#i love the Soos

[noxiousgrace]

Kim rok soo gives up everything he thinks he doesn't need if the situation calls for it

His whole explanation for his very clear self sacrificial tendencies is the fact that whatever he's sacrificing, he believes he can go without

I'm currently re-reading the god of despair arc and his conversation with jang man soo caught my attention

Krs slept in the corner of the shelter where rain kept leaking in, at first i thought it was because park jin tae absolutely hated him but then jang man soo says "you chose that spot."

And it just kinda clicked that he doesn't consider anything besides the basic things to stay alive as a necessity

He thinks any sort of comfort is a luxury

He wants it, but he doesn't exactly need it

And doesn't mind giving it up if someone else needs it more

I feel like he sleeps in the corner on purpose because jang man soo is already clearly suicidal and krs doesn't want him to actually keel over from getting sick because of the leak, he knows jang man soo wouldn't complain about his illness until it was too late. He's old and his body is weak, idk if he'd survive being sick during the literal apocalypse. krs doesn't joke around with anybodies life

I also think he easily chose the spot with the leak because (this is my headcanon at least) he doesn't really feel temperature. I feel like krs was affected more by the white stars curse than he admits, sure he had some sense of taste and feel but his senses were probably dulled to the point he could easily ignore the discomfort

So whatever doesn't kill him, he can deal with it

He grew up like that anyway

He's used to being deprived of comfort, it's natural for him to be uncomfortable even if he complains and says he doesn't like it

What other people consider suffering is just an inconvenience for him

He's never had anything to take for granted ever since he was a kid

Reality absolutely crushed his standards of living ever since his parents died and we see that through everything he does

He doesn't falter at being overworked and underfed, that has been his natural state for 15-16 years now

In fact, transmigrating as cale henituse is more of a vacation to him than anything

Everyone thinks he's suffering but he just considers it as "working hard", it's was his job to starve while keeping his people fed when he was the team leader, because there was never enough to go around at first.

Once Korea was restored to some extent and scarcity was less of an issue due to ability users who had crop related abilities or something of the sort, he let himself indulge in the luxury of eating more often. It wasn't a big change, but still.

My heart breaks every time i think about the fact when he had his first meal as cale henituse, it was the most he had eaten in one sitting in 15-16 years. He usually doesn't comment on things but he was so insistent on the fact that beacroxs' cooking was good despite being absolutely terrified of the guy says a lot.

[peranna]

Cale looked toward the person who had yet to withdraw his sword.

‘…Team leader.’

He was there. It was not Sui Khan but the team leader.

He no longer looked like the young Sui Khan but the Lee Soo Hyuk that Cale first met. He looked to be around that age.

Cale avoided team leader Sui Khan, who was looking at him with his usual tired smile before looking at the last two people.

His gaze moved to Sui Khan. Maybe it was because he looked like Lee Soo Hyuk right now, but it was familiar yet awkward.

TCF Part 2 is.... so fun 🥲🫶

[nukudraws]

So, this is a comic about Kim Rok Soo losing everyone for a change!

Some KRS backstory to the song "Wait for it" from Hamilton, that's it basically

Full version with sound|yt version

~Death doesn't discriminate~

~between the SINNERS and the SAINTS~

~It takes and it takes and it takes~

~And we keep living anyway~

~We rise~

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I know they didn't have actual graves but bear with me

This is part 1, here's part 2

[lemongogo]

mimics

[clowns0up-felix]

(I’ll prob be posting some loz art tomorrow btw yayy, trying to juggle my interests well….oww)

Uhmmm

[magicicephoenix]

i finally finished reading I see you, Sundrop! by @shirajellyfish and IT'S SO GOOD I CAN'T BELIEVE IT TOOK ME THIS LONG TO FINISH IT RAAAAAAA

i will be gushing about it in the tags but here's a lil animation i made based on the below paragraph in chapter 6 that gave me such a strong mental image that i had to make it real :)

[teaboot]

One of my favourite things to think about in Gravity Falls is that there's a kind, humble manual labourer who is repeatedly canonized as forgiving, compassionate, generous, and pure of heart. And his name is Jesus. and he's the comic relief guy

[turtletoria]

they call me the sitter the way i sit on piles of doodles for weeks at a time

[scurvyboy]

relativity falls but fidd is a member of the losers club or something

[nottenebia]

Yaaaaay happy birthday to Mabel and Dipper!!! Weird to learn that we're the same age tho ahahah

[noxiousgrace]

In my mind i keep assuming krs spent his entire life alone and surviving on his own

But that isn't the case, there's clearly proof that he was at some level helped by other people

He mentions it often

He was saved by social workers from his uncle when he was a kid

LSH saved his life

Grandma kim always looked after him like her own son while LSH was gone

CJS and LSH died for him

And so many other incidents

But why does it feel like he's still all alone?

