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#the universe is a pile of shit I just wish I was less powerless to help my friends#Iām still having a good day#hust tired of watching my friends experience things and only be able to go āsorry that sucks :(ā#why canāt I jusf fix things#why canāt I just like help my friends#i know why#I just wish I could do more#this universe is shit because no matter what I do my friends are still suffering#i wish I was more#i wish I was more successful#i wish I was more capable#i wish I was less disabled#i wish I eas less incapable I#i wish I could help the people I love more#ugh anyway#just needed to scream I just wish I could fix things#i just want to help and make things better for the people I love but I fucking canāt ans it makes me want to scream#evryone I know is dealing with somethign and I canāt even help ONE of them
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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#yuji itadori#ryomen sukuna#megumi fushiguro#gojo satoru#nanami kento#choso kamo#nobara kugisaki#yuta okkotsu#fanart#crying im so tired....#busts aren't hard on their own but 8 of them ???#i should have stuck at 6 if i knew what was good fr me#but lucky fr choso n yuuta enjoyers i dont know whats good fr me and tacked on the extra 2 last minute#i did a bust piece waaay back in 2020 early jjk days and it was this crowd minus choso/yuuta so i wanted to like. do a kind of redraw#im happy choso n yuuta made the cut tho they r fun they look as tired as i feel#i've been having a lot of fun w the more semirealistic skin render so i wanted to stretch those muscles a bit more#took the better part of 3 days but u know i'm pretty happy w these i dont think i have a hard least favourite#fun game guess my favourite characters based on how i draw them it is Glaringly obvious 2 me#ik i said i dont have a least favourite but i certainly have A Favourite#uhhhh misc notes i tried rly hard to make sukuna's face look like yuuji's and only rly change the expression#i think i was successful??? i hope?????? like i didnt want to make him look like his own person as bad as that sounds#he is Wearing Yuuji that is Yuuji's Face#also i rly . wish there were more women . but as much as i like maki as a character i fr some reason don't find drawing her very fun ?#so nobara out here pulling her weight fr the girls my goat my queen <333
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I made a few new wax seal stamps out of clay (like the ones I did for my worldbuilding stuff forever ago), this time just of random symbols that I thought might look good done in the style of painting over the raised part of the wax or etc. :0c Some of them aren't carved deep enough to really show up that well, but overall they worked okay for being clay lol
#wax seal#crafts#wax stamp#stationery#Window one is kind of stinky.. I was imagining like a swirly night sky sort of looking thing so it would be a surreal contrast of a night#sky with a window in the middle that shows a daytime sky - but the silver and purple wax kind of mixed too much together#with the black and it just looks very plain black and not all that starry or anything hjbhj.. Of course the eye is probably my favorite#since all I ever do is draw eyes and still like eye imagery for some reason. The four leaf clover is very lumpy and skrunkty but also it wa#the smallest in size out of all of them so was easier to do multiple stamps of just to try it out.#The heart with eyes wax is actually more swirly in person. I wanted it to be a mix of light pink and red and white. and the wax#did kind of all blend together but in person you can definitely see MORE of the intentional swirlyness. in this it just looks plain pink.#I was going to do one eye in the heart but it looked weird. but now two seems too plain. i could have done 3?? in a pattern.. hmm#alas. I wish I could make actual metal ones. With the clay i have to paint them in a thin layer of olive oil before stamping because#otherwise the wax just kind of gets stuck in the grooves of the clay and then you can't pull it up. Very wacky ''unprofessional'' looking#set up where I'm hot gluing circles of sculpey clay to short stumps of a wooden dowel that I sawed apart with a serrated bread knife#and then using an old paintbrush to put olive oil on them whilst holding a spoon over a yankee candle flame hjbjh#ANYWAY.. I think if I were middle class/rich/etc. this would be one of the main things in my crafting room is like.. SO many colors#of wax. and all different custom made stamps designed by me. which could be much more elaborate in actual metal.. muahaha.... >:)c#RHGghhh... I actually don't want to talk much about it since (this is probably just my Obsessed With My Own World Artist Delusions) I#think I have a really cool idea for a game that could genuinely be successful if i ever get to make it and I don't want to give#everything away and spoil the whole plot/concept in hopes that one day I can actually do it - BUT - a game that I'd like to make after the#visual novel I'm making now has partially to do with the main character working as a sort of writer/scribe/artist assistant in an elven#city (set in my world/with my worldbuilding species and versions of elves and etc) and I was thinking of maybe incorporating#somehow being able to collect little writing type items like these like.. you can get different wax seal patterns or pens or etc. when I do#stuff like this in Real Life it always makes me think of that like.. ouh... this is good research.. what it shall be like to be a littol#elf collecting wax seals and such.. indeed... GRR i need to be finished with my current game NOWWW... i MUST work on other#thingss... aughh... ANYWAY.. yay. accomplishment to do One Single Thing other than Sit In The Summer Heat And Rot#though also hilarious as this was the first cool-ish day that was below 80F in a while hgvh#waking up like 'wow.. i actually feel okay today?? like I could do things?? how mysterious.. I wonder why..?? :0'' Its The Weather You Fool#Tis Always The Weather
