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something something one of the reasons Nero went out of his way to stop the shit twins from killing eachother on the top of the Qliphoth - besides not wanting to lose his family 5 minutes after discovering them - being that he didn't want Dante to lose his brother like he lost Credo all those years ago
#well lose his brother again that is#but Nero probably didnt know that at the time#also this makes me question just how much of Dante's life Nero knew#how much did Dante keep a secret besides the whole âvergil is your dadâ thing??#obviously i can imagine Dante keeping the whole âi killed my own brother twiceâ thing a secret from Nero#but what else?#would he tell Nero about his previous adventures to places like Mallet or Dumary?#Sparda being his dad?#anything at all?#or would he elect to remain this elusive figure#that Nero thinks he knows#but actually he realizes he doesnt know anything about Dante#besides the fact that they're one in the same#and that dante is this chill laid-back devil hunter#and also vise versa how much would Nero tell Dante about himself?#Would he tell Dante about his past? i think not because of the way Dante assumed Nero's first instinct was to kill Vergil#I think if Dante knew how Nero grew up as an orphan maybe his reaction would've been different#maybe something less like âi cant have you kill your old manâ and more âwe (the twins) have some business to sort out firstâ#something like that#devil may cry#dmc#vergil devil may cry#dante devil may cry#dmc 5#devil may cry 5
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It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry
( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)
(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)
#I just realized I can call him dad easier than my real dad and now I understand why am I so damn attached to him#I always knew he was a parental figure for me#but now I connected the dots#How when u have an absent dad and a d34d mom a guy shows up in ur life#that tells u life advice that both of ur parents failed to do so#and makes u feel safe the first time in ur life#ofc ud become attached#i know for sure its unhealthy how much i love and miss him#he occupies most of my thoughts honestly#But how could i not cling to him so much when he was the only one who gave me hope in life#i try to keep going and even tho he is not here i keep telling myself whatever he taught me. i keep reminding myself he wants us to live an#bloom and be free#and that's what ill try to do#but you know somedays i wish i could just disappear and be wrapped in eternal happiness#its so fucking hard to pull yourself out of the slump man im so fucking tired im so so tired#somedays i wish id have the courage to off myself but i know that deep down i want to live and ive always wanted to live but i have no idea#how to live. i feel like i finally found a purpose and someone i love. but at the same time im always doubting myself and im scared of losi#g this little hope again and i know i should cherish and use it instead but each day i have this anxiety because rn i have nothing else if#lose this i seriously will lose everything atp. but ill still try bc rn its this or death so i should try im just damn tired yes anyways#sorry for being depressing some days just dont work out but thats okay#yes at the same time i want to get out of my head and try to find some friends but i cant deny that im highkey fucked up and i just cant le#go of my past and i still feel like that helpless unloved kid and idk how to form relationships this way. i dont trust myself at all so idk#how to trust others. and i feel like in order to find ppl that would love me i have to overshare abt my whole lifestory bc it still dictate#my life heavily. and since i met this band its better cuz im learning to deal w it and i want to heal from everything but yes at the same t#me who would wqnt to be friends w. someone that has like a year of life experience and 18 years of depression lol#so yes its complicated. bc i have friends but im like the funny friend. the one that is as shallow as puddle and has no problems but honest#y im genuinely sufferint qnd have been sufferinz all my life so i want to come out of my funny friend role. but that wojld mean i have to t#ll the shit i went through to all my friends but tbh it would be so random so ye. i do have a plan though. how it could work. But yes im ti#ed have been tired for 7 years now. But this time around i hope i can successfully get out of this torture cycle lol.#ok sorry this is what happens after puberty guys i could beva research case for a damn mental institute atp xdd
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Today on "Another JeanMarco Soulmate AU absolutely no one asked for" I present to you -
Soulmate AU in which you stop seeing colors when your soulmate dies, the only exception being your soulmate. Now cue to Jean who just found Marco's, his best friend's, body. And you know, there's the shock of finding out Marco's dead. The pain and confusion and guilt. But there's also the revelation, because despite everything he can still see Marco like nothing took place at all- yes, half of his face is missing and his body is straight up lifeless, but Jean can still make out the color of his eye ; see that light shade of brown perfectly, remember all the times he has found himself looking at them while listening to Marco talk. He can still make out the colors of his uniform, see the same shade of black his hair has always had, practically see. Despite being dead, Marco was the only piece of color left in his life.
And there's denial for a moment because there's no way Marco was his soulmate. But that goes away fast, getting replaced by guilt. By the fact that he hasn't been there to save him, that Marco has to die all alone without anyone being there for him.
And that was worse than the simple fact that he could no longer see colors ; because Marco was there when Jean needed him, but he failed to do the same. And not only he lost his best friend that day, but his other half too.
#Anyway this fucker doesn't tell anyone about the whole soulmate thing. Not of shame of anything but because he's mourning man and also is no#One's business. Anyway the first one to find out is Armin because he notices and ever since he makes sure to mention colors as often as he#can. Like 'These flowers are a nice shade of red' or 'Green suits you well Jean! You should wear this shirt' stuff like that#Jean does appreciates it once he gets over his ego and pain and lets other people get closer to him#Funny enough Jean is the only one in that situation loool. Well I don't know about Reiner and Historia is getting there soon enough but#everyone else??? Colors everywhere man#Is both funny and sad#'Since when..?' Jean expected that question yet he wasn't truly ready to answer it. Deep down he knew he was never going to be ready for it#'Trost' his voice stains sightly while naming the city. His own city. The place he grew up in all his life. The others say nothing else#after that confession. They were all aware many has died during Trost. It wasn't that far fetched for Jean's soulmate to be some civilian#lost during the evacuations or something. But then Connie's eyes widen ever so sightly the realization sitting in. He doesn't even register#when he says 'It was Marco right?' and regrets it immediately. Jean's painful face is all the answer they needed#Also Historia ready the letter and the world losing colors while she's doing that??? Her tearing up a little but not letting herself cry#until she gets alone???? Her going to Jean once that happens and them comforting each other?????#They starts seeing colors again once Eren dies. Poor Jean is trying his best to not have a breakdown because Connie needed him more in that#moment#Reading* wtf my tags make no sens sorry guys I'm lowkey tired#aot#jean kirstein#jeanmarco#aot jean#marco bodt#marco bott#aot marco#jean kirschstein#snk#JeanMarco Soulmate AU#soulmates au#I'm not sad you are
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i. hate that i cant ignore any longer how fucked up i am
#ask 2 tag idk what to tag this but its negative. idk if iâm hormonal or whatever. itâs just that iâm so extremely emotional lately#like i always havebeen but itâs insane lately and i know some of the reasons but i have no idea what to do abt it. which is bad#i wish i knew how to confront âŚit all. im so avoidant it is genuinely pathetic#and even if i wanted to confront anything iwouldnt know how⌠n how to tell ppl around me#the pains ive taken to ignore my issues over the yrs n by that i mean suppress the knowledge that they even exist Lmao it is so pathetic#let alone the pains ive taken to hide from other ppl that which im suppressing. and to hide how badly i cope with anything#like any problem at all not just things that have anything to do with The Thing#i finally told my girlfriend about something i never thought id ever say out loud to anyone n it was so hard#the whole convo was so hard bc shes dealing with so much too and shes been getting help for 3 yrs n i know#with her baggage of trauma a relationship is one of the hardest things#n ive never ever regretted our relationship but with the things we are both dealing wtih. or rather not dealing with in my case#it is so . hard.. and i feel like ive been so unfair bc i havent been getting help even tho i need it. and she has.#the sheer irony of me refusing to get help or even admit 2 myself i need it even tho im literally about to be the person who helps others#this cannot go on lmao. the only thing im sure about is that i wanna spend my life with her but with everything tht we have on our plate#its so.. unsure i feel so powerless . i cannot change the past i cant change either of our previous experiences#its so unfair how we risk losing the best thing that ever happened bc of things out of our control#ive genuinely never been more scared of anything than i am of the idea of losing this relationship#we had such a deep conversation today and it was necessary and good but god weâre fucked up people#so i .contacted the uni psych today finally but im so fucking scared and idk what to even say when i get there#ive never until today said it out loud ive never even written it down anywhere
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damn am i gonna finally convince my sister to watch pretty little liars with me
#she apparently watched a whole essay on the show at some point even though she never watched it because she was too young like she knew#stuff through me because it was my special interest in middle school#but like i havenât rewatched it since like s7 came out or whatever and i got pissed off at it#but it will live with me for the rest of my life because i imprinted on spencer and also itâs the most buck wild show in the world and makes#me lose my mind at it#but iâve wanted to rewatch it for a long time as an adult but i needed someone to watch with#i do worry if it messes with my teenage connection with it even though i know how bad it is#but i feel like i need to also because i hate not remembering every single detail#i need to update my thesaurus of the show in my brain#rey actually speaks
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Post cancelled it was #tw bad
Except this:
Tostito: *head in hands* oh my fucking god
#perceptive little crow#i don't know#i should probably use codenames for these bastards#anyways#ive been thinking lately about how the whole dev cycle think may affect hl*v and peak#and i specifically say those two bc I don't think that'd be something anyone else would knew about?#except teo but that's bc she's god's specialest lady#anyways what im trying to say is that it'd be very funny if like. each of them ended up different approaches on how to handle the thing#you have hl'v who has gone through all of them. ultimately making him numb and neutral about the whole thing#i think he might have even accepted it as a part of his life. just something that'll happen at some point#so all he does is try enjoy what was given to him and call it a day when it crumbles down#peak has only gone through 1 or 2 and then escaped (don't ask how idk either) and then he came back and now he's like. oh life is worth liv-#wait what if it all goes down like those two times. wait no wait I don't wanna do this anymore im scared-#and like. he tries to enjoy life as well but he's ultimately so fearful snd paranoid it doesn't allow him to. yknow. actually do something#for himself#he'd be so paralyzed by the idea of anything he could do at that point being ultimately worthless and a waste#it's hard to explain but i feel that'd end up in him not accepting any kind of change#and whatever change comes must be directly from his own hand only to feel a bit of security over knowing it was something he did himself#im losing my train of thought (getting sleepy) and im just rambling but y'know#fun stuff to think about
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god. no one prepares you for the irritation and anger that comes when assistive devices and medical equipment actually fix your problems.
