#i might work on flaky next or...

[aronaut]

Warmth

Pairing: Sebastian Solace x gn!reader Summary: You're a former researcher that was working before the blacksite lockdown. Forgotten and abandoned, you have no other choice but to work with a certain shopkeeper. Needless to say, you have your differences. Warnings: Explicit mentions of blo/od and inj/ury in the beginning. Not beta read Word count: 4,191 (This is a drabble I plan to include in a long list of loosely connected ideas. Consider it the middle of an enemies to qp partners plot :] )

...The low, ominous groan and creak of metal is enough to put anyone on edge, you think, as you traverse the seemingly endless halls.

Rifling through the cabinets and drawers, scrounging up scraps left behind by hasty thieves, the unsettling ocean ambience is all you have for company. You wonder, just when did your life derail so horrifically, when the sight of a crumpled body on the ground fills you with elation. The heavy, steel doors slide open with little fanfare. Beyond the mangled corpse, your eyes immediately set on a black light laying just a few feet away. Stepping over the expendable, you collect the item. There is little battery left in the light you note, before stashing it in the worn messenger bag slung over your shoulder.

With a heavy sigh, you eyes scan below. Scarlet scatters across the floor in a chaotic spray, drawing your eyes towards the deep crimson pool steadily crawling towards the toe of your shoe. In the center of it all, lays the head of a late expendable, expression locked in a display of permanent shock. From below their eye, a coat of flaky, dry red webs down from their chin to all the way down their shoulder.

The collar of the expendable’s wet suit is torn completely; black shreds of neoprene fray out from below the sternum. It's hard to tell the rubber from the darkened crimson spilling out from the brutal tear in the prisoners neck.

Z-90– the Wall Dweller, you determine. Recent too, if the wet shine on expendable's neck is anything to go off of. The considerably uneaten state of the body leads you to believe it might still be in the area, biding it's time until it can claim the expendable's companions as well.

Or, well, possibly even you…

With that thought in your mind, you crouch down, your hands roaming over surface of the expendable’s clothes for any other possible hidden goods. Sparing glances every so often behind you, straining your ears all the while, you’re cautious during your search.

Any research the expendable might have had is completely useless now, waterlogged with sticky blood and pasted to the body. Attempting to reach into the pockets only rewards you with a sharp jab in your palm, the tips of your fingers cold and wet with spilled vial fluids.

Withdrawing from the body, you finally stand back up to full height. The sudden rush to your head is enough to make you sway, your stomach starting to pinch from the overwhelming, metallic stench permeating the room. With a shaky exhale, you urge yourself forward.

The persistent stinging in your eyes doesn’t do any favors for you as you try and navigate the dimly lit halls of the facility, an incredibly sore ache pulsating in your feet with every step. You are… so tired.

A distant roar of an entity sounds suddenly, reverberating across multiple rooms and rocking the facility. The floor rumbles faintly below your feet, and you can almost barely make out the disorderly sound of blinking lights. Bracing yourself against a wall, you wait out the tremors.

Though exhaustion tugs at you, you acknowledge that you cannot rest here. The dark corners of the room whisper dangerous promises, and as you traverse the rooms you can’t shake off the ever persistent feeling of being watched.

Any human in this place is simply prey, and as you tuck your hands into the pockets of your tattered, beaten white coat, your mind rings out with a grim thought; if every human here is prey, you are high game.

Approaching the next door, the screen doesn’t label it with a number but instead a red line. Taking the keycard from your lanyard, you unlock the door, and step inside. Instead of being met with lockers and scattered drawers, you find yourself in a familiar office. The small room is crowded with desks, computers that have long since powered off, and fake potted plants that fill you with a bittersweet sense of longing. Tucked under the desks, the rusted office chair beckon you to rest, but you push the thought out.

There is no doubt in your mind that he is getting aggravated over the fact that you’ve taken this long already.

Behind the desks there is another door, bracketed by two item lockers long since rummaged through. It’s marked by another red line, but you already know where it leads.

The door opens with an exhale, the frigid air greeting you as you walk on through. Unlike the rooms before, this room is brightly lit, the florescent lights buzzing loudly. Your eyes burn momentarily from the sudden change, taking a moment to adjust. The hall is short this time, and in your view you see another door marked ‘50.’

Your bag is disappointingly light on your shoulders, only holding a gummy flashlight, a few batteries, and the black light you just found. You’re not looking forward to the condescending comments that awaits you behind that door.

Resigning to your fate with a heavy sigh, you begin to trudge forward, but stop short suddenly when you hear what sounds like a loud flash, followed by a furious shout and the rush of footsteps. You only have a split second to react, hastily throwing yourself into a locker, the clang of the metal door muted by the hissing of an opening door.

Laughter rings out in the room, accompanied by a multitude of heavy footfalls. The light peaking through the vent of the locker momentarily obscures as you count three expendables pass by, completely unaware of your presence. They are loud and boisterous, a harsh rhythmic squeak of their boots resounding as they run through the hall, the dull thuds of drawers being pulled out to their full extent in a fruitless endeavor to find more loot. They don’t stay long, and soon enough you hear the hydraulics of the door once more and the footsteps dissipate.

You wait a minute before exiting the locker, hurriedly making your way to the fiftieth door. There is a low, agitated hiss drawing out low from the ground, echoing through the tunnel next to your calf. Crouching down, you crawl on into the vent, your elbows clanging against the thin metal.

Emerging on the other side, you find yourself once more in the confinement of Sebastian’s shop. It’s possibly the smallest room in the facility, the walls looming over you in a claustrophobic fashion. Or, perhaps, it’s just overcrowded with stacked crates strewn about, the floor littered with various gadgets inoperable by you, and piles of paper files scattered across the floor. Your eyesight leads to probably the most useless thing in the room, roaming over the giant tail fin flicking against the wall and up the elongated tail it was attached to.

Sebastian is rubbing furiously at his eyes, lure blinking not dissimilarly to the way the room lights do when in the presence of Z-283. He’s grumbling low beneath his breath, mumbling incoherently between rushed clicks and growls.

When he’s done, he acknowledges your entrance with very little care,

“About time. Stock’s so low, I’ve had to sell half-charged flashlights to the last gaggle of idiots,” his arms drop, and he glares to you. “What the hell took you so long?”

The messenger bag drops from your shoulder with little care, the metal of the flashlights clinging with the floor through the thin material. You fix him with a similar expression to his, squinting up at him.

“Trying not to get caught, asshole. If you want shit sooner get it yourself next time.”

He chuckles sardonically at you.

“Please, I’ve got better things to do,” he responds. “You keep up your half of the deal, and I keep up mine.”

You roll your eyes pointedly, breaking away from the staring match when the brightness of his lure starts to cause dark spots to swim in your vision. Crouching down, you begin to rifle through the bag. He looks unimpressed at the pitiful amount of batteries you set beside yourself, but you do notice the room getting ever so slightly brighter when you pull out the black light.

“Just keep being a good little errand boy, and your efforts won’t go unpunished,” he purrs. You clench your teeth, face warming in anger.

“Oh yes, your part. Totally. I go out, digging around for junk, risking my neck to monsters and delinquent prisoners, while you get to sit in here and play retail worker,” you ramble, frustrated, rolling the gummy flashlight over to his general direction with a not too gentle shove. “Fairest trade in the world.”

Your heartbeat picks up ever so slightly as you feel a shadow cast over you, the bulb of Sebastian’s lure hanging overhead as he leans down towards you, slow. You urge yourself to keep his gaze and stay there as his smile stretches into a sharp grin, light glinting off the razor sharp fangs. His hand stretches towards you, and your shoulders jolt in a half-flinch as they reach towards your neck. You don’t look down from his eyes as his claws pull at your lanyard, the thin fabric brushing against the nape of your neck. Your eyebrows furrow as he pinches the card between his thumb and index, his claw sweeping over it’s laminated surface.

“Would you like to switch roles, ‘doctor?’”

You reach up, and promptly slap his hand away.

Instead of retaliating, Sebastian merely laughs at you.

“I didn’t think so,” he drawls, before slowly ascending back to full height, away from you.

The bag, now empty, sits lightly on your shoulder as you pull it over your head. It’s weight is nearly nonexistent. You approach one of the stacked storage containers and with a tired groan plop down, leaning back and stretching your legs out in front of you.

It’s instantaneous relief, you note, your joints popping in rapid succession of one another as you stretch your arms up, crossed at the wrists. Your shoulders are practically buzzing, no doubt having been pinched at some point during your venture in the facility. Your knees creak and ache from crawling through vents and desks, your legs stiff and feet beyond sore. After your stretch, you slump down in your seat with a sigh. Finally, you get to relax.

“Just what do you think you’re doing?”

Ugh.

“Resting, Sebastian.” You respond dryly. “I’m freaking tired, okay? Leave me be.”

Sebastian simply scoffs. You don’t acknowledge him as your eyes draw shut.

“Go somewhere else for that, I have a business to run.”

“And where do you suggest I go? Where is there that doesn’t have a wall dweller lurking or some other hellish atrocity waiting to get at me?” You argue, opening your eyes to challenge him with a glare.

“That isn’t my problem,” he leans down slightly, arms crossed and third arm tucked in awkwardly. “Leave before someone comes in.”

You mirror his pose, crossing your arms and tilting your chin up at him.

“Get out.”

You shuffle in place, legs crossing. Sebastian scowls, growling low in his throat. His arm shoots out, pointing to the vent and shouting.

“Get OUT!”

Your shoulders jump, but you’re stubborn. Drawing your arms around yourself tightly, you shout back.

“Screw you, man! There isn’t anyone coming!”

Sebastian hisses, the only warning you get before he darts down toward you, your arms pushed into your chest as he holds you in a tight grip, claws pinching your skin underneath the thin fabric of your coat.

He is directly in your face, eyes glowering at you as he spits,

“You absolute, goddamn MORON. If you do not LEAVE-”

He cuts himself off suddenly, and in your peripherals you catch the way the fins on the side of his head seem to twitch bizarrely. Soon you hear the pang of metal resounding off the walls of the vent and echoing into the room. With a quick, uttered curse, Sebastian quickly draws back, but he doesn’t let you go, instead pulling you up and with him.

Your arms sting in his hold, your face twisted in a grimace as suddenly your feet are no longer touching the ground. The weight of your body hangs as he effortlessly lifts you up.

“What the hell???” you wheeze. “Let me go!”

A cold hand slaps over your mouth harshly, clasping your face nearly entirely as Sebastian growls.

“Shut the hell Up!”

You get little warning as Sebastian all but stuffs you behind him, crowded by his tail. You try and leverage yourself with his tail, pushing up with your arms as your chest pressing uncomfortably against him. His tail coils and folds in response, pushing over your chest and weighing heavily till you fall back to the floor. The air punched out of your lungs, and you let out a strangled gasp. Panic seized you as you wriggled beneath him, writhing in place to try and breathe. Noticing your struggle, Sebastian lifts his tail ever so slightly, no longer crushing you. You jumped at the opportunity, attempting to sit up before Sebastian’s third arm came down, hand tangling into your hair and shoving you back down.

“Stay down,” he says, low, with a hint of a threat tracing the edges of his voice.

The weight of his hand on your head disappears, and you watch from behind him as his attitude immediately shifts from disgruntled to a calculated calm.

“Welcome, welcome!” he greets, near automatic and practically off a script. You cannot see who he is talking to from your position, but based off the sound of shuffling and whispers, you assume another group has just entered. “Don’t be afraid, I’m not gonna hurt you. Despite what you have seen, heard and/or been told, my name is Sebastian.”

He goes on with his typical spew, and you surrender to the solid weight laying over you. It’s a bit awkward for Sebastian, you realize, as he attempts to move along with his usual transactions now that the upper part of his tail is occupied keeping you hidden. You feel almost smug about it, counting it off as a win in the mentally constructed chart in your mind that keeps loose tabs on the constantly tipping scale between you and Sebastian. It’s not like you want to be seen by the expendables, as it risks the possibility of them reporting back to Urbanshade that one of their esteemed researchers were still alive down here and working against them with the active saboteur. Though, given how long you and Sebastian have spent down here, you highly doubt that is likely to happen anytime soon. The expendable project was a long going mission that has yet to bare any fruit.

As Sebastian drawls on, you can feel his voice reverberating through his tail. As much as you hate to admit it, the rumbling was soothing. The weight of him was less of a burden than it was before, instead it became rather pleasant in grounding you, not unlike a weighted blanket… and a cooled one, at that.

The transaction seemed to be dragging on longer than usual, or maybe that was just you. The events of the day quickly starting to catch up with you, slowing your perception of time as you stared up hazily at the ceiling, with Sebastian’s elbow and back occasionally coming into view. Pressing against the wall, you could feel the way the facility subtly rocked in the waters. Holding your ear to the ground, you could almost hear the ocean, the cold metal soothing against your flushed face.

You could barely make out the voices of the prisoners, and what you could you pieced together that they must be attempting to negotiate. Puffing under your breathe, you smiled, bidding them luck with that endeavor as your eyes drew shut.

When your eyes opened once more, the room was dark. You could no longer hear the prisoners, or even Sebastian for that matter. Lifting your head, you realized also that the weight over you seemed to have disappeared. Sebastian was no longer laying over you.

You couldn’t make out what was in front of you, but you still attempted to look around. Your thoughts were slow and disorientated, but slowly you discerned that you must have fallen asleep. How you managed in such an inconvenient expression, next to Sebastian of all things, you couldn’t fathom. You suppose you were more exhausted than you originally thought.

He must’ve moved you, you think. You could imagine the sneer he must’ve made at realizing you had fallen asleep. Where did he put you, exactly? You jostled awake fully at the thought that perhaps he threw you out in the cold, or simply dumped you in the nearest, darkest room to be preyed on by the experiments.

At this thought, you rushed to push yourself up with your hands, having awoken on your stomach. The floor was… odd in texture. It was rougher, not the smooth, biting cold metal that you were accustomed to. It was, also, ever so slightly warm. As you pushed against it, you noticed that while it was solid it also had a little give to it. Your mind reeled for answers, trying to piece together just exactly where or what you were laying on, when all of the sudden you realized you were moving. Or, more like, the ground was moving.

Your breath quickened as you slid ever so slightly down, and it registered finally that your legs weren’t supported by anything, instead hanging over an edge. Your thighs held together as your arms scrambled to hold on to whatever it was you were on, leaning forward with your face pressed up against something cool.

You could smell an an odd, distinct combination of what you could only describe as leather and fish. Cold air gently brushed down your forehead as you heard someone sigh.

Adjusting to the darkness, you could finally make out what was in front of you– or below you, rather.

Below you was a chest belonging only to Sebastian.

Clad in a white dress shirt and draped in a rough leather jacket, his chest rose steadily under you, raising you in tandem. Looking to his face, all three of his eyes were closed and you couldn’t make out his lure in the darkness. His expression was… peaceful. Relaxed. Despite this, you could see the dark crevices in his forehead and eyes, groves crafted and paved by long-term stress that he refused to let on existed. He was completely unguarded and vulnerable, and considering your position you concluded that he had willingly put himself there.

But why?

You couldn’t comprehend it. Maybe it was a mistake? You had never seen him asleep before… Given all of the traits he was spliced with, you wondered how long he could really go without sleep? Maybe he slept when you were gone? That wouldn’t make sense. He’s a research-fiend by nature, he’d never let a potential customer pass him by.

However, looking more closely, you took in his features. Unlike the rest of his body, his face was smoother; More akin to a human. Between his eyes and on the bridge of his nose, there was a very faint line– barely noticeable even in the light– a paler blue than the surrounding skin. A scar he had when he first came into the facility as a convict. As a human…

You doubt even Sebastian could reject the very notion of sleep. Beneath it all– the razor sharp teeth, the blue scales, and thin web veils on his ears and clawed fingers, you never stopped believing that he was human. You doubt he did, either.

It still didn’t make sense for you to be here, but that didn’t matter, because there was the definite possibility of him screaming at you when he woke up and saw you there in despite of his protests.

You gently tried to creep down, stretching your leg and trying to feel the ground with your toe. You stretched and stretched, flexing your foot before realizing that even at this angle you couldn’t feel the floor. You were up too damn high. Looking down, you could hardly make out the messy floor.

In the midst of your struggling, you felt a rumble pass through you from Sebastian’s chest. His hands, which you hadn’t at first noticed were resting on your hips, slowly caressed over your back before stopping at your shoulders. You laid there, frozen, peaking cautiously up at Sebastian to see he was, thankfully, still asleep.

Your situation got that much more difficult, you realized, as his arms laid heavy over your back and prevented you from moving any further without disturbing the serpent, likely into waking.

Huffing a sigh, you relented.

You still couldn’t see very well in the darkness, and you would no doubt sprain something trying to dismount Sebastian. He’s so cranky awake, you don’t want to imagine what he’d be like shorted a few hours of beauty sleep.

And as much as you loathed to admit it, the position wasn’t… uncomfortable. You felt warm, but not stuffy despite the room. Sebastian was like a pillow with two cold sides, and you discovered that as you sunk back down into him, that his skin seemed to absorb your heat.

You shut your eyes.

