#i think she’s retarded lowkey

[askdeadbeatandnt3k]

“don’t ask how I ended up in ponytown. long story..”

ART NOT MADE BY ME… MADE BY MY ONLINE OLDER BROTHER

anyways! Sorry, ya girl has been… on a hiatus 😓😓 very busy… supa supa busy

[cowboy-robooty]

my retarded ass just bought these expensive ass cookies because this girl whos doing a side hustle at my college saw me sitting and studying for my last final and was like hello! I homebaked these cookies and I'm selling them would you be interested? and this girl is very obviously just going up to ten thousand random people by hand because she is carrying this heavy ass bag and im like omfg i cant just say hell no i dont like cookies. so im like haha sorry i dont think i have enough cash on me atm and shes like I do card too and im thinking alright well these are homemade and she has chocolate ones so yknow what if its like 10 bucks for a box why not. ONLY TO FIND OUT ITS LIKE 20 FOR A BOX (10 cookies) LIKE DAMN THESE ARE SMALL ASS COOKIES TOO! I BET THEYRE GOOD BUT I DONT LIKE COOKIES THAT MUCH. but omg then she told me how theyre 15 a box now (implying nobody has been buying) and i felt really bad for her and she even went you know you can haggle me too and i was like (in my head) jesus fucking komaeda TToTT bro you need cash that bad ??? and shes not even mean guys okay because she knows saying this stuff makes people feel a bit bad for her and shes like haha but its the holiday season so its fine if you aren't interested i know buying gifts for everybody drains your wallet. like goddamn i have a job its my duty to support people in need so i went uhmmm how about i buy half a box for 8 bucks and she was really happy (she even said i love you which i know is just a big thank you but like damn. isn't that crazy? idk maybe it only feels crazy to me because im more old fashioned and refuse to say i love you to someone i dont love) and now i have 5 expensive ass cookies that are probably really good but i dont really like cookies so it lowkey sucks. I'll give them to wiener or something idk watch as i try one and its insanely good and i hit her up for more bc she has a buisness card in the box.

[cyberspookviv]

my experience with the hazbin/helluva hatedom and how I continued to hate myself from there on TW: vent/s*icide/problematic stuff

I guess I was lowkey kinda young when I found out about Hazbin/helluva (around 2023 and I am a minor around 12-18) I know i shouldn’t be watching that shit and considering how bad the fandom is now with kids I feel guilty but it wasn’t that “big” back then I didn’t like it at first but then I tried it some more there was too many cursing it kinda made me scared for once and a while but I sorta liked it? Maybe because it was my first experience with violent content? Idk ajsjdj

yet little did I know that it would be considered one of the most hated fanabases I seen in my entire life

I guess it was a primary fandom I was really into as embarrassing as it I just fell in love with the characters and lore a little “too fast” this was such a fun fandom to make aus and theories because of how fun the lore was it wasn’t good at all but atleast I had “fun” right? Sometimes now I thinking about it I was too obsessed with it and hell I was so distracted by all the fun stuff about it that I forgot about the criticism in the first place i wasn’t immune I tried to take it by watching videos online but it was….. harsh…. And shit hell sometimes I was kinda immune bc I still needed to continue most of hb lol but…I guess it got to a point where it felt…kinda bad maybe “too” flawed so I got scared I had experience with my interests being despised before and I didn’t want the same to happen again so I tried to defend it and that’s where the creator….comes in…..

.

I thought her imagination was…fascinating she had such passion and thought behind her shows…that she became… my role model…. So I tried to defend her…but tbh nobody really seemed to like her I tried sticking to people who defended her like ayy lmao

but then I realized about the stuff she did…

It make me look like a damn fool…

and what’s even worse people who defended her were called “dick riders” I then started seeing hate around her “with the written by vivziepop jokes” and the controversies on Twitter

I got anxious…. But at the end she was a bad person right…just separate art from the artist

but nobody liked the art either

Hazbin finally came out and there’s was either love or hate and tbh I got really back into Hazbin bc of the release of it being on “prime” but I knew something didn’t feel right I went on Twitter a lot “too much” actually and i discovered these rumors about her and if I defended these rumors about such terrible things I would just look like such a stupid pathetic dick sucking retard so I forced myself to hate her either way so I forced myself to go online and read “hh/hb critical��� content but then I began to hate myself even more they painted her as such a terrible person but i agreed anyway because it was the “truth” but then again she was my idol…my role model….i got so anxious and I never even gave a damn about the shows writing making it even worse when it came to criticism it was noticeable in the show but I choosed the ignore it and when I saw ppl complaining online I felt like a complete pathetic asshole for liking it and what’s worse they would say shit like “she’s manipulative and narcissistic and her fans are nothing but dick riders that are thoughtless and can’t take criticism and deserve to die in a fucking fire” it made me want to absolutely k*ll myself and made me feel like i wasn’t worth living

THIS SHIT FUCKING EXPLAINS IT ALL

I wanted to talk to somebody or a therapist desperately about this but I loved her and her shows so either way my behavior was fucking creepy making me hate myself even more because my story was never “valid”

so I just ran away

I’m doing better now….i still miss the shows tho even though most people call it “toxic” for supporting a “horrible” person but still have that charm when i see it or see posts about it it makes me remember how “happy” i use to watch it and the fact that i had to ran away a join better fandoms that were accepted by people and wouldn’t make me feel ashamed and wanting to end my life i just finally…finally decided to share this post now despite how controversial it may get i might honestly get death threats or hate comments tbh lol

but I just want some people to know out there about my experience because I just desperately need a heartwarming comment right now to make sure that I’m not alone please…I just wanted to have fun I’m doing better now…. I just want everything and I mean EVERYTHING to be ok…

I just want to be accepted…..

.

