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Put your hands up 🙌 put your hands up 🙌
'Cause Danny 👻 DIED 😵 FOR OUR SINS 😱🙅♀️
🙏🙏😤🫡👌
(Please enjoy this year's 20th Anniversary Dannypocalypse Magnum Opus Rap Song. Special shoutout to @mace-from-outerspace and @bibliophilea for providing some backup vocals.)
#danny phantom#dannypocalypse#happy birthday danny i hope u approve#i worked super hard on it of course#especially those synth keys#you can really tell how much practice and dedication went into every note of the piece#definitely not a one take wonder no siree#Youtube#y'all my laptop was STRUGGLING by the end of this akjefsnksjn
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I originally drew this for a gift for a friend but then snzfcker brain was like what if
And I think— too much tbh I should just stop thinking sometimes but— pretend he’s allergic here. the blush I gave him specifically for snzblr on his nose and eyes are because he’s allergic (that part I actually did. I just want to pretend that there was snz intention behind this original piece before I started thinking)
“En-ehHe–njoying the sh-show? HaHhh…,” Sylus’ breath caught again, even through his helplessly sneezy expression, you could see that mischievous, all-knowing look in his eyes. You felt like your face was on fire now. How sweet of him really, to indulge in your little fantasies. All you could do was dumbly nod. --ficlet under the cut--
I wrote a short piece to go with it! ~800 words CW: Sneezing (duh), MC gets called Kitten..., hitching breaths, mentions of spray (not too graphic though), suggestive intentions/thoughts
Sylus set the bouquet of roses on the table, their deep red petals brushing against his fingers. He cast a knowing glance toward you, a soft smile tugging at the corner of his lips as your eyes lit up at the sight.
“Do you like them?” A mischievous glint flickered through his eyes.
“They’re beautiful, Sylus. But, why? You didn’t have to–”
“I know,” he interrupted, leaning against the counter. “But I wanted to.” He watched as you stepped towards him and the bouquet with excitement in your step. You reached out to arrange the roses, smelling them as you shifted them around.
A faint tickle started to prickle in his nose, almost as if the flowers were offended by their handling. Sylus sniffled sharply, fighting back the sensation. It wasn’t quite time yet.
“So,” he started, his voice steady despite the itch blossoming in the back of his sinuses, “did you notice anything special about them?”
You tilted your head, you hadn’t really thought too deeply into the significant meaning behind them. “Special?”
Sylus leaned in over you, pinning you between the counter and himself, with the bouquet of roses in between the two of you as you still held them. He took a sharp sniffle once again. You swore you saw his breath catch for a moment. Why– ohhh…
“Flowers always have something…special about them, don’t you think?”
Another subtle sniffle came from him. He knew, didn't he?
“Take these roses, for example,” he continued, leaning in to take a deep inhale of the warm scent the roses gave. “Beautiful, romantic, fragrant….” His voice trailed off, and for a second, his eyes seemed to glaze over, his chest rising with a stuttered inhale. “...and utterly potent.”
“Potent?” You tilted your head in feigned confusion.
Sylus chuckled, low and soft that sent shivers down your spine. “Mhm. Potent. Aromatic. Perfumed. Whatever word fancies you.”
You hesitated, feeling your cheeks warm under his intense gaze. “I-I guess… aromatic works,” you manage, your voice just barely above a whisper. Sylus once again chuckled. Oh how you always humored him. He wasn’t expecting you to actually pick a word.
“Aromatic,” he echoed, tilting his head slightly as if testing the word. “Fitting, isn’t it? Though perhaps…hHeh’hh..” His voice faltered for a split second, breath hitching as his nostrils flared briefly. He sniffled once again, recovering with an almost seamless grace. Damn this in control man. Now he’s just pretending he’s fine.
Sylus’ breath caught again. “hhehH– Oh yes, v-very arohH–aromatic–...ehH’HehHGT–...hhh….” You could see him beginning to come undone. You watched him with an intense gaze, your heart pounding in your chest.
The way his breath began hitching and his words stumbled out sent a flutter through your lower abdomen. “Sylus…” you murmured, your voice soft, your gaze entranced. “Are you–”
He raised a hand to stop you, his usual expression was now replaced with a look of desperation to sneeze. “W-hHih–watch…hehHh–,” even through hitching breaths, his voice was commanding. And Hot.