I think his tendency to self isolate is why i keep assuming he survived on his own, when he very much didn't.

Everyone fails him or leaves him eventually, he ends up all alone so often that it's hard for me to think about krs as someone who's had support.

He's had the rug pulled out from underneath him so many times, that it no longer shocks him anymore (take chapter 1-3 for example, he was so chill about waking up in another world and stated he didn't have anyone who he'd miss

But that isn't true either, krs spent 10-ish years of his life as team leader and protected his coworkers time and time again, of course people would miss him. In elisehns illusion, Kim Min Ah and Bae Puh Rum came to check up on krs who hadn't returned to work.

While he mentions the physical support and companionship he's received from other people, his mental wounds run too deep.

He keeps a very clinical count of who he owes and who owes him in return, support is not a familial thing to him, it's transactional

The biggest reason grandma Kims death affected him so much was that he owed her A LOT, she was always quick to have his back and support him, Willing to treat his bruises over and over again despite her ability being limited.

Same with CJS and LSH, they supported him more than his own family ever did (parents dead and an abusive uncle), he was devastated that he couldn't spend the rest of his life with them in order to "pay back" all of their kindness so far.

He doesn't feel responsible for their deaths, but he feels responsible for every opportunity he lost to care about them in return. He mourns the future he could've had with them and the happiness krs could've brought to CJS and LSH.

"you can't smooth things over with the dead" is something he said in the novel, around the time choi han figures out who he is and krs is ready for CH to be extremely upset with him.

Krs!Cale feels responsible for everyone who shows kindness to him, a part of it is because whenever someone has cared about him, his heart always cared about them in return. And krs caring about people caused them to get hurt, that's why he feels the need to protect them so that they don't fall victim to krs' affection, and he actually has enough time with them for their "kindness" to be evened out.

This is why he's annoyed when his group grows larger and larger because of his subconscious altruism, there's so many opportunities for all of them to get hurt before he's done caring about them to the amount he thinks is acceptable, it worries his emotionally stunted heart.

Anywho, i think he feels alone to me because of how little he opens up to other people. He is a self isolating king and manages to be the most famous man ever.

I want him to open up that scarred heart of his and finally allow himself to be loved beyond transactions.

[espresso1patronum]

megumi’s gaze lingered on you as you stood in front of him, wearing your short black dress. his brow furrowed slightly, the protective instinct in him kicking in.

"what are you wearing?" he asked, his voice laced with concern.

you raised an eyebrow, nonchalantly adjusting the dress. "i'm going out with my girlfriends," you replied.

he didn’t seem satisfied with that answer. "that’s not what i asked," he said, crossing the room to grab his oversized jacket. without another word, he flung it over your shoulders, his fingers lingering on the fabric for a moment longer than necessary.

"it’s pretty cold outside," he added, his tone firm. "you’ll catch something."

you gave him a skeptical look, shrugging lightly. "come on, it’s a hundred degrees outside."

he crossed his arms, an unamused look on his face. "that’s no excuse, miss," he said, his voice soft but stern. "i don’t want creeps staring at my pretty girl."

you couldn’t help but smile at his protectiveness. "fine, fine, I’ll cover up," you relented, adjusting the jacket around your shoulders.

a satisfied smile tugged at his lips. "good," he said, before pulling you in for a quick, affectionate kiss. "i don’t share."

[ellifromspace]

i think there’s something wrong with this guy’s tea…

[bleepzip]

i’m so done with you nerds. waka-chan out

[cthulhum]

i lied theres no sex. were gonna sit down and watch supernatural while we analyze the way almost every character is queer coded especially dean