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Okay.
Someone needs to say this.
Stop policing what is canon and what is not canon in sams or any of these shows.
If you're not a showrunner your words mean not more or less than anyone else's.
"You can't interpret that piece of dialogue like that cause it's saying this and that and not whatever you're trying to say"
Well, that's not how dialouge (I mean characters' statements) works cause imagine that everyone would take your words as your true opinion on certain matter no matter in what circumstances you said that.
For example: you're very tired and stressed out "I'd gladly kill this stupid neighbour of mine cause they're getting on my nerves" everyone else: "wow.. that person may kill someone better call 911"
How would you like that? Wouldn't it be funny if everyone always thought that you 100% mean your every word?
It would be horrible, wouldn't it?
That's why taking everything, every word at face value it's not always 100% right.
I really hope that some people in this fandom will realise that people can interpret things however they want and others can agree or disagree with whoever they want.
When you're policing the show you're acting like Karen. You're a killjoy. You're ruining fun of being a part of this fandom.
If showrunners felt the need to clarify something they would do that because many authors clarify things when confusion appears. If they're not doing that that means that people can interpret things however they want. Period.
If my words aren't convincing that much to you yet, I'll give an example of the fenomenon that is hugely known in sams fandom.
People claimed that KC loves his sons BM and Eclipse. However his love for them was never that much shown and later he did not only helped to kill one of his kids but he also was very harsh towards his other sons. He later never even called them his sons. And yet it didn't stop people from seeing KC as a dad type.
And this is the best part. No one cares about it. No one cares if it's accurate to canon or not. Probably because it's hugely accepted in the eyes of majority of the fandom.
On the other hand we have other interpretations which aren't popular and majority doesn't agree with them. And yet these not so popular opinions are making people so mad that they start policing what is canon and what isn't canon in the show.
Why? Why are you doing this?
Let people engage with these shows however they want.
But if certain opinions or certain person who states those opinions really gets on your nerves you can always block certain tag or certain person. It's completely okay to do that. And you're definitely feel better after doing so.
Also continuing this hard policing creates toxicity in the fandom. I bet that's not intentional but I want you to know that it may cause more harm than good in the long run.
I'm not only talking about Tumblr part of this fandom but also a part from Discord server.
I saw that someone stopped showing up on Discord server for sams because many people were mean them for being just a little bit odd. They weren't harming anyone with things they were saying and yet people felt the need to act rudely towards them. I felt really sorry for that person. I hope that they're doing okay.
I also stopped showing up on Discord because I felt attacked for having different opinions from majority of fans there.
At the end I'd like to add that many things that are stated in sams are vague and can be interpret differently. For example: Solar once stated that Sun may have schizophrenia. Is this true and canon? Maybe. This statement was vague. And symptoms of schizophrenia don't fit Sun's mental state that much. It's not only my opinion by the way because I've seen other people who also think that Sun doesn't have schizophrenia. But he may still have it. Or he may have something completely different. Who knows?
So does it really matter if people interpret Sun's mental state differently than majority of fans? I don't think so.
Same was with Eclipse. Eclipse's fans kept saying that he actually cares about Lunar and has remorse for his actions. And it actually seems to be true. He seems to regret things he had done. But remember how majority of fans couldn't care less about Eclipse and what Eclipse's fans were saying?
Now we can see that people start to feel sympathy towards Eclipse.
So maybe we shouldn't policing so hard about what is canon and what isn't canon in these shows.
#sun and moon show#sams#i know that#i also tend to go overboard#i really don't mean to hurt anyone#i'm saying things so confidently#because#i try my best#to not change my mind#every time#i see that majority of fans#disagree with me#it's stems from my issues#that's why#i might be difficult to deal with#for which i'm sorry#but on the other hand#i think#that i can say things in my blog#however i want
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worst trope is found family separating as soon as the antagonist is dealt with.