There was no point in struggling to leave, or worrying about Sebastian’s reaction right now. Bottom line is, you could go for a couple more minutes of rest. Chances are Sebastian would tell you to hop right back to work first opportunity he got, so you might as well take advantage of the situation.

Your breathing slowed, and as you relaxed you could just barely make out a very soft rumbling crackle coming from Sebastian’s chest, reminiscent of a cat’s purr. His fingers absently curled over your shoulders, the weight of them strong and comforting. You could get used to this, you thought, and didn’t bother to fight against the absurd belief as your thoughts slowed down, sleep creeping in.

A shrill scream roars outside, and the body beneath you jolts violently, jostling you in the process. You hear lights flicker discordantly, before hushing entirely.

You don’t dare to open your eyes as you feel Sebastian move under you, hearing him exhale loudly. From behind the lids of your eyes, you notice the room get slightly brighter. Sebastian is awake.

You brace yourself to be grabbed, or even thrown, as his claws curl that much tighter over your shoulders. But that doesn’t happen.

His hands go lax, and you feel him sink back down, his third arm coming to rest over your lower back. The upper arms gently soothe down your back before brushing back up. Your brows furrow in confusion when a hand rests on your head, combing through your hair.

Warm breath ghosts over you as he leans down with a sigh, arms pulling you further up his body as his chin sets down over your head.

You dare to peek your eyes open, met with the light blue hue of Sebastian’s neck, gaze tracing over the smooth transition between human skin and scales. You feel Sebastian’s clawed hand leave your scalp, once more joining it’s counterpart in soothing up and down your back, the third hand picking at the frayed edges of your shirt.

You can see the bob of Sebastian’s throat as he swallows, coughing lightly in an attempt to clear his throat. His nose presses ever so slightly further into your hair, and you have to suppress the sudden need to jump when the third hand traces up your back, under your shirt.

Your hands brace against him, ready to launch yourself upward and ask just what the hell he is doing, before acknowledging that his hand doesn’t go any further than that. You decide to wait it out, see what he does. Maybe you can catch him doing something embarrassing, and use it as leverage in your next argument. Another point to your metaphorical score.

The other arms continue to stroke over your back, albeit more slowly, as his third hand continues to trail up your spine, leaving a path of goose bumps. The hair of your back raises at the temperature change. His hand is freaking cold. Colder than the rest of his body. Why is that?

As this continues, you feel him slump ever so slightly, all three of his hands slowing to a stop. His chest evens out once more, and you realize, he is asleep.

The hand under your shirt has become significantly warmer, and that is when you realize; Sebastian is cold blooded.

Well, you didn’t just realize, you knew this from the start. It explained his bizarre actions though, and as you took in your position you pieced together you were no different than a weighted blanket you accused his tail of being not long ago. A heated rock for his comfort. Like a snake or lizard basking in a lamplight, you were his source of heat.

Your mouth twitched into a smile. You were totally going to hold this over his head.

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PAC Your Next Spicy Time ? 18+

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Pile One: You won’t see this person coming. This will happen during a time when you feel like nothing is changing, nothing is moving. You look good as hell, but none of the options are impressing you. You want a real offer—someone with potential, someone who will woo you in all the right ways. Well, wish granted! This person is passionate, and you’ll love the way they speak. They could be quite the charmer! They’re really smart, more than they look, and they know it. This person will plot on you sooo bad. They might have some control issues, but they only pursue people they’re seriously interested in. They want your body, but also your mind and your heart.

When it comes to your spicy night together, this person has been thinking, obsessing about it. They’ve fantasized about all the ways they want to have you, taste you. This has been a long time coming for both of you. They’ll work hard to please you—they want you to moan and scream their name. They need to feel your desire for them. Your relationship will change after this; you’ll be more in tune with each other, like the last piece of a puzzle has finally been put in place. You make this person hard.

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Pile Two: Pile number two—your next time is with someone you already know. You could already be in a relationship with this person. They see you as an angel and constantly tell themselves how lucky they are. They were always scared of someone seeing their shadows, but you’re not scared of them. You welcome their darkness with open arms, telling them their dark parts are nothing to be afraid of.

They want to worship you, kneel at the altar that is your body, and give everything they have to you. You are the star guiding them in the night sky, the creator of their vices and the solution to their desires. Their thirst for you is unquenchable. They want to get drunk on your love, high on your happiness, and hard in their pants. You are the only goal they’re working toward. Also, this person wants to smell your panties? They want to keep them in their pocket and smell them whenever? (Wow, they are down BAD.)

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Pile Three: Ohhhhh, this is spicy! They want to get straight to business, lol. This person has an extreme attraction to you. This could be a complicated relationship—or situationship? This person might be flaky at times. Maybe you’ve decided to leave them behind? A lot is coming up at this moment. They can’t stop thinking about you—on your back, on your knees, tied up? Wowww. There’s a potent sexual energy here. They want to make you cum; it makes them feel victorious. Seeing your body twitch under their touch…

I’m hearing they feel like they’re the only one who can handle you, take care of you? They want to take it slow—it’s been a long time since the last time. They want to give you a massage, oil you up, slowly moving their hands toward your intimate parts. They want you to forgive them, maybe with makeup sex? Lol. If you’re not in contact with this person, you might feel their energy lingering around you. That’s because you’re heavily on their mind. I think they can’t get you out—it’s become a pattern. They need you, only you. Remember when I said they feel like they’re the only one who can take care of you? I think it’s projection on their part. YOU hold all the power over their desire, and they hate it.

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the nightmare

buttercup, chapter ten

a/n: i love this man so much 😭

summary: and as you lowered the mug once again, guilt began to consume Matthew as he then quietly began to speak, “I–… I have something to tell you…”

warnings: matt murdock x baker!reader, neighbours to lovers, rape recovery, ptsd, fluff, angst, hurt/comfort, nightmares, crying, panic attacks, kissing, cuteness with matt officially meeting her uncles

word count: 2378

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“But you’ve already met him before,” you muttered with a cocked brow as you folded up the slab of croissant dough on the table before you, laminating it to ensure the next day’s batch would be perfectly flaky.

“Cupcake,” Walter poked his head in through the doorway that led to behind the counter, “spying on you from back here in the kitchen when you flirt with your neighbour doesn’t count as meeting him,” you heard Howard chuckle beside you as he unloaded a bunch of loaves from the large oven in the corner, “you and him, come over Sunday night for dinner, what do you say?”

Exhaling softly as you brushed your fingertips over the flat dough beneath them, you then said, “I will have to ask if he’s free.”

And so, when your break rolled around and you cracked open the backdoor to enjoy some fresh air alongside your cup of coffee and still hot pastry, you fished out your phone as you sank down to sit on the threshold.

As you blinked out onto the quiet alleyway behind the bakery’s kitchen, treat balanced in the same hand that clutched your mug, Matthew’s voice soon emanated from your phone, “hey, sweetheart.”

“Hi, Matty,” a soft smile couldn’t help but bloom on your features, “how’s it going over there?”

“It’s going alright,” you heard him exhale, “currently fiddling with this assault case that came to us this morning,” he informed you, “how about you?”

“Yeah, it’s fine,” you murmured before tilting your head, “although my feet are killing me. I think I might need to get some new work shoes,” you glanced down at the clogs that you had admittedly held onto for far too long, “ah, it’s probably about time for that anyways. I’ve had these ones forever.”

“You want a foot rub tonight?” he offered sweetly through a gentle chuckle. 

“A foot rub? Wow… Matthew Murdock…” you giggled airily, “you really must love me…”

“I really do,” he echoed your soft laughter.

Clutching onto the intention of the call before his honied ways wiped away the memory completely, “well, speaking of how much you love me,” you then uttered, “my uncles just invited you to dinner on Sunday–, or well, us, they invited us,” your pulse began to pick up as you tripped and stumbled over your own words, “and I know you haven’t really met them yet and meeting family can be a bit intense, so I completely understand if you’re not up for it. I can go make up some excuse right now if–”

“Y/n?” he stopped your babbling.

“…yeah?” you hesitantly squeaked.

“What time is it?” he simply murmured, washing away the worries that had begun to bubble up within you.

“Oh,” your eyebrows floated up as you realised that he was up for it, “probably around six or seven. Although I usually get there a bit early whenever I come over for dinner.”

“Are you okay?”

Cutlery in hand, you paused a moment at the quiet tone of Matt’s voice as you haphazardly set the table. Glancing up at him as he stood off to the side, a safe distance away from your tornado-like form, storming through your uncle’s apartment as you gave yourself a task to keep you occupied, “how are you so calm right now?”

Now under the heavy weight of your gaze, Matt’s shoulders then raised in a shrug, “what?”

“Why am I the one freaking out?” you muttered as if he was to blame, before you briefly cast a glance out to the archway to the kitchen where both Howard and Walter put the last finishing touches on dinner, “you should be the one sweating through your suit, crossing your fingers for their approval.”

“Their approval? What year do you think it is, 1830?” he chuckled, earning himself yet another glare, “hey,” he then swiftly attempted to stifle his laugh, “baby,” and took a step towards you, “there’s no reason to freak out,” he caught onto your arm as you edgily straightened out a spoon on the table.

Sucking in a deep breath, you let your eyes fall shut a moment as you felt his thumb sweep against your skin, “I can’t believe you’re so good at this,” your brow knitted softly as you then blinked up at him, “I mean, you bought my uncle fucking flowers.”

“Well, you mentioned that tulips were Howard’s favourites.”

“Yeah, I know I did,” you uttered softly as a smile slowly melted away the tenseness from your features. Raising yourself up onto your toes, you pressed a small kiss to his lips, his broad palm coasting up your arm before you broke the peck, “you know, if you keep going like this, they’ll end up liking you more than me.”

“Oh,” his head gently tilted before he then uttered, “impossible.”

Once dinner, a lentil stew with all kinds of root vegetables, had been eaten and your dessert plates too were all half empty, your hand tangled in Matt’s as he sat beside you.

“Really?” he nearly chuckled in a reply to your uncles.

“Oh yeah,” Walter went on with his anecdote, sitting on the opposite side of the dining table next to his husband, “she did not like me when we first met.”

“Well, you were weird around kids back then,” you pointed out as you scooped up another spoonful of half-melted ice cream, and your head sloped down to rest open Matt’s broad shoulder next to you, curling more into him as the hour began to grow late.

“Hey, I was younger, still in my rebellious phase, before Howard here made an honest man out of me,” he glanced to the rotund baker beside him with a nostalgic smile, “I was used to going out and dancing every night, not hanging out with children, they were so confusing to me back then, like weird little creatures with constantly sticky hands.”

“You tried to teach me how to make a dirty martini when we first met,” you recalled before leaning in a tad closer to Matt in order to add another detail, “I was six, by the way.”

“Well, it was either that or talk to you about the latest issue of Vogue, which you didn’t seem at all interested in.”

“So how did it change?” Matt asked through a soft laugh.

“Well, it was after you two moved in together, so I might have been somewhere around eight at the time?” your eyes briefly narrowed to a squint as you tried to remember, “but we all, Howard and Walter as well as me and my parents, went on this trip together.”

“To Paris,” Walter took over the tale, “because Howard had always promised to take his sister ever since he studied over there,” he uttered and your eyes swiftly locked with Howard’s as you shared a wistful smile, “and we had planned it all out, mostly activities where we’d be split up so that everyone got to do what they were in the mood for.”

“But then,” you drew out, glancing to your boyfriend as you revealed, “my parents got sick.”

“As well as me,” Howard gestured to himself.

“And we were the only two left standing,” Walter caught your gaze, “I mean, I think there was still a week left of the trip at that point.”

“I remember I didn’t wanna run around the city with you, I think I even cried, begging my mom to let me stay at the hotel with her and dad,” you giggled faintly, “but then she told me to give it one day, and not that we had to be civil, but that I had to at least try and find some common ground, give him a chance and find something that broke him away from the scary snob that I thought he was back then, and by the end of the day, if he really was that unbearable to hang around with, then I could stay back with them at the risk of me also getting sick,” you uttered, “but as it turns out, my mom was right,” an exhale seeped from your lungs, “as she always was,” your head tilted gently, “by the end of it, the others had to tell us to shut up because we were giggling too much, sitting next to each other on the plane ride home,” you told as your heart began to ache at the memory of your mother, “…I don’t know who I would have been if it wasn’t for her…”

Sucking in a controlled breath, Howard murmured, “she was an extraordinary person…”

Carefully as everyone around the table grew silent in remembrance, Matthew eventually cut through the stillness in a quiet tone, “…what was she like?”

Your gaze stayed glued to the melted remnants of ice cream in the shallow bowl before you as you then began to utter, “…she was like a bright light… always more patient than what I thought possible, always so compassionate, even to people whom I didn’t think deserved it at the time, and always more brave than I thought even the heroes in my bedtime stories were…” a hum then escaped Matt’s soft and slightly sombre smile, causing your eyes to flicker to him before you asked, “what?”

“No, I was just thinking,” he breathed before he pointed out, “she sounds a lot like you,” prompting gentle tears to well up in your eyes.

Matt began to stir not long after you did, though he didn’t have to wait to hear the sobs that choked you or feel how violently you trembled against the sheets to know that something was wrong.

Carefully, as to not spook you, he pushed himself up to sit beside you, “…Y/n?” he uttered softly, though as you twisted your head to look at him with your bloodshot eyes, he swiftly tilted closer as words refused to form on your quivering lips, “hey, it’s alright,” he reached for your hand, though halted halfway as he wasn’t sure if it would be the right move, “what can I–, what do you need?”

“Can you–… I just–,” you sniffled jaggedly before your eyes drifted down to his palm. You tried to shift your own, but as it ignored all of your signals, you instead managed to utter, “…squeeze my hand,” begging him to rip your skin out of the memory that ached throughout your nerves and played on a loop, forcing you to relive the haunting sensation till you felt as if you were drowning.

But luckily, within a second, Matthew’s fingers interlaced tightly with your own, causing a sob to ripple within you at the relief as you blinked down to sear the vision of it into your brain and force it to override the painful sparks.

“I’m sorry,” a tear splattered against Matt’s palm as you gazed down at it, “it was just a dream, I know it wasn’t–…” but your wobbly words then crumbled from your lips as you instead tried to focus of merely regaining control of your ragged breathing.

And as the touch of your neighbour grounded you, and gradually your body began to calm, when your heart no longer tried to rattle at your ribs like a rioting prisoner, you still weren’t ready to lay back down and attempt to fall asleep again.

So instead, your boyfriend got up to brew you a cup of tea.

At this point, Matt could navigate your apartment perfectly. Your weary eyes tracked him as he delved to the other end of your home, though as he kept the bedroom door open behind him, you could still keep an eye on him even as he switched on the kettle and opened up your cabinet to pluck out the small packet of ginger tea.

When he returned to your bed, he carefully handed you the hot mug to warm your trembling hands on, before he sank back down beside you. Tilting close to slowly press his lips to your forehead, you swiftly grabbed his hand once again.

Raising the cup up for a sip, you tested the temperature, though it was still too hot to drink. And as you lowered the mug once again, guilt began to consume Matthew as he then quietly began to speak, “I–… I have something to tell you…” eyes flickering up to glance at him, you waited silently to hear him continue, “…I know I should have asked for your permission, but I’ve kind of kept an eye on him…”

“…why are you saying it like you made it part of your routine to go beat the crap out of him?” you uttered as your body promptly locked up, “Matt, have you?”  

“I–, no. Have I wanted to? Every fucking day,” he huffed, “if only I had been faster, gotten to you sooner, stopped it in time, then–”

“Matthew, you can’t honestly blame yourself. It’s not your fault. It’s not my fault. The only one whose fault it is is–…” you still couldn’t utter his name, though you didn’t have to as you watched Matthew tilt his head solemnly, “…so if you haven’t been putting the fear of god in him, then what do you mean that you’ve kept an eye on him?”

“Well, I guess it’s more legally speaking. I asked to be notified if his name ever came up,” he revealed, “and it did… about two months ago, he ended up doing it again, except this time, the girl, someone he’d apparently just met in a club, she went to the police,” you scarcely breathed at all as he spoke, “and then after he was arrested, several others came forth with their own stories, enough so that he got a nine-year-long sentence.”

“What?” you breathed, the hot tea in the mug nearly spilling over from how you trembled, “wait, are you saying that he’s–, he’s–, in prison?”

“Yeah,” Matt faintly nodded, “I’m sorry, I don’t know if that helps to hear about right now–”

“No, it–…” your gaze briefly averted as you panted, “…are you sure?”

“That he’s in jail?” his dark brows gently floated up at your question, “yeah. He is.”

“Holy shit…”

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➥ pairing | jeon jungkook x f!reader ➥ word count | 4.4k ➥ warning(s) | 🔞 smut; fwb, angst w/ a happy ending, teasing, finger fucking, squirting, praise kink, frottage, dirty talk, pet names, commitment issues, jealous!jk, possessive!jk, dom!jk, idiots in love, misunderstandings ➥ summary | after being stood up one too many times, you realize you're in love with jungkook. and that just won't do. ➥ notes | istg i've re-written this more times than i care to count 💀 enjoy!

