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FYI cuz there's a bunch of new guys all of a sudden (hi hope u enjoy my madness, I've been gone for a hot sec but slowly making my way back to the shambles I left);
My Durgetash is based on betrayal + systematic manipulation on all sides. When I'm not talking about Gortash exclusively, that is to say more durgetash and or Durge, I don't even try hard to hide my bias.
I like em toxic in the hurt/no comfort tragedy 'never breaking the cycle' way. And old. We're doing a bit of a bi catastrophe approach over here and I absolutely do not respect canon whatsoever (genuinely my durgetash has reached levels of insane fucking around and finding out).
Lately the idea of a brand has also been invading my mind (piss off marazhai we're not doing that crossover babe).
I'm clearly not sane about them. My takes are biased as fuck. Sometimes I delete my musings about them using bdsm as a sorry therapy replacement, sometimes I don't. Like now. I have a track record of writing shit where either of them dies. I killed them more times than I care to remember. Please consider yourself warned.
#i shouldn't have started the rt dlc#but kibellah is wonderful and now marazhai is making his way into my durgetash#marzipan babe pls for the love of the emperor fuck off again you beautiful gremlin#full transparency the reason why im saying that tho is cuz i cant decide whos as deranged as him#both. thats the answer. but i dont like that yst#so give me a few more weeks#anyway my durgetash is fucked up and not in the sexy but the 'oh god oh no oh god' kinda way#the dove isnt simply dead it started to rot#durgetash#i gotta admit though#lately i've been dabbling in what happened between my durge + minthy#and they make me cry#so i think i got their rs done beautifully#and like i rly just feel bad for nil she deserves none of the shit i put her thru#the idiots do but she doesn't#i gotta make that up to her somehow#anyway hoping + praying I'll get around to post some snippet of the wip sometime these days#i rly gotta get back into it
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briefly pivoting back to malevolent posting, i realized i never posted my kayne lol. mr silly fun times
#illustration#digital art#artists on tumblr#malevolent podcast#my art#love this freak#gotta get back into malevolent again dungeon meshi rly swept me the fuck away#sorry for not drawing him in a proper suit but to be quite frank i hate drawing suits so
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finished and posted that fic. i was just too excited to write more uncomfortable character interactions. now featuring phineas and ferb, with a celebrity guest appearance by baljeet
edit: y'know what cloud cover is a nicer title. i was just gonna title it "attenuation" one word but was like what is this a christopher nolan movie. no
#fic#i just finished the end so i havent rly reread it... gotta get back to work for now#i've always wanted to write p&f interacting with doof and finally got to do it here#was unable to focus on this due to travel but i spent the entire flight home listening to the beegees and im afraid now i stan them
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"And soda; runs off into the street..." "...and soda... is totally okay!"
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi suckening#cw blood#something something cracking open a boy w the cold ones#IF THERE ARE ANY MISTAKES I MISSED I SWWWEAR TO JEBEDIAH. IF I STARE AT THIS ANYMORE IM GONNA DIE IT NEEDS TO BE DONE#ALSO RRRAAAHAHHHGHGH CAN I JUST TAKEA SECOND TO SCREEAAMM ABT HOW MUCH I LOVE SODA AND EMIZEL.. LIKE THERYE SO CUTE....#THEY ARE HOMIES THAT KISS EACHOTHR GOODNIGHT. THEY CARE SO MUCH FOR EACHOTHER. SODA LOVES SODA AND SODA LOVES YOU#do u guys remember how willing he was to share blood w his vampire bestie. like cmon. remember when emizel memorized sodas Soda Schedule.#LIKE CMON.... they just have eachothers backs so much. ouhhh my god... ANYWAY SO THE ART HUH. I FEEL LIKE I SCRAMBLED W IT FOR A WHILE#DRAWIN IS HARD..... i think i did well in the end tho.. i like the lil heart beat effects. and i hope i made soda look Suffieciently Scared#i ALSO had fun w the teeth. i however did not have fun w the walls. if i had more drugs i mightve done every brick in more detail#but i didnt WANNA!!!! this will suffice.I HOPE IT FLOWS WELL&THAT ITS CLEAR... IVE STARED AT IT SO LONG IT IS NOW VISUAL SOUP. HELP!!!#i want my comics to have more Pauses and Space and Thought and Momence. i feel like normally they go so fast. but THIS time#i think i did good.... huuoouhhhh.... comics are HARD art is HARD but i am HARDER. or something. OH YEAH I HAVE MORE ART THINGS#soda was RLY HARD FOR ME TO DRAW FOR A MINUTE..but i like where his design is now. i wanted his hair to be curly swirly.like soda fizz#i THINK thats all my thoughts for now. if u have thoughts u should spill them in the tags i looooove reading tttaaggsss#have a goodnight i gotta go to work soon. maybe. unless the casinos power goes out AGAIN. OR SEOMTHING... UUGHHH MY SCHEDULE IS IN SHAMBLES#I THOUGHT I WAS WORKIN 3 DAYS INA ROW SO I RENTED A WHOLE DAMN HOTEL BC THE JOB PLACE IS FAR AWAY.. I HAD TO CANCEL THE WHOLE RESERVATOn#annd im MMMMAD ABOUT IT!!! like ill get over it ofc BUT IM PEEVED!!!! IM INCONVIENIENCED AND GENTLY AGGRIVATED. BUT OVERALL FINE.#hope yalls weekend goes well. sleep well. if u get the chance to.
