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souridealist · 17 hours ago

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me: this is going to be my nice, fun, lighthearted fandom where I just write lots of low-pressure goofy shit, I really need that right now me: me: me: me: trips and lands 1100 words into a fic about Laura, "Worst!"Logan, and the seven million psychological complexes that Laura's original Logan by all logic would have left her with

#deadpool and wolverine #I loved logan the movie and I loved logan the character in it #but I rewatched for this purpose and jesus christ that man did not do well by her #he might've if he'd had time. but he didn't.#and I greatly enjoyed deadpool and wolverine but it took a goddamn steamroller to her in the interests of its logan's character development #and I Just Think it's much more interesting if we let her have an incredibly complicated relationship with both of them #and if we take an actual look at the fact that 'worst'!logan opens up to her faster in ten minutes than her logan does in two hundred miles #because if we take that as a deliberate point of divergence between logans - it makes sense #he tells us in the same scene that his life is defined by losing people before he ever admitted he cared about them #and that the second is a profound and intrinsic part of the regret #so let's get into that!#let's bounce that off a laura who remembers that the man who saved her life also tried time and again to leave her behind #that he told her to her face she ruined his life #that she accused him of not caring about her and he didn't say a damn word #that he came to save her life and died doing it but he was suicidal when he did it and she damn well knew it #she is not! going! to have simple or straightforward emotions about this man!#she has every reason to be furious and guilty and to grieve not only his death but also everything he never chose to be to her #and everything he might never have chosen to be even if he lived #every reason to feel rejected and abandoned by his life and by his death alike #every reason to wonder if he ever would have let her call him her father if he had the blood in him to argue #every reason to wonder how much she needs to do to count as 'not what they made you'#every reason to struggle to meet the half-spoken standards of a ghost #does she know how much of that was his own self-loathing? does she know he was asking her to do what he never thought he managed?#is it better or worse if she doesn't?#and hell. let's just throw in there what it says that the 'worst' version of logan is more willing to meet her in this than his better self #what exactly are we valuing when we decide that the washed-up alcoholic is the worst thing this man can be?#....so you see why the fic just. happened. since I cannot shut up about this #but by god it's being a bastard to write #much much more difficult than the ''hi wade!' [yukio waves across a kink dungeon and deals wade 2d6 psychic damage]' WIP

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