"Are you having difficulty fleshlight?"
You flinch when you hear them. Which you instantly regret as your hole clenches around the werewolf’s shaft.
You stop to let your hole relax. Looking up at them you let out whine. Laboratory equipment can't use words.
They look down at you amused. "it's ok you cute little fleshlight. This is our biggest subject yet, so you just need more time to stretch that pretty little hole of yours."
With a gloved hand they take your chin, and softly raise it till they know they have your full attention. With the same tone you might politely ask a machine to do something, they say; "you're only goal in life is to be a good stretchy hole."
You zone out as the words trigger intake training. As you relax completely your eyes glaze over and a lazy smile forms on your face.
The lab assistant, still holding your chin in their hand, slides a gloved thumb in your mouth. You don't even mind or register it. You're completely focused on relaxing your ass as much as possible, while drooling happily on their thumb.
They pull their one hand back softly. Reaching their other hand into their lab coat they take out a vial. With a routine that must have happened a 100 times they collect the saliva from their thumb.
While keeping their eyes on the vial of saliva they say: "activate extractor routine 4"
You place your hands on you calf’s, using all your weight to try and conquer the werewolf’s knot. You ride it up and down slowly.
Pleased with the consistency of the sample the scientist takes a step over the werewolf’s leg.
Their standing behind you as you blissfully ride the werewolf’s cock. Desperately trying to stretch your hole. A mantra going through your head.
"a good fleshlight is a stretchy fleshlight, a good fleshlight is a stretchy fleshlight, a good fleshlight is a stretchy fleshlight, a good fleshlight is a stretchy fleshlight, a good fleshlight is a stretchy fleshlight,"
The squat behind you and inspect your progress
"Fleshlight sit"
You stop at the tip of the werewolf’s cock and let your weight glide you down. Your hole slightly stretching over the knot.
The blue medical glove glides easily over the lubed knot. Their index finger gliding upwards towards your hole, and glides in with little resistance. They hum satisfied and glide a second finger in. The smile on your face just widens, happy to inspected like a good piece of lab equipment.
They glide their fingers out and collect the liquid in another vial. "It seems you do need some more help." they stand up and put one a new pair of gloves.
While still behind you they put their hand over your mouth. Index and middle finger pushed inside your mouth. You start sucking on them.
"Your intake training is still doing wonders" they get a small vial from their coat and open it one handed. Holding it under their nostrils the smell already giving you a rush of endorphin. You get the simple command of "breath in"
You fill your lungs with the product as if it was the first breath you ever took.
"gooood fleshlight" the scientists says with a smile.
The chemicals course through your system and you hear your heartbeat in your head. As a pleasant heat flows over your body, your exhale takes any bit tension left in your body with it.
"Fleshlight ride"
You move your body up and down the length of the shaft. Feeling your hole open up more and more. Al the wile repeating the mantra in your head.
"a good fleshlight is a stretchy fleshlight, a good fleshlight is a stretchy fleshlight, a good fleshlight is a stretchy fleshlight, a good fleshlight is a stretchy fleshlight, a good fleshlight is a stretchy fleshlight,"
After a couple of minutes later you almost get over the thicket parts. Joy radiates your face as drool slowly leaks out of your mouth. The scientist eagerly collecting it in a vial.
While putting the closed vial in their lab coat, they look at the werewolf’s head. Still drooling and content, but with a quickening breath.
Smiling but determined the scientists quickly gets your happy vile from their coat.
"Fleshlight tip"
You stop at the top of you ascend. The tip of the werewolf’s massive cock keeping you nice and loose.
Quickly they put the vial under your nose.
"Breath in"
Still swimming in the effect of the previous huff you greedily inhale again. Your mantra only getting louder in your brain. There are no other thoughts allowed.
"a good fleshlight is a stretchy fleshlight, a good fleshlight is a stretchy fleshlight, a good fleshlight is a stretchy fleshlight, a good fleshlight is a stretchy fleshlight, a good fleshlight is a stretchy fleshlight,"
A knew intensified wave of heat flows over you. Spreading to your whole body as you feel it loosen.
You can feel every cm of the werewolf’s cock in detail.
"Fleshlight sit"
You fall down and you feel the scientist putting a bit of their weight on your shoulders.
You slam onto the knot and your ass opens up. Feeling your ass stretch over the knot feels like heaven. And then suddenly
"pop"
The werewolf’s breathing is getting erratic.
