#i sound like a brat idk
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Im genuinely so fucking done guys i say one thing to my mom and she treats me like I'm the scum of the fucking earth saying "you've treated me like shit all day today" like I'm sorryšāļø i haven't said anything that had an ill intent all day and the second my brother speaks up she acts all sweet and nice like she didn't just tell me to "shut the fuck up" and acting like telling me "to go to hell" last year didnt happen, saying i told her to go to hell, when I didnt.
#and she yelled at me to watch my tone when i *calmly* and *not* with an attitude āwhy arent you outsideā#i sound like a brat idk#she claims im being an assholeš¤#i dont hate my mom just some of the things shes said has lead to my shitty mental health and depression#its not just that that caused my depression and etc theres more but id rather not vent rn
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I know sukuna is often praised for his beliefs and the wisdom he "bestows" on others and as much as I love the guy and all the impactful dialogues he had with characters like jogo or yuuji, I also think heās got to be the one of the most childish characters with mindset a of a 13 year old.
#āI can do whatever tf I want because no one can stop meā#āalso love is worthlessā honestly this sort of attitude just sounds rlly childish to me#also sukuna is known for loving games like that time he said āno one is allowed to move till I say so if you break that rule Ill kill youā#or ālet's have a fire power battleā or āwanna race brat?ā#dude you're the biggest brat here#but don't get me wrong just because he has a childish mindset doesn't mean#that his beliefs and the wisdom he possessed have suddenly no value or have nothing to teach us#Id even argue that his confidence egoism and self centred attitude go hand in hand with his child like mentality#that's what helped him remain at the top#ryomen sukuna#I FOUND THIS IN MY DRAFT#I might delete this later idk yet
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i feel selfish for saying iām upset about this but my moms considering cancelling our trip to see outsiders because my brother has the weekend off and i guess sheād rather spend that time with him
#i feel selfish cause he is in college and i get they wanna see gim#but then again they also left me the day i got my wisdom teeth out and left me practically by myself to see him#and she springs on me now that āoh yeah weāre going to possibly cancel our trip yo see the show because he might want yo come homeā#even though weāre driving up to see him at the end of september and a week post october 18gh for his bothday and once again like two weeks#<before#i sound like a brat i know but likeā¦i dunno#i hope we donāt cancel it#i love my brother i really do#it just sucks cause i bought these tickets in july and sheās just telling me now that we may not go#idk do u sound like a brat?#probably#sorry#misc#vent#kinda?#idk she said itās either that or weāll just try to buy an extra ticket#because my dad and little brother are going to a football game that weekend#i hope he can come instead
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I think rejection sensitivity dysphoria (RSD) is probably one of the worst things you can have in the rp community because it basically sets you up for failure. Like, you know in your logic brain that this is just a fun little hobby and its not that serious and that most people are just here for a good time, but when you find something you enjoy or someone you want to be friends with or someone you do become friends with, things can get hairy. The constant doubt, the constant worry that your stuff isn't good enough, or if theyre replying to anything but you, or if you try to start something with someone and they aren't feeling it, or threads are dropped or even just not hearing from someone for a few days is just... logically you know it's fine and it's chill and all is good but RSD just triggers this intense, horrible, heartwrenching reaction of... Im not good enough. They hate me. What the fuck did I do wrong. What am I not doing right. And it spirals. And then you see the posts from people about how rp isnt that serious and how you its unfair to be upset about dropped threads or someone not feeling something or hyperfocusing on someone else and while you know that that is all true, its just another little addition to the oh great i'm an overreacting butthead who shouldn't have friends anyway cycle that goes round and round and round
#pls ignore i just#rant#and sound like a selfish brat i guess idk#gots noone to rant to so wil probably delete ;;
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two yrs since i started putting up with this bs
#hating on my bird billy rn#exactly two yrs since i got him#99% of the time he's being annoying#like rn he's SCREAMING#idk how smth so small makes so much noise#also he almost killed himself yesterday#he went behind the fridge idk why#but there's a 1% chance that he'll be cute#sometimes he dances and (tries) to sing when i play music#and he talks so that's cute ig#except he says one thing that sounds like thank u and fuck u at the same time#so idk if he's grateful or being a brat#probs the latter but oh well#to late to get rid of him now so i have to keep him till he dies smh#thing is he's my most annoying bird (affectionately)#but his species lives the longest out of the ones i have#āā yapping
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someone really should be talking about how difficult it is to plan a wedding - a gay wedding - when both of your families fucking suck
