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Did my first Mask playthrough with the update- it's satisfying. That's the best way to put it! You can do so much, unlock locations item, and dip your fingers in so many pies... it feels fuller! It feels more like the history, of London.
Like, of COURSE my PC, Miss Robin would set out to marry Griz, and be swayed by Milton. Of COURSE she would meet a certain Entrepreneur with Tentacles with a different name, and fail to set up his business quite yet, but instead broker a future for the Rubbery Men in London. Of course she would turn to the plan with Parliment, when the murder investigation seems to be going nowhere. Of course she'd write a manifesto against the Masters, and yet still see Pages as a brother, just in the way she does Archie. Of course the ceiling would open, and the sun would kill many.
It's delightful. It's wonderful. It's weird and it's amazing. I adore it, now.
#when i am asked to make a character#i make a contradiction#before this. it was too settled. either you were doing Badly at a lot of things or just Really Good at two things#but now???#now i feel like a protagonist in a fallen london game#and i am allowed to be complex and have contradictions#I care for griz! for her inexperience in romance! for her want be efficient and practical! how it ties into her character!#i feel charmed by milton! i also love virginia in this! she's such a bitch to me! she's great!#i used to hate pages but honestly i'm endeared by it! unfortunately! especially after the window situation and it's fear for your life!#archie!! baby boy! lil guy! criminal!#i still have no clue who committed the murder!#i have stopped trying to solve it! because things are going great!#it's fine i'll do it eventually but! i can get distracted! i can save him other ways!#motr spoilers#mask of the rose#also FERRET#i love them#i SWEAR my friend i'm going to get those rats in the church for ya NEXT TIME#also storycrafting is still!#so!#fun!
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Hi it's just to let you know that the official romanization of Revaan's name is Raverne ! Also they have romanized Baul's name to Baur !
Twst coming back at us again with the least expected romanization! thank you everybody (oh god my inbox) (no it's great, I literally asked for this and the reactions have been INCREDIBLE, thank you all!)
I do like Raverne though, I think it's got a nice fancy sound to it! (I had kinda suspected it was going to be an R instead of an L, so the fact that it's SO close to Laverne except for that is hilarious to me personally.) and Dragoneye Duke is honestly probably the best translation for his title, I wasn't envying the localizers that one. :') Baur instead of Baul I was NOT expecting, but in retrospect I think his name's supposed to be a reference to the Bauru crocodile, so that actually makes way more sense!
someone else also said Meleanor has become Maleanor, which is the REALLY weird one to me, because I was so surprised it was written as Mel instead of Mal in the first place?! oh god no I can't decide which one I like better. 😭 (I wonder if they might change it to Mal...they have made romanization changes before) (like I remember House of Distraction being corrected to House of Destruction in Playful Land) (I did check and she's still Mel for now, but I dunno, they might Mal her up and some point and save me from having to make a decision about which one to use) (HECK I CAN'T DECIDE)
uhhhh thank you for letting me ramble about anime names, let's just say MONOGRAMMED SWEATERS FOR EVERYONE
#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 4 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 4 spoilers#mel is so cute but mal fits with the rest of the draconias better#eng version no you were supposed to save me not make things MORE confusing#anyway raverne huh#that uh. that sure feels like it's supposed to evoke raven doesn't it.#what does it mean WHAT DOES IT MEAN#hold on i'm going to flail around embarrassingly about anime character theories now#(okay first a disclaimer: i do think we need to sit down as a fandom at some point)#(and have a discussion about exactly what is actual canon versus meta speculation versus jokes)#(because i think there has been. some confusion. over that re:crowley and raverne specifically)#(but i do feel justified in being like THEY ARE PROBABLY CONNECTED SOMEHOW RIGHT?! right now)#like i really don't think it's as simple as crowley being raverne but with memory loss or something#(and if they pull that on us i'm going to need an EXTREMELY good explanation to go with it to justify that)#they've gone out of their way several times now to make a point about them acting and sounding different and it feels very intentional to m#(and once again: i super 100% absolutely do not believe that lilia wouldn't recognize him with the top half of his face covered)#i just think the contradictions are a lot stronger than the connections right now but there ARE some connections and i'm 👀ing at them#to be fair the connections are mostly meta like crowley being diablo/raverne being evocative of raven#also the general 'raverne mysteriously disappeared and apparently had distinctive eyes' thing#versus 'crowley's past is unknown and he never shows his eyes'#(i will argue that crowley DOES seem to have some kind of canon connection to briar valley)#(since he is clearly some sort of fae and the masks are a briar valley thing)#and that is kinda it right now isn't it#okay hold on i had to delete some tags because i used too many (thanks tumblr for letting me know and not just vanishing them OH WAIT)#so tl;dr: i'm in the 'crowley is connected to raverne somehow but it's more complicated than just him being in disguise' camp personally#but that will probably change as we get more info and also don't take this as an anti-speculation thing because i love theories HOORAY
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It irritates me alot when people say that making medic more compassionate is ''missing the point of his character'' when he is literally shown to be in the comics.... did you miss the part where he showed concern for both sniper and miss pauling's well being in comic 5 and 6.
