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apparently they cut ties not quite sure about all the tea but word is whatever situation they had is over only a matter of time for the unfollowings
YAYYY
Sorry umm oh no that’s so sad..
Hm OH WELL 🤭
Thank you for the explanation anon 🫶🏻
#yayyayayayayayayyayay#my bad#i mean I feel soooooo bad#oh no#that’s terrible#YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYY#drew starkey#answered ask 🦋#anon ask 💕#reblogsss
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please do yourself a favor and listen to david tennant malvolio reading the fake love letter to him (act 2 scene 5 of twelfth night). im going to actually start sobbing. oh my GOD
#twelfth night#shakespeare#malvolio#david tennant#my edits#ws#DYING AND SCREAMING. SHAKING AND SOBBING#HOW DOES HE MANAGE TO BALANCE HOW FUCKING FUNNY THIS SCENE IS BUT ALSO PLAY IT IN SUCH A WAY#WHERE MY HEART BREAKS SO BADLY FOR HIM AND I AM ALSO SUFFERING THE WORST SECONDHAND EMBARRASSMENT OF MY LIFE#DAVID TENNANT MALVOLIO MY WET BEAST OF ALL TIME MYYYYYYYY PATHETIC LOSER EVERRRRRRRRRRR#I CANT TAKE THE HANDS OFF MY FACE I AM SO EMBARRASSED I FEEL SO FUCKING BAD FOR HIM PLEASE SOMEONE HELP THIS POOR MAN#THE WAY HE TRIPS AND FALLS OVER THE BOXTREE AT THE START AND ITS SOMEHOW DOWNHILL FROM THERE#th production of twelfth night i just watched (mark rylance's version) has malvolio played in such a way#where he's sort of like this doddering old fool that gets easily duped by the prank#here it's like. david really plays into how malvolio thinks he's ALL that he thinks he's soooooo so smart#and that's why he's even falling for it at all#and like this def has more basis in the text cuz maria is like Oh this loser thinks so highly of himself and thinks everyone likes him#this is going to be how my plan works#which is so so mean btw i think this woman has something wrong with her too
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i've seen a fair bit of... pessimism about dorym lately, esp with the ep107, for example wondering if dorian's opposing views on the gods making orym fall out of love, and i have to say. i very highly doubt it, ur fr talking about the man who has held on to will for so long, holding onto will's family and affectionately calling this *his* family too because that didn't stop when will died. i dont think falling out of love is an option or even a thought to orym.
that said, we know that orym has contingencies for if anyone in bells hells crosses the line into being a version of themselves they would despise, for anyone who jeopardizes their mission. his mission. i think, for the first time since knowing dorian, orym finally has a contingency for him. the longer dorian is back, the more orym sees how scarred he is by what's happened (understandable so) and knows that dorian is with bells hells all the way. but if he isn't...
#lynx speaks#critical role spoilers#cr spoilers#dorym#dorian x orym#i'll be so fr i hardly interact with the cr fandom at large bc soooooo many people are deeply pessimistic#i want to have fun!!!!! i AM having fun#and then i come here and see the most bad faith takes in all of the world ever and its disheartening!#where's ur fucken JOY where's ur fucken WHIMSY#bells hells is one of the wackiest groups with crazy dynamics between them all and its enjoyable!#ur Allowed to enjoy the things u watch i prommy#and to that point! people keep complaining that bells hells r indecisive and there r too many opposing views muddying things etc etc#1. ofc there r a lot of views. the real world is like that too. opposing views is one of the best story elements to enrich ur made up world#2. whenever there is a Big Decisive moment many instantly go 'noooooo not like that!!! that's not what *i*wanted' (ex: the shard.)#the cast receiving backlash from fans every time they r decisive and do something objectively fucken cool and interesting#means that any time they Think about doing a Big Thing... it gets a little harder bc what if the fans hate it. again. should i even do this#separating fandom from cast is a bit more difficult for this form of media and the inherent close proximity or creators to audience#so. just. maybe some of us could chill and cool off just a little. and maybe examine why This Thing is so terrible to u. and remember.#it may be terrible to *u* but thats where it stops. the specific bad feelings u have r not always indicative of media being Bad.#sometimes it's just not ur cup of tea and i PROMMY that its okay if its not
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hythlodaeus be like "teehee I hope I can be of some use" *clean headshot* 😊
bitch they wanted you for the aether-centric governmental position I know you think your curmudgeony cunt husband is amazing but stop selling yourself short its a slippery slope to sacrificing yourself to make god smh
#final fantasy xiv#ffxiv#im glad ee3 confirmed hes downplaying his own abilities bc soooooo many people just take characters at their word in this game#im always curious as to how his esteem issues developed I dont think its as simple as 'society' bc hes pretty accomplished in the context o#said society they wanted him on the convocation! hes in charge of a whole bureau and that doesnt mean no one ever made him feel bad and we#know erichthonious got mocked though his situation is more actively extreme but the main example of something hyth cant do is transformatio#which is considered preposterous to do in front of others most of the time so it seems like it wouldn't matter too much. maybe its moreso#that he sees others as better and more deserving and is constantly comparing himself and seeing others be better at him in certain areas#started to develop those esteem issues#siren says#funny post which is a trap for my character musings anyways#hythlodaeus
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ok hi im back again. can we talk about the hero harem. i wanna talk about the hero harem.
