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15 and 30 for the sapphic asks!
a sapphic ask game for ur sapphic ask game needs!
15. are you the gay cousin?
yes, but only one cousin knows i'm their gay cousin. i have two or three other gay cousins i think?
30. who's your favorite sapphic character?
some of my ultimate faves are: nadja of antipaxos from wwdits, josie and hazel from bottoms (2023), nora west-allen and charlie from dctv, mazikeen from lucifer, ava & beatrice from warrior nun, eve polastri from killing eve, ace & jana from rookie (2023), and becky from becky & badette (2023)
#thanks for the ask!#i will be the gay cousin (best member of the family) one day#i have so many other sapphic faves. these are the only ones i remember atm
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Queer Books Challenged in Florida Schools and Libraries
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Gender Queer: A Memoir, Maia Kobabe: Now, Gender Queer is here. Maia's intensely cathartic autobiography charts eir journey of self-identity, which includes the mortification and confusion of adolescent crushes, grappling with how to come out to family and society, bonding with friends over erotic gay fanfiction, and facing the trauma and fundamental violation of pap smears.
The Color Purple, Alice Walker: Separated as girls, sisters Celie and Nettie sustain their loyalty to and hope in each other across time, distance and silence. Through a series of letters spanning nearly thirty years, first from Celie to God, then the sisters to each other despite the unknown, the novel draws readers into its rich and memorable portrayals of Celie, Nettie, Shug Avery and Sofia and their experience. The Color Purple broke the silence around domestic and sexual abuse, narrating the lives of women through their pain and struggle, companionship and growth, resilience and bravery.
Julián Is a Mermaid, Jessica Love: While riding the subway home from the pool with his abuela one day, Julián notices three women spectacularly dressed up. Their hair billows in brilliant hues, their dresses end in fishtails, and their joy fills the train car. When Julián gets home, daydreaming of the magic he's seen, all he can think about is dressing up just like the ladies in his own fabulous mermaid costume: a butter-yellow curtain for his tail, the fronds of a potted fern for his headdress. But what will Abuela think about the mess he makes -- and even more importantly, what will she think about how Julián sees himself? Mesmerizing and full of heart, Jessica Love's author-illustrator debut is a jubilant picture of self-love and a radiant celebration of individuality.
Drama: A Graphic Novel, Raina Telgemeier: Callie loves theater. And while she would totally try out for her middle school's production of Moon over Mississippi, she can't really sing. Instead she's the set designer for the drama department's stage crew, and this year she's determined to create a set worthy of Broadway on a middle-school budget. But how can she, when she doesn't know much about carpentry, ticket sales are down, and the crew members are having trouble working together? Not to mention the onstage AND offstage drama that occurs once the actors are chosen. And when two cute brothers enter the picture, things get even crazier!
Cemetery Boys, Aiden Thomas: Yadriel has summoned a ghost, and now he can't get rid of him. When his traditional Latinx family has problems accepting his true gender, Yadriel becomes determined to prove himself a real brujo. With the help of his cousin and best friend Maritza, he performs the ritual himself, and then sets out to find the ghost of his murdered cousin and set it free. However, the ghost he summons is actually Julian Diaz, the school's resident bad boy, and Julian is not about to go quietly into death. He's determined to find out what happened and tie off some loose ends before he leaves. Left with no choice, Yadriel agrees to help Julian, so that they can both get what they want. But the longer Yadriel spends with Julian, the less he wants to let him leave.
I Am Billie Jean King, Brad Meltzer: This friendly, fun biography series focuses on the traits that made our heroes great--the traits that kids can aspire to in order to live heroically themselves. Each book tells the story of one of America's icons in a lively, conversational way that works well for the youngest nonfiction readers and that always includes the hero's childhood influences. At the back are an excellent timeline and photos. This volume features Billie Jean King, the world champion tennis player who fought successfully for women's rights. From a young age, Billie Jean King loved sports--especially tennis! But as she got older, she realized that plenty of people, even respected male athletes, didn't take women athletes seriously. She set to prove them wrong and show girls everywhere that sports are for everyone, regardless of gender.
This One Summer, Mariko Tamaki: Every summer, Rose goes with her mom and dad to a lake house in Awago Beach. It's their getaway, their refuge. Rosie's friend Windy is always there, too, like the little sister she never had. But this summer is different. Rose's mom and dad won't stop fighting, and when Rose and Windy seek a distraction from the drama, they find themselves with a whole new set of problems. One of the local teens - just a couple of years older than Rose and Windy - is caught up in something bad... Something life threatening. It's a summer of secrets, and sorrow, and growing up, and it's a good thing Rose and Windy have each other.
Marriage of a Thousand Lies, Sj Sindu: Lucky and her husband, Krishna, are gay. They present an illusion of marital bliss to their conservative Sri Lankan-American families, while each dates on the side. It's not ideal, but for Lucky, it seems to be working. She goes out dancing, she drinks a bit, she makes ends meet by doing digital art on commission. But when Lucky's grandmother has a nasty fall, Lucky returns to her childhood home and unexpectedly reconnects with her former best friend and first lover, Nisha, who is preparing for her own arranged wedding with a man she's never met.
And Tango Makes Three, Peter Parnell: At the penguin house at the Central Park Zoo, two penguins named Roy and Silo were a little bit different from the others. But their desire for a family was the same. And with the help of a kindly zookeeper, Roy and Silo got the chance to welcome a baby penguin of their very own.
More Happy Than Not, Adam Silvera: In the months following his father's suicide, sixteen-year-old Aaron Soto can't seem to find happiness again, despite the support of his girlfriend, Genevieve, and his overworked mom. Grief and the smile-shaped scar on his wrist won't let him forget the pain. But when Aaron meets Thomas, a new kid in the neighborhood, something starts to shift inside him. Aaron can't deny his unexpected feelings for Thomas despite the tensions their friendship has created with Genevieve and his tight-knit crew. Since Aaron can't stay away from Thomas or turn off his newfound happiness, he considers taking drastic actions. The Leteo Institute's revolutionary memory-altering procedure will straighten him out, even if it means forgetting who he truly is.
Melissa, Alex Gino: When people look at Melissa, they think they see a boy named George. But she knows she's not a boy. She knows she's a girl.
Melissa thinks she'll have to keep this a secret forever. Then her teacher announces that their class play is going to be Charlotte's Web. Melissa really, really, REALLY wants to play Charlotte. But the teacher says she can't even try out for the part... because she's a boy.
With the help of her best friend, Kelly, Melissa comes up with a plan. Not just so she can be Charlotte -- but so everyone can know who she is, once and for all.
A Quick & Easy Guide to Queer & Trans Identities, Mady G, Jules Zuckerberg: In this quick and easy guide to queer and trans identities, cartoonists Mady G and Jules Zuckerberg guide you through the basics of the LGBT+ world! Covering essential topics like sexuality, gender identity, coming out, and navigating relationships, this guide explains the spectrum of human experience through informative comics, interviews, worksheets, and imaginative examples. A great starting point for anyone curious about queer and trans life, and helpful for those already on their own journeys!
This Book Is Gay, Juno Dawson: This candid, funny, and uncensored exploration of sexuality and what it's like to grow up LGBTQ also includes real stories from people across the gender and sexual spectrums, not to mention hilarious illustrations.
Little & Lion, Brandy Colbert: When Suzette comes home to Los Angeles from her boarding school in New England, she's isn't sure if she'll ever want to go back. L.A. is where her friends and family are (as well as her crush, Emil). And her stepbrother, Lionel, who has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, needs her emotional support. But as she settles into her old life, Suzette finds herself falling for someone new...the same girl her brother is in love with. When Lionel's disorder spirals out of control, Suzette is forced to confront her past mistakes and find a way to help her brother before he hurts himself--or worse.
King and the Dragonflies, Kacen Callender: Twelve-year-old Kingston James is sure his brother Khalid has turned into a dragonfly. When Khalid unexpectedly passed away, he shed what was his first skin for another to live down by the bayou in their small Louisiana town. Khalid still visits in dreams, and King must keep these secrets to himself as he watches grief transform his family.
It would be easier if King could talk with his best friend, Sandy Sanders. But just days before he died, Khalid told King to end their friendship, after overhearing a secret about Sandy-that he thinks he might be gay. "You don't want anyone to think you're gay too, do you?"
Sorted: Growing Up, Coming Out, and Finding My Place: A Transgender Memoir, Jackson Bird: An unflinching and endearing memoir from LGBTQ+ advocate Jackson Bird about how he finally sorted things out and came out as a transgender man.When Jackson Bird was twenty-five, he came out as transgender to his friends, family, and anyone in the world with an internet connection. Assigned female at birth and raised as a girl, he often wondered if he should have been born a boy. Jackson didn't share this thought with anyone because he didn't think he could share it with anyone.
The Black Flamingo, Dean Atta: Michael is a mixed-race gay teen growing up in London. All his life, he's navigated what it means to be Greek-Cypriot and Jamaican--but never quite feeling Greek or Black enough.