“ahHhh…heH’RGShh–uhh! HhH…hehh…hh’RRShhh-uhh!” The sneezes burst out of him, water the roses in between both of you. You could feel the mist even if the roses took the brunt of the spray. He straightened slowly, sniffing harshly as his gaze locked back on you. Gods, you wanted to take this man here and now. He knew exactly what he was doing to you. His allergic gaze stole your words as all you could do was stare in hunger at him.
Sylus scrubbed harshly at his nose with the back of his hand. You could hear the congestion clicking as he rubbed back and forth.
“En-ehHe–njoying the sh-show? HaHhh…,” Sylus’ breath caught again, even through his helplessly sneezy expression, you could see that mischievous, all-knowing look in his eyes. You felt like your face was on fire now. How sweet of him really, to indulge in your little fantasies. All you could do was dumbly nod.
He chuckled shortly before his breath was stolen into another fit of hitches. One, two, three deep inhales before... “hh’GRRSSCHhh’uuhh! Hhh’RRSHHhhuhhh! hehH’RGshh–h’RRsh–ah’GTshh!”
“Damn…hh–hHh’heh…roses,” he sniffed, his voice rough with congestion, though the teasing lilt in his tone remained. You knew he wasn’t stopping for as long as he was standing right over top of these flowers. His sneezes were beginning to grow more desperate and rapid.
“Sylus, you don’t have to–”
“Kitten, don’t w-worhH’GTshh! Don’t worry–hh’RGShh–uhh! aheh..hh.eh….” Wow he was still trying to talk through it. Not that you minded of course. Honestly it just made him even hotter. That’s it, you couldn’t take it anymore–
While he was preoccupied with his nose, you took his hand, leading him into the bedroom, bouquet still in your other hand. He continued to sneeze for the whole 10 foot journey to the bedroom. This was going to be a fun night.
#not my neatest work but aye#a drawing from mochii in 2025?? what?????#not too snzy but it’s relative#snz art#super hot man with flower allergies?? yes pls!?#sy/lus allergic to flowers he’s gonna give to MC?#maybe he knows mc likes it and he just uses it to his advantage and of course he’ll get his way with also giving mc their way too???#l&/d/s#pls ignore i added an extra i too my signature by accident#geez its been awhile since ive drawn for here hasn't it#mochiisart#mochiiwrites#also I cringed so hard writing kitten lolol I’m not used to pet names like that ^^’#mochiochiart
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And that's why we're a kick-ass duo💅🤭
#i got my sister into house md and i loooove that i can talk to someone about this show now😈#literal masterpiece#my sister thinks wilson is super funny and also (low-) high-key f*cked uppp big time haha#she is very much the successful hard working and more lovable sibling out of the two of us#and what can i say... addiciton issues and problems with the family are MY realm😎#also i literally had walk-hindeirng paralysis in my right leg for like two months once#which is of course not comparable to house being disabled! but i know what it feels like to struggle with walking#and what it feels liek to struggle with (other) chronic illnesses#anywaaaay#lol#house md#gregory house#james wilson#hilson#not f1
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Seriously, where are all the science gays? Istg I’m the only one here, and I love physics, I really do, but sometimes I just want to talk to another queer person about photons goddammit.
Like guys, have you heard of neutrino oscillation? It’s where neutrinos change flavour just randomly, and if than isn’t the quantum version of genderfluidity then I’ll eat my hat. Or quantum entanglement, where 2 particles can be separated over billions of light years and still be linked by some parameter. That’s some gay long distance pining if I ever did see it.
And if that’s not enough, there’s the fact that physics allows you to come face to face with the universe through funky symbols on whiteboards or pieces of paper. And if there’s one thing I know, staring at the universe and accepting your ultimately tiny place in it is just…super fucking cool. Also, Brian May has a PhD in astrophysics, an actual one, not one of those honorary ones they give celebrities. Brian May as in the guitarist for Queen.
Anyway, my point is, ik we’re known for being into classics and drama and humanities, but I promise science (especially physics, imo) is very cool and you should totally go for it, bc just like in any subject, queer people provide a unique perspective that is completely invaluable to scientific advancement.
Sincerely, a transgender 17 y/o aspiring to be an full time academic in physics
#physics#lgbtq#lgbtq community#science#I just want everyone to know that my personal life goal is mad scientist#is there anything camper than a mad scientist? Come on#ALSO I recently got into the physics course at Oxford uni and I want to brag bcos like…it was super hard work and I’m very excited
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The 6 chapter epilogue moves to 'end' the Tododrama this chapter leaving a divided fandom...
