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also why do these fucking earphones need to make the Scariest sound in the world to indicate that the batter is getting low. fuck off
#i'm so overstimulated already if they made their little noise i'm going start killing Okay there is it was just happened again. yep#i'm gonna start fucking killing#THEY'RE AT 40%#oOH YOUR EARPHONES ARE AT 40%??? WHY DONT WE PLAY A WEIRD LITTLE SCARY BUZZING NOISE INTO YOUR EARS. JUST TO LET YOU KNOW#god. headphones piss me off so much#literally havent had a good headphones experience since 2018#and Those one still work btw. got them in 2018 for christmas. the only issue is that i sat down on them and they snapped#but they WORK. they're taped together and i can only lie on one side if i want to war them but they PLAY MUSIC
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Ray of sunshine
(pre-launch page for their comic)
#I can not wait to make this comic#I have to stop thinking about it or else I cant focus#every time I start thinking about it I get all jittery. I wanna make it so fucking bad its unreal#hope to GOD I can do it full time omfg#I'll need like 500 people on my patreon paying to read ahead. ish. minimum. which is scary ahgkjsahgkjagh#but! I'll be able to put that on patreon! I cant do that right now. so thats cool!!!#just a lot of people AJGLKJGLKJASLKGGA#like it has to do well or I'm gonna have to get a different job#cause. I am NOT working for webtoon again#I cant do it they are killing me#and I'm not getting paid enough for it#I pitched this comic btw and they said they liked it but they wanted me to simplify the plot.#cause it was 'too complicated'#its literally just like. a murder mystery + a romance + a fetch quest#like its extremely not that complicated lmfao#they thought that people wouldnt be able to follow cause theres too much going on.#and I am not interested in simplifying my stories to this extent. I respect my readers and I trust they can follow plots#just. omfg I'm doing it again!!!#I cant start talking about webtoon without going off again!!!#they PISH ME OFF ! HAHAHAHAH#okay. anyways. I have to get back to work now this took me longer than I expected#like 4 hours#I'm enjoying this new illustration style I've been doing though. its fun.#its like 1 layer and then a ton of effects HAHAHAH#we were legion#zagan and luciel#zagan#luciel#how did I make zagan so hot... I'm a genius...#if he isnt hot then no one would put up with his behavior at the start of the ccomic HAHAHAHA
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Osomatsu-san ~Le bourgeon~ & ~Fleurir~ Hikokuji (2019)
#just found out about this merch line and i'm kinda obsessed ngl#all of their expressions are so cute but especially kara's his are killing me#aLSO THE FACT THAT HE'D HOLDING FORGET-ME-NOTS????? fucking end me i gotta go#i was trying to id all their flowers but i'm stuck on choro's and jyushi's...#if anyone can id their flowers pls let me know bc i'd love to look up their symbolism in hanakotoba...#i stg i've seen the flowers choro is holding before i just can't remember their name and google didn't help#i'm pretty sure oso's are chinese ixora tho#totty's are sweet peas#and ichi is probably butterfly bush based on the leaves... it could also be lilac#osomatsu-san#osomatsu-san the movie#18matsu#matsuno bros#osomatsu#karamatsu#choromatsu#ichimatsu#jyushimatsu#todomatsu#offical art#flower akatsuka#<- i'm gonna start tagging the floral themed stuff w/ this tag now#osmt
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i hope everyone who voted third party is really happy :) i hope they're all really pleased today and really felt like they made their voices heard and that electing trump was worth saving their precious little feelings :) i'm really glad they didn't have to be adults long enough to hold their noses and vote because feeling good is way more important than doing good :) i hope they got what they wanted :)
actually i hope they all die, as a direct result of his presidency, so that we don't have to pander to them next election cycle, if there IS a next election cycle. "but you can't just say you hope people die!" sure i can! third party voters obviously want me and my disabled mom to die. they want gay and trans people to die. they want women and immigrants and palestinians and people of color to die. what's the problem? i'd say i hope they die in the big glorious revolution they promised but if they can't put up and shut up long enough to get their asses to a ballot box there's no way we're gonna see them firebombing the government or attending a protest. they'll just sit at home and wait for somebody else to do it, the same way they sat at home and waited for somebody else to elect harris. and i hope nobody suffers more in the next four or more years than them. but why worry, right? both candidates are the same! i'm sure they'll be fine!
also lmao at everyone like "uwu ok guys take a deep breath have a calming cup of tea and do some self care tell people you love them" self care and loving people isn't going to keep him out of office. we had our chance to do that and we blew it because leftists want to feel righteous and pure. like definitely don't kill yourself or anything (unless you're a third party voter, in which case the sooner the better) but don't fucking dress it up. all you're doing is checking out. and who can blame you! sounds like the only solid plan tbh.
