Oh good Gods I'm gonna throw up. I saw it. There's a live stream going on about it I'm gonna throw up.
I'm gonna unsub from that channel. It was supposed to be a safe channel. It was supposed to be silly reddit and 4chan stories.
They're talking about it. It's happening again. It was an unrelated channel. I'm not safe. It's not safe nowhere is safe. Did he know I watch? Is that why it happened? Does he know? He knows. Everyone knows. I'm not safe. There are eyes on me everywhere. Everyone knows who I am. They know when I'm around and they all want me dead.
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i hate the come-down period after doing literally anything fun at all at any point in time. i went to a movie theater on friday and then to a convention on the following weekend, which was incredibly fun! i loved it! but there's always a come-down period, where everything feels awful because i know im going to be stuck in my house again, rotting away like always, unable to do anything outside of these walls for who knows how long. its hard to keep doing things i enjoy if i know that im just going to feel awful afterwards.
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‘if you’re so goddamn lonely like you keep complaining about, just say fuck the anxiety and go back to doing weekly sessions with the boys (aka the guys I play with at the game shop, I just call them The Boys) so you can make some real, in person friends. it’s all you at this point. they miss you and are worried about you because you haven’t shown up since early December and they care about you. so you need to just push past the anxiety and fucking go.”
ok mom, but have u considered this: I don’t think im human and therefore feel awkward as fuck when presented with a room of real actual people bc idk how to interact with humanity. basically: im too fucking autistic for this shit. she’s right tho, it’s all on me to take the initiative at this point. still don’t wanna tho
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