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hey, fairy (+ swap) shadow milk doodles that are colored.
#don't ask why his swap!eyes lack the white thingy i couldn't be bothered to fuck around with the colors for that#i also forgot his little cape thing in the canon doodle but shush#shadow milk cookie#cookie run au#cookie run#cookie run kingdom au#cookie run kingdom#beast yeast#don't be fooled swap!shadowmilk is still a devious little shit/j#but anyways. the silly#i was mostly just doodling here so yeah.
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My'eah, some Sonic stuff I drew, playing with a different style!
Last 3 pages feature Terios, & the last page features Violet -- both are characters co-adored by @carnation-damnation !
#emeraldart#terios#knuckles the echidna#sonic the hedgehog#tails the fox#amy rose#rouge the bat#sth#blaze the cat#silver the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog#sonic oc#chao#Idk how well it comes across but knuckles not only has his hat from the ova but also a vest with the same pattern as tikal's skirt#the general goal was to give everyone at least a bit of clothing bc the inconsistency in whether mobians wear full clothes or nothing#with little to no inbetween makes characters look overly simple or complicated to the point of straying stylistically too far#I didn't commit too hard here. Just gave people 1-2 accessories.#sonic has a neckerchief & pilot goggles bc I liked how it looked for boom & to reference that he ya know. had/has a plane.#I imagine he prolly wears them when he runs mostly bc he doesn't fly so often & it keeps the wind out of his eyes#I only gave tails a tool belt. felt that it leaves him a bit bare but looks overall okay.#I changed rouge to having this suit then realized i was literally just yoinking blaze's drip & felt bad :(#Silver has a gamer hoodie. I started doodling blaze with this cape she is sometimes mentioned as wearing but not shown in except concept ar#oh yeah there's also a tiny biolizard & i drew chao with paws. for fun#em.txt
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by the lighthouse.
dividers
#alright i suppose i should tell what's up lately! im mostly posting this like a mini update or whatever haha#so - since i made that last post on my disappearance i worked endlessly to finish my animation project and thank goodness it's finally over#i had to take a break from trying to be social here and just stay in my own space and i did that by having a smaller side blog to ramble#the project was very... tiring - definitely took out so much energy from me post physically and mentally and i was just frustrated everyday#so i just took my time to be alone with a few close people and i like to think im okay now?#i like to think so - since i was able to deliver a few commission drafts today so i'm relieved that im back to my usual pace#I'll post a few of my doodles here i did during my project just to fill the void haha#i've acquired a minor familial from another video game and i care for him a lot :] idk ill bother to talk abt it here but yeah thats funnn#also indulging a lil bit of t.n.m.n content as of late also thanks to my friend who knows abt it hehe#soo yeah! I don't know if ill be active like the usual but know that i'm doing alright now! hope everyone's doing okay too xoxo#ill probably still stay in my smaller blog for a little longer but will occasionally pop in here!#sooo yaaa#~ art#💚 memoryshipping#also yea i think no.rton only had like. 10 days worth of being the blog brand here until i switched back to the usual guy lmaooo sorry 😔
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artemis officially has..... another new patron... (side muse) his name is Loomy and he was once a kids imaginary friend (he thinks. tbh he cant remember exactly what he was at first if he was anything but this is fine) tldr we have yet another pet for the shop--
#( ooc )#he's a Long Cat entity thingamajig#i think i ramble somewhere abt them before but he's just this freaky ass looking feline bony ass LONGGG thing that stares into windows#he can talk he just doesnt a lot#another case of 'idk where tf you came from but ah. here you are. might as well stay awhile.' ffjfjsj#i am.... doodling...... hes got them freaky ass big eyes#Tarsier eyes yeAH YEAH that kinda big freaky ass eyes . the kid he used to be with named him and he kept it <:' )#hollon ill make a tragic fuckn backstory just u wait#these blurbs of info are mostly for me for later so i dont forget what was in my brain but ..... looks @ u all......#new side muse......
