#i'm going to kill myself soon

[babymau5]

i wanna throw up so bad

[cconfusedkat]

Hey Hi!!!!! i love to make fankid ocs (that arent rlly canon but its the fun part) and so for months i wanted to make a lambmura kiddo and Bam,,, We got the lider (lambspider child)

The liderrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr (there's. there's Also. Spamb ?) (spimb,) (LADDER? No. no that Isn't A Possible Combination,)

Anywho over the past few days ive been making a few silly panels for fun 🥹🥹🥹 i think she'd be somewhat a problem child when shes younger but as she grows up shes usually told "where did that sweet little girl go" cuz shes become more quiet

The biterrrrrrr (she had a srs biting problem for a while)

Aftermath of rarely concerned spider parent 🤲

I am SO normal about domestic lambmura trust trust TRUST. TRUST. anyways yes not a canon kid to any au of mine like others I usually make,, but I still think Ajdaha is rlly cute gwhegfhr

11:00 am edit: I am now realizing the dialogue doesn't make sense chat. Shamura makes it up to lamb I swear they didn't skim past the fact that they taught their daughter how to poison people- I SWEAR . I DREW THE DIALOGUEE WHEN I WAS RLLY TIRED ,,,

[thermodynamic-comedian]

had this random idea for a tmagp comic where sam puts a poster that just says "if holding onto something hurts, it's better to just let go" on the wall of his cubicle, and everybody has wildly different takeaways from that. like alice walks by it and goes "maybe i need to let him go" and gwen walks by it and goes "maybe this job isn't good for me" and celia walks by it and goes "maybe i need to accept that this is my home now" until lena walks by it and just goes "maybe i need to finally kill myself"

[poems-of-the-anentomologist]

suffocating 

I’m doing the dishes again

Staring into the water

At that boy

How can I call myself a girl when the face that stares back

Is just another random boy

You’d see playing on a subrban corner

My name isn’t my name

People don’t call me by my name

I’ve been cut off

From everyone

If I died tonight

Nobody would notice

Just another kid

Just another teen suicide

It’s better than the alternative

To suffocate in this form

Would be preferable

To living in a world where nobody sees me

It’s better than the alternative

[sevicia]

OC redraw of those 2 frames from Antiviral

[blimbo-buddy]

what are the captain's motivations for crashing the ship in your rewrite? upon rewatching a walkthrough of the mobile game i felt it was implied it had something to do with how no one on the crew besides maybe the nurse seemed to really like or respect him/jim outright bullying him, and since you've given me an excuse to think about these characters in depth i'm curious

I would actually like to keep a bit of that whole “Jim bullying him” & “Nurse seeming to be the only one to really care about him” thing in just a teeny bit. But generally I have a rough idea that for sure I’m going to do a lot of reworking to based on where the story goes

And that’s the idea of tackling the subject matter of how companies refer to themselves like a family and (likely) subsequently tackling the family unit’s endorsed/ignored downsides and criticizing both instances mentioned. I do also want to do this as a tiny jab at the mw fandom's insertion of the characters into family dynamics

For whatever reason, Captain has a lot of attachment to the concept that his Crew is his family, his people to “love and protect and stay together with” . To be their papa bear.

This comes from one of the company’s motto's that, “A crew is like a family, love and help them like it!”

Perhaps he has some horrible attachment issues on top of this

I may also suggest that Earth is having a lot of layoff problems with jobs and the company they work for is no different

Maybe a second predicted great depression but that'll have to be figured out a bit. Life just isn't good back on Earth

In the case for the company though, a mass layoff will ensue that affects thousands of workers. This is what Captain is informed of by HR

Captain doesn’t know who will be laid off, including himself

But… the risk is too high

He doesn’t care if it was just him, but he knows that some, if not all of his crew is at risk of losing their jobs

It’s too many people that are predicted to be fired from the company…He seems them out in the streets. Cold, hungry, scared, alone. Without family.

His crew is at risk, his family will be torn apart. A father in this situation needs to take control.

He was always taking control. No matter how much his crew hated it all, he needed to control it all to keep them safe.

His crew may not like him they may even hate him, but they’d be safe

More importantly, they’d be together

But… he can’t financially support them all. He can’t help them all. God, no. It’s all going wrong; this wasn’t how it was supposed to be. He would do anything for his crew, anything to stay together with them. Forever.

