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archivalofsins · 17 days ago

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Ahh... I'm glad I have Milgram and Caligula Effect Overdose exist. This is a vent because I'm loopy and tired. A very indepth vent as well so feel free to ignore the negativity.

Honestly I'm in a downer mood because I'm slowly but surely catching the flu from my dad. I also caught covid from him at the end of 2023 to the beginning of 2024. I've been expected to take care of him and put my life on hold since I was eighteen basically. Each time he has a medical emergency of any kind I'm just expected to ddrop everything I'm doing.

Even when I went to visit Star for the first time it was riddled with guilt tripping calls from my older sister like how could you leave our dad at the house by himself. Even though he was actually in good health at that time. It's gotten to the point medical professional, cops, emts, at home nurses from the hospital are like you're his caretaker right you have to do this that and the other okay.

If you do this wrong once he'll die okay so pay attention. Like ma'am I just live here because my family has consistently stopped me from doing anything that would give me any prospects or future financial stability to do something they don't want to bother doing themselves. To the point some family have been like I'm gonna make it my life's mission to make sure you don't get paid for doing this because he's our dad and I don't think you deserve money actually.

But I deserve to be cleaning throw up, fecal matter, and showering my dad down as well as other members of this family when they got sick or had surgeries. Be soooo for real I'm tired and the only financial help I get is like Star who doesn't even fucking live or can benefit from helping and should be looking out for her damn self. I've had to stop going to college to do this, quit jobs I just got to do this, and all I get is you're a really considerate daughter giving up your life to take care of him I know who I want to take care of me when I'm older.

It's never ending... Like how many times do I have to get sick taking care of someone else. How many times do I have to have family members wellbeing leveraged over my head because you're the only one who can take care of them you have to. While simultaneously having all my own issues ignored. It's annoying because they ask for a lot thinking it's nothing then I feel bad for asking the bare minimum back.

Or they just actively harass me.

Like I'm not missing the comedy in my sister just last year calling adult protective services and accusing me of elder abuse. Leading to cops coming here and calls from social service workers. Yet now when he needs looking after it's crickets and my little sister has this again I'm gonna just keep being an influencer in cali and telling my hundred of thousands of followers what an evil person my sister is while consistently attempting to blackmail her with a video I took of her assembling a cat tower in her home in like 2022 that I refuse to give her access to but swear proves she's a shit person.

Online people are so fucking disingenuous don't believe anything online even this. I'm just so over it at this point. I just hate it. So, I do greatly enjoy that Milgram and Caligula Effect Overdose show people who are so deeply fed the fuck up with their circumstances. Whether those people are good or not genuinely does not fucking matter to me.

It's the fact that they all embody that animosity one feels when society consistently and actively overlooks a person or their issues. That's the good part to me. This is also why I'm like I can understand where Shidou was coming from when he said he wants the people he loves to stay healthy.

I get that shit and what it's like to have someone's life placed in one's hands or on one's shoulders. It's sooo annoying when people believe someone's opinions on other characters in a narrative negate what they may feel about another one in the same narrative. No one knows what another individuals relationship with a piece of media is or how far it goes. I'm just trying to find something that makes the unbearable bearable honestly.

I'm prettty sure I have the flu or norovirus now as well which being sick makes me more chatty sadly. Though my brother stops by and helps from time to time. Picking up food and playing cards with our dad. In short yay I have a burger now.

I gotta clean the kitchen after this.

#gunsli vents

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emeowwww-blog · 1 year ago

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I performed a social experiment today, and the results kinda lowkey shocked me:

TW for topics relating to violence, self harm and suicide, bullying/harassment, threats against personal safety, and adjacent topics.

Note: I refer to myself as a “good person” a few times here. I am not in any way suggesting that I am a model for people to follow. I refer to myself as such to show what I think a good person would do.

Idk why it continues to surprise me, but I did a social experiment today and I still find it so weird how outright fucking MEAN people are.

I was simply talking about my likes and dislikes, and I say a few things about a game I like (that gets a lot of hate for no reason). I expected backlash for liking the game, that’s normal and I get that no matter where I say it. Suddenly, I am getting death threats and suicide guilt trips for liking said game. I am told that i should kill myself, I should die, I should never have been born, my parents were right for starving and neglecting me.

Over a game.

The social experiment I performed was to create an overemphasized version of my current life, and to slip up and create loopholes to see if people would find out I was lying. I joked around and tried to copy the behavior of other people, while also subtly attention seeking and dropping hints that I was faking my life. I also did my best to get peoples social media for later purposes.

I was being serious when I was talking about liking the game, and THATS when people snapped. Suddenly they brought up all the evidence of why I was lying and how, which I found odd that they hadn’t before. I played up my argument and pretended to be one of the people that guilt trips and gaslighted others to win the argument to make them react more.

I did expect “kys” jokes and other mean comments. That is what I set out to find. I did NOT expect to be sent death threats, doxxing threats, threats to harm my irl family, etc.

I eventually revealed that it was an experiment, and that I had screen recordings and screenshots of the hate messages and messages proving whose social media belonged to who.

Now, I don’t have social media besides Pinterest, Tumblr, Ao3, and Discord. I purposefully did not ask for or share these things. I made burner Tiktok, Twitter, Snapchat, Facebook, and Instagram accounts, and followed the members with those.

After I revealed the information, I thought it would be a good idea to tell them (jokingly) that I was going to leak the screenshots to their family and friends that followed their socials.

And guess what, they IMMEDIATELY started apologizing and begging me not to. People were even advocating to ban me and erase all message data relating to me (as though that would do anything).

My experiment set out to show how humans, especially younger people ( <22), act when they are behind their online identity. And how they change immediately when they realize that someone they know in real life will find out.

I am not going to send screenshots to their IRLs, nor on and of my socials, as I am not petty and I respect their privacy as minors (and humans) like a good person would and should.

My complaint is just asking why people are so mean? What do they gain? Absolutely nothing. I keep being disappointed for being surprised, over and over again.

Please be a nice person, to anybody who read this long post. I have made huge mistakes in the past, in the same way that this experiment shows.

You do not have to like someone. You do not have to agree with their opinions. But imagine if this wasn’t an experiment. Imagine if a younger person with a little out of the ordinary life joined this group, and got treated this way.

They wouldn’t be prepared for this. This could harm people. This DOES harm people. There are countless, and I mean COUNTLESS news stories about cyber harassment and bullying leading to teen suicide.

Be a good person, both IRL and online. You can and will harm people by your negative actions. I don’t expect you to like everyone. I expect you to be kind and respectful. If they become angry or mean, that does not indicate that you can react harshly.

Cut off your connection. Block them. Report them. We have measures on the internet to essentially get a restraining order on people you don’t like.

Be a good fucking person.

Have a wonderful day/night. I am sorry for the rant.

#social media #social justice #social issues #social psychology #social science #experimental #experimentation #social experiment #science experiments #kindness #rant post #rant xx

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exnusquam · 2 years ago

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Psa.; Please for the love of all that's holy read this if you want to continue following me.

[mun] it has come to my attention once more that some people are fucking unwilling to ever see my legendary muses as people despite explicitly being written to be that way. Most of my legendary pokemon muses are in human form half the time (with Arceus being in human form 99% of the time), and all of them have the ability to consent, human intelligence, and the ability to communmicate that consent in some way, but since they aren't human apparently to some people that's poke/p/hilia. I guess I can't ship my player character in mass effect with any of the alien love interests either because theyre not human then. fml

My legendary pokemon muses are to be considered people. Because that's what I write them as. That also means that some of them will engage with human characters in romantic situations. If you don't like that, you aren't required to follow, and I ask you to simply hardblock me so you save me the anxiety and hassle over trying to rid you of my dashboard.

I completely understand if someone is uncomfortable with that idea (shipping with inhuman characters in general). But you can just block me and my ship partners and move the fuck on. If youre being blocked by someone because you use guilt tripping, abusive rhethoric and block evasion or because you question someones sanity or mental state because they ship with my inhuman muses, then you're being the problem here.

My shippable legendary muses are ALWAYS

Adults

Of human intelligence

Capable of comprehending and using human language

Capable of consenting

Capable of communicating said consent

Capable of taking a human form and maintaining it

If someone else's muse ticks all these boxes as well, then I will be willing to think about shipping with them.

If you have a fucking problem with a human muse being shipped why my legendary muses despite all of this above, then you dont go and harass my ship partners over it, you come and talk to me personally about it, dont be a fucking coward.

My legendary pokemon muses are always always always to be considered people.

I treat them and write them like the greek pantheon of gods.

Like people, flawed, with human intelligence, emotions, and the desire for closeness and intimacy, and if you don't like that, leave.

They are absolutely never animals, and treating them as though they are is fucking disrespectful. Fuck off.

People like you are the reason I had to take years off the rpc prior to returning to tumblr for my mental health. YOU are the harassers. YOU are the abusers. YOU are the guilt trippers. YOU are the puritans. Maybe a reality check is what YOU need. Go touch grass and never bother my rp partners with your bullshit again.

As for everyone else who might just genuinely be uncomfortable for different reasons, and who would like to unfollow: I totally get it. So long as you aren't being a fucking stalker and talking shit behind my back or that of my rp partners, I will absolutely never think bad or lesser of you for unfollowing. All I ask is you hardblock me so I don't refollow thinking tumblr made a mistake and unfollowed by mistake. I'd really appreciate that.

Thank you for everyone who respects me, what I want to write and explore, and my rp partners, and I hope whoever remains will not be uncomfortable with what I write. Should you need anything tagged, never be afraid to ask me privately to tag it. I will always be happy to accomodate in that department.