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#wish i could add more#edit#kendall roy#succession#twitter#logan roy#roman roy#shiv roy#tv show#connor roy#game#ship#kenstewy#stewy hosseini#tom wambsgans#tomshiv#parallels#hbo
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things i wish i'd known before getting an animation degree
#i might delete this later#sorry for complaining on main lol#there is SO much more i could say. but i won't today#also the people i'm alluding to finding 'success and stability' im not talking about my fellow artists#im talking about friends on completely different career paths who have got it Made#and make me wish i'd picked a different career lol#okay to rb
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#star wars#the original trilogy#boba fett#darth vader#hi. sorry for star war jumpscare. genuinely#i feel like ive kinda been on an art hiatus lately due to health stuff#i got diagnosed with a parathyroid disease recently (wahoo) so now i know why i have been feeling so bad! need more tests though#anyway. in the mean time most of the entertainment my brain can handle has been like. youtube clip compilations of shows and movies#not even the actual shows or movies. literally just sections of them on youtube#i wish i was joking#the only reason i know what happens in succession is because i have watched it in disjointed order in youtube compilations. not joking#anyway so ive learned a lot more about star wars than i ever. thought i would#mostly just the original trilogy and prequels. some of the old comics & books are interesting too#(sick to my stomach) i like darth vader he has like the same personality as ganondorf except he had no good reason for doing anything#when vader/anakin does literally anything weird or unacceptable it like. makes me laugh so hard its like jerma when he sees a car accident#boba fettās costume design has been rotating in my head a lot too itās very good#heās very colorful and like. matte/unpolished compared to vader and it makes them a cool duo visually#those 2 are my favorites. vader why is the space cowboy the only person aside from sidious or tarkin who is allowed to get mad at you#sidious is my 3rd favorite. he sucks so bad as like a person that you just. you have no expectations of him except just being evil#so its just really funny like everything he does is horrible and heās so happy all the time like good for him#iām making it sound like ive never seen star wars before. i have i just never really cared about it until i got an endocrine disorder lmao#but yeah idk art may continue to be slow while im figuring out treatment stuff#if anyone reading this also has or has had hyperparathyroidism im wishing the strength & radiance of 1000 beautiful horses upon you
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There's something deeply ironic about Red Bull talking about wanting to see Perez perform well at circuits where he's done well in the past (aka Baku and Singapore), when the driver they could've replaced him with has one of the best records at Singapore out of any driver on the current grid šš¤·š»āāļø
#sorry not even trying to be a hater I just wish Daniel's career and successes would actually get the respect they deserve#he has put in some absolutely insane drives around singapore and I'm really hoping we get to witness some more daniel magic this weekendš¤š»#renault engine you will never be forgiven for the 2019 dsq that fucked daniel's point scoring streak that even survived the McL 2022 horror#singapore gp 2024#daniel ricciardo
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1 year since i got scammed by nintedno leaving me forever yearning for a game we will never get and an extreme worry for the future
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#dont think they will learn anything#i know its pessimistic but like#as if the critics were in any way as loud or popular as those worshipping it#i feel so bad for having contributed twice to its sales and earnings#i bought it normally (later sold that to a coworker) and the collectors#which i sold but i only got back the money a normal new one would have cost#and it was also only bc i was buying sth else and it was literally in prime condition#like he said it wouldnt matter bc he cant give me more but then even he said holy shit thats literlly like unopened lol#i mean ... most of it was never opnened xD just took the game out once and put it back once thats it#i feel extra scammed bc it was the first and only collectors edition i ever owned#and i dont think i will ever buy one again#and might regret that#i still wish i had known how much i liked botw to get its special one ... but i didnt have the money back then either way#but id rather miss out on that than spend so much money on sth i will forever regret having spend money on#and i worry for the future bc the āstory is the least important partā guy and ālol you can only like the old games bc nostalgiaā guy-#-being in charge of the franchise arent giving me much hope for anything better#especially after totks success