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The most fun you can have, barring the pain and torture (Patreon)
#Doodles#SCII#Damned#Helix#ZEX#Teisel#Max Vyer#Zack Fair#Vlad Masters#Weird fun fact??? The last time I posted Vlad was also in the same set as ZEX so uh????? Lol#I could not have possibly planned that so please just enjoy the serendipity - I certainly am lol#Anyway <3 Mostly leftover doodles for now! There's still more especially planned/in my notes but we're at a lull#And it's time for some silliness! :D Love silliness!#Starting with a very cute tiny ZEX ??ing at slippers - he really didn't wear footwear much - or at least it wasn't mentioned so lol#Max has barefoot energy too it's fine lol#And ZEX only wears shoes in his VUX form sometimes! Surely it's just as unnecessary for humans! Hehe#After I doodled him holding a pencil like half-properly I realized oh yeah - he wouldn't do that unless directed would he haha#Much more natural to curl - or at least as close as possible with fingers - around his writing implement :D#I do wonder what he'd think of human calligraphy brushes hmm - more natural? Less? He'd certainly enjoy watching but when doesn't he <3#Oh I loved him sitting and enjoying the rain ♥ Reminded me of Gaster :D Though this came well-first hehe <3#Just a very pleasant detail - amphibious lad loving precipitation hehe#Another simple one of hanging out with Teisel ugh he kicked his legs in the absence of his tail he's so cute weh ;;♥#Hey Max is actually here for a change!! I want to give him more attention he deserves it - especially with everyone being so mean to him :')#He just wants friends! He's barely here be nice to him while he is! At least Peter was nice to him haha#You only think he's creepy because you think he's fake and ZEX is real - they're both real don't be mean#Max's clinginess is so sad here haha :') Protect him pls <3#I love ZEX's asides with Vlad lol ♪ Man I really haven't drawn him in ages too long!#Okay but the image of ZEX in a nurse costume? Amazing he'd rock it - Max even moreso since he'd understand the context <3#Get this man in a skirt and heels stat he'll look So pretty ♫
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Stop being scared just draw.
do it scared, do it angry, just draw.
#this is mostly for myself#i want to draw but#im so much more anxious then i used to be#idk what happend#i just...can barely bring myself to try anymore#same with writing#i made some progress but...#i dont WANT to spend years not drawing#i cant#i /cant/#so here i am#sitting with my pen tablet trying to doodle something#mostly revamping a character design#i want to enjoy it again#because i cant stop creating#thats who i am#its all i got so goddammit all if i dont at least try to get back into making things#maybe i have to learn to enjoy it for myself again i think#vent#ig???#kinda?#at this point yeah#in the tags
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my design process to them btw... i was lowkey dying
#ermmm..... do i tag this? nah whatever...#doodles#that's it#anyways.#motorstar was like the one that came naturally to me 😭 i just knew what rock would look like as a bot#j took a bit of thinking and shit...#i want to thank dbz and perceptor for the little eye monocule visor thing#i did not want j to be a cyclops bot bc the implications 😭 but i still wanted to keep how he has bangs....#and that happened.. yaaaay#i mostly took design principles from mtmte and cyberverse...also a bit of the g1 cartoon bc girl...#i did not need to do all of thaaaat i can simplify it...#also the skybound comics bc they still look so detailed yet their designs are quite simply..#<- this is mostly for thinking of the alt mode and stuff like that...#omg. i didn not even think of how they would put their guns and stuff.. hand gun...#yeaaahhhh#anyways... idk what they'd be doing exactly...#sigh.... anywyas yeah... here are basically my tf ocs but jaerock bc it is jaerock but not exactly...
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Sebastian (pink hair) and Cornella (blue hair) meet as children and realize "ah, that's the kid my parents told me to avoid because of business reasons" and immediately decide "hey, we're going to be best friends and not fight". Which... in the long run helps a lot in regards to their parents companies because now the parents have to play nice around their kids.
long history below lol
So they're just bffs throughout their youth and a couple years before their high school graduation, Sebastian spots a kid with messy hair who looks really nervous. Since it's early in the year, maybe the kid needs help finding somewhere? So he goes over to offer to help him to class buuuuut the guy flinches and runs away. So Sebastian is ready to report to Cornella at lunch but she slams her hands down on the table saying "I JUST SAW THE CUTEST GUY EVER". And Sebastian puts his concerns on hold until he realizes they're about to talk about the same guy.
The duo then decide "operation befriend shy guy" and spend like an entire school year getting Matis to warm up to them. Good! Except now they're seniors and STILL both pining for the underclassman (only a grade below) and they have an agreement to not pressure Matis into any weird situations about picking between them.
Matis and Sebastian like to draw though and so one day as Sebastian is vibing and sketching Cornella while stealing glances at Matis, he decides to put little hearts around her head. It's fine, it's not weird, it's totally cool. And Matis sees and comments he must really like her and while he DOES really like her it's .... not quite like that. So he laughs it off.
