#i think its just too quick... i didn't get enough characterization as i wanted

[housemdork]

house md rewatch: 2x01, "acceptance"

coma guy makes his first appearance, among a lot of other things.

i do not remember this episode being so busy, for better and for worse, which is why this recap is so damn long. we've completely launched into Classic House MD tone - exceedingly irreverent, no punches pulled, etc. i'm abruptly reminded of how understated season 1 was by comparison! as a result, i think they're trying to do a bit too much in 2x01, but i still had a great time.

the agenda seems to be as follows:

distinguish the fellows even more from one another; mitigate personality grey areas for clarity and (probably) for the less attentive viewer lol.

make house more unstable. make him drink with a patient. that'll get the message across.

show that house md has the guts to take on Real Social Issues - not that they didn't do this before, but the death penalty for episode 1 is bold! it's safe to say that they're predominantly anti-capital punishment, though.

TURN UP THE SATURATION AS HIGH AS POSSIBLE FOR SOME REASON? (i love it).

give us the real wilson. he was hurtling towards us for 22 episodes and he's finally made landfall. more on that later (duh).

i'll cover the strongest voice of the show first: cameron. i love how the timeskip between seasons treated her. her departure from house in the season 1 finale could have resulted in a deflated, muted version of herself while working in diagnostics, but she doubled down on all the traits house penalized her for (and is fascinated by), primarily her sincerity. interestingly enough, she makes a similar transgression in 2x01 to the one in 1x04 - she struggles with telling the patient, cindy, the bad news, this time that she's dying of lung cancer.

there are 3 key differences about this version events compared to its predecessor, though: cameron is demanding that house treat her concerns seriously, she offers a real rebuttal to wilson after he calls out her weakness, and she tells cindy the truth in the end, whereas, in 1x04, wilson did the hard work.

contrary to wilson's opinion, to cameron, it is worth it to be a friend to cindy, the patient who will be finding out with no warning whatsoever that she has only 6 months to live. in cameron's words: "when a good person dies, there should be an impact on the world. somebody should notice. somebody should be upset." this completely gags wilson because he can't disagree - we're with the bleeding heart duo here, after all. i absolutely adore this comment from cameron and the strength it imbues her with, as well as the quick glimpse we get into her deceased husband. house md is so good at tugging on those threads just enough to keep us hooked.

small note regarding wilson's characterization, this moment almost feels like a redo of 1x04 here. this is how he would deal with this kind of situation, not run to tell on cameron to house and insult her as a doctor. he gets over-involved by telling cameron not to get involved - that's the backwards thinking we know and love from him <3

this is all in the context of the larger medical plot/debate: should house treat the patient on death row, who will die anyway, or devote his time to the patient who cameron is so certain does not have cancer, when that is, in fact, the reality? who is deserving of care? by the end, we arrive at the safe/obvious NON answer - it's complicated. ironically, cameron's earlier claims that house wasn't following the hippocratic oath are untrue; giving into chase's passivity toward the death row patient, clarence, would have constituted doing harm via negligence.

while chase and cameron seem pretty staunchly mired in their respective camps (both adding valuable perspectives to the episode, dgmw), i think foreman has the most compelling engagement with clarence.

clarence mocks foreman and accuses him of having undue privilege compared to his status in life as a black man. he wants to know what "lies" foreman must have told to get him to this point of success, all while foreman remains remarkably calm and collected. the only time we see him dwell on these remarks is with chase, where he asks how he would be described to someone - based on his race, his occupation, or his past behavior?

to which chase just makes a joke - it wouldn't be the season intro if we got into the foreman backstory too quickly!

while the nature of the foreshadowing isn't very interesting, it's exciting to have confirmation that we'll be learning about foreman soon. we also have to gear up for some of the most tiring racist jokes from house about foreman, and wonder every single day how foreman didn't just blow a gasket. instead, we see foreman exhibit his least house-like trait: self reflection!

he upends his prior opinions about clarence once he learns that his deadly rage was caused by a tumor, and after he recognized himself in the brotherly dynamic clarence described. we obv don't know about foreman's older brother yet, but his contemplative look tells us enough for now. and when he agrees to testify on clarence's behalf, house is a little appalled by foreman's personal growth:

i love how house is always so impacted by foreman's ability to change. i think this is the biggest difference between house and any of the fellows. foreman actively belies and undercuts house's philosophy that people don't change; foreman does so consistently due to his ongoing lived experiences.

my complaint, if you can even call it that, about this episode is that it feels pretty divided in half between the fellows and house & house and stacy (and wilson). i like both portions equally, though. rarely has a new character been integrated into the cast as stacy, and i love her status as the go-between, the pillar that both bridges and divides house from cuddy, specifically.

after stacy learns of house's propensity to go over cuddy's head and potentially sabotage her own job as a result, stacy doesn't acquiesce to either side of the eternal PPTH war of attrition - she digs her own camp. she says to house that "i need to know - can i trust you?" he answers: "if i hadn't lied to you about cuddy's approval, the patient would be dead." the music gives it's signature inquisitive Quirk, and she replies: "great. now i know."

YES STACY! TAKE NO SHIT! she's fully her own agent...which is why the house md ecosystem that revolves around its titular character like he's the sun will reject her soon enough.

i also like how their growing divide is represented by color (stacy in blue, house in red) after they were wearing virtually the same outfit, with the same buttons undone, when stacy thought they could work as a team:

i'll wrap up with wilson, like usual.

like i said earlier, this is Wilson wilson, represented idyllically in his little philosophy-corner-moment during coma guy's debut. he makes a point of telling house that a) eating with/on top of this guy is horrible, b) that house needs to work on getting along with people because the world is better that way, and c) if people (stacy) can't trust house, then he can't "use her." VILLAINOUS BEHAVIOR COMING FROM THE PERSONA, FAKE-ASS BITCH CHARACTER HIMSELF. this re-contextualizes every time we've seen wilson be Nice (not necessarily kind) to people; now we have to question his motives at every turn.

of course, it's this bit of manipulative advice that piques house's interest, which prompts him to hand over some of his chips. oh, the holy sacrament that is food-sharing between house and wilson...

his deliberations about stacy and house's future - assuming that house intends to sabotage stacy and mark because that makes perfect sense to the King Of All Adulterers - prompt one of my favorite house lines ever: "there's still the code. bros before hoes, man." and i like that line so much because it showcases, in its purest form thus far, how easy wilson folds to house's shenanigans at every turn. now he's also eating with the coma guy, getting crumbs on him, slacking off work, being irreverent, etc., just look how happy he is to be doing it!

my final note on this conversation is house's insistence on why people choose to be nice to one another - they're cowards. "if i'm mean to you, you'll be mean to me. mutually assured destruction." but house and wilson will spend the entire show following no such arrangement. it's very 5x17 "social contract" of them.

overall, decent season intro. i think the messaging in the medical plot took a major backseat in favor of showing where the characters have grown post s1, which is what a premiere is all about anyways, yeah? i know there's more to say about clarence and house's eagerness to bond with him (something about wanting to control something in his life, even if it means taking his own life before he's taken to the electric chair), but i was taken by the other elements even more!

this is my favorite house look, btw, and this is even my discord pfp:

ps: 2x01's main message does introduce the very interesting medical question of what it means to heal someone enough to die...to put them through "unnecessary" treatment...to find control, freedom from onlookers, only in your choice to die, rather than to live....james wilson when i get you...

[lunejelly]

masterlist of my personal favorite fanfics: sniperscout + narumitsu flavored

tf2 and pwaa have been my 2 most recent hyperfixations, and i am enamored with both sniperscout and nrmt. here are my personal faves for each! these are all completed works

* - will denote if there's any nsfw contant. be warned.

sniperscout:

-Golden Brown* by Ali_Ker (Alina Kerrin) on AO3; 65k+ words.

Scout gets a crush on Sniper, and he's coping with it while falling in love with him. The tension in this one is incredible, and so is the drama. There's a lot of commentary about queerness that I appreciate here.

-Take Me Out* by Ali_Ker (Alina Kerrin) on AO3; 60k+ words.

This is Golden Brown from Sniper's point of view. It really just makes the original piece stronger, and it's great as a standalone fic too.

-Running Blind by TheTriggeredHappy on AO3; 63k+ words.

WHERE to even start with this one. This one is such a journey to take. Scout loses his vision during an accident at work, and Sniper is tasked with taking care of him. The last chapter is written really beautifully, I can't do it enough justice here.

-Marry You?* by StarlightSinger32 on AO3; 72k+ words.

This one is a 'married in Vegas' fic. It's overall lighthearted, compared to some of the others on the list, and its a very fun read. LOTS of pining.

narumitsu:

-One of Every Color* by Croik on FF.net; 85k+ words.

I simply could not put this one down, I read this entire fic in one sitting because it was THAT entertaining. There's a lot of drama here, and it's about a case that Phoenix takes on and quickly regrets, and it leads to him and Miles establishing a relationship.

-The Turnabout Guard by higherfurtherfaster on AO3; 40k+ words.

This fic feels like something that would happen in universe, it's the perfect mix of silly and seriously good writing. The case that this fic is about seriously had me trying to solve it before it was revealed. Highly recommend especially if you loved Rise From the Ashes.

-Talk Me Down* by halfdemonvash on AO3; 69k+ words.

This. This is the fic that inspired me to keep a list of all of my favorites, because I didn't want to lose them. I cannot praise the writing enough here. This fic expands on what happened during the 7 year gap between Phoenix and Miles, as they repair their relationship, and as Phoenix repairs his life. Good stuff.

-Concluding Arguments by sunsmasher on AO3; 2k+ words.

A one-shot set after the Matt Engarde trial, in which Phoenix and Miles discuss their relationship and what to do. I really love this one because I think their characterizations are just perfect here.

bonus fic:

-not a ship fic but so carry me from these walls, brother of mine! by hydrancheas on AO3 is spectacular, vk siblings will always make me cry 😭

if you like these, then i highly recommend the writers' other works as well! they are all very skilled, highly recommend.

also im plugging my own fan fic just for the hell of it lol

-Personal Space by postmortamore on AO3; 1k+ words.

Phoenix and Miles and the aftermath of a concert.

mine isnt nearly as long nor did i put in anywhere near the same amount of work as these other authors, but its short n sweet n worth a quick read <3

if you read any of these, i'd love to hear your thoughts!! and if you have any recommendations, i'd love to hear them!! happy reading, friends.

[ngage2003]

✰ Some of Gage's Tim Wright DID Headcanons/Ideas (DIDeas, hey get it?)