#yes this is about voltron and it's also about guardians of the galaxy#what james gunn did to gamora in GOTG3 is criminal#i understand why they did it but to end with her GOING BACK TO THE RAVAGERS?#fail end.#seriously#and it doesnt even make sense bc ofc the high evolutionary isnt going to be the last problem they would deal with#in just a few years they encountered 5 people trying to destroy the universe and who were incredibly difficult foes#youre finna tell me there will never be a situation like that for the rest of their lives?#gtfo#and mantis' end was dumb too not even sorry#i can tolerate drax and nebula's ends.#but everyone else?#stupid#even peter's ending was fucking moronic. bro can pop in on the weekends he doesnt need to be a live in nurse for his grandpa#it's just such a major letdown and sucks everytime a director/author decides to split up the found family permanently#at least with voltron you can rationalize it by saying 'oh they never really wouldve hung out with eachother if they werent forced to for#voltron and werent forced to fight a war together.' and i can see it bc none of them DO hang out together before voltron#they barely even hang out AFTER they become voltron#keith and shiro hang out bc of the adoption/fostering/mentoring thing. lance and hunk MIGHT hang out bc they were already teammates#it's important to note that we never really see hunk and lance being bffs. theyre just friendly to eachother.#this becomes even more apparent once hunk and pidge actually become friends. it's very obvious hunk was just being friendly to lance.#just friendly.#(take this with a grain of salt bc ive only watched the whole series one time. i refuse to acknowledge anything after se 2.)#so yeah it does make more sense theyd all go their own ways but not even the small friend groups stay together at the end!#pidge and hunk are in completely different galaxies from eachother. same with keith and shiro#lance is isolated from all of them bc post se 3 writing team genuinely hated him and failed him as a character.#but GOTG3? they CHOSE to band together time and time again. they CHOSE to be a team. they CHOSE to be family#for every single one of them to say 'nah fuck that i want to be on my own bc uhhh reasons!' is a lame ending.#period.#gotg3
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I'm not one to vent, but this has not been the best year for me.
However, next week could be the comeback I fucking need to end the year on any sort of a good note. May the ideal outcome happen. Please.
#if it comes down to it i might just elaborate on the situations.#but fuck man.#i only have so much energy to deal with everything.#and right now i'm surviving on fumes.#i just don't know how much longer i can keep it up.#i don't know if i can.#i don't know how i can.#i'm tired. afraid. hopeless.#despite the state of things i will make an effort to draw.#could be the mental distraction i need from everything going on.#but even thats proving difficult eith the limited energy i have.#it's going to be a long week. i know that much.
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a friend who'd wait :)
#im posting this very late because i was sort of weary of how it came out and ended up messing w it until it was like 4am oops.#and i have plans tmrw so... oh well! i did my best and ill put it out while i can!#and i tried to make the scene match barnard's colors lol#finn's ocs#finn's art#i know i said id do more sillay stuff with the simpler screentone only style but i had a couple more of these in me#and this is the first piece im making thats like an actual part of the story too rather than just setting stuff for fun#i wanna write something to go with it too but for now ill just sort of briefly explain the context in the tags here:#barnard has a pretty bad case of OCD and his compulsions have made it difficult to make friends in the past#he was never outright bullied or anything but people just didnt really have the patience to deal with it#he has compulsions that include stuff like walking through doors until it feels right and needing things to be perfectly aligned#which in group settings has lead to people having to wait for him to finish his rituals and join them#they might find it tolerable at first but eventually they grow impatient and hes just... not invited to stuff anymore#but juno is a newer member of the guild who ends up frequenting the same library. hes also kinda a little weird#and they dont become fast friends or anything but just sort of naturally spend time in the same place#though they never plan meetups they eventually fall into a routine. around the same time theyd just both be at the library#and read next to each other. and maybe talk a bit. and eventually they end up walking back to the guildhall together#since theyre going to the same place after all. and juno always waits for barnard outside the door#eventually barnard asks if this bothers him. juno kinda just tells him 'of course it does' without any malice or anything. just a statement#barnard is surprised and apologizes and juno says not to. but the next day juno doesnt show up at the usual time.#barnard assumes hes committed somekinda more by bringing it up. he ends up staying there late reading to get his mind off it & not ruminate#but when he leaves juno is in fact still waiting for him down the hall (see pic) having collected a bunch of books literally abt ocd#he fell asleep bc barnard stayed later than expected. and hes an eepy guy generally. and also one very bad at expressing himself#but now barnard gets that juno's 'of course it [bothers me]' had the implication of 'but its worth it' which no friend has previously done.#and from the interaction juno was also able to understand that this isn't something barnard just does for the hell of it so. he studies.#and checks a bunch of stuff out because he thinks it could help his friend too (theres ocd workbooks and such- i remember working w them)#and thats the point where they became more ''friends'' than ''pleasant library acquaintances''#from there on they also do get into juno's problems. whole other bag of worms. but this specific scene is more about bernard from his pov#sorry about when i said briefly explain. i lied </3#but compared to the whole sequence im picturing its brief so shhh
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american song archives is hiring my dream position at the moment. it's hard to not have fomo for a job that I'm currently not qualified for but it is a huge motivator and helps me remember the good side of the thing that is causing me all of my current stress in life. I got a job offer recently and I am about to embark on the first step in my career as a museum archiver/exhibition designer and producer. it's a huge opportunity and technically the first good thing to happen to me in a year, and maybe the best opportunity I've ever had in my professional life. I am on the way to realizing my goals and I should remember to focus on that.
