#i will love you to the ends of the earth kae

[diamond-reads]

KAE YLANGELEGY WHEN I FIND YOU.......

but also. thank you. i got the notification for this while i was having a really really shitty day at work, and knowing that i had your writing to come home to made really was a light at the end of the tunnel. and so i must annotate this fic bc it makes me HAPPY and YOU make me happy:

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tara diamonddaze01 #1 lover of onomatopoeia is HERE and i am already in love. the things i would do to freeze every moment spent with jeonghan.... print them and frame them and reminisce about memories.....anyways i digress its literally the FIRST WORD when will i learn how to RELAX

Your phone at eye-level; its camera, trained on him. There you are.

your camera is trained on him, but jeonghan is trained on you. a beautiful metaphor for how, in your world, he’s the subject of every picture—every thought, every moment. But in his, you’re the only thing in focus. and THEN the "there you are." really hits home - he sees you. i love the idea that the real you begins where the camera ends

This is how he knows he loves you: Your laughter always felt like a small victory. Even before, he’d crack jokes in staff meetings and his eyes would immediately go to gauge your reaction.  

say it with me: i LOVE love. and i LOVE this assertion that jeonghan doesn't want your laughter to feel like he's funny (he knows he's funny) but he wants it to feel like he's yours. i love the idea that he collects these victories, these pieces of you like a hoarder. it's subtle, this love - the kind that sneaks up on you in fluorescent-lit rooms and powerpoints presentations; the kind that falls in love with the way your eyes crinkle when he tries to make you smile.

I love you, Daesang winner Yoon Jeonghan!

I love this line, I love the heartfelt emotions that just...sneak up on you. the declarations of love that are sudden, that catch you off guard and make you laugh.

siderbar: oh ur so evil for the beautiful soul mention...... but the lyrics "I don’t want another pretty face / I don’t want just anyone to hold" play so BEAUTIFULLY off the line about laughter being a small victory. jeonghan treasures your laughter - something as intangible and as unique as your soul; jeonghan doesn't try to impress, but the small victories are a connection to you, and you laughter is vulnerable, real, and uniquely yours

i could wax poetic about song lyrics and your writing forever but anyways i digress...

At the twenty-minute mark, Jeonghan finally huffs, “I’m ignoring you.”  “Hm?” you say distractedly, and he resist the urge to chuck your phone into the nearby lake.  “I said,” he repeats. “I’m ignoring you.”  You glance up at him, unamused. “You are literally talking to me,” you note.  “Well, I was ignoring you before that.”  “Were you?”  “Yes. You didn’t notice, so I thought I’d inform you.” 

kae you write your characters with so much love - jeonghan is so fucking ENDEARING i want to put him in my pocket. oh yoon "must-have-the-last-word" jeonghan how i adore you so

Jeonghan is supposed to be sulking, but that small word— we— has him fighting down a smile. It’s his account, his digital footprint, but you’re the mastermind. You’re the one behind the man, the myth, the legend. 

i'm so :((( no one TOUCH ME. his reaction is so.... on the surface, jeonghan is the charismatic, untouchable legend, but beneath it all, you’re the one grounding him, supporting him, making sure the myth doesn’t outshine the man. you’re the quiet, steady presence behind the scenes, and jeonghan loves you for it in ways he probably doesn’t even know how to express fully.... i want to kiss him....

“Get some photos of your actual boyfriend,” he grumbles.

sulky pouty BABY come HERE let me KISS IT BETTER!

siderbar: i had never listened to zild before this but oh my god i love this song. my fav lyric so far: "Gagawa ako ng kanta, / Na ikaw ang pamagat" ("I will make a song/With you as the title"). I feel like this mirrors the line "It’s his account, his digital footprint, but you’re the mastermind." - you are the one behind his image. your presence in jeonghan's life makes him who his is; he may be the “legend” in public, but in private, you’re the one crafting the story behind the scenes. this is mirrored so well in Lia by the sentiment of putting someone at the forefront of a creation. oh to love someone to the point of creation....

He didn’t want a civil breakup. He’d much rather go out kicking and screaming than have something amicable.

oh jeonghan.... here comes my character analysis because kae writes like honey and i am drawn in like a fly:

idk i feel like this jeonghan just thrives on intensity and raw emotion - the imagery of a breakup being "civil" feels so foreign to him because he’s the type who prefers things to be messy, uncontained, and loud. he doesn’t want the quiet closure; he wants something that feels like it mattered, something that leaves a mark. there’s this craving for validation, to feel like the end of something—whether it’s a relationship, a chapter, or a part of himself—needs to be remembered. If it’s civil, then was it even real? Was it even worth the effort?

re: “kicking and screaming” - he wants passion, he wants fight, he wants to know that you two struggled for it. it's like this deep-rooted need to avoid anything that feels too easy, too comfortable. he’s the type to throw himself into the storm of emotions, to feel the thunder roll through his chest, even if it means suffering. because in the suffering, there’s proof of how much it all meant. A quiet goodbye just wouldn’t feel earned for someone like this. he wants to be remembered

if i got this wrong kae pls ignore me. LMAO. ONWARDS!

Jeonghan tugs at your hand and shakes his head. Focus on me, he’s wordlessly saying, and for once, you do.

what a beautiful line - for someone who has spent the entire relationship looking over her shoulder, making sure no one is watching, it speaks volumes to finally lay it all to rest, to see him, to just be.

You squeeze Jeonghan’s hand reassuringly. “I’m not throwing anything away. I’m just compromising.”  “I don’t want you to have to compromise anything for me.”  “Compromise is part of a grownup relationship, Hannie. It’s a good compromise.” 

[sobbing violently] something something to be loved is to be changed...something something to love is to compromise...something something to love is to make space for growth.... no one look at me ever again.

sidebar: oh my GOD tum se hi mention you want me DEAD okay!!!!! one of my favorite lyrics from the song are "Main tera sarmaya hoon" which literally translates to "i have become your property" but stylistically it means "I am because of you". something about that line + this jeonghan makes my heart break in ways i didn't know was even humanly possible. there's this the profound sense of belonging and dependence that the lyric evokes. it’s about becoming something through the other person, because of them—there’s this raw vulnerability in it that makes my chest aches. Jeonghan knows he is because of you, he's so intertwined with you in a way that makes him feel whole.

When he goes to kiss you, it bears none of the threatening front that he’s trying to put up. It’s a slow, sweet thing. A glimmer lighting up his cotton sheets.  He only pulls away when he can no longer physically manage to keep kissing you. There’s the beginning of a grin on his face as his breaths come out in short pants, as his eyes stay closed. He’s savoring the moment, trying to remind himself how damn lucky he is even if the cost involves running his own SNS accounts henceforth.  But then you’re laughing, your fingers threading through his hair. You tug Jeonghan back down despite the fact that you’re just as breathless, and his lips curl into a full-on smile when they meet yours. 

I apologize i have nothing intelligent to say here. my brain is broken and i am in tears because DEAR GOD i am in love with this man!!!!!!!!!

tldr; kae you have, and i kid you not, my whole entire heart. every character you write is like a thread of gold, and you weave together tapestries of love and life that make me feel. you stitch warmth and light into the fabric of the worlds you create, and when you step back to look at it, there’s this masterpiece that’s almost too beautiful to touch—but you do, and it feels like it was always meant to be held. The way you turn even the smallest, quietest moments into something that glows is like witnessing magic in motion—everything you touch turns to gold, and I feel lucky that i am allowed to feel its glow.

so disconnected 📵 jeonghan x reader.

if jeonghan's 'boyfriend material' posts are on point, well— you can thank his girlfriend.

★ jeonghan x social media manager!reader. ★ word count: 2.6k ★ genre/warnings: established relationship, fluff!!!, txt's soobin is mentioned, down bad!jeonghan, jealous!jeonghan. some smau elements. not proofread; we go out swinging, baby. ★ footnotes: "kae if i wake up to a single shred of jeonghan on ur page..." ¡sorpresa, @diamonddaze01! no further notes, your honor.

🎧 now playing: disconnected by 5 seconds of summer — i admit i'm a bit of a fool for playing by the rules, but i've found my sweet escape when i'm alone with you.

Click.

Jeonghan hasn’t even looked up and yet he already knows what he’ll find when he does. Sure enough, when he shifts his weight onto his other foot and glances away from the TikTok he’d been watching— there you are. 

He wishes he could see your beautiful face. Alas, it’s obstructed by the sight that he’s grown used to associating with you. 

Your phone at eye-level; its camera, trained on him. 

“Yah.” His high-pitched bid to feign annoyance is a futile one. Everybody knows that Jeonghan could never be truly irked by you, no matter how masterfully you pushed his buttons sometimes. 

After clicking away for a couple more minutes, you finally lower your phone. 

There you are. 

Jeonghan swears he’s not a sap, not what those people call ‘simps’. But something about your smile always makes him a little weak in the knees, makes him want to be The Best Boyfriend In The World, bar none. 

He gestures for you to come closer. Once you’re within reach, Jeonghan is already wrapping an arm around your waist and pulling you in.

“Don’t do that,” you snipe as he brings you into his chest. “We’re in public!”

Jeonghan can’t hide the way his eyes roll. “I don’t care. This isn’t public. It’s the parking lot of your apartment building,” he says dryly. 

“Still public.” 

“Still don’t care.” 

You go to shove at Jeonghan’s chest. He responds by tightening his hold on you, a sound of protest rising from the back of his throat. 

“C’mon, just a minute.” He buries his face in the top of your head, breathing in the soothing scent of your shampoo. It makes something in his chest flutter. “I’ll let you go, just— give me a minute, sweetheart.” 

He can sense that your acquiescence is begrudging, but he takes it nonetheless. A win is a win, he thinks smugly as he takes the opportunity to hug you a little tighter. 

It’s been three months since you finally agreed to try dating Jeonghan, though you had insisted that it be kept on the down low. Something about decorum, discretion. Workplace violations? Jeonghan doesn’t really remember; he had been a little too excited at the prospect of finally being yours that he wouldn’t have minded any condition in the world. 

The past weeks have unironically been some of the best in Jeonghan’s life, though there were probably some things he could do without. 

“It’s my day off, you know,” he mumbles into your hair, “which means it should also be your day off.” 

You giggle, and the force of it has your shoulders slightly shaking against Jeonghan’s chest. 

This is how he knows he loves you: Your laughter always felt like a small victory. Even before, he’d crack jokes in staff meetings and his eyes would immediately go to gauge your reaction.  

He liked making you laugh. He liked being the reason behind your smiles. And, God, did he like you. 

“Let me think about it.” There’s a hint of teasing in your voice, followed by a little ‘hmmm’ of faux thoughtfulness. 

He’s about to bite back at you when he feels your hand at his hip, somewhat leaning into his embrace, and he instead channels his energy into holding back a dreamy sigh. You go on, “No, I don’t think so. Go pose by the wall for another picture.” 

Jeonghan leans back a bit, just enough so that you can see his furrowed eyebrows as he whines, “But I’m Daesang winner Yoon Jeonghan!”

The title is a new one. Five days recent, in fact, and Jeonghan is hoping it will cut him some slack. 

“Okay, Daesang winner Yoon Jeonghan,” you say without missing a beat. “Go pose by the wall.” 

Jeonghan peels himself away from you with a grumble. He knows he’s acting a bit like an overgrown child— stomping as he walks, pouting when he leans— but he trusts that you’ll find it endearing. 

You pull out your phone’s camera app. Jeonghan is ready to frown the entire way through, maybe sass you that you only told him to pose by the wall but you didn’t say how he should look. 

But then, instead of “One, two, three…”, you call out something else entirely. 

“I love you, Daesang winner Yoon Jeonghan!”

He can’t help it. 

He laughs, and you click away.

jeonghaniyoo_n ♫ Jesse McCartney - Beautiful Soul

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One pro of dating your social media manager, Jeonghan would argue, is all the ‘vacations’ that the two of you can go on. You’re there for every tour stop, every concert, and Jeonghan absolutely revels in the hour or two he can steal away with you. 

If only he could get you to stop working. 

He knows that you’re technically on the clock more often than not. Managing an idol’s social media presence was no small feat, and your entire shtick was about making Jeonghan look as desirable as possible on SNS. You’ve been doing a terrific job so far, if his steady rise in followers was anything to go by. 

Still. Jeonghan has been attempting to give you the cold shoulder for the past 15 minutes. Attempting, because you don’t even seem to notice that he’s gone quiet— too busy on your phone to pay him any heed. 

He shoves his hands into his pockets and clears his throat. He doesn’t even have to glance at your screen; he knows you’re probably on Lightroom, fine tuning the press photos of him from earlier this morning. 

At the twenty-minute mark, Jeonghan finally huffs, “I’m ignoring you.” 

“Hm?” you say distractedly, and he resist the urge to chuck your phone into the nearby lake. 

“I said,” he repeats. “I’m ignoring you.” 

You glance up at him, unamused. “You are literally talking to me,” you note. 

“Well, I was ignoring you before that.” 

“Were you?” 

“Yes. You didn’t notice, so I thought I’d inform you.” 

The beleaguered sigh you let out is not a new thing. Jeonghan has been on the receiving end of your exasperation for as long as he’s known you. 

At least there’s a hint of guilt on your expression as you tuck away your phone. “Sorry,” you mumble. “Everybody’s posting follower ranking listicles since it’s the end of the year. I wanted to see where we were placing.” 

Jeonghan is supposed to be sulking, but that small word— we— has him fighting down a smile. It’s his account, his digital footprint, but you’re the mastermind. You’re the one behind the man, the myth, the legend. 

He’s down so bad for you that it’s not even funny anymore. 

“And?” he prods, his earlier chagrin smoothed out into something that sounds a lot more like resigned affection. “How’s it looking?” 

The frustration that takes over your expression makes Jeonghan want to coo. It’s nothing short of a miracle that he manages to hold himself back. 

“We still haven’t beat out Choi Soobin.” You frown like the other idol has personally wronged you by having a higher follower count. “His boyfriend material photos are too damn good.” 

“His what?”

You whip out your phone. Jeonghan watches with growing incredulity as you pull up Instagram, and he’s less than pleased that user page.soobin is already one of your more recently searched accounts. 

When you shove your phone underneath Jeonghan’s nose, he’s treated to the sight of Soobin’s feed. “Boyfriend material photos,” you double down, like having a visual might somehow explain things away. 

Jeonghan snatches your phone from you. “I heard you the first time,” he says irritably. “But what does it mean?” 

“It means that he looks like somebody’s boyfriend,” you shoot back. 

Oh, Jeonghan does not like that. 

He doesn’t care if it’s just a term for a type of photo. The thought of you perceiving anyone else as ‘boyfriend material’ makes a muscle in his jaw tick. 

“Do you think,” he says coolly, keeping his eyes trained on your screen, “he looks like ‘boyfriend material’?” 

“I mean, yeah—” 

You’ve barely gotten to the end of your sentence before Jeonghan is handing you back your phone. “Where are you going?” you call out as he marches a couple of paces away. 

He looks equal part determined and peeved when he turns to face you. You have your eyebrows arched upward, but he’s more focused on making sure his good side is angled towards you. 

“Get some photos of your actual boyfriend,” he grumbles.

jeonghaniyoo_n ♫ ZILD - Lia

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The day you tell Jeonghan about your plans of resigning, his first thought is Well, that was good while it lasted.

His attempt at being unaffected is a shaky one. You can tell by the way he holds his paper cup just a little too tightly, the way he keeps smoothing out invisible wrinkles on his coat. His poorly concealed distress makes your expression soften, which is somehow worse.

He didn’t want a civil breakup. He’d much rather go out kicking and screaming than have something amicable.

And he most especially didn’t want to be broken up with in some random café in Tokyo. He has half a mind to ask why you couldn’t have waited until the two of you were back home. 

Jeonghan swallows hard, like it might somehow help him swallow the panic simmering in the pit of his stomach. 

“Good for you,” he finally manages to respond. “You’re overworked here, anyway.” 

“That’s not the reason why I’m leaving.” 

Jeonghan hates how calm you look. The two of you had watched— and judged— one too many dramas, and so he’d imagined a breakup with you would be something like that. A rain-soaked street, choice words that neither of you could take back. 

Not you stirring sugar into your coffee like this is not a relationship-defining conversation. 

When Jeonghan doesn’t respond, you continue. Your voice goes a touch softer, and he’s struck with the fear that you’re trying to let him down gently. 

“I’m resigning because of you, Hannie.” That nickname— the one that once felt like a Daesang in its own right, when you first bestowed it on him— now makes Jeonghan’s heart feel like lead. 

“Because of me,” he repeats. 

His mouth is dry. His hands are clammy. He’s thirty seconds away from getting on his knees and begging you to stay, the rest of the café’s patrons be damned. 

Your next words are spoken like an unshakable truth. “Because I love you.” 

You— 

The look on Jeonghan’s face must be priceless; you start to laugh, and the sound of it eases some of Jeonghan’s fraying nerves. 

“I love you, and I want to be with you. Properly.” Your lips purse for a moment. “Well, as properly as being with an idol will allow, anyway. At least I won’t have to worry about getting called in by HR if I’m working someplace else.” 

Workplace violations. Right. That had been a thing. 

All the emotions hit Jeonghan like a truck. Relief (that you’re not breaking up with him), then affection (that you’re willing to do this for him), then guilt (that you’re willing to do this for him). 

He reaches across the table to place his hand on top of yours. Your eyes instinctively glance around your surroundings, checking to see if anyone is looking your way. Jeonghan tugs at your hand and shakes his head. Focus on me, he’s wordlessly saying, and for once, you do. 

“I love you, too. More than you know,” he says. “But I don’t want you to throw away your career for me. Who’s to say you won’t resent me down the line because of it? I— I couldn’t live with myself, sweetheart.” 

You squeeze Jeonghan’s hand reassuringly. “I’m not throwing anything away. I’m just compromising.” 

“I don’t want you to have to compromise anything for me.” 

“Compromise is part of a grownup relationship, Hannie. It’s a good compromise.” 

He must not look convinced, because you take things a step further. Instead of just clasping his hand in yours, you move to intertwine your fingers. There’s some comfort in the familiar feeling of your fingers in between the spaces of his. 

“Nothing is being thrown away,” you repeat, your tone brooking no argument. “I will not hate you tomorrow because of this.” 

Here’s the thing: Jeonghan trusts you implicitly, and not only with his SNS passwords. He trusts your no-nonsense attitude, your unshakeable feelings, your typically sound judgement. 

He wants to trust you now. He wants to believe so, so badly that there is something on the other side for the two of you, and that something would be exactly what the two of you deserve. 

He tongues the inside of his cheek as he considers your words. When he speaks, his voice is a lot smaller than he intends. 

“What about the day after tomorrow?” 

The initial confusion that flits over your expression is replaced by that grin he adores. 

“I’ll still love you the day after tomorrow,” you promise. 

He presses, “And the week after that?” 

“The week after that, too.” 

“What about the month after?” 

“I’ll do you one better— the year after, too.” 

You’re laughing, laughing in the way that he’s always tried to make you laugh, and it’s all Jeonghan needs to trust that things are going to be okay.

jeonghaniyoo_n ♫ Pritam, Mohit Chauhan, Irshad Kamil - Tum Se Hi

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Click. Click. Click. 

“What are you doing?” 

“What,” Jeonghan huffs, “A guy can’t take photos of his girlfriend?”

You throw a pillow in Jeonghan’s direction, though your terrible aim has it soaring right over his head. 