For me I think that given the story the Todorokis have had up to this point it both makes sense and is the best we could have hoped for. I'm not one hundred percent happy with it, but I defiantly don't view as negatively as a lot of people seem to.
First off Touya dying makes sense and this is perhaps harsh but I hope he does. People theorizing that the mysterious Tenko like figure is Shigaraki and he will heal him and the rest of the LoV with his restored Overhaul powers is insane to me. With only four chapters left idk how that would even be covered or concluded, since even if they were healed they would all still be put in prison--it wouldn't erase the fact Touya killed 30 innocent people by his own omission. So, how Hori would cover that kind of plot in a cohesive way in four chapters is beyond me. It's pretty much people wanting a worse story because they want their favorite character to live.
Also, I'm a bit frustrated that yet again people are acting like Enji should die instead and making wild accusations based on nothing. Namely that Touya dying supposedly soonish negates Enji saying he'll watch him and his death will let him off the hook so to speak.
Enji has shown that he really loves Touya and feels immense guilt and rightful responsibility for how he treated him and his the rest of the family. Touya dying doesn't suddenly heal his permanently crippled body or give him back his Hero job. It will only make him feel worse. Also it's not as if once Touya is gone he'll ignore the rest of his family either. He still owes them as well, and will probably try to help them in whatever way he possibly can.
People acting as if Touya's death will free him or that afterwards he'll go on with his life completely happy and forgetting about him is just not in any way accurate to what we've seen of his character.
The other thing I've seen floating around is the idea that if Enji had been killed off during the first PLF War, Shoto would have saved Touya and the family would have been happy in the end. I don't think that's true. I will admit I'm bias because I like Enji and I'm not a fan of Touya, but given how Hori seems to have delt with the LoV and villains in general (unless he pulls a 180 and heals them last min) I think Touya was always meant to end up dying slowly in a hospital or get some other bittersweet ending.
BNHA is not grimdark by any means but it is not the idealistic manga of the past like Naruto. Hori punishes characters that make bad choices no matter how understandable or even shitty the choices they had were. Aoyama, despite helping defeat Afo, being a child and under the threat of death to him and his family, still drops out of UA because he feels he still has to earn his place there. Bakugou dies and his heart and hand will never be the same, while also having to deal with the guilt of Izuku loosing his Quirk (if that sticks). Enji, even though trying to change and atone for most of the Manga's run is still left permanently crippled, the job that meant everything to him, lost, his legacy gone.
For Touya who killed so many people without care, only to get back and his father. Who plotted to kill his little brother despite knowing he was abused. Not caring if his plans got his other innocent family members killed. After everything we've seen with other characters who did far less wrong and tried hard to amend those mistakes getting harsh consequences, I doubt it was ever the plan to have Touya sitting at the table with his family eating his favorite food with a smile, regardless of Enji being alive or not. To suggest that Hori only had Shoto fail because Hori needed Enji to be involved just isn't true. If Hori wanted to give Touya a happy ending he would have--many fans have already come up with how that could have happened even with Enji still alive.
The only criticism I agree with is Rei's ending. You can defiantly read how she wheels Enji around and answers his phone as them being back together or in the very least her becoming his caretaker. Now, That might not be the case--she could just doing those things because they were both going to see Touya and she's just helping him out that day, while they actually live separately, with Enji having a paid home assistant that couldn't or wouldn't go with him to see Touya (because of the stigma or visiting regulations). The issue is that we just don't know for sure and Rei has been shafted pretty badly.
That said, I wasn't expecting much from/for her anyway. I think getting a little blurb about what she was doing like Natsuo and Fuyumi did would have helped, but I sort of doubt Hori had any idea what to do with her character outside being Enji's abused wife and Shoto's mom. With him rushing to get these last chapters out I'm not shocked he just stuck her in the background, especially when Enji and Shoto as secondary characters needed the screen time.
#bnha 426#bnha spoilers#ask#thanks for the ask :)#todoroki enji#endeavor#idk i just think people expected a Steven Universe/Naruto/ She-Ra kind of ending#where everyone is happy in the end#(minus Enji of course because he deserves to suffer for all eternity apparently)#but I've noticed alot of modern Manga are way more cynical then those in the past#BNHA is no JJK#but it's not super unrealistic idealist story either#it's not a downer but it doesn't sugar coat things#one of the major themes is that people can change#but that it's really hard#and it doesn't necessarily mean everything works out perfectly afterwards#Bakugou is constantly punished for making bad choices#so is Enji#Even shoto gets some when he fucks up--like the during the Hero exam#for the lov particularly Touya who never made a different choice even when he was given multiple opportunities to#I don't think the story would have made sense if he just got a happy ending anyway#after so many other characters were punished and forced to learn/change#Yes he was abused but so was the rest of the family#and they didn't decide to kill strangers or each other just to spite Enji#that was Touya's choice and even after his entire family nearly died to save him he shows no real remorse#heck in the end he only apologized to Shoto#like at least Natsuo deserved one too after he nearly killed him twice
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Late Night quick thing (New Age Sillies)
Bad news: That joke post about including Reset + Orchid is definitely not canon. (I legit got sad thinking about Reset being in a universe where Orchid isn't- because their stories are so so intertwined- but Nightmare 100% would NOT risk the whole twins exploding Error's soul thing.)
