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tojisteddy · 2 days ago
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dadbf john price and ditzy reader are sooo cute he’s so nice :((( i love it
i would love to see how they would fall into that dynamic, would john already know he likes taking on the role of being a dadbf or would it develop on its own? or maybe would reader slip up by calling him “dad” at some point?
ditzy!reader is very into themselves is what I think.
Like you’re just so used to having a lot of questions and not exactly understanding that first or second time but people ask “are you dumb?” Or “how did you not get it?” So in most situations, when you don’t understand you just smile and nod (lol) and try to figure it out on your own.
There have been a lot of late nights studying by yourself or with a tutor from middle school to college. And it doesn’t help your family doesn’t really think much of you because they hated having to repeat themselves when you were younger.
John on the other hand thinks your quiet inquisitive, you like asking the ins and outs of things even though you may not fully understand it or may forget the answer later on. John never minds answering your questions even if it’s three times over, he loves the sound of your voice, the face you make when your concentrating, pursed lips and all, and that you’re genuinely trying to understand.
The older man knows you have a hard time, so he tends to baby you (not too much, but just enough), let you lean on him only when he’s certain you need it.
I think it probably all came together when he helped you with something, maybe opening an old antique jewelry box that you thought was glued shut but John magically pried open. You’re fully astonished, giving him nothing but praises and questions about how he opened it. How you could open things like that even if you were alone.
He hums, a smile on his lips, arms folded over his chest and leaning against the kitchen counter, perfect alignment to draw you in, “Wouldn’t have to worry about the love. I’m a call away, or a walk, Dad’ll always help you.”
You don’t even question his wording, don’t pause, just nod your head, heart beating a little faster— it’s a trust fall into Price’s warm embrace. Let him treat you sweetly, lovingly, let him guide you ever so gently. And you accept that.
And as a reward, he bends you over that kitchen counter, till your eyes are blurry, drool dripping down to your chin with every deep thrust into you oozing cunt. He wraps his hand around the front of your throat and gives you a squeeze, you can’t help your walls tightening around his length, eyes rolling to the back of your skull.
“F-feels so good Pa, feels so gooood.” You keen.
“I knooooow honey,” he purrs, hes got you right where he wants you. And he’ll cherish that for as long as you’ll have him.
“Doing so good for Daddy, just like you always do.”
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most recent masterlist.
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plum-petals · 2 days ago
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Don't tease us like that Rosie! I'm so feral for those dragons! I want any chapter in any dragon pov.
Except for maybe dragon sex, I guess I'm not that feral lol. No judging though. But I'd rather read the resulting frisky riorgail
Too small for a one-shot? Make it a half a shot. Just post it here 😇😈
I will probably post it on ao3 eventually but I'd want to write it out a bit more (later, since I finally moved back to the main fic) and probably re-read both regular Threshing and Xaden POV for reference lol I had it all figured out in my head at the time but that was months ago
Here's a sneak peak of the first half (~1k words) because I'm excited to be writing again now that my wrist is feeling better!
Spoilers, obviously. I'll probably return to finish the second half of what I have written eventually since I only worked on this for like an hour! We haven't even gotten to the best part.
Tairn POV of Chapter 21 of life of spies or Threshing!
‘Come and stay with the golden one until Threshing is concluded,’ Sgaeyl demands. 
Tairn holds back a sound of complaint that will get him in trouble. ‘Why must I attend to her whims when you are already in the valley?’ he asks, even if he is already rising and preparing to take to the sky. He had stayed close, knowing that the young dragon is likely to push her luck after petitioning for the right to enter Threshing. 
Sgaeyl’s answer is more of a snarl than anything else, and Tairn admires the sound as he takes off. His mate is the most fierce she-dragon in the sky and he is in awe of her every day. Even if her taste in bonded ones leaves something to be desired. 
‘Because, my dear mate, I am limited by having a rider in the field and there are humans who would seek to harm her.’ 
Tairn growls and flies faster. ‘Who would dare?’
‘A weak human posturing during Presentation,’ she responds tartly. ‘She is flying in your direction.’
He sends a wave of agreement. Sgaeyl knows she doesn't have to ask Tairn to protect the young dragon they help care for. ‘While you complete patrols?’ 
Sgaeyl sighs tiredly. ‘While I deal with my bonded, who is turning out to be more emotional than expected. I fear he will not calm down until he sees a flash of silver in the skies.’
