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i really want to stress that only pointing toward likely paid, biased studies on dissociative disorders as your only "source" on the entirety of plurality, you're making an appeal to authority. why would you rather suck up to the medical complex than listen to someone talk about their own experience? the medical industry is not your friend- it's here for profit. whether or not you want to accept it, modern medicine is fueled by money, not a genuine desire to help people. this industry treats dissociatives like shit, i want you to know. it chews us up and spits us out and doesn't give a singular fuck about whether or not we're getting the help we need.
if something won't make money IMMEDIATELY in the modern medical industry, it will NOT get researched. studies have to acquire funding before they can be performed. this is why there's so little research done into dissociative disorders in the first place, let alone lesser known psychological phenomena. there's BARELY studies out there for dissociative disorders, you can't leverage that against other psychological phenomena. i cannot stress enough that asserting that because there are not heaps of medical studies to point toward doesn't mean that something doesn't exist, or that someone isn't experiencing something.
why do you trust an industry built off of greed and letting people die for the sake of profits over individuals relaying their lived experiences? yes, modern medicine is very effective and very much can help you and keep you alive & you should not discredit the studies that are already there. but keep in mind that just because a study is only performed on one subject doesn't mean it's discrediting other experiences. why is your knee jerk reaction to trust an industry over an individual's experiences? that ain't punk at all.
a study done on schizophrenic psychosis in specific is not discrediting other types of psychosis- it's just focused on a specific type of psychosis that can manifest. it's not there to say no one else can be psychotic. same goes for plurality and dissociative disorders. dissociative plurality is a specific kind of plurality- its existence does NOT discredit the existence of other types of plurality.
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â¤ď¸Get well soon â¤ď¸
â âĽTW: Rape, Somnophilia, Non-Con |MDNI
Curlyâs precious little sister is really sick your caring brother making sure your every need is met. Curly notices that your low on medication but he doesnât wanna leave you alone so he calls Jimmy and see if he can take care of you while he picks up youâre medication. Jimmy agrees.
Curly tells Jimmy that you have 1 pill left Jimmy nods. Jimmy walks over you your room he sees you snuggled up watching tv. âHey kidâ he sluggishly says leaning on your door frame. âHi Jimmyâ you say as you turn your head to cough. Jimmy wrinkles his nose in disgust he walks out of your room yelling at you that heâs gonna come back with your medication.
Jimmy walks to the kitchen sees the fridge full of pictures of you and curly. He looks at the pictures of you. What a slut he thinks always wearing shorts the hug your ass and low cut shirts and dresses to tease him. He snaps out of his thought and remembered his special pill for you. Jimmy gets water and walks over to your room. He hands you the pill and water. You look at the pill looking different then the ones curly gives you. âWhy is it a different color?â
Jimmy sighs he grabs the bridge of his nose â Curly said these are the extra strength ones their supposed to assist your regular medication. You donât question it Jimmy has never ever told you a lie plus if your big brother said it why doubt it. You grab the medication from Jimmyâs calloused hands. You take the medication washing it down with water. Jimmy and sets a timer on his phone for 10 minutes.
Time skip to 10 minutes
Jimmy walks into your room and sees you asleep perfect the thinks. He takes off your covers only a long short covering you. Jimmyâs hands roam your legs he lifts your shirt and sees your panties his has touches it rubbing your clit up and down. He looks up and sees you knocked out cold.
He slides your panties off and starts sucking and licking your clit he hears a small moan from you. What a filthy girl itâs like youâre basically telling him to fuck you. What type of man would he be ignoring this kind of request. He quickly takes his belt off lowing his rough jeans and boxers. He pumps his cock a few time Jimmy doesnât bothering prepping you. He grabs your hips digging his nails into your delicate soft skin and thrust him self roughly. Jimmy tilts his head back enjoying how warm your pussy is from your fever.
You tensed up in your sleep at a foreign invasion inside your cunt, before the medicine he gave you succumbed your body back into the dreamland. After a few thrust Jimmy was in a trance how tight your warm walls squeezed him you want this you need him to fill you up. Jimmy stopped caring about waking you up.
He started at a rough pace, gripping your legs tightly in his hands as he pounded your - no, his - cunt. Yes, youâd be his cumdump from now on. He knew he could be manipulative when he wanted to, he would have you as his perfect little cocksleeve sooner rather than later. He should have done this much much sooner. Jimmy speed up sped up again, ramming into you as fast as he could. He felt your body shudder and jolt.
He leaned down to bite at your lips when his dick twitched. He stopped balls deep inside you, cuming with a loud groan. He pulled out of you white cum dribbling out of your pussy he quickly pulled out his phone taking a picture of your destroyed pussy. Jimmy puts his pants back on and lowers your shirt and walks down stairs turning on the tv. A few minutes later curly walks in with medication.
âSorry about the long wait Jim I got stuck in traffic I hope she wasnât too much trouble for youâ curly says scratching the back of his head. Jimmy gets up from the couch âthe brat wasnât to much trouble sheâs asleep in her bedâ. Jimmy gets his keys âsee yaâ Jimmy slams the door closed before curly can say anything.
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Another Complicated Love Story
A Jey Uso x Rhea Ripley FanFic
Chapter 5 | Masterlist
CW none
Chapter 6: Thatâs What You Get
Thatâs what you get when you let your heart win
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating
- Thatâs What You Get by Paramore
December 24, 2024
Rhea was gently shaken before the light was turned on. Rhea blinked her eyes. She gently rubbed them. They were a little puffy from crying the night before. She heard her best friend, Jessica clear her throat.
âFrom Adelaide, South Australia, your future Womenâs World Champion, Rhea Bloody Ripley!!â Jessica announced.
Rhea sat up and smiled. âNo announcing before coffee.â
âWell good thing the coffeeâs done, mate. Now get up,â Jessica said.
Rhea followed Jessica into the kitchen. She looked at her phone. A lot of texts from Naomi. None from Jey. Fuck. Fucking Liv Morgan. Wasnât she still with Dom? Why would she be pushing up on Jey? And what were they talking about anyway?
Jessica poured Rhea a mug from the pot. She sipped it and read through Naomiâs messages.
Jey said yâall are done? What happened?
Are you okay?
Just let me know youâre okay, Big Momma â¤ď¸
Rhea sighed. âNaomiâs texting me.â
âI told her Iâd make sure youâd text her this morning,â Jessica replied. âI told her you were alright.â
âYou and Naomi talk?â Rhea asked, smiling.
âYeah, weâve been DMing since Iâve been planning to come see you. Iâve got her number now. Weâre friends.â
Rhea shook her head. âOk, let me text back.â
Hi Nae. Iâm okay. Yeah weâre done. He was chatting up Liv Morgan. Did he tell you that?
Naomi: Liv Morgan?! Iâm gonna get to the bottom of this
Rhea: Thereâs nothing to figure out. Thanks though.
âI think Naomi would agree with you about this all being a misunderstanding,â Rhea said, sitting on one of her bar stools.
Rhea had updated Jessica after she left medical. Damian went with her to the airport and he helped with getting her seat switched so she wouldnât have to sit next to Jey. But he was flying to New York so he left for a different gate.
âIâm just saying I think you should hear him out,â Jessica said. âI donât think he spent over a year pining for you to then go and chat up Liv Morgan. It doesnât make sense.â
âDom didnât make sense either,â Rhea said.
âI know and if I ever see him backstage, youâll have to stop me from kicking him in the dick,â Jessica said, rubbing Rheaâs back. Rhea laughed into her coffee. âBut even on FaceTime I could see how smitten Jey is with you.â
Rheaâs smile faded.
âSo if thereâs something to figure out, letâs do it,â Jessica said.
âCan we figure out breakfast first, please?â
âWell you were supposed to be taking me to Waffle House. Is that off the table?â Jessica asked.
Rhea sighed. âNo, letâs get ready and go.â
They finished their coffee, focusing their conversation on Jessica, her boyfriend Tony, and life back home in Australia. They showered and got dressed. Jessica pulled her long, brown hair into a ponytail. Rhea combed and brushed her hair, making sure it was straight.
âI think Iâm ready for long hair again,â Rhea said, eyeing Jessicaâs ponytail.
âYouâll get there soon enough.â
Before they headed out, Rhea saw another text from Naomi.
Naomi: Tell my girl Jessica I said whatâs up. Yâall have fun today. Donât forget I have gifts for you!
Rhea: Thanks girl. Iâll pick them up soon. Iâll bring your gift as well.
Naomi: For me?! You shouldnât have!
Rhea smiled and put her phone down to drive.
Rhea and Jessica were enjoying their meal, snapping pics and posting on Instagram.
âI need to figure out a way to take some of these waffles back home,â Jessica said, tearing into her second chocolate chip waffle.
Rhea laughed. Her phone buzzed. A text from Naomi.
Naomi: Do you know what Jey and Liv were talking about? Do you want to know?
Rhea sighed. Did it matter? Maybe it did. Maybe thatâs why Naomi was texting her. But would Jey tell the truth about what they were talking about anyway? What if he just lied to her? Rhea slid her phone over to Jessica. She read the message.
âHell yeah we wanna know. Text her back!â
âIâm only responding âcause you wanna know.â
âLiar,â Jessica replied.
Rhea: What were they talking about?
Naomi: They were talking about Waffle House and Christmas plans. You know how enthusiastic he is about Waffle House. He would talk to any damn one about Waffle House.
Rhea laughed. Jey definitely would. If Waffle House had ambassadors, Jey Uso would be one. He was the reason they were at Waffle House now.
âBut why didnât he just say that?â Rhea asked.
âBased on the timeline of events you told me, you didnât give him a chance to,â Jessica said. âYou kicked him out of medical, went to the airport with Priest, switched seats on the plane. And he probably wanted to respect your space.â
All the color drained from Rheaâs face. She really hadnât let him say anything. She rubbed her temples.
âI fucked up didnât I?â
âMaybe a tiny bit,â Jessica said, smiling nervously.
Why hadnât she trusted him? Given him the benefit of the doubt? Because she had trusted Dom. Because she had given Dom the benefit of the doubt and it blew up in her face. Because Dom hurt her. And now she had hurt Jey. She remembered his face in medical. Had caught glimpses of him at the airport when they landed back in Florida. She had been too angry. She had shut down.
âFucking Dom,â Rhea sighed.
âFucking Dom,â Jessica repeated.