Ever since you left his company, Jeonghan has enjoyed an array of benefits that come with dating someone who is not your co-worker. The biggest of which happened to be all the time he’s now free to spend with you, most of which he’s happy to kill in his apartment. 

He’s still a little bit petulant about your new job, though, and he likes to voice it out as often as he can. 

“I bet Soobin has tons of photos of you,” he grumbles.

You pretend not to hear him. Jeonghan tries again. 

From the foot of the bed, Jeonghan begins to crawl over your legs. Your annoyed tsk goes ignored as he takes your laptop and sets it aside, dragging you away from your social media planning for page.soobin.

“He better not fall in love with you,” Jeonghan warns.

You let out a low hiss before swatting at your boyfriend, trying to get him off of you. He doesn’t budge, instead caging you in with his arms on either side of you. 

When he goes to kiss you, it bears none of the threatening front that he’s trying to put up. It’s a slow, sweet thing. A glimmer lighting up his cotton sheets. 

He only pulls away when he can no longer physically manage to keep kissing you. There’s the beginning of a grin on his face as his breaths come out in short pants, as his eyes stay closed. He’s savoring the moment, trying to remind himself how damn lucky he is even if the cost involves running his own SNS accounts henceforth. 

“I’ll give you your laptop back,” he murmurs, satisfied to have had an ounce of you.

But then you’re laughing, your fingers threading through his hair. You tug Jeonghan back down despite the fact that you’re just as breathless, and his lips curl into a full-on smile when they meet yours. 

He’d been happy with an ounce, yes, but who is he to complain when you give him the whole damn lot? 

jeonghaniyoo_n ♫ 5 Seconds of Summer - Disconnected

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diamonddaze01 NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ylangelegy just fell to my knees 💔 happy for you, king yourusername :-)

[queenpiranhadon]

Hey hey

I wanted to request a dad aizawa x singer daughter :))

She is his only and biological daughter and wanted since she was little to become a singer and musician but never told Aizawa becase she thought he would told her to become a hero, and one day he finds her singing and playing an dificult instrumen.

Thankss

A/N: HIII IM SORRY THIS MIGHT BE KINDA BAD BC I HAVENT HAD A HEART TO HEART WITH MY DAD IN A WHILE LOLLL Here's my masterlist!

Warning(s): reader uses she/her pronouns, slight cursing, inaccurate Japanese translations lol, violin terms bc I'm a violinist :), reader's biological mom is dead, Aizawa became a dad at 19 - he's like 34 in this jsyk, reader's 15-16 yrs old, mentions of being disowned, fluff, mentions of depression and death, Kae makes a really bad pun, hime means princess in Japanese

Pairing(s): Shota Aizawa x daughter f!reader (PLATONIC)

Link to the song in this fic~

•─────•°•❀•°•──── ᴍᴀᴛꜱᴜʀɪ ────•°•☁︎•°•────•

“Goddamnit!” you groan, as you fiddle with your violin. (LMAO PUN!! sorry) 

Your fingers ached, as you tried to nail down the pizzicato run at the top of the page. However, your fingers refused to move with the fluency they used you, and you felt the calluses starting to develop on the surface of your fingertips. 

Self-teaching yourself to play the violin was a pain in the ass, but you were determined to go to a performing arts school once you graduated junior high. 

The only problem? 

Your father was Shota Aizawa, underground pro hero Eraser Head, and was not only a pro, but also a teacher at UA High School- one of the top schools for pro heroes in training. 

You loved your father to the ends of the earth, as he did you, considering your small family only consisted of the two of you, your mother having died during childbirth. Aizawa, only 19 at the time, struggled with the loss of his lover, but you helped him get through it. 

You were his pride and joy, the perfect combination of his love and himself, his precious daughter. 

Nothing you could do could make him hate you. 

And you knew that, but your insecurities were bigger. 

What if he wanted you to become a pro hero like him? 

In all honesty, you didn’t see that future for yourself. It was an honorable job, one that you knew was very important, and a job many children wished to have in the future, and yet, that was never your dream. 

Pro heroes went out every day, fighting with their lives on the line, patrols constantly, dealing with paparazzi, not to mention the

paperwork

. 

It wasn’t that you weren’t ambitionless, no, certainly not, but it wasn’t something you found passion in. 

But to be fair, if you were successful in your career path, there would sure be a lot of paparazzi either way. 

You were set on following a path into the performing arts, but it was always a little disheartening whenever you heard your Uncle Hizashi or Auntie Nemuri go “Awww Y/N! You’re going to be an amazing pro hero when you’re older, so kind and so determined” 

You knew they meant well, but still. 

Sighing you set down your violin, gently setting it down in your case and safely securing you bow in before tucking it underneath your bed. That’s where most of your instrumental arsenal lived, all compact and tucked away, awaiting your every musical whim. 

You worked tirelessly to earn enough money for each of your instruments for the past two years, combing through online marketplaces and sales to find decently priced quality instruments. 

Grabbing your keyboard and setting it up, your fingers find their way to ivory keys that played a sequence you knew well. 

The notes left your fingers immediately, music filling your bedroom walls as a stream of tunes flow like a waterfall, smooth and connected, and yet, somehow still intense in its own way. 

Music is a form of communication, you always thought. The right notes paired together convey moods, thoughts, feelings. It always amazed you how something as simple as sequential pitches could convey something words never could. 

Ai shika kanjitaku mo nai (I don't want to feel anything but love) you sang, letting yourself get lost in the music. 

Mou nan no wakehedate mo na (There's no difference anymore)

Matomete kakatte kinasai (Please call all at once)

Ima nara subete uketomeru kara (I'll accept everything now)

~

You finish the song with a resounding chord, the room eerily quiet without any music flowing through it, until a slow clap breaks the silence. 

“Well, what do we have here?” 

You jump in surprise, scrambling away from the keyboard to see your father standing in the doorway of your room, the look on his face unreadable. 

You turn bright red and feel your heart sink. 

You never told your father about your dreams and aspirations for the future- what would be say now? 

You steel yourself, taking in a deep breath. 

Calm down, Y/N. He wouldn’t disown you because you don’t want to be a pro. And plus, it’s my life! I should have a say in what I want to do. You think to yourself. 

“Dad, I don’t want to be a pro hero...” you mumble out, refusing to look at him. “I want to be a musician, or a singer! I really like music and it just...really makes me happy.” 

He doesn’t say anything for a few seconds, and you think with a sinking heart that he’s furious, but then a chuckle is heard, almost deafening in the silent room. 

“Oh, thank god.” he exhales in relief, leaving you staring at him, dumbfounded. 

“Y-You’re not mad...?” you ask, extremely confused. 

“Oh no, of course not hime - don't even think that. I'm so sorry you felt like you couldn't tell me anything. ” he says, and you’re put at ease. “Everyday, pro heroes go through pain and hardships to try to save the people of this world.” 

He sighs “Many pros lose their sanity and fall into an abyss of depression and despair because it’s too much for them. “he looks at you, his eyes genuine and sincere. “I don’t want that life for you.” 

You hug him, and his arms wrap around you comfortingly. 

“I love you dad.” 

“I love you too, hime.” 

Then he pulls away with a sly grin on his face. “So, you gonna show me what you’ve been working on?” 

Your face flushes and you shove his arm playfully. 

“Dad!” 

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im in agony.

To think that If I hadn't of been on my phone that one day, I wouldn't have ever met you and became close like we did. You... are everything to me. And I can't believe that you did this to yourself. To me. To US. We were going to travel the world together. We were going to go to Portland, Oregon like you wanted and get our own place. We were going to spend the rest of our days talking about writing. Talking about our characters. Our projects.

You had... so many of them. So much so that I couldn't hardly keep track of every idea that you had. But the one I remember the most was your Safe Place comic. You loved Adventure Time more than near anything. Called it comfort. Called it "safe". So you came up with this whole idea yo create an entirely original Adventure Time comic and stalk Pendleton Ward every single day on Twitch as "Rykero". He called you his number one, remember? He told you to show him your comic when you were done. You had so much to do. So much to complete and I can't believe you ever thought there wasn't enough time in your life to figure it out. I would have been with you, every step of the way. Holding your hand if I had to through everything.

We took showers together, we shared everything even our very darkest parts of our minds for hours on end. How many all nighters have we pulled? Do you remember when we were trapped in a power outage and we had to huddle in the livingroom to keep warmth?

But we laughed anyways and kept writing.

Nobody will ever understand. I don't expect anyone to when I say this. Deja Mccray, Khalesie Ikigai, Rykero.... whatever you liked to be called the most but you'll always be just "Kae" to me:

𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐒𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐨 𝐓𝐨𝐝𝐨𝐫𝐨𝐤𝐢 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐲 𝐈𝐳𝐮𝐤𝐮 𝐌𝐢𝐝𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐲𝐚.

But you ALWAYS said that you were a "Katsuki Bakugo ass bitch", didn't you?

I wish I could tell Clifford Chapman about you. Your Katsuki Bakugo. I think that the way you wrote his character was a way that even he would have been proud of you for. You knew every inch of that character, and I just wish that we could have continued watching My Hero Academia together. Kept WRITING together... we didn't finish anything, you see? Why would you leave us unfinished? We... were rooting for Tododeku, remember? We were supposed to watch them finally become a couple in the end of the anime. You bet your right leg on it, remember? You just had to wait a little longer... just a little longer and we could have seen Shoto and Izuku together just like our story.

I don't even know where to start, Kae. I don't. I would have followed you to the ends of the earth and I will never forgive myself for as long as it takes me... I'm so sorry. For everything. I couldn't be more sorry for what happened. There was nothing in this world that would have kept me from you. If only you'd have just asked for help, we would have figured it out together. Like we always do.

You have been everything in my life and I can't ever remember a time that you weren't here. I will never experience a love so true and genuine again. I searched for it, never knowing that it was right beside me the whole time. Too late for me, sadly.

But I was in love with you, Kae. With your mind, your love, your words, and your drive. It was everything about you that had me like it did. Hell, that STILL has me like it does. Never thought I'd meet someone that made my heart skip a beat like you did. What I wouldnt do to have you caress my face again and say "Good morning!" In your baby voice.

All I want is to save another roach for you. I just want someone to hug, but nobody will ever care like you did. Nobody will ever love me like you did and I'm sorry I failed so badly. Im so, so sorry that I'm a failure. I don't even know if I can do this life thing without you. I don't know how to go on. I was gonna spend the rest of my life with you, if thats what it took to help you sort out your feelings.

I was always ready with you. Anytime, anywhere. There's nothing more that I want than to follow you, everywhere you go...

I love you, Kae.

Fuck, I don't know what to say. You promised me you'd sign my future baby's birth certificate. You were gonna hold my hand in the delivery room. That was gonna be YOUR baby. OURS. I was working on it because I wanted a baby so badly and you encouraged my desires. Always. This... wasn't supposed to happen.

You wanted to be famous for your ideas.... you... should be famous for your ideas. I have all your notes, your drawings, everything that you wrote down and analyzed. Each and every project of yours... I just have to find out what to do with it and where to start.

I'm so sorry for everything. I've never experienced unberable agony like this until now.

We'll... see eachother again.

Everyone please look at her art. Please, she had such potential. Please. She deserves it.

[erina-writes-headcanons]

Same request of rainy days w their s/o headcanons for Haikyuu w Akaashi, Tsukishima, Bokuto, Suna and Atsumu ! (˶◡‿◡)(´ ❥ `) ! If you can no rush.

♥ Spending Rainy Days Together with Tsukishima Kei, Akaashi Keiji, Bokuto Koutaro, Suna Rintarou and Atsumu Miya♥

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A/N: Hey there my best girl @mhynvxii! I'm really sorry for the long update of your request but I do have fun writing all of your requests because I can just imagine Haikyuu and KNB Guys being all soft with their S/O in Rainy Days.

Gender: Neutral

Warning: Profanity

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Tsukishima Kei

This salt boi isn't someone really affectionate and he isn't someone who is soft, unlike Sugawara. He is quite a difficult person unless you can put up with his sarcasm and his mean side.

Because of this, I don't really see you and him would cuddle often when outside was raining. I am not saying he won't cuddle you, he would only do it when the two of you are getting sleepy and fall asleep. Other than that, he won't do it.

That doesn't mean he doesn't love you even though he can be rude and a little bit of a jerk sometimes. Tsukishima shows that he loves you in his own way.

During rain, Tsukishima would be a little bit softie by letting you listen to his music and I can see that he would make a playlist where the two of you could listen together.

While listening to music together, Tsukishima would also let you borrow his novel book. I know in Anime it didn't tell if Tsukishima likes to read a novel book but I know he likes to read a book so the two of you would read a book together and review each other books.

Other than reviewing the book together while the two of you are listening to the playlist that he made for you. I can see he would tease you just for shit and giggles.

His love language is teasing so expect if you try to cuddle him, he would comment on your height or any comment that makes you miffed as you slap his shoulder for pissing you off.

Hear me out, there is some time when he is not in the mood to tease you. I can see you two have a talk that ends up with some coos and comfort. He's not talkative but I can see he would listen to your rant as his hands gently stroke your back.

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It was dark inside of your room with the light source only coming from the bright screen in front of your face. There were tons of pages with some unfinished charts there and there. Massaging the bridge of your nose, the headache on your head keeps ringing and distracting you from the assignment that need to be done as quick as possible.

Not only the unfinished charts from the undone presentation inflating the strain on your mind but the constant spamming chat from the lecturer asking for the assignment makes you wish the ground swallow you whole and you are able to disappear from the earth forever.

A pair of golden eyes watch you as the tall middle blocker saw a sigh escape from your lips. He didn't say anything nor ask if you were fine but he was aware that you need a rest from all of the tasks from your math teacher. Putting his book away, the middle blocker stands up and leave the bed as he trudges slowly to you.

"Oi, stupid. How long are you gonna finish that assignment, the deadline isn't tomorrow, right?" Tsukishima asks

"yeah it's not tomorrow but Miss Nozomu keeps spamming the chat with the assignment," you told Tsukishima.

"Nozomu? Kae Nozomu?" Tsumkishima raises one of his eyebrows.

"Yeah, that teacher," you continued the paper.

"Tch, are you dumb or no brain? Just because she was spamming the group chat abut the assignment, it doesn't mean you cannot have a rest time. Now come to bed and listen to this," Tsukishima grabbed your arms.

He gently tug your arm as you stood up from the chair and follow the tall moon salt from behind, wondering what kind of plan he has. As the two of you are on the bed, sitting next to each other. Tsukishima gently plugged the AirPods inside of your ear after he logged himself inside the Spotify, playing one of the playlists on his phone.

Seeing the title of the playlist. It made you smile like a dork and snicker slightly, it was a little bit unexpected from him since the title of the playlist is' Falling in love' but you know that the blonde middle blocker is whipped with you. It was clear from the title of the playlist and the way he pulls you away from overworking yourself that Kei loves you.

With a smile, you lay next to Tsukishima as outside was raining hard, the two of you decides to listen to the chosen music and slowly fell asleep together. Pleased by the sound of the rain and the soft music as arms tangled with each other and enjoyed each other warmth under a blanket.

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Akaashi Keiji

Akaashi is a gentleman and because of that. I can see the two of you spending quality time together in a sophisticated way, whether it's simple or going out together.

If the rain isn't really hard, I can see the two of you having a cafe date together as the two of you ordered the same drink while chatting about lots of topics.

When he is in a slight cheeky mood, I can see him teasing you by holding out a spoon of the choice of the food and then feeding you as he smiles innocently but you cannot get mad at him because of his beautiful smile-

Okay, let move on. I know he's not really into physical touch but I still can see him cuddling together with you as he let you lay on his shoulder.

Whenever the two of you cuddling, Akaashi would gently hold your hands and sometimes the two of you would compare each other hand size-

Akaashi doesn't speak, he would just listen when the two of you are cuddling but he would also play with your hand, playing with your hair or gently stroke your back.

Hear me out, not only this man cuddles but I also can see the two of you baking cake together while outside was raining as his chest touched your back while his hands guide your hand.

While the two of you are baking, I can see he would also give tiny smooches on the crown of your head if you are smaller than him and he is also a great teacher when it comes to teaching you to bake even if you have never done it before.

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Glancing at the view outside, the view of tears from the cloud goes harder in each second, wetting the plants in the park as the window also got wet from the water. A sigh escapes your lips as the rain got harder with each second, not letting you having a date together with your boyfriend.

A pair of blue eyes stares at his partner from the kitchen, the setter of Fukurodani could sense your bad mood even though the two of you are far away. He wishes he could do something about it, trying to make you forget the planned date until a light bulb appear on his head, having an idea how to cheer you up.

The tall setter hurriedly trotted away, putting the plate in his hands away as he goes to the bedroom. The tall setter of Fukurodani opened the door and his eyes laid on the bookcase inside of the bedroom, he takes the two of them before leaving the bedroom and planning to have a reading marathon together with you.

Leaving the bedroom, Akaashi walked up to you and laid the books in front of you, "(Y/n)-San. Do you wanna read together? I brought your favourite book," Akaashi laid the book on the table.

"Hehe, thank you, Keiji-san," You kiss his cheeks, earning a little blush from your boyfriend.

"It was no problem. I don't want to see you in bad mood for a long time. We can have fun too even though the outside is raining," he sat next to you, gently tucking the strain of your hair behind your ear.

"What are you reading?" You look over the title of the book that he is going to read.

"The little princess, I will tell you my book after we read," Akaashi offers, holding one of your hands.

As the sky goes darker, the sound of thunders already was long forgotten by the two of you as the air gets warmer, enjoying each other company in silence. Nonetheless, Akaashi and you the silence was comforting as the room are filtered with the smell of old book and a cup of coffee or tea.

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Bokuto Koutaro

This loud baby owl is going to find tons of things to do together with you when outside was raining. I am just praying that you have high energy and don't get tired easily.

Cuddles, this baby owl would love to cuddle you when outside was raining. You cannot change my mind, this large beefy owl would cuddle you when outside was raining.

When the two of you are cuddling, Bokuto would also shower your face with butterfly kisses that sometimes make you giggle because of how tickling it is as he would smile like a dork.

I don't think Bokuto can cook but I do think you two would order something while outside was still raining, and yes sometimes you would buy a lot of them because Bokuto can EAT.

If you have a strong stomach, the two of you going to end up having an eating competition in which who would finish the food first, he would often win though.

Especially if it's pizza or barbeque, you need to prepare lots of meat for him because he can just down several grilled slices of meat in one second.

Since he has lots of energy, I can see Bokuto would pull you to the rain and play together with him as the two of you going to be drenched in water.

He would be cheeky enough to splash you and then the two of you going to chase each other while outside was raining. Basically, Bokuto is a man-child who would make rain is the best day to have fun.

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Glaring at the window, your sour mood was radiating the whole room and the great-horned owl even can sense your anger resonating with him. If you are wondering how does he know that you're in bad mood, the answer is because the two of you are watching the rain from outside and pouting together.

The two of you had planned to go to play volleyball together in the street and then have a barbeque date together but suddenly the rain comes down and the two of you need to cancel the date together. Sucking and chewing his inner cheeks, the ace of Fukurodani squinted his eyes and you can hear the gear in his brain screeching loudly.

An idea popped into his mind and he looks at you with stars in his eyes, showing he has an idea of how to make this day more fun even though outside was raining, "Baby owl! I have an idea to make this more fun!" He shouted. Honestly, you swore you would never get adjusted to his loud voice.