Thank you and apologies for having to make this post. For any questions, feel free to DM me.

#Important.;#Psa.;#this didnt happen in relation to my arceus muse btw #but it still seems to keep happening on other muses of mine and its really starting to piss me of #*off #Ask to tag/#Drama/#<- Kind of ig #just to be safe #Necro speaks.;#is2g i try my fucking hardest to stay out of drama but some people just never give up #as though itd be a good or honorable thing to hound other people over differences in opinion

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mortagesrants · 2 years ago

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SIGNS YOU’RE BEING GROOMED ONLINE

This post is mostly intended for minors to stay safe from adult predators, but this can honestly apply in any situation where one person has power over another. like a celebrity, or a superior at work.

compliments you…A LOT: Compliments aren’t inherently inappropriate if they’re SFW, but it gets weird when they’re doing it frequently, like unprompted.

sexual compliments: No adult should ever be telling a minor they’re hot or sexy.

Conversations start slowly(or not that slowly) becoming sexual: Convos might seem normal, but groomers/predators like to slowly introduce sexual topics until it feels normal, bc that’s less likely to set off alarms in your head.

Frequent comments about your age: The biggest red flag is “you’re so mature for your age” being said repeatedly. They’re trying to break that age barrier between you by making you feel like you’re equal, like it’s not wrong for something to happen between you two. Adding onto that, they should never be making “jokes” like “can’t wait till you’re 18 lol” or anything similar. huge red flag.

They’re really clingy/needy for your attention: This is just weird. I, as an adult, should not be begging or fighting for a teenager’s attention or acting jealous when they’re with other friends. I shouldn’t even be joking about that.

They guilt trip you for attention: They start emotionally manipulating you. They make you think they need your attention or else they’ll hurt themselves or be super sad or something. No adult should be dependent on a minor like that.

They try to turn you against your friends: When your friends try to point out that this person is being inappropriate, they’ll try to tell you your friends are just jealous, they don’t get it, no one understands, etc. They’ll attempt to isolate you so no one can open your eyes to what’s really going on. they’ll try to convince you that the people trying to help you are just jealous.

They’ll pretend to feel bad for liking/wanting you: They’ll talk about how they know it’s wrong but “it feels right,” how they feel guilty but can’t help how they feel about you. They’ll try to normalize what’s happening and convince you they’re not a bad person.

If someone tells you “i’d date you if you were older” that’s a BIG red flag

Another huge red flag is if they consistently pressure you for pictures of yourself.

There might be more I think of later. feel free to reply with any I haven’t listed.

Above all else, never feel guilty for blocking someone. if you feel uncomfortable, the block button exists for a reason. if an adult or someone in power ever makes you uncomfortable, please take the necessary actions to keep yourself safe.

The above signs aren’t always necessarily grooming. grooming is a form of manipulation. sometimes people are creepy and cross boundaries without intentions to groom you— but that’s still not okay, you can block them!

definition of grooming. not all sexual harassment/abuse is grooming, but none of it is acceptable or okay at all and should still be reported

“what do i do if someone is being inappropriate?”

- Screenshot EVERYTHING

- Block them

- If it’s in a server or other organization/group, notify those in power

- If you can’t do that, either expose them yourself or ask a trusted adult to help you. you can stay anonymous

Remember: if they did it to you, they might have done it to others. I know coming forward is terrifying… but if you can, please do.

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watsername · 1 year ago

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In my city activist groups have specific inner guidelines to let people through during emergencies and not doing that is clearly so dangerous and stupid, I'm very sorry that happened.

You said "guilting people going about their daily lives" but I think that is needed: we cannot go about our daily lives, this situation demands for everyone to wake up (meaning voting for and demanding these changes from politicians, participating in boycotts of for example meat and oil, stopping flying... even when these things are difficult for an individual in this society, we are in a situation in which we need to do difficult things). Clearly they have failed in the communication aspect of the protest (communicating what and how to change and why) but I don't think the way of protest itself is flawed. Roadblocks etc are used because they get attention, hopefully make people think and they signify understanding of the brokeness of the societal agreement.

Idk I understand your point and the frustration but I don't think frustration itself is always a dangerous feeling. If you feel like there are better ways to get the change that is urgently needed, that's amazing, please put all your power towards that. But in the end I feel like diverse forms of civic action are needed, even the ones that are "guilt-tripping" (although I do agree that they need to be more clear about offering the solutions).

youre missing the point . they’re not guilting peopel by giving them other options . they’re just shouting about people driving being monsters and killing the planet like . that’s not productive to anyone . urging individual action is a good thing but harassing people and causing disruption without means for good cause is just not how protesting works . because it makes you look like you’re doing it for no reason . they’re not a good climate activist group . and inciting change isn’t gonna work through harassing someone eating meat like pets does or throwing things in the roads like just stop oil does my criticism of them isn’t a criticism of individual change and i think you misinterpreted my words to take that point away . because it’s a criticism of their strategy of activism not of this kind of activism in general you can argue things like militancy garners more attention but this group have done nothing in effect with the attention they’ve been getting they’re just pulling more stunts without actually promoting any way to aid in environmentalism beyond ‘join our group’ there are other environmental activist causes that need more attention who have lobbied parliament or have support from mps .

individual change isn’t everything either if everyone decreased their driving and meat intake we’d still be left with masses and masses of emissions from fast fashion plants manufacturing plants fracking non biodegradable plastic production and you’re right that needs public support but they’re not going to get it through their methods of being total cunts even the just stop oil people in my own city have only ever given me pamphlets on joining their group never been asked to sign a petition never been given any information on how to reduce my personal co2 emissions and it’s the same for everyone else i know . idk if it’s the same for others but in my city they don’t do anything tiger than promote themselves with no substance under why we should do that . they’re a pretty bad activist group because they don’t know HOW to gain support from the public and they aren’t doing anything to show you what their group is actually doing besides viral stunts .

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autisticlee · 6 months ago

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very rambly rambles about stuff and things

i feel like I have some sort of ptsd thing when it comes to people asking/begging me for help by giving them money and stuff. because i'm a magnet for those type of people....and i've had some unpleasant experiences with them. don't misunderstand, I DO WISH TO HELP PEOPLE. but i'm disabled and poor and struggling myself! but it's difficult having people aggressively come after me while being autistic, already traumatized by people in general, very on edge all the time, lost and confused, and because I don't process things quickly it well and don't have the correct skills and abilities to deal with and speak to strangers.

I already live with a guilty conscience and feel like shit when I can't help people. i'm easily used and manipulated because I feel like I need to help everyone all the time because I was taught growing up and ignore myself and my needs and live for others. so people could easily cheat and scam me because of that. they can attack me and do whatever because I fsnt scream. I can't ask for help. my fight or flight ends up being freeze and I don't have the voice ability to speak or yell for help.

I have given money to people who yelled they're homeless and need money because I was frightened and didn't know what to do because they wouldn't leave and were in my face making me about to meltdown and cry. i've had them block me, trap me, corner me, and not let me leave until I gave them money and get very upset if i have none and say im lying. i've had them follow me at night on dark streets, drunk and loud and feeling dangerous and only left when I gave them the very little emergency or food money i had. they've screamed at me because it wasn't enough, but I just wanted them to leave but couldn't speak or yell back. i've had them threaten me, harass me, say gross sexual stuff, and describe how they'd kill me in great detail. i've had them grab hold of me, shaking me screaming to give them money and feed their kids, trying to drag me away with them, refusing to let go. i've had them follow me around for an hour in broad daylight begging for money, trying to guilt trip me, the crowd around me ignoring my silent pleas for help. not listening to me when I manage to barely speak out I have no money (I truly did not) and telling me i'm a selfish liar and i'm the only one who can help them and i'll go to hell and if I don't help and they hope bad things happen to me.

every time I go to a city, these kinds of experiences happen. people tell me not to give them money because they'll waste it. people tell me to ignore them, don't even look at them. I do ignore them. I can't speak to them. I look at the ground when I walk so I dont fall because my disability makes walking hard. I don't make eye contact. but it still doesn't work. i'm still a magnet for these people.

I feel bad that they make me feel so uncomfortable and frightened and make me have a trauma response when they do these things. I feel bad that I can't help. I know they need help. I also need help and don't get the help I need. but i'm not the one that can help them. why do they always come after me? why do these experiences make my brain do a trauma response? why do I freeze while internally melting down? why can't I just scream at them to leave me alone? why does ignoring them do nothing? why they grab me and trap me and not let me go? I don't carry cash anymore! I can't give them any! don't know how to use atm! cant feed myself and rely on parents to provide things for me! so can't feed you and your kids! sorry! 😭😭 would help if I was rich I promise! Will help everyone if csm become rich

where i'm going with this....oh yeah. those blogs sending asks to donate to help escape war, you know the ones? getting those triggers same response in me. makes me feel awful I can't do anything but feels like they try to guilt trip and trap me. I want to help. if I was rich! I saw some are fake too so never know the truth. don't have the brain power to figure it out. but getting told "hope you donate to me to help escape death" after I say sorry I don't have money unfortunately maybe a follower does makes me feel horrible because I guilt trip myself too everyday that I can't change the world and help everyone all the time, but also get the fight or flight freeze trauma response even if it's just an ask 😭

does this make me a bad person? is it wrong to feel this way? is it bad to view these people as scary and a threat when they just need help? should I help everyone anyway even when i'm struggling just because they "have it worse"? am i selfish for not helping everyone? or am I bad if I give some of my lunch money to make someome leave when i'm told not to? am I doing everything wrong by getting people irl to always come after me even when I think i'm ignoring them? is it bad if I feel uncomfortable by getting asks from random blogs asking for money to "escape death" and not donating because i'm struggling in my own way and also not sure what to trust? 😭😭😭😭😭 maybe if I can get on disability I can get money and donate more. I try to donate a few dollars a year to charity groups like trans/lgbt charity every pride months if able and to st Jude every year if able. I volunteer at wildlife center to help animals. I try to do good even when struggling. is it not enough? am I still doing bad? if not meant to help everyone and need to "take care of self" why do I feel very bad? 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#lee rambles #just rambling about feeling guilt and trauma and like bad person because of it #feel useless and cant help anyone. cant help self. but want to help everyone. dont know how! feel bad.#brain very tired. trying to make that feeling words for this post. hard. exhausting. time for bed