so. what do i mean by this. well, think of a dating sim. now stop thinking about a dating sim bc its not anything like the hero harem. the hero harem is an all you can eat buffet. a basket of bread at a restaurant. chips and dip.
the hero harem is a game of hungry hungry hippos.
see, we can all agree that hero is like. the de facto leader. he's kind and empathetic. a nice guy. easy to get along with. but most importantly: he's the voice you start with. the one you always have. the closest to the long quiet. the closest to the shifting mound as well. this means something probably. but most importantly, it means something to the other voices. they're disjointed and argumentative and the only thing keeping them together is sharing a body.
now, what happens when you give them their own bodies? chaos. absolute fucking chaos. probably some attempted murder as well. but hero wldnt let that happen. he's the glue holding them together. their rock.
what im getting at is, they're all codependant as fuck. clinginess varies but its present in all of them. always an arm around his shoulders or hand on his arm or. just hands everywhere. they're all very touchy in my mind. physical sensation is very novel to them and they want to get everything out of it they can. preferably with their hero.
you may be wondering. do they fight? do they tug at him like a barbie doll? growl and tug like dogs with a rope? maybe a little. in subtle ways. but its more like a class pet type situationship. he is theirs collectively. they pass him around like a bottle of bud lite is what im saying. like "its been one of those days. pass the hero" ykno. they all have their grubby little claws on him. and if we're adding the vessels? oh my god its like a fucking joint at a party. they are all in that shit. like cheeto dust on ur fingers. but like. its feather dust.
anyways, hero is a little silly guy who loves affection he's soaking this shit up dont worry about him. they feed him, they walk him. he gets plenty of sunlight ykno. its fine. hes fine.
#slay the princess#hero starts talking and my stomach starts growling#i need to eat him so bad#hes like 'maybe we could just leave' and im like 'do you come with a side of fries'#hes soooooo. squirmy and wiggly#he would ooze#dont ask what thats supposed to mean i dont have an answer#anyways smitten IS the one who hoards him the most#paranoid is second bc he uses him as a body pillow#i think theres some angst there abt not sharing a body anymore and feeling more. lonely or empty#and being close to each other soothing that itch#like. no personal space. for any of them. they NEED physical touch 24/7 or Else#and hero like. always willing to provide that closeness#idk. its hard to put jnto words#but you get it right
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have a yearnful dyke on this sleepy saturday afternoon (she/it)
#me#i love what my hair is doing today#i look cute and i feel gay#and by gay i mean yearning soooooo so so bad
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trying to convince myself that intrusive thoughts can also be like. UNWANTED thoughts? like they can be conscious, it isn't always just a random out of left field thing. it can be thinking something and then being like hey what the fuck that's fucked up and not a thought I want in my head why is that there? I guess just trying to convince myself that my worries and spirals affect my subconscious, which affects the things that pop into my head AND that I end up thinking, and that it isn't a reflection of some deep evil inside me
#girl I was doing soooooo good and then I saw a picture. and I was already on guard I guess so something weird popped into my head#and now I feel stuck analyzing like did I choose that thought? if I did if it was a conscious thought does that mean something bad about me?#but like. my immediate reaction was ''uh no'' and then Analyzing It like this so. I'm pretty sure it is not a big deal#like I think my reaction to the thought says more about me than the fact that I thought about it for a second right??#Lu rambles#girl help. I had a good day yesterday. the first in a long time. I was having a good one today. come onnnnnn why do more and more#things have to keep happening to convince me that I'm a bad person?
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I never thought I'd say this, but there's no way I'm one of the only ones here that isn't chronically online. Right? Right??