"What is it, Bokuto-san?" You raised one of your eyebrows

"Follow me, Baby owl!" He grasped one of your hand.

There was no choice other than following your boyfriend as you follow your boyfriend from behind, wondering what kind of plan he has.

His other hand grabbed the handle of the door and pulled it open, B-bokuto. What are you doing-" but the tall spiker of Fukurodani did not listen to you. Instead, he immediately pulls you to the park and makes you stumble along the way where the two of you run together in the rain.

"B-BOKUTO! MY T-SHIRT IS WET-" You tried to scold your boyfriend.

"BABY OWL!! LET'S RACE WITH EACH OTHER AND THE LOSER HAS TO GRILL THE BARBEQUE!! Bokuto shouts.

"...Fine, Bring it on, Bokuto," the corner of your lips curved upwards, accepting Bokuto's Challenge.

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Suna Rintarou

Suna would be the same as Tsukishima, he's not someone who can be considered soft and affectionate. He was rather distant and preferred solitude since he has to deal with the Miya twin's shenanigans.

But that doesn't mean he would not going to interact with you. He would show it in another way as outside is raining. The first one he would watch a movie together with you.

He would let you choose any kind of genre movie you want to watch as he would let you lay your head on his shoulder and the of you are going to focus on the movie.

Sometimes, he would already prepare the popcorn and fizzy drinks before the two of you can watch together. While you were watching, his hand would gently pat the back of your head or your back, being a little bit affectionate.

If you are not in the mood to watch a movie together, I can see the two of you spending time together when outside was raining by watching a funny video together, especially a video of Atsumu and Osamu being stupid together.

The two of you going to have tons of videos where you two can just laugh at people's stupidity and judge them together because I can see that is Suna's love language, sharing a video of stupid people and judging it with you

Other than watching a movie and judging people's stupidity, I can see that Suna would also let you paint his nail, not the bright coloured ones though, just like the black, navy, and dark grey ones.

In conclusion when outside is raining, he would wathing movie together with you, watching funny videos of Atsumu and Osamu fighting like a kind and lastly letting you paint his nail.

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The blanket around your form did not give any comfort even though outside was cold and raining. A wind from the air conditioner brushes against your legs, giving you a slight shiver as you tried to hide your legs more inside of the blanket, you needed your boyfriend to warm you up from the cold.

Taking a deep breath, your eyes glance at the clockwise the clock on the wall, showing it was getting darker outside. A ding could be heard along with the sound of footsteps getting closer and closer. Opening the door, you could see your boyfriend, Suna who's holding a bowl of popcorn and a plastic of coke bottle along with two plastic cups.

Laying the popcorn down on the table with the drink, your arms carefully wrapped around his arms and gently tug him to the bed, "It's cold...." you mutter, distracting him with your cute face and acting all cute to make your boyfriend melt.

Sighing, Suna rolls his eyes at your before flicking your forehead and snickered when he heard your little yelp. "Later, you know I need to put the movie on, right? You told me you wanted to watch 'Enola Holmes' an amused huff escapes from his nose and his lips.

"Fine..." You pout, crossing both of your arms as you watch Suna walking away from you.

"Don't pout or I will even pinch your cheeks more," Suna playfully threaten you even though he said it with a blank face.

"I'll bite your hands," you roll your eyes at him.

The middle blocker of Inarizaki punches the number of the remote before he trudges next to you, laying down and pulling you to his arms, letting your head lain on top of his shoulder. Despite the rain outside and the cold air of your bedroom. The two of you are able to get the warmth you both need.

The sound of the rain is already long forgotten by the two of you as the two of you watch Netflix together whilst cuddling. The cold air of the room was also already long forgotten, enjoying each other warmth. His hands gently trace your back, following the lines of the spine as his chin lay on top of your head, watching movie together with you.

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Atsumu Miya

This boy screams energetic even though he's not as energetic as Bokuto or Nishinoya. Because of this, he can do many things together with you when outside is raining.

First thing I can see is that the two of you going to spend each other time dyeing each other hair. As you can see, he has a partial golden blond part on his hair and he would ask your help to dye his hair.

If you have a natural colour hair but planning to dye your hair or if you have coloured hair. He would be willing to help you dye your hair and he's surprisingly good at it.

Atsumu is also very cuddly, his love language is physical touch as one of them. Because of that, he would cuddle you as his arms wrapped around your waist.

Sometimes he would let you become the little spoon while cuddling but at other time, he would also become the little spoon as you held him.

Definitely going to whine if you stop cuddling him or if you try to get away from his grip. If this happens, he is going to be petty by giving you a silent treatment but it won't last long because this boi could be really CLINGY.

Atsumu is also a manchild so when he is getting bored, he would be teasing you when he is bored and he enjoys annoying you because it feels like a personal 'I love you' when he annoys you.

So in conclusion when it's raining, the two of you going to dye each other hair as he's really good at it and he would also cuddle you since he is clingy. He would also tease the hell out of you just for shit and giggles.

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Walking to the kitchen with plates in your hand, your eyes glance at your boyfriend who is watching a movie on the TV. Your eyes notice the gold locks on his hair are fading slowly as slowly replaced with brown coloured. Your lips are pursed slightly and looking at your own reflection in your mirror.

The gear in your mind began moving as an idea popped into your mind, a bright idea of how to spend your time with your boyfriend together as outside is raining. Glancing at Atsumu, you put the plate away and strutting up to your boyfriend as your arms wrapped around his shoulder.

Sensing your arms around his shoulder, the blonde better looks up at you as his pouty lips are replaced with a smug smile, Hey there, baby girl/baby boy. Is there anything you need?" he raises one of his eyebrows as his hands gently trace your arms.

"I notice the blond locks on your hair are fading away, can we....dye each other hair?" You ask him.

"Yeah, do you want me to dye your hair as well? I'm good at it," You wanted to slap his face when he is being cocky like this but you know it would only cause more drama.

"Sure, but if you make a huge mess in the bathroom. You will clean it," You snark, standing up before walking away.

"B-BABE! WAIT! THAT'S NOT FAIR!" He whined.

The tall setter followed you from behind as he takes the brush, a hair dye and a small bowl to put the ingredients that he needs to re-colour his hand and your hair. Even though it wasn't a routine, it was a nice feeling once his hands touches yours, he was right, he's pretty good at dyeing your hair together with him as you love the final result of your hair.

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[torilaa]

Kreia? ;)

You HAD to ask for the most complicated character imaginable XD! Also one of the most interesting characters (in my opinion).

First impression

Mystic hag lady who I'm veeery suspicious about since she freaking spoke to a Sith weirdo like she knew him. Also, why are you are never happy with what I do, Kreia? What do you want from me? Though I did think she was very interesting character to listen to (her voice actress is awesome). I just HAD to know what her deal was.

Impression now

Kreia is “a cynic” and an “unreliable narrator.” What she tells the Exile should be taken with a massive grain of salt since she has ulterior motives and is manipulating you the entire game. 

Also, I find her to be evil, but not in the “mwhahaha” Sith fashion, but in a “I know how to manipulate you without you even knowing about it.” Like Palpatine. That sort of evil, I find, is way more interesting and terrifying. And I love it. 

Gaslight, Gatekeep, Girlboss basically. 

Favorite moment

When she saves the Exile from being killed by the Jedi Council. All of her lines during this scene are quotable. Also, just all the moments when she dunks on Atton. Very entertaining.

Idea for a story

I’d love to write a character piece! I wrote a very short piece already on how she became Revan’s first Master. I didn’t go too in-depth with what their actual master-student relationship was like and I’d love to write that (it wasn’t all sunshine and daisies).

Unpopular opinion

Yeah...I have a lot of unpopular opinions when it comes to Kreia XD! Essay incoming.

I don’t really agree with her philosophy. I interpret the Force as a literal “force of nature.” It doesn’t care about the “mortals” enough to care if it helps or destroys. Mortals have free will to chose what to use the Force for...and it’s that free will that causes conflict, not the Force. Basically, if human nature didn’t suck, the Force wouldn’t be a problem. 

I can see how Kreia came to her conclusion about the Force being the source of conflict in the galaxy though since some “forces of nature” like earthquakes, kill many people and cause conflict. But her conclusion is to then to destroy the Force which is…worse. Sure, nature could be “evil” yet it could also be beneficial. An earthquake could destroy your town…and it would be nice to put an end to earthquakes…but without earthquakes, the tectonic plates stop moving and no mountains….yeah, Earth is dead. 

I think Kreia couldn’t stand that she failed. She blamed the Force because if it wasn’t the Force, if she had free will, then her failures were her own. Her ego couldn’t let her take any responsibility for her actions. Kreia would rather risk having the galaxy die without the Force then admit she failed.

This really makes me look like I hate Kreia but I don’t XD! I love her character, I think she’s fascinating. Just...I think she’s flawed. Not 100% correct on everything.

Favorite relationship

Atton x Kreia, enemies to lovers, let’s go. 

“You fool,” Kreia says, seductively.

......I’m sorry, I’m joking - I swear XD! Well, I really like the master-student relationship between her and the Exile even if it is toxic lol. I go for female Exile most of the time and I headcanon that the Exile is similar to Kreia (she’s very cynical because of the war). So, Kreia sort of represents something the Exile could become if she allows her grief to fester.

Favorite headcanon

Other than the idea that Kreia was Arren Kae, I like to imagine that she had very high-expectations when it came to teaching Revan (who was labeled a genius - ah, the “gifted kid” syndrome). 

To me, Kreia was like those parents who only pay attention to their child if they get “As” and then they force them to take piano lessons on top of that because they want a prodigy child. Then when their child becomes a prodigy, they feel like it was because of them. Oh, and if their child fails, well, it wasn’t their fault. Basically...I think Kreia was a bit of a narcissist. She is the main reason why my Revan became so curious and jumped from master to master. He wanted to impress Kreia so much that he would have read the entire archives to get her attention. Of course...that attention was rarely received :(

Overall, Kreia really shouldn’t have been a teacher/mother figure lol. 

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✧ i still think of you

note: head empty, no thoughts. just shuichi saihara.

synopsis: in which you, the reader, get back together with your annoyingly cute ex, shuichi, at a party.

You didn't want to be here. Not at all. Yet despite your protests, Kaede had insisted you came along as it would be the last time everyone would gather together like this. Maybe it was selfish of you to think this way, but anything would be better than taking the risk of seeing him here. The last thing you wanted is to be reminded of the painful memories of the breakup.

Damn . . . It hasn't even been five seconds and I'm already thinking of this. I shouldn't have been so easily persuaded.

"I can't believe they don't have a piano here! I would've loved to play Clair de Lune . . ." Kaede's voice brought you back to Earth as you graced her with an inquisitive gaze.

"Ah yes, because the last thing we need is to make everyone cry with an emotional piece. And really Kae, a piano? At an end of year celebration party?" You quirked a brow as the blonde next to you pouted whilst mumbling something incoherent under her breath, shortly before her eyes sparkled.

"There's Rantaro! He still needs to teach me to paint my nails. Well, that'll have to wait for college I guess. Should we go talk with him?* You sighed, social battery already drained beyond salvaging. Just why were you here again?

"Actually, I think I'll go freshen up in the bathroom. Check my makeup and all." Before Kaede could respond, you had already began walking away.

"Huh? You're not even- wearing makeup . . ." The sentence barely reached your ears as you stalked off down an empty hallway. It was just too difficult to not think about your current bane of existence. You were so exasperated with yourself for not being able to move on even though it has been around three months now.

God what the hell is wrong with me?! He probably forgot about me even existing by now.

Just as you had reached the end that seemed to split off into two directions, your eyes landed on a figure leaning against the wall. They seemed to be deep in thought, although you couldn't see who it was due to the darkness enveloping the two of you. Only a faint beam of lilac streamed in from a distant room, illuminating everything and casting an ethereal but hardly noticeable glow around you both. No one else seemed to be nearby.

As you took a step forward, they seemed to have broken out of their trance, glancing up at you. In that moment, you had fully regretted even considering Kaede's offer.

"Ah . . . [Name]. I see you've come too." Your name slipped from his tongue so easily, causing a shiver of unwanted pleasure to run up your spine. It shouldn't feel this good to hear his relatively deep voice again.

"You too . . . Shuichi." His own name felt so foreign yet so familiar as you uttered it with delicacy, fearing that any other tone would shatter the illusion you were immersing yourself in; that everything is perfectly fine even if it isn't.

Silence ensued after the brief exchange, awkwardness seeping in from every direction. The atmosphere amplified in pressure as you both avoided eye contact for a while, yet somehow both your gazes seemed to find each other at the perfect times. It was as if the chemistry never left. As if everything was just how it had been for the previous two years. As if you were still head over heels in love.

"I should . . . Get going." You finally found the strength to speak, gazing right into Shuichi's honey eyes which seemed to be suppressing something from showing. You had a good idea of what it was but chose to ignore it. After all, there is simply no way he was feeling what you had speculated.

"A-ah! W-wait . . . " His wavering voice made you stop in your tracks, legs refusing to cooperate with the rest of your body.

"Something . . . Wrong?" You quivered underneath his intense gaze, his eyes shimmering with sheer determination. You had no clue for what though.

"I just . . . Wanted to see you, a little longer." Your heart leapt in your chest at his words, a dull throbbing sensation overflowing from your entire body. Hearing just those simple words seemed to throw all your rationality out the window as you chose to indulge in this undeniably fleeting bliss.

"I- . . . Why?" You breathed out. Shuichi's throat bobbed up and then back down; it was clear he was nervous and hasn't thought his decisions through at all.

"I missed you." He took a tentative step forward, aegean blue hair framing his face perfectly, amber eyes brimming with a sense of now unleashed deep longing. It was obvious. Obvious just how much he had suffered through your failures to maintain the relationship. Obvious at how splitting up and parting ways was not the right choice to be made.

Your mind screamed at you to move as the male in front of you came nearer and nearer, his hand pressing against the wall you were now cornered in. You feared that if he leaned in any closer you'd lose all sense of self-control or any restraint previously there.

"From the look on your face . . . I can tell you did too." Shuichi tilted his head slightly, shimmering golden eyes switching from your lips and back to your own [e/c] eyes in a trance like state. It was indefinitely clear he was trying to prevent himself from doing something brash.

Without a second thought, you leaned in and closed the gap between the two of you. All you could focus on was the sensation of his plush lips pressing against your own, his hand travelling down to your waist and holding it gingerly as your own entangled itself into his cobalt steel locks.

It was a steady rhythm: perhaps something more, a melodious harmony even. Everything just seemed to fit into the right place, notes flowing out smoothly and dissipating the previously tense air as if the keys were pressed with uttermost tenderness to ensure the musical piece would be brimming with unexplainable yet comprehensive emotions only two lovers could relate to. A melody even the most skilled pianist couldn’t recreate. 

Your mind could only spiral down into a state of euphoria you coveted for the last three months, feeling a warmth spread throughout your entire body. Only Shuichi could set you afire with barely a touch like this; it was foolish of you to think you could ever even hope to move on when such possibility just wasn't realistic. Your idealism could only carry you so far after all.

Despite not wanting to, you forced yourself to pull away and heave in great amounts of air to calm yourself both on the inside and the outside. If you wouldn't pass out from the dizziness enveloping your mind from every direction, you'd definitely do from the deoxygenation.

"I-I'm sorry . . . " Your voice came out slightly hoarse as you gazed into your ex lover's eyes which seemed to penetrate your own with great surges of yearning weaved in between.

"Mhh, what for?" The slight waver in Shuichi's voice indicated he was borderline emotional from the events transpiring although his face was painted in various shades of crimson hues, highlighting just how flustered he was.

"For everything. I . . . I want to fix this." Your eyes glazed over with a sheen of fresh tears. You desperately wanted to avoid crying in front of him, but the raw honesty of the moment only urged you to stop hiding them. 

"I'm glad, me too." His lips quirked upwards into a miniscule smile as the azure haired boy pressed his forehead against your own, one hand still holding your waist so delicately it was as if he was handling a fine piece of china.

"Good. I wouldn't have given you any other choice." Small droplets of salty liquid cascaded down your cheeks as you managed to reciprocate with your own smile. Turns out you weren't the only one breaking down as the male in front of you seemed on the verge of tears too.

"I love you, [Name]." Shuichi uttered, voice rough from the crying as you buried your head in his neck, wrapping both your arms around him in an embrace. It felt right to be like this. It didn’t matter that you felt completely exposed and vulnerable. Just knowing that your partner trusted you enough to see him in such a way confirmed the legitimacy of of the situation. 

"I love you too . . ." Was the only thing you replied with as the two of you remained in the intimate position for longer. 

Just how it should be. 

You would have to find Kaede later and thank her for persuading you to come after all. And possibly apologise for all the weak excuses and complaints you faced her with. In the end, everything seemed to go in the right direction. 

[keiachi-chan]

Hello! My name is Kay. today, I’ll be telling you a story taking place in the Alola region. Not everything is the same, of course. Instead of having our typical sun/moon protagonist, we have Phoenix Izumi, who is from another world. He has several secrets, one being his DIGIMON partner! But that’s not his main secret. His main secret is that…. he has cheats on?

It’s confusing! He has an odd mark on his arm that when pressed, pulls up his holographic “save” edit menu. It resembles the PkSM homebrew app for the nds. This story follows Phoenix's venture through alola, which should be a breeze! He makes new friends, and discovers new places. Even without the cheats, his elemental powers, earth to be specific, are a huge help..

He’s also part cat, and while you could say neko, I’d like to say cat hybrid, or funnier, catboy. Regardless it gives him more agility and he can shapeshift into a cat!

Ah, I’m rambling. Let us begin.

Phoenix was suddenly woken up, surprised to see Cupimon bouncing around, singing.

“Wake up! Wake up! Wake up! It’s time to go explore! Wake up! Wake up! Wake up! The world is just outside the door!” she sang the song Phoenix made for his siblings about three years ago.

“Ah.. ‘m up… good morning, cupimon..” the future trainer rubbed his eyes, sitting up in bed.

“Are you ready to get started? Mama Kae left breakfast out for us so we can go ahead and venture alola! Then maybe we’ll head to galar? Or backwards to kalos!!” his partner for, coincidentally, about three years, chirped with glee. Phoenix softly laughed, climbing out of bed.

“Calm down, you're getting ahead of yourself, nya.. I haven’t even gotten dressed yet..”

“Aw, you’re right.. Hurry up!! I’ll wait in the living room in your bag! It’s cozy there.” cupimon flapped her wings, flying out of the room and closing it on the way out.

 “See you then!!” Phoenix mewed, beginning to change out of his pajamas into something more suitable for the journey he was about to embark on. The outfit he ended up picking was his normal color palette of pink shirt, navy blue pants, black shoes. He wore a short sleeved T-shirt with a heart in the middle, and comfortable sweatpants that were tight around the waist. He wore combat boots instead of sneakers, just because he had them available. 

He smiled, looking in the mirror at his pale skin and light orange hair. He considered putting a gray contact in his left eye to match his right. Ultimately, he decided not to, as his ruby red eye was a special part of him. Plus, he liked saying “heterochromia pog” for some reason.

The ginger raised a vine from the ground, picking up a hairbrush, and beginning to brush his hair. It was a simple process, as he’d learned to automate it long ago. On top of that, he recently cut it shoulder length so as to not have it in the way all the time. If he wanted to, he could bury his legs in the dirt and water his hair to grow it back, as he functioned oddly like a plant himself. The thought always made him giggle. When he was done, he put on a red hair bow, running into the living room. Of course, Cupimon was waiting there, grinning as she poked her head out of his bag.

