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reading my diary entry from 8th grade when the boy i liked so much gave me a kiss on the cheek..
#i went crazy#i was like. 100% sure he was the love of my life#in the entry im like#i was out cold on the floor#and i literally said if we ever actually kissed i would have ended up in the hospital#i know that absolutely yes that would have happened#i would actually have passed out at the very leasr#least#i liked him so so so so so so so so so much#i was literally like#it’s not 20:49pm and i can still feel it on my cheek 5 hours later#IT IS**** 20:49 NOOO#crazy#it wasn’t a romantic kiss btw. we were saying goodbye#for a long school break#i never got to properly say goodbye to him. he never really spoke to me after he broke my heart#and after i wrote a letter to him telling him i appreciated our friendship and i wished him luck back home he embarrassed me#i still remember the pain it was so bad#we have spoken since though. and even seen each other in person 5 years later. but it’s ancient history now#i dont think he knew the real depth of my feelings#anyway about the kiss moment#but it caught me off guard and i literally explained the whole cultural aspect of hugs and kisses it was shsgsgsgahahaj#oh well#such a messy end to a nice friendship#i will never forget how much i cared for you *******#this is so sick#i cant stop crying#sorrt its so incoherent
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Book 2 au: sparring sessions and short hair katara
They like to have sparring sessions in order to keep their bending skills sharp. They allow themselves to go all out and not hold back at all cause they know if anyone got hurt, Katara could just heal them
But anyways, wouldn't it be kinda funny if Zuko accidentally burned Katara's hair tho? Aofkqldkkajfjd
The "I think we can save the hairloops" line is from @linnoya-writes thank you for that!! :>>
#zutara#zuko#katara#atla#book 2 au#my art#i mentioned in my last book 2 au post that i wanted to include short hair katara into it and y'all were so supportive of it!! 😭😭😭#so this is how i think it would go#it would happen as katara is trying to evade one of zuko's fire balls#she manages to avoid it but since her hair is long it still caught on fire#she'd be pissed so she water whips the hell out of zuko#and then promptly forgets about it akfhkakdkakdj#even after the sparring session she still hasn't remembered cause 'oh no zuko's in pain i have to help him!'#it isn't until zuko even mentions it that she remembers#zuko thinks she's more calm than i thought she would be after burning her hair so he mentions it to her#little did he know katara just forgor aldjlakdkaljd#n e ways zuko does feel bad so she offers to help fix it up for her#i think after the haircut katara would find herself looking in mirrors when there are any around cause 'zuko thinks i'm beautiful?? really?#zuko doesn't know this tho and he thinks katara is till sad about the unwanted haircut so he keeps telling her that she looks beautiful#and katara just keeps losing it aldjlakdlald#in conclusion they are idiots your honor
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Good morning, Sleepyhead.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#'WWX was asleep for 4 days' is an incorrect factoid.#The average WWX sleeps for 8 hours. The PD-MDZS WWX who was asleep for 40 comics and 4 months is an outlier.#We are back to present day! I have missed drawing them!#Ah...the contrast between how the flashback ended (cold and distrustful) to how wwx wakes up (warm and watched over)...#The gap between the past and present is very important. Not just in this story but in our lives too.#The past can still hurt and it doesn't just go away with time as some say. It is the power of realizing that things have changed.#We can't get the good back. The bad memories have concluded. Those live somewhere else now.#It is hard to realize that you have to live for today and tomorrow. The past is so loud.#For WWX it is realizing that despite the mistrust in the past - He really does have faith that LWJ will be there for him.#It is the reflection of knowing that you changed and will keep changing and that change is good and kind sometimes.#But more importantly...and this I really do mean with all my heart:#It will all end up okay in the end. Even after the worst day. The most painful losses. You will get through it.#What feels like a breaking point is truthfully just another step you have to take. You'll get through it even though it feels like the end.#There are wonderful things you have yet to see. Friends you have yet to meet.#Even if it hurts so badly...one day it just aches. Someday you'll go a few weeks not remembering that it ever hurt.#Oh and because my izutsumi comic revealed many people were in need of hearing this:#You are loved. Right now. You are so loved right now. We just forget to tell each other that.#Go tell the people you love that they matter to you. I'm assigning you homework!!! You are graded on completion.
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Arcane Gif Requests: anon + Caitvi Scenes: 27/? ↳ "We need you back on your feet. What was the name Sevika gave you? Jinx?"
