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Angel has never been intimidated by David because by all accounts, they're worse
#headcanon? canon? my fanon#redacted#redacted audio#redacted asmr#redactedverse#redacted fandom#i say this as the eldest daughter#and the firstborn of an angry father#early david makes me giggle#do i still want a flinch comfort audio from them? yes#do i still believe Angel will be nonverbal/curt to anyone/anything that genuinely bothers them even David? yes#David Shaw the alpha who won't survive silent treatment#he wouldn't even last a day trust me I'm their house
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veilguard spoilers regarding a josie romance. but can we talk about the letter josie sends to a romanced inquisitor because. iām sorry. fucking losing my mind at the fact that the inquisitor and josephine are close enough friends with the guy the inquisitor duels in her romance to be invited to meet his third child. implying theyāve been invited to the other two. at a baby shower and getting introduced as the one who dueled the babyās father because he was trying to steal your girl. antivan romances insane.
NO LITERALLLYYYYY. AND HEāS AN IN LAW. ITS TOO FUNNY. i cannot imagine how they met and how yvette probably was like āteeheeā¦. the man that my sister spurnedā¦. has fallen in love with ME!ā and the best/worst part is that ortranto really has. i like to think of them running around with each other and secretly meeting as though their families actually hate each other (they really donāt lol) . the ortrantos would probably be delighted to have their son actually marry a montilyet like they wanted, even better that theyāre actually in love and itās not arranged!
i have this image of josie going like āyou canāt marry him. is this a joke, because itās not funny. i almost embarrassed him! the only reason the ortrantos do not hate us is because he is a very kind man who saw that i was in love with the inquisitor! ā¦.yes i suppose a very kind man like that could love youā¦ā¦.. yes of course i want you to be happyā¦ā¦ yvette gabrielle montilyet, i fear you are not hearing what iām sayingā DONāT SAY YOU ARE ALREADY AN ORTRANTO. DID YOU ELOPE? ah okay. donāt do that. i said donāt do that. yvette come back and listen to meā etc etc
of course i must believe that there was a big scene caused (once again) by a montilyet and ortranto that ends with lord ortranto making a speech where the publicly declares his love for yvette in front of all of antiva city to see and hear. so thereās no backing out from this one. in my mind thereās a rehash of the big āBECAUSE I LOVE HER!ā (ortranto, desperate but genuine), āyou do?ā (completely aghast josie who has somehow missed the fact her sister has been giggling even more than usual), plus an āOF COURSE HE DOES!ā (a thrilled yvette) that reminds josie so fondly of her own love story that she's immediately relaxed (and suddenly accepting) about this whole thing <3
#josie to me also feels more awkward than she lets on because she's quite good at being graceful and kind#but he is kind of. you know. the guy she rejected in front of val royeaux#i think the most out of character thing is that josie doesnt notice her sister and ortranto meeting up and falling in love etc#but i also think she can be busy enough being an ambassador/running the family business/eldest daughter#that she somehow misses it. for the sake of this beautiful idea i have. and also it would be cute and funny <3#also like the image of yvette saying āiām getting married to adorno!ā and inq is like yeah ok :] congrats!#later asks josie like āoh yeah. who was the guy ur sister is marryingā and josie pauses thinking abt how to say this LOL#this is also how trev finds out ortrantoās first name is adorno. nearly dies laughing over the whole situation i think#he really is like a footnote in her mind where she's like ':/ guy who almost married my beautiful wife' and then almost#without any issue she's able to go like 'GUY WHO IS MY IN LAW. AND WAS REALLY GRACIOUS ABOUT THE WHOLE ARRANGED MARRIAGE THING.#HE'S QUTE COOL ACTUALLY!' <- and has no issue about ortranto after this#much to josie's amusement and exasperation <3#josephine montilyet#adorno ortranto#yvette montilyet#not to mention josie's unseen brothers. they do intrigue me#the idea of either of them kind of finding out their youngest sister is running around with ortranto they probably sighed in relief like#yeah we can distract josephine with this. that will get her off my back about marriage for about a year.#even more if theyre planning the wedding!#evelyn trevelyan#<- mentioned briefly. i guess#veilguard spoilers#for a codex entry but when i saw it i did melt. everyone deserves to experience this firsthand#long post
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Not me imagining my life as a single mother every time my period is a day late.
