#i loved it but gosh was it painful

[botanicallyinclinednerd]

Something I adore about this saga is how the songs all end with such powerful and forceful singing. It almost feels like Odysseus is trying to drown out the screams he hears by being louder with his own pain and convictions

[bbaycon]

In america, I found that some people called them chocolate croissants

They are not french enough if there never had been the pain au chocolat controversy THERE

Plus lil doodle

[feelingtheaster99]

I just finished Fourth Wing and I realized that the reason that Xaden never really hated Violet is because he knew about her from her brother and already knew she was a good person and I want to CRY

[niko-sasaki-dbd]

Queue Interview with the Dead Boy Detectives Cast 👻🔎

This is going to be a long post! (These are my favourite parts from the interview!)

George Rexstrew as Edwin Payne

Acting Inspiration

Oh, gosh. Well there are so many. Meryl Streep, obviously. Viola Davis, obviously. More recently, I was blown away by Enzo Vogrincic in Society of the Snow. And Eden Dambrine in Close.

Cast Camaraderie

I loved working with all my co-stars. I’m practically related to Jayden [Revri] and Kassius [Nelson] at this point. Yuyu [Kitamura] is a dream. Jenn [Lyon] is mother hen. Bri[ana Cuoco] is the cool older sister. Josh[ua Colley] is the cheeky cousin. Ruth [Connell] is the godmother who gives you a card and £20 for your birthday. It really is one big happy dysfunctional family. I’m grateful for all of them, on and off camera.

Jayden Revri as Charles Rowland

Dressing The Part

These heads of departments, and Monique and Kelli, [they’re] unbelievable. They were so collaborative. We went through different hairstyles and different things we could do with the makeup. We added a bit of eyeliner for [Charles] just to make it feel more 80s. And then Kelli, I mean, it was like she did her research on me. She added badges to the jacket which kind of represented me as Jayden, before I even got there. It wasn’t until I got the haircut, put the makeup on, put the costume on, and I was like, Okay, this is Charles.

Cast Camaraderie.

The vibe was just incredible. Me and George, we really wanted to set the tone for the series and make sure that everyone’s having fun and it’s an environment where we could all talk about how we’re feeling. We were just such a big support blanket for each other. If there was ever a time that somebody needed space, or they wanted to prep themselves for a certain scene they were going to film, we all respected that and we were each other’s cheerleaders the whole entire time. And it’s still the same to this day now. I think it really shows when you watch the series that we all knew what we were making and we wanted to make something that we would want to watch, which we’ve all done. I cannot shout out my castmates enough. Forever grateful.

Kassius Nelson as Crystal Palace

Acting Inspiration

I watched a lot of animation. I used to watch the Addams Family, the black-and-white one, because I didn’t have Disney Channel or anything. Monk, Murder She Wrote, I was watching those things, so maybe I was actually destined to play a detective, now that I’m thinking about it. I watched a lot of cartoons and animations. I just liked the idea that I could be engrossed in another world. And I always wanted to know what happened next, or when the film finished, I would be like, “Okay, but then what? What happens after that?” And now I get to be part of that question or that answer (...).

Dressing the Part

We have a fantastic costume designer, Kelli Dunsmore. I always say that she literally wove the story into the fabric of the clothes, because there are things that she foreshadowed in the clothing that happened episodes later. Or, if characters start to get in some sort of relationship with each other, that will be reflected in the clothes that they wear or the colors that they have. Or, if they’re feeling any type of emotion, (...)l. Crystal wears these massive platform boots that must be about four or five inches. They’re huge, very heavy, but it’s funny because they change the way that you walk. (...) She’s not very light, which makes sense with the things that she’s going through and the experiences that she’s having. Practically, it helped, because Jayden and George are like six-foot-something. So, if I film a scene and I’m at the bottom of the lens and they’re up there, that helped. I’ve got a good couple inches on my feet.

Yuyu Kitamura as Niko Sasaki

Acting Inspiration

Sandra Oh is a woman that I will forever be indebted to because who she was on Grey’s Anatomy was so formative for me. The most interesting thing about her character was not that she was Asian, but that she was such a fully fleshed person with flaws and amazing qualities. And her work ever since I think has been iconic, so she’s a woman that I deeply look up to.

Landing the role in Dead Boy Detectives

I auditioned from Hong Kong and my dad was my reader because all of my acting friends were in New York. My dad was able to carve out time and be an amazing reader. And in that audition side, it’s the scene where Niko gets to see the “Dead Boys” for the first time, and there’s a line in there that was something along the lines of me talking to Edwin and asking, “Do you two make out with each other?” And my dad stopped the tape and he was like, “What are you reading for?” And I was like, “Don’t give me notes, it’s fine!” And so that was the audition process! I think within a month I found out I got the part and it’s been an absolute dream ever since.

Dressing the Part

(...) I think on paper Niko can seem like a certain type of character, but even in the choice of every costume we did, every color that she wears, every meticulous little piece about everything from her nails to her room, it’s so well curated and thought out. Through her journey, we also find that she’s a woman that wears what she feels. On the surface, she might seem like the most joyful, young, optimistic girl, but it’s the inner confidence and bravery where we find that she’s layered, and she is very much a young woman coming of age.

