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emeraldcitynerdfighter · 2 years ago

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Another day of enduring the Toils (unloading the dishwasher and cleaning dishes in the sink) and the Horrors (knowing I’ll just have to do it all again in like three days)

#i’m trying to be so brave about it #whoever wifes me up I will cook for you every day if you promise to always do the dishes and unload the dishwasher #it’s truly my ADHD Achilles Heel

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lotus-pear · 2 months ago

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rewatched madoka magica again today bc i fucking hate myself and to absolutely no one’s surprise i went through all five stages of grief in a single evening

#let’s talk about sayaka miki for a second #genuinely the fact that her whole character is centered around tragedy almost to a shakespearean extent #she’s selfless and brave and values her justice and righteousness above all. calls herself an ally of justice #in fact i think it’s rather intriguing how her whole character is centered around “justice”#her story being a more twisted retelling of the original little mermaid #how she is initially portrayed as a very heroic and confident character even before becoming a magical girl. always shielding madoka #selling her soul to heal the boy she loved out of a selfless desire to see him well again #her being absolutely distraught abt being robbed of her humanity and betrayed by kyubey #she combats this harrowing realization by immersing herself in her duties not caring that she is slowly deteriorating in the process #becoming numb with pain and fighting recklessly and psychotically trying to drown out the pain #finally coming to the sickening conclusion that humanity doesn’t deserve her saving and she succumbs to a fate of her making #last words being “i was so stupid” which trumps her previous statement of “there’s no way i’d regret this”#ALSO? the fact that her costume and weapon are symbolic of a knight. she rly portrays this hero of justice who will protect and defend ☹️#i think abt the fact that homura said that sayaka’s wish was so selfless it was only a matter of time before she died #sayaka being the example of what happens to magical girls who go through the entire cycle and eventually become witches is so sad to me #genuinely just like. sick and twisted #very very fucked up.#characters who have their own misconstrued interpretation of “justice” or who are centered around justice in general.#you will always be dear to me.#sayaka reminds me a lot of akechi in some ways ngl #harboring an almost idealized vision of justice but it slowly rots and festers and corrupts their hearts the more immersed w it they become #actually losing their sanity when they fight bc of how much pain they’re in but refuse to acknowledge it until they break #refusing any help and wallowing in misery despite having ppl who love them and want to save them #last words are those expressing regret for being such a fool. for being ignoring #being used by yhe main villain as a stepping stone towards their true goal. they were merely a pawn #also doomed in every version of their reality. always doomed by the narrative no matter what choices they make #i have a type i fear #HAHAHAH ALSO the fact that they’re both dressed so regally compared to everyone else in their respective series #meant to portray them in a virtuous and princely light. only made more apparent by the sword being their weapon of choice #i’m gonna shut up now but they’re soo eerily similar its unnerving tbh 💀

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targarrus · 4 months ago

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#bro i’m so tired of this fucking around era i’m not good at painting at all but demons beckon me to try again and again #also my tummy hurts and i’m not being brave about it #kris gustin #kris guštin #joker out #joker out fanart #2024

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hplonesomeart · 4 months ago

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‼️ART TRIGGER WARNING: Mild body horror/gore

Sooooo I kinda unexpectedly deviated from what I would consider my normal art preferences here. Mostly because I’ve seen a lot of talented artists drawing their own renditions of menacing Puzzles fanart where he goes fully insane and whatnot. I wanted to also contribute to that trend somehow…although it’s slightly out of my usual comfort zone << especially with his recent design change of loosing his whole lower body lol. Adapting that into my art was an interesting experimental challenge

Here is my own take on Puzzles falling apart! Quite literally! I still wanted to add a bit of empathy in here for him tho— because I’m going to be so distraught if WOTFI 2024 is his resignation from the spotlight for good. His final bow on stage if you will; the grand finale of his performance before he departs in death (MAN I SURE HOPE HE DOESN’T DIE BUT THE FANDOM SPECULATIONS AND PARANOIA ARE GETTING TO MY HEAD. And it just seems like the narrative progression is leaning that way). Well not matter what happens to him this upcoming Saturday…this tragic TV guy has impacted me in unexpected ways and I’m just so glad we got to spend and entire year with his character. And he’s sure not gonna disappear from my art anytime soon. Hopefully I won’t be maiming him ever again after this though jksjsksp he’s suffered enough angst for now <3

And here is just a black & white sketch version without the red overlay stuff!! Although it’s an older version so not everything is exact