#PLEASE don't tell me this is genuinely how all of you view this#I'm not gonna make a longer post unless prompted but. there's no way so many of you are this chronically online. there's just no way#I mean this is the nicest way possible btw#some of y'all need to get some friends IRL. like genuinely.#if y'all are thinking that its evil to draw teens smoking weed or for there to be 2 year age gaps in high school relationships-#you do NOT know enough people. I'm being serious#don't get me wrong; some of the things being talked about are serious issues#(I am basically only referring to Louis when I say this. I hope you're doing okay man)#but the rest is stuff that is just so stupid I swear#I don't like engaging in drama hence why I'm not gonna tag the fandom or make this a big post outside of the tags#So much of this is the kind of thing you'd see in a 2018 DA ranters video and that is NOT a good thing#the combination of a lack of nuance + being teens with no life experience + hard opinions is soooooo ass#like this feels like the beginning of a clique who hates artistic expression#I saw one of the posts talking about how people in this fandom should basically be only wholesome or else you're evil and just. What??#Not how art works. not how liking a thing works. stop trying to police the people around you#when I say 'you' I am referring to the amorphous blob of people I'm targeting this rant at and not everyone btw#and I thought that me with my mental health testing approved black & white thinking pattern was bad. god damn#sorry for these tags being so long and ranty I just needed to yap about how I think a lot of this is stupid#if anyone following me doesn't want to follow me anymore due to this that's fine. idrc tbh#I could also like explain anything I mean in an actual post if anyone is confused by any of this#but otherwise this is my two cents#andy rambles
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i think interpreting yuta's relationship to rika as the 'pure love' he sometimes presents it as is so wildly, bafflingly off base that i don't know what to do with it.
#i think it is very clearly a wildly codependent relationship#like i think yuta is soooooo scared of being alone#like i think maki is mean to him but she has a fairly accurate read on the situation to an extent#and yuta knows it#i mean ok#i know rika tells yuta that he didn't ruin her life. thats not even really what i'm talking about#what i'm talking about is the wild power dynamics and the ways they shift but are always rotating around who its ok to direct death toward#and at the end of 0 they agree maybe that should be yuta#and then rika is the one to be like. wait no. that feels like a bad idea actually#and this is all tied to the way yuta's depression manifests#anyway#w.me
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making sacrifices (walking to the library) to do transcendental things (write lonan crying)
#actually I feel very bad for him#the Autism is making it hard for him to regulate and I just wanna from a comfortable distance help him breathe thru it#meanwhile Harrison’s like WRONG I yell at him 😜🤪😝#….. they’re so over rn#I thought Lonan was gonna be the one to break up with Harrison and I think I’ll keep it that way bc I think it’s funny to end a week of#suffering by going oh yeah and your boyfriend broke up with u#but also he’s soooooo upset rn so I’m watching from the sidelines……#did not mean to tear them apart like this my badddd 👍👍👍👍#me every book
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prize for least genre aware protagonist 👑
#no because Thor trusted Loki so much and was oblivious and that's what made the whole thing a tragedy#but Thor was really out there like 'what do you MEAN Loki lied to me about Father's death and my banishment... let me try appealing to him'#except Thor's version of appeal is like a really really bad apology where the person doesn't want to admit they did anything#and also isn't convinced you're hurt#and Thor's SO SURE this plan will work because he knows his brother right#he knows Loki#and his plan which in accordance to him would have worked was to appeal to Loki's good side/the truth of who would be hurt#his plan was to do away with Loki's assumed anger by being like ''noooo don't do this here hit me instead <3''#and he thought Loki wouldn't do it.#which means that before the whole plot shenanigans that would have worked and Loki also wouldn't have hit Thor#Loki watching Thor try to manipulate him by acting like his feelings are invalid the same way Frigga and Odin tried: nice try. thot. *wack*#so anyway Thor got hit and I think that's what u get for being soooooo sure that your little brother who u take for granted won't get hurt#by anything discouraging said or done or implied or being used by u for about him <3#anyway the fact that Thor was SO sure that Loki was reacting badly and would calm down and be normal again is so sad actually#because it means Thor had the experience to know that's how it should have gone#which means when that's not what happened Thor also gets to be the one who has to work through processing that Loki's changed#and I don't think he DID that in the year where Loki was gone#he just neglected thinking about it until Loki was back and suddenly he couldn't pretend his brother had been the same (good) one at death#sad ironic something something character foils too late tragedy#Thor really went out there like i got this and got <beep>slapped fr fr#and then it happened again when he showed up for the Bifrost fight#Thor: i just have to wait it out. we all get angry. he'll get better#Loki: [screaming crying raging shrieking trying to kill him]#Thor: HE'LL GET BETTER#the fact that Thor doesn't expect the lies or the hitting or the unreasonable attitude even when Loki is VERY angry.......... ;-;#Thor watched his brother deteriorate in real time
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ok after listening to the english version of the death note musical....... unpopular opinion i think but i actually prefer the japanese version? dont get me wrong, with some of the songs i do think i might like the eng version more but..... idk i like the lyrics of the japanese version a lot more? and obviously i only know them via a translation but i know for a fact that the entire focus of certain songs are different between versions.