As he gets older, Michael's coming out is only the start of learning who he is and where he fits in. When he discovers the Drag Society, he finally finds where he belongs--and the Black Flamingo is born
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#queer history#queer#lgbt#lgbt history#gay history#lesbian history#transgender history#transgender#making queer history
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wrightworth fake dating au
one day, phoenix gets a wedding invite in the mail from a family member. as he’s reading it, he realizes it’s from his least favorite aunt that he had beef with. he doesn’t see her often due to some comments she’s made about his bisexuality (she’s not overly rude or homophobic but the comments still don’t fly with his gay moms), but the encounters he’s had still leave a bitter taste in his mouth and his blood boiling. normally, he’d rsvp no, but he’s petty and desperate to show her up at her wedding to her third husband.
he decides the best way to do this is to propose to his gay lover at her wedding.
the only problem is that he doesn’t have a gay lover.
he’s going to have to fake date someone and make their relationship look real enough for a proposal to be believable. he comes to the realization that only one qualified enough… is miles.
it takes a lot to convince miles (he’s sure it’s a horrible plan and he has no clue why he’d agree to a deal where the only thing in it for him is more unnecessary feelings), but he eventually gives due to phoenix’s incessant begging.
since phoenix wants their fake relationship to be perfect, he has them go on fake dates (that are weirdly similar to the dinners they often go on) as well as go over the details of their “relationship” (they make it similar to their current friendship, just with them falling in love and getting together after phoenix gets his badge back). it took a lot of convincing for miles to agree to the proposal plan on top of the fake dating scheme, but he can’t win arguments with wright when he’s dead set on a crazy idea, so he begrudgingly gives in (as long as he gets to pick out the ring, because he doubts wright would pick a good enough ring for their fake engagement).
the day comes and the two are confident in their plan. the only problem could be wright’s moms, since he’s close to them and he’s not sure if they’d buy him not telling them about him being in a relationship. however, to their great surprise, they buy it pretty easily. one of them said she suspected it would happen sooner or later with how much phoenix talks about miles while the other assumed that they had been dating for years and just didn’t outwardly say it due to it being obvious (“i mean, i had a feeling you were in love with him after you confessed you wanted to go into law to help him after seeing him in the paper” -mrs. wright).
the wedding is fairly uneventful, and phoenix makes sure to show off his “partner” to everybody he interacts with, since he’s sure loudly and proudly being in love with another man at her wedding would piss of his aunt more (by the time the reception rolls around, miles is incredibly flustered despite the whole relationship being fake).
their proposal goes off without a hitch, and phoenix relishes in the furious look on his aunt’s face.
phoenix expects it to end after the wedding is over. after all, he and miles part ways after, and all he has is the memories and his intense feelings for his dear friend.
however, it does not, in fact, end there.
what phoenix didn’t know was that an old acquaintance was the plus one for one of his cousins. she saw the proposal and had to take a picture, confident that a story about the engagement between chief prosecutor miles edgeworth and defense attorney phoenix wright would be just the thing to really kick off her career.
turns out, lotta hart was very right, and phoenix and miles had to deal with their fake proposal being very public (as well as their friends being upset that they weren’t even told that the two were dating in the first place)
#ace attorney#ace attorney au#fake dating#miles edgeworth#phoenix wright#narumitsu#wrightworth#i love fake dating but due to one person being incredibly petty#so much potential me thinks#nick is relieved a murder doesn’t happen at the wedding but them BOOM!! news articles abt him and miles#wright feels bad and edgey regrets ever agreeing to wright’s plan#also i love fics when phoenix has two moms :D
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PROPAGANDA
Fitz-was abandoned by his mother at 5 (I know she wasn’t given a choice but from his POV,) was forced to sleep in the barn with the animals, wasn’t given an actual name so adopted shorthand for bastard to call himself, was dressed in drab ill fitting clothes and neglected deliberately so he wouldn’t attract attention, never met his father, was told by his grandfather at 9 that his choices were to be a spy and assassin or to die, was forced into killing by the time he was a preteen, was rejected and abused by his foster father when he realized he was Witted, lost 2 Wit partners before he even hit puberty and accidentally became overly enmeshed with his 3rd, was discriminated against for having the Wit in the first place, was terrorized and eventually tortured to death by his jealous uncle, had suicidal ideation magically imprinted on his brain by an abusive teacher who also damaged his ability to do magic, didn’t meet his first daughter until she was a teenager, had his body used to conceive his cousin without his full consent and could never tell him the truth, accidentally fucked up his psyche by removing too many of his emotions by magic and became a dick until they were returned 16 years later, returned to his childhood home posing as a servant and resurfacing all of his trauma over not feeling like a real member of his family, lost his deeply enmeshed Wit partner and refused to ever find another one, fell in love with his male best friend in an intensely homophobic society, lost said best friend in a terrible way while fulfilling his dying wish and saving the world, brought the best friend back only for him to break off their bond and leave, didn’t see him for 30 years, had a slow developing second daughter he struggled to bond with, became a single dad to a child he didn’t know how to properly care for, accidentally nearly killed his homoerotic best friend who was frail and had been tortured into insanity, his daughter was abducted by the evil magic eugenics cult that did it while he was trying to save the friend, went on a suicidal revenge quest against the magic eugenics cult, his daughter experienced horrific traumas during this time and was hardened into the Destroyer, nearly drowned on cult island, was infected by body destroying parasites that ate him from the inside out, died while being gawked at by everyone as he tried to transfer his consciousness into a stone wolf with his gay bestie
The Fool-raised by loving parents for his first 20 years before they inadvertently dropped him off with an abusive cult, was isolated and faced physical, emotional, and sexual abuse, had a substitute parent figure abandon him when she I longer found him useful, was forcibly held down and tattooed with a full back piece, sold himself into slavery in order to escape, had faced such extensive sexual abuse that he expected to be raped his first night in his new location, shunned by most people who see him as a “freak,” beaten by the kings favorite son and his friends, loses his father figure and his only friend/Catalyst for his life’s work in one night, reunites with his friend/Catalyst who he has fallen in love with but has no choice but to leave him for 15 years shortly after, upon reuniting with him his friend finds out about his love for him and angrily rejects it and is openly disgusted by his sexuality and gender presentation, he finds out through prophecy that he’s going to die horribly but he can’t avoid it if he’s going to fulfill his mission, he reconciles with the man he loves only days before his murder, he is flayed alive while having his memories stolen, he’s brought back from the dead against his will by his best friend, said friend then wants him to play third wheel while he gets back with his ex girlfriend, a former White Prophet who he respects tells him that he needs to leave his friend forever or risk undoing his work, the former White Prophet takes him back to cult island where he is tortured into insanity over the course of 20 years, he escapes and travels the world blind and crippled and and nearly dead to return to his friend, he finds out that he has a daughter he never knew, the daughter is kidnapped by the same people who harmed him as a child and an adult, he is forced to return there to possibly face unspeakable horrors to have a chance at saving her, spends the whole mission becoming increasingly depressed and withdrawn, foresees that the man he loves will not survive the rescue, loses the love of his life and is immediately rejected by his daughter, returns with nothing left to live for, ultimately chooses to essentially commit suicide to be with his love
Bee-believed to be “simple” due to her slow development for most of her childhood, rejected by her peers, cared for almost exclusively by her mother until her death when Bee was only 9, once it was determined she can in fact learn ended up with an abusive tutor, from her perspective was left behind by her father in favor of his old friend who he had a suspiciously close relationship with, was abducted by a representative from an evil cult who sacked her home, was surrounded by rapists while trying to pass as a boy, was regularly beaten into submission over the course of several months, believed that her father had rejected her and no one would come for her, went on a killing spree that included setting a woman on fire, realized she was a prophesied figure known as the Destroyer, saw her father appear to die, found out that she has a second father who is from the same race of people who took her and wants to make her the White Prophet, found out her father who raised her is still alive only to see him be eaten alive by parasites, saw her second father choose to die to be with him after she told him that her father loved him more than her, seemingly vindicating everything she said
#realm of the elderlings#rote#bee farseer#fitzchivalry farseer#the fool#honestly fitz has the longest list#but beloved had the fewest periods of happiness#and bee had the speed run where the really terrible things happened in a year#so it’s really hard to pick
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My Empyrean DR Script (that I will write on here, so that I actually finish it 😭)
Me
First Name: Sebastian
Middle Name: Fynn
Last Name: Riorson
Nickname(s): Seb; Sebby
Pronouns: He/Him
Species: Human
Age: 23
Description: Black hair (wolfcut)(I love wolfcuts, and I don’t care if it’s impractical, I MISS MY LONG HAIR); Olive skin (even though I’m as pale as the moon in my CR); Black eyes flecked with lighter brown; Lean, muscular body (I need to be in shape here or I will die, so luckily I’m in control of this and can script that I’m not a blob that lays on the couch every single day); Top and bottom surgery scars (you bet your ass I have those); Fully transitioned (love that testosterone); Huge black dragon relic covering my back; Rebellion relic covering my chest; Lots of scars all over my body
Positive Trait(s): Intelligent (I need to be able to not be a dipshit and die immediately); Clever (same thing); Good memory (say bye bye to all those days of dissociation and maladaptive daydreaming in my CR, now I will remember EVERYTHING there); Quiet (of course I’m quiet, have to keep up the mysterious act, plus I’m too overstimulated and socially awkward for this shit); Thoughtful (my mind is always stuffed); Nice (even though I’m quiet and don’t talk much, I am pretty nice when you talk to me first)
Negative Trait(s)(yes, I’m gonna script them, just to give myself some flavor): Trusting (making friends wise, always end up getting hurt or stabbed in the back, literally and figuratively)
Dragon Type: Black Morningstartail (I JUST LOVED TAIRN SO MUCH, I HAD TO MAKE THE DRAGON I’M BONDED TO A BLACK MORNINGSTARTAIL TOO)
Dragon Name: Aodhan (do we know how to pronounce his name here? no. will we script that we do know it? yes)
Signet Power(s): Time Manipulation (can go back in time) and Reality Manipulation (can make my imagination real life)
Weapon(s): Daggers and Swords (I love me some sharp things)
Parent(s): None (dead)(it’s literal canon that Xaden’s parents died[along with all the other parents that were part of the rebellion]so yeah)
Sibling(s): Xaden Riorson; Liam Mairi (adoptive brother)
Other Family Member(s): Brodhi Durran (cousin)
Best Friend(s): Xaden Riorson (I’m besties with my brother, I know, I can do that); Liam Mairi (same thing); Violet Sorrengail (I’m the one who ends up being the body guard for her, not Liam); Brodhi Durran (I love my family); Ridoc Gamlyn (I adore him, it’s gonna be interesting all the talks we will have [I am scared that most of them will be about sex he had or people that he likes, help me]); Heaton (I love my non-binary pals); Garrick Tavis
Friend(s): Imogen Cardulo (I love her hair); Rhiannon Matthias (bisexual queen, go girl)
Partner(s): None (I am single forever, thank the almighty gays)
Gender Identity: TransGuy
Romantic Orientation: Aromantic
Sexual Orientation: Asexual
Other Orientation(s): Ambiamorous; Panalterous; Panaesthetic
Extra Fact(s): Liam does not die (I was sobbing when it happened); Homework is effortless and easy always (I don’t want to work too hard or make it take up so much time); I am a skilled painter/artist (something to do when I’m not doing homework, have training, have secret rebellion meetings with Xaden and the rest, or guarding Violet); I wear ear plugs a lot of the time (because I’m overstimulated a lot, but I still manage); Probably have some anxiety and PTSD (not that I don’t have anxiety already and probably have some form of PTSD here-); I keep my head easily (no panicking for me, though, even though I know, realistically, that contrasts with the anxiety, but I want to live and also have my sparkle at the same time); I know how to pronounce Aodhan’s name perfectly; Garrick and Imogen are together (Imogen needs her love too); I cannot die; None of my best friends or friends can die; Xaden, Liam, and Brodhi cannot die
Specific Affirmations For This DR: “I am with Aodhan”; “I am Xaden’s brother”; “I am in Basgiath College”; “I am in my dorm room”; “I am training with Ridoc”
Safe Word/Phrase: “Put the lime in the coconut and shake it all up.” (don’t ask)
Me in this DR (Picrew Form):
Probably will add to this more. Maybe will post some individual scenarios for this DR.