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wis-art · 14 days ago

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Heavy Self harm/suicide attempt TW btw

oh lemme talk about this, this is from me asking sawyer about all of this, i have been plunged into this argument between both of them after they both have harassed me for months, of course mari, the alleged person who has raped sawyer was harassing me under a threat of a callout like this, and generally because she was very scared of sawyer and because of the constant guilt tripping to harass me and salem. After roughly a month of harassment, and death threats and genuine transphobia and blackmailing mari has received by sawyer based on her allegations, i have asked sawyer hey. What happened? Mari was clearly too intoxicated to even remember any of this happening. I wanted to hear everyone out but now seeing how you treat me reaching out to you as potential victim and trying to spin it as me harassing you when all i wanted to do is get a full picture, not including the part where i say sorry that happened, i wish it never did please take care of yourself.

I have spent many traumatic nights with Mari trying to get her to not die, as she was bleeding on the bed when all this was happening, she was really going through self hating episodes caused by constant HARASSMENT that included calling her parents, calling her friends, constant telling her that she is an irredeemable monster, and me as a person completely out of the loop, who has not followed or known about any of this, I helped Mari out despite the months of harassment i received from her, I don't really know what else thing is the right thing to do, a crying disturbed suicidal trans woman is coming into my dms telling me about the harassment she faced from sawyer over the year they dated, she has showed me their dms she has told me stories, and it was constant guilt tripping, constantly telling her "you're not good enough" "you are cheating on me emotionally" Any insecurity Mari had, sawyer exploited to wrap her around her finger. I am telling you all of this, because i think this is very important as to what happened, this wasn't innocent victim, this is an abuser who has abused the shit out of very vulnerable transgender rape victim and cut her off from her friends and inspirations, even prior to the incident that i will get to soon (that i still can barely wrap my head around).

Let me also add, that i had really good reasons as to not trust sawyer, she has done nothing but lied about me, salem and anybody who was involved with him. Taking truth and then stretch it out to be the worst possible, taking it out of context and generally showing only the parts that look like i am the most horrible person ever. For example, claiming salem is a sexual abuser because he, as a 18-19 year old highschooler and another highschooler he was dating at the time, sawyer has joined the relationship forming a polycule, as someone with a job and generally a bit older in life, after knowing salem's ex gf prior to being 18 for years on end, calling them both as sexual abusers, groomers and zoophiles and whatnot. The sexual abuser part specifically strikes me as really dishonest because it stems from salem and his ex talking in a GC about kinks and fetishes they are into, in a GC that sawyer was in, and like the adult sawyer was and still is, she claims that this, talking about kinks in a GC between 2 hiughschoolers is Sexual abuse. Which really eroded my trust in anything this person has to say. And furthermore seeing how she talks about me to this day, like im friends with zoophiles, and her abuser (because i told her 4 separate times to fuck off from me and leave me the fuck alone and i wasn't particularly kind about it) and rapists, and whatever other crazy thing she can call me just strikes me as dishonest and insanely manipulative, i take her words with heavy grain of salt.

The reason why they are telling you that i am a monster who is friends with rapists(to my understanding), is because one night both Mari and Sawyer took edibles, that fucked them up Mari was essentially comatose, she barely can remember what happened that night and sawyer can clearly recall everything, which immediately raises some serious red flags about who was able to consent and who wasn't but anyways, months later she comes out telling everyone how Mari raped her over that night, I can't tell you what happened as Mari's side is too blurry to remember and took me forever to piece it together, which is why i asked what happened directly to sawyer i thought she deserves to be heard out, and you can clearly hear what i am saying in the screenshots, recalling mari's side of the story and then listening to Sawyer's side of the story to clear it out and compare it all. They hit me with that ad homonym of "oh she doesnt care she just said hm" like that matters to any of this in the slightest, the screenshots are missing me trying to comfort her about any of this as i took her at face value initially which did make Mari very angry and caused a rift between us to the point we stopped talking, which is i think okay, i cannot blame her for that decision at all and i hate that i am telling all of this in this level of granular detail, because i don't think this deserves to be public knowledge to everybody. Mari had three separate suicide attempts that have left permanent scars on her body that month we talked, and clearly the thought of sexually assaulting her ex disturbed her, she was doing nothing but apologizing, every day, begging for forgiveness, being unable to cope with the weight of her *alleged* actions and it really didn't help that her ex's family would be sending her goku memes "dumb tranny rapist kill yourself" and other transmisoginist classics. From what Mari has said, this relationship was nothing but sawyer's traumadumping and treating mari as sex meat, not much more than a machine to regulate sawyer's own emotions, day after day mari would ask her to please spend more time talking about mari and less about salem and wis, to not focus so much on her ex salem and her new gf wis, to give her compliments (which was also met with tons of lashing out and saying "how dare you say that i dont compliment you enough") it was a toxic relationship in which both parties hurt each other but, and i really REALLY have time believing sawyer after the amount of harassment i have faced from her and her cronies on the internet, and also the way that salem was treated by her, constantly guilt tripped until he wanted to kill himself which was later called "suibaiting" and put on the internet to made fun of by sawyer, even after they broke up and being told salem wants nothing to do with her, she insisted that salem needs to apologize and that, actually no that isn't a good enough apology and he is an unredeemable monster, which has also happened to Mari.

It is an insane abuser that wants to ruin anybody who disagrees with her and her way of going around things, even *if* Mari is guilty, I don't really see how that makes ME a bad person, how helping out a suicidal trans woman in her most vulnerable moment makes me a bad person, I did not have the full context and i doubt i ever will have it. As it stands, this to me is another case of TME chaser calling out their Trans girlfriend as rapist on the internet and cozing up with extremely transphobic people and anybody who doesn't bend over to their demands is labeled as some kind of degenerate.

im sorry wis raped someone??? HUH???

no. Mari, an woman who dated sawyer, had met with them irl. sawyer had very little experience with edibles, but was pressured into taking them, anyways. mari had extensive, experience. so when sawyer greened out, then fell unconscious. they woke up with mari inside them. mari knew sawyer was asexual, and that they had far less experience with drugs.

mari confessed all of this to wis. who confronted sawyer, immediately telling them that mari was going to kill herself, because sawyer was not forgiving her, for repeatedly, abusing and sexually assaulting them. mari repeatedly said, "i am a rapist" to wis. who told them, "no you arent". without even understanding the context of the situation and before even bothering to ask her victim. when questioned. sawyer told wis everything. who immediately responded, "oh thats bad actually". yet STILL, defended the person she NOW SOLIDLY KNOWS is a rapist abuser. but because it is sawyer. it is fine, to do this.

wis defended this TO THE PRESENT DAY, with, "this trans woman was on drugs, that altered her state of mind." weed DOES NOT significantly alter your mind, like this. you are fully conscious and aware, of your behavior. and even then. INTOXICATED RAPE IS STILL RAPE. if you cannot trust yourself to not assault others, while under the influence. YOU SHOULD NOT TAKE THESE SUBSTANCES. you are at the end of the day wis, defending a fucking rapist, and continuing, to harm her victim.

responding to a detailed account of assault, with "hm". not even attempting, to empathize, with the fucking victim.

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pinejayy · 2 years ago

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Bob Velseb x Reader Headcanons

SFW and NSFW Headcanons

Trigger warning: cannibalism, blood and knife play, Bob being manipulative, sexual content

SFW HEADCANONS

Bob loves to cuddles you, you two could be laying next to each other and he would just snuggle you. And he probably won’t let go of you until you beg him to.

You can’t keep in contact with family members or friends because they will be a target. So it’s just you and Bob. But he’s definitely already went after them but you don’t know yet…

You already know that he’s a cannibal, it took awhile to get used to but soon after you accepted him. But he wanted you to also take part of it and one day he asked if you wanted a burger made from human and you obviously said no which made him angry. Bob tried convincing you but you still didn’t give in.

Until one day he had enough and disguised his human burger as a normal one. He assured you that it was a normal burger. He smiled as he watched you eat it and chuckles to himself when you said “it was the best burger you’ve ever had.”

That’s when he broke down laughing and you looked at him. Confused. Until he confessed to you and of course you were upset and you began telling him and that’s when he began guilt tripping you “What’s wrong? You don’t like it? I made this for you I’ve never made anyone a burger like this! You don’t love me huh!” That’s when you just stopped him from saying anything more, you were upset at him but soon after you accepted it…that’s all he wanted.

Bob is very manipulative and he knows what to say to you. He always knows how to get his way. You’re always memorized by his voice and the way he talks.

Like “Come on darlin, do this for me. You’ll make me proud.” Or “You don’t want to disappoint me right?”