(I have never even held hands with a man)
#no but what am i even panicking for-#it's like i forget what biology is#desi tumblr#desi shit posting#desiblr#desi romantic academia#period cramps#periods#desi humor#desi girl#desi#desi academia#spilled ink#artists on tumblr#writers on tumblr#desi blr#desi blog#being desi#desi dark academia#im just a girl#this is what makes us girls#just girly things#tumblr girls#girl problems#girlhood#girlblogging#desi daughter#desi eldest daughter#desi household#dumb stuff that nik says<3
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Wip.
#keigo says stop lookinggg#i love yuri dabihawks#if only touya was a girl#the eldest daughter female rage would be soo real#dabi#dabihawks#touya todoroki#toya todoroki
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have i talked about trans dean yet? idc idc im doing it again if i did already.
the moment dean said "my boobs" in response to "is there anything about you that's real?" i knew he was trans. his voice? trans as hell. and the "daddy's little girl" from alastair ?? also he's just SO eldest daughter coded. no one's doing it like him. also i know the 3 layers of clothing is just a Winchester Thing but there's no reason for his jackets to be SO BIG but they are
#anyways yeah#trans dean winchester#this is coming from a trans guy who also the eldest#so like. you get what i mean when i say he's eldest daughter coded#spn#supernatural#dean winchester
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so about 14x13 (lebanon) when sam and dean are saying goodbye to their father, john does say i love you to both of them. and thereās a moment where weāre not really sure if either of them are going to say it back. but that look on deanās face, manā¦.
in that moment i know he was thinking that if sam didnāt say it back, he would. he waited. and sam didnāt say it. so dean had to. because as much as john put him throughāas much as he put both of them throughāhe was not going to let his dad leave without hearing that his children love him back, even if he didnāt necessarily want to be the one to say it. if sam said it, i really think dean wouldnāt have. but the way sam feels about john is complicated in a different way, so of course it was going to be dean. and thatās so eldest child trauma of him.
#maybe iām just projecting but i feel deeply that this is true#dean is the poster child for post traumatic eldest daughter disorder#dean winchester#sam winchester#john winchester#john winchester can choke challenge#spn#supernatural#spn season 14#spn 14x13#em saying things
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If you want to be bothered. Maybe this for dick and Bruce???
i ALWAYS want to be bothered these are always the highlight of my day tbh you're a delight for letting me just yap <3
Dick. For the canon isn't real square I am Specifically talking about the Tom Taylor Nightwing run. Usually I ignore bad runs but given this one is ongoing (though about to end THANK GOD and get replaced by Dan Watters who i have high hopes for since i adored his Sword of Azrael (2022) run but i digress) so I counted it. Especially since it's so debated if that run is bad or not, for some reason. I'm a 90s Nightwing truther. I love Dick so dearly and tbh recently I've been more enamored with him the more I read his Discowing era, I didn't used to be as big of a Dick stan as I am these days.
Bruce. Honestly where do you even start with Bruce. I want to fist fight him and also patch him up. He got me into comics and superheroes as a whole but I roll my eyes whenever he shows up in a story. He's a bastard and usually not a good father but also complex and should be dissected under a magnifying glass. I love him dearly. He's also just the worst. I think that's why I love him. I'm always a fan of unabashedly Complicated Asshole Bruce who's generally not always the best person, particularly not to the Batfamily and that being the driving force of his relationships with them, especially in shipping.
And for bonus points, Tim. Because know above all else, I'm a Tim Drake kinnie /deg. He's been my number one for a decade and I've yet to uproot him from my brain. He's literally the Worst half the time and I love him for it. And the canon isn't real refers to Tim Drake: Robin because... that sure was a comic. And that's about all I can say about it. Pre-Flashpoint Tim I miss you so dearly. I think it's fun that I want to put him in a blender and drink the juice but also want Nothing Ever to happen to him.