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these are A BIT OLD but uhhh here check out these aggio doodles i did forever ago. still VERY happy w my colors :3
#this was back in uhhhh jan 2023!! hot dog!! and its still perfeclty good to eat!#i think kian and chip would get along. they could talk about feelings. kian could give chip the therapy he needs. maybe kiss? who said that#jay and rand could also get along i think. smoke buddies. cigarette fans. i bet they could play dnd together. or build a contraption togeth#also WAUHG the way i colored in kira here is SO PERFECT.. SHES SO SPARKLY N PRETTY. ALSO THAT HOOORNN i remember bleeding for that#shading is HARD lighting is HARD drawing a crazy unicorn is HARD but SOOOO WORTH IT I SITLL LOVE HOW IT LOOKES.....#waht else is there. oh yes the prime defender doodles#i love mark so much.... i miss being crazy and strange abt mark winters... i need to draw him killing more people someday#anyway i gotta go to bed soon to keep my sleep schedul on track but I DONT WAANNA!!!! recently relistened to bitb. that might release spore#im also chippin away at that am i in heaven animatic between workin on commissions. I GOT RLY FAR!! i think that i could finish it within#like. 3 or 4 more inspo waves. it wont be unfinished forevcer..... its so close... just 4 more full scenes to rly fleshh out#so basically another 2 years. YEAH BABy. in the meantime i have a backlog of things i can poast. i got plenty o drawings and doodles to sha#alrigh thats all the ramblin im gonna do for now. sleep well everyone hope shool or work goes easy on u in the coming week
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in a world where the dungeon meshi cast are playing a ttrpg. did shuro just like inexplicably get roped in one day and he just. kept showing up
#hes like theres an expectation that i be there every week now i Have to go........#ohhhdbbxd wait wait wait i gotta draw this. shuro bursting out with I DONT EVEN LIKE TABLE TOP RPGS#laios. devastated.....#OH ok so. falin needs to take a break for smth so her character gets killed off for a bit#and at that point shuro is into falin and thinks ok thats the final straw im ditching for a while.#but then he finds himself??? missing it????#he probably experiences a lot of pressure from his parents to like. get into smth rly tough#law or medicine or some shit lmao. and his dad harangues him about socialising more#so playing ttrpgs was both a way of socialising but also an escape from that pressure#he eventually comes back even knowing falin wasnt back yet#and while he explodes with the not liking ttrpgs thing. he has to admit hes having fun and likes being there at least somewhat#and maybe.... has to admit he likes laios more than he lets on wndnxjxjdj???#BECAUSE HE DIDNT START OUT LIKING FALIN EVEN IN CANON REMEMBER!!!!!#so something Else had been keeping him there at first...
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In regards to lrb I was actually talking to my partner last night about how it's a little...weird, my ship with Arthur. There's basically ZERO room for angst of any kind, it's all just fluff and comfort and it's sweet and saccharine 🥺💖 and I LOVE that!!