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remember when sarah and nick mocked the face matthew makes when heās trying not to laugh š
#god i wish sarah and nick got more scene together#succession#sarah snook#nicholas braun#matthew macfadyen#tom wambsgans#1k
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Very well said. ā„ļø
I CAN Network Ltd
#autism#actually autistic#honestly I wish I was a math genius#I would be more successful imo#feel free to share/reblog#I can network Ltd (Facebook)
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Jesse explaining that although all three boys generally experienced the same physical abuse, Roman has internalized his experience as a victim in a different way than Kendall and Connor. Ā Ā
āI would suggest Logan would have cuffed and hit all the boys at different times in their lives.Ā I think the difference for Roman maybe is that he feels like he was bullied in the domestic environment and so we can all react to things in different ways. I think Connor and Kendall probably have experienced that and have managed to accommodate it without it being a big part of their psychology whereas I think Roman being that beaten dog and being - thereās often a dynamic isnāt there with bullied people as sort of needing the feeling of negative attention that you get from that and I think heās become, not addicted to it, but related to it.āĀ
Excerpt from Firecrotch and Normcore: They Like to Watch (recorded at Edinburgh Fringe Festival) ā Aug. 29, 2023
#I havenāt seen it circulate tumblr so Iām not sure how popular this take is here#but I think it fits when you think about Austerlitz and the scripts from The Disruptor and Honeymoon States#I really do wonder so much about Connorās childhood though#like what on Earth went on in that house while Logan was on his way up#I can see it being both worse and better because on the one hand thereās no one watching but on the other handā¦thereās no one watching#Man I wish we had more Connor lore#also endlessly fascinated by Romanās victim complex#roman roy#kendall roy#logan roy#connor roy#hbo succession#jesse armstrong#cw abuse#cw parental abuse#cw physical abuse
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Hello! I want to learn how to draw content on the more spicy side, but I'm unsure where to start. Do you have any tips/resources for it? I would love to make Corrin/Gunter art and some of my other favorite pairings. Thank you in advance!
on the practical/technical side:
having a solid understanding of anatomy helps, of course - the basic bone structure of course, but how skin, fat, muscle hangs as well. you don't actually need to watch live-action porn to get references (i never have believe it or not), but i do follow a few historical kink/bear magazine archivists online. personally i find that there's more of a variety of beautiful shapes and humans in those old photos, and you generally know it's consensual since they've personally submitted them.
you also can't go wrong with reading other erotic comics ... i say comics vs illustrations since you start to see the pacing of these scenes like any other human interaction and the tools the artists use. when does intimacy turn into foreplay? when does the artist/mangaka zoom in to capture the sensation of the moment? what clever tricks do the artists to capture the climax when the bodies are all pressed together and when finding a good camera angle is tricky? how do they show the heightened feeling with symbols and textures? how is kink power dynamics shown with characters in different positions? do you show faces and the expressions to show the pleasure or not? what comics feel cold and manufactured to you versus ones that capture real eros? why? etc.
on the mental side:
if you're anything like me, you might have a lot of shame to untangle when it comes to harder varieties of erotic art. (i hope not! not everyone does. but it's unfortunately common given the societies we live in.)
it's going to take a while, and it's going to feel really weird at times when you draw something that's uncomfortably intimate or taboo, but that's when you know it's working and you gotta keep pushing through.
you gotta keep drawing.
privately, i have a personal rule that i'll draw anything at least once; if i feel afterwards that it turned out to be a personal squick, i won't go there again, but that guideline has been marvelous to start breaking through the manufactured idea of disgust and also just to experiment with putting myself in other people's shoes about what they find hot. sometimes it's surprising! i've learned a lot.
lastly, on that note - draw what you find deeply intimate. forget about other people. selfshipping? the most niche kinks possible? the kink that feels like the internet can't stand? who gives a shit about them (no taste, the lot of them).
draw the human. the tenderness, the visceral, that overpowering desire for you that almost scares you with how intense it is and that sends your brain alight.
that's going to be timeless.