Rhea: I fucked up didnât I? Thereâs no fixing this, is there?
Naomi: Heâs open to talking. I can be the mediator.
Rhea: Good to know. Iâll see you Thursday.
Naomi: Yeah we have to figure out this ride situation for the holiday show.
Shit. Rhea and Jessica were supposed to be riding with Naomi and Jey. She put a pin in that and went out to text Damian.
Rhea: Oh my God. Jey and Liv were talking about Waffle House.
Damian: I told you to go to therapy.
Rhea: I thought I was fine.
Damian: Youâre always fine until youâre not. Do you need the number?
Rhea: No, I got it. Iâll make an appointment.
Damian: Donât make me check on you
Rhea: lol I got it. And Jessica says hi.
Damian: Hi Jessica. Iâm glad youâre there in person to help talk some sense into Rhea. Text me when she makes that appointment.
Rhea: Really? Youâre just gonna text that like this isnât my phone?
Damian: Well, donât read it. I donât know. Iâll talk to you later.
Rhea: lol love you.
Damian: love you too.
Thursday, December 26
Rhea parked her car on the road in front of Jimmy and Naomiâs house. They would be taking Jimmyâs SUV and she didnât want to block the driveway. They were there a few minutes early. Rhea and Jey were meeting at 9 am to talk before getting on the road at 10. Naomi would keep Jessica company. She felt uneasy. She had tried to text Jey directly, but everything she started typing sounded dumb. Even Jessica tried to help, but it still wasnât right. So she had just let Naomi do the talking. She would explain herself today. She gripped the steering wheel.
âHey,â Jessica said gently. She reached out and touched Rheaâs hand. âNo matter what, itâs gonna be okay. I know it doesnât feel like it, but it will. Heâs not Dom, but Iâll kick him in the dick too if it helps.â
Rhea laughed. âThanks Jess. Iâm sure Jey wonât need a kick in the dick though.â
âOkay then. Letâs go see if we still have a ride to this holiday show,â Jessica said.
âOkay thatâs not helping,â Rhea said, opening her car door.
âMy bad,â Jessica replied, opening her car door as well.
Rhea grabbed Naomiâs, Jimmyâs, and Jeyâs gifts out the trunk. Rhea and Jessica rang the bell.
âNaomi!!!â Rhea exclaimed.
âBig Momma!â Naomi replied enthusiastically. .
âNaomi!!!â Jessica exclaimed.
âJessica!!!â Naomi cheered.
Naomi hugged Rhea and Jessica. Rhea handed Naomi the gifts.
âKeep Jeyâs. Youâll be able to give it to him yourself. He brought his gift for you. How are you doing?â
âApart from feeling like a giant idiot, Iâm great,â Rhea said.
âItâs gonna be okay, girl,â Naomi said. âCome in.â
Rhea and Jessica stepped inside. But what if it wasnât okay? What if Jey never wanted to see her again? What if they were really done? An uneasy feeling settled in her stomach.
Please donât throw up, she thought.
Jessica gave Rhea a hug before sitting on the couch. Naomi walked Rhea to the sunroom where Jey was waiting. Naomi opened the door. She stepped aside and Rhea walked in. Rheaâs breath caught. He looked so good even if he was just in a hoodie and sweatpants. He had on all black. He had a fresh haircut. And he lookedâŚsolemn. He wasnât his smiling, silly self. Had she done that to him? She felt her eyes start to water, but she blinked back the tears. Rhea smiled, but Jey didnât return it. She gripped the Christmas gift bag tighter in her hands.
âCan I leave you two alone?â Naomi asked.
âYes,â they said simultaneously.
âOkay. Iâll be back at 10,â Naomi said. She shut the door behind her.
âHi,â Rhea said, softly. She was still standing near the door.
âHi,â Jey said matter-of-factly. He put his hands in the pockets of his black sweatpants.
Heâs really mad, Rhea thought. Understandable.
âCan we sit down?â Rhea asked.
âYeah,â Jey said, sitting down.
Rhea sat on the other side of the couch, leaving some space between them. She put her gift bag in between them and rubbed her hands on her thighs. Her hands were starting to sweat already. She quietly exhaled before looking at him.
âIâm sorry for how I acted on Monday,â Rhea said slowly. âYou didnât do anything wrong. It was me. I was wrong. I put my crap on you and I shouldnât have. Iâm starting therapy in January since I have unresolved emotions aroundâŚyou know who. I donât wanna put any more of my crap on you. You didnât deserve that.â
Jey nodded. Rhea wanted the silence to be filled with anything. She couldnât handle the quiet and hated how distant she felt from him.
âWhat happenedâŚreally hurt,â Jey started. âI care about you a lot. Trust is important to me. You have to trust me and I have to trust you. Right now, I donât trust you.â
Rheaâs mouth twisted to the side. His words felt like a blow to the chest. She blinked a few times and looked away from him. Fuck, fuck, fuck, she thought. She took a deep breath and blew out a shaky breath. She looked at him.
âI understand. And I will do everything in my power to earn your trust back. IfâŚif you let me,â Rheaâs voice cracked at the end and a tear fell from her eye. She quickly wiped it away.
âWeâll see,â Jey said.
What did that mean? She had gotten used to reading him, but this was really her first time dealing with upset Jey. Sheâd never seen him this upset and definitely not at her. But she messed up. She had to own it. And whatever happened, happened. Even if that meant losing him forever.
âHereâs your gift,â Rhea said, trying and failing to hold back more tears. She held out the bag to him. He took it, their hands brushing each other. Her heart stopped aching long enough for it to flutter. He handed her her gift.
Rhea stood up, wiping more tears away. âIâll see you out there? Are we good for Jacksonville?â
Jey nodded. âWeâre good.â
Rhea nodded and then quickly left. She walked to the couch and sat in between Jessica and Naomi. They wrapped their arms around her. Rhea let more tears fall.
âHow did it go?â Jessica asked.
âOkay,â Rhea said quietly. âWe can ride together.â
âSo you two are good?â Naomi asked, uncertain.
âI donât know. I think weâre okay for now,â Rhea said. âItâs a lot to work through.â
Naomi nodded. âThatâs fair. You wanna open your gift?â
Rhea shrugged. âWhy not?â
She reached in the bag and pulled out a black, rectangular box. She opened it and gasped. A beautiful Cuban link bracelet with diamonds. It was similar to the one Jey had. She smiled.
âNice,â Jessica said, under her breath.
Rhea closed it and put it back in the bag. She opened up the card he had in there.
Iâm used to you catching up to how Iâm feeling. So I understand if youâre not ready to hear me say I love you, but I do. I love you. I shouldnât write this in a note to you. I should say it to your beautiful face. But I donât want to scare you off. But Iâm pretty sure you love me too. Itâs in your eyes, the way you stare at me sometimes. I know because I stare at you like that too. Things are getting serious for me. I hope youâre thinking like that too. I see a future for us forreal. Thank you for a wonderful time together so far. Months have felt like forever. I wonder what years will feel like. I canât wait to find out.
Love, Jey
Tears streamed down Rheaâs face. He loved her! He loved her! Rhea had written her note for his gift a few days before the drama on Raw. But she left it there, full of hope. And it seems like Jey had left his note in there for her. So there was a chance. Maybe they werenât completely done.
âAre you okay? What did he say?â Jessica asked.
Rhea nodded. âThese are happy tears.â
âIâll get you some tissue,â Naomi said.
Naomi returned and Rhea wiped her face.
âThank you. He said he loves me. And I wrote in my note that I love him.â
âYâall are so sickening,â Naomi said.
âAgreed,â Jessica said.
Rhea laughed. She held the note to her chest and sighed. She started crying again.
âHey itâs 9:58,â Jey said, walking over to the girls. He stopped when he saw Rhea. âAre you okay?â
Rhea smiled and nodded. âHappy tears.â
Jey smiled for the first time at her. And Rhea wanted to collapse into a puddle on the floor. He held his hand out to her. She hesitated, putting the note down. He stuck out both hands and nodded. She took them and he pulled her into a hug. He smelled amazing. Rhea held him tight. He squeezed her too. They separated and he wiped some of her tears away. He looked from her eyes to her lips and Rheaâs heart pounded. He kissed her on the forehead. She was just happy to feel his lips on her again.
âWhile Iâm glad yâall made up, yâall are gonna be late if you donât get going,â Jimmy said.
âUgh, really Jimmy? You canât let them have a moment?â Naomi said.
Jimmy held up his hands. âIâm just saying.â
âLetâs go,â Jey said. âBye Jim.â
âBye Jey. Nice meeting you, Jessica. Bye Rhea,â Jimmy said, as Naomi walked up to him.
Naomi kissed Jimmy and told him to take it easy. âI love you.â
âI love you too. Be safe and have fun,â Jimmy replied.
Jessica and Rhea waved at Jimmy. Rhea grabbed her bag out of her car and tossed it in the SUV. Jessica and Rhea sat in the back. Naomi and Jey in front, Naomi in the driverâs seat. Naomi put on her playlist and they headed to Jacksonville.
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Fours a Franchise
Part 19
Wordcount: 6,978
A male cop sat by your bedside that afternoon.
Asking you as much as he could while Judy and him took turns writing things and asking things as well. âThose men, who were they?âÂ
âHard to say.â You replied as calmly as you could. You were a horrible liar according to everyone but you tried your best to dance around the truth. Sweating bullets and being able to thankfully blame it on sepsis and medication.
âWhat about that night?â The cop asked as Judy wrote things down.
âThey just showed up⌠Do we have to ask all this right now?â You coughed out sickly. You felt like absolute death.
âI'm afraid we do, Miss YN... Did you know them?...Witnesses say you called someone.âÂ
âJill is the only one alive. Just say Jill.â You mumbled in agitation. Oh you wanted so badly to unravel her lie that she was SUPPOSED to be hiding under a bed and you were on the roof on the other side of the house fighting Ghostface when you called Stu. She was a fucking liar but you had to bite your tongue. You both had a deal here.
âNo, of course not. Who I called wasn't those guys if that's what you're implying...I was calling numbers on my phone for help and accidentally called a distant friend I barely ever see. I meant to call Dewey and accidentally called him. He probably thought I was pranking him or something. Ghostface attacked me after that I dropped my phone in the yard and fell off the roof.â You shrugged. Trying not to look at the cop and keeping a poker face with the truth with sprinkles of lies in it.Â
The officer wrote things down, âDid those two men take you against your will from this hospital?âÂ
âYes.â You firmly stated and looked back at him. Not a lie. They did drag you out. That was God's honest truth that you wish they wouldn't have done but also what choices did you all have left?