#its difficult because the financial stress that I am under is pretty much overwhelming the entire thing as I am in the negatives#while having to look to move for this position. its a bit much to handle.#but I am really excited about the job. if i can get past all that#anyways. one step towards getting to do the thing I am passionate about. it's big#this is technically a reveal of this information. if anyone cares haha#i just havent wanted to talk about it because of the afformentioned stress#but if anyone has been following along with me like the past year. you might know how big a deal this is for me#anyways. bob dylan center vision board!!!!!#lets go .#op
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late sunday six!
no tags because. looks at the clock.
more itokura-kitakata stuff! not a whole lot, but progress is progress
She went to shut the door, but Kitakata managed to shove his foot in between the gap before she could.
“Itokura-san.”
“Ugh, what the hell is wrong with all of you teachers?” She opened the door slightly again, slammed it back against his foot, hard. “I took what you wanted me to take, and I’m not going back to school, so just leave already!”
She slammed the door into his foot again, and with a curse under his breath (yeah, he was here as a teacher, but he wasn’t at school, sue him) he gripped the end of the door and held it open. He was set on trying to help her, but god, she was not making it easy.
“Listen,” He exhaled. “Just hear me out.”
#sunday six#itokura slamming the door onto kitakata's foot is just too funny to me. i couldn't not post it#unfortunately trying to be a good person is difficult sometimes. lol. sorry kitakata#...i'm going through a bit of a rough spot with this fic though#might need some time away or just gotta grin and bear it till i make it through#hopefully not a big deal
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hey, thanks for the kind words. i'll admit that i kinda forgot for a while that daily demon spotlight was meant to be a blog for fun above all, and i got too obsessed with my perfectionism to where even the slightest criticism would make me panic and overcorrect everything
i really do appreciate what you said as it kinda just grounded me again and made me realize that i'm not some giant public figure, i'm just some teenage trans girl who likes to write, so thank you so much even if you didn't intend it to be that deep lmao 🙏
well im glad i could help 🥰 i've gotten the perfectionism bug with my own writing so i know how much it really sucks. i think it's also scary on the internet where people are increasingly becoming mean to people they don't know over even small things, so it prob feels like you're risking getting huge backlash over something that isn't all that difficult to fix. like, the demon spotlight is just a hobby blog covering figures that appear in a game series that in itself has questionable information and unclear sources, it's not an official compendium blog run by atlus yknow??? i get not wanting to spread misinformation or see it get spread ab mythological figures but for a hobby blog where it's not difficult to add to posts, i don't think it needs to be all that deep. don't be afraid to add an addendum to old posts if you ever come across new information or a correction, i think that kind of thing could be beneficial even if the original post had a lot of incorrect stuff in it
plus, with so many different retellings and translations of mythological stories i think people will consider different ones to be their "canon" to them. i mean like, i read ab two or three different takes just on ganesha's birth in a little section ab parvati in a book discussing a ton of different goddesses. and with language barriers and such, you're bound to run into inaccuracies tbh
i think it's a good preface for everyone involved to come into this understanding that it's easy to unknowingly run into wrong information ab figures, smt is full of inaccuracies in itself, the demon spotlight is just a hobby and isn't gonna get thesis-level work put into it, and the goal isn't to spread misinformation
as long as you keep doing your best in research and handling things as respectfully as you can, i don't think mistakes should be a huge deal. like, yea okay you fucked up a post cus you had bad sources, it's not the end of the world and i don't think you should feel like it's the end of the world or someone else should make you feel that way. just don't argue with people if they give you a correction. i mean, if someone's a total asshole about it that's not really something you can help, the best you can do is apologize and correct the original post. but there's no need to wallow in sorrow cus you got something wrong, it's really not the end of the world🥰👍
#the demon spotlight is a place to learn ab mythology in a fun way#and part of the learning process is correcting old info based on new info#its become a little easier to get over the perfectionism bug since i write about my own culture#so i can kinda do whatever the fuck i want (within reason) with our own mythology#but its still hard to deal with so i really do get it#i thought ab starting a blog like this myself but i didnt really have the time or energy for it#so seeing someone do this and start to waver#cus of mistakes that arent too difficult to fix is esp painful#so im glad i could help u feel better#also if youre not using it already i really encourage u to try finding sources thru ur school library's online database#they have access to things that r generally a little more reliable#i prob sound like an old person begging kids to use their libraries but you really can find some interesting things there#and online will have a lot more things than in person#a highschool might not have as much as a college would but its still worth trying out maybe???????#or dont............i wont tell you what to do lmao#oops im a certified yapper sorryyyy(lying)
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i don't think i told anyone here about the pf dating sim au i've been workshopping in my head
#might elaborate later but in terms of easiest to most difficult route to clear its#nick -> david -> rick -> roger -> syd#syd feels like a secret route type of deal#i think a more hilarious concept would be a bl game and the protag is roger#.txt#EDIT: oh wait rick protag is an interesting idea too..