The black dragon huffs in amusement, having heard about his mate's recent struggles with her rider’s obsession. He uses his superior senses and spots a flash of gold in the distance as Andarna draws closer, nearer to the valley floor. 
‘Is the little human bothering you?’ Tairn attempts. ‘I will help rid you of him if you’d like.’
Happily. 
‘Tairn,’ she snips warningly. 
‘It was just an offer,’ he continues innocently, adjusting his path to meet the small dragon on the ground. 
‘One I will reject,’ she adds. ‘He is simply taken with a human girl. While pathetic, it could prove beneficial in the end.’ 
‘How?’ he asks in disbelief. 
Sgaeyl’s emotions are a flood of uncertainty and pride. ‘His chosen… she is interesting.’
‘An interesting human?’ 
A rare commodity, to be sure. None of the cadets who have crossed the parapet have called to Tairn in the years since the one who came before, and he doubts they ever will again. Not after all that he has lost. 
‘She spies on Navarre, though her motivations are unclear,’ Sgaeyl reminds him. That could be considered interesting. He has heard talk of the girl for years, when the elders predicted her rise as the next Head Scribe. How does a girl training to be a keeper of faulty history end up in this valley, spying on her home country?
Sgaeyl continues. ‘Her body may have been crafted weaker than most, but she does not balk in the face of a dragon.’ 
‘Is that all?’ Tairn asks quietly, sensing there was more to the story. False confidence fills cadets in droves, and many of them do not balk in the face of a dragon simply because they are too stupid or prideful. 
Sgaeyl is quiet for a moment. ‘During the Presentation, when one of the humans threatened Andarna, the silver one he’s obsessed with… she threatened his life for his transgressions.’ 
Tairn considers his words carefully. ‘Perhaps your rider is not useless, if he has chosen an honorable partner.’ 
His mate just scoffs. ‘Perhaps if they were not waiting to claim each other like foolish humans, he would be more bearable. We could not have made it simpler for him.’ 
‘The offer still stands,’ he chuffs in amusement at the reminder, feeling Sgaeyl’s answering wave of annoyance before she retreats from the bond.
Tairn lands by Andarna where she had settled to drink from a lake and greets the small dragon with a press of his wing.
‘I do not need you to watch me,’ she complains fiercely. ‘I am not a hatchling!’ 
The larger dragon pushes back his inconvenient feelings of affection towards the golden feathertail. Ever since the orphaned dragon had forced herself onto him when she was a hatchling, he had become protective of her. She may not have come from his line, but she is still his. 
‘I am not watching you,’ Tairn argues. ‘I am watching everyone else.’
He knows better than most that it’s foolish to trust a human.
Andarna sighs with the weight much larger than her mere four years. ‘Fine, but you must follow me,’ she says, voice dripping in her typical impertinence, and guides him towards a nearby cave entrance. 
‘You said you wanted to watch the proceedings,’ he reminds her. Andarna sends him a wave of annoyance that feels far too much like a human eye roll. He mourns her lack of respect, even as he has no plans to do anything about it. The golden one merely must become a strong enough dragon to justify her impudent and unruly disposition.
Tairn, child of Murtcuideam and Fiaclanfuil and descended from the cunning Dubhmadinn line, follows the small dragon as instructed. 
‘We are going where we must be,’ she says stubbornly and gallops ahead into the dark cavernous space. Tairn sighs tiredly, ducking down to fit through the entrance and following Andarna deeper inside. 
‘We must be in a dark cave with stale air?’ 
Andarna turns to look out into the woods through the cave entrance. Dragons, with their superior senses, can see easily through the trees and shrubbery and they can discern the presence of two pairs of footsteps running in this direction.
An approaching flash of silver through the greenery captures Tairn’s attention and holds it. 
‘Yes,’ Andarna answers. ‘This is exactly where we must be.’
Tairn looks down at the feathertail suspiciously. He is a wise and seasoned war dragon, but even he cannot tell of the future. 
‘And you are… certain about that?’ 
‘I am,’ she answers decisively. ‘Let us retreat into the cave.’ 
Tairn glances at the flash of such an unusual color, belonging to a girl who is so clearly running for her life. ‘Is this about the silver one that Sgaeyl speaks of?’ 
‘Let us retreat into the cave,’ she repeats. ‘Be patient and you will come to see what I see.’