#arcane#arcaneedit#caitvi#piltover’s finest#vi#vi arcane#arcane vi#caitlyn kiramman#caitlyn#caitlyn x vi#vi x caitlyn#arcane league of legends#league of legends arcane#league of legends#media: arcane#type: gif#s1 ep6#here u go anon this took too long bc photoshop crashed and i had to start all over agane.... pain#remember to save your wips girlies#also this scene is always so hard to do because its so dark and hard to colorgrade lmao#OH and i love how mad she is at cait for being ignorant but vi is still sorta protective of her regardless lmao#better not see caitlyn hate here ppl >:( you all know what happened before this where she gave up her fuckin gun for vi#and hugged poor huck without hesitation#and also argued with her mom after seeing how bad they treat the zaunites :((((#caits trying her best
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Mizuki and Date though like. Imagine being 8 and your parents are filthy rich and going through a bad divorce. Your mom treats you like shit, lashing out at you, hitting you, saying she wishes you were never born all because you were behaving like a child. Your dad is more comforting, but he doesn’t do anything to stop the abuse and he spends his time invested in a completely different family, a girl who you love and look up to but he loves her more than you and it fucking shows. Then your dads new friend, some fucking bachelor in his late 20s, is just like "wow you guys are the worst fucking parents ive ever seen" and next thing you know your dad is sending you off to live with him. And it’s just a massive kick in the head cuz you go from a rich lifestyle to living in some really shitty tiny ass apartment with this guy who’s clearly never been around a child in his entire life and he doesn’t know how to behave and does a really bad job of censoring himself like he has a bunch of dirty magazines that he can’t hide very well cuz it’s literally a studio apartment and also he talks to himself sometimes, it’s really weird. He doesn’t even have the slightest clue what he’s doing
And he’s the best parent you’ve ever had
Because fuck, it all really hurts. You have to cope with having never received any love from anyone, and with the fact that your parents clearly don’t want you and can’t even be bothered to send you with anyone even kinda responsible. And this guy has a scary job with crazy hours and you don’t know anything about him and neither does he. But still, he never once hits you or tells you you’re not allowed to cry. He just gives you space and doesn’t push you to feel any sort of way about him. And sometimes, he’s even kind. He makes you some stew, even though it’s a bit chunky. He lets you sleep in the bed and takes the couch for himself, even though he complains about the massive back pain he’d never trade his spot for a second. He pays attention to events at your school and gives you your favorite stuffed animal when you make good grades, even though you called it ugly. He gets worried sick when you come home with bruises and puts on a goofy voice and trains you to defend yourself and you develop some highly deadly skills and even though it’s really abnormal, he buys you a bench press so you can get stronger. There’s this distance there, and you feel really weird caring about someone who you aren’t related to, but you find yourself wishing it was meant to be like this all along, that maybe, he’s secretly your real dad and he loves you like his real daughter
And when you say "I’m back" he says "welcome home"
#aitsf#ai the somnium files#kaname date#mizuki date#THE DATES THEY ARE MY EVERYTHING AAAAAAAAA#its so funny though like imagine being such a bad parent that some loner who jerks off all the time does a better job than you#and hes literally never interacted with children before and is later revealed to have actually been an assassin#renju and shoko really just suck huh#and i dont mean to reduce date to a porno loving loser cuz nah like hes actually got so much depth going on in this situation like he cant#remember a single thing about his past he has no frame of reference for what a family is or if hes ever had one himself#which we then learn he. kinda didnt he was an orphan with no friends no name no one who came looking for him it seems#yet he still finds himself loving and caring for this girl and would literally die over and over for her to live a happy life#hes so genuinely kind and caring and deeply lonely and unsure of himself if hes doing this right#and he feels agonizing pain when hes forced to remember that he isnt mizukis real dad and that. he has nothing#but despite that he doesnt force mizuki to return these feelings because its a lot to burden a child with and shes been through enough#its like. kaname date i love youuuu please just adopt her already 🥺
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I invite you to imagine (Patreon)
#My art#SCII#ZEX#DAX#W. D. Ghoster#Me - someone who has never finished a Ghost: What if...#Ft. my once-a-decade clean hand-drawn lineart#It's not As bad as I remember but it's still not my preferred method lol#But my desire to style match was stronger what can I say#My own fingerprints are still very clear to me lol but I've fooled before! Please be fooled for a moment! Haha#I'm still so sad that I can't get the SCII fonts in EPTSAI2 it's so roundabout to have to use a word processor and screengrab >:P#And I can't change the font size! I had to grab DAX's *sigh* from one of the Secret Theater screecaps! Pfbtl#Gripes aside lol this was fun <3#These two are always a treat to draw ♪ And there Is something cool about using clean brushes for small resolution stuff :)#I also like how they're both tendril-rubbing lol only DAX was in the sketch!#Simplified palette this time for speed ♪ Pulled from a bit here and there some of mine some from references#Cute lads <3 It's fun to imagine their head tendrils moving near constantly hehe#It'd probably be a pain to make them all squiggle independently and at varying speeds based on what they're doing#But it would be Cute! Slowly waving or whipping around ahh ♪#Same with their tongues - tho that'd just be one so not as bad haha#ZEX would be ecstatic to be on a human computer lol#DAX well ♫#Cute lads 'em ah <3
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Loose Change: Migraine?