SOURCE: MEET THE REAL DEAD BOY DETECTIVES (AND FRIENDS)

[coiled-dragon]

I Like seeing Renfield in pain so. Here's a dump of his beautiful agony

[starrytonesart]

edwin payne - the hermit (the sacrifice)

[ssaalexblake]

13 looking at yaz when the fire works go off and her breath catching for a moment when she looks at her stabs me in the chest every time bc she only gets that moment of awe for a second before she remembers everything else and i am in paaaaiiinnnnn

[m-kyunie]

my absolute laziest most rushed redraw but it's one of my absolute fav scenes in the anime

edit: redrawn

[jabberwockjamboree]

im having a catboy summer >:3

[motorcycleboy9]

jally might be the only thing that is keeping me alive right now

[shimmershy]

🌼Thank you, I'll say goodbye soon

Though its the end of the world,

Don't blame yourself now🌼

[strychninem1870]

What if Dutch and Annabelle but they're in a lavender relationship because both are just gay as fuuuuuuuck

[berryblu-soda]

Anyways update i just didnt bother to post earlier:

fr God is good and the whole car crash my parents got into last week was so incredibly mild in terms of injuries!!!! worst was a bruised knee im pretty sure

ALSO-

*taps mic* HUG YOUR FREAKING LOVED ONES OR SO HELP ME!!!!!!!

[solarisgod]

　i don't ever deserve it, this respect. the tenderness that make my skin harden and my visions go striking red with paranoia. if anything, i hate when people would still try to reach out to me despite my terribleness. ❝ you can love and be loved, despite what may feel like the eternally brutal nature of the world. ❞ yet, you still tell me this without hesitation one night. i growl. my arms hold horrible itches that can't go away no matter how long i scratch them apart, even to the point of bleeding. did micah tell you to say this to me ? ire builds in thick fluids that makes me want to spit ▬▬ i fucking want it to be blood. i never understand love. i never think it's a thing i can have. i've lived my whole life fighting, i only believe i can not ever have the kindness be made beneath my skin instead of the goddamn hands and blades.

I'M NOTHING AT ALL. what can you see beyond the rage and violence that i have to be for the starwake system ? my hands keep clenching into hot fists then letting it all go, only for me to grasp them back again as tighter tensions. you can tell me it is possible for me to have all of this love, although the most terrifying truth about me : i don't know how to love and be loved ▬▬ YOU CAN'T TELL ME I CAN LOVE AND BE LOVED WHEN THE WHOLE WORLD NEVER TAUGHT ME HOW TO EVEN LIVE. CRUELTY ALWAYS RUNS DEEPER IN THE FRAGILE VEINS AND MEMORIES, THE VIOLENCE SHAPING AS PHANTOMS AND NIGHTMARES. If love is the strongest, why can't i remember most kind memories with micah and philos ? I AM NOTHING. a hollow body. an empty shell. i am sick. I AM SICK. i am sick. I AM NOT I ▬▬

maybe in a different lifetime, i can have all of the love. i don't say anything of this in words or gestures. i believe i should not say anything at all in any ways or this part of the world will shatter by my ugly opening. revealed vulnerability is the rusted knife cutting through the skin. i don't think you will ever be ready to see what i have to carry with me throughout my life, more than ghosts and flames and canine teeth. a harsh sigh leaves my body heavier, twitching erratically like it's begging me for something ▬▬ i don't know, it's tired of trying to act like a human that is alive. anger flickers deeply in me as beating heart. each time it beats, i only want to devour the sun more. if i can't have love, then the world shouldn't have it either. not when it can exist horribly as myself. not as the universe doesn't care about me.

i glance away from @vulpesse, unsure of how you will react to my silence. i don't think it matters anyway. if the world is against me, then i will fight like i always have. i don't fucking need its love. should i even be grateful for your words regardless ? i feel more trapped than comforted, bounded in the sickening reminder that i am not meant to be loved. i didn't came to exist in this damaged world so that i could love. i don't know what my purposes are but to use fear so that people can cower and pray, letting me with my system to roam as freely as possible, unheld, unhurt, UNLOVED. violence have made me more violent than what any of us stars had to face all alone. i still say nothing. i grab a cigarette and light it, inhaling the burns. when i release pain, i flick the roll. THE ASHES RISE AND FADE INTO OBLIVION AS DYING STARS.

[jula483]

6 years between those two pics. SIX.

x / x

[feelingtheaster99]

In preparation for The Chalice of the Gods and the series coming out, I’m rereading the PJO books and cannot stop thinking about Sally Jackson.

Imagine you’re a mom to this amazing kid, who, through no fault of his own is constantly going to be in danger unless you:

send him away to a summer camp for kids with godly parents, meaning you’d rarely, if at all get to see your son

marry his smelly, abusive asshole to help disguise your son from the monsters who want to hunt him

And you pick… the SECOND OPTION? You marry a man, whom you have no romantic feelings for, who you don’t even LIKE, who is unkind, and lazy, and physically aggressive… just so you can see your son for at least three months out of the year