His actions are a combination of genuine attachment + clinical interest and these things do not cancel out one another. He is always pushing boundaries and going against the grain and i think this is what led to him losing his license in the first place. He felt stifled by the rules imposed on him.
He is shown to be extremely passionate so it makes sense that he would use his endless fascination with medicine as a way to show his affection. He loves his friends so he will find a way to make them borderline indestructible. Malpractice is his love language.
#it makes me really angry how adamant some people are against exploring his sweeter side beyond just ''heehoo evil doctor''#idk how to tell you that giving a character a wider range of complexities and oftentimes contradicting traits#does not equal 'woobification'. him being friendly social and cheerful and fascinated with the world around him (which he canonically is)#is not the same thing as writing him as a helpless softboy. those two things do not correlate#he was visibly worried when sniper wanted to get back in the fight!#it's so abundantly clear that medic just misses social cues and doesn't always react accordingly#plus his quote unquote evilness is a joke it's not. something that is meant to be taken seriously#he's more comparable to a saturday morning cartoon villain except he is a protagonist#the way he approaches medicine to me is very similiar to#a child playing potions if that makes sense. he is throwing shit together to see what sticks#and having fun with it#i might rewrite this later to be more coherent because i have alot of thoughts on him that are jumbled together#and there is so much to say abt him#also i find it so funny how inconsistent he is. he tells them they all hallucinated before brain death#yet he personally went to hell multiple times. why did he do that#tf2#medic#tf2 medic#medic tf2#team fortress 2
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Poirot + ruthlessness AGATHA CHRISTIE'S POIROT (1989 - 2013)
"And he is ruthless, ruthless with those who commit crime. And they will be brought to justice." - David Suchet, BFI Q&A, Nov 12 2013
#poirot#hercule poirot#david suchet#agatha christie#tvedit#perioddramaedit#tvandfilm#poirotedit#*edit#poirot 1x01: the adventure of the clapham cook#poirot 1x02: murder in the mews#poirot 1x07: problem at sea#poirot 2x04: the cornish mystery#poirot 5x05: the adventure of the italian nobleman#poirot 12x01: three act tragedy#the contrast between his small stature#and sweet gentlemanly nature#and his ability to absolutely ruin your life if he wanted#is terrifying & police would believe his word over yours#even if you were innocent (hypothetically)#because of his reputation and high standing#which he has used before to create certain narratives#he even says 'i am the law' in the novel 'curtain'#the contrasts & contradictions make him very appealing#an element of danger in a smol penguin detective#AND ALSO#imagine poirot aiming the ice-y glare at someone#who hurt and disrespected you#poirot will protect you and care for you <3
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stan spending their childhood trying to make ford's polydactyly something positive in ford's life and genuinely believing its super cool....
#(that stan quote being from the extra dvd commentary)#but also stan loving comics and being like 'yeah ford's character is a superhero!' and then basically making himself charlie brown#stan's abaconings story basically being him blaming ford's smarts as the reason why they became estranged...#the contrast of bill telling ford 'nah it's your brains that makes you special and your hands makes you a freak!!!'#gravity falls#ford pines#stanford pines#stan pines#stanley pines#but also mabel causing high fives to be invented earlier#cos irl it was invented in 70s apparently#always uwu at paradoxes bringing this family together+closer#it's basically an intrinsic part of them!!!#oddities brought together by contradictions!!!#soos being brought to stan by the kids but the kids only doing so cos soos is part of their family!!!#(part of why same coin is so fun to me is cos it adds another layer of paradox to them)#but stan being insecure about his hands being smaller was not something i was expecting in 2024#(i thought he'd be more jealous that ford seems to have more dexterity especially considering stan's the one who pickpockets lol)#stan being defined by his love for his family arghhhhhhhhh
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Fort, straight up interrupting Peat mid-reply goes:
Um...