[bulletproofthroat]

been a hot minute since i respired here

yea i aint even gon hide shit lol im suicidal i fw ts heavy lool i been too short tempered w everything bc my wrong wired brain cant keep up w mock exams and bitches in my way i cba LOL

mocks are somewhat ok, my history teacher decided to be funny and fuck both classes over on the exam paper which was absolutely astonishing and i definitely didnt cope by drinking and smoking ts LOL i hope my russia paper carries me tho but its fucking annoying because i know the glorious revolution back to front side to fucking side and i did wass in my actual paper but fuck dude not even extra time had me lock in like nobody fucking understood shit wtf????

anyway yeah i need to lock in for psych paper 2 and law on friday which is 2hrs so idk im lowkey going mia on these bitches lool i js be quiet n mysterious (nah im planning my suicide) and im ngl if i bite the curb with these mocks im gonna pull an eva smith and chug bleach, im not bluffin im gonna down a whole bottle of bleach til my throat burns from the inside,

sick of my life lol

also if youre gonna pretend to gaf me please dont waste your time by messaging me not like anyone is but just the reminder to the small cohort of retards lol bc who even be real these days??? yall just be askin n taking shit from me like im some slave lol

also lovely i finished CBT therapy and now my mama aint want me to do fuckin psychotherapy bc she thinks my bpds just not even that "severe" ??? i dont even wanna sound like sm retard who wines bc they sm pussy n they cant handle anything in life BECAUSE YALL JS SM FUCKIN DUMBASS PUSSIES WHO CANT EVEN TOUCH GRASS WITHOUT CRYING "WAH WAH WAH THE GRASS JUST ABUSED ME WAH WAH WAH IM SO SAD IM GONNA CUT MYSELF" bitch go kys

i stg i fuckin hate ppl that just bring "oh i wanna cut myself" or some corny ass self harm joke to the convo go fuckin do it then tf??? who stoppin yo fatass??💀💀💀 i hate retards that come out of nowhere n wanna bitch and tell me their life be depressin

then go kill yourself fuck you want my ass to do?? do i look like a damn nurse LOL??? anyway human interaction is outside of my priorities so fuck yall go kys love yu

[garf-lover96]

big vent under cut. i know i never do that here but i just needed to scream at a void. might delete this later

i am trying REALLY hard to keep my fucking peace in this house and not bother anyone just so they don't think to go and bother me but that's just. impossible to do. i've been doing this for my whole life and it doesn't work, it just doesn't. they made me think 10 times before i say ANYTHING so i don't accidentally prolong any conflict so when a screaming match starts i just don't talk and that's wrong too apparently. they tell me that oooh you don't like us you don't want to spend time with us yeahh i wonder why. i'm not even safe in my own room and that's just heartbreaking, there's literally no right answer here. i was in HEAVEN when they all left for a weekend, it was so quiet and calm and now everything's back to normal obviously.

the best part is that i'm the only one that ever thought of getting fucking outside help, while the rest of them deny that they even need it. my sister that literally makes my life hell every day by just berating me for everything i do claims that she doesn't need help because 'i'm the retarded one in the family'. SHE KEEPS JOKING ABOUT BEING ADOPTED BECAUSE SHE'S CONVINCED THAT SHE'S THE ONLY NORMAL ONE HERE. it's like she's blind to her absolutely insane and just sadistic fucking behavior, i swear. i used to want to kill myself about it but i don't anymore, i just want to get out as soon as possible and not talk to any of them ever again. (LITERALLY HAD TO TAKE A BREAK BECAUSE NOW I HEAR MY DAD SAYING THAT ITS NOT NORMAL THAT I STAY IN MY ROOM ALL THE TIME OH MY GOOOOOOD ARE YOU ACTUALLY JUST FUCKING STUPID. ARE YOU SEEING HOW YOU ACT ON A DAY TO DAY BASIS. YOU'RE JUST MAKING ME HATE YOU MORE AND MORE. but i'm not even surprised about it anymore because he's a hardcore catholic that thinks beating children is fine! okay mister!!! you need to be locked up lowkey!! or go to extensive therapy please!)

i try very hard to be a good person i literally developed a fucking complex where i need to justify all my actions to myself because i don't want to be like them very desperately, i want to be better than all of this. but just the amount of hate that i have for my sister. like, i shouldn't even blame her for all of this because it's my parents fault that they didn't fucking do anything about her beating me when she was a little baby. because have i mentioned that she's a year younger than me???? how fucking embarrassing that is that i wanted to end it all because of an immature little bitch that calls me fat and retarded sometimes?????? and it only ever gets worse because all it took was ONE mention to my mom that my psychologist thinks i have undiagnosed autism (it was obvious since i was little, i don't know what took everyone so long honestly) and suddenly my sister heard about it too and now she calls me autistic and retarted and stupid eeeevrerryyyyyyyyy fuckingggg day i just want to bash her fucking face in with a hammer, LIKE WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU SAY THAT WHEN I'M JUST TRYING TO MAKE MYSELF BREAKFAST. my empathy for her evaporated as well like. years ago. so now when she's getting screamed at i just don't feel anything. i wanna feel bad about it too but i just can't??? i know she's literally just a regularass person but all my hateful memories of her make her seem like she's some kind of evil spirit that was sent to this earth to just torture me. and she still has the fucking nerve to ask me what i'll but for her upcoming birthday. when i used to cry in a corner at my little 10 year old age and pray that she gets taken away like my parents just kept threatening to give her away to a fucking farm or something. I USED TO PRAY TO GOD FOR HER TO NOT FUCKING BERATE ME EVERY DAY AND SURPRISEEE NOTHING CHANGED. i could write so much more about this but my thumbs are starting to hurt and i'm only working myself up more. i will get out and never speak to them again and be at peace soon, i have to believe that it will find me

and the fight that got triggered like half an hour ago and the reason i'm writing this was caused over calling to order a pizza btw👍 love this stupid fucking awful house

[omegawolverine]

hi can u tell me what dinner in america is about? i wanna watch it but i wanna know what i’m signing up for!