#….guys should I post this on Instagram too or not I’m actally worried about this unintentionally scaring some people off #I’M SORRY NO WAIT COME BACKKKK NOOOOO /J #at least here I’ve got a community with variety of people that may find this cool to stare at #but on Instagram? my friends are for sure going to think I’ve lost my mind 🥲#I’m trying so hard to not judge myself or get self conscious or hide my art I’M TRYING #however when my brain decides to pull something like THIS outta the blue I start to question my life again lol #maybe visiting the Hana Lock art gallery today impacted me more then expected whoops #very skilled artist but she tends to do a lot of body horror as well #…..yea okay think I solved the culprit here #hplonesome art #tw body horror #body horrow cw #cw body horror #tw mild gore #smg4 mr. puzzles #mr. puzzles smg4 #….still a tad worried about people finding it so thats the only tags I’m brave to put at the moment #even though I know it’s not the popular ones #might change it later though who knows!

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oscargender · 6 months ago

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Heartbreaking: “problematic” danmei everyone told you to avoid is actually pretty decent and has mildly interesting things to say about poverty and class

#nothing here is groundbreaking or even particularly deep but I do love seeing politics in my silly little gay books #idk. I genuinely think injecting your stories with politics makes them better #even if it’s relatively surface-level stuff like ‘poverty is violence’ it still hits different than #fiction that goes out of its way to try to be ‘apolitical’#(it never actually is apolitical. it just exposes what the author considers to be ‘too controversial’ for general audiences)#erha #2ha #the husky and his white cat shizun #anyway erha hasn’t been anywhere near as traumatizing as people on tumblr make it out to be #like it’s not light reading and you should probably read the trigger tags before diving in #but it’s also not The Most Evil and Problematic Book ever y’know?#cleaning out my drafts #I’m trying to kill cringe and fandom purity culture on this blog so I’m trying to be brave and talk about more controversial things #this has been sitting in my drafts for a very long time

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napping-sapphic · 3 months ago

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idk if i’m just THAT tired of feeling awful and dealing with so much life stuff lately but i’ve decided that actually i’m going to like myself and allow myself to have a nice day this time thanks

#it’ll be okay it’ll be okay it’ll be okay #it’s OKAY to have a fun day today #😪😪#i dont like events #they stress me out and i never know how to react to them #BUT #im gonna try something new and be fine about it all this time😤#and i am absolutely 100% NOT going to be bothered by the Relative Situations™️ today i REFUSE😤#they are not worth me stressing about today #sorry i had to manifest somewhere #there’s like The Thing today and i’m going to try to be SO brave and happy about it for the first time in like six years #and i am ironically very worried and stressed about that lol #and not confident about how well i’ll succeed but i’m going to TRY and that’s what’s important #pls ignore me hyping myself up at 2 am lol #had to get it out so i could go to sleep😤

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rozugold · 1 year ago

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I think I lost three years of photos :(

#I’m trying to be brave about it bcus there’s so many other things to be rightfully upset over #but I’m a little devastated. jus a lil #I thought my phone was in limbo and still had a chance to recover it but ig not #rozu thoughts

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perhaps-mr-collins-has-a-cousin · 10 months ago

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Hello praying people, I'm not doing well and would really appreciate your prayers right now <3

#long very boring and unnecessarily detailed tag monologue incoming‚ feel free to skip:#this is going to sound like a silly thing to be hitting rock bottom over #but i’m fairly certain i have a semi-rare skin condition known as sensitive skin syndrome #which is basically where skin gets progressively more sensitive #until it won’t tolerate the topical application of anything at all without getting irritated #usually it happens to people on the skin of their face and i have it there but i also specifically have it on my lips #(which apparently is extremely not normal; i found a dermatologist’s case study from like 2019 of one woman who had it on her lips #and according to this case study there were no other cases of people having it on their lips #in all the dermatological literature he had read)#i can’t follow the protocol which all the journal articles i’ve been able to find say is helpful for the rest of the face which is basicall #leave the area the heck alone for at least a year #because if i don’t apply anything to my lips for more than two or three days they will get so dry they crack and bleed #so it’s looking like one way or another i may be having to deal with dry burning irritated lips for the rest of my life #and i’m not dealing with the thought of that very well #i’ve already suffered so much anguish from extreme sensitivity on the rest of my face #and not being able to take proper care of the skin there #and this is just too much for me #i know God is allowing this for a reason but it’s filling me with so much frustration and panic and despair that i don’t know how to go on #but i must and i will #this isn’t a serious or a life-threatening condition but it’s looking like a pretty hopeless one and it’s hurting me badly #and i would appreciate prayers that it would just be healed or that i would know what to do #i think i will try going to my dermatologist but somehow i doubt she's even heard of sensitive skin syndrome #on a COMPLETELY unrelated note i'm just about to get my period and also for two days i've ''eaten'' nothing but vegetable smoothies #and those in pretty small amounts because they're disgusting #(do a detox my hormonal health doctor said)#(it'll be fun she said)#ok if you read this far you're so brave braver than any u.s. marine etc.#thanks for reading ily <3

