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the game i downloaded today had blueprints to make a robot so obviously i prioritised that
bUT IT TURNS OUT THE LITTLE GUY COLLECTS LOOT AND TIDIES UP RESOURCES AFTER ME AND PUTS THEM AWAY IN STORAGE AND HE DOESN'T ALWAYS PUT THEM IN THE RIGHT CHEST BUT HE DOES EVERYTHING WITH HEART
I'M ALREADY CRYING AT THIS POINT BUT IT GETS WORSE BECAUSE HIS NAME IS ANTONIO. HE CAME WITH THE NAME. WHEN I BUILT HIM. ANTONIO.
i'm on the floor sobbing
#i can't handle this#every time he picks up some wood or some item i left on the ground#and lifts it above his little head#by his little antonio nametag#and starts rolling along to a storage area#i start tearing up again#you are built of kindness and you are sweet and you have my entire heart#and if you are ever threatened i'll die for you#and if you die my heart will stop beating#i need to go blow my nose#i'm so overwhelmed
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Why are you running?
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jiang yanli#jin zixuan#The ship between Jin Zixuan and Jiang Yanli is yuri. To me.#That whole tearful public confession? The way he immediately runs off? Yuriful.#Everyone going 'oh my god what' and 'hey why are you running off???' makes this chaotic scene even funnier.#He's going to just hide behind a tree a few meters away. They can still see his little hat poking out as he cries.#If I was JYL I would have started biting someone.#What do you *mean* the guy you once had feelings for but treated you poorly now says he likes you? What do you do with that information?#Is it character development? Is it worth letting your heart open up again? Is it a mistake to be vulnerable like that?#Not enough credit is given to the internal torment of shijie.#It really does feel like your world is spinning around when someone you did not expect to confess *does*.#This guy has a LOT to make up for though. I wouldn't take him back but I'm also too rational for my own good at times.
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looks like I can draw again!!
Sebastian called him "orphan" for the rest of the week.
#YEHAAAAAH MATEE GUESS IM GOING TO ANIMATION SCHOOL#IT WAS ALL WORTH IT. and now it's all over#actually this may mean I'Il be busier later... but for now- I'm back into the swing of things! kuro art; thoughts; tears; and what have you#it feels like a while since I've posted a big project so I hope I can make it up by finally getting back to the one's ive had in my WIPs!#thank god I got this thingy done. my brain is firing again so i gotta keep up#I know how to draw cars😅🙃#sorry if the eccess of screen prints is annoying I was experimenting#modern!au#kuroshitsuji#black butler#kuroshitsuji fanart#fanart#sebastian michaelis#ciel phantomhive#digital art#o!ciel#this would make a good ad but no not sponcered😌#sebastian starts vibrating
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oh okay heres one:
"sleepaway camp"= you go there for at least a few days, a week, sometimes several weeks, and sleep there, as opposed to a """camp""" where you go for the day and your parents or whoever picks you up afterward (those arent really camps, but like. idk when i went to "space camp" it was a weeklong but not sleepaway). in the U.S. at least, the typical image of a sleepaway camp involves staying in cabins, dunno how common it is/what it looks like in other countries.
for the first few i just mean like. not necessarily a stealth church camp, just like. idk, a camp where theres also an Assumption Of Christianity and just general vibes without being actually church camp. So, there might not be daily services and jesusy dedicatwd activities, but maybe theres still a prayer said over meals and shit. Which i assume might exist...
(oh and @reblogforsamplesize if u wanna)
#buzzy#poll#polls#personally: yes i went several times#and i enjoyed it bc. camp!!! yay!!!#but the Church part of it. complicated feelings on that matter#mine were all weeklong camps#went every year for a few years i hink#it was fun bc again YAY CAMP!!! and the ones i went to were like huge things#they had cool water stuff like The Blob and waterslides and some fun games and shit#you could do paintball#and i wasnt like. NOT christian at the time. but i also Wasnt Really Feeling It#i was mostly into it bc. camp.#...maybe i should have asked my parents if i could just go to one of the normal summer camps instead lmao#like the 6 week ones or st#that coulda been fun ....#so my answer is Its Complicated#i did like. participate in the jesus side of things. but i was also kinda knowingly faking it u kno?#i remember one time during a service i started having a bit of a panic attack (mostly bc of the MASSVE crowd. this was a huge ass camp)#but i still had to like. stay. still do everything. my pastor was being nice about it but still was like :( well you cant leave#i remember that was the day we did some shit outside w torches#like. carrying torches in a big procession like some sorta ritual thing ig. fuck if i know.#and i was like crying while following the procession and trying to stop#(the crying STARTED un the megachurch extremely loud giaant speaker GET PUMPED UP!!! area and continued to the torches)#thars my stringest memory from church camp aside from when i fcking DEMOLISHED the frozen t shirt game#(they gave a few ppl on stage frozen t balled up shirts and it was like 'okay first one to unball it and put it on wins!!!')#(and while the two boys i was up against started trying to tear it open with their hands i just#(in my cute lil butterfly shirt and pretty skirt started SMASHING IT AGAINST THE GROUND FULL BODY AAAUUGGHH and broke that shit)#(i was sooo proud of mysekf and my oastors wife thiught it was Unladylike of me but i fucjing won. the boys copied me after a sec)#(but it was too late i won :) anyway yeah like i said mixed feelings u kno. anyway go blue beetles woooo!!!!!