omg hiii yes :3 im bad at explaining movies so bear with me here but like. okay so id say it falls in romcom territory, idk what the official genre is but it's definitely a funny romance so we're going with that. the main idea is that this guy simon is lowkey wanted by the police and he ends up hiding in this girl patty's house out of convenience bc they run into each other and she recognizes him from a class they had together in college (they're like 20). during this first night when he convinces her parents to let him stay by lying through his teeth he finds out that patty is a huge fan of the punk band he is a frontman of but she doesn't know it's him bc he wears a mask to every show and she's been sending him these love poems (amongst other things...u can find that out for urself) that he's saved literally every single one of bc he thinks she's like a lyrical genius and he's kinda infatuated just by that alone (and the other things inside them........lul)

one thing to note is that patty has some unnamed disability (or multiple bc it's kinda implied she might also have epilepsy and she's on 5 different meds), the popular theory is autism which i think checks out pretty well, so a lot of this movie features her getting called retard amongst other similar comments. i say this both as a warning but also bc it's pretty plot relevant as a huge part of the movie is simon basically helping her get back at people but also grow into herself and learn how to defend herself bc she kinda just let's people treat her like shit bc its her normal (even her parents infantalize her so ofc she thinks it's okay when everyone else treats her like she's stupid).

i don't wanna give too much else away but yeah long story short: fangirl accidentally meets her idol and he falls for her and she falls back before even knowing and they help each other grow yayyy! other general warnings are like homophobia i guess but when simon says dyke and fag it's like yeah he's def a fruitcake so whatever but other characters also do it so ya know! and also obvs the ableism and there's like sexual harassment in a couple scenes but it's like. akin to kurt and ram from heathers type weirdo shit, if that helps paint a picture. mostly the movie is just funny and cute tho! very heartwarming in the 2nd half imo <3 lmk if you watch it and what you think!!

[papirouge]

https://www.tumblr.com/researchgate/751723182896054272/funny-how-you-talk-shit-about-al-jazeera-but-then

Example of terfs supporting Israel with the argument of “well Gaza banned abortion” HUH. Also the tags are disgusting “people complain when Jewish people do this but not when Muslims do this” Trump literally banned Muslim immigration, do terfs think Muslims are privileged?

What a weird and ironic connection with terfs and conservatives

Thank you anon but I lowkey resent you bc the ask in the link legit made me lose braincells 💀

"birth control is illegal in Gaza, as is homosexuality"

Saying that "birth control is illegal" is retarded if you don't define what kind of birth control you're talking about. Choosing celibacy or refraining from sex to not get pregnant ARE forms of birth control. Are Palestinian women legally forced to marry/have sex, @/old school butch?? ...oh my bad, you're probably one of those racist uneducated idiots who think of Arab women and immediately thinks they are all forcibly married at 9 y.o.

Also from what leap does she assume not accessing to birth control = female not "owning" their body? This pattern of thinking is a general consensus among radfem and I never understood it. Those women cannot conceptualize women *not* needing fertility control medication to "own" their body.

I assume she's actually talking about medicalized form of birth control, which then reveals in their mind contraception pills/device = birth control = full body autonomy. They admit entirely relying on some medication to own their body. That's VERY ironic because it shows they're not that different from trans identified people (they hate so much) who rely on hormones to be their true self ™️. Apparently women need hormone control medicine to "own" their body 🙃

And same goes with the "homosexuality is illegal" thing. Homosexuality being "legal" doesn't mean gays being safe and vice versa. Palestinians been fighting for DECADES against colonization, deportation and oppression and this sheltered (white?) woman be really like "but what about gay people??? 🥺" ....She's dumber than a door knob.

"bred in captivity to supply martyr for the revolution" this whole sentence reeks fake concern with a sprinkle of whitefem saviorism. Let's make something clear : women like that butch don't care about those women. She's literally projecting some disgusting breeding fantasy scenario from the words of one (1) moid to brush Palestinian women like broodmares deprived from any sense of self to push her dehumanizing agenda against Palestinians.

It would never occur to that white butch that those non white women may actually wanted those big families. Noooo, they are just poor victims of that evil Islamist patriarchy forcing them to pop up the next generation of martyrs!! Also note the typical whitefem eugenicist urge to freak out at the thought of women having 6 children...that would inevitably end up becoming terrorists.... that's why birth control is sooo important to stop them from existing. But yeaaaaah those radfem are totally NOT edging on white supremacy and that's just some stupid TRA conspiracy LMAO

That's why I know OP is White : the whitefem saviorism (homonationalist version) is POPPING out there. Nothing like paternalistic white women distressed at seeing women oversea having lots of children... GOD FORBID non White women have children and reproduce... WITH (SAVAGE NON WHITE) MEN??!!

"this suffering was known and accepted by their leaders" which "leaders"? The Hamas ? That hasn't been voted for for like 10-15 years ? Can't wait ppl start advocate to collectively punish USAmerican voting in war criminals Bush & Obama a few years ago.

What "suffering" is she even talking about?? Who's the actual cause of it, BUTCH?? I ain't no Hamas supporter but the Hamas 1/is not a feminist movement 2/whole point of existence is to defend and free their land. Whining about them not doing enough for women(??) is silly. Someone tell that dummy there won't be Palestinian women to defend if there's no more Palestine..

TL;DR : That butch is the average white woman hiding behind feminist to dismiss entire system of oppression (such as Zionism) that override genders. regardless they're gay, radfem, butch, etc. White feminists are NOT to be trusted when it comes to defend WOC. They will inevitably side with White supremacy and are the dumbest people ever when it comes to geopolitics and womanhood worldwide beside their sheltered western bubble. They should keep seething against TRA to pretend being subversive, and let actual women with a brain talk.

bonus the most stupid tags I seen in a while :

"no one say shit when middle east women suffer" *ME WHEN I LIE*

MIDDLE EAST WOMEN ARE LITERALLY TOKENIZED 24/7 BY WHITE PEOPLE AND FEMINISTS LIKE YOU WITH THE ONLY PURPOSE OF DEMONIZING ARABS AND ISLAM.

"when it's Israeli women their suffering is either denied of justied"

PLEASE TELL FOR WHOM THE #METOOUNLESSYOUREAJEW HASHTAG WAS MADE FOR?? QUICKLY. WHICH ONE BETWEEN PALESTINIAN OR ISRAELI WOMEN HAVE THEIR SEXUAL ABUSE LITERALLY INVISIBILIZED AND DON'T HAVE THE PRIVILEGE OF HAVING A HASHTAG DEDICATED TO IT??