WAS ANYBODY GOING TO TELL ME THAT MIGRAINES CAN HAVE SIMILAR SYMPTOMS AS ALLERGIES AND GET WORSE IN THE WINTER OR-
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Q: It burns!
2: No it doesn't. Stop being dramatic.
20 years later
Q <- (in hell): Wait a second. Have I been having migraines this entire time?
#quarterdraws#loose change#comic#me: oh my nose and face is on fire my eyes are watering and my head is cracking in half#me: but its winter? wheres the pollen?#and then i never thought about it more than that#i mean i was always brushed off so like. for a reason. but still.#remember kids! whatever's wrong with you doesnt have to be#/the absolute worst it can be/ to be bad!#you dont have to throw up from pain to take some pain meds
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SPARKLE ON ✨✨✨
#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#emu otori#gif#blinking#proseka#sparkle on!#i was gonna queue this for wednesday but thats so painful for me so happy wonderhoy its wednesday sunday#kirakira dokidoki mochimochi puyopuyo wakuwaku wasshoi#i went through hell and high water and like 8 online free glutterbtext gif generator websites to find the exact font#thank you glittertextonline dot com#ive thought about drawing a lot of jerma bullshit as wxs. plesde be thankful that im focusing on artfight#the nene985 dollhouse is still on my mind. i wanna draw her leaping out of that window really bad#idk what to type here since this is like a week i advance and i wont remember scheduling this in about 20 minutes. ummmm#OHHH I HOPE MY GUITAR IS FIXED BY THE TIME THIS POSTS I FOUND A USED AMP FOR MY BIRTHDAY ^___^ I WANNA PLAY YIPPEEEEE#anyways.... be who you are. shalalalaaaa ^_^
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Apologies but you were at the top of my Tumblr feed and I have been instructed to randomly tell someone online a painful truth.
Here goes.
Closing your posts to comments is an inherently hostile act.
Again; sorry. Nothing personal. We all serve the random number gods in our own fashion.
Mndrew, I recognise your profile pic, I've seen you around, I know you're a chill community member and active participant and stuff, so I want to be clear that this isn't like a dig on you or anything, it's just a response to the thesis statement: "Closing your posts to comments is an inherently hostile act". I don't know how many of you know this, but a while back, while I was still at university, I spent around a year? Maybe 2? dealing with an obsessive online stalker.
They made it very difficult to spend time anywhere online, but they especially weaponised Tumblr (I think they realised it was a less public account of mine where I could seek respite). I would wake up in the morning to find they had sent me hundreds, on one occasion close to a thousand, messages. The messages would range from threats of self harm or against me to seemingly nonsense phrases designed to just remind me that they were still there. The tumblr notification sound still spikes my anxiety.
You can't block someone like that. First of all, they would and do simply make more accounts (I just checked - I still have 30+ accounts of his blocked over here). Secondly, this kind of behaviour leaves you in a trap; If you interact with them, they know they have access. If you block them, they know that you saw their message... so they know they have access.
During this period, I had the good fortune of being able to ask Grace Helbig, of all people, whether she had any advice. She got so furious on my behalf I still tear up a little when I think about it, but *she* told me a painful truth that day: As much as you might like to, as much as most people know how to behave appropriately, you cannot leave yourself open to every line of communication your audience might want.
If you look around at my socials you'll probably start to notice a trend. You can't comment on my instagram posts unless you're a follower. You can't DM me unless I follow you on Twitter. Places where I can't control those settings, I simply do not ever open my inbox. In fact, it was really only a short time ago that I turned tumblr messages back on, after a loooong hard think. In many cases this is something that actively hurts my engagement, but it's a choice I've made to draw a line on where and when and how people can access me.
