#gots noone to rant to so wil probably delete ;;

[collectivemesses]

I think rejection sensitivity dysphoria (RSD) is probably one of the worst things you can have in the rp community because it basically sets you up for failure. Like, you know in your logic brain that this is just a fun little hobby and its not that serious and that most people are just here for a good time, but when you find something you enjoy or someone you want to be friends with or someone you do become friends with, things can get hairy. The constant doubt, the constant worry that your stuff isn't good enough, or if theyre replying to anything but you, or if you try to start something with someone and they aren't feeling it, or threads are dropped or even just not hearing from someone for a few days is just... logically you know it's fine and it's chill and all is good but RSD just triggers this intense, horrible, heartwrenching reaction of... Im not good enough. They hate me. What the fuck did I do wrong. What am I not doing right. And it spirals. And then you see the posts from people about how rp isnt that serious and how you its unfair to be upset about dropped threads or someone not feeling something or hyperfocusing on someone else and while you know that that is all true, its just another little addition to the oh great i'm an overreacting butthead who shouldn't have friends anyway cycle that goes round and round and round