Good news: This means I COULD include Kane (Reset's older brother who usually dies in timelines where Reset is born) and use it to develope his character a bit more! Also! Perhaps a Blue × Dream kiddo is finally in the stars for me to design?
#new age au#really enjoying the idea of Reaper + Geno having an heir at some point (and them sending that heir over to Night's kingdom for#exposure to other places as well as to hang with his third cool knight dad who's hard at work 🙏)#Kane has little to no development besides being a perfect angel (foil to Reset's eventual turn to poor choices) so I'd love to do#to him what I do to every oc of mine. (Namely: Throw them into the Kingdom and see what they do.)#oh! and I could see Blue and Dream (beloved boys) listening to the warnings of possible complications if they try to have a lil babybones#and Dream deciding he'd take the risk and carry the growing soul#(<- though tbf this is MANY years into the future and they'd be well established knights of the realm)#i'm not evil so they *would* manage to avoid the twins curse and have a singular beautiful babybones#they'd get raised partially on the move but stay behind with Night and Error if the two had a more dangerous mission#and grow up to be an obnoxiously powerful warrior following after their dads#(but they'd probably be hesitant to follow into the footsteps of being a knight and might go on a quest with friends before choosing a#final path for themselves)#<- Most spoiled rotten kid ever. courtesy of Nightmare and Error and all their extended family <3#oh last note. Ancha has me cracking up w/ ideas for Cross potentially meeting someone and I was beamed w/ an old ship request post I saw and#I think it'd be funny to include Lust in here somehow... (probably call him smth else as a nickname but y'know-)#like. He works in the city around the castle as some sort of... idk tailor? and he's been making things for Nightmare for years without#knowing because Ccino always was discreet about the orders and providing measurements + always tipped well so it was none of his business#but one day it's like. before a big announcement ceremony or smth and Ccino drags Cross in by the scruff because no one can get him to get#clothes that actually fit aside from armor (hc he steals the others clothes a lot and wears 1 shirt until it's threadbare)#so Ccino makes him go to Lust and Lust is able to get him fitted for sone new outfits because. well. Lust doesn't do much but he's very very#handsome and Cross is super easily flustered and shy around new people and he's awkward and aughhh.#and then he thinks about the interaction for the next month before deciding he's going to ask Ccino to go back there again.#and Lust likes dressing Cross up in new outfits (everyone thinks it's great Cross is loosening up and meeting new friends cuz Lust introduce#s him to people in town) and it takes forever for Cross to get over his worries and ask Lust out to a ride on his horse (romantic. of course#) and Lust agrees because he's charmed.#and the best part would be Cross *actually* manages to keep it a secret. like. no one finds out until one morning Killer bursts into Cross'#room to wake him for surprise training and it's Cross. the weird Dog. and- holy shit did Cross have someone over???#Cross pulls the cool ones frfr 🙏#it's just a casual thing between them with little plot relevance or drama I think. just a chill lil relationship 🙏
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Fuck this unborders your land
#i want to revamp and display my large AU world i made for borderlands. i worked super hard on it years back and i wish to bring it back-#i want to rework some things about it but ive also got 155 pages of fanfic about it out there that need to be... observed.#now hear me out gang. if youre in the borderlands fandom... id totally let you stick your s/i into my AU and pair then with your f/o#on a first come first serve basis of course dbdhdhdhd#anyway twirls hair#troy!! troy troy troy. i need to yap about him 💞#hggrggrh tired. maybe i wont discuss it or revamp it but yknow. its there. if anyone is interested then they can ask about what their-#-f/o does
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Back at it again with a post from my best friend! This one is another edit she's made!
Once again, I have been asked to post this to my tumblr for Fandom, and all content was edited by her.
Here's her Instagram!