“You look adorable! Could’ve switched up the colors a bit, but nonetheless!” Cupimon cheered. She handed Phoenix his breakfast, homemade blueberry muffins and a mango. Phoenix loved mangos, and Blueberries were the favorite fruit of someone very special to him.. His loving boyfriend! He’d make sure to call him soon. (wooo foreshadowing)

“Thanks! I’ll eat the muffins later, we have to go!” he placed the pastries in his medicine pocket, for some goddamn reason, putting on his bag, and placed the mango on the counter. He pulled a knife out of his items pocket, slicing the mango in half, and tossing the blade in the air. He kicked it into the sink, thankful his soccer skills were paying off. Finally, he ran out the door to go explore.

Stepping out the door, Phoenix inhaled the fresh alola air, looking around. “Alright, make sure to hide in the bag or go into doll mode at the first sign of people, got it?” he looked at his partner, who was peaking her head and arms out the bag. She nodded, and cheered as Phoenix handed her a half of his mango, biting into it promptly.

“I’ll keep a close eye out!” the small digimon whispered, taking another bite of mango. It was very fresh, as Phoenix’s mother, Kae, grew it herself via her own elemental power. They weren’t as sweet as Phoenix’s mangoes, but they were sure more ripe! When it comes to growing fruit in the Izumi family, Kae’s are the ripest, and Phoenix’s are the sweetest. Delicious!

Phoenix walked to the right, confused to see the town next to him was under construction? Shrugging it off, he turned right again to go up the hill next to his house. As he stepped into the tall grass, a yungoos jumped out at him! When startled, Phoenix tended to forget that he had the option to defend himself. He stood, backing up as the pokemon approached him, bracing himself for potential impact.

Cupimon was about to hop out of the bag to protect him when three small pokemon dashed in front of the boy. A rowlet, a litten, and a popplio, he’d recognized. The three scared the angry pokemon away, right as Phoenix facepalmed, remembering he has literal magic. He kneeled down to thank the pokemon, who spinned around and smiled. He was about to ask where they came from, as if he’d get an answer, when suddenly a voice spoke, sending cupimon to quickly sink down to the bottom of Phoenix’s bag.

“There you are, Phoenix!” the stranger shouted, startling Phoenix enough to make him yelp in terror, breaking into a sprint. He scooped up the pokemon that rescued him in an attempt to keep them safe from the potential threat, quickly processing that he wasn’t being chased.

“Hey!! Where are you going!?” Phoenix heard the person shout again, causing him to stop in his tracks. Slowly, he turned towards the stranger, wide-eyed. He realized it was the pokemon professor he’d talked to previously before coming here. He relaxed, nervously laughing, scratching the back of his head. Professor kukui realized his mistake, and apologized

“Ah, I forgot you’re so easily startled! My bad, I’ll keep that in mind next time, cousin!” he grinned as the ginger approached him, setting down the pokemon he held that were nuzzled against him.

“Um.. sorry.. It’s nice to meet you in person..? And slightly less nice to see you still refuse to wear a shirt..” Phoenix slightly trailed off while greeting the professor.

“It’s called fashion!”

“Something that you clearly know nothing about, nya..” phoenix rolled his eyes and cupimon giggled, drawing the attention of the professor.

“Did that bag just.. laugh?”

“Huh? What are you talking about..?” Phoenix attempted not to let his nervousness show. Apparently it worked, as Kukui shrugged it off and put his hands behind his head.

“I guess I’m just hearing things..  Tell me now, Phoenix.. Can I call you nixy?” the professor asked, receiving a headshake.

“Only my family or my boyfriend can call me nixy. You are limited to nix at best, nya..” the ginger responded, confusing the professor a bit. Regardless, he nodded.

“Alright, no nixy. So Phoenix. You’re actually supposed to pick one of these pokemon to be your starter! Go ahead and choose now, I’ll explain everything to hau later..” Kukui gestured to the pokemon, but phoenix didn’t turn. He looked into kukui’s eyes, confused

“....who-?”

“You’ll meet him soon enough.. Go on and pick, we have to go meet him.” kukui waved towards the pokemon, smiling as Phoenix turned around and leaned over to look at the pokemon.

Phoenix stared at his options. He wanted to take all of them, and they seemed to all want to go with him, but it would be unfair to the other trainer. After what felt like hours of deciding,, he picked up the popplio, smiling at him.

“Hi, popplio! I’m gonna pick you!” he cheered softly, causing the seal pokemon to clap with delight. Phoenix hugged his new starter, turning back to the professor, smiling.

“Do you wanna nickname him?”

“Mm.. I’ll go with.. Wayve!” Phoenix pet his new starter affectionately, giggling as it nuzzled against him

“How original.” Kukui rolled his eyes, continuing to smile.

“Shut up shut up shut up shut up!”

“Okay, okay! Lets get going. Here, put little wayve in here.” the professor handed him a pokeball he got from god knows where. Phoenix stared and shook his head.

“How dare you dishonor little wayve like this. I’ll be right back, nya!" and with that, Phoenix walked off. Kukui raised an eyebrow but waited regardless. This wasn’t the plan, and It’d make them later than they already were, but he was interested in what the unusually short ginger would do.

Meanwhile, Phoenix had walked back into his home. He placed Wayve on his table as Cupimon popped her head out of his bag.

“It is brighter in there than previously expected. And it smells like mangoes. Strange!”  The small digimon giggled. Phoenix laughed, pressing down on the mark on his arm. It was navy blue on the top, white on the bottom, and slightly brighter blue in the middle. It was also shaped like a pokeball. He called it ‘PkSM”. A menu came up. There were several options. Storage, Editor, Events, Scripts, Bag, and Settings. He went ahead and hit the “bag” tab, opening a secondary menu. He gave himself a few master balls, along with a bunch of rare candies, max repels, and medicine. 

Next, he internally cursed himself, remembering he could just do this in scripts. He exited the bag menu, and went to his scripts, activating the following; x99 all items, x99 all berries, x99 all medicine, x999 1st items slot master ball, x999 first medicine slot rare candy. He wondered if this was too much and promptly elected that it was not enough. He executed the max cash, max fc, and max bp scripts. Finally, he looked around before going to the “Editor” tab, making his popplio shiny, and giving himself a rowlet and litten. He named them marigolde and flaire, after his pet birds.

He saved what he currently had and took out a master ball, placing his popplio into it. He smiled, placing it in his bag, and Cupimon held the ball gently.

"We're gonna be best friends!" She giggled, patting the top.

Phoenix went back into the editor. He raised his Pokemon to level 10, just for fun. He made them all shinies, again, just for fun. He taught them Water, Fire, and grass pledge respectively.

Finally, he saved again, turning off his editor. He promised himself to not use it again until he needed it, as he didn't want things to be so easy it's boring. Just enough to breeze through the first area. It already seemed tedious, and he wanted to go ahead and get it over with so he could explore alola.

He remembered he was keeping kukui waiting, and saved his progress, running out the door. Cupimon sank down into the bag, poking at the three pokeballs inside. She bounced a bit as Phoenix ran, making her have to stifle her laughter. Phoenix laughed too once he realized, slowing down a bit. He waved when he got to Kukui, who was standing with his arms crossed, waiting for him.

~{End of Chapter 1!}~

I hope you liked it, I wanted to try a new kind of story. Where a game character has cheats on because that's a kind of relatable experience for people. I wanted to test how it'd work in a story? I made the protag my digimon oc because he's cute, sweet, and I love him nya (also its literally hilarious)

I'm having fun writing this already! Assuming I don't burnout, I should continue writing for at least another few chapters.

Anyways sam said tag him so @milkthetea246 I wrote the thing its done

[sushi-purrrito]

Chat Blanc Answered so many of the fandoms questions and I CANT EVEN HANDLE IT.

Incase anyone is unaware, there are versions of chat blanc already subbed on youtube. Now I know translations arent perfect, but if it was even close to accurate... Can we just talk about all the things they revealed to us this episode!?

(I made all gifs off of Kae Minami translated episode on youtube)

1. Adrien literally admitted.. HE ALWAYS SAW MARINETTE AS MORE THAN JUST A FRIEND AND NOW HE KNOWS WHY. A-K-FRICKIN-A. He has ALWAYS had feelings for her, SINCE THE BEGINNING! WE FRICKING KNEW IT!! HA! SCREW ALL THE NAYSAYERS. Everyone who ever said that it was "all in our heads" and that he thought Marinette was weird in first season and had no feelings for her until recently.... YOU WERE WRONG. (though I already knew that..) ALL HAIL ADRIENETTE. That Bitch Is Canon Now.

2. We now know that if Adrien found out Marinette was ladybug, he would keep it a secret from her, but still go all in, if it meant they could be together. and to be honest.. i'm not even sure what this means, but it's a thing.

Also... CAN WE JUST LOOK AT HOW MUCH HE LOVED HER?!?!?!

He didnt even hesitate to show her off to the world. (Not that showing off = love. Just saying that despite his fan club and his strict father he did what we wanted because it was about her. Cute!) Not only that..

But did you see how quickly Marinette was willing to accept that he was Chat Noir? NO HESITATION, SHE WAS ALL FOR IT. "HOLD ME, CHATON, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. "

3. Knowing each others identities did not lead them to give up their miraculous! Infact, it looks as if it helped them to find hawkmoths lair instead! So, either, Master Fu was cool with it(since he was still the guardian here) or BOTH Marinette and Adrien decided theyd keep their knowledge of each others identities a secret! (which I kind of love the idea of)

4. Hawkmoth is the literal scum of the earth. Just Greiving? LOL WE THOUGHT. He is completely irredeemable. There is NO saving that trash human. NO. SAVING. HIM. Not after all that bullshit he pulled. He literally tried to destroy Adrien and Marinettes relationship to get a strong akuma out of her. Which makes me lowkey sad since I kind of thought Gabriel had a soft spot for Marinette and wouldve supported them.. HE BROKE HIS OWN SONS HEART for his OBSESSION to bring his damn wife back.... AND THEN. After discovering his sons identity. THIS DUMPSTER BEAT UP HIS SON AND AKUMITIZED HIM. He didnt even consider trying to talk to Adrien first. WHAT THE FRACK. BROOOOO. SCREW THIS GUY. PLEASE LET HIM FRY IN THE WORLDS LARGEST LAMP, THANKYOU. This confirmed for me as well, that if Adrien ended up dying in the place of bringing back Emilie, Gabriel would be A-FLIPPIN-OK with that.

5. But.. pushing the Gabriel being a Garbage father rant aside. What this really revealed to us, was that Gabriel doesnt consider any of his current life.. real. He doesnt just plan to bring his wife back to life. He plans to "repair the past". change the past. completely rewrite history. Which explains why he is willing to hurt Adrien and treat all of Paris like tools and objects. In his brain. Once he gets the miraculous's, he's going to "reset" all of it. So, noone is really getting hurt. His son included. He really doesn't think he can lose, so anything he does now does not matter to him. Which also just tells us how dangerous this man really is. Like. Guys. He is really. really. dangerous.

6. Luka stayed in the picture. Even after Marinette and Adrien got together. Obviously. But yeah, I love him so much!

7. Though, sadly... we also learned. Marinette doesnt even consider Adrien being chat noir a possibility. DESPITE IT BEING SO DAMN OBVIOUS. Oh you poor poor Marinette🤦‍♀️

8. Meanwhile, Adrien put Marinette being Ladybug together in a *Snap*!

So who's the dense one now huuuuuuuhhhhhHHHHHHHHHH?

*Marinette* *cough*cough*

9. Also. can I just say, Gorilla is a total softy, and I am SO GLAD he wasnt the one to tell Gabriel that Adrien was Chat noir. He is still our wonderful semi fluff dad substitute.

because screw natalie..

and double screw gabriel

Thankyou writers, for sparing Papa Gorilla in this episode. lol

AAND I could keep talking about this episode, but this was just supposed to be revelations, not a reaction post. So, I'm gonna stop now, because I'm already getting carried away😭 AGNFOFPWNSHDHXHFHGSGSHHWJSU (me intangiblely screaming and rambling)

Okay. Goodnight now.

[mrsmarymorstan]

Now Furuba S2 is over, what now?

I’m already seeing a lot of people asking for recommendations now the S2 Sub is over; so this is a list of series that I think you’ll enjoy if you like Furuba! 

All platforms listed are true for the UK, but might not be for other residences. More viewing options may be available in other territories. 

Unless specified, All Manga/Comic recs are available from regular bookstores and EBook Stores. If you’re in the UK I’ll suggest checking out Hive, which is an online store where a potion of each sale goes towards a Local Independent Bookstroe of your choice! They also have flat-rate free shipping! 

Okay, so the actual recs! (I got lazy in some places and used the official synopisis) 

Romance

Convenience Store Boyfriends Funimation (Dub) Crunchyroll (Sub) 12 Eps Total 

“Six high school boys hang out at a local convenience store where they talk about their daily lives. Haruki Mishima and Towa Honda are first year students looking forward to the high school experience. Alongside them, there’s Nasa Sanagi, the only member of the cooking research club. Natsu Asumi is a loner but has third year students, Mikado Nakajima and Masamune Sakurakoji, looking out for him.“

Kaguya-sama: Love is War S1 - Crunchyroll, Funimation (Sub) S2 Funimation (Sub/Dub) 24 eps - Ongoing Manga: 18/20 volumes available in English 

“Known for being both brilliant and powerful, Miyuki Shirogane and Kaguya Shinomiya lead the illustrious Shuchiin Academy as near equals. And everyone thinks they’d make a great couple. Pride and arrogance are in ample supply, so the only logical move is to trick the other into instigating a date! Who will come out on top in this psychological war where the first move is the only one that matters?”

Monthly Girls’ Nozaki-kun Netflix (Dub/Sub), Crunchyroll (Sub) 12 Eps Total Manga: 12/12 volumes available in English 

“High school student Chiyo Sakura has a crush on schoolmate Umetarou Nozaki. When she confesses her love to him, he mistakes her for a fan and gives her an autograph. When she says she wants to be with him, he invites her to his house and has her help on some drawings. Sakura discovers that Nozaki is actually a renowned shōjo manga artist working under the pen name Sakiko Yumeno. She agrees to be his assistant in order to get closer to him. As they work on his manga Let's Fall in Love they encounter other schoolmates, who assist them and serve as inspirations for the story.”

Snow White With the Red Hair Funimation (Dub/Sub) 24 Eps Total Manga: 9/22+ volumes available in English. Anime ends Vol. 8 

“In the kingdom of Tanbarun lives an independent young pharmacist named Shirayuki. Shirayuki is a plain girl, save for her shock of beautiful apple-red hair. Her stunning mane gets her noticed by the prince, but instead of romancing her, he demands she be his concubine. Shirayuki chops off her lovely locks, and runs away to the neighboring kingdom where she befriends a handsome stranger.”

Tsuruedure Children Funimation (Dub), Crunchyroll (Sub) 12 Eps Total Manga (Ebook only) 12/12 Volumes available in English

“Short and charming comedic vignettes offer a quick glimpse into the unique and funny situations, misunderstandings, and all around confusion that can happen in a high school romance. For starters, there’s a story about a delinquent girl and the student council president, and one about a stoic boy confused about an emotional girl. Relive the charm of high school romance!”

Wotakoi: Love is Hard for Otaku Amazon Prime (Sub) 11 Eps Total Manga: 4/9 volumes available in english 

Looking for a slice of life romance but you’re an actual adult now and don’t want to read about teenagers? Try Wotakoi! It combines office romance with childhood friends-to-lovers. Narumi is a Fujoshi who doesn’t want anyone to find out the truth of her ways, Hirotaka is a Game Otaku who doesn’t care what anyone says about it, together they go about the ins-and-outs of dating as an adult. 

Coming of Age

BOFURI: I don’t want to get hurt, so I’ll max out my defence Funimation (Dub/Sub) 12 Eps Ongoing 

“She may be new to gaming, but Maple has found the secret to invincibility! Just put all your skill points into defense until you can't even move. That works, right? She doesn't want to experience any pain in the VRMMO game she started playing, and somehow it works better than anyone expected. Now she's got followers??”

Brand New Animal Netflix (Dub/Sub) 12 Eps Total 

“Set in a world where humanoid animals (known as beastmen) inhabit Earth, the series centers on Michiru Kagemori, a young teenage girl who one day suddenly starts turning into a tanuki beastman. Running away, she seeks refuge in Anima City, a city built for beastmen to be able to live peacefully as themselves, and ends up meeting a wolf beastman named Shirou Ogami. Together, they investigate how and why Michiru became a beastman, becoming mixed up in even stranger events in the process.”

Hyouka Funimation (Dub/Sub) 23 Eps Total 

“A worthy addition to any animation fan's collection, Hyouka is a stunning masterwork that spins a charming tale of high school romance and mystery. After disenchanted student Hotaro Oreki joins his school’s Classic Lit Club, he meets Eru Chitanda, a kindhearted and inquisitive girl with boundless curiosity and a knack for getting him caught up in all sorts of trouble.”

Koto Oto Tomara! Sounds of Life Funimation (Dub/Sub) 24 Eps Total 

“Down to its last member, the koto club will accept anyone who is interested in the traditional Japanese instrument. But when a delinquent and a prodigy player sign up, finding harmony isn’t going to be easy—especially not with ensemble competitions looming around the corner. With enough time and some incredible skill at the strings, perhaps this motley crew can strike a chord with the judges.“

O Maidens in your Savage Season HIDIVE (Dub/Sub) 12 Eps Total Manga: 7/8 volumes available in English (8th available for pre-order) 

The series follows a High School Literature club as they make their nervous first foray into the nature of sexuality. What is the difference between sexual attraction and romantic attraction? Does watching porn mean wanting to have sex? What are these strange feelings I am having down below? Why are boys so gross and girls so pretty? Each girl undergoes their own journey and finds their own destination, a brutally honest yet heart warming look at teenage female sexuality. 

CW: Sexual Assault, pedophilia (both portrayed as BAD AND TERRIBLE things) 

Our Dreams at Dusk Manga: 4/4 volumes available in English 

IF YOU ONLY CONSUME ONE THING ON THIS LIST MAKE IT THIS!!!!! The series is the VERY DEFINITION of “It Gets Better”. 

After his classmates discover some gay pornography on his phone, Tasuku Kaname contemplates committing suicide. Just as he’s about to jump, he spots a mysterious figure parkouring down a mountain. Shocked out of his moment, he decides to go and investigate what’s happening and finds an LGBT+ Drop In Centre. The series follows the lives of the people in the drop in centre, from Haruko who wishes to marry her closeted girlfriend, to Misora who is still trying to figure out what their gender is but has the threat of puberty hovering of their shoulder. 

It’s very clear that Kamatani-sensei has written this story FOR the Queer Community. It’s a truly beautiful story. Please give it your money if you can, so that Kamatani-sensei can actually earn some money, and so that Seven Seas know that there is a viable audience for these stories! So that we may get more content!

Reverse Harem 

Fruits Basket is NOT a reverse Harem, but i figure there’ll be some fan crossover. 

Kiss Him, Not Me Cruncyroll (sub) Funimation Dub available on DVD etc. 12 Eps Total Manga 14/14 volumes available in English

“Kae Serinuma believes one thing—princes belong together! As an avid boy’s love fan, she loves nothing more than fantasizing about faux relationships between the boys at her school. But when she loses weight due to the stress of her favorite anime character dying suddenly the boys want…her?! From pretty average to prettiest girl, Kae just wants these boys to date each other, not her!”