The two graduate and then start to train at their parents companies while attending college and the years go on. They still sometimes think about Matis and go "wonder how he's doing" "wonder if he's more outspoken now" "wonder if he'd remember us" because they're both very normal about the lingering crush they have. Cornella walks into the building she works at one day and is going directly to her office in hopes no one sees her since she's supposed to be off when she hears her name.
"I'm not here, you didn't see me and you REALLY didn't see me if my dad's asking" is her immediate response but the guy's like 'oh, sure, understood. i am interviewing someone who said he went to school with you' and so she looks over and is just. Floored. Yup, still nervous looking, definitely remembers them, he's doing fine, and he's apparently now working at her company. Fabulous.
She does say hello and then nervously excuses herself to go to her office before anyone else sees her but hey see you around good to see you bye haha... and calls Sebastian with "He's hot now" with no context. So he asks who and she's like "oh only the cutest boy to ever plague our brains for years" and Sebastian is just "wait wait, Matis ? ? YOU SAW HIM? WHERE? HELLO? Why was I not invited to see him? Why did you not video call so I can see him? WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE'S HOT" and then they scheme how to actually meet up and involve Matis. And they agree while he's definitely handsome dealing with other people, the fact he still blushes and looks nervous around them and looks to them for approval is the absolute cutest thing on the planet.
#pining since hs wdym#also someone pointed out matis is daikon colors and yeah ...... yeaaaah....#another person said omg seeing the three at the bottom is like trans colors#and honestly im here for the accidental rep#it was mostly me going you know what since theres a boy girl duo and for some reason blue pink is the weird norm#time to swap that and have a pink boy and blue girl#then i had no idea for a third color and just went white but with green as an under color#matis looks really professional when talking to other coworkers but blushes the second seb and cornella are involved#and sebastian is extremely cat coded#his little tufts of hair on the side of his head just kinda being cat ear like#and theres another reason but ill doodle it out later but hes basically just a fluffy pink cat who thrives with attention#but is so quick to be done with said attention cause hes bored bye#cornella and her crinkle cut hair is so cute imo#she has long hair as a kid then gets tired of maintaining it and cuts it short in hs and then grows it back out#matis goes from if i cant see them they cant see me to okay i have to pretend like im an adult who can make eye contact#seb and cornella are absolutely mind blown by the fact he has a beauty mark and they had no idea for the entire two school years with him
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Sorry for just kinda disappearing in and out lately, I recently moved into a dorm (with 7 other people...), and I genuinely feel like I'm going to lose my mind... Q.Q
#echo rambles#personal#my posts#but yeah. sorry for no art practically for most of the year. i've been needing to step away from it for a while. it's been nice#i do have some side doodles but they're not kh related so i'm mostly just keeping them to myself (that and they're very messy)#anyways they're fine people. i think they're quite nice but my assigned room is right next to the living room/kitchen and it gets so LOUD#+ we were supposed to establish rules yesterday but didn't and one of them took my mug and didn't even clean the coffee out of it :|#everything here is just too loud....there's no door to our bathroom either despite the other one having it for some reason...#i've never been good with people and even when i do feel more social i can only handle a few people before i find it too tiring to continue#it's a really good school and i feel bad for being this miserable but my god i feel like biting the wall towards my admittance decision#sorry for the downer post. hopefully when classes officially start things will settle down......
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I wanted to post Eddie's lines from my exchange piece on their own, because I am still really proud of these.
#Mostly proud of his face#I struggle so much with faces#combination face blindness and aphantasia so they just never look correct#and while it may not be definitively Eddie's#it is undeniably a face.#also really proud of the perspective on the foot pointing towards the camera#camera??? I was an animation major and we said camera but that feels weird here#his hair is also just so much fun to draw#it's all swoopy and floofy#okay I'll stop rambling now its just rare that Im proud of a thing I made but lately Ive been proud of a lot of steddie work#something something we do better work on things we enjoy yeah whatever#kay byeeee#eddie munson#fanart#Len doodles
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In case it was ever a question
#💟#Doodles#Lol#Yes I do in fact still think about Vargas every single day#I'd tell you when that changes but that would still be a Vargas thought wouldn't it lol ♪ So for now situation normal! Nothing to report!#Haha ♫#It's not always to this level or even this consistent but it does average multiple times a day and especially around sleep#The dreams have mostly completely tapered off but they're a common comfort/come-down from the day :) Reliable thought pattern#And even tho I'm not posting them for the most part outside of sketchdumps/the occasional video/fanfic/etc. etc.#I can tell you they still grab every sixth or so scratch page lol - and that's not counting their hefty backlog!#Plus I don't always doodle my ideas a lot of them go into my notes#Honestly considering a part two of an incorrect quotes post quite a few have built up and even I've forgotten some of them haha#They're silly ♪#Oh yeah and you'll notice a near-matching uptick in WOY (Wander Over Yonder) :3c Haha wonder what that's about hahaha#And SCII to a similar degree but I don't have anything cheeky to say about that (right now) lol#Also completely off Vargas-topic I think it's really funny how often I forget my bracelet#Obviously didn't here! Got all 'em colours - which is honestly probably /why/ I forget that's a lot of tools for one small detail#But like - I never forget my glasses they are very much ''part of my body'' but I quite often forget my bracelet even tho I wear it way more#I take off my glasses to sleep and shower and the like but my bracelet follows me everywhere! How is it not part of my body just as much!#I guess I have been wearing glasses for longer overall but sequentially! Y'know! Haha
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proud to be the (so far) 0.5% of people who use a phone with a smart stylus
if you use multiple, pick the one you use the most, not your preferred one.
