#i wish i had a normal brain .

[angelnumber27]

Im out of a couple of my meds again and cannot afford them and withdrawal is a horrible bitch and I want to die. If you want to help out my cshapp is $juliagw

Dm me for Venmo or PayPal or to buy content <3

[mysticdoodlez]

Too much shit at work and too much shit in the Fandom and not enough shit to piece together a fucking story.

[emily-rambles]

soooooo the body image issues are extra bad today lol

[deerdollhouse]

I think I've been running myself ragged with all the nonsense thoughts I could having in my head. Like, I'm so scared of invisible judgment that I can't seem to enjoy anything anymore. Who cares if people have other opinions!! That's normal! But I get so sensitive and start thinking mine are invalid...

[jeysbvck]

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[nonranghaes]

warnings: spider mentions bc writer is terrified and needs to write comfort. this is idol au, btw. (also readers in a polyamorous relationship with both chris and felix, just a heads up)

chris jolts awake when he feels you tugging at his sleeve, barely opening his eyes by the time you speak up.

“christheresahugespidercanyoupleasegogetridofit--”

it’s... a lot. it’s clear that you’re terrified (although his brain hasn’t deciphered what you said yet), and he sits up, reaching out to pull you in. on the other side of the bed, he can feel felix stir from his own slumber--and he hears him stifle a yawn. chris just focuses on you, though, “honey--”

you sniffle, fingers dinging into his arm as you hold him by the forearms, “please go get it before it moves--”

he doesn’t even have to decipher what you said anymore. he knows only one thing gets you this scared, and he gently pulls you in further until you’re actually sitting on the bed. “it’s okay,” he says, “i’ll go catch it. don’t worry,” he presses a kiss onto the crown of your head, getting out of bed. “i won’t come back until it’s gone, okay?”

you nod frantically, and chris mumbles felix’s name to rouse him further. felix turns over, gaze meeting chris’s--although he quickly nods toward you, redirecting the attention--and he understands. he kicks off the blankets, crawling over to you as chris takes his leave as designated-spider-getter.

“it’s okay,” he murmurs softly, drawing you in for a hug. “chris will get it.”

your breath hitches, and felix can feel as you start to cry. it’s a frustrating fear to have--felix knows, as does chris, because you’ve cried to them before about how you wish you could just be normal about those eight-legged little things--and you know that they’re far more afraid of you than you are of them. or, well, that’s what everyone tells you. you haven’t seen a spider have a breakdown because of you, but what do you know?

he holds you, gently tracing hearts on your back as he lets you cry your fears out. felix’s lips press against your softly, just for a second, before he pulls you in again. he draws your face into his shoulder, gently talking you through it. when he finally draws back, once your cries have stifled, he begins searching around.

“where’s bbokari...?” he mumbles. when he and chris are away, the plushies they gave you take their place (... alongside the others, sometimes, but you don’t tell them about that since you’ll never live it down). he moves, patting around until he hears chris come back. “hey,” he calls out, voice raspy with sleep, “do you see bbokari?”

chris stops for a moment with a “hm?” but looks over to your dresser where the group was last assembled. he reaches for the little chick, tossing him over to felix. he returns to bed soon enough after felix moves out of the way, gently guiding you back to the middle of the bed by the arm. he’s pushed bbokari into your arms, and already snuggled in next to you as chris pulls the blankets back over you all.

“it’s okay,” chris presses a kiss against your shoulder. “it’s gone. i took it outside. we’ll protect you, baby.” there’s a teasing lift to his voice, but you know he genuinely means it. 

“mmhm,” felix sounds, planting a soft kiss against your lips. “we’ve got you,” he promises. “alright?”

you snuggle in, both of your boyfriends cuddling in to keep you as safe as they can. it takes you a while to get back to sleep... but it helps to have your silly saviors nearby, always happy to catch and release the spiders and soothe you with as many kisses as it takes.

[stormyoceans]

feeling incredibly normal about mork flirting with day in this episode by using all the senses aside from sight

[lethality-of-dual-strike]

I love you peri-weri one of these days I’ll learn how to draw you consistently

I think what we need for season 2 is some good ol perirep slapstick I need to see them scrapping it out like looney tunes

[a-tired-human-draws-junk]

"Are you a lifeforce?"

