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latest jay post got me thinking: i went on these one depression meds and theyre the only ones who worked and i started eating more cus i felt well enough too but put on weight and immediately dropped them. or like im so busy working in the medical field and with adhd i just often dont have time, so imagine moving in with jay and he cooks for you and makes sure you now have a good eating diet instead of few snacks and ton of caffiene for the day so naturally you put on weight and he just is FROTHING at the mouth.
this ask has me frothing at the mouth. i’m going to marry you anon
reader starting to gain weight bc jay cooking for them…
(content warnings for weight gain, AFAB body but no pronouns or gender mentioned, dress used as a plot point, swearing, 2nd person POV, very suggestive near the end, pet names used: ma, sweetheart, baby)
Starting to live with Jason is a dream.
You thought he was a near perfect boyfriend before (well, at least perfect for you), but now?
He’s a househusband. You mean it in the most affectionate, positive way possible, but he genuinely insists on cooking and cleaning entirely by himself. You compromised with him by agreeing that you’ll put away clean laundry when it’s done, but he doesn’t allow you to finish any more domestic labor with your work keeping you so busy.
It’s been a long shift, being on your feet and working for almost 14 hours. So, getting home at 8:39 PM, you expected Jason to have just ordered some takeout or pizza for dinner due to your absence.
Your keys jingle as you unlock the front door to your shared apartment, yawning as you step inside and toe off your shoes. “Jayce, I’m home!” You call out, hanging up your keys and setting down your bag.
But he doesn’t come out of his office our your shared bedroom. He’s in the kitchen, an apron around his waist and a grin on his lips.
“Hey, ma.” He murmurs as you drape yourself over his back and nuzzle between his shoulderblades. “Long day?”
“You have no idea.” You grumble, pressing the smallest of kisses to his spine. “You’re cooking? You could’ve just ordered takeout earlier, you didn’t need to wait up for me.”
“I wanted to.” He replies, almost scoffing. “I’m not gonna let you eat a granola bar and call it dinner.”
You can nearly feel your heart melting in your chest.
“You really didn’t have to.” You reiterate. “But thank you.”
You two haven’t said ‘I love you’ yet, but you’re incredibly tempted. Jason is so easily spooked by love. So you show him with your actions, instead. The gentle kisses and caresses, the gentle nights and even softer mornings.
And by the way he cooks you your favorite foods after long shifts and hard days, you’d wager he’s doing the same.
Recently, you’ve noticed a small trend in your clothing.
Some of the smaller items you have are a little too tight lately. Plus, you can’t wear your bra on the tightest setting anymore, and your usual hole on your belt is a little too restrictive when you fasten it.
Jason is helping you clip your bra when he notices.
“Don’t you wear it on the other hook?” He murmurs, clipping it on the second. “I know I’ve helped you with this before.”
You hum, turning around and pecking his lips as a thanks for the assistance. “Yeah. I might be gaining some weight recently, it might be the new medication I’m on. Might need to do more cardio or something.”
Jason frowns. “You’re already doing more than you should. You are not gonna try and push yourself even more.”
You roll your eyes, huffing. “Whatever. I probably won’t gain much more weight, anyway.”
You were such a fool.
Over the next several months living with Jason, you’ve had to go up a clothing size, up a bra band size, and up a half-size in your shoes.
But every time you bring it up with Jason, he brushes it off, just reassuring you that it’s normal for hormones to cause weight fluctuations and that you’re perfect the way you are.
Finally, you’re trying on an old dress when you can’t quite fit into it, and you break. You can’t just let him ignore it anymore.
“Jason.” You sigh, calling him into your bedroom. “Come here.”
Jason is there in just a few seconds, grinning when he sees you in the dress. “Hey, baby. Feeling nostalgic or somethin’?”
You roll your eyes. “Try and zip it up.”
He quirks an eyebrow, but he does. And it doesn’t get any further than your mid-back.
“This fit me fine a few months ago.” You say, sounding equal parts confused and annoyed. “Loosely, even.”
The rest of your words fade into the foggy background as Jason’s mind runs wild.
You only notice when his hands move and he starts to unzip the dress, then slipping his hands into it and caressing your sides.
“You’re so beautiful.” He mutters, voice thick with… Something. “Look at you. You were so thin before, remember? You didn’t even eat two full meals a day. Maybe 1000 calories on a good day.”
“That’s an exaggeration.” You scoff.
Jason noses against your neck, mouthing at the soft, sensitive skin. “Barely. Fuck, you’re so pretty. Stunning. I love cookin’ for ya, you’re actually eatin’ right now. Your body is catching up. Your metabolism is slower ‘cause of your diet before, and now you’re actually getting the shit you need.”
You sigh, realizing he’s right. “Damn it.”
He frowns, biting gently at your shoulder. “This isn’t a ‘damn it’ moment, baby. Look at you.”
His hands start to wander. One caresses your stomach as the other wanders up to your chest. “Fuck. Sweetheart, haven’t you noticed? Your bra’s too small.”
You frown. “No it’s not, I just got a new one.”
He smirks, thumb ghosting over where your chest almost spills from the cups. “Yeah, it is. You went up a cup size.”
After that day, every time you tried to start a diet or new workout routine, he would vehemently disagree until you gave in.
This morning, though, he’s staring.
You’re in just your underwear, and he’s staring as you stretch and dig through your wardrobe for something to wear.
“You’re off today, right?” He asks, voice rough from sleep.
You don’t even hear him until he’s right behind you, his large hands on your hips.
“Yeah, I’m off.” You respond, suspiciously eyeing him when you turn around.
He’s shameless in his ogling, not even bothering to warn you before he picks you up effortlessly.
“Wha- Jason!” You exclaim, holding tight to his shoulders. “Put me down!”
He smiles wickedly, plopping you down on the bed and pulling you flush to him as he leans down and captures your lips with his.
“Fucking gorgeous.” He murmurs, biting your bottom lip and making you gasp. “You’re so *soft*. You know how hard it is to stop myself from practically groping you all the damn time? Your hips, your thighs, your stomach….”
You don’t even have the opportunity to think before he’s squeezing your hips and pulling back to look at you properly. “Can I have you, ma? Please? I’m hungry, baby, and I really want those pretty fuckin’ thighs around my head.”
These changes to your body are new, but maybe not as bad as you thought.
#jason todd x reader#jason todd x you#jason todd nsft#suggestive#tw weight gain#i wrote this on my phone#so please excuse my many errors 😭#thank you for the ask!#i love asks
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You broke me first
part 27
cill: bad news.
zoe: uhoh. what?
Zoe hated text messages like this. It’s bad enough he was leaving soon, how much worse can it get?
cill: it was more than just a wardrobe fitting.
Zoe: ???
cill:
Zoe laughed at the picture, staring at the signature pesky haircut he’s been subjected to all this time during this series. He hated it, he hated the upkeep, and he hated growing it out. Zoe knew he was relishing in the last couple of days of his normal hair before the inevitable happened.
Zoe: wow they really went short on the sides! Better wear a hat you’re gonna catch cold over there.
Cill: i’ll be living in hoodies with the hood up for the foreseeable future.
cill: how you feeling, bunny?
Zoe had taken a sick day from work today. She didn’t feel good, had the chills, and had zero appetite. She was camped out on the couch with a cozy blanket, a cup of tea and the remote while being under the care of her trusty live-in nurse - Scout, of course.
Zoe: a bit better. definitely a lot better than this morning. Scout has been taking care of me. Might actually take him out in a bit and get fresh air.
cill: don’t go outside if you’re sick. i’ll do it when i get home. did you eat anything?
Zoe’s heart still fluttered when he said home. THEIR home, where they live together, even if it’s just the time being.
zoe: i had some ramen noodles for lunch. maybe ill take a bath. i want to change the sheets too just in case whatever i have is contagious, dont need you getting sick.
cill: i’ll take care of the sheets and Scout. you just rest and take a bath. when i get home we’ll talk about dinner.
Zoe: can i suggest a pizza?
cill: not a chance.
zoe: worth a shot.
Zoe smiled and put her phone down on the couch. She looked at scout who was laying the couch by her feet sound asleep. She sighed and was hoping he’d want to go out.
“Scout… hey, wanna go out, boy?” Zoe whispered, nudging the sleeping dog with her foot.
Scout yawned, looked at her, and rolled over and went back to sleep, facing away from her.
“sheesh, okay then,” Zoe mumbled. she peeled back the blanket she was under and stood up to stretch. She was still in her pajamas, which was a baggy band t-shirt that came down to just above her knees. She hadn’t showered yet, was sure she smelled gross and she definitely felt gross. She made her way to the linen closet and pulled out a fresh towel and made her way to the bathroom.
She hasn’t been able to take a bath since she took a bath at Cillian’s in his ginormous, pristine, white bathtub. Her bathroom seemed small and dirty, and didn’t seem as relaxing as Cillian’s bathroom felt. But, she knew the warm water would make her feel better, so she decided to make the best of it, as she turned on the hot water faucet. She decided to grab a bath bomb and a lavender candle to make it more cozier.
She stripped off her T-shirt and panties and lowered herself into the warm water after dropping the bath bomb in. She had the candle lit on the corner of the edge of the tub and she was already starting to smell the lavender fill the room. She cursed herself for forgetting a second towel to fold and use as a pillow for her head, so her dirty T-shirt would have to suffice.
She relaxed and lowered herself even lower into the water, exhaling and closing her eyes. Her tub made Cillian’s look like an olympic sized swimming pool, and she had to bend her knees out of the water.
“If i close my eyes and pretend im anywhere else, its not so bad,” Zoe thought, feeling the water gently slosh around her legs. She heard the jingle of metal on metal, and she opened one eye to see where it was coming from. She was greeted by two big brown eyes staring back at her from the bathroom door.
“don’t tell me NOW you wanna go out,” Zoe said to Scout. Instead, he nudged the door open farther and made his way into the bathroom, peeking into the tub. Zoe pat his head, thinking he wanted some attention. Once he realized she was wet, he cowered away from her hand. He instead circled on the rug outside the tub and lay down, seemingly wanting to nap close to her.
“awww,” Zoe said softly, closing her eyes again. “good boy.”
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“hey.. baby.. hey.. HEY,”
Zoe jolted awake, water sloshing over the edge of the tub. She opened her eyes to Cillian kneeling next to her on the outside of the tub, hand gently shaking her shoulder.
“I forget you sleep like a rock. I was calling your name when i came home, and i found you in the bathtub like this,” Cillian laughed.
Zoe sat up and awkwardly stretched, her neck now in pain from the awkward angle.
“I didn’t think i’d doze off, I just wanted a quick dip to warm me up”
Cillian looked at his watch. “well, you texted me saying you were taking a bath 2 hours ago, and that water is barely warm anymore,” he said, standing up and grabbing the towel she had placed on the vanity earlier. he opened it in his hands and walked towards the tub. “come on, up.”
Zoe stood up and started shivering almost immediately. Cillian was quick to wrap the towel over her, rubbing her arms to warm her up. He then opened his arms and took her into them, holding her against his body.
“Can’t have you drowning on me, I’d miss you too much,” he said into her hair, giving her a kiss to her temple.
“I miss your bathtub in your old house,” Zoe mumbled. “That was heaven.”
“I’ll build you a bigger bathtub in the new house,” Cillian mumbled back.
“Don’t be ridiculous. It’s just hard to come back to what you’ve always known once you had a taste of luxury, that’s all i’m saying” Zoe replied.
“well when we’re in the new house you won’t have to worry about taking baths in small bathtubs again,” Cillian said giving her a quick kiss. “I stopped at that restaurant you like in the next town over and brought home some soup for you, and something for myself. I’m gonna walk Scout to the corner quick so he can pee, you get changed and meet in the living room, yeah?”
Zoe smiled. “thank you. that sounds good.”
Cillian walked out of the bathroom towards where Scout was and grabbed his leash while Zoe made her way to her bedroom. She grabbed some new underwear, some sweatpants and one of Cillian’s old T-shirts that would be extra baggy and extra comfortable. She put on some socks and made her way to the living room where she saw the takeout containers on the coffee table.
Zoe went to grab some bowls, plates and utensils and placed them on the coffee table. She grabbed bottle of water for herself and Cillian and made herself cozy on the couch.
While she was trying to find something to watch, Cillian came home with Scout. Scout ran to his basket of toys and pulled out a plush giraffe and began shaking it.
“Dog has so much energy, i swear we RAN home,” Cillian said, kicking off his shoes. He made himself comfortable next to Zoe and started unwrapping the containers.
“How did everything else go today?” Zoe asked, ignoring his shaved head. She already knew how that went.
“ummm…” Cillian started, hesitant to continue. If he was trying to hide something from Zoe, she picked up on it immediately. Something was up.
“what?”
“Well, for one, your magazine called. They said I have to do the interview all over again, with someone else,” Cillian said.
“that sucks, did they tell you who?”
“Some girl named Cindy? Cynthia?”
Zoe groaned. “great. good luck with that one. Where i ended up in bed with you by accident, she’ll try and sleep with you for real,” Zoe said.
“I think it’s over Zoom so you have nothing to worry about,” Cillian laughed.
Cillian cut up some chicken and took a bite. After swallowing, he continued.
“there’s uh… there’s more”
Zoe sat in silence, waiting for him to continue.
“My manager, Mary, is going out on maternity leave, and we’ve been having a hard time trying to find someone in the interim, but her and Hannah went to the same college or sorority or whatever, and she volunteered to do it while Mary is out. So Hannah is gonna be glued to my hip for the next couple of months. And apparently … I’m leaving for London on Monday.” Cillian said the last part very fast and very softly.
Zoe could hear her heartbeat in her ears.
be cool, be cool, be cool.
“oh wow… monday? that’s … in 3 days.” Zoe said.
Cillian put his fork down and grabbed her hand.
“I know, love, but it’s not permanent you know that. and we’ll talk every day. multiple times a day. I’m coming back.”