#who is talking about this!!!! let me know#idk i have 0 expectations for my family but they still somehow always manage to let me down which#i was anticipating#and i didnāt think i would care because i have never cared before#but liiiiiike.#i wasnāt expecting to feel sad rofl but my family is so fucking flaky. again i KNOW THIS i know i cannot rely on any of them#itās annoying when i have given them a year and a half to make plans and i have had so many people tell me they would be there#just to back out or ghost or come up with some excuse#like do you know how expensive weddings are š JUST fucking be honest with me and rsvp no#anyway i was very intentional with the few family members i did invite#and specifically invited people i have a rapport with / had a good (ish lol) relationship with growing up#people i have bent over backwards trying to please!!! and dropping everything to help them out#and they canāt even be bothered to communicate with me lol itās fine. like. i do feel like itās internalized homophobia at this point#or maybe they have hated me this entire time which is totally plausible#but they KNOW how much ayesha means to me and knows that no one from her family is coming to our wedding#at the end of the day itās going to be like. 5 people from my family 1 from ayeshaās (her brother) and like 30-40 friends#which i am so grateful for obviously#i sound like such a brat but itās also like - watching your family continuously choose drugs/alcohol over showing up for you - lol#AGAIN iām used to this and expected as much but iām still feeling bad#just rsvp so i can move on with my life please. stop telling me youāre trying to make it work when we both know you arenāt#i have so much more to say but iām going to sound crazy even though i knooooow it is homophobia like i Know it#i think there are certain people i will finally go no contact with for good after this#which is a freeing thought but i only invited v few family members to begin with. thereās abt to be no one left lmao#probably for the best#ugh whatever#again i canāt help but feel a certain way when they have done more/traveled further for relatives they hardly know#meanwhile i was forced to spend so much of my life living for these people and for them alone#AAAAAAAA i just want to scream#text
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Count the ways I've had a fucked up life:
-Shoved my twin sister when we were 3 and saw blood come out of her ears from the knock on her head. From that point on she was half-deaf. -Twin sister and I nearly drowned at age 6 by being pulled into a powerful rip-tide at an unsupervised beach. My parents thought it was cute until we couldn't swim back and they both had to swim out to get us. I remember being really tired, and them being unsure about being able to swim back to shore.
-At age 11 witnessed my mother forgetting to apply the brake to her car. She tried to get back in and tripped, it subsequently rolled over her, crushing her foot and dragging her down the road. She bled profusely. The crimson stained pavement haunted me for a long time. I blamed myself because I arrived home from a friend's house at the same exact same time and believed I distracted her.
-Accidently electrocuted myself when I was bored while watching my siblings play on the computer. Without looking, I fiddled with the back of an old lamp with my finger tips, but I didn't know that fumbling the cables would cause it to surge. The large shock sent my arm numb for about an hour. Didn't seek treatment because the power tripped and I was worried I would get yelled at.
-Deep in the bush, during a particularly dry summer, family friends stupidly made a bonfire, and I saw our campsite get quickly lit up. As the flames surrounded us and the cars, I was yelled at to go get help/manual water pumps as if it was my fault. Somehow we managed to put it all out. We had to try something because the alternative was getting trapped.
-Was on the phone to my grandma when she had a stroke, I had no idea what was going on, to the point I thought it was a prank. I was crying because it wasn't something I was even aware could happen to someone, I continued to listen and her language skills deteriorated the longer I was on the phone. She became convincedly desperate despite her incoherence and somehow I broke away from my fear and got my dad to help her.
-My mother stabbed my older sister in the arm with a kitchen knife and they both just walked off. I remember being around the corner listening to the argument escalate and saw my older sister clutching her arm. (my sister is very violent so I think it was done in self defense???)
-Dad threw that same sister into the drywall multiple times--Not to excuse it but she was a devil, and would attack / lunge at us, and disrespected my parents from a young age. Dull thudding against walls sends me on edge to this day because it was one way to identify a scuffle with her.
-Mum had a cabinet pushed onto her by my older sister. The cabinet had a glass panel that shattered on her leg and sliced it open.
-My twin sister got upset at me and swung a 10kg metal bar stool at my leg, the blunt force tore my leg open, I now have a very sensitive scar on my shin. -My mum ran at me in an anger spell and I blocked it by pushing her away from me (that's legitimately all), she slipped on the slippery cork floors we had and fell over hitting her head hard. She was unconscious for a few minutes. Her tongue was sticking out and her eyes were open. I thought I had killed her. I wanted to call an ambulance. She woke up and I begged to her that she needed to go to hospital but she brushed it off because we had to catch a flight.