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cnt make it 2nite

The text is blunt - biting. No explanation offered, and certainly no false platitudes found in the lifeless string of black letters. Rather simple and straight to the point.

As you should have expected from Jungkook. He wasn’t known for his verbosity, and even less so for his love of texting.

But as you chew the fat of your cheek, reading it over and over again in an attempt to glean some hidden meaning that isn’t there, you admit to yourself - at least privately - there’s no more avoiding the truth.

One that’s been hovering over your shoulder for weeks like a shroud; an unwelcome guest you can’t ignore anymore: Jungkook’s been avoiding you.

It shouldn’t be surprising.

Moreover, it shouldn’t hurt.

There shouldn’t be an ache in your chest every time you see his contact or the plummet of your stomach when that inevitable excuse comes through.

In the end, he owes you nothing. The arrangement between you is casual, just a little fun between good friends.

It still fucking sucks though, you think, sucking your teeth.

Night thoroughly ruined before it’s begun, it’s only a matter of deciding how to respond now. In the past you’ve used a plethora of options, but you’re stumped. Unsure how to correlate the level of hurt to the nature of your not-relationship.

Should you be petty, passive-aggressive, indifferent - or worst of all: honest?

Hah, no way. I’d rather die.

Beside you, the bartender politely averts his gaze and busies himself with polishing a stack of pint glasses. It’s a slow night, and that’s saying something as this bar’s a little hole in the wall.

It’s never overly busy, which is one of the reason’s it’s a favorite meeting spot of yours. The floors might be sticky, but the music’s decent, the strobe lights they kick on after 10 PM aren’t offensive enough to induce a migraine, and the drinks are cheap with a heavy pour.

Watching him work is impressive - and almost distracting enough for you to ignore the needle sharp ache taking root beneath your ribs, the churn of your stomach.

Humiliation burns hot, creeps up your neck to settle into the apples of your cheeks as you’re stood up.

Again.

It isn’t the first time - it won’t be the last.

But it cuts deeper than all the rest combined, harder to shake off. You can’t lie to yourself anymore. The growing distance between you throbs like an open wound, as if Jungkook himself plunged a hand into your chest.

Scooped out any tender, soft thing he could find and left you hollowed out. Drained.

Not taking his flakiness personally used to be so easy. And now… well.

Goddamnit. A palm scrubs over your decolletage roughly to soothe the throb of your heart. What the hell did you expect to happen, getting involved with Jeon Jungkook, huh?

Everything from his stupidly pretty eyes to the dangerous curl of his mouth, the thick soles of his boots to the lapels of his leather jacket scream walking red flag.

Never mind the fact his proclivities are an open secret among the group. He’s never tried to hide his distaste for commitment. Finds it too monotonous. Predictable.

An eternally free soul much preferring to flit from one experience to the next, never shackled down for long. The Icarus of myth made flesh.

He runs through women like he runs through shoes, and you witnessed enough of the ensuing heartbreak and tears to be wary.

But knowing and feeling something are two very different things.

The dichotomy throws you off-kilter and finds you abandoned in a bar, once again, to choke on a regret so bitter you swear it’ll burn a hole through your throat.

What’s going on with me, you think, this is nothing new. He does this all the time.

You used to get on so well.

Any initial misgivings faded away in the face of Jungkook’s blinding attention, his unfaltering kindness lurking just beneath that surface of grit and gravel.

Even after you fuck, he never acts any differently, as casual between the sheets as he is lounging on your couch.

It's been great, it's been enough - until now.

Just the thought of going back to your empty apartment, alone, only to wake up and fall back into Jungkook’s orbit tomorrow when he swings by with a half-assed apology on his lips, and your favorite drink in hand is enough to make your skin crawl.

Stomach twisting itself into knots, everything in you rebels against the sudden cold realization: nothing will change - least of all Jungkook.

He’ll continue to take-take-take.

You'll continue to give-give-give.

On and on you'll go; a distant star orbiting a black hole, losing little bits of itself until there's nothing left.

Then he’ll leave your life as quickly as he entered it, a blurry after-image there and gone in the blink of an eye.

Fuck, I - I can’t do this anymore, you think, a shiver rattling down your spine, Because I…

An errant thought gains teeth, sinks them deep. Refuses to budge as an awful truth - one buried so deep you forgot it was there, ever lurking in the shadows - rises to the forefront of your mind.

And then --

Oh.

It’s because I love him - because I’m in love with him.

Suddenly it hurts to breathe, your lungs burning as you drown on the air itself. The steel band cinching around your ribs threatens to crack you open.

Your heart lurches in your chest, despair following swiftly to settle over your shoulders. Moreover, there is no one to blame except yourself.

Even if you want it to, it will never work out because loving Jungkook is to love the ghost of a long-forgotten memory.

And there are too many hurts to soothe, too many disappointments to name.

I can’t believe I actually -- shit. You swipe a shaky hand over your forehead. When you swallow, a sour taste clings to the back of your tongue. Should’ve known better.

You glance at your phone, the cursor blinking back at you mockingly. Should’ve done a lot of things, I guess.

Now, you're in too deep.

Waiting without ever realizing you began to do so in the first place; a life on pause, surviving off scraps of half-measures and maybe's, what-ifs, and if only's.

Now, it's clear the only way out is through.

The time to let go is here.

You need to muster up some semblance of self, and work to untangle the threads of connection binding you together. You need space to rediscover the pieces of your heart you left with him.

How to live without the taste of his kiss, the clench of his muscles, the thrust of his cock.

A new life sans Jungkook which begins with a simple reply in place of everything you really want to say: ok.

Then you wave the bartender over.

He does you a kindness once more, pretending not to notice the tears brimming along your lower lash line. “You ready to order?” he asks.

“Uh, yeah - sorry, I was…”

His mouth twitches. You waver.

Then the screen of your phone lights up with a notification.

Refusing to look lest you cave, emotions too fresh -  scraped raw and tender, you switch on DND and turn it face down where it will remain until you go home.

You're far too fragile (and sober) to think about reading Jungkook’s reply, let alone engage with him in any meaningful way.

“I’ll take a double vodka cranberry.”

Maybe if you get drunk enough, you'll forget about the home he carved in your bones.

Bottoms up, bitch.

w8 nvm guys cnt make it

y/n?

i cn b ovr in 10

???

gn ttyt

hey, sorry. called it early.

wyd?

nothing much. you?

nm running some mtchs

cool, cool. you able to swing by today?

yeh b there in 30 :)

In hindsight, trying to have this conversation with Jungkook face to face isn’t the brightest idea. But if anything, last night showed you every choice you’ve made lately is a disaster waiting to happen.

Your life’s already a mess - and you’re hopelessly in love with a man that’ll never love you back - so what’s another mistake added to a long string of misfortune.

So what if your hands tremble and your stomach churns as you unlock the door to let him in.

So what if he leans in for a kiss and you duck to the side, his lips brushing the slope of your cheek.

So what if he pauses and gives you a long, searching look before toeing off his shoes and offering you the drink he picked up on the way.

It can’t get any worse, right?

Only the hungry, molten mixture of rage and rebellion fueling you thus far fizzles away the minute you see him head towards your bedroom with a wink.

Anguish and despair follows in its wake, nipping at your heels.

This is all you’ll ever be to him, you remind yourself as you step into the room. A fun time. Nothing serious. You have to break it off.

You shoot him a tight smile. “Did you have a good night?”

Jungkook shrugs, glancing around at the decorations littering your dresser. “Nah, not really.” His gaze slides to you, traveling from your head to your bare toes in a slow once over. “I definitely would’ve had a better time with you.”

Swallowing roughly, you rub your hands over your arms and suddenly feel far too naked - exposed in your light summer dress. “Hah,” you intone without humor, awkward and stilted. “Probably not. I was out by 11:30.”

“Mm, that’s not like you.” Jungkook hums, moving forward until he’s right in front of you. His hands reach for you, grabbing your wrists gently. His thumb strokes over your pulse point. “You’re acting weird. Is there something you want to talk about, baby?”

Of course he’d notice.

It would be annoying if it wasn’t so endearing. Jungkook always pays attention to the details, makes leaps of logic based on little more than quiet observations.

You stitch together a chuckle. “Nothing gets past you, huh?”

His eyes crinkle at the corners as he grins, his lip ring dimpling the swell of his bottom lip. Your chests brush with every inhale, sharing space and breath. 

“Nothing,” he agrees.

It’s torture. It’s too intimate.

The glow of your overhead lamp highlights the sweep of his cheekbones, the curl of his lashes as he blinks slow and happy. The barely there impression of his body is too much.

You shrink back, clearing your throat.

“No, don’t do that. Where are you going?”

His eyes, shimmering with warmth, plead with you to stay, his shoulders curving towards you. A large palm settles over your shoulder, sparks igniting wherever he touches.

“Stop hiding. You can talk to me about anything. Come on, I want to know what’s going on in that pretty head of yours.”

Steeling your resolve, you inhale and exhale with a shudder. His expression is open, soft. You know it won’t last, and take a few seconds to commit how he looks in this moment to memory.

For all you know, this will be one of the last times you’ll be this close to him again. At least until you can beat your feelings into submission.

And then you can’t put it off anymore, unable to take the ginger strokes of his fingers. The calming caresses as if he thinks you’re something precious. Quick like ripping off a band-aid, otherwise the words will never get past the bend of your throat.

“I want to stop.”

You catch the way his eyes darken, sharpen in the dim overhead light. He knows exactly what you’re talking about, but his half-smile never falters.

Of course, he refuses to make this easy on you. To acknowledge this is happening. He’s always been a greedy man; wants what he can’t have, and destroys what he does.

“Stop what?” Jungkook says. “You’re gonna have to be more specific than that, baby.”

“Kook,” you sigh, rubbing the bridge of your nose. “You know what I mean. I just - I can’t do,” your voice cracks, a hand motioning to the space between you, “this anymore.”

A vein throbs on the side of his neck, his jaw working in response. Muscles tense and release with every grit of his teeth. He asks, “You gonna tell me why, huh? Or are you just going to ditch me and act like it didn’t mean something?”

“Kook…”

There’s a certain grief that can’t be spoken, gnarled roots burrowing deep in your chest. A sense of loss so keenly felt it almost steals your breath.

You wish this wasn’t happening, you wish you could take it all back but this pantomime of a relationship isn’t fair to you. Not anymore. And you knew this conversation wouldn’t be fun, but Jungkook’s staunch denial still manages to surprise you.

“It didn’t mean anything though,” you say.

At least, not to you, you think. To me, it meant the world.

-- And that’s the problem.

You need to stop whatever this is between you from building. He’s already shown he doesn’t share your desire for more in a multitude of ways. He’s been avoiding you for a reason, whether he was consciously aware of your feelings or not.

Undoubtedly, you trust him with your life but not your heart.

As sweet as he is, has been, he won’t treat it gently. Not through any intentional ill-will but because he can’t contain his own commitment issues let alone make room for yours.

It’s better this way.

Let what you have - had - stay a memory unmarred by the ugliness of your hurt feelings and bitter disappointments.

Jungkook’s shoulders draw up towards his ears, his gaze glacial as his hands slide away from you. “Is there a reason you’re done with me now?”

Shadows lurk in the depths of his eyes, his lips curled into a cruel smirk. Everything about him looks weighted down.

“Well, is there? I mean, shit, I think I’ve earned an answer after all the time we spent together.”

Your heart breaks for him, everything in you calling out to close the gap and offer him comfort. But you can’t. You don’t trust yourself to touch him without wanting more than your heart can bear.

“I’m not done with you,” you say. “I would never do that to you, Kook. I just - I can’t be with you like that anymore, that’s all. I need space but I’ll still be around, I promise.”

The glare he shoots your way freezes the blood in your veins. “Cut the bullshit,” he snarls. “Tell.me.why.”

You avert your gaze, arms wrapping around your chest. “Why does that - I -”

You only had one rule at the very beginning of this mess: if there’s someone you’re serious about, you stop fucking. It comes as a handy lie - a believable excuse that’ll stop any further questioning.

You don’t think you have the fortitude if Jungkook keeps pressing you, cracking under the weight of your grief and the anger in his eyes like fine china.

“I think I - I think I want to start looking for a boyfriend again.”

An expression flashes across his face, there and gone in the blink of an eye. But there’s no doubt he recognizes it for the goodbye it’s supposed to be.

This is it, you think.

You can put what you had to rest and move on, a memory on a shelf you’ll dust off years down the line when the hurt isn’t so prevalent. And hopefully, with time, you can relearn how to be friends.

Though the strange gleam to his eyes sends a prickle of apprehension down your spine, and then you find yourself being manhandled as he snaps forward like a snake coiled to strike.

Air flees your lungs as Jungkook shoves you with a firm palm, your feet stumbling over themselves as you trip backwards into your bed frame.

Wood knocks into the backs of your knees, and you fold like a stack of cards. The sheets puff out around you, the scent of your laundry detergent tickling your nose.

You blink at the textured ceiling, mouth agape as you try to process what happened.

The empty space above you doesn’t stay vacant, Jungkook quickly crowding you into the mattress with his weight as he settles over top of your body.

He molds himself to your front, his firm hips slotting themselves between your thighs. Broad palms, warm and calloused, skim your sides and ruck up the skirt of your dress as he reaches under you to grip the soft globes of your ass.

He yanks you into him, your pelvises slotting together. You whine before you can stop yourself, eyes fluttering shut at the heat of his body.

Teeth scrape along the delicate skin of your neck, the sharp pricks of pleasure-pain coaxing a shiver down your spine.

Lips brush the shell of your ear, his minty breath puffing against the side of your face as he speaks, low and husky, “So that’s it, huh?”

“What--!”

Teeth nip your earlobe, and you wince.

“My girl thinks she’s going to leave me for someone else?” Jungkook snorts. “Like I’d ever let that fucking happen.”

“I’m not your girl.”

You squirm, a bolt of awareness slicing through you as your body responds to his proximity, the weight of him over you electrifying. Liquid desire blooms behind your navel, uncomfortable and unwelcome.

“I never was.”

Blunt nails dig into the fat of your ass, and a cruel mouth latches onto the corner of your jaw. “Ah, is that right?” Jungkook asks, the rumble of his voice vibrating through your torso, your nipples tightening as they drag over the plains of his chest. “You’re not my girl?”

You swallow, and ignore the throb of your clit as the line of his cock ruts into you. “I’m not your girl, Jungkook.”

“If you’re not my girl,” he grinds into the cradle of your hips, teasing - taunting, “then why the fuck are you so wet?”

Keening, you twitch, involuntarily rocking up into the firm pressure of his shaft. The angle’s just right, spreading your folds beneath the thin cotton of your panties and giving your neglected clit the perfect stimulation.

Exposing your soaked core to the chill of your room as your body warms with mortification.

Jungkook hums in approval, giving the side of your neck a sloppy kiss followed by a stinging nip. “You think some nobody can fuck you better than me?”

“That’s not what I - ffuck!”

Heat pools low in your belly, blood pumping fast. You’re steadily losing control, the aborted rolls of your hips increasing in frequency.

“Answer me.”

A sharp burst of copper floods your mouth, your skin splitting open with how hard you’re chewing on it. Blood clings to the swell of your bottom lip, a ruby red bead you lick away with a nervous tongue.

Sweat dappled your brow, and it’s getting harder and harder to ignore the molten desire curdling your stomach.

The softness of your body knows the hardness of his, every curve has a matching divot. The heady, pleasant scent of his cologne floods your lungs with every stuttered inhale.

Your senses are overwhelmed as he surrounds you.

“Shit, Kook, please,” you plead, hands tangling in the sheets by your head.

You’re not sure what you’re asking for but at the same time, you’re not sure how you ended up here. Again.

“I don’t know what you want from me.”

This was supposed to be an amenable end to a dubious affair. It’s anything but.

“I want you to tell me who your cunt belongs to.”

Fingers inch down to tease along the soft flesh of your inner thighs, and play with the elastic of your panties.

You tremble, gooseflesh dimpling the exposed skin of your arms as knuckles brush over the length of your soaked pussy.

Your clit pulses, the pressure enough to tease.

“Come on, baby,” Jungkook coaxes, working his way beneath the fabric clinging to your core, “tell me you’re my girl.”

His cock nestles into the crook of your hip, hot and heavy through his jeans as a darkened patch blooms across the denim crotch. The sticky wetness of his pre-cum smearing into your skin as arousal swells, crashing over you.

Leaving you a whimpering, trembling mess in the cage of his arms.

“You just have to say it - say you’re my girl and I’ll be so, so good to you.” His breath warms the shell of your ear. “All you have to do is say it, and I’ll make you cum so hard you see stars.”

Jungkook doesn’t give you a chance to cobble together a response, sliding a thick finger through your sticky folds and into your needy pussy just as your lips part.

All words leave you, your mind wiped clean as a low, broken cry echoes out into the room. Swallowed up by the sounds of city life outside your apartment as he works to stretch you open.

You clamp down at the sudden fullness, walls tight and fluttering around his finger like they would be around his cock.

“Fuck, baby,” he groans. “You always feel so soft and wet.”

