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apparently they cut ties not quite sure about all the tea but word is whatever situation they had is over only a matter of time for the unfollowings
YAYYY
Sorry umm oh no that’s so sad..
Hm OH WELL 🤭
Thank you for the explanation anon 🫶🏻
#yayyayayayayayayyayay#my bad#i mean I feel soooooo bad#oh no#that’s terrible#YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYY#drew starkey#answered ask 🦋#anon ask 💕#reblogsss
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please do yourself a favor and listen to david tennant malvolio reading the fake love letter to him (act 2 scene 5 of twelfth night). im going to actually start sobbing. oh my GOD
#twelfth night#shakespeare#malvolio#david tennant#my edits#ws#DYING AND SCREAMING. SHAKING AND SOBBING#HOW DOES HE MANAGE TO BALANCE HOW FUCKING FUNNY THIS SCENE IS BUT ALSO PLAY IT IN SUCH A WAY#WHERE MY HEART BREAKS SO BADLY FOR HIM AND I AM ALSO SUFFERING THE WORST SECONDHAND EMBARRASSMENT OF MY LIFE#DAVID TENNANT MALVOLIO MY WET BEAST OF ALL TIME MYYYYYYYY PATHETIC LOSER EVERRRRRRRRRRR#I CANT TAKE THE HANDS OFF MY FACE I AM SO EMBARRASSED I FEEL SO FUCKING BAD FOR HIM PLEASE SOMEONE HELP THIS POOR MAN#THE WAY HE TRIPS AND FALLS OVER THE BOXTREE AT THE START AND ITS SOMEHOW DOWNHILL FROM THERE#th production of twelfth night i just watched (mark rylance's version) has malvolio played in such a way#where he's sort of like this doddering old fool that gets easily duped by the prank#here it's like. david really plays into how malvolio thinks he's ALL that he thinks he's soooooo so smart#and that's why he's even falling for it at all#and like this def has more basis in the text cuz maria is like Oh this loser thinks so highly of himself and thinks everyone likes him#this is going to be how my plan works#which is so so mean btw i think this woman has something wrong with her too
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i've seen a fair bit of... pessimism about dorym lately, esp with the ep107, for example wondering if dorian's opposing views on the gods making orym fall out of love, and i have to say. i very highly doubt it, ur fr talking about the man who has held on to will for so long, holding onto will's family and affectionately calling this *his* family too because that didn't stop when will died. i dont think falling out of love is an option or even a thought to orym.
that said, we know that orym has contingencies for if anyone in bells hells crosses the line into being a version of themselves they would despise, for anyone who jeopardizes their mission. his mission. i think, for the first time since knowing dorian, orym finally has a contingency for him. the longer dorian is back, the more orym sees how scarred he is by what's happened (understandable so) and knows that dorian is with bells hells all the way. but if he isn't...
