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This is the absolute worst time of year, and yet every year it shocks me that it's bad.
#can i have like an enjoyable new years please#like new years hasnt even like happened#but fuck me i already hate jt#i cant go have a nice time with friends cayse work and none of my friends live near me and also moved o#i cant help but relfect on my year#sure some of it was great but i wish that good feeling would stay#i thought id be further on than this#but no still in this shitty place with a shitty job 😋#love life#xoxo#Christmas and new year's SUCK ASS#can this year please go well#i want to see my friends i dont eanna be alone all the time#i want to move ON
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this is not a comprehensive list
#in order from left to right (with explanations):#k on#(self explanatory. definition of moe.)#a place further than the universe#(theyre at least a little insane for going all the way to antarctica for funsies)#bocchi the rock#(good mix of insane and sweet. most of the insane parts come from bocchi herself)#nichijou#(literally so much happened all the time)#and asobi asobase#(they did do arson)#i haven't seen azumanga daioh or yuru camp and i never finished lucky star#but based on what i know abt the first two id put it... azumanga between bocchi and nichijou. and yuru camp with or after k on#and from what i remember abt lucky star its also just after k on#a bit quirkier but nothing ever really happens in it. as far as i watched. which is why i stopped watching LOL#but thats all assumptions and second hand knowledge so i figured i shouldnt actually include them unless i was SURE#i also thought abt putting asteroid in love in here too but that one is a bit more niche so i left it out#i also excluded any idol shows bc that feels like a different category. and would make this too long#sorry zombieland saga and love live....#i also excluded straight up yuri. this is more abt Hanging Out than romance. but some is allowed as long as its not the focal point#like kita in btr. shes very yuri but the show isnt about that#you could probably also put is the order a rabbit on here but idr much from that. i think i watched like 3 episodes umm 100 years ago#i also thought abt putting the highschool girls segments from daily lives of highschool boys here. but they arent in most of the show#tho theyd probably go between nichijou and asobi asobase. or maybe on par w nichijou#that one girl did almost kill the other two with a rock as im sure youve all seen
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They are going to fuck up huge portions of the state parks in Florida I'm going to lose my mind
(link to petition protesting the GOI)
^That is an except from a PDF describing the details of the Great Outdoors Initiative (the thing the DEP announced) that I can't get the link to here, but IS linked in the petition site I put up there
Plans for a favorite park of mine ^^
Sorry I like really fail to see how a plan to increase tourism and build on acres of state park land will help aid conservation
#id in alt text#uhhh idk how to tag this#im not like. 100% sure if theres anything people who dont live in florida can do but yk#everyone ive talked to is sooo fucking unhappy about this#theyre only holding ONE meeting for people to voice their concerns about it and its on a tuesday at i think 3-4pm#oh btw a maritime hammock is a “predominantly evergreen hardwood forest growing on stabilized coastal dunes#lying at varying distances from the shore.“ (fnai.org)#“Maritime hammocks occur on raised areas near the coast. With climates strongly moderated by proximity to water#they typically support vegetation that seems more tropical than similar hammocks further inland. Soils are typically sandy.#Fire is rare or non-existant.“ (fnps.org)#THEYRE REALLY COOL.#national park#florida#florida nature#trying really hard to think of tags#florida state park#state park#im keeping national park even thought theyre not#ab the favorite park thing. i dont live near there im not telling everybody where i live skdlfjsk
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#tko_art#caught in the rain#love is for fools#ive passed the halfway point for my sketchbook#and truthfully im sad#it just seems like id never reach it#and i just thought i would be better now#but its okay#there are many sketchbooks to fill#many faces to draw#it just feels like i shouldve progressed further than this#but i suppose i cant expect to draw the same thing over and over and expect to get better#truthfully im very sad#and very bitter#hm#silently resigning
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Im not kidding, your magos biologis is the (catalyst) reason i am deciding to go on t and get top surgery
god im so with you on this one. good luck on your mission boss
#using tags to ramble a moment#i like tech priests for being so hard to define in gender while still being incredibly made in own image kinda deal#like. frankly put my gender is robotthing with masculine programming. so you can see how id end up here.#theyre so easy to play with. like i made that biologis a she/her but shes not A Woman. she's a biologis who wants to look like a wrack whil#also not being declared A Man tm for what is a very typically Manly Man build. and thought the corset and skirt wasnt enough#enough that even though she could 100% get rid of her top surgery scars she chooses to keep them and has made them more noticable/visible#by extending that scarring upward and framing the center of her chest in a way that reaches out to it#her gender is a biologis that looks like a wrack. a physicality and realisation of concept rather than a societal construct. her pronouns#serve to prove a point and to keep the average human from presuming/insisting they know what she is on sight yknow?