#i literally cried after rehearsal i was so happy to finally be singing with the rest of the guys

[fuck--wit]

bro was pounding me from behind telling me how excited he was that i was gonna be joining him in the tenor section🤤

[the-woild-is-y-erster]

okay so i do kind of get that but i want their voices omg what i would do to be a tenor

i’m an alto but i have a natural deep voice anyway!!

i do actually like my voice and stuff i would just love to be able to play a dude PROPERLY

i played eugene in grease and so many of my lines got cut, and i couldn’t really be myself in the role because i was so focused on making it perfect

that’s why i wanna play crutchie or jesse tuck because i feel like i could truly be myself in those roles !! but roles i don’t know anything about make me feel even worse

i genuinely cried and purposefully missed cues when i was in grease because i hated my role that much

BUT IVE COME TO TERMS WITH IT!!

i also really wanna perform as crutchie so i can do letter from the refuge my friends all say that they love my cover of it and i can never get enough of him i literally hyperfixate on him so i could play him SO WELL

Sorry tangent on how awful i felt in grease x

i also happily play female roles but i like playing male roles cause i’m more masc presenting

rant all you want shawty!! i had similar experiences in my highschool theater class, we had one boy and like 14 girls(and then me lmao) and i was the only one with a wide enough vocal range to play both? so we did beauty and the beast one year, and that was the year we FINALLY had two boys, so they (of course) got gaston and beast. well, yours truly got lefou, but my (very christian) teacher made me wear a ton of makeup and almost made me wear a dress (argued my way outta that one) so i got to play a guy's part, but it was still an iffy experience because the rest of the cast was rly annoying abt it

anywhizzle

i was in a production of joseph and the amazing technicolor dreamcoat last year, and i was one of josephs brothers along with another girl(who was The Most Annoying Person On The Planet istg) again because of the lack of boys

that theater had a better supply of guys but still not nearly enough

so i had like three singing lines, right? all pretty far down in my vocal range but i was proud of myself for being able to do it

and one of those lines the girl 'brother' (who insisted on wearing makeup and a dress for the production) spoke immediately after me, so how it went in rehearsals and even the actual shows:

me: says line

her: physically like SHOVES me aside to be CENTER F-ING STAGE which we werent supposed to do and says her line in the most annoying enthusiastic falsetto ive ever heard, and her line was something about starving😭😭

and im a soprano, and i can go weirdly low for a soprano but WHAT I WOULDNT GIVE TO BE A TENOR

j would give up my left leg and also my spleen if it meant i could be a tenor

like most of my dream theater roles are guys

and i would be happy to play a gal's part!! but like

only if its on my terms? like if audition for a bunch of guy parts and maybe one girl part, and i get the girl part? like i get that casting a wholeass musical/play can be difficult with only so many peopl and even fewer guys, but youd think that the ratio of guys to girls(and others) would raise my chances of being a guy?

idk i have so many thoughts abt this

and the voice thing OMLLLLL

like literally any time i listen to one of my favorite actors speak im like 'sir can i B L E A SE HAVE YOUR VOICE'

or even just some of the guys ive interacted with in everyday life

like do you know how many times a cashier's voice has made me want to cry because its so deep/melodic/beautiful/masculine???

[gaymer-hag-stan]

Like with the first semi, here are my thoughts on the second one after all's been said and done

1. Denmark 🇩🇰 - Emabrassing

2. Armenia 🇦🇲 - My girl SLAYED! I heard that she was gonna have a dance break from wiwibloggs and I wasn't sure if it was gonna fit but it did! They should have gone less ham on the smoke effects though because she was literally lost in it for a few seconds, hope they sort this out

3. Romania 🇷🇴 - I don't like the rearranged version and the staging was embarrassing, but he's still young so I think he's gonna find his way eventually

4. Estonia 🇪🇪 - Maybe it's because I'm so used to the studio version or maybe she was anxious but I kinda expected more? She wasn't bad or anything like that, I just know that she can sing even better and I hope she brings it to the final

5. Belgium 🇧🇪 - YEEEES! I was absolutely sure he was a qualifier the moment he stepped on that stage. Like I said yesterday, Gustaph's journey this year has been so amazing to watch. From beating out the fan favourite in Belgium's national final (and giving us an amazing surprised / scared reaction 😂) to the fans being unsure if this was gonna do well to him eventually winning everyone by the preparties and the eventual semi performance. Wow! And then he cried when he qualified! I'm so happy for him 😁

6. Cyprus 🇨🇾 - My man pulled through and made us proud (it's an unwritten rule than whenever Cyprus has a better song than Greece we switch sides) He's hot, the hottest guy in the contest this year, no other options are correct, and he also has an amazing voice to go with it. He's gonna go toe to toe with Marco and Remo on best male vocals on the final.

7. Iceland 🇮🇸 - So sad for Diljá honestly, she's so crazy and fun and she's a fan of the contest too! Amazing vocals, especially considering all the jumping around she did but I feel like they could have done something better with her staging? Idk.

8. Greece 🇬🇷 - Wooo boy. Ok. I know I've been going hard at him since the rehearsal footage came out, maybe a little bit earlier because Poland's was not the only selection allegedly rigged, but honestly? He was better than expected. He did work on his pronunciation and his stage presence and he did the best he could... Which wasn't enough. And I don't want to use his age as an excuse because you have kids in Eurovision Junior doing much better than that or even 13 year old Sandra Kim winning for Belgium before the 16+ age limit was put in place. If I remember correctly it was actually because of Sandra Kim that they put an age limit because she was so good she EMBARASSED the fuck out of all the adults and then they complained that she was younger than what her song says (15). The outfit and the GRΣΣK script on English words was cringe as fuck, though these were not his fault. When people say they want countries to showcase their cultures more, spelling spirit as ΣPIRIT is not what they mean. God the greek broadcaster needs to touch some grass real quick. I also have a tiny bit of an issue with what he said in an interview, that he wrote the song because he was feeling overwhelmed about being signed to a big record label or sth? Well, Victor, I hope the whole world only had problems of this caliber! Turns out he actually is a nepo baby after all, his grandfather is a shipowner but allegedly this did not influence the greek broadcaster's decision on choosing him over the fan favourite. Sure Jan.

9. Poland 🇵🇱 - I don't know if the EBU put the two alleged cheaters back to back on purpose, probably not because no one seemed to care about the Greek allegations anyway, but in my mind this was iconic. Okay. Miss BEJBAH was good. Not "slay yas werk you're gonna be an icon of the contest" good but good enough to qualify. I told you all she was gonna make it. Most people who watch the show do not follow the preselection process and then some won't care anyway. Her song was okay, her performance was okay, she's gonna tank in the final. Get over it. I'm also curious about something. If the roles of her and Jann were reversed, would he have faced as much backlash? I think not. But what do I know?

10. Slovenia 🇸🇮 - They're okay. I like them. Their song is catchy. That's it. I literally don't know what more to say. I've seen tons of hype for them and their song and their alleged stellar stage presence and they absolutely deserved to qualify but this is just an okay, inoffensive, enjoyable song. I don't feel too strongly about it either way.

11. Georgia 🇬🇪 - Why do you hate joy Europe? Why? Why did you not vote for her? Why? Why? Why? I voted for her SIX times, two of which I'm not sure even went through because I only got confirmation TODAY, so when the detailed voting scores are announced Greece better have given her SOMETHING. But no I'm genuinely puzzled. Out of the borderline qualifiers I expected her to beat Alika. I'm happy for Alika of course, she deserves it, but Iru gave a very solid performance, she was on key the whole time, she looked great and the song was peak Eurovision, what the fuck went wrong here? A lot of my friends seemed to like her too. Two said she was their favourite last night, same as me, one liked her a lot and the other was the only one who hated her performance. I'm sad 😢

12. San Marino 🇸🇲 - Piqued Jacks was a pleasant surprise honestly. I liked them much more than I expected as they consistently ranked among my least favourites but I think they have a very solid performance that they can be proud of.

13. Austria 🇦🇹 - Okay, I got really nervous because both their performance back in Austria and their rehearsal footage looked so low-key? They felt maybe a bit too shy? I know they couldn't possibly recreate that phenomenal music video on stage, but I wanted, and still do, to see them embrace the kookiness of their song. I think they played it too safe, too serious. But then again they do have a serious message they want to get across underneath this fun crazy song so maybe it was intentional? Anyway, they still were more enjoyable than I thought they would be and I'm glad they're in!

14. Albania 🇦🇱 - Talk about a glow up alright! I'm not even mad they qualified over Georgia, because even though the odds predicted Georgia 9th and Albania 11th (they were even lower before the show) I knew they were gonna make it the moment I saw their performance. It's not a perfect song but it still had so much identity and a distinct ethnic, Balkan sound that is otherwise completely absent from this year's Contest so people were bound to pass it through to the final. I'm afraid they might land very close to the bottom in the final, but it honestly doesn't matter because Albina and her Familja still very much have a place in the final, regardless of their placing.