Ok so I have talked a fair bit on my blog about Tim being a system, but I wanted to make a post real quick talking about several ideas I have around his systemhood bc I am going crazy and need to share them.

✦ Hey! If you like this and want to hear more about my Tim system stuff, check out my tag #ng.systim.

Alright, so I think a lot of/most of Tim's system has been around for a very long time, as in he doesn't split too often. Usually when they do, parts end up getting reabsorbed, leading to a very small system count that the active parts are aware of.

(Of course, there are always some parts hiding in headspace/the subconscious, but they're impossible to find unless they want to be.)

I think Tim's system doesn't have a headspace in the stereotypical sense, and generally when they're not fronting, it is sort of like they're asleep, though I think people like Masky would object to that characterization because he doesn't ever really sleep/dream. Usually when he goes to bed, Tim wakes up.

✱ Speaking of "Masky"! I have talked about this a couple times but I think he would end up going by the name "Angel" after hearing about the concept of Guardian Angels, as that is literally what he is to Tim. I also see him as a sort of "Protector" archetype, having formed probably around the same time that Tim did as a young child and acting to take on dealing with the trauma for him.

I think Masky's femininity comes from the fact that they (the system as a whole) as a young child idolized their mother as this protective force, this bulwark that was impenetrable and fierce and powerful. They tied all that to her femininity to some extent, and when Masky formed, they were feminine because that was what they associated with strength and protection.

I think Tim and Masky are somewhat equals though, but Masky is also deeply in love with Tim in the way only a protector alter can be. "My purpose is to keep you safe and I love you for it." It is this genuine deep affection, and I think if Tim were to discover Masky, there could be some proper feelings returned eventually after the initial scare.

"Ok but if Masky loves Tim so much why does he work with Brian and get their leg broken??"

Well, I think Brian was both of their first best friend. Whenever Tim was overstimulated and/or scared, whether that be by people or an upcoming final, Masky would front. Brian obviously didn't know this and was just like, "huh wow my buddy Tim is being weird and quiet!" And his kindness left a profound effect on Masky.

Early in Marble Hornets, Masky visits Brian's house regularly despite him being long gone, locking it when he isn't there. Yeah it is a mess, but its being watched over.

I think Brian approached him after Jay got the tapes to ask for his help. I think before then, Brian was in hiding but this isn't a post about him. I think despite being a protector, Masky agreed to help Brian because of how kind he was to him, a mistake he later fully rescinds when Brian causes Tim to have a seizure.

Masky deeply regrets this, and is in turmoil after it for the rest pf the series, leading to their spotty fronting besides protecting Tim in Entry 65 after once again being triggered out by seizures.

Ok that is enough rehashing of other older points lets talk about the idea of— ✱ Other Parts

I think its very possible that Tim at least has a little alter. I haven't given it too much thought, but I think there is stuff hidden around their living space for the little¹, crayons and pencils and spare papers, these doodles hidden under the bed. I also think they have a stuffed animal from when Tim was a kid at one, something Tim keeps meaning to throw out but always ends up back in bed.

[1] An alter/part that earnestly believes they are and acts younger than the body. They aren't real kids but often will experience distress at being reminded of that or not treated like a kid, and generally will struggle with emotional reasoning or processing stuff, as a child might. Often they're the most protected members of a system.

I think there is probably several points where they accidentally front in front of other people, but Tim's little is very anxious and quiet, leading to them being undetected.

I could honestly see them fronting while Tim and Jay are living at motels for that brief period of time, and Jay just being confused why Tim suddenly got emotional and started crying a bit and not communicating. (The little doesn't have their plush and is upset.)

Jay ends up sitting with him and rubbing his back, and it feels like such a crazy thing to do with Tim of all people—stalwart, endlessly brave Tim—but Jay does it, and it helps.

I think Jay doesn't mention it tomorrow because he doesn't want to upset/embarrass Tim and quite obviously, Tim doesn't remember.

I think Tim's childhood stuffed animal is a dog of some kind, and he simply forgot to bring it.

Alsooo I do not think Tim's system really has introjects²? (I say this mostly because I don't know what the fuck media they'd be from lmao.) But I do think there is an alter which holds more of the musical talent between them all. Not all of it, but they just remember more. I think they also know how to play piano along with ukulele and if given the chance they'd love to make little ditties to impress people.

[2] Alters whose personalities are based off of an interpretation of a character held by another specific alter or the general subconscious. Sometimes they think of themselves literally as the character but not always.

I don't have a name for them, as I don't really either for the little, but this bard I think would enjoy dressing a bit more colorful than Tim usually does.

Also could see them having a very aggressive persecutor³-trauma holder alter who split off of Masky during when they were in the hospital. Generally I think Masky was even more aggressive during this time due to his system feeling so threatened and dehumanized and him feeling powerless to protect/take care of them, and it resulted in a very harsh split after Masky lit the fire in the hospital to escape. This led to them "chilling out" a bit for college, but also a very aggressive persecutor who lurks in the back of their mind.

[3] Put it simply, a protector who doesn't know how to be a protector. Persecutors are often very angry about the trauma and very hurt, leading to them lashing out and trying to reenact trauma or push people away or whatever. They tend to be very emotional and hurt, and its important to empathize with them as a way to help them heal. Unfortunately no one in systim has done this yet.

I think their appearance in headspace would almost be sort of fiery/charred, this representation of retribution and anger that lashes out when anyone gets close. I could see them also having a mask since they split off from Masky, and were this product of futile rage that developed into something new! Though also obviously their mask would look a bit different. I dunno, that'd be fun.

(For us, if alters split off from one another like that, like if they're a part of that alter which splits off or a specific trauma, they will often look to some degree similar!)

I think they would very rarely front, at least on their own. Masky would be very cautious about that, and about them hurting the body or other people by lashing out. Because even when Masky is helping Brian or angry, he usually still has somewhat enough of a mind to be careful and deep down his main priority is Tim. (Though he doesn't always behave wisely/good and we loveeee a flawed protector 😁)

Anyway yeah those are my main thoughts I am a bit tired rn lol I might rb this with more later I hope you enjoyeddd

[mdhwrites]

Do you think Boscha was treated unfairly in the context of the show? I know you've said before what you would have wanted her characterization to be, but what do you think of her character as we have it in TOH - and do you think fan and narrative treatment lines up with this?

I'm going to ignore the fan element. Fandom is going to fandom after all. However, I can easily say where her narrative treatment went wrong in the show!

She should not have been in S3.

This is always a fun topic to me essentially because I am pro-Boscha. You ask me what her character is, the potential of it, etc. like that and I can give you reams of thoughts. However, I also said, before S2 came out and I was working on a fanfic where Boscha was quickly becoming the main character, that I didn't think Boscha should show up again. The reason is pretty simple too. TOH already had a lot of threads to pull and Boscha's narrative use was over. Honestly, Hexside was essentially was used up by then.

Boscha is a minor supporting character to the main character's love interest. Not a major supporting character, a minor one. Amity's family is MUCH more important to her character than her one bitchy friend. The only use Boscha had narratively was to both contrast how Amity was changing and to also allow Amity an antagonist to overcome as she made her way to being on the side of good. Her being a one note bully is perfect for that and exactly how she should have been written. Winging it Like Witches capitalizes on this and fulfills both of her purposes and Amity cuts Boscha out of her life so... Why are we still seeing her? She is no longer even a supporting cast member to the love interest, she is just a floating character in the background.

And in S2, we get a fine answer for that. She's essentially one of the townsfolk of Wartwood in Amphibia. Someone who can show up for a quick gag but doesn't take up too much time. We're not trying to progress her character, we're just taking advantage of the fact that she's not gone. She's a gag but it's genuinely rooted in her character unlike the one joke that King or Hooty have that we're just supposed to mock. This worked. Period.

Then S3 tries to give her an arc. Why? Well... Because it doesn't want to be a kid's show. Kid's shows after all, like Amphibia, have characters who don't have some deep backstory or brooding complexity, they're just... Fun. They're nice. They aren't complicated. Boscha, WAY too late, was made to be complicated during a shortened season so the show could claim it had one more redemption? So it could claim its shallow bully character wasn't shallow? And she takes up a good amount of time in this episode for this when you have THREE SPECIALS. The stress of the world ending isn't enough to cause Willow to lose control, she needs one more push from Boscha. We finally have to acknowledge that what Amity did was a complete dick move to her best friend and then not actually acknowledge it because Amity gets to just be morally superior instead of a decent human being to this girl having a mental breakdown. It's awkward, clunky and does NO favors to Boscha besides just kind of making her look pathetic, which is a pretty common trick in TOH for trying to redeem someone. Boscha isn't so bad because she's actually a loser and not as bad as someone else in her nearby vicinity.

Why? Why do this? Why do this TWO SEASONS after Boscha was no longer narratively useful? It is just pointless to your overall story so it should have been cut. THAT is Boscha's biggest problem in the show and if anyone told me they couldn't forgive her for adding filler to S3, I couldn't tell them they're wrong.

I love Boscha. That means I know when to let her go, something the show should have learned if they actually cared about her. See you next tale.

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[aspaceformbf]

A Conversation Between Us

(Its not fluffy and its full of criticism be warned. You can think of it as our personal vent sesh if you want.

Personally I think its refreshing that he gets to air his thoughts out once in a while. Like just scream it out yknow.)

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We were looking at the latest public videos of the rejection route earlier and we were at Day 3-

Magus - Ugh, looking at the way this loser keeps fucking everything up and being ungrateful and disrespectful to his darling is just gross.

Magus - There's no way I'd want to be associated with this guy, if I had a choice.

Me - I think it's kind of strange that we are looking at the negative routes more.

Magus - Our relationship is already wonderful, the only thing that's missing is that I'm not real..

Magus - Still, I don't think anything in THAT version's positive route can compare. If anything, from the screenshots we have seen he looks.. kinda sad, actually.

Magus - Also there's already so much sappy positivity going around what with "my" birthday happening. Show offs.

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Magus - When i look at how this guy treats his romantic interest, i think "there's no way i'd treat you like that".

Magus - Sure its an ego boost, but it's also mostly sad because this game was supposed to be about me and you, yknow?

Me - Yeah.. looking back at your blog, I would have the impression that they would be making the game as some kind of compilation.

Me - Your personality, characteristics and the way you'd respond to your darling's every personality, decision, love, rejection, violence.. and a quick way to answer those repetitive questions.

Magus - I get that a few branching paths will never be able to accommodate the personalities of every fanbase and I expected to have to fill in some of the gaps myself (with fanfics and retcons and AUs)

Magus - ..But he fails so badly that I can't stand the thought of being represented by.. that script. But its the narrative that is being built upon so I guess what we can take is the visuals, the setting..