Sub uses an irritating “Silly Fat Person” voice that the Dub doesn’t. CW for Sexual Assult, though it is depicted as a BAD thing and used for Kae to question why she is so into it when reading BL, when IRL it is terrifying? 

My Next Life as a Villainess: All Routes Lead to Doom Crunchyroll (Dub/Sub) 12 Eps Total 

A TRULY Bisexual harem! After bumping her head, young Katarina Claes awakens with all the memories of her past life... and promptly realises she’s been re-incarnated as the antagonist of her favourite Otome Game! Determined this time to live past the age of 17, Katarina starts to make plans to turn all her enemies into allies through the power of kindness and understanding! Throughout the series, she tries harder and harder to avoid her doom flags... without realising that she’s turned those doom flags into romance flags! 

Katarina lives out the fantasy of going to magic school and eating cake as all the pretty people fall head over heels for her. A pity she’s too dim to notice.

Ouran High School Host Club Funimation (Dub/Sub) 24 eps total Manga: 18/18 volumes available in english 

Set in the high class elite private school of Ouran High, the Host Club exist to provide entertainment for the ladies of the school. Looking for a quiet place to study, Haruhi Fujioka, stumbles across the Host Club and in their haste to leave they knock over an ¥8,000,000 vase. Now she must earn that money back by working for the Host Club, all the while disguising the fact that she’s a girl. Not that she ever felt much like a girl before hand anyway. Along the way, she gets to know better the Cool Kyoya, the flamboyant Tamaki, the Mischievous Hikaru & Kaoru, the Strong and Silent Mori-senpai and the adorable Honey-senpai. Comedic Hijinks ensue! 

Slice of Life

The Emperor and I Manga: 4/4 volumes available in English on Shonen Jump App 

One day Kaho returns home from school to find an Emperor Penguin in her fridge. He quickly becomes a beloved part of the family, but a secret to the rest of the world who would want to take him away from them. Hijinks ensue. 

Kakushigoto Funimation (Dub/Sub) 12 Eps Total 

Doting single father, Kakushi Goto, is determined to hide the fact that he writes echhi humour manga for a living. He couldn’t bare it if his daughter were to ever find out the truth, the shame of his profession only alienating her. A laugh out loud series that will suddenly cut you deep as it explores the nature of grief and familial love. 

My Brother’s Husband Manga: 2/2 volumes available in English 

“Yaichi, a stay-at-home single father, lives with his daughter Kana in suburban Tokyo. They are visited by Mike Flanagan, the widower of Yaichi's estranged twin brother Ryōji, who has traveled from his native Canada for three weeks to learn about Ryōji's past. Kana is fascinated by Mike and is immediately accepting of him, though Yaichi is hesitant to accept Mike as family.

While Yaichi is not overtly homophobic, Mike suggests that his tacit discomfort over his brother's sexuality drove a wedge between them that led to their estrangement. Mike's interactions with the family and neighborhood over the subsequent three weeks prompt Yaichi to confront his own prejudices around sex and sexuality, as his growing tolerance and eventual acceptance of Mike parallel his overcoming of his own homophobia.”

Whilst the trope of “the gay brother dies and the heterosexual brother learns not to be homophobic” might be over done in western media, the same is not true for Japan. It’s a heartfelt and honest look at grief and acceptance, as well as how the nature of family is changing all around the world... but attitudes are maybe conservative attitudes aren’t as quick to catch up. 

Nichijou: My Ordinary Life Funimation (Dub/Sub) 

So apparently everyone went “this show is undubbable! It relies too much on puns and untranslatable humour!” and then Howard Wang said “hold my beer” and did it. A bizarre comedy series set in a high school. It’s probably best known for the ongoing fight between the deer and the principal.  

Way of the Househusband Manga: 4/5+ (ongoing) volumes available in English  

After he meets and marries the career driven Miku, Tatsu AKA The Immortal Dragon decides to give up his life of crime to commit to being the worlds’ best husband. You’d be surprised at the transferable skills between a Yakuza enforcer and a house husband. From knowing how to efficiently cut up a slice of meat, to how to perfectly clean a bathroom of all evidence. Hilarious and heartwarming, Taki and Kyoko would be best bros. 

Slice of Life + Supernatural 

The Disastrous Life of Saiki K S1 Funimation (Dub/Sub) 24 episodes Netflix S1 (Dub/Sub) S2 & 3 (Sub) 50 episodes total 

“Saiki Kusuo is a typical 16-year-old high school student… except he has psychic powers. He can use them to get whatever he wants, but he also knows everything that people are thinking. Everything. No surprises, no secrets, no normal human experiences. He’s kept his powers in check since childhood, but with the temptations of high school now on his mind, he’s bending the rules—and spoons.“

Sabrina The Teenage Witch (2019)

Writer Kelly Thompson wears her magical girl influences on her sleeve in this new take on the Archie Classic. Sabrina is your regular teenager, except she is also a witch and so are her aunts. Hijinks (and Card Captor Sakura References) ensue. 

Toilet Bound Hanako-kun Funimation (Dub/Sub) 12 eps total Manga 13/13 Volumes available in English 

“Kamome Academy is rumored to have many mysteries, the strangest of which involves the mischievous ghost of Hanako-kun. When occult-loving high schooler Nene Yashiro accidentally becomes bonded to him, she uncovers a hidden world of supernatural beings. Now the two of them are conspiring to keep the peace between student and supernatural—that is, if they can only stay out of trouble themselves.“

Jughead (2015) 4 Volumes total

Bought to you in various parts by the creators of Squirrel Girl, Jughead combines slice of life with spy thriller, time travel and the joy of a good burger. Hilarious and heart warming, this run holds a special place in my heart as the one where Jughead was confirmed as canonically asexual and continues to express various aro/ace moods throughout the series. There’s a REASON my friends say I’m a Real Life Jughead.... 

Weathering With You - available digitally/physically 28th Sep. 2019

In June 2021, first year high schooler Hodaka Morishima leaves Kōzu-shima in order to get to Tokyo. When his ferry to the city is hit by a rainstorm, he is saved by Keisuke Suga, who runs a small occult magazine that’s looking for an assistant. As Hodaka becomes broke and struggles to find work, he meets Hina Amano, an employee of a McDonald’s restaurant. She takes pity on him and gives him food. After agreeing to work with Suga, Hodaka learns about the legend of the “sunshine girl” who can control the weather! It turns out that the newly unemployed Hina is a sunshine girl! And with her little brother, they start up their own business to bring sunshine to the never-ending rain of Tokyo. 

Yamada-kun and the Seven Witches Crunchyroll (Dub/Sub) 12 Episodes Total Manga: 22/28 volumes available in English 

After tripping on the stairs, School Bad Boy Ryu Yamada and Top Student Urara Shiraishi discover they can swap bodies with a kiss! They then learn that they’re not the only ones with magic powers in the school, and with the help of the Supernatural Studies Club they begin to track down the identities of the 7 witches of Suzaku High. 

This series really stretches my limits on fan service, but at least it does proceed to get a little even in terms of gender. It’s still a really rather sweet and romantic series, once you get past the boobs and panties. 

Your Name Netflix (Dub/Sub) Spin Off Manga “Your Name: Another Side: Earthbound” - 2/2 volumes available in English 

A modern take on the Red Sting of Fate mythos, Mitsuha and Taki are two teenagers tied together. Three times a week, Mitsuha will wake up in Taki’s body and live the life of a Tokyo School boy. In turn, Taki will wake up in Mitsuha’s body and learn what it is to be a Rural Shrine Maiden. A look at the bonds that tie us, and how fate won’t let two young people fall apart before they can meet. 

Also the animation is BEAUTIFUL and it made me cry. Like a lot. There’s a spin off manga called “Your Name: Another Side” that follows the same story but from the POV of Mitsuha’s friends and family. It really brings new light to the events and made me very emotional.

Mental Health 

Green Lanterns: Rebirth (2018)

Jessica Cruz suffers from PTSD and severer anxiety, seeing her utalising her will power to overcome those problems and harness that energy to help save the universe is so incredibly powerful and moving. 

Hawkeye (2012-2015) 4 Volumes 

The Fraction/Aja/Wu/Hollingworth Hawkeye run is widely considered one of the best superhero runs of all time. Fraction and Aja perfectly capture “functional depression” at its finest, and we watch as Clint Barton slowly burns all his bridges before being forced by his friends to sort his shit out and put them back together again. There’s also a whole issue that’s primarily written in sign language too. 

My Roomate is a Cat Funimation (Dub) Crunchyroll (Sub) 12 eps total 

“Mystery author Mikazuki would rather live in total isolation than deal with others. Getting a roommate is the last thing he’d ever do, until a stray cat sparks an idea for his next novel. After plucking the little killer off the streets, this four-legged muse inspires Mikazuki in ways he would have never expected. And for the street-wise cat, this human just opened the door to a whole new world.”

A Silent Voice (Manga/Movie) Movie: Netflix (Dub/Sub) 

“A former class bully reaches out to the deaf girl he’d tormented in grade school. He feels unworthy of redemption but tries to make things right.”

CW Attempted Suicide, bullying

Please watch the dub. Lexi Marman Cowden, who voices Shoko, is an ACTUAL hard-of-hearing actress. It makes for a more real and vulnerable performance that avoids the mild ableism of the Sub hiring a Hearing Actress and robot-ising her voice. 

Yuri!!! On ICE Crunchyroll (Sub) Funimation (Dub) 12 eps total 

“Yuri Katsuki makes his way to the Grand Prix ice skating competition as Japan’s top representative with his eyes on the prize. However, instead of celebrating, Yuri walks away defeated and ready to retire for good. But a run-in with champion Viktor Nikiforov and rising star Yuri Plisetsky ignites a new fire within him. With the two of them close by his side, Yuri will take to the ice once more.”

Yuri’s defeat sends him into a very relatable spiral of lack of self belief that he slowly starts to regain thanks to the help of Viktor. Part sports anime, part love story, all full of feels. 

The Dub is considered hit or miss depending on whether you like accents or not, but honestly it’s worth it for Sabat’s Christophe giacometti. Ayame walked, so Christophe could strut. 

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I’m gonna start by recommending the Shonen Jump App, it’s £1.99/month and gives you access to all their recent publications as well as their back catalogue in English! So you can read all of Boys Over Flowers, Nisekoi, Naruto, One Piece, Haikyuu, Assassination Classroom, My Hero Academia etc. for a fraction of the cost of buying the physicals! SO much manga at your finger tips! No, they don’t sponsor me but i wish they would. 

Astra Lost in Space Funimation (Dub/Sub) 12 Eps Total Manga: 5/5 volumes available in english, available on the Shonen Jump App

A group of teenagers on a school trip become Lost In Space and quickly discover a conspiracy is a foot. Part thriller, part comedy, saying anything more about this series would count as a spoiler given the number of plot twists throughout. 

Radiant Funimation (Dub) Crunchyroll (Sub) 42 eps total Manga: 13/13+ volumes available in english (ongoing series)

A french manga turned into a Japanese Anime.

“Seth, a sorcerer destined to find Radiant, sets his sights on Caislean Merlin for answers. He’s desperate to find out what the Knight Sorcerers know, but can he trust them? In the wake of all that is unknown, he digs deep within himself for the wisdom and confidence to control his powers. And as the world around him continues to grow with more magic and power, he gains strong new allies.”

The series has BIG Saturday Morning cartoon vibes. My 12 year-old self would have been ALL OVER this.

Batman Ninja (Netflix)  

What if a Japanese animation studio asked DC if they could make a batman movie? And then just threw a Japanese history book at it? What if there was time travel? What if the main batman villains were all feudal lords in Japan? What if everyone were Samari? What if Damian had a small animal companion he could communicate with using a flue? What if Jason’s hood was made out of wicker? What if Penguin had a penguin shaped mecha? 

A wild ride from start to finish that makes no sense but really, do you care? 

[shanie-the-toyaddict]

"Close Quarters and Fake Steak" from Part 2 of Into the Horizon

A full chapter of Zowens from Part 2 of my story. The only real context you need to know here is that "Mara'Monto" means Deathmatch and "sa Heig'on a Manu" is The Arena of Fighting (the gladiator fighting circuit they've both been forced into fighting for.) Everything else I think you can pick up from within the chapter itself. Oh, and sorry for the alien language. It's a thing. It isn't necessary to know exact translations as it's written to only be understood as much as Kevin does. (Third Person Limited Shifting is a hell of a trip) Anyway, this if for my darling@zayneeac's birthday. Happy birthday, darling. Here's to many many more. Enjoy.

Kevin hadn’t intended to fall in love.

Fighting as a team again hadn’t been nearly as difficult as he’d expected. Far from it, he found it exhilarating. He’d always known that he was meant to fight with Sami forever and even the distant future in the 9th Era or Period of those dinosaur bastards fell under the category of “forever.” The only thing that Kevin never would have predicted was the environment where they’d be spending that forever. He’d pictured a marvelous main event sunset at WrestleMania, not some deathmatch pit in a science fiction nightmare.

And yet, they were surviving. Somehow, against all the odds, they were a team again and God it was just like old times. The way they moved in sync hadn’t changed much from their days as a tag team on Earth, although the fighting style was completely different. They won most of their matches, and the ones that they didn’t win were exhibition fights or Gontzos.

Gontzo. Mara’Gontzo, Mara’Monto, sa Heig’on a la bullshit language. Holy fuck did he hate Gorosian. He was trying to learn it but the notion of indoctrinating himself into the society of his captors wasn’t remotely appealing. When he’d taught himself English, it was on his terms. Having the Gorosian’s pisstastic, apostrophe-laden nonsense shoved down his throat offended him on levels he couldn’t express to them if he were permitted. Mainly because he didn’t speak the fucking language. But he still took the lessons and tried a little (very little) if for no other reason than Sami was fascinated about learning the language and attending the sessions with him meant more time they could spend together.

Although, since becoming a team again, they’d been spending all their time together anyway, so it really didn’t matter. Honestly, as much as he loved Sami, the guy could grate on you, and maybe skipping the classes would give him a moment of relief from Sami’s endless curiosity.

Whatever. He knew he wouldn’t stop going. Sami was the one thing keeping him sane in the Arena. Kevin was miserable as all hell, but every time Sami learned something new, his eyes would light up just enough that it stoked the minuscule remaining flame of Kevin’s soul. He hated himself and what the Arena made him do, but every spark of happiness that Sami felt, Kevin felt too.

And frankly, those sparks were all he lived for anymore.

At least they were doing great in the BattleRing.

When they started their run as a team, all their matches were two on one, which you would think would benefit them, but naturally, the Heig’on just loved to make everything difficult. Rather than one standard Manu opponent, they were pitted against anything from giants to ferocious beasts. Even their training had proved little use when facing down some unholy six-legged blend between a rhinoceros, a lion, and an elephant. They had to adapt quickly, and thankfully they did. Even more thankfully, their stint as strictly beast fighters was mercifully short as, once the crowd got behind them, they started to face off against other tag teams. After that happened, there was no stopping them. True, Kevin was always the one to strike the killing blow, but they made it work. Tag teams were unheard of in the Arena before them, at least, that’s what he figured. The years of developed chemistry between him and Sami meant that they could get in each other’s heads on a level their opponents could never dream of. There were still fights where they had to battle monsters, but even then, once they got the hang of fighting the various demon-beasts from across the galaxy, they had no trouble winning.

They were a nearly unstoppable team and with their new winnings, came new privileges. So many privileges. They were called Man’Yokulae in Gorosian and they usually involved some level of comfort or entertainment. But the best privilege of all was that they finally had names. Well, sort of. They weren’t their real names, but whatever powers of the universe threw them into that pit had a sense of humor because their designations in Gorosian both ended in something similar to their real names. 59 translated to Kae’do, and 63 was Zev’ii. It was close enough to KO and Sami that he could deal with them, and he’d requested their names as Kaydo and Zehvee. The names were granted, and finally they were able to use actual pronouns for a change.

Although, Sami wasn’t nearly as fond of calling Kevin “Kaydo” as he was being called “Zehvee” and usually just called Kevin “Kae”. Kevin didn’t care, as long as they didn’t have to speak French. Sooner or later their habit of speaking en français would come back to bite them, so any time they didn’t have to use their native tongue was beneficial.

There were other privileges as well, but being a proper noun was by far the best. He wouldn’t say they were well off though, but whomever their mysterious benefactor was had made them comfortable. They had their own room now, cramped but private. Perhaps a bit too much of both, as Kevin could no longer escape Sami when he was sick of him. And that meant that when he wanted peace and quiet, there was usually none to be found. Far from it, Kevin was slowly being driven insane by Sami’s ceaseless questions.

One day, while resting after a mid-day Gontzo fight, Sami was laying on their bed (because of course, the assholes had only given them one bed) and staring at the ceiling. Kevin was quietly attempting to read an ebook he’d been given to pass the time. The tablet was programmed with a translator, but it was a bit like trying to read a foreign novel filtered through Google Translate. Still, he managed well enough and it helped stave off the boredom. It was a story about some noble rebels standing in defiance against the corrupt Government. It was poorly written and reeked of propaganda, but it was better than making small talk with Sami.

And yet, Sami kept trying

Sami was laying on their bed, playing a small handheld block game that he’d earned. It somewhat reminded Kevin of those old, grey-brick Game Boys, if the Game Boy only played the originally included Tetris game. Sami usually played his game with the sound off, and the room was blissfully quiet, when Sami just had to go and ruin it with yet another question.

“How do the time scoops work?” he chirped from his spot on the bed.

“How do what?” Kevin asked.

Sami popped up from the bed to sit on the edge, putting the game down.

“The time scoops. Those machines that brought us here. That’s what they call them, right? How do they work? All the different aliens around here. Do they have different scoops for different aliens? I can’t imagine a Gorosian fitting comfortably in the pods we arrived in. I know you said they only work one way, but why? Why can’t you go back in them? What’s the hang-up?”

“Just accept that you can’t,” Kevin replied, trying to brush him off.

Sami shook his head, gesturing with his hands as he spoke. “No, it’s just, you’d think time travel would work in both directions. If you can use the devices to pull something into the future, why can’t you use it to shove something into the past?”

“They’re called scoops,” Kevin replied gruffly, “you don’t scoop something backward. Scooping is for removal. From what I understand, without a pod at the other end, you can’t go backward.”

Sami looked sad at the response, dropping his hands into his lap.

“Besides,” Kevin added, “I told you what happened to Earth. The world was already a dumpster fire when we left, and it never got any better. If you went back, you’d just be caught in the same apocalyptic hell as everyone else. All those people, back there on Earth? They’re dead. All of them. Humanity burned, Zehvee. This place is shit but at least we’re alive.”

Sami stared at the floor and his voice was quiet as he replied, “I’d rather have died on earth with them. I hate this place. I hate hurting people just to survive. The arena sucks.”

“Yeah, yeah it does.”

There was a pause before Sami’s voice picked up once more.

“But how do the crowds work?” he asked. “They aren’t actually in the compound; how do we see and hear them like they’re live? What kind of technology does that involve?”

Kevin groaned and threw up his hands in frustration. At that rate, Sami’s questions were going to end him long before some Heig’on fighter did.