Whining in agreement, you give up any pretense of resistance, letting primal desire chase away the despair, the guilt that threatens to choke you. Wiping your mind clean of any thoughts until the only thing that remains is the thrust of his fingers and the ache in your cunt.

Your hands slip, scrambling for purchase with sweaty palms. “J-Jungkook!”

Your knees tremble where they dig into his sides, air rushing from you in heavy pants as the space between your bodies heats up. You know you won’t last long, already hanging on the edge.

Never in a million years did you expect to be so turned on by Jungkook’s rough behavior. He usually treats you like something delicate.

Though he holds no such compunction now, raw in his desperate desire to make you cum.

Jungkook peppers kisses onto whatever skin he can reach, spreading your thighs wider with his torso. His knuckles strain against the fabric of your panties, stretching out the cotton and ruining them forevermore as he slips another finger into you.

Then his dark head bows, catching your gaze, and he says, “Hold on.”

Barely seconds after you anchor yourself to his shoulders, he starts finger fucking you to within an inch of your life. His forearm ripples with strength, the movements of his fingers pressing and rubbing against all the right spots. Curling up to massage at your g-spot until you’re shaking beneath him with hitched breaths.

“Shit, shit,” you gasp, eyes rolling back as your toes flex against his side, “Kook, baby, please don’t stop.”

He huffs a laugh, dark and amused. “Wouldn’t ever do that to you, baby.”

“S’good - I - I’m close.”

You sob, tears brimming along your lash line. The sloppy sounds of him fucking your pussy ring in your ears, as embarrassing as it is arousing. He’s making you gush, slick wetting your inner thighs, dribbling down your ass to stain the sheets.

“So close, gonna - hnnng - gonna cum.”

“Yeah, that’s it. Just like that, baby. Give me that squirt.”

You shake your head. “I can’t - I can’t!”

If you could, you’d suspend time so this moment never ends. The finality of your arrangement hovering just on the other side of pleasure.

In the back of your mind, you know Jungkook’s only behaving this way because he’s jealous. Angry. He doesn’t mean it, and this is a mistake.

It’ll only hurt you in the long run but you’ll take what you can get.

After all, this is the last time you’ll be together like this.

“No,” he shushes, dropping a kiss to your sweaty brow, “No, don’t lie. I know you can. I’ll make you.”

There’s no escape.

He refuses to let you escape, using his weight to keep you pinned as he spreads his fingers open inside you, twisting and fucking so deep you feel a twinge behind your navel.

And then you’re right there, crashing over the edge as the bubble of pleasure bursts, crackling through your limbs.

You cum harder than you ever have before. Nails sinking into his shoulders with a hiss as a wounded, broken wail scrapes its way out of your throat.

Your pussy throbs, gummy walls sucking him deeper as a rush of cum gushes from you in spurts. Your ears ring with white noise, and you’re vaguely aware of the fact your hands have gone numb.

For several long moments, you float with a head full of cotton, only rejoining the atmosphere when warmth dribbles down your ass in sticky rivulets of squirt.

Jungkook’s arm is curled around your waist, holding you close as his nose nuzzles into the side of your head. Tender lips dust kisses over your crown. His cock is still a heavy weight digging into your hip but he doesn’t seem to be in any rush to relieve himself.

“Jungkook,” you sigh, a wave of fatigue crashing over you. Your eyes sting when you close them, a lump building in your throat. You ache all over pleasantly, satisfaction settling deep into your bones. In spite of that, a rift opens in your heart. “Jungkook, I--”

He kisses your shoulder, shushing you. “Don’t ruin it. Just let me hold you for a little while longer… please.”

The tears are almost impossible to stop. “It’s already hard enough, don’t make me -- I can’t just…”

Jungkook squeezes you gently. “I love you,” he says, “but I swear to god you can be so stupid sometimes.”

You jolt, eyes swinging up to meet his, wide and disbelieving. “What did you just  - I - I  don’t. ..Jungkook?”

“How could I not feel the same?” he asks, tone resigned and wary. “Honestly scared the shit out of me when I realized because, well, y’know I don’t have the best track record.” He averts his gaze, a sheepish smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. “I almost fucked everything up too, but Namjoonie-hyung helped me get my head on straight.”

Something unfurls in your chest, and you feel as light as air. Ridiculously buoyant with happiness. Hope.

Oh, how stupid.

“We’re kind of idiots, aren’t we?” you ask, sniffling as you shoot him a watery smile. “Like… the biggest.”

Jungkook hums in agreement, a boyish gleam to his eyes. “I mean, you said it. Not me.”

[mxstellatayte]

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it was the flash of papaya among a sea of navy blue that snapped max out of the zoned-out daze he'd been in for the past few minutes. lando.

thank christ.

he reaches out his hand, clasping the mclaren driver's own and bringing him in for a brief hug before stepping back. thankfully, there isn't any media around right now, or max might just flip a table. he's getting real sick of putting up a wall of friendliness when all he wanted to do was escape to his driver's room and mentally prepare for the upcoming qualifying session.

they make small talk for a few moments, talking about the track evolution throughout the day, the brutal heat and humidity, the added drs zone, lap times...

"you get up to anything last night, mate?" lando quirks an eyebrow and sips from his black drinks bottle as he asks the question, leaning his hip against a random storage container.

you'd been wandering around the paddock with lily zneimer while max finished up in the post-practice press conference, doing anything you could to escape the absolutely brutal singaporean heat. however, it seemed that the moment max left you alone, any man within a ten kilometer radius immediately decided to flirt with you.

as soon as the press conference was over and max was released from any further duties, he began searching for you throughout the paddock. after fifteen unsuccessful minutes, though, he thankfully ran into someone who might have a vague idea as to where you may be.

"daniel, have you seen-"

"mclaren hospitality with zneimer."

"thanks."

as max approached the painfully orange building, he heard your voice, mood immediately lifting. what he heard, however, pissed him off beyond measure.

"-told you, i have a boyfriend. i'm not interested. now, if you could kindly fuck off, i'm trying to enjoy my lunch."

what the fuck?

when he rounded the corner, he saw who you were talking to, and... really? this guy thought he had a chance with you? if there was anything more about the situation that could piss max off even more, it's the fact that he's leaning in way too close for his- and your- comfort.

"hey, schatje. everything all good over here?" max rests a hand on your shoulder, deliberately placing himself between you and this creep who won't leave you alone.

"yeah, everything's good. how did the press conference go?" you tilt your head back, and max immediately understands, ducking down to kiss you quickly.

it's that moment that the man bothering you chooses to speak up, and he somehow says the one thing that wouldn't help his situation right now, embarrassing as it is already. "could've just said you had a boyfriend. fuckin' bitch." max's hand twitches on your shoulder and you bring your own up to rest on it, holding him in place. instead of any other reaction, max offers him a fake smile before he storms off, leaving the two of you to burst into laughter.

max sits down next to you, steals a bite of your croissant, and leans back in his chair, a cocky smirk on his face as he chews the flaky pastry. "i was eating that, thank you very much."

"i'll buy you another one," max replies nonchalantly as if he didn't just stare daggers into the heart of the man that was flirting with you. "it seems like you need something that tells people you're taken, though."

later that night, max's lips and teeth ghosted across the skin of your neck, breasts, and thighs as you squirmed beneath him, promising that the blues, purples, and yellows that mottled your skin would ensure that no one would even think about flirting with you.

"nah, nothing much," max lies. "just the team debrief, some sim work, checking over numbers with gp, that kind of stuff. what about you?"

"nah, nothing much," lando responds with a shrug, teeth still clamped around the bendy straw. "played some padel games with max but we were roasted by the end of it. fell dead asleep by nine."

"yeah, the heat always beats it out of me here. i'm probably going to sleep for thirteen hours straight after the race on sunday."

"i probably will, too, honestly, but mostly because i can't beat the jet lag here." max nods in agreement, taking a sip out of his own drinks bottle. "a little birdy told me that you got up to more than just racing review, last night, though."

max's eyebrows furrow in confusion, and he swallows the gulp of water he'd taken. "what do you mean?"

"your neck, mate."

max whined as his hips canted up into yours, his hands desperately grabbing at your arms. your tongue laved over your teeth marks, matching blues and purples littering the lower part of max's neck but coming high enough so that they'd be just visible over the high collar of his fireproofs and race suit. "fuck, schatje, feels so good."

"yeah? you like everyone knowing that you're mine?" all max can do is nod pathetically, biting down on his lower lip in order to muffle the sounds he so desperately wants to make. "use your words, max."

"love it, want everyone to know i'm yours. everyone needs to know."

"there you go, baby." your hips resume their previous pattern, and you groan openly at the delicious slide of max's cock inside of you, filling you up so perfectly. he cries out when you shift your lips lower, taking his left nipple between your teeth gently, and you're able to pry one of his hands from your arm, bringing it to your own breast in hopes that he gets the memo.

he does.

max's hand immediately kneads at your breast, and you groan, your mouth shifting over to his other nipple and repeating the same ministrations, letting your teeth graze it ever so slightly between gentle licks and sucks. "mm, fuck, schatje, gonna cum, 'm gonna cum-"

"so cum for me, max." that's all max needs to hear before his head is thrown back and a beautiful moan rips itself from his throat, and you can't help but press your fingers into the bruises that litter his thick neck. the combination of the high-pitched wails that fill your ears and the feeling of max's cum filling you beyond full makes you fall over the edge, too, and you collapse onto his chest with a satisfied giggle.

max's hand immediately comes up to his neck and he tries not to wince at the flashes of pain that zip through his body, stemming from the lingering bite marks you'd left the night before, his eyes flashing wide. "that bad?"

"that bad," lando confirms with a nod and a smirk. "you might want to go find her and make her cover them up for you before qualifying."

[charles-leclerizz]

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on the runway : charles leclerc x fem! reader

inspiration ( warnings ) : none, fluff !!

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before the show begins ( synopsis ) : While you're deep in your university studies, working toward a journalism degree with dreams of covering the sports world, Charles shows up to your library study session with coffee, croissants, and quiet encouragement.

designer notes : SO, cause we've been straight fucking it for a while. here's some fluff for u guys, dont worry, still got some filthy stuff in the works <333 enjoy, and wear your seatbelts.

The library smelled of old paper and polished wood, a comforting scent that somehow made the endless hours of studying feel less like a punishment and more like a refuge. You settled into a quiet corner near a window, the sunlight filtering in dust motes and warming your notebooks spread across the table like a fortress. The stack of textbooks beside you threatened to topple over at any moment, and your eyelids were already heavy despite the strong coffee you’d downed half an hour ago. 

You took a deep breath, opening the thick volume on international media law in front of you. It was dense, technical, and utterly vital to your dream of becoming a journalist specializing in sports - a goal you’d never let go of, even if it meant juggling this grueling study schedule alongside the unpredictable life of dating an F1 driver. 

Your phone buzzed quietly against the wooden table. You glanced down to see a message from Charles: “Checking in - how’s the study battlefield?” 

You smiled, fingers typing back: “Still holding the line, but reinforcements might be necessary.” 

Moments later, the library door creaked open softly, and Charles slipped inside, careful not to draw too much attention. His dark curls were tousled from the day, and his casual sweater made him look impossibly approachable - a contrast to the intense, fiery competitor you saw on race weekends. 

“I come bearing coffee and moral support,” he whispered, balancing two iced lattes and a paper bag. 

“You really didn’t have to,” you said, smiling warmly as you accepted the coffee. The warmth of the gesture stretched through you in a way words couldn’t quite capture. 

He slid into the seat across from you, setting down the drinks and pulling out a warm, flaky croissant wrapped in parchment. His usual teasing grin softening into something more attentive as he watched you arrange your notes, “I figured you might need a little fuel. Studying for the big leagues, huh?” 

You nodded, pushing a stray lock of hair behind your ear. “International media law is no joke.” 

Charles’s eyes softened. “I’m proud of you. Balancing this with the madness of the F1 schedule can’t be easy.” 

“It’s not,” you admitted. “But having you around makes it bearable.” 

He gave a small, pleased smile and reached across the table, fingers brushing your hand briefly - a casual, loving touch that made your pulse flutter, “I’m here. We’ll get through it together.” 

The next few hours passed in a blur of shared glances, whispered jokes, and stolen bites of croissant. Charles was terrible at staying quiet; every time you tried to concentrate, he’d drop a paperclip or shuffle his feet, sending a small cascade of noise across the otherwise silent room. But even with the distractions, having him there made everything feel a little lighter, less lonely. 

He knocked over a stack of flashcards once, groaned in mock frustration, and then grinned sheepishly at your amused glare. 

“You’re terrible at this,” you teased. 

“Yeah, yeah. But I make it fun.” He leaned in close enough that you could feel the heat from his breath, lowering his voice. “Besides, I’m a much better distraction than a librarian.” 

You smiled, blinking up at him. “You’re distracting enough.” 

At another point, you caught him doodling a little heart in the margin of your notes. You nudged his hand gently. 

“Hey, don’t distract me,” you murmured, smiling. 

Charles looked up sheepishly, cheeks-tinged pink. “I’m helping.” 

“By making it harder to concentrate?” 

“Exactly.” 

“You’re hopeless,” you teased, though your voice was soft and affectionate. 

“But I’m your hopeless boyfriend,” he countered with a grin, leaning closer so you could feel the warmth radiating from him. “That counts for something, right?” 

You nodded, laughter bubbling up between your words. “Definitely.” 

As the sun dipped lower and the library’s golden light softened, Charles leaned back in his chair, eyes filled with quiet pride. “You’re doing amazing. I mean it.” 

You smiled, feeling the weight of exhaustion ease just a bit. “I couldn’t do it without you.” 

He shrugged, mock modest. “Well, what can I say? I’m good motivation.” 

Later, when the library announced closing time, Charles offered to carry your textbooks, piling them high in his arms. 

“I’ll be your personal sherpa,” he joked, grinning as you looped your arm through his. 

Outside, the evening air was crisp and refreshing. The city lights twinkled on as you strolled back to your place, fingers intertwined, comfortable silence wrapping around you both. 

Once home, you settled on the couch, Charles pulling a soft throw blanket over you. The two of you shared the last croissant, the quiet companionship a balm against the stress of the day. 

“Race week starts soon,” Charles said softly, head resting on your shoulder. “But we’ll find moments like this - just us.” 

You leaned into him, heart full. “Always.” 

[50calmadeuce]

EOL - Chapter 2

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The next morning, you woke up around five a.m., showered, and dressed in jeans, cowboy boots, and a short-sleeved plaid shirt over a tank top. After braiding your hair into a neat French braid, you headed downstairs, where the rich aroma of fresh coffee greeted you.

Your mom stood at the stove, scrambling eggs and sizzling bacon in a pan. A plate of fresh buttermilk biscuits rested on the counter, their golden tops promising a warm, flaky bite.

"Momma, you didn’t have to go through all this," you said, picking up a biscuit, splitting it open, and taking a bite.

"It's the least I could do. Out of everyone in this house, I missed cooking for you the most," she replied.

You smiled as you chewed, savoring the buttery warmth of the biscuit. "Well, I definitely missed your cooking," you admitted.

Your mom turned from the stove, giving you a knowing look. "Good to know I haven’t lost my touch." She set a plate of eggs and bacon on the table. "Now sit and eat before you head out. Big first day ahead."

You didn’t argue, pulling out a chair and sitting down. The food smelled too good to resist, and you knew better than to turn down a home-cooked breakfast from your mother.

As you dug into your eggs, Cole wandered in, rubbing the sleep from his eyes. "Smells good," he mumbled, dropping into the chair across from you.

"You better appreciate it while you can," you teased. "Who knows when Mom will go all out like this again?"

Your mother scoffed playfully. "Don’t push your luck," she warned, though the warmth in her eyes said she was happy to have both of you home.

As you finished your plate, you glanced at the clock. Time to go. You pushed back your chair, grabbing your hat from the nearby hook. "I should head out. Don’t wanna be late on my first day."

Your mom wiped her hands on a dish towel and walked over, pressing a kiss to your cheek. "You’re gonna do great, sweetheart."

"Yeah, don’t mess it up," Cole added with a smirk.

You rolled your eyes but grinned. "Thanks for the vote of confidence."

With that, you grabbed your keys and headed out the door, ready to take on the day.

Jake woke up, got dressed, and made his way to the kitchen, where his mom was busy cooking breakfast.

"Morning, Momma," he greeted, pressing a quick kiss to her cheek.

"Morning, baby. The vet’s coming by today to check on one of the horses. Can you handle that while your dad runs to town?" she asked.

"Of course. Which one?" he replied, grabbing a plate of food.

His mother wiped her hands on a kitchen towel before turning to face him. "Missy. She’s been favoring her front left leg since yesterday. Your dad thinks it might be a stone bruise, but I’d rather have the vet take a look just to be sure."

Jake nodded, taking a bite of his eggs. "Yeah, better safe than sorry. What time’s the vet supposed to get here?"

"’Round ten," she answered, watching him with a soft smile. "It’s nice having you home, you know."

Jake glanced up, his chewing slowing slightly. He swallowed before giving her a small smile. "Yeah, it’s nice being home."

His mother studied him for a moment, then gave a knowing nod. "You run into anyone you didn’t expect last night?"