#jane journals#self insert talk#🎄 my christmas wish 🎄#i mean ofc theres the brief bit where i think arthur ghosts me#but that gets resolved fairly quickly!!#and occasionally i think arthur does actually get REALLY sad about the way hes been treated#all of that. its gotta get to him sometimes#he always keeps a smile on his face but hes able to cry around me and just be held and reassured that hes loved 💖💖💖#other than that! theres no drama! much UNLIKE my star wars ships 😂😂#honestly if i want angst i can think about those but arthur was rly what i needed#i was really sad for a while and the warmth of his heart brought me back
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ohhh my GOD it's 4am and ch3 of the dog coded fic is finally done i could WEEPPP lfg
i literally had to save half the scenes i planned out for the next chapter bc it was already nearly 5k words and it would've ended up being like 9k otherwise lmaoo and it's a lotta them yapping but ykw. it's progress so idc <33 just need the bestie to beta when i wake up and then hopefullyyy will post before tonight :') thank u for ur patience as always i rly rly appreciate it <3333
#dog coded bucky fic#reluctantly accepting this fic will not be a nice neat 6 ch. at Least 7 due to this miscalculation. likely 8-10 bc it Will happen again lol#but also this MEANSSSS we can get back to brainrotting for a bit >:)#i feel like it's obvious i was writing almost all day bc of my radio silence like the only time i shut the fuck up is when i rly focus up#no but fr don't get ur hopes up bc it rly is so much dialogue which granted is my fave thing in the world to write but#idk if it's ppl's fave thing to read so. fair warning. listen the boys have gotta yap sometimes. esp john. it's kinda his thing
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god bless sleeping 12hrs nightly
#stream#i hate it so much#like get up & do what ? CLEAN ? AGAIN ? be a PERSON ? AGAIN ?#i was so annoyed yesterday ppl were pissing me off so much then i called my mother & it was lovely & i told her how i scammed a vacuum from#amazon last semester by reporting it stolen bc dpd refused to deliver it TO ME & sent it to a language centre so then i reported it as a#dispute on my credit card got my money back then picked up the vacuum ALSKALSKLKSLAKSLA she said ‘u are ur fathers child’ & honestly ? real#cheap as FUCK like i GET IT FROM SOMEWHERE#but she’s also HER fathers child so i don’t wanna hear it 🙄#by that it’s ‘u gotta make it really reasonable if u want anything w my money’#i’m literally going to try to scam an electric drill or just use & return to make a fucking big room divider to THE HEIGHT I NEED bc it need#to be literally like 150cm even to go w the height of the tv bc that’s mounted & it came w the place so i can’t move it & also it doesn’t#even work ALSKALSKALKSLKSLA HATE KY LANDLORD !!!!! i mean love em they don’t do anything it’s full shithead hours 24/7 here & i love that#but GIRL ….#DID YALL RLY HVE TO PAINT OVER THE BITCHES HAIR ?#WOULD A BROOM HAVE KILLED YALL ? anyway ALSO IT DOESNT EVEN HAVE A CABLE#& U HAVE TO HAVE A TV LICENSE HERE FOR THE FUCKING TV 😭😭😭😭#like ALSKALKSLAKSLSLKSLAK literally … decoration#that’s ugly as fuck and annoying as shit like why is it THERRREEEEEEEE#i’m having my mother bring an amazon fire stick when i meet in north carolina like next week so i can maybe hopefully use it somehow like#just as a SPEAKER EVEN#that would be GREAT bc i’m not paying for cable i don’t even watch netflix as is#like let me get this podcast on the tele ‼️‼️‼️#determined to get dishes done today#running low on weed BUT that 1 drug dealer w cancer & w/o a bladder im talking to he’s so fucking hot hopefully he actually has a connect#for me to get smack ALSKALKSLKSLKSLKSLKALAK
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still feel so vindicated by tpatd. i dont rly have proof of it but i always wanted tlq to be a bit of a strange beast but i was worried it conflicted w canon (the wraith in particular, and the lack of a visible mouth in his appearances) so i scrapped some ideas i had to make him more beastly so tpatd was such an incredible and welcome surprise
#stp spoilers#i know theres the whole 'fuck canon' thing and i support that but i tend to try rly hard to make my works as canon compliant as possible#it bothers me if i dont#which prob sounds strange from someone who draws objects w animal limbs#but that feels more like artistic interpretation of simple designs than contradictory#and i also just sorta felt like everyone else must be onto smth or know smth i dont so seeing the popular general design for tlq#made me think that it mustve been intended for him to be so humanlike#being wrong made me so excited i got nauseous when i got to see tpatd#love that the guy has a huge beak and a creepy smile#i love a character who acts very normal and personality wise is generally just Some Guy#but is actually a weird guy who is a little scary#ill post some of my art of him in a bit after i get some food#actually art too lol not just joke stuff#i gotta start populating this blog w art ive been making since i got back into the game#maybe even my animation wip.... gotta work on that#AND i gotta get my voice designs posted bc theyre not that out there but im happy w them and had fun making them!
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I never post about it here but since the one year anniversary of its conception was on July 5th i figured I'd post some drawings that i haven't shared here of my persona 4 older nanako AU
The last two drawings are unfinished but i figured I'd post them anyway cuz i like them :3
The story is in a very vague state right now but if you have questions about any of this please ask......i would love to talk about this with people.