#now selfishly. takes your hand. please know i am vibrating with delight at the sheer thought of more gunter/corrin and the like :D :D :D#either way regardless what you draw wishing you success and happiness anon ~#not art#the 'draw what you want' is so real tbh. i've had multiple professional animators say lovely things about my gunter/corrin drawings#- just because i could not fake going absolutely feral over old man wrinkles even if I *tried* lol#people are a lot more into different/crunchy body types and kinks than we give them credit for!
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via iMargo_CEO
#jam reiderson#sam reid#jacob anderson#interview with the vampire#iwtv#giving how codependent they are sometimes i wish sam went back living in UK#it would be better for his career too#even tho he went back to australia bc he was getting more roles there#i hope iwtv gets even + success for hollywood start casting him (well all the cast since they are so talented) and he have to go back to uk
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I like to think that during pfl (using his s9 characterization, not s10) wash is the guy you go to when you want to know something (ah la a line in the fall of reach novel I believe where chief says the enlisted personnel always seem to know stuff bc wash is clearly enlisted).
he's in a position where he's privy to information from the higher-ups, and he's friendly enough with the lower rungs that he knows the gossip going around. as a bonus though, wash ain't no narc, so if you want that information you need to offer him something of equivalent exchange (consequently fueling the 'guy who knows things' thing). for example, north had to tell him about using equipment in the field in order to get him to tell him what his meeting with internals was about.
wash isn't the only guy who knows things, of course, but he's the guy who has the widest base of general knowledge. ct is also someone who knows things, but she's a lot more specific, and what she lacks in scale she more than makes up for with how in-depth her knowledge is. wash is where you learn about something from, ct is where you get all the juicy details (to the point of it almost being tmi). she also has an equivalent exchange policy, but people tend to be a bit more reluctant to get information from her because of what her knowledge is (and the borderline 'insane conspiracy theorist' energy doesn't help either).
florida? well...you don't wanna know what he knows. the cost is simply too high.
#rvb#red vs blue#agent washington#agent connecticut#agent florida#butch flowers#mine#not t/oaru#carolina technically has better higher-up info than wash but nobody is dumb enough to try and get ms hyper serious to talk#except york. he's generally not successful though but sometimes he gets enough for wash and ct to have a starting point to work from#wash and ct are a troublemaking duo but whenever they get in trouble they just so happen to not be around like some magicians#or if they are around theres nothing they can truly get in trouble for bc wash makes sure ctās mouth doesnāt bite them in the ass#girl doesn't know how to be discreet but it's fine bc wash can gaslight gatekeep girlboss them out of most situations#and yet people STILL don't read him as the manipulative bastard he is. it drives ct insane tbh#they have a love/hate relationship with that aspect of each other. wash wishes he could boldly jump into things like ct and ct wishes she#could step back and wait like wash. but they're not very good at executing those attitudes bc wash needs to know everything he can b4 actin#but ct is comfortable diving in mostly blind so long as she's confident she'll learn what she needs to along the way#tumblr user eli tvckerwash once again yaps about wash and ct#yall wait. what if i tried rewriting the few s10 pfl wash scenes so they're more accurate to his r1-s9 characterization#hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm#also omg florida jumpscare
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nail! dump!
#nailposting#NAIL DUUUUUMP#i'm pretty sure i haven't posted any of these#actually i wish i took pictures of Every manicure i do bc then i could do some reealll nail dumps#i change my nails once or twice a week usually#nail polish#nail art#one of these is nail art. it was semi successful. i need to do some more soon
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i rewatched the deadpool movies and then watched the new one over this past week, and while these movies are lot of fun in a lot of ways and i enjoy a lot about them, may i just say: DAMN, is the writing for vanessa ever thankless as all hell, especially in the sequels
#'maybe she'll actually get something to do and get to be an active member of the plot in the third one!' i thought#like an IDIOT#rob delaney (an angel btw) gets infinitely more to do than vanessa!!!!!!!!!! wade's alleged reason for being!!!!!!#i guess being a man's reason for being is actually objectively a pretty boring thing to be#it's just antiquated sexist tropes o'clock with her and it's a bummer because morena is so luminous and likable in the role#anyway. that was my feminist rant!#it was a fun movie; i just wish she'd gotten a substantive role in it to make up for the stupid-ass fridging in deadpool 2#dollsome's deep thoughts#p.s. this is neither here or there#but seeing matty mcf tom wambsgans-ing so hard filled me with a yearning for succession that i can barely describe#'stop talking in that dumb obviously fake british accent tom!' i wanted - irrationally - to scream#what if i rewatched succession immediately#deadpool spoilers#deadpool
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