like in the english version of the game begins, L is talking about his strategy to track down kira. but in the japanese version, he's more so talking TO kira directly and saying that he's going to take him down from his "god" status to hell. or mortals and fools, which had a wholeee different vibe in the japanese version being called like a cruel dream. and uhhhh am i insane or was rem's song before she dies an entirely different song? cause in english it was like a sort of generic love song that was pretty chill considering the context, while in the japanese version it was this superrr melancholic and striking ballad she sang while floating around misa.
idk but i really do think i prefer the japanese version. but the og english version is good too!!! i really liked hurricane and the way it ends in particular
#in ''the way it ends'' btw light saying to L ''i've always stayed a step ahead; but you were with me all the way'' almost made me cry WHATTT#WHO MADE HIM FUCKING SAY THATTTTT THATS SUCH AN INSANE LYRIC#but anyway yeah i think i prefer the jp version a good amount#another thing was um. and this might be a stupid thing to be weird about but. L's actor was too passionate for my tastes#<- that sounds insane but if you know anime L you know what i mean right. like hes pretty reserved#and i felt in the japanese production i watched L's actor there was still a great performer and singer like putting work into those songs#while still keeping that air of L being more reserved and like. flat almost? i feel like the guy playing L in the eng version was too much#like ''im BELTTTINGGGGGG HOW IM GONNA FUCKING CATCCHHHH KIRA!!!!!!!!!!'' like bro calm down......#ITS A GOOD PERFORMANCE it just doesnt read as L to me. and like thats fine whatever its an adaptation#but also in the japanese version they still did that adaptation while making L feel more like himself. so idk man#but anyway I WANNA SEE THIS NEW LONDON PRODUCTION SOOOOOOOO BAD#IVE SEEN PHOTOS AND IT LOOKS SO GOOD THE SET IS SOOOOOO COOL LOOKING OML#i need to see this musical live at SOME point in my life. pleaseeee can we get a north america production after this#serena.txt#death note posting
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left welsh cakes & a note w my name & phone number in the mailboxes of the rest of the flats here & ONE (1) of SEVEN (!!!) (though i think 1 flat is actually vacant) texted me saying ‘hi im so & so :)’ & i’m now harassing her like so ur my new bestieeeee
#stream#i just NEED to have someone living nearby to confide in or i will kill myswlf#ALSKALSKALSKAKKSLAKSLA like u know the person that lives there w u that u can drunkenly ramble to bc yall live together#in this case it’s not even ‘live together’ like they’re all self contained like it’s like living in a hotel it kinda makes me laugh just#imagine no reception desk that is EXACTLY how it feels like u can’t think american hotel u gotta think british hotel but not only british#it’s just an old mansion that has been turned into separate rooms or use the separate rooms as rooms / flats or whatever#i mean that’s essentially what i’m living in#& i love it i wanted to live in 1 of these bastards so bad idc if there’s black mould that’s this entire country; a rotting cesspit - but#it’s soooooo cuteeeeeee it’s like 130 years old the building#original walls & ceilings it’s GORGGGGGGGG#the original idk what to call it there’s this british thing where u tile the walls of the entrance or like stoop of the home & then they’ll#put like a ‘family name’ or ‘the street number’ in like stained glass this is NOT AT ALL a MODERN british thing like a total of 0 NEW HOMES#WILL HAVE THIS SHIT IS LIKE PREWAR#WAR BEING WW1 😭😭😭😭#it’s just ughhhhhh girl i love it & the uk likes to retain character to new developments & redevelopments so they literally made it policy#to maintain ugly ass buildings which makes me laugh but GOOD as it SHOULD#like i mean double edged sword gentrification is it can still be in the same character or change character but it’ll be gentrified so :(#WHICH IS WHY U PLAN FOR POOR & LOW INCOME HOUSING !!!!!!#council housing my beloved 😍😍😍
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the holiday party i had to go to ended up being fine lol i was basically just talking to the other ppl i externed w and some previous interns so it was not actually uncomfortable when i went at all even tho i did almost pass out at one point idk what that was abt. my body is allergic to going out i think i have some sort of medical issue every time i go outside. anyway. i should not have whined and complained so much it was literally fine 😭