The fact that it's been a year since i started working on it is crazy to me and I've improved a lot in various ways. I wish i posted about it here more but because the story is in such an early stage (and also cuz my art isnt that great) i feel afraid to put it on my blog :,) hopefully I'll post about it more now though cuz i really wanna start on developing a much more comprehensive plot to this which posting about it might be the extra push i need.
#peep the sixth image i did that shit in mspaint#also peep the older yu and yosuke designs!!! i finally did them a while ago and i really like them :)#im giving Yu a cane cuz I'm allowed to it's my AU and i get to give this mfer a mobility aid if i wanna#nanako's idol outfit took ten billion years to design but the final design made it worth it#another reason why the story isnt super comprehensive yet tho is cuz i wanna finish p4 arena (+ultimax)#cuz i wanna know how they bring back the midnight channel in that so i can figure out how to bring it back in this AU#also cuz there's just a lot of details and things i need to write before really starting to write it all out#i gotta rly get on it tho loll#persona 4#p4#nanako dojima#gremlin nanako au#art#i want this to reach more people but idk what tags to put......:')#persona 4 au#gremlin art#whatever lol idk how to do tags#yu narukami#yosuke hanamura#just realized theyre in this post so i can tag them lolll
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thinking about them and banging my head against the wall again whats new. they are making me so emo. god. what the fuck
#ann plays fates#theyre like all i can think about rn#its that time of the year#i mean i think about them both constantly separately but its always when september comes#do i get hit with the laslow/nyx rarepair brainrot i think#that just lasts through fall and winter#not that im complaining. i think eventually i will have posted the entire fucking conversation#i cant help it. each part gives me a segment of dialogue to be ill about#i have ‘but with burdens so heavy dont you think we can lean on eachother a bit?’ on my wall#ROMANCE. TO ME (girl who is aroace)#also underrated thing about them i like how nyx flirts back#its more prevalent in their A support but shes so fun with him even beyond the bonding over traumatic pasts#i think with laslow he does a lot of flirting right bc hes laslow but a lot of the time its like#no ones matching his energy#i was gonna say match his freak but i dont think he has any freak if im so real with u#if he does its buried beneath five metric tons of shame and embarrassment#and i like how his… laslow-ness kinda gives nyx space to let loose if that makes sense#like he can match her maturity because he. you know. all of that#but hes still young and so she can find a little bit of reprieve from it all in his attitude and blah blah blah#if that makes sense#they r just so perfect. TO ME#ive only ever written and posted one thing for them but i have like five million (like six) things in my drafts i need to get back#into writing. rarepair hell gotta feed myself#also that was like two years ago it kinda sucks a bit but thats fine its called growth#i just miss them. i dont really have the brainpower to play fates but i have enough to think about them#i mean i played a little but ive mostly just been doing dumb shit with the class system and not rly playing the game#we’ll get to it#im supposed to be sleeping
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fucked around w more shirts ! 😔
Its all notes to me under here! Ignore them ? anyway, Genuinely pushed these thru making-wise (3days?) bc i realised that if i did another shirt i could probs make an okay end of year insta post about them lol
Despite the usual registration issues these were SO much easier & cleaner than any of prev (bar printing aint easy) honestly. Finally mostly got my emulsion coating p consistent! The inks were flowing well! They (mostly) stopped bleeding the whole time! And it all just took most of the year!! god, lol
The image was 1/2 done w a forgiveness towards inaccurate registration in mind, but i still wouldve liked a bit more lining up. I had Z Merrill in mind when i actually bothered to put in reg marks this go, but i think working w the acetate as a reg sheet is an issue - at least w fabric. Not sure how to fix that just yet tho ://
I was gonna say that i think i should do smth w just 2 layers, but requiring a closer reg, then remembered i still wanna do that bosch thing, so idk!!