#okay to reblog#i'm in the midst of a super bad flare exacerbated by my menstrual cycle right now#and like so i'm still feeling symptoms even with the socks on but like that's because my uterus is trying to stage a coup#(ooo i hope i picked the right coup to spell... we'll hope)#like so i still can't eat right now because i'm nauseous just being Upright at all#but before i put the socks on and all day yesterday i was feeling *woozy* about it even just sitting up in bed#i feel SIGNIFICANTLY better this morning so far which means it *is* just a flare and i'm not sick or somehow dying faster than normal#but like. it still feels bad and i cannot believe how long i went through life thinking i was just randomly getting sick for a day#i knew my period took me out i didn't realize how much it was taking me out until i gained some sort of reprieve from my symptoms#and now when i take them off i Notice which makes them feel worse#and it's just like...#okay here's my inner capitalist coming out i'm working on him#but like... how many days of work did i miss how much money did i lose because my blood doesn't come back from my legs right?#how much time how many things have i missed out on because my body is like this and i didn't know it could be fixed by putting on a pair#of compression socks#i will probably have a similar breakdown when i eventually acquire a wheelchair#because i 100% need one i can see this now#and that... feels bad to say but also like relieving?#i was right i was right the whole fucking time#since i was Very Fucking Small#i don't understand why no one else saw these things as a problem until i found my new family#i don't understand why this wasn't concerning to anyone until NOW#and now i'm getting it fixed and i'm so glad i'm getting answers and getting things fixed but like#why did it take so long?#why did i waste half my life doing things the hard way? why couldn't it have been easy?#in order to be able to experience the world i cannot be standing for very long i cannot be forced to walk for long periods of time#i HAVE to be able to sit down for most of it and that is limiting and frustrating and#i am losing control over what i can do with my body and that was the ONE THING i had control over for the hardest parts of my life#it's what got me through the fucking abuse and neglect was that i knew what i could do with my body#and now i'm losing those things and it is *terrifying*
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i am guilty of this
*makes character* hehe. haha *fucks them up so bad* Oh no. who could have done such a thing
#i was literally thinking about how like#holy shit kat (my oc) 's life fucking sucks even before shit got real#like she was maybe 8 or 9 and had to do the following#a: maintain the form of something almost entirely different from her (it takes active energy to do so)#and also have to maintain that in front of ANYONE regardless of the situation#and ALSO had to act like a whole ass decade or two older than she was#AND had to deal with a slight but itching fear of knowing that if this facade were to break she would lose everyone she knew#or at least her closest friend#AND had to fucking fight AND had her first death among this period with many more to come#and then she had to leave among some point because it was getting a lot harder to not be a nervous wreck anytime someone walked by their sho#p#so she counteractively realizes she has to take a HUMAN form now so she doesn't get fucking shot and killed or something#which doesn't take as much energy given she doesn't have to act like 20 anymore#so there's less mental strain#but then she has some issues with other fucking people#and she watched someone get torn apart in front of her like 11 year old eyes#and was subsequentially!! traumatized#for obvious reasons#and so she practically exists in a loop of going against these same people over and over#eventually things calm but she falls into a rut#but at least she's safe to take her own form again#right guys#right#(there is more i will add gradually)#kat lore#bottom text#there's that.
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Before starting T, when I socially transitionned, I was surrounded by radical feminists who saw masculinity as gross and inherently evil, something to avoid, something to make fun of, something to destroy. The other transmascs in my friend group, sometimes, told me that they didnât knew if they really were non-binary or if they just were scared shitless of saying âI am a manâ. Because they saw this as a betrayal to their younger self who had been SAd and abused.
I saw many of my masc friends and trans men around me hate themselves, not outing themselves as men because it would imply so so much, it was like opening the Pandora Box. Even when we were just together, talking about our masculinity was always coated with bits like âI know weâre the privileged ones butâŚâ, âI donât want to sound like I have it bad butâŚâ, âWomen obviously have it worse, but last timeâŚâ and we were talking about terrible traumas we experienced while taking all the precautions in the world in the case the walls were a crowd of people in disguise waiting to get us if we didnât downplay the violence we faced, or like crying and being upset and being traumatized and afraid and scared and to say it out loud would make us throw up the needles we were forced to swallow every second of every day living in our skin.
Most of us werenât on T yet, some of us were catcalled every day and harassed in the streets or in abusive relationships nobody seemed to care to help them get out of because they were âstrong enoughâ to do it by themselves.
I was using the gender swap face app and cried for ours when I saw my father looking back at me through the screen. The idea of transforming, of shedding into a body that would deprive me of love, tenderness, and safety, was absolutely terrifying. I knew I couldnât stay in this body any longer because it wasnât mine, but I also knew that if I was going to look like my dad, my brother, my abusers, it would be so much worse.
5 years later and Iâm almost 2 years on T, and almost 2 months post top surgery.
I ditched my previous group of friends. I was bullied out of my local trans community. But let me tell you how free I am.
I was scared that T would break my singing voice: it made it sound more alive than ever.
I was scared that T would make me less attractive: it made me find myself hot for the first time in my life.
I was scared that T would make me gain weight: it did. But the weight I put on is not the weight I used to put on by binging and eating my body until I forgot that it even existed. Itâs the weight of my body belonging to me, little by little. The wolf hunger for life.
I wonât tell you the same story I see everywhere, the one that goes âI started going to the gym 8 times a week, I put on some muscles, I started a diet and now I look like an action film actorâ, in fact if you took pictures of me from 5 years ago vs now Iâd just have more acne, Iâd have longer hair and still look like I donât know what to do with myself when I take selfies.
But the sparkle in my eyes, my smile, tell the whole story way better than this long ass stream of words could ever.
I want to say some things that I wish someone told me before starting medically transitionning.
Itâs okay to take your time. Itâs your body, itâs your journey, if you donât feel comfortable taking full doses and want to go slow, the only voice you need to listen to is your own. Do what feels right.
If you feel overwhelmed, itâs okay to take a break, itâs okay to ask for support.
Trans people are holy. Everyone is. You didnât lose your angel wings when you came out because you want to be masculine. You are not excluded from the joy of existence, from being proud of yourself, from being sad, from being scared, from being angry. The emotions and feelings you allowed yourself to feel while processing what you experienced when you grew up as a girl and was seen as a woman are still as valid as before. Nobody can take that from you. If someone tries to, donât let them.
Itâs perfectly normal to grieve some things you were and had before you started to transition, like your high soprano voice or even your chest. Hatching is painful. You can find comfort in things that donât feel right, so making the decision to change can be incredibly scary and weird and you deserve to be heard and supported through this. Wanting top surgery doesnât make the surgery less intense, less terrifying, less painful to recover from. When it becomes too much you have the right to take a break and take some deep breaths before going on.
You donât have to have a radical, 180° change for your transition to be acceptable or valid or worthy of praise. Look at how far youâve come already. It doesnât have to show, youâre not made to be a spectacle, youâre human and it is your journey.
Oh, and last thing, you know when some people say âOh this trans person has to grow out of the cringy phase where you think that you can write essays about being trans or transitionning or just their experience because itâs weirdâ ? If you ever hear this or see this online, remember all the people whose writing you read and, even if they were not professional writers, helped you more than any theorists did ? If you want to write, do it. It wonât be a waste. It can help people. Or it wonât, and even then, if it helped you, thatâs enough.
Love every of my trans siblings, take care of yourselves. You deserve the world.
#ftm#ftx#genderqueer#transgender#lgbtqiaplus#lgbtqia#queer#trans#trans man#transmasc#trans masculinity#transmasculine#queer masculinty#trans men#trans writing#trans writers#trans pride#transblr#queer writers#queer artist#queer community#queer pride#lgbtq#non binary#genderfluid#lgbtq community#enby#enby pride#trans nonbinary#gor3sigil.txt
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Was gonna post ch2 of Spider-Man AU today bc I always post something on my birthday but alas, I am lying in bed after nearly passing out at a restaurant and now feeling very nauseous so good times good times
#personal#also#I fucking weight myself after not weighing myself for months#and it was a HUMBLING EXPERIENCE I WILL SAY THAT MUCH#why I would do that to myself I have no idea#but I was starting to see a physical change in my reflection and on FaceTime#and I knew I had gained weight I just didnât think it was that much and now I kind of wanna cry#like yes body positivity but also I cannot un-feel the insecurities that have been beat into me my whole life#and idk man#it just feels so hopeless sometimes???#like I lost so much weight in 2021 and I gained it all back and then some#like two steps forward three steps back the fuck#and why is it so much easier to put on weight than to lose it!!!?!?! HUH??? WHI CAME UO WITH THAT BULLSHIT#ugh
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i feel like im going to die alone in my miserable fake life ive created for myself
#personal#what is it about me that attracts these people#maybe im the fucked up one#and i knew w my ex that i had the jackpot and i didnt want to let it go#and he hated me he did not like me#and now he has a new girlfriend that he probably loves and adoree#and im out here with absolutely no prospects#the only prospects i have are idiotic conservative brainwashed men#maybe i should start trying more w women#dating apps also make me feel hopeless#its like going thru spam of the worst people youve ever seen in ur life#and i havent rlly met anyone irl#it just feels like im losing the breakup and i was wrong the whole time and i was just this big dumb idiot making things from nothing#that he never actually loved me or cared and im a loser that still thinks about it while he has been w the true love of his life ever since#some innocent sweet looking girl who listens to taylor swift#not me the cynical slightly ugly nasty girl#it just feels embarassing#then when i think i have some friends one of them today acts like a bitch and is just lowkey manipulative and i have known the whole time#that she seems off and that i dont think i will ever have a real friendship w her but idk i just keep hoping something will fucking work out#for once in my life#i could be friends w the dude and his gf but idk it seems like it always has to be a group thing#sigh#SIGH#then my sister only answers me when shes bored in her life and my dad hasnt contacted me#its always like my life is one step from falling a part at all moments#i have gone on a date w this guy but he was being a fucking brainwashed idiot and i also just dont trust him for some reason in my gut
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My Girl (Logan Howlett x Fem!Reader)
A/N: Hey guys!! So sorry this took so long. Here is the secret relationship/breeding kink fic. I honestly really like this one...and I hope you guys do too. Was listening to "Juna" by Clairo while writing it, but went with "My Girl" for the title. ENJOY!
Summary: You and Logan have been in a secret relationship for months, but everything comes to a head when a new mutant visits the Institute, and won't leave you alone...Logan shows him, and you, who your man is.
Warnings: 18+ MINORS DNI!!! SMUT!!! Thigh riding, Fingering, Unprotected PIV (wrap it up!), breeding kink, praise kink, possessive!Logan, jealous!Logan, unspecified/implied!Age Gap, established relationship, creepy!OC who hits on reader and doesn't lay off, minor violence, afab!/fem!reader, fluff/feelings, cursing, def some grammatical errors, I think that's it?
Word Count: 5,313 this is why it took so long also, smut right under the cut...