Fandom has also asked me to relay this message:
"Hello everyone tagged here! (Hi again Naff <3)
To show my love and appreciation for the DCA content creator community, I dedicate this edit to all of you. Whenever if you draw art, write fanfiction, or both, I would like to thank you. You guys make outstanding work and are insanely talented 🫡
I already introduced myself to two of you, but to most - hello! My name is Fandom and my Instagram is @ http.redshoes. If you have an Instagram, hmu!! I would love to follow you if I haven’t already. I hope that everyone enjoys the edit! 💕💕
Ac: dex.editz (TikTok)
Vc: JazeCinema & Kyle Allen Music (YouTube)
Sdt: @naffeclipse , @zhench , @lavenoon , @bamsara , @paper-lilypie , @crow-n-tell , @spaciebabie , @sorveteir , @skizabaa , @solitary-star , @zus-a-fungi , @venomous-qwille , @pure-plum , @xitsensunmoon , @kandidandi , @bri-does-art , @pillowspace
Blender credits (on thumbnail): EliteRobo04 (Reddit)
Let’s give a big round of applause to these creators!! 👏👏👏
(P.S. - I tried doing a new editing style in CapCut so apologies the quality is a bit iffy. I’m attempting to make it resemble After Effects since I usually make simpler edits. I wanna know if I did a good job at it or not 👀)
(P.P.S. - if the one and only, the myth, the legend themselves…Solar Lunacy, Demon!Bakugou w/ Human!Izuku “let’s make an accidental ‘friendship’ deal bc we’re oblivious also my mom’s almost killed me for this one DEKU but thank goodness you don’t seem to really remember me” AU, the one that carried the Invader Zim fandom and made that one ET Katy Perry comic with Dib and Zim, while they’re being delulu about not being rivals but FRIENDS they are FRIENDS your honor but they don’t want to admit it, Bam the Sara ™ sees this…I told River to bake me cupcakes if most of the users I tagged for a separate post on Insta would see it. They all did, but not Bam Sara the Sara Bam ™. It is a sad but a true story. I got my cupcakes and they were absolutely delicious, but!! I told my bestie, River, that if Sara the Bam Bam Bam ™ saw my post, she needed to bake me a cake and throw a celebration party. This whole baking thing was an inside joke at first, but now it’s getting real. If they see/comment on this from Tumblr, Insta, or on both platforms, I will *literally* return the favor to my best friend here and bake her something. Throw a little celebration party too while we’re at it 💥💥)
(Bam, if you do actually see this, apologies for remixing the crap out of your username; I only did it for the sillies. I’m a huge fan of your content and you’re so SO creative you have no idea. Your art skills are everything and I wanted you to be appreciated as well!)" -Fandom
#river says...#bestie posting#flashing images#just because the transitions are a little quick!!#also i personally recommend listening to the audio with headphones#also also#fandom didn't tell me she was gonna make me a cake??#girl she's so nice to me for no reason fjdjdjdk#but anyways#i really hope everyone tagged likes this edit she made!#she worked really hard on it for a while#and she's really such a sweetheart#she's super talented to boot!#even though she doesn't have a tumblr she really loves all the wonderful artists and writers here#of course i do too!!#it's such a lovely community :)#anyway sorry for the long tags!! please appreciate my best friend's edit <3#sundrop#moondrop#fnaf sun#fnaf moon#edit#video
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WHERE WERE YOU???!!
In my room, mostly. Depressed.

#i'd like to let you all know that i'm mentally unstable#in case you didn't notice#.#the last three months have been a lot#i went through like three different massive tests to get into a program that will probably change my life#i also was super tired because i worked hard all year#and in addition i realized i was in love#with a man#out of all the things you can fall in love with#i fell for a man#who doesn't want me of course#so when the year ended i collapsed#quite literally#i was crying already on new year's eve#but i'm okay now#i guess
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inspired by @colap1nto <3 and posting here to hold myself accountable: writevember! attempting to write something every day no matter how much and what it is
i am however inventing stipulations for myself so i cannot weasel my way out of it, which includes a valid definition of “write”:
actively put words into a document in the form of a proper fic!!! too many wip not enough hands!!