Yeah...
I think we know, Fort. xD
#bless @laurenkmyers for her wonderful work capturing these amazing moments#but also i saw this interview and it hasn't left my brain since xD#“i like his legs” fort says as if he hasn't spent substantial time and effort professionally worshiping peat's legs#fortpeat#fort thitipong#peat wasuthorn#prapaisky#mutrak#tongrak x mahasamut#love sea#love in the air#prapai and mahasamut commiserating on their boyfriends sexy sexy thighs#krissy's made the joke that fort has it in his contract that he gets at least one (1) scene where he worships peat's thighs#and so far across two series there's zero evidence to contradict that just saying#i'm suffering and making it every one else's problem you're welcome#(it took me a solid hour to find that last gif is there a better way to search for gifs on tumblr???)#<my posts>
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One of the strongest points of Mass Effect, if not the strongest, is just how well written the characters are. From Shepard, to the squad, to the side characters like Anderson and Bakara, to barely-there NPCs like Ereba and Charr the lovers, Etarn Tiro the enthusiastic turian merchant, Kargesh the krogan who wanted a fish, Lia'Vael, the quarian who gets falsely accused of theft, and the Salarian who wants to buy a memento to his asari lover to remember him by once he's dead.
I feel like so many of them are memorable, and they all serve a purpose to the overall world building. The krogan show that they are not the violent thugs the galaxy has made them out to be. The salarian shows the struggle born out of building relationships with people of a species with a life expectancy so beyond your own. Lia'Vael illustrates what Tali says about the quarians being treated like second class citizens. Those small little side quests have a meaning and a purpose, it doesnt feel like they are Just There, and they add more to the lore of them game to those who care about that stuff.
#Romance is an exception- I am 100% an outlier here but most of them are hmm. not quite as developed as they could#Most shippy feelings I've acquired are more like headcanons based off the stuff that happens in canon#Than canon things that happen during the game (but MAYBE it's because femshep can't romance talizorah)#That's just my opinion though lol and I don't think it makes the game bad. I think it's logical#You can't make space for too many branches based off romance or it'd be madness#So to keep the story more or less linear they have to be independent of the story by default#Mass effect#Mass effect liveblog#Txt#Of course I'm sure there are exceptions. And contradictions (ahem samara being the mother of all ardat yakshi)#But overall and taking into account just how many there are it's pretty good
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At rest, your lungs wish to deflate, and your ribcage expands outwards.
#better drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#yiling laozu#Happy Friday the 13th!#This is scientific fact btw!#Ventilation operates through a series of active and passive forces#The active forces being muscular contraction with inhalation and exhalation having their own set of muscles.#but the interesting part is the passive forces at work:#The lungs have a certain level of elasticity to them - meaning the more they expand the more the those elastic forces are functioning-#-to try and return the system to rest (exhalation passive forces). Your diaphragm is the main force - pushing against the lungs at rest.#Your ribcage on the other hand is under a state of being pulled outwards. It *wants* to be as open as possible.#These to contradicting forces create a constant push and pull which assists in the ebb and flow of air. Most significantly with exhalation.#Now that being said - the primary action of inhalation ventilation is through control centers in your brainstem.#If you lose connection to that due to trauma you're going to need ventilation assistance.#Small note: Respiration is the cellular event of chemical exchange in the alveoli. Ventilation is airflow and pressure.#They are both important but also very different things. Sadly used interchangeably.#My anatomy nerd brain is screaming over the inaccurate ribcage...but its...recognizable. I will get it right one day.#Okay nerd rant over (I cut out a lot of stuff about pressure gradients. They are cool. To me.)#This is a redraw of an mspaint doodle I made back in april. I yearn to make the Yiling Laozu eerie as he deserves#Tear that bitch (affectionate) apart!#Been playing around with hatching for a while and its amazing how many styles there are! Not sure I'll stick with this one (but it was fun)
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LEVI STARTS ASMR CHANNEL??? NOT FAKE!!
