#i'm fine tho and I had fun

[inkskinned]

so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.

first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.

it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.

and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.

you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.

and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.

your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.

in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.

in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.

so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.

you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.

once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.

and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"

you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?

hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!

you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.

we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?

[phoenix-clan]

ANYWAYS ENOUGH OF THAT DUMB SADNESS!!! look at the comic fury banner i made for phoenixclan

[spinnysocks]

i'm starting to think i've been cursed. why am i still sick

[eyebulb]

I'm just a 30yo who enjoy a very sexy adult show about demons in hell but ALSO have been a horse girl at heart since I was a child so.. Naturally I play horse games on occasion.... and I dedicate some horses to characters I like. So have some Stolitz in horse format. I feel like Blitz would be proud

[teardropwolf]

Just a comic thing

[vaguely-concerned]

kill me

(*wobbly tearstained voice* this is father & son richard plantagenet in henry vi part 3 1983 dir jane howell btw. which is. extremely good)

[bacchuschucklefuck]

the never stop blowing up vhs is where cute twinks go to get harmed

[lao-huangs-bitch]

(CURRENTLY ON: CHAPTER 6)

Didn't say anything here bc I figured i just won't check my Inbox, but clearly that wasn't enough either.

PSA: PLEASE DO NOT TELL ME ANYTHING ABOUT ANY NEW GAME CONTENT! AND I MEAN IT WHEN I SAY ANYTHING!!!

From This Point Forward, I will be Temporarily Blocking anyone who tells me ANYTHING , as I have had SEVERAL people who can't seem to get the Memo. I am EXTREMELY Sensitive to Spoilers and want Literally Nothing, please don't even act like new content Exists.

Spoilers (For Me), include but are Not Limited To:

Playable Characters (I still don't know who's Playable or not yet)

Screenshots (Even Nondescript ones- I WANT TO WITNESS ALL OF DE FIRSTHAND. EVEN IF IT'S LAO AND DOESN'T GIVE ANYTHING AWAY, I WANT TO SEE IT MYSELF FIRST!)

Opinions on content!!

Basically just as far as I'm concerned, there is Nothing New.

I work Two Jobs, 7 Days a Week, saving money to move out of my parents house, and have regrettably fallen VERY Behind in playing DE. I am also still an Artist and an Athlete before I'm a Gamer, and many times I rather Draw or go for a Run than play... Also, I've been VERY Anxious about new content, having been in nothing but my Unchanging Lao Hellhole for 9 Years (I am not in any other fandoms), and needing to Brace Myself for New Information. Please keep in mind as well that while you all are Returning to X, I Never Left, it has been my Only Content for Nine Years. So getting myself to Replay can be just a BIT of a Chore (in a "I was JUST here. I was JUST level 60. Come ON." way). But unfortunately, there's no Motherlode Command for Leveling Up.

Its Harsh I know and I'm Overly Sensitive to Spoilers, but I'm Tired of Repeating Myself so I'll be Pinning this post and Updating It with my Current Progress

[kindahoping4forever]

Hello friends! Just a quick kh4f programming note: I'll be out of commission for most of, if not all of today, as I'm having a minor medical procedure done. (Outpatient, everything's fine, dw! 🫶🏻) So if anything notable happens (fully expecting Ash to announce ai2 the second I'm sedated 😌) and I'm MIA... that's why lol. Try not to have too much fun without me! 😘💙

[indiegame]

im not ready for work drama all week. again.

[the-halfling-prince]

time for my favorite game: how many glasses of wine can I chug in front of my mother before she goes, "hey, maybe this isn't the best coping mechanism"

[wereh0gz]

Not feeling great abt some of my creative endeavors rn

[sysig]

2024 Art Purge (Part 2)

Fanart Edition! Once more, one again!

Immediately starting out with eyes! Not enough of them in the Original sketchdump, gotta make up for it here - you might recognize this little examination of Sans blindness as something that made its way into an actual set :3 A couple actually, if you wanted to include the skelebros' matching PJs from Requestober haha

More Sans eyes! He just has such pretty blues <3 I was testing out the difference between a light blue pen and my usual nonphoto blue pencil - pencil is the winner, as always, truly a colour of all time ♪

Dipping into fandom I normally wouldn't (except for that one other time lol), some HeavyMedic for @zarla-s​! I got a cute first, it was only fair to give a bit of cute back haha ♥ Also got its own full post, speed draw included! :D