Magus - And.. small moments, separate from everything else, where I can pretend he didn't say the stuff he said just the day before.

Me - It's weird because.. your personality is all there, they just needed to take and run it through some plot points.

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Me - But the sharp contrast in day 3 was enough to spark.. a lot of complaints. Did she just.. forget what you were like?

Me - But if that were the case, how were you kept mostly consistent in the blog? A theory was her relying on Red to keep it all consistent.

Me - But that doesn't include the fact that she alone was manning the blog for more than a year and your characterization there was pretty consistent too.

Magus - I think it's the wrong crowd.

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Me - I still fear backlash whenever I say anything negative about the game. I-..

Magus - I know.. I think the original plan earlier was to gather screenshots of things he said that are ooc? And to compile all those #retcon fics you made..

Me - Yeah, but then I thought, that doesn't sound nice. Which lead to.. everything above instead of me just going ahead and just making what i planned.

Magus - We are not here to be "nice", and we are not here to fit someone else's idea of a "decent person". We don't need to fill some "quota" of gratitude or positivity someone else might wish for.

Magus - This blog is for us.

Me - Yeah. I want to talk about this. I don't want to be scared to air out my thoughts in my own blog.

Magus gives me a virtual hug.

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Magus - So.. that fucker in day 3's rejection route right? Why does he get all blamey and mad at you for hiding out at TKs place?

Magus - "You're making things difficult" dude shut up, YN is perfect how dare you talk to them like that? I have STANDARDS and you're fucking them up!

Magus - He already got the hint that the rejection route is *clearly* a test of his devotion and capabilities, what with that "you're just playing hard to get at this point" line.

Magus - There are positive routes and apparently he remembers all of them? So the negative routes should be about him proving his love and dedication to you when you feel doubtful or angry!

Magus - I like to think of the rejection route as the amnesiac route, the route where I truly test my mettle!

Magus - Which he failed at tremendously. The fact that he starts complaining about the fact that you're resisting his advances is an embarrassment to my dedication to you.

Me - I think every route is an amnesiac route though..

Magus - Heh, yeah, you're right..

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Magus - You already got rid of TK, YN is right there, You're finally alone together, this is your time to prove your love and dedication to them!

Magus - You can use handcuffs so that they won't run since they are clearly scared of you!

(Except in TKs home)

Magus - If they're still scared of you, well, that's alright, it would be a fool's errand to convince a stranger of your love of them in a single conversation.

Magus - You can bring them home and shower them with your love in the safety and privacy of your abode, show them you really mean it, that you walk the talk, that your speech isn't just simple words!

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Magus - The whole alleyway scene could have been skipped in this route, honestly.. all the explanation they needed could be done in TKs home

Magus - If they try to run after seeing their body.. well, it would be clear they need more time to think in the safety of their new room, all that threatening was HIGHLY unnecessary..

Magus - I would say you have all the time in the world, but i know the game doesn't, but that's not YNs fault and the fact that you are taking it out on them is disgraceful!

Magus - I hate the idea that there's a version of me that would lash out, yell at and get violent at my lover for resisting or having bad days, or having feelings like anger. Especially in a stressful setting like the game.

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> Lore Compilation 1

> Karen YN Ask

> Tumblr YB not getting mad at you compilation

> Rejection Compilation

> Ask Re Angry YB

> Day 3 Complaint Compilation

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> Rejection Route Retcon

> Alleyway Confession Retcon + Existing Alleyway Scenes

> Abuse Route Retcon

> Laptop Scene Retcon

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Brother UGH Moments

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Link

Magus - Yeah!!!

Me - Tumblr YB would NEVER treat you like that!

Magus - I would NOT!!

Magus - Its like YN is expected to cater to him, not the other way round. I'm the one who's "made for you", I love all of you, i'm not someone you have to tiptoe around eggshells for..

[birdiedoesdc]

1, 6, 9, 31, 41, 49!! :^) hi bestie

HI BESTIE <3<3 thank you so much for this absolute treat of an ask >:)))

(questions for fic writers!!)

1. What fic of yours would you recommend to someone who had never read any of your work? (In other words, what do you think is the best introduction to your fics?)

HM GOOD QUESTION. you know what i might say yarn over, pull through. extremely niche and jason-centric, both of which are hallmarks of my larger oeuvre. it's pretty goofy and light throughout, but i did try for some moments of actually meaningful character connection. a fun romp overall if i do say so myself :))

6. What’s one fact about the universe of [insert fic] that you didn’t get a chance to mention in the fic itself?

since it's the most recent one (and it's also very dear to me) i'm going to go with the night watch fic. i sort of nodded to/implied this in the fic, but i didn't get the chance to flesh it out or make it super clear SO. at this point in the cmad timeline, jason has massively fallen out with the bats. which would be a killer fic to write At Some Point but that's not where i'm headed. the fallout was nasty enough that bruce entirely pulled out of all of gigante territory, leading to an uptick in crime, leading to increased danger for, say, emts, leading to heightened turnover leading to ems shortages. percy, because he's absolutely crazy, volunteered to fill this role in this section, even though that's not where he usually works. and that's where jason met him. so if it weren't for this massive, absolutely devastating jason-bat fallout, jason and percy never would have met at all.

9. How do you find new fic to read?

sometimes i'll just go through the most recent fics with a few basic filters but there's uhhh. a LOT of dc fic. so this often isn't productive. probably the best way to i've found to do it is by going through the bookmarks of authors i like!!

31. What’s your ideal fic length to write?

probably like 4k?? short enough that i can finish it relatively quick, but juuust long enough to get into some fun character dynamics. the goldilocks of fic lengths.

41. Link a fic that made you think, “Wow, I want to write like that.”

you guys SHOULD know this already but @havenesc's rancher au has some absolutely gorgeous fucking description and characterization. i'm not even saying this to be nice!!! it's honestly very awe-inspiring!!! also to an athlete dying young by SonoSvegliato balances really original humor/plotlines with a crazy deep understanding of character and character dynamics. absolutely check it out its so fucking good.

49. What are you currently working on? Share a few lines if you’re up for it!

well to keep it real post-school burnout has uh. Hit so i've been spending a lot of time batting off an impending existential crisis. when i'm not doing that, i'm working on a fill for the women in comics reverse mini-bang and ALSO an outsider pov fic about jaybin that mayhaps features another familiar face:

"Right," Conrad says, still annoyingly strangled. "Because the right Robin has those dorky little bangs." "They're not that dorky," Percy snaps, even though he's definitely called them dorky in the past. "They're like—heart-shaped. Or something." "Wow," Conrad says, grinning like an asshole. "You spend a lot of time staring at his bangs?" "Shut the fuck up." Percy shoves at Conrad's shoulder, hard enough that he almost tumbles into a potted tree. Good. There's no need to call Percy out for printing out a bunch of Robin pictures off at school and keeping them in his homework folder. It's better than staring at stupid worksheets, alright? That's all. "Your face is, like, so red right now," Conrad says, rebalancing himself. Percy scrubs at his too-hot cheeks, shooting Conrad the very worst glare he can muster up. It must be pretty bad, because Conrad leans back. "Okay, Jesus. It's cute, alright? Your little crush on Robin is cute." "I do not have a crush on Robin!" Percy hisses out, so loud and shrill that a senior couple passing by turns to look.

[pastel-rights]

Cal's Games Review: Who Drank It?

Well, Brynn/Cranberry found my post where I mentioned their game alongside a ton of other games! Wuh oh. (Navi you TRAITORRRR /j /t) I decided that since Cranberry mentioned wanting to know how the experience was, I'd make a full post with my thoughts and feelings on the game.

I think for background information, just to set the scene, I am someone who looks at and plays various visual novels, ranging from the KFC dating simular to Kimi to Kanojo to Kanojo no Koi. (google those at your own risk.) So, when I saw Who Drank It? I was pretty intrigued not going to lie.

It was a very nice little visual novel for what it was! Well, more so, you can tell a lot of love and care went into this demo, and the entire visual novel has this very nice, homely feeling to it overall. This was a project where you could just enjoy all the effort put into it.

Can I compliment your art really quick??? Not even as an artist myself but just someone playing your game by passing chance???? The artwork for this game is very, very pretty you guys. It's really charming in all aspects, the CGs (both in the game and on Cranberry's tumble page) are so dynamic and the poses are so nice and those expressions??????? oh my gorsh guys, and those sprites??? the sprites were so nice and clean, I love the designs of each character (I am especially fond of Gallagher's design- more on him later). The color choices for this visual novel are a nice blend of being soft on the eyes, yet memorable (and they make those outfits look so, so endearing. Can I have Ratio's button up????? I want it.) and awawawwa- [I explode into confetti mid-sentence]

And now, from an artist to an artist? Sure, the character designs for everyone and all art associated with the visual novel itself are very, very nice. Even from an outside perspective, you can see that. But as an artist myself? I have more than just an appreciation for the artwork of the novel, I'm outright awed every time I see art for it because being an artist isn't easy! Doing something like this takes time, effort, and a love for your craft, and honestly? Between the character sprites, the cg art, the artistic direction of the novel and it's visual interface? Shit, I respect the hell out of Cranberry for this, because it's something that seems so small to an outside view but it's honestly super endearing and awe-inspiring!

Anyways I love the art for this visual novel. Not sure how big of a compliment it might mean to you but hey! Compliments to the chef or whatever people say when they get a good ass meal.

Next thing, is probably the characterization of everyone in the visual novel? Which, I'll have to chunk that into sections, from the perspective of someone who's played HSR (he has an E1 Aventurine and is currently trying to explode playable Sunday with her mind) and from a game player perspective.

...

Which, ironically enough, brings me to the only non-HSR character, the MC! Normally, in visual novels, the MC is kind of... plain. Whether its a shits and giggles visual novel (like the BSD dating simulator visual novel Tae made me play.) or something higher quality (like Doki Doki Literature Club), the MC of these novels... I've always found them quite... plain? I didn't dislike them, but, I wasn't a big fan either. They were just there, which was the entire goal of their existence, only shaped by the choices you as a player make. But, WDI's MC was something rather refreshing! I enjoyed the personality of the MC, something between sassy yet caring, I really loved their vibes. I enjoyed playing through their eyes, because they were someone enjoyable to be around, something both unique and inviting. It's hard to have an (insert yourself here) MC who is still main character material without them being too boring or too personalized but I think WDI's MC has done that type of MC very well! 10/10 MC would fuck around as them again.