#i started traditional.. in the mid-2000s i got a wacom tablet. then drew mostly digital up until hmm.....#2017 or 2018....????? then i ... went fully traditional after that.#learned a few things: i do Way Better when i have a LIMITED CHOICE of what colors i have available to me#this watercolor set only has 12 cakes? as long as it hs primary secondary and tertiary colors then we are game na#or most of them anyway.#point being: digital art gave me too many endless possibilities of color and style and brushes to experiment with#me a chronically indecisive person who overthinks things#now ... painting takes time to set up and making sure i have all my materials in order and whatnot#so sometimes just drawing and inking something in my sketchbook is all the energy i have#but i wanna color something! well here is where i go back to digital art for a bit#my phone display is about 6x3 inches#about 160x77mm#it comes with a smart sylus which is functional enough for me to doodle#the small screen size limits my range of motion so that i dont get too caught up in “maybe a wide stroke here or a big stroke there!”#the size constraints force me to prioritize what i need to do to color my drawings without wasting time deliberating#so. yeah!#so this is the method i use the most AND it is my PREFERRED method#bc i rly do love painting with colored inks but ahhh...#sometimes i got the case of the morbs yknow?
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Might as well say it now but the last thing was really just the admission that i kept things from you? That should be obvious now tho… including that I only ever did that in your interest... but the thing i mainly wanted to verbalize (or write ig) is specifically that i set two goals when i decided to come back, because it couldn’t stay how it was. It was killing you. I could see that. So I planned to:
-> Get you out of your mother’s house, out of the abuse.
-> Get to montreal, where i would be able to actually work (ie. support us).
It was in whatever order… but that’s:
- Why I was so onboard with you living with your dad instead, even tho it would’ve been a less good place for me with my trauma. Clearly you were much happier with him whenever we visited. He motivated you to work instead of shaming you for not contributing enough. A better option than your mom, plus he lived in mtl at the time, but even if it shook out that he’d move further from where i wanted to go (i barely remember, but i think that was what we discussed at the pizza parlour that day?) it was still progress, a good thing.
- Why I kept trying to fundraise & look into cheap places we could live/move to. Not because I thought your mom would seriously throw you or me out… threats = control. She wouldn’t have followed through, but that situation provided me with concrete reasons to make dono posts, which would help achieve the goals I set. (I fucking hate making dono posts. I still refuse to do so despite my situation lol.) Even if she followed through, I would’ve made sure you were safe, no matter what. If we had found a place willing to accept us as tenants in that small town, i was going to cam while you were at school. I did a few times while we were still at her house lol… just for food money. Not all of that $ was online donations... I put some escort ads up too but the population there is so small, i only ever got a few responses and they were all time wasters. I played a lot of sims & went on tumblr a lot but i was camming/working on that stuff every day u weren’t there
- Why I was so adamant about it when your mom talked about moving to mtl & why I heavily encouraged her & was super 🙂👌”go ahead! we will hold down the fort!” When she went apartment hunting. This will sound shitty probably but please understand You were the priority & your mom was really just someone i regarded with disdain who unfortunately was an obstacle as much as a provider/resource: I never planned for us to stay with her once we moved. It is fr so hard to type out shit like this bc it’s things i never share but yeah i saw her as a pawn. Like 🤷🏻♀️ I felt justified to manipulate her because of how she abused you. Like that’s what you get lol. She was gonna get us from point A to point B and then I was gonna take you with me from point B to point C. I started putting things into motion right away to get us both out of there. I just didn’t expect that you’d want to stay. I guess nova had something to do with that though.