[marc--chilton]

hang on i'm once again thinking about house being stupid with love. stacy moved in with him a week after meeting him. that's HUGE change. could you imagine how much he'd have to be obsessing over her to make HIS home THEIR home??? and he still wasn't over her 5+ years later after everything either.

(and like. i wonder if there was ever a moment there for wilson where he's watching house and stacy be so witty and beautiful and in love together and thinking to himself, huh. so this is what that feels like.)

[nigelgraz]

Me all the time: man...i feel lonely rn i rlly wanna make more friends </3

Cool and nice person: *approaches me or offers to talk to me etc*

Me: I Have Never Been More Anxious and Frightened in My Entire Life

[saltycactusss]

they r so gnc af 

[tenspontaneite]

you mention you read a lot in a recent ask about your interests - do you have any particularly cherished favorites? rare gems? genres or tropes you enjoy?

The majority of what I read is fanfic, but if I recced fanfics I'd be here for years and frankly I cannot be bothered. I do have a lot of book recs too though. I'll just do a few of the main ones that come to mind rn.

Most recent fave: Project Hail Mary, Andy Weir. Same author as The Martian, again with a storyline that I would describe more as PvE than PvP, which I personally really enjoy and can never find enough of. I only bought this book like a month ago but have already reread it three times. I want a hundred more books with the same kind of alien first contact and interaction and mutual problem solving that this book has. The premise: the sun has a space algae problem, and this is going to result in the death of everyone on Earth in a few decades if a solution isn't found. Also looking for a solution: at least one other alien species whose sun, similarly, has a space algae problem. To quote, "Astrophage on my star. Bad, bad, bad."

Overall fave author: M.C.A Hogarth. Most of their work is for an overarching universe called the Peltedverse, which comprises multiple series. These are extremely queer sci-fi series involving humans, aliens, and human engineered furry races. Dreamhealers is the best series to start with, but my favourite of the Peltedverse series is Prince's Game (warning: challenging content). There's also separate series like the Stone Moon trilogy (warning: challenging content), which I also adore but only recommend if you like things that rip out your heart and stamp on it. Overall Hogarth has probably been the biggest influence on my writing style in the last decade, and I love what they do with characters.

Last rec of the day: the Scholomance Trilogy, Naomi Novik. Novik is a pretty well known name in fandom for a lot of reasons, but I feel like fewer people are aware of this series than the Temeraire series. This book is about what if there was magic but being magical was so heinously dangerous due to all the things trying to eat you that people end up doing really fucked up things to survive and that's now the foundation of magical society, and also shoving all your kids into a hell school full of monsters is legitimately the best way of getting them to adulthood uneaten. I find Scholomance has a vibe which makes it unusually rereadable, so I have read it more times than I have most book series. All three are good books but mostly first and third imo, sometimes when I'm doing a full reread I skip some or most of the second one.

[camellcat]

Ten twirls Rose around sometimes when he needs a quick escape.

It's a win-win for both of them, he thinks! Rose always seems to enjoy, even if it's usually sudden and out of nowhere, and Ten gets to make her smile and slip away before she can even figure out what's just happened.

[trentcrimminallybeautiful]

i think about the whole "love that" exchange a lot.

[dreamofbecoming]

feeling some type of way about the juxtaposition of “are you sure you have the right man?” and “i’m just a bard,” and “the sandpiper’s just a title” with “because you love yourself.” like. maybe it’s just a funny throwaway. maybe it’s a clone sex joke and that’s as deep as it goes. but maybe, underneath, buried under all that insecurity and self deprecation (which is buried in turn under all that gilded arrogance and puffed up affectation), she (they?) sees down to where he really, actually, truly does love himself. to where jaskier is exactly who he wants to be. to where he is proud of himself and his work and this life he has built. way down deep, underneath all the times he’s been told to shut up and stop caterwauling and god julian, can’t you just sit still for once? and it’s like ordering a pie and finding it has no filling and if life could give me one blessing and we’re all just one big happy family, right? no. and the crow’s feet are new, and and and and

and somehow, still, under all that, the thing he loves most is still himself. as it should be.