You remember the first time he fucked you, vividly.Â
It was late at night, after a mission. You almost died in his arms. And that was what broke that thing inside him, the burden of time that he carries, that deep-seated pain that made it justifiable to stay away from you. He had held back for so longâhad done his all to resist falling for you. He was screwed from the beginning, and he knew that. But he had become so terrified at the thought of losing you that he hadnât realized it could happen all the same if he stayed awayâif he forced himself to remain a friend.Â
So, when he fucked you that first time, that first night, he fucked you like itâd be the lastâthe only time.Â
âGoddammit, so fucking perfect,â he mumbled, his lips bruising yours, shoving himself deep insideâas deep as you could take him. âNeeded you this whole time. Canât live without you.â
âLogan,â you whined, his hips snapping against yours. âD-donât stop, please.â âNever gonna stop, pretty girl,â he promised. âCanât go back. Canât be anywhere but here.â
For months now, youâve been togetherâbut nobody knows. Thereâs no doubt about commitmentânothing casual about the relationship in the slightest. You start and end every day in Loganâs bed. Youâve talked about running off together, getting married, and settling down. For the first time in his long life, Logan sees a future where heâs happyâgenuinely happy.Â
The sun peaks through the curtains. You curl yourself into Loganâs chest. His arms are wrapped around your back, holding you tight against him, even in his sleep. You listen to his breathing as the fall breeze creeps through the open window. Everything is calm and quiet in the morning, when everyone is still tucked away in their bedrooms, sound asleep.Â
Logan groans, tugging you closer to him, nuzzling his face into your neck. âGo back to sleep.â His voice is heavy, laden with exhaustion. âToo early.â He kisses the spot just under your ear, and you moan involuntarily, feeling extra sensitive in the haze of the morning. He smiles softly against your neck, and kisses you again, his teeth grazing your skin. You moan louder this time, intertwining your legs with Loganâs. âLove those pretty little noises you make.â
âFeels good,â you murmur, his thigh slotting between your legs, pressing against your core. You canât help but grind down on his thigh, rocking your hips back and forth. âNeed you, Lo,â you beg.Â
âYouâre gonna ruin me,â Logan husks, his palms warm against your bare skin as he slips underneath your shirtâwhich is really his.Â
Heâs slow in the morning, pressing soft kisses on your bare shoulders, letting his touch linger longer than normal. He likes the peace of it allâwaking up to each other, smelling you next to him, feeling the other side of his bed warm and full of you. When he fucks you, early like this, he takes his time.Â
His fingertips trace the curves of your stomach, falling into your dips, gripping your flesh. Logan breathes you in, his lips softly melting into yours. âStill too early?â You mumble between soft, lazy kisses.Â
âNever too early to want you,â Logan husks, dragging his thigh against your core again. âAlways need you.â You can feel his erection through his boxers. âGonna take care of my girl. Gonna make youââ
Thereâs a knock at the door. âLogan?â Itâs Scottâs voice on the other side. He knocks again. âLogan, you in there?â
Logan tries to ignore him, his fingertips dragging down your sides, bumping into the hem of your panties as he trails wet, open-mouthed kisses down the hollow of your throat. You let out a breathy moan as Logan bites down on your pulse point. He smiles under your jaw at the soft sound, content that you canât hold back.Â
âLogan,â you whisper, running your hands up his arms, to his shoulders, your fingertips finding the nape of his neck. âHeâs not gonna stop.â
Sure enough, Scott knocks again. âLogan, I know youâre in there,â he calls, banging on the door now. âWake up. We have some tech guy on his way.âÂ
Logan groans into your neck. âWhy do you need me, Summers?â Logan licks your collarbone teasingly, hiking your t-shirt farther up your body.Â
âHeâsâŚa mutant,â Scott explains. âHe can speak with machines, computers, codeâyou name it, he can do it. Heâs gonna fix some stuff around the mansion. Charles asked me to make sure youâre awake just in caseâŚâ Scott trails off.
Logan finishes Scottâs sentence. âIn case everything goes to shit?âÂ
âI wasnât going to say that,â Scott huffs, likely shaking his head on the other side of the door. âBut yes. In case things donât go as planned. Iâm also looking forâ"
But Logan cuts Scott off, saying your name for him.Â
âYeah, I canât find her. Do you know where she mightââ
âOn a run,â Logan chimes in, and you suppress your laughter by pressing your face into his chest. âSheâll be back soon.â Loganâs arms wrap around your back, holding you against him.Â
âAlright,â Scott says, shuffling, slowly stepping away from the door. âIf you see her, let her know whatâs going on, okay?â
âTrust me bub,â Logan husks, his fingers digging into your flesh, tickling you. âIâll make sure she knows.âÂ
Scott mumbles something unintelligible as he walks down the hallway, his footsteps echoing as he disappears down the stairs.Â
Loganâs lips are attached to your neck again, sucking playfully. âWhere were we?â He teases, his nails grazing down your back. His palms settle on your ass, squeezing your flesh tightly in his hands.Â
You moan, your chest flush with his. âLogan,â you whine. âWe need to get up,â you insist, your hands pushing against Loganâs broad shoulders, your fingers digging into his muscular biceps. âCanât stay in bed anymore.â
Logan grunts, his thigh still nudged between your legs, rocking into your core. You want him, and itâs tempting to let him take you right here, right now. But you canât. And he knows it. He presses a chaste kiss to your lips and pulls you tightly into his chest. âLater,â he promises, his lips finding the shell of your ear. You smile at the thought. There was always a later with Logan.
You snuck out of Loganâs room, unnoticed, as always. It was still earlyâtoo early for the ruckus of a morning at the mansion to begin. You got ready for the day and slipped downstairs. Youâre still shocked at just how oblivious the rest of the team is. Truly, no one knows about you and Logan.Â
Youâre in the kitchen now, nursing a cup of coffee, waiting for the day to start. Familiar, heavy footsteps approach, and you smile before you can even see his face.Â
âHi pretty girl,â Logan coos, standing behind you and wrapping his arms around your front. You lean into him, feeling the warmth of his chest and the strength of his heartbeat. He presses a chaste kiss to the crown of your head and walks over to the coffee pot.Â
Scott enters the kitchen as Logan takes his first sip of coffeeâone second earlier and he would have seen Logan holding you. âThe guy is here,â Scott announces from the doorway. He looks at you and smiles. âOh! Hey! How was your run?â He asks cheerfully.Â
You almost spit out your coffee, remembering what you were actually doing this morning. âGreat!â You say, doing your all to hold back your laughter. âSurprisingly relaxing.â Logan snorts and plays it off like heâs sniffling.
Scott smiles, none the wiser, and nods, cocking his head towards the hallway just outside the kitchen. âCome meet the tech guy!â He backs out of the doorway and into the hallway. Logan settles his coffee cupâwhich reads #1 Professorânext to yours on the counter and gives your waist a quick squeeze as you hop out of the chair. You walk shoulder to shoulder into the foyer. All the signs of your relationship are thereâout in the openâand yet, still, no one seems to catch them.
You step into the foyer, and thereâs Scott and the Professor by the front door, chatting with a younger manâwhoâs about your age. The manâs eyes find yours, and he smiles softly. âHi there!â He calls, waving. âIâm Mark!â He strides away from Scott and the Professor and towards you. âBut you can call me Techno.â He smirks and winks, extending his hand out, waiting for you to take it.
Logan grabs his hand instead, gripping it tightly, catching Mark off guard. âWolverine,â Logan growls. âAnd you canât call me Logan,â he adds, gritting his teeth. âSo, you turn on computers, bub?âÂ
Mark grimaces, wrenching his hand from Loganâs grasp. âA little more than that,â he asserts, closing his eyes and bawling his fists. You look up as the lights flicker, and televisions turn on and off. Your cell phone rings in your pocket, and you pull it out. The screen reads:Â Incoming Call from Mark.
Your lips part. âHow did youâŚâ You trail off.Â
Mark shrugs his shoulders nonchalantly. âMy powers essentially let me communicate with electricity and tech,â he explains. You can practically hear Logan seething beside you.Â
âA technopath,â Charles offers as he rolls over to join the three of you with Scott in tow.Â
âExactly,â Mark says, nodding to Charles. âMakes it easy to put my number into pretty girlsâ phones.â Mark winks at you, and you press your lips into a straight line in response.Â
You shake your head. âIâm not interââ
Youâre cut off by the sound of Loganâs claws unsheathing. âThese,â Logan pauses, lifting his claws to Mark. âMake it real easy to hurt creeps who put their numbers into girlsâ phones without asking first, bub.âÂ
Mark rolls his eyes, and the corners of your lips twitch up. You try to force down your smile, try to slow the rhythm of your heart. You secretly liked when Logan got possessive over you. He was inherently protective, and youâd be lying if you said it didnât turn you on just a little.Â
âLetâs stay on course,â Charles reprimands, guiding Mark to the hallway to the left with a wave of his hand. âLet me show you some of the machines Iâd like you to work on.â
âIt would be my pleasure, Professor Xavier,â Mark says harshly, his eyes locked on Logan as he backs away to follow Charles and Scott.
Logan lowers all but his center claw, giving Mark the middle finger as he turns around. âDonât mind Logan,â Scott says as they disappear into a room, the door shutting behind them.
âLogan,â you whisper, now that everyone is gone. âDonât worry,â you assure, bringing a hand to his shoulder.Â
He turns to look at you. âHeâs a fucking creep.â
âItâs going to be fine.â
 It is not going well, or fine.
Mark is something of a nuisance. Heâs only been here for an hour, but he has already created multiple excuses to talk to you, to pull you away from whatever task is at hand.Â
Youâre in the middle of teaching an English class, discussing Mrs. Dalloway with a group of older students. âSo, what are we to make of Clarissa and Sallyâs relationship?â You ask the students, to no avail.Â
This was your hardest class of the dayâespecially given the fact that youâre not even a decade older than most of the students. You had joined the X-Men in your early 20s, your powers having shown themselves a bit later than in most mutants, and only a few years have passed since then. Convincing the students who have been here their whole lives that you deserve to teach has been nothing short of a challenge.Â
So, when Mark butts his head in on your class, annoyance burns through your body. You take a deep breath and swallow down your frustration.Â
âHey!â He chimes, his head poking through the open classroom door. âMind if I take a look at your computer really quick?â
The class perks up, more focused on you than they were just seconds ago. You fake a smile, nodding and pushing yourself off the front of your desk so that he has space to access the computer.Â
He slips behind the desk and smiles widely. âYou didnât have to move,â he remarks. âWouldâve been nice to have you close.â
You want to gag. You turn away from the students, whispering so they canât hear. âListen,â you chide, narrowing your eyes. âI am not interested, so could you pleaseââ
âWhat are you doing in here, asshole?â Loganâs voice echoes against the walls of the classroom. For the first time all year, the class is paying incredibly close attention. âThe Professor told you to check the computers in the lab down the hall.â Logan fully enters the room, striding over to Mark, his hands bawled into fists at his sides. âBeat it, bub.â
âWhatever,â Mark mutters, his head down as he exits the classroom. The bell rings, and the class stands, grabbing their things and filing out the door.Â
You groan. âPlease read the next twenty pages for tomorrow!â You shout over the hubbub and shuffling of students. âI know itâs a challenging novel, but I think you guys canâŚâ The students are gone before you can finish your sentence. âHandle it.âÂ
Logan smiles sympathetically, closing the distance between you and him. His presence is comforting, warm, everything youâve ever needed. He wraps his arms around your waist, pulling you into his chest. âSorry,â he apologizes, pressing a kiss to the side of your head. âDidnât mean to make your class harder than it is already.â
You take a deep breath, your annoyance fading away. âYou helped,â you whisper. âMark is the one who ruined things,â you insist. âHe wonât leave me alone.â
Logan chuckles. âYou donât like him?â He teases. âDonât like a guy your own age flirting with you?â Heâs egging you on, trying to joke, but you can tell part of him is a bit serious.Â
You shake your head. âOnly like you.â You press your lips to the hollow of his throat and Logan grunts.Â
He reluctantly pulls away, the palms of his hands dragging down your arms, his fingers intertwining with yours. âGotta get to my class,â he husks, his fingers slipping, tugging longingly as he steps to the door. âMeet me after?â He asks, but he already knows the answer. Youâll be outside his classroom door before the bell rings, waiting for him.