Tairn sends a warning to his mate as he listens yet again, but not before snapping his teeth at Andarna warningly for having the nerve to accuse him of impatience. 
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splatixboi · 1 day ago
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I’m brought here due to the intense feeling of dread and doubt I experienced some time after posting my newest Hua Cheng artwork.
This is a gentle cry to the TGCF fandom, I would greatly appreciate your opinions on how I draw Hua Cheng before I stew further in my self doubt. 🥹🙏
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The way I draw Hua Cheng is… unconventional. He was my first experiment at surpassing same-face syndrome. But… I already struggled making him look… “normal” when my art-style was semi-realism or highly stylized. Now that I’ve picked up realism… it’s… much harder.
This is a collage of all Hua Cheng works that I felt were presentable enough to use as examples, including some unfinished pieces.
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The terrible amount of inconsistency aside, one of my biggest questions remains: Is the way I draw Hua Cheng, ugly? Unappealing? I even worry that he doesn’t look Chinese the more I draw him, despite the fact that I reference real people every time I try and tweak his design.
It’s something that gnaws within me quite often. I feel that it’s cemented by the fact that any time I post a piece featuring Hua Cheng’s face in the spotlight… it hardly gets recognition. It’s left in the shadows.
I could just change how I draw him. I could just make him “normal” like everyone else. But despite all my frustrations, the inconsistency, the doubt and self loathing… all of the flaws I can��t figure out how to fix…
I am deeply attached to how I draw him. It would feel… wrong, to suddenly take all the character I’ve built for his appearance and strip it down to TGCF Donghua levels of basic.
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So, here we arrive to the point of this post. Feedback.
I want to hear your opinions. I want to know how you feel about my vision for Hua Cheng. If you can pinpoint something that’s off, if you can suggest anything you think would make him better. Please, please do. My own eyes and brain aren’t helping me better myself, I’m creating this art not just for me to enjoy, but for the fandom as well.
So your opinions matter greatly if it means I can draw a Hua Cheng with a design that I’m able to love, but that you all are able to love as well.
I’m sorry that this post was so long. I hope that doesn’t inhibit it from being seen. If you read this far, and wish to leave feedback, thank you. It’s just been so frustrating getting my design for Hua Cheng to a place I like, but failing so miserably.
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hinamie · 9 months ago
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i'm exactly as normal about him as I thought I'd be
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arolesbianism · 3 months ago
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Been working on some first run Chou sprites for funsies, here’s a handful of the ones I’ve done so far
#keese draws#isat#new game+#comic siffrin#comicfrin#isat siffrin#I mainly just wanted to figure out how chou may express differently than normal siffrin#they are alas far less kitty cat </3#but yeah even in their first run they were generally much lower energy than siffrin mostly due to stress#they are less used to traveling for long periods of time along with the whole savior thing going on#and while they start off generally handling their timeloop situation well enough even by the time they get the second orb they’re Tired man#and after the incident where they lost their eye they’re So ready for this to be over#and they haven’t even hit the wall of their final boss fight yet it took them a long while to get through that for the first time#the main thing is that their party spended most of their journey far more underleveled#for most of the main fights they were able to scrape through since the crew did have some disproportionally powerful abilities earlier than#the isat party would have similar skills (like their first recruit is a full blown shield specialist)#but as they got further and further and the boss gimmicks got more specific and punishing it would get Much harder#in the fight where chou lost their eye they were stuck for Months the first run trying to find a way to squeak through the fight#in game terms basically trying to abuse the consistent rng seed to find a chain of actions that would let them win#long story short the boss basically acts as a harsh punish for their lack of a proper healer#it also for realsies kills people like. during the battle. so the margin for error is slim to none.#basically once it takes out someone it’ll continue to target them and it can’t have its intent redirected#and it’s resistant to all craft types until it’s about to and failed to perform the final blow attack#without going too much into the party comp and how they generally fight just know that even if they weren’t underleveled this would low key#hard counter them since their whole game plan is about redirecting damage and simply killing the enemy before it kills them#so during this first run this fight was actual hell for chou to figure out and poor bastard hadn’t even hit their worst wall yet 😔#anyways that was a whole ramble that had nothing to do with the actual post I’m making. whoops.#point is they’ve earned the right to be low energy and stressed as hell they were Not built to carry a rpg party
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yo-yo-yoshiko · 3 days ago
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Wow wow it's @number-one-toku-robot-lover's Manta Ray hero! watch yourself and stay safe when spending time near the ocean everyone!