poems (actually laughed at me coming up with this but maybe i will go back to my roots)
research/meta/primers
tag stories are permissible IF i actually compile and edit them into a readable document that day
editing to post to ao3 (the optimism) is also valid. it takes me so long
i do have concrete arbitrary deadlines for one and a half fics that i would LOVE to finish and post in november (dewey^2 and [redacted :)]) so i’m hoping this helps!! also, this is secretly just a sticker chart where i get to put down emojis for each fic i worked on and check off boxes but a win is a win
day 1:🪻🐈⬛
day 2: 😇🤭 (🕒 -> 🕜)
day 3:🫃2️⃣
day 4: 🍎
day 5:🫃2️⃣
day 6: 📑, 💌
day 7:🫃2️⃣ AND ☁️💧. who is she
day 8:🪻🐈⬛
day 9:🫃2️⃣
day 10:🫃2️⃣
day 11:🫃2️⃣ we are on a STREAK and also a countdown 🫡
day 12:🫃2️⃣
day 13:🫃2️⃣
day 14: 📬💍
day 15: 😇🤭 (🕒 -> 🕜)
day 16:🫃2️⃣
day 17: 🔴 ⚫️,🫃2️⃣
day 18:🪻🐈⬛
day 19:🪻🐈⬛, 😇🤭 (🕒 -> 🕜)
day 20:🫃2️⃣
day 21:🫃2️⃣, 🤫 🪽🃏
day 22:🫃2️⃣
day 23: 💯❕
day 24: 🪢
day 25: 🐛🏮🦋
day 26:🫃2️⃣
day 27:🫃2️⃣
day 28:🫃2️⃣
day 29:🫃2️⃣
day 30:🫃2️⃣
WRITEMBER RECAP: an overall sucess!!!! this was so much fun and really forced me to write even if it was only a little bit every day. like, to the point that i'm debating doing a cute little twelve days of christmas snippet fest. absolutely could not have finished and published dewey^2 p2 without this challenge or posted p3 :)
thirty days of writing
twelve different fics worked on
poems: 1
i have no word count for you sorry i wish i did but it is at least over a few thousand words!!!!
times i wrote for a day past midnight (making it technically the next day) but because i was still awake i counted it for that day: at least 17 if not closer to like. 25
tags i forgot what they mean: one. what the FUCK is 🪢??? OH MY GOD I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT THAT IS NEVERMIND
duolingo streak (worked on the same fic in a row): 5
#liv in the replies#guys are you proud of me. i put everything I would normally yap into the tags in the actual post. hashtag growth#i say continuing to yap into the tags. I don’t want to be pessimistic but I AM scared this is occurring during my monthly bout of#productivity and I will face the doldrums and absolute inability to write in 2-4 days lol#also everyone says this next systems course is GARBAGE and terrible and super hard which. okay 💗 yay 💗#I should’ve put “reply to ao3 comments’ as a valid form of writing because the comment box terrifies me but it’s FINE#if you have ever commented on my fic I love you with every unspeakable fiber of my being and there is one comment I feel so guilty about#but it’s because every time I think about it I need to go jump around in circles I can’t fangirl too hard I also cannot find the WORDS#like even typing this out i’m like. anxious butterfly but it’s because I have so much love in my heart#also i am codifying the emojis to fics for Me sorry because I think it’s fun and i’m being secretive for literally no reason.#everyone tell me to get off of here and work on an actual fic. after I have my nik-induced/enabled 2353 breakdown#we hit day five and yes I DID forcibly make myself not work on a completely different fic. i wannnntttt to finishhhhh 🫃^2 2️⃣ so badddd#& this is not a game of ‘work on a different wip every day’ even if i could feasibly do that🫡 good news is i rlly think 3 -> 1 1/2 is done?#update 11/10 (technically 11/11 but it’s fine this is how it normally works) if i write like an unhinged person which is to say at all#bc i have midterms but also really like an unhinged person i MIGHT be able to adhere to my self-imposed deadline for 🫃2️⃣. god bless me#at 1:30AM yesterday having an absolute breakthrough with a line that has been in some variation in so many different fics including mine#for myself specifically because i keep having this moment: 🪢 is the fic in the bottom of the yowling doc lmao.
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There's something about say doing a whole bunch of laundry or hand washing all your dishes after cooking a large meal when you're twenty that brings me this strange childlike joy and sense of accomplishment when I do it
It's like sure, I did this stuff prior to adulthood, but that was out of obedience to my mother. Now I am an adult living on my own and now I am doing these things because I have to for me and only me and have to willingly choose to do them
And it's like wow I did it I'm so grown up!