15. Lithuania 🇱🇹 - YES Monika YES!! Another definite qualifier in my mind. I personally loved her since day one. I said I almost cried during Latvia's performance in the first semi, well I did cry during Monika's! Amazing job girl.

16. Australia 🇦🇺 - Good. Solid. Fun. I don't feel too strongly about this either, and I do think San Marino was more enjoyable to watch, but I'm happy for them.

[youranxiousnerd]

Most Likely To Thoughts

because i am an angry theater kid

spoilers below

First of holy shit. That was one of the best episodes of the season. My second favorite (episode 5 has a special place in my heart okay?)

big red is awesome

i missed ABF this episode hes awesome

miss jenn you literally did the exact same thing 

“would you like to be the first” “im good”

ashlyn youre a cutie

oh my god guys they’re actually rehearsing

FRICKING GO BIG RED

EJ YOU KILLED IT

Gaston was ICONIC. 

the callback to 1x08

“monkies”

im sorry you guys haven’t blocked the 2nd act?!?!?!?! its MARCH the show was cast in January you’ve had TWO months i have been in shows blocked in less time

*angry theater kid screeching*

“It’s an expression, Sebastian”

Seb is going to snap one day. This is like the fourth time this has happened this season. 

Like he lowkey looked pretty sad and angry after that comment. Maybe the episode 10 Seblos fight isn’t going to be so private.

ANYWAYS back to the episode (i will gladly talk about seblos all day)

KOURT AND NINI KOURT AND NINI

they lookin good

kourt and nini have started a “relationships are hard” club and the members include big red, gina, and seb. ricky and ej pop in from time to time

kourtney that is a great lie well done

communication saves lives and obviously ricky and nini never got the memo

ricky no

did you learn nothing from nini and ej?

i do like how he immediately regretted it. like he knows he effed up

oooo ej, gina, carlos, and seb thats intersting

do not try to tell me carlos and seb dont hold hands in class bc they do

#giveusmoreoftheseforupleaseineedagroupchat

AIHFDAKFHGAL GINAS SNORT I LOVE IT

ej honey i think you like her

ngl i might have jumped on the portwell train

GINA LEFT BAHAHA

cash caswell

i hate him already

ej just sinking in his chair

carlos’ somewhat impressed face i cant

cash you son of a gun why

cash this is career day not show off your son day

ej noooo

“seize the day” theatre kids share a knowing glance

im shocked carlos didnt stand up and do the choreo 

miss jenn has a new man every episode omfg

mazzara is my fav

STOP

HOLD THE PHONE

THEY ARE DOING TECH WORK

I REPEAT, TECH WORK

IM A TECHIE IM FREAKING OUT OMFG

those are the nicest high school aprons like where are the ratty tshirts?!?!

how is sebs so messy

bitter seb

i smell tension

ope seb is mad

he is going to snap one day i swear

you can tell carlos regretted it or just doesnt understand what happened

im glad the seblos fight is building instead of something out of the blue

seb has been kinda pushed around this season im happy he is finally saying something

and no more seblos the rest of the episode rip

carlos go after your boyfriend come on

you know what would have been fun? they have their bantar while cleaning brushes and rollers in a clogged sink

ricky have you ever asked how big red is doing?

ASHLYN WITH A DRILL

OMFG GUYS I LOVE DRILLS YESSSSSS

why is there no drill piece in the drill what is she doing? is she bolting stuff or predrilling?

ash trying to be supportive

i love ashlyn guys

omfg two parents this episode what is this?

kourt’s mom being on her side love to see it

“i live to serve”

“i cleaned your desk a little” yep she’ll take you back after that

the shade kourtney is throwing im living for it

ricky just disappears and reappears

oof-okay richard

the pizza place fight. they were both in the wrong, im glad kourt shut them down

REDLYN NOOOO

i love them

ash is trying so hard and red is trying to get her to understand

mazzara you sneaky

i thought it was a date lol

miss jenn take the hint

PORTWELL HOME SCENE

that was really sweet, like go ej and gina, they have one of the healthiest relationships on the show because they learned what not to do.

thats a nice treehouse

lesbians build nice things

i should know

bc im one- ill stop

the treehouse scene-holy shiz. its amazing. props to josh and olivia, i was on the verge of tears. best rini scene of the season, hands down. it was beautiful

nini is sobbing i cant

ricky you can cry its okay

im so happy the breakup happened, major rini shipper in season 1 but they have fallen flat this season. it was handled so well and just gahhh

nini sobbing by herself 

NINA IM CRYING NOW STOPPP

roman sounds so good holy. 

like so good

this does damper my theory on ricky leaving halfway through the show and seb taking over as beast and singing this

MONTAGE TIME

“you’re gorgeous”

mazzara fell hard

“To Miss Jenn” why am i laughing

GABFILFBIWE PORTWELL

OH MY GOD GINA IS ASLEEP 

EJ AND THE HOODIE

GUYS I CANT ANYMORE IM LOSING IT

THE LITTLE SMILE WHEN EJ TURNS THE LIGHTS OFF

REDLYN IS BACK IM SO GLAD

you guys are adorable

howie fell hard

omfg ej

ej noo we love you pls be okay

redlyn you cuties

RICKY NO

IM SOBBING NOW

OMFG LOOK AT HIM

HE HELD IT TOGETHER FOR NINI 

GUYS IM CRYING I CANT

AHHHHHH

we stan big red in this house

ricky and the pillow no

glad ashlyn sticked around

i am dead. ricky thank you thats it.

like that broke me

i should not be crying over this i have already cried to much this season 

you know what would have made this scene better? seb just sitting on his bed then carlos texts him and he pushes his phone aside. something to show them drifting bc its happening and i need content

like where were they the second half?

ITS OVER

WTF

LIKE WHAT THE ACTUALLY HECK YOU CANNOT END IT THERE

WHAT IS HAPPENING 

As you can probably tell, I lost my mind this episode. I have no words, nothing at all. All I have is my tears. The past two episodes have been the best of the season. Episode 8 was another level.

[veggietales-shitposts]

documenting Larry and Archibald’s relationship in every episode (1990′s)

Episode 1: “Where’s God When I’m S-Scared” (1993) - in the first-ever Silly Songs with Larry, Archibald interrupts Larry’s water buffalo song because it’s “too silly” and gets very passionate and up in his face about it. imo I think Archibald just can’t handle his feelings for this silly little cucumber and that’s his way of dealing with it. 

- Larry and Archibald star alongside each other in Daniel and the Lion’s Den, where Larry plays Daniel and Archibald plays King Darius. King Darius is very fond of Daniel and proudly promotes him to be his husband second in command. King Daniel also expresses deep concern for Daniel after he is thrown into the lion’s den. I know they are both playing roles here but I don’t think the acting was that hard imo I really think this was the beginning of their relationship. 

Episode 2: “God Wants Me to Forgive Them” (1994) - this episode was kinda bad and really hard to watch but here we go - Bob and Larry recall that one summer (many years ago, clearly before the first episode took place) when they owned a boat and gave people tours. Archibald (who was apparently a millionaire) was on the tour along with his wife (we’ll talk about that later). Larry crashes the boat because he’s gay and can’t drive and Archibald’s wife complains that it ruined their vacation (possibly honeymoon??). Everyone eventually forgives Larry, and Archibald is the first to claim “we still like you Larry”. - I’m pretty sure Archibald and his wife are now divorced because we never really see her in any other episodes. I think that’s also why Archibald is no longer a millionaire. 

Episode 3: “Are You My Neighbor?” (1995) - In The Story of Flibber-o-loo, Larry gets shoved into the sand by the scallions. The mayor (Archibald) walks by with the doctor (Archibald’s ex-wife) and instead of stopping to help Larry they SING AND DANCE WITH EACH OTHER!? the drama!!!  - this whole episode just really drives home the point of “God made everyone special” and “love your neighbor, even if they are different” so uh. yeah there’s that

Episode 4: “Rack, Shack, & Benny” (1995) - Archibald is not in this one but Larry is very silly and gay and it’s a great episode just in general

Episode 5: “Dave and the Giant Pickle” (1996) - In Silly Songs with Larry, Archibald plays the role of Larry’s therapist while Larry sings about his lips 

Episode 6: “The Toy that Saved Christmas” (1996)  - cute Christmas episode but nothing gay happens, moving on 

Episode 7: “Silly Sing-Along” (1997)  - just a sing-along of all the songs that have happened in episodes up to this point. while we don’t really establish any new relationships here I have a feeling it might set the stage for episode 11 (we’ll talk about that later)