âTheir description?âÂ
You tried to ponder, truthfully having to remember what Jill even said. She rushed it out while threatening you in a half delirious fever type of state. âI umâŚThey uh didn't let me look at them too muchâŚâ
âElaborate for us. Why wouldn't you look at your captors?â He sternly demanded
You softly raised your hand trying to find the words and swiped a hand motion over your eye. Getting nervous he might be unraveling you already.Â
âYou mean blindfolded? Threatened you?âÂ
âB-Blindfold. Yeah, they blindfolded me once in the car.â What a lie but a good one to save yourself. You didn't know if you could lie that well so try as you.might you gave a half truth. âI passed out most of the car ride, anyways. I didn't see where they took me like roads and everything. And umâŚAnd once at the house, I wasn't around them much and they didn't let me see them with being uhâŚBlindfolded and tied. I was way too weak to even try escapingâŚâ You swallowed.Â
âToo weak?âÂ
âYeah. Too scared. Too sick. Too injured. I really was out of it and a sitting duck as a hostage.â You gave with a tight voice. God, you might puke again.Â
You yelled internally, âDamn it, YN. Pull it together. Tell some damn useful fake info!â Especially now that the cop eyed you, pausing in their writing to analyze you.Â
You continued, âBut um I did see them a few times and at Kirby's of courseâŚOne had red hair I think and far apart teeth and eyes. Tall⌠The other with dark hair had a hook nose and tan skinâŚUmâŚThe tall one had a tattoo of something on his shoulder. UhâŚRight. Yeah, his right shoulder. He⌠â You debated but just went for it. âThey reminded me of that Tim and James guy from Windsor years back. Just older and different.â
âSo you think these men are the same ones from the 98 incident in Ohio??â Judy asked instead and looked intrigued at the revelation.
It was risky. It could link Billy and Stu to Tim and James like you tried 13 years agoâŚBut it could also get them away from the Tim and James image and send police on a wild goose chase for a while.
You sighed, âThe one's never found or proven? I can't say..Maybe? I was in too much shock. It all happened fast and I was on anesthesia once at the hospital andâŚâ You sighed more begrudgingly this time. âThis time; I was too focused on protecting Jill at the house than to get details on who those men were but they did remind me of them. I just know that the one definitely had a tattoo and the other had a hooked nose and gree- no, blue. Yeah, blue eyes.â You swallowed down the lies just spewing from you to save your ass while you felt your back sweating and soaking your hospital gown.
âWhat was it? The tattoo?âÂ
Oh shitâŚShit! Damn, what did that little murdering cretin say it was? Oh noâŚThink think-
You gave a tight uncomfortable smile and shook your head, âA Phoenix or Dragon or something? I don't remember.â Well the not remembering part was true.Â
âAnd if we reviewed cameras; would it match your story of being dragged out?âÂ
You ALMOST felt a coughing fit happen at how dry your mouth wasâŚBut ICU had no cameras in the room, you remembered that much. Only the hallway.
Judy wrote all this down and nodded to herself. Hopefully that was goodâŚ
âYesâŚI was dragged out against my will.âÂ
âââââââââââ
Gale listened beside Dewey as they stayed out of the room but within ear shot as he was still technically on the case as Sheriff till he fully turned his badge in. Dewey seemed like he didn't want to see you, didn't want to be near you, didn't want anything to do with you, especially the more you spoke.Â
After the officer left your hospital room with Judy in tow, Gale went in despite Dewey trying to get her not to. It seemed she wasn't even worrying about Judy, just enraged at your lies. Dewey was trying to grab her arm but she barged in anyways once you 3 were alone.
You laid there still sicker than a dog but feeling more aware with the right treatment each hour. You gazed over at the woman you once tried so hard to see as a friend even after everything she had done over a decade ago. Look where it got you?
âWhat are you doing?â Gale demanded with a stern hiss. âWhat are you playing at? We all saw them and you know who they were. Shit, you protected them! You protected them from Dewey!âÂ
You said nothingâŚGlancing over at Dewey in the doorway who wouldn't look at you. A frown and tense look on his face as he folded his arms.
âListen, YN. I know now. Okay? I do. I should have listened; I believe you. I know Jill Roberts was one of the Ghostface's and she helped Charlie. If you help me; we can lock her up. Randy and all the other victims can get justice.âÂ
Your eyes widened with a tiny glimmer of hope in you but you shoved it down and knew better. Gale could just be baiting you. Getting you to admit just to lock you up too. And besidesâŚIt was too late for that. They shoved you aside, damned you, and protected Jill. There was no turn from that. They could have killed Jill when she showed how she was the potential killer or at least arrested her and kill or fight Billy and Stu afterwardsâŚYou didn't know if you would've fought for Billy and Stu as much had Jill been dead but you'd be damned if Jill lived and your only support in Billy and Stu died because of Dewey and Gale. That hope was dead.
Gale stared at you as you were silent. She urged you, âPlease just give a correct goddamn statement. Even just to us. I swear, if you tell us the truth, we'll get herâŚDamn it, do it for Randy. Wasn't he your friend?âÂ
You stared at her long and hard. â...Because you're so trustworthy after everything you've done?â You mumbled then stayed silent. Anything you said could and would be used against you with cops or the mediaâŚEspecially Dewey and Gale now.Â
âHmph. So that's how it is, huh? You're gonna betray everyone to hide those two and to keep your own ass safe? Using Selfish Bitch." Gale spat not even whispering now.
Apparently you were a bad liar and a using bitch to everyone lately.
You just looked away wishing she would just leave. â...I told you that night.â You croaked out. âI told you and look what you did. What both of you didâŚI told you 15 years ago and then 13 years agoâŚâ You shook your head to yourself. âAnd from a decade onward I've had to rely on myselfâŚYou both did this decades ago and now you're trying to blame me?â
Gale perked up and Dewey spared a glance.
You continued in a low mumble, â...I never helped Billy and Stu in 1996. I meant every bit of that. I swear on my life, I never helped them kill my friend's and tried to get them caught for it.â You told the whole truth but carefully in case Gale had a wire. âAnd you tried taking me to court to be tried as an accomplice for murder over a delay and possibly altered tape. A serious crime with decades of prison time had it worked and you expect me to trust telling you anything? Fuck you.âÂ
Dewey subtly eyed you. Frowning deeply at âfriend'sâ knowing that meant Tatum too. Yet he seemed like he couldn't even bring himself to truly look at you let alone talk to you. Gale's eye twitched at you dishing the fact of what she tried to pull years ago.
â...Fine.â Gale shrugged mockingly. âFine, you weren't involved then but you know they're alive. You knew all this time and you hid itâŚWhy? Why did you hide it? Why did you buck me so much at Windsor? Whether we had bad blood or not; we both agreed. We both know who Tim and James are and the first description is accurate. Not this shit you're selling. We both saw them at Windsor, we both saw them a few nights ago in ICU and they do not have a hooked nose and blue eyes and red hair and a fucking tattoo. Why did you hide them in Hollywood? Why are you hiding them now? WHY?â She pleaded urgently with a frown.
You blinked at that but kept your lips sealed.
âDewey has the pictures of you with them in a motel. Twice.â She threatened through gritted teeth. âI didn't see a fucking hooked nose. I didn't see red hair. I see a damn liar meeting up with two murderersâŚAnd they look like grown up Billy Loomis and Stu Macher.âÂ
AhâŚThat's right. Randy seemed to mention something or maybe it was Dewey? It was hard to tell in the chaos. Regardless, you didn't care if it was clear as dayâŚYou were gonna deny it. You had nothing left to lose but your life and freedom and you weren't talking.
Gale seemed to be losing her patience with your tight lip routine. âAren't you gonna talk? Why are you lying? Why are you giving false descriptions of them when those aren't the pictures you described at college? Andrews and Richard's description matched tooâŚWhat happened to that scar on James aka Billy's cheek, hm? The one you insisted on at Windsor. Same side you cut Billy with shears the night before he supposedly roped you in against your will. He had gauze on his cheek at the party from you and he still has that scar. In fact, I saw it here at this hospital. Why leave out that important identifier?...If we found this guy you had relations with or whoever else is on your phone; would he have a scar, YN?â She growled out through her teeth.
â13 years agoâŚI was under stress and projecting my trauma. I saw what I wanted to see and I think Randy did too. I was in a bad place mentally. But now that I'm more aware and better?â You stared at her long and hard. Lying but this was an easy lie to retell because it was a lie people already labeled you with. â...I just don't remember a scar now-â
âStop lying!â Gale scoffed loudly, âHow can you live with yourself knowing two murderers are free all because of you!? How can you lie to us all these years? In fact, if I was more shocked I'd return the favor and hit you like you did me back in the day; but I'm not that shocked. I always knew you were a liar, I just couldn't prove it. You probably did work with them in 96, right? You're just trying to make it look good, right?...Huh? Are you secretly happy that everyone is dead?âÂ
You just took it. Numbly gazing at her. Anything you said would be against you. Gale was baiting you to talk and you weren't falling for it. They could claim they had evidence and you still wouldn't speak.Â
âYou aren't even gonna defend yourself?â Gale demanded. âWe could go through your phone, you know. We can see who called. Who you texted. Pictures. I can dig deep. I can find evidence at your house. I can ask around.â
You sighed and just shrugged. All while holding her gaze as you laid in that hospital bed. You felt like you had done this too many times and honestly? You were damn tired. If you did go to prisonâŚSo what? This shit was getting way too old for you. Might as well try lying and playing stupid and see if it's as easy as these Ghostface's act like it is.
She grumbled out, âYou fucking -âÂ
âGale.â Dewey's voice rang out in a low tone. âLeave her aloneâŚShe clearly won't talk. We're wasting our time.âÂ
You frowned deeply wanting desperately to talk to him, more than Gale, to explainâŚBut you knew that was a wasted effort. He wouldn't listen. Hell, he could be bugged; not the same Dewey you knew. So you kept quiet as Gale stormed out before turning back to you and marching back to your bedside to get her final say.Â
She returned to get the final word. âYou know, I'm a tough cookie. I can handle my maid of honor at my wedding betraying me. I can handle you being a fucking liarâŚBut I can't handle you hurting my husband. He's done nothing but be heartbroken and who can blame him? A woman he looked at like a little sister knew the guys that killed his actual sister; that they were both alive! All while she lied to his face for 15 years!â She spat out, looking almost ready to hit you.
