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decided to make a list of all my diagnosed issues and like fucking. god damn. how am i just living day to day.
#nine bullet points#of diagnosed things i struggle#i struggle with#1. type one diabetes 2. adhd 3. bipolar 4. severe anxiety 5. depression 6. insomnia 7. migraines 8. dpdr 9. ptsd#and im just ?? existing like this??? literally how what the fuck#there’s more than that too thats just like the actual able to be diagnosed shit#probably also at least slightly autistic but my psychologist said that its not bad enough to impact me big time and a diagnosis would do mor#more harm than good so im just kind. Not lmao#but also: abandonment issues self worth issues guilty conscience issues feeling unworthy of literally everything issues#awful at establishing boundaries#sh issues#(not for like years but its a struggle to not relapse every year esp during winter)#suicidal ideation but at least ive never actually been suicidal#not bc i particularly love being alive but because the fact that i dont know what comes after death scares me too much lmao#even at my lowest of lows i have not wanted to kms SOLELY bc the unknown scares me enough to be like#yeah this sucks but at least i know it#at least it’s like familiar which is sad but still true lma#OH ALSO eating disorder lmao. diabulimia is a thing.#genuinely how have i not been fucking hospitalized#not in a bad way but like. idk how i havent gotten to that point yet#tho to be fair there are multiple points i probably should have been tbh#i just. dont want to worry people? or inconvenience anyone. and i know im not gonna kms so its easy to be like ‘i dont need that’#i have overshared way too much in these tags sorry i’ll stop now#if anyone has actually read all of these: i’m sorry. i love you. i hope you feel better than i do. i hope you smiled today.
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trying to write main and hs phel a bit more different bc i feel them sort of fusing into 1 which i don't like-- i enjoy their dichotomy and i think the contrast between them are what make the different verses so interesting. this is sort of a reminder to myself and to others that runeterra phel is not easy to get along with nor does he actively try to do so. though he is less strict with himself now that he's away from mt. targon in search of diana, he still needs to hold himself to lunari warrior standards, and just like the moon and night, he's cold and silent. acting otherwise only poses him as a danger to their discovery as a supposedly lost peoples; he would never talk about his mission nor his reason for wandering ionia and he would never actively ask for help in his journey.
#tbd.#i struggle with#making my muses easier to write which turns them into characters like guizhong or beidou and#i think it's important at least for the way that i write my version of phel that he be drastically different#and i know it's hard to write with characters like this so i'm going to start leaning towards plot-based interactions!!#at least in terms of runeterra phel#hs phel by all means is an annoying little shit that i can write freely like this dsjfhsjkfhkf#but yes thank you for understanding!!!
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me when i first got into the witcher series
i couldn't think of a better way to communicate this so its this . my struggle
#i'm sorry but armor is *hard*#i am currently having the same problem with DC#as unfortunately#i struggle with#a) dynamic combat poses#and b) whatever tf their costumes regularly have going on
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More high lesbian antics involving food
#i was making hot apple cider if anyone cares#my art#artists on tumblr#lgbt art#comic#lgbt comic#i love my wife she really struggles with cooking while stoned
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me and gang at the haunted house
#i haven't seen the movie yet#i just thought this image was hilarious i needed to draw it with my tails design#i lovr that dumb gay and his genius fox buddy who is also dumb but he's 8 it's fine#harv's art#art#fanart#digital art#did this one on my phone with ibispaint x instead of my usual krita so#ibispaint x#sonic#sonic the hedgehog#sonic movie#sonic movie 3#agent stone#tails the fox#miles “tails” prower#safe fur work#sfw furry#sonic fanart#sonic fandom#how tf do i tag sonic art#furry/oc artist struggling to tag fanart#fork found in kitchen#i have more polished designs coming i promise guys im serious this time#love u gang#if u saw this already no u didnt i keep posting to the wrong blog
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The lake town
#woooooo I'm done ‼️‼️‼️‼️#this was really fun maybe i should draw more aerial view art#drawing to scale is a bit of a struggle still but I'll work on it 👍#I'm happy w how this came out :)#art
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This drawing made me realise that actually I love the comfort zone and I would like to go back into it. Also that I must draw more tigers.