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Hm, my turn: your art reminds me of popping candy/pop rocks, either strawberry or cherry flavoured ones, as long as it's pink, which are my favourites! (I love your art so much♥♥♥)
OO thank you :D i love pop rocks and i totally agree?? crunchy and vibrant esque you get it
#not an ask#also please be patient with me the next few days <3 i had to deal with some very very difficult events today so if i dont seem +#as like cheerful or online on here pls know that might be why#might go offline for some time idk. we'll see <3#thank you very much for understanding ❤️
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Ahhhhhhhhhh
Warriors’ POV when he finally has a kid?
“Come on Link, you can hold him,” Artemis said in a soft voice, her face exhausted, but happy. “I’ve had him the past nine months, I’m sure you’d like a turn.”
Warriors swallowed, and forced himself to still the shaking in his arms before he reached over, carefully taking the bundle out of his wife’s arms.
Barely daring to breathe, he sat down in the chair by the bed, pulling back the blanket wrapped around his son just a little. A tiny, scrunched-up face met him, wispy strands of blond peeking out from under the blanket.
“Hey buddy,” Warriors whispered, looking over his son, face still a little red from birth.
The baby wriggled a little in his arms, and Warriors shifted his grip, supporting him a little better. His son calmed down the moment Warriors fixed his blanket back around him, and he grabbed his father’s finger with a tiny fist, turning his head towards his hand.
Warriors let out a wet chuckle, and held the baby even closer, blinking back the sting in his eyes.
A son.
He was holding his and Zelda’s son.
A tear landed on his son’s cheek, and Warriors chuckled again, too overwhelmed to even be embarrassed. He gently wiped it away, and Artemis’s hand slipped into his, giving it a squeeze.
Warriors leaned his head on hers, and they both smiled as their baby made a happy cooing sound.
Nothing is going to happen to you, Warriors silently promised, holding his son close. You’ll grow up safe, and happy.
His son turned his head into his chest, and Warriors’ heart squeezed.
I promise.
#little baby Spirit!!!!#Incredibles au#lu warriors#lu artemis#warriors/artemis#writing from the floor#answers from the floor#anon#Warriors had a very turbulent childhood#he’s determined his son won’t have the same#...which ironic considering... things. heh.#also...#I haven’t fully decided but... I think Artemis maybe had a miscarriage before this#(sort of as a reference to the downfall timeline/fallen hero)#so if I go with that then this is an even bigger deal for both of them#but I might not since that’s a difficult subject matter for me to write about#incredibles au fic
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I really wish people would share why they think BG3 is hardly playable.
For me, two games that come to mind as barely playable are Pathfinder (the AI is just terrible, and my companions would keep wandering into fights because they insisted on going all the way around the map for some reason. It got so frustrating that I ended up quitting) and Cult of the Lamb on PS5 (the game crashes every single time you send out missionaries).