All of that said, you don't need to be an internet personality with digital stalker trauma to draw your lines. Closing your posts to comments is not inherently hostile, it can be an act of self-care, self-preservation. No one is entitled to be able to access you in every way they want to.
#still don't have a personal tag#also sidebar painful truths are so overrated whoever invented this “pass it along" game that I've no doubt started this#you're right up there with chain emails that tell people bad things will happen if they don't pass it on#not you mndrew I don't hold you responsible#also fun fact: i didn't even remember I'd turned off comments on my posts#and after finding out I had guess what? making the decision to keep it that way#Look after yourselves#I learned the hard way that there's no glory in toughing it out
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I was gonna draw a Leo comic about my arm hurting but it hurts more to draw so ig I will just not do anything ;-;
#tomorrow is my day off#aka finally have time to work on stufr#but my arm hurts so bad#i did take pain meds#they are simply not working haha#yayyy#/sarcasm#hopefully i am able to get some stuff done tomorrow but if it still hurts#prob not#google says its either a joint thing or i slept on it wrong#both are equally likely but it didnt start really hurting til dinnertime#so idk#i still havent gone to the doctor#i know i said i would but its hard#and i have a hard time remembering all my symptoms :(#anyway#i might finish the comic later udk
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「つうか、みっちゃんが一番好きだ。」
「俺が死ぬまで一番。」
— Actually, you're number one for me, Micchan.
— You're number one until the day I die.
永遠の昨日 第3・8話 | Eternal Yesterday ep. 3&8
#yeah. so. i decided to torture myself by rewatching this show. lost count of how many times i cried. way worse than the first time#knowing everything and still watching it was painful in a whole different way it was a brand new show even though i still remembered it all#eien no kinou#eternal yesterday#jdrama#watching this while it was airing and having zero clue how it was going to end was like a rollercoaster#cus i kept going oh... that looks bad. to oh wait maybe? to oh crap that sounds foreboding. to ohh maybe with this?? to oh shit oh god#and this time around it was all just... the knowing. not the knowing that it's a tragedy but the knowing how mitsuru will be in the future#knowing that koichi changed everything for him and even though he gave him the ability to connect with other people for the first time#he also took a huge chunk of that ability with him when he left#and we don't know if mitsuru will ever regain it#mine#bl drama#bl series#ANYWAY i just had to put my emotions into something so i made these to let it outttt#they're not exactly what i originally planned but i still liked making them and CRYING
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getting back on my drawing slowly but surely ^^ here's an aleena
#sonic the hedgehog#sth#sth aleena#aleena the hedgehog#sorta vent in tags but its more rambling TDLR i got injured right after the other stuff lol :sob:#just a tw for xacto knives & vomitting#I probably would have gotten back sooner but I ended up having a pretty nasty accident with an Xacto knife#design students remember your xacto safety and dont end up like me#my mom says it's probably because I was distracted with other events so I wasn't paying as much attention as i should have#you always feel like they're overreacting about safety till you end up in an accident :skull:#or well#Ive been cut before with Xactos but they weren't from cutting straight against a ruler and not realizing your finger is in the way#they were mostly because of how I'd accidentally push my finger too close to the back of the knife#and circles#“Go fast with a lot of pressure” - my design teacher's instructions on straight lines... yeah. I did that.#It's kinda crazy though cause I've gotten worse injuries but HOLY FUCK#Like yeah. Spraining my ankles hurt... burns hurt... that time my elbow just decided to be unbearably painful for no reason#that last one still confuses me cause what the hell??? anyways this time was just#an actual ridiculous amount of pain for what it was#I threw up 5 times from the pain all at once... which has only ever happened before with the elbow thing#at least this was an actual reason. unlike the elbow... which I LITERALLY JUST WOKE UP AND IT WAS SEARING PAIN LIKE WHAT THE HELL????#anyways#Now that it doesnt hurt as bad it's kinda neat to look at#and think about in hindsight cause it bled a lot :sob:
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Before I get on to some replies, I am sat here trying to digest all my thoughts again nearly 1 year after leaving my abusive ex.
And what struck me is how absolutely racist they were and are.