âGale!â Dewey ordered in a shaky way that just didn't even sound like him. âThat's enough. Let's go.âÂ
You knew your face was failing you. The one âWoodsboro Familyâ you had left thought you killed Tatum or at least Randy. And at best; he thought, no, he knew you hid his sisters' murderers from him for years.
You swallowed to get the lump down in your throat. Your chest ached as you looked at Dewey and you both locked eyes for a moment and you saw a cold look. Hurt and hate in his eyes you never thought would ever be directed at you as he and Gale left you alone in that hospital room.
âDewey.â You mumbled to Dewey. ââŚWhere's the Dewey I knew in Hollywood that nabbed my files for me to help me?âŚOr who read all my book just because I wrote it and found it inspiring?âŚAnd now you won't even talk to me alone and hear me out?â You tearly gave in to his revenge and anger and bitterness making him a totally different man. Like seeing Billy and Stu made him spiral and you know it was the cherry on top. âI'm still sorry, Dewey.âÂ
Leaving you feeling more alone than ever before. Such a stark contrast from him 15 years ago hugging you and crying in your arms at the hospital and defending youâŚTo being the one accusing you and staying away.
Dewey stared at you. His mouth twitched in a tight frown before he left you alone.
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Gale listened as the officer interviewed Jill and her mouth hung open as Jill gave the exact description of the two that you didâŚIt was a lie! It was impossible!
As Judy wrapped it up, Gale all but grabbed her. âThis isn't right! Damn it, aren't you trained in observation? Didn't you see the guy that shot you!?âÂ
âGet your hands off of an Officer, Gale.â Judy ripped her arm away defensively, âI didn't get a good look at him because he shot me after he hit me in the head but he was tall with far apart eyes-âÂ
âAnd the hair? Was it dark blonde or red?âÂ
Judy pondered, âBlondish?âŚNo, Red. Strawberry Blonde-âÂ
âNo!â Gale grumbled at her memory being tainted by Jill and you. âLook at the cameras! Me and Dewey can give an exact description.âÂ
Judy sighed, âAnd I believe that of Dewey.â Gale's eyes narrowed at the favoritism as Judy continued, âBut we have two witnesses that claim differently and they match up even when interviewing them separately and being away from each other for days. And the cameras only show certain angles that match! We didn't see faces up close and the footage isn't in color.âÂ
âWhy the hell not!?âÂ
âIt's a small old hospital!â Judy exclaimed and shrugged dramatically. âAnd I'd rather discuss this with Sheriff Riley alone, Gale.âÂ
Dewey's shoulders were tense as Gale rubbed her face and ignored the blonde's last statement.
Gale mumbled to herself, âI don't understand... How does Jill go from wanting YN dead and claiming she's involved to claiming she was⌠What? Just scared and misunderstood the situation? And how did they both lie correctly? They had to have communicated together recently under our fucking noses. They had to!â Gale ranted as none of this went how she expected.Â
Judy got out her notepad, âDo you want to give another statement? These guysâŚSheriff Riley said Billy and StuâŚHe said in a past statement Jill told him that YN-âÂ
âOh DeweyâŚâ She thought to herself as she watched him walk away and gave him space. The man looked defeated. Like everything he knew turned out to be a lie.
Gale and Judy blinked hearing something be thrown in the bin nearby. Gale faltered seeing Dewey stalk off. âSheriff?â Judy worriedly called out to him as Gale went to the trash bin. Picking up his hat with a tight frown. For her husband to do that? To something he was so proud of and his job?Â
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You took a stressful 2 days to ârecoverâ. Everyday was you on edge and sicker than a dog, you swore your blood pressure was probably up and heart rate a permanent over 100 bpm. The police bothered you one more time for a description and you tried your best to lie about their appearance and you knew you were suspicious. Probably a shitty liar. Stressed and tense and nervous as Hell. But lucky for you, one thing was truthful; you did not know where they were or directions of where they took you. During the day, you were passed out. At night, you were feverish and it was dark.Â
You were waiting for them to catch you in a lie. To search your phone. You hated that Billy and Stu stupidly sent you here with your phone on you. Probably not even thinking with you close to death.Â
However, it didn't happen. Gale came to pressure you one more time with the photos Dewey had. And to your relief, yeah you COULD say they looked like Billy and Stu especially a decade ago but the most recent ones had them both pretty obscure while inside the motel on the outskirts of Woodsboro. In fact, you couldn't see them. Judy just took shitty pictures to report to Dewey. They had nothing.Â
Of course, when she pressed the cops once she realized you wouldn't talkâŚThey questioned.
âWho are those men and why were you meeting them?âÂ
You paled at Judy's urgent questioning on day 2 in a half of you in that hospital. You sighedâŚDamn Gale. Damn her.
"You mean the ones you followed me and took pictures of in secret? Stalking me?" I grumbled.
Judy remained aloof, "It was Sheriff Riley's orders to keep an eye on you at all times. Who were they?"
â...One is my mechanic and the other I met in Hollywood years agoâŚI met them forâŚâ You groaned and was unable to make up something better. âWe haveâŚWe needed each other.â You nervously coughed out.
Judy looked oblivious. âAnd what for?âÂ
Despite yourself you felt flustered because even as a lie; you didn't feel like claiming a booty call. âUmâŚRelations.âÂ
She blinked.Â
You narrowed your eyes; dear lord how did she have a kid?Â
âSex.âÂ
Judy's eyes widened even buggier than usual. âOhâŚOH!â She wrote something down. âYou withâŚBoth??âÂ
âYes.â You forced out cheeks heating and a glare at the wall. âI have a well known name and I know how unconventional it is so they're a secret.âÂ
Judy cleared her throat and uncomfortably adjusted herself. âWellâŚMs. YN. There's no room for secrets with a string of murders. Where are they?âÂ
âDon't know, we called it off.âÂ
âOh really? And what were their names?âÂ
You shrugged, âVincent and Den..Nis. Dennis.âÂ
Judy raised a brow. âLast names?âÂ
âVincent never told me his last name.âÂ
âAnd you never asked??â Judy looked bewildered.
You blew air through clenched teeth, âLook it was never serious enough. Not everything is a Disney Romance, you know... Vincent is just a guy that works at some mechanic shop that I think is closed now and we haveâŚLook we just have quick relations, okay?â You grumbled wanting to be anywhere but here.Â
âAnd Dennis? You met him in Hollywood? During Stab? Could it be-â She gasped. â...The actor?! Rafkin?âÂ
You winced, â...UmâŚMaybe...Yes. He keeps a low profile probably out of the Country on Holiday.â Unable to get out of this one.Â
âDo you have their numbers?âÂ
âYes but I doubt they'd answer. We called it off.â You gazed over at her. âAnd they weren't involved. I promise I know myâŚ-â You grimaced. âGuys and they were not the two guys involved in this.âÂ
Judy wrote things down. âYou know we can get a warrant to look through your phone-âÂ
âYou can now.â You swallowed hoping doing this might make you look more innocent.
You felt your palms sweating as she looked. Then raised a brow seeing âVincentâ texts. âWhat's this?âÂ
âWe spoke secretly because I did not want Randy and them to look down on me for my private lifeâŚWe called in secret. I heard a noise and thought it was the killer and it wasn't. So he texted me frantically thinking something happened.âÂ
And that was the honest truth, actuallyâŚHm. Maybe this lying thing wasn't too hard. Just tell what truth you could throughout the lies.
Judy nodded looking through your phone seeing you had called an âunknownâ number the night at Kirby's.
âThat was Dennis. I meant to press Dewey's contact. I always kept his unknown because he was soâŚEmbarrassed over being with someone like me.â You forced yourself to give as if a woman scorned.
She eyed you and you prayed she bought it. To your immense relief, she handed you the phone. âYou deserve better. Especially if he's the same guy I heard you arguing with at Mr's Meeks' house in the backyard. I know how tough a situationship can be, believe it or not.âÂ
âCan't argue with that.â You sighed out in relief.Â
âWell, for now, they're not suspects or witnesses. We aren't resting till we capture these guys that kidnapped you though. Murderers, kidnappers, one shot an officer and could've killed meâŚI swear, I'll never forget his faceâŚI swear he looked familiar.âÂ
You forced a head nod but felt tension at that. That tension didn't leave even as she finally left. All it would take is watching a movie with Dennis and boom.
You heard Gale arguing with her down the hall and you rolled your eyes. You saw Judy warn Gale to back off of police business. Showing her badge for emphasis through the window.
Gale wasn't gonna stop. She just wasn't. And if she did? It would be a while. Years of watching your back, who you talked to, who you called, what you said.
You sighed and leaned back, closing your eyes in your elevated hospital bed. You couldn't go home fast enough. No more hustle and bustle, no more interviews, no more book signings, no more. You didn't care if you had to work remotely or a shitty normal job if it meant peace. A nice domestically slow leisurely life. You were so damn eager after all this time and all this stress; so much grief fueling you to shut yourself away like you did a decade ago. Only this time no Randy or Dewey by your side.Â
It was a little bit later that you turned on your tv while trying to stomach food of some sortâŚEvery news station was you and Woodsboro andâŚJill Roberts.
You declined every single interview not only to appease that little monster but because you just wanted to be done with the limelight. If Jill wanted all eyes on her like a spoiled brat? So be it!Â
Your eyes narrowed and a sickening feeling came up as Jill played the victim in her hospital room still down the hall from you. Most likely an interview from earlier today.Â
âIt was terrifyingâŚI'm just so glad me and YN made it. YN really fought hard but after she went down I did what I had to survive and finish off Charlie and the other two thankfully stayed downâŚIt was traumatic.â She dabbed her eyes.
That lying little bitch.Â
You felt anger well up in you. There was no answer. Either go to prison for god knows how long and have your name tainted to HOPEFULLY get her to go to prison tooâŚOr suck it up that the person that murdered her friends and yours; got away with it. Clearly the police after interviewing you both separately again and again were positive despite Dewey or Gale's rambling and a stray nurse or doctor that didn't line up. The police and media seemed to think that you weren't involved and sadly neither was that piece of teenage shit.