"Fleshlight ride" the scientists commands, getting a bit breathless themselves.
You've never felt so full in your life! As you ride you feel the knot gliding over prostate again and again. Precum is being pumped out as you continue going up and down. The knot has now swelled too much and you can't get it out anymore. You don't care! A good fleshlight is a stretchy fleshlight! A good fleshlight is a stretchy fleshlight! And you've taken the knot! You want to be the best fleshlight!
And the best fleshlight are used and filled with cum!
The werewolf’s is panting heavily, even with all the drugs coursing through his veins he tries to hump the fleshlight. A low satisfied growl begins as he cums.
The knot swells a final time as your locked into extasy! With every wave of cum, the knot pushes into your prostate making you leak more and more, as you feel your belly swell more and more. Desperately you move up and down trying to get every last drop off cum out of the beast beneath you.
The scientist has a hand in their pants too, no longer able to contain themselves. They quickly bend down and grab your chin, bending your head backwards, forcing you to focus on their face and voice.
Slightly out of breath they say "You're a very good fleshlight and deserve a reward"
Without any objection from you they open your mouth. You see them open theirs and letting their tongue hang out. A droplet of their spit falls on your face. You're delirious with joy! You're being praised for a job well done and are going to get a reward!
Al the while you still feel the werewolf filling you up.
"You deserve it, fleshlight can cum"
They say before pushing their tongue in your mouth.
Fleshlight has been good! Fleshlight has been good! Fleshlight has been so good!
You ride werewolf’s dick for all that you still can. Your moans into the French kiss as you feel a well-earned orgasm rock you to your core! You're abused prostate finally giving you release as you spray cum out of your cage onto the belly of the werewolf!
Releasing the kiss the scientists the scientists place their face next your ear. Observing the beautiful scene of your cum on the wolfs chest.
"Good extractor, you've been a very good extractor."
They coo softly. "Now rest a bit while the subject knot shrinks. And then will take this good little extractor to collection" they say with while petting your cheek. You push your face into their hand with the little energy you still have.
Still smiling they pet your head a little more. "I'll get our favourite lab equipment some water. We need to maintain you properly so you can do your job so well." with a smirk they add "Sit tight, I'll get our equipment their liquids"
#Werewolf#Laboratory kink#test subject#Hypnosis#Mantra#monster x human#monster x reader#monster x you#My writing#My smut#Keeping the scientist gender neutral was a very conscious choice#Really wanted that to be filled in by the readers choice#I'm getting so much ideas for after care scenes#Probably going to write some more on this#If somebody would treat me like this I would simply be in heaven <3#Also I was going to write something short....#But I'm really proud of this#Feedback/comments anything is really appreciated!#monster fucker#hypnok1nk#Kinda#monster fudger#monster fuqqer
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Red Robin, who?
I've been dying for some Nightwing Tim ever since I heard that the author of the Ric Grayson storyline has wanted to have Tim take up the mantle. Here's my interpretation of what that might looked like, if we'd gotten it.
(p.s. the cape is supposed to look like his bird wing cape, I just couldn't figure out how to do that. And I cheated on the background.)
#tim drake#red robin#or not#nightwing#nightwing tim drake#batman#batman dc#batfam#bat family#been putting off posting this because i didn't know how to tag it but I'm really proud of it even if it is kinda wonky#timothy drake#tim drake wayne#discowing
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his biggest sin was having blue hair and pronouns.