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lunarharp · 2 years ago
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more phoenix wright situations
#ace attorney tag#maybe i should tag this narumitsu or something. but i dont really care.#gearing up to rereading/illustrating bits of my fic i suppose...i think nick really is too dense to realise he's in love with edgeworth#without some scheming fop trying to intrude. i love villains like kristoph..villains can be fun..witnessing their pathetic folly..#or more like edgeworth would never have mentioned his feelings ever in his life if he wasn't sure phoenix reciprocates.#i want to see it this way because Falling in love during childhood with the person you're going to end up with. is not relatable#there have to be Situations that make you Realise.#as with orufrey i adore the idea of people not working out their romance with that person until their 30s+#but... i mean. even with orufrey i often think how alaira could be qifrey's ex. and oru having been pursued by noble fops through his work#there is that delicate sliver of time before orufrey start living together that such believable situations could have happened.#Then the relief of politely and amicably extricating themselves from those untenable situations#the idea of falling in love age 7 and saving your first kiss for age 35 or something is all very well but more relatable is#people realising how they really feel whilst trying something that ends up feeling wrong.#The comfort and joy of living with your dearest one as if it's platonic - much preferable to trying anything more with anyone else.#But i doubt i will ever portray that or mention it further. it is indeed very delicate to me.#and i really am an OTP FOR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kind of person who can barely bear to consider this anyway...NOT a polyshipper i'm afraid !#so i wouldn't mind either if they do have their first kiss in their lives age 35 with each other either. I would not mind that at all.#i love bi/gay couples apparently... bi father figures & their grumpy gay men waiting for them to work it all out...#not used to using colour in comic-style drawings..or at all..so this is messy and awkward looking..but colour is refreshing#i imagine i will go back to witch hat art soon btw. my destiny in life.#i still remember writing my nrmt fic expecting to write their first kiss & then partway through twas like Umm No. They have kissed prior.#does that really line up with this comic though... i think i had their early dinner dates/first kiss BEFORE disbarment.#so i guess this comic doesn't line up with my ficverse.... No..... U___U Oh well. sorry kris! <3
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humming-fly · 1 year ago
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Happy to report I have finally started listening to Malevolent and to no one's surprise I am already obsessed (I'm almost done with s2 atm please don't send me spoilers yet sdlkfj)
I'll skip over my usual formality of having one normal art post before diving into shitposts let's not waste anyone's time here
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paper-possum-party-pal · 7 months ago
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I’ve decided to draw a bunch of people’s Narrators starting with @betrootsoup’s Narrator!
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Don’t mind my sona, they’re just a curious fella!
I’m a sucker for split faced designs and love the outfit that @betrootsoup chose for their Narrator! I really hope I did the design justice!
Closeups
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And to everyone else out there, watch out!
Your Narrator’s might be next
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catgirlkirigiri · 3 months ago
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Iris my love... gotta have the girly secondary fursona. For gender time. Actually think she's being demoted to fursona number 3 but idk we'll see about the pecking order when refs are all done. She was waaay overdue for a redesign oh shit I just realized I didn't put a color palette on here. Oh well ig too late for that now I am not rearranging that bg
#oh i should pop some character related tag commentary to the top of the tags thatd be neat. so uhh fun facts. i think my sibling technically#made her first design waaaaay back cause they drew her before i ever did. i dont remember which of us actually came up with her tho lol. sh#has antlers but shes always been cis in my mind so just like. dont think about it too hard ig. also while she is in part named after the#flower cause hashtag girly things (this was before i too was named after a flower. hindsight am i right) she was primarily named after the#song. by the goo goo dolls. the song thats really transgender to me. hindsight am i right. whys my cis girl fursona got all the transness#oh yeah and that earring is supposed to look like an iris. they are not easy flowers to draw tho good lird#she used to be a whitetail/fennec cause i love my local deer but mule deers big ol ears have swayed me. i love a big deer ear#she also used to have paws and a nub tail but i realized i was missing the best part of fox. big fluffy tail. and then the paws made her#look too fox yknow. wanted her to really look like a hybrid instead of just 'fennec with antlers' lol. anyway now for less relevant tag tal#guys i fear i am fursuit brained rn i keep looking at her and thinking about how fun she'd be to make a suit of. im too broke for thissssss#im already working on a suitttt i cant start another one on the side i dont even know where to get foam.... cause joann fabrics is gone...#actually wait i gotta figure that out like. real soon. i need foam still for the head im working on. shoot. uh. guys where do i get foam#i fear finishing lichens tail and starting zoras head has made me realize fursuit making may be my passion. but i do not have the finances#for this. tbh might see if i can just work my ass off for a month in like idk june just to get it over with for a bit and have money. but i#know that will not be a good idea it kills me to work more than like 5 hour shifts for more than threeish days in a row#i should really just actually make a commission sheet and take comms. that would be ideal#anyway i will now shut up :) and also schedule this for a few hours from typing cause i just posted a different ref#zoracontent#zora arts#clovers characters#iris#furry#sfw furry#fursona
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journey-to-the-attic · 2 years ago
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i meant to post this yesterday and just completely forgot - here's the full version of the cover i made for the wattpad port, by the way!! (i know cross-post is the technically correct term but port is just a fun word to say/type. i don't need to explain myself here)
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vynnyal · 11 months ago
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Actually you know what, I'm gonna post this. Check it out, I'm fiddling with this PMV. Spoils the whole game ofc. And the name of the song is pure imagination by Fiona Apple!