#like. by contrast. pasqal to me is a piece of specialised machinery that makes whirring and clicking noises you cant see the source of#he's a man and comfortably so but that is secondary to him being that specialised piece of machinery#in mechanicus. to me rho's gender is the caestus metallican. you cannot define rho without simultaneously defining/including the ship#faustinius is a male human who prides himself in having taken a step further without forgetting his origins#meanwhile scaevola is a database who opts to be a woman. shes deemed unrecognisable as human even yet maintains that stance#captrix is a hunter. her pronouns are secondary to her existence [the hunt [has she told you about the hunt [shes hunting rn]]]#meanwhile epsilus is a machine that wants to learn and create. that is all they desire to be#does this all make sense or do i sound insane#point being. tech priest. made in own image. yes. thrive and follow in their footsteps ill join you#i need to make more tech priests especially ones emulating other factions i like playing with this so much
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having loop and nameless bard interacting thoughts again. the rot
#they would. bond over so much#particularly i think over them thinking of themselves as irredeemable#but i also think theyd both manhandle each other out of those thoughts with the force of a semi truck#there’s no going back. let’s try to find a way forward#I ALSO THINK#that even though bard has a couple fifty walls up hed be Very Upfront with loop#you are my friend and i think of you very fondly. i will tell you as much as many times as it takes. you are worth every penny of my—#—attention because seeing you happy makes me happy. if anything were to happen to you id hit it with my lyre#yes this includes your bad thoughts direct me towards them >:(#loop trying to hold back the biggest sob of their life: i don’t think that’s possible#bard feels like the kind of person to just straight up tell you what he thinks. it does take a few weeks of further warming up but#it will be done !!#also been thinking of the very silly image of both of them declaring themselves atheists despite the fact that they Are Very Aware that#otherworldly beings exist and listen#just to spite them.#would loop try to get bard to help them successfully tell the change god and maybe universe to fuck off#bard voice hm. if there is a will there is a way !!! it certainly cannot be harder than actively overthrowing them no#loop voice Repeat That Last Part ?#would there also be any impulse control between them . or would it just bounce back and forth#loop holding a torch: this will solve our problems :]#bard gently taking it from them: no no this will cause a bigger fire. we need to go smaller. and a less dense area#<- bard would be so ready to kick the shit out of the king too#bard cracking his knuckles: AND he’s not divine ?? this will be delightful.#<- you see. the rot#lantern says stuff
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This game. This game. Has been driving me isnane ever since the beginning. I am clawing at the walls I am screaming I have had the strong urge to make reimagined designs for some of the characters because there was an actual blank canvas right in front of me. God bless
#garten of banban#im not gonna tag any further than that#guys i am so in love with this game im gonna kick it down the stairs and watch#never thought id share this but then again here we are#havent done all of the characters yet and idk if i will but Time Will tell#also note i dont really consider flynn's design to be a reimagined one i actually dont have any problems with hjs
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my favourite hobby is allowing myself to say one (1) thing on a discourse post where the op is being a dumbass and immediately blocking them and moving on with my life bc i've learned to not spend that much time on it and i only do when i'm mass reblogging shit or if i think it's funnier to do the above since i Know it'll make them mad that i blocked them and thinking about them seething makes me giggle (i don't do this often if at all bc i don't like replying to comments)
it's literally so funny especially in this case bc they're just crying about how mspec lesbians and lesboys don't exist with repeated posts on their blog like........do u have any personality besides hating these specific queer people you don't like. it's honestly sad lol
#ghost whispers#siff.txt#cal.txt#<- our combined efforts to be annoying Once and fuck off i think#tw discourse#<- i'll tag just in case#anyways it's funny. don't go in the mspec lesbian tags crying about a different label entirely (lesboys. mspec doesn't mean men)#and then don't go in those tags going 'well i don't see mlm who ids as a girl' when hi. my fellow headmate cal would like to have a word#our one allowed discourse related post for the month only bc i thought it'd be funny to say that and then fuck off#i really don't care about having a constructive argument with people who clearly aren't willing to listen#and it's funnier than not to prove their point wrong and block them in the same go. bc i have no interest in continuing this convo further-#-if ur unwilling to genuinely listen to those who id with those labels. i'm not going to be mentally plagued over this later so idc#also their blog is dedicated to hating this one tumblr user for no reason i think so like ???? the joke already writes itself#this is also our rent firing shots to remind people that we don't support exclusionary shit :|
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look. look. I really don't care if you'd find a walrus or a fairy more surprising. I think it's a fun thought experiment with multiple ways to process the information in the situation and you can draw whatever conclusions you like from that.