Episode 8: “Larryboy! & the Fib from Outer Space!” (1997) - this is the first time we see Archibald playing the role of Larry’s butler, Alfred, but it’s never really established why Larry even has a butler in the first place. I mean is Larry even rich? I think it makes sense for Larryboy to have a behind-the-scenes assistant when he’s being a superhero, but a full-time, live-in butler? Personally I think it’s just a cover up for the fact that they are literally just living together. There is even a scene where Larry and Alfred are sitting next to each other on the couch playing Candy Land. Who plays board games with their butler? While sitting next to them? On the couch? - Alfred and Larry share their first fight as a couple in this episode, when Larry is supposed to be out looking for space aliens and he can’t find any and wants to give up and come home. Alfred insists there are aliens and Larry must keep looking to protect Bumblyburg, but Larry doesn’t listen and comes home  - Of course the aliens attack, so Larry goes out to fight the alien only to find that Alfred has tricked out his ride “in his spare time” (a labor of love)  - Alfred accidentally pulls the plug out of his computer, cutting off communication between him and Larry right before Larry is about to be eaten by the alien. Alfred becomes very emotional, screaming at his computer to reboot, but the information loads just in time to save Larry  

Episode 9: “Josh and the Big Wall!” (1997) - Archibald once again interrupts Silly Songs with Larry, this time to criticize Larry’s cebu song because apparently a good old fashioned projector slideshow is not enough of a “multimedia event”. Larry is used to Archibald’s antics at this point because they live together now, ignores his interrogations, and continues the show.  - Larry plays the role of Josh, and Archibald plays a commander of the Lord’s army who appears to Josh in the middle of the night. Josh falls facedown in front of the angel. There are definitely some...expressions exchanged here I mean wow like I know they are supposed to be acting in this one but again I think some of those expressions were genuine  - my headcannon for this episode is also that it was performed/filmed “live.” In the beginning of the episode, Junior Asparagus helps Bob introduce the show because Larry was “tired” from the last show and they were letting him sleep in. But instead of saying “roll film,” Bob tells Junior to close his eyes and use his imagination and I think this is when they bring in the set and perform it like a play. So the expressions exchanged between Larry and Archibald are seen in real time, and Larry’s reaction to Archibald is genuine because he is actually seeing him dressed in armor, literally shining from the stage lighting instead of a special effect being added later for video. I also like to imagine that they didn’t have a dress rehearsal so they were both seeing each other in full costume/lighting for the first time.

Episode 10: “Madame Blueberry” (1998)  - oh shit y’all, this is where it happens! SILLY SONGS WITH LARRY IS CANCELLED!! I am so glad I watched every episode in order because the tension, the DRAMA, everything leading up to this moment!!!  - Larry is literally all dressed up, set ready and everything when Archibald interrupts his segment, letting him know *in front of everyone* that it has been cancelled, in part due to what happened last time. Archibald even leaves poor Larry in a freaking bear trap for crying out loud, replacing his segment with Love Songs with Mr. Lunt which has some serious 80′s vibes

Episode 11: “Silly Sing-Along 2: The End of Silliness?” (1998) - alright here we go folks the climax of the season  - the episode opens with Larry sitting at a diner during a storm, having nightmares recalling Archibald’s criticism of Larry’s cebu song and cancellation of Silly Songs with Larry. The server notices Larry crying and asks him what’s the matter. Larry replays the cebu song on the jukebox and then cries about it to the server. - Archibald enters wearing a trenchcoat that hides his face and carrying a briefcase. He is followed by his ex-wife. Archibald turns around, keeping his face hidden, and sees Larry crying but Larry does not notice him.  - the server, unable to cheer Larry up, asks him again what’s wrong and Archibald finally reveals himself. Archibald and Larry share some very dramatic looks. Archibald plays the clip of him cancelling Silly Songs with Larry, followed by Love Songs with Mr. Lunt. - Archibald admits fault for Larry’s disposition while also trying to explain himself. He then reveals what’s in the briefcase: a petition from Larry’s fans to bring back Silly Songs with Larry. Archibald, overcome with feelings for Larry, hops up onto the counter to passionately declare his feelings reinstate Silly Songs with Larry. Once again the expressions exchanged between these two are just priceless. 

Episode 12: “Larryboy and the Rumor Weed” (1999)  - In the season finale of the millennium, Larry and Archibald are now back together, as Archibald once again plays Larryboy’s husband “live-in butler,” Alfred. But the drama is not over yet!  - After Larryboy defeats a bandit, Larry invites Alfred out on a date for pizza to celebrate. Alfred says he would love to, but politely declines as he will be volunteering at the local elementary school the following morning. Larry smiles wistfully at the thought of his husband helping out at the school and they share a tender exchange of “goodnights”.  - The evil rumor weed overhears this exchange and becomes jealous of their gay happiness and decides to start a rumor that Alfred is a dangerous homosexual robot - Larry and Alfred, blissfully unaware of this rumor, are seen gardening together the following morning. When they find out about the weeds (still unaware of the rumor), Alfred is very excited to help Larry because it involves gardening. You can also see some drawings of the background of their house and one of them is a rainbow.  - Larryboy goes underground to fight the mother weed and loses contact with Alfred. They both freak out and Alfred goes to save his husband on his gay little European scooter.  - Alfred is attacked by an angry mob because he’s a dangerous homosexual robot and seized by the rumor weed, who then turns into a flower after the townspeople decide he is not dangerous, but actually a nice man. Larryboy crawls out of the sewer and reunites with his love for all to see. 

for the early 2000′s episodes click here

[the-last-cuddlebender]

“Secret Stairwell” -- (a Kataang love-at-first-sight/hurt-comfort/fluffy college apartment AU fanfic)

I don’t have time to flesh out/edit this as much as I want to, but I REALLY want to share at least a truncated version of it (1800 words lmao) to any who would care to read it. I adore this AU, and the sweeties in it made me smile really, really big☺️

Aang is the new guy in Katara’s complex. He lives in the apartment on the floor right above hers, and they attend the same college.

Katara comes to know him as the crazy parkour kid with too much energy and a too big smile who makes even rainy days feel warm when she sees him out her window with his MASSIVE dog (she still wonders how he got him into the complex).

Aang runs at least twice a day with Appa. He’s ALWAYS smiling, and he never misses a run. His routine becomes part of Katara’s, and she sees him out her window every day. She starts to look forward to his smile.

Katara knows something is wrong when, after a few months of him running literally through any weather, Aang misses a run.

She doesn’t know how she’s going to play it off as non-creepy, but she has to double check to see if he’s okay. What if there was an accident in his apartment? His bike is still locked up in the lot. He’s in the complex.

The stairwell right across from her door is for maintenance only, and Katara thought she was the only one who knew the alarm wouldn’t actually go off if you used it. She steps in, closes the door, and hears Aang crying in the secret stairwell on the landing right above her.

She’s relieved that he’s not dead or anything, but he sounds absolutely heartbroken. She had never heard a cry so sad, just like she had never seen a smile so genuine until she first saw him. She doesn’t know what to do, but she doesn’t want to leave him, either. She sits against the door and hugs her knees on the landing below him like somehow her presence would help him, even if he didn’t know she was there. She didn't know what to say if she said anything. She didn't even know his name.

The next day she sees him running like always, but his smile doesn’t make her happy. It’s concerning. It isn’t warm. It’s bigger than normal. It’s so clearly forced to her, and she doesn’t understand why the stranger he’s talking to doesn’t notice it. The stranger just laughes some more before walking away from Aang. Aang waves to the stranger’s back (didn’t his parents teach him not to talk to every new person he saw?), and his smile wavers before he restarts his run with a sprint like he was running from something.

Katara is extremely guilty for not helping him before. It REALLY gets to her, and she doesn’t know what to do. And, combined with the stresses of her classes and her lack of sleep, she’s on the brink of tears as she waits on the bench for the bus so she could go get groceries. She sticks her hands in her hoodie, slumps on the bench so much that she almost slides off, and sinks her face into the bunched up fabric as she fights the urge to cry.

Appa is a certified therapy dog. He senses Katara’s bad vibes while Aang is running with him. Appa goes up to her, dragging Aang like he was nothing because Appa literally cannot be stopped

Appa gives Katara licks while Aang—EXTREMELY flustered and as red as can be and tripping over his words and finding it hard to look away from her—awkwardly laughs and tries to tug Appa away to retreat. But Appa is a rock and just plops his bum on the ground and his head on Katara’s lap. Aang pulls so hard that he falls flat, and he’s even more flustered than before. He’s talking as fast as he runs and he’s making no sense at all. Katara smiles and laughs without knowing why, and Aang sheepishly smiles at her. Katara pets Appa’s giant head, and Appa’s equally giant tail wags and repeatedly smacks Aang in the face since he’s still on the ground.

Aang blurts an introduction like he had rehearsed it, and he immediately covers his mouth like he had accidentally let it out.

Katara never practiced this part because she didn’t know she would ever get this far. She stumbles over an introduction, and they laugh away the awkward.

Katara sees that his smile is suddenly even warmer than normal, and it makes her feel like jelly because he was looking at her this time instead of her looking at him through the window.