“i know.” Zoe said, forcing a smile. “I’ll coordinate stuff for the house for you while you’re gone, with all the furniture deliveries and stuff.”
“I appreciate it. thanks love. I already made you a key” he said, digging into his pocket.
“Assumed i’d help you move while you’re off being Tommy Shelby?? how’d you know i’d say yes to helping?!” Zoe joked.
Cillian smiled. “I was making you a key, regardless.” he leaned in and gave her a kiss, placing the key in her hand.
“So you and Hannah are gonna be quite the team…” Zoe continued.
“Yeah,” Cillian replied, “I had no idea she had managerial experience. But she started in the industry as a manager and pivoted into PR, so..” he continued, shrugging his shoulders.
“Cillian and Hannah, the dynamic duo,” Zoe said, taking a spoonful of soup.
“Yea,” Cillian chuckled, grabbing another mouthful of food.
“I mean, hey, what could go wrong?”
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Inspired by nikto in Miami (iykyk). Give some ops their favourite fast food chain... Whoever u want it can be as few or as many ops as you wish
this is perfect bc w nikto in miami i can just say theyre all in miami fsr and not have to worry abt what restaurants are where. YAY. and also i know whats down here. so if i miss something bc its some northern shit DONT be surprised. read all my posts w a southern accent. Anyway.
rodion ofc would b the most excited hed want to eat at a million places and get a bite of everything and get himself sick. i think nikto would probably end up finishing a lot of his meals & eating the best he has since hes become nikto bc he cant let food go to waste and rodion is eating like final 2 fries after 3/4th of the biggest burger on the menu & half his chicken nuggets then going "Oh my god...... Im so full now......." and sipping on a little milkshake. he would rly like dairy queen bc they have so many little ice creams to pick from. nikto wouldnt b impressed by any particular fast food chain i think but he would probably find some local wings place he rly likes bc the food is spicy. and he enjoys a good fry. he might fuck up a captain d's tho. they got fish. yummy. or popeyes actually bc they have shrimp AND its spicy.
i dont think bale is picky abt food at all. both him and nikto you could feed them anything and theyll take it. stuff thats really greasy might bother him but he'd still fuck up a steak n shake. or a wendys baconatorr but where i really want to see bale is a waffle house. the burger w the bacon w the hashbrowns he can put cheese in. its that american cheese but its good he will like it. salty as FUCCCK. uh minotaur is having a horrible time but he will still enjoy a chicken hashbrown bowl. and a captain d's too hed like the bread roll. OHH and a taco bell rice bowl. if they still have those. hed like a chipotle more than taco bell tho.
nikolai would fuck up a five guys burger and fries but it would put him out for the rest of the day. or an ARBYS bro get him a roast beast with fries, cheese sticks, and a shake hes OUT. i think krueger would b a lil snobby tbh he would like a local burger/wings place but not fast food. except mayb a nice plain value menu chicken sandwich from wendys its not very greasy. + good fries. syd already knows fast food placess in america shed probably rly fuck w most of them she LOVES a burger and fries. shed probably rly like cookout and any place that gives a lot of variety. five guys as well for all you can put on a burger + boiled peanuts. yegor would be so haterous of fast food but he'd enjoy a walmart deli bc its a one stop shop. and some nice gas station coffee. idk if farah would come along tbh idk that she could get into America with her label... she's not underhanded like kroug and nik are she's very blunt and doesn't lie... she would like Wendy's tho. something Small bc all the grease is gonna fuck her uppp
roze also doesnt care for fast food i think shes not huge on burgers esp not eating them often. but shed like chick fil a and grilled chicken sandwiches. mayb arbys roast beef every so often. lerch does not gaf at all if someone's going to get food he'll eat whatever gets brought back for him. he just wants a large. velikan fuckin... would Tear Up five guys too put him in the pile. AND taco bell AND dairy queen w a nice big blizzard (he is always getting a brain freeze. every time.) AND any pizza place but prob mostly little caesars bc its the cheapest. goin crazy on the crazy bread.
mace like already knows fast food places so hed be able to kind of have an idea on places jackals would like. subway or jersey mike's is a safe bet any just sort of sub place bc thats just a sandwich but i think end of da day they wouldnt like any place nor the prices so theyd also just enjoy walmart deli sandwich or theyd get some use out of the hotel kitchenette. zane esp would not enjoy fast food imo. maybe a classic bit of mcdonalds by himself bc he just wants to eat and go. mace like doesnt care he enjoys a burger he likes a fry. jacks is good bc theyve got the potato and gravy thats rly yummy + you can get like an actual plate mace would like that. a country fried steak even..
uhh price Only likes the McDonalds fish filet i dont think hes fucking up any other meal or place. he would maybe snack on some chicken nuggets dry. i really just see sas going to McDonald's they know McDonald's. everybody knows McDonald's. they could end up in a steak n shake and enjoy it tho esp soap and thorne. i think otter alongside price is the hardest to please but if you give him enough hot sauce packets he can eat anything. ghost isn't going inside he wants to eat in the car but he doesn't gaf where they are. ghost and mace on an in the parking lot pizza hut date.
golem needs to try waffle house also. i think he'd probably actually be really disappointed in the lack of gyro places that's what he'd be wanting and there's like arbys and pita that's it. unless he finds a local place. wyatt would love cookout u can get a million things. AND captain ds. talon would probably also like captain ds but he does not want to go with wyatt. he will go with domino and mara who would rather be having pizza pizza little caesars. I'm taking Morte to the Olive Garden.
demon dogs would b up for anything but they would like All have to agree on one place. they probably mostly get big buckets from any of the fried chicken places OR pizza bc its easy to get a lot to feed a lot. OR a bbq place they love bbq they give u big portions they love to Eat. + just buffets bro they'd tear up a buffet.. all the ops would tbh itd be the easiest way to get everyone some food.
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PART 5 JJ MAYBANK X Y/N
Warings:eating disorder, depression, hospitalization,SH,suic!de,drugs
Kie:I ordered pizza
Everyone: yum
*everyone hut y/n grabs a slice*
Kie:Y/n do u want some
Y/n:oh no thanks I ate a lot earlier and I'm taking care of the baby
Sarah:kie can me and u go to the store later I wanna get more pickles and ice cream
Y/n:pregnancy cravings hitting hard I assume
Sarah:yep
John b:I had to get this girl more ice cream and pickles from Wal-Mart at 2:30 am
Jj:u only do it cause u love her
A few weeks pass and the pogues would always order and cook food y/n would always say she is taking care of the baby and is full bc she ate already they also barely see y/n
Jb:I ordered Chinese
Kie:I'm not that hungry so im just gonna take a egg roll and some white rice
Pope:I'll take some chicken a egg roll,soup,dumplings, and Cleo I hot ur plate and soda for us
Cleo:thank u baby I love u
Kie:jb have u seen our sister (y/n)
Jb:no I only saw her once today
Jj:weird
Pope:I haven't seen her much in these past few weeks
Cleo:no one knows
Cleo:me either
Sarah:me either
Waves (the dog):*barks*
They hear a thud
Waves: *barks* signaling them
Everyone puts their plates down
Waves:*walks to y/n's room*
Jb:opens the door
Everyone sees coral (y/n and jjs daughter in the baby carrier y/n passed out)
Pope:how did this happen
Sarah:walks in sees there is a lighter next to y/n and burn marks on her arms and legs
Kie:jb I found a note
Jb:what's it say
Kie:if u find this note I probably have passed out from not eating anything and the baby is probably down with me and fainted and has a red spot on her cheek and jj I loved u so much so did coral and kid u were my sister I loved going to tan on the beach and jb I had so much fun surfing with u pope I had fun with u when we climbed the mountain on the beach and Cleo and me jumped off -love y/n
Jj:*crying* wait what about coral
Pope:*sniffles* I think she's gone too
Jb:*cries* probably
Sarah:*sniffling* call the fcking hospital
Cleo:*sniffling* dont be dumb pope hurry up call
Pope:calls
The operator: hi this is 911 what's ur emergency
Pope explains
30 mins late jj gets in the ambulance with y/n and the baby
Everyone Else drives in the Twinkie
At the hospital
Jj:so coral and y/n are in one big room with a bed and an incubator when can all stay the night
Jb:everyone grab ur things they follow jj
Jj:*sniffling* here's coral theres 3 pull out couches and 3 three recliners
Jb:Sarah can have a couch so can Cleo and kie
Jj:me,jb,and pope can have the recliners
Jj:looks at coral in her incubator with her tubes and all the.machines keeping her alive along with y/n in the bed next to her
Pope:coral is one strong baby she's not that hurt just fainted and has some bruises
Jb:y/n is much worse tho
Kie:I got us some food
Pope:I just want the small bag of chips and water *turns his phone*
Kie:I just got a salad and water for me and jb
Jj:and I got a pb and j with some chips and soda
Cleo:I just got a salad too
Sarah:I got a slice of pizza
Jj:hang on I need to refill corals feeding tube
Pope:not to make this depressing but y/n has what's called an eating disorder its where u eat too little or too much and coral has what's called fetal drug disorder,austim,cprs and probably more y/n has fetal drug disorder, borderline personality disorder and bipolar,And probably more
Jb:where would she get drugs.....
Sarah:that two faced lying backstabber RAFE
Sarah:Cleo come on lets go
Jb:where are u going
Sarah:to refer where's the gun btw jj
Jj:here gives her the gun
30 mins later they get back
Sarah and cleo:the problem has been dealt with
The boys: nvm we dont wanna know how
Sarah:rafe said to go to kie's house we found a SH/suic!de note
Cleo:we found a love letter to jj I think u should read it
Jj:reads it
Sarah:also y/n left u her favorite surf board if she is gone
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ive been stuck in a binge cycle recently and im slowly recovering from it but its still a work in progress and hopefully tmmr goes as planned and i can go to the store and get stuff for my meals i have planned and new dishware cause i hate using the same dishes as people and hopefully my mom/brothers doesnt be stupid and use my stuff i reallly need a mug too i also need a new rice cooker but that can wait bc its expensive but i have a list for things i need and the hardest thing is getting people to not use my ingredients it is mostly vegetables but the fruits ik theyre gonna eat them too so problem there. i hate how my brothers think they can just grab and eat whatever i bought for me especially since they mostly eat junk food like take out and frozen/instant food like stop taking my food go eat your pizza rolls, chips, and ranch leave me and my lean meats, vegetables, soups, and low cal items. this is another reason i wanna move out asap so im saving money but i need another job since i just moved here but my brother is already having trouble getting one so thats making me nervous and i cant drive nor am 18 quite yet so i need to get my permit at least within the next year so i can drive alone by 18 and get a car and everything id say im most worried abt where im gonna live hopefully i can make some good friends already here and we can be roommates for a bit or ig college just so i can live in the student housing at least idk yet but hopefully ill figure it all out soon but i gained abt maybe 11-15kg bc the binge cycle i look like the old me and i hate it ima try implementing a routine
wake up, drink water, bathroom, brush teeth wash face, drink green tea, stretch, do some yoga (not everyday) do wtv i ned to do until lunch, workout, do whatever i need to do, shower before making dinner, brush teeth, stretch and free time and when im fasting similar schedule just try to sleep when i can and stay busy too hopefully i can get everything i need tmmmr
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Pretty sure i fucked up my hunger signals thanks to school
Tw: eating disorder symptoms
I didnt have the time to eat in the morning cause it took so long to get to the school i was going to. I would be starving in first and second period. But by the time lunch rolled around i would already be so used to the pain and even a little too nauseous to eat anyway. And then id go the rest of the day on either nothing or maybe a slice of pizza(pizza was almost always an option at my school)
Then id get home and start binge eating snacks till my mom told me to stop it, ill ruin my appetite, and then we'd have a decent dinner
Now im constantly and unconsciously skipping meals and binge eating small stuff when im bored. Coffee is my breakfast and sometimes lunch too. I dont do this intentionally or for any reason other than i just dont think to eat anymore
Probably the only reason im not suffering more serious health concerns is thanks to my moms cooking. We always ate healthy foods and i still do now even while living with my grandparents
So school definitely gave me some kind of eating disorder. Its not fun but im lucky enough to say its not as bad as it could be. The effects it has mostly come down to lethargy and bouts of excess energy that exasperate my anxiety and depression
But thats another can of worms and im not gonna open it :)
Im trying to prove a point to my mum
Repost if school has caused:
Anxiety Depression Suicidal thoughts Social anxiety Eating disorders Self harm Stress
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"he got a PhDoy." (Bro1)
"y'know y'all aren't identical, right?" (Me)
"we know that. Mom doesn't know that." (Bro1)
"that beesting, I used it as an excuse 'cause I was scared." (Bro2)
"of what?" (Me)
in the distance, eavesdropping "GIRLS." (Bro1)
"you don't eat cheese wax, what's wrong with you? actually, that might be what's wrong with you." (Me)
"that ain't no butterfly, that's a red wasp." (Bro1)
"YOU'RE SO SAD. I can smell your depression." (Bro1)
"ROLL THEM GLIZZIES." (Bro1)
"whAt? "SHE"??? THE SANDWICH????" (Me)
"a little cotton candy lil feller fluff in there, alright." (Mom)
"we don't need to know what your wife calls you. that's what she calls you, not us." (Me)
"your wife calls you Phyllis–" (Bro1)
"the world is a cruel place. first, they take the pizza. then, they take the pets. last, they take our toes." (Bro1)
"sometimes you gotta kill off the competition while they're young." (Bro1)
"that's... that's not competition. that's natural selection." (Me)
"like the Jedi." (Bro1)
"Godiva, that's what we should've named you." (Dad)
"Godiva? wasn't she a public nudist?" (Me)
"nevermind." (Dad)
"IM JUST A SIMPLE LITTLE MAN!!! ...I oughta kill you." (Bro1)
"keep farting like that and you'll turn your shorts into fishnets." (Bro2)
"you rather abandon your sister, you CHARLATAN! a RUSE, you put on her." (Bro1)
"you can't be hating 'cause he's French." (Bro1)
"seehowyourfatherputinthem carrots." (Dad)
"..hyperfolic?" (Me)
"carrots." (Dad)
"what???" (Me)
typed, not said
"we don't wanna turn heads and take breaths. we wanna give whiplash and asthma." (Me)
"why would we give it up for charity? we're broker than rice." (Bro1)
"why are you half shaved? you look half Caillou, half.... Little Bill in the face." (Bro1)
"do I look like I'm 2?" (Dad)
"welllllll. you are bald. that does dock points." (Bro1)
"it's a neurotoxin." (Me)
"what dat mean?" (Dad) rhetorically
"brain go dumb dumb, can't go walk walk." (Me) also rhetorically
"that was a butter sized scream." (Me)
"asiago cheese bread: it's makes ya feel just a little bit Italian. like the Macarena makes ya feel just a little bit spanish." (Me)
"we're gonna have an Indian Christmas." (Dad)
"what would that look like?" (Me)
"rice." (Dad)
"BREAKING NEWS: LIN MANUEL MIRANDA ARRESTD FOR.... ... ... poverty." (Bro1)
"SHUT UP, HORTENCIA. AND DON'T CALL ME HONEYBUN." (Bro1)
"southern freezers make things last forever. might as well be a crypt." (Me)
"has Woody ever killed anyone?" (Bro1)
"if he did, I don't think they'd tell us." (Me)
"he's a western gunslinger, 'course he did." (Bro2)
"this woman just said you got an hour and some change to live." (Dad)
completely unprompted and at random
"oh, I love juicy things~" (Bro1)
"he may be able to pay the dowry but how does his library look?" (Me)
"i know that was not a skeleton with a baby skeleton on a leash." (Me)
"that's called parenting." (Bro1)
"why was Archimedes so obsessed with floating?" (Me)
"because he was bullied as a child." (Mom)
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Chapter Eight: New Employees.