but if your main argument is "actually there are walruses everywhere" then I think you might just be a little stupid
#now if your argument were 'i ASSUMED walruses were everywhere so i wouldnt find it surprising'?#a bold take!! i love it!! thats my number one argument for walrus too!!#(prior to me looking up walrus locations)#like yeah i live on the coast!! id just assume walruses lived further south than i thought!!#thats a great reason to be less surprised by a walrus!!#but if i say 'the nearest walrus is 800 miles away' the rebuttal is not. 'nuh uh'#okay im done being comedically opinionated on this im going back to my hole
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Thought I'd started going grey in 2023, instead have evidence that my hair has at least been going grey since....mid 2022? I've got grays that are my full hair length
Salt and pepper, I'm coming for you!
#im honestly way too excited about greys for a twenty something#listen im happy about aging#im further along than i thought id be
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I cry
and I sob
and I shriek
-can't you hear me?-
and she never responds
she just keeps on going regardless
it may kill us
but I wonder, will she listen even then?
logic's my friend, but never hers
health is mine
but she seems ready to throw it all away
in pursuit of the one goal
that long ago lost all meaning
I've said it's an addiction
I've said it's hell
and we're losing the fight, me and her
if she'd pull on my side we'd win
but she never will
can't she give me a moment
to catch my breath
that's the point
she'll drive us to our grave
without a moment to say slow down
even though every moment is filled with regrets
regrets she'll never hear because we're free-falling
what if we've reached terminal velocity?
can we stop even if we try?
or have we gone far enough already
that we can't back down
can't get out
doomed to this path until it's too late?
this isn't going well
I'm not winning
I need help somehow
but I cannot find the words
and when I do she points out the lies
I think of holding out a hand
of begging for help
and she grabs my hand instead
and then I leave my hand in hers
and let her take me deeper
even though all I see is darkness.
how long, o Lord?
how long must I suffer before she's gone?
we have held together too long
I don't know life without her
but I don't know life with her
only a slow
extended
death
#catkin poetry#personal#puddleglum hours#how long must it be#i cannot bear the thought of reaching out for help because what if its all in my head#but i swear it's killing me#some of the time im desperate and some of the time i just give in and dont care#all day ive not cared except for a brief time when i went and played hte piano to calm down#but right now at midnight i am desperate#i have no tears only terrible fear#i cannot see a way out of this#i cannot see a future beyond this i can only see the same half-life trapping me for days and months and years and#i cannot bear it#and so many people have it so much worse than me so what am i even complaining about#only stupid problems in my own stupid head and id better not clog the system further not unless i really need it#my sister said to get help while it was still not too much of a problem#well jokes on you sister it's gone too far#it's too far gone for an easy fix#and not far enought o warrant help immediately#i dont know what's going on#i just dont know#sometimes its completely fine and sometimes its awful#im just so tired and worn out and empty and wrung out and im afraid so afraid#but of what? i dont know#of missing church on Sunday? maybe#if i can't beat this thing in my head enough to be safe to drive an houra nd a quarter each way then i cannot go#but if i cannot go then that sends danger signals to siblings and i dont want that#if i were a more sensible idiot id not be thinking so and fearing the future so#i dont even want to die right now#i wnat to live
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I thought I'd be devastated, but I actually just feel really proud of myself for trying.
#when you get an opportunity of a life time and you miss the mark#i thought id be so upset#but im just glad i did i entered the exhibition and put my best foot forward#i did something crazy alright#i didn't need to win anything for me to feel completely amazed by what i achieved#i got a big opportunity#yeah i guess im sad it didn't go any further than that regonal exhibit#but my art was in a regional EXHIBITION#like omg thats so cool#im proud of myself#thoughts#my thoughts#context->#i got the opportunity to put my art work in a regional exhibition to have the opportunity to win a spot in a really really big art gallery#so im pretty happy i even go the opportunity to try
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what is this comment??? am i ok 😭😭😭
#THE PHRASING SOUNDS SO FUNNY#but i meant like when ppl are able to notice and observe similar things but like. they say in ways better than you can personally elaborate#and they help further solidify the characterization and motives behind a thought process or storyline. ITS JUST RLLY GOOD#its just awesome that others are able to pick up on those hints as well and give more information abt em bc then i dont actually seem like#a crazy person who's just rambling and making shit up on the spot n makin a fool of himself sjfhsjhdjahdjfhj#i always love hearing other ppl's opinions. even before when u could view tags easily id often enjoy seein what ppl had to say#it just feels like a more human connection that way
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I've gotta stop thinking about Turlough's age and timeline bc its driving me insane. Like he was apparently exiled on earth for 8 years, which makes sense in terms of Malkon being an infant when he left. But on his side if he was at the school for the whole exile which it seems like he was, then did he look aged 10/11 when he arrived? That doesn't seem right since he was a soldier on trion but how else did he grow up alongside his classmates?