The bus comes and takes Katara away. Katara replays their conversation so many times in her head—trying to commit it to memory—that she doesn’t notice that she missed her stop until two stops later.

Katara is a singer at heart and very art-inclined. She knows about the secret stairwell (secret because it wasn’t common knowledge about its lack of alarm) because the acoustics are perfect and the walls are like a vocal booth, and she likes to go there and sing every now and then.

She goes there one day and, after listening to make sure she was alone, starts singing. It’s beautiful of course.

When she’s done, Aang suddenly appears over the railing above her. He looks like he spent the half-hour before she got there crying, but his smile is so warm it’s almost searing itself into her brain. “That was amazing!!”

Katara screams because he appeared so suddenly. Aang, startled and still light-headed from crying, falls over the railing and onto her landing of the stairs. Appa pokes his concerned head out from the bars and, for the first time ever as far as Katara knew, barks a low, sad woof.

Aang breaks his leg but that doesn’t break his smile. He’s telling Katara how good of a singer she is even as Katara—getting whiplash between being flustered and guilty and worried for his sake—drives him to the hospital in her brother’s car (that he left over break and that she had to hotwire since Sokka didn’t leave her the right key because of course he didn’t).

After the hospital, they find out (at 3 in the damn morning) that their complex’s elevator is broken until further notice. Because of course it is.

Katara makes it her sworn duty to carry Aang up and down the stairs whenever he needs her to. They have to exchange numbers for this, of course. And she might have to stay with him on campus in between classes so he doesn’t have to wait for her when he needs her. And she might need to help him walk Appa since she’s concerned about Appa tugging too hard (like he did when he met Katara) and hurting Aang by yanking him off his crutches.

To say they get to know each other quickly is an understatement. It’s like they’ve known each other their whole lives.

One night, it’s storming really bad. Katara wakes up to a crack of lightning, sees a text from Aang that he needed help getting down the stairs, realizes it’s from ten minutes ago, loses her collective shit, throws a jacket over her pajamas, and rushes to the stairwell.

Aang is on his bum and crying and scooting down the stairs towards her. He’s the picture of pathetic and in desperate need of a hug. Appa is right beside him and gently licking Aang while very quietly woofing.

Katara carries Aang down the rest of the way to her landing of the stairs. They sit against the door. This time, she stays with him, right beside him, as he cries.

Katara doesn’t like the sound of his crying in the stairwell, so she starts humming and quietly singing to him. It’s beautiful, of course, and the acoustics make it even better. It’s a sad song that could be sung in such a way to make it happy, and Aang calms down.

Aang tells her about Gyatso passing away and how he officially has no family left.

Katara still doesn’t know what to say. That’s a running theme when she talks to him, it seems. Her mouth just says whatever her heart is thinking, so she holds him a bit tighter and tells him that he still has her. She helped him get by after she broke his leg. She could help him smile again even though she wasn’t the one who broke his heart.

Katara is art-inclined and invites Aang into her apartment for tea, and, after noticing that no one else signed his cast but her (everyone always leaves…), she asks him if she could paint it for him.

He’s ecstatic and tells her to put whatever she wants on it. She could put paint on her face and smear it on and he would love it.

They joke around and Aang tells her about Gyatso and his passed family and where he’s from, and Katara tells him about her mother and her brother and what her dreams are.

Katara paints the whole cast with clouds that look kindof orange and yellow because they’re warmed by a sunset, and on top of the clouds she paints leaves on a vine with tiny shells and waves curling up the cast.

Aang loves it of course. To repay her, he asks if she would go penguinsledding (a wacky type of normal sledding) with him once he got his cast off since winter was just around the corner

She agrees of course. But when they finally do go penguinsledding, Katara realizes that she’s not as good at it as she used to be since she hadn’t done it since she was a kid.

Katara breaks her arm.

Aang vows to braid her hair for her whenever she needs him to. He might have to meet up with her every morning. And he might cook breakfast for them while he’s at it since he’s an early riser. And he might go with her to the grocery store to help carry her things (with a little pack on Appa to help).

And he might have to settle with only being able to hold one of her hands, but Katara makes it up to him since a cast couldn’t stop her from saying ‘I love you’ first, and she couldn’t have stopped her heart from saying the words if she tried. This part she did rehearse. It blurts out, though, like it had escaped, and she can’t cover her mouth properly because of her cast.

They both rehearsed the kiss that came next. And, thankfully, no one else knew about their secret spot on the stairs.

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Didn’t really edit, as you could probably tell, because it was just a sparknotes version, but I hope you enjoyed the concept! Post-typing, I realize that the singing part was probably inspired by people singing the Halo theme in acoustic places lmao

[cthomashoodstory]

Best Years but Not in the Same Way (21)

Calum Hood x Reader

Previous Part

I don’t have any knowledge about anything i mention on this story i just search on google. And I’m sorry for my very bad english.

Masterlist

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Calum Hood’s POV

I opened up Saara’s hotel room with extra keycard i got from the receptionist. As usual, it’s 2 A.M and I can’t sleep because i was too happy. Right after the show ends at Meadow Brook Amphitheater on Rochester Hill, Michigan, Saara and i kisses. Not a passion one, but it was a special moment with us. I know she still not ready to start a relationship or even labeled our relationship, but i was so happy, I’m such the happiest person on earth. We were on backstage room, just two of us, since my band mates are leaving early. We were talking casually about the show, the next thing happened we kissed. Damn, i really cursed Bieber for what happened to her.

I saw her sitting on the balcony floor, smoking, and talking with someone on the phone and she did it on speaker. The door was almost shut but i could hear every words she said. She hadn’t change her clothes since the show.

(Pictures as reference)

“Hahaha… what do you mean by that? You literally gave me that clothes because you care about me.” She laughed when she said it.

“Whatever you said, Palvin.” Oh she’s talking to Mike Posner. “How was the show? Did you enjoy it? How’s your feeling now?” He asked her and he really cared about her. He was the one who asked us and the manager to add Saara as special guest on our tour. He really fought so she could have a better life. He was the person who took care of her when she was new to this industry and he provided her place until she could earned her own money.

I leaned on the wall near the door, standing here quietly eavesdropped their conversation.

“The show went great. I really love the vibe of people singing and jumping to the songs. I really enjoyed it. Thanks Mike. Thanks for always caring me, you always found a way to make me happy.” She burned another cigarette. “I think i have to tell you this. It’s about me and Calum.”

The way she mentioned my name make me shivers and nervous at the same time.

“What about you and him? Somethings happened? Are you guys dating? Or you guys fight? What?” He sounded so curious so was i.

She slightly smiled and i can see it even from afar. “So… after the show, which is two hours ago, we were talking about the show, and we sat together at the couch, we were so so close, and we kissed.”

“You what?” He shouted so loud and i almost laughed because his reaction was hilarious even i only listen to his voice. “Oh my… Saara… finally! After those years you and finally kissed.”

“Yeah finally. Actually this wasn’t our first kissed.” I smiled brightly when she said it. It means that she really loves me and take me seriously. And Mike was so shocked when Saara said that. “I think… we did it four times… please don’t freak out.”

“That’s a lot, Miss B.” He yelled. “But seriously, with amount of that you two been kissing, why haven’t you guys dated already? You love him and he loves you. He’s ready, Saar. I swear to God, I’m shipping you two since 2013, you know that? Even I’m friends with your ex, i always wanted you two ended up together and maybe this time is the time.”

Saara sighed. “Yes, i love him. I’m in love with him and i want to start a real relationship with him, but not now. I need more time to heal my feeling and i think the progress is 80 percent… i need to make sure that I’m 100 percent heal. And i really can’t wait for that moment to happen.”

Hearing what Saara said, i felt more confident because, us being a couple will be happened anytime soon.

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You were at the venue at York Fair in York, Pennsylvania for the next show. It’s 8 PM and The Aces was performing as opening act. You were sitting on the backstage room with the band and some of crews. They were ready to go to the stage because The Aces is almost finished performing. You were standing beside Calum and he was holding his bass. He smiled at you and you smiled back to him.

You felt something strange since afternoon when the band was did rehearsal and sound check. Like the crew slightly looked at me pity. Like something was happening and you didn’t know what was it. His smile was pure but you knew he hid something from you, but you were too scared to know the truth. So you were just smiled and played along.

You never looked at your phone whenever the band went on the stage. But today, for today only, you really wanted to see your phone and checked something because your feeling sensing something suspicious.

And you finally checked your phone while you were standing beside Calum. You saw everything and you got nothing. Until you saw someone tagged you on Instagram.

What? What did you just saw? He’s married?

“Hey what happened?” Calum asked you and you startled.

You shook your head and really tried to held your tears.

“Lets go.” The crew implied the band to walk on stage.

And then Calum waved. “See you in an hour.” You smiled and he disappeared.