(blank/betterQuality and reference under cut =w=bb)
#listen the MOMENT i saw this i knew i had to make one for levi....#its soo him cringe losercore oml#+ i think its really funny =w=b ive heard one or two of these gimmick asmr roleplays and theyre awesome#also. i dont know how i did that.#to me this not really levi bc he had to be a suave attractive male and. those things contradict MASSIVELY.#oh well =w=bb i actually suprised myself with how good it looks <33#the colours are a bit off bc i did this on my tablet and. hes a bit too orange.#but were already at having put too much energy in a shitpost so :P#sillyposting#my work#obey me#obey me leviathan
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Would you rather have unlimited bacon but no games, or games, UNLIMITED GAMES, but no games?
Chuuya: "Akutagawa, do you understand this letter?"
Chuuya: "It's okay if you don't."
@floatysparrowthing
Chuuya: "There's nothing important bothering me."
Chuuya: "Either way.."
Chuuya: "Can't be sitting here chatting all day."
Akutagawa: "I will see you some time in the future, Chuuya-san."
Chuuya: "Mm. See ya, Akutagawa. Take care of yourself, alright?"
Chuuya: "Seems about time I get these documents."
Chuuya: "I'm not gonna hide anything."
Chuuya: "Dazai's just being his usual, demanding self."
@inwhichispeak
@megaroniandcheez / @bioluminescentcat
Chuuya: "Fine, fine! I'll tell you! I know you all won't shut up otherwise.."
Chuuya: "I mean.. that letter. He didn't exactly disagree with it.."
Chuuya: "And that makes me kinda happy."
(I've refreshed my ko-fi page!! If anyone wants to donate a coffee, feel free!)
#long post#ask#update#anonymous#floatysparrowthing#inwhichispeak#megaroniandcheez#bioluminescentcat#bsd chuuya#bungo stray dogs#skk#soukoku#(Woo new update)#(i'm constantly scrolling back on my own posts to make sure I havent made.. too many contradictions with myself hahahah)#(I only plan a small bit per update and I'm constantly changing ideas..)#(But I think.. it's okay for now?)
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i love din djarin so much i love his juxtaposition. completely blank and emotionless in his shiny spotless impenetrable armor but he’s such an emotional person, driven by his heart and love for the people he cares about. the fact that he’s expressionless by default of his helmet (and on top of that he’s a man of few words), but is so readable in his body language and his actions. he’s independent and prefers his own company but has friends and allies all over the galaxy. he’s protective of his son and would cut down anyone or anything that hurt him, but encourages grogu to train and fight on his own at every opportunity. he has few sentimental possessions and just wants to live a simple life but also enjoys flying the most over-the-top modded ship of all time. love that guy
#idk he has been on my mind lately#i know all good characters contain multitudes but his specific contradictions make me so happy#din djarin#the mandalorian#star wars
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I bet you would hurt your back, carrying around that million dollar smile like you do.
#i took a day to figure this one out again#i didnt like the dialogue or anything he was doing. It was too ooc i think.#i like this one better.#i almost contemplated making him frown directly at you to contradict you on purpose#[you've got mail!]#spamton#spamton g spamton#deltarune#deltarune spamton#deltarune chapter 2#i didnt flip the canvas on this one so if it looks off thats why#sometimes i wish i were a lot more consistent with the way i draw him#maybe its my cursed eyes. forced to see everything i did that id change.#which is good in general but bad for my poor eyes :pout:#the background is very tall and i dont know why but i wont fix it. maybe.#i LOVE this ask you guys are crazzyyy
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~ a little something about you and Dazai trying to love each other a little bit less ~
It's Sakura season, and it's not being shared with someone you love. That's fine, you think to yourself as you sit on the bench, the sunset overlooks the port and you have the park to yourself. The fragile petals fall all around you, covering you in flakes of pink, like snow that won't melt. Though they will shrivel up, you think that might be worse than the instant loss of a melting snowflake. The thing about snowflakes is they melt upon warm contact but these petals won't melt at the touch of cold nor warmth, they'll lie there until their beauty fades along with what's left of their fleeting life. You stare at one in particular as it lands into your coffee cup, floating at the top instead of sinking.
That's what it was like to be in love with Osamu Dazai, and what it was like to sense his dreadful presence approaching you like the wind billows on a starless night. You ignore him, staring down at your coffee cup like it's going to save you, knowing it won't. In your peripheral vision, he looks spectral, and you catch a wave trying to get you to look up along with a familiar voice that reeks of faux friendliness.
