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a dream
imagine sitting on that sofa with so mi after everything...
#i love making myself miserable#cyberpunk 2077#cp2077#song so mi#songbird cyberpunk#songbird#cyberpunk 2077 v#valerie phan#songv#ship: broken cage#cyberpunk 2077 oc
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i am shaking, someone pls tell me theres spidey!gojo au with the captions ‘everywhere i go, i see his face’ and its about geto someone pls
#satosugu#satosugu propaganda#i love making myself miserable#satosugu angst#jjk#IM POSTING THIS NOW BUT I ACC DRAFTED THIS IN AUGUST LAST YEAR
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Everything is going to shit today
First me almost having a heat stroke today, and than finding out that cm punk was just fired
I AM SO FUCKING MAD RN DAWG, THIS SUCKS UNWASHED ASS OMFGGGGG
LIKE WHYYYYYYY I LIKED HIS WHOLE THING W THE “REAL” AEW WORLD CHAMPIONSHIP😭 AND I HAVE BEEN (IM)PATIENTLY WAITING FOR THE TIME WHEN KENNY OMEGA VS CM PUNK AND MJF VS CM PUNK HAPPENS‼️‼️‼️ BUT NOW HE DECIDED TO FUCK IT ALL UP WITH HAVING A BITCH FIGHT WITH JACK!! MAN WTFF
#mad asf#babygirl what was you thinking#this old man twink is such a fucking dumbass#choosing to ignore the fact that two people laughed in my face when I found out cmpunk was fired💀#YOUR ACTIONS HAVE CONSEQUENCES#dumbass punk#cm punk#aew#all elite wrestling#tony khan#bro needs to stop picking fights backstage#oh wait#HE CANT ANYMORE LMFAOOAOAAOAOA#i love making myself miserable#bro is such a drama Queen like chill tf out💀#tk was in the right but still mad asf
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being aromantic is like. hey btw you're going to live a life that is the culmination of most of society's worst nightmares. sorry lol ✌️ but then you turn around and take a really good hard look at it and it turns out that living in that nightmare is fucking awesome and you get to wake up every day and take that fear that other people have and laugh and hold it close until it's a great joy for you instead. and being happy is a radical act that you define instead of someone else. and you're sexy as fuck that's just a fact of life i don't make the rules on that one
#aromantic people are just sexy i'm not making the decisions here it's just facts#course ur hot as fuck. it came free with the aromanticism#being sexy is just default settings for aromantic people 👍#hope this all helps. anyway i'm on my 'i hope i die alone <3 i can't wait to die alone <3' kick rn#i think the existential fear that people have of Not Partnering specifically is so. well.#obviously that shit is strong and it is SO awesome to be free of it.#realizing you're aro and you don't Want a partner can be such a hit to the solar plexus#cause society says that's the only thing that'll make you happy. so either you go without that thing or you force yourself#into doing something you don't want which would make you unhappy anyway.#so you think it's a lose lose situation and you have to come to terms with what amatonormativity presents as the worst possible situation#but then! whoa! turns out personhood is inherently valuable in and of itself and romantic partnering is just a construct!#and that nightmare is now your life to do with as you please... define as you will... structure as you want...#best case scenario. is what i'm saying.#every day i wake up ready to spit all that amatonormative rhetoric back in life's teeth by being alone and being happy#and it's so fucking satisfying. every day.#fucking JUBILANT being by myself. and i love being a living breathing 'fuck you' to the romantic system#you need a partner to be happy? oh that's sooo fucking crazy guess i'll go be miserable then. in my perfect fucking dream life lmao#yeah obviously it's the worst possible outcome on earth to die without a partner. so terrible. can't wait for it :)#aromantic#aromanticism#aro positivity#aroace#arospec#sorry to bitches who are sad about not having a partner. i could not give a fuck though get better soon#you couldn't EVER pay me enough to go back to a mindset in which my inherent value wasn't enough by myself.#FUCK that shit. absolutely miserable and a bad life outlook in general. like genuinely do the work w/ amatonormativity and get better#life is something that can be so fulfilling whether someone wants to kiss you or whatever or not#i'm on antidepressants and i have people i care deeply about. what the fuck would i need a partner for lmao
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“Wishes”
little comic based on that one line Sonic might say when it rains in Frontiers. (you know the one).