#necrotic answerings#batcest#bruce wayne#dick grayson#tim drake#fandom tag#anyway the fandom is i guess mean to all of them#but like it's deserving.#everytime i meet a tim anti i'm like you're SO right. he's the worst. pls hate his ass more.#same with bruce. like never met a bruce anti who didn't have endless receipts for hating his ass.#(except for those using the shallow 'he's a billionaire beating up the mentally ill' argument which. i ignore)#(bc why are you. consuming superhero content if you just don't like or understand the genre. it's lazy pseudointellectual nonsense.)#and i don't think ppl are truly mean to dick. i think they just don't understand him.#which extends to the entire batfamily bc well. the state of the fandom and all.#like āeveryone else is wrong about themā isn't in a āno one gets them but meā way#(except about tim truly no one gets him but me /j)#it's in a āoh y'all just want to fit them into neat boxes don't youā way#one more person call dick grayson āeldest daughter coreā and i'm going to your house and eating the stuffing out all of your pillows.#first of all can we stop calling male characters āfemale codedā in any way please#women exist in comics too.#second of all it's just not true? and it's not the complex he has with bruce nor his āsiblingsā if you wish to call them that#and then bruce. where do you even start.#you dare say you think it's in character for bruce to hit his kids and *SOCIETY. society goes wild.*#like ofc it has to be in specific contexts. he's not just swinging.#and sometimes it *is* written very OOC bc bruce is written as a machismo self insert i give you that#but yeah a soldier who views his children as soldiers and has zero healthy emotional regulation or communication skills#is gonna sometimes swing in his worst moments. it is just how the superhero genre works everyone is gonna fist fight to solve problems.#why are you reading comics about ppl who hit other ppl for a living if you don't like it when they hit ppl.#also random hot take about dick's characterization#the young justice tv show did incredible damage to ppl's perception of him and i dislike the take it's the best adaptation of him
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thinking about 2012 A Team angst,,
raph growing more protective and more attached to leo with every incident that comes to pass. no one can blame him, though- everytime leo so much as bleeds a drop or bruises a nasty shade of yellow-purple, raph is back in that farmhouse bathroom, looming over his comatose brother and praying to whatever or whoever is listening that he wakes up.
leo just gets more secretive, sneakier. he can feel the change in raph and itās not his job to worry his little brother into an early grave. If the mission calls for one for him, however- thatās his responsibility and his fate. splinter said so. heāll take the extra hit so that his brothers donāt have to. heāll lie about the burning in his knee and the creak in his shell so they donāt worry.
raph always catches on eventually though.
#protective raph#eldest daughter syndrome in a teenage boy who is also a turtle#leo is a self sacrificing little asshole what can i say#2012 leo#tmnt 2012#tmnt#2012 raph#leonardo hamato#rapheal hamato#teenage mutant ninja turtles
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The fact that shiro fucked up so bad at parenting that both rin AND yukio are victims of parentification is so crazy
#Ive said this before but i think shiro did the best he could considering her own childhood#But holy shit dude how do you fuck up that bad#That both of his kids are jealous of eachother and their relationship with him#The difference is that shiro had an active role and yukio's trauma but an inactive role for rin#Idk how to explain this but rin has really strong eldest daughter vibes to me#This is why hes haru no noroi natsuki coded#Nobody liked that post but i will not be silenced#Its also important that both twins are just like....wrong about eachother#'You got to know him as your dad and grow up normally'#No he didnt yukio shiro spent all his time with u and rin was busy fighting thugs for your honor#'You got to actually know our father'#rin yukio spent the majority of his childhood feeling like if he didnt grow up as fast as possible you were gonna be killed#Thats a lot to put on a 7 yr old#Also just to be clear im not like...compairing their traumas#Well i am but i mean like saying one is worse than the other#okumura twins#blue exorcist#ao no exorcist#yukio okumura#rin okumura#shiro fujimoto
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I wanted to redo my attempt at drawing Dess Holiday. But she seems more "stereotypical deer person" here, so this may just be a practice on anthropomorphic characters.
#art#my art#sketches#dess#dess holiday#deltarune#I have thought way too much about Dess Holiday in 5 minutes than I ever have in my life so I am going to give you my two cents in the tags#since its never confirmed if Noelle's mom was absent from their life after Dess' disappearance it could be said she was hardest on her-#eldest daughter. So Dess may have played a āprotectiveā role to Noelle against their mother. This saying Rudy wouldnt have stepped in...#WHO KNOWS?!
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happy mother's day to artem wing š„
#hes the nxx team mom. hes the one saying ''no drive through. we have food at home''#artem wing is simultaneously a mother and also an eldest daughter in spite of being a man. i neednt explain#tears of themis#artem wing
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me: of course, people are allowed to have their own opinions and headcanons. all takes that are well-justified are valid.
someone: bellatrix was insan-
me: shut the fuck up, shut the fuck up, shut the fuck UP
#bellatrix lestrange#bellatrix black#marauders era#hp fandom#the black sisters#the black family#i'm sorry but some of you have the most unapologetically brain-dead takes#next person who says 'bella was driven insane' wins a SLAP#and it's never 'oh it was the 14 years in azkaban that did it'#nope. it's the eldest daughter syndrome and the familial expectations.#as the eldest daughter with the biggest fucking expectations in the world thrust upon her shoulders- it doesn't turn you insane.#a perfectionist overachiever with zero tollerance for other people? sure.#ambitious and ruthless? sure.#not insane and NOT in need to be protected.#she'd EAT you.#(sorry for the rant guys - i usually try to be restrained but sometimes i just read things that make my hands itch.)