#artists on tumblr#digital art#illustration#art#faith#faith the unholy trinity#john ward#father john ward#hiii heyyy#watching videos abt this game got me out of some very bad mental state like wow#he's narratorcoded#bro is played by edward norton idc#anyways loved the game sm and I tried replicating the plai color on black style while maintaining my type of rendering#also I figured out thst adding additional lineart after the shading makes things kinda more organic#like it's not all a messy mix of colors#so proud of having done this in around an hour#also dw I'll still post fight club but I need to draw some other stuff as well or I'll get tired of drawing the same three prople all over#stage is going really well#feeling workercore workerpilled workercoded#huhu going to sleep cause I'm sealing my casket with this late hour stunt#bye bye <3#martyryo
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id: a digital drawing of miss pauling from team fortress two. it shows her from about the hips up. she's posed with her hands apart, raised at shoulder-level. between them, there are a bunch of colorful dice and simple figurines floating in an arc. miss pauling is looking off to the right with a smile. she's wearing a tophat with a busted top, there's an eye visible inside it, the hat also has a ghost ornament attached to it, a purple suit and a white shirt with a black tie. the background is black with purple silhouettes of ghosts and strands of smoke. end id
#i loveee her dungeon master outfit she looks SO handsome :3#aaand i love the comic too. the fucking brain pumpkin......#the background kinda sucks but um. well i don't know how to fix it so who careeees. blaaah#i'm proud of everything else though i think it looks really good 👍#art#fanart#tf2#team fortress 2#miss pauling#miss pauling tf2
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My page for @destinytriofanzine! I drew something about kids always dreaming of far off places
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#kingdom hearts#kh#ahh this one was so hard to draw; i never know how to combine a bunch of scenes in one picture without it looking cheesy#just threw a bunch of waves and leaves and birds on top and called it a day haha. it might be a bit too busy though#the white line going up the center is supposed to be a trail left behind by the gummi ship! it connects to the ship in the bg at the top#it's kinda meant to evoke little kids dreaming of other places-> getting older and earnestly making the raft to try to reach the dream#->the gummi ship as a premonition of how they'd actually reach the dream in the future. i guess? idk how to explain#and i really wanted to have kairi's expressions be really similar but changing subtly from wonder to worry when she's older#the boys are just max enthusiasm the whole time#but yeah. something something Symbolism and hopefully it's at least kinda pretty if it doesn't make sense#i'm just super proud to have been part of this project! everyone's work is just amazing#the destiny kids give me this soft feeling of kinda lonely nostalgia. it's nice to have a book full of that#very wistful looking through it#fan art#my art#project stuff
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Thinking of the Nie disciple that told Nie Mingjue it was Meng Yao who stayed behind to clean up corpses on the battlefield today.
Nie Mingjue didn't just randomly stumble upon poor lil meowyao eating bread in the novel, he was already looking for him to thank and reward him for his work.
That's what makes it so fun that nieyao's first conflict will end up being about someone else taking credit for Meng Yao's work.
And I'm sure that Nie Mingjue's actual opinions on plagiarism are a lot more nuanced, all we really get from him in this scene is "well you shouldn't kill someone over it!" which leaves a lot of room for what punishments he thinks are appropiate. But I bet that it isn't occuring to him in this moment that the only reason he knows Meng Yao at all, the only reason he got such a capable deputy, is that he noticed someone was taking care of the dead and cared enough to want to know their name. And then the Nie disciples didn't lie to him. The disciple he asked could have said "it was me, Zongzhu" to rise in the ranks himself, but he didn't. He went and asked others, who all also could have taken the credit, but they didn't. Someone saw Meng Yao working and decided to be honest about it and that simple decision is the catalyst for Meng Yao becoming Nie Mingjue's deputy.
Meng Yao can't just work hard to get results, others have to acknowledge that work. If they don't, it's as if he didn't do anything at all.
#i'm very proud of the phrase poor lil meowyao. i'm sure i'm not the first one to come up with it but i'm proud nonetheless.#mdzs#mdzs meta#nie mingjue#meng yao#anyway this isn't a nmj bashing post i think 'ok that's bad but don't do MURDER' is overall a pretty reasonable reaction#but the emotional disconnect is fun to ruminate on. I bet meng yao IS thinking about that moment while coming up with his fake-suicide plan#anyway i always laugh a litle whenever anyone wonder if meng yao looking a bit pitiful was all some master stategy to get nmj to like him#because like... no. no that would be a stupid plan and also involved way too many factors he couldn't control.#and also!! he was already doing something else to try and get nmj's attention. all of that fucking work!!#if you plan on getting nmj– guy famous for valuing merit and hard honest work– to like you what is more useful:#looking a bit like a sad little wet cat in case he comes across you? or. Working really hard and being more useful than everyone else?#ding ding ding it's the latter.#nmj is ALSO a bit weak for someone looking like a kitten left in the rain but that's not well-known at all and meng yao didn't know him yet#anyway the fact that that is his plan does mean he's very aware how much it hinges on other people not just lying and saying they did it.#i wonder what networking efforts lil heijan meng yao was doing. trying to make friends with all the other disciples.#walking the tightrope of being accomodating but not a doormat so people see you as someone to rely on rather than take advantage of.#as much as we know not everyone in the nie is as righteous as nmj it does seem like there is a culture of taking pride in your own work.#even the cultivators who bully him in the novel just seem think it's funny he's working so hard.#using someone else's actions to prop yourself up is kinda like admiting they're better than you. a wound to their pride if nothing else.