- Why i started stripping almost as soon as we got settled… one goal achieved, i had all the motivation in the world, it was up to me at that point to get 2/2. I was messaging with the agencies here over a year(s?) before i told you; one of them was willing to provide transport into the city & a place to stay temporarily. I was going to get you out of there no matter what. I already planned to do some form of in-person sw as soon as possible, i had already familiarized myself with the scene here before we moved. Days i didn’t come back with $ i was scouting clubs in person, meeting with drivers/agency owners, even the douche that owns la montrealaise or however tf u spell it. (He is not pleasant lol, very full of himself)
- In the meantime, i made 2 more goals. One for right then: help you get a job. And one for the future: help you get your GED. I was so happy when you had your interview and got that job, i took us out for steak, remember? I was so proud of you. (Sucks how that turned out but i remember the happy smile u had sitting across from me talking about the job while u were cutting ur steak up, so it still makes me happy when i remember, despite that…). When that didn’t work out i kept looking for other opportunities for you. The yotr program came along & nearly cinched it. I was really cursing myself for like setting a bad example idk when you picked nonprofit/not guaranteed work at the end. I kept supporting you no matter what even though you were throwing an opportunity away because I knew I would find another opportunity to show you. I only hoped you’d keep taking them… & you did. I STILL feel so happy & proud of you over that. Like you really did that. You gave yourself a chance and a way to survive. Getting to/from the job fair when i wasn’t there to support u/was in NS & even though you felt/got sick. You should always feel proud of yourself for that. ALWAYS!!! That’s how you survive!! You made the choice to survive and move forward.
This is the full context of why I was so pushy re:moving out. You must have been so destabilized from everything at that point… I’m sorry I didn’t realize that at the time. Nova took advantage of that oversight 😒 pmtfo. Your mom pmtfo too acting the way she did when i had stripper money. I was not paying that bitch rent, LMAOOOOOOO. She should’ve been grateful that i bought groceries instead of just keeping the $ for myself. Acting like taking a shower longer than 10 mins is the end of the world holy fuck. Stealing my razor? One of the worst roommates ever. *Specifically* the way she acted made me want to give you everything i could, and at that point it felt like, damn, why won’t you let me? You needed stability and familiarity…
Anyway… obviously it’s hard to summarize so many years in a few paragraphs. & my plans obviously didn’t factor in disability enough, or my own emotional state. I never wanted to make our home a place that you still felt stress and pressure. I won’t make excuses because that’s 100% what ended up happening with the imbalance of chores/cooking/etc. I wish we could’ve had support when we needed it, because even tho i can type all that about how much i care/have cared there is still those ugly feelings in my chest around… a lot of things.
& I’ll just say it here: this information is a huge reason why i have struggled so bad with watching you put more stress on yourself to support someone else. It’s hard to keep to myself when i like… just spent several years killing myself for you & additionally was put in that shitty situation bc i moved in with u to escape the trauma of where i was before. Neither of those things worked out for me… and i had way better chances to improve things. Maybe it’s different when two people have one of those issues each to deal with instead of a 2:0 (minus other circumstances) but that’s why it comes up again and again on here that i feel the need to warn or prevent or whatever. So many times i have said nothing spoke up & been ignored or dismissed & just accepted it & shut up & then had to helplessly watch you get hurt, i am so tired of it. The stupid thing is i literally knew it was gonna end up like this when we were both in our yotr placements. I still remember encouraging you to confess and follow your heart when we were sitting on that bench out front of the depot. My heart just dropped into the bottom of my stomach. It hurt so much that you kept falling in love or limerence with everyone except me. Like i was nothing. My self worth i literally don’t know will recover to be in a place that isn’t at least somewhat maladaptive. I kept sticking around trying to be there for u but I knew all the way back then 🥲 i feel a lot of resentment at times when it feels like i’m watching you throw it away after all that… on top of being cast aside for someone who you repeatedly emphasized shared so many of my characteristics. <- least WTAF way i can phrase that like seriously… It’s stupid but it just feels like it’s all gonna be for nothing sometimes and that hurts so bad. I know it’s like not my fucking business atp though & even typing this is like questionable but idc i need to say it 🤷🏻♀️ I’m just like 100% done shutting myself up seriously. I want to move on but jesus christ i put so much of myself into our relationship that it’s fucking hard. With all the context & everything that has happened it truly feels like ripping my whole heart out.