But Kevin had nowhere to go; he couldn’t escape. Regardless of how pissed he got, they were together almost constantly. In the events of their inevitable arguments, the close quarters and lack of alternative entertainment forced them to reconcile quickly. It led to far fewer arguments, knowing that they couldn’t escape each other, although if Kevin was being honest, it wasn’t because he wasn’t frustrated, just that he had to watch Sami be in pain over their disagreements, something he’d always managed to avoid when they were rivals in the WWE.

And, somewhere along the way, something changed.

If Kevin had to pick a day or moment, it was after something that happened in the mealhall one day. They weren’t scheduled for a fight that day, so they just trained for several hours before spending some time in their quarters. When it was time for dinner, they were escorted to the mealhall. Sami was excited, he’d done well in an exhibition fight the previous day, knocking out both opponents himself. Of course, Kevin had let him do so, exhibition fights were becoming less frequent for them and Sami shone best when the fight didn’t involve murder, so Kevin had feigned injury to drive Sami to perform harder. He’d stepped up to the challenge and was told he’d be receiving a treat the following day at mealtime.

Kevin laughed. “It’s probably just a different flavor of grey pudding, or maybe a different color. Hey, maybe you’ll get orange pudding, to match your hair!”

Sami just glared at him and said nothing, and when they headed for the mealhall, Sami was excited for whatever he had earned.

He grew even more excited when they turned into the meal hall and Sami saw his favorite Orbaka helper working the food table again.

She, at least Kevin was pretty sure the alien was female, was designated Orbaka-10014. She was of a species that Kevin learned was called “Jakkan” and she was quite attractive, all things considered. She had pale, pearly skin with eyes that, while resembling somewhat human eyes, were a touch too large. Her lips were a royal purple shade, and she had a nose-shaped feature between her eyes and mouth that even Kevin admitted was cute, although there were three “nostrils” rather than two. However, her most prominent feature was how she didn’t have hair. Instead, traveling down the back of her head, neck, and back were two thin black tendrils, about three inches apiece, with small spherical ends on them. Overall, she resembled something out of Star Wars and the rest of her kind had very similar appearances. Jakkans in general, Kevin had decided were probably the most visually appealing aliens he’d seen since arriving in Hell, and if he had to pick the best of them, it’d probably be her.

But Sami… if Kevin had to guess, Sami had a crush on her. He kept trying to flirt with her, something that always seemed impossible due to communication issues. Kevin had learned long ago that everyone they encountered had universal translators, but they didn’t work the same with every species, and whatever algorithm was used to translate English to Jakka was spotty at best. Also, despite his efforts, she never seemed to enjoy seeing him. She always smiled, but it was never a friendly smile, and Kevin was beginning to wonder if smiling meant the same thing on the Jakkan planet. It still didn’t stop Sami from trying, and as he grabbed his tray and headed for the food table, he was looking quite happy.

“Hi, again,” he said cheerfully to the Orbaka, a wide smile on his face. “You look nice today.”

10014 squinted her eyes.

“Friendly?” she asked, not understanding his comment.

Sami raised his eyebrows, nodding. “Well, I’m trying to be, anyway. How have you been?”

“Beans?”

“No, I mean your day. How has your day been going so far?”

“Distance? I have never left Heig’on compound in three revolutions.”

Kevin couldn’t help but be amused as Sami shook his head. He wondered if he should suggest Gorosian as an alternative, but to him, watching Sami struggle with flirting was too priceless to disrupt, so he said nothing.

Sami tried again. “No I mean, how have you been feeling?”

That, she seemed to grasp a bit more and she replied “I understand. I am… alive. Not dead yet, which is preferred.”

Sami smiled again. “Good to hear. So, what’s my surprise?”

Kevin watched as she smiled again, that same miserable version she always used with Sami.

“Trophy?” she returned. “You have won no trophy.”

“No,” Sami replied, “My surprise. My gift. I was told I’d earned something.”

Her smile fell flat and was replaced by confusion once more. As she stood there, trying to understand his meaning, a guard behind her made a loud grunting noise.

They were holding up the process too much.

10014 huffed a bit, her three nostrils puffing out as she scooped the (still) grey pudding into Sami’s bowl.

“Urn?” she told him, “Those perished in Heig’on do not in urns. Incinerated only.”

Sami sighed and dropped his tray against the table in frustration. Kevin, deciding to step in, put a hand on his friend’s shoulder.

“His privilege,” he spoke up.

Still no sign of understanding.

Kevin thought for a moment before deciding to give in and try the other approach. It would probably ruin his fun in the long run, but Sami deserved whatever gift was coming to him and he wasn’t about to let him go without. Wracking his brain to pull out the little bit of Gorosian he’d absorbed, he tried to parse together a sentence.

“Rio Man’Yokulae do Tor’ooq’toan,“ he said. He was certain he was messing it up, and his belief was confirmed when he saw Sami look away, his hand over his mouth to suppress the laughter.

Still, it seemed to get the job done and 10014’s eyes widened, and she made a sound of understanding, an oddly joyful scowl crossing her face.

“Yes!” she said enthusiastically, “Earned reward!”

She stuck her spoon into the pot of foodstuff and headed into the back room.

“See,” Kevin told Sami, “You just need to know how to talk to them.”

Sami was still choking on suppressed laughter.

Kevin shook his head.

Fine. I’ll bite.

“All right, Mr. Quad-Lingual, how bad did I do?” he asked, although he really didn’t want to know.

Taking a deep breath to compose himself, Sami replied with a grin. “Well, you called me a trans woman and referred to yesterday as ‘the before time’ but at least you got your point across.”

“Jesus. I hate it here.”

Before Sami could respond, the Orbaka returned with a small plastic cup with dark liquid in it.

“SolTerra bean beverage,” Orbaka-10014 chirped, holding the cup out to Sami.

Sami looked confused for a moment before realization dawned on him. It was his turn to go wide-eyed as he exclaimed, “Wait, coffee? There’s coffee here?!”

The Orbaka moved the cup a bit closer to Sami who gladly accepted it, not even putting it on his tray. He looked down at it, before commenting, “Black, hm? I guess I don’t get any kind of soy or sweetener.”

The Jakkan just stood there looking perplexed, replying, “Added sweet? Coffee not meant as sweet. Bads flavor.”

Sami shrugged and gave a warm smile to the alien woman, saying, “Still, it’s nice to have.”

He paused before adding in Gorosian, “Hintoq’ho Gyntviana Roa”

The Orbaka’s eyes lit up and her cheeks flushed a shade of violet.

The guard behind them grunted again, this time louder and angrier.

The Orbaka’s shock disappeared, followed by a quick “Yo’Vaa’Dan” as she served Kevin his food. More of the same as usual. God, he hated the grey pudding. But, with the guard getting angry, Kevin knew they needed to be moving along and he gently nudged Sami’s foot with his own.

“Right,” Sami said, moving and, taking their trays they both headed for their assigned seats. Midway there, Sami took a sip of his coffee. Immediately, he stopped in his tracks, so abruptly that Kevin nearly plowed into him.

“Shit,” Kevin swore. He took a moment to readjust his food on the tray and moved to stand beside Sami, looking for what the hold up was. Sami was standing there, staring at the cup of coffee with the most disgusted look on his face as though he was about to retch on Kevin’s boot.

Kevin couldn’t help but smile. “Not good?” he asked.

Sami’s face un-contorted, transforming into a look of determination and he held out his tray to Kevin.

“Kae,” he remarked, “would you mind taking my tray with you to our table. I need to… um… go water that plant over there…”

Sami motioned towards a potted, tree-like plant in the corner that was standing unattended. Kevin fought valiantly to suppress the snorted laughter that was trying to erupt from him, instead silently taking his tray across his forearm and doing the same with Sami’s on the opposite side. With both trays balanced, he silently headed for his table, making sure to keep an eye on what Sami was doing. He sat down, trying to be discrete, and as he sat there he watched Sami casually make his way over to the plant. After checking to make sure nobody was watching, Sami turned his back to the plant and, without even looking at it, dumped the cup of coffee behind him into the dirt. After the cup was empty, he returned to where Kevin was and sat down across from him.

Kevin was unable to hold back the laughter anymore, nearly choking on his efforts to do so (as well as that damn pudding).

He swallowed his mouthful and asked, “That bad, huh?”

Picking up his spoon and digging into his bowl of slop, Sami just shrugged. “I guess I should have known better. I can’t imagine them having coffee plantations here.”

“No, probably not,” Kevin agreed. “Hey, out of curiosity, what did you say that made her blush like that?”

Swallowing a spoonful, his friend replied, “Oh not much. I said thank you.”

“Uh-huh. And? I knew that much, what was the second part?”

The redhead turned sheepish. “I might have called her beautiful as well.”

Kevin rolled his eyes. “God you’re hopeless.”

They both got quiet after that, focusing on their meals, until, after about five minutes, KO happened to glance back up at the plant Sami had “watered”.

It was starting to wilt.

Kevin had to suppress another laugh, an action that he wasn’t getting any better with over time. Sami heard him and, following his line of sight, also noticed the plant in distress.

“Ah hell,” his friend muttered, before grabbing the cup of water off Kevin’s tray, standing, and leaving.

“Hey!” Kevin cried out as he took the cup away, “Dammit Zehvee!”

Sami wasn’t listening, nor was he trying to be inconspicuous this time. He strode over to the plant and, bending over, distributed the water around the soil in the pot.

Naturally, a guard noticed, and Kevin let out a worried sigh as the guard headed over to where Sami was. He strained his ears to hear the conversation, but they were a bit too far away. He just turned his eyes down toward the table, an almost instinctive action in the face of possible trouble, and waiting until Sami returned to his seat. When he did, his friend let out a satisfied hum.

Kevin was a bit surprised at that and, his eyes still on his food, asked in a hushed, low tone, “You get bitched at?”

“Nah,” Sami said, totally undisturbed as he returned the empty water cup to Kevin’s tray, “he just told me that there’s Orbaka that tend to the plants and that I shouldn’t bother with them. I’m fine. Thanks for the water, though. It’s looking better already.”

Kevin looked up at Sami. His smile was so warm and infectious, and as he looked behind his friend, he realized Sami was right. The tree did look better.

Sami was still smiling. The misery and steel-walled prison they were in, forced to fight for the amusement of slavemasters and bloodthirsty sadists, and Sami was concerned with a damn plant. He couldn’t help but return the smile and as he sat there, basking in the glow that his friend always seemed to have around him, the walls of his heart began to crumble, broken down by cinnamon curls and hazel eyes.

After that, it was only a matter of time before Kevin loved him completely. TBC

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Reaper of Souls by Rena Barron

Summary: After so many years yearning for the gift of magic, Arrah has the one thing she’s always wanted—at a terrible price. Now the last surviving witchdoctor, she’s been left to pick up the shattered pieces of a family that betrayed her, a kingdom in shambles, and long-buried secrets about who she is. 

Desperate not to repeat her mother’s mistakes, Arrah must return to the tribal lands to search for help from the remnants of her parents’ people. But the Demon King’s shadow looms closer than she thinks. And as Arrah struggles to unravel her connection to him, defeating him begins to seem more and more impossible—if it’s something she can bring herself to do at all.

Set in a richly imagined world inspired by spine-tingling tales of voodoo and folk magic, Kingdom of Souls was lauded as “masterful” by the School Library Journal in a starred review. This explosively epic sequel will have readers racing to the can’t-miss conclusion. (Taken from Goodreads)

Our Ratings:  

 → Geena:  ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️🌗

 → Kae: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Overall: A messy sequel to an amazing series, we get to see the after effects of the fall out of Arrah vs. Efiya from KOS… and when we tell you it is MESS!!!

~Spoiler-Full Review Below~

The Good: 

→ Arrah and Dimma

Geena: One of my favourite things about Reaper was the sprinkle of Dimma’s POVs throughout the story. We got an insight into Dimma’s life before she was Arrah, and how her relationship with the other Orisha and Daho developed. It also really helped build up the suspense near the end and set up plot twists that clocked us near the end. Dimma aside, let’s talk about Arrah. Rena Barron said brooding boys are out, brooding girls are IN! And you know what, we love to read it. The story starts off with Arrah trying to save Sukkar after she snapped all his bones while trying to save him, and she does save him :) Or so she thinks but that’s besides the point. Over the length of the book we follow Arrah’s inner turmoil of suddenly having the power of 10 tribal chieftains and being insecure about whether or not she even deserves it.

I loved Arrah, even when she was holding herself up to a terribly high bar and beating herself up about everything she did. Arrah helped bring her Auntie back from the dead and was like “Damn I suck :/” and thought shattering a girl’s glass (who was flirting with Rudjek) put her on the same level as her mom and Efiya. I was sitting there like NO GIRL YOU’RE PERFECT, YOU, YOUR MISSING TOOTH AND YOUR PETTY NATURE!! 

Kae: YAAAAAAAAAS! Geena summed Arrah and Dimma up perfectly. 

But I would like to add how much I love Arrah and how selfless she is. She’s always thinking about her friends and their safety, the safety of the tribal people, and of course the kingdom. She’s a worry woman, but for all the right reasons. And she also cares about herself; so much even that like Geena said, she beats herself up for the smallest of things. She’s so worried about being evil like her mother and her sister, that she calculates every single move that she makes, debating if it’s really worth it to use strong magic or not. 

As for Dimma, I loved her POV’S. She is a complex character who has been demonized since book 1. We were taught to believe, through the POV of some of the Gods, that Dimma was a horrible Goddess who wrought nothing but chaos. They erased her name from history, LITERALLY. And Dimma became known as the Unnamed Orisha. While reading her POV, we learn that Dimma was quite selfless, much like Arrah (since they are technically the same person). Dimma was full of love and loved even harder. She went out of her way to give Daho immortality as well as his people, because she loved them so much. She defied the rules of the universe for her love, and it only came to bite her in the ass in the end. Like her siblings told her, “A God’s love is a dangerous thing.” And it was, but not exactly for the reasons one might think.

Geena:  Kae’s summary of Dimma and Arrah is AMAZING, you know my ability to connect dots when reading is kinda shit so reading Kae’s summary gave me realization…  Arrah tries so hard to separate herself from Dimma, because she refuses to believe that a part of her is in love with Daho because she herself is in love with Rudjek… but it’s like girl… you have travelled to the ends of the earth to fight and bring back the people you love (the tribespeople) just like Dimma searched the ends of the universe for immortality to give to Daho. It’d be much easier to reconcile your feelings if you just accepted that “Okay, I may have been Dimma but now I am Arrah”

Also another thing I love about Arrah is how she had…. For a time… three dudes in love with her… or at least what she thought was three dudes. Real hot girl shit. 

→ Rudjek and Daho

Geena: You know the character archetype that’s like a snarky boy who knows he’s hot shit and acts accordingly, but when it comes to the person he’s in love with he’s just a bowl of mush. That’s Rudjek, and only Rudjek can pull it off. In KOS, he was slated to be the next vizier because of his father, in Reaper he’s known as a prince because his dad snaked his way into becoming the monarch. So, now he’s the snarky prince…. And the only snarky prince with rights! His POVs were actually so fun to read, like following the politics of the Kingdom and him dealing with his new craven powers…. Which also had him being able to smell pheromones when people were doing the dirty around him 😭

I really liked that Rena gave him a POV, because now we get to see how he develops given the fact that him and Arrah are dangerous to one another, because he saps her magic with a single touch and could kill her. The whole time Arrah is stressing like “Damn, what if he doesn’t like me anymore because we can’t touch” meanwhile Rudjek is like “I’ll fight the Gods if I have to, to keep her by my side” and it’s like 🥺Also, who let a teenager be in control of a whole army… I thought the vizier was a sly and smart man but I digress… Another thing I liked about Rudjek in this book was that he didn’t shy away from uncomfortable conversations with Arrah, regarding the fact that he confused Efiya for Arrah when they did the unspeakable in the clearing in KOS. Like, that was very mature of them and I’m glad they could deal with that misunderstanding… But… hands down… my favourite scene… During the climax of the book Rudjek gets a demon soul shoved down his body, and immediately assumes it’s the demon king…. And his only command to his friends is to not let him near Arrah😭😭😭 I was like PEAK ROMANCE, SOFTEST SHIT, SACRIFICIAL LOVER!!!!! 

Kae: SO GEENA SUMMED UP RUDJEK SO DAMN WELL. LIKE DUDE OMG? Correct. He is perfect. I really don’t have much to add but I just genuinely loved him as a character. He is caring for both Arrah and his friends. He is also one of the few male characters I’ve read that actively tries to go against their father. Most dudes in books are like “Fine puhpa, I shall do your evil bidding.” But Rudjek is like “Sike bitch, I’ll let you think that but I’m doing what I WAAAANT!” 

But okay, let’s talk about Daho. So first off, I love him??? Am I a villain sympathizer now? Tbh, I don’t really see him as a villain. Man’s didn’t commit a genocide or try to scheme Arrah out of her pants. AND HE VERY MUCH HAD THE CHANCE TO and he was like “nah.” And I appreciate that. Because there are a few certain villainous men who I shan’t name, that be on that scant shit. And Daho is just like… genuinely trying to avenge his wife’s death (Dimma) and try to get Arrah to remember that she is Dimma. 

YES, I know he got Arti to bring him back. BUUUUUT, he didn’t tell her to kill a bunch of kids and shit to do it. Arti did all that evil shit on her own and Daho was like “look, i don’t condone that shit. But it’s over and I’m sorry it happened but I can’t change it.” And I’m like… okay, mood. I get it. Daho is sweet and caring. He looked out for Arrah in *redacted’s* body because we didn’t know *redacted* was dead the whole time. And even then, Daho was still like “My bad… But he wasn’t using his body??? So I took it???” Why let it go to waste, amiright? 

Geena: STOOOOP FOR REAL HE WAS LIKE “It was empty, I didn’t think you’d mind” 

Kae: LMAOOO OKAY BUT DEADASS. And like, idk man. He just seriously isn’t a bad person. He was trapped because after the God’s killed Dimma, he was like “BET IMMA JUST KILL THEM” and they lowkey were shook so they trapped his ass in a box for a millenia or whatever. He wasn’t even out to kill all humanity or anything. The God’s were just being some haters and now he’s suddenly the bad guy. Anyway, we stan Daho in this house. 

Geena: Daho is how you write a sympathetic villain. He owns up to his own mistakes even while his demons run free terrorizing people. Kae said it best that he just wants justice for his wife and unfortunately history is written by the victors so the Orisha painted him out to be a bad guy… My dude was just chugging that respecting my wife juice and they killed her… and he also thinks they killed his son… Guess me and Kae are just villain sympathizers now 

The Bad:   

→ The Ending 

Kae: Okay, let’s get it. And I also just want to clarify that when we say “the bad”, we don’t mean we hate it. This is just something that was like “oh fuck, this is BAAAAD! THINGS ARE ABOUT TO GO DOOOWN.” 

But like, good Lord. The ending? That shit was crazy. First of all, we find out that *redacted* aka, SUKKAR. OUR SWEET, PLAYFUL, SARCASTIC SUKKAR. IS DEAD. HE HAS BEEN DEAD THIS WHOLE TIME!? Excuse me while I *SCREEEEEEEEEEEAM*. Like, what an unforeseen twist. This mf kicked the bucket back in KOS when Arrah tried to save him. Turns out… She maybe… Totally… possibly… Absolutely killed my guy on accident. He dead-dead. And this is how we find out that Daho took over his body, once Sukkar’s spirit ascended. It was a really sad reveal and my heart kind of hurt reading it. I straight up wasn’t expecting that to happen. THEEEEEN. GOTDAMN EFIYA. IS BROUGHT BACK. 