You nod, and he smiles, his hands gripping the doorframe like some invisible magnet is pulling him away, and heâd give anything to spend another second with you. He slips down the hallway, and into his classroom.Â
You spend the next thirty minutes or so grading papers, waiting for the period to end so that you can walk across the hall to Loganâs class. Another few minutes pass, and you start to collect your things, readying yourself to meet Logan. Your heart thumps in your chest at the thought, even after all the months youâve spent together.Â
You grab your bag and head to the door, closing it behind you and locking up. You cross the hall and stand outside Loganâs door. Heâs teaching a younger group of kidsâten to eleven-year-olds. You would trade places with him in a heartbeat if you could. The younger students loved you. There was no question of respect, no doubt of your power. But Logan was given the class as a challengeâCharles wanted to test his patience.Â
And, honestly, seeing him with the children did something to you. You loved watching the way he doted on them, carefully explaining material in a way theyâd understand. He was an excellent teacher, and one day, youâre sure, heâd make an even better father. You find yourself falling into fantasy: Logan, late at night, a babyâyour babyâon his chest. You can see it nowâhim changing a diaper, teaching the child to walk. Your heart squeezes in your chest, your eyes falling closed as you daydream about the futureâyour future together.Â
Youâre so distracted that you donât hear Mark walk up to youâdonât feel his hand grab your shoulder.
You yelp and jump. âOh my god,â you mumble, turning around and coming face to face with him.Â
âDidnât mean to scare you,â he says, his hand lingering for far too long on your shoulder. He finally peels away, his arms falling to his sides. He leans against the wall, trying to appear casual and cool. âWhat are you doing tonight?â
The bell rings before you can think of a polite way to shoo Mark away, and the students exit Loganâs classroom, happily shouting greetings in your direction. You stood outside Loganâs door every day, and the students were always excited to see you.
A few of them run up to hug you, complaining about Loganâs gruffness. When they hear Loganâs footsteps approaching the door, they bolt down the hallway, their laughter booming against the walls.Â
Logan steps out into the hall, and he groans audibly when he sees Mark next to you. But Mark ignores Logan, his eyes trained on yours. âGot plans?â He asks again.Â
You roll your eyes. âDude, Iâm not interested!â You groan, too irritated to pretend to be nice. Mark smirks and parts his lips, ready to persist like the creep he is.
Logan steps in front of you, his claws already out. âListen, bub,â he growls, his claws just inches from Markâs chest. âIf you donât fuck off and stop harassing my girl, weâre gonna have a problem.â
Mark scoffs. âMy girl? What are you, her father? You canât possibly be dating her.â
You can see the anger in Loganâs eyes, the honest rage. âLo,â you soothe. âDonât do it.â But you know itâs too late. His decision is already made.
Logan shoves Mark against the wall, his claws pressed against his throat. âIâm her fucking boyfriend, bub,â he grunts as Mark squirms helplessly under his hold.Â
âOh, her boyfriend?â He teases, despite the fear in his eyes. âArenât you too old to be a boyfriend?â
Logan shoves him harder into the wall, and Mark yelps pathetically, like a small dog. âMore serious than that,â Logan asserts. âGuessing you wouldnât know anything about that though, would you?âÂ
âAlright, break it up!â Scottâs voice echoes from down the hall. He runs over, Jean and the Professor by his side. Rogue and Gambit follow close behind. But Logan doesnât budge, the tips of his claws almost digging hard enough to draw blood.Â
You bring your hand to Loganâs shoulder. âHe isnât gonna hurt me,â you whisper to Logan. âI could handle him easily if he tried.â You slide your hand to the nape of his neck, trying to soothe him, to relax him. âNothingâs going to happen, okay?âÂ
Logan retracts his claws and lets go of Mark, who stutters away from Logan and into the center of the hallway. âIâm getting the fuck out of here!â Mark shouts, but Logan doesnât react. He simply intertwines his fingers with yours.Â
âYou okay?â He asks, his thumb brushing circles into the side of your hand.Â
You arch a brow. âAre you okay?â You smile and lean into him.Â
âSoâŚâ Scott trails off, interrupting. âYou two areâŚâ
âTogether.â You finish his sentence, your eyes still on Loganâs. You can feel the tension in his shoulders stretch down to his hand. Heâs rigid, still on edge. You know he needs to get out of here, needs to be alone with you.Â
âHow long has this been going on?â Scott asks, genuinely caught off guard. âDid anyone know about this?âÂ
You turn to the team to see heads shaking side to sideâsave for the Professor. âI did, of course,â Charles confesses. âBut I felt it was best left a secret until the two lovebirds decided otherwise.â
Rogue shakes her head, the corners of her mouth twitching up. âI canât believe you never told me!âÂ
âTold you what?â Jubilee calls from down the hall, approaching the group. She blows a bubble as she stands next to Rogue, her eyes trailing down to where your and Loganâs hands connect. Her eyes widen and her bubble bursts. âNo way!â She cheers, jumping up and down.Â
âSettle down,â Charles laughs, extending his hand down the hall to where Mark was just moments ago. âScott, make sure our technopath friend makes it out the door alive.â Scott nods and heads down the hall. Charles turns to you and Logan. âAs for the two of you,â he pauses, winking. âWeâll discuss more at a later point.â
You smile in understanding, and Logan squeezes your handâanother sign itâs time to go. Heâs still worked up about Mark; he needs to get this out of his system, needs to relieve all the built-up tension.Â
âGot something I need to take care of,â Logan says to the group, tugging you down the hallway. Â
He strides through the mansion, practically yanking your arm out of your socket. âLogan,â you whisper, trying to catch his attention. Youâve never seen him like thisârage and jealousy like fire in his eyes, dripping from his pores. He leads you up the stairs and towards his bedroom, and it suddenly dawns on you what exactly he needs to take care of.Â
Logan pushes the door open and slams it closed the second youâre inside. His hands are immediately on you, grabbing at the pillowy flesh of your ass, pinning you to the door. His lips find yoursâhungry and rough, the wiry hairs of his beard scratching your face. He tastes you, his tongue seeking more of you as it swipes across your lower lip. You open your mouth, inviting him in, your tongue tangling with his.
Logan hoists you up without breaking the kiss, and you instinctively wrap your legs around his waist. You can feel his erection straining inside his jeans, pressing against your heat. He grinds into you as one hand slips under your top and drags up your back, holding you tightly against him.Â
âNeed you,â he mumbles against your lips. âAlways fucking need you.â He tears you away from the door and towards the bed. He throws you onto the mattress and climbs over you, slowly, like an animal stalking its prey. âTell me you need me, pretty girl.â
âN-need you,â you stutter as he settles on top of you, grabbing your wrists and pinning them above your head.Â
âIâm not too old for you?â Logan teases, one of his hands loosening its grasp on your arm and trailing down your body, settling on the hem of your shirt. âYou donât wanna be with anyone else?â He hikes up your top, pushing it above your breasts.Â
You can feel the heat pooling between your legs. âNo,â you whine, arching your back as his fingertips play with the bottom of your bra. âOnly wanna be with you,â you breathe as Logan slowly, teasingly pulls your bra up. âPlease,â you beg, spreading your legs wider. âWant you to fuck me.âÂ
Logan smirks, finally tugging your bra and top over your head and casting them to the floor. âGonna take care of you, sweetheart,â Logan soothes, palming your breasts with his free hand, rolling your nipples under his thumb.Â
âFuck,â you moan as he pinches a nipple between his thumb and forefinger.Â
Logan hums, his fingertips trailing across the valley of your breasts, doing the same on the other side. Logan pinches harder, and you moan louder this time. âThatâs it,â he coos, his lips finding your pulse point, sucking roughly. âDonât be quiet, darlinâ,â he demands. You whisper his name, your voice whiny and needy. âShow me how much you need me. Keep making those pretty little noises, baby.â
âFeels good,â you whimper as his hand traces down your stomach, to your hips, gathering the fabric of your skirt in his fist and yanking it up to your waist.
He chuckles darkly. âYou wore this just for me?â He asks, his thumb hooking inside the waistband of your panties, pulling them down your legs. âWanted to make it easier for me to fuck you?â
âFuck, yes, just for you,â you pant, watching as Logan lifts himself off you, tugging his t-shirt up and over his head. He dexterously unclasps his belt buckle and throws the leather to the floor. He balances on his forearm as he unbuttons and unzips his jeans, pushing them down his thighs along with his boxers. âIâm all yours, Lo,â you promise as he presses his forehead to yours.
Loganâs hand glides down your side, slipping between your legs and finding your folds. You moan as his fingertips prod at your entrance, spreading your slick. âFuck, all this is for me?â He pinches your clit before swiping through your folds again. âYouâre soaked already, princess.â His fingertips brush your clit, tracing achingly slow circles into the bud.Â
You rock your hips against Loganâs touch, searching for more friction. âLogan, need you,â you whine, squirming underneath him. âIâm yours.â
âAll mine?â He whispers, his touch suddenly disappearing. You groan at the loss of contact. âSay it again, pretty girl,â he demands, guiding his cock to your folds.Â
âAll yours,â you answer, trying to move your hips lower to feel just an inch of him. âPlease justââ
Your eyes roll into the back of your head as he slams into you, down to the hilt with one thrust. He throbs against your walls as he works you open, his hips still, his cock splitting you in two. âFuck,â Logan grunts. âSo fucking tight. Perfect little pussy. Wanna stay right here forever. Maybe I wonât even fuck you. Maybe Iâll just make you sit on my cock.â
But you need him to move, need him to take you. âLogan, f-fuck me,â you choke, trying to move your hips. His hand grips your waist, stopping you from sliding up his length. âPlease, move,â you plead.Â
âSo impatient,â he chides, kissing you bruisingly, biting your lips. He finally pulls out and slams back in, bottoming out again. His hand slides down your waist and slips between your legs. âYou gonna be a good girl and let me fuck you the way I want?âÂ
His hand is just above your clit, inches away from where you need him most, waiting for your answer. You nod emphatically. âYes,â you say with pleading eyes. âAnything. You can do anything just pleaseâoh fuck!â Logan pinches your clit and starts his machinations, swirling around the bud. He pulls out and pumps back in, setting a ruthless pace.Â
His hips snap against yours, taking all of you with reckless abandon. His lips swallow your moans, consuming you, drinking you in. Of all the times heâs fucked you, itâs never been quite like this. Thereâs a hunger in Loganâs eyes that youâve never seen before, an undying need youâre not sure can be satisfied. Something feels different about this timeâmore intense, fervent, and feverish.Â
Logan thrusts in and out of you, bottoming out with every pump, still stretching you out. His fingertips stroke your clit roughly, your walls already fluttering around him. He curses under his breath, his chest heaving against yours.Â
âLook at you,â he groans, fucking into you. âSo beautiful like this. Always so beautiful.â You can feel his cock twitching inside you. âWanna make you mine, sweetheart.â
âI-I already am,â you stammer, his fingers drawing tight, rapid circles into your clit, pushing you closer to the edge. âAlways gonna be yours.â
âWant more than that,â Logan grunts, his hips rocking, his pace quickening. Heâs so deep inside youâhitting exactly where you need him most with every thrust.Â
âWhatever you want,â you pant, your chest pressing flush to his. âItâs yours. Iâm yours.â
âYeah?â He growls at the shell of your ear. âYou gonna let me fill you up? Gonna let me stuff you full of me?â
âYes, please,â you cry out as he pumps in and out, shoving himself as deep inside as he can possibly fit. You feel so full, so complete. Nothing compares to having Logan this close, to having him be so connected to you. Youâre already coming undone underneath him, falling apart. âWant you to stay inside.â And then the words fall from your lips without a second thought. But you mean it, and you want it more than anythingâŚ
âWanna have your baby, Lo.â
Logan groans at your words, his cock throbbing with need. âFuck, donât tease me like that, sweetheart.âÂ
âN-not teasing,â you stammer. âI mean it.â
âShit,â Logan growls, his skin slapping against yours, your words spurring him on. Heâs letting himself go, letting himself plunge deep inside you, fast and hard. âSuch a good girl,â he praises, his length dragging against your walls, pushing deeper still. âYou gonna let me fuck a baby into you?â
âYes!â You cry out, the fire burning in your belly spreading up to your spine, coursing through your veins. Your walls flutter around his length, squeezing him tightly.