#ok not really but I’ve had a headache for three days because I’m on such a time crunch gahhh#portfolio struggles etc etc#original art#my art#artists on tumblr#digital art#art#angels#I looooove angels#I have no religious background at all I just adore them as motifs as symbols as whatever#they’re so cool#cats
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u ever see someone with extremely fucked up views (or actions) and think wowww if a couple of things in my life went the tiniest bit differently that would have been me
#iso.txt#i feel like i have the right kind of mindset to have been radicalised into some . not good things if i hadnt seen reason#like the right set of neuroses and stuff.#briefly i guess i was.#i honestly still sort of struggle sometimes to convince myself of some things i *know* i should believe i know are right. idk.
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Who would win? The thousand pound flying meathook t-rex, or… monkey with a stick?
#whiteraven90#Tetra#Griffin#Griffin (the dude) fights a griffin that is not a griffin#shapeshifters having fun#animation#tumblr seems to struggle with this file I hope it works
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Expertise can't help you here.
#dungeon meshi#kabru#laios touden#falin touden#Happy Thistle Thursday once again. Have I been holding on to this comic for several weeks? Sure have!#I forgot how long it takes for Chimera Falin to come into play.#I still really love my 'better drawn' art of her - unfortunately it was several weeks too early for the anime only folks.#Slowly getting the hang of drawing Laios. I don't know why I struggle so much but I am getting...somewhere.#Meta time: God damn I love how the chimera shows off the expertise and gap between Kabru and Laios.#The truth is: they are both *right* and they are both *wrong*.#This creature is a combination of monster and human and they only have the skillset to deal with one of those.#Kabru goes for all the human vitals - but she isn't human.#Laios tries to approach her as a monster and is struck down by the humanity he sees in her.#She is something new that defies what they *both* understand about the world. And that makes her such a perfect antagonist.#The damsel was the dragon all along!#...She is really so cute though. Terrifying! But adorable. I am so excited to see the boom of fanart for her.
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The world exists in such a baffling state of simultaneous sex-aversion and sex-hegemony. Every social platform on the internet is trying to banish sex workers to the shadow realm but I can't post a tweet without at least two bots replying P U S S Y I N B I O. People are self-censoring sex to seggs and $3× but every other ad you see is still filled with half-naked women. Rightwingers want queer people arrested for so much as existing in the same postal code as a child and are also drumming up a moral panic about how teenage boys aren't getting laid enough. I feel like I'm losing my mind.
#it's bad if you want i have sex it's also bad if you DON'T want to have sex#god forbid if you're a woman in a heterosexual marriage and aren't in the mood#that's 'withholding sex' and you're clearly abusive scum who should be divorced and left without any of your shared assets.#but if you DO have sex now you're a degenerate freak plotting for the downfall of western society#i don't know what to say i'm just so tired#politics#culture#queerphobia#lgbtqia#misogyny#<it's not the exclusive source but let's be honest sooo much of this is integral to the patriarchy#patriarchy needs access to an underclass they can treat like sex objects but they also don't want them to have any human rights#so sexuality is both obligatory and stigmatized#purity culture#i'm really struggling with tagging this because most of the appropiate tags would- in a beautiful twist of irony- get me booted off tumblr
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Had to make a meme to describe me currently
#look#I had the idea in the shower#I just have no idea how to piece it together into something whole#fics#fic memes#writing memes#writers on tumblr#writing#struggles#writing struggles#meme
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one braincell transfer (divided by four)
#i think you guys have no idea where the extent of my admiration to AE quartet has brought me aside of sunday's existing trust to welt#i'm so down to any possible dynamic they'll have both in-game canon and fanart#they're the most preciousest ever i'm just welt yang to them. the ducklings#i think sunday can get along with them just fine regardless of their past endeavors when the will of the trailblaze is a will to change#he'll struggle he'll get awkward maybe a lil control freakishness and wonweek smugeroo here and there#but their differences is what makes them all familiar to each other as a group and i love that...#sunday hsr#dan heng#trailblazer#stelle#march 7th#hsr#honkai star rail#qiiarts#I FORGOT THE TINY MAN OF THE HOUR#welt yang#AE quartet
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where stars rest
#sonadow#“I don't rly draw ship art” as I proceed to draw ship art kinda#im struggling as usual AHAHAHA add cute lighting to cover up my struggles
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People all over the world are thinking of you!
#donutdrawsthings#original art#lgbt#lgbt community#us politics#i wanted to bring a doodle of bittersweet hope to the table since so many people are struggling right now#doodle#i'm not qualified to say if it is or isn't going to be ok#all i know is that you're all in the hearts of many
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