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djotime · 9 months ago

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doing something scared today (going to the movies by myself for the first time)

#i feel so nauseous about it but i’m trying to be brave

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kirahlene · 11 months ago

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This is real rough but uh I think I’m improving maybe 🤔

I can’t get enough of mentally fucked up elves

#kirahlene moment #my art #wip #doodle #bg3 tav #bg3 durge #bg3 oc #dnd oc art #dnd oc #high elf #I get so scared putting my stuff out there but I’m trying to be brave about it 🥺#also I think my friends like seeing me make stuff #or at least I like seeing my friends/mutuals post their art so maybe the feeling is mutual #I just wanna have fun

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neixins · 9 months ago

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be honest with me besties. are there any more creepy crawlies in dunmeshi after the first few volumes?

#why did none of u warn me about the treasure insects and the fucking. parasite 😭#i’m trying to be so brave about it but i can’t go through that again

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the-casbah-way · 2 months ago

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i found loads of pictures of my uncle i am going 2 cry

#he looked so sweet…..he looks SO much like my dad #i found the last picture of him that my granddad took a month or so before he died it’s so sad #trying to decide if i should tell my mum that i know about him or if i should just keep it to myself #idk if somethings wrong with me maybe it’s because i was already grieving before i found out #but it’s really getting 2 me i can’t concentrate on my uni shit i just keep thinking about it #i think i rlly need to talk about it with someone but i have no idea who or how or what i’d say. but it’s weird because it’s a secret yk #like i’m not even supposed to know he existed #idk. i have a gender clinic appointment next week and i’m going to ask if they can recommend any therapists #me being very very brave and trying therapy again after being forced into it my whole life and ending up a bit traumatised #idk. i feel bad that i’m alive and i’m wasting my life when my uncle got killed when he was just a kid #it makes me feel like i should be more grateful and do more with myself.#and i am going to try but i’d rather he was here instead. same with my granddad #every time i experience something beautiful or good i wish my granddad could experience it because he deserved it more than me #and the best i can do is experience it for him and be grateful. but i would chance places instantly if i could #him and his kid deserve to be here they were so special. i know i don’t know his kid but i’ve heard they were similar #so i know he must have been special too #i found a fb comment today from a family friend i’ve never met and she was saying that she only met my granddad once #but she called him gentle and it made me cry. because he was very scottish and sweary and traditional and masculine #so everyone just assumed he was tough and scary but if you knew him he was really quiet and kind #and i’m glad someone who only met him once could see that #i’m going to be half asleep for the rest of my life i think. i’ve been dreaming since my granddad died and i don’t feel like i ever woke up #nothing has felt real since i was nine years old. everything just stopped and never started again #i’ve just been waiting. i’m waiting for him to change his mind and come back. idk. i don’t know what to do with myself #and i continuously feel fucking insane and stupid for being this way. it’s like fresh grief all the fucking time #but it was fifteen years ago. why does it still feel this way #i can’t even tell people because they won’t understand why i’m still so bothered by it #he was my parent for nine years. i lived with him he was my sole caretaker #i was nonverbal and him and my brother were the only people on the planet who knew what my voice sounded like #he’d think it was silly if i failed my exam because i was crying about him instead #he’d tell me to whisht and stick in. so i will

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seventh-district · 2 months ago

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tfw u finally go to make urself a dinner plate and some nasty ass man walks into the kitchen, picks up the entire serving bowl of creamed corn and puts his filthy mouth on the bowl like it’s a giant cup and tilts it straight in. multiple times. 🙃