#personal#what the fuck do people have blacklisted#us politics?#yeah. i'm not gonna be posting about it anymore anyway. my checkout time starts today <3 i am simply tired of being asked to give a shit#fuck giving a shit. why bother. hope whatever is the next 4 years version of covid 19 doesn't kill us all!#please also don't bother writing in with some variant of wow blocked unfollowed#like go ahead. i'm thrilled to have trash take care of itself. don't let the door hit you on the way out.
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listen i am geralt of rivia hater number one but one thing i actually CANNOT stand is when the fandom mischaracterizes him. took one look at this man who speaks very straight-forwardly and matter-of-fact and is a little recalcitrant with his words sometimes and went "haha he communicates in grunts! man who only says 'hm'!" and then won't even write him to speak in full fucking sentences. hello???? hello???????? yes the netflix show was a bad influence on everybody because they were trying too hard to depict geralt as a stoic manly badass but we CANNOT let that distract us from the REAL thing to make fun of geralt for. which are his Constant Unprovoked Monologues
#also the fact that he fakes his dumb stupid little rivian accent because the man was NOT raised in rivia. but i digress#'haha he only says hm!' where were you for every episode when he launched into a speech about the lesser evil. that's like. the whole thing#geralt of rivia will do nothing But talk once you let him. don't give that bitch a chance! he'll start up about honor again!!!#convinced that most of this is because netflix show insisted on showing us him around jaskier so much#and jaskier does not shut up. love him to death. but geralt genuinely does not have time to get a word in edgewise#i will admit that this is something that i had to learn by reading the books and paying more attention to it#but it's not like he DOESN'T do it in the show. if you ever sit with a witcher episode transcript for whatever reason#and really take a look at geralt's lines. man he talks a whole fucking lot.#again cannot emphasize enough that he Monologues. HE TALKS HIS WAY OUT OF SO MANY SITUATIONS.#me when i look filavandrel of the elves in the eyes and 'hm' at him and he lets me go. no bitch he monologued!!!!#terrible. terrible. let this man speak. if i see you fanfic bitches continue making him talk in sentence fragments again i'm gonna kill#as for my own fanfic. i will always prefer a geralt who talks too much to be believable over a geralt who barely speaks at all.#both because i believe in letting him speak his mind which he OBVIOUSLY likes to do. sideeyes him.#and because it's just fucking boring and a little annoying to read speech patterns that don't sound like how people talk.#cough cough lan wanji the untamed. man i'm not sitting here and reading this motherfucker's two word sentences#let him speak!!!!!!#anyway.#geralt of rivia#the witcher#fanfic
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Season 6 of House was in 2009... Dragon Age: Origins was also released in 2009... I just think that if Thirteen played it, she would have had her Warden romance Leliana...