#michelle speaks#i was sooooo close to not going like sitting on my floor giving myself a pep talk level 😭 it was so bad a real low point for me 😭#but like i just had it in my head for some reason that i would be alone bc the other ppl i externed w would not want to talk to me or smth#but like literally we just talked to each other the whole time 😭 and when i got there 40 mins late they were like oh we were wondering#where u were & one of them was like i was going to text u & realized i didn’t have ur number etc. so i went insane for no reason.#i mean there IS a reason but i’m not going to get into my tragic backstory. it’s actually not tragic i’m js there is a reason why i had#that mindset from a previous experience but like yeah i was all worried abt it for no reason 👍#which like typically i don’t do the everyone hates me wah wah bit since i started taking antidepressants & it wasn’t really that it is#different but quite literally i don’t feel like explaining i am soooooo tired 😭 not from going to that party i was only there for a few hrs#& i got back a while ago idk what it is. maybe i was so stressed abt it & now i’m not anymore so i’m tired……:#no idea why i almost passed out tho i was just standing there and i was like whoa. and i sat down & i was fine but like idk 😭#i literally only had one drink and like a fourth of another drink bc i did not like that one so i got the other one#and i have drank many times w my medications & stuff and have always been fine that has never happened before#and i have drank a lot more & been fine so like?? at this point i am just like yeah ok whatever. u do u i guess.
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at first i thought the monarch really only paid attention to 21 once he got the strongman treatment, but thinking back, gary literally played the monarch's wedding march on his guitar at their wedding. and then, when 21 asks the monarch to sign the get-well card for 24 and 21 says "you know whenever you see me there's another guy next to me" like the way that is phrased, imo, has the implications of the monarch already paying more attention to 21 than the other henchmen bc 21 is cognizant that his leader recognizes him even amongst the faceless swarm. THEN 24 dies and 21 transforms. 21 says he literally left the swarm for a little while to "train", and so I can only imagine that the monarch was aware of the number re-shuffling happening and let gary leave and then also come back. and idk! i think the two of them have been drawn together a lot longer than post s3 and ofc that's bc it's a show and theyre characters, but within the story it speaks to the monarch noticing a random minion over and over to the point that he's more friendly with 21 than even 24. this was all spurred bc im watching rapacity in blue and gary is telling malcolm "your purple paint and brush, you will not need it!" basically being geeky and obnoxiously mysterious for no seemingly good reason, but malcolm just rolls his eyes sighs puts his shit down and goes downstairs trusting gary fullheartedly
#latibulater#monarch a trois#i mean. i dont mention sheila SORRY! but i dont think theres a ship tag for JUST gary/malcolm#the venture brothers#i go into the tags and feel soooooo bad that its mainly my posts i feel like im clogging shit up
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just reflecting today on the 7th poured drink tonight and recalling how when i was venting to my co-workers about yesterday and the panic attack i had and all that, she mentioned how I needed more help when I was drowning and i swear to you the immediate thing that came to mind when she said that was alan wake
#i haven't really made many drowning gifs have i#also i feel bad cause like. god#this is so stupid and convoluted and part of the guilt i'm carrying right now#our customer service department ended up being the straw that broke my back and made me have that panic attack/meltdown yesterday#and i try#i TRY SO HARD to have some empathy towards them cause i mean#they're the ones getting basically abused by our customers#and it hurts so much to me that i can't be more help#and specifically the situation yesterday was me having to jump in and finish something that idk took me all of ten minutes to do#after i asked for some forklift assistance that took maybe like half an hour#but i had asked my employees to get that done *last week* and they couldn't do it#and the poor customer service rep had to escalate it to the director of sales which she flaunted in myf ace#and i felt terrible when i snapped and said 'ok i'll drop everything i'm doing to help you'#when i did legit have a million other things i needed to do#i'm honest to god tempted to rate myself as unsuccessful this year just cause like#i've been having to do my own employee's jobs which is also my fault for maybe not being firm like i need to be#but anyway her saying how i was drowning of course made me think of alan which honestly made me feel a little better#cause i mean it's like nick right#if alan could get out of the dark place even though it took him 13 years maybe i can too#and also inspiring in the way that like. alan needed help and i probably need help too#i've gone to therapy twice once in person and once online and like nick it's just...#not my thing#but something both therapists seemed to concur upon was that my support system isn't the best and i also need to work on myself#and love myself and lmao that's soooooo much easier said than done#but anyway i'm sorry i should get a real diary or somethin but#something about the formatting of tagging like this is weirdly comforting
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