#its like yay i did it! then i can here my mother saying good now go do the four other things you need to do#because she is the type of person who is can't stop won't stop so like she doesn't often understand that for me doing even like one big#thing in the day its like it's the only thing on my mind because i have to like prepare myself to do it#i also am baffled when i see people in college who its their first time doing chores and shit#like it was expected for me to do this stuff as a kid and if my mom said to do something you do it right away#which makes my mom sound intense but like she wasn't super authoritarian in her parenting and she allowed for kvetching whining and trying#to negotiate given that you still did as told#also my mother's jewish and her job is contract negotiation so she is impossible to win an argument against#also from what i hear about gen alpha like damn they do not respect their parents like what the fuck#like its insane#also people getting money for doing household chores. my mom doesn't believe in rewarding someone for doing what is expected of them#but she periodically of course would give me money for stuff or buy me stuff so it works out#and like i know people complain about gen z's work ethic but my sisters and i have always been praised for ours#since doing your 110% and what you're expected to do and more was something taught to us early on. it's your duty to do so so you do it#nothing is for incentive#my mom has very high standards#idk why i felt like putting all of this in the tags#i guess since i was raised to give my 110% it makes tasks feel daunting and when theres no one to ensure i do them it takes a lot#of self motivation and since it feels so hard i guess its why it feels like when you're a kid and you're doing something for the first time#and you're not sure you can do it but you did and it's like yay!
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I'm getting such shit relics / ornaments for Aglaea that it's actually depressing
#abbey plays honkai star rail#like goddamn this game is NOT making it easy for me#skipping Herta for Aglaea I mean#I've got good relics for Herta a good enough LC and she doesn't require literally anything else#meanwhile Aglaea needs Sunday (who I THANKFULLY own)#relics and ornaments with a shit ton of SPD which is extremely hard to achieve#and her E1 to deal with her super high cost Energy#like... my god she needs way too much stuff to work#and again getting shit RNG doesn't help her case#I really like her though and my Acheron just can't keep up with content anymore so...#idk her banner is in just a few days and she's guaranteed#but I'll have to spend so many jades as her LC is also a must SIGHH#because of course! there aren't good enough alternatives for her! so her sig is a must#her sig which ONLY WORKS FOR HER btw because the next Remb character needs SPD below the usual :_)#man it's like they DON'T want us to pull for Aglaea geez#it's so upsetting#I genuinely don't know what to do...#I'm losing all motivation to get her ngl
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Cringe warning: very bad Esperanto.
Mi povas mergi min en Esperanto čar mi ne faris multe da progreso ekde 2019. Mi kredas mi komencis lerni en 2019, sed mi rezignis dum (por?) unua jaro. Mi rezignis la hispana, la franca, la japana kaj la irlandano čar… nu, estas evidente kial. Tro da lingvoj lerni (por lerni? Lerni sentas malgxuste.)
Sed, mi restis kun la Esperanto(n?) čar gxi estas facila. Mi volas lerni lingvon por la sakeo (that’s… is that seriously the word? Sakeo? I joked once that Esperanto is 80% English words with -o and the end and 15% other languages with o- at the end, but I digress) de lerni lingvon. Homoj diras ke tio estas malbono kialo, sed, kial? Estas amuza… ne estas krimo amuziĝi.
Honeste, mi estis (estis for ‘have been?’ doesn’t feel right…) uzi Google Translate por helpi min, sed ne por lambastono. nur por kontroli se mia gramatiko estas bona. Ne estas, evidente, sed… mi estas nesekura pri gramatiko. Mi scias ke gxi ne estas bona, sed gxi estas probable pli bona ol mi sed mi ne uzis gxin.
Cxiuokaze… mi havas punkton kun ĉi tio; estas malfacila mergi en konlang! Jes, mi povus aligxi servilo de Discord, sed… la embaraso. Mi estus kiel, “Bonvolu… mi estas…” kaj havas furzo de cerba! Cerba furzo? (Googling how to stutter in Esperanto. Great.) (also I’m realising I said bonvolu instead of… oh my god? Am I seriously forgetting hello? Oh, Saluton!)
Cxu mi probable lernu la lingvon de miaj lando, la irlandano? Probable, sed honeste? Neniu parolas la irlandano en la nordo. Ili apenaŭ en la sudo. (Ne estas sude, mi ne zorgas se Google translate diras alie… ne sentas gxusta.)
Cxu mi havas punkto kun cxi tio? Ne. Sed, hej, diras al mi kiel CLAPPED mia Esperanto estas. Kaj, jes, mi eĉ ne provis traduki clapped cxar gxi estas pli amuza al ne.