"Are you always this avoidant when people try to greet you?"
You bite the soft flesh inside of your cheek, gripping your coffee just a bit tighter, unresponsive.
He continues, hands tucked into his coat and a smirk on his face.
"The blooms are nice today, eh? At their peak. Thought I'd stop by to enjoy them but it seems someone's already taken my favorite bench. At my favorite spot. What a shame."
After another long pause, his voice loses the playful edge and he says your name in a firm tone. This causes you to finally snap to attention, eyes wide and as fragile as those petals that shower you both. He smiles once more, but it's uglier this time, mocking. You mirror him by calling out to him right back, a hint of bitterness in your voice.
"Dazai."
He steps closer, towering over you. He always thought you looked best when you were looking up at him. It would almost sting that you're using his last name if it weren't for the fact that it sounded so good coming out of your mouth. He leans down to you just a tad bit.
"Sooo flustered..."
"I'm not flustered."
It's a joy to know he can still make you feel something, you were always wearing your heart on your sleeve, and your emotions on your precious little face. He sighs dramatically, waving his arms around.
"Mhm, sure you're not. You're lying... And it's honestly boring me to death! And I love death!"
You look away towards the port and roll your eyes, a quiet scoff escaping you along with it.
"Oh, so we're doing this."
It's almost like they're flirting, he thinks. Just like old times, maybe. It sends a thrill down his spine.
"Yes. We are."
You smile faintly, but it disappears just as fast as it materialized.
"I'll head out now and leave you to your favorite bench at your favorite spot, then."
He doesn't even allow you the chance to stand up before he shifts to stand fully in your way, imposing himself with an unreadable expression on his face that's hiding his real thoughts.
"Stay here a minute, I'd like to ask you a tiny little thing."
You tilt your head, the way you used to every time he perplexed you with some nonsense he'd spew out either to toy with you or when he'd say those three poisonous words you could never handle hearing from him.
"Dazai, I don't know if that's wise..."
He knew what you meant by that, because if you stayed like all the other times, you'd never leave. He sees the effect he has on you and he uses that to his advantage. His voice softens, something you aren't used to anymore.
"... But will you do it anyway? Stay here?"
You bite the corner of your lip and sigh... Of course you do.
"I guess... I will."
His eyes narrow and he fights back a smile at the thought of being able to stump you like this.
He's not sure where he's going with this but he's sure he'll think of something to say, he just wants to keep talking to you a little longer. He invades your personal space, and almost reaches out to place a hand on your face but decides not to, opting to keep the unbalanced dynamic going. You breathe out, unable to handle the silence, your cheeks already turning pink.
"Seems to me like you're stalling."
He observes you knowing how desperate you are to hear what he has to say, enjoying the moment of simply holding your gaze when he really should think of what the hell to ask you. He becomes dangerously close, his voice taking on a velvety approach with that lazy smile you love so much.
"Me? I'm doing nothing of the sort."
You look down at your shoes shamefully, something that would have made you so giddy to hear before now just feels like a slap to the face. Your eyes flicker to the way his hands now rest at his sides and it makes you wish they were wrapped around your neck instead. It all causes you to mumble without thinking.
"You always want to stop me from something... You keep me frozen in time."
He tilts his head, finally reaching out to take your hand but when you don't meet him halfway he settles for hooking his pinky around yours instead. He won't move it until you do first.
"Is that so bad? To be frozen by me?"
You're losing this battle, you know that because you can feel your heartbeat in your pinky when he tightens it just a little but it's enough to feel him invade you even further. He feels it too.
"I wish I thought it were..." You say, lamely.
"Why don't you, then?"
He asks quickly, amused. He squeezes your pinky harder and it's starting to cut your circulation off. You look back up with that ridiculously innocent face that always made him want to jump into the river, you didn't even know how precious you looked that way.
"You know why, Osamu."
Oh it's like a shot to the heart when you switch to his first name. How dare you. He wishes you'd say it under different circumstances because he doesn't like this one. That, plus the urge to mock you for your emotions always being so damn sincere causes his gaze to shift. It's less playful now as he stares into your eyes, his voice going low.
"... I don't think I do."
You bite the inside of your cheek again and taste blood from how hard you're holding back the urge to just. Go. But you can't and you won't. It's the same doomed story over and over again.
You murmur with pathetic longing.
"No, you never seem to."