Jake hesitated, but there was no use hiding it. His mom could always see right through him. "Danielle Hayes. She bartends at the tavern now."

His mom chuckled. "That girl always did have a wild streak. Anyone else?"

Jake poked at his food with his fork before sighing. "She told me Y/N’s back in town."

His mother’s expression softened, but she didn’t seem surprised. "I figured she’d come back eventually. Have you seen her?"

Jake shook his head. "Not yet." He met her gaze. "Did you know she got sick after I left?"

His mother let out a quiet sigh, setting down her spatula. She turned to face him fully, her expression unreadable. "I did," she admitted softly.

Jake’s grip on his fork tightened. "And you didn’t tell me?"

She shook her head. "Sweetheart, you were at the Academy. You had enough on your plate. What good would it have done to worry you when there was nothing you could do about it?"

Jake exhaled sharply, running a hand over his face. "I could’ve—" He stopped himself, jaw tightening. Could’ve what? Come back? Walked away from everything he’d worked for? He didn’t know. He just hated that he hadn’t known, that she’d gone through it alone.

His mother gave him a gentle look. "By the time we knew how serious it was, she was already pulling through. Then, before anyone could blink, she was gone. I figured if she wanted you to know, she’d have told you herself."

Jake swallowed the lump in his throat, nodding slowly. He wasn’t sure if he was angry, guilty, or just plain lost. Maybe all three.

"Do you know what made her sick?" he asked, his curiosity piqued.

His mom shook her head. "Not exactly," she answered, turning back to the stove.

Jake leaned back in his chair, his mind racing with all the unanswered questions. What had really happened? He couldn’t shake the feeling that there was more to the story, something deeper than just her getting sick.

His mom set down her spatula, turning to face him again. "You know, son, sometimes people go through things, and they don’t want anyone else to carry that weight. Y/N’s always been like that. Proud. Stubborn, even."

Jake’s eyes softened. "She always was."

"Yeah, and that’s not always a bad thing," his mom continued. "But it can make it hard for people to reach out, even when they need it the most."

Jake was quiet for a moment, absorbing her words. The guilt still gnawed at him, but he also understood. Y/N had always been independent, even when they were together. He had no right to judge how she handled it.

"Do you think she’ll want to talk to me?" he finally asked, the uncertainty in his voice palpable.

His mom gave him a knowing look, her expression softening with a hint of empathy. "I think she’ll need time. And you’ll need to give it to her. But don’t wait too long, Jake. Some things, you can’t just leave to chance."

Jake nodded slowly, the weight of the moment settling on him. "I won’t. I’ll figure it out."

"Good," his mom said with a small smile. "Now, go on and get that horse taken care of. Don’t let it stew in your head too much today. One thing at a time."

Jake rose from the table, giving her a brief nod. "Yeah. One thing at a time." But in his mind, Y/N was already taking up the space between every thought, and he knew, sooner or later, he was going to have to face the past.

You knocked on the back door of the clinic, and it creaked open. Standing there was a man with piercing crystal blue eyes and black hair, looking to be in his early thirties.

"Dr. Weiss?" you asked.

"Naw, that'd be ma partner," the man replied with a slight smile and an accent. "Ah’m Dr. Nolan Gentry. Ye must be Y/N."

You nodded, offering a polite smile in return. "Yes, that's me. It's nice to meet you, Dr. Gentry."

He stepped aside, gesturing for you to enter. "Aye, in ye go. Dr. Weiss is just finishin’ up wi’ a patient, but he’ll be wi’ ye in a wee bit. Till then, let me show ye ‘round."

As you stepped inside, you took in the clinic's clean, efficient layout—veterinary tools neatly arranged, cabinets filled with supplies, and a few animal carriers tucked along the walls. There was a sense of calm professionalism to the space.

Dr. Gentry led you toward the back, where a large exam room and a few stalls for animals were located. "We deal mostly wi’ large animals here—horses, cattle, an’ the odd sheep or goat. It’s a fair bit different frae the usual wee animal clinics ye might be used tae, but I reckon ye’ll find it fascinatin’."

You nodded, your excitement growing. "It definitely sounds like something I could learn a lot from."

He smiled, clearly pleased with your enthusiasm. "Aye, I’m sure ye will. Dr. Weiss has been in the trade a fair while, an’ we both love teachin’. This should be a grand experience for ye."

Just as he finished speaking, a voice from the other room called out. "Nolan, you take care of Y/N while I finish up?"

"O’ course," Dr. Gentry replied, giving you an encouraging glance. ""Dr. Weiss’ll be out in just a tick. Feel free tae ask me anythin’ in the meantime."

"If you don’t mind me asking, where are you from? I couldn’t help but notice the accent," you said, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear.

Dr. Gentry chuckled softly, his smile widening. "Ah, ye caught that, did ye?" he said, leaning back against the counter casually. "I’m originally frae Scotland, tae be exact. Moved here a few weeks back after finishin’ up ma residency an’ decided tae stick around. The area’s grown on me, though it’s still a bit o’ a change frae home."

You smiled, finding a bit of comfort in the familiar warmth of southern hospitality. "Scotland, huh? That explains the accent. I’ve never been, but I’ve heard it’s beautiful there."

"Aye, it is," he agreed, his tone softening a little with the fondness of home. "Lots o’ open land, an’ the folk… well, they’re some o’ the nicest ye’ll ever meet. What aboot ye? Where did ye grow up?"

You thought for a moment before responding. "I grew up on a ranch here in town. Spent a lot of time with horses and cattle, so it feels like a natural fit to be working in this field."

Dr. Gentry nodded, clearly interested. "That’s great. It’ll be braw havin' someone who's familiar wi' the ranch life roon’ here. Ye'll likely find that helps wi' the work. No’ everyone has that kind o' background."

You nodded, feeling a little more at ease with the conversation. "I hope so. I’m excited to see how everything works in the clinic and learn from both of you."

Before Dr. Gentry could respond, the door to the next room opened, and a man stepped through. He was in his late fifties, with short salt and pepper hair and a warm smile that instantly put you at ease.

"Y/N, I assume?" he said, extending a hand to you. "I’m Dr. Weiss. It’s a pleasure to meet you."

You shook his hand firmly, feeling grateful for the welcoming atmosphere. "It’s great to meet you too, Dr. Weiss. I’m really excited for this opportunity."

Dr. Weiss smiled, his eyes lighting up. "We’re glad to have you on board. Come on in; let’s get you started."

You followed him into the office. "Well, you’ve got a choice. You can either help out here today or head out in the field with Dr. Gentry. Just a heads up, though—Dr. Gentry is still getting to know the area," Dr. Weiss said, grinning.

You returned the smile. "I’ll go with Dr. Gentry today."

Dr. Weiss chuckled. "Good choice. He could use the extra set of hands, and I think you'll enjoy the fieldwork. He’s a bit of a perfectionist, but you’ll learn a lot."

You nodded, feeling the excitement build as you followed Dr. Gentry back outside to the truck. The morning sun was already high in the sky, casting a warm glow over the clinic’s surroundings.

As you both climbed into the truck and drove off, the wide open spaces of the ranches stretched before you. The drive was peaceful, with the occasional hum of the truck engine and the sounds of the countryside filling the air.

You also caught a glimpse of Dr. Gentry. He wore a t-shirt and jeans, and it was clear from the size of his biceps that he had a nicely muscular build.

"So, how long have you been here?" you asked.

"Aye, just a wee bit o' over a month," he replied, glancing at you.

You nodded, taking in the gentle rhythm of the truck as it rolled over the dirt road. "A month, huh? Not too long, but long enough to get a feel for things, I’m guessing."

Dr. Gentry chuckled. "Aye, that's right. Still learning the lay of the land, so to speak. But I’ve found the work here to be rewarding, even if it's a bit different than back home."

"Where exactly is home for you, if you don't mind me asking?" you asked, intrigued by his accent and the little glimpses he'd offered of his past.

He turned his attention back to the road, a smile tugging at his lips. "Culross. A small town, just north o' Edinburgh."

"I'll have to look that place up when I get home," you replied, your eyes following him as he turned down a familiar road.

Dr. Gentry nodded, the corners of his mouth lifting slightly. "Aye, it's a quaint place. Very peaceful, not much happens there, but it's got its charm. You'll see when you look it up."

As he took another turn, the landscape outside the truck's window began to feel more familiar. The ranches, fields, and rolling hills stretched out around you in all directions. You could tell by the way Dr. Gentry maneuvered the truck that he was getting more comfortable with the terrain.

"Ye've got a bonnie area here," he said, glancing at you before focusing back on the road. "Naebody can beat the Highlands, but it's got its ain charm, aye?"

You nodded, the openness of the land drawing a sense of peace from within you. "It does. It’s quiet but full of life, and there's always something to do."

Dr. Gentry smiled, clearly enjoying the conversation. "Sounds like ma kind o' place. A guid balance—plenty o’ work, but room tae breathe"

As the truck continued down the familiar path, you couldn’t help but notice the way he seemed to be easing into his role, both as a veterinarian and as someone who was beginning to feel at home here. It felt good, the camaraderie forming naturally between you two as the truck carried you further into the open, quiet countryside.

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[wanda-widow]

Plum Croissants With a Side of Sunshine

Private Chef!f!Reader x Avenger!Bucky

Word Count: 1.2k

Summary: Bucky isn't used to people caring for him, much less being persistent with it because they think he deserves it. It all comes to a halt when Tony decided to hire a private chef who also has everyone's best interest in mind.

Warnings: slight angst, Bucky's kind of an asshole, fluff

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Bucky's usual afternoon routine was work out, go for a run, and then go to the kitchen to heat up some leftovers as dinner. Simple, easy, and he was left alone. He liked the familiar routine, the limited interaction. And he was perfectly fine with it staying that way.

What he wasn't perfectly fine with was walking into the kitchen one afternoon to find it packed with agents and his fellow team members, the vast dining table filled with fresh food. He took one look and turned the other way, deciding to eat later when Steve saw him.

"Hey Buck, you gotta try some of these dishes, they're almost heavenly" Steve yelled over thx chatter, waving him over as Bucky sighed wearily, turning around to almost smack into you.

"Ah, sorry" you said sheepishly, the platter of food wobbling in your hand slightly before you steadied it. Setting it on the counter, you turned back to Bucky to take in his full appearance. Shorter hair, piercing blue eyes, light stubble around his jaw. Tall. You offered a small smile up at him.

"I'm Y/N, Tony hired me a couple days ago but I haven't seen you around. You must be Bucky, right?" you said, excited to finally meet the super soldier that the team had been telling you about.

"Yeah, it's Bucky" he responded flatly before walking to the table to get some food, cutting off any further conversation.

You frowned to yourself but decided to not take it personally. Natasha had told you he was closed off especially after the whole deal with the Accords. Not that you could blame him, he had been through enough in one lifetime. You went to go wash the dishes, wondering how you could get the surly soldier to open up to you.

A few days passed with no sight of Bucky but you weren't surprised. It was late one evening when on a whim, you decided to bake. Taking out the ingredients you needed, you hummed some song that was playing on the radio earlier, feeling yourself slip into your comfort zone again.

Bucky was up, as he always was during these late nights. Sleep seemed impossible at times, flashes of blood and chaos invading his mind every time he closed his eyes. Scrubbing a weary hand down his face, he got up and pulled on a pair of sweatpants to get some water.

As he padded to the kitchen, he paused at the sight of you dancing to your own tune in the kitchen, cleaning a couple dishes. The faint scent of a pastry layered with something sweeter enticed him but he shook himself out of the trace.

"Can't sleep?" he asked, voice rough with disuse as he slipped past you to get a glass.

"Oh! Bucky, hi. Uh, something like that. Just had the urge to make something and since I am getting paid to cook, might as well make the most of it" you said softly, stretching as you made your way to the oven.

His eyes followed your movements as you pulled out a steaming rack of croissants, the flaky pasty littered with strays of purple streaks.

"Plum croissants" you explained after seeing his furrowed brow. "Wanna try one? Steve told me you liked plums"

"No" he said flatly but his eyes kept straying back to the dessert. Frustrated, he left the kitchen with his glass of water, leaving you wondering if you had messed up.

However, in the next 2 days, the croissants were gone. Of course, the team could've eaten them but whenever you asked around, they said that they never knew they existed.

You were finishing up the last of the dinner dishes when you heard quiet footsteps behind you, freezing when you turned around.

Raising an eyebrow, you fought back a smile at the sight of Bucky holding the croissant jar against his chest, the container clearly empty.

"You liked my croissants" you stated as he scowled, putting the jar on the counter.

"They were okay" he muttered, glancing away as you held back a giggle, taking the jar to wash it.

"You uh... you like baking?" he asked awkwardly, grabbing a napkin to clean the grooves in his metal arm.

"Yeah... I think it's a little more calming than cooking" you replied after a moment, turning back around to lean against the counter, watching him.

"What." he snapped slightly, avoiding eye contact like a guilty child.

"I can't believe you actually liked the plum croissants" you laughed softly, a bright smile blooming across your face. Bucky didn't trust himself to look at you, at the sunshine you radiated.

Coming around the counter, you slid onto the stool next to him, observing his expression for a moment. Troubled.

"You don't like it when people take care of you?" you asked, genuinely curious.

"Stop prying" he frowned, glancing quickly at you before meticulously focusing on one area of his arm.

"I'll take that as a yes" you hummed, yawning and stretching your arms above your head. "You know it's not a bad thing, people are just looking out for you"

He stayed silent, staring at his arm.

"Bucky?"

"I don't need your pity"

There was a strain in his voice, barely, but it was there.

"Bucky-"

"You're just a fucking chef, what would you know" came his biting reply.

"O-oh. Sorry, I didn't... um, it's late so I'm gonna go to bed" you whispered, the words cutting deeper than you'd like to admit. Sure, you were a chef but you also knew people. Knew how to connect with them.

Bucky watched as you hurried off, wondering why his words felt so wrong after he said it. He could almost feel the dimness of your light, like he sucked it out of you.

It was easy to say he hated himself for it.

It was a week later when you found a brown paper bag placed outside your door. You were oblivious to the pair of eyes watching you, wanting you to open it.

You reached out to get it, a familiar faint sweet smell reaching your nose. Opening it, you saw a somewhat attempted plum croissant and bit the inside of your cheek to stop a laugh.

You glanced around the hall before you spotted him lingering in a corner, watching your reaction. You stood there quietly, waiting for him to say something.

"I'm.... sorry... for lashing out" he finally said, shoulders slumping in defeat as he walked over to where you stood. "I'm not used to people being so insistent on caring about me or going out of their way to make... croissants"

"Thank you for the apology. And the croissant" you said, looking back down at the sad croissant before putting the bag down and wrapping your arms around him.

He paused for a moment, not used to the physical affection before wrapping his arms around you, resting his chin on the top of your head. After a moment, he tilted his head down so that he could nuzzle his nose in your hair.

"Can you make some more croissants though?" came his muffled voice.

"Bucky!" you laughed, slapping his shoulder as he continued hugging you while walking you backwards to the kitchen.

[gouraminnow]

Hii, if you still write, could you do a continuation for the yandere shanks headcanons please?

I haven't done hcs for him before? I can do em now tho :) This is mostly the background idea I was working off of for my drabble but it's not super concrete

The guy is notoriously flaky. Honestly I feel like a lot of OP men are. So if you manage to catch his eye in a way that gets him to fixate on you, well... good luck lol

The idea I had for the mini fic I wrote was a civilian Mc who had managed to bargain for a ride to another island, for whatever reason. Nowhere specific, just anywhere but where you are now, and he obliges. The obsession isn't immediate, but he decides there's something about you he likes, whether your funny, charming etc. And since you aren't picky about where he drops you off, you don't question it when he doesn't let you off the next time the Red Force docks somewhere. You believe him when he cites a lack of safety, whether it's corrupt Marine presence, other pirate crews, etc.

And it's fun, anyway. Whatever reservations you had about running off with a notorious band of pirates are easily quelled. Shanks himself is so easy-going and carefree, you open up without realizing or really thinking about it. They're friendly, they invite you to join the party, and they're more than willing to show off for someone so easily impressed. Towards the end of the night, you're throwing bottles into the air, laughing as Yassop easily snipes each and every one out of the air despite everyone being drunk off their asses.

The parties are fun, the food is good, everyone is friendly and you don't think much of the casual affection given by Shanks. Arm around shoulders if he isn't using it to drink, being pulled into his side... what you do think is weird is when you come down with some sort of minor illness, and he insists you stay in his bed rather than the room they set up a cot in. Isn't there an infirmary? He tells you he just feels personally responsible. Wants you somewhere he can keep an eye on you himself. This... doesn't make much sense to you, but you relent. You are his guest after all, you don't want to be rude... Things start adding up. He's the only one who touches you so much. You start noticing the looks the others give the two of you, the way they seem to be herding you towards him... the safety excuse worked the first couple times they wouldn't let you disembark, but the 4th? 5th? 6th? Eventually you learn to stop asking, and opt to try and sneak off while they're on land- and that's when the Marine incident happens, and you learn you have a bounty.