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the boy wonder: dick grayson!
aka: my design of him (casual), his nightwing costume, and his robin costume!
part 1/? because I'm planning to draw my headcanons of the rest of the family too! šš, my headcanons and thought process below the cut ź°ā ā
ā įµā ą¼ā įµā ź±ā Ėā ā” (I'm insane) (I'm gonna ramble a lot)
FIRST !! His casual outfit (+ other small things) (this is going to be very long)
first things first i wanted him to be very blue because it helps me differentiate each sibling (+ steph) and have a color pallette because I'm not a character designer at all and if you ask me to combine colors I'll cry in agony, so Dick obviously got blue!! HOWEVER I didn't want to give him bright BRIGHT blue because i wanted dick to look, not soft? but approachable. I hc him to work with kids, maybe as a teacher or as an instructor, because I can't see him as a cop at all (aside from undercover maybe, which if i remember correctly is why he was a cop in the first place) in the long-termāand so I used colors that are mostly soft / not very bright because they're not very stimulating for kids or could distract them too much, and can also tend to be sorta soothing / calming ?? soft colors can help kids focus and soothe them
which is what brings me to my other point, which was drawing with small details to make him look more welcoming and approachable and not threatening at all, at least not as dick grayson, was giving him bushy eyebrows, messy hair and big(?) eyes!! there's not big explanation to that, just that when giving him small details like those i try to follow the theme i gave him in the first place
Aside from that, I like to think his bad fashion sense is a conscious decision. As in he knows how to dress properly, and he can design good suits, but he consciously chooses obnoxious things or things that don't match just for the giggles. Why not. (I'm a firm believer that Discowing should come back it was a great suit). He dresses very well but some days he will show up at the Manor looking like an unicorn threw up on him and being a walking fashion crime and acts unaware to it. Why not.
Other small thing is the necklace!! i was going to draw it to be a four-leaf clover but couldnt draw it so it just ended like that. It has a picture of himself + his fam, a picture that Tim took, so Dick edited Tim's face into the photo with photoshop so in the middle of it there's Tim's floating face
I also hc Dick with another height! I know he's 5'10", which is close to 178cm if I'm correct, but I actually hc him to be shorter, and to be small since he was a kid but having The Growth Spurt when he was around or so! It's only a few cms, I just hc him to be 174cm lol, it's only a 4 cm difference
Last thing which is totally self-indulgent, those dark spots on Dick's neck, knuckles and elbows are because I hc him to have insulin resistance! Because I do since I was a kid, and because why not. I looked it up and it's apparently called 'Acanthosis nigricans' (im fully healthy btw dont worry š), I just wanted Dick to have it
I also hc Dick to be genderqueer and bi&demisexual but that has nothing to do with his design
Now!!! Nightwing!!!!!
This was more easier and there's not a lot of different things, but I added some things I like,
Since Dick has long hair, and I'm a firm believer of the fact that hairstyles change how someone can perceive you/recognize you (or maybe I just have bad memory and can't memorize faces at all), I made him tie his hair but also have it a bit more messy, to change from his usual hair look (which is leaving his hair down)
Aside from that, I just added more blue to his suit by adding a few things, his collar (which is the best part of his discowing suit!!!!!!! aside from the colors!!!!), and gave him back his gauntles which I can't draw so they look strange! That, and I gave him a belt with small.bags??? things??? (HOW ARE THEY CALLED IN ENGLISH) where he keeps some stuff he needs like smoke bombs etc etc, they're not filled with those trinkets and are very light so they won't bother him when he does his flips, and it's tied very well so it won't fall off (it happened). so now he can store things on his belt and on his gauntlets instead of his sticks that I forgot how they're called in english
and now...... The Child (aka Devil incarnate)
Following the same theme of looking approaching and good and blahblah but even more. I made his hair curlier because unlike Older Dick who actually tries to brush it and fails miserably, when he was younger he didn't care and climbed every single furniture in the Manor whenever Alfred tried to force him to brush it, inspired by the fact I used to hate to brush my hair as a kid
He also has those dark marks because of the insuline resistance, and I gave him knee pads (?) because there's no way Bruce would let him out like that with only That costume as protection. Overall I didn't change a lot from the canon design?