#in frontiers sonic will randomly say the corniest shit ever and i'm here for it#anyways i wanted to have this done for valentines and failed miserably#i love making comics like these but they take so long to do and with uni i barely have time for myself#but hey its done and i think it looks nice#sth#sonic frontiers#sonic frontiers spoilers#amy rose#sonic the hedgehog#sonamy#fluff#rain#fan comic#rosy the rascal#classic sonic#my art#my sonic art#queerplatonic
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snf sob... his favorite regular... wailing in the club rn
#ive never drawn a sheet before. much less a sheet covered caterpillar! it shows!#MANNNN THESE TWO AUGH#thank you halloween record for the crumbs. im sated <3#the fact that he Barged past sally gave me the image of him lightly tackling barnaby#bro had to pick up some Speed his legs were Goin#at some point i may clean up the og base sketch and make a non-halloween-costume version#because! your honor! i love them!#scribble garnish#laughingstock#barnaby x howdy#howdy x barnaby#welcome home#i was gonna try to make it more ~ambiguous~ and non shippy and then my hand slipped and they're both blushing now oops#i tell myself 'be normal about them' and i Fail Miserably
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Why bother? (Why bother?) It's gonna hurt me. (It's gonna hurt me.) It's gonna kill when- (Why bother!) -You desert me! (Gonna hurt me!)
Set after Nightmare. Laios is reminiscing and contemplating.
#laishuro#laios touden#i make a lot of jokes on here since part of the fun of this blog for me is limiting myself to only expressing ideas via drawings#as much as I can to try to see what I can try to convey in the limited time I have to draw each day which is sometimes like 15minutes#but laios idea of who shuro was to him and who he continues to be and how it ties into his own feelings of self worth and self hatred#not to mention being so thoroughly defined by having never been indulged before by the men in his life#are so compelling to me#and then of course you mix in toshiros own mind prisons#and their established dynamic of him begrudgingly putting up with him because he feels he has to and bc hes cursed with obedience#whilst laios genuinely thinks shuro does it because he likes it and likes laios because why else would anyone act like that#when everyone else in his life has not hesitated to Let Him Know#this is what is so fun about relationships like this…forever passing by each other’s true feelings like ships in the night#sometimes i get embarassed how deep i get for some of the characters in this series it really is that deep sometimes but not always#but WHATEVER#i never even engaged in or was interested in shipping the several years i read dunmeshi EXCEPT laishuro lol#which i sadistically wanted to stay one sided and miserable forever. I rarely get fed such genuinely fraught dynamics as their one in manga#so i became obsessed#and walked through the desert alone for 40 years and then checked in as anime started airing that other people ship this and gaf#and decided to unleash the jokes and ideas that my like 2 friend who like anime previously suffered alone as though they were jesus christ#now tho as much as I still enjoy tragedy and pain and emotional suffering I’ve let love and peace and requited fulfilled yaoi into my life#with laishuro. and its great!#my comics
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my beautiful princess who is insane and some little guys
#outing myself as an md enjoyer sue me#its literally everything 12yo me wouldve wanted and loved god bless#i had no idea it ended last week til yesterday...... im miserable.........#doodles#murder drones#duck scribbles#nuzi is too cute they make me sick and vuzi has been my guilty pleasure duo since . forever#yeah ok uzi ''these weirdly hot robots'' doorman i know youre into her also#i love n and his girlfriend uzi and her girlfriend v#the scream i scrumpt when v came back in the finale i love u forever my girl#serial designation v#serial designation n#uzi doorman#i kinda wanna draw them more... dont follow me for it tho just in advance
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half-doomed; it only gets better when it hurts dance miserable [2011] | so much (for) stardust [2023]
#guess who has been listening to soul punk recently#fobedit#fall out boy#patrick stump#soul punk#pete wentz#so much (for) stardust#dance miserable#it's like...the band got so much better but the world got worse#sometimes the world gets better and you get worse and sometimes you feel better and the world feels worse#i love the world i just don't love the way it makes me feel etc#idk if this makes sense to anyone including myself but. i tried#smfs#sm(f)s#my stuff
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On the string propaganda
Heeellll yeah
Bestie is an entire PLACE
I look at those guys and let me tell you the soul of that thing ain't just in the puppet, it's in all the neurons carrying the thoughts and emotions, it's in the power rails that serve as the heart. All the memories in the memory conflux and all the numbers we see flicker across displays, the flux condensers, the puppet; a little avatar.
No way these massive machines see life the same way we do. They have their own experiences and senses and things they hold dear. A world we can't imagine, a way of living we couldn't even comprehend.