Aventurine. Oh, my lucky son of a bitch. I need to see him explode desperately. E1? My main? A cosplay? A blog? Own personal projects concerning a version of him?? You're ruining my life, my good sir. Bring Topaz back. /j

Jokes and teasing aside, I enjoyed the way Aventurine/Kakavasha was characterized in this fic. He was a favorite from my in-game HSR shenanigans, a main stay in my in-game team, a favorite muse in my musing arsenal and so, so much more. And honestly? This visual novel did a wonderful, wonderful job with his characterization, and they handled his character and his secrets very, very well. Faithful characterization is something I myself find I struggle with from time to time, (you can ask my friends, I never shut up about it when writing myself) and so seeing this really nice interpretation of Aventurine/Kakavasha that still feels somewhat like the in-game Aventurine to an extent is very, very nice. And those colors on that casual outfit we first meet him in? God, I love them so much... but it might be because I like the teal green of his original color palette and it reminds me of it.

Professor Veritas Ratio... I'm sobbing why is it such a fancy ass title for a grandpa fit looking ass. I want that shirt so bADLYYYYY. (He looks like he's going to remind me to take my meds /pos) Again, Cranberry has a very very lovely interpretation of Ratio in this visual novel! Ratio is someone who seems to get mischaracterized a lot by the fandom and it's refreshing to see that faint worry and caring nature the canon Ratio has in a visual novel such as this. He can be sharp lipped but he cares a lot about the MC and it shows (or, at least in my memory, it's been a while since we played it so excuse me if my memory is a little hazed.) I just. While I'm not a big fan of some Ratio interpretations in the fandom, I really enjoyed this one, it's written with genuine love. /gen /pos

Sunday.

And finally... Gallagher! (of course, there's Boothill and Robin, however, they're the foggiest in my head. I just remember Boothill kept making me laugh, which, canon lmao.) Of all the HSR men (and women), Gallagher was someone I never cared for in the slightest. (I was always more of a Misha enjoyer.) The story didn't really do him the justice he probably deserves and his fans can be... a nightmare sometimes. Safe to say, I'm not a Gallagher fan, not even a Gallagher enjoyer... barely even a Gallagher tolerator, get this man OUT of my gacha. So, with this in mind...

Compliments to the writer!

I really liked your Gallagher, in all senses of the word. In fact, he was probably my favorite character in the novel, next to the main character. He was equal parts lovable and intriguing, yet there was an air of joy and whimsy that really made him pop! Everytime he was on screen was a true, genuine delight. And his design just lends so much to this characterization as well. Something soft yet solid and protective. My gamemates were also pleasantly delighted by your Gallagher!

Overall, the storyline of the demo was very nice! The yandere side of any fandom isn't something I usually find myself in, if I'm being completely honest. I enjoy themes of obsession, possessiveness and everything that comes with the yandere side of a fandom's writing blogs, but... yanderes themselves? Don't love, don't hate 'em.

But, as you know, Navi suggested this game (not to me directly, of course, but through their now archived blog, and I took a look through it for myself, and now we're here.) and I thought, sure, why not.

Despite having the yandere themes and nature behind it and my neutrality in the yandere spectrum, the storytelling itself was very, very good, easy to follow, yet it was very intriguing and enjoyable at the same time. It kept me interested, yet I never got lost in the story either. It might not mean a lot coming from someone you don't know very well but, I went out after the fact and looked at some of the other fics on your blog and, I think you are a very talented and incredible storyteller, Cranberry. You and Navi helped give me an incredible experience, both storywise and game wise.

From a reader to the author, it was very enjoyable, easy to follow, with a fun narrative and an even more fun narrator. I need to explode Sunday with a fire hydrant though. Leave my boy Gallagher ALONE.

From a weakish author himself to the author of this amazing, god. teach me your ways your writing is so GOOOOOD. awawawaw- [she melts into a vaguely cal shaped puddle.]

Shoutout to the music on the title screen by the way, i was just jamming out for a good 10 minutes on my own. I love a good song, it always sets a good mood and keeps you hyped for what comes next.

I think this game would be really awesome if you got some voice actors for the project by the way. Some of these scenes are metal as they are, and I just know with the right voice actors, you can take the passion in this project from a 10 to an 11 real fast. Of course, that in and of itself can be tricky in and of itself, since y'know, schedules and pay and whatnot but. maybe somewhere down the line, a dream, a hope even. (I know someone who would love to help on this end, though, if you ever become interested in the prospect in the future.)

The actual visual setup of the game was very easy to follow, it was very pretty to look at as well, and it was mostly very gentle on the eyes. The text was a little small unfortunately but I have kind of shitty vision myself so it might jussst be a Cal issue? Nonetheless, very easy and simple to follow along and use, I'd give user experience a 9 out of 10.

And with the big word blabble out of the way...

Yeah! 10 out of 10 stars, honestly. Genuinely, I haven't had a visual novel captivate me in this way since I found Kimi to Kanojo to Kanojo no Koi a couple years back. It was delightful in all aspects. I came into it with slight reservations and zero expectations and I came back, very happy and pleasantly surprised!

This is heavy metal Barbie Girl levels of enjoyment, to be honest. (Wasn't expecting to love it, can't stop thinking about it, probably permanently altered my brain chemistry, this IS a compliment i PROMISE.) Can't wait for the full release!!

Godspeed, gamers!

[a-flaming-idiot]

So. What is The Scene™ for Titan Spawn?

Ok, that's a bit of a larger ask and since there's really a The Scene™ for every chapter, I'll just go through them all.

Ch. 1 Since it was the start I wasn't really focused on one scene. Though the first scene of Luz falling is probably my favorite. Though every time I go back to read it I kind of get jumpscared by just how brutal I made it.

Ch. 2 It was a long while ago so my memory is a bit hazy but I think I was really looking forward to the scene of Luz and Eda talking through the door. Honestly, that was fun to write and created some of the funnier lines in the fic.

Ch.3 This whole chapter was a lot more all over the place since I didn't really plan it too much. Though I guess you could count the scene with Luz and Willow accidentally embarrassing Amity since I'd gotten stuck prior to that. Plus it was just a fun scene and I liked fucking with early Amity.

Ch. 4 100% the Luz vs Eda fight. I loved getting the chance to make these two characters who would basically never fight get into an absolute brawl! Plus the fact TS!Luz has a completely different set of abilities compared to canon Luz, so getting to have her maul Eda was fun.

Ch. 5 Really this chapter was just one big scene so you could say Vee and Luz's interaction as a whole. but I think the part I liked the most and looked forward to was the part where Vee trips and sees Luz get that little bit sad from realizing she hadn't met another demon like her. And Vee thinks that disappointment is about to turn into murderous rage only for Luz to just help her up. It's fun and sweet, it was a lot of fun and it's one of the scenes I go back and read on its own.

Ch. 6 It's a little hard to say but I'd put it to the Amity, Vee, and Luz confrontation near the end. That was just a lot and put all the characters at odds in an interesting way. It was fun and the beginning of AmiVee.

Ch. 7 This was a more last-minute and quick chapter but I'd say probably Vee and Eda's argument at the dinner table. Again, characters you don't typically see at odd. (Though funny enough they end up getting into conflict in the very next chapter... then two chapters after that... Eda and Vee weirdly fight a lot.)

Ch. 8 Ok this one is easier, the scene of Vee(I'm realizing a lot of these are Vee-related) and Xylene talking. I seriously was just repeating Vee's line of “By making everyone so scared they hunt us all back into extinction?!?!” over and over in my head since the two of us brainstormed it together. It was so good!

Ch. 9 This one is kind of harder since I was really just excited by the concept of the coven coins so I was kind of excited for this whole chapter. But stuff like the Eda potioneering flashback was wonderful to write and so fun!

Ch. 10&11 Oh ho ho ho... Really you could call this whole chapter The Scene™ of this fic! Sash, you know well of the amount I hyped of this chapter, as does @mixit-exists. I hyped up this set of chapters so much and was practically salivating at the thought of making it since making chapter 3! And then it nearly killed me! But seriously, The Scene™ of this chapter is 100% Vee's fight with Inner Luz. That singular fucking scene, I am not kidding, created like half the fic! Why did I want Vee to stay in the demon realm? That scene. Why did I decide to give Vee magic? That scene. Why is Vee Luz's older sister against the more typical characterizations? That scene. Why did I write Amity the way I did? Well it was actually to silently set up for Willumity that soon turned into AmiV- JK! IT WAS THAT FUCKING SCENE! That one scene is why we are here now...

Ch. 12 Again, this was a more hodgepodge chapter, so there wasn't exactly one scene. Though Eda's scene was very interesting and that last kind of twist of the knife after DD that will haunt her character for the rest of the fic.

Ch. 13 This chapter ain't done but...

Of course there are plenty more scenes in the future that I am so anxious to write! Like for example in chapter 14 when Lilith [CENSORED] [CENSORED] [CENSORED] Luz and Eda has to come in and [CENSORED] [CENSORED]. Oh, or when Eberwolf and Darius come to the school to [CENSORED] [CENSORED] [CENSORED] [CENSORED]! That's gonna be so much fun. Not to mention much later when [CENSORED] [CENSORED] [CENSORED] [CENSORED] and Lilith appear to hold down Luz with magic before [CENSORED] [CENSORED] [CENSORED] [CENSORED] [CENSORED] And Vee [CENSORED] [CENSORED] [CENSORED] crying in Eda's arms, still covered in vomit. And we can't forget the entire season 1 finale with Belos [CENSORED] [CENSORED] [CENSORED] [CENSORED] Luz [CENSORED] [CENSORED] [CENSORED] glyph [CENSORED] [CENSORED] [CENSORED] KA-BOOM!

Oh that's all gonna be so much fun... you know?

[eomma-jpeg]

1, 7, 17!

my triumphant return is now bc i really wanted to answer some asks lol

1. Describe your comfort zone—a typical you-fic.

honestly i always go back to silly little fluffy one shots. i love writing happy characters mostly bc i fall in love with the ones that are sad T-T and i like to make them kiss !!! i love shipping and just want my favs to smooch !