*when Arab do this it doesn't matter"

STOP LYING. THE MISTREATMENT OF WOMEN IN THE MIDDLE EAST HAS TO BE THE MOST COVERED ASPECT OF MISOGYNY WORLDWIDE. OTHERWISE HOW WOULD YOU IMMEDIATELY PULL OUT THE "HONOR KILLING" "STONING" ETC. GOTCHA WHENEVER WE TALK ABOUT MAYYYBE NOT GENOCIDING ARABS??? SHUT UUUUUUUUM

Those women made me lose 35% of my braincells BYE AND GOODNIGHT

[shadow-schemer]

There has to be a mod to remove the fucking tooltip that appears everytime there's exposition or whenever I make a choice. A tooltip telling me "You made a choice" after I just made a choice makes me feel incredibly retarded like the game is holding my hand because it believes I will forget making a decision I just made 2 seconds ago.

Like jfc I already know I'm retarded you dont have to reaffirm me every damn time. Yes, tooltip I understand that Neve is upset because she literally said "I am upset.". You don't have to tell me again.

Also, I want to remove the exposition recap every time I finish a mission. Like JESUS CHRIST I KNOW WHAT HAPPENED. I WAS THERE. I PLAYED IT MYSELF. WHY ARE YOU SITTING ME DOWN TO TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED. I WAS THERE.

Ascension of the Metatron executed this exposition recap miles better! It worked similarly, but the recap is told briefly and in a way that lowkey gives Lucifel his own character. Lucifel was established to function as the player's Tutorial guy and Save Point so he doesn't get in the way of Enoch's mission. You're expected to think nothing of him until he is forced to extend his functions to another character because Enoch falls to a Big Bad. As you play as another character does Lucifel begin showing his true colors and starts LYING and OMITTING MAJOR DETAILS in his story recap (e.g. Lucifel actively betrays and abandons the character to die, but when he recaps to Enoch he says something like "Hey you're lucky I saved what's left of you!"). And, you the player, can't do anything about it! But now you become wary of everything that comes out of Lucifel's mouth even if he is telling the truth when he is returned to Enoch's side.

It is so hard @@;;

[yeah-they-call-me-d]

it’s so weird going through this with *****. i do really like her and i haven’t felt like this about a person. she spent the night and genuinely we just laughed all night. i call her a boomer despite her only being 4 years older than me. she called me a retard last night and i have never liked someone more. we laughed about her home having a tv tray and lawn chair because she can’t fit a table into her studio. i had to simp for her lowkey but i couldn’t have imagined a better outcome. she really does make me so happy and i think i am going to actually fall in love with her. she keeps telling me how much she likes me and gassing me up. she told me some deep stuff about her and it made me like her more. she has been so open and communicative with me. she’s taking me to pinball this week and i cannot wait. i showed her my pokemon cards and she gave me mild shit about some. i haven’t liked someone like this ever. i’m making her a hot topic milf shirt because i think i may fall in love with her. her birthday is coming up and i want to take her on a trip to do something nice for her. she’s so kind and soft but also likes the dark side of me that comes out. she has so many tattoos and they’re all so good. i love the snake around her neck. i have never wanted someone so much in my life.

[wellnesscard]

okayyyy heres my rant about a lil bit of chicken fried a cold beer on a friday a pair of jeans that fits just right and the radio on

gooddddd. i lowkey/highkey hate my jobeven tho there isnt much "real" to hate on as compared to several other places ive quit. its just not my favorite. its mind numbingly boring and repetitive and still half the other managers loose their shit about doing the expected days work. i say other managers bc i am a manager which i didnt realize was the position at all until a couple months in, and if i decided to not do the training id get my pay cut from $14 to like $12. and that fuckings irks me bc had i known i was going to be responsible for ppl and things i wouldve asked for more koney when they hired me but that ship has sailed and i fuckt it up bc i thought i was going to be a line cook. and ig they need managers soooo bad they literally just paid for my serv safe n all that jazz. and i swear half the ppl that work there are fucking retarded like the last manager in training failed serv safe three or more times.. then when i passed everones like congratulations that test is really hard u did it! im like i have to get the fuck out of here Fast ohmygod. and i work with devon and its mostly fine but also drives me nuts occasionally. like were so together he just forgets stuff like telling me im manager in training or training me on any management shit at all before im supposed to start running shifts solo. im just frustrated by a lot and i want to quit but i know i probably shouldn't because its so fucking easy and i can get away with virtual murder there . its also a tiny cage of a kitchen, constantly overstaffed, and feel a bit trappt by a) devon going out n getting this job for me when we moved bc he already worked there n is buddies with the GM, and b) the GM being such a sad ass self-conscious redhead who has also just handed me a ton of free goodies. tbh they do quarterly raises and maybe if i negotiate to 15.50 ill be more okay with it all. that is/has been another struggle is making my own relationships w these people bc devon knew them all first and is a bit more boisterous than me and im trying to push past some of these codependent habits ive ended up with (started crying at this bit so u know were getting close to the truth) which is so fucking Hard when you work at his job working the same shifts or when were not i.e. today and i start crying waking up bc i have to go in alone and be manager which i never fully got trained for and be 1-on-1 with his sister who also works there and who i love but also can be very intense and volatile esp lately bc she started dating this girl whom is ..... kinda a dick ngl so thats obvy stressful. anyways yes avoiding codependency is Hard when thats the morning n he says anything i can do for u? and i half joking say work my shift? n then he does -_- and i feel like i should've just been a big girl. like if i worked a job different than my husband he wouldnt be able to cover my shift, its just the unique workings of This Fucking Place. which im fine with. i think. the walk there is amazing, even if i perpetually smell like fryer oil. fr watch me get mauled by a boar or bear omw home next week cos i smell like a snack walking home thru the woods. whatever at the same time its easy as pie and if i work it right i never have to buy groceries.

[crosby-interesting]

anonymous comments from "The Data Lounge" 2012

about Sidney :

1)It's not exactly true that he hasn't been linked to any girl. He's been linked to some old hag in the Dominican Republic, Gabriella Stern, some girl named Jess (there are actually pictures of them floating around somewhere) and Kathy Leutner. He just hasn't shown up at any team event/function with a girl.