He's also short, because why not. It makes it funnier to think about being a criminal and a literal 8 year old who barely reaches a bit above ur hip beats your ass. i wouldn't show my face ever again .
I also hc that he Put the fear of god into the rogues gallery (i dont remember how theyre called as a group in english im gonna cry). while Jason did that with the gotham criminals(not rogues, but others, he was cute and all but also very VICIOUS against them, especially those who messed with kids . robin gave him the magic but the magic to break their collarbones, but this isnt about him), Dick was very very VERY annoying to them. the Joker hates him because Dick loudly says how the Joker sucks as a clown and has an obnoxiously long list of every single way the Joker fails as a clown. The Riddler hates him. Penguin hates him. Everyone hates him. They hear a kid laugh and are like 'šØ ROBIN' even though Robin is now an adult man. he gave them ptsd. u know that creepy kid laugh? thats exactly how dick laughed to creep them out. it also creeped out the gotham criminals but Dick was specially mean to the gotham rogues . imagine being one of them and after going through the nightmare that is meeting an 8 year old (truly traumatizing) that later kicked ur ass, is hearing robin get sleepy and having to go home because he has a bedtime. a kid with a bedtime beat you. a kid who has to go to school and has to learn how to count to 1000 beat you. I would cry
A small thing I like to think even if it's not included is that in one of his pockets he keeps candies !! both for him and for kids he saves with batman. Batman checks he's not eating all of them because what's worse than an angry and hyperactive eight year old is an angry and hyperactive eight year old mid-sugar rush. no one recovered after that night.
That's all !!!! THANK U FOR READING MY RAMBLES!!!!! kisses u in the cheek /p
#dc#art#batfam#fanart#mimi art (ā Ā ā āā āæā āā Ā ā )ā ā”#batman#dc comics#dick grayson#dc robin#dc nightwing#nightwing#nightwing dc#dick grayson nightwing#dick grayson fanart#batfam fanart#artists on tumblr#ibispaint art#robin dc#robin fanart#nightwing fanart#MY SON MY DAUGHTER MY CHILD#when he was a child he was the antichrist but he calmed down once he grew up (he didnt)#(he just learnt how to hide it because he's now a big brother and totally normal)#i say as i add 'eldest daughter syndrome ' into my dick grayson headcanoms#batfam headcanons
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Growing up as an only child people would always like talking to me and say Iām nice and generous then when they found out that Iām an only child theyād tell me āoh so youāre spoiled and donāt know how to share?ā. And it was always so frustrating because why would I be spoiled? Yes both of my parents attention was only on me but they raised me right? And Iāve met people that are spoiled and not brats, like spoiled brat and spoiled are two different things.
And I love sharing and always have bc I never had anyone to share with so I like letting other people use my stuff. One of my friends that I did so many things for all of middle school (I gave her homework answers, pencils, erasers, bandaids, some of my lunch, gum, etc) told me that I donāt know how to share because Iām an only child. Weāre not friends anymore because at one point she started rushing me to do my work so she could copy and she would not let me concentrate and she wouldnāt copy my shit while I was doing it and then sheād get mad at me because she was failing. But anyway, I was a little mad because you KNOW me, but youāre just gonna say that because why, exactly? It was like people were always telling me what I should be like and telling me that I donāt understand any childhood experiences.
And then I get told I must not know how to compromise just because Iām an only child? Like what? I will do anything to please you so what the hell are you talking about.
And people go on rants saying that parents need to start having more than two children because they hate only children. Iāve seen this so many times and it makes me a little sad because my parents tried, okay? Generalizing is not cool. Theyāll hate only children just because they had a bad experience with someone that happened to be an only child. And then Iāll make friends with someone and when they find out Iām an only child theyāll tell me they never wouldāve guessed because they hate only children. Thanks, I guess?
āYou must not have a very good family bondā uhh why? My cousins are the closest thing I ever had as siblings growing up and I genuinely donāt understand when they would say this because it doesnāt mean I canāt bond with people my age.
āYou probably get everything you wantā i was told this just because I bought a new notebook when my old one ran out of pages. Again, what is the thought process here because itās not like I can ask for anything and get it just because Iām the only kid my parents have.
