#i wish i could turn my thoughts off

[greasydumbfuck]

thinking about frank and sex (in a sad way)

[jnpje]

some things don't change!

[jils-things]

just found out abt this new discourse on e.dds.world. :/ im disappointed

[telesodalite]

Sort of a ramble, sort of me just writing my thoughts out while I'm stuck with writer's block, but I keep thinking about how Fulcrum was in stasis for roughly 3 million years??

Like, that's a long time, even for Cybertronians. Not a really long time, not an entire lifespan. But still, it's a large chunk of a normal lifespan just gone. Poof.

One second you're crawling across the pockmarked terrain of an alien planet, surrounded by the sound of gunfire, and the shouting and screaming before and after each earth shuddering impact of another k-con hitting the ground. And then it's quiet. You're not there anymore. You're drifting somewhere between not alive and just asleep. Preserved somewhere in the background of a doomed body, ignored by time and space, still here, but also not.

And then there's sound. Not gunfire. Not shouting or screaming. Not the sounds that'll haunt you till your dying days, your own death sentence pounding in your head. No. Just voices, talking, standing out against a silent, dead world. Wondering. Joking. Bickering. Familiar. Just, not familiar to you. And you're awake. Pulled back from the nothingness you've been frozen in, consciousness tugged forwards with the yank of a fuel pump and the nearness of life.

These two moments are roughly 3 million years apart, but only minutes, maybe even seconds, to him. From a hectic harrowing battlefield, to an old silent graveyard in one blink.

How long did it take to really sink in? I mean, he seems to just roll with it. He doesn't seem particularly bothered. But like, what happened outside of what we see? How did he really feel?

Also, his body aged without him. While his mind preserved itself, freezing him as he was right then, his body was left to weather Clemency for all those years. No wonder it crumbled to dust when he jumped off the world sweeper. It's probably a miracle of some kind that it didn't just fall apart each time someone leaned on him.

And even after they rebuild him, give him a better, newer body. His spark, it's casing, all the irreplaceable core bits that make up their inner bodies, it aged in the time without him. Does he feel it? Does it make his body even more foreign to him?

Then he's also a technician with information that's 3 million years out of date. Lucky him that the scavengers probably weren't working with top of the line material. But still it's gotta be weird when faced with anything brand new, because a lot can change and progress in 3 million years, and now some of the knowledge he once prided himself in is obsolete.

Besides those things, his view of the galaxy, of the war, of their kind, of other kinds, is one of the few things actually pointed out when it comes to him being stuck in the past. So, how often were his old views challenged? Facts of life he held close proved to no longer true? There's 3 million years worth of new science, new beliefs, new words, new terms, new views.

And sure, some of it can be familiar, because they're an ever evolving kind, and they have patterns, core beliefs, repeating behaviors, but a lot of it's gonna be unfamiliar at the same time, because it's 3 million years worth of catch up, it's not like missing last week's trend.

In a way, it makes him a living relic of a bygone era for Decepticons. It would've been really interesting to have had that explored a little more.

[sagetsukimura]

What's that word?

I finally finished my first playthrough of Baldur's Gate 3, and boy am I feeling things. I think I did a good job! I feel bad for a couple things I failed at, but everyone got a decent happy ending imo

That said, I'm feeling it. That feeling. I forget the word; you've just finished a stormy a wonderful story. It was so good, the characters were amazing, and I finished the final page, closed the book and...

It's sad, like a goodbye, but frantic. It can't be over?! Not yet! It's too soon! It was a beautiful story, I want to stay just a little longer! It's the drop, after the high of experiencing such an amazing story, and I can't remember the word for it! Not melancholy, or withdrawals, but close to it? Surely there's a word for it? I want to stay just a little longer, with these friends you've made, even if they aren't real. They feel close to it. I want to stay.

And I can, of course. Another playthrough or two. I can get to know the characters even better, personalized their happy endings, find my ultimate happy ending, write it on my own if need be!

But... One day, you put the book down, and never open it again. That scares me. I'm glad I've learned, over the years, that when a story touches you this way, you carry it with you, long after the book turns to dust. But that feeling, as the credits roll, and you aren't quite satisfied, even though you can feel that the ending was right...

That's the good thing about books, I guess. You can always read it again. Every ending is a new beginning, no?