#cosmoposts#marsposts#marsrambles#cosmorambles#shifting community#reality shifting#shiftblr#reality shifting community#shifting realities#reality shifter#shifter#reality shift#empyrean dr#fourth wing dr#iron flame dr#shifting blog#shifting thoughts#shifting script#dr script#dr scripting#desired reality#shifting#shifting antis dni#shift#shifters#shifting reality#shifting diary#shifting consciousness#reality shifting blog#reality shifting diary
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tw/ heavy talks of homophobia
"Hey, looking good, where are you heading?" Sirius commented as James walked into his living room. Sirius came round to help Regulus with something he needed to do for work. Sirius and Regulus are surrounded by books, contracts and general mess as James uses the mirror above the fireplace to take off his jellewery, leaving it on the mantlepiece in-front of him.
"Oh my cousins getting married, i'm leaving soon,"
"Soon, it's barely ten am!" Sirius exclaimed.
"Indian weddings are like all day events,"
So, James hadn't been looking forward for this wedding. It wasn't that he didn't like his extended family, he does. He gets on alright with them. His parents were going to be there, and he gets on well with his cousin, the one getting married. It's just... some of the older members of his family.
He's avoided telling Regulus about it for a particular reason
"A wedding? Why didn't you tell me, I haven't prepared anything, when do you leave?" Regulus asked, taking his nose out of a book.
"My parents are picking me up in roughly half an hour..." James was really trying to avoid this conversation.
"You haven't mentioned this to me, how long have you known about this?" Sirius asked. despite the length Regulus and Sirius has lived at the Potters, they never really met much of James' extended family. A lot of them don't live in England, and the ones who do, don't speak great English. James has always been able to communicate to them, as English wasn't his first language. It wasn't even his second. Barely his third... But his parents thought it might be for the best they don't meet. So they only ever met a handful of them, majority of being on his dad's side. Regulus nor Sirius ever asked about it.
The point was that, Regulus and Sirius didn't know his family very well. If they went to this wedding, they would be completely out of place, and James isn't sure how much they'd enjoy it. He isn't sure he's going to enjoy it.
"I want to say a month, I haven't really been thinking about it," James said loosely as he walked out the room briefly, coming back in with his sherwani, the jacket which went with his outfit.
"A month? Why haven't you told me... what can I do with twenty minutes?" James and Regulus had been to weddings together before, if they ever have a plus one on an invite, it's always them.
Which is what the issue lies in...
"Yeah, that's why I haven't told you... you're not exactly coming," James said, knowing that would be better than umming and erring.
"What? Why?" Regulus didn't sound hurt or offended, he sounded confused.
"Cause I didn't get a plus one on my invite," James started to button up his sherwani, as he leaned against the arm chair facing the couch which Sirius and Regulus were on. Work completely forgotten.
"Oh..." is all Regulus said.
"Why didn't you get a plus one? Has no one else got a plus one?" Sirius pushed.
"No, Indian weddings don't really work like that..." James didn't want to have this conversation, he just wanted today to be over with. "I called my cousin about it but they said it was final, I asked about that and they people did, but it didn't 'work out' for me... I don't plan on staying that long anyway, so I just left it at that,"
"Well, you should have pushed it, surely if you explained that you wanted your boyfriend there they would understand," Sirius pushed, sitting on the edge of the couch now.
"I... kind of don't" James said, immediately back tracking when regulus does pull an offended look, "It's not you, I would love you to be there it's just..."
"It's just what, James? Why don't you want me there?" Regulus spat, filling the air with tension.
"It's my extended family... they don't... love the fact I'm gay," James admitted and the air radiating of Regulus cooled, "It's just... my family is very religious, which you guys know from my parents but they also come from apart of the world which is still living with out of date ideologies... gay marriage isn't even legal there yet, and only in the past five years have being gay been decriminalized..."
Horror and shock paint Sirius and Regulus' face as James speaks.
"I've never intended for them to know, it was easier that way, especially as they didn't love my way of live before... not being a doctor or following down an academic job, so every time I saw them it was a lot 'why you not a doctor yet?' or being compared to my cousins, which is normal in Asian families, I mean my dad's parents are Vitaminise, along with all their family, so it's disappointment from both ends, you know,"
James took a deep breath, letting them catch up.
"If you never told them, how did they find out?" Sirius asked innocently.
"Because my mum told my aunt, and it spread like wildfire... she told her a couple of months after I came out to her, you remember how long it took for my parents to get comfortable with it... they're fine with it now... but I know my extended family, and now every event since has been filled with weird looks, side comments and my Nani asking me 'when will I meet a fine lady'... just worded differently in Urdu..."
"So they didn't give you a plus one because..." Regulus started, but James finished Regulus' sentence.
"Because they didn't want me bringing a man as a date to the wedding? Yeah... it's a sort of tell not show sort of thing in my family... I'm the only open gay person in my family, and I didn't even come out on my terms... the point is you wouldn't have a good time at this wedding, homophobic family members and large get togethers don't mix well, and you don't have to be subjected to that, as I said before I don't plan on staying long,"
As James finished speaking, there was a honk from a parked gold Honda from outside their house.
"If they're being horrible to you about this, you shouldn't go James... that's unfair on you," Sirius said, as James slid on his sandals.
"It's fine, my parents want me to go, plus being a first cousin makes me in the bridal party for the groom, I'm my cousins best man... the wedding doesn't even started till one pm, I have four hours of mehndi and meeting my cousins soon to be in laws ahead of before the ceremony even begins... it'll make it worse if I don't go,"
Regulus nods, Sirius has a look of defiance on his face but James ignores it.
"Well, come home as soon if they're making you uncomfortable,"
James plants a strong kiss on Regulus' lips and leaves for the longest wedding of his life.
#this is kind of a character study into james#look no family is perfect and it makes james a bland character if people lump him with the idea of a perfect pristine family#its unfortuanalty common for homphobia in asian familues#btw the stats i put in this are accurate#but james is commonly headcannoned as desi so it's interesting concept to look into#i did research into indian fashion and weddings and the traditions but if i said anything wrong or inaccurate that's on me#back to my first point#no parents are perfect and it kind of makes james family boring and takes depth away with his characther as a whole#which isn't fun#also i'm not saying homophobia is 'interesting' im just saying as desi james is such a commen hc it's something to look into#james potter#maurder era#regulus black#jegulus#starchaser#sunseeker#jsp- marauder era#sirius black#james potter microfic#regulus black micriofic#sirius black mircrofic#marauders era#incorrect marauders quotes#harry potter marauders#marauders#marauders fandom#the marauders#marauders microfic#the black brothers#james sunshine potter microfic
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I realized Kyle is like 90% of my family OMG. Pls I've heard my uncle say this "times" were horrible because there were a lot of "openly gay people" in his workplace and it would be better that it stayed hidden or in "closed doors" JSJGSJSKSKK
Yeah I used to feel bad about these comments, but idk if it's about growing up or just having people that really accept me incondicionally, but they are just funny and a bit pathetic now, especially when they try to justify it by saying they grew up in a different place. Like, my friends know I'm bi and even if two of them grew up on a super religious space, they've never said anything rude and always accepted me. Yeah, they all make jokes about it (not in a rude way) the same way I make jokes about them being straight.