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#bg3 critical#baldurs gate#baldurs gate 3#bg3#i dont think the game is barely playable but I think there's a lot of bugs which make people upset or can be annoying to deal with#in my personal experience act 3 was also kinda difficult to navigate since the structure was more open#that combined with the bugs and the game kinda running comparatively worse than the previous acts might be why people say this#but i think thats mostly an exaggeration#you can obviously play the game start to finish even if you experience plenty of hiccups
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Sometimes brain is mean to you. It says things that aren't true. Maybe they are things that you have heard before from someone else. Little seeds that have been planted in your brain, that have grown to cover up the voice of reason. Sometimes they are hard to get rid of. Like weeds. Invasive species that take root deeply and refuse to leave, taking up all of your space. It's difficult to thrive. But even so, it's not impossible. Hiss at them every time they whisper something that isn't true. Scratch at the vines that try to sneak up around you. What is in the past might still haunt you, but don't let it hurt you. Fight it. Bite it. Outgrow it. Take back the space they once took from you and live.
#kisurambles#the events of few days ago are still taking a huge toll on me#loss has always been difficult for me to deal with but thinking about things from a different perspective helps a little#this technically has no meaning but i just felt like writing it#i don't know how to describe what I feel other than a relief of something that used to hurt now being cut away from me#the thorns did sting at first when they left but it is easier to breathe now#it might hurt for a moment and a while after but at the end of the day there isn't something smothering me quite as tightly now#i wonder if this is acceptance
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Okay I probably should have explained better. A friend warned me the person behind prev tags is lesbiphobic
don't you ever get tired
#given how:#a. this is an incredibly widespread thing that would be super difficult to track down the sole originator of#b. the phrase itself operates completely independently of whoever ''came up with it'' first#c. you have literally no source for this other than that a friend told you#i think this might be one of those things that literally just does not matter at all#unless you like. run a discourse blog or something#i'm too fucking mentally drained to be having to deal with this shit. goodnight
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I have an unhealthy relationship with the internet, and if you vibe with this so do you.
I've been using the internet since around 1994. If I were to use the metaphor of a relationship, I would say that right now my poly partner who's been one of the stars in the night's sky of my life since before I learned to speak English who I've been dating since my school days is trapped in a cycle of weird addiction and is doing lots of very unhealthy things. While under the influences, they are saying things they don't actually believe which hurt me deeply on a semi-regular basis. The problem is when we try to spend time together, the shitty side of her always comes out, and so even something like watching a movie together or socializing, or laughing at funny pictures is very difficult because she's asking deeply uncomfortable questions.
They keep trying to shape my views to impress her parents and I've realized her parents are using her to keep track of me.
I'm often deeply worried they're just going to enter my home one day without asking me. A lot of this I've realized is largely down to the fact her mother, Alohanet died in 1992 and her father, Arpanet and his father the US Department of Defence have been infiltrated by some of the worst people on Earth who are doing terrible things and have been doing terrible things since before I was born. Likewise, Internet has been hanging out with some really fucked up people and doing some really weird stuff for money (I don't mean engaging in arts, like sex or posting or trying to help out by shifting some money around to help ends meet or helping me buy medication, I mean genuinely messed up stuff that's deeply scary and hateful) and ever since they've started treating me like one of their customers instead of their partner.
I've many times tried couples therapy, and I've been contemplating a divorce for nearly a decade now but I'm so hopelessly co-dependant that I legitimately don't know what to do.
She doesn't speak clearly to me anymore and when I ask her serious questions she gives me nonsense answers and charms her way out of actually telling me what I want to know. Internet also due to these people has chosen to infiltrate and invade my every waking moment whenever possible, either via their presence or indirectly by influencing all of my friends and loved ones in ways I cannot keep track of or even fully comprehend. In this sense, its a bit like having a very unhealthy relationship with an emergent mythological goddess, but she's also a terrible person. Only now that she's started to reveal her true nature do I comprehend how awful she was the entire time -- and that the odds of me escaping this relationship diminish exponentially as she has her eyes set on world domination and thus far she's winning.
On one hand, I don't know how to escape my economically induced skinnerbox.
On the bright side, the friend-group she connected me to is pretty banging.
I just wish I could have it without her being involved, since I've given up hope of her ever becoming a better person. She's not coming back, and I think I'm grieving that.
Reading this back feels really painful, and it makes me want to reconsider some of my life choices.
SomethingAwful.com was 100% right:
The internet makes you stupid.
I feel so stupid right now and have no idea what to do.
Can we like, talk about this? I really want to start a conversation, to know how other people deal with these kinds of feelings.