ANYWAY… that’s what i meant if i said smth before about i cant be too mad at myself idk if i posted that or not but in the end i achieved my main two goals & one additional. YOU achieved the job ofc. Just like… those were my goals long before we spoke about them yk? I constantly tried to push you toward them in whatever way u could handle so that you’d be okay. This apartment is like my biggest failure in that regard & within this context a huge reason why i hold such a grudge against the outpatient program that fucked my life over… cuz they fucked U over TOO. idk if I should share what my plan was honestly while i’m still here i’m having second thoughts. But lol yes there was a plan. I think it’s fine it’s nothing huge tbh i just. It’s the fact that the current situation is so FUCKED to be the literal opposite of what I meant to happen. Those therapists made me so fucking delusional i honestly cant even get into it like. This post is too long anyway
Okay well that was my last big thing to share. So yeah
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#z#oh if you see this. go and re/read the poem after 😊#this is important context really… it just sounds like dramatic flowery language otherwise tbh#so yeah#‘the last thing’ in reference to my tags on another post#i think it will show up under#im like#<- that tag#atp i’m mostly very devastated that all the plans i thought of to help mel and doodle and felix#never got anywhere and now never will because i can’t be here anymore#and even if i could i’m too worn down to actually achieve/work toward lofty goals like this again rn#all i can do is like. not ask for money back for the dental! i hate that i cant do more. i miss them#more than my own family#i always felt really happy that mel accepted me like a sister. my family is not like that#i honestly cry at least once a week thinking about felix#anyway. yeah. okay#well i still have one more thing i guess#i’ll send you the breakup message i wrote out a few years ago when i feel / am at a place where#i can even respond to that text. which i read once only so i wouldn’t remember the words but i felt positively toward it#huge difference from the original shit u had sent anyway#i’m emotionally drained after writing all this tho i’m doing things out of order probably but oh well
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Uh, consider, if you will, JayVik x artists reader? Not sure if u wrote for JayVik so if not then just Viktor’s good too!!
But uh, I’ve been drawing for my whole life and I’m kinda ass at science and I just think it’d be neat to hang out in the lab with them and be,, entirely unhelpful
I’m making little doodles of characters or flowers and they’re making magic tools for the betterment of society (very cool)
Also, it seems to b common for artists characters to also paint but i mega hate painting cause it’s evil and, the worst ™️. I mostly work with markers
Also also, I think it would b very cute if the reader just doodled Jayce n Viktor n showed them after all proud of the drawing n stuff!!
Obviously u don’t have to include everything, I kinda rambled a bit here, but uh, yeah!
Hope ur doing good :))
𝐃𝐫𝐚𝐰𝐧 𝐭𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 - 𝐉𝐚𝐲𝐕𝐢𝐤 𝐱 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫
⍣✰..𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐯𝐢𝐬𝐢𝐛𝐥𝐲 𝐚𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐛𝐞𝐭𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦, 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐝 𝐬𝐡𝐞'𝐬 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐢𝐭 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟
⇢ 𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐲/𝐧, 𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐢𝐬𝐭! 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫, 𝐣𝐚𝐲𝐯𝐢𝐤, 𝐥𝐨𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐟𝐥𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠
𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝟐 (𝐛𝐨𝐧𝐮𝐬 𝐬𝐜𝐞𝐧𝐞) 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝟑
𝐢 𝐠𝐢𝐠𝐠𝐥𝐞𝐝 𝟏𝟎 𝐦𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐮𝐩 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐢𝐭𝐥𝐞. 𝐈 𝐚𝐥𝐬𝐨 𝐝𝐢𝐝𝐧'𝐭 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐢𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐨𝐧𝐢𝐜 𝐨𝐫 𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐜 𝐛𝐞𝐭𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐣𝐚𝐲𝐯𝐢𝐤 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐬𝐨 𝐈 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐜 。^‿^。
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The lab had become something of a second home for y/n. Not because she had any business being there—Hextech and alchemical theory went straight over her head, and she was perfectly content to keep it that way—but because of them.
Jayce and Viktor were as different as fire and steel, the kind of contrast that made their arguments legendary and their rare moments of agreement dangerous. They bickered, they teased, they pushed each other to the edge, but beneath it all was something unshakable.
And Y/n had somehow found herself tangled in the middle of it.
The stool she sat on had long since become hers by default, wedged between Viktor’s usual seat and Jayce’s endless mess of blueprints. It put her right in the crossfire of their arguments, but she wouldn’t have it any other way.
At the moment, Viktor was winning—at least, if the smug little curve of his mouth was any indication.
“Jayce, you must be at least somewhat familiar with the concept of precision.”
“Don’t start with me, Vik.”
