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Might makes right in this world, not morals. Not to mention morals are the epitome of human arrogance.
#shining nikki#caprico#shining nikki caprico#sn caprico#art#mine#*23#so i'm a sucker who spent extra money to get caprico's top up reflection. the predatory microtransactions get me sometimes#i paid money for that card that means i get to raw him tHAT WAS THE DEAL#okay. i meant Draw but that works too lol#listen. i have all his stupid cards. i had to get this one too. i didn't get the whole suit ofc bc i'm broke and NOT insane#but i'll give into fomo and sunk cost fallacies for you capri. muah
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lambgoat and lsdunes: Lambgoat gave L.S. Dunes $60 to shop for records at Rooky Ricardo's Records in San Francisco. Tune in to Lambgoat's YouTube channel at 12p EST / 9a PST to watch and join L.S. Dunes in the chat!
(Instagram | July 5, 2023)
#ls dunes#l.s. dunes#m: frank iero#m: travis stever#m: tucker rule#lsd: 2023#in: jul/23#t: photo#t: video#with: lambgoat#sm: instagram#archive[ane]#tumblr won't let me include the videos :| but i'll post the whole thing when they post it
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I am torn between 2 kuyas
#kuya's “i'd rather watch the little ones play with dirt” in sunburst fever really got me#getting images of kuya getting up at the crack of dawn to take garu to his little sports game#kuya just sits in the audience with his 23-espresso-shots cup of coffee like i am too old and too cold for this#gonna set this whole field on fire#maybe then i'll get to sleep in on sundays again#(garu happily playing sportsball in the background)#how can these kuyas get along in my brain#will they start violencing each other?#as is custom with kuya and kuya#or can they coexist#being simultaneously nurturing with the newbie yokai/horny for them?#is kuya that freaky?????#here's hoping. more at 9#kuya: pinches yakumo's ear and yanks it around#look who's got a spine after all ( ＾◡＾)っ#yakumo's snake: 눈_눈#actually hold on i'm about to link the fic that inspired me#nu carnival garu#nu carnival yakumo#nu carnival kuya#yakuya
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Despite all odds, I have arrived home safely👍
Turns out that the earlier goop was the better goop. The adderall goop. The adderall has worn off now though. So I am. Very incredibly out of it.
But I am home. And I will take my quick shower. And then I will climb into bed.
I do need to eat. But... later...
#speculation nation#im the special kind of tired where im more tired than hungry#which is to say my every cell is yelling at me to get some fucking sleep.#and i dont think id be much more successful at eating rn than i was this morning.#i ate. half a can of chef boyardee. which was half bc i was so focused on typing and half bc i could barely stomach it.#so i at least ate Something. but not as much as normal.#i did have an ensure in the middle of the day. so theres some nutrients too at least.#i'll eat after i get a few hours of sleep. when the edge is no longer so desperate.#and hopefully i'll be able to stomach things better then.#honestly have all nighters always been this hard or am i just getting older? i havent actually pulled an all nighter since uhhh#well there was kind of one on dead dad day. but that day sucked just in general.#last time i think was april '23 when i read t.rimax volume 9-14 within a 24 hour period while also finishing a final presentation.#even then tho i got like 2 hours of sleep. it was still pretty rough though.#like ok i guess those times were pretty awful and also i did get at least some sleep. which is more than today.#so it makes sense for me to be in worse shape rn. i also didnt get as much sleep the night before last as i wanted to#i got... ...maybe 4 hours sleep??? ummm. which isnt a good thing actuslly. no wonder im so fucking exhausted.#i can barely type right now i will be honest. it was so hard to bike home. it took all my focus to not drive off a bridge#or get pushed into traffic by wind. oh boy the wind sure did try.#then i almost tripped down the stairs at my apartment after grabbing the mail bc i Briefly was focused on my mail 🙄#barely present. total mess. but at least im home. and i already did all the thinking i need to do today.#i was brave. i perservered. i was tempted to give up around 6 am ish but i was like No. this is getting done TODAY.#so i did it. i turned it in. and i so bravely did my in class work for my 2nd class. even though i was so mentally not present the whole way#i did my thinking... i am home... rest soon.#actually its kind of funny im lying on my couch rn and i think if most other ppl were in my current state theyd fall asleep right here.#but the power of my insomnia is so. powerful. i am not at risk of falling asleep without meaning to.#only time thats ever actually happened are like. a handful of times i was like. the most tired ive ever been in my life. etc etc.#in fact idk how well i'll be able to fall asleep for my nap. i certainly couldnt last night despite how hard i tried.#hopefully this time... i am truly tired enough....pls i need to rest i am so tired 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