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clip doodles from today's @daycarefriendpickup magma cuz he's been on the brain and I'm obsessed with him
clip.exe by @venomous-qwille (sorry for tagging but I gotta give credit where it's due)
#crappy doodles#magma#actually kinda proud of these cuz i only looked at the reference like#once?#the ruffles kept throwing me off#and that smile#but uh yea!#probably gonna remove the tag later cuz i'm really nervous about tagging people but it's staying there for now#anyways
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all masks must come off
DannyMay2023 Day 6: Eclipse
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Excerpt: "Eclipses are... hm, kind of like holy days for ghosts." Danny began and Maddie fully relaxed. Ghosts weren't sentient enough to have anything approching religion or faith. "You can't hide under an eclipse. It's night and day both turning their gaze to you and no disguise can bear both the sun and moon's scrutiny."
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It was Vlad who told him what would happen, though still in the interest of self-preservation and not any kind of kindness or goodwill. Surprisingly enough, it had been Sidney who further expanded, who explained why it would happen.
Danny, of course, had known about the upcoming solar eclipse for months, what kind of space Obsessed ghost would he be if he didn’t, after all? The closer it came to time, the more his core vibrated in his chest in excitement.
The closer it came to time, though, the harder it became to hold his form, the more he felt the masks he wore trying to slip.
His idea for the day might be madness, he knew. But… he was tired. Two years of this - of lying, of being shot by them - and he was tired. If they didn’t take it well… well, he knew how to care for himself. It wasn’t like he needed to eat, like all of his human biological processes were more suggestions than requirements. There were plenty of abandoned buildings and he was a ghost, may as well give into cliche if he needed to.
He prayed he didn’t need to. He prayed for their love. Who, or even what, he prayed to, he didn’t know. But he prayed with every fiber of his being that they loved him more than they feared ghosts, even once his mask was stripped from him.
A deep, stuttering breath as he reined in his fear. He knew they would accept him, part of him, he had seen that much courtesy of Freakshow last year. But they hadn’t known it all. They didn’t see the whole truth.
“Mom, dad?” Danny asked, peeking his head around the corner of the lab doorway. Even if he wasn’t half ghost, he would probably do this, to be honest. His parent’s lab safety was absolutely nonexistent - he was proof enough of that. It had half-killed two people.
“Danno!” His father boomed, a wide grin taking up half his face. Danny couldn’t help but smile back, Jack’s exuberance was practically tangible. (And also, outright delicious. Danny loved the taste of happy emotions, the darker ones left bitter tastes in his mouth.)
“What’s up, sweetie?” Mom asked, stepping away from whatever they were tinkering with on the desk and pulling her hood down.
For a moment, Danny just enjoyed this, hoped it wouldn’t be the last time he was able to do this - absorb his parents’ love for him from the air.
“There’s an eclipse soon. Would you like to watch it with me?” Danny asked, gesturing towards the ceiling and the Ops Center above.
Surprise tinged the air as they looked at each other. He didn’t need to guess what they were thinking about. When he was younger, he had pulled them to the Ops Center so many times to just watch the night sky, it hadn’t even needed to have a notable celestial event happening. He had just been young and adored the stars and wanted to share it with his parents.
He hadn’t asked for anything like that, not even for the meteor shower, since he’d died.
“Of course!” Jack said, setting down the half finished device covered in disconnected wires on his desk.
“We’d love to.” Maddie agreed, though Danny saw the tears she blinked away. He knew they were tears of happiness, though.
He didn’t need to be an emotion eater to know that.
“C’mon, then!” He said, waving his hand to follow as he hurried up the stairs, though he pulled his phone out on his way up and shot a quick message to Tucker.
Hack and disable the suits.
He shoved the phone back in his pocket before getting a response, though the vibration he felt less than a minute later and the faint sound of machinery whirring down that even his ghost hearing struggled to hear were all the confirmation he needed.
His parents followed him all the way up, not even pausing when he dropped the ladder that led them to the top of the Ops Center, where nothing else remained over them. His core sang and he saw the first sliver of the moon begin to pass in front of the sun and he knew his countdown had begun as they each sat down, his parents pulling their hoods back on to protect their eyes, Danny fishing eclipse glasses from his pocket even though he didn’t need them.
“I need to talk to you two.” Danny said, leaping headfirst into whatever destiny determined for him as he felt his hold on his mask begin to shatter.