But boy are the conversations on family funny JSHSJSKKS. I also heard that Disney should stick to being entrainment and not try to push any "agenda" or teach people anything... sir wtf??? And they always call queer people derogatory words and then say they're not slurs, and they can say whatever they want?? Istg I don't fucking care who I end up marrying with, they are NOT invited to the wedding and everyone in my family can me mad about it idc😤
Anyway, the point it that I was reading Kincaid interactions with Kyle and I felt so bad for him and also because Victoria excuses his behavior saying he loves him and just wants what's best for him. And, even if it's true, it doesn't excuse treating your son like that or constantly making remarks about his dating life, basically forcing him to go on a date and making him feel bad on purpose about not being engaged
It's kinda the same situation one of my cousins lives through, bc she's bi and her parents wouldn't accept that. I still don't like her because she fucking sniched on me😤, and told the rest of my family I liked girls and I found out thats why they never ask me if I have a boyfriend like they did with the rest of my cousins and my sister. Because they don't wanna know if I do🙄. Like I expected that from everyone else, BUT HER? BEING BI?? I expected some solidarity, come on!! We talked and bonded over similar queer experiences and then she throws me under the bus??? And everyone in my family apparently knows about me already but they ignore it as if it can go away one day and they never say anything, but still make those stupid comments in front of me on purpose😤
I should get an award for not saying all the things I could because if I said every (amazing) comment or reply I have on the tip of my tongue, I would probably be kicked out lmao.
Okey, my bad. I just get really pissed off at them sometimes. Really will be living my best life when I can decide not to spend more time with them 😍.
Okay but same with my family members and I am ready to fight them all 😤😤😤
The way we talk about homophobia and hate crime from the world and society and most of us mainly have to deal with it from our families (directly or indirectly)
Fuck these people. It's just a very sorry way to live their life.
And yes DO NOT be afraid to walk away from toxic family members (if that is something you can do and want to do).
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Got any head canons For Kakashi's relationship with Gai's parents in his teacher lifetime? I ask for that one specifically because technically, that is the only life time Gai he introduces God Kakashi to his parents as his actual boyfriend! In his first and third lives, he may have met Dai but he was introduced as a childhood friend. In his forth to sixth the parents all died before he met Gai (or in 4th's case with knight Gai, he onlybhad that one night and he wasn't going to use it asking about his mums!). In the seventh life he met travelor mum before he met Gai (hilarious), so he never introduced her, and in the lifetime after this, they are introduced as childhood friends.(we don't talk about 2nd Gai's parents 😒)
But Teacher Gai has the rare opportunity of getting to Date Kakashi right away. And as such his parents get the honor of meeting Gai their son's boyfriend! Do they approve right away? Do they ask personal questions. Are they excited when they learn he's also trans because they know Gai is dating someone who truly understands him (or if Gai only started transitioning lately, maybe he can help him with some new things!)? Are they a little disappointed at no grandchildren but love the 8 dog babies? Do they share Gai's enthusiasm over history? Do they ever catch on to his godhood before Gai XD;
I just love the idea of Kakashi having to earn parents approval (but getting it right away). And then some happy inlaw shenanigans happening. Maybe they ask to meet his dad/ siblings too...which might be hilarious in its own right XD.
Obito: Why do I have to wear a suit for this?
Kakashi: Because if my inlaws think for one second I'm shabby because of you- I WILL END YOU!
Sakumo: It's been so long since we've all been together 🥲.
Sister/gender queer sibling (whose name I forgot. Sorry): I can't wait to tell every single one of Kakashi's embarrassing childhood stories to Gai's entire family tree. 😈
(Kakashi getting invited to family get togethers and meeting grandparents, aunts, uncles cousins~ maybe siblings! A HUGE loving family for Gai ♡)
I think he’d get along well with them, and not just because Gai wouldn’t stop gushing about him for years before they actually got together XD
Kakashi is sweet, respectful, attentive, and really reigning in that arrogant attitude so he doesn’t give a bad impression. He’s not as open and excitable as Gai made him seem, but that’s because they’re newz
He’ll get there.
I’d say he has the best relationship with the other family members cuz dude has an ‘old soul’ (if only they knew the truth XD) and loves to talk about history and all of the festivals and beliefs of the village.
Gai’s siblings and cousin’s also start offering their help at the farm, so Kakashi ends up with with even more vegetables over the years as more and more people help him, meaning the villsge (and choji) get more
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today was the day my grandpa retired. he came into work, sat in the break room and talked to everybody who wanted to say goodbye at work all day. he got to see this one regular shopper who always brought her dog, he got to pet her (and so did i, eventually). me and my grandma got there at about 2:30 or so, and stayed until about 4, which is when he got clapped out. i swear, every fucking employee in the company was there, and we all clapped as he passed by. it's weird to say about my goddamn grandpa, but i felt proud of him in that moment. then we went to the bar that they planned his retirement party at. turned out to be a gay bar, which they didn't know when they planned it, but they didn't have a problem with it either. was nice to have a bar i could feel comfortable wearing my pride pins at.
the party felt a bit rough on my end, at the start. shit got crowded quick, and for the first little while they kept sending me out to the car to get one little thing they forgot. but, i got some food in me (which was mostly pretty damn good), and then i started talking to my mom, which led to talking to family members i either hadn't seen for a while or hadn't met at all, which turned out nice. i played darts with someone who turned out to be my little cousin, little gremlin thing was only 14. i had to stop her from getting tetanus, apparently earlier in the month she decided to grab a motherfucking snapping turtle, frankly amazed she's still in one piece. her grandfather was the man who took me to shoot for the first time, so goddamn many years ago. my mom asked him about something gun related and his response gave me the bittersweet revelation that in terms of technical information, i've surpassed him in the intervening years. i can guarantee he's still a better shot than me though, given just a relative lack of experience on my end.
at first i only drank water because the only non-alcoholic drinks the barkeep said she had were non-alcoholic beer and coke products, and given the current boycott i'm trying my best to steer clear from coke products. then my little cousin mentioned she wanted a daiquiri, and apparently they had them available so i got one too (or first, rather, just by sheer luck of the draw). virgin, of course, just like i used to get when i was a little kid. one of the many things that felt nostalgic tonight. karaoke had started, and i saw my grandparents dancing together to a love song, and i felt like crying. it was through a window, but i saw a very special moment. a part of me was envious, for what they have. i'd never tell them that, though.
eventually, the crowd that came for the party started clearing out, and there were a few unrelated people who just came for the karaoke. one was a beautiful woman with an even more beautiful singing voice. my mom really hit it off with her after she sang, though i couldn't hear a word they said due to how loud the music was. the same could be said of my grandparents talking right next to me. i was resting my arm on my grandma's chair, and i felt it wobble from being a bit uneven. i decided to wiggle the chair a bit, which got a smile out of her. something else i remember from earlier was that i talked to my uncle. a bit about him:
he's my grandma's adopted little brother. i mention that he's adopted because he's native. don't know what tribe or anything, he's never mentioned it and frankly, given how he taught us kids words in "indian" i'm not entirely sure he knew either. again, adopted. in terms of raising him my great grandparents did about as good a job as white people living in the 1970s coulda done, frankly. because of that bleeding over into how my grandparents and how my mother raised me, i'd like to think i have a fairly healthy amount of respect and interest in indigenous cultures the world over; especially for somebody whiter than a cracker. so because of him, i don't think i'd be as good a person as i am today without his impact in a somewhat roundabout way, given how we were never the closest or anything. maybe when i was a lot younger, but the years have definitely gone on. and my only regret is that i feel like i can't really communicate how him and his son have impacted who i am as a person.
regardless, i talked with him for a bit. he asked what i was doing with my life, and i mentioned that i've been planning on getting my CDL and becoming a truck driver. he was also a truck driver before he somewhat recently retired, so he gave me a lot of advice, what to expect, what to look for, so on. he mentioned that the biggest downside to trucking is that it gets real lonely, and i said that was fine by me because i'm already a lonely person. he responded saying that it'd be the perfect job for me, then, and empathized with me when i mentioned how shitty that grocery job was. the conversation trailed off after his son, my cousin, came back after paying their bill. he was there with his girlfriend, who started talking about how she wanted to punch the owner dude for how he treated the barkeep lady. i just sorta slinked off from there
a few highlights and notable occurrences of today include: me and my grandma going to the car to be there for my grandpa while it was pouring goddamn buckets, like seriously just a little bit earlier the weather got bad enough that we thought somebody tried to bust open the door at first. being up at the bar with my mom and some guy mentioning that i looked like some guy from the smashing pumpkins(?), with both him and my mom being amazed that i didn't know who they were. he got especially amazed when i mentioned that she was my mom, he just sorta thought we were friends. he pulled up a picture of the guy on his phone and i did see the resemblance in the sense that he was a bald guy with a wide facial structure. one of my relatives i hadn't met before (at least, to my own recollection) wanted to see my eyes, because she wanted to see if i got them from my grandpa. his are blue, mine are hazel. regardless, she said i had beautiful eyes and an even more beautiful smile. really lit up my night, especially after my grandpa mentioned that i usually have beautiful hair too. also led to me having a conversation with the gun grandpa relative guy about how when i was a lot younger, i had my hair a bit longer once and then an old lady i held open a door for called me a "nice young lady" and i immediately shaved it, which he mentioned how he used to be a hippie dude which then went into a whole thing about him struggling with alcoholism and such. after the whole conversation topic had essentially run its course, i mentioned how growing up with my mom i heard a lot about the shit that addiction had done to our family, so i've made sure to never start anything, and i couldn't quite get a read on it but he seemed a bit proud.
at one point my mom was doing karaoke, this was later on in the night. she was doing green day, and she was just bad. had no sense for the flow of the words, no real tune to it, just god awful, it was great. she gestured for me to come up and sing with her, which i denied vehemently, mostly because i knew the song wasn't suited to my voice at all. which, to be fair, it wasn't suited for hers, either, but i actually cared about sounding good. i remembered how many years ago, she told me how much i sucked at singing, and it really hurt my little kid ego. then, a few years back now, back when i had a friend group they all agreed that i had a pretty good singing voice. so when i went up for karaoke, i felt pretty confident in sounding at least decent, albeit anxiety ridden as all hell.