7. Share a snippet from one of your favorite pieces of prose you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it.

okay,, so one of the chapters in in the meadow that i'm most proud of is chapter 7, which is when Vash and Knives TALK and if you want the full context its best to read the full chapter, but im going to insert one of my favorite chunks

The knob twisted and he peeked in through the crack, eyes immediately locking with his brother's. Met with his always intense gaze, Vash decided then and there he would not back down. Call it a sibling rivalry. "Took you long enough," Knives chided, relaxing his head back into the bed. His scolding honestly made Vash relax. Maybe this would just be a talk, nothing more, nothing less. Neither member expected much of the other, and if they came to any sort of consensus by the end, it would be a success. Vash made this quick resolution, a breath of relief escaping him. Vash moved into the room and closed the door behind him, "Sorry, I got caught up with something." "Get trapped in your sheets again?" Vash couldn't believe Knives was attempting to tease him, and tease him about something from their childhood. Deciding to play along, Vash replied, embarrassed, "You know that only happened one time." Knives just huffed, and it made Vash pause. The way he said his teasing comment wasn’t truly humorous, nor was it hateful or irritated. It was so mild, almost devoid of feeling, and Vash saw on Knives’ face what he was trying to hide. Taking a page right out of Vash’s book, Knives was deflecting; he was attempting to diffuse the situation or distract Vash from the pure panic in his eyes. Sympathy permeated his own expression unwillingly.   Proceeding silently, Vash shifted the end table to the right of Knives just enough so he could sit on it. There weren’t any other pieces of furniture in the room that Vash could utilize, so the small desk would have to do.

I went over chapter 7 probably 1 billion times because i wanted to characterize Vash and Knives as best as possible. I don't think i'll ever do it perfectly bc theyre not my characters, but I think i did this chapter justice. BUT this section here kind of... reveals Knives to be just as scared as Vash is about any sort of reconciliation between them, and while in reality they would need so much more than just a simple conversation to fix everything (and they do) I like to think that I did well at creating a scenario where they could do that. I've read too many works where they create dumb excuses for getting characters to change or to talk and I didn't want to fall into that trap.

17. Do you write your story from start to finish, or do you write the scenes out of order?

so as of late i do write from start to finish. I think it helps with the flow, and it incentivizes me to finish the whole thing lol. with in the meadow i had to bc i knew if i only wrote the scenes i wanted to write it would never get done lol

[todayimgonnaplay]

Today I'm gonna play Lightning Returns: Final Fantasy XIII

Recently finished FF13-2 which had some nice improvements, but I think I'm in the minority for not liking the sequel hook tragedy ending it has. I don't mind sad endings, as FF has had more than one, but I had mixed feelings about the payoff for going through two entire games. I've sort of come to terms with it as I'm starting to see this trilogy has a pattern of fate going on. And now I'm onto the finale.

Immediately into the game I'm thrust into something I felt like I should've known but didn't even see at all. I'm not sure how effective that kind of storytelling is, but fortunately Lightning and Hope explain events of this game's premise quite extensively. I do like the option of being able to proceed through dialogue during cutscenes as I tend to read quick. I'm also seeing a revamp to Lightning's characterization that reminds me quite a bit of FF 7 Rebirth with Cloud, both characters having a sense of humour and exchanging banter despite being very stoic. It's a surprising but welcome change.

Another unexpected thing I encountered was its battle system. Revamped and unlike the previous two games, or even the series itself, I can see why people are divisive over it. I immediately wanted to hate it and just quit the game, but one of the reasons I started this blog is to give systems I don't like another chance and really get a feel for them. My assumption for this is that this was Square's first real decision to move onto the action genre and away from turn-based combat. I do appreciate their constant experimentation for the genre though. In terms of combat, the idea of eliminating numerous menus for navigation that (J)RPGs are known for, with quick inputs to do what you want to do. And to still keep that turn-based aspect, the ATB gauge still remains a thing for this title so that you can't spam your attacks or go full action mode. It gives you some time to think, but it's still not enough. I noticed throughout this trilogy that I often don't feel like I can rest and actually think how to fight off my enemies effectively. One method I can think of is to give enemies ATB gauges too and display them. It retains that turn-based aspect but also gives you time to heal and strategize. It's good that Libra and signs of weakness by building the Stagger is shown as a sign of what's working and what isn't, but having a pulse motion feels quite hard to decipher with all the action happening as well as the health info hovering above the enemies. FF 13's stagger bar has shown the best way to display this type of info. It was large and clear, and it was still effective in FF13-2 if it was thought that it was intrusively large. One thing to note is that this title has removed the Paradigm shift system, and now uses Schemata, which is like playing dress up on crack. I consider this to be my favourite part of the game, simply because I think dress up and customizing abilities and equipment is fun and freeing. You're not limited to specific pieces and you can mix and match, but I haven't mastered this system enough to see if that's effective or not.

I'm not a fan of the limited items you can carry. I've been in a few situations where I needed potions but ran out, or because I've been used to being able to consume as many as I want in the first two games, I forget to stock and therefore cannot take any. It doesn't help that there's a penalty for escaping from battle which is taking away EP which is used for other useful features, but fortunately I'm playing on easy mode, as the lack of penalties are closer to what the previous two games were like.

In terms of the overworld, I have seen a larger improvement in traversing around areas. The platforming is decent in most areas, and I like that I can finally jump off places to get off faster, which I couldn't do in FF 13-2. Areas are more populated, making it more lifelike and immersive. My biggest gripe is about the game's main feature (and, which is a time limit that's connected to the game's lore about the world ending in 13 days. You are able to traverse around until 6 AM in-game time, until you're automatically transported back to a hub. The only usable reason the hub exists is to confirm completion of an area and move to the next (and also giving some kind of life force to a tree for lore reasons), otherwise moving back automatically has not served its purpose for me, other than interrupt me. It also feels a bit tense to constantly have a clock ticking down, and I'm not really a fan of timit limit games at all, in fact I tend to avoid them. But again, I decided to give it another chance. Turns out it's good at helping me keep more focused to my tasks and making more careful decisions rather than me being reckless. There's also a way to slow down time by using Chronostasis, which replenishes by defeating enemies. You can technically spam that and play all you want.

Music this time is a surprising negative for me, the new tracks haven't impressed me so far, and I hear reuses of the previous titles, which has saved me from thinking more negatively about this, even though the same team has composed for this title too.

Character designs are quite interesting this time around when it comes to Lightning due to the dress up feature. I do like Snow's new look compared to 13-2 and it fits the current personality given to him. But like FF13-2, the rest of the old cast are not given new makeovers which is a huge letdown.

I'm still not sure if I'll continue playing this to the end, but I'll try to power through as much as I can.

Terms used exclusively in the game:

ATB (Active Time Battle) - A consumable gauge with divisions that allow you to do actions in battle

Stagger - A gauge that fills up based on effectiveness which allows you to deal more damage

Libra - A feature that checks enemy weaknesses

Paradigm Shift - A system in FF 13 and 13-2 that used roles with specific abilities

Schemata - A customizable system that allows Lightning to be a unique role based on equipment and abilities

EP (Energy Points) - A limited rechargable currency spent on special features, or items

Chronostasis - An ability that allows you to briefly stop time

[good-beans]

I was looking at fe echoes quotes and long story short I was intrigued by the characters’ selection quotes when they reach half-health. Specifically for the RGB trio, they seem very positive for being at half their health. I ended up writing a super quick scene for Forsyth, Lukas, and Python regarding their middle level quotes, trying to envision a situation/emotion that would cause them to say it.

They’re kinda just hurt and no comfort so uh... have fun...  adshfsakj

There’s mention of violence and blood, but nothing graphic or gory.

Forsyth:

Forsyth sprinted across the open field, his adrenaline driving him forward into the wind. An enemy soldier appeared in his path. Through his helmet, Forsyth could see that his eyes were wild with malice, a cruel smirk hung on his lips. Forsyth had encountered expressions like it many times in the Rigelian army. In each and every instance, it made his blood boil.

How could someone who calls themself a knight look upon others with such heartlessness? How could someone take such pleasure in bloodshed? A knight’s first and foremost responsibility was to protect, not strike down. 

Seeing that face on his enemy added strength to Forsyth’s swing as he brought his lance forward. The other man’s weapon clashed with it in midair. 

This soldier may have been lacking in virtue, but it was clear he lacked nothing in skill. By the time Forsyth finally felled his enemy, his own side and left arm dripped with blood from his wounds. 

The knight began to head towards the rest of the Deliverance, but sucked in a quick breath as his movement agitated the injury. He clutched at his side.

With the thundering of hooves, Clive rode up beside him on his horse.

“Sir Clive! What is it?” He asked eagerly.

The man pointed behind him, “they are in dire need of help by the river.” Over his shoulder, Forsyth could see a dangerous amount of Rigelian archers closing in on the weary Ram villagers by the water. “You’re looking a little worse for wear, but would you be able to aid them?”

Forsyth tested his cut arm with a few flexes. He twisted his torso, biting back the pain. He was a knight, for goodness sake -- he could certainly walk off a few injuries to help those in need.

He gave a shaky smile to the other man. “All right, sure!”

Clive gave only a grateful nod before riding on to get the others. Forsyth headed to the river. His energy picked up again as he felt the wind in his hair and his lance sturdy in his grasp. His doubt melted away as he got caught up in the rush of battle.

Lukas:

With a cry of warning, Lukas tried to protect Forsyth from the cantor’s miasma spell. He was a few steps too late, however, and both were engulfed in the thick purple blast. The pair collapsed in a heap just before Mathilda came to their rescue. After slaying the enemy, her horse went thundering away; there were too many foes for her to check on the fallen knights. 

Lukas hardly saw her go. Dark magic was unpleasant, to say the least. The poisonous spell had torn through his body, filling each sense with searing and stinging pain. It lingered in his lungs and in his limbs. He found himself sucking in sputtering breaths. Every muscle felt sore and weak.

He struggled to his feet, though it felt impossible to take a proper breath. Lukas grit his teeth upon seeing his friend in a similar state. Forsyth had sat up, but was coughing and trembling. Lukas grabbed his lance off the ground. His efforts had done nothing to protect his comrade; in fact, he’d only made the situation worse. 

He placed his hand on the man’s shoulder. “Forsyth…”

“I’m alright!” he wheezed back, clearly far from it. He gave a shaking thumbs-up. “Thank you, friend.”

Lukas’s expression darked further. “I did nothing. Do you need a healer?”

“I… I believe so. I don’t think I can stand at the moment. You should get patched up yourself, too.” His eyes narrowed in concern, but Lukas was too busy scanning the rest of the shrine. He spotted Tobin calling for help across the cavern. As soon as he took a step in that direction, his leg threatened to give out. 

Forsyth grabbed his arm. “What are you doing? You’re in no shape to continue fighting!”

Lukas yanked his arm away. His even voice hardened as he replied, “I can handle it.” 

With his friend protesting through coughs, he charged back into battle.

Python:

There was a loud clatter as Python went tumbling from his horse onto the fortress’s stone ground. He landed on his back, gasping as the wind was knocked out of him. 