#pretty kickass knife lady? hell yeah#rip kutner you died just a year too soon to play dragon age... u would have loved it im sure....#also something something Leliana becoming everything she didn't want to become / becoming an assassin#something something thirteen knows shes gonna have to kill her brother and she dreads it#and thirteen becomong everything she foesnt want to become w her having huntingtons...#anyways#headcanons#anya shush#i told ash willowpelt this once but i imagine that house has some kind of xbox in 'in the dirt' and eventually picks up inquisition after#it comes out. and thirteen's like 'pfff i'm not interested' then sees house play it and they start fucking fighting for use of the xbox and#the game lmao#and after house finishes it...#they speedrun to see how fast they can punch solas#house makes a joke about frying an egg on his bald head#dragon age
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7am, eating cold leftover teriyaki stir-fry for breakfast and crying over blorbos
#normal Saturday morning behavior#redacted spoilers#redacted audio#redacted sam#Seven.txt#rp audio stuff#well. crying over one singular blorbo in particular. Sam's still got me in an emotional chokehold#and i'm too sad to even make a stupid little joke abt how i wouldn't mind if it was a physical one too. ayeee *insert sad eyebrow wiggle*#no but seriously. i have so many feelings abt him and i can't even say it all bc some of it isn't public info yet#eh fuck it i'll just draft this until the audio goes public and then i'll post it once it's no longer Exclusive Info#bc i dont wanna leak Early Access stuff but i have to get this out of my system rn and the new audio is part of what sparked these thoughts#which is funny bc i. literally haven't even listened to it yet. i'm not Ready 😭#where's that tiktok screenshot that's like. 'hyperfixation so bad that i can't even engage with the source material' bc that's me rn#like bro Sam only won the poll like. 2 or 3 days ago and Eric is Already dropping a new Sam audio?? hello? Mr. Redacted i wasn't prepared#anyways i was spoiling myself by perusing the comments last night trying to get a feel for if it's gonna be more angst or comfort#and i saw a comment that absolutely shattered me. and it reignited all my sad thoughts about Sam's eventual. uh. y'know. death.#apparently they plant a tree together or smthn in the new audio (which already has me & my beloved 10y/o orange tree feeling some kinda way#but to the individual in the comments who brought to all our minds the image of Sam sitting beneath that tree in 30 or so years time#when he's decided that he's ready to die and sits out there waiting for the sun to rise..................... 🥲#i'm gonna need u to compensate me for all of that unexpected emotional damage /j /nm#i'm Still not over what he told Darlin' while they had their talk about the future up on his roof together. that audio killed me#then yesterday i was listening to my Sam & Darlin' playlist while cleaning. and Malibu Nights by LANY came on. which i always skip bc Sad#but i let it play and just started crying. standing in the middle of the room all disheveled and holding a broom. as one does.#iirc that song is one that Eric himself said is applicable to Sam which is why/how i found it and put it on the playlist. and god. g o d#hm. i hope that wasn't Patreon exclusive info. i can't remember if it was a public post where he said that or not. hope it's okay to share#but if we can take that song as like. unofficial canon for Sam then that also confirms my idea that he used to drink to cope#which makes the opening lines of Fix What You Didn't Break by Nate Smith even more applicable. i should go edit that post actually#anyways i'm just. feeling a lot. and i love Sam very much and i don't want him to die. but i want him to do what he wants at the same time#Alexis took so fucking much from him. he deserves to live - and end - his life on his own terms. ... i think i need to go write something#*casually fishes this post out of the drafts 3 and a half days later* hi so uh. i wrote a 4k oneshot :) and will hopefully post it tomorrow
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possibly the funniest outcome of this drama-filled amity-thinks-luz-killed-hunter alternate princess AU timeline is all three of them being fine and together and safe, and hunter being like BLIGHT. you tried to MURDER LUZ????
amity: I THOUGHT SHE'D KILLED YOU!
hunter: .....I DON'T APPRECIATE THE CONFLICTING FEELINGS I'M HAVING RIGHT NOW,
#shitty idiot repression gang#toh#princess luz au#hunter like ok look. weirdly in five minutes i'm gonna start crying about you being willing to go That apeshit on my behalf#in the meantime tho. don't kill luz.#'i thought she killed you in cold blood for disappointing her and you didnt even fight back'#'well. if she had done that then it would be fine. i'd let her. she can do whatever to me. Don't Kill Luz'#'....LUUUUUUZ. LUZ!!! LUZ COME OVER HERE. YOUR BOY IS SO FUCKING CRAZY'#much to consider. mainly: theyre stupid.#now i gotta go to sleep i think.#thanks for indulging me in being silly tonight#princess luz au alt timeline
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Fucked up and evil like really sick and twisted shit I get up to with my ill gotten gains oh god what else will my hypocritical cocksucker self do next. I need to be stopped and shot and ran over with a putka truck and forcibly injected with testosterone and killed and have my remaining soul(s) destroyed in the warrior cats hell goop. Don't I
#having actual personal items is so fun you guysssssss i'm gonna start doing that more often. I'll actually have something .#still gotta fucking hide them out of sight everyday so the kid stops trying to throw them around to upset me on purpose#also went to some fancy restaurant today and i thought it was a normal one at first then i looked at the menu and they had like.#50000 złoty rare original 1000 years old netherite rainbow wine with king bolesław chrobry's piss extract on the rocks shot and killed#like you know the ones. i don't get people into drinks™ just get the tea what the hell do any of those words mean it doesn't even smell good#once again my legs hurt. auwhgh.