He sees on the screen ahead of him in the cockpit that the ship detects a nearing asteroid belt

It could lead to, at best, horrid injuries and damage. At worst, mass death of the crew

The computer’s autopilot redirects the ship’s course to avoid the belt and ensure they all head back to Earth

.....

Autopilot disengaged

I also have a rough draft idea in mind for this already rough draft character that these anxieties and fears pre-crash are exemplified by someone finding solace in his company and admitting that they never felt very accomplished, that things back on earth aren’t what they’re cracked up to be and they wonder how they’ll keep going in the current state that the world’s heading in.

I don’t know who would be telling Captain this, but it may actually be Nurse because as you mentioned, Nurse is suggested to at least tolerate Captain since she actually wanted to throw the party for him.

Though I would need to figure out how that fits into her character. I have some rough ideas but it’ll be hard when I already have a version of her in my mind that makes her more reserved (which is why she doesn’t share her actual name)

I'd also like to note that, had the song not been about romance, Breezeblocks by Alt-J would have been a perfect song to describe Captain. But alas

[yardsards]

there's so many posts floating around that are like "if you stop joking about wanting to kill yourself, you won't think about suicide as much!"

and. in my experience, that's just been dead false.

when i was younger, i would casually joke about my suicidal urges all the time. it made my (often equally depressed) peers laugh along and connect with me, and it made the urges feel less scary, like i could conquer them and laugh.

i stopped joking about suicide as i got older. everyone said it was harmful to do, so i quit. and i think it actually made me feel so much worse. my suicidal ideations are now a dark taboo swirling around deep within me: something that i can't show outside of serious conversations in therapists' offices or to friends preceded with "can i vent about something?". serious conversations that don't really make me feel better and often manage to make the suicidal feelings look even BIGGER and more unmanageable to me.

i wish i could joke about it like i used to, but i can't. i'm more conscientious of others' feelings and reactions to me than i used to be (which is in some ways a good thing, but in some ways leaves me constantly muting and molding myself just to be more palatable to outsiders). so i can't bring myself to risk upsetting anyone with my dark jokes anymore: no matter if it's fellow suicidal people who may be understandably hurt by the subject, or if it's just mentally healthy people clutching their pearls because i dare be mentally ill in public.

and joking about these things is a lot more taboo now that it was just a few years ago as a teenager in the late 2010s. humor was more dark and ironic overall at the time. you could post like, a deep fried jpeg of a shrimp captioned "i want to krill myself!" and there was a general understanding that like, yeah some of the feelings there might be genuine, but it's still a joke and you can join in on laughing. but now something like that would be treated more like a cry for help.

i don't really have a solution to this cuz like, yeah there were people who were negatively impacted by the ubiquity of suicide jokes back then, and it's probably not something we as a culture should bring back overall. but GOD sometimes i miss it.

[violet-jessop]

two nights in a row gripping ice cubes like i'm 14 this is fucking pathetic

[ethanrayne]

went to bed at a reasonable hour for once (bc i stayed up "late" playing bg3 with a friend [@jennycalendar is the actual best]). somehow am still up at the hour i would have been otherwise bc. uh. i woke up early bc my heart rate was through the roof bc. uh. bc i was so happy and excited about how fun yesterday was that even my subconscious was vibrating about it.

baffling. apparently if you have too much joy you just end up with less sleep about it.

[intertexts]

gggh.

[fernzwing]

I feel like I just woke up from a coma sorry for not posting anything guys. 2024 is not a very happy year

[moonsoupstar-ao3]

I put my game aside to accompany my parents to pick up a mate for my brother, and they are just... Watching tv and in their phones...

I WANT TO GO BACK TO MY GAME C'MON

[eternalergo]

I unintentionally deleted my persona footage folder......... just what the fuck :) I'm alright.

[stargazinglesbian]

legitimately what the fuck am i doing

[unproduciblesmackdown]

what in the. see this is why it's a good thing that multiplayer videogames especially are about having fun & being yourself like what do you mean disguised spies automatically had the speed of the disguise's class & everyone's like yea if i wasn't always going for the scout disguise i'd kill myself right now. i'd be like haha can't catch Me out supposedly the extra slow or extra fast class >:) i am a harmless engineer

[inniave]

me: i need a fucking break from everything

my pump, immediately: *screaming low glucose alarm"

me: *briefly contemplating letting it kill me*