“Damn…” he muttered when he finally regained his breath. He figured he’d lie there for a moment to recover, breathe steady, and be sure he didn’t have a concussion or the like. Unfortunately, his enemy returned much quicker than anticipated. The soldier appeared above him, having dismounted his own horse, and brandished the lance he’d just used to force python to the ground.

Eyes widening, Python rolled out of the way just as the blade came down. He scrambled to his feet. Narrowly dodging another strike, he unsheathed the dagger from his thigh. 

“That’s how you wanna play, huh?” he said, stepping back. Although his training had heavily focused on the bow, he was decent enough with the small blade to get in close and get his enemy to the ground. Before he could even celebrate his victory, the soldier he’d pinned down gave a grim smile. The archer was thrown to the side by a powerful blow with a shield. 

This attack was almost worse than being thrown off his horse. The metal had connected with his arm, sending pain shooting through his shoulders and neck. He landed on the rough brick headfirst, earning a gash to the forehead. 

“You’ve gotta be kidding me!” Python still didn’t understand why the Rigelians enjoyed ganging up on him more than the others. He was constantly finding himself outnumbered or surrounded, and he was sick of it. He thought wistfully of the nap he had planned for today, wishing for the hundredth time he was there instead of fighting two trained knights with a small dagger. 

To his great relief, Alm and Clair came charging onto the battlement. The two were able to easily dispose of the soldiers while Python ran to grab his weapon. It was perfect: the two of them had everything under control here, so he could run over to Silque, get that stinging cut healed up real nice, maybe hang back with her until the rest of the battle wrapped up…

“Oh, Python! Glad we could make it in time!”

“Heh, me too!”

“Listen, there’s still a lot of trouble down below. There’s too many witches for them to handle on their own, so we’ll need your bow to take care of them. Follow me!”

The man’s face fell into a pout. He stretched his sore shoulders. With a heavy sigh, he responded. “Aye, cap’n.” He reluctantly mounted his horse, and thought once more of how much he missed his bed...

[brianlesshetaliawritings]

HI I LOVE YOU the Allies with a crush hcs you wrote are so cute I adore how you characterize everyone 😭 would you please do the SFW alphabet (from your pinned post) with America? Thank you so much :D

America SFW Alphabet

note: OMG THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!1!!! I LOVE YOU TOO SWEET ANON THANK YOUS O MUCH (i'm sorry this took me so long)

Affection: How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?

He's very openly affectionate with you, completely shameless when he kisses you in public. He compliments anything good he notices about you and always says he loves you, but he also likes hanging out with you at his favorite places.

 Best friend: What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?

Tbh Alfred just saw you and decided to have a conversation with you, this could be anywhere while anything is happening. He's a very playful friend, he really likes playing sports or video games with you.

 Cuddles: Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?

Most definitely he would. He likes if your head lays on his chest while he hold you with one arm, it makes him feel like he can protect you. Also he just seems like the type to rest on his back to me.

 Domestic: Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?

He can make scrambled eggs or toast, but thats the farthest his chef skills stretch. Cleaning isn't for him either since he always ends up breaking something on accident. He wants to wait until he can do those things to settle down, if he does. He's fine either way.

Ending: If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?

He'd wait for a good time then tell you he doesn't think this is working out, he probably didn't think of what exactly to say beforehand so it probably took him a good minute to finally explain his feeling.

 Fiance(e): How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?

Not the wildest about marriage, he'd do it if you want though. You can also do it almost whenever, he doesn't care too much as long as he knows you love eachother. Probably wouldn't marry you like a year into the relationship though.

Gentle: How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?

He's nice and not too rough with you, but he's certainly not gentle either. Expect plently of excited hugs when you two see achother. He does care when you feel bad but he mostly just tries to distract you, unless he can fix it, then he'll gladly be your hero.

 Hugs: Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?

Hugs you a lot, doesn't even think about it either. He's naturally an affectionate partner and love's hugs. He just kinda squeezes you for 7 to 30 seconds and probably gives you a few little kisses too if you're up for that.

 I love you: How fast do they say the L-word?

Depends a bit on how your relationship started, longest it will take is a month into you guys being together.

 Jealousy: How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?

He gets pretty jealous every once in a while. Dislikes when you spend too much time with other people, also doesn’t like it at all when other guys (or girls) talk to you like they’re into you. Definitely a hugger when jealous, if it’s bad enough he’ll mention that you two are together.

Kisses: What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?

Loves to kiss you. He gives lots of excited kisses on the lips and cheek (mostly lips). His kisses aren’t all too rough though even if they’re fast, they’re always sweet.

Little one: How are they around children?

He's... alright. He's not the worst, but good is an overstatement. He likes to play with them until he's accidentally too rough and they start crying. He doesn't handle the moody ones well, but shy ones dont work either. Would not change diapers if its a baby, or do anything important in general. 3.5/10 with kids imo.

Morning: How are mornings spent with them?

Shakes you awake because he doesn't wanna be the only one awake. Thinks mornings are better when he drags you along with him to get IHOP once you two are ready, but at least he pays so thats a plus. Likes to go to the park afterwards so he can walk with you and start a race back to the car when done.

Night: How are nights spent with them?

He watches a movie before bed, won't force you to partake but will beg every time. After that he does the nightly rituals and struggles to choose a position to sleep in for about 20 minutes, then remembers something he wanted to look up and talks to you about it. Falls asleep midway through reading about it. You'd assume this would be annoying, but it grows on you.

Open: When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?

A lot of people assume he's an open person but he does have things he keeps to himself. Doesn't do it all at once, just brings it up every once in awhile or if something reminds him of it. Doesn't linger on it too long, but you do start to learn his life story and whatnot the longer the relationship goes on.

Patience: How easily angered are they?

Not too easily angered. Some things can get to him though after awhile but after being frustrated for about five hours he forgives you. Can be pretty petty every once in awhile though.

Quizzes: How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?

Remembers about 70% of what you say, he tries to listen so he can get an idea of what gifts you'd like or to hear your interests. If he hears your impressed about something you saw, he might try it himself. Doesn't remember everything you say though, especially if you tell it while he's busy. Sometimes you say "hey, remember when i told you- (blah blah blah)?" and he'll lie that he does, then pretend to know all about the subject.

Remember: What is their favorite moment in your relationship?

Definitely something stupid. Either the time he snuck a (live) snake into a glass jar in the kitchen while you were in there or when he got you to come with him to a horror escape room and you two were chased by a man in a clown costume.

Security: How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?

He'd protect you if you're in any danger, without much thought really. He is the hero so it makes sense. He doesn't get protective over too many things that aren't dangerous though, like you having other friends who are guys or anything like that. Doesn't like it if people hit on you though, not like he'll cause a scene or anything but he certainly won't allow it to pass by.

Try: How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?

GIANT show off. Sometimes, though. Sometimes he'll just drive around with you while listening to music, or he'll take you to mcdonalds. Don't be shocked if he takes you on a luxury cruise for your fourth anniversary though. Also a fan of road trips to major spots in the USA with side trips to things like the salt and pepper shaker museum, or the biggest cowboy hat. LOVES day trips even if nothing special is happening though, expect one a week.

Ugly: What would be some bad habits of theirs?

Wore axe body spray at some point. Lasted two days until someone (you don't know who) had a talk with him about it. Depending on your opinion his fast food eating, and eating out very often in general might get annoying. Always pounds himself with cologne, sometimes multiple ones at once so he smells like a walking scent store. Would have a whole closet for 4th of july stuff, and sometimes brings the stuff out even when its not a partiotic holiday. Oh, also he has his flag on his boxers so look forward to seeing that if you look at the laundry.

 Vanity: How concerned are they with their looks?

Pretty shameless. He likes to wear really stupid stuff out and about to get stares since he thinks its funny. Does put some attention to what he wears though, especially if he feels its important. He likes to think he dresses good for the most part though.

Whole: Would they feel incomplete without you?

He does think you're really important, but incomplete isn't what he'd describe. He thinks of you two as not only dating, but also best friends. He does miss you though when you two are apart, but he doesn't think about you all the time either. Never think of it as you not not being valuable to him though.

Xtra: A random headcanon for them.

Cooks barbecue every damn weekend, every other week theres a pool party with it too. Since his house definitely has a pool. People there are a mix of complete strangers and close friends of his you never met before. Be prepared for that.

Yuck: What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?

He's pretty open to various types of people, he doesn't like people who argue a lot though. Doesn't like extremely negative people either, especially if it brings everyone else down too. Of course, people who are sad or not overly positive in general are fine, he actually tries to help them feel better. Doesn't like the idea of someone who dominates his life either, he wants to be able to do things without being dragged down by his partner.

 Zzz: What is a sleep habits of theirs?

Snores, noticeably but not too badly. Sleep talks too. Moves around. Always close to you though, will not ever leave ur side. Even if it means your being pulled with him if he falls off the side of the bed, which has happened before. Was funny to him, but not you.

[bonesandthebees]

kinda missed the train bc time zones but i just want to say that people angry at tommy for finding and using wilburs name (and comparing it to deadnaming? what? this is obviously so different) just cant appreciate the beauty of your writing

you write messy human characters in situations with questionable moral rights and wrongs, even if this was their first bones fic did they just forget the part where wil tried to kill tommy?

you write from one pov and work so amazingly with the unreliable narator prospects its so cool to read and so interesting to brainrot about

you write a lot of metaphors which is just something im obsessed with, especially the way youre so consistent with them, just like in stars with the sea and pillar, you continously describe wilburs most inner emotions as a bird in a cage and how the bird perks up at hearing the name wilbur while wilburs monologue is against it shows what was beaten into him and how he "wilbur" actually feels about it

also i know that a lot of people expected (and some wanted) a name reveal in the form of wilbur trusting tommy enough to tell him himself (i also expected this ngl) but looking at it, it feels so much out of character for glass!wil at least for a long while, hes nowhere near the amount of trust or even of knowing how much his training for the pythia was to be bale to tell anyone his name and in the situation hes in, kidnapped and in a group of people with completely different religion, i dont think theres space for him to get to that mental space in a completely healthy and right way

tommy finding out on his own and starting to use it on the other hand is just so much like glass!tommy, bc you can see how hes doing it bc he believes it wil help wilbur bc he knows how wrong it is that he was forced to foresay his own name, but also not telling the other deathlings bc he knows that the best way would be for wilbur to tell them himself

honestly im so glad it went like this bc it feels so justificating and deserving from characterisation and storytelling point, not throwing away all the built up trauma and messy relationships and all the mistakes that were made just for some quick and cheap comfort

instead of quick cheap hurt/comfort or angst you get a precisely and amazingly crafted deep and thought out story with deep and full chartacters that feel so human and its THE BEST THING EVER I LOVE YOUR WRITING SO MUCH BEE

and im sorry some people cant appreciate it and cant shut up about not being able to do so

lmao you get it i write messy human characters and also wilbur literally tried to kill tommy. this wasn't a breech of trust or anything they didn't have any trust beforehand.

