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No Mámán I Do Not Want To Look Like A Lady I Want To Look Like Someone Who’s Playing Five-Dimensional Chess With Gender and Winning
#*bridgerton voice*#when i think of it gender mostly means nothing to me#i haven’t spoken about this to anyone#but like#it doesn’t really mean anything does it#of course i respect YOUR gender reader#but to me personally#well I don’t care much about it#i would not have said that an year ago#wowie#have a good day chat
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if we could stay connected, just like this
#ok last orbit niigo post im emubrained again and also i miss leoneed#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#mizuki5 spoilers#proseka#mizuki akiyama#mizu5#nightcord at 25:00#hurray !#meltdown released an amazing translation of the event so i read it and had my final cathartic transgender cry about it#and now i have ~4 assignments due on friday so i have to stop drawing mizuki. sad.#i recommend everyone watch meltdown's translation#please. its very good and better than the mtls floating around#i Get why people wanted to see it translated asap like i Get it i didnt understand half of the wordplay or kanji but like . wah#its so crazy how this event breached containment n how many people are rooting for mizuki even tho they dont play the game so i just#think its a shame that the translation everyones reading isnt really accurate/lacks the nuances.. Ok sorrynits a good event.#ive just been thinking abiut that for a few days and i love talking in tags. Adios#real Orbit heads will know this is an Heartorbit reference (that tarot card sketch i did almost 2 years ago and said i would finish)#(i havent finished shit)
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been replaying the Portal series I think this is where its heading
#i haven't drawn in like. half a month. which listen i know i don't post much here but i do draw a lot#i have another blog. but also sometimes i just don't post things. i draw for myself#just got burnt out from working on an animation final 😔#so anyway. eased myself back in with a silly comic about portal#my irl saw my shitty sketch and thought glados was painting chell which is very funny to me.#chelldos#but like. unrequited. glados is obsessed with chell. chell is not having a good time#portal#chell#GlaDOS#GlaD0S#my art#og post#1k#5k#10k#20k#yuri#shipping#edit: i made this post almost a year ago and it haunts me. theres a typo. chell is out of character.#because i couldn't come up with a good reason for her to be there in the first place#and this was a shitty ms paint replicating drawing that i did just to get back into drawing#i didn't think it would gain much attention#i was Wrong#anyway someone in the comments said this is what happens when you speedrun thats an infintely better setup for the punchline#EDIT 2: ok i fixed it fuck you
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#a doodley#i had to make this blue so tumblr would stop hiding it from the dash#anyway no caption this happened 2 hrs ago#im happy abt my surgery but it and other things this year keep beinging conversations like these up#and i cant handle it at all.#everything my dad tells me just makes me feel worse and not bc its anything bad but bc I Feel Bad#like the conversation then continued to him being like no dont cry im just saying i wpuld have wanted to#quit my job decades ago and set aside money so I wouldnt be struggling as much now but that didnt happen#and i just dont want that to happen to you guys :)#so we have to support u so that your life is what u want it to be#and i cried even more bc what do u mean. thats so sad. ur a person and u were a child and baby once and ur gonna die#and you always almost cry when u talk about your mom who passed away decades ago#and your brothers that passed away#recently and im going to be your age and still sobbing bc i miss my dad. just like i have been prematurely crying about since i was 7#the other day my dad asked my mom if i cried a lot when i was a baby/kid and my mom said no and then my dad#said that when i Did cry it was so severe he thought i would ''drown in my own tears''#bc i could never stop. like. thats still true today. ive been crying on and off since then#i think i mentioned he's just been telling me stories about his life lately and it further fuels this. i get so sad. im sorry your life was#like this. i dont want to die i dont want you to die im sad im sorry im sorry#im scared. im never going to see you again. how horrible. how horrible#i cant enjoy my day today bc every day is a day closer and i get sad
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so i got through to the top 300 for the pokemon tcg contest. i'm feeling normal about it........feeling very normal and sane. which is why i also drew this in ms paint
#my art#pokemon#pikachu#i saw they announced the shortlist and i didn't have any email saying i'd gotten through or anything so i was expecting nothing#got jumpscared by my own art#anyway after pretending to be normal AUGAHAGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH OH GOD!!!!!#TOP 300 ARE YOU KIDDING ME I NEVER THOUGHT#WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE I AM!!!!!!!!!!!#okay i'm fine. for real though i'm so flattered and excited there's so many gorgeous beautiful entries!!#to echo what i said on my side blog: if my art was put on a pokemon card i think i would collapse into subatomic matter#and become a perfect blackberry on a bush 50 years ago in new hampshire england#paraphrased#anyway i'm excited maybe you can tell