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been in a very splatoon mood lately … doodle dump
#splatoon#splatoon 3#splatoon fanart#salmon run#i rlly love this way of arranging my sketches it looks messy n fun its cute#splatoon being a sp/in is so funny bc sometimes it goes ‘dormant’ and then i go crazy again#like guys i started tearing up listening to calamari inkantation this morning…?#love my friends i picked up the game again bc of them :3
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“Ace had his own adventures, and I have mine,” Luffy mumbles, drifting off again. “You have yours, too. I don’t want you to miss them. I don’t want you to miss anybody. Or to… be here when you’d rather be…”
“Luffy—”
“Free,” Luffy manages. “Sabo’s supposed to be free.”
@taizi put your faith in what you most believe in
#one piece#op fanart#sabo#monkey d. luffy#op brook#(kinda)#man im just reccing fanfics left and right recently#and by that i mean one in the post before this and one in the post now#im being 100 percent serious when i say that whenever i read this fic i start either tearing up or full on sobbing#luffy was so miserable when he found out how much sabo hated being confined as a noble#sabo hated that life so much that he tried to escape#sabo’s meant to be free…#luffy would absolutely hate if he was ever responsible for taking away that freedom#but luffy… you ARE freedom…#how could he ever be trapped when with you?#(me: is starting to tear up again)
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It's been years and I'm still thinking about how Ace Attorney accidentally made Sebastian and Klavier the same class at Themis. And Seb was VALEDICTORIAN. Capcom accidentally made it so the international rockstar who actually seems to give quite a shit about being a good lawyer and projects himself like a flawlessly cut diamond, was NOT the top of his grade. That honor went to this pathetic kitten of an orchestra kid who can't spell "affidavit" and bursts into tears every five minutes.
#you CANNOT convince me they didn't know each other at school#You CANNOT convince me Klavier wasn't tearing his hair out wondering what this guy had that he didn't#and Kristoph (knowing full well that Blaise is paying for his grades) was just like 'Hm. SAD. I guess he's just smarter than you.'#*smash cut to Sebastian trying to walk through a mcdonalds drive-thru*#And then post AJ then meet up again and become best friends#start a 'the familial member I looked up to for validation was actually an abusive asshole who manipulated me for their own ends' club#ace attorney#aa#aai#aai2#aa investigations#apollo justice ace attorney#ace attorney investigations#ace attorney investigations 2#sebastian debeste#klavier gavin
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I can imagine anything guy image: “I can spiral into tears and convince myself I’m the worst person alive over anything”
#it’s soooooo easy#‘hey that thing you said was kind of insensitive’ -> feel awful and apologize immediately ->#try to explain that I’m a flawed human being in hopes that they don’t hate me as much -> realize I’m using it as an excuse -> feel worse ->#want to explain that I feel bad in hopes that it makes my apology sound genuine -> realize if I do I’m starting a pity party ->#Devil on my shoulder says that I SHOULD start a pity party bc then people have to console me even though I’m the one who fucked up ->#realize that if the devil on my shoulder thinks that that some part of me must think that. thinking that is kind of terrible ->#feel like I’m terrible -> start crying -> realize that crying will turn it into a pity party anyway ->#realize that I don’t want to feel like I’m terrible. that I do actually want people to console me -> realize I don’t deserve it ->#admit that I am truly horrible for trying to turn my fuck up into a way to make people comfort me ->#post about it on tumblr to vent (?) -> realize now I’m starting a pity party in front of almost 8k people ->#realize that makes me even worse. -> break down in tears feeling sorry for myself when. again. IM the one who fucked up#repeat at and slight inconvenience or mistake. feel like a piece of shit forever :)#it’s a flawless system. if someone sees me struggling and tries to console me I can redirect that to confirm that I’m a horrible person#try and tell myself that I’m spiraling bc of mental illness -> that’s an excuse ->#excuse = horrible person bc I’m not willing to own up to my mistakes -> return to spiral
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Devotion. Bravery. Sacrifice. Devotion... Bravery... Sacrifice...