This game is definitely a work of art. I'm so thankful for the team that brought it to us! I think my life is better for it!

[jittyjames]

ptsd is being such a bitch to me tonight guys. your girl is not doing well.

[afriendofmara]

Happy one year anniversary to my ex-best friend who got married 5 minutes away from my home and didn't invite me. I thought we were still chill and good enough for wedding invites but, I guess not. Still hurts, hope y'all are happy tho.

[rowanisawriter]

saturday is the only day when a time loop should be allowed. it can’t be any other day because i guarantee there would only be one iteration of the loop. if i woke up on a monday twice i would not hesitate, i would absolutely find a way to break the loop by committing an act so heinous that every single fringe universe and every time stream would feel the repercussions of my action

[genderdryad]

Ug-Qualtothion: A gender related to Ug-Qualtoth from Fallout!

Interlopergender: A gender related to The Interloper from Fallout!

coined for @artimera-the-skeleton! pls credit me if you use the flags- thnx!

[hua-fei-hua]

today i learned that we weebs are responsible for the existence of the .ass file type. #heritage

[foxgirlmoth]

The chronic pain has been so fucking bad lately

[ilovecoffeeandchemistry]

ooooh i woke up in a bad mood and it's so hard not to be a bitch about it

[sanderssidesthehouse]

Sanders Sides is really annoying (affectionate?) to me bc when we talk about 'canon' most people in the conversation are all going to have different ideas of what 'canon' is from each other. For example, for me (and I'm making this post bc I wanted to clarify what I in particular am talking about when I talk about canon) canon is the mainline canon videos, asides (and videos that were previously asides) as well as other dedicated videos (such as the grwm) are supplementary but not canon, and nothing else is canon. But then there are people who take clarifying tweets as canon. And that's fine! It just makes it a little confusing when people are talking about 'canon' but everyone is talking about a different range of information.

Like I'll personally admit I'm a little snobby about what I consider canon. I'm the type if person that thinks if the creator wants something to be canon, it should be stated, implied, or possible to extrapolate from the canon work. For example with Dungeon Meshi, I don't take Daydream Hour as canon information, but rather supplementary. (Not that I need to bc Ryoko Kui does put everything you need to know into the manga, seriously if you haven't read it, I can't recommend it enough.) But there are some people who do. And that's ok! I also don't take her tweets or interviews as canon. This is a general rule I have in what I take as canon across all fandoms.

And I think I've not been clear enough about what I mean by 'supplementary' and I mean like, for example in Ace Attorney I am again, a total snob, and I only count canon as AA 1-4 and AAI 1&2 and this is not an incredibly unpopular opinion but it's still... y'know. Not considering 2 main line games canon. And there are loads of reasons for that which we don't have time for in this post bc we're not actually talking about Ace Attorney, so to get to my actual point. I don't consider the audio drama CDs to be 'canon' but you bet your ass Mikeko is showing up in my fics (a CD only pet cat for Apollo) and I also just stated I don't view AA5 as canon, or at least the same canon (it's complicated) but I love playing around with Clay's concept and several of the other characters from 5+6. I'm just not talking about them when I'm talking strictly about canon.

Idk if I explained that well enough (and if I didn't, please ask me to clarify). I just feel like everyone should have access to the information that I am a snob with unpopular opinions and I love you even if you're less of a snob than me. In fact that would probably be a plus. You DO NOT have to agree with me, I love when people have their own opinions, 'it takes all sorts' and all that, yeah? I just wanted to clarify what I'm talking about when I mention canon.

[milimeters-morales]

thought about my au where uncle aaron lives. can you imagine what miles is going through. claws at the floorboards… my organs have turned to stone and i’ve yet to unclench my jaw

[mutalune]

really wish there was a tag that separated “I’m having Big Angry and/or Angsty Opinions about Star Wars” from “I’m goofing off with Star Wars I’m playing in the sandbox none of this is real so yes I will make my blorbo and this random glub shitto go on an adventure that makes no logical sense” posts because there’s too much of the former and not enough of the latter for my current mental state

[rouge-the-bat]

idk how ppl can handle kids. i sit in the room with 2 of them for just a little while and i get overloaded with anxiety from too much sound and constant interruptions from whatever im trying to focus on