It doesn't escape me that their last two exes (including me) were Asian. It doesn't escape me that they consume a lot of Asian media. It doesn't escape me that, one time, they came to me to vent about their ex before me, upset people said they had an asian fetish when their ex 'was tan and aggressive' when, if they really had an asian fetish, they'd go for a pale and more meek person.
It doesn't escape me that after they would corner both me and their ex before me to absolute mental breaks where we would retaliate with anger that they would call us aggressive abusers. It doesn't escape me that I tried breaking up with them countless times, was begged to stay because 'I was the only thing that made them happy' and that 'they wouldn't know what to do without me'. It doesn't escape me that when we did FINALLY break up because THEY allowed it, they told me that we should break up because 'they can't be with someone with such inordinate anger' when, in my last attempt to break up with them, I tried breaking up for 4 hours. Straight.
The last break up attempt came after they blew up at me and my friends. I was so stressed out with this constant abuse, and them freaking out so royally was too much. They then asked me to go on a trip to see them because it would be good for our relationship. They said I didn't have to, though, and because I wasn't ready to see them after everything, all the crying, all the breaking down in parking lots, all the driving lost and in tears and sitting on the side of a highway for hours just wailing, I said no. I'm not ready.
They then got so upset and kept going 'well, you went to see your other friends. I don't come down there that often. I came to see you when I was upset. I was really looking forward to this. If you don't want to go, then you don't. I don't need you there to bring down the mood.' They said they weren't guilt tripping me, by the way.
Fed up, I finally had enough. I said we're breaking up. It isn't my first time wanting to break up either because I would constantly capitulate when they crossed my boundaries and ignored my discomfort and desires. But I would capitulate because they NEVER took no for an answer, and I was too weak to stand my ground, and I would always just want the talking to end. I was consistently overstimulated and gave up.
So. I tried breaking up one last time, and again: distress.
4 hours of me saying 'I want to break up. That's final.'
4 hours of them going 'no, please. Why? I'm so confused. I wasn't guilt tripping you. I don't know where you see that?'
4 hours of them going 'please stay with me. Please water the seeds of our love.'
4 hours of calls and constant texts.
4 hours of them going 'I know you love me still somewhere. You used to love me. You can learn to love me again.'
4 hours where they wrote me letters and sent them to me during their therapy session.
4 hours of never listening to me when I said 'I think I feel better/healthier away from you.'
4 hours of them telling me they thought I was in therapy and that I have to keep going to love them again. Ignoring the fact that I was in therapy primarily because of my distress being in this relationship. Them denying the possibility that my health, I realized, was better without them, and them refusing to allow me that space.
4 hours of repeatedly disrespecting my desires and boundaries for their own comfort.
4 hours where I finally blew up and called them stupid and annoying, something they threw back at me as proof of my 'inordinate anger' when they finally agreed to the break up 3 DAYS LATER.
Yeah. I guess Asians are all docile and sweet. They just happened to end up with the two that weren't. I say this all very sarcastically, but how unfortunate.
And after all that, they told their friend, who later came to me saying they were trying to do a nice and good thing for us with which I blew up at and that I was exceptionally cruel.
Okay. I guess good people just suck it up always, huh, and have no boundaries ever? I shoulda been super sweet and did whatever they wanted for the millionth time at the cost of my own sanity. Why not! I'm disposable in comparison, after all! Sucks I missed the memo!
#OOC.#TBD.#ABUSE TW/#I am. unloading so bad.#nearly 1 year later. ive been going thru ut mentally remembering.#i am doing better than ever without them but. wow. trauma loves to rear its head.#idek how they can delude themselves into thinking i overreacted when they read this exchange#i still have it on me word for word. like. seriously.#all my other relationships that ended: had a short discussion. painful but respectful.#with my abuser: took 392002002 attempts and the one that finally took took 3 days. :)#3 days of crying and anger and my boundaries disrespected REPEATEDLY on top of ample gaslighting
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in my quest to quell my pain ive only hurt myself worse. damned if i do damned if i dont.