The big, metal walk-in freezer door opens, Tony and Todd step in. “So this is the new guy?” Todd asks. “Yup, whatd you say your name was?” Tony asks the man sitting, bound on the cold floor with his back on the wall. “Ricky- do you have any water?” Ricky asks. “What happened to his arms, Tony?” Todd asked. Tony begins gagging, he heaves and retched, “Woah man- you good?” Todd questions worried. Tony reaches into his mouth and pulls, he takes something out, something long. He turns around to meet Todd and drops it to the ground. Todd asks quickly, “Is that a bone!?” “Nah, I dunno. Hey Ricky! Yknow what you need more than water? Pizza! Let me go getcha some.” Tony dances out of the room and Todd turns to Ricky. “Are you cold?” Todd asks. Ricky looks puzzled and answers, “No? Wait shouldnt i be?” Todd rubs his eyes and sighs under his breath, “Oh man, Tony turned someone else.”
Tony shows back up and hands Todd a plate with two slices of pizza, “Hey sport, couldja feed the amputee for me? He'll start healin once he's got fuel.” Tony asks. Todd pauses for a moment, “Shouldnt you be the one doing that?” Tony pats him on the shoulder and says, “You're on the clock, champ! Im the boss, plus! I wanna teach him how to drain the red sauce once he's healed up!” Todd rolls his eyes and walks towards Ricky. Tony heads out the door with a, “Im goin to the front! We had a little more of that dog left so i made a limited menu item, heha. We're gonna be busy later!” Tony giggled and shut the door behind him.
Todd sits down next to Ricky, “What'd he do to you?” Todd asks. Ricky looks up, tired eyes staring back into Todd's. Ricky takes a deep breath, holding back emotions that are ready to burst and speaks, “I worked at the dollar store a little ways from here. And um, i was working last night, when he came into the store.” Todd interrupts, “If you don't feel like talking about it right now, you don't have to.” “I think I need to.” Rick says. “Okay then.” Todd replies. “I was checking the cameras, when people started disappearing, first there was a man, then a woman. But i never saw Tony. He-” Rick whimpers, “He just left their feet where they stood. I- I dont know how they got like that.. Did he eat them? Does he do that?” Todd stares amazed, “I uh- I don't think so?” Rick collects himself and asks, “How long do I have to be here?” Todd breaks their eye contact and says sadly, “I dont know, man. I've been asking myself that too, but he's the only teacher we have now. He turned us, Rick, into whatever he is.” Rick's eyes begin to water. “Eat up, bro, you'll heal quick. Then we can figure out your next move.” Todd lifts a piece of pizza to Ricky's mouth, Ricky takes a bite as tears run down his face.
“Tony.” Todd marches behind the counter from the hallway and up to Tony who's taking orders at the register. “Yea?” Tony cracks. “You and me, kitchen.” Todd says before storming into the back, leaving no time for Tony to respond. Tony groans and follows. When he gets the kitchen Todd immediately starts questioning, “The convenience store, Tony. What happened?” “Oh he toldja? Well-” Todd interrupts him, “I thought we only drank their blood?? You ate like two and a quarter people! How did you even-” Tony interjects, “Listen kid, I really dunno- I went in for a snack, then this horrible feeling twisted in my stomach. Next thing I know, I came out with a three course meal and a new employee. I couldn't resist it if I tried, kid.” Todd stares with anger written on his face, “But you didn't try, did you?” “Well no, stop houndin me, wouldja? I'll try a little harder next time.” Todd leans in, “Tony, will blood not be enough for me some day?” Tony replies calmly, “I dunno, son. Maybe. Most likely. But ya might be able to push it off for a while.” “Dammit Tony! I never asked for this, man! I-” Todd's cut off, Tony stands closer suddenly, his visage seemingly devoid of the light provided by the overhead bulbs and his eyes projecting a deep red glow. He speaks, “Todd, get to the register. We've got a bunch of customers.” Todd calms down, “You got it, boss.” He turns around and walks through the door to the hallway, towards the front. Tony watches him walk away, once he's out of sight for the moment Tony sighs, “It's a dirty trick, I hate to use it on the kid.” He thinks, “But he was about to explode, I had to think fast. I cannot handle this right now. Not when I'm so close.”
That night, Ron Broccoli lay in his cell bed. Staring up, looking at the moonlight illuminating the ceiling. The light giving an outline of the bars. He thinks to himself, “I had em. Those damn vampires, but that Tony guy. He's the most vile one I've fought. And I almost fucking had him. How did the police even find us in that dinghy place? How did they not find anything at his restaurant? He killed my precious girl, he's killed who knows how many people and will continue to. I need to get rid of him.” Ron's mind swims with ideas. He thinks of possibly escaping. He thinks of how to track Tony once he's out. He thinks and thinks but none of it matters. “As long as I'm in this damn place I can't do nothin!” Ron says angrily. A figure rises in the bars shadow cast on the ceiling. Ron, surprised, shoots up in his bed and turns to see what is making the silhouette. There in the air, standing on nothing visible to Ron, floats Tony. Tony asks with a smile, “May I come in?”
“You can't.” Ron says, “That's a barred window, not a door.” Tony chuckles, “Ha, I know. And I know ya probably aren't too pleased to see me, heh.” “I'd be more pleased if we weren't separated by a wall.” Ron says flatly. “I'm sure, Ron. Well I'll make it quick then.” Tony says, “Join us, eh? I'll getcha out of here and you'll join the team, we'll be unstoppable like we used to be.” “Used to be?” Ron questions. “Ehh not important, what's your answer?” Tony laughs. “No. Now leave.” Ron says annoyed. “Have it you're way, Brocc. But I'll be back tomorrow night, and the next. And the next.” Tony grins. In an instant, Ron is alone again.
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Chapter 20
Love hurts
Word count:3142
Warning ⚠️ 18+
Dani pov
The next morning I woke up around 9am and started breakfast for Eddie ,Dustin and myself I decided on making scrambled Eggs with bacon on the side and some toast and can't forget the coffee.
"That's smell so good ." A sleepy Dustin says from the couch .
The door to my room open and Eddie walks out wearing only his boxers ,his hair is dishevel I smile at the sleepy metal head who is walking towards me and wraps his arms around my waist pulling me closer to him kissing my lips softly.
"Good-morning." He says in his morning raspy voice that makes me melt there in the spot,I kiss him back and his mouth taste minty .
He must had brushed his teeth before coming out to the kitchen.
I lean in more into the kiss and suddenly he picks me up from my tights sitting me down in the counter with him in between my legs .
He was about to kiss me again but his eyes go somewhere else behind me then I turn around and realized that Dustin was still laying down in the couch looking at us with a disgusted face.
"Good-morning little Henderson." He says helping me down from the counter .
"You guys disgust me ." He says making a gagging sound and scrunching his nose.
Eddie and I both laughed and he picked me up putting me over his shoulder walking to my room .
"Eddie!!!" I squeal "bring me down the food is gonna burn ."
"You guys are too cute that you make me want to throw up ." Dustin says gagging
"Oh shut it little Henderson." Eddie tells Dustin playfully and runs inside the room trowing me to the bed bouncing a few times then jumps on top of me kissing me all over my place .
"Dani im hungry !!"Dustin shouts from the kitchen
"Cockblock!!" Eddie shouts back at Him
Standing up fixing his boner .
I just rolled my eyes and chuckle
"M'Lady ." He extends his arm to help me up to head back to the kitchen
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January 24
Dustin and i where in the drama room waiting for the Hellfire guys to get here to eat lunch I had bought pizza and wings for them ,because they where doing so good in school I thought they deserve to be rewarded.
Being that I'm the only teacher that actually likes them and doesn't judge them or call them a satanist club.By now I think that I probably join there cult but I don't care I get along with all of them better than with all the other teachers .
I mean I know they judge me too .One time I heard them talking in the teachers lounge about me saying that I was so disrespectful and that I dress like one of them meaning Eddie and his friends .Mrs.O’Donnell s even said that how was I allowed to teach .
But honestly I didn’t care .
So back to the present.
This was my first time being in the drama club in the Hellfire room Where the magic happens.Like the guys say not the kind of magic I like but the kind of mystical magic of DND the Satans game. I walk around admiring the room ,Eddie's throne got my attention and walk I closer to it slowly passing my fingers through it .In my head my thoughts where going crazy I had a crazy imagination.
"So this is Eddie's throne ?"I ask not turning to look at Dustin
"Yeah ,he don't let anyone sit on it ." He tells me
I smile to myself and I get an idea .
I wonder if he will let me sit on his throne ?
"Bet you $20 he lets me sit ." Dustin raises his brow and extends his hand "You got a deal ." We shake on it .now to wait for the hellfire gang to get here .
The door to the drama room open and Eddie and the rest of the hellfire gang walks in happily talking about who knows what .
"Hey Miss.Henderson." They say while walking in except for Eddie who has a sad expression and glazed eyes .
Ok that might have been my fault I got mad at him Sunday he had a gig at The hideout and while he was singing a girl jump up stage and hug him and place a kiss on his lips but he didn't push her away instead he kept her on stage for the whole song.
So yeah I have a reason to be mad at him .
Well he said that only reason he did it was because he said I kept flirting with the bartender who to Eddie was extremely Hot 🥵,Well what he doesn't know is that i don't have eyes for anyone else but him ,I don't know how to get it through his pretty head of his .
So I got mad and didn't let him stayed at my apartment last night and the day before and he has been calling me like crazy I don't answer him or his messages I know I know but I got really jealous and I hate feeling like that I hate that feeling .
But yeah that's what happen and now he is just standing there looking at me with his beautiful doe eyes .
He mouths something to me but I can't make what it is .
I walk pass him brushing my ass on him knowing damn well what it does to him .I lean down placing some cups on the table and you would think Eddie would move but he doesn't making it more obvious he is staring at my ass.
I felt his hand suddenly on my waist pulling me closer to him slowly I stayed frozen in placed my eyes widen by his touch and my heart started beating faster .
"I'm sorry please forgive me ." He whisper on my ear making the hairs from my back stand up ,his hand stayed on my waist he kept whispering sweet nothings in my ear ,my back was to him and I was looking at everyone but they weren't paying attention to us they where on there own things .
Gareth clear his throat trowing a napkin at Eddie's face brushing my cheek .
"Hey man what the fuck !!" Eddie trows the napkin back at Gareth but he catches and makes a face at Eddie .
I snap out of my frozen state and walk away from Eddie before I do anything stupid in-front of everyone here .
"Ok guys dig in ." I tell them trying to avoid an argument between Gareth and Eddie that started out of nowhere .
Everyone takes there seat around the table i turn to see Dustin and smile at him before I ask Eddie .
"Hey Eddie can I seat here ." I ask sweetly pointing to his throne
His eyes widen because I was talking to him and a smile forms on his face .
"Ofcourse y-yeah ." He stutters “y-you can do whatever you want Miss.Henderson.
"Thank you ,Your the best Eddie ." I pass by Dustin and hand Him his $20 and take my seat on the throne .
The guys where all in shock because Eddie let me seat in his throne and where all making fun of him teasing him and stuff .
"Eddie has a crush on Miss.Henderson ." I hear Jeff teased Eddie making Eddie punch his arm.
I giggle because I think it really cute how he is blushing .
"Then why are you blushing ?" Dustin ask with his mouth full of food
"I'm not blushing ." Eddie says offended looking at me ,his cheeks red ,I bite my bottom lip trying to contain my laugh.
"Well you'll never have a chance with her man she is your teacher ." Lucas tells him teasingly
"Guys im right here !!" I point to myself
"Ok Dani ,would you date Eddie ?" Mike ask suddenly I almost choked on my drink and chuckled .
Ofcourse I will.
All eyes where on me right now I fell on the spot I didn't know how to answer to that I knew the answer thought.
"So Dani?" Mike ask again
"Well first of all he is my student I couldn't do that ." I respond
I hear Eddie Chuckled that cocky bastard thinks is funny .
"Ok,ok what if he wasn't your student and you met him in The Hideout ?" Jeff ask now
Fuck me ,this guys are gonna kill me .
I think for awhile looking at the guys looking at me waiting for the answer .