#lynx speaks#critical role spoilers#cr spoilers#dorym#dorian x orym#i'll be so fr i hardly interact with the cr fandom at large bc soooooo many people are deeply pessimistic#i want to have fun!!!!! i AM having fun#and then i come here and see the most bad faith takes in all of the world ever and its disheartening!#where's ur fucken JOY where's ur fucken WHIMSY#bells hells is one of the wackiest groups with crazy dynamics between them all and its enjoyable!#ur Allowed to enjoy the things u watch i prommy#and to that point! people keep complaining that bells hells r indecisive and there r too many opposing views muddying things etc etc#1. ofc there r a lot of views. the real world is like that too. opposing views is one of the best story elements to enrich ur made up world#2. whenever there is a Big Decisive moment many instantly go 'noooooo not like that!!! that's not what *i*wanted' (ex: the shard.)#the cast receiving backlash from fans every time they r decisive and do something objectively fucken cool and interesting#means that any time they Think about doing a Big Thing... it gets a little harder bc what if the fans hate it. again. should i even do this#separating fandom from cast is a bit more difficult for this form of media and the inherent close proximity or creators to audience#so. just. maybe some of us could chill and cool off just a little. and maybe examine why This Thing is so terrible to u. and remember.#it may be terrible to *u* but thats where it stops. the specific bad feelings u have r not always indicative of media being Bad.#sometimes it's just not ur cup of tea and i PROMMY that its okay if its not
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hythlodaeus be like "teehee I hope I can be of some use" *clean headshot* 😊
bitch they wanted you for the aether-centric governmental position I know you think your curmudgeony cunt husband is amazing but stop selling yourself short its a slippery slope to sacrificing yourself to make god smh
#final fantasy xiv#ffxiv#im glad ee3 confirmed hes downplaying his own abilities bc soooooo many people just take characters at their word in this game#im always curious as to how his esteem issues developed I dont think its as simple as 'society' bc hes pretty accomplished in the context o#said society they wanted him on the convocation! hes in charge of a whole bureau and that doesnt mean no one ever made him feel bad and we#know erichthonious got mocked though his situation is more actively extreme but the main example of something hyth cant do is transformatio#which is considered preposterous to do in front of others most of the time so it seems like it wouldn't matter too much. maybe its moreso#that he sees others as better and more deserving and is constantly comparing himself and seeing others be better at him in certain areas#started to develop those esteem issues#siren says#funny post which is a trap for my character musings anyways#hythlodaeus
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have a yearnful dyke on this sleepy saturday afternoon (she/it)
#me#i love what my hair is doing today#i look cute and i feel gay#and by gay i mean yearning soooooo so so bad
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Ppl don't understand how Toichiro is so interesting how he doesn't gaf if anything legitimately harmful happens to Shou ( due to Shou's own actions or even by Toichiro's own hands at the point of wda ) but the second anyone else is like ?? literally after his son's life ?? good old oyaji goes bonkers
#ppl dont understand that toichiro's complicated fucked up way of loving his family is the reason why shou is the way he is#by ppl ofc i mean the fans who r out there reducing him to plain abusive father trope which yeah he is BUT NOT THAT WAY#it wouldn't be complicated for shou or anyone really if it was just that#and it's not human if it's not complicated tbh but ppl are cowards!!!!#i love Toichiro sm he's fucked up so bad then showed this raw bright potential to change#but u can see how he has this tunnel vision where hurting others ( besides his loved one ) IS STILL ACCEPTABLE regardless of anything#he just has better goals in the long end besides ruling the world#and that's soooooo delicious r u kidding me#shocking!!!!!! man actually does something wrong and is given the chance to change thru forgiveness!!!!#man wants to change and make it up for his family but its a little tricky cuz he's literally in jail lmao#btw the part where he beat the shit out of other prisoners was so hot#i said what i said!!!!!!!!!!#adhdfgsdfgdgbf wtf sm toichiro feelings#ショウ ; what a cruel adolescence. / study.