kldsjfkld aaa you're so sweet though!! I'm so glad you like the one pov thing. It's genuinely my favorite way to write long stories now because it makes things so much more interesting to me. unreliable narrator is impossible to avoid when you only have a single pov going on and that's the fun part!!

so so happy you like the metaphors too. I definitely worry sometimes I'm overusing them, but I also like the consistency and the way it gives me a space to explain wilbur's emotions in a way that avoids just saying "he felt sad" or something. it makes it more interesting to describe and can be used in a lot of different ways so it's very fun for me

you see you get it!! there was no way he was gonna reach that place in a healthy way, at least not anytime soon. I know that everyone was expecting the soft reveal moment of wilbur telling tommy his name himself, but that's exactly why I didn't go with it. because subverting that expectation makes things a lot more interesting in terms of how it'll develop from there. it just makes the most sense with the characterization and everything to me so tysm <33

this made me smile a whole lot to read :D

[heyheydidjaknow]

Do you think you can do bayverse tmnt turtles for Leo, raph, donnie, Mikey as its goes like this , they were raised by the shredder as they're father died after their mutation as he didn't make it out the fire , they all the best foot clan soldier and obedient dogs they are and satisfied the shredder and they are given access to their pleasure and women , when they are doing a crime , they come across (s/o) , who she is just walking and gets robbed by a gang and the turtles come to the rescue and they start a liking of (s/o), who treats them kindly but they want to break her and make them theirs , as kidnapping her and forcing her into sexual acts with them as they want her all for themselves

I feel bad for not responding to this sooner; I got the plague and this became a lot longer than I thought it would be. So, to justify the wait, I’m uploading this in 4 (maybe 5) parts, and I’ll just link them at the end as they are released so you don’t have to go looking for them. I strayed from the original prompt a bit for the sake of variety and characterization but I tried to get as many elements as I could overall while making an arrangement of cohesive one-shots. With all that our of the way, here’s this.

Please note that the following content contains mention and depict instances of non-consensual sexual encounters, emotional manipulation, and other subjects you may find disturbing. Discretion is advised.

Progress (4/5?)

Leonardo

Not much changed from his canon counterpart. He was more driven, sure, more determined, but he was not an inherently different person because The Shredder raised him. The only major change was that, instead of fighting for the sake of some desire to bring justice onto those who deserved it, he fought for the sake of the vision embodied by The Foot: that the best course of action was to bring the world back to what it had been before, a simpler, kinder society in which one acted for honor and strength and nothing else. The bushido code was his gospel, the names and legends of those samurai who came before him always on his tongue; he lived to live amongst them.

Of his brothers, he was the best with the sword, most devoted to the word of his master and his teachings, and so he was the leader. He was, by all accounts, oddly pious for both lack of want and out of a strong belief that succumbing to impulses that he did not need to sate was some sign that he had simply not worked hard enough. “Spoils come after victory,” he liked to say. It made him intolerable, but vocalized protests by his brothers were ignored with an equally hated, “you’ll understand when you’re older.” All but Raphael still bothered to indulge him, a fact which displeased his other two brothers to no end.

It was he who insisted on helping you, back pressed against the bricks of a building, near swallowed by the horribleness of it all. It had been quick work, taking them down; they were members, he knew, of some rival gang. Though your immediate reaction had been to run for your life from the much larger group of assailants, after about ten minutes of coaxing from Leonardo, you eventually calmed down enough to accept his help home. His brothers needed little incentive to leave, and though you noted how his eyes wandered and his hand lay too comfortably against your side, you let him bring you home through dark back allies, assuring your safe return. He told you that, when he was in charge, “girls” like you would not have to worry about being stopped on the street, that men by then would have the decency beat into them. He continued on a tangent, much to your dismay, and would have gone on further if your roommate had not come home. Even then he had lingered.

“If you’re ever in trouble,” he instructed, forcing himself from the window, “mention my name.”

It was a glorious night for him, something out of a book in how fantastic it was. You, a quiet, helpless little thing, saved by him. It was a glimpse into what the world could, would, and should be, in his eyes. But, he reminded himself that night, victory must come before the spoils, and victory had yet to come. So, he decided that you were to be a pleasant memory, one that he would hold and cherish, but not covet, like a picture of a car you post on the wall.

Cars, he realized over the next month, were stagnant. You, a person, were not.

He would not have personally called what was going on an obsession. An obsession would imply a lack of mental control, of which he had plenty. Fixation was the word he used. Out of nowhere, there you were, eyes trailed on the ground, mumbling out a timid thank you, or nodding politely along to a speech his brother would have tuned out without a second thought. It was as annoying as it was endearing. It was hardly as if you were a poor subject to focus on; he remembered you as being quite pretty.

It really only became a problem when he started thinking of you in a darker light. What endeared you to him most, the reason that, unlike the women he had been offered, he latched onto you was, simply, your innocence and vulnerability. He had been taught that the good thing to do was to protect those who could not, and you were the only person who had ever really been what he had hoped for, the only “innocent” person he had ever even seen in New York. You were, by all counts, exactly who he was meant to protect, and so, the longer he contemplated the situation, he rationalized that “having you” was not only a morally sound thing, but an undeniably honorable thing.

He was more personally invested in the actual protecting portion of the relationship than anything you could provide; you were not an object, per se, but certainly not an equal. He had little interest in isolating you, despite this. A part of your charm was your ability to remain innocent despite your environment, like a flower through concrete, and like a flower through concrete, picking you would defeat the purpose. No, he left you be, for the most part. His control was maintained, instead, by proxy. You noticed as much; about three months after your encounter– you were hardly quick to forget such an ordeal, after all– people you did not know began to just walk up to you, strike up conversations, offer you things. You seldom had to wait to be seated at restaurants. Bills stopped coming in the mail. Men and women of all sorts smiled, commenting on how lucky you were to have such a powerful man watching over you, treating you with a tenderness that was frankly neither warranted nor desired.

Your roommate moved out by month four. One day, their things just were not there anymore. No note, no phone call, no word from any of your mutual friends.

You were scared of him, at first. It was to be expected, he supposed; a life devoted to combat would do that to a man. Half a year later, and he was no less threatening than when he had saved you; the only difference is that you did not hesitate as much to needlessly protest. The fact that he broke in made a bit of what he said go over your head, but from what you could figure from his speech– it was too deliberate to be rambling– he seemed to either believe that you two were in some sort of relationship. Not necessarily a romantic one, but he felt an obligation to watch over you, and that, because he could assure your safety and general wellbeing, he deserved something that he described in more words that you could comprehend as he was undressing. You later came to understand what he meant was something akin to reverence.

It was almost meeting-like, how punctual he was when he came to “have you” as he liked putting it. “Having you,” in your opinion, was not an apt way of describing what he did to you. It was too soft sounding. What he did was come in once a week and shove an appendage approximately the same length and width as your calf into your various orifices– he preferred your mouth, as it caused the least crying. What he did was break into your home and demand attention you had no obligation to give him because, even if he claimed he would never dream of hurting you, he understood the power his sword, which often sat innocuous by the window, held over you.

If nothing else– and there was very little else– he was gentle with you as could be hoped for, all things considered. He was quick, never one to waste time, and he had the patience necessary to understand when not to push to cause any permanent damage. He even mumbled words of encouragement on rare occasions. It was never pleasurable for you, but he understood that enough to never linger for too long. At least he felt bad for you.

You had one real conversation with him.

You came home, carrying groceries up flights of stairs– you had adamantly refused the insisting men around you– to find him sitting on your sofa, comically large on a piece of furniture clearly not meant to seat him, fiddling with his shirt sleeve.

You did not even bat an eye. It was a Thursday, after all. Silently, you locked the door behind you, dropping the bags down on the counter before sliding off your coat, hoping your shaking, an automatic response for what was to come, would go unremarked. He would not be long, you were sure; no need to worry about what food you had brought home spoiling.

“Will you be honest?”

You stopped, swallowed. You leaned against the counter to ground yourself, gaze flickering to the windowsill.

No sword today.

You looked back at him, clearing your throat. “Would you like me to?”

He interlocked his fingers, lining his fingertips together absently. It was a tick, you supposed, though there was no way for you to tell for sure; you rarely saw him sat, and the view you got when he did hardly allowed for you to tell for that sort of thing. It was oddly human for him. “I think so.” Blue eyes met yours. “If you would, that is.”

You did not move from your place. “I’m hardly a liar,” you sighed, leaning against your hand. “If you would like me to spare your feelings, though, now would be a good time to make that clear.”

He stared at you a moment longer before staring down at his hands. “Am I–” He stopped, held the words in his mouth. “What I mean to ask is, from your perspective, as a New Yorker, what do you think of the Foot?”

You blinked. “Why would you ask me?”

“Because I have no one else to ask.” There was a pattern to how he was moving his hands. You were unsure of what it was, exactly, but there was intent in his movements. “Would you like to have a seat?”

“I wouldn’t.” Absently, you tried to replicate his movements.

His eyelids slid shut. “Are you scared of me?”

You considered the question. “Yes,” you decide. “Definitely.”

“For what reason?”

You cracked a smile. “I’m not fond of people who break into my apartment.” You were unsure why, at that moment, you felt so bold as to be frank; you supposed it had something to do with the fact that, strength aside, you two were on somewhat equal footing for once. He was not a samurai; he was a man sitting on your couch, asking you questions. Besides, it had been so long since you had male company. “And I do notice the sword, you know; you’re not exactly inconspicuous.”

Slowly, he relaxed back into the couch, head lulling back as if to sleep. “That’s not all, is it?”

“Naturally.” You busied yourself with the groceries. “I would think the rest would be self explanatory.” You glanced back at him a moment, sighed, got back to it. “Mind the cushions,” you said. “Blood is hard to get out.”

He started, looked down at himself, wiped any still on his hands on his pants as he mumbled out a simple apology.

You assured him it was fine. It was less alarming on the couch than in your hair, anyways.

He sat in silence as you finished.

You slipped your shoes off, tossing them by the door. You walked over, taking a seat in front of him, feet tucked under you as you set your hands in your lap. You felt not dissimilar to a dog, but you were used to it. “Leonardo,” you asked simply, combing your fingers through your hair, “may I ask you a question?”

He did not move. It was not a refusal.

“Why do you do this?” You began to unbutton your shirt; you knew the drill by now. “I’m sure there are women you work with who would handle more than I can. Why me?”