here's the thing about my singing voice. it's not really suited for most of the music i'm really into, much less shit like modern-ish pop or rock or anything like that. i think it's unequivocally best suited for oldies, especially shit like sinatra. so, that's what i went with, and put in blue moon. i had songs from new vegas on the mind, since earlier the guy running the karaoke equipment sang why don't you do right from it presumably to fill the gaps between actual customers wanting to sing. and god dammit, when i got up and grabbed the microphone i was fucking shaking, especially my legs. i was anxious, because i wasn't sure if i was gonna turn out well, and to my relief i did. something i think was one of my better points was my rhythm/timing, i can't say i know the words by heart but i do know the way they're sung deep in my bones. i kept my eyes glued to the lyric screen until the first break in the song, and then i looked at the "crowd" (which, wasn't very many people but still). they all seemed to be genuinely enjoying it, and not at my expense either. something else i'm particularly proud of is how i'd occasionally misspeak (missing?) e.g. saying "flew moon" instead of "blue moon", but i managed to stay almost perfectly in sync with how the song's supposed to go without stopping and going "ah shit", y'know. i definitely know it's an important skill in live performances to be able to just keep on going even if you fuck up, so i'm definitely pretty happy about that.
afterwards i got applause. and like, i had been there for the night, i could definitely tell the polite applause from the "oh shit that was good" applause y'know. i didn't get as much hype as the lady who was an actually good singer, but i could tell that i did a pretty good job. my mom said that i did really good too, and both her and my grandpa congratulated me on having the balls to actually get up there and sing because they know how i am. afterwards my grandpa said he was genuinely impressed, and i know for a fact he'd let it be known that i did a shitty job if i did a shitty job, so that meant a lot. it was, in fact, my first time ever singing karaoke, so despite not being The Best tonight we're all definitely happy with how it turned out. that felt really nice.
it's bittersweet, seeing that he's finally done with this fucking job. he literally had number 1 seniority in the entire company, and this isn't a small company. it's mostly local, but it's big enough that there are a few stores in places like chicago. all of the people he worked with clearly loved him, and i'm glad that i have a grandpa worth being considered "the best boss i've ever had" by so many goddamn people. we had people who he hadn't even worked with in years, who moved to other jobs or other stores, they all came just to show how much they loved him. i'm glad he's so loved, i love him too. i just hope he doesn't go fucking insane from being home so damn much. tonight was a good night
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Akuma Park AU
This AU is from @le-chiggin-nuggie, and I wanted to add my headcanons to the AU. Hope everyone enjoys
Kagami - Stan
Quote - Sometimes I think our parents are really stupid
The only one that could be considered normal. Often time serves as the only sane one of the group. She can get pretty cynical on a bad day. Very mature for her age.
Moved to France from Japan when she was in preschool. Frequently insulted by Chloe for being Japanese. Kagami knows that she would kick Chloe’s ass, though.
Her and Marinette are best friends, with a relationship that borders on romantic.
Constantly has to deal with the antics of her blind mother, Tomoe.
Marinette - Kyle
Quote - You know, I’ve learned something today
The smartest one of the gang. Always wants to do the right thing, but can be insufferable about it at times.
Hates Chloe for being a rich brat and for being racist to her. If Chloe is suffering, Marinette is smiling.
She will be angered very easily, especially if Chloe’s involved. Her elaborate plans to be proven right rarely work out.
Cannot dance to save her life, a total klutz
Chloe - Cartman
Quote - Screw you girls, I’m going home!
The meanest kid in school. Chloe’s a spoiled brat who spends her days being horrible to other kids. Kagami, Marinette, and Juleka barely think of her as a “friend”.
Walks all over her father, the mayor of the small town.
Bigoted in every sense of the word. Mocks Kagami and Marinette for being Asian, Juleka for being gay and poor, and that’s just the kids in her group.
Lila Rossi scammed her and she retaliated by having Lila’s mother killed, and putting her remains into a bowl of Lila’s chili.
Juleka - Kenny
Quote - *incoherent mumbling*
The quiet one of the group. A goth who’s words are muffled by her purple parka. The only ones who understand what she’s saying are the other members of the gang, and her girlfriend Rose.
Whenever an Akuma attacks, Juleka is killed in battle. Yet somehow she always shows up the next day and is completely fine.
Made fun of by Chloe for her family being extremely poor. Her father abandoned them and her mother talks like a pirate.
Despite her shy demeanor, Juleka’s the most foul-mouthed out of the gang, she swears like a sailor.
I got some other characters in mind
Rose as Butters
Marc as Tweek and Nathaniel as Craig ( @artzychic27 cast them as these two before)
Kim as Clyde
Sabrina as Scott Malkinson
Adrien as Heidi
Lila as Scott Tenorman
Socqueline as Cousin Kyle
Miss Mendeleiev as Mr. Garrison
Miss Bustier as Ms. Choksondik
Principal Damocles as Mr. Mackey
What do you guys think? Lemme know in reblogs and replies.
#kagami tsurugi#kagami#marinette dupain cheng#marinette#chloe bourgeois#chloe#juleka couffaine#juleka#rose lavillant#rose
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Struggling with some information my mom told me that I didn’t want to know. If you don’t know, I stopped talking to a majority of the extended family from my dad’s side over a year ago. My mom told me a couple days ago about how one of my aunts & one of my cousins that didn’t approve of me being a lesbian have done these amazing things for LGBTQ+ people in their lives so maybe I should reconsider talking to them. I told her it just means that they’re fine with it as long as it’s not someone in the family or else they would’ve apologized to me for what they have said to me. I don’t remember the nice act my aunt did, but apparently my cousin went as far as to marry her lesbian friends & is telling everyone who will listen & is acting like it makes her an ally now. When 2-3 years ago, she sent me homophobic text messages & made me feel horrible about myself & told me she didn’t want me to be part of her life anymore. Which I was shocked she felt that way then since I grew up knowing one of her best friends was gay. Although, she has dropped him since her other best friend from childhood is a strong republican influencer & we all know how that can go. I’ve told my mom & Grammy that I don’t want to hear about what’s going on with the people in the family that I don’t talk to because it honestly just makes me more upset. I’m sitting here crying because I’m therapy I talked about how upset this makes me & I just don’t understand why I have family members that think they need to rub it in that I’m not accepted by others or keep me updated on others that I literally don’t care about anymore. What would you do in this situation?
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#26.
Do you have a large dog? If not, are you afraid of them? No, and it depends on the dog.
Has anyone ever told you that they loved you, and you didn’t say it back? No.
Who is your favorite photographer? No idea.
Were you shy in high school? Somewhat.
Did the last guy/girl you kissed have any piercings? Yes, my boyfriend has an earring.
Do you actually love your parents? Yes.
Do you know anyone autistic? Not that I know of.
Do you like your girlfriend’s/boyfriend’s parents? Unfortunately, both of them have passed away so I'll never get to meet them.
Do you like Polaroid photography? Not really.
Who was the last family member of yours that died? My Grandma.
Do you have any gay family members? Yes, one of my cousins. I'm also bisexual myself lol.
Would you be upset if you caught your boyfriend looking at porn? No lol, I watch it too xD
What is your favorite type of cat? Any, cats are adorable.
Who of the opposite sex has seen you at your worst? My boyfriend... and my Dad.
Were you raised by someone other than your parents? No.
What’s the last chore you did? Just cleaning up in general.
What is your favorite jungle animal? Dunno.
Is your father injured? No.
Are you part Native American? No.
What are your pets’ names? -
Have you ever worked two jobs? No.
What are the names of all the dogs you’ve ever owned? I've never owned a dog.
Would you ever get a face tattoo? God no.
Who in life have you felt the strongest need to protect? Dunno.
What is the cruelest thing a person has ever said to you? That I looked retarded.
Who have you most feared in your life? Dunno.
What is your strongest reason for your opinion on abortion? I dont want kids, so I always want the option if I accidentally get pregnant.
What one natural thing would you most like to see? Hmm.
Do you like the game Tetris? Sure.
What’s the most rebellious thing you’ve ever done? Oh, don't ask, I'll get in trouble.
Have you ever wanted to be a model? No.
Do you like your name how it’s spelled? Yes, it's the proper way :P I don't like when they add all the extra letters to it, like H and A and that.
Who was your first online friend? Zoe, probably. Not the Zoe I knew in NZ, she was from the UK and was a Blue fan - we met on a Blue fansite haha. We were friends for years! I wonder what she's doing these days.
Your last ex: how did you two get together? We were set up by friends of ours.
Does your mom dye her hair? Yep, her hair is currently like a pinkish red xD I get my love of dying my hair from her.
What’s the best kind of video game? (Adventure, shooting, etc) I love Pokémon, adventure games, strategy games and those 'choices matter' games, plus games like Cyberpunk 2077 & LA Noire that is open world but has a storyline to follow.
Do you know anyone who has road rage? One of my friends lol, he swears constantly when he drives, we get into a small traffic jam and he's like "GET OUT MY WAY CUNT!" out the window lmao.
Have you ever had a controlling boyfriend/girlfriend? No.
Have you ever tried to break up anyone because YOU liked the guy/girl? I don't do shit like that. I have had a crush on a friend's boyfriend before but I kept it to myself and didn't do anything about it cos I'm not an asshole.
Do you draw fanart of anything? No.
What was the last music video you watched? Did you like it? I watched Ladies Night by Atomic Kitten cos it's one of my faves and I hadn't seen it in ages.
What’s a condition you have that you haven’t been officially diagnosed with? Dunno.