#i was already tearing up when i got here but when the sun started setting and JOURNEY started playing? FUCK. Lost my shit.#anyway. this hurt. a Lot.#hil.gif#destiny 2#destiny 2 spoilers#destiny 2 season of defiance#destiny 2 season of defiance spoilers#zavala#gamingedit#*beats my ps4 to death for showing this footage as rly good on my tv and then giving it to me in 360p quality*#anyway. time to go walk the dog again. cry some more. reflect.
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So I'm rereading Terry Pratchett's Tiffany Aching series, and, well...
I was today years old when I realised that the song "Hiver" in Steeleye Span's album Wintersmith (an album written about that series, which came out in 2013, which I discovered nearly a decade ago and which I have listened to enough time to know entirely by heart), was not, in fact, titled after the French word for "winter", as I had believed for the better part of a fucking decade, but after the Hiver, the main antagonist of the second Tiffany Aching book, which I have read a number of time and should have really recognized because the song's lyrics are almost word for word the hiver's speech in the novel.
Anyway, I shall now turn in my Discworld fan badge and then go shovel a hole in the snow and bury myself in it.
#goddammit#also i'm realising (again) that a large amount of the album's lyrics are taken verbatim from the books#which includes pterry's reading of the definition of 'cackling' in the song 'the good witch'#i found that passage in the book yesterday and pterry's voice came up unbidden in my head#and i started tearing up#discworld#wintersmith#gnu terry pratchett
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Reading loz/lu fics and it's just so interesting how wide the spectrum is of their personalities.
Sometimes it's got an in universe reason (different past (usually gender or species change), recent or ongoing traumatic events, a spectacularly bad first meeting), but sometimes (often) the characters are just... Weirdly angsty or peppy, there's no in between!
And I'm beginning to think less people have played more than one game than I thought XD.
Not that it's anyone's fault! One game is more than enough to be part of it all, and loz is exclusive to Nintendo consoles - and all the older stuff is frustratingly hard to get hold of. Heck, I'm still looking for wind waker, and that was really popular! And then you have to play it! They're not small games!!
But could people writing wild please ease off just a tiiiiiny bit so he can be a semi functional member of society pretty please XD? He's just as much a polite boy as any other member of the chain! He won't even run in shops! He can't attack npcs! He talks to every single person he's ever seen and remembers every single name. Yes, he's three quarters woodland creature with a hefty amount of trauma but he's also a fashionista who managed to avoid accidentally taking sides in a mayoral election and that's not easy!
#I have some actual gripes but that's just me being pedantic about something I know a lot about#loz#legend of zelda#tears of the kingdom#loz link#loz botw#loz totk#the legend of zelda#totk link#lu wild#Okay but please stop making his teleportation a point of interest to the chain they ALL can warp it's not even slightly special#And the slate/pad doesn't hold any items I'm begging you that's just fanon it's never been canon or been implied to be#Travelling across hyrule (on horseback) is about a week and a half following the paths at a walk. Rito to lurelin. It's not weeks on foot t#Hyrule Castle!!#This isn't a problem but like. Let link be petty brats to civilians occasionally. It's enrichment. They all have beef with some rando.#They're all extremely polite and let people get away with more than they maybe should but like. Adults starting smth with a 16yo.#Also wild has serious beef with ganon why does everyone write him so chill. Like botw sure but totk?? Absolutely not.#'wah my home is in ruins it's all my fault' it's been like that for yonks no one's even mad and hello?? Miles on miles on untouched#Landscapes?? Millenia of ruins indistinguishable from the recent stuff?? Link literally died he could not have done any more#How anyone can play botw/totk and not be BLISTERINGLY proud of hyrule I don't know#Okay but why does everyone (particularly legend omg) always bitterly blame hylia like loz has a dozen odd deities and hylia is the ONE who#Got cursed right alongside link. It's just... Idk but it seems like such a culturally Christian thing. All the focus on one who then gets#Blamed for everything in life going wrong. Not even Christian but specifically American Catholic. I don't know.#Hylia is the one deity we can pretty safely assume is neither omnipotent or omniscient lmao#In every time she has a voice (botk/ss) she pretty clearly mucks up or gets tricked and has regrets#In ss when she was zelda she hated every second of leading link around and even then it all hinged on link being completely willing!!#And then she got kidnapped anyway!#In totk (spoilers) she loses contact with one of her statues and asks link to check it out. Another statue gets POSESSED by ol triangle hea#And again link has to figure out the problem. Like even in her divine form she is so far from all knowing and all doing.#It's a lot of conflating with the concept of fate maybe?