Smol introduced me to the Katy Perry Sims 3 collection and it is...atrocious lol. She showed me a bunch of Sims 3 packs actually, but I had a specific bone to pick with this one in particular. Like - I am All for, 1000% For, in total and complete favour of candy and sweets and pastries as a theme, I think it's a delightful well to draw from but this was...not it lol. So I made my own! Loosely based on some of the designs that were just, slapped onto bras. Why?? Bras can be so cute! Or silly! Or both!! Why are they so ugly... You can see I took particular umbrage with the cupcake, mint, and ice cream tops, and you better believe I still have complaints in mind! It's been nearly a year and I'm still mad about these! Lol. I will never understand taking a design and like, Jigglypuff-from-above'ing it, just make it look how it looks in profile! No cherry nipples! Stop this! And why the wide shoulder bands, if any of these deserve thin straps, it's the cupcakes to reflect cherry stems off the top, plssss. For the mints one I was being kind of silly lol, but at least the underboob implies shape! Rather than being subsumed into boob-cylinders, and the wrapper is just, awkwardly out to the sides, not integrated into the flow of the design at all, smh. The ice cream one is the most egregious in my opinion because ice cream is Adorable, and they made it ugly. The cone does not go on top of the ice cream, how dare, get it out of a non-edible bowl right now and make it a waffle bowl this instant. It doesn't even look like ice cream, it looks like whipped cream! Make it recognizable! It could be so cute and this is what you give me??? I just have a lot of thoughts about candy fashion lol, and also it was fun to draw curves :)

Just barely continuing the train of thought lol - another little something I made for smol, much like the Punch Out Characters from last time :) Animated Two Face is a handsome lad, his droopy eye on the one side and wide on the other, cute <3

I started reading a Mob Psycho fic that unfortunately didn't quite vibe with me, which sucks because I love the conceit! "Oops I adopted this child" is one of my favourites but it just wasn't meant to be, ah well. Did get a couple long-haired Mob doodles in tho :)

The original sketch for Satine! It was fun to make a new outfit for them

ISAT ahhhh ;;♥ Few SIF eyes, one Loop eye, maybe they have a scar under their bright light? :0 Obscured by overlighting ahh

Had to doodle the ladies of the group a bit more as well, the cutes <3 Mira is adorable, sparkly heroine aww, love her ♥ And Odile is so pretty, I love her wrinkles and glasses :D Bit similar to how I draw Kabu's eyes now too actually! :0

The original sketch of this fanfic piece! I'm still rather a fan of how Loop's heels look from behind, and Sif's face, angle, hands - it's not clean or prettied, but it Evokes, y'know?

An unusual one-off from me as I still don't really know how to draw horses haha, the alicorn from Unicorn Tails! I still want the silly horse game! The deep lore...

While working on Pokeball papercrafts, I wanted to see if I could design a circular Pokemon stats screen to glue onto the back, as if they were "inside" that particular Pokeball, like circular trading cards! I never was able to settle on a design, but the last one isn't terrible... The text would have to be pretty small though. Maybe I'll try again another time, it Is an enticing thought, having a deck of Pokemon cards shaped like Pokeballs

Rick and Morty heckin' got my number on this one, Clone Beth coming around to hang out with the Smiths was exactly the thing to get me drawing these guys again smh doesn't help that she's hot

She participates in Self Love, what exactly am I supposed to do about it. Not draw them making out? Who do you take me for

Also ended up drawing a speculation of what Drizz might look like as an adult - if she's just a little baby there, will she grow to be a giant octopus lady?? That'd be pretty cool I think

Around the time of Requestober, @joh-nny-c​ invited me to an art trade but everything kinda got lost in the shuffle of the season ahhh, sorry! 😫 Please accept a couple doodles in apology, now that I'm less busy I'd be up to trying again haha :'D

Lich is quite cute so I had fun doodling a few silly little things haha

These were the two I was most strongly considering seeing through and then all the everything ahhh - I still quite like both tho :D Especially for not being the most confident drawing muzzles and the like haha, but big floppy ears? Yes ✨

Got way the heck into Poison for like a week straight - the original, the various language translations, 8bit cover, yes, all the every Poison. It's so sad! And I might be biased because spider (NSFW and SA trigger warning but: he does the spider defensive position in the MV!!!! AH!!!!) but I really think Angel's design is beautiful. Some of that could also be the whites and pinks haha, he's cute!

Thinking about these two rough-and-tumble girls lately <3 I still haven't gotten back into Mother 3 so I haven't met Kumatora but when I do!!

The stretch contest! Ditto looks so cute and silly haha, determined Eevee and good-spirited overseeing Ekans, they're friends! ♥

Smol with an Ekans :) She needs a snake!

And then just an Ekans lol, they always look so startled in their art, and always without a snake tongue?? They deserve a forked tongue

This guy, who took over my internal voice for a few days. Made everything ridiculous to read in my head, sheesh

He does crack me up tho so how can I complain really lol

[novuit]

I feel like I decorate my tumblr blog theme for fun because I can't visit my site unless I use a VPN which is really weird.

[quicksilversquared]

The semester hasn't even started yet and I already know that the second week is absolutely going to flatten me because not only do I have the two lab sections I TA and also my two classes that I'm taking, I also will be taking over another lab section that week because the usual TA has either an appointment or a committee meeting then, will (more than likely) be jumping in as an assistant on two more (three-hour) labs, and need to have a committee meeting sometime between all of that.

also I'm in the middle of being trained in on lab stuff, so I'm pretty sure that any time not spent either teaching, assisting, or studenting will be spent trying to get the rest of my samples through.

[cherrymoonvol6]

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