Which one of your parents do you think is smarter? My Dad. My Mum is smart, but I think my Dad outdoes her.
Have you ever supported anyone’s Kickstarter? If so, what was it? Yes, I'm currently backing a Kickstarter for a Broken Sword remake! I can't wait to get my bonuses for it.
What band has the power to make you cry by splitting up? None of them, cos they've all split up and got back together so I'm used to it.
Would you feel funny if you kissed somebody of the same sex? No.
Can grills be sexy on a guy? No.
What’s your favorite comic book/graphic novel? That's not really my thing.
Do you prefer original or sour Skittles? I like both.
Do you find it easy to pass the time or do you get really bored? Depends.
Have you ever been in a Catholic confessional? No.
Who was the last non-relative you rode in a vehicle with? My boyfriend.
What was the title of the last song you listened to? "Bad Kind Of Butterflies" (by Camila Cabello)
Who is the lead singer of your favorite band? They're all the lead singer.
Do you expect to be married in the next 2 years? No.
Have you ever had an allergic reaction to an insect? No.
Who IMed you on Facebook last? My friend.
Is there an item that you bought on a whim, but now consider it a crucial part of your life and you would or have purchased it again? TBH, I decided out of the blue I wanted a FitBit and now I can't live without mine.
What flags do you have in your room, if any? None.
What was the last thing you ate? A banana.
What kind of natural disaster is most common where you live? Tornados.
Do you or your parents rake your yard? We don't have a yard.
If you’re not straight, who was the first person you came out to? Friends online.
What do you think of the ‘Healthy At Every Size’ movement/philosophy? It's stupid.
Where did you meet the last person you swapped numbers with? Work.
Who was the last person to add you as a friend on Facebook? Some random.
Did you enjoy high school? Yes, mostly.
What’s an unusual food combination you like? Hmm, not sure.
What’s the longest stretch of time you’ve spent completely alone? A few days over New Year's once, my Mum went to stay with my Grandma and I stayed at home, I didn't even go out lol.
Did your parents allow you to drink soda when you were a kid? Yes, but only on occasion.
Did you ever go through an emo or goth phase? No.
How many times have you stayed at a hotel in the past year, and where? None.
Do you take a walk every day? I try to.
Who was your favourite musical artist when you were 15? Do you still listen to them? Blue and Girls Aloud, and yep still a huge fan of them!
When was the last time you ate at a food court and what did you get? Last week, I had KFC haha.
How do you like your eggs cooked? Poached or fried.
What’s your favourite place to go on vacation? The USA, but I haven't been since 2019. Thanks Covid.
Have you ever done your own compost? No.
Would you ever get a tattoo on your hand or foot? Nah.
Do you open your doors and windows on warm days? Windows, yes. I feel like I'm suffocating in the warmer weather with them closed.
Are the blinds/curtains in the room open or closed right now? Open.
Were you mean to anyone in high school? No.
Have you ever accidentally started a fire? No, the closest I got was doing popcorn in the microwave and it exploded lol.
What is the last note you edited in your phone’s notes app? My shopping list of things I need to get.
Who is your favourite coworker? You can tell me about one from your past if you don’t have one right now. Hmm, probably Elaine, she's an older woman who is at the next desk to me when I do data entry. She's hilarious, she bakes a lot and always shares with me and doesn't mind swapping shifts with me - this week I wanted Monday off so she switched with me, I took her Friday shift and she took Monday.
Do you know anyone who’s adopted a child? No.
What was the last video game or board game you purchased? I bought a bunch off Steam a bit back.
Are any of your siblings taller than you? -
Name a song that reminds you of a past relationship: Hmm.
Have you ever seen a building on fire in real life? Yes, I remember in our last house, one of the houses down the street caught on fire and completely burnt down.
Have you kissed anyone and their first name started with an F, D, or L? Yes.
Have you ever been in therapy for anything? No.
Is there any part of your sexual/romantic history that you have not told your current significant other about or that you will not tell future partners about? No, my boyfriend knows everything.
Have you ever developed feelings for someone whose sexual orientation was incompatible with yours? Yes. One of my friends is sooooo damn hot, but he swings the other way lol.
How many relationships have you been in that actually got sexual? Most of them.
Who performs the most random acts of kindness out of everyone you know? Lynnette probably.
Who’s the most romantic person you ever went out with? My boyfriend.
Last person to tell you that you smell good? My boyfriend xD
Last person you told that they smell good? See above haha.
Who did you have your first kiss with? Do you remember what colour his/her eyes were? His name was Cameron, and I think they were blue but I'm not sure.
Which edible flowers have you tasted? None.
What was the last video you added to your favorites on YouTube? Not sure.
Do any of your family members have an upcoming birthday? Yep.
Is your favorite animal endangered? No, it's cats xD
What is the middle name of the last person you texted? Daniel.
Have you ever come close to drowning? No.
What’s the cutest thing your S/O does, but denies it’s cute in any way? He pouts, and then denies he pouts LOL.
Have you ever dined alone at a restaurant? Not a proper restaurant but at like cafes and stuff, yeah.
Have you ever changed in front of the last person you kissed? Yes.
Have you experienced any severe side effects of medications? Yes - I took antibiotics a few years ago and they gave me a super bad rash and diarrhoea. Found out I'm allergic to that kind!
Have you ever had a big YouTuber reply to a comment you left on their video? Yep.
Have you ever given a lap dance? Yes, as a joke xD
Do a lot of people tell you that you are funny? Not a lot, but on occasion people have said I am haha.
Have you gone to a tanning bed lately? No.
What did you do on the Fourth of July? I'm not American.
Do you have nice legs? I like to think so. I have a short torso so I'm mostly leg haha.
Have you ever been to Ohio? No.
Do you like The Goonies? Never seen it.
Do you prefer hardly toasted at all or burnt toast? Not burnt, but very toasted.
Do you have any unusual skills? Depends what you consider 'unusual'.
Do you have any bug bites right now? No.
Is there anything annoying you at the moment? Yes. I had caffeine in my Starbucks and now it's making me weird lol, I keep forgetting to ask them not to add any.
Are there any forms of art you personally find pointless? Nah, some of it isn't my thing but it means a lot to other people.
Do you have any projects on the go right now? No.
Are you a hat person? On occasion.
Has anyone ever approached you in the street and asked to take your picture? No haha.
What song’s stuck in your head? Cody Rhodes' entrance theme cos he was on SD earlier and it was playing for awhile haha.
Do your feelings get hurt easily? Not really.
Have you ever seen a cougar in the wild? No.
When was the last time you took a selfie? The other day.
Do you have any nieces or nephews? No.
Do you have a good relationship with your cousins? i don't see them much, but we did get along.
Are there any upcoming events for you to look forward to? Sure.
How many siblings does your significant other have? He has two brothers.
Have you ever done three or more shots in a row? Not in a row xD
What was the last zoo you visited? I think the one in Washington DC.
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Wed 6:50 PM
https://www.tube.com/watch?v=dvcu8Q7g6Is grapes of wrath was this him in their family. donna's lying husband "disappeared" give me shit money land, her mom got up once and gave her it
10 Best Scariest But Underrated Horror Movies of 2023
fuck yea!!
https://www.tube.com/shorts/tJ0i42-KvNY ffucked her
Las Vegas man who attacked judge returns to courtroom for encing
donna hiner my moms "cousin" hip replacement
a restuarant once they kept saying it
and stalking them
cooked too
me bad im fucking anyways
kenan thompson yea heard it right thats kenan thompson
now attack her make her her mother
and hers too bye mallory!
then exorcist attacked
and is her mother
with kenan
https://www.tube.com/watch?v=G5opaCdxjdE she fucked all of them
The Brutality Of PIGGY
her family members, descendents
it shows who
that is grapes of wrath guy swimming with her
they will go up to fuck any guy, piggy girls do
hipster guys ed the araea
what fat ass wives started to die
they are inbreds
and had kids
then too
with them too
i dunno i had some fat wife i dont remmeber
and they hide them
in areas behind them
rivers
where ever
mountain
know where too
and now they can come in and have r shit. i said it they did it-piggy
now get out
had 8 boys with her, married 8 of her inbred boys
her adughter who lived with her
she lost 50lbs in 3 days
guys will kidnap them to have 8 of his girls at once again, van scene
and the guy at 10:42 they all looked like that ng when they did it
i got 8 girls. now.