But deep down Bob does care about you he really does. But he’s just an awful human being and he doesn’t know how to treat someone else but he’ll learn soon enough…

Bob loves showing you how to cook, so you’ll be his little helper. And you both have matching aprons. Very cute!

Since he can’t go in public he just sends you whenever he needs something from the store. And if you came back crying or if someone was harassing you he’ll make sure they suffer and that they are his next meal.

You love stealing his hoodies, they are huge on you and he thinks you look cute on them.

Since you guys can’t do couple stuff outside in the daytime you guys do go for walks in the woods at nighttime. Also you both love having cute picnic dates in the woods.

Your favorite game with Bob is Hide n Seek.

But Bob loves any kind of physical touch and craves your attention so sometimes he can be overwhelming and doesn’t understand personal space. So please be patient with him.

NSFW HEADCANONS

Bob loves leaving bite marks and hickeys all over your body especially around your shoulders and neck. He also loves biting you until you bleed.

When you guys are in the bedroom having your Funtime he loves doing knife play along with blood play. Bob will drag the knife around your neck and shoulders. He would also put some pressure on the knife, just enough to draw blood. He would either lick up the blood and moan softly telling you good you taste. Or he would drag his finger on the fresh cut and draw little hearts or “MINE” with your blood all over your body.

He loves your body, he can’t enough of it. He especially loves going down on you. The way you taste drives him crazy. The way you moan his name makes him hard. He can spend hours down there mmm. Tasty.

But he’s always on top, he doesn’t care if you want to be on top he’s the top. Speaking of top. He will only allow you on top is when you’re riding him. He just loves the way you move against him and the way your hips are moving.

But his favorite position is missionary because he can easily hold you close against his body, and he will also drag his nails against your back and thighs. He also loves any position that puts him in the advantage.

Bob loves it when you tease him, he loves when kiss his neck and shoulders. He also melts whenever you whisper in his ear. Whispering sweet things or dirty things. “You’re so beautiful, I love you sweetheart.” But he goes crazy whenever you whisper dirty things to him.

“Is it okay if I make you feel good daddy…” you whisper softly to him. And your hand would slowly go down to his pants. Squeezing his hard member through his pants. And if you were to do this he would quickly take off his bottoms and grab your head and force himself into your mouth. He will be enjoying himself.

He loves receiving blowjobs, but god forbid you touch yourself while you give him his blowjob. He’ll make sure that your punished.

He’s also into tying you up. He loves watching you struggle. And oh he definitely loves choking you.

He likes roleplaying. His favorite thing to role play with you is that your the helpless victim and he’s the killer. “Like please don’t kill me mister I’ll do anything.”

But HE WILL TAKE CARE OF YOU AFTER YOU GUYS ARE DONE. So like a bunch of cuddles and kisses.

But he’s great with aftercare. He will run you a warm bath or just hold you close and whisper sweet things to you. But god he’s crazy over you. He loves you. He’s obsessed with you.

Your his and ONLY HIS. And don’t ever think about leaving him because you’ll regret it.

#bob velseb x reader #bob velseb #headcanons

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books-and-catears · 4 years ago

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Hey, Hey, Hey! It’s been a minute but I didn’t wanna spam ya with requests while you have life stuff to deal with ☺️

This is similar to my Savage!MC ask but the brothers reacting to MC snapping at them and defending Mammon before calling the brothers out whenever they go too hard on him. Let’s be real, Mammon just acts on his sin and gets punished but when Lucifer’s a prick and threatens MC; crickets.

When Beel eats everything and damn near causes everyone to starve as well as threw a tantrum and nearly injured MC over custard;everyone turns a blind eye.

Levi guilt trips and whine over the smallest things but says the worst insults to Mammon and tried to kill MC over TSL.

Asmo acts like he’s above everyone and prefers to tend to his looks than help others (such as during the castle tour) but he gets no scolding.

Belphie routinely harasses Luci with Satan (who loses his temper) AND they all either threatened/killed MC but should Mammon do anything, he’s the worst. Even though Mammon:

- Never threatened MC

- Does shit for his brothers when asked (he may joke of needing a grimm but he’s an Avatar of greed and still gets the job done)

- Is very loyal to them

- And is a good brother to take falls for them. He knows how to sacrifice for them and the slightest inconvenience gets him thrown under the bus

These guys ain’t shit and I wouldn’t wanna be around them until they learn how to treat him better and equally work on their flaws rather than rip on Mammon, who’s a whole ass victim despite being the second strongest brother who takes it because he genuinely loves his brothers yet gets shit on by them so much.

Ooh this savage MC has nothing but heart eyes for Mammon and it's adorable. Right this one is going to be angsty and it's going to sting. I'm doing this in a short story instead of a headcannon cause it just seems right that way. Hope that's okay?

It was just another one of those days Mammon tried to steal his brothers stuff and sell it again. Another day of being upside down and being laughed at. Normally he wouldn't care - it was the usual routine. But something seemed off this time.

"Mammon.. are you okay?" You approach him. He was rubbing his shoulders and arms as if to comfort the pain. He looked more tired and pained than usual.

"Ah I'm alright MC. Just the same old ya know?" He laughed. It sounded hollow yet it pierced your heart.

Enough. Enough of this. You weren't going to stand by and watch this happen again.

"You should rest." You place an arm on his shoulder and take him to his room. Making sure he's asleep, you leave. You have some problematic demons to deal with it.

"Ah MC? What brings you here? You seem rather disturbed." He asks as you storm into his study, fuming with anger.

"You tell me, you sadistic peacock." You had lost all sense of self-preservation and normalcy. Just echoing the rage in your brain.

"Excuse me?" Lucifer said, half-amused, half-shocked.

"Either you stop treating Mammon this way or I will make your life hell." You grit your teeth.

"I already have my brothers doing that what more will you do MC? Besides Mammon had it coming. He went stealing Levi's and Asmo's things again." Lucifer said nonchalantly.

"What do expect from the Avatar of Greed? He's just acting how he's cursed to. Just like the rest of you, nicompoops. Stop listening through the door and come inside." You said loudly.

The other brothers were still in the corridor nearby overhearing the whole thing. You could hear them gasp loudly at your boldness and scutter inside one by one.

"Now let me elaborate, so you rotten cucumbers understand me clearly." You cleared your throat.

Leviathan

"This little snake in tried to kill me because I may have known a little bit more about his favourite anime than him. Where's his punishment?" You point at Levi.

"MC I'm sorry...I couldn't help it was too new to me." Levi started. "But Mammon keeps stealing my things how is that fair-"

"And you keep throwing us into new kinds of disasters with your game hoarding problem."

"If you're still mad about the TSL incident I swear I take it all back-"

"Shut up snake, we know the reason. You're the Avatar of Envy. Getting jealous is your whole point. So you didn't get punished. Moving on..." Your finger now points to Satan. "This wild cat."

Satan

"He also threatened me cause I didn't want to make a pact with him. And when he actually flies off his handle, he wrecks his room and half the house down."

Satan seemed like he wanted to say something but he scowled and looked away.

"However I won't be too hard on him, cause he tries to keep his thing in check. And the whole reason he even has Wrath is because of Lucifer. So I get your hate towards Lucifer, but Mammon doesn't deserve any of it."

"MC you know I can't tolerate stupidity-" He grumbled.

"Oh must be hard looking in the mirror then, with all your failed pranks. And speaking of mirrors, this over- perfumed mannequin." You turn to Asmo.

Asmodeus

"How have I possibly hurt anyone MC? You know I stand for Love too right?" Asmo said, batting his pretty little eyes.

"For someone who stands for LOVE, if you can even call it that," You make a disgusted face, "You surely love making a mockery out of your elder brother and revel in his misery, you over- perfumed potato."

"But I never cause problems do I? Why must I be punished just for standing by?"

"Your high and mighty sense of worth is an illusion you live in. You dress up pretty and act social to validate yourself, trying to conceal the ugliness within. Truly you are nothing but Lust. Also you're the reason we almost got eaten by a giant snake." You shake your head. "Now speaking of eating..."

Beelzebub

"This giant food vaccum." You point to Beel. "He tried to eat me over a custard. Like excuse me? There's still plenty of food outside? And let's not forget that week we all had to eat cup ramen for a week cause he finished the whole pantry."

Beel softly muttered and apology and looked down.

"He even ate the walls and pillars once! Surely those renovations cost way more than however much Mammon steals? Where's his punishment?!"

"MC enough. He's sorry already." Beel's twin spoke up. You glared at him and smiled. "Don't worry I saved the best for last."

Belphegor

"This lazy murderous cow." You walk up to him slowly. "Not only does everyone have to your chores - you love causing chaos."

Belphie laughed, "That I do. But that's only with Lucifer. What else did I do?"

"Oh you want me to go there? I surely will." You say with a sting in your eye. "In your plan to avenge your sister, you killed what was left of her in the first timeline. And your brothers just stood by and watched. Where's your penance, you murder hornet?"

Belphie's eyes grew wide. Everyone looked shocked and uncomfortable. You never brought this up before now.

"But why bother asking you about it. I should be asking the ultimate punisher of this family." You turn to Lucifer.

Lucifer

"Ah! If it isn't Diavolo's pet dog! How is your master today? Does he treat you the way you treat Mammon? Is that why you come here to take your revenge on your little brother instead? Tell me Lucifer does Diavolo punish you then?"

"MC, I understand you maybe upset but you are crossing a line here." Lucifer stood up with a gutteral growl.

"Sit doggie. I didn't ask for you yet." You commanded. Lucifer sat back down as with great force. He stared at you flummoxed.