“Should’ve known, you haven’t asked to spend time with us in years,” Mom teased, but Danny sensed the pain behind her words.
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Maddie smiled at her son, though his entire focus was on the slowly disappearing sun above them. Her husband, who sat on Danny’s other side, had a similar smile. It had been so long since Danny wanted anything to do with them, that they weren’t forcing him to do.
“If Jazz or I came back. What would you do?” Danny asked, his gaze never wavering from the show in the sky.
Both parents’ smiles were wiped away, confused frowns replacing them.
“What do you mean, Danno?” Jack asked.
“The Fentons have one rule. What if Jazz or I broke it?”
“The only rule we have is to stay dead,” Maddie said, suddenly uncomfortable with the direction this conversation was going. She knew she was being less than subtle when she reached for Danny’s hand, holding it in her own, reassuring herself when she felt the pulse of his heart beneath his skin.
“I know.”
Maddie hesitated. What would they do? Obviously, it wouldn’t be her children anymore, but it would still be an echo of them. Could she hunt something that had once been her child?
It was Jack who ended up answering. “I… I don’t know. I couldn’t shoot something that looked like you, I know I couldn’t. So please move on, if it ever comes to that.” Jack swallowed, pain in his eyes as he even contemplated the idea of their son dying. “Please don’t linger.”
“And if it isn’t that easy? To just move on?” Danny asked. He began to look fuzzy around the edges, though Maddie didn’t even really acknowledge it, eyes full of tears as they were.
“I… I don’t know, Danny.” Maddie admitted. “I couldn’t hurt you. I couldn’t. Not something with your face.”
“It may not look like my face anymore.” Danny said cryptically.
Maddie was still struggling for words when Danny continued.
“Want to know something cool Sam discovered in one of her ghost books?”
“Uh. Uh, sure?” Maddie stuttered out, though some relief settled within her. Clearly, something in Sam’s books had been wrong and had caused a train of thought more painful than Maddie had ever imagined.
“Eclipses are… hm, kind of like holy days for ghosts.” Danny began and Maddie fully relaxed. Ghosts weren’t sentient enough to have anything approaching religion or faith. “You can’t hide under an eclipse. It’s night and day both turning their gaze to you and no disguise can bear both the sun and moon’s scrutiny.”
The moon continued to inch further in front of the sun.
“I…” Danny swallowed harshly. “I didn’t mean to.” He said, pulling off his glasses and tossing them from the roof.
“Danny!” They both yelled in worry, preparing to cover his eyes, but he scooted back too quickly.
Neither knew what to do when green eyes stared down at them. “I didn’t mean to stay.” He repeated and Maddie could no longer deny the fuzziness of his body wasn’t a trick her eyes were playing on her. He looked up at the sky again and Maddie just looked at her husband, shock, fear, worry, grief painting his features.
When she returned her gaze to her son, Maddie’s mind felt oddly empty. She just… she didn’t understand. When did her son die? She had just felt his heartbeat!
But there was no denying she was talking to her son’s ghost as he raised into the air, still with his legs crossed, floating without effort.
“Danny?” Jack whispered, reaching for him. Danny visibly flinched when his father managed to get his hand, but he didn’t pull away, even as Jack pulled him back to the ground. “Danny?” He repeated, pain the like of which Maddie had never heard from her husband in his voice as he grasped both of Danny’s shoulders, as though seeing him for the first time.
“I’m sorry,” Danny whispered back, the faintest hint of an echo seeping into his voice. Still in his father’s hands, he turned slightly to look at her. “I’m sorry.” He repeated, tears slipping from his eyes too.
He returned his gaze to his father and seamlessly pulled away from him, phasing through Jack’s hands. “That… that isn’t all.” He said. The eclipse wasn’t at totality yet, but it was nearly there. “You know two of my masks, my disguises. No one knows what I actually look like anymore. Not even me.”
Danny stood and stepped back away from them. “First, I need you to understand. I didn’t mean to die.” Those words were a knife to Maddie’s heart. “I didn’t mean to come back.” Suddenly, Maddie didn’t care about the stupid old Fenton rule. “But I’m happy. I’m still here. I… I’m still Danny. Still your son.” Maddie could no longer hold back tears at the last statement, how unsure he sounded in those few words despite everything else said with such confidence. No words came to her to say though, the lead in her chest suffocating her as his eyes continued to glow green.