michael kelso
https://www.tube.com/watch?v=xunRY4end80 they cut their tits off over and over again
The Brutality Of FEED
and inject them nonstop in sex
they tase everyone too
they fuck each roll and leave
had 17 in one country
drives nonstop
so does the rest of his family
to fuck her too
then surgery
flew up
stand there 14 days
chained them all together
dresses
sleepy hollow
next one
nicole ricci
are her eyes
she has to fuck the food and eat jewelry for him to take it out too in surgery
or skinny for a while wtf
is it a guy
sometimes
a necklace out of her chest
grease
movie
was that it
5:29 uncle joey
if go with me girls will be fat
shallow hal was after
their surgery for weight loss
29 again
wow 4
group of them say it never mess up
draco malfloy is him or his family
in germany feed r mom look it
dunno
and his dad, mick smiths gun shops
got him
smith
it is amanda
and amber
the fake chinese prostitute
what gibson was
gimmie some
look at her black inbred with her at the end
nurr
her porn
on her phone
saw it
https://www.tube.com/shorts/ImTC927DGiQ this is what it looks like when they heat mercury on me, it was brian
They're about to catch the ghost 🤣#kdrama #shorts
they made fun of me each time they see me, jen would
youtube
that weird south park thing on the plane ride
getting old
she went old
he was the great kali wrestler
no we play on your toys
people had ramps
to run up and down to get big
she had to fuck 8 men to get one night with one
for her daughter she was prengnat with to fuck it and the face was after
kiss her feet was it
maury show
every time
cut ones dick off in every town
Everyone Bully This Hunchbacked Boy but He Becomes Too Handsome After Pumping out The Pus
then that weird gay fuck to get bigger
and we're bigger and we're bigger
then they inject shit out their bodies into those fetuses
and give the mom a chance to run while pregnant
make her big
keep cumming in her got her pregnant too
the kid and again i dunno
really deformed one
and out of the infant, like an animal
and that on e is born fucking her too
giant obese women mothers are it
cant get up
then giant fucks her pregnant since
and i got 25
with uncle jessee
and filipino prostitutes
vietnam war
got ya
we grab it its mine nom
give me it
now
mcdonalds was it too cant open your mouth that big to eat
kids
we saw him though
i dont care
stop talking about him
pregnant got him
not
who cares
him
8 go at him shoot all of him
and shoot the kids its alive
her pregnancy
took one out put another on
in
knew it they talked about it
giant did
one that was already alive
infant
kenan thompsons then were 83 year old women, 30 years ago
they will always stay as retarded as they were when they were 12
j-los all wear masks
and they fuck for 4 days nonstop
her asleep
pregnant with giant shit in her
same everytime
two and i leave
whaaat
wants me
im back
again
more
kids in house
whoa1
The Brutality Of MEN
https://www.tube.com/watch?v=k-Of3m5ZeD0 the weird south park thing plane ride, old to young again, get a plane ride rob a bank with other people too and make a new town
The Brutality Of GERALD'S GAME
she went old
he was the great kali wrestler
no we play on r toys
people had ramps
to run up and down to get big
she had to fuck 8 men to get one night with one
for her daughter she was prengnat with to fuck it and the face was after
woops
they wont get up and walk
and drag her to her
learned more
those men did it too
death in the family
see what it does
touch them
they listened to giants that were not their family
retarded
sargeants in full metal jacket
his dick was over the top of her pelvic bone doing it
and he pulls it out over it too
the fetus
to be animal on all fours
bred
it is called
14 generations after, agent orange
looking
jackie kennedy was about 15 more
and the claytons
88
i will shoot is all of them
next generation
says wont
but does
next one, their inbred, will give her too
fuck her
it has to be one of them to do it too
men jealous wanted to be one
to have all the girls
no one had dads dont lie
its him in joker
new movie
married to lady gaga wtf
a date whatever fuck
says it to everyone
now its a party
they show a dead skeleton one
he only dick holds it in
tip
and injects cum
then over puts it in
belly button hole to umbilical cord
and does the same
he will think he did it in 3 days
and scared old woman just saw it again
they are insane they go out and look
dont do it for r lives
she said no
and what tent of gum acid to fuck one
then they have those eyes
vinne guys do
to keep it there
to protect them
giant angels right
no she is one
the gayest most beautiful people they will ever meet
and she wont live with us still
no police
fuckkkkkkkk
my world just ended
nooooooooo
kill me i was always a drug addict
and with her emily
isnt her plastic surgery
that guy wanted to fuck
clayton
kill him
bleached him, inbred, bleached her
stole the infant
the guy screams after
and since
on every phone
get the fuck off it
land lines
and no wi fi lan dline to all of them
one will not be hooked up again
take down all the phone lines
14 kids each under 5
big eyes injected at the end could only do it to one, and contacts
deedee wanted to look it
sht
on the side
the weakest people alive the gays look at them touch each fother
and be at peace with each other
never felt it yet
calm
13:33
touching his dad
wtf
https://www.tube.com/watch?v=Oyr14TRb7lY it was buildings for everyone to live in
In the Past, Mysterious Creatures Invade Earth & Killed All Humans, But Except Humans Who Can't See
no jo re shooting them all
i had the gay boy haircut
that would mate as a infant
with a older woman
so did leon
10:26
fake she just gave birth
scissors
use her
put r kids in
put r kids in jo
oh no
she left after for her life
i dunno a house
shoot two kids too how hard is it
didnt look related
he was gya
their dad was gay
of the kids
vinnie and lydia
their grandpa was him in the house
and how they gay said it
died a painful death
i dunno
wouldent look at her again
leons mom inbred
sarah mated
brought them in
douglas her son at 5 did it to her
leon beat him
btk
to do it
chris married him too
there were 9
omg the love birds!
https://www.tube.com/watch?v=5F-sT2e1-l8 not many people would do this but she did
They Get ATTACKED By Sharks While Tourists Can't Do ANYTHING But WATCH - RECAP
to have people killed
mary queen of scots
mimi?
:10
constant party in water
sharks come
it was 4 every mile on beach
a day of people
allowd
lake michigan
it comes over
they would shit and piss
people are gone!
it was them too
wtf while we're in the water?
!
chyna doll was 144lbs at 5ft8
im gonna be it
again
she just did it, i got his super bowl ring and hit him in the eye
yea its my wife, he got all the rides
never saw his dad
believed it
didnt know
and hey leon
my dick
mark henry was cody
he did it with her
agnes. lied
was ms.stedmon
and ms.sick
and ms.alters
ms.edmonds
every school secretary principal
woman
no cant go together different grade
so he would fail
my dad was a asshole i didnt want to marry one of those men
tall skinny faggots
his mom made him fat when she got pregnant
his wife
my mom
and
i didnt wanna talk about her again
or them
but it was this
listen to someone or wont get married
none of those guys were nice
and still stalked at me
she wont like them
and middle group of men was the same as the women
and those women whou could of been big fucked up
and died
walked with a guy who wasnt their grandpa one day
fucked up
and too much
wouldent look at him to learn
didnt talk to them either to not look
so
bye
and i found out what they all were by lying for 4 days
while my mom was pregnant kept walking around
well i dunno about him
she said yea and his mom found her again
so did he
didnt move
and her grandma stayed by her
and her
talking to me too
theyre all what?
other families looking to marry boys
and the girls
talked to anyone
so did the boys
listen to their dads
the old won
we know the world
chyna doll!
didnt win us yet
or its china
i did
jo's dad kept throwing her
to not get knocked out
till she got up and flexed
to marry a bigger blacker guy
and it didnt happen
lost her to
a man
and jo got up to crazy fight the giant blacks anyways
wont pin
old lady movement
they are it
nonstop they had to complain and fight at everyone
first it was rape
then
eventually from gays
fighting
fought us doesnt want us
i still dont want hit me
a lot of people lost parents to it
mating around
any age
cheating
pregnant again knew to do it till that
and then
whoa
then i watched clockwork orange
and it looked like clayton at the beginning of the movie
jo didnt watch him that night
scottish showed up
band at her wedding
to jim
i threw her and she stayed down
then said jim got the digits kill her
and he attacaked malcom
then i attacked jim, then he said no that was my dad
that molested me
too
then i attacked his dad
eddie guerrero watched
adn malcom
his dad said hit him in the face
he killed both
stand there
hit me
hard to look
hit him back and scratch him up
someone said it
this was gohan again
noooooooooooooooo
i had to be as big as a man or this wasnt going to happen
r dad did that and didnt marry him to
no my dad did this to me
malcom taught me to rape her
i did jump her off
malcom!!
ryan screamed deuce!
and she lost her job
haha aww
she said it
and had vans on for a guy to kick my ass in school
steve
mike was herr
ex too? ceeceterr
we raise each others kids too
and pop their acne and bathe with them half underwater
boy or girl
they are that gay or not
they didnt want me to walk around alive
ryan knew it from when she was alanis morresette
showed her pussy to lynn
her mom
who inbred too
jim is him
did it
whoa shes huge
again
84 of her
town is it
chris said she was crying
and a fred jumped on me scratching my face
didnt listen to him
all the old women were that stupid
nonstop cat fight
guys killed guys to kill their wives to drag them back home
tonight anyways where, inbred with older
and if any of them died too bad
i double deuce killed him
give me a kitty litter crystal
put it in his eyes two hits he is knocked out
left fast
needed it after
dope addict
thinks he can come at me to fuck me after
bjork shit in this house
her kid with jim wsa her
raping anne marie too
ring
birth stone inside pink bear
go to him
then she was avril lavigne then julie
erin burna, gingersnaps
and there were 15 of her too
one mom how many have
its that
https://www.tube.com/watch?v=1Nrxw24Z_Ds steve grabbed my ass
Top 30 Moves of Chyna:
and courtney fucked him too
molly holly
and married corey
she kept saying his name was sean fucking him in a car
1:45 biggest i ever was in wrestling
if keep killing them i will teach it
my grandpa got bigger than my dad ever was
after i was born
then next one the day after
after sex
judo
was me the whole time
hey jo i wont look
she screamed for her life
then screamed on dope after OOOH
i want it
kitty crystal eyes
they called it that
some car ride
made them retarded after
like riding the wooly mammoth
first time on that much dope
never got that high again
whose that friend
i got 85 jos whatever bee bop a loo
i let these people live i dont care go be gay go to a sports game
know where his dad broke his neck last night
wasnt good
kill him
they were always allowed to say it
if they run at they think they fuck
midgets
crrotch grab
had their nuts tied
i dunno again baby
maybe she'll be hot
mr.ass gave ricky the surgery at 5
plyers
they go to the beach and knock me out
they put nuts in r food to see them being killed
did she see the nuts
molly holly did
everyday
tim hortons
whoa
my nails
are for it
and why he married me to him
his dad listened to me
r dad wont
make him listen to me
they just ran off every time
had him farm
now hes got bamboo
so i hit him with it
and he raped him when he was nger
to not listen to his mom and stay with him
it was so i wouldent be pretty and stay too
so no one would come over
then grabbed him
and raped him too
twiggy
and i saved him
just did it once
then
knife at his throat or was his dick and face dhim to me
figure out what im doing now
said it like 20ft from me
now fuck other girls to show want her
no!!