âThatâs it, pretty girl,â Logan coos, rutting into you, his hips stuttering. âWant you forever.â
You throw your head back as his fingers swirl around your clit. âYou have me Lo, always gonna have me.â Your walls clench down around him, and the tension snaps. Electricity shoots up your spine as your orgasm crashes into you. Itâs intenseâmore intense than anything youâve ever felt. Pleasure washes over you in waves, heat blooming across your chest and up your neck.
Logan is right behind you, whispering a string of praises as he finishes inside you. âDid so fucking good for me. Always so perfect, beautiful.â His thrusts slow until heâs still inside you, but he doesnât pull out. âDonât wanna move, princess,â he husks, pressing a gentle kiss to your lips.Â
âYou donât have to,â you say, your voice hoarse. Logan rolls you onto your side, hoisting your leg up and over his hip, keeping himself deep inside your cunt. You close your eyes, your heartbeat finally steadying, your chest still heaving in time with Loganâs.Â
The silence is comfortable, calming. You listen to Loganâs breathing as he runs his hands up and down your back. âYou okay?â He asks, pressing a chaste kiss to the crown of your head.Â
You hum. âIâm perfect,â you mumble, burying your face into his chest. âDo you reallyâŚâ You trail off, suddenly nervous to ask the only question on your mind, despite everything that just happened.Â
âYes,â Logan answers immediately. âI meant it. Wanna be a family. Wanna be with you forever.â
You melt into him, wrapping your arms around his back. You can feel his cock growing hard inside you as you move to get more comfortable. âI want that too, Lo,â you sigh. âMore than anything.â You smile against him, thinking about your future, thinking about how all this started because some asshole wouldnât leave you alone. You canât help but giggle at the thought.
âWhatâs so funny?â Logan asks. You can hear the smirk in his voice.Â
You look up at him. âYouâre crazy, you know that?â You joke, your smile widening. âYou couldâve hurt that guy.â
Loganâs smile widens too. âJust crazy about you,â he says, shrugging his shoulders. He flips you onto your back and hovers over you, his cock still deep inside you. âShouldâve kicked his ass.â You bite your lip, waiting for his next move. âYouâre my girl,â he groans, sliding out of you slightly.Â
âYours,â you breathe as he thrusts back in. âAll yours.â
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Danny Fenton is so damn sick of rich fruit loops. Itâs worse now, since heâs one of them.
Itâs not Vlad that heâs with, thank the Ancients, but Danny isnât sure that this is better.
Because heâs Timothy Drake, a baby, and heâs been reincarnated after the Ancient of Reincarnation accidentally drank too much wine.
Heâs going to kick their ass so hard when he gets back.
Danny huffs. He rolls over, ignoring the silent manor. Sure, heâs read the comics. Sure, he laughed and imagined being adopted by Batman- come on, Danny had black hair and blue eyes even back then, he was totally adoption bait- when his parents gave him reason to lose trust in their love. But thatâs it, thatâs all he thought it was. A day dream, a wish for a universe that didnât exist.
Danny hadnât understood the reality of the whole Infinite Realms thing, a place he was now the King of. Batman? Real. Danny? Reincarnated. Hotel? Trivago.
Like, this wasnât what he meant, dammit.
And now heâs stuck as Timothy Drake, and Ancients, he was starting to see parallels.
ââ
Danny tried photography. He really did. He wanted to at least stick to the source material. But thatâs not who he is. Even with the shiny new brain that memorized, catalogued, and put together clues at the snap of his fingers, but Dannyâs never been one to take photos. Itâs a respectable art, for sure, but Danny preferred to live in the moment instead of capturing it to remember forever. Itâs just-
He watched the Graysons fall. He watched Dick Grayson turn into Robin. And Danny canât and wonât ever betray his Obsession like that, ever again. He canât let Jason die for his âstoryâ to begin. Thatâs not how Danny works.
Heâs there to protect.
Danny hasnât ever been just Tim. Danny was also Tim and the Ghost King without a haunt. But now? Gotham is his haunt. He, in lieu of an actual city spirit, is Gotham. Heâs also a Drake. And Drakes were meant to hoard.
Batman and Robin? They are his.
He claimed them, as a Drake. But that claim is weak. So he claimed them as their city, and that is a claim that will never be able to be challenged.
Dannyâll be damned before he allows some lanky starved clown beat the life out of one of his Robins. So, for the first time in his nine years on this planet, Tim-Danny goes ghost and flies.
âWho- who. Are you?â Robin slurred from his place in Dannyâs hold. He is broken, yes. But not dead. Danny infuses some of his vitality, his ecto, into Jasonâs injuries to help them heal.
âGotham.â Danny replied, layering his ghostly voice with those of the city.
âGothâm?â
âGotham. Sleep, little bird. Your city has got you.â
When Robin, Jason, settled with a sense of trust that tugs at Dannyâs core, Danny carried him to Batman, whose eyes were wild and manic. He glared menacingly at the green and white ghost in front of him, who was holding his broken and beaten son-
Well, itâd be menacing if Danny hadnât watched him eat bricks and mortar, crashing into a building while using his grappling gun.
âYou-â
âI am Gotham.â Danny cut him off. Despite his wary nature and natural paranoia, Batman settled at his cityâs gaze rested on him. Danny knew that Batman recognized his city. Batmanâs head bowed, but his eyes stayed on Robin. âYou were supposed to take care of Robin.â
âI- I know.â And that voice was all Bruce Wayne the Dad instead of Batman the Vigilante. Danny gently placed Robin in Batmanâs arms, taking in the tremors as he held his son close.
âGo back, Bruce. And make sure Jason knows how much you love him.â
He laughed as Bruce whipped his head upwards. âI am your city. You are mine as much as I am yours. Iâve known of you before you were born.â
Technically? Not untrue. But Bruce will chalk it up to weird magic shit. Itâs not like itâs a secret that Gothamâs kind of curse. Besides, this way, Danny will be able to help out more often. And Bruce wonât be able to connect Tim Drake to the âSpirit of Gotham.â
âReturn, my knight. This is not your city. I can not protect you as well as I can in Gotham.â
âThank you⌠Gotham.â
Danny sighed. He wondered when heâll have to field questions from a John Constantine. Heâs pretty sure Bruce will call in magical help, even if it was his own city he was investigating.
Batmanâs lucky Danny liked him enough to allow it.
#Danny is Gotham#danny phantom#Jason Todd#Jason Todd as Robin#joker is about to get haunted#bruce wayne#Gothamâs knight#batman#bamf danny phantom#ghost king danny#dc x dp#Danny is Tim Drake#heâs like nine#Jason Todd lives#joker? probably not#the bats: hmmm suspicious#also the bats: Gotham loves me! Iâm doing the right thing!#dp x dc
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Family Business
Summary: Hangman finally goes back to top gun and the daggers....well they want the tea
Warning: Contains alcohol, cursing, teasing, mentions of labour, postpartum.
Word count: 2636 words
Pairing: Jake "Hangman" Seresin x reader
English is not my first language so I apologies for mistakes
Could be read alone or as part three of Little Life and Silly little life
Three weeks had passed since Jake had set foot on the Top Gun base, and as he walked into the hangar, he could feel all eyes on him. The usual hum of the hangar, the sounds of jets being prepped, filled the air, but this time it felt like he was walking into an ambush. He had been out of the game long enough for them to noticeâand that meant one thing: relentless teasing.
As soon as he crossed the threshold, Phoenix spotted him and was on him like a hawk. âWell, look who finally decided to show his face,â she said with a grin, crossing her arms. âI was beginning to think you forgot how to fly, Hangman.â
Jake smirked, unbothered as he swaggered toward them. âI donât forget anything, Trace.â
âYeah, except how to show up,â Rooster chimed in, leaning against one of the jets. His aviators glinted in the sunlight as he shot Jake a smirk. âWhereâve you been, man? Canât imagine someone like you being tied up with âfamily business.â Sounds like an excuse to me.â
Jake rolled his eyes, leaning against a nearby crate. âFamily business, Bradshaw. Not an excuse. Itâs called responsibility, but I wouldnât expect you to know much about that.â
Rooster raised an eyebrow, a cocky smile spreading across his face. âResponsibility? You? What, did you have to help your mom put up Christmas lights or something?â
Phoenix snorted, nudging Bob in the ribs. âJake âHangmanâ Seresin, family man. Didnât think Iâd see the day.â
Payback and Fanboy joined in, shaking their heads as they exchanged looks. âHangman with family business? Did the world end while you were gone?â Payback teased. âOr is this some weird alternate universe weâre living in?â
Fanboy laughed, throwing up his hands. âSeriously, what kind of family business does someone like Hangman even have? I thought your whole life was flying and flirting.â
Jake shrugged, keeping his expression neutral despite the barrage of questions. âFamily business is just thatâfamily business. Nothing for you all to worry about.â
âCome on, man,â Bob finally spoke up, his quiet curiosity breaking through. âYouâve been gone for weeks. Thatâs not like you. Weâre just trying to figure out whatâs up.â
Jake could feel their eyes all on him, waiting for some sort of juicy explanation, but he wasnât about to give them anything. Not yet. Not about Y/N, and definitely not about their daughter Ellie-Mae. The last thing he needed was the whole squad knowing about the tiny bundle of joy waiting for him back in Texas.
