#i trust my therapist more

[elastica1995]

i say i'm having problems sleeping since i've been taking this mood stabilizer. the nurse practitioner says do you want to try an antipsychotic. my therapist says that antipsychotic sounds like it won't help you have you considered weed gummies.

[gxlden-angels]

do you have any thoughts on the story of abraham and isaac? my parents talk about it and praise abraham for being willing to kill his son which..... scares me to say the least, and i'd love to hear your perspective as someone who seems more well-adjusted

Where I am now, it disgusts me more than anything. The interpretation of "I'm willing to sacrifice your life if I was told to" feels like the step before "I put you into this world and I can take you out of it." It's entitlement to a child, who is an independent individual, just because they are dependent on you for survival. I prefer the interpretation of understanding the actions you're taking and the reasons why (like how there's multiple religions that don't eat pork because it was so unsafe to eat at the time), especially if it's at someone else's expense.

Where I was in the thick of it all, it gave me morbid comfort that scares me now. I had fantasies of being a martyr for the church and the idea of being the next Isaac was just so appealing. Being a hand-selected sacrifice chosen by the Good Lord Himself? Sign me the fuck up, babey!

I think if I admitted that to my family, they'd be horrified.

It's another one of those stories or beliefs where I think the majority of christians just regurgitate what they've heard. It's a point of pride and devotion, but there's no personal reflection or cross-cultural awareness of it. Lean not unto your own understanding and whatnot. It's the potential that scares me the most, like the Quiverfull movement with the Duggars or Turpins. I'm sure there's stories now, but I can't remember them off the top of my head

(Also I will be telling my therapist someone on Tumblr called me "more well-adjusted" thank you anon)

[marsixm]

i dont rly ever acknowledge it outside of the moment but man so much of my job rly is just emotionally supporting a ton of my coworkers and im happy to be there for them but sometimes i wish it wasnt only me. idk. i dont rly have a point just reflecting

[goldkirk]

I DON'T HAVE TO LIE ANYMORE!

[kalgalen]

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[lover-of-mine]

Hi, I'm sorry in advance if I'm crossing a line here. But I just wanted to know, is there a reason why the replies for your posts are blocked? Most times I wanted to leave comments on your swat posts and I just couldn't

To make a very long and complicated story short, there was this one person who I kept trying to block everywhere on the internet who kept taking advantage of the way all you have to do is create another blog to go around the Tumblr block to talk me, so I kinda blocked this blog all around to try and minimize the chances of them doing something, and while they haven't tried to contact me in a while, I don't feel comfortable opening up the possibility they might show up. Imma be honest, it was hard for me to even open anon asks for a while there. I know it sucks that everything is closed, but the idea they might try to talk to me again is beyond uncomfortable for me, so I can't make myself change those settings.

[antiyourwokehomophobia2]

The way I'm genuinely starting to feel like I should keep my attractions to myself.

[autistic-katara]

there r fics that make u insane (so amazingly good it’s removed ur sanity) and then there’s fics that make u insane (you need to fistfight the author for how they did a specific thing that caused u to rant for hours)

[aropride]

therapy question for my friends in my computer, Specifically people w trauma, dissociative disorders, more stigmatized disorders in general, people who've been labelled "treatment resistant," etc. What type of therapy r u in and Does it help . bc cbt absolutely has not worked for me and idrk what to look into. i was in dbt when i was younger and that helped, and ive heard good things abt emdr (also bad things but we stay silly), but does any one have thoughts , advice, etc Bc i have got to get back in therapy at some point soon And preferably something long term

[sluttish-armchair]

Ok but thinking back to how I was in elementary and middle school: I had such disdain for other kids who broke the rules, that I irrationally hated a whole bunch of kids — kids I would have made good friends with — all because I couldn’t stand the fact that they engaged in conflicts with, and affronts to authority figures or standards.

It even went as far as internally mocking a kid my age — calling him “Mama’s Boy” in my head — over the fact that his mother whispered comments into his ear, which he mumbled unintelligibly into the mic, and then would fall asleep as if dead on her arm. I perceived his inability to give comments on his own, and his sleeping, as moral failings of both mother and child; because I wasn’t raised like that. And maybe, those feelings also came from jealousy. I was expected to fight off sleep all the time because I could read at a college level in third grade, and could theoretically understand the material presented at the meetings despite it still being inappropriate for my age group.

I was so far deep into the “bad associations spoil useful habits” mindset that it made me hate my fellow neurodivergents — kids I would have been friends with — who maybe couldn’t hide it as well as I could. That is beyond fucked up. Now, I work with those very kids I disliked so much as a child, and guess what? They are my absolute favorite people to be around; and many of them remind me of myself.

[brinnanza]

the fact that the genetic lottery rolled sensory processing issues severe enough that just regular chilling hanging out existing in my physical human body can be so overwhelming I am too exhausted to do basic tasks is a real fuckin snake eyes situation there is a lot about autism that I truly love and am genuinely grateful for but ripping all the labels off the sensory knobs and givin em a random spin is not fucking one of them

[oncillaphoenix]

it's kind of frustrating that essentially all the advice on tumblr for functioning when your brain's not working properly assumes By Default that your brain's not working properly because of depression.

like. don't get me wrong, i'm glad there's advice for people with depression. and i'm totally capable of going, yeah ok this post isn't meant for me, moving on. but...when you have to do that with every advice post, when everyone around you is promising that everyone will feel better if they can put in the effort to do these things you know will make you feel worse, you start to wonder where the heck the posts that are meant for you are.

[gxlden-angels]

Hey, hey dude I hate to be the bearer of bad news but uh, your boy is being killed in your own graphic. Like he's actively being murdered....yea idk what to tell you dude he's like Dead dead there

[punkrockisafulltimejob]

I'm working on a project on my computer and vaping, this is the closest I've been to my normal pain level in days. I know it won't last, especially not when I'm trying to sleep later.

Trying to ignore the guilt of disappearing from work for three days, when the last time I did that it was my mental breakdown two years ago.

[scarefox]

me throwing once more hints in my daily text report, that I might have ADD or autism because my thoughts are sometimes all over the place, and my social anxiety disorder partly coms from me having issues to talk & think properly when my emotions go rampage inside me in whatever direction. Also sunday depression hit me again.

therapist: is it that the secrets you keep from others take so much energy from you that you can't enjoy life fully?

me, tired of them being stuck on my 'secrets I keep from society': (for fucks sake) my secrets are "just" that I am a major asia nerd, do pole dance (as sport), am queer and mentally ill + now my financial issues. Those are all valid things to not tell everyone right away at the first meetings... My other social fears & problems I literally have since preschool.

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Man, I regret that I was open / honest in the very first talk in the clinic because they built an image just on that and are stuck on it now. I dropped that one of my issues with other people / my fears is that people could react discriminating, make fun of me or my interests, have prejudices I would have to clarify every time. Things that happened and still happen. And most of the time I don't want to explain and justify myself and my interests to random people. But all they tell me now is that I am the one who rejects the others and I am judging them actually (me being afraid of others reactions is me assuming they are bad people.... which i don't even do I am just cautious till I know them better)

Oh and I also don't tell them about "my online save space" anymore too. Because nothing in here is real it's a fantasy world that has nothing to do with the real world 🙄 I mean yes if we talk about instagram, but tumblr is a save bubble for nerds, neurodivergent and queers. But they don't get that.

[vampyroteuthid]

just in case anyone thought i was exaggerating about how stupid my coworkers think i am today one of them told me i could write "turbid which is like the scientific word for cloudy" on a urinalysis sticker. i have a college degree in a science