i grabbed his knife and had to suck it
it was his dick
another boy kissed him on the mouth
or hey
nuts
UHH
hey she got off to me now i get to fuck her
and now milk off her
it was about me, then a animal
me and him next
both like it
shows his wife right
no usually my wife is there
a man was
now fuck him to find out
it was too dangerous to live
then get together with her
constant sex
after
it took him 3 days to get a knife
they came over at him
https://www.tube.com/shorts/LyfvUd7Steo david said show r dick
How Cannibal Tribes Hunt Humans! #joerogan #storytime #jungle
them doping people is it,
left to right, tonight we are young singer/steve, new it clown/barney/dan mitchell/mitchell brisboi/timmy, and 2pac/john
kiss em
fuck em
eat their face
biting it is it
if they do it in sex they found us
arbys turkey gyro and curly fries
fk yea
https://www.tube.com/shorts/Bdd7PtoooME they each have a whale
The Mystery of the Bowhead Whale's Longevity
i dont care moby dick
the whale said i dont care i love easter island, a gay pet can be a deformed man god
whered they go
how easy is it to steal it when its born
its following me
no it isnt
the eye they wanna see
evil eye was that
turkish
swim in
around around around
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thinking on this bc I’m in a mood but I really have come to enjoy my same sex attraction bc for a long time I ran into a lot of issues with it. and it’s one of my favourite things about myself now. I’d never want to be rid of it honestly. but I’m still pretty quiet about it.
and it’s not from shame anymore but more like something I’m fiercely protective over. when people know this about me, eventually the questions start coming and the boundaries become awkward. whether that’s a straight friend getting drunk and asking about the mechanics of lesbian sex or even saying I’d be her “type” if she was gay. getting messed with/harassed by friends in high school. having well meaning family members joke with you about gay things. that one hasn’t happened to me but I’ve seen how my cousin treats her gay brother. who she loves dearly but I hate the jokes straight people make about what we get up to. just the other day a bisexual friend of mine asked if dyke was a slur. like…I’ve worked through and removed a lot of the white noise of this shit. and I do my best to just come off as asexual even bc I get tired of this stuff. whether it’s hatred or just humiliation from the intrusion.
#why is existing like this so taxing#it’s not even the ssa that’s my issue. so many people just fucking suck
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150.
How many people have you liked this year? Just one.
How many pills do you take a day? 4.
Do you have any celebrity crushes? Yeah.
If you could have one superpower, what would it be? Teleporting or being able to like, change my body/hair/etc on a whim.
Do you put ketchup on top of your French fries or on the side? On the side!
Where did you last sleep other than your house? On a plane, probably.
Where did you get your last bruise from? Hit my knee on my bed frame.
Is it okay to kiss people when you’re single? Sure.
Ever worn something of the opposite sex’s clothing? Yup.
Do you have a secret that no one knows but you? Hmm, idk.
How many email accounts do you have? A lot.
Who is the best cook in your family? Idk.
Which baby animal is your favorite? Hmm, kitties maybe :)
Have you ever carved a pumpkin? Yes.
When is the last time you went to a carnival? October, I think. If it counts... it was a fair?
Do you have a favorite glass, cup, or mug? Yeah.
What branch of science interests you the most? Psych.
Have you ever written anything longer than 10 pages? Yes.
Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with via text? NIk.
Twitter or Tumblr? Twitter. Tumblr has not been the same since Yahoo bought it years ago lmao.
Have you ever been given a lapdance by an actual stripper? No.
Favorite YouTuber? Joe Santagato. Jaime French. Bailey Sarian. Kennie JD.
Have you ever had a controlling boyfriend/girlfriend? Yes.
Have you ever written a love letter to someone as a joke? No.
Do you have any gay family members? Yeah, a cousin.
Was your first kiss romantic? I guess aspects of it could be considered romantic.
What are you most likely to go to jail for? Idk.
Who was the last person to sleep over at your house? My parents.
What would you think if you found out your ex was gay? Idk. Nothing?
How many people has your best friend had sex with? I don’t have any friends.
When was the last time you had a conversation with an ex? 2017.
Are you currently “appearing offline” to anybody? No?
What were you for Halloween last year? Nothing.
Do you believe that karma can come back and slap you in the face? Yes.
Have you ever been to Texas? Yes, I used to live in San Antonio. I love it there.
Do your siblings text you? Yes.
Have you ever searched for your own house on Google Earth? Mhm.
Did your last kiss end up with you and the person doing anything sexual? No.
Who is your ex dating/talking to? One of them is married to a girl he met at work I’m assuming. I don’t know or care lmao.
Who did you last pinky promise with? Idk.
Did you ever have to share a room with one of your siblings? Yes.
What happened at the last party you went to? The last party I went to was probably that Halloween party in 2017 that I got horribly shitfaced at lmao.
Have you ever completely misunderstood what somebody was saying? Yeah.
When was the last time you felt ill? What was wrong? I’m getting over a bad cold or sinus infection rn. But last night I was horribly nauseous because it’s a side effect of my medication that I stopped taking for the week that I was sick... so those side effects hit me like a bus yesterday.
Who was your first best friend? Do you still speak to that person? Ashly. Yes, sometimes.
Are you wearing anything that was given to you as a gift? No.
What is your least favourite song, by your favourite artist? Idk.
What color is your jewelry box? I have a black and white one.
Are you attracted to the last person you Facebook messaged? No. He is attractive but I’m not like, attracted to him. Lol.
What is your brother/sister’s favorite food? Idk.
Do you have any ice cream in your freezer? What flavour is it? Yes. I have a lot of different flavors. Lemon pound cake, blueberry belgian waffle, chocolate raspberry, chocolate... to name a few.
In your life, who is the person that seems to understand you the most? No idea.
Are you afraid of losing the person you like right now? YES.
Does anyone know your Facebook password? Probably.
Would you ever consider getting a piercing in your septum? My septum is pierced.
Do you enjoy being outdoors? Yes.
How many times have you been to a zoo? A few.
What’re some unspeakable subjects for you? Idk.
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I agreed to go and now I am freaking out.
My therapist told me it's my family who needs to make it up me and not the other way around. And that I do not need to put up with their disrespect anymore. I can just walk away if they start any of their bullshit. But I'm still so scared. I feel like the sad little girl who was mistreated all those years and spent nights crying in her room alone.
I agreed to go bc I want to show support for my cousin and his future wife. He's been nothing but nice to me my whole life. I've never had any issues with him. The issues are with most of my aunts and uncles and my older cousins. I want him to know I'm happy for him. And I want his future wife to know I'm on her side. My dad's side of the family can be summed up as "we're better than you because we're Catholic and we will look down on you because of this." I'm worried how the rest of the family will treat her. My mom made sure my sister and I weren't raised that way. But all my other family was raised believing this garbage. Also, for some reason, my dad's side of the family HATES fat ppl. More than the gays. Which says a lot bc Catholics. And my cousin's future wife is "heavy" according to my cousin's mom. Who has expressed her dislike of her (cousin's future wife) to my mom because for that reason. She (my aunt - cousin's mom) never said anything bad about my cousin's future wife other than her weight. As one of the few fat members of the family I want her to know she's not alone. Bc my family will comment on her weight to her. I want to tell her how pretty she looks. I want to make her feel confident bc she deserves to feel that way on her special day.
She's marrying a great man. I want my cousin and his future wife to have a wonderful day. I've never met her but she can't be anything but amazing if she caused my cousin to fall in love with her.
My cousin even reached out to my sister to say he hopes I can come. I never thought any of them would miss me. One of the issues I've had with my dad's side of the family was the constant comparison to my cousin who is 6 months older than me (not the cousin getting married). I was always second best. Never the center of attention. Everyone would pay attention to her and not me. And her parents had to make it so she was better at everything than me. I remember when my Grandpa was in the hospital and my uncle made a big deal about my cousin being in advanced classes and having a 2.5 GPA. I just mentioned I was also in advanced classes and had a 3.8 GPA. We went to different high schools. (My choice. I could have gone to the same school as her but I didn't want too). My uncle had to ask my older cousin (not the one getting married) who is a teacher which school had "the better" advanced classes.
I haven't been to a family gathering on my dad's side of the family in like 7/8 years maybe longer. I've seen a few family members throughout the years but not many and never all of them at once. My dad's side of the family is v large. My dad is 1 of 9. All but 2 had at least 1 child. Most had more. And I'm one of the youngest. So my older cousin's have been having kids. There's an insane amount of us. I'm worried about seeing all of them again. What will I tell them? The truth? That most of you and their parents caused me an insane amount of childhood trauma? That you caused me to have eating disorders? That you caused me to start self harming? That I think some of you hid the fact my dad was cheating on my mom from her? That I hate you bc you encouraged my dad to drink and just pretended my mom no longer existed after my dad left her 6 months after she had a massive heart attack and died 6 times on the operating table? She was still recovering! She had to relearn how to walk! It's a mircale she survived let alone didn't have any brain damage! How do you think I'm not mad at you for telling my dad to put her in a nursing home while she was having her first surgery? You guys had no idea what was going on! And were already planning on getting rid of her! How can I not hate you for not even asking my sister and I if we were doing okat after my dad moved out? We would have told you our mom spent all her time crying and threating to kill herself! We had no money! Our mom was only working part time at the time my dad left! You discarded us like you discarded our mom! I can't tell them all that. Not at my cousin's wedding at least. It's a happy event. Idk what to do.
I’m being guilt tripped into going to a wedding.
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