#i miss you both so much

[thatdemiboymess]

Its 3am. You met up with me with my partner out in the cold, the ground and air vaguely damp, because my mom told me to get the fuck out of the house and I didn't want to be outside alone. I cried and you both just sat with me on the concrete wall of someone else's yard. I didn't go home until 6am. It's one of my warmest memories.

It's a sunny day. I just left therapy with my partner. You chanced upon us in your car while doing food deliveries. You told us to get in - to come with you for a bit - and we did. I didn't say much that day but there was no where else I'd have rather been than listening to the two of you talk and joke and laugh over top of the music in the safety of your car. We stayed with you for so long that I was in trouble with my mother by the time you took me home at midnight. I'd never felt so comfortable.

We're alone, sat at a table at the Starbucks inside the Barnes and Noble, and you bought me the coffee that I'm drinking. It's warm inside, and mildly bright, and we're reading while bantering and kicking each other under the table. The other patrons look over at us sometimes when we get too loud but they don't matter. Nothing but us matters. We stay seated there long past the moment we finished our drinks. The uncomfortable chairs of the Starbucks had never been cozier.

It's nighttime. We're in my mother's living room during one of her hospital stays. The ceiling lights are bright and grating and nauseating. You're laying on top of me, cradled in my arms, crying into my chest and I've never felt more awed at your trust and belief in me. I think I want to hold you forever and it makes me feel like a horrible person but it's true. I think that I'll always be there to hold you when you cry just as long as you'll let me. Please let me. I'll keep you safe, and warm, and happy if you'll just stay here with me. Please let me.

It's cold and late and we're outside sitting on the sidewalk of an old ex's street. We joke about the past despite the distraught and slightly tense mood. I offhandedly bring up eating cat food on a dare once in this exact spot. I think I love you. I love you but I don't know in what way and I'm scared. I make one of the biggest mistakes of my life. I'm so sorry. I miss you. I miss you.

It's late. It's cold. I got off work a few hours ago and then spent time just wandering around in stores with my partner. We had been messaging in the group chat about how I was considering moving in with a couple I had been friends with once because being hotboxed in the living room of my partner's parents apartment is driving me mad. You try to warn me it's not a good idea. That it won't work out. Something gets said by someone else and it hurts you. You say you don't know why I bother talking to you about these things if I never take your advice. I'm scared. I'm scared. We don't talk anymore after that. I've lost you. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

[humming-fly]

I love how Gerald was trying to keep Shadow from spoiling anything about the future meanwhile literally everything Shadow says and does around Maria is the biggest death flag ever

[hearty-an0n]

dont stop the partyyyyy

[bittsandpieces]

I don't have a caption for this one tbh

[hood-ex]

I love when it's incredibly obvious that Damian misses Dick.

"...I'm glad you got out of stupid Bludhaven for a while. It... it's not the same without you."

[twinstxrs]

idk if this is accurate but i’ve felt like in previous seasons riz & gorgug have been one of the inter-bad kids dynamics we’ve seen the least of & this season has been so great in that aspect. gorgug having helped make some of riz’s magic gear. riz helping gorgug with his studies. the shared birthday party. gorgug’s gift to riz being something he himself made to protect riz. riz’s gift to gorgug being something he illegally grabbed to protect gorgug. gorgug who utilizes rage to put his body on the line for his friends & riz who will take deep levels of mental stress for his friends. even though it was within the context of a joke, riz calling gorgug an “absolute sweetie.” like yea they might not be in a band together or both part of a presidential campaign team or owlbears teammates, but they’d go to war for each other, because they’re best friends.

[jpg-of-dorian-slay]

love love LOVE jesper fahey so much, kaz rips out someone's eye and tosses them overboard and jesper's just like "would he do that for me?" not at all bothered, just wondering if kaz cares about him enough to kill a guy for him. a man with his priorities absolutely in order.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Swapping tips on how to be a bestie in the bath.

[egophiliac]

@enderfore replied to your post “What do you think of Rook's savanaclaw card? <333”:

Chenya pic where???? I can barely see anything in that room there so much going on, rooks such a lil freak (affectionatr)

​he's under the row of flags on Neige's side of the room, next to the big Neige poster with the yellow background (look just to the right of the hand holding the apple)! he's REAL little; once you know he's there you can kind of see him in-game, but I only noticed him in the first place because I took a screenshot and was having fun zooming in on all the details!

