#i’m feeling pretty rough
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i don’t feel lucky, punk
i don’t
#do you feel lucky punk#well do you#no#this is a stupid post#but it’s real#it’s true#i’m feeling pretty rough#and don’t know what to do#and don’t know how to explain to people why#or how they aren’t helping#i know they mean well#they mean so well#but just because they mean well doesn’t mean they do the right thing#doesn’t mean they can’t make it worse#even if they’re trying to make it better#even when trying not to hurt you#it can still hurt#my thoughts#uni shit#dirty harry#dirty harry incorrect quote
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sans looking at ice or something
#sans#undertale#finished this…… :] for my design class. a little rough around the edges. but i think it’s pretty nice#i’m friends with everyone at my table in that class & they all wanted to see how it turned out. one of the#m literally had their jaw drop#i wanted to don a giant pink tutu and twirl around in circles so fast it’d create a tornado that could shred the entire building#wowie…. cool people think my art is cool… feels pretty nice!!!#i want to make cool music soon too. i’m having so much fun. but a big hurdle is figuring out how to get a good drumbeat#if anyone reading this is familiar with music… can you dm me with some tips... and like dumb them down for me please. i was born yesterday!#beepbox’s drums are so hard to decode
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What do you mean I’m a bit late for Janus’ big day? Of course not, how could you say such a thing! I definitely didn’t forget all about it in my absence and only get reminded in the incorrect quotes video live chat; that’s not like me at all ;]
Anyways I decided to dress our sassy snake in some different outfits I think he’d like. He seems like the type to get all dolled up on his birthday and it goes with Thomas posting pics in outfits inspired by the sides on their appreciation days!
@thatsthat24
#sanders sides#janus sanders#ts janus#thomas sanders#sanders sides fanart#my hoard#I’ve returned!#the newest asides came out and I remembered how much I love it#so I’m hyperfixated again and I’ve not now peace since#it is nice to actually finish something again tho#I’ve been pretty busy working lately and now I’m starting to pack to move into my first apartment!#so not much time to really sit down and draw#and when I do have time I can’t get the motivation to actually draw anything#I want to get better about posting stuff on here#(even though it feels like I’m just dreaming into the void a lot)#even just silly little things or rough sketches I’ll never finish#I hope it’ll help me continue to draw and make things again#I forgot how nice it is#anyways if you’ve read this far thanks#have a cookie :] 🍪
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Soon after his escape, Edwin starts to learn about the things he’s missed.
#this is the cenotaph in London btw#also hc their clothes change with their mindset so the bow tie coming undone was on purpose not a consistency error teehee#this is in 1989 not long after they met#I’m having feelings about Edwin learning about historical events#this might be a bit oc for him to cry in front of Charles but I think the adjustment period after his escape must have been pretty rough#*ooc*#most people Edwin knew in life would have lived through ww2#I’m sure he feels conflicted about it#he went to hell but if he had lived his life would have been horrific aswell#my art#dead boy detectives#charles rowland#edwin payne#dead boy detective agency#dead boy detectives art#dead boy detectives fanart#dbda#dbda art#dbda fanart#dbda comic#renew dead boy detectives
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I’m writing a poolverine fic right now and am very tempted to add a very funny looking cat, so like Wade brought home the funny looking dog and then Logan brings home the funny looking cat, I’m particularly inspired because there is an “ugly” cat on BC spca shelter website that I’m a little obsessed with, I think I can make it fit but I’m a little iffy if it would feel right, what do you think
Here is a picture of the actual cat for reference
#yes he has a crumpled ear#my cat hates other cats so I unfortunately couldn’t get him#I just like browsing the website#but he did have an adoption pending last I checked#so I’m sure he’ll go to a loving home#the fix is post canon so dogpool is already their dog when the cat comes into the picture#I’m not gonna give anything else about the fic away#you have to vote with little to no context on the fic#poolverine#deadpool and wolverine#deadclaws#dogpool#just a warning things would start off pretty rough for this cat#but obviously happy ending where the cat would move in with them and live happily ever after#being besties with dogpool#the cat also wouldn’t be like the main focus of the fic#the fic is very stable on its own without the cat#I just feel like it would be fun
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Please please don’t listen to your mind when it plunges you into the depths of despair. It’s lying to you, I promise. Please pray, read some scripture, sing some comfort songs, eat food and drink water, then eat popcorn and drink tea. Take a walk outside in your bare feet and then take a long warm shower. This too shall pass.