2)Someone posted this on the talk sports girlfriend site today: "A piece of girlfriend gossip I heard and thought I would share. I by no means am claiming it to be truth just heard it from a girl I use to be friends with forever ago and now only see once a year at an annual family/friends christmas party.Anyway, apparently Sid is/was dating Karyn, a teacher from Sewickley Academy (might have the name wrong). She is/was not a permanent teacher but was taking over for a teacher on a maternity leave. My friend is a teacher-not at the same school, but knows some of the teachers there and said she kept it very lowkey and and that she was super cute and really nice.

Can he not get anyone actually attractive? Reminds me of Hugh Jackman's wife.

3)why would Sidney keep a relationship with a woman low-key? Does his father prohibit him from dating?

4)I haven't read Puckbunny Parlor in a long time, but that is where one would find gossip. Mind you, the girls there, generally, hate him. Loathe him. They think he's a semi-retarded naif puppet who has the hand of the NHL stuffed up his ass so he can sell products for them and project a squeaky clean image. Part of the hate is that the NHL has failed utterly to promote hockey beyond him and Ovechkin. To them he's just an easily manipulted oaf. Not true for all because there are starry eyed fangirls who would come in and fight the regulars. There is one woman in particular who goes by "!" there. Yes, just the exclamation point. She's an old time puckbunny who has dated hockey players for a while and had a regular guy (married) whom she doesn't name. There's another poster "Puffy" who works in either the NHL or some supporting enterprise that works closely with the NHL. These two women are very intelligent and mature and don't sound like they have a particular ax to grind. The last time I was on the site was about three years ago. At that time "!" said that when Crosby first started in Pittsburgh he dated a high school girl, a senior, whom he saw very discreetly. This "!" also said that he was later involved with a woman who was an exotic dancer and his family and Mario Lemieux made him break it off. He told them he did, but he continued to see her.

5)I found my old registration info for Puckbunny Parlor. Here's what "Silver" says about Crosby: About Sidney Crosby. There is definitely something "off" about him. But it doesn't mean that he is necessarily gay, and that's not because there is anything wrong with being gay, it just means that there is something "off" about him, as in he's "hiding something." People could assume that that feeling that he's hiding something is because he's gay and hiding it. But it doesn't have to have anything to do with being gay. IMO, people get a weird vibe from him, that is why the jokes about him being "retarded" and "gay" circulate. His behavior is odd, and the more it is highlighted by the media, the more odd it looks, especially as he gets older. But let's not forget that even his "lifestyle" is all a phony image because he is a totally marketed persona. Everything he does/says is fake and everything in the media is a carefully calculated move. TPTB want him to be this Peter Panesque man/child. I personally have no idea how or why they consider that to be admirable or desirable but it's obvious the demographics of it have worked because if it didn't and he didn't sell all of their tickets, merchandise and so on, his campaign would be dropped immediately. I cannot imagine how long this persona is going to be able to keep going. How long before even the most head in the sand, know nothing about hockey, bandwagon fan is going to start to wonder why this man is shown to still behave like a preteen. The reason he seems like a robot or unnatural or retarded or gay or anything "out of the ordinary" is because it is all an act. As the act keeps going on and on, it starts getting tiresome, and he'll start to look more and more odd and ridiculous until he's like a hairband in one of those old videos where you watch now and wonder how anyone thought that was a good choice.

6)Crosby is definitely very insulated and protected. For what? Protect him from what? Give me a break. He's a grown man for crying out-loud. Protection. Enough! Thank you.

Yes, I also do not understand for what merits the NHL management is paid a salary. Justin Bieber promotes ice hockey more than all of them put together

[themarauderstheoutsidersandpeggy]

I guess tumblr just ate my ask (or you don’t want to do it) but just in case I’m resending it: can i get a hc with Sirius and Remus where they comfort reader when she is having a crisis, let me explain sometimes when I get too angry and when I’m sad I just lose it like I start crying uncontrollably and screaming and I literally go out of my mind and it happened once in public but usually it was when I was w/ family and I just wondered what it would be like to actually have someone for you 1/2

bc I know that after a fight with my mom she just said I was crazy and she even laughed once and yeah I don’t even know why I’m sending this again bc it’s stupid and you’ll probably think I’m crazy too and i don’t want that but if you could it’d be so nice from you and i guess it could help me if I ever go through this again But honestly you really don’t have to if you don’t want to I totally understand why you wouldn’t want to write about that 2/2

Hello love! I think tumblr just likes messing with people, bc no, I did not get your ask. I will write this for you though! I hope you’re feeling better :)

REMUS:

He walks in on you while you’re crying and he doesn’t know why you’re crying but he’s there for you

He runs over to you and you start crying harder just because you’re overwhelmed

And he’s scared that he’s the reason that you’re crying so he backs up 

But then you reach out for him and his heart shatters

He sits down next to you and lifts you into his lap

And you just sort of flop onto him and cry into his shoulder

He holds you and rubs your back

And he isn’t phased at all when you scream into his shoulder, he gets it

He runs his hands through your hair while you let off steam

At one point you slow down and he’s able to pull back enough to look at you

If his heart wasn’t completely broken when he found you

It sure is now

He looks at the tear stains down your face and tried to wipe the tears off of your face

But it’s useless because more are just flowing down your cheeks and he’s getting so sad bc if you cry he cries and he’s starting to tear up and he just wants you to feel better

But he also knows that too many questions and poking and prodding will only make it worse 

So he just sits with you and rests his cheek on your head until you’re able to calm down

And then if you’re ready to talk about it, he’s so ready

He also lowkey has that boyfriend feeling where he just wants to beat up whoever made you cry but he knows that violence isn’t always the answer Sirius

All in all, he doesn’t care that you vent differently from other people. He’s more concerned with if you’re okay and if you need him to do anything because have I mentioned that he’s also ready to do whatever you ask of him to help you feel better?