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household enemy to the yyh watchthrough number one is the olympics. it's taken us a week to get two episodes into the gamemaster fight
#out of three. please the third episode's what makes it okay im fighting for my life out here#it is NOT for lack of trying on my part but theres only a brief window of time when the olympics is not happening#and as it turns out the watchthrough is Not my mom's first priority (how dare she etc)#i do feel slightly bitter that we've gotten through two eps of band o brothers in the same time#we are fighting for the same timeslots yet somehow the hour long show's gotten a leg up??#you don't have time for a 23 min ep but DO for a 60 min one?? explain the math to me please#idk how to explain the vague feeling of betrayal bc it Does Not make sense Nor matter in the slightest#but cmonnnn we were doing so well. and my little bro's starting up school again soon and my dad's gotta go back to work#sometimes eventually (<- hes on medical leave) and my grandparents are coming over next week We're Losing Time Soon#ughhh if i'd known the olympics were happening (<- somehow completely oblivious to this) i'd have accounted for#my mom getting whisked away by the land of synchronized divers and shot putters and whatever the hell#happens in the summer olympics (<- only pays attention to winter olys)#bc that always happens. and *i* have to go back to school in Some Amount Of Time Im Too Scared To Check (p sure it's late aug though) and#when that happens i'll (hopefully) be stuck across town which means we won't be able to do it any time besides the weekends#and i don't wannaaaaa#i know this is the least important problem anyone's ever had like i get that i know but#it's important to me that they sit down and watch this with me. and watching it pull apart and being#the one who's easily the most invested it makes me look all desperate when i ask them for their time and they can't give it#we can only pull this off neatly in the summer and we were so close and now we're losing it right at the finish line#i don't want life to get in the way of this little bubble i've fought so hard to make y'know#and it's childish and embarrassing and whatever but i just want them to have fun with me with this thing i care about a lot#but i can't do that bc my mom needs to watch the judo matches at Every weight class#even though she's recording a lot of them? i don't understand but whatever i know it's her thing im just moping about it ig#i want it to be as perfect an experience for them as possible and it's slipping away from me#and i don't wanna leave this project unfinished when i start school y'know. sighh#i think they might feel like i only want them around when we're watching stuff. whcih is weird bc that's like#The Singular Way we family bonded literally my whole life so idk why they wouldn't get that when reversed#but either way that IS how i wanna spend time with them. i want them to understand this thing that's become a part of me#and i wanna talk With them about it. and so far it's been fun in a way it's never been before. my mom at least seems to really like it#and i want it to Keep going well bc if we lose momentum im worried they'll start finding it tedious. sighh
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Filled with a frightened and desperate longing for things I cannot name. Yeah again. Yeah.
#sorry just watched a video of a 40yo lesbian talking about restructuring her life to be with her partner and figure out#what she wants to do that will make her happiest and let her fulfil what she wants to be in life#and im having two crises at once because on the one hand#its very reassuring to know that for my whole life I'll be allowed to make those kinds of changes#but simultaneously#oh god oh fuck im 23 what am i DOING im single i live with my parents my job is a dead end at best none of my art projects are#getting off the ground and im just absolutely fucking exhausted and all i do is stare at the horizon and drink and cry and pray itll be okay#fucking. what am i doing what am i fucking. AUGH.