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so I learned a few things this year:
painting more realistically doesn't equal painting 'better'
you can't hate yourself into loving your own work
✨just say NO✨
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#phia talks#took me long enough#according to my brother#who also said#'that tracks#statistically'#wish I would have figured it out 10 years ago#but ALAS#at this rate I'll be late to my own funeral
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Taking a moment to touch on some more seasonal aspects of Reaper/Underworld culture! The Annual Office Party™ is an event that is much looked forward to, even if the ensuing consequences may be...less than ideal >:'D
Again, major props to @humming-fly and @alagaesia-overlord for helping put together the brain cells for this and for also let me drag around their OCs like the rag dolls at all times <3
Closeups of the polaroids in the first panel are also under the cut! 👇
#aseukiart#kirby oc#breakroom gossip#kirby headcanons#halloween#phemus#strix#alcohol mention#Dispenses a mini lore post. Just for u all 💖#This was supposed to be done like a week ago but I. Forgor.#You'd think they would have learned after the week of all nighters from scooping up all the souls#that slipped past bc of decreased security#but what can be said coworker Jeff just makes the meanest cocktails every year#Makes it worthsies every time#forgor to add the timestamps but I hope u all know that#there's like a 10 min gap at Maximum between the Married and Divorced pics
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Cold sores are thought to be best addressed by lancing the sore to remove polluted blood, washing with vinegar, applying a paste of honey + tansy + horsefat. In frequently recurring cases, it's considered best practice to also shave the face to eliminate any lingering traces of infection. This is the most psychologically devastating thing that Brakul has ever experienced in his life.
#A while ago I said that shaving facial hair was performed as part of purifications but that's null it makes more sense for it to#figure into the medical model as a means of attempting to address illnesses in the skin (along with shaving other parts of#the body as applicable)#It would be assumed that infectious dagi can hide themselves in the hair. Routinely trimming head and beard hair in general is#considered good hygiene in this respect and shaving would be seen as a drastic means of elimination (but not something to be#performed on a regular basis as most body hair is regarded as having a positive function + is Wanted on men. And especially#not with head hair as keeping it long is a strong cultural standard and under normal conditions only cut short in mourning)#(Shaving the head for medical reasons would typically be reserved for attempts to treat potentially fatal skin diseases)#Also the majority of the adult population has herpes (also true in 21st century real life). Brakul just had a really bad year of frequent#outbreaks when he first got it. Has refused to shave in the less frequent outbreaks since because LOOK the bloodletting and#pastes work it goes away after a few days it's FINE do not FUCKING SHAVE ME
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Me possessed by a triangle
The joke is that I would act normal possessed
@frayedcircus thanks for wanting to see this! Lamo hope ya like it<3
#0m3n#yeah another installment of me thinking I’m funny#might reblog this on my evil account with what I said but typed as I realized it might be hard to read what I wrote#bill cipher#gravity falls#haha yeah fulfilling 11 years old me fantasy of being in gravity falls#yeah I would be some cryptic working at the mystery shack#also gravity falls is so great because one best twin rep second I have a twin so it’s so me and him fr#short comic#artists on tumblr#art#illustration#my art#digital art#2024 art#mindlessly doodling#hehehe yeah I really do think I’m funny#stan pines#sorry bby I didn’t use reference#I really do like possessed stories though lamo was thinking about doing that with Otto/Yog but I dunnno#yeah I’m extremely burnt out on drawing so be prepared for like two weeks silence#I meant to post this like a week ago!! SORRY#ok yeah I lied I have more art#but still burnt out
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when the crack ship starts getting so serious you start making a comic for it
#it’s sharkface / mark temple. i just think they have lots of parallels. mainly the fact that they hate freelancers#ok but the story behind this is that i came up with a short comic about a scene between them 3 years ago.#and then i suddenly found it again and had absolutely no recollection of writing it or drawing the thumbnails.#so i posted it like haha guys look at this. and then someone was like i would pay you money to make this.#so i said bet#now here we are
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Your Adult Chara makes me think that they act like a sad dramatic wine aunt who has always the widest stories, the wisest advice and a drink in their hands (it's hot chocolate) in their mid 20s, is it accurate or am I being insane?