âI told you,â Jake said smoothly, his hands in his pockets as he kept his tone casual. âJust family stuff. Nothing to lose sleep over.â
Phoenix raised an eyebrow, her arms still crossed as she studied him. âYou sure you didnât get married while you were gone? Or maybe youâre secretly a CIA agent and just canât tell us.â
Rooster laughed, shaking his head. âNah, if Hangman was in the CIA, he wouldnât be able to keep his mouth shut. Heâd be bragging about it every chance he got.â
Jake shot Rooster a look, but before he could respond, Phoenix waved a hand. âWhatever. Itâs not like youâre gonna tell us anything, so Iâm not wasting any more of my time.â
The others murmured in agreement, their curiosity still piqued but knowing better than to press Jake any further. The teasing eased up, and they turned back to their tasks, still throwing the occasional glance his way. But Coyoteâstanding back, watching with his arms crossedâhad remained quiet the entire time, a smirk tugging at his lips.
He was the only one who knew the truth, after all. Coyote had been there from the beginning, the one person Jake trusted with everything. He knew about Y/N, about the love that had blindsided Jake and changed his life in ways he never expected. And now, he knew about Ellie-Maeâtheir beautiful little girl with Jakeâs eyes and Y/Nâs fierce spirit. Coyote had kept Jakeâs secret this whole time, and the amusement on his face showed just how much he was enjoying watching Jake dodge all the questions.
Once the teasing finally died down, Jake excused himself from the group, heading toward the locker room to grab his gear. He could still feel the weight of their eyes on his back, but it didnât bother him. He was used to the squadâs prying, but he wasnât ready to let them in on his new life just yet.
As he rounded the corner, making sure he was out of earshot, he heard footsteps behind him. Before he could turn around, Coyoteâs hand landed on his shoulder, and he started shaking him playfully.
âHangman,â Coyote laughed, gripping Jakeâs shoulders as he gave him a few good shakes. âYou lucky son of a bitch! Walking around here like nothing happened, when youâve got a damn baby at home!â
Jake chuckled, turning around to face him, though he glanced over his shoulder to make sure the others werenât following. âKeep your voice down, Javy. You trying to let the whole base know?â
Coyote let out another laugh, shaking his head in disbelief. âMan, I still canât believe it. Ellie-Mae, huh? I knew you were going soft when you started talking about Y/N, but a baby? Thatâs next-level.â
Jake grinned, unable to help himself as the thought of Ellie-Mae filled his mind. âYeah, well, didnât exactly plan on it, but⌠here we are.â
Coyote clapped him on the back, his eyes shining with genuine excitement. âYouâre a dad now, bro. Thatâs wild. Howâs it feel?â
Jake paused for a moment, letting the question sink in. He thought about Y/N, the late nights with Ellie in his arms, and the way his heart practically burst every time he looked at her. âItâs⌠crazy,â he admitted, his voice softening. âHard to believe I could love someone that much. Itâs terrifying, but in the best way.â
Coyote chuckled, shaking his head. âI bet. You better start getting used to diapers and spit-up, man. Youâre in for a wild ride.â
Jake rolled his eyes, though the grin never left his face. âYeah, well, itâs worth it. Y/N and Ellieâtheyâre everything.â
Coyoteâs expression softened as he gave Jake another firm clap on the shoulder. âYouâre a lucky guy, Hangman. You know that, right?â
Jake nodded, a quiet smile tugging at his lips. âYeah, Javy. I know.â
With that, they stood there for a moment in silence, the weight of everything unsaid hanging between them. Coyote was rightâJake was lucky. Luckier than he ever thought possible. And as much as he loved flying, he knew that his real world was waiting for him back home.
That evening, the Dagger squad made it their mission to squeeze answers out of Jakeâanswers they knew he wasnât going to give up willingly. But their tactics had shifted from teasing to something more strategic: drinks. Theyâd dragged him to the bar near the base, determined to make him pay for disappearing for three weeks without so much as a solid explanation.
Phoenix nudged him as they settled around a table. âAlright, Hangman, since you wonât tell us where youâve been, the least you can do is buy the first round.â
Jake rolled his eyes, but his grin never faltered. âOh, I see how it is. You think a few drinks are gonna loosen my tongue?â
Rooster smirked from across the table. âYou never know. Maybe after a couple of shots, youâll be singing like a bird.â
The whole squad chuckled at that, and even Jake had to laugh, though he wasnât planning on revealing anything. âFine, fine,â he said, standing up. âBut donât expect any stories. This is just because Iâm a generous guy.â
Payback clapped him on the back as he headed toward the bar. âWeâll take what we can get, man. You owe us.â
Jake made his way through the crowd, ordered the drinks, and carried the tray back to the table where the squad was already lining up a game of pool. The atmosphere was lively, the sounds of laughter and clinking glasses filling the air. He handed out the drinks, then leaned against the pool table, chalking up a cue as Rooster took the first shot.
But just as Jake was about to join in, his phone started buzzing in his pocket. He glanced down at the screen, and his heart did a little flip when he saw Y/Nâs name pop up, along with the FaceTime icon.
âOf course,â Phoenix muttered when she saw him glance at his phone. âLet me guessâmore âfamily businessâ?â
Jake smirked, putting the cue down. âYeah, something like that. I gotta take this.â
A collective groan rose from the squad. âCome on, man!â Rooster protested, lining up his next shot. âCanât it wait?â
Jake shook his head. âNot this time, Bradshaw. You guys keep playing. Iâll be back.â
He slipped outside the bar, leaving the noise behind as he stepped into the cool evening air. The streetlights cast a soft glow on the sidewalk, and he found a quiet spot away from the crowds before answering the call. As the screen connected, the familiar sight of Y/Nâs desk came into view. She was sitting there, her hair tied back in a messy bun, wearing one of Jakeâs old t-shirts. But what really caught his attention was the tiny bundle wrapped against her chestâEllie, snug in her baby wrap, sound asleep.
Jakeâs heart swelled at the sight of them, and his usual cocky grin softened into something more genuine. âHey, darlinâ,â he said, his voice low. âHowâre my girls doing?â
Y/N smiled, her eyes tired but full of love. âWeâre good. She just went down after her evening fuss. Thought Iâd call you before it gets too late.â
Jake leaned against the wall, his smile widening as he watched Ellieâs little chest rise and fall with each soft breath. âSheâs getting bigger every day,â he said, his voice filled with wonder. âI swear she looks different already.â
Y/N chuckled softly. âThatâs because she is. Youâre missing out on all her growth spurts while youâre out there playing pool and buying your squad drinks.â
Jake winced playfully. âBusted. Yeah, they dragged me out tonight, trying to get me to spill where Iâve been. They donât know about you or Ellie yet.â
Y/N raised an eyebrow. âStill keeping us a secret, huh?â
âFor now,â Jake said, his tone softer. âI just want to keep this between us a little longer, you know?â
She nodded, her hand gently resting on Ellieâs back. âI get it. Weâre your secret weapon.â
Jakeâs smile softened even more, his heart swelling with how perfect this moment felt. âExactly. Howâs Ellie been today? No more colic?â
âSheâs been a little angel today,â Y/N said, glancing down at the sleeping baby. âI think the baby wrap helps. She loves being close like this.â
Jakeâs gaze lingered on them, a quiet longing in his eyes. âI miss you both so much,â he murmured. âWish I could be there.â
âWe miss you too,â Y/N said, her voice filled with warmth. âBut weâll be here when you get back. And maybe next time, you can tell the squad the real reason why youâve been missing.â
Jake chuckled softly, running a hand through his hair. âYeah, maybe. One day. But not yet. For now, Iâm keeping you two all to myself.â
Y/N smiled, her eyes soft as they locked onto his through the screen. âWe wouldnât have it any other way.â
They stayed like that for a moment, just watching each other through the screen, neither wanting to hang up. Finally, Jake sighed. âAlright, darlinâ. I should let you get some rest. Iâll call you again tomorrow, okay?â
âOkay,â she said, her voice soft. âWeâll be waiting. Love you, Jake.â
âLove you too,â he said, his voice warm as he ended the call. He lingered for a moment, staring at the blank screen, already missing them more than he thought possible.
With a deep breath, he tucked his phone back into his pocket and headed back inside, ready to face the squad again, but this time with a little more peace in his heart.
The moment he crossed the threshold, Rooster spotted him, leaning on his pool cue with a cocky grin. âOh great, heâs back. And look at himâmoping around like a lovesick puppy.â
Phoenix, already lining up her next shot, glanced up and smirked. âI thought you were supposed to be Hangman, not Hang-up-the-phone-and-sulk man.â
The rest of the squad laughed, and even Bob, always the quiet one, chuckled under his breath. âWhat was that, your mom calling to check up on you?â
Jake rolled his eyes, but he couldnât quite muster his usual bravado. âHa, ha. Very funny, Baby on board.â
Payback, who had been eyeing him from the bar, raised his glass in Jakeâs direction. âNo, seriously, man. Whoâs got you all down and out? You were fine before you left to take that call, now you look like someone kicked your dog.â
Fanboy leaned back in his chair, grinning wide. âIâll bet itâs a girl. Thatâs the only thing that ever makes a guy like Jake Seresin go all soft.â
Jake shot him a look, but there was no real bite to it. âYou all have way too much time on your hands, you know that?â
âCome on, Hangman, spill it,â Rooster pressed, the competitive glint in his eyes still there even after the teasing. âYouâre not this distracted unless itâs something big. Or someone.â
Jake shook his head, not ready to let them in on the truth. He leaned on the pool table, picking up a cue as if nothing had changed. âItâs just family stuff, like I said. Nothing you need to worry about.â
âYeah, weâll believe that when you stop looking like youâre about to write a country song,â Phoenix said, taking her shot and sinking a ball into the corner pocket.
The whole squad chuckled, and Jake couldnât help but smirk at that one. âReal original, Trace.â
But despite the banter, it was clear that Jakeâs head wasnât entirely in the game. He took a lazy shot, missing a pocket he would normally nail without even thinking. Rooster raised an eyebrow at the miss, exchanging a look with Phoenix.
âWow, you really are off your game tonight,â Rooster teased. âFirst you disappear for three weeks, now you canât even make a simple shot? Whoeverâs on the other end of that phone call must be something special.â
Jake leaned on the table, sighing a little as he looked at the group. âMaybe Iâm just tired of carrying you guys all the time.â
âOh, so now weâre back to old Hangman,â Payback said with a grin. âNice to see some things donât change.â
But even as Jake tried to join back in the banter, his heart wasnât in it. His thoughts kept drifting back to Y/N and Ellie, to the soft rise and fall of Ellieâs chest, the way Y/N had smiled at him through the screen. It was a different kind of responsibility weighing on him now, one that made everything else seem a little less important.