He's figured out his question, and he figures why he's holding your pinky like he's a tourniquet and you're bleeding out, but he doesn't intend on saving you, he's not that kind of guy.
It's dark now, and the Sakura petals are slowing down their fall to death, almost afraid to interrupt the tension going on here. He nods towards you, amused.
"Please, enlighten me."
You look away, a sad smile on your face.
"I don't know if I'm strong enough for that tonight."
He knows that, and you're stupid if you don't think he knows every single little thing about you. This is all just a review. This is all just his way of making sure you haven't moved on this time for sure.
"Aww, look at you, unable to resist me.~"
He mocks you, yet moves his over hand to the small of your back to really make sure you stay here with him. You instantly regret letting your heart speak for you when you said you'd stay earlier. You frown, eyes glistening as the moon makes its presence known. The moon doesn't care to interrupt you two, but somehow it feels like it's on Dazai's side more than anything.
You shake your head, sighing.
"You're being mean. You should be home tonight and so should I."
He keeps staring into you, thinking how beautiful you look when you become so vulnerable around him. He finally releases your pinky, unable to take it anymore, and cups the side of your face instead while the other one still stays on your back. He shrugs and sighs as well, though it sounds more like an imitation of one.
"Perhaps I should be home. But I don't feel like it. Neither do I feel like letting you scurry away."
This causes you to purse your lips and knit your brows together, your patience running out from his games. He should have taken you out back and put you out of your misery ages ago, it's not too late, you think.
"Then what do you propose we do?"
"Hmm... Will you let me kiss you?" He asks as if this were the first time he's ever done it. As if he were concluding a successful first date. Your lip quivers, and he can feel you tremble.
"Why?"
"Why not?"
When you don't reply, he moves his face until his cheek is against yours and whispers into your ear.
"Are you going to say anything, silly? Or can I take this as a yes?"
You finally breathe out, the shock somewhat subsiding. You don't think twice, you're just as pathetic as you've always been. But so is he for asking.
"Kiss me."
You said yes. He gets what he wants from you, thank god. He won't tell you that just this morning he had a dream, or rather a revelation of you letting him kiss you. That he blew off his duties at the agency and visited every single place you used to frequent together until he found you here to make the prophecy come true. That this is a selfish attempt at getting not just that kiss, but your entire being. Your noses touch, and he whispers once more.
"Are you sure about that? You don't sound so sure, little thing."
You swallow hard, and your voice comes out meek and soft.
"I always am."
"Even now?"
He doesn't even wait for your reply before he's closing the distance between you, locking your lips together and sealing you against him, as if worried after all this time you'd still try to move away and leave. The kiss lasts longer than it was intended to, but eventually Dazai removes himself from you, he couldn't bear it if you did so first. You never would, you think to yourself. His gaze is genuinely soft now, his cruelty melting away like a snowflake, but you're dying in his arms like the petal.
"You've always known I'm yours, right? And you're mine?"
You want to cry when he says that, if only it truly was that mutual.
"I want it to be that way, but it seems you only kiss me when no one's around."
The empty outdoor space that envelops them, along with the waves rhythmically crashing against the port punctuates the silence that follows after. Dazai breaks the pause, something about what you just said bothering him deeply.
"If I kissed you when everyone was around, wouldn't they start to look?"
He knows that's terrible thing to say to you, but doesn't want to admit that the thought of others seeing him happy makes him feel like it's an omen, that the second he openly recognizes he's yours you won't stay his for very long. That it will all be a dream from another world. You scoff as you look away, your eyes stinging.
"Mmm... You're funny."
"I'm serious, me being in a relationship? Imagine that. I think the whole agency would be at a standstill. How scandalous."
He doesn't mean that, but he doesn't know why he can't stop pretending he doesn't have feelings and just speak the truth. Surprisingly, you crack a small smile at that, trying to find humor in the fact that you'll never figure him out.
"They'd all think you're looney, which you are."
"That's an understatement! They'd think I'm deranged for letting such a cute person take me away from my very important duties.~"
He plays along with your sarcasm, what matters is you're cooperating.
"They'd all say I'm too good for you, anyway. Especially Kunikida." You really make sure that one hurts, but all he shows is a sly grin.
"It's just better if people don't know we're together, right?"
You look away, the moon's fully illuminating you both.
"It's better not to be together at all, Osamu."