100% accurate, chocoholic auncle chara is the role model the children deserve 👍
(the ghost in question was frisk, they're just saving that detail for the end of the story)
#holoskart#undertale#undertale art#underswap mh#swap mh pacifist family#chara#charity (swap mh chara)#summer & autumn#alphyne fankid#alphyne fanchild#undertale fankid#undertale fanchild#doodles#holoskart asks#'and the moral of the story is don't let the dead 8 year old in your soul possess you the same day you have a political meeting'#I realise now after drawing this that you only said the drink was hot chocolate and not that it was in a wine glass specifically#but they absolutely would do that. risk of glass breaking from heat be damned they Will put their favourite drink in the cool adult glass#also hey look I remembered the swap versions of my alphyne kids exist :]#I drew them once 5 years ago and then never again. whoops
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Misha: gets praised(again) or acknowledged for continuing to be the most vocal destiel and gay Cas supporter of the Cast.
Hellers on Tumblr: "how can I make this about Jensen?"
#misha collins#supernatural#castiel#destiel#it never fails#seeing posts popping up about Jackles acting choices as if certain fans on here hate to see misha get any recognition#look. idc about jacting joices. misha was mocked HEAVILY by this fandom antis and hellers alike#for his support of destiel soon as the show ended#in 2020-2022 when the cast was silent misha was out there making destiel trend regularly#folls saying he needs to move on or he's que#or he's queerbaiting#but whenever people celebrate the fact misha has always been supportive yall want to add minimize misha and make posts about Jackles#trying to make it seem like he's just as supportive when all he's done is talk around it#he said a year ago dean would have said 'i love you too' but people leave out the part about brotherhood#like Jackles ain't being silenced. he's trying to be nice about telling yall he don't sees that for dean#but mans knows he'll piss people off so he walks the neutral line and his stans act like he's heller king#while say *don't ask jensen questions about destiel or bi dean at panels*#miss me with that bullshit#Jackles THIS YEAR acknowledged that Cas *i love you* is romantic. okay but we been knew & misha been saying that#maybe in another 4 years he'll say destiel
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actually i'm still thinking about the moral orel finale.
he has a cross on his wall. do you know how much i think about that bc it's a lot.
a lot of stories ((auto)biographical or fictional) centering escape from abusive/fundamentalist christianity result in the lead characters leaving behind christianity entirely. and that makes complete sense! people often grow disillusioned with the associated systems and beliefs, and when it was something used to hurt them or something so inseparable from their abuse that they can't engage with it without hurting, it makes total sense that they would disengage entirely. and sometimes they just figure out that they don't really believe in god/a christian god/etc. a healthy deconstruction process can sometimes look like becoming an atheist or converting to another religion. it's all case by case. (note: i'm sure this happens with other religions as well, i'm just most familiar with christian versions of this phenomenon).
but in orel's case, his faith was one of the few things that actually brought him comfort and joy. he loved god, y'know? genuinely. and he felt loved by god and supported by him when he had no one else. and the abuses he faced were in how the people in his life twisted religion to control others, to run away from themselves, to shield them from others, etc. and often, orel's conflicts with how they acted out christianity come as a direct result of his purer understanding of god/jesus/whatever ("aren't we supposed to be like this/do that?" met with an adult's excuse for their own behavior or the fastest way they could think of to get orel to leave them alone (i.e. orel saying i thought we weren't supposed to lie? and clay saying uhhh it doesn't count if you're lying to yourself)). the little guy played catch with god instead of his dad, like.. his faith was real, and his love was real. and i think it's a good choice to have orel maintain something that was so important to him and such a grounding, comforting force in the midst of. All That Stuff Moralton Was Up To/Put Him Through. being all about jesus was not the problem, in orel's case.