And now you were sitting on a couch alongside with some crews that you didn’t know. You keep your mind busy with playing games, listen to music, play guitar, or anything you could. But that picture is still lingers in your head and you couldn’t get rid of it.

After an hour, the crew told you to get ready because they just finished The Only Reason song and they singing Lie To Me now. You could hear Luke is playing his piano while talking to the audience. Today you just got a worse news and now you have to sing this damn song that you wrote for your ex at the day he got married? Amazing. You stood up at the corner of the stage waiting for your turned and you really tried to not to cry.

“I know that you don’t but if i ask you if you love me i hope you lie lie lie lie lie to me. You sound so beautiful out there lets give it out to Saara Palvin everyone.” The audience were yelling and you started to sing the second verse, your own verse.

“It’s three am and the moonlights testing me,oh oh,” you glanced at Calum and he smiled but seconds after he saw your expressions, he looked worried. “I know that you’ve been holding on to someone else and now i can’t sleep.”

Your tears slowly falling down and you wiped it before anyone could notice. “I aint happy… i aint too happy.” Your voice is cracking and you’re so ready to cry but you still holding it.

“Flashing back to ne-“ you couldn’t hold it so you cried and the mic fell off from your grip and Calum immediately hugged you and the rest of the band stop the song.

“Let’s go to backstage okay Bar.” He lead you back to backstage leaving his bass on the ground and the band. You knew they were also shocked but you knew they knew the reason what happened to you. You couldn’t think and just crying on Calum’s arm.

He guided you to sat on the couch and you keep sobbing. “Hey, Bar? Baby please stop crying I couldn’t see you like this.” He held your hand and you stop crying.

“Please get back to the stage,” you said it stammered. “The band needs you, your fans need you. I will be okay here. Don’t worry.” You gave him smile as best as you could.

He nodded and left you alone at this backstage room. Right after he left, you started to cry again. But why you have to cry? What is the reason you have to cry?

You called Mike immediately.

“Hey Miss Hood.” He answered your call happily.

“You knew what happened? Please don’t lie.” You told him with a tone.

He sighed. “Yes, and i told your friends for not bragging that things up to you. I don’t want it to ruin your performance.”

You laughed and cried at the same time. “And now i was the one who ruined my performance.” You cried again. “Mike, tell me why I’m crying right now? Please tell me why.”

There was no answer from him.

“Please help me Mike. I am moving on from him. I am happy with my life right now, but why I’m crying right now? Why? I’m not jealous that he’s married. I don’t care about him. Well i guess i still care? I guess deep down inside I’m hurt the way he’s happy with someone else and not me? I should’ve get back to him long time ago before he’s dating someone else right? But instead I’m sticking up with Calum, the one who always there for me. He maked me happy. Calum makes me happy, right? I’m not suicidal anymore, I’m not stressed around my friends. He’s the one that i need. And i don’t have to cry for a stupid thing.” Now you asked and answered by yourself. And now you walked to the bathroom and looked in the mirror and how messed your face was.

You wiped your face with wet tissues and put the phone on speaker. “Tell me jokes or whatever because I’m doing my make up right now.”

“Did you remember when the first time we met at the restaurant you held a drink and almost spill it on my clothes?” He laughed when he told you the story and you laughed alongside with him.

“No. No you’re the one who bumped into me. God if i never apologized to you, which I wouldn’t do it at the first place, i would never be here.”

You both laughed. 30 minutes later you finished your make up and you hung up the call.

And now you didn’t know what to do and you just sitting on the couch playing some music. You felt better now actually after you pulled out your heavy thought and cried it out. And now you’re tired and about to shut your eyes when the door slammed opened and you saw Calum rushing to you.

“Bar you okay?” He was so worried when he asked you and you saw the rest of the band walked in to the room.

You smiled brightly. “Of course.” You hugged him. “Thank you for always keeping me safe.”

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To be continued

Next Part

[jinmindeulle]

of love and other poems | myg

word count: 3.2 k

pairing: min yoongi x reader

genre: art gallery au, pianist/artist au, pianist!yoongi x artist!reader ∣ almost smut?, fluff

warnings: minor cursing

a/n: and with of love and other poems, i officially get started with my bts works! i have been waiting so long for this moment, especially because i love bts with my whole heart and they are my ultimate everything. although seokjin’s my bias, i had to get started with the bias wrecker. more things to come!!

happy reading! ♥

My hands were tinted with every colour of my palette. Most of my paintbrushes were used, spread over my dark wooden table, also painted with multiple colours and materials. Luckily, my floor was covered with a thousand plastic sheets that Taehyung had given me after seeing how messy my art room got every time I stepped inside it. That’s why I recently stopped trying to clean it. There’s no use when I literally have been spending my entire afternoons here.

“Could you book it, Tae? Are you sure that no one’s taking my place that day?”

“Relax, y/n” he chuckled, showing me the Seoul’s National Art Gallery’s website in his laptop “I have already booked yours and mine, and I checked twice. It’s going to be alright”

“You know that this is no joke, and I always get anxious over fucking everything!” I sighed, walking backwards some steps so that I could take a look at my last piece “What do you think? I’m planning to have this one at the entrance”

“So that’s the intro? It’s stunning, y/n” Tae smiled, displaying his boxy grin “You’ll graduate with honours! I’m so proud of you!” he hugged me tight, shaking our bodies with excitement.

“You too!” I giggled, hugging him back.

Although I was constantly worried about how well my art would do in every class, Taehyung was always there to reassure me and make sure that I was satisfied. Nearing our college graduation, however, my insecurities got worse and worse. Surrounded by talented people, including my best friend, I knew for a fact that I was going to have a hard time coming up with something creative and meaningful to display as my final exam. At the same time, we were not only in charge of our work, but also of booking our place at the Seoul’s National Art Gallery on the weekend that our delivery was due, of arranging our pieces and exhibiting them for the general public as if we already were the professional artists that we hoped to become after that damned exam. My anxiety levels were reaching their peaks as that day got closer, so Taehyung made sure to spend as much time with me as possible.

“Don’t you need to get back to your apartment? You had to finish your last piece too” I pouted.

“I can manage”

“Tae…” I whined “You know how much I appreciate and thank you for being here with me, but you need to focus on your exam too. Go home, I can deal with myself for a bit”

“It’s okay, really” he took my chin with one of his large hands and playfully shook my head “Jimin is practicing his routine for his own final exam and I-”

“Need silence to paint, I know” I interrupted him, chuckling “So you’ll stay the night, then?”

“Seems like you want to” he teasingly wiggled his eyebrows, earning an arm smack from me “Ouch!”

“Go order some pizza while I take a shower, dummy”

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Although some say that taking a shower is a way of relaxing, I highly disagree.

Less than two days away from my final exposition, my head wouldn’t stop thinking and re-evaluating every aspect of my already finished pieces, going over every detail that could go wrong that day. I knew I had taken care of everything and anything, but it still felt like something was missing. My art was there, ready to take to the gallery and exhibit, I rehearsed and rehearsed what to say about each piece probably a thousand times and my outfit was already picked up, obviously by Tae. What else was there to complement my artwork?

As I dried my hair, going over the poem that was behind my paintings in my head, Taehyung’s deep, caramel voice came muffled through the bathroom’s door. He was singing that same old song that complimented his tone like no other. Enjoying the melody, I turned off the hair dryer and got started with my night-time skincare routine, softly humming along Tae’s voice.

It was then when it hit me.

“That’s what I fucking need!” I yelled, running out of the bathroom with half of my face covered in my green facemask.

Taehyung’s eyes went wide upon seeing me desperately going in circles around the coffee table, screaming nonsensical words and having the eleventh mental breakdown over the course of the afternoon. But as he was too used to my stupidity, he got up from the couch and stopped me on my tracks, putting his big hands on my shoulders. “Calm down, y/n, what’s wrong now?”

“I need music!” I panicked “My art gallery won’t be complete if I don’t fucking have live music to accompany the mood! It’ll be utterly horrible!” my eyes watered “How the fuck do I find a decent musician in less than 48 hours?!”

“God, y/n, I thought you were questioning your life choices again” he sighed, engulfing me in a comforting hug. I felt some tears go down my face, angry at myself for letting those dumb things get to my head as fast as they pop up. I embraced his waist, cuddling closer to his neck but trying not to stain his pale-blue linen shirt with my facemask. “I know someone that could help”

“You do?” I sobbed, dethatching my face from his collarbone and looking up at his bright orbs.

“He’s a wonderful pianist and has brilliant taste in music. I’ll call him tomorrow first thing in the morning”

“You’re amazing, Tae” I cried, going back to his tight hold “I don’t know what I would do without you”

“Me neither” he chuckled, kissing the top of my head.