-On my way back from a lunch break I saw a woman go under a Truck. Once again I blamed myself because I crossed in front of the driver at a crossing, and nodded to him. As he rolled forward to leave she sprinted across, I turned and saw that she got hit. -My older sister took advantage of my mum and got into large debts by getting her to co-sign loans behind my dad's back. My mum was paying off things like her phone bill and eventually a car loan. This caused a lot of violent contention.
-Older Sister was kicked out of multiple times but my parents never fully cut her out and now she lives scott-free in a brand new granny flat in the backyard because of their guilt.
-lived in relative poverty and mess most of my teenage life because it was too expensive to send 4 kids to school for my parents. They worked full time but didn't really provide us with any emotional security. Both parents were very messy but blamed us for it as we got older. I tried my best to keep things clean but it was often in vain (it is to this day as things have escalated to full hoarding)
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#SO UH THIS IS WHY I DRAW .NOT BECAUSE IM ANY GOOD NO SIR JUST BECAUSE IT WAS A FORM OF ESCAPISM HAHA :'3#stability is such a cute little dream to have#its not ALL bad but most people probably wouldnt cope with what i have seen#i have not had therapy for any of this lmao#i straight up have memory holes because there was so much time arguing and witnessing horrible shit#my poor mum she is very highly strung i dont blame her my sister is a spoiled 40 year old abusive brat#day dreamer life baby#got struck a lot too by my mother her weapon of choice was the wooden spoon idk hey haha it was just sort of the norm back then#the paradox was that my family would still do normal things like camping or having dinner parties and those were great#processing it all is hard lmao i have anger issues and depression spells#idk why im posting this might delete it later lol#this all sounds fake hahaha which but it's real i promise#the second my older sister became autonomous it was over#notice my dad and brother arent in this picture much#my brother is...idk okay he has demons and my dad is nice for the most part but he lives in his own world#im sad...#they dont realize i have absorbed all of this and it has formed who i am#i love my family but i dont love....the horror
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ngl i've been debating taking down my commissions stuff so if y'all see it disappear that would be why lol
#bambi's rambling#idk if i'll explain my reasons publically for it cause i think it'd make me sound like a whiny brat lol#but yeah. thinking of closing comms#it might be temporary it might not be
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I just accidentally brought back a bunch of memories of stuff my mom used to say to me :')
#she said she wished id never been born. like girl that was on you not me#along with 'i could just get rid of you' as a threat multiple times#i thought she meant sending me to foster care but now... im not entirely sure she didnt mean unaliving me#she also used to threaten to cut off my thumb#i would say it was an empty threat but shed pull out the knives or scissors sooo maybe not#she would frequently ask what was wrong with me#call me ungrateful or a brat#remind me of all the things that she did for me and how much worse it could be#its hard to remember the stuff she said#idk it probably doesn't sound that bad but it seriously messed me up#she used to scream at me until i cried#shed call me a liar or satanic because i self harmed#god and im still not sure what rumors she spread about it but she definitely told people something#i would say she said something untrue but honestly idk. it could have been something i did actually do but phrased badly idk#i never got to find out#once the first person confronted me about it i had a mental breakdown because i didnt know what was going on and no one would explain#but clearly it was something bad because of how confrontational they were being#actually that wasnt even the first person kind to think of it#god im like shakinv just recalling it#she also called me selfish a lot#oh yeah she said she didnt care if i starved to death one time#which i mean. she clearly didnt care if i died but whatever#neither did I really#i want to remember everything but i can't :(
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fucking love when my stepmom takes away my phone so i donātĀ ātalk to my friendsā like what. what is the fucking logic behind that???