#posts just 4 me :)#ppp#my art#kinda???#i honestly DESPERATELY wanna put a qr code or smth on the backs of these but maybe that'd be a touch too much lol#doing so many shirts & like screen has been fun; but ive been rly feeling like i gotta get back to a 'serious' practice soon ykwim?#operation avalanche#[had a couple other ideas 4 shirts 4 this; this only won bc it was simple & i finished it.. might return later ;/]#edit: fgkdsh im like. simultaneously much more pleased w these than i rly should be & like.. 'man theres so much to improve' lmao oof
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when i was in highschool one o my biggest coping mechanisms was drawing all the kids i hated getting killed and eaten and killed. and well. time is a slowly ascending spiral. you will find patterns.(i work as a blackjack dealer. gamblers are FASCINATING
#cw blood#luckys original content#ITS SMALL BUT ITS ART SO IT GOES ON THE ART BLOG#also wwaooooww its meee its my lil persona!!! i dont draw myself enough....#anyway i have bigger things in the works. im slowly but surely chipping away at a pd thumbnail for that pd thumbnail project#FINALLY COLORING. BUT COLORING IS SO HARD AND I HAVNT BEEN IN THE COLORING MOOD#SO IVE JUST BEEN MAKING RLY DUMB COMICS INSTEAD... OOPS..#idk if anything finished n polished will be posted here anytime soon. BUT i post wips of everything on my twitter#and i post jrwi exclusive wips on my slucky blog. you may look at those if u have Truck Art Wishdrawls. as many do. as many do#THIS BLACKJACK JOB IS RLY AWESOME BTW DONT GET ME WRONG#i work three 12-hour days ina row. i gotta take an hourlong bus up to the depths o the mountains and then#i get to stay in this delightful lil hotel that was built in an ooold hospital. its a whole casino town. and an OLD one at that#ITS GORGEOUS HERE. last week my bus home was delayed for 2 hours#so i finally got the chance to head to other casinos and try drinkin n gambling. lost ten bucks to a pretty girl. NOT the first time#i rlly wanna try it again!!! i love interracting w ppl and i love being inebriated in public bc im just so sweet and pleasant and friendly#and pretty girls LLOOOOVEE MEEEEE i think i just need to go to gay bars more#but theres fucking NONE HERE. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im collectin comrade queers up here tho#we wanna make a Group but we just gotta come up witha name first. i need something weird and strange#yknow i remember being in highschool. and being miserable n unmedicated. my mommas ultimatum was that;#if i dont drop out of highschool; i dont need to move out. she probably wouldntve kicked me out anyway bc my mommas sweet like that but#she REALLY wanted me to graduate. and i remember dreading that i might never do that#i remember feeling like the Resident Idiot. sweet but so so fucking dumb. it took me 7 years of strife n stress before i finally graduated#i remember worrying back then that i might not ever be able to handle myself out there. that i'd be too dependant on others#AND HERE I AM. DID U KNOW I WAS LOOKIN AT HOUSES A WHILE AGO? IM AN ADULT AND IM WWINNINNNGGGGGGG#IM RUNNING OUTA ROOM BUT HERES MY ADVICE TO YOU. BC I KNOW UR FUCKING SCARED TOO. THE ONE THING THAT SAVED ME.#THAT KEPT ME FROM SINKING INTO DESPAIR IS REMEMBERING ONE THING: ITS LITERALLY JUST LIKE VIDEO GAMES#MOST PPL YOU CAN JUST WALK UP TO N ASK A QUESTION N THEYLL ANSWER. THEYRE ALL NPCS THEYRE NOT REAL#LIKE IF U WALK INTO A BANK AND ASK HOW A DEBIT CARD WORKS THEY WILL HELP YOU#AND IF YOU THINK THEY HAVE ULTERIOR MOTIVES RELATING TO MONEY. YOU CAN ASK THE CUSTOMERS TOO. ITS JUST LIKE VIDEO GAMES#ANYWAY STAY SAFE KIDS HAVE FUNNNNN. IM GOING TO GO DO DRUGS NOW. HOPE U CAN DO DRUGS SOON TOO. I LOVE YOU
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I PROMISE IM STILL ALIVE AND THAT I STILL LOVE THIS SHOW i just dont have time for podcasts rn :( innn the meantime did anyone ever think about fish n chips Edyn Edition alot alot alot orrrrr was that just me
#NO TAGS bc itsa small doodle. BURN!!! also rrrauauughh thinkinnn about edyn againnnn#like i dunno man i just think its rly funny if edyn just finds her mind wandering back over to gillions weird ugly friend#like... hes kinda cute... in an annoying boy sorta way....#I THINK THEY WOULD BE CUUUTE TOGETHERRRRR or atleast it would be cute to see them interract more#i just wwant those two locked in a high stress situation together#i also want edyn to eat people. i aalso want edyn to be just as violent as gill if not mmore. please.#I HAVA DOODLE PAGE but i wanna show it more love first b4 i post it anywhere. in the meantime u get this. u only get this .#unless u ask me very niciesss#i might ramble more here later if more thoughts come to mind. i GOTTA rewatch several riptide eps. but NO.#im gonna go watch rly stupid anime instead forever okay byeee love yoouu
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the lake is nothing but blue
#dnd character#changeling#blood#digital painting#digital art#dnd oc#original character#oc#kiev#fruit draws#doing some painting again cuz i rly gotta get my drawing chops back#i've been so so artblocked recently but this was a lot of fun#turned out simultaneously better and worse than expected which means i'm improving i think?#anyways. listen to monster song by dom fera. kiev song for REAL#no one knows who this is but whatever . i love him
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