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making sacrifices (walking to the library) to do transcendental things (write lonan crying)
#actually I feel very bad for him#the Autism is making it hard for him to regulate and I just wanna from a comfortable distance help him breathe thru it#meanwhile Harrison’s like WRONG I yell at him 😜🤪😝#….. they’re so over rn#I thought Lonan was gonna be the one to break up with Harrison and I think I’ll keep it that way bc I think it’s funny to end a week of#suffering by going oh yeah and your boyfriend broke up with u#but also he’s soooooo upset rn so I’m watching from the sidelines……#did not mean to tear them apart like this my badddd 👍👍👍👍#me every book
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prize for least genre aware protagonist 👑
#no because Thor trusted Loki so much and was oblivious and that's what made the whole thing a tragedy#but Thor was really out there like 'what do you MEAN Loki lied to me about Father's death and my banishment... let me try appealing to him'#except Thor's version of appeal is like a really really bad apology where the person doesn't want to admit they did anything#and also isn't convinced you're hurt#and Thor's SO SURE this plan will work because he knows his brother right#he knows Loki#and his plan which in accordance to him would have worked was to appeal to Loki's good side/the truth of who would be hurt#his plan was to do away with Loki's assumed anger by being like ''noooo don't do this here hit me instead <3''#and he thought Loki wouldn't do it.#which means that before the whole plot shenanigans that would have worked and Loki also wouldn't have hit Thor#Loki watching Thor try to manipulate him by acting like his feelings are invalid the same way Frigga and Odin tried: nice try. thot. *wack*#so anyway Thor got hit and I think that's what u get for being soooooo sure that your little brother who u take for granted won't get hurt#by anything discouraging said or done or implied or being used by u for about him <3#anyway the fact that Thor was SO sure that Loki was reacting badly and would calm down and be normal again is so sad actually#because it means Thor had the experience to know that's how it should have gone#which means when that's not what happened Thor also gets to be the one who has to work through processing that Loki's changed#and I don't think he DID that in the year where Loki was gone#he just neglected thinking about it until Loki was back and suddenly he couldn't pretend his brother had been the same (good) one at death#sad ironic something something character foils too late tragedy#Thor really went out there like i got this and got <beep>slapped fr fr#and then it happened again when he showed up for the Bifrost fight#Thor: i just have to wait it out. we all get angry. he'll get better#Loki: [screaming crying raging shrieking trying to kill him]#Thor: HE'LL GET BETTER#the fact that Thor doesn't expect the lies or the hitting or the unreasonable attitude even when Loki is VERY angry.......... ;-;#Thor watched his brother deteriorate in real time
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ok after listening to the english version of the death note musical....... unpopular opinion i think but i actually prefer the japanese version? dont get me wrong, with some of the songs i do think i might like the eng version more but..... idk i like the lyrics of the japanese version a lot more? and obviously i only know them via a translation but i know for a fact that the entire focus of certain songs are different between versions.
like in the english version of the game begins, L is talking about his strategy to track down kira. but in the japanese version, he's more so talking TO kira directly and saying that he's going to take him down from his "god" status to hell. or mortals and fools, which had a wholeee different vibe in the japanese version being called like a cruel dream. and uhhhh am i insane or was rem's song before she dies an entirely different song? cause in english it was like a sort of generic love song that was pretty chill considering the context, while in the japanese version it was this superrr melancholic and striking ballad she sang while floating around misa.
idk but i really do think i prefer the japanese version. but the og english version is good too!!! i really liked hurricane and the way it ends in particular
#in ''the way it ends'' btw light saying to L ''i've always stayed a step ahead; but you were with me all the way'' almost made me cry WHATTT#WHO MADE HIM FUCKING SAY THATTTTT THATS SUCH AN INSANE LYRIC#but anyway yeah i think i prefer the jp version a good amount#another thing was um. and this might be a stupid thing to be weird about but. L's actor was too passionate for my tastes#<- that sounds insane but if you know anime L you know what i mean right. like hes pretty reserved#and i felt in the japanese production i watched L's actor there was still a great performer and singer like putting work into those songs#while still keeping that air of L being more reserved and like. flat almost? i feel like the guy playing L in the eng version was too much#like ''im BELTTTINGGGGGG HOW IM GONNA FUCKING CATCCHHHH KIRA!!!!!!!!!!'' like bro calm down......#ITS A GOOD PERFORMANCE it just doesnt read as L to me. and like thats fine whatever its an adaptation#but also in the japanese version they still did that adaptation while making L feel more like himself. so idk man#but anyway I WANNA SEE THIS NEW LONDON PRODUCTION SOOOOOOOO BAD#IVE SEEN PHOTOS AND IT LOOKS SO GOOD THE SET IS SOOOOOO COOL LOOKING OML#i need to see this musical live at SOME point in my life. pleaseeee can we get a north america production after this#serena.txt#death note posting