I would say Iām lonely and want a sister and people would get straight up mad at me. āNo you donāt youāre luckyā and you think there arenāt things I want that you have too? I literally feel so alone 24/7 but I guess Iām not allowed to feel that because at least I get privacy.
They also always assume Iām rich. I am very much not rich and I did have friends that lived in bigger houses and it made me so insecure about mine. Idk what it is about assuming only children are rich. I wish being an only child came with that bc then Iād never complain again. But unfortunately it doesnāt work like that.
Anyways. This was a random rant. I just remembered that I would get so frustrated because I would literally cry from the fact that I didnāt have a best friend or someone like a sibling to talk to, and then Iād be told my feelings werenāt valid. I know this is such a non issue, but just sharing I guess.
#idk itās midnight#canāt sleep#and Iām feeling lonely and this was the result#I might go crazy if I canāt find a best friend that will call me their best friend back#everyone seems to have their person but me and thatās not fair#only child#only child core#if anyone gets mad bc they canāt handle someone has a different experience I swear#rant#midnight rant#random post#and when my parents die Iāll be alone#I literally cry thinking of it#and I either live up to their expectations or literally nothing else bc J havenāt really thought of a plan b#all the pressure is on me and that kind of sucks#only child culture#only kid things#but yeah call me spoiled just because my parents couldnāt reproduce another offspring#the fact that Iām so scared to not be okay because my parents only have one daughter#Iām trying so hard to make it worth it#only child experience#spoiled brat#according to everyone#eldest child#middle child#and when they say āattention whoreā as if said attention doesnāt feel like being under a microscope sometimes
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Yāall always goin on about loving eldest daughters but yāall canāt even handle Shi Wudu š¤
#Shi wudu#Tgcf#he's so eldest daughter coded itās insane#tgcf spoilers#This is me joking btw youāre allowed to not like characters#That is true for everything I say itās all just fun
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Lol
#theres nothing quite like your mother saying Well maybe you shouldve been more careful because now your boss might think youve been flirting#with this male coworker (whom i like splendidly as a friend) and now maybe she thinks youre not trustworthy#and maybe she regrets hiring you because you said you feel like youre making a lot of mistakes this week and she might assume thats because#your head is filled with this boy.#so dont make her regret hiring you.#MA'AM I TOLD YOU I WAS ALREADY ANXIOUS BECAUSE I MADE SO MANY MISTAKES TODAY WHY ARE YOU MAKING ME ASHAMED#OF SOMETHING THAT I HONESTLY HAD NO CLUE I OUGHT TO BE ANXIOUS ABOUT AT MY FIRST NEW JOB AFTER IVE GRADUATED????#anyway going to bed i cant take this anymore LOL she said it so lightly and im like. well i never even considered#being afraid of making my boss regret hiring me somehow because of some kind of behaviour that i had no idea was sending some kind of signal#anywaysssss ššššššš#and then she was like why are you crying?? šššššššš#not to be like this is partly why i didnt want to move home but confound it all why are things like this#can i not simply confide in my mother my anxieties and worriws#worries#and not also have to worry about her potentially being like Well have you considered you ARE right and it IS your fault?#idk man something something firstborn child eldest daughter can i have some room to breathe. please#also not to whine but Not my father walking in on me eating dinner at 10pm because i was holed up#in my room in a semi depressive state after so many gong shows in a work day and straight up having no appetite#but deciding my body needs the food anyway its better late than never.....walking in and then saying#you know if you eat this late you'll gain weight. SIR??????????????????#sorry to complain and rant again i simply cannot in this house and whats more am doing my best to honour my parents#but why is it so hard out here and how can they say stuff like that with a smile!!!!!!!#also i DO have an inner critic who is always like Its your fault you are the worst you should be ashamed always........why do my parents#not understand after knowing me for so long and watching me grow up#that i can make myself so ashamed of the smallest thing so easily and that what they say drives me to shame almost as easily?#ANYWAY LOL WHAT A DAY#you guys!!! i am working so hard i promise i PROMISE I am!!! it is my first full time job ever and i am working so so hard#i am doing my absolute best and no one sees it and that is FINE i just wish my parents would see that i AM trying!!#i come back home so dead every single day because i put in 120%! this is literally my first job after graduation#and my parents KNOW this has been the most exhausting taxing and soul crushing year ive had in my very short life so far
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