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Look at how happy he is! And omg! He's just too flipping cute with his little hat! 😍💜
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little soup cans are some of the neatest things we have, wish there were more soup-can-like things in this world
#just me hi#though canopeners need to stop being deadly weapons to some degree before that hfhs#'they're not deadly tho ?' well usually yes. but did you know that they can age Badly? i did not!#and the one I was using was dulled to an extent that it would Skip over a part of the can#(nearly the same spot every time lol) and when I thought I'd managed to fool it and had only#the tiniest bit of metal between me and some beans (pretty sure it was beans) I thought#'ohh I'll just pull up the can lid :)' Well the lid snapped off completely towards and Into my hand#and I had a bean-can wound on my pinky for about a week or so. I do not know how long it's been lol#//but soup cans are pretty cool I feel like they're kinda underappreciated !!#you can just have Soup ? Whenever ??? and it's Normal !! wow :D#sure making soup is pretty great. but that's a process man. and we're not even associates#[<- 'a process I am (not) intimate with']#like there is a little can of menudo in the pantry rn - medunito they call it isn't that just !! - and it's just there. it can be made in#like 10 minutes. is this Not the best thing ever ! ?#//I've also gotta figure out this sleeping thing that I've got going on (everybody has it going on)#I was maybe half a week into actually have a consistent thing going but the night I stopped was bc I am a sucker of a storyteller and we#were up til about. I think 4-6 a.m.#that's on me yes. my siblings vs. my desire to tell stories and rubber willpower hfbdh#a deadly match truly#and also I lost my snoopy watch (RIP snoopy watch you will be missed (I can't find it send help Waough)) and that was the only clock I had#in this room so now if I wanna know the time I have to go the living room - which is like a whole dang thing lemme tell you about it#/first I've gotta get up - easiest thing by far - and get to the door - assuming I don't get KO'd by my siblings' belongings on the floor -#get to the door. the door Is broken to some extent. opening it means a loud THDPD noise is sent throughout the entire house lol. and you#have to yank on the thing to get it open - so double effort there - and then you step out into the hallwayish area where you can then enter#the living room - oh so easy! but No! you then have to either turn on the kitchen lights and wake everyone with their door open or sleeping#in the living room for whatever reason Orrr you have to clamber over chairs pots perhaps a cat if you've got real bad luck that night to ge#up nice n personal to the clock so you can read the dang thing and see it's 11:23. which is like nothing so you stay up Anyway and do not#check the clock again because not only was that a hassle but also you released every creature that was in the room with you (that's a lot o#noise). but Yea the clock situation is ongoing hfbsh#'why don't you get a clock' that would be much too easy loll :) (last one disappeared and we keep forgetting lol) //ran out of tag space so
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22 isn't very much at all, I think.
#5am rambles#anyways ignore this as per usual im just thinking in a post that i'll delete soon. i just worry and writing it helps.#you ever wonder when you'll “grow up'? and then realize youre not even fully grown?#that theres still more to learn in life and that the mistakes you make are just that? mistakes?#that you are still so very very young in a world that is so very very old?#im almost 23. barely a quarter of my lifespan. im still a child in a way- my brain not fully formed.#you ever wonder how many mistakes you can make before you figure something out?#I dont know much of anything really. that's the sad part. and the adults who were supposed to help me learn... didnt.#i was failed. and now im a failure. at almost not quite 23 years old. Maybe i wont be a failure in another few years.#i still have a while to go before I die. I'm not going to waste time thinking about it. im just going to try my best.#I have time. I can learn. Grace and patience are not endless but damn if i dont try to figure things out#first step though is meds and therapy tho. we're done with the pity party. some things you just have to accept are okay#cuz my whole life i was taught that being emotional is a weakness. its pathetic and stupid to be upset or angry about anything.#any time i wanted to show i was upset or angry i was 'wrong'. i was 'selfish' and 'dramatic'#so i suppressed and pretended i was fine. that i wasnt weak and pathetic. that i was good and not an annoyance or burden.#i am not weak. i am not pathetic. i am fine i am fine i am fine you dont need to worry about the inconvenience at your door.#sometimes the shame is so much that i cant look at myself or even think i deserve help. that therapy is for people with real problems.#that i feel like ill just be told im like this for attention or dramatics. that im such a disappointment and selfish too.#ive been a “problem” my whole life to the point i dunno if i CAN be fixed. that anxiety eats me alive every day.#therapy is supposed to give you methods to cope#i dunno if it'll work though. I forget my appointments a lot. i struggle to talk sometimes. i may be autistic but its hard to get diagnosed.#emotions are so hard to figure out.
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Daily Poem 9/30/23
Here's an experiment Like all my magic flows The stories say to infuse The brazier until it glows
But I don't need a spirit Of trickery or fire I'll hold my pumice down Cover with seagrass and briar
I call upon the most familiar Of all the creatures to me So to the spirits high and low Let the bubbles carry my plea
#daily poetry#9/30/23#poetry#ttrpg poetry#ttrpg#D&D#D&D 5e#Flora Cetea#Wrote this poem for Flora to use when he summons his first Familiar#Wrote out the whole summoning as well#But that would take ages to format on mobile#So I'll probably share it later
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finally watching bleach this anime rlly is actually good
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"Non farlo piangere" girl he literally cries in his mother's arms when he's trying to fall asleep because he gets frustrated when he can't and now I'm making him cry???????????????