“How long?” Jack asked, slightly lifting up his hood and letting a stream of tears escape. He wasn’t looking at the eclipse anymore.
“A little over two years.” Danny admitted and whatever was left of Maddie’s heart shattered so hard it was nearly audible. That long? How had her son been dead for two years and his parents didn’t know?
Suddenly all of their ‘malfunctioning’ inventions made a lot more sense.
“But!” He continued, motioning for both of them to look at him. “I’m only half ghost. I… my accident with the portal, do you remember?” Maddie pressed her hand to her mouth as she began to actively, loudly sob.
Her invention had killed her son.
“Half?” Jack asked, emotions wavering in his voice. “That… that isn’t possible, son.”
“People said the same thing about ghosts.” Danny replied simply. “It’s time.”
Maddie could tell when totality hit, even if she hadn’t seen the change in color and light, hadn’t seen it out of the corner of her. Because she saw her son.
Her heart knew it was her son, even if her eyes didn’t.
As soon as the moon fully blocked the sun, he changed. The fuzziness faded from his edges. He grew taller, darker, his hands suddenly too long. He was still humanoid, but only barely. His torso stretched too far, his legs too thin, his face too blue. Inexplicably, she still saw the human in him. His heart shone through the darkness of his chest, his veins glowed. She could see his heart beating. Every time it pumped, his veins burned a very human red, fading to the green of his eyes, only to repeat the cycle at his next heartbeat, the crown floating above him pulsing in tandem. As she watched, a second set of what looked like veins began to glow a solid green, but the shape was wrong. It took her mind a moment to realize this new pattern of thin branches were shaped like lightning and only shot through half his body.
Maddie felt like she should be terrified. The being in front of her was monstrous, the thing children were warned would get them if they misbehaved.
But even as the… the thing in front of her opened his mouth and showed too sharp teeth, she didn’t fear him. He bit nervously at his lip, he rubbed a hand behind his neck.
In his mannerisms, she knew it was still her son in front of her.
Though, as she studied white hair, as the monochromatic symbol glowed on his chest, she wondered how she hadn’t seen it before. How she’d never seen her son in Phantom.
Maybe because Danny Fenton was a human boy and Danny Phantom was a long dead teenager. She’d never looked too closely.
“Mom?” He asked, voice echoing with static beneath, though it did nothing to hide the fear beneath. “Dad?”
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Danny had never felt as free as he did in that moment, the restraints of the mask he wore deteriorated to nothing. He had known, for a long time, that the way Phantom looked wasn’t the true way he was, but he’d always been too afraid to see what he may really be under the surface.
Phantom looked human, Phantom didn’t scare the people.
As he yielded to the eclipse, let it unravel every disguise he’d forged, he knew he would return to his costume as soon as he could. His body was too long, too thin, too tall. He could see his veins changing color as his ghost side and human side fought for dominance, could see his death scar glowing brightly in the pitch black that was his skin. His teeth felt too sharp against his tongue, his hair brushed against ears that were too long, a crown he kept trying to refuse weighing him down.
He had never seen this before. Only his death scar, though it remained hidden beneath his jumpsuit.
As free as he felt, he also knew he was horrific.
His parents’ emotions tasted sharper, sweeter, than anything ever had before. The horror and sorrow they felt tasted like ash.
But the acceptance was better, honey-like and with a pleasant aftertaste.
It was their love, though, that tasted better than anything he’d ever experienced before.
“Danny.” His mother said, standing and looking up at him, dwarfing her. He’d be dwarfing his father too right now. Danny hesitated then knelt down onto his knees, so he only towered slightly over her. “My son.” She continued, holding open her arms.
“Mom.” He said, voice breaking as tears spilled from him, as he accepted her embrace.
Jack said nothing, just enclosing his wife and son in his arms.
As they embraced in silence, the moon continued to move, allowing the sun’s light to spread again. Danny felt his masks come back to him and welcomed them, despite the constricted feeling he now was aware of, that had always been there.
When his parents pulled away, it was normal Danny Phantom who stood in front of them, shrunk back to his normal size.
There were a lot of discussions, a lot of guilt he knew he and his parents would have to work through.
But as love filled the air, filled his entire being, nourishment down to his very core, Danny knew it would all be okay.
#grace writes#danny phantom#dannymay2023#Dannymay#Day 6#Eclipse#danny fenton#jack fenton#maddie fenton#I'm really proud of this one???#It's kinda angsty but it's happy
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