Two crudely drawn pictures of âsuspectsâ were up. They somewhat resemble Billy and Stu but not quite. Not enough to pick them out of a crowd right away. Thankfully after you âadmittedâ to Windsor pictures of Billy and Stu as Tim and James not being accurate and Randy unable to buck you or those two Detectives; they weren't reliable now. Just a traumatized teen girl that needed on meds back in â98 that poorly convinced, but convinced nonetheless, the authorities that the current sketch was more accurate of âTim and Jamesâ aka the guys âMost likelyâ involved. Vincent and Dennis may need to change their look and lay low for a year or two. Maybe even change identitiesâŚBut they might get away too, and despite how wrong it was, you were kindaâŚRelieved.Â
You groaned and turned your tv off. Unable to listen to Jill's fucking lies. She lied much better than you did but thankfully since both your stories matched and they had no idea the cunning weasel Jill was. No clue she called you in secret on someone's phone or even the hospital staff for all you knew with how devious she wasâŚWho would contradict your statements? Your âdescriptionâ matched up and you two were the only ones at the house to say so and the hospital had a few camera shots of them but too many contradictions. Judy barely got a glimpse of them and could clearly easily be swayed. Dewey was ranting like a lunatic that it was Billy and Stu and was obviously discredited for it and Gale was 50/50 if people would believe her.Â
Dewey and Gale's descriptions were accurate and looked like Billy and Stu who were supposed to be dead. You and Jill's description match for the most part and you both were the victims at the house and both of you feigned innocence that âHow could they possibly be Billy and Stu? There's no way.âÂ
Who would the cops and the media believe? Exactly.
You closed your eyes. Back to square one. Being the innocent sweetheart was good while it lasted but you knew it wouldn't last forever. Just like you knew it wouldn't last for Jill eitherâŚShe'll find out the hard way attention isn't always good.Â
You knew conspiracy theorists would side with Gale and Dewey just like they did in the 90's when Gale made her claims you were involved. Some believer had attacked you at your damn house. And truthfully, this time around they'd be half correct. But thankfully, no one but tinfoil hats and naysayers would trust Gale's word over you, Jill and the media.
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Gale paced their house. âThis is bullshitâŚâ She shoved a newspaper onto the table. âUtter bullshit, Dewey!âÂ
Dewey clutched his head. Yesterday still on his mind and today. He had to identify Randy Meeks body for Karla before they planned any final arrangements yesterday. He didn't want Karla to have that on herâŚSeeing his lifeless face.
The legal battle of Randy being Jewish and the state versus his religion on keeping his body for examination way past 24 hours for any evidence. He looked like a Halloween prop to Dewey. Skin unnatural from being kept on ice so to speak. They made sure he was not embalmed, at least only kept on ice and a Rabbi performed the right ceremonies for him. The Jewish Community the Meeks were a part of, including his sister Martha, fought the authorities wanting his body buried immediately while coroner's had to gather as much evidence as possible. Fibers, prints, how he was killed, if the knife matched a suspect.
It was only after determining the killer was most likely Charlie after finding knife patterns matching his Dad's hunting knife and shoe prints matching his in the mud and a hair found almost days later on Randy's jeans matching Charlie that they could put him to restâŚEven though there was plenty of other contaminated evidence from the party on him and even if arguably some evidence was overlooked. Dewey just had to confirm the body one more time before putting him to rest. The coroner wanted more time but was legally advised along with the police department not to. That they had already pushed Jewish law enough as it was for the examination and Randy's family would win in court if they were taken there, something they threatened if even one more day went by. After all, his body had been kept for over a few days.
Bruises on the neck from the rope, lifeless features, skin so cold it was blue with veins showing. He couldn't imagine how much sewing they had to do to his body under that sheet despite his religion; or else his innards would be spilling out everywhere while on the examination table. When they opened his eyes slightly, lifting the lids, they were gray and deadâŚHe looked nothing like fun jovial smart alec Randy and yet it was him.Â
âAre you listening!?â Gale snapped.
âNo.â Dewey mumbled in a strained voice, nursing whiskey. It has become a crutch to sleep and to loosen up right now. âNo, I'm not. I had a pretty bad few days, Gale.âÂ
Gale went to snap a snarky remark but faltered. Then with a heavy sigh she leaned over the table. â...I know this was a shitty week. But if anything, it's more of a reason to not stop fighting.â She pointed at the table. âDo. Not. Give. Up.âÂ
Dewey leaned back looking at her. A lot of hope drained from him the last few days. â...And what? It's an open investigation now turning into a cold case.â He groaned and lightly smacked the table. âThere are multiple fingerprints, one might match Billy Loomis from â96 but what will that do if they're nowhere to be found and no evidence they're alive? You said it yourself! We'll be laughed out of the courtroom. They'll claim the fingerprints were unreliable smudges or someone else. Same with the blood. If they aren't in the system paying taxes or buying things from reputable places or have credit scores then what good does it do? They might not even be in the Country now.â He shook his head.
âSo what?â Gale urged. âAnd we don't know that. If they're stupid enough to stick around to help YN-âÂ
Dewey winced at that, âCan we just stop talking about it?âÂ
Gale looked dumbfounded but sat down. â...Don't you want this solved?âÂ
He scoffed, âOf course I do! But if Billy and Stu are never found then what good does it do?âÂ
âUm, incriminating Jill? The actual killer.â She grumbled. âIf you won't search Jill's phone records then I will go to the Attorney General and get a subpoena.âÂ
Dewey glared at his wife, âNo you won't.âÂ
âAnd what's stopping me? Why not!?â She demanded at her wits end with her husband going in circles. âStill think Jill's innocent?âÂ
Dewey's mouth twitched and he rested his chin on his forearm on the table, âI don't know what to think anymoreâŚBut you are not going to rock this case until we find Billy Loomis and Stu Macher.âÂ
âWhy?â Gale demanded harsher this time. âWhat's stopping me from just pointing it out online to some crime junkie then?! That video was shot in Jill's room Dewey and it's obvious and I can't believe you and your department are glossing over it!âÂ
âBecause you're not throwing YN in prison, alright!?â He finally snapped before his voice and face wavered. âIf you search Jill's phone and we find that evidence or we overanalyze the video and prove it was there then a case will go to court andâŚI don't know how much YN is involved. But I justâŚI just can't send her to prison until those bastards go first!...Besides, a video isn't enough without DNA and eyewitness testimonyâŚKirby said nothing about Jill or YN, only Charlie, and both their stories match up suddenly. We're the odd ones out here and Judy was knocked out before she could truly see themâŚAll you'll do is send YN to prison, possibly Jill and those two jerks walk free like they have for 15 years.â He firmly declared.
Gale looked bewildered, âI can't believe this.â She huffed with a shake of her head. âYou told her to get out and never come back. You were hunting her down. You wanted to arrest her if it meant getting answers-âÂ
âI wasn't thinking, Gale.â He grumbled and sipped his glass. âMaybeâŚMaybe I do think Jill could be what you claim?â Gale looked pleasantly surprised but he continued, âMaybe I realize this is bigger than I thought? Maybe, just maybe, I still have a bit of faith in YN that she wouldn't do any of this unless blackmail or forced or somethingâŚWhy else would she come back? Why else would they send her here? You saw her! She was fighting them down the hall! She didn't want to go-âÂ
Gale scoffed and got up from her chair, âYou're being an idiot!âÂ
âAnd you're being an opportunist.â He bitterly told her. âYou're being the Gale I broke up with years ago. It always comes full circle for you, doesn't it?â Gale stiffened at his tipsy words and looser tongue as he buried his weary head in his arms on the table.Â
âHey, it does not! I have a career!â She argued seeing Dewey get more tipsy it seemed by the hour. Minute even.Â
âRandy's dead. YN's a Traitor whether by force or her own will. Jill could be the victim or the killer. Billy and Stu lived and are out free. Hell, maybe I'm the killer at this point? Or you!â He slurred with a pitiful groan.
She huffed, rolling her eyes and taking the bottle from him. Gale gazed down at him and her usual stoic smugness softened. â...I know this is probably harder on you than it is me and we're being assholes to each other.â She sat the bottle aside and cupped his cheek as he damn near pouted at her. She sighed and softly ordered. âI think you need to take care of yourself with sleep and food that isn't liquid.âÂ
He grumbled, âNoâŚI gotta keep looking, you said it yourself we can't give up. But for them, not YN and Jill. I want them to suffer, I want them to face justice damn it.âÂ
She sighed again and combed his short hair back a bit with her fingers. âYeah, I know. But the biggest evidence to incriminate Jill Roberts and put the murderer away is on her phone, Dewey. It's right there.âÂ
âAnd the biggest evidence of all is Billy Loomis and Stu Macher.â He enunciated their names.Â
âLook. Two things can be right, ya know.âÂ
âNot until we get them. I know YN, GaleâŚThey got something on herâŚShe's scared and won't talk cause she's worried.âÂ
âYeah, worried about her own ass.â Gale grumbled under her breath as she pulled away.
âWhat?âÂ
âNothing.â She straightened herself. âDewey, c'mon. You cannot just let the case go cold until we find Billy and Stu; if we find them. What? Are you just giving up because we may never find them?âÂ
He shrugged tiredly, dark eyes dropping. âMaybe. The media is having a field day with Jill and we would need a LOT of evidence to make her guilty IF she is and you're right somehow.âÂ
Gale reluctantly agreed in a grunt of resignation. Jill was sweet as pie right now and the media was in her favor.Â
âAnd YN was already made to look guilty from yyoouu-â He pointed at her, âShe'll get blamed for something those two did!âÂ
She sighed and rolled her eyes, âOh yeah? May I remind you she lied and shielded Billy Loomis from being shot. Twice. 1996 and now 2011âÂ
âBecause she's a good person; you should try it.â He huffed out.
Gale sneered with a tsk, âAlright, you're eating something and sobering up.â She stalked to the kitchen as he sat at the small table and kept talking.
"She may be naive and stubborn but she's too soft hearted...I was wrong. She's gotta be protecting them from blackmail or maybe from being just too sweet of a person." He swallowed and shook his head. âShe was dragged outâŚShe didn't wanna go with themâŚYou said it yourself, why was Jill in her room in the middle of the night? Why did Billy and Stu take her back here?...Why isn't she saying anything?...Why does her and Jill's description match when they're lliieesss?â He stretched out the last part. âHow'd that happen, Gale? Huh? How did it happen?â He almost pleaded tiredly.