Your words actually hurt like a knife to the chest, and once he goes there, he can't stop it. You weren't supposed to make such a permanent statement. He narrows his eyes, but his voice remains soft, desperate even.
"And what's that supposed to mean?"
"You know what I mean, I'm not some secret you keep."
He somehow recovers and replies as smug as possible.
"I like you that way. Frozen in time, remember? The prettiest ice sculpture for me to adore for all eternity.... What else do you want me to say?"
You wince at that.
"Just say anything. Can you say it? Can you at least tell me you loved me at one point in time?"
That does it for him. You look so sad, you look so pliable and it's so attractive, but he's not looking to exploit that anymore tonight. It brings out something else. Something he can't take back.
"You do know I don't ever want anyone else, right? It was real to me then, and it's real to me now. Don't be dense."
He didn't notice the tears in your eyes before, the way they glisten thanks to the moon who's always on his side. He's stern when he speaks to you, his eyes locked on yours to make sure you get it through you stubborn little skull how devoted he has always been and always will be, even if he doesn't show it in the way you want him to.
You're irritated and enamored as you sniffle.
"And what am I supposed to do with that information, huh?"
He speaks above a whisper, you barely hear it yourself; It might as well be an auditory hallucination. His face is solemn, matching yours for once. He's not hiding anything right now.
"Keep it close to your heart and be mine..."
He clears his throat, and moves his other hand from your back to the other side of your face, fully holding you, making sure you have no escape.
"... I'm all yours, so be all mine. Okay?"
"We really are the same kind of stupid, Osamu... Now what?"
You say with a scoff that turns into a small laugh, your voice remaining bittersweet even in between sniffles.
"Now?" His voice trails off, humming as he pretends to think. There was never another outcome to this story, he was never going to say anything different. It's just the way he prophesied it. The way it's meant to be.
"Now you're going to take me home. We're going to get back to your place, and you'll reintroduce me to your very cold and lonely bed I've missed so much as I hold you forever and ever. You'll have no choice but to fall madly in love with me again, as I am with you. Done."
He drops your face and takes your hand properly now, hoping to lead you away into the night. He knows he doesn't deserve this, so he has to make it count.
He's hoping you won't find him crass and reject his request, he doesn't mean to be so blunt. He's just a desperate idiot who refuses to see another season change without you.
When Dazai says he misses intimacy with you, it's because he does. It's because he wants to tell you that this is the last time the cycle repeats itself, this is how he ends it but he needs you to want it too. You stare at him in disbelief at first, your hollow breathing now becoming shaky with each inhale. You choose to believe him, something in his face tells you he's being real for once. Besides, you already have nothing, so you can't lose anything.
"... Then lie in it again. Convince me."
You tuck a strand of his messy bangs that frame his face behind his ear, and you realize how pretty he looks this way. You never noticed he could be even more devastating than usual. You hope he'll keep letting you push it back like this.
He smiles, his voice dropping to a pleading tone at your reverent touch. At your mercy.
"Oh, I plan on it. We've made it this far. Even if it wasn't mutual anymore, it doesn't make it any less true... at least not for me. And just so you know, I did love you at one point in time, and I love you now, you fool."
You look down once again at the fallen petals at your feet already turning brown, and you realize this won't be you tonight, or ever again. You realize there is meaning in all of this and you won't be the snowflake nor the petal, you're going to be Dazai's. You squeeze his hand back, the corner of your lip curling up as you both walk away under the moonlight.
#when i tell you i was vibrsting from caffeine my hormones are all over the place from the upcoming period and ppp by beach house#was blaring in my ears i could not stop writinf what i wrote#i'm thinking it just has to be this way dazai WOULD#make it this complicated to simply try and get you back. this is all just him wanting to beg on his knees#and who am i to deny and pathetic man the pleasure of showing up into your lifr#rubs hands together this is what i was made for the angst the love thr hardship#i think it's a reflection of his fears and his deepest desires that rlly make him contradicting#and ur like. thats enough im so fucking exhausted PLEASE#but so is heeeeeee SO IS HE#ada mention alwayssss#bungou stray dogs#bro never goes to work RIP#osamu dazai#dazai x reader#bsd dazai#dazai x you#osamu dazai x reader#bsd x reader#dazai imagines#osamu dazai fluff#dazai fluff#bungo stray dogs#dazai angst#dazai angst fluff#dazai osamu#fluff and angst#gn reader
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let’s talk about shy and oblivious oscar. like you’ve liked him forever and you keep trying to drop hints to him and he’s just not getting them and like the last time you try and mention something to him about possibly going out somewhere he just is like “oh yeah lando’s been wanting to go there. let’s ask him if he wants to go.” and you get kinda frustrated and just tell him never mind. oscar is like wtf did i do??? so he goes to ask lando if something is up with you and lando’s like “mate how dense can you be she’s liked you for the longest time” and oscar’s brain short circuits at the mere idea of you liking him??!!