"I mean yeah if he wasn't my student and I would have met him probably but that's not the case is it ??" I say before all the guys start cheering and teasing Eddie about my answer .
I turn to look at Gareth and lean in to tell
Him to say something to make them stop teasing Eddie .
"Guys stop leave him alone ,is not like none of you has had a crush on your teacher so stop leave Eddie alone ." Gareth says but they all ignore him and continue teasing .
"SHUT UP !!!!SHUT UP!!" Eddie suddenly shouts and everyone quiets down .
Eddie just rolls his eyes and continues eating but kept glancing at me and at my untouched food recently I wasn't really hungry I had no appetite at all.
I might be getting sick or something because I only drank water or coffee or something simple as a fruit or a salad because every-time I ate something greasy I would puke everything .
I really need to go check myself but with finals approaching and I haven't had time maybe during spring break I'll go check myself.
I look down to my food and it look delicious but I was afraid if I ate I was gonna puke.
The whole lunch break I was just poking my food i think if I just had a bite of my pizza and that was it .
When the bell rang I told everyone to leave so they wouldn't be late to class they wanted to stay and cleaned but I told them it was fine that I'll do it .
The only one that didn't leave was Eddie being that he had a free period he insisted he stayed and help me clean even though I told him multiple times that I was able to do it alone .
The guys tease him saying he just wanted to spend time alone with me to make a move but if they only knew .
So We were cleaning in pure silence but I could feel Eddie's eyes burning right through the back of my head .
From the corner of my eye I saw him standing at the far side of the table with some cups in his hands staring at me with puppy eyes.
"Fuck!!" I say under my breath Those eyes make me fall so easily honestly .
Fuck you chocolate brown eyes.
I really wanted to hug him and kiss those plump lips Jesus Christ !! I hate myself too much for being so weak for Eddie , but then that image of that girl would come back to my head I know she is just a groupie and I know if corroded coffin became big I had to deal with that but Sunday was intentionally and I knew it .But what made me mad is that I wasn't able to do that with him because I was his Fucking Teacher .
"Ahhh!!" I tossed the plastic bag I had on my hand to the floor .
I picked it up immediately knowing that Eddie had seen my outburst and continue cleaning.
"Sweetheart talk to me please ." He said softly but i ignored him continuing cleaning the table picking up the trash and trowing in the plastic bag aggressively.
I hear Eddie walk towards me stoping infront of me dropping to his knees hugging my legs tightly .
"Eddie ,what are you doing ?" I ask confused looking down at Eddie who was now crying .
He look so vulnerable not the normal mean Eddie he pretended to be in-front of everyone .
"P-please d-dont Leave me ." He managed to
Say through his sobs
Leave him?
What does he mean?
"Baby I'm not leaving you ." I tell him sweetly picking up his face by his chin with my index finger and thumb .
"Y-your n-not ." He hiccup ,his brown eyes glazed looking up at me like the cat in hat eyes .
Fuck Eddie why do you have to be so fucking cute.
"No." I said softly giving him a weak smile ofcourse i wasn't gonna leave him I love him with all my heart he was the love of my life .
He stood up pulling me closer by my hips
"But you got mad at me ." He says pouting his bottom lip ,his beautiful eyes were red and had tears falling down his cheeks .
"Baby couples fight ,That doesn't mean we are breaking up ." I peck his lips then i peppered his face with kisses making him smile again .
"I love you please don't ever get mad at me ." He hugs me tightly not wanting to let go of me .
Hiding his face in the crook of my neck .
He starts leaving small kisses in my neck making me squirm by his touch .
I pull away cupping his face making an angry face ,Well im hoping I look angry and not constipated .
"Stop flirting with girls and I won't get mad Edward." I said sternly
"Yes ma'am ." He says pecking my lips making me giggle .
"So I'm flatter ,I hear know-one else seats on your throne ." I say teasingly booping his nose
He tries to bite my finger but I move it away and instead bites my bottom lip .
"Don't ever bite your lip when there's people around ,you know what that does to me ." He says in a low sultry voice that makes my heartbeat faster not talking about my heart.
He chuckles walking towards his throne and sits down tapping his leg for me to go sit down .
"Jesus Christ Eddie ."I mumble
I walk towards him sitting on his lap
Facing him both legs on each side and i should have thought twice before doing this because I was wearing this fucking skirt and I could feel his hard in between my legs.
(Dani's outfit pic from Pinterest .)
I look down biting my lip and look back at him with a big smile on my face because I love how I make him feel and it's something that I love so much .
"You miss me ?" I ask teasingly "You don't know how much I missed you baby ." He leans in kissing my lips at first it starts slow but then it starts getting hungrier .
The next thing I know im pulling his pants down to his ankles and releasing his dick that slaps his stomach .
I lick my bottom lip still not getting used to his length which I can't complain .I squeeze my legs together trying to cause some kind of friction in between my legs Eddie drove me crazy and he already had me wet like the pacific ocean when I saw how hard he was for me already ,before sitting back on Eddie’s lap i rush to lock the door of the drama club room and ran back to him but before I did anything I took off my skirt off slowly really seductive looking at Eddie in the eye .
"Fuck you're so beautiful." His hand went down to his dick stroking it slowly while looking at me undressed.
I know ,I know we are at school and is risky as fuck but I'll deal with that after we are finish I'll make it quick I promise .
"Come here ." Eddie said in a low seductive voice i obey walking slowly moving my hips side to side intensionally,his eyes never leaving my body watching every movement I made .
I sat on him Slowly lowering myself down on his erection both gasping with the feeling .
"Fuck!" He groaned squeezing my hips "you're so fucking tight baby.
I bit my lip to stifle a moan and God Eddie felt amazing
"Fuck baby ." He groaned trowing his head back I kiss his neck sucking on it leaving my marks behind for any girl that wanted to flirt with him would know he was taken .
He look back at me with a devilish smile kissing my lips biting the bottom one .
"Mhm." He bit his lip "you're so fucking gorgeous ."he said in between kisses
I started bouncing faster up and down on his length trying to contain my moans and God it was hard to contain them of how good I was feeling right now .
I wasn't the only one making noise Eddie was a moaning mess as well.
He was making the most sexiest noises and Gosh that got me so turn on .
"I'm gonna cum." He said hiding his face in the crook of my neck he let out a muffled moan that fucking led me to my peak.
We stay like that for a moment both lost in each other ,tired trying to catch our breathes .
But the bell rang so we both got up so fast and changed so we can head to the next class .
I don't know how we changed so fast but I got out first of the room ,but before I left Eddie wouldn't let me go, I gave him a kiss ,and he kept kissing me but I had to push him away for him to stop .making him pout like a little kid,so I gave in kissing him back and now here I was running to my next class late as fuck because my man child of a boyfriend wanted to make out after we just had sex in the fucking Drama Room!!!!
I walk in to my classroom like nothing like if I didn't just fuck one of the students
Jesus Christ!! That sounds so fucking horrible and I'm just saying it in my head .
"Good afternoon Miss.Henderson." One of the basketball players says I think his name is Andy one of Jasón's friends.
"Good afternoon everyone sorry I was late ." I start my lesson assigning some Work to be done while I check on other students assignments.
The door to my class opens and Another one of Jason's friend walks in tardy to class disrupting everyone.
He walks to my desk giving me a pass from
The office and goes and takes a seat in his place .
"You guys are not gonna Believe what I just heard ." I hear Patrick tell some of his comrades
"What ?!" They all asked excitedly
"Someone was getting it on in the drama room."....
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hi i have become 15 today an i think thas funny
#15 just sounds so adult. im one year away from driving. i can start learning 2 drive rn.#i mean. i dont trust my self w driving. i can barely ride a bike i dont think i should b allowed on da road#anyways i think#i havent gone to bed yet#and also i am very hungry#i think im gonna go eat some pizza rolls#ok gbye now#heart art!
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#i have no problem w people questioning and potentially declining the vaccine cuz personal autonomy after all but like#these r ALWAYS the people who have never questioned what is going into their body before ajskdjsakdsajksad#its like yea i finished drinking my bang energy and eating my pizza rolls and tonight im gonna go take shots out of someones belly button#and take whatever Drug Cocktail i will be handed but like ://// heard some news on facebook bruh#like PWEASE do actual research apart from reading titles and headlines i fucking dare u#if u take in the current research and scientific opinions and still dont wanna take that vaccine? i respect that decision#but i promise...if u look into ANY medication or item u consume reguarly u will always find negative case studies#thats what happens on a planet of 8 billion people#no cap i think every single thing i have ever consumed ever has killed someone before#also not to repeat the same argument thats been said for every vaccine ever but much more likely youll die from the illness itself
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okokok second brainrot of the night (im thinking of sending in brainrots in either pairs or trios so i apologize for inbox spam i just love steve <3)
so im currently doing a theater internship under a stage manager and i love it but literally the food they provide is shit. like they only provide vegetables and gross bitter tea, white chocolate (the worst chocolate) and everything bagels
so imagine reader just complaining to steve about the shit food options at their internship and steve just breaking ten million traffic laws and driving as fast as possible to drop off actually good food for reader during the small window of time that is their break :)
i was working on the cheer manager one when i saw this and just had to write it!! i was in theatre and my director was a BITCH fuck you nina anyways here's a cute little blurb!!
fumes. you were running on pure fumes. you looked around the room and half of the cast were either half asleep, or bouncing off the walls thanks to the endless caffeine they've consumed. you let out a yawn and jumped as the auditorium door slammed shut.
“okay people, listen up!” your director shouted. you gulped down the bundle of nerves that were surfacing as she stormed on stage. you nudged the lead mumbling a sorry when she whined out.
“y/n, i'm so hungry, and sleepy.” she whispered.
“me too babe, they don't call it hell week for nothing.” you sighed out.
opening night was in five days and everyone was losing it. tears have been shed, fights have been broken up, and you swear if tiffany asked for her line one more time your director was gonna lose her shit. you weren't listening to whatever she was saying but you saw your hand moving across your notebook writing things down. even though everything was going in one ear and coming out the other you knew everything that was being said already.
“okay!” your director clapped. “who's ready to eat-”
the auditorium door was opened, heads turned and you let out a gasp when you saw steve holding five boxes of pizza.
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“i mean seriously, who the fuck does she think she is?!” you shouted from the shower. steve was brushing his teeth as he grunted in agreement with you. you turned off the water and stuck your hand out, silently asking steve for your towel.
“so wait,” he said, handing you your towel and then rinsed out his toothbrush.
“today she fed you guys celery, stale bagels, and tea?”
“not just any tea steve! bitter tea!” you exclaimed stepping out of the shower. “everyone in the cast is starving for some real food and i swear if i don't get any food in my system i'm gonna eat her.”
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“excuse me young man-”
“i'm so sorry miss, this must've been a prank call, gosh they already paid too. do you mind if i just leave this here?” you looked at steve’s outfit trying not to laugh when you saw he was wearing argyle’s work uniform from when the byers visited town.
“i've never even heard of surfer boy’s pizza.”
steve set the pizza down on the edge of the stage and sent you a wink.
“yeah we started in california but we're slowly expanding, anyways cheers to you guys! enjoy the pizza!”
the cast members, including you, all ran to the pizza boxes moaning and groaning and taste of real actual food. your director rolled her eyes telling everyone to go home and rest cause tomorrow was going to be a busy day. you snuck away with a box of pizza in your arms and met steve in the parking lot.
“babe how did you get here so fast?” you asked while kissing his cheek.
“when the byers were in town i went for a ride with argyle, he showed me a few things. apparently there's no traffic laws in california.”
you furrowed your brows. “i'm pretty sure there are.”
steve shrugged his shoulders. “doesn't matter, i'll break everything traffic law to get to you and make sure you're eating real food.” he pulled you in for a kiss and smiled against your lips.
“you taste like pizza, give me a slice.” he said while reaching for the box.
you snatched it away and looked at him like he had three heads. “i stole this pizza for me, not for you.”
steve put his hands in the air signaling he surrendered and opened the passenger door for you.
“you're scary when you're hungry.”
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Catsitting
That is a continuation of "Promise me to take care of Biscuit" but you don't have to read the first part, to read this one.
TW: none
Feyre and Rhys are dating for 4 months now. No one knows yet. Feyre has to go away for a week so Rhys takes care of her cat, Biscuit.
Rhys sat on the couch in his living room watching Biscuit dozing in her little cat hammock. Feyre asked Rhys to take care of Biscuit this week because she had to travel to a convention with her boss and some other co-workers. Rhys agreed instantly. Over the last year he got attached to the little furrball. The attachment to Biscuits owner obviously made the decision way easier. Rhys sighed and took a sip of his water. Feyre and Rhys were dating for 4 months now, they decided to not tell anyone yet. They want to wait until the time is right and just enjoy the time together, just the two of them. Nobody else sticking their nose in their relationship. Rhys already knew that Cassian and Mor would nag on him for keeping that secret. Both of them already pushed him to make a move on Feyre, not knowing they were already a thing.
His doorbell snatched Rhys out of his thoughts. He stood up and opened his apartment door, letting Selene in. "There is my favorite sister!" he exclaimed with grin.
Selene rolled her eyes. "I am your only sister."
Rhys took her schoolbag, throwing it in the couch, strolling into the kitchen. Selene sat on the counter.
"What do you want to eat?" he asked.
"I don't care."
Rhys took out the leftovers of yesterdays dinner and warmed them up.
"What is that?"
Rhys looked into the direction Selene pointed to. "That's Biscuits water bowl. Feyre is away for a few days, I take care of her in the meanwhile."
He took the food and gave it Selene who had a mischievous glimmer in her eyes.
"Eat first, then we see if Biscuit is in the mood to play. You'll just scare him if you run to him now." Rhys said, knowing exactly what his sister was thinking. "How was school?" he changed the subject.
"Good. When are you gonna tell mum that youre dating Feyre?" she asked.
Good. She was good and way too perceptive for her age. Rhys crossed his arms, watching her eat.
"How." he said.
"You blushed when you said her name." Selene giggled.