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sorry for only saying this type of shit lately but i kinda wanna drive a car straight into a brick wall at the highest speed possible
#trying to keep it together so bad because i already know the problems and solutions and whatnot but i cannot do anything#i desperately just need to do something. accomplish any task. actually several would be nice. but i cannot stand just letting life go by#while i watch other people have the things i want. or even metaphorically living my dream like. that should be me why am i settling for thi#i hate even talking about this because i feel so stupid when i know it's not even a real tangible problem and that i actually DO have real#problems to tackle and the ability to do so but i'm choosing to be upset over the stupidest things i could possibly be sad about#and i can't even be sad about it in a normal way i'm cycling through like several different reactions to smth that isn't even real#or if it is real i literally do not have tanglible evidence for it one way or another like i'm driving myself insane for no reason#i can't even get catharsis because all i'm doing is digging a deeper hole for something i never should've gone back into in the first place#because i KNOW how i am i KNOW how i react to things and i still chose to do it lmao.#and i continue to choose to go through this shit instead of actively trying to change my life because... i'm lazy? and stupid? idk#negative self-talk isn't gonna get me to do anything either so let's just say i'm feeling particularly unmotivated like usual#i hated being a teenager but i really do miss when all my problems just amounted to 'someone was mean to me on tumblr today :(' or i failed#a test in chemistry or something. like i yearn for that simplicity becasue at this point all i'm doing is ruining my own life LMAO#i'm too scared to live i'm too scared to die so i just sit here and fantasize that life could be amazing if i wait#and i'll magically get everything i've ever wanted if i just wait long enough. and i know it isn't true and i still wait for it to happen.#because honestly like. i think deep down i am just convinced i will fail at anything i do when that shouldn't be what scares me.#what scares me should be never even allowing myself to fail because i never tried to do anything at all with myself or my life#like. wake the fuck up. get off your ass and put in the effort. learn some skills. gain independence and stability and discipline and do it#just live please i'm begging you just live so i can be happy don't i deserve to be happy... why am i not letting myself be happy#i'm literally keeping myself trapped in this negative feedback loop ON PURPOSE because teehee shiny toy#and it doesn't matter if the love is real it doesn't matter how i feel like i'm just using it as a distraction i can't say it's motivation#because it's barely motivated me at all. i have to start being realistic. 25 & just realizing you actually have to participate in your life#anyways. i've cried i've agonized i've pictured killing myself in 30 different ways. i think the only way i'm gonna feel better is#to just actually try this time without giving up. wish me luck
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"do you have to bring up politics on christmas" yes, i do. fuck you
#damn sorry i'm killing the vibe? theyre killing the children. with your fucking taxpayer money#especially christians#i live in a pretty religious area (my family isnt tho) and the apathy from the devout is shocking#how u gonna pray to a dude while u ignore and enable the bombing of his homeland bro#what would jesus think?#god is under the rubble of gaza#anyway yeah being given the cold shoulder bc i started talking abt christmas being cancelled in bethlehem but fuck them#fr tho any advice on how to actually get through to people bc as it is i just piss them off#which isnt constructive ig#palestine#gaza#israel#free palestine#christmas#free gaza#genocide#politics
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IM FROTHING AT THE MOUTH IM FERAL IM LOSING MY FUCKING MARBLES
#category 5 aster moment#lantern rite 2025#THE FUCKIGN ROLLERCOASTER OF EMOTIONS IVE GONE THROUGH IN THE PAST HOUR#AAAGHHHHHHHHHGHFHFHFHH#THE NEXT TIME MY PLAYABLE HU TAO DIES IM JUST GONNA START SOBBING. SORRY#THATS NOT FUCKIGN ALLOWED YOU CAN'T DO THAT IT'S ILLEGAL#HU TAO LORE HU TAO LORE HU TAO LORE HU TAO LORE#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#I WAS LIKE ''surely they won't kill off a playable character in a limited time event... but that's an awful lot of foreshadowing...''#''WAIT'' ''WAIT OH GOD NO'' ''OH GOD OH FUCK'' ''OH SHIT NO''#ZHONGLI JUST EXPLAIN YOUR FUCKING IDEAS IN WORDS PLEASE I WILL EXPLODE YOU WITH MY BRAIN#SORRY#LOSING IT#I'M UNHINGED I'M FERAL I'M DERANGED#THE ENTIRE TIME IVE BEEN TYPING THIS IVE BEEN AFK BUT HU TAO IS LITERALLY MY MAIN SO SHES JUST STANDING THERE#SINGING HER SILLY LITTLE SONGS. WRESTLING WITH HER GHOSTIE FRIEND#HU TAO PLEASE OH MY GOD
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"Hunter doesn't even know half of it," the Inner Empress says, hugging her arms tighter around herself. She's rocking, a little, as though to keep herself calm. "He doesn't even know."