Jayce was pacing again, shirt sleeves rolled up, hands running through his hair in frustration. The moment Viktor challenged him, he had to make a show of his suffering, like the world had personally wronged him. Y/n, who had been sketching the curve of Viktor’s jaw just moments before, sighed dramatically.
“Jayce, I’m begging you to sit down before you wear a hole in the floor.”
Jayce turned to her, looking personally offended. “Y/n, love of my life, have you seen what he’s making me deal with?”
Viktor barely looked up from his work. “Making you? I was under the impression you begged for my help.”
Jayce groaned, dropping into his chair with all the weight of a man carrying the world’s burdens. “I hate both of you.”
“You love both of us,” Y/n corrected, flipping to a fresh page.
“Tragically,” Viktor added dryly.
Jayce huffed. “This is abuse.”
“It is affection.” Viktor’s hand reached out absently, fingertips grazing Jayce’s wrist before returning to his work. It was a small thing, an automatic thing, but it made y/n’s heart clench just a little.
Because that was how they were. Not just words or dramatic declarations (though Jayce was particularly good at those), but the little things—familiar touches, the way they naturally fell into each other’s space, the comfort in their presence.
She sketched the moment without thinking.
Jayce, head tipped back, exasperated. Viktor, ever smug, hand still resting against him, fingers loose. The way their bodies leaned towards each other, even in irritation.
“You’re drawing us again,” Jayce accused, though there was no heat to it.
Y/n smirked, dragging her charcoal in long, confident strokes. “Can you blame me? You two make excellent muses.”
Viktor hummed, casting her a sidelong glance. “And which one of us is your favorite muse, I wonder?”
“Oh, don’t do this,” Jayce groaned.
“Oh, but I must.”
Y/n, to her credit, considered it. “Hmm. That depends.”
Viktor quirked an eyebrow.
“On?”
“On which of you is willing to pose shirtless for my next series.”
Jayce’s head snapped up immediately. “Oh, I volunteer.”
Viktor scoffed. “Of course you do.”
“Come on, Vik, don’t pretend you don’t like showing off,” Jayce said, leaning against him now, all broad weight and smug warmth. “I like when you show off.”
Y/n watched with barely concealed amusement as Viktor shot him a long, unimpressed look—but there was a flicker of something softer in his expression, something that told her Jayce’s words weren’t entirely unwelcome.
Jayce grinned, and before Viktor could protest, he leaned in and pressed a kiss to his jaw, barely above his collar. It was quick, casual—something that had once been rare but had now become theirs. Viktor didn’t react, not visibly, but y/n caught the way his fingers stilled over his work for just a second.
It was moments like this that made her work impossible to put down.
“You two are ridiculous,” she said, though she was smiling.
“You love us,” Jayce echoed back at her, smug.
“Tragically,” Viktor deadpanned.
She laughed, shaking her head as she finally turned the sketchbook around. “Speaking of love—look.”
They did.
The pages were filled with them.
Viktor, hunched over his work, a lazy smirk on his lips. Jayce, mid-laugh, all wild joy. The way they moved around each other, the way they fit together, even when they were arguing. The way they looked at her.
And at the end—
All three of them.
Jayce, sprawled back, arms draped lazily over both of them, his usual warmth pulling them in. Viktor, against his side, head tipped slightly toward y/n, something softer there. And her, caught between them, exactly where she belonged.
There was silence.
Then Jayce exhaled. “Shit, that’s—”
“Perfect,” Viktor finished, voice quieter.
Y/n bit her lip. “Yeah?”
Jayce was already pulling her in, lifting her straight off the stool, laughing into her shoulder. “You’re insane, you know that? How did we end up with you?”
“You charmed me,” Y/n teased. “Or maybe Viktor did, I don’t know. He’s hard to resist.”
“I am,” Viktor agreed, flipping through the pages with something bordering on reverence. “And yet, it is you who captured us.”
Jayce pressed a kiss to her temple, grinning against her skin. “What do we have to do to get you to paint these?”
Y/n hummed. “Well… I do take payment in the form of physical affection.”
Jayce didn’t even hesitate before kissing her properly, pulling her into his chest with the ease of someone who knew she was his. Warmth, security, the unmistakable feel of home.
And then—before she could blink—Viktor’s hand curled against her jaw, tilting her just slightly. His kiss was softer, more controlled, but no less possessive. A silent claim, spoken through the press of lips and the steady grounding of his palm against her cheek.
When he pulled away, Jayce whistled low. “Damn.”
“Payment,” Viktor said simply.