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“You’ll do like no other, honey bunch. Just breath in and out, calm yourself down and most importantly, enjoy. You’ve been working so hard for this day and you cannot let it go to waste. You’ll smash it”

Once again embraced in Taehyung’s arms, I breathed in his scent as an attempt to calm down my beating heart. No one had arrived yet, but I was already at my fifth mental breakdown. All of the hard work that I had non-stop been carrying out for the past four years was hanging by a thread today, and as my best friend said, I could not ruin it by being a dumb bundle of nerves. Just when I was finally keeping my heartbeat under control, Tae’s phone started buzzing inside his suit’s pocket.

“That must be my pianist friend” he muttered, taking a look at his iPhone screen. “Yep. He’s here already, let me go get him!”

“Okay” I sighed, straightening my dress as he jogged out of the room.

My art pieces were already hanging on the walls, telling the story that I had wanted them to tell for so long. Each one had their own meaning, their own reason to be. Unlike those first paintings of mine, these had a purpose and they were able to talk to the observer, but only if they closely paid attention to every detail.

“That’s spectacular”

Such unfamiliar voice took me out of my thoughts, making me turn around to find the face that matched it. And goddamnit. Dumbfounded, speechless, mouth dried. That pianist was indeed spectacular.

“Th-thank you” that was all I could say. Damn, y/n, get it together!

“Min Yoongi” he stretched his hand, and I awkwardly shook it, praying to whatever God was above us to just let my blushing cheeks go back to normal as soon as possible.

“y/n l/n”

“Taehyung told me” he smiled, shoving his hands inside his pockets and looking around the gallery “I meant it when I said they are incredible”

“I-I appreciate it” I tightly closed my eyes, breathing in and out to help my heart beat at normal pace once more “And thank you for coming on such a short notice” I opened them up, just to find his endearing face looking at me with a soft smile over his rosy lips “It was a last-minute thought and I really needed music for my exhibit”

“I had the day off, so no worries. I know how important music is and I just wanted to help. Plus, I owed Taehyung a favour”

“It means a lo-”

“y/n! Professor’s here with a bunch of people!” a frantic Taehyung came running into the room, interrupting my exchange with the ravishing pianist “Get into place, you dummy! And you too, hyung!” and immediately after screaming at us, he went back to his place as my gallery’s receptionist.

“Good luck, artist. I’ll do my best to reach your standards” and with that, he walked straight to the giant shiny piano that was laying right in front of my last, ‘outro’ piece, and smoothly ran his expert fingers over the keys.

[BGM: i need u, piano version]

I could not take my eyes off of his veiny hands the moment he got started with his fascinating art, making me instantly regret having Taehyung take care of my one a.m. requests.

“How stunning, Miss. y/n!”

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I was nearly running out of energy when Taehyung informed me that the last visitor was out of the room. He hugged me so tightly that I thought I was about to pass out, but at that point I could not care less.

“I’m so proud of you, honey bunch!” he giggled, picking me up from the ground and squeezing the life out of me, as he always does “It was impressive. Everyone loved it! You should have heard how they complimented your pieces as they left the gallery!”

“Tae…” I answered with difficulty, trying to catch some air “You’re clutching… me too… tight!”

“Sorry!” he put me down, arranging some of the hairs that went out of my perfectly styled bun.

“Thank you Tae” I sighed with a content smile “You made this possible too. And I will be there for you next week just as you were here today. I love you” I kissed his cheek, making him get flustered just as I wanted him to. “Now go home. You need to rest”

“But-”

“Kim Taehyung!” I interrupted him “I’ll finish here. I want to stay for a bit on my own and then I’ll go home.”

“Fine” he pouted “But you text me when you get home, please. It’s too late for you to be walking on the streets all alone”

“M-hm” I nodded, watching him go backwards as he waved at me “See you, babes!”

“Be careful!”

“Yes, dad” I shook my head, giggling at his antics.

Once he was out of the room, I heavily sighed and glanced back to where my paintings where. I studied them once more, pretending as if I was looking at them for the first time. Maybe the story that I wanted them to tell could be something else when a different eye observed them. Art is relative, and so were interpretations.

“W.H. Auden?”

His deep, raspy voice startled me once again, but this time I didn’t have to turn around to see him. He was right by my side. I could perceive his calm breaths while taking in the sight of my ‘intro’ piece, his eyes sparkling with something close to admiration, to esteem, to wonder.

“How’d you know that?”

“I like poetry” he softly smiled, tearing his gaze away from the painting to fixate his eyes on my own “It’s ‘The More Loving One’, right?”

“Wow… that’s… that’s impressive” I bit my lip, astonished by the man’s capacity of interpreting my intentions in mere seconds “I thought that nobody was going to get it”

“I just like art in general” he shrugged. We fell in a comfortable silence, both of us immersed in our own thoughts. However, the pianist was quick to keep the conversation flowing once again. “Let me guess… Looking up at the stars, I know quite well… That, for all they care, I can go to hell… But on earth indifference is the least… We have to dread from man or beast” he recited, with no rush and honeyed deep voice. He gently took my wrist with his hand and slowly directed me towards my second painting. My heartbeat rapidly increased upon feeling his warm touch, and I thanked Taehyung for letting me wear comfortable heels, or else I was soon going to end up collapsing on the floor “How should we like it were stars to burn… With a passion for us we could not return?… If equal affection cannot be… Let the more loving one be me.”

When we reached the following set of paintings, I was, by this time, in Cloud 9. Despite this, I still needed him to stop his astounding display of knowledge about my favourite poet, because he was already becoming something else for me. So I took over “Admirer as I think I am… Of stars that do not give a damn… I cannot, now I see them, say… I missed one terribly all day”

“Were all stars to disappear or die… I should learn to look at an empty sky… And feel its total dark sublime… Though this might take me a little time” he finished for me, as we arrived to the last trio of paintings “As much as I worship Auden, I disagree” he muttered, observing my ‘outro’ painting. “Do you think that love is fleeting and impermanent?”

“It depends… He’s talking about unrequited love, though. That kind of love should be fleeting and impermanent” I looked at him, studying his gorgeous features. He pressed his lips together and his brows snapped together, returning my gaze.

“Is unrequited love less than the requited one?”

“Of course it is” I chuckled “You cannot expect someone to love you just because you love them. You need to get over them, even if it takes you your whole life”

“Still… do you love someone any less when they do not love you back?”

“Not really. But the difference lays in the fact that you won’t ever get that with the person who doesn’t love you. Imagine having to deal with that kind of indifference just because you adore them”

“Wouldn’t you rather your lover be indifferent towards you when the other possibility left is hating you?”

“Oh, c’mon! Does self-love apply here?”

“I don’t think you ever get to love yourself more than a person that makes you feel alive” he replied, his velvety voice becoming deeper and mesmerizing, his eyes never leaving mine “Do you love yourself more than your lover?” Yoongi murmured, getting closer. Our breaths were now blending together, making it difficult to distinguish which was his and which mine.

“I-I don’t…” I stuttered, feeling the intensity of his eyes “I don’t have a… lover” I finally muttered back, unable to tear my eyes off of his.

“Let’s fix that, then”

Yoongi’s mouth found mine in a heavy, hot kiss. His lips took over mine without much effort, slowly angling his face to deepen it. I was quick to let him in, feeling how his soft tongue gradually brushed my own. I took the initiative, pulling him by the neck to get him closer, as if that was even possible by now. His hands gently caressed my hips, securely taking place on my lower back. I tugged my mouth away from his, trying to catch some air, but he was shortly after chasing my lips to pepper light kisses over them.

“I need…” I breathlessly muttered in between kisses “to close… down”

“I’ll help you” he replied, giving me one last, sloppy peck. “I’ll take you home after”

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I could hardly close the door as soon as we entered my apartment. My hand was struggling, trying to get inside the lock as Yoongi peppered wet kisses down my neck while caressing my waist from behind me. A few minutes went by, my mind getting cloudier. He must have realized, because he chuckled against my neck, taking my shaking hand with his and rapidly locking the door “All set”

I turned around, taking his cheeks with my hands and directing his lips to mine, parting them to get better access to his hot mouth. I started walking, slowly but surely taking him down the corridor and right into my room, loudly closing the door once inside.

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“Do you still agree with Auden?” Yoongi whispered, softly caressing my arm.

“M-hm” I muttered, fluttering my eyes open, throwing my leg over his own and getting closer to his collarbone “It is always better to be the one who loves.”

“Would you be willing to love even then, y/n?”

“One does not choose when, how or who they love, Yoongi” I detached myself from his chest, supporting my weight with my arm as I looked at him “And I think it’s better to love rather than being at the receiving end without even acknowledging it. It hurts, yes, but the feeling…”

“Yet he emphasizes the fact that he can, and will get over them. Is his love as strong as he claims?”

“It can be the strongest feeling, of course. Still, you cannot hang in there just because you are unable control it”

“Have you noticed that in those last lines, he openly admits he hadn’t missed them when they were gone? Is that what love is about?”

“If they hurt you, maybe” I yawned, going back to the comfort of his touch “You won’t miss them, but you still love them. It’s easy, young man”

“Is love easy?”