"I didn't!" he responded, way too fast to be believable. Damn it. "Anyways," he took a seat beside his sister. "I trust you not to tell mom."
Selene raised a brow. "Are you not trying to bribe me?"
"What do you want?"
"A new phone."
"No. I am ordering pizza tonight."
"Deal."
Rhys laughed. "Deal."
They sat there in silence for a few minutes. Selene eating lunch and Rhys checking his phone and answering some messages.
"Mom will be happy." Selene broke the silence, pushing her plate away. "She loves Feyre, and she is already trying to play matchmaker between you two."
Rhys knew that. Their Mother knew that Rhys was in love with Feyre, he told her a few years ago, asking her not to play matchmaker. She listened to him until a few months ago. However she did it, his mother felt something changing between him and Feyre.
"I know." he said leaning back. "We will tell her soon."
Selene nodded and looked to her left. Biscuit came into the room, jumping onto the kitchen counter a few feet away, watching Selene. Rhys gave her the pack of Biscuits favourite treats. "Be patient, it takes her a while to warm up to strangers."
Selene nodded again, taking a treat and holding it out. She was always a fan of animals and he knew she wanted a pet but their father didn't allow it. Selene never met Biscuit until today, tough she asked Feyre to send her pictures of the cat, which Feyre did regularly. Rhys smiled, his family already loved Feyre and Feyre loved them.
Selene made a surprised noise when Biscuit slowly walked towards her, sniffing on the treat in her hand. Carefully she took it out of Selenes hand, not running away this time like she did when Cassian tried to feed her the first time.
"She likes me!" Selene whispered.
"She does." Rhysand confirmed, impressed.
Selene took another treat, giving it to Biscuit. Then she held her hands out to Biscuit for her to sniff on it. Selene carefully lifted her hand up to pet the cat, and Biscuit allowed it.
Selene smiled, eyes bright.
"Does Mor know?" she asked. Rhys knew what she meant, he was about to tell Selene that Mor didn't know about Rhys's and Feyres relationship when Mor strolled in. "Know what?"
Rhys whipped his head to her, he did not hear Mor approach at all.
"That Feyre and him are dating." Selene said, continuing to pet Biscuit.
"Selene!" he said.
"What? You just said don't tell mom!" she replied.
Mor squealed, running to hug him. "I knew it! Congrats, cousin! I need to tell Cassian, he will be-"
"No!" Rhys interrupted. "You're not gonna tell him, and you'll act surprised when Feyre tells you."
Mor took a surprised step back. "Alright." she took a seat to his right. "How long?"
"4 Months."
"Shit." she said.
"Shit?!" he asked.
"Azriel won the bet." Mor said, more to herself than to him.
Selene chuckled.
Rhys rolled his eyes, of course they would bet on them.
Mor slapped him on his arm. "I am so happy for you! You finally stopped being blind idiots."
Rhys groaned. "Thanks, Selene."
"You're welcome." she said, cuddling Biscuit.
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Schoolyard
You’d first met him in second grade. Your dad was a high ranking military man and so your family moved around quite a bit. He had been rowdy but he’d always been nice to you.
You’d become close friends with him and his little group of friends, going to the school for kids whose parents were government officials gave you all kind of a weird perspective of the world. One that was from a more political perspective since many of the kids in your school will end up being involved in the government somehow.
You’d been so close that you’d even had a mock wedding, his best friend knew all the wording for a Nordic wedding and all through middle school he’d joked about being your husband. Even after you’d left Asguard you’d occasionally get emails from him that always started “To my Wifey” but you don’t see him again.
It wasn’t even until you had moved to a new boarding school that you’d even realized who he was. Your new roommate Jane had seen a photo of your friends and had promptly freaked out. She couldn’t believe that you knew Prince Thor, the hottest actual prince in the world.
You’d stayed in touch over the years, through high school and graduation but once college hit you both kind of drifted. You got busy with getting your MD and he, well you suppose that he got busy with learning to run a country.
You know he hasn’t married yet, Jane keeps you updated on that. There have been a few women he’s been spotted with but none seem to actually be dating him or even in the running. Jane always teases you about Thor still being your husband, you still have the little mood ring that he’d given you.
You’ve got about an hour before Jane comes for your monthly pizza night. So you order pizzas and change out of your work clothes into a pair of sweats and an old college tee shirt. Girls night is about being comfy and watching Disney movies so you’re able to catch up without missing anything in the movies.
Jane has her own key so she just lets herself in when she arrives.
“Hey Dummy. When’s the food gonna be here?”
“That’s rich you calling me a dummy. I’m the only real doctor in the apartment.” You fire back and you hear Jane laugh loudly from the living room. “But in all honesty I think it’ll be here in the next ten minutes or so. Pick a movie.”
“Wine first!” She yells and you come out of your room with your hair up and glasses on. Jane is also in a pair of sweatpants but her shirt is one that you’d made her a couple years ago.
“How has your month been?”
“Good, busy. We may have found a new star!”
“What! Jane that’s amazing congratulations!”
“We just have to track it for a bit longer to see if it repeats what it did last year and some other boring shit.” You laugh as she passes you a glass of wine, “How about you?”
“One of my patients came back cancer free the other day!”
“Oh yay!” There’s a knock at the door and Jane sets down her glass before bounding toward it, cash in hand. “Pizza!” She cries just before flinging open the door. She stands in the doorway gawking and you laugh.
“Dude what are you doing? You look like a psycho.”
“Not pizza.” Jane manages to say and you start toward the door eyeing the baseball bat propped against the wall.
“No, not pizza. Had I known you were waiting I would’ve brought some with.” The male voice in the hallway says. It’s accented and familiar but that doesn’t really help you.
“Jane you’re freaking me out.” You tell her scooping up the bat on your way to the door. “Who is at the..door?” You blink up at the large blonde man in the doorway. “Thor?”
“That’s Crown Prince Thor.” A man grumbles from behind him. Thor waves the man off and you understand why Jane is acting so weird now.
“Hi, I’m sorry I should’ve called but I didn’t have your number so that would’ve been hard.”
“What are you doing here?”
“Oh, I needed to talk to you about some things.” He looks good, his hair is short and he’s got scruffy beard going on that isn’t quite a full beard but not a five o’clock shadow. He’s got a dark blue peacoat on but those bright blue eyes are the only thing that haven’t changed. “Can I take you out tomorrow night? To dinner somewhere?”
“Oh, um that would be fine. Seven?”
“Excellent, it’s a date. We will come pick you up.”
“We?”
“Oh, Volstagg and me.” He gestures to the man standing in the hallway behind him. “Odin insists now that I have a bodyguard.” He says with an eye roll, this is so reminiscent of your childhood that you can’t help but smile. “Sorry for interrupting your night.”
“It’s okay, it was nice to see you.” The pizza guy comes up and Thor pulls out his wallet and pays before you can stop him. “Thor you don’t have to.”
“I know.” He says with a wide smile before passing you the box. “I’ll see you tomorrow. Right here at 7.”
“Sounds good.”
“Could I get your number just in case anything changes?”
“Oh, yea sure.” He pulls his phone from his coat pocket and hands it to you. You punch in your number and hand it back, “Let me know who you are when you text okay?”
“Okay. Bye.” He and Volstagg leave then and after you shut the door Jane looks at you and whispers,
“What the fuck?” Then she yells, “What the actual fuck! You have a date with a fucking prince.”
“Oh my god Jane could you chill please?”
“No!” She cries, “forget pizza and a movie we need to find you a dress! I have more fancy dresses than you. We should go to my apartment! You always looked so pretty in that black swoop neck one that I have, or maybe a blue one so it can match his eyes. Have you ever seen eyes that blue.” As she rambles you head to the couch with the pizza then place it on the coffee table. You grab both wine glasses from the kitchen counter and bring them to the coffee table too.
“I am going to sit here, watch a movie, drink wine and eat pizza. You can do whatever the fuck you want.”
“But-but-you have a date with a Prince.”
“It’s not a date.”
“He literally said it was a date!” She protests.
“Turning the movie on now.” You tell her and she lets out a long groan. “Besides I have the black dress here.”
“Oh. Okay.” She sits down on the couch and reaches for a piece of pizza.
You’re actually able to get Jane to focus on something other than meeting with Thor tomorrow. You do wonder what he might need to talk to you about that was so urgent that he needed to come here unannounced, and after so much time.
When the movie is over you watch one more before Jane decides to head home. She hasn’t mentioned your ‘date’ since you’d started the second movie. But when she turns on you at the doorway you know she hasn’t forgotten.
“I want every. Single. Detail.”
“Okay okay, every detail.”
“No, no, every single detail.” She repeats emphasizing the single and you laugh.
“Copy that. I mean who knows I might have to sign a NDA.”
“Ooh, scandalous.” She teases with a raised eyebrow and you shake your head at her.
“You’re such a nerd.”
“Takes one to know one.” She calls as she heads down the hallway.
“Let me know when you’re home!” You call back and she gives you a little wave of acknowledgement.
Now that she’s gone though you’ve got plenty of time to think. What was it he needed to talk to you about? Why couldn’t it wait? Why didn’t you get his number too? You don’t even know how nice you need to dress because you don’t know where you’re going.
You get ready for bed, washing your face and brushing your teeth. You lay in bed for a while, you and Thor had always gotten along well. Now that you knew he was the Crown Prince of Asguard things might be a little, weird, but he’d seemed normal enough other than the bodyguard. Like he wasn’t putting on airs or being all posh, if you didn’t know he was the Crown Prince you’d have thought he was just some hot dude. Which, he is, those damn ocean blue eyes could convince you to do just about anything when you were kids.
Probably still could.
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❝ 10 things i know about you ❞ l.jn
synopsis → there are ten important things you learn about lee jeno during your time in quarantine.
request → “if you're still accepting requests, can u make a domestic roommate!jeno? 🥺🥺 thank you and have a nice dayyy”
word count → 7.1k (bruhhh)
sharing an apartment with lee jeno isn’t ideal.
it’s not that he’s a lousy roommate or that you disliked him in any way; you just didn’t know him. you had first met through a mutual friend. they knew jeno was looking for someone to split rent with and that you happened to need a place to stay. they promised you he would give you privacy and assured jeno you were excellent roommate material. with that, arrangements were made and soon enough you moved in together. of course, it was a bit awkward at first but you two eventually got used to each other’s presence. although you were never in the same room for too long and oftentimes went days without speaking, you coexisted.
for a long time, you only knew a couple things about your roommate. for example, you were aware of his strong love for cats, especially his pet calico, seol. you also knew he kept the freezer stocked with pizza rolls that he would use as energy when he stayed up all night playing video games.
what you didn’t know, however, was that you would be spending the next couple months locked in your apartment with him. on top of that, you would begin to learn more things about him—his life, his personality, his feelings.
there are ten important things you learn about lee jeno during your time in quarantine.
1. he’s a heavy sleeper.
at 10:28 in the morning you find yourself seated at the dining table in the kitchen, spooning froot loops into your mouth. as you stuff your face, you scroll through your phone for entertainment. you decide to open instagram first but you quickly find that to be a mistake. as soon as you open the app a picture of lucas and who you thought was his ex-girlfriend greets you. if that was bad, the caption hits you like a ton of bricks.
@lucas_xx444: should have never left you
in only five words, lucas has completely erased the months you spent dating. it meant nothing to him. sure, things hadn’t ended things the best way but going right back to his toxic ex and even admitting to missing her—now that was a new low. was this his way of getting back at you? his way of making you hurt just like he had throughout your entire relationship? the thought alone leaves you feeling sick.
you decide you’ve already had enough social media for one morning so you decide to check your messages instead. your friends usually left a couple of them overnight. to your surprise, you find that your main group chat has accumulated 241 messages.
[10:48 am] you: good morning i see u guys have been vry chatty
[10:49 am] yeji: ur finally awake!
[10:50 am] yuna: we thought u died lol
[10:50 am] lia: YUNA
[10:50 am] lia: NO
[10:51 am] ryujin: the timing for that joke could not be worse
[10:52 am] yuna: humor is my coping mechanism leave me alone
[10:52 am] you: ??? what happened
[10:53 am] chaeryeong: we left msgs for a reason dummy read them!!
[10:53 am] you: umm there’s over 200 and im not abouta read all that
[10:54 am] yuna: well then lemme break it down
[10:54 am] yuna: the world is ending :)
[10:55 am] you: welp it was about time
[10:55 am] lia: why r u guys like this
[10:56 am] yeji: there’s been a covid-19 outbreak and it’s spreading like wildfire so the government issued a stay at home order :/
[10:57 am] you: omg WHAT
[10:57 am] ryujin: ikr it’s crazy we literally can’t go anywhere
[10:57 am] chaeryeong: and we can’t get boba today either ;( i was so looking forward to that
[10:58 am] ryujin: let’s pls take a moment of silence for all the current and future boba dates that will have to be cancelled
[10:59 am] yuna: no way am i gonna let some wannabe flu make me go boba-less i’m still going out >:(
[10:59 am] lia: ...ur joking right
[10:59 am] yeji: what color casket do u want yuna?
before the groupchat can distract you any further, you place your phone down on the table. you sit back in your chair and let the newly revealed information sink in.
you were stuck inside.
you sigh before standing to clean your dishes. as you’re scrubbing away at your bowl, you feel something brush against your leg. you smile, not even having to look down to know it was seol. the cat would often wander into your room or sleep next to you when you watched tv on the couch. in fact, you were pretty sure you spent more time with seol than his owner.
you gaze at jeno’s room. as always, the door is shut. you wonder if you should let him know what was happening. you two usually kept your distance but you figured that the circumstance you found yourself in was an exception. you quickly dry your hand and shuffle towards his room.
you knock once, quite softly. you assume he’s asleep so you try again, this time a little harder. still, no avail. the third time you put even more force into it. by this time, seol has found his way beside you and claws at the door.