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left welsh cakes & a note w my name & phone number in the mailboxes of the rest of the flats here & ONE (1) of SEVEN (!!!) (though i think 1 flat is actually vacant) texted me saying ‘hi im so & so :)’ & i’m now harassing her like so ur my new bestieeeee
#stream#i just NEED to have someone living nearby to confide in or i will kill myswlf#ALSKALSKALSKAKKSLAKSLA like u know the person that lives there w u that u can drunkenly ramble to bc yall live together#in this case it’s not even ‘live together’ like they’re all self contained like it’s like living in a hotel it kinda makes me laugh just#imagine no reception desk that is EXACTLY how it feels like u can’t think american hotel u gotta think british hotel but not only british#it’s just an old mansion that has been turned into separate rooms or use the separate rooms as rooms / flats or whatever#i mean that��s essentially what i’m living in#& i love it i wanted to live in 1 of these bastards so bad idc if there’s black mould that’s this entire country; a rotting cesspit - but#it’s soooooo cuteeeeeee it’s like 130 years old the building#original walls & ceilings it’s GORGGGGGGGG#the original idk what to call it there’s this british thing where u tile the walls of the entrance or like stoop of the home & then they’ll#put like a ‘family name’ or ‘the street number’ in like stained glass this is NOT AT ALL a MODERN british thing like a total of 0 NEW HOMES#WILL HAVE THIS SHIT IS LIKE PREWAR#WAR BEING WW1 😭😭😭😭#it’s just ughhhhhh girl i love it & the uk likes to retain character to new developments & redevelopments so they literally made it policy#to maintain ugly ass buildings which makes me laugh but GOOD as it SHOULD#like i mean double edged sword gentrification is it can still be in the same character or change character but it’ll be gentrified so :(#WHICH IS WHY U PLAN FOR POOR & LOW INCOME HOUSING !!!!!!#council housing my beloved 😍😍😍
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day 2 of classes & i am already feeling very … why did i do this
#in school again which means you will receive daily updates about me questioning all of my life decisions :-)#leaving my house EVERY DAY???#hell#i am TIRED and OVERWHELMED and i need to make a very extensive to-do list immediately!!!!!!!!#uni is scary. i miss my little community college#there is soooooo much reading & writing & reading & writing#i’m feeling like i will have approximately zero free time for the foreseeable future#the good thing is#i’m far enough into my degree that most of my classes are actually related to my major so#i at least might actually enjoy them to some extent#the bad thing… is just about everything else#new things. new places. new people. stressful.#i need to play some animal crossing & chill out#rainyrambles
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helpppp i can be so mean to my professor sometimessss gfdsgfdsgdsf
#i'm trying to be more genuine with people irl BUT . i'm also trying to make it seem like i DONT have a crush on him as much as possible#while also trying to be nice . but not overly so . BUT THATS HARD#the other day after class my classmate and i were in his office and they were like “you're my favorite professor ^__^” and . well . obvious#i feel the same and that would be an appropriate time to say it but idk it felt so weird to say it so genuinely so i was like#“um.... i guess... you're my fave professor too...” and my classmate started laughing BUT I FELT KINDA BAD#and then i joked about writing hatemail on his evaluation for the end of the semes gfdskgldsfjg#it's SO HARD . like im trying to be nice and genuine while also trying not to be too obvious while also being teasing / playful bc#it's so fun.... he's so easy to tease#but im so worried about coming off mean i would feel SOOOOOO bad if my professor came up to me and was like 'hey youre being kinda mean to#me btw </3" like i would kms on the spot#i've had this habit in the past in hs where i would take it too far and ive had two ppl tell me that i was being too mean and now#im just like omg..... i need to be careful.......#i can totally be nice.....#BUT I DONT WANT IT TO BE OBVIOUSSS blows up#ss
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hey, just. friendly reminder that fanfiction is morally neutral.
yes, that includes smutty fics. yes, that includes self-insert fics. yes, that includes the fics you consider Problematic TM and the fics you don’t think are Smart or New. in fact that’s kind of why I’m writing this post.