Gale was at a crossroads that she couldn't quite decide yet. She did NOT like the idea of it being a cold case forever looking for Billy and StuâŚShe hated someone else getting the glory for the inevitable of pointing out Jill's low survival rate and her superficial wounds plus Olivia's death recorded from her bedroom window as her neighborâŚ
Gale momentarily halted making him something. â...I don't know.â For once, was the answer. The only answer she had. Nothing made sense to her. You and Jill wouldn't talk and Dewey was gonna fight her on incriminating Jill and you. For hiding those two; Gale had no issue sending your ass to prison for tanking her career over lies you were still lying about but Dewey apparently did.Â
But she also didn't want to make an enemy of her husband.
Fuck.
She sighed heavily while making him a grilled cheese. â....Fine.â She laid the plate down harsher than necessary in front of him. âWe'll twiddle our thumbs waiting around to find Billy and Stu but mark my words, Dewey. If another murder happens? I am bringing that tape in play and that second murder is on you and Woodsboro PD. If YN goes to prison for whatever involvement she had then so be it. You can't protect her forever; especially if she's a damn murderer too.âÂ
With that, Gale left the room. Leaving a weary Dewey half drunk and tired and so emotionally drained he might as well be catatonic as he numbly nibbled on the grilled cheese his impatient wife burned.
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Cracks in the Glass Pt.5
(TW): forced medication, food control and refusal, power dynamics, manipulation, physical restraint, gaslighting, feeding tubes, and emotional distress.
âDo you want something else? Because if you have a preference, Iâm sure I can find something else.â
I look at the tray and then at Thomas through the glass. Heâs taking a seat after bringing me a dinner tray. Iâm not hungry. Actually, thatâs a lie. Iâm starving, but I wonât eat. I canât. How dare he? How dare he come here and act like he didnât just hold me down and force pills down my throat?
I crawl over to the tray and roughly shove it back through the slot in the door, causing the contents to spill on the floor. Thomas takes a deep breath and sighs, keeping his composure as he moves closer to the glass.
"I know youâre upset, and Iâm sorry we had to do that, but I need you to understand that we have your best interests at heart. I know it doesnât seem like it, and I havenât done anything to earn your trust, but Iâm here to help you."
I scoff. I hate this game. What does he want? I turn my back to him and walk toward the bed. Hunger rolls through my stomach.
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"I donât know why youâre getting so upset with us," Kyle sneers, his voice thick with mockery. "You should be upset with yourself for not doing what I told you. Three fucking days, I told you for three days that If you didn't eat you were gonna get tubed."
Strong arms lift me off the floor, and Iâm too weak to fight back. The sedative is already dulling my senses, leaving my limbs sluggish and unresponsive. My shirt is soaked with tears and snot as I gasp in shallow, rapid breaths. Even as they drag me down the hall, I feebly try to kick at the floor, my movements pathetic and futile.
Kyle leads the way, his smug grin only making me feel smaller. "I gotta say, youâre my favorite patient," he taunts. "You always make my shift more exciting. A little bit of chaos to break up the monotony."
We pass through the double doors of a sterile bed bay. Without ceremony, the guards shove me into a chair, their hands like vices on my arms. I try to slide off, desperation giving me one last burst of energy, but itâs useless. Thick straps tighten across my arms and legs, pinning me down.
My stomach churns violently, but not from fear. The nausea has been unrelenting for days, a cruel aftermath of the experiments. Every bite of food twists in my gut, forcing me to relive the humiliation of throwing up in front of them, helpless and exposed. The mere thought of eating again makes bile rise in my throat.
I let out a weak yelp as Kyle approaches, a feeding tube in his hand. The sight of it makes my nausea worse, and I instinctively turn my head away.
"Now, now," he says mockingly, his voice dripping with condescension. He grabs my jaw roughly, his fingers digging into my skin like claws. I try to pull away, shaking my head weakly, but he holds firm.
"Stay still and be a good girl," he says, his tone turning dark. "Or maybe Iâll let my friends in security have some fun with you. Actually..." He leans in close, his breath hot and sour against my face, his sick grin spreading wider. "I might let them have you anyway, just for making my job harder."
Tears stream down my face as I glare at him, my body trembling. The nausea rises again, my stomach twisting painfully, but Iâm too terrified to move.
The grin disappears from his face, replaced by cold fury. His hand cracks across my cheek with a resounding slap, the force jerking my head to the side.
"AGH!" I cry out, my cheek stinging and burning.
"Donât. Fucking. Move," he growls, his voice icy and full of venom.
He roughly forces the tube down my hitting the back of my throat forcing me to gag. Bile rises at the throat nausea rolling through me.
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I hear the faint scrape of something against the floorâthe tray. I donât look up, but the soft clinks and rustles tell me heâs cleaning up the mess I made. He doesnât speak, doesnât lecture, just quietly gathers the spilled food. Then his footsteps retreat, the heavy door clicking shut behind him.
Good. Let him leave.
Time drags on, the hunger gnawing at me, sharp and insistent. Itâs been days. My stomach twists painfully, but I shove the feeling down, clutching the one shred of control I still have. I wonât eat. I canât.
The door opens again. I stiffen, curling tighter on the bed. This time, thereâs no tray. No demands. Just the faint rustle of fabric as he sits down outside the glass, followed by the rhythmic clatter of keys.
Curiosity pulls at me, and I glance over my shoulder. Thomas is sitting with his back against the wall, legs stretched out, his laptop balanced on his knees. He doesnât look at me, doesnât speak. Heâs justâŚthere. The silence between us stretches, punctuated only by the soft tapping of his keyboard.
Then I hear itâa sharp, crisp crunch that snaps through the quiet. My head turns automatically, catching sight of him mid-bite. Heâs eating something, sliding a thin, golden shape from a crinkly bag and popping it into his mouth. Each crunch is loud, almost exaggerated, as he chews.
I narrow my eyes at the bag. I donât know what it is, but the thought of food, of eating, tightens something in my chest. Not out of hungerâthough the ache in my stomach hasnât gone awayâbut because of what it means.
If I donât eat, theyâll force me.
The memory of being strapped down, Kyleâs cruel grin as he shoved the feeding tube in, flashes behind my eyes. My breath quickens, and I shake my head, trying to banish the image. I canât go through that again.
Thomas notices me watching. He pauses, holding the bag up slightly, as if offering it to me. "You want one?"
I hesitate, staring at him through the glass. My pride screams at me to ignore him, but the pounding of my heart is louder. If I eatâif I prove Iâm capableâthey wonât have an excuse to strap me down.
Slowly, I crawl toward the slot in the door, my body tense and uncertain. I donât trust him, but the alternative looms too large in my mind.
Thomas pulls one of the golden shapes from the bag and slides it through the slot. I stare at it for a moment, suspicious and wary, before finally picking it up. Itâs thin and rough against my fingers, unlike anything Iâve eaten before.
I glance at him through the glass. He doesnât move, doesnât push. He just watches, his expression unreadable.
I bite down cautiously, the loud crunch surprising me. Then the taste hitsâsalty, rich, and completely unexpected. My eyes widen involuntarily as I chew. I swallow, and the hollow ache in my stomach shifts slightly, the smallest hint of relief breaking through. But itâs not enough.
I slam my fist against the glass, a sharp bang that reverberates through the room. My eyes lock onto the bag in his hand, my demand clear.
Thomas raises an eyebrow. "You want another?"
I pound the glass again, harder this time. A growl escapes my throat, low and frustrated.
"Okay, okay," he says, sliding another chip through the slot.
I snatch it immediately, shoving it into my mouth without hesitation. I barely finish chewing before I slam my fists against the glass again, harder, more insistent.
"Alright, alright!" Thomas raises his hands in surrender, grabbing another chip and passing it through.
The cycle repeatsâchip after chipâmy demands growing more aggressive each time. I pound the glass with both fists now, my anger and hunger merging into a single, desperate need.
"Easy," he says softly, sliding another chip through. His voice is calm, steady, but his eyes watch me closely, gauging my every move.
Then the bag finally crinkles empty, I let out a scream of frustration, slamming my fists one last time against the glass. Thomas holds up the empty bag, shaking it lightly.
"Thatâs all Iâve got," he says, his tone light, almost teasing.
My breathing is ragged, my body trembling from the outburst. Frustration boils over, and I collapse onto the floor, screaming and kicking, my fists pounding against the cold concrete.
He doesnât react right away, just sits back against the wall, watching me with that same infuriating calm. Then, after a moment, he speaks. "Hey, Iâve got an idea." His voice cuts through my screams, steady but not pushy.
I stop kicking for a moment, glaring at him through tear-streaked eyes.
"How about this," he continues. "When I bring you breakfast tomorrow morning, if you eat a couple of bites, Iâll bring you your own bag of chips at lunch."
I freeze, my chest heaving as I process his words. He could be lying. Theyâve lied to me before, after all. ButâŚwhat if heâs not? My gaze flickers toward the empty bag in his hand. The chips were good. Really good. And if he does lie, Iâll just refuse to eat again.
I sniff, wiping my nose roughly on my sleeve, and glance at him. He meets my eyes, his expression open, almost challenging.
"Deal?" he asks, raising an eyebrow.
I hesitate for a long moment before rolling away from him, turning my back to the glass. "Fine," I mutter, my voice muffled.
I hear the faint snap of his laptop closing, followed by the soft rustle of him standing. "Itâs been a pleasure doing business with you," he says, a hint of amusement in his voice.
I donât respond, but I hear him knock lightly on the glass. "Iâll see you tomorrow. Try to get some sleep, okay?"
The sound of his footsteps fades as he walks away, leaving me alone in the silence. I curl up tighter, still unsure if Iâve made the right choice.
I wipe my face. I am kinda tired. I crawl into bed and pull the covers up. The room is quiet now, and my body feels heavy with exhaustion. As I close my eyes, the faint taste of salt still lingers on my tongue.
Chips: the universal peacemaker. Who knew the crunch could be so persuasive? Stay tuned for more!
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OKAY THINK I CAN POST SOME THOUGHTS NOW, I've screamed out loud enough.
BELOW THE LINE WILL BE SPOILERS FOR CHAP 7, namely my thoughts over it all. If you don't wanna be spoiled read the chapter above before continuing this post.
So first off the entire begin with Soldier and seeing buff Merasmus just made me feral and laugh so fucking hard. The old man wizard also having a tattoo of Jones was so sweet but also being the overlord of the prison like god damn.