"Did you forget about the pacts already, you pompous goat? You have threatened and tried to kill me more than anyone else in this family so congratulations! I will use my pacts way more generously now." You mock bowed in gratitude.

"You might win in a fight against him but let me tell you this..." You stared back at the others.

"Mammon is the second strongest in this family. If he wanted to - if he REALLY wanted to, all of you would be turned to dust. He is stronger than all of you - but he hides it. He supresses his powers and his anger because he loves you too much. How could he ever hurt his little brothers?" You felt tears in your eyes at this point.

"AND THIS IS HOW YOU REPAY HIM? He's only acting on his sin! Just like the rest of you! Why must he be singled out and mocked at? I won't allow it. Never again."

"If you hurt Mammon again, I swear you will have to face me. And before you think you have a chance against me, do remember the pacts you all happily made with me I will not hesitate to use them against you dysfunctional lot-"

"MC... Stop." You felt Mammon hug you from behind.

"Mammon? I thought you were asleep." You say looking back at him. His tears were misty but his smile more full.

"And I thought I was supposed to protect ya, human! And you're out here protecting me..." Mammon trailed off and held you closer.

"We can protect each other."

#obey me mammon #obey me headcanons #obey me imagine #obey me satan #obey me game #obey me levi #obey me belphie #obey me beel #obey me asmo #obey me lucifer #obey me angst #obey me mammon x reader #obey me mammon x mc

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captnjacksparrow · 3 years ago

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Just saw that disturbing post. Sorry about your friend 😔 Are you really going to leave?

I don't know. A week before I enjoyed this place and was looking forward to everything. But Right now I don't even like to open this website. That's why my post frequency has reduced these days despite having so many answers that are ready to post at anytime.

I am an active blocker. Meaning, I block everything and anything that could annoy, harass, disgust me in the future. Even if that said blogger hasn't interacted with any of my posts.

As it happens, there was this day, I got someone as my follower with TOTAL OPPOSITE TO WHAT I STAND FOR. My impulsive instinct told me to block right away.

But I consulted my friend Dinain, before I was about to block that person.

You know what she advised me???

They might be looking for different povs....

Of course, If someone Had asked me the same question, I would've advised them to block the fuck out and be chill and sane. But my friend used the very important word.... MIGHT BE.. looking for povs...

She was being harassed by Sasuke stans and Uchiha apologists relentlessly for the past 2 years by charging false accusations... And yet she never judged them based on her bitter experience. I always believe in Optimism but not to this extent though...

This harasser's nasty words of Bottles and Urethra reminded me of a real life r*pe incident that happened in my mom's village and the torture devices that monster used to r*pe her was a glass bottle and some bamboo stick. That woman was dead right after that incident. And that disgusting post totally made me restless for that entire day and I even puked.

Such an Optimistic person getting bullied makes you question about everything, you know.

Why is this fandom actively seeks hunts other people who don't agree with their opinion??? Either assholes be making passive aggressive posts by saying, "Some people be like..." Or reblog sarcastically by making everything personal about themselves even though it was just some fucking Anime Opinions which has nothing to do with them in the first place and then when you argue back with valid points, they do this nasty act of victimizing themselves by saying, "Oh!!! I wasn't myself... I got emotionally instable while writing it..." Or guilt tripping us by saying, "How can you support a writing which promotes Genocide??".

Morons.

#anti sasuke apologists #anti sasuke stans #sasuke stans are vile and disgusting.... just like sakura stans who sends death threats

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yanderedanganronpa · 3 years ago

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Hey welcome back!! Can I request yandere pregame kokichi general headcanons! Take as long as you need <3

Yandere Pregame Kokichi Headcannons

tw: manipulation, slight bullying?

thanks for the warm welcome and I saw you in my inbox, just wanted to thank you for that too. It’s always nice to see that people enjoy my content <3 on a side note, I am not liking how I wrote this at all, so if you have any suggestions to make it better, i’m listening! B)

Kokichi is someone who mostly keeps to himself, someone who watches from the sidelines and sneers at everyone else. He’s never had many friends, many just a few at a time if any. He just doesn’t bother at this point.

However he’s not all bad he’s just kind of over it if you know what I mean. He’s been through it all, he’s seen something’s and is just done. I believe he’s still a capable leader, even if he doesn’t have an organization just yet.

Kokichi is more a fan of guilt tripping, things of that nature as manipulation opposed to other tactics, with his small frame and demeanor he lets others assume what they will.

That’s what he wants; underestimation.

So that when you least expect it he uses his actual skills and intellect that you would never expect from the small boy you thought you knew.

You would learn this fact well when the strange man soon took a liking to you from across a room, accidentally meeting eyes his dark purple eyes. Little did you know you made a big mistake catching his attention. A mistake that you would learn to regret for the rest of your life.

He felt you captivating his every single thought, and he needed to know more.

On your way back from work you “accidentally” bumped shoulders with a familiar face you swear you’ve seen before.

Because of his charm and disarming attitude you felt yourself at ease at the immediate red flags you should’ve taken note of as he made conversation with you.

Ever since he’s befriended you he always has an excuse to be around you.

Purposely doing whatever to get closer to you in any way he could.

You almost don’t even question it because he’s so charming, using his smooth talk to get out of almost anything. You felt like you couldn’t question him.

He looks so harmless, he’d purposefully put himself in dangerous situations in front of you to gain some sympathy or something of the sort.

You felt as if you needed to protect him, he’s so clumsy and accident-prone.

How else could he have gotten all those marks?

It’s gotten past the point of endearing clinginess and playful touching. You rarely get any alone time anymore, being around him makes you uncomfortable, way too handsy for your liking, bordering on harassment most of the time. Its like he doesn’t even see you as a person, not caring what you want to do or say.

No matter where you go, who you talk to, he somehow always knows and either asks you about it later, demanding to know what you were doing, who you were with or will just show up there and ask what your up to with a threatening tone of voice. You felt like you couldn’t decline his will. You had no choice with him.

If you try to reach out to your friends, they don’t respond, they don’t even make eye contact with you anymore. Trying to confront them in real life won’t fix anything either, pretending as if your not even there.

You feel so isolated, so lonely but kokichi assures you he’ll always be there, and he’d never turn on you like your horrible friends did. A part of you believes he’s innocent in all this, but you can’t help but grow suspicious despite his flattering behavior.

No friends, no support system, just Kokichi. You’re all his now, and don’t even think about trying to leave him.

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phantomchick · 4 years ago

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Merlin fic rec list

To Be A King by clotpolesonly Teen And Up, No Archive Warnings Apply, Gen, Merlin and Arthur, Merlin and Mordred, Gwen/Arthur, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Merlin's Magic Revealed, Canonical Character Death, BAMF Merlin, Dragonlord Merlin, Original setting, Magical kingdom, King Merlin, Royal!Merlin Summary: When Merlin discovers that his father was an estranged prince and he himself is now the only heir to the throne of a magical kingdom, he is forced to leave Camelot for the perils of a royal court. Will Merlin be able to win Arthur's favor again before Morgana launches an attack on a defenseless Camelot? Will he be able to defend his own kingdom at the same time or will all be lost? -

A Matter of Sovereignty by Kizmet Gen, No Archive Warnings Apply, Friendship Summary A visiting prince takes it into his head to brutalize Merlin, but sometimes the solution to a problem is in how you phrase it.

Bumps and Bruises by platonic_boner merthur, implied/suspected abuse, Protective Arthur, Magic Revealed, pre-relationship, teen an up, canon typical violence,

Summary: Arthur notices Merlin’s constant injuries, and decides he needs to step in and protect Merlin.

Finding Home by riventhorn Arthur/Merlin, Hurt/Comfort Summary: Written for a kinkme_merlin prompt. When Gaius retires a new physician takes over and quickly kicks Merlin out of his room and takes it for himself. Arthur finds Merlin sleeping in the stables...and it's winter.

How To Love A Living Thing by Polomonkey Mature, merthur, Merlin/Arthur, Pendragon (Merlin), Hurt/Comfort, Abuse, Violence, Sexual Harassment, Drowning, Guilt, Romance, Protective Arthur, Mild Sexual Content, Redemption, Healing, Canon Era

Summary Guilt ridden and lonely after his confrontation with Nimueh, Merlin slowly begins to isolate himself from Arthur. When two knights take it upon themselves to teach him his place, Merlin finds himself with nowhere to turn. Will he be able to reach out to his prince before it's too late?

Obeisance by casspeach Gen, No Archive Warnings Apply, Merlin/Arthur

Summary: It's not that Arthur won't share his toys, just that he expects to get them back undamaged

All's Well That Ends Well by StormDancer explicit, Merlin/Arthur, Arthur Finds Out, magic reveal Summary: Merlin spent the week and a half that Arthur was gone splitting his time between crafting careful explanations that never ended up explaining the important things, the things that would make Arthur listen, and making half-baked plans to escape to Ealdor. He found a number of fire-proofing spells that would have no effect if they decided to cut his head off, and figured out how to adapt an invulnerability spell he had been trying to find a way to cast on Arthur without him noticing so that it would protect him from being decapitated, but it would have no effect on anything but metal. Despite all his frantic searching, he did not find a teleportation spell, because that would have been too simple and if there was one thing Merlin had learned in his years at Camelot, it was that nothing was ever simple.

Deeds by the5leggedCricket Merlin/Arthur Pendragon, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Soulmate-Identifying Marks, Alternate Universe - Soulmates, Episode Related, Oblivious Arthur Pendragon, Teen and Up,

Summary: Arthur is coming of age, and that means he’s about to get Deeds—marks on his body telling him of his soulmate’s greatest accomplishments. But as he tries to find his soulmate, he also makes some worrying discoveries about the kind of person his soulmate is.