I know we all love to talk about Themes And Narratives, but—and please listen to me very carefully here—you are not earning Good Place Points for only reading the kinds of fan fiction you feel are Smart or Only Focuses On The Important Things Like Themes.
fan fiction is morally neutral.
what I mean is this: no one is harming you, themselves, or anyone, by writing a fic about two characters having sex. (are you uncomfortable with the fact that I typed the word “sex”? hi, this post is about you. people have sex. and they write and talk about it. it’s seriously fine.)
no one is being harmed by self insert fics, by smutty fics, by anything not exclusively Smart TM about the fandom or analytically adding to it.
(and that’s not to say these two types of fics, that any type of fic, can’t have those elements— some of my favorite fic authors, my mutuals, my tumblr friends, write fic in these genres, and they also explore Themes and Emotions and analyze character traits and histories and write brilliant plots and incredible character arcs and yknow what, it’s amazing! it’s fantastic to examine what makes two characters react a certain way to x situation while also having them fuck nasty about it!) (and yes, I did just type ‘fuck nasty about it’ and I promise, that’s fine, too.)
what I’m saying, though, is that it doesn’t NEED that to, I dunno, somehow validate it into existing. it just Is. it just Exists. it doesn’t need an aspect you Approve Of TM in order to earn the right to be shared, to be written, to be published and commended and interacted with and read. it just. Is.
and I think a lot of especially younger, or newer, tumblr users especially get uncomfortable with that, and they unintentionally veer right (..ha) into self-censoring, puritanical behavior which is exactly what every person trying to ban books and generally kill art, wants. (and we’re not even going to examine in depth here, beyond mentioning it, the fact that policing, censuring, and banning art has historically and still today is being used to silence marginalized voices, so, I ask you to keep that in mind as you think on this, too, please.)
what I’m trying to say is this—if you personally don’t enjoy smut, don’t enjoy self insert fics, don’t enjoy a certain genre, that’s great, you do you! but, you must, must understand that this is not a moral stance. You are not objecting to a problematic practice, exploited workers, consent issues, labor crises… none of that applies, because no one in these stories is a real person. a story written about two Star Trek characters kissing on the bridge of the Enterprise is just that, a story. there is no actor for whose rights to fight, no wages to dispute fairness of, no ethical ramifications of scenes to discuss. these are Fictional People in Fictional Situations.
fan fiction is morally neutral.
and the moment you try to make yourself feel Better TM, More Correct TM, or—one of the ones I encounter the most—Smarter TM, by saying oh, I don’t read that kind of fic, I read the good kind, with thought in it—
you’re not only causing harm, you’re actively employing art censoring behavior. is that something that you want to do? I hope not. I certainly don’t.
next time you see a fic or a genre you don’t Approve Of TM, please remember the easiest way of exhibiting that— simply scrolling by or blocking a tag! If you’re on ao3, their system is incredible for niche content searches, and blocking a tag even here on tumblr will (most of the time) work.
I just., there’s so many better options out there for you than to… act like this. I believe you, we, all of us, can be better than this.
fanfiction. is. morally. neutral.
#my words#personal#saw one too many posts of people being ‘oh haha no I read the GOOD fanfic the SMART kind yknow’ and being so pointlessly self congratulatory#like babes there is so much joy in media content once you stop feeling shame or moral superiority about it#I just. had to put this out there#especially because like. so many. soooooo many. of the people who say those things. are just. so thinly veiling actual like bigotry beneath#‘oh haha I don’t like ship fic’ to ‘well actually it’s just slash fic’ to ‘gay people having sex is gross’ see what I mean. it’s a pipeline#the ‘smut fic is gross lol’ to ‘actually talking about sex at all is bad’ to ‘hi I’m anti choice’ pipeline is. more real than u might think#and I say this as someone fucking raised in all the problematic bigotry. but like babes you cannot flourish like that sorry!#anyways it’s just like. so much of this is just thinly veiled censorship biases or self discomfort unexamined or latent prejudice#and it’s so pointless too like babes smut fic has existed since ever you are not going to stop it from existing now#and in general hating on a fic is just.. kinda pointless! there’s so much fic in the world you can just go find the kind you enjoy instead#anyway let’s hope this one does not break containment 🫣 I have walked the puritan walk I do not need them heckling me lmao#fanfiction is morally neutral
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Man..