#i don't understand how they see this child thing#he's a child. he cries. sometimes he cries for things you have to say no about#like you must say no. why is it so hard for you to understand it and most importantly why the HELL am I the one who's somehow behaving#like the mother when she's not around#I'm so pissed off about this situation Imma scream one day#again. i love my nephew more than my honestly unworthy life for what I'm doing with it#but I'm 23 and i never asked to be a mother and i just want to do my things and have like a little corner for myself#and to be left alone for 5 minutes#which can't happen apparently bc I can't even go to the bathroom without my mother going 'let's see what auntie is doing!'#gurl what do you think I'm doing???????#I'm so fucking tired#and once again why the hell does he have to sleep here tonight when his father is perfectly able to take care of him#i swear if i were to see him once a week I'd be more than happy but every day gets exhausting#and in the middle of it all i also have to listen to my mother scold me for no reason. no one ever says 'oh thank you'#jesus christ#I'll never EVER have children btw#and i hope I don't fall in love with a cis man because if this is how they are I'm very tempted to commit a murder rn#I'm tired out of my mind bc me and my mother had to cook and clean the whole house for tomorrow. do you think#my father raised a single finger despite knowing we needed a hand?#fuck them when i get financially stable enough to leave they'll see me once a year#if they're lucky#again. I can't have my therapist tell me all this things which i start to think about daily and leave me on my own for a whole week#bc then i go insane#sorry I'll prob delate this later#rant#i realize now the post doesn't make sense without context but i was trying to make him sleep and he cried a little#like he. always does btw but somehow today it was my fault
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I know I'm very lucky and privileged to have had the chance to university and I had a great time but rip if I hadn't gone to university and had instead been working full time it would be so much easier to find a job now
#ive been looking for ages and applying to so many but i just keep getting rejections every day#and like im 23 so they have to pay me the full minimum wage so theyre not gonna hire me to work in a shop or restaurant when theres people#with years of experience#i'll try agencies but otherwise im starting to become pretty certain I'll never find a job#but yeah i can do agency stuff maybe but i dont want to work in a warehouse my whole life#like there's nothing wrong with that but after a couple weeks or months when i know what to do it gets boring
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I still love the idea of Fry surviving and repairing one of the ships and getting off the planet years later, but being super fucked up because she's basically been surviving off of the creatures and stuck in eternal darkness for years. Anyways, who do I have to pay for Riddick characters?
#OOC / A whole ass yikes#TO BE DELETED / Trash#[ y'ALL THE AMOUNT OF DRAFTS I HAVE WRITTEN TODAY IS WILD ]#[ i am on a ROLL ]#[ am i jinxing it? probably ]#[ i'll throw riddick or dame vaako at them any time an yday ]#[ i'm rewatching pitch black ]#[ i once read a fanfic like that and it was so good but never finished ]#[ it was like 15 years ago so it will likely never be finished lmao ]#[ this movie is 23 years old do yo uever juST ]#[ hang your head in old ]
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hmmm so 2.5 weeks ago i asked my boss to write me a letter of recommendation and i told her i needed it by 1/23....i can see that she has not submitted it yet and also she left today for a trip and will be back in the office next thursday...hm.....
#i don't technically need it by 1/23 as it's rolling admissions but i am trying to get this submitted so i can get admitted#oh well i'll have to follow up when she gets back#meanwhile HER boss who I also asked has already submitted what he wrote for me....#my boss is one year older than me and i get along great with her#this morning when we had our checkin i was like yes all i'm doing this weekend is finishing my application....#ugh i hate this whole process it's making me psych myself out
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after using 22 gauge needles to do my T shots for the past 5 years i met with my doc yesterday for the yearly check up and mentioned that the 22 gauge was suddenly really hard to get and she commented on that being such a big needle. turns out i could have been using as small as 25 gauge this whole time..... i got 23 gauge for now and its definitely easier
#the nurse before just like straight up lied i guess or didnt know better#'cause i was told at the start that T is too thick for anything smaller than 22 gauge which ive struggled with the whole time#like ya boy here does not do well with needles so i asked specifically for the smallest possible and got 22 gauge#ive only almost passed out like a few times and never fully passed out at least from my own shots#i did pass out once helping my mom draw blood from a dog though#the 23 gauge though seemed easy to put in and push the plunger on though so i think i'll use those
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