You don't understand how. You stay below deck any time there's any sort of skirmish- and the Red Haired pirates end any conflict awfully quickly. Even if you had been spotted, loitering on deck before being ushered to safety- you doubt anyone survived long enough to speak of you, let alone get a photo. And it's not one you recognize, either. Did someone back on your island report you to the marines, when you decided to run off with a band of pirates? Did Shanks do it? That wouldn't make sense, so you think it was probably delivered by someone scornful back home...

You wake up in bed with Shanks, resting against his chest. You blink, trying to pull away, and for the first time since you've known him his stern expression is directed at you. You'd seen it when pirates or marines were spotted on the horizon, but never because of you, never at you. He finally confirms that you won't be leaving. That he doesn't intend to let you go. And you have a bounty now, anyway, for associating with him, so even if he wanted to part ways it would only endanger you. And that's when it really hits that you had gotten far too comfortable with a group of men who's jobs include the bonus of might making right, of taking whatever they want. But then again, if Shanks still decided he wanted you, having discretion wouldn't have saved you from a man like him.

Now that you know, he doesn't need to hold back anymore. Gone is the cot and room to yourself, you sleep with him. He smothers you- a hand on your hip, thumb gently rubbing. Always looming if you're on deck with him. Pulling you onto his lap to start a makeout session in full view of the others, much to your horror. He's aggravatingly casual about the whole thing, too. Seems to think the best solution to your tears is to hold you close- in reality he does know better, of course he knows it's because of him. He just doesn't care.

[thecaffeinatedwitch]

Why Your Thoughts Aren’t the Problem — It’s What You Assume About Them

Let’s be honest: if every random thought we had actually manifested, the world would’ve ended by lunchtime.

We’ve all had those weird intrusive thoughts like – “What if I just threw my phone off this balcony?” – “Did I lock the door? What if I didn’t? What if someone breaks in and moves in and changes the Wi-Fi?” – “What if my ex shows up at my wedding in a clown costume and ruins everything?”

Yeah. Same.

If the Law of Assumption really meant "every thought = instant reality," we’d all be in deep trouble. But thankfully, that’s not how it works.

Here’s the Truth: Your Thoughts Aren’t the Enemy.

We live in a time where the word “manifestation” is everywhere. And people are out here stressing, “Oh my God, I thought something negative today — I just ruined my manifestation!!”

Relax. You didn’t.

Thoughts are like weather — they pass through. Some are cloudy, some are sunny, some are just plain weird. But what actually creates change isn’t the thought itself — it’s what you assume to be true about yourself, your life, and how the world responds to you.

Let’s break it down.

Thought vs. Assumption: What’s the Difference?

Thought: “No one ever picks me.”

Assumption: “I am someone who always gets overlooked. That’s just my luck.”

You might think that thought one time and brush it off. Cool. No harm.

But if you assume that’s who you are? If you identify with it? If you start moving through life expecting that to be true?

Boom — that’s when it starts manifesting.

The thought isn’t the issue. It’s when you adopt it as your truth — that’s when your reality mirrors it.

So... You Can Chill About the “Negative Thoughts”

Seriously. You’re a human, not a monk floating above emotion. You’re allowed to feel tired, cranky, anxious, or doubt yourself for a moment.

The key isn’t to eliminate every “bad” thought — the key is to stop building houses in them.

Ask yourself:

Do I assume I’m unlucky in love?

Do I assume people are flaky?

Do I assume money is hard to get?

Do I assume I’m too broken to have what I want?

If yes — that’s your work. Not the fleeting thoughts. The identity-level story you keep running on loop.

Real-Life Example (aka Me Being the Drama)

Once upon a time, I assumed I was always the "almost" person. Almost hired. Almost chosen. Almost loved.

So guess what? People mirrored that. Not because they were evil — but because I wore the assumption like a badge.

I kept affirming “I am chosen,” sure. But deep down, I assumed I was the runner-up. So even when I tried to “manifest” better, I was still operating from a script of lack.

When I finally flipped the assumption — “Of course I’m chosen. That’s my norm” — the people, places, and opportunities started treating me that way. Wild, right?

Your Power Is in What You Assume Long-Term

Assume:

You’re safe.

You’re loved.

You’re worthy of being chosen — not because you’re perfect, but because you’re you.

Life bends for you, not against you.

These aren’t just cute affirmations — they’re identities you get to claim.

Next time you have a weird, anxious, self-sabotagey thought, don’t panic. Don’t spiral. Just notice it, smile, and say, “That’s not my story anymore.”

The real question isn’t “what did I just think?” It’s “what am I assuming to be true about me?”

And if that assumption doesn’t feel good? Change it. Rehearse the new one. Live in the new one.

Because your thoughts may pass through… But your assumptions? They build your reality.

[lovesickbtd]

Fox Play

this is my first time writing for our Ren and Strade, so it might be a little iffy. please bare with me as this is a distant memory from a general pov - 🐇 warnings: mild underage drinking, kidnapping, one instance of racism towards ren word count: 1383

School had just ended when Ren hurried out of the building. The weekend had no plans for Ren, the timid fox, anxiously checking his phone for any texts from what he considers friends. They were supposed to sneak into a bar tonight and see if they could get served, and even if Ren doesn’t want to get in trouble with the law, he reluctantly agreed after some peer pressure. The walk back home wasn’t long; he lived a couple of blocks away, and he’s a speed walker through and through. So much for his anxiety and paranoia.

It also doesn’t help that Ren lives in a lesser-known area of town- people try to avoid it due to word of mouth, but he doesn’t think it’s that bad…rent is cheap and the people stick to themselves unless they’re affiliated with a gang or group. Ren was not. As he approaches the last turn before his apartment building, his phone buzzes in his pocket.

> hey are u comin’ with us 2nite??? we r gonna get into the bar downtownnnnn

Ren keeps walking as he types, occasionally glancing up to make sure he doesn’t run into someone or get picked up by some creep.

> I thought the Jackalope was closed tonight? Is there another one I don’t know about?

It takes a second for his friend to respond, so he keeps his phone in his hand just so he doesn’t have to search for it in his pocket over and over again. Ren sighs as he climbs the staircase to his apartment building, buzzing in and waiting patiently for the lock to click open. Once it does, his phone buzzes again. Once. Then twice. Then a third. The young fox hurries up the inside staircase, apologizing when he bumps into a tall, lanky blonde guy. It’s his neighbor, Lawrence! No time to talk, though, he has to respond before they start calling him.

Quickly unlocking the front door, he drops his bag next to the coat rack and locks the door. “I’m home, mama!!” Silence. Right. He lives alone. His ears fold against his head as he sluggishly responds to his friends’ text. 

> Heyyyyy r u flaking???? > Rennnnnn…..you cant b leavin me hanginggggg xdddd

> if ur gonna be a dick nd ignore me ill go by myself :p i knew your kind was always flaky

Ren sighs as his fingers tap away on the screen, working up a response and apology that leaves him exhausted. He doesn’t even know why he befriended such a pushy person. > Im sorry, i just got home. I’m not flaking on you at all! I’m still going! Just…what bar are you trying to get into?

> da braying mule duh its the only bar that doesnt check 4 ids

> okay. What time?> errrr we could do liek 8 or 9….up 2 u im taking my moms car

That seems late to Ren, but he wants to make a good impression. Maybe if he makes a good impression, people will be more inclined to talk to him in class! Ren asks what he should wear, if he should put on makeup, or anything that would make him more noticeable. He needs something to make him stand out. Maybe he won’t hide his ears this time. He spends the rest of the afternoon and a little after that getting ready. A pair of cargo pants that are baggy in all the right areas, the color a washed-out army green with buckles on each pocket, a black anime shirt that might’ve been sloppily cut to show a little of his stomach, and some basic accessories to make him stand out even more. He feels good! This will get him noticed! He pulls on his scuffed sneakers and grabs his bag, leaving the unit feeling much older than he is.

His friend is already waiting in front of the apartment building, music so loud that you can barely make out the words over the bass. Ren climbs in the backseat, greeting everyone in the car before they speed off downtown. He’s nervous, but it’s also exciting to him. The other people in the car, he can only assume are his friend’s friends, offer him a water bottle half full of a clear liquid. Ren just assumes it’s water, taking a sip of it before coughing. It’s fucking vodka of all things and it’s warm. Fucking disgusting.

They arrive at the Braying Mule not long after they left Ren’s place, all of them climbing out of the car with laughter and jokes. Ren can’t help but feel out of place. He doesn’t belong here, especially when he’s the youngest out of the group he’s with.

Luckily, they’re able to get in without a hitch. The bartender doesn’t even question all of them as they order rum and Coke, vodka cranberries, and green tea shots. Ren doesn’t drink whatsoever as he just can’t stand the taste of any of it. He moves away from his group, eventually settling into a spot in the corner of the bar. He thinks to himself that this was a terrible idea, that no one even notices he’s there, and that he should’ve just stayed home…Until someone sat with him. A quite large man, his build being short and stocky, and his weight made him even more pronounced. His messy brown hair was short yet tidy, save for how greasy it was, and his eyes…they’re a little frightening because of how big they are. The bright amber colored iris seemed intimidating to the young fox.

“Hello, buddy! You’re looking a little…lonely,” the man says, his calloused hand patting Ren’s shoulder as he chuckles to himself. His voice is loud, like he has no care in the world if people judge him. And that accent…oh! He’s German! He continues, hand moving away from Ren and back to the table. “Ahh…you’re a fresh face, ja? New drinker, Fuchs?” The larger man laughs to himself, but Ren doesn’t. He can’t tell if the stranger is simply making conversation or making fun of him. It might be both, considering how jolly this guy is.

Ren stutters, his eyes avoiding any contact with the other. “I uh…I’m not even supposed to be here…” his voice is much quieter than the man before him is. “I’m- uh- I’m Ren by the way!” A hasty introduction. It makes the stranger smile, making his cleft lip even more noticeable than it was before. It makes Ren smile as well.

Maybe they’re not so different after all.

The stranger introduces himself as he slides a glass towards the fox. “Short and sweet, eh? I’m no stranger to that myself, freund! The name is Strade, quite a pair we are, richtig, Fuchs?” Strade laughs, even though nothing he says is funny, but Ren also laughs along with him. They talk about all sorts of stuff, where Ren goes to school, what he plans on doing later tonight, even going as far as to offer to give Ren a ride home if he needed it! How thoughtful! Ren starts to notice that the bar begins to settle down to just the two of them in, so they both agree it’s about to go home. Grabbing his bag and jacket, Ren says his goodbyes to his new friend and starts his journey out of the bar and back home.

Until he can’t remember how to walk properly. He wasn’t even drinking, except for that beer Strade gave him…

Was he just roofied? This has to be what being roofied feels like. His body feels heavy, his vision failing him more than it already had, and to make it worse, his legs feel like jelly. Every step he takes it gets harder and harder to not gag and-

The sound of vomit hitting the pavement makes Ren feel more dizzy than he was moments prior, and he could’ve sworn that he heard the faint call of his name. He slowly turns to where he thinks his name was called, only to be met with two large, rough hands smothering his mouth and nose.

It’s him.

It’s that guy from the bar.

Strade.

His hands smell of oil and dirt, his accented voice low and threatening.

“You’re coming home with me, mein lieber Fuchs.”

[thyme-in-a-bubble]

the brie

buttercup, chapter two

a/n: i was originally gonna go into more detail and dive into and actually write the traumatic moments, but i decided to go a little bit more easy on myself, just focus mostly on the healing part and regaining the good.

summary: “well, we’re going out to our usual watering hole, or it’s not just us, Karen, who works with us, is also tagging along. Would you wanna join? Might be fun… might tear the city up, dance all night and watch the sunrise or whatever kids do these days.”

warnings: matt murdock x baker!reader, neighbours to lovers, rape recovery, ptsd, wingman foggy, reference to croissant theft, alcohol consumption, drunk munching on cheese, kissing, crying, retelling of trauma (if it gets too much for you, then please feel free to just skip the last part of this chapter)

word count: 4978

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Scooping one divided lump of dough closer with the bench scraper in your grasp, you put it down before first folding the bottom of the blob over itself, then the sides and then stretched the top down as well before you rolled it all up to create that much more tension in the loaf. As you plopped the soft mass into one of the nearby dusted bannetons, nippily pinching the seam and giving it a few stitches, the ingrained dance only kept on as your fingers moved on to shape the next loaf of sourdough. 

To your left, not at the central table where you worked, stood your uncle Howard, a piping bag of vanilla-flaked cream in his grasp as his rotund frame bent over rows and rows of delicate, flaky little pastries, filling the sunken centre up before he could top them off with little chunks of crimson berries. 

“Are you alright, cupcake?” you glanced up to see Walter leaning against the doorframe that led directly behind the counter, “you look like you’re about to nosedive into the dough and use it as a pillow.”

“I’m alright, just didn’t sleep much last night,” you blinked back down at your work, noting how your weary eyes stung slightly from the lack of rest, “I had a nightmare that was really, really not fun, and immediately when I woke up I started crying and shaking, like instant panic attack, so I couldn’t really fall asleep again after that,” you glanced back up at him and offered a tight-lipped smile. 

“Oh, I’m so sorry.”

“I just don’t get why it has to feel so real,” you let your hands halt their waltz as you shared, Howard too glancing over in your direction, “why my body needs to remember it so vividly when I fall asleep. It hasn’t forgotten it while I’m awake, so I don’t feel like I need the reminders… sorry…”

“Don’t apologise, it’s–…” instead of uttering the painful truth, Walter instead let a heavy sigh flow and offered, “…do you want me to make you a cup of coffee? Maybe that could be nice, just a little bit?”

“Yeah,” you exhaled, “thanks,” before clapping the worst of the flour off your hands, briefly wiping them against the chocolate brown apron that partially covered your t-shirt and jeans, and wandered around the table, shadowing Walter as he fiddled with the espresso machine, making it hum and puff, till he handed you a steaming mug that had a little heart in the frothy foam floating on the top. 

“Here you go.”

Bringing it up to your lips, you offered him a genuine smile, “thank you, Walt.”

Staying behind the counter as Walter disappeared into the back, the chime of the small bell above the door brought your attention to the pair that then strolled in. Setting down your latte and expecting it to be just any other customer, your eyes instead went wide as you saw who it was.  

“Heya, neighbour!” 

“Y/n, hi,” Matthew smiled as both he and the floppy-haired man beside him came to a stop on the other side of the stocked display case, “uh, Y/n, this is my friend Foggy Nelson,” he gestured to the friendly looking fellow, “Foggy, this is my new neighbour Y/n.”

“The pastry goddess!” Foggy exclaimed excitedly, “I bow to the.”

“Goddess?” you giggled, feeling the heat rise in your cheeks as you glanced over at Matt, secretly in hopes that he’d gotten that nickname from him, “oh, I don’t know about that. My uncle’s the one who oversees most of the pastries. He studied in Paris back in the 70’s, so in other words he’s a bit of a control freak. But, he is getting better! Slowly letting me take care of more things that I’m more than capable of doing… I’m talking a lot, aren’t I?” you sucked in a sharp breath as you noticed your rambling, “I’ll shut up. The point was just that he is the one who makes most of the pastries here, not me. He’s the goddess.”

“Well, I tasted one of your croissants the other day–”

“Actually,” Matt raised a hand and interrupted his friend, “you stole it.”

“I did not–”

“You came over and I turned away for two seconds and the next thing I knew you’d obliterated the entire bag.”

“That sounds more like a you problem,” Foggy joked, managing to keep a straight face as Matt chuckled, “you’ve known me how many years now? You should know not to trust me with baked goods unless you mean for me to enjoy them,” turning his attention back to you, he leaned his folded arms against the tall section of the counter, “anyways, Y/n, that croissant was properly one of the best things I’ve ever tasted.”

“Really?” your face lit up with a bright grin. 

“Yes, it was so buttery and flaky and urgh!”

“Well, if you liked that, you might like today’s special…” your feet began to carry you further to the left to the very far side of the counter. 

“Oh, please do tell me,” he followed along like a magnet.

Pointing down to the pastry row on the other side of the glass, you explained, “it is this rhubarb danish that also has a little base of pastry cream at the bottom to balance out the tart compote.”

“Oh… my… god…” Foggy nearly salivated, his hypnotised gaze never straying from the treat, “you gotta be some angel sent from above.” 

Busting out a laugh, you grabbed a brown paper bag, “should I take that as confirmation?”

“Yes, please,” he nodded as you plucked one up with a set of tongs. 

“Will that be all?”

“I don’t know if it ever can be all, but slowly but surely I’ll get through your spread, and that is a promise,” Foggy accepted the bag into his waiting fingers, “but for now, yeah.”

“Matt, do you want anything?” you asked, feeling the flutter of butterflies wake up within your stomach as you returned your attention to him, “do you want me to describe the options for you?”

“No, I’ll just have the same as Foggy, as well as–, do you sell coffee?”

“Oh,” the scent wafting off your half-empty mug probably caught his attention, “yes, we do.”

“Then I’ll have a cup as well.”

“Oh, one for me too,” Foggy interjected. When you’d packed up another pastry and filled up two to-go cups, the shaggy-haired man pipped up as they were paying, “hey, what are you doing later tonight?”