I could never tear an iterator apart to be just a puppet. Who am I to decide how's life supposed to be enjoyed or perceived?
You treat your creechurs however you want- I ain't gonna dictate that. But damn, hearing the thrums and buzzes of the linear systems rail? They are alive with so much power, these mechanical beasts are exactly what they should be.
#sorry im just a really passionate on the string believer#you cant tell me that these massive structures kilometers wide capable of things we cant even image would look at something thats#thats comparable to a speck of dust and be like#yes i would like to rid myself of practically my entire body to be that tiny#this aint no “if i were a supercomputer i'd be sad i couldnt see the sky like i do now”#thats only because you have something to compare it to#if i were to suddenly loose everything to be just some microscopic creature i'd be miserable but only because i know what im loosing#id be loosing the ability to think like i do now id be loosing the ability to enjoy the things i do now#i dont know what life is like as a microscopic creature but i wouldnt be willing to give up my life as i know it now#and i think with iterators are the same#just how different is their life from ours and what things can they see that we are missing out on?#give up everything comfortable and known and for what??#to feel the sun? they absolutely have various temperature sensors#see the sky? those overseers were made to see things those visuals are in 4k#other animal comforts?? what about computer comforts??#what makes a lil creature happy may not necessary make a massive supercomputer happy#sorry big rant in the tags um just wanna say this is no hate to anyone who wants their creatures off the string#these are fictional beings and you do whatever makes you happy take them off the string set them loose yess enjoy little robots running#around be happy i love reading ya alls off the string shenanigans#rain world#iterator#drawins#oc veil of dreams#rw talk#rain world oc#iterator oc
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Hobbies that are suitable for a king that laios would totally be into:
- dogs!
- horses and horseriding
- FALCONRY - this is like ultimate kingly hobby and you have pet raptors!!!!!
- hunting in general
Like this is all stuff that kings historically were into and did and would not be considered unusual or undignified
#'oooh but laios loves animals' he also loves monsters and guess what he did to them#i dont believe a walking mushroom poses more of a threat to a small hunting party than the average boar come on#kabru voice: ok my liege we just need to go over tomorrows schedule then you can go play with ur touys#laios voice: yay!!!!#dungeon meshi spoilers#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#dungeon meshi post canon#this is in the interest of making your king laioses postcanon a little less miserable#your kabruses too. he cannot do all of the work come on#meowing to myself
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Fig's line "I don't think I'm an artist, I think I'm just a good friend" has not left my head at all. Just...
You're Fig Faeth and your horns came in over the summer and you pick up the bard class as a form of adolescent rock 'n' roll rebellion, and it works! It's exactly the outlet you need! You give a guy you just met drumsticks and you start a band and it's good enough that within a year and a half you're touring. You are, in every sense, good at being a bard.
And then, finally, your junior year, you start to take it seriously. Your art goes from an outlet and a form of rebellion to a practice. A discipline. (Can rebellion exist within a discipline?) Your classmates know what they want to do with their work. They all have a thesis statement. And yeah, there's cohesion in the music you make, but you've never had to think about why you make it. You've never sat down and dissected what it is about bass that speaks to you. You've never poured over your lyrics to pick at any deeper meaning. Why should you? You don't play music for a grand design, you do it to... huh, why do you do it?
(Your art is the one form of self-expression that feels as safe as Disguise Self does, because even if you're pouring your heart onto the page and then screaming it in front of thousands of people, it's not like you're really making yourself known. You can sing I'm lonely, I'm scared, I'm furious, and your fans will sing it right back, and there will still be the distance between performer and audience to keep your heart safe.)
Now you're being asked to look inward to explain the artistic choices you're making, and you can't help but recoil at that, because you'd rather do anything than look inward. Meanwhile, your classmates have no problem with it, so you start to wonder if you're a real artist at all. Can your art be authentic if it only exists to bolster a thesis statement? Has your art been unauthentic this whole time because you've never really thought about a thesis statement before? Is that what makes it art, and not just the next track on somebody's teen angst playlist?
You can't think about yourself— acknowledging your own existence makes you want to puke. So if your music is an extension of yourself, (and it is, even if it's just because the spotlight reveals only what you want it to,) you can't think about your music. You can't. You have to. Your grade depends on it.
You're Fig Faeth, and you keep multiclassing because you'd rather be a good friend than a great artist. If introspection is what great art demands, then fuck it. You must not be a bard at all.