“jeno?” you knock a fourth time. “jeno! lee jeno!”
after more shouting accompanied by incessant meowing, you hear some muffled movement. moments later the door knob twists open and there stands your roommate with disheveled hair and a robe that had obviously just been thrown on his body. seol has taken the open crack in the door as an invitation inside the bedroom.
jeno blinks a couple times as he watches the feline get himself comfortable on his bed. he turns back to you, looking slightly disoriented. you’re not sure if he’s half asleep or your sudden presence has thrown him for a loop. his voice comes out raspy when he asks, “was he, um, bothering you or something?”
you shake your head, vigorously. “that’s not why i came. it’s just that my friends told me that there’s been some kind of virus outbreak and we’re supposed to stay home. so, i thought i’d let you know.”
his face softens. “oh, cool.” suddenly, the look changes. “not the virus thing! that’s totally not cool. i meant, it’s cool that you let me know and stuff. you just saved me a huge freak out so, uh, thank you.”
you smile and nod. “no problem.”
jeno’s eyes linger as you retreat back into your room down the hall. the sound of his door shutting is heard only once you’re out of his eyesight.
2. he can cook better than you.
most of the time, you would go out to eat dinner with your friends in the evenings or at least stop by a drive thru. obviously, this was no longer possible in the midst of a pandemic. you found that to be incredibly frustrating as you sat on your bed, stomach empty. no matter how badly you wished to fix it, your laziness had gotten the best of you. apart from that, you already knew how unlucky you were when it came to cooking—the memory of burning noodles at lia’s house one night had been permanently seared into your brain.
you almost believe your mind is playing tricks on you when you catch a whiff of pasta in the air. for a moment you think it’s your next door neighbor, taeyong, cooking again. you knew he was quite the chef. but, the smell is getting stronger by the second and you decide it must be in your apartment.
you wander into the kitchen, only to find jeno standing over the stove. he’s stirring red sauce in a pot when he notices you watching him.
“oh, hey,” he greets with a polite wave.
you can only stare at the rest of the kitchen—pots, pans, and ingredients all over the place—in utter awe.
he chuckles, awkwardly. “yeah, sorry about the mess. i’ve been told i’m a decent cook but i can never seem to get the tidiness down.”
“no, it’s not that. this just all seems so... professional.” you sniff the air once more. “smells amazing, too.”
he smiles, sheepishly. “thanks. are you a fan of spaghetti?”
you nod.
“good. i wanted to make something you’d like.”
“you really didn’t have to,” you say, leaning against the fridge. “i mean, i’ve never done anything for you.”
he uncovers a pot to check on the pasta. you watch as hot steam rises out of it. “what about this morning?”
you can’t help but laugh. “that most certainly does not count. you’re making an entire meal. that takes a lot of effort.”
he waves a hand, dismissively. “i used to cook a lot with my old roommate, doyoung. the guy was an asian gordon ramsey, i swear. so, yeah, this is nothing too crazy. and i really do enjoy it.”
“well, i’m still gonna repay you.” you fold your arms.
he looks away from his dish to raise a brow. “is that so?”
you nod in confirmation. “definitely.”
“tell you what, if you wash the mountain of dishes that are gonna be left over, we’ll be even.”
you stare at the sink that’s already overflowing with dirty kitchen tools. that wasn’t even half of it. “uh, sure, sounds good.”
he laughs at hearing the uncertainty in your voice. “that’s the spirit.”
3. he’s allergic to cats.
the familiar sound of soft purring is what pulls you attention away from the movie playing on your laptop. already knowing exactly who it is, you launch yourself off your bed to allow your furry guest inside.
“hey seol. what’ve you been up to?”
the calico meows, almost as if he were responding to your question. you close your door and go back to your original position. you notice seol sitting directly in front of your bed, looking up at you with wide eyes.
“come on up.” you pat your sheets, invitingly.
he obeys and stretches before laying down beside you.
“have you ever watched ‘avengers’?” you ask, eyes going back to the explosive fight scene on the screen.
this time, seol doesn’t even bother humoring you with a meow. he stays silent with his head tucked into his paws.
you scratch his head and his tail wiggles. “i’ve gotta stop asking you questions.”
both you and seol’s heads snap towards the door when you hear a knock.
“come in!” you call out.
jeno swings open the door. his eyes briefly scan the room before landing on the furball on your bed. the unmistakable look of adoration shines in his eyes when he sees how lovingly you caress him.
“seol! what are you doing in here? bothering y/n?” the cat jumps off your bed and towards his owner standing in your doorway. jeno scoops him into his arms and faces you. “i’m so sorry. he saw me running a bath for him and bolted.”
“it’s all good. he’s a great movie buddy. besides, i could always use the company.”
jeno curiously glances at your computer screen. “is that ‘avengers’?”
“yep. i’ve seen it like a dozen times.”
“same here.“ he pauses. “hey, if you ever need a movie buddy—like you know, one that talks—just let me know.”
your face lights up. “i’m gonna hold you to that.”
”i hope so. well, if you’ll excuse me, i’ve gotta give this guy a bath.”
seol yowls as if he understands the meaning behind the words and attempts to escape jeno’s grip.
“here we go again,” he mumbles under his breath.
you snicker at the sight. “looks like you could use some help.”
“oh, no. it’s fine. he can just be a little bratty someti—seol!”
in the blink of an eye, the feline has successfully hopped out of his arms and made a run for it.
jeno gives you an exasperated look before rushing off to catch his runway pet. you find yourself caught up in the excitement so you follow him, the two of you now in pursuit of the calico. you’re sure the image of you both chasing the fluffy animal around the apartment looks like something straight out of a comedy. even you and jeno can’t contain your laughter when he finally catches seol only for him to slip out of his hold a second later. this exact situation repeats itself a couple times before you finally get lucky.
“i got him!” you screech. “jeno! oh my god! what do i do?”
“bathroom, bathroom, bathroom!” he chants in response.
you head in that direction with jeno trailing behind you, ready to catch seol if he somehow manages to get out of your death grip. you bend over the bathtub, slowly lowering the cat into the water. it’s clear he doesn’t have a problem with making a fuss as he wails and flails his limbs around.
after a while, he finally calms down enough that you can lather him in shampoo. jeno insists on scrubbing him, arguing that you had already done way too much. you sit back on your heels, observing the way the seol leans into his delicate touches.
“looks like he likes it now.”
“he likes to make a big deal but he ends up enjoying it every—“ jeno cuts himself off with a sneeze.
“tissue?” you offer.
he shakes his head. “that’s okay, thanks. i’m used to it. i’m just surprised my allergies haven’t acted up ‘til now.”
“allergies?” you echo.
“yeah, i’m allergic to—“ another sneeze. “cats.”
your eyes widen. “really? and you still have seol?”
“i could never get rid of him. he’s too good of a boy. isn’t—“ sneeze. “that right?” he tickles seol under his chin.
“wow. you must really love him.”
“so much.”
“he’s lucky to have you.”
“what about you? you get both of us. doesn’t that make you the luckiest?”
you snort. “i guess it does.”
4. he makes a good shopping buddy.
“i have officially cooked everything we have.”
“i can order some takeout, if you want?”
he juts his lower lip out and gives you puppy eyes. “but i like to cook for you.”
you laugh at his expression. “oh god, you look like that one pouty emoji people use when they try to be cute.”
he sits up. “did it work?”
you nod and pinch his cheek.
he yelps. “ah, stop! you’re acting like my grandma!” he manages to get out of your grasp. he rubs his face, soothing the spots you had squeezed. “seriously, though, we really do need to stock up on food.”
“i’ve already been looking into it.” you show him the screen of your phone. “says here you can still go shopping as long as you wear a mask and try to stay six feet away from other shoppers.”
he cringes. “i don’t know if i like the idea of being so close to so many people.”
“i can go by myself, then,” you suggest with a shrug.
he doesn’t hesitate to deny you. “no way are you going alone.” his possessive tone has you staring at him curiously so he adds, “you know, in case you can’t reach something on the top shelf.”
the teasing comment paired with his innocent smile makes you gasp in disbelief. “lee jeno! that’s low! and to think i almost thought you were worried about me.”
“who said i wasn’t?” he smiles at you again before standing up. “i’m going to find us some masks and then we can head out.”
once you arrive at your local grocery store, you find it to be packed. everyone seems to be in a hurry, grabbing things left and right.
“wow, it’s already gotten crazy,” jeno mumbles, stopping to stare at the flood of people that rush by.
you don’t hesitate to scold him. “well, don’t just stand there! we gotta get our stuff before there’s nothing left!”
without another word you slip into the frenzy of people. jeno struggles to stay behind you. after almost losing sight of you a couple times, he walks a little faster to catch up and places his arm firmly around your waist once he does. you look up at him, your mask covering your slightly agape mouth.
being the gentleman he is, he apologizes. “sorry but i don’t want us to get separated.”
you can only nod and mumble, “good idea.”
jeno pushes the shopping cart with his right hand and holds your figure with his left. once in a while, you’ll break apart from each other to grab an item you need but once it’s in the cart, he’ll make sure you end up in the same position. after an hour or so, you’ve grabbed enough and you decide it’s time to pay.
despite the mask she has on, you can tell the middle-aged woman behind the cash register has a big smile on her face once she catches sight of you and your roommate.
“well, just look at you two.” she sighs. “how cute.”
“oh.” you glance at her then jeno then her again. “oh, no. it’s not like that.”
you attempt to move yourself away from jeno only to find his grip to be so incredibly strong that you almost begin to think he’s trying to hold you in place. once you finally detach yourself from him, you begin loading your groceries onto the counter for the employee to scan. she does so, but not before giving you a displeased look.
“oh really? he holds you like that because you aren’t together?”
jeno assists her in placing the scanned items in bags. “i didn’t want to lose her.”
she pauses scanning a can of tuna to stare him down. “darling, that sounds like a line from a cheesy hallmark rom-com.”
you can’t help but chuckle. “what he means is that there’s a lot of people here and we didn’t want to get separated.”
jeno adds, “desperate times calls for desperate measures.”
the woman adjusts her glasses. “well, you do certainly seem desperate to have her close to you.”
jeno doesn’t say a word as he continues bagging but his smile reaches his eyes.
5. he works out.
why did the pandemic have to hit in the middle of summer?
you often asked yourself this, complaining about how inconvenient it was. especially on the days that made your apartment feel like it was on fire. the days that required a thin tank top and shorts. even then, you found yourself to be drenched in sweat.
you sprawled your arms and legs farther on the sofa, the leather material proving to be very uncomfortable. it was either that or your bed with the warm cotton sheets that stuck to your body. just thinking about it brings you discomfort. the only relief you could think of was a cold shower. you would have already taken one if jeno hadn’t been hogging the one bathroom in the apartment.
“jeno!” you yell.
silence; other than the sound of the water running.
“lee jeno!”
the water stops, temporarily for him to shout back an answer. “what?!”
you wipe at the sweat that has accumulated on the bridge of your nose. “hurry up! i’m melting!”
the water starts back up again and you groan. hoping to distract yourself, you pull out your phone. the group chat with your friends is surprisingly silent so you go to instagram for some entertainment. this time, your ex-boyfriend’s post isn’t the first thing you see. it takes you some scrolling but you do end up seeing another one of his pictures.
it’s simply two intertwined hands with a black and white filter. you identify the one on the left as his and although you aren’t as familiar with the one on the right, it doesn’t take a genius to figure out who it belongs to. contrary to the last, this photo has no cheesy words for a caption, just a red heart.
but, your stomach doesn’t drop. you don’t feel hurt, either. obviously, you still don’t enjoy seeing him just because of all the awful memories that came with it but other than that, you feel unaffected by the image.
in fact, you feel so confident in yourself that you block him.
you’re surprised you hadn’t done it sooner. you had known you didn’t need him in your life any longer so why keep in contact? you feel like a huge weight has been lifted off your shoulders when you press the red button that would keep him and his girlfriend out of your life. you knew with your whole heart that you didn’t need to see either of them.
before, a bit if you had felt the need to keep an eye on him. to see how he was handling the breakup and torture yourself with the fact that he didn’t seem to care. now, you could say you truly didn’t either. you didn’t need him or his stupid pictures. you had other, better things.
your friends.
your cat (yes, you considered seol to be yours).
your roommate.
you had to admit, jeno was the best thing on that list. quarantine had brought you and him significantly closer and you were over the moon about it. he was so wonderful that you kicked yourself for having lived with him for so long without ever really getting to know him. but it was easy to say you two were making up for lost time seeing as you spent every waking moment together. the record long showers jeno took being an exception, of course.
the moment the door to the bathroom opens, you rush into your room and quickly grab an oversized t-shirt and loose pajama pants to change into after your shower. you nearly drop them when you’re met with jeno’s soaking figure in the hallway.
his hair is damp and you can clearly see how long it had become. his skin looks healthy and moisturized, lotion among other skin care products had probably been applied. what really has you in a shock is the fact that the towel barely hangs below his waist. the droplets of water that fall from his hair and down his neck trail down his chest and toned torso towards the only area he has bothered to cover up. his bulky arms are also slightly wet, his veins popping noticeably. he shakes his head in an attempt to rid his hair of any water. then he runs his fingers through it, his muscles flexing ever so slightly as he does so.
“dude!” you exclaim, without a second thought. “you’re ripped!”
he smiles, his round cheeks growing at the unexpected praise. the way he could have such a rugged body but soft-featured face puzzled you to no extent. “thank you. i lift sometimes.”
“sometimes?” you repeat. “don’t be so humble! you’re basically hercules!”
he clicks his tongue. “ah, c’mon. i’m just an athletic person.”
you keep admiring his physique. “clearly.”
“oh god,” he groans, obviously flustered. “you’re looking at me like you’re gonna eat me or something.”
you hold yourself back from making a less than appropriate innuendo. “no comment.”
his eyebrows shoot up in disbelief. “quarantine is really making you go crazy.”
you point a finger at him. “you try being stuck inside with your hot roommate!”
“trust me, y/n, i know all about hot roommates.”
you tilt your head, acting purposefully oblivious. “are you talking about doyoung?”