Phoenix narrowed her eyes at him, clearly not buying the act. âYouâre seriously going to keep us in the dark, arenât you?â
Jake shrugged, still playing it off. âFamily business, Trace. Thatâs all it is.â
The squad groaned in unison, but the teasing softened, and the game went on. Yet as the night wore on, Jake couldnât quite shake that faraway look in his eyes, no matter how many jokes the others threw his way. And though they kept up the ribbing, no one pressed him for more, leaving the mystery of his absence hanging in the air, unanswered.
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Pieces
Just Theo losing his mind over a tiny, little dress
theo nott x fem!reader
warnings: smut (this one's filthy, y'all)
The music blasting through the Slytherin common room was not only filling your ears, but your whole body too. It was running through your veins, every muscle and nerve consumed by the slow rhythm of the bass.
You were moving to the beat without a care in the world, lost in the flow, surrounded by warm bodies moving along the same melody.
Until a pair of hands found place on your hips, a presence making itself known behind you as your back collided with his chest.
You would've recognized that scent everywhere. A smirk grew on your lips.
Bingo.
âAre you trying to kill me, bambolina ?â his smooth voice reached your ears through the loud banging of some song you didn't quite recognize. (babydoll)
His hands were scorching hot on your hips, feeling them through the flimsy fabric of your dress. The way they wanted to touch, to feel, to own.
The grin on your lips widened.
Oh, he was so easy to tease.
You turned around, meeting his eyes. Their usual sky blue had become deeper, a storm in full swing. They were dark, hungry, and yet you could still find that glint of cockiness that never left his gaze.
Theodore Nott was as beautiful as he was devilish.
Good thing you knew how to take him. Metaphorically and physically speaking.
âDon't know what you're talking aboutâ you said, swaying your hips to the sultry rhythm and morphing your expression to one of fake cluelessness.
âReally ? I'm pretty sure you doâ the grin on his face was teasing but you could see the light clench of his jaw.
Trying to keep it cool, to keep control.
Unfortunately for him his eyes scanning every inch of your body betrayed him and his illusion of a collected behavior.
âYou don't like my dress ?â you asked, getting closer and circling his neck with your arms.
His hands were on your back, traveling up and down, tracing your skin through the fabric, memorizing every nook and curve of your body.
A shiver ran down your spine as he pulled you closer to him, chest to chest.
âYou have the nerve to ask me that ?â he uttered, cocking an eyebrow in disbelief.
A chuckle left your lips.
âYou sound so affronted, Nottâ your hand slipped through his hair, combing them lightly while your bodies kept swaying to the music.
He closed his eyes in bliss, feeling your gentle fingers brush through his brown locks.
And then you pulled. A bit harsher, a bit rougher. Exactly how he liked it.
Theo groaned, his eyes snapping open as the grip on your hips became tighter.Â
His forehead touched yours as he leaned closer and closer.
âOh, you want to play with fire I seeâ he breathed mere inches away from your lips.
âMaybe I doâ you grinned, your tone challenging.
âAnd what happened to âI wouldn't touch you even if you were the last man on earthâ, dolcezza ?â he asked teasingly, leaning forward to whisper in your ear. (sweety)
Your cheeks warmed up the slightest bit.
Yes, you and Theo hadnât started off in the best of ways.
But things changed.
Especially after the most completely unexpected and undoubtedly best fuck of your life, courtesy of a very heated arguement between the two of you that ended with him buried deep inside of you while you basically chanted his name like a prayer.
You wished you could say it was a one time thing, a mistake.
But it wasnât.
Because soon you found out that no one made you feel better than him.
Your body craved his touch, you couldn't help it.
âWell, I didn't know the wonders that your mouth and your cock were capable of at the time, can you really blame me ?â you asked back, lifting an eyebrow.
âSo that's why you chose the tiniest, sexiest dress you own ? Cause you wanted to get your guts rearranged ?â he teased with a shit-eating smirk.
âWho knowsâ you shrugged your shoulders as a smug smile grew on your lips.
He huffed a laugh, shaking his head.
âYou'll be the death of me, bambolinaâ he mouthed right on your lips before leaning in. (babydoll)
And, fuck, that felt both like heaven and hell.
His mouth was soft and rough at the same time. Hungry, needy, pure fire that was consuming you. The taste of nicotine and alcohol mixed with a sweetness that you couldn't quite pinpoint, but it was there. And it was addicting.
You wanted more. You always wanted more when Theo was involved.
His tongue teased yours, playing his dirty little games.
Your mind went blank.
âYour room or mine ?â you asked, millimeters away from his lips.
âWhichever is the closest, I don't careâ he said hurriedly âNon vedo l'ora di strapparti questo cazzo di vestito di dossoâ (I can't wait to rip this fucking dress off of you)
You didn't understand a single thing of the Italian coming out of his mouth as he was busy leaving a trail of eager kisses down your neck, going so slow that your brain started to melt.
You had no idea of how you managed to arrive at your dorm, too engrossed in the feeling of having him so close to you.
But now there you were.
The door closed with a click, and after a second you felt him everywhere.
His hands in your hair, on your face, your neck, hips, thighs. Fucking everywhere.
Your back collided with the wall as he kissed you like he needed air and you were pure oxygen filling his lungs.
âYouâre a vixen, you know that ?â he whispered âmaking me lose my fucking mind moving your hips like thatâÂ
His lips were still on yours, his hands kneading the plush skin of your ass, making you hiss in pleasure.
âDidnât know I only needed a dress to make you go ballistic, Nottâ you muttered with a chuckle as he decorated your throat with slow, wet kisses.Â
âI couldnât give less than a shit about the dress, Y/n. You are the one making me go fucking feral, not this stupid piece of fabricâ he groaned against your skin.
âThen rip it the fuck off of me, why donât you ?â you said, whimpers leaving your mouth as Theo found the most sensitive spot on your neck, starting to tease it with his tongue, his teeth and that sinful mouth of his.
You felt his smirk right on your skin.
âAs you wish, bambolinaâ
 In a heartbeat you heard cloth being torn, shredded to pieces.
The air suddenly hitting your skin made goosebumps appear all over your body.
Your eyes snapped to his. The fire in them almost burned you, matching your own.
Lust and hunger filled every cell of your being, seeing the poor dress resting in pieces on the floor.
Because Theo had literally ripped it off.
You didnât think this man could get any hotter. Guessed you were fucking wrong.
âCazzo, sei una visione Y/n'' he whispered breathlessly. (Fuck, you're a vision Y/n)
His eyes ran all over your figure, taking in every curve, every inch of your body, imprinting it in his memory forever.
Then he began his journey of torture.
He started with his lips on yours, nibbling and sucking slowly, seductively, proceeding along your jaw, traveling down and reaching your neck, kissing the skin that was already turning a dark red from his previous attentions.
He stopped briefly at your shoulder, delicately removing your bra as the pads of his fingers brushed your skin tenderly.
He left his marks all over you.
On your shoulder, your collarbones, on your breasts teasing your sensitive nipples with his tongue before sucking gently, grazing them with his teeth and sending bolts of electricity throughout your entire body.
His lips were soft, but they left a burning path everywhere they touched.
Moans and whimpers left your mouth with each and every caress of his skin on yours.
He kept giving attention to every single centimeter of your figure, going down and down until he sank on his knees.
The sight of him kneeling in front of you with that deep, dark look in his eyes turned you on like nothing ever did before.
âThis might be my favorite angle of you, you know ?â you confessed, your fingers combing through his brown waves.
You felt him grin against your hip bone, kissing it right after.
âIs it ?â his tone was teasing, playful, as he traced your skin with his lips âwhen Iâm on my knees ?â another kiss lingered on your hip âright at your mercy ?âÂ
âShit- yeahâ you choked out a whimper as his mouth got closer and closer to your core.
The grip on his hair tightened and he let out a deep moan.
âWell, thatâs good to know, princessâ he said simply âcause this is my favorite place to be. Right between your thighsâ and then he left a soft kiss directly on your clothed heat before sliding your panties down your legs.
A needy moan escaped your lips before you could stop it.
âYou're perfect. You're so fucking perfectâ he whispered in awe, completely drunk on the sight of your naked body.
âTheoâŚâ you whined.
âYes, baby ?âÂ
Fuck, that word made your stomach churn in the best way possible.
âJust fucking get to itâ you said urgently.
A cocky smile appeared on his face as he started to slowly get up, placing kisses here and there, making his journey back to your lips.
You whined, missing the feeling of his mouth lingering on your most sensitive spot.
âYouâre needyâ he whispered in your ear, making you shiver.
âYouâre torturing meâ you bit back, breathless and impertinent.
âOh, so you can tease me in front of our whole House, but I canât have my little fun when itâs just us ? Seems a bit unfair, tesoroâ he mocked you lightheartedly with the most irritatingly hot smirk. (darling)
âWipe that smug little smile off your face Nott, I can't stand itâ you said, the annoyance in your tone as clear as the lust in it, too.
âCanât stand it ?â he asked sensually, his breath tickling your ear before looking you in the eyes with that sinful grin that made you go feral âthen why donât you sit on it, bambolinaâÂ
His gaze was dark, the blue of his eyes completely swallowed up by blackness.
The breath got knocked out of your lungs. Hot liquid desire filled your veins.
Your entire body was consumed by him, every single cell screaming his name.
And who were you not to listen ?
âLay down thenâ you said with a devilish grin, pushing him backwards until his knees hit the bed frame, forcing him to sit down.
You wasted no time and straddled his hips, your naked body flashed aginst his still clothed one.
âFucking hellâ he mumbled on your mouth as you dived in to kiss him hungrily, tongue brushing his in a filthy dance.
His hands gripped your lower back so tightly you were sure there wouldâve been bruises in the shape of his handprints the following day.
And you couldnât wait to fucking see them.
 âSomething wrong, pretty boy ?â you taunted, coating his neck with kisses, swiping your tongue over the skin and making him groan in pleasure.
âI have you naked on my lap, Y/n, nothing could be more rightâ he said, looking at you directly in the eyes with a smile and his usual cocky attitude.
âWhy donât you take off some clothes too, mh ?â you muttered, breaths away from his lips "Preferably all of them"
âGet rid of them, thenâ he answered you with a challenging glint in his deep blue eyes, and a sardonic smile.
You smirked, fisting both sides of his shirt and pulling harshly.
Buttons flew everywhere as you ripped the shirt open, finally exposing his perfectly chiseled chest to your eyes. Your hands ran all over his torso, tracing every hard and soft surface with fleeting touches.
God, Quidditch practice really had its benefits.
âNow weâre evenâ you said, kissing his lips again, referring to the dress he had shredded to pieces not too long ago.
Then your fingers traveled down, reaching the hem of his pants and brushing his half hard cock playfully through the fabric.
He hissed in pleasure, but as soon as you tried to unbutton them he stopped you.
âThat can wait, baby. I need to taste you firstâ he purred in your ear before laying down completely, his back colliding with the soft mattress of your bed.
âImpatient, are we ?â you mocked him lightheartedly, but as soon as you felt his hands on lower back, massaging the soft skin, urging you to crawl on his body and come closer until your core was right in front of him, glistening with desire, the smile on your face was replaced by a moan.