Raine keeps their voice very quiet, very gentle. "That Belos hurt you?"
"No, no, that doesn't matter, I don't care about any of that. He doesn't know about the others."
Raine's brows draw together. "The others?"
"The other guards. The Golden Guards before him. He doesn't know."
Darius stiffens so fast that the mindscape itself reacts. He's not making it easy to convince the inner self that they aren't here to hurt her. Raine suspects that he doesn't actually realize how intimidating he's being.
"What do you mean by that," he says flatly.
The trees shake. Dust dislodges. Luz shrinks away.
Raine touches her arm, still so gently.
"Whispers," Darius says, edging toward a snarl, "ask her what the fuck she means by that."
This inner self doesn't seem any better at expressing herself than her outward facade. Raine swallows. "It's okay, Luz," they say. "Hey, can you show us?"
#as usual idk if i can do a whole fic so. heres a snippet i started thinking about in the car#because it's making me fucking crazy. HELLO#toh#princess luz au#luz noceda#raine whispers#darius deamonne#my writing#darius who already had an ulterior motive re: ascertaining hunter's safety being like. i'm gonna kill belos again actually#raine like GET IT TOGETHER. COME ON
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always another date to wait for! yay! it has been 0 days since i've had to move my Date of Expectation out even longer!
insurance has 30 days to get us an answer on the appeal. and in the meantime, i am supposed to [???]. well. i guess i'll work a little bit on coding and do a little reading and work on language stuff and some writing, and lots of sleeping and trying to trial and error my life and energy to some semi-optimized place for when this treatment option definitely doesn't pan out and my doctors tell me i'm shit out of luck and to go find a specialist (there aren't any for hundreds of miles and they don't take new patients <3).
how do people not completely lose it. how do people not completely fucking lose it.
#i am this close to Really Gonna Do It This Time-ing#huge shoutout to my dad who was like wow this is taking a long time surely there's something you could be doing#and then i had to fight myself viscerally to not kill him with my hands#another shining example of advice from the guy who at the start of this was like 'why don't you go see a doctor'#i didn't sleep well last night and i can't get myself to fall asleep today so i guess i'll just die#the answer to my question of 'what do i do now' is 'wait even longer you stupid idiot bitch' and that makes me feel a little like [REDACTED#my stupid fucking bodily signals are so fucked up right now#cool to just like. not feel hungry or that i need to go to the bathroom until i'm sick.#what am i supposed to do. what am i supposed to do!!#my dad was like 'um what do people if they're going to die' i don't know you piece of shit i think sometimes they just die#i think the big problem is that i feel pretty murder-suicide-y when i'm tired now#and guess what i am always#like is the solution to move north to where the specialists are. is that the actual solution here. no one will tell me.
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I know I keep just liveblogging my weird ass writing process rn but I did realize that the issue when I get into a section where things are quieter and there isn't some major plot beat is that my brain responds like. the fucking email form fields that start yelling at you the moment you type something because it's not a valid email.
I was just sitting here trying to figure out what I felt was wrong with the chapter I'd just finished and it's because it's slower. It also ends with a very quiet but (ideally) stomach-dropping beat! And it's the chapter in the middle of a section! Why are you yelling at me! It's doing exactly what it needs to be doing! The section's not done yet! Shut the fuck up!
#yanno that comic. you know which one. the face that figure makes going 'I'M NOT DONE YET' was my exact feeling upon realizing this.#this section is also like. very much the calm before the storm too.#it's for building atmosphere and tension! the next section is for things spiraling apart! the section after is them dealing with the mess!#fucking. 10-ish chapters before this is done. I'm going to kill.#I literally sat here stewing over this chapter for two days instead of writing the next one. christ alive#megs is writing#anyway. I should start using my writing tag as documentation.#next time I'm like 'ugh this is so bad I can't go on' I'm gonna come skim this tag and be like 'YES YOU CAN YOU DUMB BITCH'#I can finish this in the next month. I can do that.#I am going to fucking finish this draft in the next month.
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