and i know i'm mostly assuming that orel ended up in a healthier, less rigid version of christianity, but i feel like that's something that was hinted at a lot through the series, that that's the direction he'd go. when he meditates during the prayer bee and accepts stephanie's different way to communicate, incorporating elements of buddhism into his faith; when he has his I AM A CHURCH breakdown (removing himself from the institution and realizing he can be like,, the center of his own faith? taking a more individualistic approach? but Truly Going Through It at the same time), his acceptance (...sometimes) of those who are different from him and condemned by the adults of moralton (stephanie (lesbian icon stephanie my beloved), christina (who's like. just a slightly different form of fundie protestant from him), dr chosenberg (the jewish doctor from otherton in holy visage)). his track record on this isn't perfect, but it gets better as orel starts maturing and picking up on what an absolute shitfest moralton is. it's all ways of questioning the things he's been taught, and it makes sense that it would lead to a bigger questioning as he puts those pieces together more. anyway i think part of his growth is weeding out all the lost commandments of his upbringing and focusing on what faith means to him, and what he thinks it should mean. how he wants to see the world and how he wants to treat people and what he thinks is okay and right, and looking to religion for guidance in that, not as like. a way to justify hurting those he's afraid or resentful of, as his role models did.
he's coming to his own conclusions rather than obediently, unquestioningly taking in what others say. but he's still listening to pick out the parts that make sense to him. (edit/note: and it's his compassion and his faith that are the primary motivations for this questioning and revisal process, both of individual cases and, eventually, the final boss that is christianity.) it makes perfect sense as the conclusion to his character arc and it fits the overall approach of the show far better. it's good is what i'm saying.
and i think it's important to show that kind of ending, because that's a pretty common and equally valid result of deconstruction. and i think it cements the show's treatment of christianity as something that's often (and maybe even easily) exploited, but not something inherently bad. something that can be very positive, even. guys he even has a dog he's not afraid of loving anymore. he's not afraid of loving anyone more than jesus and i don't think it's because he loves this dog less than bartholomew (though he was probably far more desperate for healthy affection and companionship when he was younger). i think it's because he figures god would want him to love that dog. he's choosing to believe that god would want him to love and to be happy and to be kind. he's not afraid of loving in the wrong way do you know how cool that is he's taking back control he's taking back something he loves from his abusers im so normal
#i had a really big fundie snark phase a year or two ago so that's part of like. this. but im still not used to actually talking about#religious stuff so if it reads kinda awkwardly uhh forgive me orz idk#maybe it sounds dumb but i like that the message isn't 'religion is evil'. it easily could have been. but i think the show's points about#how fundie wasp culture in particular treats christianity and itself and others would be less poignant if they were like. and jesus sucks#btw >:] like. this feels more nuanced to me. i guess there's probably a way to maintain that nuance with an ultimately anti-christian#piece of media but i think it'd be like. wayy harder and it's difficult for me to imagine that bc i think a lot of it would bleed out into#the tone. + why focus on only These christians when They're All also bad? so you'd get jokes about them in general#and i think that's kinda less funny than orel and doughy screaming and running from catholics lsdkjfldksj#i think the specificity makes it more unique and compelling as comedy and as commentary. but that's just me#like moralton represents a very particular kind of christian community (namely a middle class fundie wasp nest)#you're not gonna be able to get in the weeds as much if you're laughing at/criticizing all christians. but they accomplish it so thoroughly#and WELL in morel and i think that's because it chose a smaller target it can get to dissect more intimately. anyway#moral orel#orel puppington#(OH also when i say wasp here i mean WASP the acronym. as in white anglo-saxon protestsant. in case the term's new to anyone <3)#maybe it's also relevant to say that i'm kindaaaaaaaa loosely vaguely nonspecifically christian. so there's my bias revealed#i was never raised like orel but i like to think i get some of what's going on in there y'know. in that big autistic head of his#but it's not like i can't handle anti-christian/anti-religious media/takes. i'm a big boy and also i v much get why it's out there yknow#christianity in specific has a lot of blood on its hands from its own members and from outsiders and people have a right to hate it for tha#but religion in all its forms can be positive and i appreciate the nuance. like i've said around 20 times. yeah :) <3#(<- fighting for my life to explain things even though my one job is to be the explainer)
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Crassus, Caelius, Cicero, Catiline, Conspiracy
boy howdy these four sure are something. not featured in this soup of C names, Caesar! what on earth happened here.