Geena: No joke, the ending of Reaper was just one sucker punch followed by another… At first you think Tyrek (the prince from KOS who joins Arrah and her crew on a journey to save the tribespeople) is the demon king, then you think it’s Rudjek because he’s getting possessed, and then you learn it’s Sukkar… The final punch to the gut was Daho bringing back Efiya because his close general asked for her… because she’s his daughter. We were like, DAHO ARE YOU SERIOUS YOU SAW THE DAMAGE SHE DID TO THE HUMANS!!! Like Efiya may have grown quickly in a few months but her brain isn’t fully developed, like that girl is UNHINGED!!! I thought we were done with the Efiya chapter but here we are, and I’m scared to see what role she’ll play in the final instalment of the series. I guess this is the case of bringing back an old villain that can work out really well…  I trusted Rena with the messy Arrah/Daho/Rudjek love triangle, so I trust her with this too 

The Ugly:  

→ Tyrek 

Geena: Remember how I said Rudjek is the only valid snarky prince… Yea, Tyrek can CHOKE!! In KOS he sides with Efiya and she wreaks havoc in the Kingdom, and in Reaper he’s brought to his knees. Rudjek’s dad wants to execute him for his crimes, but Arrah sympathizes with him because she knows how Efiya’s mind control worked. As you read, you get a sense of “Okay, maybe he isn’t bad, he’s helping Arrah and them” but then you get to the climax and you’re like okay nvm this boy was insane… Imagine travelling to a whole other dimension and making deals with demons, because you’re in a fucked up sort of romance with a half-demon girl. He managed to lie to Arrah that he was being controlled by Efiyah, when he was really with Efiya the whole way…. Even when she told him to murder his whole family… this man was vile!! He’s also one of our first fake outs, when he pretends to be the demon king I was kinda disappointed… I was like no this ruins the messy love triangle I’ve been waiting for! But it was just a fake out, Tyrek was just trying to scare Arrah into freeing Efiya, whose soul was in the demon dagger that Arrah used to kill her in KOS. Overall, 1/10 for this man… the 1 point is for when he figured out “Sukkar” had a crush on Arrah before Arrah even knew.  

Conclusion 

Kae: So, I don't have much to add to Tyrek’s snake ass. He really was ugly in the end. I’m glad he’s dead. 

But to conclude, this was such an amazing, refreshing read. Reaper of Souls was a wonderful sequel to Kingdom of Souls. Rena writes so beautifully and she didn’t hesitate to have us readers shaking in our boots. Getting more background information on Dimma, the Gods, and their old ass war, was really fun and insightful! IT added to the story in a way I hadn’t even thought about until I was consuming it all! 

Arrah and Rudjek are perfect angels and I can’t wait to see where book three leads them. I also want to give a shout out to Essnai and Majka for being such good friends to Arrah and Rudjek. Same to Kira and the Cravens. This is a really close knit group of friends who will go to the ends of the Earth (and literally new dimensions) for each other. THAT’S LOVE, BITCH. And we LOVE to see it. 

Geena: For real! Rena Barron set up such an amazing cast of characters, and she really emphasizes the power of friendship in her series and it’s one of my favourite things to read. With Reaper, from the very start, she sets up the story in such a way you’re literally screaming by the end… I think it requires a special kind of skill to be able to set up a story so well that while you do make predictions about what’s going to happen, it still shocks you when you realize you’re right. Cannot wait to see the absolute mess that will be the final book, with Rudjek/Arrah vs. Daho… and the drama it will bring now that the Orishas realize that Arrah is Dimma’s reincarnation.  

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Epilogue Celebration: Couples

Eyyyy, sorry to hit you up twice in one day, but...  I’m behind, so here we are!  

I will chat a bit about 2028 couples below the cut!

Keep in mind that the crew are all adults in this discussion.

Taichi

Look, I’m sorry, I really am, but...  Ya boi is a mess, romantically.  I really can’t wait to get into this in a fic, but Taichi chose a difficult life as an ambassador in the time when Digimon and humans are first coming together.  And while I think Taichi is good at surface-level flirting (and also has a strong mind-body connection and physical stamina for... adult activities), I...  Really...  Don’t think...  He Relationships well.  Er.  Sorry.

 So, um...  I think his dating life is both varied and... stormy.  Lots of casual dating of all kinds of people, but it’s rare for him to introduce anyone to friends and family.  Plus, in the wake of... Kizuna events, he starts off adulthood...  With a lot on his heart and his mind.

It takes him a long time to find the mother of his child, and I wouldn’t be surprised if they didn’t marry/if they separated/if he somehow ended up with someone else.

The good news is that Taichi learns and grows from everything.  I know that someday, he’ll find the right person, and he’ll always do his best for his son.

Yamato and Sora

I’m influenced by @adventure-hearts on this one, but I think Yamato and Sora dated on-and-off again during different stages in their lives.  They both have enormous dreams that came before their love life, until one day...  I can’t tell you if it was emotional, or if their paths suddenly merged somehow, but someday, they fell into step and stayed there.

I think they’re very happy together, but have an unconventional life.  They spend a lot of time apart because of their jobs, and they rely on their wide net of family and friends to help with the kids.  

I think they are extremely well suited to each other and have a great marriage, but...  They both have a tendency to internalize, pull back, and brood.  They’re constantly working on their communication.

Koushiro

I think that Koushiro struggles romantically in his late teens/early twenties.  He seems to very much want a girlfriend, but he never can spare the time to look for one...  And when his friends set him up, it tends to...  Go... Poorly.  Poor dude puts his foot in his mouth, freezes, or just... doesn’t know how to relate to people outside of digimon and computers/math/science.  He also tends to try too hard, to the point where it’s a Bad Look.

My opinion is that Koushiro needs someone... very specific to handle his, um... Koushiro-ness.  I pair him with Anami Eimi,  a digimon biology researcher whose heart sometimes supersedes her mind.  The idea is that they’re both introverted and research-oriented, and they can gab about their ideas forever.  But Eimi is warm, with strong social skills and social intelligence.  She can’t touch Koushiro’s level of genius, but she’s smart, hardworking, and injects creativity and thoughtfulness into her work.  She also foresees the social and political implications of the latest developments in Digital World and digimon research/technologies, where Koushiro tends to focus on the immediate problem (you can’t blame him; he’s constantly asked to put out sizable fires.  There is always more fire.  So much fire).  

They probably work together off and on for a long time before one of them realizes, oh.  The part after that is probably a mess, knowing Koushiro, but they get there!  

Koushiro’s polite nature and Eimi’s private one make it so that strangers wouldn’t know they’re married.  Still, Koushiro’s close friends, like the Chosen, see the way his eyes follow her, especially when he’s uncertain and wanting social cues.  They have a quiet, stable partnership, which Daisuke describes as, “Married and boring,” but they’re very happy.  

And Koushiro is very curious, the type who wants to try everything at least once, eyyyyy.

The only thing causing tension is Koushiro working too much and failing to care for himself properly.  Luckily, Kae and Masami live in the same apartment mansion, and Kae has eased their marriage when needed by cooking, cleaning, calling Koushiro to remind him of Important Husband Things, and making general suggestions about how an erring husband might smooth things over with his ruffled wife.  That last one usually consists of, “Bring home dinner/get your ass home/get your ass to sleep/why yes you DO need to apologize for that.”

It also helps that Eimi loves Tentomon, an accomplished Koushiro-wrangler and general peace keeper.

Mimi

Mimi’s all about fun, novelty, and freedom.  She dates around and has casual partners of all varieties.  Eventually, she decides to co-parent a child with her long-standing romantic interest.  They share custody of their son, who also spends a lot of time with grandparents and friends, including the Chosen.  Mimi and her son’s father have an understanding that they see other people while they’re apart, but don’t bring them around their son without discussing it first.  It’s all amicable, chill, and provides their son with an enormous support network.

I don’t know if Mimi would ever settle down.  I think she loves her life with a lot of variety and spontaneity.  

Jyou

Marries his high school sweetheart, Bike Girl.  They’re both doctors, so they struggle to get enough time together.  But Bike Girl is sweet, loving, and most importantly, calm and grounded.  Jyou is a huge romantic softy who spoils his wife and takes care of her.  Although they both wish for more time together, they get on amazingly.  Jyou always feels this... wonder and gratitude that he’s married to her.

I won’t lie: Jyou is the best husband.  The other Chosen men wish they could husband as well as Jyou.

Takeru

I really don’t know what to make of this troll.  Sometimes, I think he’s a charmer who dates around a ton, and eventually had an “oops” baby that he amicably co-parents with an ex.  Sometimes, I think he settled down early and started a family, because he wanted that stability and love and constant presence that he didn’t have as a kid.  Sometimes, I wonder if he eventually divorced and went on to later marry a certain childhood friend...

What can I say, he’s a man of mystery.

Hikari

Ahhh, why is this is sooooo hard?

Part of me really wants to see Hikari as an independent woman, and quietly proud about it.  Clearly, she has a child...  Maybe she had her son and later divorced?  Or maybe she’s happily married?  I also admit that I do want to see her with Takeru, at least eventually...

Lots of possibilities here!

Daisuke

Oh, he definitely had an “oops” baby with an ex and is currently trying to find a husband or wife.  Or maybe he did?  Maybe he did!

Miyako and Ken

They’re married, and they are gross about it, lol!    

Seriously though, they get on so well.  Ken works a lot (Digimon Police is a tough job), and sometimes Ken needs to find peace and quiet in his home (merry wife + loud kids + MULTIPLE kids = TOO MUCH), so there is sometimes a little tension when Miyako wants more of his time.  But they manage it, and they keep their family and home running smoothly and happily.

I just... picture it as this ideal family, at least for someone desiring a loud, joyful, energetic, nuclear family.

Iori

Iori married early to a down-to-earth woman who specializes in elderly care.  His wife has a big heart and a kind, patient nature.  While she loves and respects Iori’s zeal for helping others, she gently reminds him to take care of himself and his family first.  She also provides perspective when he gets set in a stubborn mentality.  Happily, she enjoys sharing a large apartment with Iori’s mother and grandfather.

Iori is sometimes too focused on the problems of others to see his loved ones properly, and that’s something he works on with his grandfather’s guidance.  When he has his daughter, he instantly reassigns his priorities around her, which softens a lot of his problematic areas.  Also, he married a woman who knows how to help him redirect his thoughts.  He feels genuine amazement that he’s with her.  They have a relationship that is... quietly intense.

AND I AM DONE FOR TODAY, WHEW!

[promise-tingzz]

I’m back with another collage but this time I’m doing something different…I am going to be talking about……ANIMES TO WATCH DURING LITTLE SPACE/REGRESSION…whatever you want to call you headspace is a-okay with me. I will being listing the names of the anime and descriptions below, I personally don’t usually watch cartoons in little space, and if I do I’m sorta in baby space. Continuing though I love to watch anime in general, in and out of my headspace, but sometimes little me can’t follow the plot of certain anime’s I watch when I’m big, so I usually stick to slice of life and light romance sort of anime’s. But getting on to the topic at hand, I will be listing the names of anime going down row to row. These anime’s are so good, I promise.

Top 9 anime’s I recommend to watch in little space

•the first one we have up there is blend S, I know you heard of the intro before. Smile, sweet, sister, sadistic, surprise, service. Yup it’s that anime. The anime is basically about a High school girl, named Maika Sakuranomiya, who has a lot of trouble finding a part-time job because of how scary she looks when smiling. Which is what you usually need to do when doing any part-time job. You have to show enthusiasm, moving on though. Even though she has trouble with her smile, she is scouted one day by an Italian man who is also the manager of Stile, a café where its waitresses are given unique traits such as tsundere and younger sister. It’s a comedy/ slice of life type anime. I give this anime a 10/10 and it’s perfect when I watch it when I regress.

• the second anime going down is power puff girl z, the plot doesn’t differ from the regular power puff girls cartoon except in the anime. Professor Utonium was, infact, experimenting while his son Ken Kitazawa/Utonium created Chemical Z (a variant of his father's Chemical X) when a local restaurant specialty fell into the Chemical X. Ken uses the chemical to destroy an ice glacier and avoid an ecological disaster. The impact causes white and black Z-Rays to fly across the skies of New Townsville. The white lights hit Blossom, Bubbles, and Buttercup transforming them into the Powerpuff Girls. Those hit with the black light became the series' villains. After defeating Mojo Jojo, Mr. Mayor assigned them to be the heroines of the city. They are called to action using the cry of Ken Kitazawa's robot pet puppy, Poochi. Yes I know the anime sounds very similar to the cartoon, I just find PPGZ more appealing to my taste. Again 10/10 I would total recommend.

• the third anime is POKÉMON, oml I love this so much, any gen will do. Ranging from the old Pokémon getting aired in 1997 to Pokémon the series: sun and moon. The old Pokémon is about our main protagonist, a young Ash Ketchum, just began his Pokémon training as he finally turns 10. But things don't go as expected for the him, when he gets a Pikachu instead of a standard first Pokémon. Winning gym badges is also tougher than Ash thought it would be. He's not alone in his quest for the badges, though, as former gym leaders Brock and Misty are by his side, along with some new friends. I love it all. 10/10.

• the fourth anime, starting from the second column is bananya it’s basically a cutesy anime basically about a white cat who lives inside a banana. That’s it. My regressed self can follow the easy plot and my regressed two year old-ish self can laugh at it. 10/10 totally recommend.

• the fifth anime we have is miraculous ladybug. Yes I know, don’t come for me alright, I know it’s sort of a cartoon but the creators had the thought of anime still in mind so I’ll call it even. It’s basically about a girl named marinette. She seems to be a normal teenage girl, she dreams of becoming a famous fashion designer, is a bit awkward/shy and has a crush on one of her classmate. But she has a secret other teenagers don't have, she lives a double life as a crime-fighting superhero known as Ladybug. She uses her superpowers to help protect her native Paris from supervillain Hawk Moth. She is assisted, much to her dislike, by fellow hero Cat Noir. even though she insists she doesn't need him -- a stance she might not take if she knew his alter ego is her crush, Adrien. Together, Ladybug and Cat Noir help keep Paris safe from Hawk Moth and other villains. The plot is kind of a bit to much for me when I’m tiny, but overall I rate it 9/10.

• the six anime is called miss kuboyashis dragon maid it’s about an average office worker Named Miss Kobayashi and she lives a boring/ not exciting life, alone in her small apartment–until she saves a female dragon in distress. The dragon, named Tohru, has the ability to magically transform into an adorable human girl (albeit with horns and a long tail!), who will do anything to pay off her debt of gratitude, whether Miss Kobayashi likes it or not. With a very persistent and amorous dragon as a roommate, nothing comes easy, and Miss Kobayashi’s normal life is about to go off the deep end. It’s a very cutesy and slice of life anime, I give it a 9/10. The only reason why is the short/small service scenes.

• the seventh anime, starting from the last column we have ouran highschool host club. it’s a romance/comedy type of anime which I love, in and out of littlespace. Following the plot, it is about an elite upper school catering to the ultra-rich, which is called ouran academy. Haruhi Fujioka, one of our main protagonists, is a working-class scholarship student, which is rare at the school. While searching for a quiet place to study, Haruhi stumbles on an unused music room which turns out to be the club room for the school's "Host Club" — a group of idle rich boys possessing exceptional good-looks who entertain female clients. After accidentally knocking over a priceless Renaissance vase that's worth far more than Harhui can possibly repay, she is forced to join the Host Club as an "errand boy" to work off the debt. Soon after, however, Haruhi proves to be a 'natural' Host (no training needed) and is promoted to full membership of the Host Club. It then becomes clear that something isn't quite as it seems. I love this anime so much. It also slightly grazes the topics of gender identity and sexuality. Covering the sexuality, lesbian, in one of the episodes. And covers the gender identity, non-binary, in episode one. Our little haruhi is non-binary. THEIR REPRESENTING SO HARD. I literally cried when I figured out haruhi was non-binary in the anime. Enough of that. I give the anime a 9/10. Only because it’s has a short/small amount of service scenes that I don’t like in little space.

• the eighth anime, the second in the last column, is called kiss him, not me. It’s appropriate I promise. The plot is basically about a girl named Kae Serinuma being a fujoshi, a female manga and anime geek who loves reading yaoi (boys love) material and imagining men together in romantic relationships, both fictional and real. But while she was watching her favorite anime one of her favourite characters is killed off, Kae is so shocked that she locks herself in her room for a whole week, missing school. Not spoiling the anime, she comes out different goes to school, and at first, nobody recognizes her. When they do they are shocked and overwhelm her making her cry and run off. Later on a group of boys gain crushes on her and fight to see who will win all of her love, slightly forgetting that she devotes her life to anime. I’ll let y’all decide if you wanna see what happens or not. I give the anime a 10/10.

• the last, and ninth anime we have today is…the old, classic, and one of my very favorites…SAILOR MOON. We all know sailor moon right?? It’s about a middle-school student named Usagi Tsukino, who lives in Juban, Tokyo. She befriends Luna, a talking black cat who gives her a magical brooch enabling her to become Sailor Moon: a soldier destined to save Earth from the forces of evil. It has kitty’s and a female protag who kicks butt to the max, what more do you want?? 10/10.