But like man then SEEING THE WHOLE FAMILY COME IN, I was not ready for that, they were all as goofy as expected but it was so cute and they all just made the perfect chaotic family imagined.
Then GOD DAMN HEAVY THO, HOLY SHIT. That beard just suits him so well. Sir.... SIR. I am lost in the sauce, I'm smooching, in my head Medic smooching, hell anyone wanna be smooching. Help.
THEN SEEING SCOUT BE SO CUTE AND HONEST ABOUT DECIDING HE IS GONNA MOVE ON FROM PAULING THO???? Idk kinda left me like okay that is so far then her being supportive like "Yes there is defs way more hotter ladies than me, go get some hot ladies Scout." JUST HONESTLY? Like I do like Scout x Pauling but I also don't mind it not becoming canon, cause them being the best pals for one another just feels so nice like help.
Ngl though following the ENTIRE part about the Admin, just left me like....
On one hand I enjoyed it but on the other hand was so out of no where I didn't know what to even think once that arc of it was done. Like straight up she is the mama of the brothers and crazy, never told why she is truly doing it (or I missed it while reading, I'll reread trust me). Wild as fuck. I don't know, like not disappointing but also not sure how to feel. Best way to put it I don't hate it LOL.
And then we get the entire end and seeing EVERYONE AND MOST IMPORTANTLY EVERYONE WAS THERE! Scout becoming like his ma and keeping with all his kids was the sweetest thing, then Spy... SPY! I could go on and on how happy I am with that face reveal. It's funny how I pm pushed my drawing way of him towards that too, I still always look at my commission and the sfm model I loved after that pm is the reveal too. Salt and Pepper older gentleman. Then the others all coming in and seeing the bits of them. PYRO, DEMO, SNIPER, ALL OF THEM.
SNIPER HAVING THE GRAYING IN HIS HAIR SHOWING TOO MADE ME MORE FERAL THAN I REALIZED IT WOULD.
I teared up seeing Spy looking at the photo with that gentle smile, just knowing the mama passed away. Broke my god damn heart. :CCCC
I seriously loved it all though. I think it all is well that ends well, never expected the comic so quick, also was worried how it would come. How it would end? But I think the open end in a way of it all is perfect. It solidified some things, left other things in questions to let us boil off of and enjoy. I didn't feel any thing was pushed in a way that would be damning or upsetting (at least to me). I didn't need confirmed ships or saying the story will continue. I just wanted them alive in the end and happy.
And was it given.
WE FINALLY GOT IT BOIS
IT'S HERE, THE COMIC IS HERE, I AM GOING FERAL
BYE
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Reading MW takes on Twitter is like reading a summary of the Bible from someone who only watched like a Family Guy family special about it
#did we play the same game? did we see the same themes yes themes as in plural#like my god get off ur fucking high horses or stop trying to make a unique theory just to be unique#like if it clearly doesnât fit the plot it causes unnecessary arguments#people are weird and weirdly obsessed with making like the issues in the game solely interpersonal when it is clearly very institutional#with everything we learn about PE and how hard they make it to seek justice or safety#and ur treating it like the average person is a horrible troll monster#when the game really tries to show you how humans people become bad or can be enabled to do their worse through many different ways#but go ahead make it seem like all the men are like willingly Jimmyâs goon squad of predator enablers pls pls pls just look from another#view point Iâm begging yall sometimes itâs good to leave those echo chambers#like taking parts of conversations out of context to make characters look better or worse is literally a tactic Jimmy uses ur using Jimmy#tactics to prove ur point dummy head#side tag tangent I am also very annoyed with how many people really do think Curly couldâve just had changes made to the ship during the#travel like a big point is that they barely had resources to just survive regularly#other than random scrap and wires for serious repairs they def didnât just have locks laying about nor are the doors outside of medical and#the cockpit are suited to install locks like the whole point of the illusion of choice#is that at the end the options presented were never gonna be viable whether it was because of the time needed to execute them the standards#they were under or their lack of resources all mainly caused by PE no matter how much Curly#wanted to do something thereâs very little he couldâve#even the ideas posed we have would have only happened after the assault and done little to actually stop the crash when you think about it#and itâs sad and sounds weird but thatâs the case#mouthwashing
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I hate how if you voice the mildest criticism of the NHS you have to coat it in layers of I love the NHS!!! and all medical workers just want to help!!!! It's just a funding issue!!
Iike actually fuck that. The NHS is systematically flawed and biased and there are many medical workers who are cruel and malicious and put patients lives in danger. Sure the lack of funding and the overworking don't fucking help but maybe?? Maybe don't do medical abuse about it!!! Poor poor medical workers don't you understand they have to abuse and mistreat the vulnerable!!!
#Was about to say the good things the NHS has done to me and how it affects medical workers but that defeats the fucking point I made#So dO yOu wAnT pRiVAtE hEalThCaRE???#No piss off that's at least one type of logical fallacy
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hi fellow neurodivergent people
i hate to jump on the "i think i might have adhd" bandwagon, but if i think i might have adhd, how do i bring it up to my care team as a 28-year-old cis woman who was a massive overachiever until i couldn't keep up the ruse anymore?
#idk what happened when i got laid off it seriously is like my brain BROKE i cannot do anything#i have not done much of anything in a year. and i think it's bc my coping mechanisms were 1. self-medicate but ESPECIALLY do that while#2. overcommitting. because it kept me busy and distracted. i excelled in school because i could focus on it without it giving me anxiety#school was honestly almost the only thing that didn't give me anxiety as a kid. and i never felt quite Right like i didn't feel like i fit#in with my peers. i've always felt like a human being that isn't a person. like something's not quite right. i excel but i feel like i'm#doing it wrong because it's SO hard for me. i graduated my BA and BS programs with a 4.0#but it came with the cost of alienating all of my friends and family and becoming really reclusive and weird and distant and anxious#but i really just wanted to do well at the one thing i felt i was good at. which doesn't seem like something i should take note of#idk. my life feels like a claustrophobic box. i feel like i'm buried alive and i can't get myself out because i can't work#because i can't focus. but maybe i'm just stupid and lazy and want everyone to take care of me forever so i can continue laying around doin#fuck all. which i do a lot because i'm chronically ill. idk. like is there ground to stand on here. i literally have zero friends rn#and i feel so so so sos so anxious any time i am working because i worry i'm going to do something wrong or forget to do something or make#lots of mistakes that get me in trouble. i'm so scared of making mistakes it keeps me from doing anything at all. but i get so anxious bc#i'm not doing anything! i'm wasting time! and i can't focus on anything when i AM working because i have to get up and pace#like i HAVE to move around or i start to feel like i need to peel my skin off like i'm an orange#like. is it anything at all. or is this just me being someone who has Other Stuff going on
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ohhhh my fucking god nobody needs to like know any of this medical tmi but it is literally 11 pm and if im kept up one minute longer when i just laid down trying to go to sleep by my mother YELLING REPEATEDLY that she needs to pee. im going to actually go insane. she got a catheter in. Yesterday. it is working. she won't listen to anyone when they tell her that this is the case. help me jesus. im sure if a nurse comes to check on her tomorrow they'll probably get the same response. my brain will simply explode
#crow.txt#the absolute levels of stress im under could create diamonds out of free floating carbon atoms my fucking god#can i have. Literally just one day of peace. just one!! fuck!!!!#at least now i have SOME validation from everyone else of shit that mom has honestly kinda always done#be absolutely furious and bitchy usually for no good goddamn reason and then immediately turn it off to look good in front of someone else#i had a feeling mom coming home was gonna be utterly miserable sooner rather than later#i literally cannot leave my room without her yelling for dad bc she thinks im him i guess. she has gotten him up like 4 times now#what the fuck do you want any of us to doooooooooooo. according to dad shes also just been really fucking hateful today#including to her SISTER who has been facilitating literally everything medically for her for the last month plus#like on one hand i know its hard and frustrating etc etc absolutely. on the other. what the fuck are you yelling at any of us for!#whatd we do! not a damn thing for the most part! holy shit im exhausted#and then im sure she will have the audacity to wonder why i dont really want to interact with her much rn#its very apparent she doesnt really understand whats going on or how much of anything works at this point including hospice care#but i truly cannot help you when your knee jerk response is to yell and be abusive. like. dads not been great either#bc hes also one to bitch and moan and yell abt shit. but like. so is mom. more than usual#and ill actually be damned if i let her treat me like that honestly ever again. like idk for once i can just#walk away from this behavior with zero consequences. i dont have to take it anymore. im not free but at least im fuckin closer than i was#guess my aunt wasnt kidding when she said her being coherent and rational last week might be the calm before the storm
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Who decided the drow should have so much fucking lore anyway.
('I should've been a drow.' You can't fucking stand Cazador or your 'siblings' you would not fucking want to be a drow. Although I guess Astarion would make a fair Vhaeraunite.)