#could you not wait long enough to get a fucking spoon and your own bowl like a civilized human respectful of other people #Seven’s Public Diary #vent #vent post #food mention #yeah no it’s cool it’s fine it’s not like i wanted to eat some too or anything #it’s not like that’s one of the only vegan dishes here that i can therefore eat haha no it’s fine #i guess a normal person wouldn’t let it bother them but my OCD is having none of it. that corn is Tainted with your Mouth Germs now #oh what you want one of the last rolls that i was gonna eat? yeah no that’s cool man that’s fine eat as much as you want! :)#i hate the holidays more and more every year. nothing but stress and for what. i don’t even like these people #but whatever i guess i shouldn’t bitch about it when i choose to remain here #as if everyone with a shitty family has the power and ability to just Leave. i don’t think you realize the extent of my disability #but fucking whatever #someone put dirty plates in the cabinet with the clean ones #someone put the turkey in with a sink full of dishes #someone put the mashed potatoes in the bread box #i’m not even exaggerating #ahhh the joys of being the only sober person here. man what the actual hell. what level of intoxication must one reach to do this shit #whatever it’s fine i just have to learn to stop giving a fuck. let them be stupid and live with the consequences.#it’s late and i’m getting a stress headache. time to go brave the kitchen once more and actually get food this time #then i can be miserable in bed. but with food :) and eat myself sick as a shitty form of self-soothing #but it’s fine today bc it’s literally Eat Too Much day in the US so for once it’s kinda normal #then be too tired and depressed to make myself brush my teeth. and therefore contribute to my dental issues. two birds and all that #am i even making sense anymore. im so tired. of being a person. and like. existing #but im grateful to have food and running water and electricity and a place to sleep and everything else i take for granted #so i should just focus on that and try to ignore all the bad #ough i feel sick. okay Food Time fr this time. let’s hope no one’s in the kitchen now

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nuclear-wiener420 · 1 year ago

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my acnh game after three years of not being thought about at all:

#nuclear-wiener420 #thoughts w/ nuke #animal crossing new horizons #acnh #i restarted my island and have spent literally all day trying to get the island i want #i’m mostly looking for a specific fruit and airport at this point #i’ll take the fucking piss monkey if it means i get the base of the island i want #gonna try again tomorrow wish me luck on finding my island i have to be so brave at work and wait til after my shift #i have so many plans in mind for my island though and i’m so excited #i also have the dlc and i’m SO excited to get that sorted about bc i have BIG plans for that :)#ac brainrot #also this is not my original photo i found it on google creds to og creator wherever they are

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gregmarriage · 4 months ago

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can’t decide what to do tonight, barely feel like watching a show or a movie, or playing a game or anything

#like i’m gonna figure it out #i’m just gonna complain about it first lol #i’d really like to talk to cupcake but i fear that’s probably not gonna happen for a bit :(#so i’m left to my own devices #it’ll be nice to catch up later tho <3 #bc i’m lame i am making up convos in my head with them #until i can talk to them for real #it’s nice except it also does make me miss them #but it’s okay i am being so brave about it 😌#i am also resolutely trying not to think about the fact that my surgery is coming up #like it’s fine i don’t need to be nervous i’ll just go and get it over with #but until it is i’m just kinda…here #vague limbo vibes of waiting for something ya know?#anyways whatever i think i need a chill night tonight #but also if i come back complaining about my own choices bc i did something not chill like watched a fucked up movie or something then uhhh #oopsie imao #gwen rambles #gwenposting

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rosaacicularis · 2 years ago

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why is it. that the only times i get super motivated to write. is when i cannot physically write anything.

#if you couldn’t tell i’m at work at being very brave about it #I JUST WANT TO WROTE MY BBC MERLIN SCARIAN AU #WHERE CUB AND SCAR ARE BESTIES AND GRIAN AND CUB BECOME BESTIES TOO AFTER THEY BIND IVER HAVING MAGIC AND BEING TIRED OF TRYING TO KEEP SCAR #FROMDYING AND MUMBO BECOMES A KNIGHT AND THEN HE AND GRIAN BOND OVER BEING NEW TO CAMELOT #AND CUB ALSO HAS TO MAKE SURE GRIAN DOESNT REVEAL HIS MAGIC TO ANYONE BECAUSE HES ACTUALLY SO UNSUBTLE ABOUT IT #he develops an eye twitch (in his other eye; scar had already given him one)#i just love them so much <3<3 #cub and jumbo bond over having to deal with grain and scar pining over each other #exasperatedly fond of their besties <3 #scarian #desert duo #hermitshipping #grian #gtws #cubfan135 #mumbo jumbo #merlin au

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