“Can you please shut your stunning mouth for a second, please? You’re the loudest hook up I’ve ever had”

“You were the loud one some minutes ago” he chuckled, caressing my back, and taking my chin with his hand. Making me look up, he left a couple of short but soft, tender kisses over my swollen lips.  

“Goodnight, pianist”

“Goodnight, artist”

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My phone woke me up from my slumber. Cold sheets met my hand, and I lifted my head from my pillow to take a look around my room.

He left.

I rejected whoever was calling me and got up from my bed, stretching out my limbs as I made my way to the living room. Empty.

Should have known that.

“It was just a hook up, y/n…” I murmured to myself, trying to get that in my head as fast as possible to avoid any kind of heartache. “He left as he shou-” I cut short my sentence when I noticed a scribbled piece of paper on my coffee table that wasn’t there the day before. I quickly took it, a smile plastered on my lips as soon as I started reading.

‘Last night I slept, and when I woke her kiss Still floated on my lips. For we had strayed Together in my dream, through some dim glade, Where the shy moonbeams scarce dared light our bliss. The air was dank with dew, between the trees, The hidden glow-worms kindled and were spent. Cheek pressed to cheek, the cool, the hot night-breeze Mingled our hair, our breath, and came and went, As sporting with our passion. Low and deep Spake in mine ear her voice: “And didst thou dream, This could be buried? This could be sleep? And love be thrall to death! Nay, whatso seem, Have faith, dear heart; this is the thing that is!” Thereon I woke, and on my lips her kiss.

Let’s meet again.

Min Yoongi’

in case you’re wondering, the poems featured here are ‘the more loving one’ by w.h. auden and ‘assurance’ by emma lazarus.

hope you enjoyed!

[paradisobound]

Starstruck

Summary: Phil attends all of Dan Howell’s concerts. In fact, he makes it a rule to even record every one he goes to. You could say he was in love with Dan Howell and in fact, that wouldn’t be a lie because he’s actually Dan’s fiancé. Too bad Dan’s fans see him as the creepy guy at Dan’s concerts. 

Warnings: A brief mention of sex but not explicit. 

Word Count: 3.6k 

Genre: Famous singer!Dan and present!phil 

A/N: I thought of this fic after finding out Sophie Turner attends a lot of the Jonas Brother’s Concerts because of Joe and I thought it would be cute to write a fic with a slightly different side! Happy reading :) 

**Read on Ao3**

“Dan Howell we love you!” 

“Dan! Dan! Dan!” 

Phil groaned as looked through the screen of his phone at the video recording of his fiancé up on stage. That was one thing Dan did make Phil promise to do if Phil was going to be attending every concert on his tour: record each show. 

So, Phil, being the best fiancé he could be, made a bunch of storage onto an old iPhone he found laying around their flat and proceeded to record and attend each show on Dan’s United States Tour. Tonight, they were in some place called Buffalo and Phil couldn’t really make out what was even going on here besides the fact that Canada and Niagara Falls was literally on the other side of the city. 

It was night 13 and although Phil knew Dan would never admit it, Dan was tired. Phil could tell on the screen as his body lagged a bit more than it did in rehearsals and his singing was a bit off key. Not like any of the screaming girls and boys could tell the difference but Phil had been to enough rehearsals and shows to tell with Dan was struggling a bit with his energy. 

But, it was the last song before the encore. Phil’s phone battery was struggling to hold on and his arm was getting a bit tired holding it as steady as he could for Dan’s big ‘project’ that he wants the footage for. 

“Remember that the footage has to be usable, Phil. That means I don’t want your shaky arm trying to focus on me.” 

Phil laughed in his head as he replayed Dan’s words to him the night Phil told him he was attending each show and Dan told him about his master plans—which were also a secret…to Phil anyway. Phil hadn’t pushed the matter when Dan had made it clear he didn’t want to tell anyone his plan so Phil had just went along with it. Although he does in a way wish he could know why he’s getting an arm ache every night. 

The music to Dan’s final song cuts out and everyone starts cheering. Dan’s smiling, Phil’s smiling back, knowing Dan can’t see him but he can feel it, and everything has gone perfectly once again for another night. 

Dan walks off the stage and the band continues to play and Phil sees a few people begin to trickle out from the corner of his eye but he just shrugs it off as people wanting to leave early or wanting to beat the crowd. He tries not to feel a little bit hurt when he sees some people leave the show early even though an irrational part of his brain wants people to stay and see what his fiancé is doing on the stage. 

Its radio silent in the stadium. Phil is still shocked that Dan managed to sell out a nearly 40,000 person stadium but he has. Just as people look defeated and ready to leave, Dan comes back out in an entirely new outfit and the whistles and cheers begin again. 

Dan’s final two songs are Phil’s favorite. But that’s honestly because they’re about him. If people didn’t know the meaning of Dan’s songs, they would think they were about a childhood love or even a teenage love that blossomed into more. They wouldn’t know that they, quite literally, told the world about his and Phil’s long-term relationship. 

As Dan belted out the lyrics about blue eyes and raven hair, Phil felt the hair on his arm prickle up a bit and goosebumps form. He always gets chills. He remembers when Dan first wrote the pieces and read the lyrics to Phil. Phil had cried so hard and just held Dan close as Dan just giggled and kissed his cheek. 

“Why are you crying?” 

“Because they’re beautiful, Dan.” 

“Yeah, well, you’re just as beautiful too.” 

It was cheesy. Of course it was. But in the words of another Dan lyric, “it was meant to be cheesy”. 

Just as Phil’s phone gives the final battery warning, Dan’s set finally ends and a shower of sparks sprays up as confetti falls all over the floor. Phil reached out and caught a few pieces himself and pocketed them in his jean jacket. He was saving those for his own special surprise. 

Dan left the stage and the lights slowly turned on and Phil waited for the mass crowd of girls around him to dissipate before he snuck around to the stage entrance and visited Dan in the dressing room. 

Dan’s security guards knew him by face so he didn’t have to say anything when he walked behind the stage and ended up by a door that he opened to a long hallway. When he got the dressing room and saw Dan’s name on the door, he knocked once and pressed it open. 

“Hey!” 

Phil shut the door behind him as he walked in to Dan sprawled out on the couch, his arms flopped down by his side. “You did amazing tonight.”

Dan turned his head and smiled at him, his face red and a bit sweaty, his make up a bit melted. “You’d say that even if I fucked up every song.” 

Phil walked over and sat down on the other end of the couch. Dan immediately sat up and scooted towards Phil before flopping into his chest and relaxing. Phil wrapped his arm around Dan’s upper body and pulled him close, bending down and kissing the top of his head. 

Just as Dan’s body relaxed a bit further and Phil felt the rest of his muscles tense, the door opened and Dan’s manager walked in, her phone in head. “We’re going to have to leave within the hour to get on the road towards Pittsburgh.” 

Dan just nodded and smiled at her as he pulled away from Phil and stretched. He was still fully in his costume—well, it was an outfit but it was pretty costume-like too in Phil’s opinion but the sparkles and glitter sequins on the black leather covering Dan’s arms. 

“You should get dressed,” Phil says turning to Dan. “Tonight is going to be a tour bus night and I don’t feel like having you complain the entire time that your jeans are too constricting.”

Dan scoffed and reached out, slapping his arm. “That was once and you had no problem helping me get the jeans off so I don’t want to hear you complain, you twat.” 

Phil just giggled and leaned over, capturing Dan’s lips in a quick kiss. He still gets butterflies in his chest when he kisses Dan and he loves that. He loves that Dan still has the same affect on him as he did when they were teenagers, meeting for the first time in a bar in Manchester. Dan was singing for a cover band and Phil was just a lonely college student looking to have a few drinks. 

It was really like fate that they actually took each other to bed that same night but then both simultaneously decided that being together only once wasn’t going to cut it and nearly ten years and one proposal later, here they were. Phil supporting Dan on tour as Phil works from his laptop for the BBC. 

“Maybe if you’re good we can celebrate in the hotel room tomorrow night,” Dan whispers before pressing another kiss to Phil’s lips. Phil just smiles into it and kisses back one more time for good measure. 

“Hm…maybe.” 

Dan shoves Phil back with a laugh as he finally stands up and makes his way over to his suitcase in the corner that was filled with all of his stuff. Phil watched as he took off his outfit and hung it on a hanger for the crew to grab later and then put on a pair of sweatpants and Phil’s baggy York University sweatshirt. 

Phil gave that to Dan when they first started dating so when Dan went back home at night, he would still have Phil with him. Now, Phil would love to have that hoodie back but Dan quite literally growls when Phil even makes that suggestion so he lets Dan have it now. 

They grab the rest of Dan’s stuff and then make their way out the back to their tour bus and get inside with minimal people around…thankfully. They take a seat on one of the couches on the side and Dan curls up onto Phil just as Phil wraps his arms around him once more. 