Mi estas tiel malbona pri Esperanto. Mi devas fidi al tradukistoj por helpo. Mi uzas Google Translate por helpi kun tempoj kaj gramatikoj, sed la vortoj estas plejparte el mia cerbo, se tio havas sencon.
Mi ne havas kialon pri ĉi tio. Mi supozas, ke ĉi tio estas testo de miaj kapabloj. La rezultoj? Tre malbona, sed, hej, mi afiŝos ĉi tio, ĉiuokaze.
Edit: after writing this post, I got an easy, actually video about languages recommended… lol
#lemons random rants#Esperanto#conlang#conlangblr#did I mention I want to learn Toki Pona too#anyway- point is with this post- it’s hard to immerse yourself in a conlang#because podcasts in Esperanto tend to be about Esperanto- for example#I dunno.#4-5 years and I still suck#yeah I know doing one duolingo lesson a day is probably why- but you’d think I’d be somewhat good after 4-5 years#I can read basic paragraphs in Esperanto but some words fly over my head.#I could probably read and understand ‘there was a fruit that was very yellow and juicy’ but could I write that sentence? er… unlikely#I also get tio/tiu and all that jazz mixed up#same with mia/miaj/miajn and all that.#I guess it’s kinda intuitive. sometimes I look at something and think ‘this doesn’t feel right.’#I have the same problem with art where I got really discouraged because people assume I’m a beginner#I’ve done art on and off since 2018. even before that I drew a lot in 2017 and 2016.#I’m just not that good.#same with languages.#sometimes I wanna learn music too.#but I make something super generic and repetitive. and give up. because I don’t know how to structure a song.#my instinct is to just add more and more but never change the er- core… melody?#this post took 20 minutes I could’ve been working on my writing or something.#it’s not laziness. I work really hard at my writing. I just struggle to invest time in anything else because… I’m not a natural at it. also#it strangely feels like slacking off when I do anything other than write#edit or proofreading#also I’ve technically cleared the entire Esperanto course on duolingo like five times#I like skipping to all the ‘big tests’ sometimes where they don’t give hints and they’re very long#as for my Toki Pona? Even worse! I know a lot of the words but not how to structure it. suli. laso. mi. jan. a. awesi(?). kulupu. Soweli#Soweli my beloved creature. insa? look point is I know some words but not how to structure things
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hey hi!! would you mind me using some of your art in my pinned message (it wouldn't be posted with tags and i would give appropriate credit!!) it's entirely okay if not though :)
Sure thing! You know the drill, properly credit me + link if you can so folks who like my stuff can hunt me down :^) thanks for checking in!
#my asks lol#im probably not as protective of my tumblr art as i should be but the stuff i post here feels like freebies#instagtam art is like...a lot of the stuff ive worked hard on (ik i should probably be more careful with it/ move to cara/bluesky more offic#ially too but i havent done it yet)#but tumblr?#tumblr feels like the stuff i just pass around to a bunch of chill dudes to enjoy#i still super appreciate when people are respectful of it of course#so its nice when folks ask :^) thanks mate#queuwu
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the amount of time my supervisor and i spend in one-on-ones just straight up laughing together needs to be studied i think
#we were talking about the topic of mentors today in context of this phd guide we’re reading together#and the authors recommend formally asking potential mentors to be. mentors#which we both thought was kind of funny#and of course mentors are my Favorite Topic Ever apparently so i was discussing how lucky i am that i have several mentors#and i joked ‘if i may be so presumptuous as to count you among them’ and she was like ‘uh uh you have to ask me formally first’ and laughed#and i was like ‘shall i send you a letter’ and she came back with ‘yes you need to write me a letter and i’ll let you know of my decision’#we COMMITTED to that bit 😭#also i kind of talked about how ate dean and tita conductor are mentors from undergrad and even now and my supervisor was super positive#like in terms of research fit her group is like. maybe an 8.0/10. but personality wise? fuckin 11/10 man#i can make up the rest if i just work hard#iskul bukol book 2
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how're u feeling?? w the twin leaving AND the imaginiary that's lots of stuff
in TOTAL disrepair
#/lh#its okay ill just call my twin and annoy the shit out of them until i get all my twin fuel back#imaginary is kicking my ass a little bit#but. im not going to destroy myself over this chapter so im going to take my time. even. if that means. itll be. ugh. a little late.#tbf tho my chapters are super uber duper long. so. no need to be hard on myself#my asks#imaginary#i finished some courses and am no longer working at second job#so now i just have to balance lab work and different courses#which. is not necessarily easier but itll be a change of pace#i should be able to find some good time to work on imaginary tomorrow
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