#courage dear heart#been having some rough mental health days lately and I’m not entirely sure why#I’ve been waiting to hear back from the college I applyed to and am about to switch jobs again when school starts back for my nieces so#having those things up in the air is a little unsettling#and I’m also pondering a couple things about God and wrestling with some of my beliefs about him that may be wrong which makes me feel#a little more distant from him but not like a crisis or anything#and I still think there’s a hormonal element really out of wack here#my brain should not be giving me the thoughts it’s giving me over pretty small disappointments and circumstances#would appreciate prayers just for peace if anyone reads this
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Well, on the upside, Veilguard’s absolutely horrid writing and utter lack of meaningful roleplay mechanics made me appreciate Inquisition’s already watered-down writing and roleplay mechanics.
#Emmrich’s pretty much the only decent companion but my god.#This game feels like a daycare simulator.#No option but to be nice to and validate everyone even when they’re being objectively awful themselves (looking at Taash in particular)#The stakes should feel high but instead I just feel like I’m babysitting toddlers#And normally I’m a completionist who loves doing all the quests but the game actively forces you into it#You HAVE to recruit all the companions; you HAVE to baby and validate them all; you HAVE to complete all their quests#No option to even mention the supposed Dire Stakes of the universe.#The game treats you like you’re seven and over-explains everything to you. The maps are terrible even if they look good.#The voice acting for a few companions is… questionable.#For a game we waited ten years for it feels like someone’s rough/unfinished first draft.#And again no truly meaningful roleplay choices or actions.#The game just forces you to be nice to everyone. Rook feels like an inveterate spectator and an invertebrate to boot. Utterly spineless.#Every time we see a returning companion I feel like Hadvar: ‘Who… are you?’#Because they act nothing like their previously established personalities & it’s like Veilguard goes out of its way to ignore previous games#The head writer’s self-insert is painfully obvious and atrociously-written in particular#You can only be a Good Nice Guy#Maybe sometimes a Stern Nice Guy and very occasionally a Nice Guy Who Thinks He’s Funny But Isn’t#Just! My god.#I want to return the game. For the first time ever in my life.#So disappointed.#text#chey.txt
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i hate being
so desperate for love. sometimes i feel
like i’m in fourth grade again, forcing myself
to have crushes on the boys
in my math class because this is what everyone was
talking about: all my friends,
all my books, all the movies, all the songs.
suddenly i’m telling myself again
that this is what it’s supposed to feel
like, that this is natural like i wasn’t
staring at myself in the mirror to practice
my best “oh no, you’ve caught me!” face
for when i try to shift the conversation
to announce the very real crush to assure
that yes, this is normal, i am normal. like i haven’t
stated at my cheeks to see
if they go red, at my pupils
to see if they dilate. it hurts
more when it’s not a discussion
of sexuality. it hurts more now
that i’ve actually known love. everyone’s
in love. i was in love. it’s embarrassing
that i don’t know how to not be
loved. i never grew out of playing pretend,
so maybe i’ll be soothed if she at least smiles
and says it nice enough when we know
she doesn’t. she doesn’t have to
tell me that. i won’t tell her
about the A. we’ll pretend we care
for a month at best, a week at worst, then i’ll go back
to searching the shallow seas
for an ankle i was meant to
latch on and leech from.