Y/n was breathless. “That might be worth a series.”
Jayce groaned, flopping dramatically against the table. “Oh, great, now she’s inspired. We’ll never get her back.”
Viktor smirked, tugging y/n back onto his lap as she flipped through her sketchbook again.
“That,” he said, kissing the top of her head, “is a problem I am willing to have.”
#✰⍣ 𝐡𝐲𝟔𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐧#arcane#x reader#x you#arcane viktor x reader#viktor x reader#viktor arcane#arcane viktor#arcane jayce#jayce talis#jayce arcane#jayce talis x reader#jayce x reader#jayvik#jayce x viktor#arcane jayvik#the more the merrier
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Contain yourself Captain (Patreon)
#Doodles#SCII#Captain Sterling#NEJ#KUP#Quickly! Before the end of 2023 notices! (The year has been over for two and a half months now lol)#So yeah I found some mid-'23 doodles that I realized didn't make it into the yearly roundup either! So here they are now!#Silly lads#Mostly just speculating about Sterling and my VUX lads' chemistry lol - they have a little bit of chemistry with each other as well#Mostly as friends tho mostly as friends - NEJ is not particularly inclined to be around other similarly sentient species lol#He taps out at plants plants are good for him#He is fascinated by plants communicating with the chemicals they release tho - don't let him near a Supox I don't know what will happen yet#ANYway this is supposed to be about him and Sterling! And KUP and Sterling!#Yeah NEJ doesn't feel particularly strongly about this Captain lol - he's just Some Guy who occasionally brings by plants but also talks#Take the good with the bad and all that lol#KUP is the type that's fun and easy to wind up so Sterling does lol - Captains are silly nuisances this is known#But is it just play or is it something more?? Captain Sterling are you picking on him because you don't know how to express yourself#He /is/ young#I am still labouring under the impression that VUX are generally taller than humans I just think it's Fun#If he's going to be this hom around KUP what the hell is he gonna be like around ZEX#I just think an openly flirty Captain in return would be fun! Space Faring Romancing!#Guess he'll find out once he gets there lol
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I find the love god to be both absolutely terrifying and hilarious at the same time. His soulmate comes back as a worm? Build a luxurious terriaum with tons of leaves for them to feast on. Soulmate is now someone's pet golden retriever? Time to steal them off of the family's front lawn and build them a nice dog house away from society. A trout? The God has gone fishing with an industrial fish tank in tow. It'd actually probably be pretty nice....whenever the soulmate isn't human. When human it's just this insane guy randomly showing up and refusing to leave you alone while insisting that he's a god.
Yeah, whenever Reader is reincarnated, Aizono takes really good care of Reader regardless of what form Reader takes! Tbh having a god take care of your every need must be sooo nice lmao
That said, it'd still be nice to have Aizono take care of you when you're human too imo because he wouldn't just assert that he's a god out of nowhere lol
It'd mostly depend on the situation, but in modern times, he'll assimilate into society and try to woo you naturally. Of course, if he can't woo you naturally, he'll just whisk you away to his palace, which might not be as nice but hey, at least you don't have to worry about bills, rent, or groceries!
But yeah, Aizono is the type of guy who's super devoted and usually tries not to be forceful if he doesn't have to be (he's the type of yandere that rather use his brain than brawn).
He'll be careful to make sure you won't be too scared or wary of him and will try to build up a bond between you two naturally. Since he knows you two are bound for eternity, he's not in as much of a rush as other yanderes. Of course, in the backdrop, he'll eliminate any potential suitors (usually by pairing them with someone else, though he's not above disposing of them entirely).
Kidnapping and showing that he's a god is usually lower on his priority list. His priorities lie in making sure you like him/aren't wary of him, like to spend time with him, and rely on him. He prefers manipulating the situation so that you WANT to stay with him.
(here's a doodle of Aizono and worm!reader <3)
#yandere oc#male yandere#tsuuper ocs#yandere x reader#yandere x you#tw yandere#male yandere oc x reader#male yandere oc#yandere love god#Aizono Tsuu OC#i totally get the vision but aizono is a manipulative yandere rather than a unhinged funny one#ok i lied he can be kinda unhinged too LOL#but he's smart enough NOT to just appear and claim he's a god to a human reader#he's a yan but his love is actually really pure + filled w pining i think#plus he's lived long enough to know what works and what doesn't... for the most part#he's aware that just stalking reader and claiming he's a god isn't beneficial at all#tho this would def be a fun concept for another god character!#who knows -- maybe i will make aizono a friend
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