“what? no i—“ he sighs. “you know what, just take your shower.”
6. you can’t say no to him.
jeno ruffles his black locks with his hand and frowns.
you give him a disappointed look. “knock it off, you’re gonna get dandruff in your soup.”
he ignores your comment. “i look like a hobo.”
you pause, spoon halfway to your mouth. “this i know.”
“y/n, this is serious!”
“okay, okay. what’s the issue?”
“i already told you! i’m a bum!”
“you? a bum?” you pause to think about it. “i mean, mentally? maybe. but physically? no.”
“my hair, though. it’s so long.” he grabs a strand of it and pulls it to emphasize his point.
you shrug. “if having lots of hair is the standard for being a bum, i think most of the population is.”
“i want to cut it,” he announces.
“you should,” you say, pointing your spoon at him. “wanna know why? because if you mess up, no one will ever know. other than me, of course. but if you pay me enough i’ll let you forget it.”
he smiles at the joke for a moment before he leans forward and his face goes serious. “will you help me?”
“what? no way. i’ll mess up. and it’s only funny if you do it.”
he pouts. “please?”
you stir your soup around. “just watch some youtube videos. after three, you’re automatically a professional.”
“i want you.”
the statement has your neck snapping up from your bowl to him. the smug grin on his face lets you know that he was well aware of the double meaning behind his words. it was clear he was trying to fluster you enough to get a yes.
“you think you’re flirty enough to straight up brainwash me into doing stuff?”
“well, i wanted to say that to you anyway but... kind of?”
you feel a smile creep onto your lips at hearing the genuine tone in his voice. you down your last few spoonfuls of soup and quickly stand up. jeno looks up at you, eyes hopeful.
“finish your dinner. get the scissors. meet me in the bathroom.”
not even ten minutes later, jeno practically dances into the bathroom, a pair of red craft scissors in his hand. he sits on top of the toilet lid, figuring that’d be the easiest way for you to reach him. you walk in moments later.
“i’m pretty sure we’re not supposed to be using these types of scissors for hair,” he mumbles as he hands you the sharp utensil.
you twirl them in your hand. “oh, definitely not. do you want to wait then?”
he shakes his head, his shaggy bangs swaying with the movement.
“alright, let’s get this going then.” you thread your hands through his thick locks to collect some of it in between two of your fingers. you bring the scissors forward and snip the small amount just to test the waters.
you slowly begin to get more comfortable and once you feel like you’re in your element, things begin to speed up. you move and cut faster but with efficiency. you do the spots on the back of his head and work your way forward. when it finally comes time to touch up his bangs, your small bathroom proves to be an inadequate spot to be doing this.
you end up standing balanced inches above jeno’s thighs that he’s pressed together tightly in an attempt to give you more room. you’re constantly readjusting your stance and when he notices, his hands go to your hips. you know he’s just trying to help you stay upright so you do a decent job but you still inhale sharply at the feeling of his hands on you.
not long after, you’re standing next to jeno as he inspects himself in the mirror. his fingers flick his newly shortened bangs around.
“not bad.” he tilts his head in a new angle and nods. “looks super good to me.”
you tuck the scissors into your back pocket with a relieved sigh. “oh thank god. i didn’t want to tell you before we started but i only watched two youtube tutorials on trimming hair.”
he runs a hand through his hair with a chuckle. “now that’s truly worthy of praise. and a tip.”
you raise a brow. “oh yeah? what’s th—“
he cuts you off by pressing a chaste kiss to your forehead. he pulls back and drags his thumb over the skin that has come into contact with his lips. “thanks again.” with that, he leaves you standing in the bathroom, eyes wide and face warm.
7. he has six best friends.
“can i borrow your laptop?” asks jeno, from outside your door, nearly breathless.
you look up from your book. “uh yeah, sure.”
he rushes in your room and takes the item off of your dresser. “do you happen to have zoom on it?”
you shake your head and he groans. without another word, he disappears, running off into the living room. you hear his frustrated sighs as the minutes pass and he attempts to download the application. you finally decide to go check it out once it becomes too much to bear.
“it sounds like you’re in pain over here,” you comment.
he runs a hand through his hair. “i’m supposed to meet with my friends through a zoom call but it’s so complicated.”
you put a hand on your hip. “bet you five bucks i’ll be able to get it in five minutes.”
“are you kidding? i might be technologically challenged but i’m not stupid. i know you can do it fast, just help me out already, would you?”
“alright, grandpa.”
you type and click away at the screen, jeno watching you do so, entranced but equally as lost.
“well, i was wrong,” you say after a couple moments, leaning back in your chair.
“you couldn’t get it?” asks jeno, worriedly.
“no, it’s not that.” you click something on the screen and the app opens. “turns out i could do it in three.”
he rolls his eyes and shoos you out of the chair. he sits down and enters the code and password for the zoom meeting. it takes a minute, but he finally connects. you count six other people in the call. they all immediately cheer at seeing jeno and you hear them excitedly exclaim his name.
“hey guys,” he says, a smile already reaching his eyes. “it’s so good to see your faces.”
they all nod to agree. you get a good look at each one of them and realize they’re all boys. your eyes read over each of their display names.
mark me in ur heart
hyuckie~~~
moomin enthusiast
nananananana
chnele
lil huddy
“nice name, jeno,” ‘moomin enthusiast’ guy comments, snickering slightly. “glad to see you finally came to terms with it.”
‘jenojam’, his name reads. the rest of the group laughs, also teasing him about it. you assume it’s some kind of inside joke.
the self proclaimed ‘lil huddy’ furrows his eyebrows. “wait, did you choose that name yourself?”
jeno simply nods in response.
he glares into the camera. “donghyuck, you told me i had to put this as my name or else it wouldn’t let me connect!”
donghyuck—or ‘hyuckie~~~’, you presume—shrugs. “oops. guess i was wrong.”
you laugh at the humorous exchange. it seems like the sound has drawn some attention to you when ‘nananananana’ speaks up, eyes trained on you.
“um jeno? don’t you want to introduce your guest?”
jeno beams, dragging you closer into the frame. “i’m sure you all know about my roommate. say hi, y/n.”
you do so, waving and smiling politely at the group.
“you know, even though we used to always hang at jeno’s, i don’t think we’ve ever actually seen your face,” ‘chnele’ says, tilting his head.
you agree. “me neither. i’ve mostly just heard you guys.”
the ‘mark me in your heart’ boy sheepishly rubs his neck. “sorry. we tend to be a little loud.”
‘chnele’ lets out a high pitched screech of a laugh. “only a little?”
“i recognize that laugh!” you blurt. “i would hear it all the time!”
”that’s our little dolphin,” coos ‘hyuckie~~~’.
“oh god, stop. i hate that stupid nickname.”
“it’s well deserved.”
“i think you should apologize to y/n for being a nightmare to her eardrums.”
“and ours, for that matter.”
“what about all your little freestyles? i’ve had to sit through hundreds of them and i never got an apology!”
“because they’re not bad! could you do any better?”
“you’re a soundcloud rapper, i think anyone could.”
jeno turns to you as the bickering on screen gets louder and louder. “this is gonna be a long call.”
once the group has moved on from roasting the life out of each other, you’re able to engage in some good-natured conversation. jeno teaches you the names and the other basics about the group. some points that stand out about the group is that mark is the oldest, renjun specializes in contemporary dance, jaemin inhales six cups of coffee on the daily, and chenle is insanely rich.
“what about jeno?” you ask them. “anything i should know about him?”
“he’s allergic to cats but the idiot still adopted—“
“she already knows about that, renjun,” jeno chuckles.
“oh. well. that’s pretty much the only interesting thing about him.”
jisung pipes up. “oh wait! he works out religiously too!”
you and jeno share a look. you burst into laughter and he simply glances away, slightly embarrassed. “oh yeah, i know that all too well.”
“and what about the unhealthy cooking obsession?”
you nod at mark’s question. “that too. he cooks dinner almost every night around here.”
renjun purses his lips. “he already cooks for you? wow. he must really like you.”
“you think?” jaemin asks. “didn’t you read any of the messages in the group chat? he’s practically in love with her. his words, not mi—“
“okay! i think it’s time for us to go! bye guys!” jeno doesn’t even give you a chance to say your own goodbye before he’s clicking the ‘end call’ button in the bottom right corner.
you give him a confused look. “what was that all about?”
“they’re crazy.” he laughs. “well, if you need me i’ll be in my room screaming into my pillow for the next couple hours.” he dashes off leaving you standing alone, trying to comprehend what had happened.
8. he‘s a great listener.
jeno has officially replaced seol as your movie buddy, not that you have a problem with it. you thought it was nice to have someone you could actually converse with but of course, you make sure seol still sits in.
“what i’m saying is that iron man just wants to protect his team.”
“well, if they sign the accords, they basically surrender themselves to the government.”
“and?”
“you don’t see a problem with that? see, captain america knows what he’s doing. he’s literally an avenger—“
“so is iron man!”
“let me finish! so, he’s an avenger, right? he has the best judgment because he’s saved the world countless times. he knows how to operate his team and do the right thing.”
“okay but there’s casualties. and that’s what iron man is trying to fix.”
“how do you save the world and not have casualties?”
“you just—“ your phone rings mid argument and you raise your finger towards jeno. “this isn’t over.” you put the phone to your ear, not bothering to check the caller id. “hello?”
“sweetheart?”
you feel a chill go up your spine. was it him? no, it couldn’t be. you had blocked his number shortly after you did so on all your social media.
“baby, don’t be so shy. i know you’re there.”
you can’t hold back. “please don’t call me that.”
he chuckles, breathlessly. “oh, c’mon. you used to love it. you still do.”
“no, i don’t. actually, i don’t want to hear your stupid pet names or stupid voice or see any of your stupid posts. just go bother your girlfriend and leave me alone.”
you notice jeno perk up beside you out of the corner of your eye. he must have been caught off guard by your irritated tone.
as always, lucas is unaffected by you. “i’m being nice and giving you a second chance. i even called you behind soyeon’s back.”
“is that something i’m supposed to reward you for?” you scoff. “congratulations, you’re now awful, toxic, and a cheater.”
he growls. the sound was familiar. in your relationship, if you heard it you knew he was going to snap at you until he had the satisfaction of making you cry. “i know you miss me so don’t say things you’re going to regret later. because even when you’re back in my arms, i won’t let you forget it.”
the thought of being back with him made you feel icky. but the fact that he sincerely thought you would crawl back to him set your entire body on fire. “are you joking? i was always aware of the fact that you treated me like the dirt you walked on but do you seriously think that lowly of me?”
you’re rendered speechless and apparently, so is he because the other line stays silent.
“i wouldn’t go back to you if you were the last person on earth,” you spit. “you treated me horribly, wong yukhei. i won’t ever forget it. move on. i have.”
you glance at jeno, his expression more serious than you’ve ever seen it. his eyebrows are furrowed and his eyes are trained on your cellphone. the glare he gives the device is so strong you wouldn’t be surprised if even lucas could feel it, wherever he was.
you hang up and block the number, wishing to never talk to him again. you toss your phone onto the sofa with an exasperated sigh. you find jeno’s gaze to still be focused intensely on it.
“if you gave lucas that look, i’m pretty sure he’d cry.”
he breaks his concentration, eyes going to you instead. his entire face softens. “all i’m going to say is he better pray we never cross paths.”
“well, if you happen to, call me up. i wouldn’t mind helping you beat the crap out of him.”
jeno chuckles for a second then lowers his voice to a whisper. “he was really bad to you, huh?”
you nod. “he messed me up. i hate to admit it ‘cause i know i was stupid to stay with him for as long as i did.”
your roommate shakes his head. “don’t say that. it’s not your fault he messed up the best thing that would ever happen to him.”
“i thought i was the problem for so long, jeno. i was so blinded by love. then, i realized there was no way he truly cared for me when he treated me like i had no heart to be broken.”
jeno scoots towards you and rubs soothing circles into your arm. “you have such a big heart. and i can’t tell you how sorry i am that he took advantage of that. i’m sorry that you were stuck with someone so insecure and ignorant. please, don’t think about him anymore.”
you hold in your tears. you refused to cry over someone like lucas. “i know. i try so hard not to.”
jeno holds your head into his chest. his arms are placed securely on your back. “oh, baby.”
when jeno uses this pet name on you, it feels so completely different from lucas. you could tell me meant it. he wasn’t using it to make you stay a little longer, to assure you he loved you. strangely enough, you do not need to be convinced of that. you feel like you have known it for a long time.
9. he likes to be the big spoon.
you’re not sure how he’s done it but you end up falling asleep in jeno’s arms. you assume it had been so long since you had been cradled and rocked so delicately that the foreign yet extremely delightful sensation knocked you right out. even seol is deep in sleep, laying down peacefully at your feet.
you relish in the feeling of jeno pressed right into your back. he fits so perfectly against you that it reminds you of a puzzle piece. to be exact, the moment when you connect the last two pieces and the full picture becomes complete. that was how you felt—complete.
with jeno’s soft breaths tickling the back of your neck and his soft snores filling your ear, you know there’s nowhere else you’d rather be. his arm that is wrapped around you makes sure you can’t escape his embrace. you are positive that even if you had the liberty of doing so, you would stay exactly where you were.
you lean farther back into your pillow, closing your eyes. you let every thought fade away as you try to fall back asleep as soon as possible. you wanted the moment you found yourself in to last as long as possible.
10. he has feelings for you.
jeno mumbles sweet nothings into your ear as he toys with your hair.
it just seemed right to him. like something he was meant to do with you. he had seen these types of things in films and shows before. it was intimate and touching, the scenes were always meant to tug at the audience’s heart strings and show how in love the two characters were. perhaps, even though you lay asleep in his arms, he wants you to finally know.