Honorable Intentions by smilebackwards Gwaine/Merlin, Guinevere/Arthur Pendragon, Courtship, Protectiveness, Protective!Arthur, Teen and Up, Summary: There are several considerations Arthur would like to go over, starting with the state of Merlin's virtue.

Laundry's Hard Work by supercalvin Gen, Teen and Up, Canon Era, can be read as pre-slash, BAMF Merlin

Summary: Wasn't Merlin supposed to be...tiny? When the hell had he learned to use a sword and not fall on his backside? Where the hell did those scars from? What the hell?

or Arthur still thinks Merlin is the young boy he met ten years ago and he starts to notice things in his manservant that he wasn't aware had changed at all.

Fathom Me Out by supercalvin Merlin/Arthur, Canon Era, Magic Revealed, Teen and up,

Summary: After ten years, Arthur thinks he has Merlin all figured out. But as he watches Merlin, he finds out that he has more questions than answers. The longer he thinks about it, the more uneasy he feels. So he pushes it aside. Except, he can no longer ignore the questions he has about Merlin. Not your everyday reveal!fic

Loyalty Before Royalty by CaffeinatedFlumadiddle Gen, Gwen & Merlin, Arthur and Merlin being the most iconic duo? I think tf not, Gwen and Merlin wreaking havoc? Teaming up against Arthur? That's the most iconic duo there, as usual, Explicit Language, Fluff and Humor, Attempt at Humor, Arthur is so exasperated, someone help him, good thing he loves them both

Summary: "Where did you get that?" Arthur asked, but he already knew the answer. "Gwen." "...and the horse?" "Gwen." "What about the-" "Gwen." Merlin interrupted. Arthur nodded. At this point, he wasn't sure why he even bothered to ask. He was pretty certain his wife was going to knight Merlin any day now.He looked Merlin up and down for a few moments before accepting it all with a sigh. "As long as you get my armor to me tomorrow...I don't care." He finally said, turning away. Merlin cleared his throat. "Gwen gave me tomorrow off." "For the love of God." Or I hate that Gwen and Merlin's friendship kind of withered away in the later seasons so here's a oneshot about her and Merlin abusing her new royal powers because that's what happens when your best friend becomes queen.

Know It All Knight by Shi_Toyu Leon & Merlin, Knights of the Round Table, Magic Revealed, protective leon, Arthur Finds Out, Oblivious Arthur

Summary: Leon couldn’t say for sure when the exact moment was that he figured out Merlin had magic. He’d suspected it for a little while, to be honest. He definitely had it figured out by the time Arthur managed to ‘kill’ the Great Dragon. What Leon could say for sure was the exact moment he figured out that no one else had figured out Merlin had magic.

The Nature of Trust by Lynds Merlin's Magic Revealed, Leon is the Mam Friend, Leon is so done, Protective Gwaine, Lancelot Lives, Canon Era, Arthur Finds Out, Hurt Merlin, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Implied/Referenced Torture, Canon-Typical Violence, reference to hunting and cooking animals Summary: Leon starts to notice that the knights, one by one, are starting to trust Merlin's judgement. That he keeps warning Arthur about danger, and being right. Is there more to Merlin than meets the eye?

Repercussions by PeaceHeather Fix-It of Sorts, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Lecture, Rants, Episode: s02e06 Beauty and the Beast, Episode: s02e05 Beauty and the Beast, Canon Era, One Shot, Gen Summary: Uther married a troll. In canon, that all worked out fine eventually. In this slight canon divergence, there is at least one noble who's not willing to let it slide so easily.

No Harm Will Come to You Here by fancyh Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Season/Series 05, Merlin's Magic Revealed, Fluff and Angst, temporary amnesia, teen and up,

Summary: "That was magic," Arthur accuses.

"Oh." Merlin just nods, looking unperturbed.

Arthur fights to keep his expression calm, mind racing and heart pounding. "Sorcery is outlawed in Camelot. On pain of death."

Merlin splutters, finally fixing Arthur with an affronted glare. "It's not like I meant to do it!"

***

Merlin gets hit with a spell meant for Arthur and loses his memory. Revelations ensue. Set sometime after 5x02.

Metamorphose by clotpolesonly Merlin/Arthur, Teen and Up, Between Seasons/Series, Episode: s03e01 The Tears of Uther Pendragon (Part I), Episode: s03e02 The Tears of Uther Pendragon (Part II), Mpreg, Magic Reveal, Angst with a Happy Ending, Pining, morgana redemption, some transphobic language from Merlin when he finds out he’s pregnant because of magic but it’s mostly just the shock that does it Summary: When Merlin falls into bed with Arthur, he doesn't expect for to wake up alone. He doesn't expect Arthur to give him the cold shoulder either, but there is something else he expects even less which forces him out of the kingdom for over a year. He returns to find a traitor in the court, an army on the way, and a love he'd thought all but lost waiting for him with open arms.

Four Days To Fall In Love. by CupCakezys Teen and Up, No archive warnings apply, Merlin/Arthur, Morgana/Gwen, Soulmate AU, Arthur Knows About Merlin's Magic, Protective Arthur, Mutual Pining, Angst with a Happy Ending, Secret Relationship

Summary: In a world where everyone has a soulmate (or two or three), Arthur Pendragon knows he is destined to be alone. For Arthur can see his heartstring, could follow it to where his soulmate lived, and that could only mean one thing.

His soulmate had magic, and should they ever meet, Arthur would have to kill them.

Sacrificial Lamb by RurouniHime Angst and Humor, Pining, First Time, First Kiss, Post Season 1, Initial Misunderstanding, But it’s resolved, Happy Ending, Fluff with a touch of angst at first

Summary: Arthur's been overworking his knights, so they come to Merlin as a last resort.

Cheers and Spirits by CaffeinatedFlumadiddle Gen, The knights are kinda fools, but the best king, Humour, Fluff, Fluff and Humour, Knights of the Round Table & Merlin

Summary: Despite all the supposed trips to the tavern none of the knights have seen Merlin drunk. They decide to rectify that. A poor decision, really.

Circle 'round the Truth by enviropony Merlin + Knights friendship, Gen, Magic Reveal, Oneshot, Knights of the Round Table & Merlin Summary: They know about the magic. Or, more accurately, Merlin's magic is the truth the knights circle around, and Merlin's loyalty is the one 'round which they rally. (A character study with some yelling, an action sequence, and a bit of walking.) Post-S4.

Strict Justice by schweet_heart mutual pining, BAMF Arthur, magic reveal, canon au, oneshot, teen and up

Summary: After a particularly grueling battle, Merlin and Arthur share a quiet moment in their tent.

before it breaks by schweet_heart Teen and Up, Hurt/Comfort, Angst, merlin whump, magic reveal, merlin & arthur, merthur

Summary: “It’s not what it looks like,” he says, hand still outstretched, barely a waver in his voice as he lies, outright, to Arthur’s face. “Sire, I can explain.”

“Can you,” Arthur says. He’s aware that he’s trembling, a seismic reaction to the outrage and denial still fighting it out inside his head, but he knows what he’s seen. What it must be. “Well, then, you’d better be quick about it, because it looks a lot like magic.”

Until the Day I Die by Cookie Teen and Up, Oneshot, Angst, Temporary Character Death, Angst with a Happy Ending

Summary: Arthur believed Dragoon had killed his father, and so he plunged his sword deep into the sorcerer. Now Merlin was dying in his arms and Arthur was facing the future alone.

These Castle Walls Bleed Lies by marguerite_26 Mature, hurt/comfort, Magic Reveal, Angst, Merthur, mentions of arthur/gwen, Gwen/Lancelot

Summary: With his father unfit to rule and Camelot decimated, Arthur must assume the role of King. But the truths he discovers shake the foundation of all he holds dear.

before his eyes (he now sees clear) by hwc Teen And Up Audiences, Uther Pendragon is terrible and complicated, Merlin/Arthur

Summary: It takes Uther half a second to see Balinor in Merlin, and he's almost sure of what he should do.

Keep Your Secrets by new_kate, orphan_account Mature, rape/non-con, torture, captivity, romance, alternate universe - canon, canon typical violence, hurt/comfort

Summary: Arthur Pendragon is captured by the bandits. While he waits to be ransomed, he slowly gets to know Merlin, the prisoner being held in the next cell.

Crossing the Line by Ultrageekatlarge BAMF Merlin, Gen, Crack, Oneshot, Magic Reveal, Hurt! Merlin, Humour

Summary: In which Merlin gets bludgeoned, strangled, attacked, smothered, shot with glass, and tossed out a window, burned, whipped, stabbed, thrown down stairs, nearly drowned on dry land, and harpooned, and still manages to save Camelot from seven evil sorcerers, before lunch.

Your Touch Is My Salvation by elirwen Magic Reveal, Canon Era, Oblivious idiots in love, Curses, Teen and Up, Oneshot, Hurt/Comfort

Summary: Merlin suffers from an effect of a curse. Arthur can help more than he initially thought.

A Heavy Heart to Carry by Thursday_Next Rescue, Hurt/Comfort, Magic Reveal, Oneshot, Mature, Merlin/Arthur Pendragon

Summary: When Merlin is captured and injured, Arthur must face up to his own feelings for his manservant as well as the many secrets he discovers are being kept from him.

Can you do that? by no_nutcracker Merlin/Mithian, no archive warnings apply, Alternate Universe - Soulmates, Soulmate-Identifying Marks, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Episode: s04e11 The Hunter's Heart, Arthur & Merlin friendship

Summary: Merlin should be overjoyed. He just found his soulmate. If only she was not betrothed to Arhur.