Plutarch, Crassus
Sallust on Crassus, Ronald Syme
Patron and Client, Father and Son in Cicero's "Pro Caelio"
Crassus' New Friends and Pompey's Return, Eve J. Parrish
Catullus and His World, T.P. Wiseman
Cicero's Catilinarians, D.H. Berry
#flash back to several years ago when I said I could never retain info on Catiline. Turns out the missing link was Crassus lmao#about halfway through drawing this i realized hbo rome era james purefoy would make a really good catiline#which is. not a good thought. bc when i start figuring out casts is when i start thinking thoughts like 'oh what if i did a comic'#conspiracy spotted. absolutely no survivors found here. good grief. we got whatever is going on with caelius. also some kind of divorce#but actually. hey cicero. HEY CICERO. I HAVE SOME QUESTIONS. FOR YOU ACTUALLY---#i remember kaine told me about the executions but i did not fully appreciate. exactly what any of it meant in context. i have context now!#i should've been drawing the man with fucked up wall shadows the entire time. my god.#drawing tag#roman republic tag#catiline#Lucius Sergius Catilina#have i never. tagged him by his full name here. i should draw him more#cicero#marcus tullius cicero#marcus licinius crassus#marcus caelius rufus
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Genuine question as I am curious — I know it’s pretty obvious with his expressions/ body language that Daniel seemed shy/insecure(?) about having his braces, but has he ever outright said anything about feeling that way with them? Just out of curiosity as I am new around here!
“I feel very different in terms of looks. Fortunately, experience also bought me better looks. I’m not really too fond of showing people photos of me when I was younger”
#well he doesn’t exactly say he was self-conscious of his braces but he was definitely very self-conscious about how he looked#it’s always very interesting to me the way Daniel talks about his younger self#it’s so different from how other f1 drivers talk about their early days#he’s so self-critical of younger him that I wish he was a bit more forgiving of younger him#the way he’s admitted he was never a standout talent during his karting days#that he was so hesitant to get involved in battles that his dad got mad at him#the way on the gypsy tales podcast he talks about Motocross riders being fearless and how he doesn’t have that until jase interrupts him -#to say how how mad he is because just a few days ago he was throwing a car around on a street circuit at some 300kph#the way in this video with will he describes himself walking into the paddock like a ‘headless chick’#the way he has said so many times he was scared to move away from home. how uncertain he was he would ever succeed#and then that one video towards the end of 2022 when he says ‘I was just Daniel then’ in reference to his younger self#like he has such a distinct way of looking at his younger self. like he views that part of him almost as a separate entity from the him now#and I guess that’s because it took a lot of work and years to build that confidence of becoming Daniel ricciardo#a confidence he got as he managed to survive the shark tank of the red bull junior academy#a confidence he got from beating his 4x wdc teammate. from winning the most insane races#and that confidence then getting completely decimated in the space of a few months in 2022#and even now the more he says he is confident you can still see that tiny hesitancy#how every time he gets a good result you see how he yearns to lean back into his confident Daniel schtick#and he may just completely embrace it soon anyway <3#daniel ricciardo#anon ask
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doodles
edgar vargas and squee by johnen vasquez
scriabin by zarla-s
#sunny's art#vargas#edgar vargas#vargas zarla#scriabin vargas#zarla s#scriabin#doodles#YOU THOUGHT YOU'D SEEN THE LAST OF ME . . . . !!!!#well HELLO !!!! I'M BACK !!!!!!!!#got a new brush . what do you think of it do you like it#okay i want to ramble about these wait a second#the first one looks a bit different to the rest because i was just trying new stuff .#if i spend a long time without drawing i'll forget how to draw and well it happened#i've changed my art style like 3 times now but i still draw side profiles the same . looks weird ugh#the mug says “ JESUS loves me BECAUSE no one else will ” btw . meta gave me the idea actually . thanks meta .#about the second one . finished that one like ten minutes ago . missed drawing todd aw#i just find their whole relationship so amusing .#like yes i went crazy for like a month and now i have a brother-husband and a kid ?!#they complement each other so well though . i love them#THE UNO ONE omg i've had that idea for like A YEAR NOW and i just drew it lol#i wonder how long it would take scriabin to notice though .#when i showed this to meta she said : “ oh wow !! edgar's finally winning at something !! ” and it's SO TRUE#wonder how he does it !#and the last one . i got the idea when i was looking through zarla's account searching for fan art .#love it so much though they look like their lives aren't a living hell#anyways i'll probably make more of these . who knows#going back to school on monday . and of course i had to get inspiration four days before going back .#please PLEASE I DON'T WANT TO GET BACK TO SCHOOL . PL#okay byeee enjoy these . eat my starved followers . EAT !!!!!
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