Also I'm apparently a big fan of drawing moon laying down 😂 total count including scrapped drawings is 5 (technically 6)
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kingpains · 2 years ago
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got to see the @narcissistcookbook in dallas, thoroughly enjoyed it
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wundrousarts · 1 year ago
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Going to do a Nevermoor series reread in June + July + August ? if anyone else also wants to do a reread around that time, could be fun to have more of the fandom prepping for Silverborn
Did initially make a roadmap plan to split the books up into weeks on top of already being months, so that people could focus on specific parts and discuss each week….. but between the fact that I messed it up the first time, Silverborn kept getting delayed as I planned it, and I’m actually really bad at keeping to stuff like that (looking at you, Silverborn Countdown Challenge…) I’m deciding to just go for it at whatever pace happens.
#will def be June/July but we’ll have to see if I get into August. may want to keep most of that + September as Silverborn Hype Months lol#nevermoor#silverborn#if you ever followed my rereads thoughts masterpost for my (reread?) eternal reread and wondered ‘why no hollowpox’? boy is it a doozy#beginning of the year Apple Books updated and I’m not huge on it!#and since I couldn't fix I decided I would try and delete and reinstall the app.....#…..forgetting that my books and notes are tied to the app and not saved otherwise…..#so I lost all my notes INCLUDING all my reactions and thoughts from my very first reread that I was excited to look back on and share 🥲😭😭😭#so I’ve just been in mourning and never continued out of my personal beef with the app….#so this time I think I’ll take use of all my different physical copies and read them physically to give myself a break from screens lol#this summer is just grindset time of getting back into drawing and trying to get good so this reread I also want to draw stuff alongside#like try to nail some character designs and such to make it easier for Silverborn lol#I fear I will need to figure out how to draw dragons……#anyways. if you’ve read all these tags you are now required to join in on the reread with me 🫵#this also reminds me I need to keep working / actually work on the nine spreadsheet / masterpost. will do that ✍️#I have had several drafts saved of posts I want to respond to with theories that I’ve been saving for my hollowpox reread that now I’m like#do I just save them for Silverborn?? lol
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marinecorvid · 5 months ago
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blorbos from my brain
#beloved villainxcivilian wip. i need to draw you#post unrelated to previous few. mostly#if anyone's reading this post and curious: vague superhero/villain-containing setting; mc is a woman who gets out of a shit relationship#w a local hero by selling his work laptop to a local villain and using the money to flee the province/whatever with her cat & suitcase.#gets set up w a tiny apartment. barely leaves. severe anxiety that she's gonna be tracked down by either her ex or the villain to tie up lo#loose ends#eventually unwinds enough to leave; takes a 3rd shift at an ancient tiny library with old archives#local supervillain (not that she knows at first) becomes a repeat visitor looking over the old city blueprints and hwhatnot on file#eventually unwinds enough to start a mayyybe situationship#he's not blind she's clearly very distrusting n nervous even if she's got a crazy good customer service face so he's very slow abt it#lets her set the pace of whatever they're doing#which simultaneously reassures her and makes her nervous#because it could be a mask. it could be a trap. she literally has no way to really know#gets worse when the truth about his profession comes out#mental breakdown. lots of yelling. butter knife brandished like a weapon (<- taken very seriously)#once shit settles a lot of time is dedicated to figuring out how they want to continue this. if they want to#given that there is realistically a crazy power dynamic between them. she's an immigrant who had to uproot herself from literally everyone#and everything she knows and has; has no support system in a country she is technically not legally supposed to be in;#he is very influential; having both notable scores of money socked away and a potentially a mole in the local policing force#if he wanted to make her disappear in one way or another it would not be difficult for him#much how her ex was becoming. extremely overbearing so to speak#so Yah trying to navigate that. very serious discussions if they can make that work out or if they should split#bc i want a happy ending i think they make it work! not sure