SIRIUS:

You’re in public when you receive bad news

(Fit it to your life, idk what’s going on but I wanted to do one in public since you mentioned that)

And Sirius has been around when you’re upset before

So when he sees that you’re not taking the news well

He grabs your arm and tries to move you into the bathrooms

But you can’t move

You’re frozen

So he just picks you up and carries you into the bathroom himself

He doesn’t even put you down once you’re in there

He holds you and whispers comforting words into your ear and just waits for when you’re ready

He’s been in that sort of situation before where you just gotta let everything out

He’s not one to judge

He knows that sometimes no one can do anything to shush you, and no one should do anything to shush you, you need to get everything off your chest to move on

He lets you scream as loud as you want and tells you that screaming always helps him

So he might even join you and have you scream as loud as humanly possible for as long as you need

And then once you’re tired from screaming

He pulls you back into his chest and plays with your hands a little

He sits with you until everything is out and then lets you rant to him about how awful the situation is

And he always says the right thing at the right time, he knows exactly how to sympathize with people

Because no one’s ever done it for him so he wants to do it for people so that he might feel what it’s like

And so all in all, Sirius doesn’t care that you express yourself in a unique way

Honestly, if you’ve both had a bad day

You just cry to each other

So not only does he accept and not judge, but he joins

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[soaringlanddormitory]

“Masae... I think I deserve to be insulted...”

“No, you do not! This person is just a retard!”

“... Now I know why you have so much injuries...”

Okay now have a glimpse of these two in middle school! 

Let’s say that the first year of middle school was hard for Kaoru because he had to cope with the truth of his family history [and... it’s not that good, trust me... at least according to the Atitarn story] and it was quick for rumors to spread around him.

On the other hand, Masae came from Greece and trust me- she used to be pretty prideful back then and she literally won’t hesitate to fight someone. She also shakes in anger a couple of times and she absolutely hates it when Kaoru is getting talked to behind his back.

She used to act like the older sister back then [right now, it’s reversed kjgdbfg] and she is very protective over him. Like... VERY. He has to hold her back a lot [until present, actually kjbg].

Also their first conversation was through Ryozaki, since Ryozaki was like the social butterfly, he was able to talk to Masae very easily despite her being a new student! And he was friends with Kaoru even during primary school, so they were really close! As soon as they meet through him, they become acquaintances and their relationship grew from there! [they were actually classmates but Masae was lowkey too scared to approach him while he... just didn’t want to talk]

Kaoru before used to not talk a lot during a span of time because he’s still processing everything and he also started to have a lot of self-hate towards himself [something he has but hides very well now so] and Masae tried to cheer him up even if it didn’t usually work.

It all started when she started to cook for him where he accepted her more since it gives him memories... Also never said this, but if you EVER make Kaoru food for the first time [like give him a bento box or something] he’d actually end up crying. Since he starts getting flashbacks about when his dad used to give him some. That’s one of the main reasons he couldn’t deny her presence anymore. [He might act like he despises his father a lot, but in reality there’s something in him that forgives him and you know? He had amazing memories with his father, so it really damaged him that the image of him in his head shattered]

For Masae, she actually started to realize that she totally accepted him when he decided to like give her a new scrunchy once she lost her old one and it had a cat design. It showed that he actually noted all of her interests even if he acted like he hardly cared about her. [This was way before she made him bento though] So even if he never really talked, he always listened.

Masae also used to have hair which reached just a bit below her shoulders and she’d tie it up every time she wanted to fight someone. Kaoru just goes “Ah. Here we go again.” every time that happens. It was only times where people actually hurt her friends or insulted her way too far though. [He ended up knowing that the injuries weren’t something she got from fights, but because she had some random training sessions back in Greece and it was brought in Japan too kjbg It stops though like also somewhere in middle school]

They also both joined theater in their first year because Kaoru didn’t want to leave the club [he avoided being an actor though] and he also did join the music club, but he didn’t perform on stage. She, on the other hand, joined it because of peer pressure [hi Tame]! She did want to join the archery club though... like really badly. 

So classmates and club mates? Yep! That’s what made them actually be progressive on becoming closer. The other is that Kaoru tended to stick around her because she was pretty much the only one who didn’t “know” him from the past so she wouldn’t be able to compare him from then and now. She wanted to stay with him because she knew he needed someone, and she felt like there was something off about him and she should help him with it!

But yep! This is a glimpse of their middle school life! There’s actually a lot more to it but yeah uwu !! This for now!!

[lezzybugo3o]

Character Ownership

(Warning: Long Post Ahead)

I’m gonna set up a scenario and I’d like to see your responses to this. It’s kind of important and I’m also trying to prove a point about who a character belongs to and such.

So let’s say there are two friends named Katie and Elizabeth.

Katie is minding her own business when Elizabeth says “Hey, we should make a werewolf boyfriend for my character Tony.”

Of course, Katie agrees because she likes making characters. So she does some thinking and researching. “Okay, let’s make our werewolf boyfriend a blue-colored wolf so he can blend in with night colors... plus it will contrast his hot-tempered personality since I see him as a bold and brash character. Opposites attract and all that.”

“Sure thing, I guess. What should we name him then?”

“Ummm, let me see... I’m not so good with names but I’ll think of one,” admits Katie.

“It’s okay! I got a few suggestions already. There’s Sable, Corbin, and Jodan. I kinda like Corbin to be honest.”

“Hmm, yeah I like Corbin too! Corbin it is!”

So Katie and Elizabeth have fun creating scenarios for Corbin and Tony. But after some time, Elizabeth starts to call Katie from time to time, most likely to chat and geek out about their characters. Granted, Katie has time to spare, but she’s not one to talk on the phone a lot and whenever she gives a text saying “Hey, sorry. I’m eating breakfast rn”, Elizabeth would respond with a text saying “Hurry up and call me when you’re done.”

A couple months later, Katie gets a message from Elizabeth asking if she could join a Discord server that Katie is a part of that deals in making personas for a popular game. Katie says “yes but you have to provide a link to a profile of yours from a social media platform.”

“....Why?”

“It’s a new policy of ours on the server. One of ours friends had a bad experience with someone and we just wanna take precautions.”

“Why should they have to check out my blog just to coddle someone?”