His Remedy for Care by ArgentSleeper Teen and Up, canon au, Episode: s02e13 The Last Dragonlord, Angst, Canon Typical Violence, Hurt/Comfort, Fix It

Summary: Injured in the dragon attack in lieu of Arthur and afraid of being stopped from going on the mission, Merlin kept away from Gaius and never learned that Balinor was his father. Instead it's Arthur that puts two and two together as he seeks the dragonlord out, first to save his servant (not friend- they can't be friends), then to save his kingdom.

A Considerable Head Start by ughbutidontwantto BAMF Merlin, Gen, when villains have more regard for you than friends, Camelot has a serious class problem, Merlin deserves better

Summary: Merlin is frighteningly competent and his friends are correctly concerned. Obviously they're going to follow him out to the woods. And obviously they're not going to like what they hea

The Conscience of the King by ughbutidontwantto Gen, Post-Magic Reveal, Legal Drama, Oneshot, Friendship feels

Summary: Merlin's magic was revealed and now everyone has to deal with it in an official capacity since tragically most of these characters work in government. Arthur, predictably, is struggling to cope.

Out of Sight, Out of Mind by BabyStepsAreStillSteps Merlin Deserved Better, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Merlin Needs a Hug (Merlin), Episode: s05e09 With All My Heart, Fix It

Summary: When Arthur turned his back on the Dolma that he didn’t know was his manservant, Merlin reminded him that he was missing a very important member of their rescue party.

What if he hadn’t?

What They Owe Us by ironspidereilish Merlin/Arthur, Alternate Universe, Aredian’s a tax collector instead of a witch hunter but he’s still a bastard, Hurt/Comfort, Poverty, Angst with a Happy Ending, Protective Arthur Pendragon, BAMF Arthur, Canon Era, Romance, sexual coercion mentioned, BAMF Merlin

Summary: When Arthur finds out that the castle staff are having their wages held for weeks at a time and can no longer afford food or their homes, he will not rest until they are protected and Aredian is stopped.

The fact that Merlin’s stomach is rumbling while he delivers the prince his breakfast, and Arthur hates the thought of him suffering, only serves as extra motivation to fix this.

royal blood by Rona23 crack!fic, humour, comedy, Balinor Lives, Dragonlord things, Golden Age, Bamf Arthur, Bamf Balinor, Bamf Merlin, Fix It, Magic reveal, Oblivious Arthur, Merthur

Summary: ..... as if Balinor could be killed by Bandits O.o

Alternatively: An alternative take on Balinor surviving and saving Camelot. ... And then proceeding to hold the entire kingdom hostage, because he has a frigging Dragon at his disposal :)

- The way by Naelyn Episode: s04e11 The Hunter's Heart, POV Arthur Pendragon, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Oblivious Arthur, Until He’s Not, Hurt/Comfort, Merlin Deserved Better, Communication or lack thereof, Canon Divergence

Summary: "One more word out of you, and I swear to God I will send you into exile."

He knows it’s not the pyre, knows there’s much worse, but banishment would mean staying away from Arthur forever – and, as pathetic as that might sound, he thinks he would rather die than let that happen. It is clear that the feeling is not reciprocated, clear that in Arthur’s eyes, he will never come first. There’ll always be people coming before him, and he’s made peace with that long ago – but if even Agravaine can come before him, then anyone could, no? Anyone could replace him. Call Merlin a traitor and have Arthur get rid of him. Anyone could.

Merlin no longer feels safe in Camelot.

or: Arthur threatens Merlin of banishment. To Arthur's eyes, it's all forgotten. To Merlin's, however... Well, let's just say that his faith in their mutual destiny, once unwavering, finds itself faltering at a dangerously quick rate.

Better in the Mourning by CaffeinatedFlumadiddle Gen, Lancelot & Merlin, Knights of the Round Table & Merlin, Grief, Fluff and Angst, Gwen/Lance mentioned, let the characters grieve, 5 Knights of Grief

Summary: Merlin mourns Lancelot's death. The rest of the knights help out. (AKA Merlin gets to take advantage of not having to keep a dead loved one a secret and gets some goddamn support in this castle)

I suppose that I look different (without the robes and crown) by WingedWolf121 Canon Era, Episode: s05e03 The Death Song of Uther Pendragon, Uther Pendragon’s A + Parenting, Ygraine/Uther, Arthur/Merlin, Balinor/Hunith, Dragonlord Merlin, BAMF Merlin, Fix-It, Angst with a Happy Ending

Summary: When Arthur blows the horn of Cathbdhah for the second time, the horn doesn’t just send Uther to the other world. It sends Arthur away as well – to a world where Ygraine never died, the Great Purge never happened, and magic lives freely at court. As do those who practice it.

For Your Information by reni_days Merlin & Uther, Merlin/Arthur, Modern Era au, Oneshot, Teen and Up

Summary: Merlin sighs. "After your...announcement," he explains, "your father decided he needed a bit more information. Which is apparently where I come in. I'm sort of like his gay tutor, it's hard to explain."

Good Fortune by platonic_boner Canon Era, Fluff, Merlin/Arthur, Oneshot

Summary: Arthur makes Merlin a lord, and Merlin does an astonishingly good job of running a village.

Within Reach by foxy_mulder Explicit, Enemies to Friends to Lovers, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Sex, Merlin/Arthur, Angst with a Happy Ending, Oneshot, Slowburn

Summary: Nobody touches Arthur.

Merlin realizes it slowly, and when he does, he wants to kick himself for not seeing sooner. ___________ (Or, Arthur and Merlin's relationship with touch over time.)

Moment of Weakness by TheAsexualofSpades Gen, Fluff and Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Angst with a Happy Ending, Arthur Knows About Merlin's Magic, Protective Knights, Protective Arthur Pendragon, Protective Merlin, Whump, Oneshot, Merlin/Arthur

Summary: After all Merlin's gone through, you'd think it would take some world-ending magic spell or an almost successful attempt on Arthur's life to shake him properly.

It isn't one of those, and Merlin has no idea why.

He just knows he can't be weak.

The Only Reward Bestowed Upon Me by greatdumbking Gen, Oneshot, Merlin/Arthur, angst, hurt/comfort, angst with a happy ending, Episode: s04e05 His Father's Son, Fix-It, Agravaine, Canon Era, Love Confessions

Summary: “You’re wrong Merlin. I don’t need anyone. I can’t afford that luxury. The kingdom's my responsibility now, and mine to bear alone. And you must learn to accept that.”

How could this hurt so much, a third time? Merlin could feel the façade of his casual indifference faltering. His face fell, tears were clawing at his throat, creeping into his eyes. It took all his effort to nod, steel his eyes, and swallow down the rising sob.

(How did Merlin get chosen the be the bait? Why did Arthur start pushing Merlin away? Why couldn't he see how much it was hurting him?)

Maybe Not the Most Awkward Dinner to Happen in Camelot's Citadel, but it's Definitely Up There by HopePrevails Gen, Gwen/Arthur Pendragon, Merlin, Fluff, Domestic Fluff, Oneshot, Humour, past Gwen/Merlin

Summary: When an argument about whether Merlin is remotely attractive or not breaks out over dinner, Queen Guinevere accidentally drops into the conversation that she had a crush on him when he first arrived in Camelot. Arthur takes it... like Arthur.

--x--

“Don’t look so surprised, Merlin.” Gwen said kindly. Perhaps she was the psychic. “You’re sweet and gentle, charismatic-” Arthur snorted. “- and I’m not going to let you walk out of those doors thinking you don’t look the part, either. Remember, even when you first came to Camelot, I-” She stopped herself, snapping her lips tightly shut.

#art by mushroomtale-fanart #their stuff is great #Merlin fic recs #merlin fic rec #merlin (tv)#merlin #arthur pendragon #bbc merlin #bbc merlin fic recs #merlin emrys #fic rec list #fic recs #51 fics total

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furiousgoldfish · 4 years ago

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I see nobody in society is acknowledging this, but running away from abusers is traumatic.

It’s never a story of “everything was fine after I got away from that”, they’re stories of terror, loss, grief, trauma and ptsd. That isn’t to say it doesn’t get better after you’re no longer abused, of course it does! But to actually run away is a heavy, painful and terrifying decision for any victim of abuse.

We’re talking about abandoning your home, in many cases your siblings, pets, friends, neighbors, everything you’ve built your normal life on. You have to give up your safety of having a roof over your head; you’re running into a world where you don’t know where you’ll sleep next. Most often, you will lose a big part of your posessions, your books, your comfort items and valuables and you will have to let them go, in order to save your life. That is what people do when they’re running from wars. Abuse victims live in that state, alone.

You do all this scared out of your mind, not only because abusers made sure you’re extremely not confident in your ability to survive, but you don’t know how will they react. Will they chase you down and hurt you to teach you not to run from them? Will anyone care about protecting you? Will they find out where you live and come for you with torches? Will they lie and convince the entire world that it was you who hurt and betrayed and abandoned them, will they turn everyone you know on their side? Will they convince other people to harass and betray you? Will you be bombarded with insults, guilt trips and accusations from every person you thought you knew? What if after all this you end up on the street and have to go back because there’s nowhere else for you to go? It feels unsurvivable.

And at the end, there’s self doubt that you’re doing the right thing, and trauma that gets so much worse right after you leave because you’re finally free to actually feel what they did to you, and you get to feel torture in full extend. It can cause complete exhaustion and lack of functinality at first, and before It gets better it can be damn hard to reason that you’re better off without abuse - even though abuse is the very cause of you being so broken down.