#sorry i'm still upset about bridal sharena. like YEAH she's an incredibly powerful incredibly useful unit#pair her up w winter edelgard and the girlies are cleaning up tt maps extremely efficiently#and YEAH. she absolutely has nice art and huge win for the power of friendship. w veronica.#but man. it's like. i can't even enjoy my time w her.#due to. extremely specific things about me that are entirely a me issue and i can acknowledge that and own that.#it would probably feel less bad if like. sharena got literally anything else. in between now and her bunny alt.#like YEAH... she is the other half of the alfonse duo. which is the cutest shit and i love them so much#idk i know it's a non-problem. it feels dumb to make it a problem.#but genuinely like. i don't like using her w the animations on i don't really like checking the home screen dialogue#it's INTERESTING. for lore/characterization purposes. it's funny and charming bc ofc it is!!!#it's sharena and veronica ofc they're gonna be funny and charming!!!!!!! they are SO endearing to me#but god. i really do just. have problems. and it feels soooooo upsetting that like#my very specific problems are preventing me from enjoying WHAT SHOULD BE. something i should really like!!!!!!!#like there are NO problems w her!!!!!!!!!!!! the problem is ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm gonna thrup#why didn't intsys consult me about this. the unemployable shut-in who runs a semi-obscure tumblr blog. in america#unbelievable..#like would i sound insane if i said marriage is like a trigger for me. like completely seriously and unironically.#like. again. it is such a non-issue. and all of it is on me to choose what i engage w that IS how managing your triggers works.#please please pleeeease don't misconstrue anything i'm saying i'm being vulnerable. rn. and petty. super fucking petty.#and obviously i can just. not use her. or use her minimally. but that's really not my point here i'm not looking for solutions#i'm just. expressing how uniquely upsetting this situation is. w how intense my askr sib interest is#w the fact that sharena IS. absolutely one of my fave charas. i adore her completely and she means so much to me#this feels like. a saw trap. made just for me.#idk again there is no solution here and i fully acknowledge this is a skill issue and realistically not even a problem.#but like. can anybody hear me. it's so dark in here.
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At the part of the comic where it's like fuuuuuuuuuck its bad now </3
#i was soooooo excited to get to this one but now im like man this shit kinda suck#funnily enough in contrast to the last one which i always felt was the weakest of the main set#but then as i started feeling things out concretely it was like oh nvm there Is something fun here#this one is like. you are making this sooooo drawn out and no one is going to understand what you're actually trying to convey here#stuff im putting so much into feeling so specific and it just feel like meaningless confusing padding when i take a step back#nevertheless i will not stop#this post doesn't actually like. MEAN anything. i just have to bitch about it and get it out of my system#itll either get reworked or it wont and if it's bad it's bad! who cares. it gets done the way i do it
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#thinking about dakota canon stress eater#which in my mind correlates to canon binge eater. so hes just like me in this aspect#and it makes it SOOOOOO much easier to cope with (which in turn makes it less bad because i dont feel as hopeless after binging ->#then im not as inclined to give up and just keep eating#LIKE ITS ALMOST EMBARRASSING. HOW MYCH DIS LITTLE PART OF HIS CHARACTER MEANS TO ME. but it means a Lot#whenever i make myself sick i think about him and i feel a little less desolate Like ouhhh😢 it gonna be okay. because my favorite guy does#this too.#WAILS.
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