#internet culture#Relationships#Does anybody else feel the same way?#Its not just me#right?#I don't know how to deal with these difficult emotions#Expressing them was helpful though#I've been in abusive relationships in the past and#I realized today that its a very similar feeling#I know this probably seems strange but#I don't have the best understanding of my own emotions#My post might seem a little dim to others#But for me it was kind of an epiphany
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I SWEAR I KEEP TRYING TO DO ART BUT THEN SOMETHING GETS IN THE WAY AND THEN I PROCRASTINATE AND THEN SIX MONTHS PASS
#this has been happening for like TWO YEARS BUT I SWEAR TO GOD I AM TRYING.#my usual art motivation (my webcomic idea) has been put on hold for a bit and because of that i forgort... everything#my will to draw specifically#but in my defense i have been writing k*arlach / oc indulgences and i've been VERY focused on finishing it#i also got a marketing manager (my friend <3) to help with advertising my comms and stuff so uh... look forward 2 that#i might need to start posting all of my art on a sideblog so she doesn't have to log into my main though#so there might be some changes#but i promise i want to do art!!!! but there's always something to do first and then months pass :(#or i get the urge to draw and then life is like ''have a cancer scare'' lmao...#(ended up being cancerous actually </3 but because it's skin stuff it was easy to remove)#(but that really took the piss out of me for most of july... not to mention that ffxiv released a new expansion and i have been...#having a good time with my new friends doing content and stuff!) i also made a friend irl after like 3-4 years of total isolation#we feed ants and watch them move around together and comment on their behaviour patterns...#but like when i say this takes literal hours.#we just sit out there and talk about random shit and watch ants walk across the floor. both of us hate ants btw.#like we don't like having them ON us so it's a bit like playing with fire.#but anyways yeah i've also been really low energy recently too bc of the heat and burnout from college...#but the good news is that i'm transferring in fall to a much more relaxing college & courseload!#i'm hoping it'll stop me from feeling so... awful ?? i guess ??#like i was taking classes i didn't need to that were really difficult & punishing#not to mention extremely boring & hard to pay attention to when dealing with literally anything. i did not want to be there.#my next college is much more interest-oriented so i will finally be able to take classes i want to and learn from them...!#and then maybe i will feel a bit more in control of my life / more encouraged to draw#anyways thank u for reading my ramble. hoping it all comes together soon.#i need to do a lot of work but most of it is so i can sell commissions again#but once the karlach fic is done we're so back on the webcomic train !!!!!!!!
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I slept rly deeply last night even tho it took me a while to get to sleep but I think that was bc I had acid reflux and I'd been playing videogames too late not anything else.... still only got 6 hrs but doing pretty okay all things considered 😚
#and not feeling sick this morning so im sticking w the higher dose for one more day. my heart rate does feel a little uncomfortably fast#but its tolerable. just gonna make notes of how it goes through the day and ill submit my review form to my dr this evening#and hopefully she'll give me the green light to drop back down instead of continuing to titrate up#this is making me think of those heartrate fetishists... do u think i could make money selling tachycardic heart recordings online#i do wanna try to exercise this morning while i have energy. might take the bike out it looks like a gorgeously sunny day#maybe ill try to map my cycle route to work so i can consider cycling there instead of taking the bus in a couple weeks..#i cant atm thp cuz they have scaffolding up and its blocked off the bike racks sadly 😔#i think making myself eat + drink as much as i can has helped control the nausea too. just need a lot of fuel to process meds properly ig#and a lot of sleep.. its a bit stressful to think abt how rigid im going to have to be abt my daily routines if i want to stay medicated#but to be honest i have a pretty rock solid sleep/meal routine already bc its the only way i can function with the hours i work#so like. i dont rly need to worry too much. i think i reacted badly the first couple days bc my base anxiety was high#and then bc that feeling was heightened by meds -> made me not eat/sleep properly -> knock on sickness the next day#but yeah still the side effects arent very nice and i dont wanna take the risk of it exacerbating every difficult emotion i deal with#but fingers crossed bc 30 worked rly nice for me and i had barely any side effects so hopefully i can settle w that long term 🤞#we will see....#ANYWAY. sorry for making the same post over and over the last couple days. talking abt it on here has helped me feel a lot calmer#i dont wanna bother ppl irl w every thought and physical symptom i experience hourly. but this is my blog i can do what i want#hope everyone else has a nice sunday <3#.diaries
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