about the specifics but theyre good#i think he doesnt realize how badly shes fucked up until at some point after The Breakdown he puts together that she's the reason the hero#in a few provinces away got completely Fucked by the local villain scene#and putting that together with her severe anxiety and not-great living situation. why she would've possibly done that#anyways. the inspiration for this all was mostly out of distaste for most of the romantasy books i have to see in various fandom tags#male love interest who doesn't really respect boundaries VS. m.l.i. who is extremely respectful of boundaries while managing to remain a vi#villain by the laws of the genre/setting/otherwise plot#(and asking the question of what does villainy mean in this context)
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mackthecheesy · 3 months ago
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rip to the person in my dream last night who i was in a time loop trying to save </3 woke up before i ever could
#well i mean they weren't dying in the loop but he was a part of a cult i was trying to get him out of. hard to deprogram someone in one day.#i was trying different ways of going about it. first just to get myself out of there. then on 1 loop i leaned hard into the cult & ended up#dating that guy. then on subsequent loops it wasn't enough that i figured out how to get myself out of there. i needed to get him out too.#even if he didnt remember me. maybe we'd date again maybe not but either way i wanted him out of there#i remember there was a game-like mechanic to the cult where you'd get coins for doing certain things#most people had a few thousands- the high ranking people had a million or two- the person i was trying to save had like tens of thousands#you could exchange coins for prizes. one was a private dinner for 3! you; a person of your choice; and a 'famous celebrity'#(said celebrity being a puppet formerly used by the cult. it would not be manned it would just be sitting there)#it cost 4.5 million. i kept my coins in the loops. that's why i did the loop(s) of getting in the cult's good graces#i had the coins. in this loop i decided to be just interested in the cult enough to not draw suspicion. i knew buying the dinner would draw#enough attention as is. i'd gotten close enough to him that loop that we were pretty friendly and i asked if he would like to do that dinne#he was like 'haha sure but we can't afford that' at which point i showed him my coins. 4.6 million. he was shocked. i made an excuse about#helping out whenever i could. i couldn't officially ask him to the dinner yet- buying anything with coins had to go through the higher ups;#and buying big prizes made an announcement to everyone. i missed my bit of good timing of buying it right after the announcement of the#prize cause i asked him if he actually wanted to go first- a couple of the leaders were getting married and i didnt want to draw even more#attention by doing that during the ceremony. we sat next to each other at the banquet and he kept asking me questions and i asked him not t#call attention to us. he said fine but he wanted answers. i said we would take turns asking each other questions. he agreed. i was hoping t#ask him questions that would make him question the cult- i could tell him more on our private dinner of course- but i let him go first#'do you love me as a person or as a character?'#i just sat there for a while. i don't know how he knew. the answer was both. but i knew what he was really asking. 'as a character.'#he was upset of course. fictional people tend to be when they find out that they are. he was angry. he accused me of lying or something els#i held his hand and begged him not to call attention to us but that i could prove it later. he looked at me. he told me he had access to a#room he shouldn't. he hadn't been there. but its name intrigued him. 'the dream lobe.' i knew this. id seen it before. id seen him see it#before. that room contains a fragment of a large brain. and a person whos whole purpose is to explain to you that you're a part of a dream.#a figment of its imagination. once you learn that you can never leave the room. i could of course. i was the dreamer. but i learned others#couldnt the hard way. i didnt want him trapped again but he demanded to go into the room. i went with him. i watched him go through the#stages of grief again. i watched him realize he couldnt leave. i knew i could try again. loop back and buy the dinner on time and have a#chance to explain without the room and maybe let him escape. but i watched him sit devastated in that room that i could leave and i realize#i was fighting for something that may never come to be. maybe the dinner would help. but thats just a faint hope. i could break the loops#whenever i wanted. i looked at him. and i left.
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