maddie babe sorry this took me five years to answer. BUT FUCK ABSOLUTELY! soooooo obsessed with shy/oblivious oscar actually. especially with someone who is like, not so direct, and drops hints rather than outright say anything to him. omfg yes asking him to go somewhere and he's just cockblocking himself😭 it's so real because he just doesn't even factor in that you might be interested in him.
this works so well with my slowburn oscar theory tbh; which is where i think he's the kind of guy that is so chill, so happy to go at other people's pace, that he takes relationships at a total snail's pace. doesn't push too hard for anything even if he wants it, meets you where you're at in such an aggressively relaxed way that he makes you think he's not interested. which i guess is also very oblivious of him. if you're not walking up to him and telling him very blatantly that you're interested in him, then he's not taking the bait.
god but when he realises how obvious you've been trying to be, or that LANDO notices, then he's definitely like oh fuck oh shit ive totally screwed it. and probably realises the depth of his feelings and like how much he really wants you when confronted with the realisation that he might not get you.
which is also his quiet confidence thing? he can be slow because he's confident on some subconscious level that he'll get you eventually?
but also yeah still also totally shocked to find out you've been dropping hints like its a full time job. and shocked to find out you like him. and then once he cant be oblivious and obtuse about the whole thing he's a bit of a mess. the pressure gets to him. he can't be quietly confident or calm and shit when he knows that you know that he's into you. he's blushing and tripping over his words and everything🥺
#did i psychoanalyse him too much here? does this make sense? like the slight contradictions?#oscar piastri x reader#💌asks#🫂maddie#📎concepts
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The issue I’m having with all this discussion with daemon of how the crown is a burden and the price of power is exorbitant (blah blah blah) is that it’s trying to tell us some deep thematic element that simply is non-existent and downright contradicted in the show.
This whole show has been about the right (though it isn’t a right at all) to rule. Of this divine and prophetic purpose that is bestowed upon the heir. An undeniable right that should be wanted and fought for. We are supposed to cheer for Rhaenyra as she desperately fights to gain the power that she “rightfully” deserves. She is the heroine we support in her struggles of being deprived of her purpose and her crown. She WANTS it, so she DESERVES it. That’s what this whole show has been telling us.
And suddenly…we are told that’s not what’s right. The theme of this show is actually that wanting the crown makes you less deserving. The cost of power is too burdensome. Nobody should want this power. You only deserve a crown if you accept it as your burden.
And if that’s the theme we’re supposed to believe… then Long Live King Aegon II (Mr. teary eyes as he approaches the crown himself)
#I hope this makes sense#HOTD is showing us one thing and telling us another#all their framing is about how Rhaenyra deserves the crown#and how she is the heroine because she wants it so bad and fights for it#but they’re spending time explicitly telling us that wanting the crown is bad#like this thematic contradiction is so beyond stupid#house of the dragon#game of thrones#team green#anti team black#anti targaryen#anti rhaenyra#anti rhaenyra targaryen#aegon ii targaryen#anti hotd
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#sorry i saw someone say sonic and tails dont see eachother as family at all again and it annoyed me#this isnt even all of the times theyve said it this is just a bunch of stuff i remembered off the top of my head#and also sonic has called tails little bro SO many times across different media that it would be impossible to track them all down#but i tried to include stuff from different media to show that this isnt a thing thats exclusive to one continuity or one period of time#because those are arguments i see people use to prove theyre not brothers#but even if it WAS something that is mentioned a lot in earlier sonic media and not so much in recent stuff.#not mentioning something as often anymore doesnt automatically make it non canon?? especially if theres no new info contradicting it#sonic frontiers spoilers#the sage picture probably looks irrelevant to people who havent played frontiers#but she was talking about sonic and tails there which is why i included it#also i put that aosth clip instead of screenshots from it because i didnt think a couple screenshots would do it justice#you really have to see the whole thing
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