#ik im putting more thought into this than the writers did 😅#but i thought his exile was 2 maybe 3 years and then i watched planet of fire and it was like yeah malkon was a toddler when turlough left#so now im in this rabbit hole#but also can you imagine 8 years away from your home and family without any contact or even news from your planet#and the atmosphere makes you sick and youre stuck in a public school with people who dont even know theres life on other worlds#i dont blame turlough for taking the first chance to get off earth even if it did involve murder 😅#doctor who#vislor turlough#like id assume sarn/malkon is at a point further ahead than turloughs timeline but that still doesnt explain the 8 years
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how goes the progress on your version of LB7 ?
how many plot twists is too many because uhhhhh i'm at like at least 6
at this point the outline is less a line than it is a
#from chaldea's perspective i mean#i actually do have most of the basic outline thought out by this point heck that part's almost done#idk if i'll take it further than that but yeah#just need to figure out a few couple more character arcs out of like 13<#also I still cant fcking edit images properly to save my life#fgo#lostbelt 7#writing shit#fansingularity#never thought id get an ask
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Ok gotta talk about it.
As a Jewish historian, I fucking hate Israel in ways most probably will never be able to comprehend. I'm going to try and explain it anyways. The central creation myth of Israel is that it is Jewish, and then consequently, that Israel is a part of Jewishness. Its easy to simply state this is false, but fully comprehending this and putting it into practice in thought and deed seems rare to me.
The evil at the heart of this violence predates the recent acceleration of genocide. Israel is a colony, and more than that, an antisemitic fraud itself. After WW2, when Israel was being founded, the Jews of Europe generally did not wave goodbye to their neighbors and head to the promised land. Many were expelled from their homes. Zionism itself, as an action, was a false choice at the time. A mere excuse to place an ally in the middle east, and an excuse to complete the expulsion and destruction of the European Jew. The Zionist Jew is more than complicit in this, they actively seek the destruction and assimilation of all other Jews.
Many fail to realize, and largely because of Israel, that Jews are not inherently white, Ashkenazi, European-descended people. Our faith and culture has an immense variety that is spread all across the globe. Jewishness, in population and volume of culture, exists more so outside of Israel than within it. Israel is for a very specific kind of Jew. The kind that lets Yiddish die, that attaches themselves to European things, that makes themselves and their practices as white as possible.
And they have the nerve, the fucking belligerent GALL, to frame themselves as the necessary saviors of our people. To the Zionist, questioning Israel is to question Jewishness itself. They bake adoration for the colonial machine into their very prayers, and push them on us even as children. To *not* oppress, to *not* kill, to *not* genocide, is to invite death. This is the core of fascistic thought, of course. "Kill them before they kill us." And they KNOW this too, they really do. The truth of that irony does not matter, because as is true for all fascists, the truth itself does not matter to them. They wanted this, they wanted this even before the British saw it in their best interest to give them the land. Any excuse to RETVRN, as the neo-nazis say of Rome, or the German Empire, or whatever the fuck stupid country they want to poorly animate the corpse of. Some select Zionists even *sided with the fucking Nazis* in agreement they should abandon Europe to colonize Palestine. (Haavara Agreement)
My people have proved time and time and time again you don't need a nation state to have an enduring culture. We have protected ourselves for thousands of years without the help of these spiteful, doom-saying maniacs. I was going to post something like this on Passover, but that would be hypocritical. The state of Israel doesn't actually have shit to do with Jewishness. Hear Israel (the state and supporters, Israel the icon) I should outlive it long enough to bury it. (old yiddish curse)
Free Palestine. Donate what you can, they need it right now.
#free palestine#israel#jews for palestine#jews against israel#jewish history#antisemitism#jews against genocide
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