Despite all this, running away is worth it, hiding your location from everyone so abusers couldn’t find you even if they manipulated every person you know, is worth it. Life free of abuse is worth abandoning everything. But it is harder than anything most people have to go thru in their entire life.

So do not, ever, tell someone half heartedly to “just run away”, as if it’s an afternoon task. Don’t ask anyone why they stayed. Don’t let it even cross your mind that staying means a person consented to abuse, thats despicable. No person alive would choose this. Accept that running away is a dangerous, traumatic, often heavily sabotaged mission, and guilt tripping will never help those who have to do it. Undermining the weight of it, is only insulting to us. If you haven’t had to run away yourself, don’t suggest it like it’s a simple, logical thing that you would do. Condescending victims with your own ignorance will piss us off. And we don’t need another person to pretend to know whats best for us and call us dumb, abusers have covered that, and you’re taking their side.

If you wont help us feel like a part of society that is worth protecting, worth resources to live safely from abuse, and worth having their experience acknowledged, then leave us be. We’re better off without you.

#child abuse #escaping abuse #abusive parents #abuse victims #toxic society #victim blaming #undermining trauma #victim shaming #erasing abusers

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anon-e-miss · 4 years ago

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I feel like whether Iazz and Prowl got together with Jazz already having the twins or having them together, either way, even grown, the twins would still be two of Prowls staunchest defenders if anyone said anything about him being a drone spark or something

"What ever it is, I can explain," Cheetor said as he entered Jazz's office.

"I hope ya can, actually," Jazz replied with a forced chuckle. "Come on, sit. Ya ain't in trouble. 'M hopin' ya can give me a bit o' intel?"

"On what?" Cheetor asked.

"Tarantulas."

"What?" Cheetor asked and he fidgeted. "Web-brain?"

"You had a run in wit 'm before ya got outta Tarn," Jazz said. "Ya went AWOL straight outta basic, lookin' to settle a score."

"I..." Cheetor shrank in his chair.

"Whatever ya can tell me, Cheetor," Jazz said, soft and patient. His subordinate was spooked, so spooked his bravado could not rise up enough to hide it. "It's important. I need to track 'm down. A mechlin's life might be at stake."

"The bitlet," Cheetor flinched like he had been struck. "Prowl..."

"Ya know 'bout Prowl's bitlet?" Jazz asked, surprised by the revelation.

"I... I was a youngling," Cheetor said. "Web-brain caught me in his web. He was going to drain me of my mechfluid. Prowl, I didn't know his designation at the time appeared. He was... he was naked except for these these rings around his wrists. I recognized them. They would put them on debt slaves in the brothels to keep them from being able to transform and escape. His forge was swollen, he looked so... frail with that big belly, he looked so tired when he slipped me the scalpel. He bent over the counter and told Tarantulas the his perfect creation need more contributions. Tarantulas... giggled and scurried over. He didn’t... he just fragged, tricks on the street had better style. I got myself out of the web... We made optic contact, me and Prowl. He jerked his helm towards this tunnel. He told me to go, with his optics. I went.”

“Scrap,” Jazz cursed.

“As soon as I was done basic I went back there,” Cheetor explained. “I’d learned how to fight, I thought I could get him and his bitty out but the lab was empty. It had been empty for a long time.”

“Ya ever speak to Prowl?” Jazz asked.

“No,” Cheetor shook his helm. “I didn’t think... I thought he wouldn’t want the reminder. I hurt Bots talking, you know how he was found, how he was enlisted and I thought, maybe that monster ate his bitlet... I didn’t want to remind him.”

“Ya did the right thing gettin’ out,” Jazz said. “Ya did what he wanted ‘n I bet he’d be glad to see what a brave, young mech ya turned into.”

“I heard what Vortex did to him,” Cheetor said. “Or what they’re saying. Some of them are saying he asked for it.”

“Prowl put ‘mself in harms way to protect my twins,” Jazz replied. “He didn’t ask for scrap. He told me about his bitlet. Told me he don’t feel ‘m no more but don’t feel a broken bond either. ‘M lookin’ to sniff Tarantulas out. I don’t suppose ya can tell me more ‘bout his ole lair?”

“I’ll tell you everything I know!” Cheetor said. “I... I can help. I’m sure I can help. I’m fast! I bet I could distract him so you can get after the bitty.”

“Let’s just start wit ya tellin’ me what ya know.”

They had never been lovers. True, there was a chance that they had been and Prowl saw the errors of his ways, but Jazz did not think so. Prowl would not have let that he had experienced a change of spark. This was Prowl, he would have either shot Tarantulas in the back of the helm or he would have just slipped off when Tarantulas had been distracted. He had been a prisoner, under Praxus as the Decepticons had been looting the city, before the explosion and he had been a prisoner when he had been ensparked. Had Tarantulas guessed Prowl’s part in Cheetor’s escape? What sort of punishment might Prowl have suffered for rescuing the youngling?

He could not ask, not yet. The Twins walked alongside him with the crystals they had chosen for Prowl. Jazz had given in to their pleading and let them each choose their own arrangement for Prowl. They deployed Grade A guilt trips and Jazz had walked away from the florist with an arrangement of crystals to give himself. He thought the datapads he had boxed would probably be a more Prowl gift, but there was no telling no to the Twins when they got like this. Maybe Jazz was too permissive a procreator, but he could not find a reason to say no when they only wanted him to be nice to their favourite mech.

How in Primus’ designation had Jazz missed how much they adored Prowl for three vorns? They were not just comfortable with him, they actually loved him and Jazz had just figured they had been sneaking into his office to get a rise out of the most stalwart Autobot on the planet. His preconceptions, misconceptions of Prowl had put blinders on Jazz. He should have listened less to Chromedome, because Jazz knew what kind of boss Prowl was, he was coming to question if everything Chromedome had said all these vorns could have been lies.

“Prowl!” Sideswipe held the arrangement he had chosen out as they stormed into the Praxian’s treatment room. He set the datapad he had been holding down. Prowl smiled. It was the tiniest squirk of his mouth and a crinkling at the end of his optics. Holy Primus. Might Prowl love them back? “We brought ya crystals! Aren’t they pretty?”

“They are,” Prowl said.

“Granny says crystals help mecha heal,” Sideswipe explained as he placed the crystals on the table next to Prowl’s berth. “Because they’re bright ‘n happy.”

“Yer granny’s fond o’ crystals,” Jazz said.

Sunstreaker held the crystals he had chosen up to Prowl, then set them down on the table next to Sideswipe’s selection. He confidence bred from familiarity, he climbed onto the medberth and sat sat down next to him. Jazz was speechless. He knew Sunny was a cuddler but Sunny was picky. He loved to cuddle him, his twin, Punch, no one else. Sideswipe was not nearly so coordinated as Sunstreaker and he clamoured, or tried to clamour onto the berth. Jazz quickly set the box and crystals he was carrying down and scooped Sideswipe up and then set him down with Sunstreaker.

“He didn’t jerk ya, I hope?” Jazz asked. Prowl shook his helm.

“Even if he did, I would not feel it,” he replied. “Ratchet has not reactivated my relays.”

“Don’t forget to give Prowl your crystals,” Sideswipe chastened his progenitor and Jazz smiled at him.

“Did you harass your progenitor to give me crystals?” Prowl asked and Jazz felt bad that he had come to that conclusion. He made to attempt to save face.

“They did,” Jazz said. “Got an audial full ‘bout turnin’ up empty servoed. My Ori’s right though. Crystals help ya heal.”

Prowl’s optics were the same colour of the celestite in the arrangement Jazz had chosen and he had not noticed it. He set the arrangement on the other table. Between the artwork covering the walls and the crystals covering the tables, Prowl’s treatment room looked bright and full of love. When Prowl looked down at the Twins, his optics sparkled like the crystal. They went opaque when they fell on Jazz. The expression, the optics were the window to the spark, had never held truer for any mech.

“Ya still torturin’ yerself wit Optimus’ sap?” Jazz asked.

“This one is the worst yet,” Prowl said. “Not only is the plot full of holes, the dialogue is awful and it is riddled with grammatical errors.”

“Ya been correctin’ it in yer helm, ain’t ya?” Jazz asked.

“Perhaps,” Prowl replied and when he looked at Jazz there was a spark, a sparkle and Jazz laughed.

“Well, I brought ya somethin’ better,” he said. “A bunch of mysteries ‘n historical fiction. I thought that’d be more yer thing.”

“Yes, absolutely,” Prowl replied and somehow he looked brighter, lighter. Jazz set the box down next to the crystals. “Thank you.”

“Y’re welcome,” Jazz said. “Why don’t ya show Prowl that picture ya been working on Sunny?”

“Oh, ya!” Sunstreaker exclaimed. He was excite as he pulled out his sketchpad and turned it on. “I drew crystals.”

“That is beautiful,” Prowl replied. Jazz sat down in the chair next to the berth as rested his ped on the edge. Sunstreaker showed Prowl all the little details he had been working on. Sideswipe told Prowl about the raise he had won. Prowl nodded along and smiled the barely perceptible smile. Jazz was getting an idea what sort of originator Prowl had been to his bitlet, a soft, patient and loving one. He hoped to Primus that Ostaros was somewhere for him to find. This originator ought to have his bitlet in his arms again. It was long overdue.

#valveplug #maccadams #vortex au #tf prowl #tf jazz #tf sunstreaker #tf sideswipe #tf cheetor #cannibalism #anon fic ask #anon asks ficlet

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