— i was born crying, begging for a gentle hand
#i get tired trying to wrap things up pretty so here’s something plain#anyway this was one of the results of that midterm dread mixed w/ pre-period dread lmao#anyway this is really really rough ngl 😭#like i mean the only thing i edited before posting this was the line breaks#and the only reason i even broke it into lines was because some of them were really strong tbh#anyway i might or might not actually refine this. i won’t be adding to it but idk#it just feels so basic to me i hate it 😫#it just. idk. i’m trying to not say ‘not one of my better works’ because like i said it’s a virtually first draft#i hope i can eventually revise & refine it into something i like#the patron saint of asexual poets#poetry#poem#poems#original poems#original poetry#original poem#original writing#creative writing#poets on tumblr#writers on tumblr#lgbtq poem#lgbtq poetry#lgbtq poet#lgbtq poems
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hiiii just wanted to share this *really rough* little thing i finished today just cause 😗🫶
#it’s pretty rough#the back could’ve been so much better#(it’s purposely dirty dw but i still feel it could’ve been like better placed)#but like i haven’t done a mixed media piece in a min#and who better than to make an angsty piece with a maple leaf#and ofc ofc i’m picking bunts cause i’m in such a fucking mood for him#my god if he leaves me istg#istg istg istg i will kill someone#but yeah#i’m thinking of making this like a series or something when i have time#anyways i don’t think i’ve ever shared ‘art’ here so enjoy <333333#be nice pls 😭😭 I SAID IT WAS ROUGH SHEKWHEJQHWLENWKJWKRJEME#toronto maple leafs#michael bunting#g! talks personal#hockey art!#nhl art
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whb has made me come to realize i…may be a bit more of a dom than i originally thought…
#i mean i’ve always been into things being a little rough but#i’m even more into being mean that i’d ever really thought before…#sure wish i could explore that more but…i like the powerful feeling and the give and take and everything. i like calling the shots lol#still a switch but maybe not as much of a sub as i’ve been defaulted to in the past…#i could never be a hard sub for sure though. if you tease me i’ll try to tease right back. and if you’re mean to me i’m not just gonna take#that lying down#what in hell is bad#dear satan thank u for opening my eyes on this one#there’s a sentence i never thought i’d say in my lifetime#sounds pretty bad outta context too. my b God. u know we still cool.
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My mom stopped doing therapy a few years ago and I wish that she hadn’t. I mean, a therapist isn’t going to help the fundamental issues, esp not at this point. Heck she was in therapy throughout my entire childhood and it’s not like that made her not abuse me. But her dad just died and she’s having lots of feelings about it and if she took those feelings to a therapist instead of me that would be great. But she flat out refuses every time my dad or I bring it up.
#text post#my post#I’m doing a pretty good job of not letting her vent to me#but I can tell she wants to#like she’ll start crying on the phone and say how she’s having such a rough time with grandpa’s death#and I can feel her waiting for me to ask but I just say ‘I’m sorry it’s been so difficult’ etc#but yeah it would be nice if a) she’s stop trying to get me to ask and b) she’s actually get some help for her own sake#can you tell I spoke to my mother and asked her to get therapy today?#her response: ‘no I don’t want to go there. I’m just going to wait until trump wins in November and then assess’#me internally: fuck is this another reference to suicide? does she want to kill herself if he wins?#me externally: ‘do you think you’ll leave the country?’#bc I was not opening the fucking ‘if the world gets worse let’s just kill our selves’ conversation again#but I’m pretty sure that’s what she wax implying. but I’m ignoring that thank you very much#suicide cw#just in case
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my art from the na vs art party!! took me a lil bit cuz i wanted to color it and that meant cleaning up the sketches and then i wanted to shade them and hajsksldhaflk
the characters from left to right:
Quinn Teeling - @sunsrefuge
Ambrose Wolfsbane - @commander-gloryforge
Finnegän - @pinecone-enthusiast
Astrëllä - @ohpollenpowder
#vsartparty#gw2#guild wars 2#others ocs#my art#also!!! please let me know if i got any of the names or tumblrs wrong!! especially ambrose cuz i didn’t get the name in my ref screenshot#i did go thru the art party tag to find the character i drew and i’m like 99% sure it’s ambrose but if it’s not him i’m SO SORRY#ahhh i hope people like them ajhsjalakf#like i know that getting art of ur oc is usually great no matter what but i get anxious lol#also i used a new shading technique and idk how i feel about it#like i like how i blended out the edges and stuff#but i might have to play with using different colors in different areas instead of just using the same purple lol#really happy with how i did the hair this time tho!! i feel like i usually like hair better in the sketching phase#cuz it’s all loose and rough and messy#i just feel like i get the shape and idk vibe? of the hair better then#and when i get to lines or shading i feel like i end up making the hair too solid? like i lose the flowy-ness of the hair and stuff#anyway i think i did pretty good with it this time tho!! i liked adding the highlights a lot :)#…i actually kinda was referencing an old how to draw manga book i got when i was 11#listen. it was one of the good ones and had actually good tips and info#and the way it showed shading hair kinda influenced me here and i think it worked!#oh wow i really rambled in the tags this time#there’s a reason my personal texts posts (at least on my main) are tagged as ‘regan rambles’
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i was not made for 6pm dinner, i was made for 4:30pm dinner and 8pm second dinner and 10pm dessert. tbh.