“Uh, I don’t know. Properly just head home and rewatch some series for the billionth time,” you said, putting the cash they’d handed you away in the register, “why?”

“Well, we’re going out to our usual watering hole, or it’s not just us, Karen, who works with us, is also tagging along. Would you wanna join? Might be fun… might tear the city up, dance all night and watch the sunrise or whatever kids do these days.”

A laugh then rumbled within Matt’s chest, “we’re not gonna go dancing, Foggy.”

“You never know,” Foggy sang, “I’ve got moves like you wouldn’t believe!” he snuck a small sip of his steaming coffee before meeting your eye, “so, Y/n! Please tell me you’re coming?”

“…and then Karen was like what’s that? Turns out a giant piece of glass had stabbed my side,” Foggy clutched onto his drink as he told his dramatic tale, “I nearly died.”

Cutting her sip of beer short, the golden-haired woman sitting beside him at the round bar table objected, “you did not nearly die.”

“Oh yeah?” Foggy squinted light-heartedly back at Karen, “says the person who barely got a scratch. I single handily rescued both you and Mrs. C from that building and got a sick ass scar to prove it.”

Their voices faded away like grown-ups in a Saturday morning cartoon as you glanced back down at your drink and let the radiating heat of the man next to you seep into your bones. As your fingers brushed down the sides of the glass and played with the condensation, Matt suddenly reached out for his own, though in his search for the stout glass that stood ever so close to your own, his touch briefly grazed against your skin. But if that wasn’t enough to spike your heart rate, when his long fingers enveloped his short glass, the back of his hand pressed up against yours at the proximity.

You weren’t sure how long it persisted before he raised his dark drink up to his lips, but it didn’t seem like he was in a rush to let the contact fade. Your breath managed to grow ragged in the chunk of time you got to stare down at his hand, it looking so massive up against yours. Though the light in the dingy bar was low, you could still manage to make out the dizzying pattern of prominent veins that cascaded off the back of his hand like a calm rainfall rolling down a windowpane. 

For a moment there, assisted by the few drinks in your system, you let yourself dream, just for a little while, just until Foggy’s voice cut through your haze and stirred you from your fantasy. 

“… I mean, am I right? I’m right. Come on, Y/n, back me up here!”

“Huh? I’m sorry, uhm…” you blinked, in some ways feeling more drunk than you had a minute ago, “wha–what did you say?”

As Foggy then began to explain what you’d missed, Matt leaned down close to your ear and whispered, his hot breath tickling your skin and causing goosebumps to erupt. 

“You okay?”

“Mhm,” you hummed fuzzily. 

“You sure?”

“Yeah,” you glanced down and noticed how rapidly your chest was rising and falling. 

“Do you wanna go home? I can walk with you if you want,” he offered quietly. 

“Uhm…” you blinked up at him before uttering, “sure, but I don’t wanna end your night before you want to.”

“No, you’re not,” he reassured you, “I’m ready to go home myself.”

“Alright then,” you nodded before Matt turned to the others. 

“Guys, we’re gonna head home.”

“No!” Foggy boomed, “really?”

Throwing her hands up, Karen added, “but we haven’t even gone dancing yet!”

“Sorry,” Matt got up from his tall stool, “another night.”

“Thanks for inviting me,” you tugged your jacket back on, “I had a lot of fun.”

To your surprise, they both got up and hugged you in return.

“Thank you for coming!” Karen gave you a tight squeeze before Foggy took over. 

“And we’ll be seeing you for the next one, right?”

“Uh, sure,” you gave his back a light pat, “if I have time and stuff the day that it happens, then I’d love to tag along.”

Casting his glance upon the other lawyer, “bye, Matt,” Foggy then yanked him into an embrace, “I love you, you know that?”

“Yeah,” Matt chuckled, clapping his friend’s spine, “I know, buddy.”

“You love me too, right?” Foggy pulled back, though still kept his hands fast on Matt’s broad shoulders, “don’t leave me hanging, it’s bad for a man’s health.”

“Foggy, I started a firm with you. Of course, I love you,” Matt smiled back at his sloshed pal, “good night.”

“Night, night,” Foggy patted his scruffy cheek before letting him out of his gasp, though adding as you turned to exit the bar, “night, Y/n! I love you too! I just met you today, but I love you!”

Soft giggles bubbled out of you as the door slammed shut behind you. 

“So, those are your friends...” you smiled into the night, “I like them. They’re nice.”

“Yeah,” the corners of Matt’s lips turned further up till dimples bloomed, “they’re good eggs.”

As the two of you began to move along, the silence didn’t last very long at all. 

“This is really nice of you, walking me home like this,” you uttered, “I know it’s just because we’re neighbours and headed in the same direction, but–”

“It’s not.”

“What?” your eyes found him.

“It’s not because we’re neighbours. It’s just, you know, the decent thing to do.”

“Right,” you exhaled, casting your glance back down onto the sidewalk as you momentarily got your hopes up. 

“And you know how this city can be,” Matt went on, “it’s not smart for anyone to walk alone at night.”

“Yeah,” you nodded, trying to keep your tone nonchalant, “of course.”

When a street then appeared before you, slicing the path you journeyed on, and even though there wasn’t any traffic in sight, your hand still instinctively shot down to grasp Matt’s forearm before the two of you could cross.

Realising what you’d done, you quietly muttered, “sorry,” though couldn’t find the strength to withdraw your touch just yet. 

“It’s okay,” his low voice slid from his lips like silk. 

“I just didn’t want you to walk straight out into ongoing traffic...” you tore your gaze away from him and forced yourself to look at the road before you, “but there aren’t any right now, so we can cross the street…”

Guiding his palm up to the curve of your elbow, he accepted the gentle aid as you began to cross the lane. 

Once you’d reached the other side and his grasp slowly began to drift back down. When his palm reached the height of your own, you softly caught it before timidly testing, “…do you mind if we–…”

“Hold hands?” with a gentle smile, he filled in before you might wonder if he could even sense your shy touch at all.

“Yeah…”

“No,” you felt him weave his fingers with your own, “not at all.” 

His touch somehow felt even better than you’d imagined. Though surprisingly gruff, with harsh calluses all throughout, he cradled your palm with such care, like he’d held it a thousand times before, occasionally swiping his broad thumb over your knuckles, presumably just a subconscious gesture from his end that still caused shivers to trickle down your spine every time he did so. 

You wanted the latter part of your walk home to last forever, engulfed in the comfortable silence of endless possibilities. But alas, when you did reach your building’s front door and then climbed the steps all the way up to your respective apartments, you couldn’t get yourself to let go just yet. 

“Are you hungry? Because I kinda am,” you weren’t really, but anything to just stretch the night a little longer, “or maybe it’s just my subconscious taking care of me and lessening my hangover by giving me a sudden craving for cheese.”

“I don’t think I have any cheese.”

“I do,” you said maybe a bit too fast, “do you want some?”

Exhaling lowly, a soft smile twitched at his lips as he then uttered, “sure.”

As you unlocked your door, you finally let go of his hand, “make yourself at home!” you placed your keys down on the slender entry table before kicking your shoes off and peeling off your coat, hanging it up on the row of hooks, “oh, do you want me to, uh, describe the layout for you? Or just plant your down on the couch?”

“Just tell me the direction and I think I’ll be fine.”

Facing him, you haphazardly explained, “alright, the hallway goes on for a few steps and then it’s to your right–, no, wait, my right, that’s your left. It’s to your left.”

Whirling around, you delved deeper into your home till you reached the kitchen. Ripping open the fridge, you snatched up a block of half-eaten cheese before seizing a clean butter knife from the dishrack and a roll of seedy crackers from a cupboard. 

Matt was already comfortable on your sage couch as you laid the humble spread out on the coffee table and joined him. 

“I hope you like brie because that’s what I got. Unless you want a single slice of american cheese, then this is all the cheese I have to offer.”

“Brie it is then,” he relaxed into the cushions as you unwrapped the snack. 

“Here, let me make you a bite,” slicing off bits of soft cheese, you spread it both on a cracker for him and one for you. Gently picking up his hand to place his snack in his palm, you then popped your own in your mouth and nearly melted into the couch next to him, “yep… that’s the spot…” you grinned hazily out the tall windows at the night sky as you chewed, “there’s just something about eating cheese when the moon is out that’s just so right in a way I can’t describe…” 

Your murmuring conjured a light chuckle to rumble within Matt, one that swayed your gaze to train on him. Resting your head against the back of the couch, you watched as the moonlight reflected in his tinted glasses. 

When the silence stretched on, Matt eventually cocked his head, “…what?”

Not tearing your eyes off of him, you breathed, “nothing…”

“You’re quiet,” his dark brows furrowed gently, “what’s going on?”

“Nothing,” you repeated, feeling almost like you were floating in a calm sea. 

“You tired? Do you want me to go so that you can go to bed?”

“No, please don’t, I–…” you reached out and grazed his arm, “could–… do you want to go?”

Letting his body relax once more, he breathed, “not particularly…”

Gazing up at him, your bottom lip snuck its way in between your teeth, “Matt…”

“Yeah?”

“You–… you’re–… I–…” your pulse pounded in your ears. 

“Mhm?”

“I really, really wanna kiss you right now…” you uttered thickly before you had the chance to chicken out. Like a wave crashing a shore, you didn’t even think as you let yourself dive in and press your lips to his. The kiss however didn’t last too long as you swiftly drew back as soon as your brain turned back on and you realised what you’d done, an apology hastily rushing out of your lungs, “Oh my god… I am so sorry.”

“Y/n,” hearing your name on his silky tongue did not help matters. 

“I didn’t mean to just–”

“Y/n,” he repeated, trying to cut through your fog. 

“We can just forget any of that ever happened, I totally get it if you don’t–”

As he brought his hands up to cradle the sides of your face, your nervous ramble fell short. When he ghosted his thumb across your cheekbone, you swore that you stopped breathing entirely. 

“…can I kiss you?” he slowly asked, leaving you utterly dazed. 

“W-what?”

Drawing in a breath, he repeated for you, “can I kiss you, Y/n?”

Blinking back at him, you hazily hummed, “mhm,” before he leaned in and brushed his lips against your own. The kiss was soft, just as your shoddy attempt had been, but it made your limbs feel like they morphed into jelly. When the pecks soon departed, you filled your lungs with a shaky breath as you gazed back at him in total awe, “holy shit…” only staying there a moment before you had to have another taste. 

Slowly growing more confident, the intoxicating kiss gradually grew more hungry. When his fingers then weaved into your hair, you realised that up till now he’d been holding himself back, gatekeeping a kiss that caused your frame to crawl into his lap, starving for more. Your little whimpers vibrated against his tongue as he danced it against yours, growing dizzy as you melted into the heart-stopping sensation. 

But suddenly a tormenting flash stabbed your being, and you abruptly tilted your lips away from his, breathlessly uttering, “wait, wait, there’s-, there’s-, uh…”

“What,” he breathed thickly, nose grazing yours before you retracted further, “are you okay?” 

“I’m…” carefully crawling off his lap, you kept going till you were a safe distance away on your own side of the couch, “Matt, there’s something I need to–, uhm, tell you…”

Staying silent, he patiently waited as you gathered up the courage needed to jump off the cliff and tell him.

Casting your gaze up to the tall and dark ceilings above, you felt your limbs begin to tremble, “okay, alright… I have no idea how to, uh, say this, so I’m just gonna do it,” and like a band-aid, you uttered, “I-, I was raped,” your eyes squeezed shut, not daring to risk glancing at his reaction, “a little over a year ago… and I haven’t–, uhm, done or tried anything with anyone since… so yeah, I just thought that was a good thing for you to know since even though I hope for there not to be any problems, I just don’t know, I don’t know what it will be like for me, if my body will suddenly freak out, but I just wanted to tell you so that in case something does happens, that you know not to automatically take it personally...” drawing in a shaky breath, you fluttered your gaze open and waited for his response, “Matt?”

“Yeah?” he answered carefully. 

“Please don’t say that I’m scaring you away right now…” you shifted your position, turning to face him once more.  

“You’re not, you’re not,” his head softly shook from side to side, “I just–… I really, really sorry.”

“Yeah…” you exhaled slowly, feeling tears sting the corners of your eyes, “me too…” staring at him a moment, you then bared your all and uttered, “I really like you, Matt,” a faint smile accompanied the declaration, “I think you might be the only guy in all of New York that I’m not scared of,” every other man you could think of had all had at least a second, a little flicker, of something that over the past year had terrified you, “and I don’t want you to think that I’m made of glass, that’s not what I want, that’s not why I’m telling you this. Please trust me when I say that I want to, I wanna do–…” a weighty exhale flowed from your lungs as your lips remembered his taste, “I wanna do everything with you… if–, if that’s something you’d like as well… but if we do, even though I really, really want to, I think it’s probably smartest to go slow, no pressure, you know, just in case, so that my body doesn’t freak out. Also, I’d really appreciate it if I at any point indicate for you to stop or even just pause a moment, that you’ll do that, that you’ll listen to me,” you briefly glanced down at your fiddling fingers, “and you know, I’m not saying let’s only do PG things, there are so, so many wonderful steps on the way that we can have fun with… I just–, I wanted to let you know now, before, so that we wouldn’t potentially have this conversation when something did happen.”

Only parting his lips when he was sure you were done, he uttered, “thank you for telling me. Are you–… are you okay? Was what happened before too much?”

“No…” you shook your head gently, “no, it wasn’t,” taking his hand in yours, you shared, “and I’m okay, I think… I mean, some days it still feels like it just happened, and others I notice something, something small, that I’ve gotten back, that I’ve regained…” absentmindedly tracing the lines of his palm with your thumb, you asked, “do you–… do you have any questions? Is there anything you wanna know?”

“No, I–… I just want you to tell me however much or little you feel comfortable with sharing.”

“…can I tell you? About it?” you asked slowly and he swiftly offered you a soft nod. Drawing in a deep breath, you began, “It, um, it was a Saturday night… I’d just gotten back from the bakery super late, maybe close to midnight… and when I was getting ready for bed, my roommate came home, he’d been out drinking as he usually spent his weekends. I remember we stayed up a while, just talking about the mundane stuff we always did. It was like any other Saturday, really. That was until I got too tired and went to go to bed, but he didn’t wanna stop talking, so he followed along into my room while I got ready and stuff,” averting your gaze, your bottom lip began to tremble, “we were just talking, it wasn’t anything special and then the next thing I knew, he was kissing me. It just–… it happened so fast… his hands were all over me… I remember he pushed me up against my closet so hard that my back was bruised the next day, and I don’t bruise that easily. He was just so wasted that I don’t think he realised or maybe even cared what he was doing. I tried to say something, tried to make him stop, but he didn’t listen to me. If he heard me, then I don’t think he understood what it was that I was saying… I would have pushed him away, slapped and hit him, but I couldn’t, I couldn’t move my body, not even a little, I just froze…” 

“I can still feel what he felt like… like my skin won’t let go of the memory…” tears rolled down your cheeks as you squeezed your eyes shut and tried to ignore how your palm tingled with recollection, “how he forced me to touch him and held his hand over mine, making it move as if he just thought I didn’t know what to do… he was my friend, you know? He wasn’t just some stranger who dragged me into an alley and held a knife to my throat. He was my friend. He would always make offhand jokes about seeing me as just a little sister and how he wasn’t attracted to me at all. Made such a big deal of it that I never thought he’d try anything… I have no idea how long it actually went on… I don’t even remember when it was that I landed on the bed, if it was before or after he–… after he–… did stuff, t-touched me… I just remember I was laying there when it happened. The masked man, the devil of hell’s kitchen, he ripped him off of me…”

“He’d somehow heard… I think maybe if I hadn’t opened the window that night to air out the room, he wouldn’t have saved me… he beat him up... knocked him out… he told me to call the police, but I couldn’t, so I instead asked my uncle to come get me… my body’s never shaked the way it did that night… I remember I was so confused because I wasn’t cold, didn’t get it till the masked man said I was in shock… it didn’t stop till the next night… when he was about to leave, I asked what if Mi–,” you couldn’t get yourself to utter Michael’s name out loud without feeling as if your whole world would crumble around you, “what if he woke up before Howard arrived, and so he just stayed there with me, right till he somehow heard my uncle walking up the stairs and then he slipped out the way he came in, right before I heard the front door unlock.” 

Letting out a long and unsteady breath, you raised a trembling palm up to wipe your cheeks. 

For a while, the silence got to encompass the space completely, your left hand still shaking in Matt’s as you eventually heard him ask. 

“Did you ever go to the police?”

“No. In the small window that I had to do one of those kits, I was just way too overwhelmed and confused and I just couldn’t think straight, I couldn’t do anything but relive that moment over and over again, so I didn’t do anything in time. But the longer time that passes and the more it sinks in what he did and the ways that I’m still paying for it, the things he ruined inside of me that I’m not sure if I’ll ever be able to get back, the more I wish that I had gone to the police. But it’s too late now.”

“No, it’s not,” his fingers squeezed slightly around yours, “I could help you, I’m a lawyer after all.”