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happy one year since chainsaw man, I miss you so much... <3
#I can't believe it's been a full year since chainsaw man first aired#it still feels so recent.... time has passed by so quickly haha#I was looking back on the edit I made of aki in the op a year ago#and it just made me feel so warm and nostalgic#filled with emotions... like I'm about to cry.......#I'm tearing up#I'm so happy I could experience chainsaw man then#the weather is so nice just like it was a year ago#I've been waiting for today so I could start rewatching chainsaw man again.... hehe#aaah I need season 2 soon...#aki <3
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🍷<3
#when i got hashtag sick i was in hospital and i was doing my regularly scheduled call with my dad#and i really had no plans of telling him bc ive done that before and its not like he can scare the MS away or anything#i dont know what happened. maybe because it was such a fucking bad episode. maybe because i was so tired. maybe it was a secret 3rd thing#but one minute was like fine then i just burst into tears and i was crying so hard which is MEGA EW BC IM NOT A CRIER LIKE THAT#and my dad freaked out and he was like whats wrong and i didnt wanna tell him but I also sounded insane bc i spontaneously started sobbing#and he was getting more alarmed and i was upset that id upset him and so i just spat it out i was like 'listen king'#'its no biggie but my body is trying to kill me again and im just a little sad atm' and he replied 'baba why wouldnt you tell me?'#and this man who has a very big serious job literally dropped everything and took a 20 hr flight over#and he genuinely just grabbed one of his work suitcase because he showed up with nothing but dress shirts and his laptop#and i think maybe it healed me a little. i mean it def also made me sad too but mostly healed me#and he'd been here for a couple of weeks and he left today and i feel shit about being sad about it#again because he has a very big and very serious job and i genuinely dont understand how he even just showed up like that#so I felt guilty throughout#anyway i dont think he drinks anymore but i was like king have a sip of wine with me and he did and it was lovely#and I hope I become my fathers daughter and not my mother's child. praying to both our gods#heres to healing ❤️🩹
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It just keeps coming at me in waves, rolling over me, filling my head with such awful sights.
Bonus:
While drawing the upper one i was wondering why am i even drawing Jon without clothes? Like I know, its for the ✨aesthethic✨but! it got me thinking like in what situation would that happen?? (og post, without the bonus drawing)
#i really like that quote from s5 trailer#i imagined it as all that suffering and fear literally overflowing him#so i wanted to somehow draw that c:#i imagine those are not really his tears#but more like tears of the collective human pain he's feeling#yes im copying the tags from the og post#but im reposting because it didnt show up in the tags anywhere (tragic)#so sorry for that#but also bc it has bonus drawing now yay#making it was delightful i love how sopping wet Jon turned out cccc:#i think he would do this between s4 finale and the begining of s5#before he started recording statements again#it would be just too much for him :c#tma#tma podcast#the magnus archives#magpod#tma spoilers#tma s5#tma season five#jonathan sims#martin blackwood#tma fanart#the archivist#ommetaphobia#body horror#scopophobia#my stuff
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chapter 8 literally has like 3-4 more paragraphs what am i doing... im sitting at my desk rereading this thing and just staring staring staring like. geniunely have slammed my desk a couple times like a little baby throwing a tantrum <3 <3
#AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#sophie speaks#series:www#im getting it done before my birthday#which is in 6 days#im fucking GETTING IT DONE#or im gonna start hitting myself again#not in like an on purpose way btw its just gonna happen the autism demands it#thats probably not still reassuring dont worry guys i have. drugs. perscription ones#thats also not reassuring#anyway#every now and then i remember my life is so unlike the average persons and ive talked about something i definitely shouldnt have#but also isnt it like soooooooooooooooo annoying to have to constantly censor urself#like this is just my daily life its really not that huge a deal...#what was i talking about#right this is making me tear my hair out#biting biting biting i can get it i can do it i can i can i can#god i hate mental blocks its like a maze of them inside my brain and they pop up constantly#i will continue to torture myself gang i am GETTING IT DONE
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Dark Beginnings sketches of episodes 2 & 3. My heart was yoinked out and squashed, man these shorts were so damn gooood!!!!
#episode 3 destroyed me#i legit teared up at the end#maria and shadow mean so much to me aaaaaAAAAAA#i rarely post sketches but I wanna pick it up again#inspired by twt oomfie#saw their dedication and effort to draw starting from square 1#I’ve been doing digital for so long#I’ve forgotten how nice it was to just sketch with a reg ol pencil and sketchbook#sketches#sonic x shadow generations#sonic x shadow dark beginnings#shadow the hedgehog#maria robotnik#sonic the hedgehog#fanart#hybs art
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