#reze stfu#LIKE!!#i can understand if she wanted me to focus or not be distracted but#why. why is her reasoning so i don't talk to my friends#what. how does that make ANY sense#idk i don't want to sound lke a brat but?? i don't??? think isolating me is going to help??????#hm. i guess that's just shit i had to deal with here. on top of her being homophobic and my dad being an asshole... :/ yay#god i cannot WAIT to get back to my mom's#tw vent
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sometimes i wish people cared about my art
#like im not tryna complain about not grtting enough attention#but at the samr time#i put in hours of work just to get 13 notes#and i get it my art isn't amazing#but i just wished more people cared about it#im kind of an aspiring graphic designer so it would be a self esteem boost#not to mention art is like#the one thing im actually good at in my family#idk it's just a bunch of problems rooting from irl issues and i know this just sounds bitchy or like im an entitled brat#but yeah#sorry for just. randomly ventingl
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dinner with my grandpa went fine surprisingly, it was nice to see him again and to stop feeling anxious about our relationship. it felt really shitty to have him put the blame for the lack of communication all on my shoulders though but i knew that was coming so it's w/e
we talked about me getting my driver's license too finally and. ok listen i hope i'm not coming off as entitled when i talk about this. but. i think it's wild that my family is willing to gift me a car (which i am deeply and eternally thankful for) but not tell me anything about it, how to get it insured, inspected, any of that, and then get upset with me for not having it magically figured out all by myself yet. like sure i'm 27 i have my learners permit and i can use google but i don't know the first thing about a car i don't know where to start with this. i'm so unbelievably overwhelmed by it all it's sooo frustrating to be so close to something that will change my life forever but to still feel so helpless. shrugs
#š¬#i feel like i sound like a brat for complaining about it#b/c it's so nice of them to help me at all but i truly do not know what i need to do from here and it feels like their goodwill has run out#i just wish they were more communicative and understanding of where i'm at with it all instead of angry. idk.#i didn't cry about it until i got home though so that's a W
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really do need a tag for the post chapter 50 + haunting the narrative + there is a hole in the narrative in their shape + died wrong shit going on in nabari. any help
#also this made me realise that volume 10 is called 'before saying goodbye' what the fuck i didn't know that. anyway#e.g. my flashback chapters tag is called nonreciprocal memories because that's the name of a chapter wayyy back that references the events#from ten years ago. also it sounds cool as fuck#hm. maybe 'after saying goodbye?' idk man. help#like 50 is 'yoite' and 51 is 'brats like these' so. hng#.txt#nno spoilers#nabari no ou spoilers
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idk its just not fair that everyone else has sm like. freedom ig to like get to leave to house alone/when they want and have a future living alone and like. just do shit just get to have friends and go out and dress how theyd like and not have to hide the small way theyve found freedom so much and im just trapped in this situation where i dont have any of the freedom at all and i have to live with the people who have and are caused me so much trauma and pain and ill probably always be stuck here
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i know im fortunate to have a large sum of money to spend on college but the idea of spending it on college instead of something i actually want makes me sick. i would rather not even have it so i didnt have to worry about it
#if im gonna end up using it on college id like to pull out a little bit just for me. for fun. but id have to get my dad in on that bc the#account was set up when i was 12 and idk where it even is. i may not even be able to do it without him. idk#its good money. i could take out like 500 dollars. thats the amount of my ādecent act scoreā scolarship they gave me automatically. cmon#simons spouting#i hope this doesnt make me sound like a brat or something#i am well off. iā¦ acknowledge that gjgbjj. it was easy i got hit by a car and then they money they gave me gained interest for 7 years.#i mean i guess thats what happened. i swear i had like a thousand dollars. and now i have like 30 thousand dollars. allegedly. and that#that doesnt even sound right. if i have 30k now im pulling it out when im 60. this is my retirement fund. theres gotta be a reason imā¦ not#doing that gjgbdjg. idk much about finances. i didnt pay attention in my financial lit class
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things you do that makes him go crazy (mature content! 18+)
just finished a spicy book and idk what came over me, suddenly wrote this w a high ass adrenaline. and yes itās not proofread :p
gojo satoru maintaining eye contact with him while making out drives this man to the brink of salvation. he goes insane because of it. your arms locked around his neck, pulling him impossibly closer as you press your lips to his. āif i didnāt know any better, iād say youāre asking for more knowing i wouldnāt deny it sweet girlā
geto suguru ride! his! abs! he loves to watch you fall apart just by riding his abs. the sounds and sighs that leave your lips, your eyes hazy and filled with adoration just for him, your fingers aching to hold onto something, preferably his hands. ājust like that angel girl- just like that. move those hips for me yeah?ā
nanami kento *sensitive neck alert!* donāt say i didnāt warn you. the second he walks in through the main door, youāre ready to pounce on the man. your hands immediately tug at his tie, pulling him close enough to place heated kisses against his neck which has him melting and moaning. āfuck baby, been needing this all day..ā
toji fushiguro acting like a brat pisses him off yet has his dick reaching for the sky. we all know the man loves to be in control and thatās the finishing line. but you decide to go and act all high and mighty? he wasnāt having it, although he must admit, it was cute. āokay princess fun times done, now start behaving and bend over fāmeā his hands reach down to give your ass a little squeeze.
#bro i need sleep but she hates me#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#jjk smut#jjk x reader#jjk x reader smut#jujutsu kaisen smut#geto suguru smut#geto x reader smut#gojo satoru smut#gojo smut#nanami smut#nanami kento smut#toji smut#toji fushiguro smut#geto smut#gojo x reader smut#toji x reader smut#nanami x reader smut#toji x reader
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