#babbling#I'm still working on it and the many many fucking novels I don't really want to read#but at the same time my dwarves are calling me away from the elfyness#there was a giant red cardinal loose in the mines until it ran into the tavern in a panic and the human merc staying there killed it#I wanted to catch and tame it to make a dwarven aerial cavalry of giant blood-red passerines#now there's dead bird everywhere and nobody actually wanted to do cleaning work and everybody's being sick#possibly because half the work force is severely disabled#because they ran off to beat a giant snapping turtle to death and got limbs torn off#I told them not to fucking go fishing but nnOOooo#that's slowing things down a bit#We spent weeks huddled in a hole in the ground eating raw horseflesh and staring at nothing due to trauma#bleeding through amateurish stiches done by a dying one-handed dwarf with no medical training#while one of the dwarves sat in the other corner carving bone into jewellery while seething with homicidal rage#We have no textiles industry; some of the dwarves are wandering around swathed in bone jewellery and crowns like morbid monarchs#But their clothes are tattered rags clinging to their heavily scarred flesh by threads#the mining team has to double as the militia because they've grown to crave violence for some reason - especially the medical staff#Can't wait for the elven diplomat to turn up and start bitching about the logging industry#Like look you cannibalistic fuck; these dwarves are a hairsbreadth away from descending into berserker-rage and slaughtering us all#I am not making them sleep in the dirt because you oppose me turning the odd tree into a bedframe or a barrel because we are ALWAYS#ALWAYS on the verge of running out of alcohol#...#Either this sounds insane or you know exactly what I'm talking about#I'm going to make a DnD session out of this methinks
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Disclaimer im just processing some thoughts im not cancelling the show
have almost thoughts about how i find the like....narrative on here that if you have chronic "zebra" conditions youd want a doctor like House and wouldnt sue for malpractice bc at least youd have a doctor that cares about whats wrong with you but lets take it one step further. so often he does NOT give a shit about the patient and actively endangers them frequently with his god damn heoric era of medicine approach? non zero amount of times he gets a diagnosis but it comes too late, or he gets a diagnosis after their first wrong 3 guesses of the episode shut down the patients kidneys and they either have to get a transplant or they are just, doomed due to other preexisting conditions etc? idk. i know ppl are almost certainly exaggerating and just letting off steam about the very real failures of our current medical systems and the ableism baked in and All That Shit. i just think its weird how ppl romanticize House who STILL, FREQUENTLY, MULTIPLE EPISODES will actively dismiss shit in the exact way that is a problem in our current system, especially when hes being Forced Against His Will To See Clinic Parients, he loves to be dismissive as fuck of symptoms and if he was a real doctor i think he'd be fucking 50/50 on cases he Notices Something To Dig Into vs cases he dismisses as an Anxious Hysterical Woman Who Wants Attention, the only reason he's Right so frequently in his snap judgements is cos it reinforces the narrative. its like a crime drama that has the mastermind serial killer masterfully using "loopholes" and lawyering up all sneaky and dodging Justice and if only our poor little cop protags were allowed to do A TEENY BIT of Justified Police Brutality, they could Save Lives!
and like sometimes in the show they will have a patient die despite his efforts to narratively punish him. not to mention, i think its been at least mildly brought up and glossed over how much they absolutely do not think about insurance costs for these ppl for the insane amount of tests that find nothing and Wrong Medications To Force A Diagnosis they use? i think it was brought up once in the episode following a day in the life of cuddy where she had to fight a lawsuit bc a guys insurance like didnt cover his thumb being reattached but chase reattached it anyway while in surgery cos it was The Right Thing To Do and the guy didnt have the money to cover it and the insurance wouldnt pay unless he sued the hospital or whatever. thats like the only time its come up. whereas like frequently the doctor I go to for osteopathic manipulation tries to check in with me and make sure im covered by insurance etc and that im not going to go broke or get buried in medical debt seeing her.
idk. just some Thoughts. not a defense of our current system and all the flaws it enables and enforces etc. his approach to medicine is really reminiscent to me of what I know of the Heroic Era Of Medicine which i dont...love? and hes framed on here as being an asshole but would kill for his patients to get them a diagnosis etc. but hes definitely extremely paternalistic to patients ? and despite some good clippable lines about ableism and being against eugenics, it honestly feels like his stance on that is kind of a toss up.
#toy txt post#AGAIN THIS IS NOT A DEFENSE OF OUR CURRENT SYSTEM NOR AM I TRYING TO 'CANCEL' THE SHOW#i am simply processing some Thoughts about it#and wishing better doctors upon all of you when you need them#doctors who Listen To You and who Put In The Effort and The Work to figure out why you feel like shit#who also arent calling you slurs the whole time and throwing random fucking medications at you that destroy your liver or whatever#but give them data. idk. like sometimes in the show it does seem like they need to do that! like the patient is actively dying and the risk#to info ratio is such that it makes sense. other times its like you like definitely couldve done other things to rule shit out but you#needed to fit this whole patient arc into a single episode#not to mention i feel like any doctor who approached shit even close to the way he does would Not have his success rate#no matter how smart the payoff would Not be worth it bc theyd kill more patients. they would not be getting lucky everytime. real life does#not have a plot narrative to fulfill if house treated you he'd just fucking kill you#also one more disclaimer I AM AWARE DR GREGORY HOUSE IS A FICTIONAL MADE UP BLORBO CHARACTER#AND THAT MOST OF THE PPL JOKING ABOUT THIS DO NOT NEED THE REMINDERS OR WARNINGS OR DISCLAIMERS ABOUT HIM ETC ETC#IM SIMPLY THINKING ABOUT HIM AND THIS SHOW AND REAL LIFE#and am only a little bit uncomfortable w the level to which his approach is romanticized on tumblr dot com. but i understand why and like#fair enough#anyway watching house MD is like a sawbones episode displaced in time and Very Worrying#i just have the finale of s7 left and then i will start s8#and i am dreading the aphobia episode. but it cannot be worse than the horrific intersexism and transphobic he's put on display right#right?#i guess its probably not worse in that from what ive seen on tumblr. he is being aphobic to an adult and not a teenager. so#also house is infuriating bc if you remove the doctor bit. i have met this man so many times and i want to kill him âĄ#the guy who is just allowed to stampede through life being a total ass with no pushback or accountability and terrorize people#hes a bad employee and a worse boss#okay turning reblogs off on this cos i dont trust ppl. i think i have replies restricting to mutuals too so#that way this doesnt break containment and get misinterpreted
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everytime i think im done ranting i remember something else LMFAO this one is extra long i hit tag limit god mf damn
#self#for instance.....my mom wants me to cut off everyone who is still tied to the school#and im so mad at myself for feeling a certain type of way when the campus manager called me not too long ago basically to tell me she doesnt#trust the girl who did this shit and she wasnt mad at me but was also mad at me for bringing her to her dads house#for reference we were trying to get a cat from the campus managers dads house LMFAO#and i honestly cannot wait to speak to her again and be like đ god dammit you were right like you were every single time#i just dont understand the wiring in her head to think the shit she says and does to people is normal and okay and how she doesnt realize it#is literally a mental health break. when i finally told my mom the first thing she said was shes probably off her medication#which.....probably isnt wrong sadly coming from someone who has borderline and very easily can lose it#but the difference is i dont give in to the urges to try to hurt everyone around me in every way i can#and me and her have said before that we thought she might also have borderline because we were very similar#but god damn does she love proving that if she has it its extremely severe or its something else entirely#on an honest note. shes incredibly narcissistic and i know her mom is part of the reason shes that way bc she was given princess treatment#her entire fucking life and then doesnt understand when other people dont treat her the same way#i hate rambling about this and i hate it that it is bothering me so fucking bad but like ???#if youre going to decide that you can put our past aside period and move on then fucking do that and stop bringing the past up as a way to#hurt me and the people around you???? she acts like shes not done horrible fucking things to people. so sorry i wrote a letter that was very#honest at the time. so sorry that when you found out i apologized for it and said i regret it because 2 weeks after my apology i no longer#regret writing it. if its making school a living hell for you....theres probably a reason for that girlfriend#i am not the person who put that shit in your folder#though i seriously fucking doubt its actually in her folder shes probably assuming it is#and youre the one who made a complete ass of yourself to every educator that ever stepped foot in that building#that has nothing to do with me that you are a literal warning given to every new educator!!!! i havent even been in school there in months#yet IM the problem??? how am i the problem when i graduated in fucking january???? everything since then falls on you#AND YET AGAIN! MIGHT I MENTION! IT IS NOT JUST MY LETTER!!! THERES AT LEAST 2 OTHER ONES!!!!!#BECAUSE IM NOT THE ONLY PERSON SHE DOES THIS SHIT TO!!!!#god sometimes i sit back and realize that theres a reason she regresses as a person and i do not#im not going to sit still anymore and let someone walk all over me and she can thank herself for that#shes who taught me that blocking and running as fast as i can doesnt fix anything#so here we are bitch. youre not blocked and im sure youre sitting at home thinking about how youre right about everything
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They're NEVER making another guy like me
#red rambles#trying to get my ducks all in a like today and lmao#like two days ago I bummed a hit off my sister's vape pen and straight up had like. a fucking asthma attack#(as far as i knew i didn't *have* asthma)#only remembered because my sister then was like 'oh yeah mom has asthma that makes sense' as though i should've known that#so today i waq trying to put together all the stuff i gotta put in my medical file (also arthritis!yay!)#that's not the part that matters#the important part is. after i was done feeling like my lungs had just been clenched in a giant fist#i did not go 'damn that sucked im not doing that again'#i went 'woah that felt really weird can i have another hit'#(my sister said no given i had just been sitting on the floor saying I couldn't breathe right and wheezing for three minutes or whatever)#(reasonable but now i want to get a dab pen ir something)#(<- also just straight up do not like nicotine(#actually the REALLY funny part of this is that the reason ive been an edibles only bitch for the last year is that through high school ever#time i smoked weed i got hives. like. physical visible obvious skin rash. I've never had an asthma attack before#finally... the scary high I've been craving....#im still gonna get myself salvia though
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people who don't know fucking shit about adderall oughtta keep their fucking mouths shut about adderall
#ppl have no fucking grace w this i swear to god#even ppl you expect to be sympathetic generally have no problem stigmatizing it. you never know#they'll just hit you out of nowhere w the 'oh theyre giving kids who cant sit still meth' oh SHUT the fuck up#theyve never done any research nor do they realize the different types and dosages etc etc#and they dont even consider that they might not see the whole picture#or that theyre OFFENDING ppl. and stigmatizing ALL ppl who are prescribed this life-sustaining medication#seriously i have no patience w this shit#and ppl will say it w their whole chest in broad daylight in front of everyone they know#like it's not a touchy thing. im like do you realize what an asshole you are#but no they never do of course they dont#text post#it's not rebloggable not bc it's not important but bc i dont feel like being nice to anyone on this subject#so i dont want this going out of my sphere where some prick is likely to pick an argument#if i were to make a more public statement id want it to be an eloquent one. and right now im just pissed#and i dont think ill ever want to be eloquent on this topic. it takes a better person than me to have patience on this issue#a better or a more ignorant person like the type of person to piss me off about it in the first place. wellllll
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#ugh im having my first laser hair removal treatment next week n i know its gonna be agonising so i want to get some numbing cream#but im looking into it now n it sounds rly complicated idk how. medical stuff works#plus i have to travel for like 2-3 hours to attend my appointment (because of course i do theres nothing accessible here)#so idk if i Could apply the cream before going out cus it'd probably wear off before the appointment -_-#idk if im gonna have to go without cream and just. be in fucking agony#because my hair is so coarse that they have to use a high strength laser and it's awful#just the brief patch test was bad enough#so idk what to do??#sure would be great if i just had a normal fucking body and didnt need to get this done
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