#i don’t really feel this way about mornings. but afternoons are always fucking Rough#<- exception. if i’m up pretty early like before 7. then breakfast and a later snack and lunch are required#but MOST days if i eat breakfast i won’t be hungry for lunch#but afternoons always follow this pattern
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I call these sketches “trying to avoid a late night mental breakdown using an AU I came up with”
#(They are pretty rough sketches but I’m too excited not to share)#they are college roommates#preston lindsay#timothy hunter#IK IT DOESNT REALLY LOOK LIKE THEM BUT#ITS A SKETCH PLUS ITS COLLEGE THEM#it goes so much deeper than what I show here#just trying to get a feel for drawing them as college peeps#bro istg I’m gonna make the fan comic once I’m done with a couple more pressing projects#sketch#art wip#concept sketch#catwouthats art
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Cyberpunk 2077 is my favorite anti-capitalist game that I spent 70 dollars to play
#like is it worth 70 dollars#I Guess?#I know it took years and so many people to actually put this game together#and the basegame and dlc for seventy dollars total is such a steal in comparison to say#a certain life simulator game I play#but the actual game Cyberpunk in itself is so inaccessible already#like my gaming laptop can run the sims with all dlc and custom content on ultra graphics EASY#buy trying to run cyberpunk even on the lowest graphics is like#ROUGH#and like paying 70 dollars for the LOWEST graphics setting is pretty mid#like yeah they got Keanu Reeves as the cool brain parasite#but that only speaks to me on a personal level because I have a mental health issue that causes me to have Keanu Reeves as a brain parasite#in my actual real life#the story is so great but there’s so many side quests that no matter how many hours I play the game for I’ll never actually COMPLETE it#cyberpunk is my FAVORITE game and I do NOT regret buying it bc the story is there the world is there the characters are there#but it feels so superficial knowing I spent a quarter of my paycheck to spend 30 hours being like#‘that’s right Johnny Silverhand we should fuck em up’#i think it’s more that cyberpunk feels like a story the world really needs right now#but it’s only accessible to such a niche group of people#especially since the game got so much hate on launch#and yeah there is the anime now but the anime doesn’t even TOUCH a VAST MAJORITY of night city#the anime doesn’t have the same depth and wonder that the game has because the game is about a city and the show is about 1 group of people#cyberpunk 2077 really resonated with me in such a unique way and I love it so much I can’t even begin to describe my hyperfixation#but the graphics and first person camera give me motion sickness#and my wallet cried for three days when I bought the game#and so much of the actual political ideology is lost on me Because of the price point#I’m gonna play it anyway tho bc I’ve never seen my own brain parasites represented as video game characters before#twink speaks#Twink plays cyberpunk 2077#not cc
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also I started adhd meds yesterday and I love them!!! ^_^
#blahblahblah#I was nervy about it because I know there can be pretty rough side effects#or that I was lying to myself and everyone and I didn’t even have adhd and it wouldn’t work#but it works! and I’m so happy!#the only bad part is when I can feel them start to leave my system and then I’m like ???? I lived like this#but also it’s been a day and a half so things could change
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