“honestly, being inside with you all the time is kind of the best. i know the whole virus situation is less than ideal but being able to spend so much time with you... that’s all i could ask for.” he pauses. “isn’t it so crazy how before this we were all weird and awkward around each other? well, i guess we still kind of are. that’s mostly my fault so... sorry. i just don’t know how to act around you sometimes. we’re barely getting close and i’m already this attached to you. as jisung would so kindly say, ‘i’m simping’.” he chuckles to himself. “all jokes aside, i really do like you. ever since you moved in here all cute and nervous, you’ve taken your own little place in my heart, as cheesy as it sounds. and these past few weeks, you just keep on taking up more and more room in there. not that i have a problem with it. i just...” he stops as if he doesn’t know how else to express his feelings. “really, really like you.”
“thanks.”
you feel him jolt then abruptly stop stroking your hair. there’s silence until he asks, “you don’t happen to be a sleep talker, do you?”
you shake your head.
“and did you hear like, a lot of what i said?”
“only the important stuff. like how awkward you are and how much you like me.”
“o-oh.”
“but don’t worry. it’s mutual.”
you feel his relieved breath hit the skin of your neck. “that’s the best thing i’ve heard all day.”
you tilt your head back and stare at him, confused. “what, did you seriously think i wasn’t into you?”
he shrugs. “i was too busy simping, i guess.”
you can’t contain your laughter at the use of the slang. “park jisung would not be proud.”
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Deep End - Three
Pairing: Dark!Steve Rogers X Reader
Summary: He’s back. After all your best efforts at getting away, he’s found you again. And this time, he’s not letting you go so easily. He’s determined to do whatever it takes to get you to be his. Forever.
Warnings: Dark Themes, Language, Angst, Manipulation, Anxiety
Word Count: 2.6K
A/n: Part three nowwww. I hope you guys enjoy!!! I’m not sure how often I’ll be posting but I hope it’s more frequently than im doing now. Anywho, here you go, and I hope you all have a great night!
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THIS IS A DARK FIC WITH SEXUAL AND TRIGGERING CONTENT!!! READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!!!! 18+ ONLY!!!
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The record player in the corner of the spare bedroom plays softly, the soothing voice of Billie Holiday filling your ears as your eyes skim over the room, lips pursed.
Although it isn’t ideal, having a project does make the time go by faster.
Just as you’re deciding where you want the crib to go, soft feet pad into the room, Sarah’s arms coming up to your leg.
“Mommy, why are you in here?” You glance down at her, one hand coming to ruffle her hair.
“Nothing, sweetheart.” She frowns, looking up at you. “Then why are you in here?”
You raise your eyebrows, a smile growing on your face at her sass.
“You ask a lot of questions, don’t you, missy?” She nods, putting her hands on her hips proudly.
“Yes, I do.” You roll your eyes, grabbing her hand and ushering her out of the room and down the stairs.
“C’mon. Let’s get you a snack.” Her mind is instantly occupied by what she wants to eat and as you’re rummaging around in the pantry, she’s climbing up onto the barstool.
“Your father should be home in a few hours, then maybe you can convince him to order pizza, just until we go grocery shopping.” You look at the nearly empty pantry with your lips pursed, grabbing some crackers and shaking them onto a plate for you and her to share.
“Why did we move out here with daddy?” She asks, making you freeze for a moment. You flounder for an answer but she shoots out another question, saving you from coming up with an excuse.
“Why didn’t you tell me that daddy was coming to pick us up?” That one you’ve thought about.
“I don’t know, honey. I guess it just never came up. And I didn’t know if or when he would come home from work.” She nods, taking a cracker and chewing it thoughtfully, swallowing before asking another question.
“Why do you look sad whenever daddy’s around?” That one catches you off guard even more than the first one did, and you cough twice, trying to gather your thoughts.
“I-I’m not sad, baby. I’m just trying to get used to living with him again, that’s all.” She hums, seemingly pleased with the answer.
A few minutes of silent eating go by before you find yourself wanting to ask her something.
“Sarah,” you begin, waiting until she looks up at you to continue.
When her sparkling blue eyes meet yours, you lower your voice slightly.
“Do you like living here with your dad?” Her face lights up and you have your answer before she speaks.
“I do! I really like living here and Morgan’s my best friend and I’m happy to have daddy back! And I like that we get to see Aunty Nat more and I like Uncle Bucky too!” You nod slowly, pursing your lips.
“So do you want to stay here, then?” She nods eagerly, a smile on her face.
“I really do! I love it here! I’m so happy daddy came to pick us up!” You let out a shaky breath and nod, your one chance at leaving being crushed.
Steve treats his daughter right and she’s happy here. You can’t very well take away her happiness and replace it with longing and instability. Not when she’s been your pillar during those four years away from Him.
She deserves some semblance of peace. And you’re willing to sacrifice yours if it means that she can get hers.
~*~
“Daddy!” Sarah runs to the front door and intercepts her father as soon as she can see him, jumping up into his arms excitedly.
“Hi, baby!” He hugs her tightly, transferring her to one arm effortlessly and walking into the house.
“How was your day at school?” He asks, pressing a kiss to her cheek.
“It was good! Can we get pizza for dinner?” He raises his brows, eyes fluttering around the house in search of you.
“Well, we’re gonna have to ask your mom about that, okay?” She nods, shimmying out of his grip and up the stairs.
He sets his work bag down on the counter, following the little blond girl up the stairs and smiling when he sees you in the spare bedroom, a look of concentration on your face and a pretty blue dress on your figure.
“Hi, honey,” he whispers, his arms wrapping around your frame.
“Hi,” you murmur, trying to remember the measurements of the dresser as you inspect the bedroom.
“Pizza!” Sarah exclaims, tugging on the bottom of your dress.
“Oh yeah.” You turn around to face Steve, eyes meeting his for a brief moment before falling to his shoulder.
“Could we order pizza tonight? W-we don’t have much for groceries but I can make a list and we could pick some up tomorrow morning? I just- it’s Friday and b-before...” you take a deep breath, fighting tears as memories of life before start to fill your mind.
“Hey, Sarah? Could you do me a favour please, princess?” Steve glances down at his daughter, sensing that this may be a conversation best had in privacy.
“Yes, daddy?”
“Could you go downstairs and see if there are any snacks that we have that you want? Or any that you want us to buy for you?” She nods eagerly, running out of the room and down the stairs, leaving you alone with her father.
You take another deep breath then explain yourself in depth.
“Friday’s used to be pizza night for her and me. We’d order pizza and watch a movie. Nat or... or my dad would come over too but... we haven’t had a pizza night since coming here and I think it would bring her more comfort and more normality.” He eyes you for a moment.
“It would bring her that or you that?” You swallow hard, eyes cast down to the floor.
“Either answer is valid, darling. I want you to be happy here and if we need to make pizza Friday’s a thing, then we’ll make them a thing. I just want the two of you to be happy and healthy, okay?” You sniffle then nod, your bottom lip wobbling as anxiety courses through your veins.
“Hey, talk to me. What’s going on in that pretty little head of yours?” You squeeze your eyes shut as a tear slides down your cheek.
“I-I’m scared,” you whisper, terrified to confess this but knowing he won’t do anything with Sarah so close by.
“Of what?” He asks gently, trying to coax it out of you.
“Of you.” His fingers stop their tracing on your waist and he stiffens.
“I-I don’t want you to hurt me. And I know I can’t leave. I can’t run b-because I tried once and you found me. And Sarah loves it here and I don’t want to deprive her of that, of you, but I’m so terrified of you.” He’s quiet for a long moment before wrapping you up in his arms, pressing a soft kiss to the top of your head.
“Thank you for telling me,” he whispers. He’s not angry like you thought he’d be. No, he’s supportive and gentle, and you feel more tears fall from your eyes.
“I’m not going to hurt you, okay? Not like I did before. I love you, (Y/n). And I need you. Sarah needs you. I’d never...” He trails off, swallowing hard and shaking his head.
“You’re mine. I want you to do things a certain way, yes, but I’m not going to hurt you the way that I did before, okay? As long as you stay here and you behave. You've done pretty well so far, but I know it’s gonna take time. I just hope that when the baby comes you don't go back to your old ways.” His hand finds your tummy, rubbing gently.
“I’m all alone during the day, Steve. I don’t have any friends o-or any family. You’ve got me locked in this big house all day and I can’t even access the cutlery. It’s hard not to feel like a prisoner when you treat me like one.” Anger flashes across his features for a moment and you tug away from him.
“Just like it’s gonna take you some time to trust me again, it’s gonna take me time to trust you. You’ve hurt me before, (Y/n). A lot. I told you that I won’t treat you the way I did at first and I mean that, but if you even try to take my daughter from me, I’ll stop you. I’ll use whatever force necessary.” You swallow hard and nod, your fingers trembling.
“Now, you go make a list with Sarah while I shower. When I’m finished we’ll order pizza and watch a movie, okay?” You nod again, this one more reluctant.
You go to move past him but his hand grips your wrist, halting you.
“I love you, (Y/n). And I’ll do anything to keep you in my life. But you know that already, don’t you?” You glance over at him, the fire in his eyes making your heart race in your chest.
“Mommy! Is applesauce in the fridge?” Sarah’s voice saves you from having to answer, and you hurry down the stairs.
Steve stands in the spare bedroom, thoughts filling his mind, a deep voice whispering that you need to be punished.
He shakes the thought from his mind and walks to his bedroom, ready to take a shower then relax with his family.
~*~
Beauty and the Beast plays softly on the TV, two almost empty pizza boxes are on the coffee table and the three of you are on the couch.
You’re curled up against his side, if only to be able to watch as your daughter sleeps peacefully in his lap, her mouth open and soft snores falling from her lips.
You’re not sure what comes over you, whether it be fear from your conversation earlier or you wanting to get on his good side, but you speak.
“She says she loves being here, living with you and going to school with Morgan,” you whisper, your eyes trained on your daughter as Steve looks over at you.
“She uh, she wants to stay, more than anything in the world. And even if I had the option, I don’t think I’d take her from here. I... I couldn’t do something like that to her.” Your eyes slowly meet Steve’s and he smiles softly, understanding the meaning behind your words.
You wouldn’t leave him even if you could.
“I’m glad. I love having you both here. Everything’s been so much better since you guys have been back in my life.” You take a deep breath then turn back to the tv, leaning your head against his shoulder slowly.
His arm winds around your figure, hugging you closer to him with a smile.
“It’s all going to be okay, honey. I promise. Everything will be okay.”
~*~
The weeks pass in a blur of dresses, cooking, and reading.
Every day is so much the same that it’s become painful. You’d kill for a new book, a job, fuck, even a better project than the one you have now.
“Well why don’t you order the furniture?” Steve asks when you bring it up to him one Sunday morning.
“I... I don't wanna order anything until we know for sure that I’m pregnant.”
He knows that if you aren’t pregnant already, you will be within a few days. The fertility pills he’s been giving you should’ve already taken effect, but if not he’s more than willing to keep trying for a baby.
“And I don’t wanna pick out colours or anything yet, and if we get the furniture now we’re just gonna have to move it when we paint the room, so it seems like the least logical thing to do,” you explain, fingers twisting around your mug of tea.
“I think it’s prime time to start planting. You could start a little garden out back? Give you something to take care of and whatnot,” he suggests, watching as you purse your lips.
It would be nice to have fresh vegetables and flowers. And getting dirty’s never really bothered you.
“Alright. But I don’t know what grows well out here. Back... where we were before, we could grow lots of things. I don’t know what flourishes out here.” He walks around the kitchen island and takes your hand, leading you to the couch.
“We’ll look it up, and then I’ll grab some seed and you can start the garden tomorrow. How’s that sound?” You nod, sitting down beside him.
“Could you maybe pick up some books on gardening too? I’m not the best and I want this to turn out well.” He smiles, pressing a kiss to your cheek.
“Of course, anything for you, honey.”
True to his word, Steve provides you with seeds, gardening supplies, and multiple books on gardening.
You start your garden the very next day, spending hours outside in the sun, trying to get your little garden to look like the ones in the pictures.
It takes all week to get it going properly, but you’re proud of your work, bringing Sarah out after school on friday and showing her all the different plants that will grow.
Now you’re sitting at the dining room table, soft music playing while your fingers fidget anxiously and your mind flutters to your daughter.
“She’s alright, darling. Tony and Pepper will take good care of her, I promise. And they know to call at the first sign of trouble.” You take a deep breath and nod, pushing the food on your plate around with your fork as anxiety courses through you.
It’s your baby girl’s first sleepover.
“I just... I’ve never really been away from her. Every night we read a bedtime story and she gives me a hug and two kisses goodnight. What if she has a nightmare, Steve? W-what if she wakes up and she’s scared because she doesn’t know where she is o-or where we are? What if-”
“Honey,” he cuts you off, a gentle smile on his face.
“It’s going to be okay, I promise. This is just as good for you as it is for her. You’ve got separation anxiety. But it’s all gonna be okay, I promise.” You take a couple more deep breaths, fighting tears.
You miss your daughter.
“Stand up,” Steve orders.
Your eyes flash up to him, nervous for a completely new reason now as you slowly rise to your feet.
He walks around the table, eyes unreadable until he stands in front of you.
The record player whispers Paul Anka, and for a moment that’s all you can hear is the sound of his voice singing out softly.
Steve takes one of your hands gently in his, the other hand finding your waist and tugging you softly against his body.
“Dance with me,” he murmurs. It’s not a command like you thought it would be, no. It’s a request.
A hardly whispered plea for you to dance with him, and you don’t have it in you to deny him.
You’re tense as you nod your agreement, shoulders tight and back stiff as he slowly starts to sway the two of you to the music.
His hand is so gentle on the small of your back, holding you so tenderly that you can’t help but relax in his hold, your tense muscles loosening up.
You slowly lean your head against his chest, closing your eyes and basking in the comfort of being held so softly by him.
He lets out a small breath of relief, a smile tugging at his lips as he hugs you even closer to his body, lips pressing a gentle kiss to the top of your head before his chin rests atop it, his own eyes fluttering closed.
He leads the dance, and for a beautifully perfect moment, you feel comfortable and at home in his arms.
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