#i need better coping mechanisms but it’s so easy to just turn to substances when you’ve never learned how to cope w your emotions#and physical pain. however a lot of it has been brought on by the substance abuse aka i did it to myself#so i probably deserve it#but i started with them in the first place to get rid of pain that was so overwhelming and constant#it feels like every time i do something to preserve myself im punished for it#and im so sick of it. i cant believe its gotten this bad#i drink to help the pain -> i get hungover and the pain is way worse -> i drink to stop that pain#and the worst part is it always works#realistically ive depended on substances for like a decade#i started drinking at 13 and fell into a rut of alcoholism at like 15/16#my mom was going thru a phase of alcoholism and roped me into it so bad if be woken up by her bringing me a drink at 9 am#and we’d drink till she passed out and i had to walk her to bed and cook for everyone and do all the chores#it went on for months one summer#then it was weed and i smoked every day from like 18-22#only thing thwt stopped me from drinking until i started again after both my parents died#i havent recovered since.#im still so traumatized and depressed that i looked for any method of relief#the dph phase was the worst. i think alc is even better than that lmfao it was horrible#once i got access to alc i stopped all that. wouldnt have if i hadnt had alc tho#it’s honestly been one addiction after the other for a decade#and my parents fueled so much of it#‘oh id rarher you drink under my eye than do it behind my back’#BRUH YOU WOULDNT LET ME GO ANYWHERE OR DO ANYTHING. HOW WOULD THWT HAVE HAPPENED#crazy how i was obsessed w drugs and shit by the time i was 10 and i remember thinking wow im gojna grow up to be an addict.#why am i so irreparably fucked up#idk whatever. like im not gonna drink abt it lmao.
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Warhammer/Marazhai brainrot has me so fucking stupid.
#me ranting all day:#but the consent is what makes the murder-fucking hot! At! Every! Step!#(remembers murdered crew) well okay consent between /him and the RT/ is important#Scary Elf Pain Frenzy or no the fact that you can say “nah” even mid-murder high is nice!#and it doesnt even necessarily feel OOC for that happen cuz of why he's even doing this#the fact that he waits until the RT /reaches for him/ in the first Feast even after the yes#he wants them to say yes and want more until they either meet his level or give up and feel bad about themselves cuz like Drukhari and all#and like iirc the only time he gets upset @ the RT saying “no” is after the branding but thats more like#a personal “why are you divorcing me” upset and he still doesnt like touch them or hurt them or anything#like idk are you getting what im putting down?#i like that the messed up Murder Elf likes and /wants/ the RTs sign off on every step of the romance and its nice#but also this is a Drukhari and all of this is done on a pile of bodies so what the fuck am i talking about yk?#insanity! why am i blabbing about this#marazhai aezyrraesh#<-for finding later
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i'm begging my uni to stop making every fucking student social activity something where you have to walk around a bunch if you are a slow walker who cannot help it they literally want you dead
#i try to walk as fast as i humanly can. which i shouldn't bc it hurts and makes me dizzy. and i'm still slower than everyone else#last week we divided into groups and had to walk to checkpoints around the city to do tasks#i had a friend in my group who knows abt my issues and they walked slower with me which was nice. everyone else walked like 10 20 meters#ahead and it was fucking embarrassing bc for every checkpoint they had to wait for me#and i felt bad my friend couldn't talk to anyone else in the group bc they were zooming way ahead of us and i'm the one who couldn't keep up#and like. they didn't know my body's fucked. but these are people i do not know well at all and maybe i don't wanna disclose my medical#history to everyone i interact with#and like this event wasn't mandatory. i could've skipped it#but it's every fucking time#most nights we end up going to a bar and to these people “walking distance” is like a half an hour. and they walk fast#i can never keep up#i don't reallu enjoy bars either and i don't drink but you just kinda have to endure to socialize. some days i can't handle it tho#this week there's another checkpoint type activity. i know i shouldn't. i know i'm gonna slow everyone down#but i got specifically asked and invited to be a part of a team. i can't remember the last time that happened#also we're doing a group costume and mine includes platform heels on the streets of a very old city i am so cooked#my friend is nice tho. they know the basic lore and check up on me a bunch which always catches me off guard 😭#i'm used to pushing through and also used to people not really taking my shit into consideration so i don't know how to respond sometimes#2 people in the group know the issues and i just sent the gc a “sorry in advance i can't walk very fast” so like what else is there to do#only accessibility info we're ever given is if it's wheelchair accessible. and that's good. like you should do that. but it kinda ends there#like how much walking is there. where are the stops. are there places to sit.#i love having to either push through or be excluded disabilities are awesome#been in soooo much pain lately and have to take breaks walking uphill. functional body#i live in an area where everything. literally everything. is uphill one way or another. so as you can imagine it's going great#also “you have to endure to socialize” as if i don't end up hovering around my friend like a lost puppy with separation anxiety anyway#the group costume is winx club. btw
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