“No, Matt,” you said firmly, “it is. I don’t wanna sit there and hear them go oh, it’s your word against his, sorry, and have them think that not enough happened technically for them to take it seriously. Enough happened, trust me. I’m eternally grateful that Daredevil saved me from whatever else he could have done to me that night, but enough happened. Just because he didn’t stick it in me doesn’t mean nothing happened. That is the kind of belief that only belongs to people who think that the only sexual act that counts as sex is when a penis is in a vagina, and that is just so incredibly wrong,” an enraged laugh tumbled out of you as you fumed, “they are the kind of people who think that someone queer, disabled or just someone who isn’t into that sexual act isn’t actually having sex when they are. Sex is about connection, it’s about pleasure and there are endless amounts of things that can give a person pleasure,” clenching your jaw, you let out a heavy sigh, “I wish it could be different, I wish many things, I wish it hadn’t had happened at all, but it did, and I hope that at the very least he learned something from it, that he changed, that he wouldn’t do it again to someone else.”

© 2024 thyme-in-a-bubble 

[ichorai]

ties that bind ; nanami kento ; march 30th.

pairing ; nanami kento x reader

drabble synopsis ; you and nanami take an evening walk to feed the stray cats in the neighborhood.

themes ; fluff, slice of life, established relationship (married), parents au

warnings / includes ; suggestive near the end :) also nanami is a cat man and no one can convince me otherwise

series masterlist.

30th march, 2019

“Ah, there’s so many!” you exclaimed in utter delight when another two cats came trotting up to you, joining the three already meandering around your crouched legs. “Kento, we should bring more fish next time. Oh, they’re just so cute.”

You and Nanami were on your routine weekly evening walk around the neighborhood, and this time you’d brought a can of fish for the stray cats you occasionally spotted loitering around. The kind, elderly neighbor the two of you trusted wholly was watching baby Yuriko while you were out. 

Your husband made a soft noise of agreement, before lowering himself to a squat next to you, reaching out to run his hand over one of the stray cat’s heads—a small calico with a long, curvy tail. A contented purr rumbled in her throat at the touch. 

You continued to preen over the kitties, spooning out fish from the single can you had brought. Nanami watched you with a small smile on his face.

“We should adopt one of them,” you mused, more as a pleasant daydream you were vocalizing out loud rather than an actual suggestion. “I mean, I know we already have our plates full with Yuriko and work… but it would be nice for her to grow up with a pet.”

Hungry meows filled the short silence between the two of you as Nanami thought your words over.

“I don’t see why not,” he replied. He was already feeling partial towards the little calico, with her large orange eyes and sharp snout, tail happily swishing as she munched on some of the flaky fish. 

It amused him how you visibly perked, shoulders straightening. “Really?”

“Yes, really. If you want to.”

“Ah, this is so exciting!” You were all smiles then, bouncing on the balls of your heels. You leaned forward to press half a dozen kisses over the side of Nanami’s face in rapid succession. The usually-stoic expression on his face cracked into a bashful, lovesick expression directed towards you. “Looks like these strays have been spayed and neutered. They all have clipped ears.”

Nanami gestured towards the calico, now cleaning her muzzle with her speckled right paw. “I like this one. What do you think?”

“I love all of them,” you admitted with a little sigh. “But I think we can only handle one for now, so—she seems perfect.”

Humming, Nanami reached out to run his large hand over the calico’s back. “We’ll need to stop by a pet store to get everything. Food, a litter box, some enrichment toys, and anything else we might need. Tomorrow after work, maybe?”

“If you’re not too tired,” you quipped with a teasing prod to his shoulder. 

“When am I not?” he dryly remarked, before petting the little cat one last time, and pushing himself back up to full height. He reached a hand out to help you onto your feet, curling an arm over your waist. “We can come back tomorrow with a carrier—and if she’s still here, we bring her home.”

“Sounds like a plan,” you replied with an excited bounce. His warm palms gently squeezed your sides over your shirt—Nanami wasn’t a man who got excited, but your energy was deliciously infectious, much like many other things about you. He kissed you then, somehow simultaneously sweet and desperate, his nose pressed up next to yours. 

You got the message instantly. “Let’s get home, yeah?” you whispered against his lips, words breathy and eyes alight with both amusement and poorly-masked want. There was a carnal tone to your words, one that he recognized in an instant.

Needless to say, your evening walk turned into a brisk jog back home—the neighbor could watch Yuriko for another half an hour, right?

[theyanderespecialist]

The Husband Of FrankenFizz (Scenario) Yanderes Ozzie/Fizz X Male Reader (Helluva Boss)

[Hello, My Sexy Muffins, and Welcome to a spooky Halloween-themed helluva boss scenario, which is Ozzie as Dr. Frankenstein and Fizzarolli as Dr. Franestein Monster. This is based on an idea I had where Fizz is Ozzie's monster which Ozzie brought back from the dead more or less. Of course, they did realize they would fall in love with a sinner demon and well one thing leads to another and he became their husband. Now let's do this!] 

(Disclaimer: Ozzie and Fizz are a canon couple, but they are not yandere in canon! This is just for fun and not to be taken seriously at all! Simping for fictional characters and yanderes is fine! Shipping them is fine as well! Just do not be illegal or gross about it! You know who you are! You Dirty, Flaky, Biscuits! Yanderes are not ideal partners to have in real life! Also, remember to separate fiction from reality and headcanon from canon!) 

(Mad Scientist Ozzie and Monster Fizz) (Their FrankenHusband) 

(No One's POV) 

Ozzie and Fizz had loved each other deeply, more than life itself, and when Fizz died Ozzie could not handle it. He could not move on and give up the love of his life. So he found a way to bring Fizz back. It took a whole year but Fizz was back with him and they were happier than ever. People were a bit afraid of how far Ozzie would go. Even Mammon was not getting involved in that shit anymore. Their days were perfect and they thought it could not get any better. 

That was until they met you, they fell for you good and hard, you loved to laugh at Fizz's jokes and were just as lustful and loving as Ozzie. Of course, there was a barrier as you are a male sinner demon and could not leave the pride ring and you ran the risk of being killed by angels during exterminations.  Ozzie was working hard to find a way to fix that so you could leave the pride ring. Of course, the solution he came up with was not ideal, and you did not react well!  "What the hell do you mean you would have to kill me!" You demanded in horror. 

"He does not mean kill you kill you..." Fizz tries to soothe your reaction. "Oz Means that if you are no longer tied to your sinner form you would be able to become something like me! Meaning you could go to other rings as well!" 

"Fizz." You say and take his hand. "I love you, and I Love Ozzie too, but I cannot take the risk of dying... I am afraid."  You were afraid of what would come next, what was left after you died in hell, also you were working on redemption at Charlie's hotel. 

"Besides, I might not want to stay in hell forever." You add. "I have been working on redemption, with what happened to Sir Pentious I learned that I can go up to heaven and be with my family again."  Fizz and Ozzie both frown at that, they could not risk losing you, especially to heaven! So Ozzie looked at you sadly.  "I hope you can forgive me for this, (Name)." He says gently and punches a hole in your chest. 

Your eyes went wide and then everything went black. 

Ozzie and Fizz worked fast in tethering your soul to your body and then worked fast on finding the right parts to make your body hell-born enough. The worked long and hard, sawing off bits of your body and adding new parts. It took one whole week and then you were awoken with bolts of electricity going through your body!  You gasped and groaned as your body felt like you were a corpse and in some ways you were. You found you were in a place you did not know. It was the Lust ring in Ozzie's private lab.  "(Name)!" Both Ozzie and Fizz rushed to you and you groaned.  "What happened?" You ask them. "I hurt."  "Yes, (Name)." Fizz says. "It will hurt for a bit. But you get used to it."  "used to wha-" You lift your hand to your face and your eyes go wide at the two different skin tones and stitches in your wrist. "What the hell!?" You demand and look over your body. 

Finding that you had different types of hell-born demon flesh connected to your own.  "(Name)." Ozzie tries to calm you down. 

"What the hell did you do to me!" You demand in horror. "I-I What did you do!?"  "We made it so we can be together forever," Ozzie tells you. "Do not worry, (Name). We will help you." 

You felt like you could not breathe, which you did not need to but it was still a lot to take in. Ozzie realizes you would have a panic attack so he sedates you. Stroking your hair and telling you it will be okay. That your husbands were there for you, and once again, everything went black. 

[YASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS Another chapter is done! I hope that you all enjoyed this, and stay sexy, all of my sexy muffins!] 

[lveyue]

𝜗𝜚 skincare a comprehensive guide to skincare

here's to something i'm proud of this year !! from being made fun of for my acne to getting daily compliments on my glowing skin—it's been a long journey. before (november 2023):

after (december 2024):

what i was struggling with: dry skin, forehead acne, clogged and enlarged pores, closed comedones, inflammation/redness, acne scarring, sebum

going out of my comfort zone because i just wanted to share this and show you that yes, it does work! even i'm surprised by the side by side comparison. keep in mind that this is just how I targeted my own skin concerns. everybody is different the things that work for me might not work for you! but hopefully this will give you a place to start <3

oil cleanser

i've actually tried two of these:

beauty of joseon ginseng cleanser

ma:nyo pure cleansing oil (got this cheaper from costco)

dispense a good amount of oil onto your palm and rub it into your face for about 1 min. then, emulsify by adding water to your face (it should turn white) and rub again for about 1 min. wipe it all off when you're done!

helps get rid of: clogged pores, sebum, dead skin

this step made the biggest difference for me. when my acne was really bad, i'd pile on heavy makeup to try and cover it. but, instead of deeply cleansing my face, i'd just scrub it off with a towel and sparingly use micellar water here and there! oil cleansers really get into your skin  water-based cleanser

i use this in the morning before i do my makeup! (and use the oil cleanser at night)

beauty of joseon green plum refreshing cleanser

squeeze a dime-sized amount onto your palm. add just a bit of water to it and scrub it in your palm until it foams up. apply that foam to your face and cleanse for about 1 min, then wash it off.

helps get rid of: oil, sweat, dirt, other particles

i actually got this recommended to me as someone with really sensitive skin! i used to use it right after the oil cleanser to double-cleanse, but as my skin has greatly improved, now i just use this one in the morning. toner

isntree ultra-low molecular hyaluronic acid toner

pat it onto your face with clean, dry hands! important: let it dry before applying your next product.

helps attract moisture, balances pH, super soothing

my favorite toner, especially for my dry skin girlies!

serum

skin1004 centella ampoule

squeeze some onto your face as needed!

honestly my holy grail. centella is super soothing and this ampoule leaves my face feeling super smooth. it's super good with healing, this is perfect for whenever i have an active pimple and need to calm it down or need my makeup to go over something better! one of my favs <3

spot treatment

lion pair acne cream

use it on active pimples or acne scars!

literally a lifesaver. put this baby on and say goodbye to that blemish. moisturizer

nature republic mild & moisture aloe vera gel

okay. admittedly i stopped using it over the summer since my other products are already very moisture-heavy, but i went into winter a few weeks ago wondering why my skin felt so flaky and this has saved my life. super healing and hydrating and a wonderful last step to my routine that kind of seals everything together! bonus

laneige lip sleeping mask at night

dhc lip cream in the morning

shiseido tsubaki premium repair hair mask (for low porosity hair)

shiseido tsuaki premium moist hair care set

and....that's it!

[triptychgrip]

Viktor (re)embracing gender-fluidity

Viktor glanced at Yuuri for moral support, feeling emboldened by the warmth in his smile. To buy himself some time, he took a large gulp of his iced tea, then gave Makka a few head scritches.

He then attempted to utter the final sentence of his, admittedly, clumsy speech.

“So…in light of all that, I’ve come to the realization…

His voice faltered, his brain thrown off by the thundering of his heartbeat in his ears. 

Fuck. Why was this so difficult? 

Every fiber of his being told him that there was an extremely slim chance of his sister-in-law reacting negatively to this admission, but even so, he couldn’t help it. 

He was terrified.

If it hadn’t been for the squeeze of Yuuri’s fingers around his own, he wouldn’t have been able to continue the monologue that the two of them had painstakingly crafted, the Japanese having been rehearsed nearly ad nauseum.

“I don’t identify as a man…though it’s probably most accurate to say that I don’t identify as only a man,” Viktor murmured, trying and failing to meet Mari’s eyes. “I’ve actually known this for awhile – which is a whole other story that I’m not ready to get into – but it’s only recently that I decided I wanted to be open about it with people other than Yuuri.”

The next half-minute or so was punctuated by little more than the whirring of the two newly-installed window air conditioning units: gifts from him and Yuuri after literally two years of pleading to be allowed to contribute to a few key onsen upgrades. 

If Viktor weren’t already so used to Mari’s stolidity, he might have been more offended by her non-reaction. Other than continuing to chew slowly and methodically on the grilled salmon chunks of her “second breakfast”, her face barely moved. 

Out of the corner of his eye, he could see his husband fidgeting, his eyebrows knitted together with burgeoning anxiety. 

Just when he was sure that Yuuri would beg for her to say something, Mari looked up and voiced a sentence that made Viktor’s chest ache.

“You should let me pierce your ears.”

And…

Oh.

Suddenly Viktor’s eyes were stinging, brimming with tears he was helpless to fight. 

He was too overwhelmed to do anything about them, but he did splutter a laugh at the rapidity with which Yuuri whipped out his favorite Makka-printed handkerchief, put it into his hand and mechanically brought his arm up to his face.

You should let me pierce your ears.

It was a seven word reaction that was so completely Mari: a suggestion offered in the measured, almost subdued sort of tone that someone else might have taken for disinterest. And yet, given the circumstances, it was the most wonderfully validating reaction. It was a simultaneous thank you for telling me and I’m glad you trusted me with this and this doesn’t change how I see you (at least not in any sort of negative way). 

It said: you should tell mom and dad because they’d be happy for you.

Goya gave a loud whine and rose up on her hind legs to paw at Yuuri’s shoulder, and Viktor’s stomach gave a tiny lurch when he realized that he was crying as well.

It seemed that Mari wasn’t feeling nearly as generous towards her brother, though. Quick as lightning, she reached over to steal a flaky bite of Yuuri’s fish and popped it into her mouth, unceremoniously.

“Cut it out, otouto, you’re stealing Vik-chan’s thunder,” she quipped mid-chew, though her lips were twitching. “You’re not allowed to cry more than hi– ”

She stopped, abruptly, her eyes widening in a very uncharacteristic show of hesitation. When she next spoke, it was clear that she felt a bit embarrassed. 

“I was about to say ‘him’, but then I realized I was making assumptions.” 

She looked a bit sheepish and Viktor couldn’t help but beam at her through his blurred vision. 

“Him is fine, for today, anyway,” he croakily replied before turning to Yuuri to begin helping him dry his own tears.

Relief and euphoria mingled in his brain, dizzying him ever so slightly as he worked.

Could acceptance really be this easy? 

If okaasan and tousan reacted even half as well, then perhaps the fissures in his heart that had been growing for over a decade would actually have some hope of mending. 

The decision Viktor had relayed to Yakov in April of 2009 had gone on to taint some of his happiest memories. It had lent them a palpable bitterness, as if his words regarding the forked path in his career had been emblazoned upon his tongue. 

He’d had to give his former coach some credit, however, because Yakov’s trademark gruffness had been nowhere in sight for the duration of that conversation. In fact, his eyes had looked the saddest Viktor had ever seen them, and even now, it brought a lump to his throat when he remembered how Yakov had croakily told him that it might be possible one day: that there might come a time when Viktor could escape the unrelenting grip of the federation…

That there might come a time when he could call himself whatever he wanted, could wear whatever he wanted on or off the ice, and love whomever he wanted. 

Of course, this day hadn’t materialized until after his retirement, but Viktor knew there was little good in dwelling on lost time. Now, the best thing he could do was to look to the future and dictate things on his own terms.

“I plan on taking things in steps,” Viktor now said to Mari before leaning into the solid presence of Yuuri’s arm at his back. 

Though he was still sniffling, Yuuri’s fingers languidly rubbed up and down his spine, carefully tracing the knobs through his thin t-shirt. The casual comfort meant more to him than he could possibly convey.

“It’ll probably be a few months before I’ve decided on what exactly this all means, but for now, I just…wanted to tell you,” Viktor quietly went on, feeling gratified when his sister-in-law accepted his statement with a quick nod.

Amusement then plucked at the corners of his mouth when she made to steal another bite of fish.

Yuuri failed to react quickly enough to prevent it, and his surly, delayed outburst made both him and Mari begin to laugh.

“You’re not piercing his ears, neechan! We’ll go to a proper establishment, this isn’t The Parent Trap!” 

…

Don’t get me wrong: I love canon’s emphasis on acceptance regarding both gender identity and sexuality, but since discovering YOI four years ago, I’ve often found myself wondering about more realistic scenarios as it relates to skating politics/Russia’s conservatism.

Viktor being able to reclaim the gender-fluidity of his teenage years, post-retirement, is one of the things I was most eager to explore in my 2018/2022 Olympic Games WIP series. While this is a theme that appears throughout (especially in part 1), I would one day like to publish a one-shot wholly dedicated to covering Viktor’s journey (which the ficlet above would be part of).