Katie knows that Elizabeth can be difficult from time to time, but already her callous words are bothering her. After some convincing, Elizabeth agrees to give a link to her Instagram and Tumblr, but not without some... questionable words along the lines of  “If I see any of your dumb buddies on my Instagram, I will shove my foot up their ass. I watch my followers comments and likes like a hawk.” She then continues saying “Oh and if I find out you’ve been shipping Corbin with your other buddies’ werewolves on the Monster server, I’ll be super pissed and not talk to you for a long time. Their lame wolves aren’t good enough for him... omg you already did do it didn’t you?”

At this point, Katie had gotten fed up with how Elizabeth had been acting. During the month, she had been working on Corbin, his backstory and even some developments like giving him a human to bond with and two small pups of his own. She had shared the new info with Elizabeth, thinking she would enjoy the new content... instead Elizabeth seemed more concerned that Katie had made Corbin into something different than what SHE was hoping for, it seems. Katie then spoke up, “Okay I have to ask... why are you so possessive over Corbin? And for that matter, why are you so possessive of Jenna?” (Jenna is a werewolfsona of Katie’s that was made when Elizabeth told her she should make a persona of her)

Elizabeth got quiet and then said, “I thought he was made to be Tony’s boyfriend... but I guess not. I don’t wanna be in your server anymore. Unfollow my Tumblr while you’re at it.” Katie, wanting to preserve their friendship, tries to tell Elizabeth, “Corbin may have started out that way, but he grew into more than just a boyfriend character. I love putting him and Tony together, but I also like to multiship. I don’t want our friendship to end because of some ships.” Then Elizabeth continues to text Katie demanding to change Corbin’s name. Katie refused because she liked the name and doesn’t see why she has to change it. Her “friend” would not budge however and kept demanding that she change his name. Whether for her own good or because she wanted the arguing to stop, Katie lied and said “Okay, I’ll change it.”

And that was that... until a few months later. Katie had become a mod for a roleplaying server and at some point, she decided to invite Elizabeth to join the fun... soon enough, she began to regret her decision, remembering her ‘friend’ and her toxic behavior with her.

The deal was sealed when Katie and some friends on the server were bringing up which OCs of theirs they liked from one another. She was also on the phone with Elizabeth at the moment. When friends began to say they really loved Corbin and how Katie portrayed him... Elizabeth made her anger known by saying “You said you changed his name” and began calling Katie a ‘thieving liar’. The others began to tell Elizabeth to stop her behavior being nothing but polite until she herself left the server and hung up on Katie, telling her ‘goodbye’ and ‘how she now has to live with the fact that their friendship was fixed thanks to a lie’....

With all this said, who do you all think Corbin belongs in this situation? Katie or Elizabeth? In all honesty, I would say Katie because she’s the one that developed and designed Corbin into the character he is whereas Elizabeth merely gave name suggestions.

I WISH this was a fake scenario and I WISH I could say this was a funny little story... but truth be told, this was a real story with different names because I don’t want to start a witch hunt. I was Katie in this scenario and Corbin the werewolf? That was my bull shark Zora Seirin. I had a ‘friend’ (Elizabeth in this scenario) who was so damn obsessive over him and what I did with him and Reimi (my Zorasona). It wasn’t until recently that I finally decided to cut ties with that person after all the toxic behavior they put me through and I was pissed to see them act the way they did to my friends as well, calling them and their OCs ‘retarded’ and/or ‘lame’. I put so much love and care into Seirin’s backstory and his development as a character, therefore he’s MY character. Yet my so-called friend had the gall to say that because she named him, he’s hers  but ‘Lezzy lowkey stole him’ (an actual comment she made on our server)

All I can say is that as shitty as this situation was, it gave me the courage to finally block them, unfriend them and basically want nothing more to do with them. It also showed me just how lucky I am to have friends who truly care about me and my safety and it also made me cry seeing how much they grew to love my characters and my ideas.

Hopefully, I can avoid something like this, but if it can’t I know what to do this time. Thanks for taking the time to read this and I hope you all have a great one

[papirouge]

I unironically want Christian women of all kinds to stop listening to namely white Christian men old and young (and women too) who push that “great replacement theory” that I keep seeing crop up even in Christian spaces. If you’re happy about your heritage that’s one thing. Like celebrating traditions or culture. But to go full “our [white] people are endangered” and demonizing mixed ethnicity or race couples is just gross and cruel to me. Bonus if you’re adopted too. They’re told to be fruitful and multiple while believing people like my big family are “taking over”. I come from a big Asian and Afro-Hispanic family with some non-white middle eastern relatives too. We’re not doing anything but existing. What’s going on with these people lately? Does anyone feel like this?

...... what I'm about to say may shock you but I lowkey believe the great remplacement is real lol (Non Whites) immigrants are making more kids than locals and it only takes time before they outnumber them - at least in places where there is already a huge immigrant population 🥴

But my biggest issue is how the Whites are acting like victims about it. What's stopping them of having kids? You can't be oppressed by people breeding 💀 why wouldn't Christian be bothered about it anyway? oh yes, that's because White people with 6-7 kids is God's glory, but any POC with big families are a threat to society 💀💀

And this whole "keeping tradition" excuse is retarded. In France, churches are filled with black/subsaharian Christians bc the Whites don't go to churches anymore (the only Whites there are senior citizens who belong to a generation when religious education was still alive). That's right, the Negroes are keeping their precious White Chrisitian culture alive - they should thank us tbh💅🏾. I even heard that in Russia they import priests from Africa bc the younger generations got totally disinterested from religion/clericalism. Interestingly enough, you hardly hear those rightoids talk about it. It's easier to point fingers are immigrants than acknowledge their own shortcomings.

But I'm not naive enough to think this hypocrisy is only in White countries. If you're from a multiracial background you may not understand that, but racially homogeneous countries will always have a self preserving instinct. My family is in Congo (so a pure Black country) and I know some people are wary of Chinese flocking over there.....when they are just taking opportunities that their corrupted government fails to exploit. There's also racism within (Black) Africans following the ethnicity (pretty much like the Whites othered the (Ashkenazi) Jews or Irish), notably regarding through intra continental workers migration flows.