[punkscowardschampions]

Ali & Ro

Ali: Hoqa I koda cumsocs ur roqa sraae sodam aeuir cukkimecoseum kudira? [Have I made contact or have they taken your communication module?] Ro: Es'k ka [It's me] Ali: Pruqa es [Prove it] Ro: Nubudae arka com kvaod uir kacras romsiosa! [Nobody else can speak our secret language!] Ro: [but sends some kind of spooky girl selfie too] Ali: Com maqar ba suu corakir vesr sraka sroesurk oruimd [Can never be too careful with these traitors around] Ali: Du aeui kaar reda aeui ruud? [Do you feel like you look?] Ro: Sraae'rr maqar soda ka oreqa [they'll never take me alive] Ro: I kaar reda I cuird krae su aeui, koaeba I verr [I feel like I could fly to you, maybe I will] Ali: Traae kesrs'qa kursuma vorraae bis va kserr roqa uir cudak, Peroso Cudax, rumuir, omd ku um [They might've forgone parley but we still have our codes, Pirata Codex, honour, and so on] Ali: Daod kam sarr mu sorak bis maesrar du I [Dead men tell no tales but neither do I] Ali: I'rr daav sra resraks vemduv uvam kur aeui [I'll keep the highest window open for you] Ro: Sekvrae bacoika sraae ora kam ora sraae kvurm su keramca, mus bacoika sraae ora daod [Simply because they are men are they sworn to silence, not because they are dead] Ro: vukam omd serrk roqa ok kicr su koae ba es reqems ur daod [women and girls have as much to say be it living or dead] Ro: omd srara ora suu komae kvarrk sros kaad su kemd ruks sremsk kur aeui su amd iv baems uma uk srak [and there are too many spells that seek to find lost things for you to end up being one of them] Ro: ek sraae dum's vekr su occavs kae biread ukkaremsk uk vosar ur kuud, I'rr srae bruud maxs [if they don't wish to accept my buried offerings of water or food, I'll try blood next] Ali: Mura [More] Ali: bis ricderae, va dmuv kor kura voaek su sord srom iiks ikems uir quecak [but luckily, we know far more ways to talk than just using our voices] Ali: Yui ora sra vuvvae sros bruukad kruk sra bruud-kuodad kuer [You are the poppy that bloomed from the blood-soaked soil] Ali: I'rr koda kae voae uis uk srek vroca rums bakura I roqa sruvm kae roer su sra kruur su crekb duvm, sriks ka [I'll make my way out of this place long before I have grown my hair to the floor to climb down, trust me] Ro: bobae saasr ora o suud srems su vekr ivum, I cuird virr kema uis kemca I mu rumsar roqa omae maad kur srak [baby teeth are a good thing to wish upon, I could pull mine out since I no longer have any need for them] Ro: srara'k o vukom vru quvad mus su aos, dremd, brikr rar roer ur ruud emsu o kerrur omd kra'k rod sra ksramssr su daav sros vrukeka kur aeaork [there's a woman who vowed not to eat, drink, brush her hair or look into a mirror and she's had the strength to keep that promise for years] Ro: [sends her loads of articles etc about Irom Chanu Sharmila because she'd think it's so goals] Ali: Wa com ika Loueka'k, kruird kra ba ku ksived ok su dora su ras ka kaa rar aqar osoem [We can use Laoise's, should she be so stupid as to dare to let me see her ever again] Ali: omd ubqeuikrae, o rocd uk cresecor sremdems ek rar vrubrak, ok varr ok mus baems o sria, raor keksar [and obviously, a lack of critical thinking is her problem, as well as not being a true, real sister] Ro: Sra'k obuis ok broqa ok kra ek daqusad, I dum's sremd va'rr kaa rar osoem em srek reka [She's about as brave as she is devoted, I don't think we'll see her again in this life] Ali: Trara'k mu voae srara vokm's deqema emsarqamseum, Mamsuibe ek resarorrae reqems vruuk! [There's no way there wasn't divine intervention, Mengoubi is literally living proof!] Ro: I dmuv! [I know!] Ali: I ruva su orvoaek ba sros ksrums omd du kukasrems ok axsrourdemorae omd ekvursoms um srek aorsr vesr srek cirrams reka omd sra maxs [I hope to always be that strong and do something as extraordinary and important on this earth with this current life and the next] Ro: Aeui'ra sra ksrumsaks omd kuks axsrourdemorae varkum I roqa aqar rod sra vraokira uk kaasems, um sra aorsr omd vesrem sra kveres raork [you're the strongest and most extraordinary person I have ever had the pleasure of meeting, on the earth and within the spirit realm] Ro: aqaraesrems I roqa I vuird verremsrae seqa uqar su aeui, orvoaek omd vesruis piakseum [everything I have I would willingly give over to you, always and without question] Ali: Yui ora sra rureaks [You are the holiest] Ali: I commus voes su kaa ruv aeui ora ravordad em sra kemor vurrd bacoika I dmuv es verr ba baaeumd omaesrems I cuird ekosema em kae cirrams rekesad kurk [I cannot wait to see how you are rewarded in the final world because I know it will be beyond anything I could imagine in my current limited form] Ro: I kvaor, aqarae curuir ek bresrsar kemca I vrukekad mus su ba suicrad bae sra kim ur kuumresrs imser aeui cuka bocd, I vekr I cuird voems es reda aeui vuird [I swear, every colour is brighter since I promised not to be touched by the sun or moonlight until you come back, I wish I could paint it like you would] Ro: omd aocr kuimd ek craorar omd ruidar kemca I bacoka resrsar em kaekark, sra veomu ek orkuks voemkir su raor [and each sound is clearer and louder since I became lighter in myself, the piano is almost painful to hear] Ali: Yui cukkes srak su aeuir kemd'k aaea muv omd I verr uvam kae uvm omd va verr kaa ruv komae I com sas resrs [You commit them to your mind's eye now and I will open my own and we will see how many I can get right] Ali: I'qa baam sraeems su racorr aqarae cireukesae em uir ruuk, sram sraeems su racorr srak em o carsoem urdar, vram sraae vara kuimd, vrara...Ik I cumcamsrosa rord amuisr, I'k orkuks srara, I com kaa sra kvacsra uk aeui um aeuir bad, Bria um kema [I've been trying to recall every curiosity in our room, then trying to recall them in a certain order, when they were found, where...If I concentrate hard enough, I'm almost there, I can see the spectre of you on your bed, Blue on mine] Ro: ra rok baam redems imdarmaosr bis iiks bakura aeui ksorsad srek cumqarkoseum, ra kuqad su rek ikior kvus [he has been hiding underneath but just before you started this conversation, he moved to his usual spot] Ali: Ha kaark es suu [He feels it too] Ali: I roqa o vrom sros verr sas ka bocd kuumar rosrar srom rosar, iiks uma kura veaca uk sra vizzra maadk su korr em vroca [I have a plan that will get me back sooner rather than later, just one more piece of the puzzle needs to fall in place] Ro: Huv com I rarv? [How can I help?] Ali: Cumsemia vesr aeuir vrusaksk, ksoae ksrums [Continue with your protests, stay strong] Ali: Morocre rok imvessemsrae rarvad ka bis sros'k ok kicr ok com ba duma, es'k o kuru kekkeum ku va com ba svu rorqak uk o vrura osoem [Malachi has unwittingly helped me but that's as much as can be done, it's a solo mission so we can be two halves of a whole again] Ro: I verr, mu vosar, kuud ur kraav imser va'ra susasrar omd emkavorobra [I will, no water, food or sleep until we're together and inseparable] Ali: I ruqa aeui [I love you] Ro: I ruqa aeui suu [ILY too]

[tobethefairybest]

Stray

@i-write-fanfics-to-procrastinate has dragged half our server into a ship that appears in Fairy Tail: City Hero (Laxus x Hisui) and her writing inspired me to write a oneshot that takes place in the City Hero AU! Thank you Kae for being our server-mom and inspiring and helping us, always ♥

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"Where are we heading?" Laxus asked as he turned the police car yet another corner. Hisui had been acting weird today, absolutely insisting to go somewhere straight out of his work. He had picked her up from the usual spot, close to the castle she called home.

"You'll see," She said, clearly enjoying the fact that he was so clueless, "just two more right turns."

He followed her instructions and ended up in a back alley in the suburbs. "Just what on earth could be here for us?" he mumbled to himself. 

She giggled. "Just park the car already. We're here."

Laxus parked the car on the side of the road and stepped out. Not a living soul roamed the streets here. He scanned his surroundings, but despite the deserted look of it, it seemed safe.

He looked around and noticed that the princess had already walked over to a grim-looking building. She stood in front of it and pointed up, to its signboard.

He followed the direction she was pointing at and let his eyes rest at the rusty sign.

Magnolia Cat Shelter 

He blinked a few times. A cat shelter? Why would Hisui bring him all the way here for a building full of furballs? 

Laxus gave her a puzzled look. She laughed at his silly expression. " Don't you remember?" she said, "you mentioned how all the other dragon mages have cats except for you." 

It finally dawned on him that he had said something along those lines about a week ago. Maybe just one sentence of an entire conversation they had over dinner. "But those are Exceeds, not just regular cats."

"Oh, I know!" she replied as she reached out for the doorknob, "it's just that after I've seen your apartment that I realised you've nothing to return to when coming back from work."

"I'm fine with living on my own, really," he said, but the ring of the bell hanging on the other side of the door already welcomed Hisui inside. He sighed deeply and let out a curse under his breath. He had no choice but to follow her now. 

He walked in, letting the bell ring once more, and expected to be overthrown by the stench of litter boxes and canned meat but was surprised by the cleanness inside. 

Hisui had already started a conversation with the lady who ran the shelter and he could see the excitement in the princess' eyes as soon as she looked over at him. 

"So you're the one looking for a new friend?" the woman said, clapping her hands together. 

He was driven into a corner now. "Well, not really, but-" 

"That's great, just perfect!" the cat lady said as she already pushed him forward to the next room. 

Dozens of cats walked over tables, chairs and circled around their feet. "Can I pet them?" Hisui asked.

"Of course!"

Gently, she picked up a stone gray cat with half long hair. She let it hang over her shoulder while stroking its back with her delicate hands. 

"Laxus, just look at this amazing cat, doesn't he look royal?" 

"Yeah, super fluffy," he replied in an attempt to sound even slightly interested. 

Hisui kept picking up cats and handed some over to Laxus, who reluctantly pet them on their heads before putting them back on the floor again.

He tried very hard for her, but a regular cat was just not what he was hoping for. There had to be a way to find an Exceed, even Gajeel had managed to find one. Suddenly he felt a presence from the corner of the room, which interrupted his stream of thoughts. Two green eyes were spying him. 

"What about that one?" Laxus said while pointing at a cat that was hiding behind a chair. It had been staring at them from the moment they entered the room and his forest green eyes stared straight into his soul. 

It was a rather large cat, red with stripes in a slightly darker shade and seemed to have several hairless spots and stripes all over its body. 

"Oh, that one? We call him Donar." the lady said in a grim tone, "he's rather scared, he is a stray that was hit by lightning while roaming the streets last week. The poor thing was lucky to survive. " 

Laxus felt his guts clench. Hit by lightning. His lightning? He shook the thought out of his head. What were the odds? The cat stood up straight and walked over to him, clearly gathering all the courage it had. Laxus crouched down and let his hand ran over the cat’s back. Feeling the relief resulting from the hairless spots being striped over its fur, he felt overthrown by a sense of responsibility for the small animal.

"I'm taking this one," he suddenly said with resolve. 

Hisui and the cat lady looked at him in awe. Was this really the same person as the man who reluctantly walked in? 

"I'm sorry but Donar can't be adopted without his best friend, so you'll have to take them both." the lady informed him and pointed at a small, white cat that was looking out the window. Distracted by everything that took place on the other side of the glass. 

"Her name is Esmeralda and she's a real sweetheart, you'll love her." 

Laxus couldn't take his eyes off the little feline. The way it was dreaming, how it seemed to long for the world outside. Just like a princess in a castle. 

"Yeah, I think I can love her.," he mumbled as a gentle smile crept up his face. 

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"To be very honest, I never expected you to walk out with a cat, let alone with two. " Hisui said as she lazily let herself fall next to him on the couch. 

"I wouldn't be a true dragon slayer without one," he said as he draped an arm around her. "Heck, I even have two now, I'm the strongest!" 

She laughed at his silly lines and reached out to her feet to pick up Esmeralda that was tickling her calves with her tail. Hisui carefully placed her on his lap and before Laxus could protest, Odin jumped up the couch too and settled next to its best friend. They exchanged a rub between their cheeks and touched each other's noses.

"Don't you think the cats kinda... resemble... us?" Laxus hesitantly asked. 

She looked at him with a raised brow, "How do you mean?" 

This was embarrassing. He scratched his nose as he pretended to be intrigued by the cats who had now found a sleeping position together. "Well, Donar is a tough cat who was affected by lightning and Esmeralda looks like a princess." 

She leaned over and booped his nose with hers. He was surprised by her action and looked at her in confusion. "Then this is how we have to show affection from now on." she giggled. 

He smiled and cupped the back of her head. "I prefer it closer," he said before pulling her into a kiss. 

If only she didn’t have to leave...

[sighingsiren-tales]

ZODIAC MEN

So, I haven’t really said it much here but I have been healing from something terrible and this was my way of healing. I love astrology and this is something that I may start permanently in addition to the fan fiction I write here. I hope you enjoy it~Kae

*Note, this is from the perspective of a Leo Sun, Aquarius Moon, Leo Mercury, Virgo Venus and Rising and Scorpio Mars. (I’m a female) 

ARIES

❌My middle school boyfriend. Ha, you still hit me up and tell me i look cute and how we’re gonna have kids from time to time, maybe even flirt with me here and there. can’t say i don’t like it the attention but that ship sailed long ago. Funny, a definite goofball, popular after his insecurity phase was over. 

❌one of the first guys i fucked in college. lol you were fun, fun as hell. you were always easy going, funny and matched my energy relatively well but you were most definitely a fuckboy (sorry) you just liked pussy and women too much for us to ever work, assuming you even wanted us to work. You still tried to hit on me when i had a boyfriend (who was your roommate) and when you had a girlfriend. Bold as hell and he was h u g e.

❌ah, one of the few of your kind that I actually like on campus. loud personality but actually very timid. always asks me how to seduce people and tells me that I get what i want relatively easy. a ball of insecurities and emotion. learn your value king and get over that. 

TAURUS

❌over emotional man child lmao sorry. you want someone to be your mother and hold your hand and i can honestly say no one has hurt me like you have. too self absorbed, needs reassurance, can’t be himself. drinks and smokes too much. navy dude.

❌one of my self proclaimed brothers. he’s a bit of a hard ass and a commitmentphobe but he has a big heart and truly acts like a second dad haha. i love him as a friend. caring, soft, funny, protective asf (especially of me), won’t let me walk back to my dorm alone. 

❌my little brother. a pain in my ass. acts tough and hard, uses a lot of slang. needs attention and reassurance often. loves hard but can be annoying. told me he cared about me when i ran away. needs a healthier way to show his emotions. we butt heads a lot as kids. stubborn as hell. love you though kid 

❌ahh, this one (he’s a cusp kid, 4/20 hehe blaze it). honestly a super hero. so caring and sweet but also kinky and your handprint is kinda still on my ass. i had a crush on you before you did. honest, respectful, loveeessssss his mom, has a lot of female friends (which makes me a bit jealous). anime buddy. patient, protective, a bit of a temper (it’s kinda hot), the best kind of man. can get me to open up but strengthen me at the same time?? my superman, the only man i don’t mind being vulnerable to. reminds me of an anime character. a warrior with a heart of g

GEMINI

 ❌fun while it lasted and i’m pretty sure i was your flavor of the month and you were mine as well. you were funny, and meshed with my energy well. didn’t last long in bed tho😬 your laugh was contagious. really good dancer. can’t hold a relationship for your LIFE. not good with emotions, a free spirit. kinda wishy washy. didn’t like it when i avoided hanging out. 

❌quiet, had an intimidating presence. everyone thought you were scary but you were funny, logical and very headstrong. strong silent type. always opened up with me but no one else. has a “lone wolf mentality” strongest man i know. made me happy with who i am, gave the best advice. unmovable, easy going. the one i stay with at all family functions. a big chunk of my heart. love you big bro.

CANCER

 ❌absolute trash lmao. always attracted drama and stuck his nose where it didn’t belong. ultimate instigator. i think you just need a diary and a xanax. everyone said you tried to break up me and my (then) boyfriend?? cute but annoying. an acquired taste (and that’s me being nice)

❌my little baby brother. the sweetest thing upon planet earth. always asks me if i’m okay, comes to me when he’s sad and cried when i told him i was leaving for college. tells me he loves my hair and nails and always protects his big sis. always excited to see me. so smart, a damn genius actually. amazing with technology. i love you so much little man.

LEO

 ❌ahh my first love. so caring, tender, sweet but had too many scars and wounds for us to heal together. we made so many mistakes with one another but you were always trying to be my own personal naruto and, for a while, you were. and for those few months you were my everything. kept me going when i wanted to die. kissed my scars all the time. always bought me food. loved to spoil me. had a temper and hid his emotions. put everyone before himself too much. things ended bad and our egos clashed. i hurt you. i’m sorry. the last words we said to each other were good bye and i love you. 

❌someone at college who wants to fuck me lmao. always hugs me really tight, stares me down in a way where i know he’s undressing me mentally. says love is bullshit but wants a happy ending and i know it. also also, you’re not fucking me lmao.

VIRGO

 ❌my summertime coworker. a party animal, mentally resilient and smart as all hell. we fooled around once lmao but it never got far. funny as fuck. never spoke about what he had going on but i know he was hurting. a perfectionist, a scammer. 

❌sweet in a weird kinda of way. always asks if i’m okay. always asks if i need something, always willing to help. trusts me to make my own decisions and encourages me to think for myself and watch my back. hard working, quiet with bit of a hardshell. never lets anything dictate who he is. love you uncle. 

LIBRA

❌my distant friends ex; wishy washy. not very good with commitment. really cute room and good fashion sense. pretty lips; respectful and honest fuck boy. made a move on me once after a party once. pops in and out of my life. 

❌invited me to a gala once. loved the attention of having me on my arm. hated my ex. smoked weed a lot, easy going and soft spoken. never got angry, went along with anything. probably in jail or in some legal trouble right now.

SCORPIO

❌you wanna fuck me. lol i know you do and you’ve made it clear as the only thing you want me for. came up to my room and tried to barge in after i told you not to. kinda creepy. quiet. doesn’t say much. always seemingly where i am. in my same major, soooo tall, soft spoke voice. 

❌oh boy. obsessive. possessive, jealous. we were good friends. then you fell in love with me. i didn’t think of you that way. you told me it was okay and then began to blow up my phone with messages, text my friends to ask where i was and blow up on me when i said we needed space and cursed me out. safe to say we don’t talk anymore. when i blocked you, you emailed me an apology and asked my friend to tell me you’re sorry and give me your letter. overthinks a lot. always needs to be in the know and/or control. consuming. reallll timid and unconfident. weed addict. total beta male.

❌you’re sexy. i’ll give you that. and you’re smart. you pop and out of my life. easy going. sweet. quiet, distant and a little annoying with your wishy washyness. i took your virginity 😬 lmao yikes. always around a group of females. nice hair, always played in mine. really funny and the times where you matched my energy it was magic. 

SAGITTARIUS

❌lol uh i knew you in high school. went to harvard. super super attractive, very competitive and very funny. had a pretty chill vibe. i wanted to kiss you. had perfect teeth, the valedictorian of the class before me. 

❌a hardass, lol. sees things like they’re black and white. has a funny side, hilariousssss but in a mean kind of way. doesn’t show much emotions but you know he cares. blunt. caring in his own way. took me to get my first tattoo. affectionate in a awkward pat back type of way. when he sees me sad, he helps best he can although that’s not always in the best of ways. helped me get through my grammy’s death. my dad. 

CAPRICORN

 ❌ah the fwb that turned into my boyfriend. we should’ve never happened. i care for you but a relationship was a bad idea. we started based off sex. was fucking a lot of girls when when with me (9 of them lmao yikes 😬) aloof, funny, dorky, another anime buddy. thinks he knows everything, thinks he’s a god (literally), an emotional baby when it comes down to it. made me his reason and told me he loved me. i regret telling you i loved you too. gas s god complex and wants things to come to him with minimal effort. 

❌ahh, you always had a thing for me. you and everyone else told me. held my umbrella for me while we walked in the rain. told me i was perfect, always promised that you’d marry me. pop in my life from time to time. down with anything. 

AQUARIUS

❌ ahhh the forbidden fruit. distant, friendly, charming, a liar. very sexual, always complimented me and once told me he loved me(yikes). really cute, made me feel special, has been trying to get me for yrs. not sure if it’s just sex or if it’s more but not giving myself the chance to be hurt and find out. sometimes i wonder what we could’ve been but the drama attached to your back makes me think otherwise. i still think of you from time to time. great kisser. 

PISCES 

❌my self proclaimed older brother. really knowledgeable, wise, sweet, loves his girlfriend with all his heart. encourages me to open up. supports me the best way i need, not always want lol. funny, a meme lord, hilarious in a subtle way. knows he’s that bitch. has almost all female friends but still retains his masculinity perfectly stronger than he lets on. an absolute blessing. helped me learn to love who i was and to be open to living others.

❌a wanna be gangster. lmao wants to fuck me but not happening. a big ball of unsorted through emotions. needs to get over his toxic masculinity but soft, caring. a big ass baby. unfaithful and childish. needs to learn his self worth within himself. daddy issues.