#i think im just mentally ill im ngl

[cohozuna]

one of the biggest things i had to come to grips with art wise is that i can do realism pretty well but just completely fail at anything stylized. sure i can make a pretty picture from what i see but what does it matter when the only thing people take from it is "waow so good thought it was a picture" yeah its a compliment but its one that makes me feel awful bc i realize i do not want my shit to look like a picture. i FUCKING SUUUUCK at drawing and that isnt me being hehe quirky artist who says they cant draw and actually can i mean this shit is difficult as fuck and nobody would understand the extent to how awful i am at actually drawing unless they see me try to. all of my finished pieces were absolutely painstaking and i see ppl do the stuff that takes me many hours much quicker and with more personality with about the same experience shit makes me insane i am trying to learn but my god its like my brain just does not want to cooperate with me it makes it so so hard because i just have an awful mental block. genuinely used to just draw effortlessly (albeit not as well so at least i AM improving somewhat) but now even the simplest shit just overwhelms me. idk what it is. i like to think im pretty good with paintings but god it is so so difficult to do what i wanna without it taking far too long. i am so jealous of ppl who can do quality sketches on a whim. ive noticed i do a lot better blocking out a silhouette and then drawing lines over that when i sketch. makes me think im just not very line-brained?? stupid way to put it idgaf its 5 am. i dont wanna just whinge and cry about it but it is truly aggravating and so deeply frustrating to feel like im regressing in my ability to Just Draw because its undoubtedly a psychological thing. ive just been in this rut for yrs now its awful. thinking about buying a sketchbook again tbh

[casperth3ghost]

guys how do you explain to your friends who have suffered for months hearing u yap about one specific character that youre losing intrest in said character

[phagodyke]

the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad 😍

[creepy-scrawl]

My gf begged me to be on FB and I went there for a week and I felt so 🤡🤡🤡🤡 bc her main argument is that she misses me so much and "that is a way to interact in our day to day" but I'm there w no one to talk to and she is not even there. It just made me feel so stupid and even sadder bc I feel so alone in my relationship.

[jerseygirljasontodd]

I so seldom post because I get shy (hence why I ramble so deeply in tags... I have so many thoughts but so little backbone). BUT I've been reading Batman and Robin (2009) aka Dick and Damian's Batman and Robin run, and my GOD. I came across a page from when Bruce finally returns from being lost in time, that was just BEGGING to be used in a web weaving post. I think I have to make it, I really do. Oh Brucie Baby, oh "What Resembles the Grave But Isn't" by Anne Boyer, we're really in it now

[scarletiswailing347]

you can really tell i mellowed out about zam cause i draw him about as much as i do my other blorbos now aka never lol jk

[cheesydelphox]

just a little reminder in case you forgot

thanks for your time have a good fay

[todayisafridaynight]

ok controversial opinion i actually dont mind kiryu and majima’s english voices

[skitskatdacat63]

I have a race notebook and also the standings written on a board in my room(im a nerd) and im very hesitant to write down any results ngl, cause im super unsure if we're gonna get a fernando saudi situation w carlos or not??

[theodore-lasso]

I have to do a six month review at work and it goes for AN HOUR. Girl in what world do you have an hour's worth of stuff to talk to me about.

[bingobongobonko]

mumble mumble. today's not my day. paid bills which good! good! okay, thats good! paid! and might have new job, emphasis on might. i dont know if ill get it. feel like shit. idk. yeah that's normal week. might make a comm post as much as the idea stresses me out, like i understand its important and what people do, and i genuinely understand others who do, because why the hell wouldnt they, it just feels so weird on my part. yk. idk idk idk idk, my brain is weird. if it's fine for other people, if not awesome, same goes for me? i think? so why am i so panicked. im a hypocrite who's bad at this. after i finish this twist character sheet and the comm from my friend gonna make a public commissions post i think. or try to

[retired-magical-girl]

dude u never realise til u go thru something p bad or see other people get fucked up i genuinely could have had a seizure and had rhabdowhateverpissingyourmusclesout multiple times, ive just been lucky and didnt realise thruouf this year mixing whatever like why did i think it was ok to be doing all that and i have literally 36g of dxm in my drawer and god 300 pills of doxy and promethazine wtf 😭😭😭 genuinely wtf dude whyndo i think of mixing slcohol w everything too i was such a dumbass now im sober im just like WTF genuinely feel possessed and so embarrassed what fhe hell

[kalashtars]

first night on lexapro & I got told it makes ppl drowsy.... tell me why it's 4 am and I'm still up then 🧍‍♂️

[woodsborostabathon]

biblically accurate ambermeli & richie tbh

[jup1tersparx]

> at school for 10 years

> thinking about wanting to die constantly

> when i leave school ill be content!!!!!

> leaves school

> still thinking about wanting to die constantly

[kawaii-koimi]

i think i need to get back to translating so i could keep my emotions and my thoughts in check. get my mind off things. or else i'd really break down one of these days.