I was very surprised to see sooooo many Chinese when I got there 🤯 But it didn't start recently: back when China was under (Mao's?) Communism many Black African countries hosted Chinese students. Communism was very successful in Africa (bc African cultures values are very *community* oriented, as opposed to Western individualism). That's around that time my mom had a fling with a Chinese student and he wanted to take her to China but my grandma refused to let my mom go bc "she would be killed over there" lmaooooo 🤣

[imjustyouraveragenoone]

why u sucked

since my mind keeps replaying all the reasons u were perfect, here are the reasons u were fucking far from it.

1. ur ex drama. u dumped me for ur ex, then u realized that she was not right for u so u hit me up again. u got jealous that ur best friend was hitting me up and made sure to put an end to that really fast by making moves on me while u were still w ur ex. then u talked to me for a good period to follow thru on ur own ego problems and then proceeded to hook up w ur ex. who the actual fuck does this. stick to ONE u absolute manwhore. if u were so in love with ur ex why would u flirt with me while u guys were together, if u were so in love with me why would u hook up with her while we were talking. u literally just dont care about anyone but ur motherfucking self and it took me way too long to realize it, it took me my literal parents having to split us up for me to see the damage u did. 

2. u never made any effort to come see me. everything was on ur schedule, if u didnt want to hang out with me, u would go off. if u were horny, u would stay on. no explanations needed. if u felt like opening up, u would. otherwise, just pictures of ur eyebrow. i was constantly the one running around in circles trying to make this work. i decided to come see u in the morning, i would be the one who would come stand by ur friends at the end of the day, u never would fucking ask me to. unless, of course, it was whether u could come over to fuck. then, you would ask without any hesitation and beg and plead and do everything in ur power to make it work. don’t think i ever saw that effort in any other aspect of our relationship, hmmmmmm. no sentimental gifts or cute texts. u literally did the bare minimum and for some fucking reason i idealized u for it. mostly because i thought that most girls wouldnt even be lucky enough to get the bare minimum from u, and im prolly right. like u fucked me up SO BAD that one day u were telling me abt some girl u ghosted and my fUCKED UP MIND ACTUALLY WENT “WOW I MUST BE SPECIAL SINCE HE NEVER GHOSTED ME. MUST MEAN THAT HE ACTUALLY LOVES ME.” TF??????????????????????? mental issues. 

3. u literally sent me essays about not trusting me and all this shit that made me think that u were breaking up with me the DAY of my sat and then claimed u forgot i had to take it that day. i woke up in such a panic thinking that u were trying to dump me the day of the most important test of my literal life. why the fuck would anyone do that. why. i knew every date of ur physics tests, i knew what was going on in ur life, even finding out things from ur sister because i wanted to know. u just didnt even care at all. like ik u prolly actually did forget but if i was even important to u u would not of ever forgot in the first place. 

4. the constant dumping. dude, if ur just gonna constantly pull that shit for u to fulfill some insecurity in ur head and make u feel like u have the power in the relationship, u need help. im sorry that all ur exes were downright obsessed with u and u never had to wonder if u were the one who cared less in the relationship, but just because i didnt do that doesnt mean that u can just keep tryna dump me to affirm ur power struggles. 

5. blaming ur own shortcomings on ur broken past. i dont doubt it, but letting ur past define u is not taking u anywhere and ur just gonna end up stuck in ur own cycle of not dealing with ur problems.

6. the literal lack of any kind of ambition, drive and hard work ethic. u work hard to appear cool, to get girls, to get drugs, to do all this unnecessary shit, why u cant put that effort into simple homework assignments so ur not FAILING a class, i will never know. 

7. u had every right to get mad at me for being friends with ishan or whatever but i dont fucking think i have ever called u out for being best friends with every single ex u have ever had in fact i trust u so much i dont care that u spend literally 90% of ur time with at least one girl that u have had history with whether its roopa, khushi, and many more that i havent heard abt yet.

8. u hooked up w roopa. bruh. thats just disgusting and u know it. 

9. u always came for ME about hearing things from other ppl abt what i was up to. UM. UM??????? do u KNOW the shit i heard about u but didnt even confront u because i trusted u THAT much. lmaoooooo looking back u were a fucking clown for even bringing up that argument. sure, i was far from perfect and i made some questionable choices, but bruh so did YOU. 

10. u rlly tried to hit it without a condom. are u fucking retarded. imagine if i got pregnant. forget my parents literally kicking me out. imagine the atrocity of my kids having YOU as a father. nightmare shit..

11. u were so fucking emotionally distant that i literally took every small BARE MINIMUM nice thing u did and fucking RAN with it. looking back its so clear that u rlly didnt do anything special, u didnt say anything special, u did not do anything to prove u loved me. all u were good at was empty words to string me on because we both know that saying shit takes no effort and ur all about that no effort lifestyle. like now that im thinking about it..... what have u done for me? what have u done? said i love you, texted me a shit ton when u were horny, said a bunch of future shit and made me laugh. wow u fulfilled the basic requirements of a relationship, and since u have a nice little reputation for being an asshole, i took that as a WOW HE MUST RLLY LOVE ME. thats actually so sad that i lowered my standards THAT much just so that i could be with u.

12. u made me cry and feel so low for so much of the relationship and i rlly dont understand why i thought we were so perfect. the lows we had were downright unacceptable and u never were able to truly put ur pride aside to tell me how u felt about me besides when we were fighting or u felt like u were losing me and thats how i know that the love we had mightve been genuine or whatever, but its not the love i deserve. 

7 months wasted, lowkey grateful my parents pulled me outta that shit bc i never would have had the mental strength to do it and we prolly woudlve ended up breaking up in like a few months bc u hooked up w some unc charlotte hoe or something. yikes. what u have been up to post-relationship is neither my business nor something i have a right to be upset about so im not gonna go off on u for that because i rlly dont have the mental space to care abt what ur up to now. 

my next lover better be someone who isnt fucking scared to show that they care about me, someone that respects me, someone that isnt selfish and obsessed with using girls to fill their own shortcomings. love shouldnt be a constant power struggle and i should never have to wonder whats going on in ur life. ur supposed to KNOW what ur boyfriend is up to. its part of a relationship. so fuck u for making me drop my standards to such comical levels.