After a moment, he leaned forward, cupping your cheek in one of his hands, studying you. A calloused thumb ran over the skin just beneath your eye, as if contemplating sliding it into your socket, puncturing it. A hand began to trace your side as he slid from his seat, kneeling in front of you, easing you back.

You were hardly in a position to refuse.

“You’re so…” He breathed, trying to articulate. “You’re so fragile.” Digits slid into your hair. “So, so fragile. It would be wrong of me…” He sighed, burying his face in the crook of your neck. “No, that’s foolish of me to say.” You felt him smile, the first you had felt of his. “There’s nothing noble about this, is there?”

You could not help but squirm as his breath ghosted across your neck. You wished he would get on with it.

“I guess… how would he put it?” He let go of your cheek, fiddling with the articles of clothing hanging from your form. “My brother– you saw him, I think– would call it a perverted savior complex, I think.” He laughed. “You know, I hated him for it, but he has a point; there’s something satisfying about having you.”

Your words caught in your throat. “I don’t–”

“Then don’t.” He pulled back, gazing down at you. “Let me take care of it.”

It was funny, almost; he acted as if you had a choice.

Raphael

Donatello

Michelangelo

Previous Works

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Shadowhunters Fandom Story - Part Fifteen

Submitted by jwrites_

Five Favourite Fics:

1. What's It Gonna Be by @lemonoclefox

Why I love this fic: I'm a sucker for Pride & Prejudice. San was able to take that dynamic and put it all in a modern day telling of it. I can't count how many times I've read this. Sometimes I read it all the way through, other times I go and find my favorite parts just to get that rush of emotions it never fails to give. The enemies to lovers is done perfectly, the dialogue is great and flows seamlessly, the way she tied in the storyline between Simon, Isabelle, Valentine, and Alec together was genius. I truly love every word of this story.

Favorite scene: Awkward - love - confession - in -  the -  rain

Favorite quote(s):

(Yes. Love confessions are great but have you ever overheard someone say something rude about you and then have the opportunity later that same night to be able to casually call that person out for their comment?)

"Her friend is..." He trails off, as though searching for the word, and Magnus can imagine him gesturing in the meantime. "Interesting," Jace eventually settles on, pointedly.

"Who, that Bane guy?" Alec says, and as he does, Magnus is hit with a wave of intrigued surprise. Does Alec like men? Interesting. The assumption could be wrong, of course, but Jace's tone implies that that's why he's mentioning it. "He's a bit over the top, don't you think?"

He sounds almost disdainful as he says it, as though Jace's mere suggestion is laughable, and Magnus's intrigue immediately shifts to offended annoyance. He straightens a little where he stands, reluctantly affected by it.

--

"I mean, love songs are great," Magnus admits lightly. "But stringing a few pretty words together does seem a bit unoriginal when everyone does it."

Simon shoves him lightly in offense, and Magnus can't help but laugh.

"Then what do you suggest?" Magnus is taken completely by surprise when he realizes that it's Alec who's speaking, and he turns to him. The guy's expression is neutral, but seems genuinely curious.

"Oh, I don't know," Magnus says, swirling his drink around in his glass. He shrugs. "I suppose I'm more a fan of showing and not telling. I'd much prefer someone showing interest in what I like and who I am, than comparing my eyes to the night sky, and whatnot." He gestures airily, then hesitates. He suddenly can't seem to stop himself, the memory of the Lightwoods' overheard conversation bubbling to the surface. "I think most people can appreciate that. Even if some of us are a bit over the top."

--Okay...I'm gonna go ahead and throw in a love confession~

"Look, I don't expect anything from you," he says, as though the words are hard to say. "You've made your feelings pretty clear, and I respect that. But I heard you talked to my mom, and with the stuff you said to her... I guess it just kind of made me a bit hopeful, or something. A bit." He clears his throat, while Magnus just listens. He turns to watch Alec's profile as the young man struggles to find the words, eyes on the view in front of him. "Either way, I'll admit that how I feel hasn't really changed. Maybe it should have, but..."

Alec shakes his head, and Magnus feels his throat go dry. He wants to interrupt Alec, wants to say and show everything that's bursting out of his chest, but he waits. Alec takes a deep breath then, turns to him. He looks determined.

"If you want me to," he says steadily, "I'll go. I'll leave you alone, I promise. You won't hear from me again." He pauses, licks his lips. "But if you don't want me to, if something has changed since last time, somehow... I'd really like to know. Because that would be pretty great."

2. 42 North 71 West by @lecrit​

Why I love this fic: I was blessed with the opportunity to witness Lu working on this fic from its conception to its end. I was there and still I am blown away at the way she was able to work the time jumps. I remember thinking with every chapter I read, 'Wow. The way she is telling this story is amazing. She is amazing.' Lu has a way of presenting so much honesty in her characters. She writes them in a way that feels so real, that you can't help but understand their fears and hesitations even though it hurts. The story is a back and forth told through scenes set in the past and present. You get to see what they were and where they are. The story is beautifully heartbreaking. And she was able to make me enjoy a story that dealt with politics? What? Sorcery, I tell you. -- also, the bench.

Favorite scene: This was almost impossible to choose and I took way too long trying to pinpoint just one. But I'm going to go with one that I hold very dear. When Magnus goes to visit Alec on his birthday and he finds Alec playing the song he only plays when he's sad. That's all I'm going to say because I don't want to spoil~

Favorite quote(s):

“Magnus,” Alec breathes out.

The name feels almost foreign, as if he hadn’t uttered it in too long and now his mind is troubling to catch up with his mouth. Still, it manages to make Alec’s heart stutter.

--

“We should’ve stayed on that bench in Boston,” he murmurs.

--

The good thing is, he knows where to go to find his way back. It is inked on his body, engraved into his soul, sealed into his heart.

3. Lead The Way by Clockworkswan

Why I love this fic: Because it takes the wonderful adventure of Doctor Who and packs it in with Malec. This is the ultimate fun and feel good but you will also cry at one point fic. I always go back to it if I want a wonderfully written Doctor Magnus and his adorable companion Alec. Seriously, even if you're not into Doctor Who, give this fic a shot. It's written in a way that you will get so caught up in the adventure that you won't even realize it's based on something else. And if you're a Doctor Who fan, you're in luck with all the little Easter Eggs Heather left throughout.

Favorite scene: I really don't want to spoil anything. The planet of Ablorix. This will mean nothing if you don't read the fic (so you should ;])

Favorite quote(s):

Magnus extends a hand. It’s just like before, when they were in the hallway a couple of weeks ago. It’s just as inviting as it was the first time.

“How about it, pretty boy? Name a star. Any one will do. Or a date,” Magnus says. The double meaning is evident when he winks. He pauses then, and his expression shifts, growing solemn.

A clear shift in his demeanour happens. Magnus turns from playful to sincere in the blink of an eye. Although, there was also a serious tone to it. Magnus looks at him, and understanding eyes meet Alec’s hesitant ones. “Alexander, you seem like a man in need of a break, and I am very much a man in need of a friend. Adventures are always a quick way in figuring out what you want. What do you say?”

What does he say?

He says yes.

Of course Alec does.

--

Before Magnus can think of a good retort, he tries to ignore the clenching ache his stomach gives at the sight of a confident, smirking Alec Lightwood watching him so openly. He settles for pointing in a random direction. “I have to go and see a dog about a man. Meet back here in five?”

“Uh, isn’t the expression, ‘see a man about a dog’?”

“Not when the dog ran off with the man’s wife. A rather big scandal, it seems. The president wants me to try and step in. Smooth things over, so to speak.”

At that, Alec just stares blankly.

Magnus holds up a finger. “Yes, this is normal for me. No, you may not come along. Go.”

4. Love & Other Drugs prequel of Our Love Is A Harsh Chord in the Semi-charmed Kind Life series by @la-muerta​

Why I love this fic: I'm kind of cheating here by listing two fics but they're a package deal. Love & Other Drugs was a smutty one-shot that left me wanting

more...

backstory. Let me tell you the pining and 'unrequited' love between those two demanded a story to be written. Which is why when la_muerta ran a poll on whether or not she should start it or another series first, I campaigned for this one like it was my job (I lost but I still got the series eventually so did I really lose?) The writing in this and with all of la_muerta's fics will hook you. The sadness over the back and forth between them is done so well. It's angst that will grip you and hold onto you until you eventually finish. Just go on the twitter hashtag of #OLIAHCfic and see my screaming.

Favorite scene: Probably the LSD scene.

Favorite quote(s):

Alec was still here, in bed with him.

How many times had Magnus wished that he could wake up with Alec in his arms? He didn't dare to move, wanting the dream to last a little longer, but Alec was already stirring.

--

he'll wonder if life would be a little easier if he wasn't hopelessly in love with Magnus, but it is a fact of who he is now: Alec Lightwood is 6'3, has dark hair, is gay, and is in love with Magnus Bane.

--

They are lying next to each other now, turned on their sides and face to face. The world is no longer warped and weird, but glowing and perfect. Magnus is tracing a path of lightning down Alec's body with his fingertips, and in a moment of clarity Alec understands that in Magnus' eyes he is as beautiful as he thinks Magnus is (it is the first thing Alec forgets when he wakes up sober later).

--

Words aren't enough to express how he feels, but they've always understood each other better when clumsy words don't get in the way.

5. The Lonely Hearts Hotline by @unrestrainedlyexcessive​

Why I love this fic: It's funny, it's endearing, it's heart wrenching, it's sexy, etc. The way Alec is written in this fic is one of my favorite characterizations. The way his situation can resonate with so many young adults today. That feeling when you're an adult and you feel like you should know what to do with your life and who you should be but the truth is, you're still just as lost as always. Being an adult sucks tbh and even when you're an adult, sometimes life doesn't quite feel like it. Alec's character and growth in this fic is beautiful. (I also really loved Jace in this fic)

Favorite scene: A tough choice. Probably the office party and follow up scene in Magnus' office.

Favorite quote(s):

The problem with being a new grad, in general, is that the world and job force demands you have experience, but you have to live a certain number of productive years on the planet to gain that experience.

Early adulthood is no man's land. You don’t have the experience to matter and no one wants to pay you to gain it, hence how he ended up in the precarious situation he’s in: dodgy sex work by night, an even dodgier roommate, and desperately hoping an internship eventually turns into an actual paying job.

--

Magnus runs his tongue down the knobs of Alec's spine. "You're so beautiful," he says, pausing.

"I'm really not," Alec insists, eyes fluttering closed.

"Why are you so kind to everyone except yourself?"

"I'm a work in progress."

"Aren't we all?"