I think that's either Hop or Snick and Dominic on either side of Neige, but if the others are meant to be anyone in particular I don't recognize 'em. though I do love all the absolutely terrifying implications of Rook having this. was this some kind of officially-published merchandise (and if so, why) or did Rook like...go hunting through the RSA trash to find this random student lineup just because it included Neige, and has had it hanging proudly on the wall ever since. (I mean, he definitely did do this, I don't know why I'm asking. the real question is why he hasn't cut out little pictures of his own face and stuck them over everyone else's yet.)

there is seriously SO MUCH in this room. how did Rook manage to keep this hidden for three years. also, somebody give this background artist a raise immediately.

[lei1600]

Hahaha.... it's been quite a while since I've seen this post. I scrolled all the way down just to find it. Today, my other little girl has passed. Nibbles's little sister named Cuddles.

She was nearing her 6th birthday. Just like Nibbles, I got her for my 13th birthday when she was only a month old. She was always the shy one of the two. Following her older sister around wherever Nibbles went. Just like her sister, she loved carrots however she seemed to enjoy being pet more than Nibbles did. She became very sad when Nibbles died. Very lonely. I tried my best to give her the love she needed but I don't think it was enough.

Cuddles, I hope you have reunited with Nibbles. I hope you two have unlimited carrots and are happy to finally be together again. I love you both so so much. I hope one day that I will be able to see you two again. You both are missed dearly. I love you, my sweet little girls.

Hey guys? I won't be on here very often for a bit. I'm pretty sure one of my guinea pigs has just died of old age.

I'll try to keep uploading on @jeromefox but no promises. I need time to grieve.

Meet Nibbles (The black and white one)

She is 5 years old now. I got her for my 13th birthday when she was only a month old. She was a lot more confident than her sister and was exploring the entire house once I brought her home. She was my little explorer and loved meeting new people. Her favorite food was carrots. She would jump around and get all excited when I would get home from school, very excited to see me.

Nibbles, my little one, you will be missed greatly. I love you.

[drrav3nb]

GET TO KNOW ME MEME: favourite lost/lesser known ships [4/10] - Chyna & Eddie Guerrero (WWF)

I've been really wanting to know, why you did what you did, mami? Well this might embarrass you a little bit, Ed. But the truth is, I really couldn't resist your latino heat!

(cred to FullWithDivas for the videos, such high quality!)

[tea-n-ink]

Homesickness is where the heart is

[ministarfruit]

day 28: made you smile ♡

(femslashfeb prompt list)

[anastasiaoftheironwood]

Also missing Rachel Pollack now. It´s been one year, my dear, and I still don´t know how to think about the world without you in it.

Poem: Lettering ~ Paige Foster

Lettering ~ Paige Foster

Perhaps it is a sort of nostalgia, this wistful feeling that blossoms like wet ink on the page every time I come across your handwriting in an old book.

(I’ve been thinking about David Palladini most of the weekend, and this perfect poem came up last night.)

[missingn000]

happy halloween, everyone! big news: The Phantom Guardian's hiatus is officially over!

exactly one year after the release of the last tpg chapter, sukuna's backstory: tears of the emperor, i'm thrilled to announce that my break from the story has come to a close. i'm now officially preparing to write the next chapter and return to tpg releases on a regular basis! i've dearly missed this story and this community, and i'm so excited to be back. 

to prepare for writing this story again, i'll be doing a tpg live-react reread in the tpg discord server! come laugh at me as you watch me suffer through the suffering i put all of you through. we can chat about the story, the characters, and reminisce about what a crazy ride it's been and where we could be going from here. come join the fun!! this will also be a great way to remind yourselves of everything that's happened without having to read through all 637,000 words of this monstrosity. join the discord here!

as for when the next chapter will officially come out: i gotta get through the tpg reread first, which might take a bit, but i hope to have ch49 out sometime before the end of the year, if not very early january. i'll be hosting even more fun events and activities to bring us all back together as the next release grows nearer! i don't use bluesky or twitter, but feel free to share this news wherever. i'd love as many people as possible to join the fun!!

i love you all so much, and i can't thank you enough for your patience with me this past year. i hope you're as excited to dive back into this fic as i am!

happy halloween, everyone. we're so fucking back.

[sysig]

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