âWhen it comes to you ? Alwaysâ he smiled, leaving a trail of steamy, open mouthed kisses on the tender skin of your inner thighs.
A pathetic sob left your throat.
He was going so achingly slow you were starting to lose your goddamn mind.
âSeems to me that youâre taking your sweet fucking time, insteadâ you snapped impetuously.
He was teasing you mercilessly, and you couldnât stand it.
âIâll take all the time I need if it means that I get to see you being a needy mess before my tongue even touches youâ he sneered against your skin, mouth getting closer and closer to where you needed it the most, but never close enough.
âTheo, pleaseâ you cried as your hands swiped through his brown locks, spread on the pillow like a halo, eliciting him to do something, anything to give you at least some sweet relief.
âSei cosĂŹ bella, cazzoâ he whispered as his eyes shined with an earnestness that you had never seen in them âe sei tutta per meâ. (You're so beautiful, fuck)(and you're all mine)
And then finally, finally he stuck his tongue out dragging it over your folds to get a long awaited taste.
The groan that came out of his mouth sent delicious vibrations to your clit, making your whole body squirm.
âOh fuckâ you moaned as he started to devour you messily.
He ate you out like he had been starving for weeks and you were his first meal, like he was born for it and his place was right there, between your legs. He licked and kissed and sucked all over your sensitive core, pleasuring you like no one else ever could, making you feel everything.
You writhed above him.Â
Loud, shaky whines left your lips as he made out with your cunt shamelessly and sloppy, coating his face with your essence and feasting hungrily.
When his lips wrapped around your clit you whailed.
The whole castle probably heared you even through the music of the party that was taking place downstairs, but you couldnât care less.
Because Theo was beneath you, eating you out so perfectly and filthily that all you could think about was his mouth on you.
âSo sweet. You taste so sweet, Y/nâ he said right against your throbbing core, making you shiver. Your hands on his hair tightened their grip, using it as leverage to move your hips back and forth faster, desperately.
âTheo- shit, baby-â you couldnât even talk.
You were close. You were so close that you felt the familiar tension building up, ready to explode.
And apparently he did too, because his mouth started to work faster, licking and lapping at an unforgiving pace.
âGo ahead, baby. Make a mess on my faceâ he wrapped his lips around your clit one more time and he sucked, sending you over the edge.
The coil in your tummy snapped, your vision turning white as waves of pleasure washed all over you, making your ears ring and your eyes roll back in ecstasy.
The moans coming out of your mouth were dirty, raw.
The movement of your hips slowed down as Theo kept dragging his tongue over your folds slowly, carefully, licking you clean and paying attention not to overstimulate you, but not letting even one single drop of your sweet essence go to waste.
Once you got down from your high and your brain started to regain its ability to form coherent words you shifted your gaze downwards, finding Theo looking at you while his hands caressed your legs tenderly.
âThere you are. I thought I broke you for a secondâ he smiled, teasing lightheartedly.
You huffed a sneer as you crawled backwards with shaky legs, going back to straddle his hips rather than his face.
âDon't get too confident, Nott. It's not a good lookâ you bit back with a smile that matched his.
A chuckle left his lips as he lifted his torso to sit up, wrapping his arms around your waist and pulling you closer to him.
He kissed you softly, delicately, making your stomach flip.
âEverything ok ?â he asked on your lips while he tucked a rogue strand of hair behind your ear, stroking your cheekbone with the pad of his thumb.
And there it was, the thing that made you so confused about Theodore Nott.
It was in moments like these when you forgot that the guy in front of you, who gave you the best head of your life and was an actual fucking excellent lover was the same guy you used to have daily insulting sessions with.
Muggles had a saying, you heard.
âThere's a thin line between hate and loveâ
And you were sure that that line had been all kinds of blurry since Theo had put his lips on you for the first time.
Or, maybe, even before. You didn't want to think about it.Â
The possibilities of that revelation being true made your stomach knot up.
So you put them to the side, and focused back on him.
âYesâ you answered, your fingers buried in the hair at the base of his neck, massaging reassuringly âIâm ok. More than ok, evenâÂ
âHow about your legs ?â he asked, placing soft kisses on your shoulder.
âIs this some new way to ask me if I still have some remaining strength to ride you ?â you teased, narrowing your eyes mischievously.
âWould you believe me if I said it isn't ?â he questioned playfully, lifting an eyebrow and tightening his embrace on you.
âNot really, noâ you said unconvinced, your face opened up in a smile.
âGuessed soâ he shook his head in amusement, his eyes glinting in the dim light of your room.
âUnfortunately for you my legs are sore, so no ridingâ you admitted, your smile turning smug âbut that doesn't mean that you can't fuck me in any other position know to manâ
His hands on your hips tightened their grip.
âIs that so ?â he taunted, his eyes turning hungry again, the fire in them reaching the deepest parts of your soul âthen tell me bambolina, how would you like me to take you apart tonight ?âÂ
âHowever you wantâ you smirked, leaning in to kiss him again, swiping your tongue on his lower lip before biting the plump skin provocatively âgo ahead pretty boy, make me cry on your cockâ
His eyes got impossibly darker, hungrier. Ravenous.
âThen get on all fours for me, princessâ he rumbled lowly, looking at you like he wanted to devour you whole.
You wasted no time as you kept your mouth glued to his, getting off his lap and flipping your positions. You crawled backwards a little, Theo following you as he chased your lips until you were completely laying down with him above you.
His hands caressed your hips, moving down to trace the skin of your thigh, making goosebumps appear all over your body.
Your fingers traveled everywhere, feeling the heated skin against your pads. They caressed his chest, his shoulders, his back, until they reached the hem of his pants, unbuttoning them with a swift move.
âImpatient, are we ?â he teased you, using your own words against you.
His lips latched to your neck, one hand on the mattress holding his weight and the other sliding his trousers down together with his underwear.
âLess talking and more undressing, Nottâ you urged as your hands went to his hair, massaging his scalp, making him groan.
He pulled away from you just enough to take away his pants completely, leaving him naked.
Your eyes took in his perfectly sculpted lean body, and you clenched your legs unconsciously at the sight of his hard cock.
He didn't say anything to you eyeing him up like you wanted to swallow him whole, he just smirked. But the look in his eyes told you that he knew every naughty little thought you were having in that moment.
Your cheeks heated up, and you turned around facing the mattress propped up on your elbows, not wanting to give him the satisfaction of seeing you that flustered.
You had seen him naked countless times, and yet his body still had that maddening effect on you.
The bed dipped with every move he made, getting closer to you again, until you felt his breath on your ear, chuckling.
âGoing shy on me now, tesoro ?â he asked playfully, leaving a kiss on that sensitive spot that made you squirm. (darling)
âShut upâ you said weakly, completely overwhelmed by the feeling of his mouth leaving a path of steamy kisses along your back, causing your whole body to shiver in pleasure.
He stopped right over the little dimples on your lower back, kissing them tenderly.
âReady ?â he asked to make sure.
You didn't answer him, you just lifted your ass up, bending your knees and arching your back in the most sinful way you could master.
âReadyâ you confirmed with a smug smile, hearing him groan in pleasure.
You turned your head a little, enough to see him stroking his cock at the sight of your exposed cunt, right at his mercy.
âYou and your perfect body will be the death of meâ you hear him whisper before feeling his hands on your ass.
His tip teasing your entrance made you moan pathetically.
He went slow, so achingly slow that you wanted to cry, feeling him burying himself deeper and deeper inside of you, inch by inch. Until he bottomed out completely, head to base, filling you up so good that you wanted to scream.
âFuck-â you moaned âfuck, fuck, fuckâ broken sobs left your lips as you felt him throbbing inside of you.
âShit- baby, you're tightâ he said through gritted teeth, feeling your warmth around him and trying so hard not to cum on the spot, hearing all the filthy sounds you were making.
âMoveâ you practically begged âTheo, please. Just moveâÂ
As soon as the words left your mouth his hips started to thrust, setting a slow and steady pace, making you adjust to his size without hurting you.
The head of his cock brushed your cervix with every prod, sending bolts of electricity to every nerve of your body.
But it wasn't enough.
You wanted more. You needed more.
âHarderâ you blurted, half begging and half demanding âI'm not gonna break, Theo. Fuck me. HarderâÂ
Not a word left his mouth, but suddenly you saw stars. His hips snapped ruthlessly inside of you, knocking the air out of your lungs, making you scream his name.
You buried your face in the pillows, trying to muffle the sound of your wails. But then you felt Theoâs chest colliding with your back and his arms around your torso, pulling your upper body up with him while he still fucked into you mercilessly.
âVoglio sentirtiâ he whispered in your ear, breath rugged and broken by the intensity of his hips plunging inside of you âvoglio che l'intero cazzo di castello sappia chi è che ti scopa cosĂŹ beneâ (I want to hear you)(I want the whole castle to know who's fucking you this good)
You didn't understand a single word coming out of his mouth, but you knew it had nothing to do with the language he was using and everything to do with his cock splitting you in half.
Your body was on fire, every muscle and nerve consumed by pleasure, corroded by lust.
You were close again.
Your arm reached behind you, pulling Theoâs head closer.
The position was awkward, making the kiss even more filthy, a mess of tongues and teeth.
âGod- Theo, I'm closeâ you moaned against his mouth.
One hand holding your body flashed against his, the other going to tease your clit with slender fingers.
You were right there, his fingers drawing circles on that little bundle of nerves faster and faster.
âCum for me, bambolinaâ was what he whispered in your ear, his breath tickling your skin as your orgasm hit you.
The world stopped, every single thing ceased to exist except for the exploding pleasure in your veins and the feeling of Theoâs heated and sweaty skin on yours.
The clench of your cunt squeezing his cock sent him over the edge too, painting your walls white while a strangled moan escaped his lips.
Getting down from your high you collapsed on the bed.
With your breath labored and short, your body numb and your head in the clouds you placed your head on Theo's chest as his arm wrapped around you.
Was it weird to cuddle with the guy who used to get on your nerves more than anything else ? Most definitely.
Was it also weird to fuck said guy and wanting to sometime still punch his ridiculously handsome face at the same time ? Absolutely.
Did you care ? Not one bit.
âYou owe me a shirtâ he blurted out after his breath turned back to normal again, stroking your hair absent-mindedly.
âYou owe me a dressâ you retorted back, feeling his heartbeat slowing down right under your ear.
âShopping at Hogsmeade next weekend ?â he asked nonchalantly, like he hadn't just dropped a bomb on you.
Your eyes widened beyond measure.
âPardon ?â your voice went several tones higher than usual, in complete disbelief from the words that had just reached your ears.
âCalm down, bambolina. No need to get all flusteredâ he chuckled, but rather than mocking it seemed endeared âyou'll buy me a new shirt and I'll buy you a new dress. Deal ?âÂ
You had no idea what to answer.
But in the end you accepted.
��DealâÂ
It wouldn't be weird...right ?
He lives in my mind rent free, I can't help it.
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