#Dimension 20#fig faeth#fhjy#Idle Chatter#my last two years of college were when I started to get more and more nauseous about my own art#because I wasn't being taught how to make the art I wanted to make#the whole curriculum's focus was on gallery art#which infuriated me! I wanted to make art that didn't have to involve twelve layers of meaning and metaphor to be considered good!!#so I drove myself into the ground time and again trying to make (miserable) work that I thought would fit the criteria of a Real Artist#anyway it's been 4 years and I'm just now picking at why I don't enjoy creating anymore so Fig's whole arc has hit home in a major way#ALSO. AAAAALSO. THE ADHD STRUGGLE WE SEE WITH BOTH FIG AND KRISTEN. LOVING SOMETHING BUT STILL STRUGGLING WITH FOLLOW THROUGH#BEING TOLD YOU'RE NOT DOING ENOUGH WHEN IT'S SO FUCKING HARD JUST TO GET WHERE EVERYONE ELSE IS AND NOT UNDERSTANDING WHY IT'S HARD FOR YOU#it was easy and now that the rubber's hit the road it's hard for you but not for others so it must be YOU that's the problem#you must be lazy or stupid or just not suited to this after all even though it's part of a pattern that has been happening all your life#if you were good enough or cared enough then surely the discipline would come easily to you! the way it comes easily to all your classmates#SCREAMS I gotta stop before I write a second essay in the tags. I'm so normal you can trust me to be normal about D&D characters
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oswald said "one cannot deny love" and then ed spent the next two seasons trying to prove him wrong. And he failed lol
#one cannot deny love? watch THIS (spends 3 years denying myself and making myself miserable for no reason)#hes such a fucking loser . i need to pick him up and carry him around like a little dog#bectxt#op#txt#gotham
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I love you when we haven’t talked in weeks and months I love you when I have 12 unread messages I love you when im not in the mood to talk. We’re still friends even when we spend time apart
#it’s like delayed parallel play to me.. or perhaps sending letters in the mail#when I wrote this it’s because I have this thing that is like. having too much of a good thing#like if I talk to someone and love them too much I burn out.. does that make sense?? is that a universal experience???#so sometimes when I have to spend time by myself I don’t stop loving my friends I think#especially because when I burn out I feel miserable for no reason and my brain comes up with ways to hate people#like oh they’re probably spending time with other ppl you’re disposable.. they probably forgot about you#one time I thought that if my friends were getting married they’d forget to invite me and it became a fear I’m trying to get over#but the answer I came up with is to keep reminding people I exist to stay present in their lives#even if it’s not as often as I can manage or would like. idk#yapping#feelings
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mai doesnt like big parties and zuko knows that but everytime the royal sages insist on making into a big celebration, since like they havent had a firelady in ages.
so after each draining, noisy and intraction with many fake people, just before it turns 12, zuko brings a muffin and lights the candle and he sings happy birthday even if she insists he doesnt and they celebrate her birthday.
after mai's death, on her birthday he would light a candle and blows it out after singing happy birthday in a low voice and just stares at her empty space in their bed
#atla#atla mai#maiko#mai#atla maiko#atla zuko#zuko avatar#zuko x mai#mai avatar#zumai#maiko headcanons#maiko's fruitart headcanons#maiko headcanon#YES i do love making myself miserable next question
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I fucked up
#Is it socially acceptable to write a comment to a fic that is longer than the fic 😭😭😭#Is it socially acceptable to write a comment that is longer than the 10000 ao3 character limit 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#I'm so so embarrassed right now. This is why I've been struggling to write comments for a year now.#It's because every time I really like a fic I end up with an essay that takes hours to days to make#I'm so sorry to all the authors I've neglected commenting because of this I swear I'll try to do better in the future.#But right now I'm miserably failing. Man I put myself in a mess#Can someone please reassure me on this I'm feeling really insecure and I don't want to make the author uncomfortable.#Or genuinely tell me it's too much if it's too much#Fun fact the first comment I've ever written I was 16 and never ended up commenting because it breached the character limit too.#And 16 me was too much of an anxious mess to post it. And I probably still am#I'm so sorry ray/emma actors au fic I loved you so much.#Please don't ask what the fic is it's a relatively old one and this is already wholly embarrassing by its own for me#But to give you an idea of the proportions I'm talking about a 3k+ comment for a 2k fic ಥ_ಥ#random rambles#To all the authors my lack of self control has kept me from commenting to their fics: I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm
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