They’ll go to the bedroom soon where they’ll sleep but for right now, they were just going to sit and relax for the ride. 

***

Something surprising happens when Phil wakes up the next morning, a bit disoriented as he realizes he’s on the moving bus. He checks his phone and goes on Twitter and sees that ‘Daniel Howell Live’ is still trending on Twitter. He curiously checks the hashtag because hey, if he can find some good video and good photos for PR, he’ll have Dan’s manager ask the people for permission to use them. So he scrolls a bit and he scrolls a bit more and suddenly there is a photo of him, stood at his seat, recording the show. 

Has anyone else noticed this guy is at every show??? What does a middle aged man go to all of Dan’s shows?? That’s creepy. 

After that tweet, there was a thread and apparently there was a photo of him taken at every show and he legit didn’t know about it. He, in fact, had zero idea anyone was taking his photo and he genuinely was a bit freaked out by it. 

He read a few more tweets. 

He’s been at every show I’ve gone to! I’ve noticed him! Maybe he’s a stalker of Dan…how gross. Dan’s not gay. 

Phil had to scoff at that, loud enough that Dan turned over in his sleep and settled his weight into Phil’s chest, knocking his phone slightly out of the way so his head could rest there. “What are you laughing at?” Dan asked, his sleepy voice so slurred Phil could hardly understand what he was talking about. 

“Just some tweet I read saying you weren’t gay.” 

Dan snorted and reached up, making grabby hands for Phil’s phone so Phil handed it over and Dan sat up a bit and looked at the tweets. “These are actually kind of laughable.” 

“I know.” 

“They think you’re my stalker.” Dan laughed. “Who even pays attention to whether or not someone is at a show every night?” 

Phil shrugged because he genuinely didn’t know either. 

Phil knew that fans speculated about Dan’s sexuality though. Really, it’s been a source of talk ever since Dan’s first big break a few years back when he opened up for Taylor Swift on her European Tour. But Phil also knows that Dan has made it completely clear that he wants to keep his sexuality and his relationship with Phil only for private. And Phil completely gets that. 

They’ve been out since they started dating to close friends and family. Phil’s been out to everyone he’s known since university. But Dan has always had a bit more trouble accepting his sexuality and for that, Phil understands Dan’s hesitation when he says he’s not ready to share that side of his life yet. 

But Phil loves Dan more than anything else. He loves his smile, his dimples, his laugh, and the way he insults him when they’re being silly. But he also loves the side of Dan no one sees. The side where sex and love and intimacy is involved. He even let a selfish part of himself think about that while they were in bed together the other night. A part of him that when he fucked into Dan, he thought about how no one else knew this side of Dan: this was the side that only Phil got to see. 

“Hm…” Dan says, breaking Phil’s thoughts. “It’s quite amusing to me that so many fans are so adamant to say I’m straight. Like, I think it’s actually quite obvious that I’m gay in the same way that I know it’s obvious I like dick but…” 

Phil squeaked and pushed a hand over Dan’s mouth to get him to stop that thought right there and Dan just opened his lips and licked a fat stripe over Phil’s palm that had Phil cringing and pulling his hand away. 

“You’re easy to break, ya know.” Dan says, laying his head on Phil’s chest so he can look up him. His big brown doe eyes were like pools that Phil could get lost in. 

“It’s because I love you too much.” 

Dan kisses Phil’s chest. “Mm…love you too.” 

They get off from the bus not long after to check into their hotel and put their suitcases in their room. Afterwards, it was straight to the venue to prepare and do the soundcheck and Phil was going to walk around and explore Pittsburgh a bit more, seeing as he’s never been before. 

That night, he ends up in the same floor pit that he was in the night before, like he always is, with his phone fully charged and ready to go. He sends Dan a quick ‘good luck, i love you so much’ message before he puts his phone away and takes out the one to record. 

The show goes smoothly and everyone is happy and the night ends the same way with Phil retreating back and visiting Dan just as Dan is getting out of his costume. He leaves with Dan to go to the hotel and when they get back into the room, he goes on Twitter again and happens to see the same thread but with new photos of him. 

The man was at Pittsburgh too!! Does @danielhowell know he has a stalker?? Should we contact the police? 

Phil rolled his eyes and showed Dan the tweets to which Dan replied with an eye roll and a “for fucks sake!” before he flopped onto the bed and rolled towards Phil to snuggle. 

“Gonna have to get security after me apparently,” Phil playfully jokes. 

Dan swings his leg over Phil’s hip and sits flush on his hips as he leans down and kisses Phil soundly on the mouth. “Maybe so.” He whispers with a smirk, placing his hand on Phil’s jaw. “Maybe I’ll have to tell security that a hot guy has been chasing after me since my uni days and he follows me to all of my concerts and he also happens to be my fiancé who is fucking great in bed and…yeah, I’d really like to continue the great in bed part right about now.” 

So after a quick round of sex that left them both breathless, Phil fell asleep with the thoughts in his mind about what they were supposed to do. Dan had a two day break before his show in Albany so he hopes by then maybe everyone will forget about him. 

But somehow, he fears they won’t. 

***

Dan flubs up on accident in Albany. 

Phil doesn’t realize what he’s done until the young girl sitting next to him on the floor is pointing out the silver band on Dan’s ring finger. 

It’s his engagement ring and as soon as Phil sees it, his heart stops a bit in his chest because he knows Dan is gonna have to answer for this. He’s going to have to answer for why he suddenly is wearing a ring on that finger when he never did before…well, in the public eye anyway. 

Phil proposed to Dan over three years prior but they both agreed on not planning any of their wedding until Dan’s done with his United States tour. Phil was completely fine with that but Dan wore his ring all of the time when it was just them or he was going out with friends. 

He normally keeps it safe on the bus or in the safe in the hotel room but he must have forgotten to take it off. 

And fuck other people are pointing now and he hopes to God Dan cannot notice what is happening. 

At the end of the show, Phil practically runs to Dan’s dressing room where Dan is crying softly on the couch, his face scrunched up as he struggles to hold in the tears of guilt and frustration that he can read so clearly on Dan’s face. He runs over to him and gathers him tight as Dan lets them go and apologizes to Phil for wearing it. 

“I forgot I had it on.” Dan said through strangled tears. 

“It’s okay.” 

“But it’s not!” Dan cried. “Oh my God I’ve fucked up so bad.” 

And while that turned out to not be entirely true, Phil did reassure him as much as possible that everything was going to be okay. 

***

The tabloids talk about it first. 

Dan Howell Spotted With Mystery Ring on Left Hand in Albany Show. 

That seemed to be the headline written everywhere like a slap across the face. 

All of the fangirls were crying. What women is he secretly married to? What is that ring? When did this all happen? How could this all happen? 

Phil felt like he had whiplash reading all of the comments. 

“We’re going to have to address this,” Phil says softly. 

“I know.” 

They’re sat in a hotel in Boston now, waiting for the show to begin in a few hours. They had snuck away for a private talk and everyone had let them go. They needed to discuss this, no matter how hard it could be. 

“I know you don’t want to out us…” 

“No,” Dan says, biting his lip. “I…I think I have to.” 

“You don’t have to,” Phil says. “You could always say you want to be private and…” 

“How long is that privacy really going to last, Phil?” Dan asked, his voice defeated. “Is it going to last for a year or only for an hour? People are already commenting about you and you’ve done nothing…maybe we should just come out.” 

“If that’s what you want.” 

Dan bites his lip and bit harder and then looks Phil in the eyes as he nods. “It’s what I want.” 

“Okay,” Phil says, leaning in for a kiss. “It’s what I want too.” 

Phil wanted whatever was best for Dan and if this was best, then he wanted to go along with it. 

They made their way back to the stadium and Phil opted for standing off the side of the stage instead of in the audience, just in case. He’d seen some of Dan’s earlier shows this way but never once has he seen him play such a sold out show from the sidelines. 

They concert begins as normal and Phil notices that Dan is wearing his ring again, not taking it off and he feels his heart flutter a bit. Dan does his normal songs and routines and then before they know it, the encore is starting. 

But right before it does, Dan asks if the audience can get quiet for a moment. 

“As many of you all know,” he begins into his microphone. “The next few songs I have written are about someone very special in my life. I’ve been hiding them from you for a very long time now and I really just…don’t want to anymore. They’re such a massive part of who I am today and who I will be in the future and I don’t want to continue hiding them anymore. And it’s not fair to you guys either. 

Suddenly Dan turns to where Phil is standing and Phil feels his heart give out a bit. Dan motions for Phil to walk out and Phil looks down at his black Vibes shirt and ripped jeans and feels like he’s not properly addressed for this but he starts walking out anyway and there are suddenly cheers and yells and Phil doesn’t know what’s happening. 

“Everyone, meet my fiancé Phil.” Dan says, taking Phil’s hand and standing close to him. “You all have been talking about him quite a bit online so here is my apparent stalker who is actually just my fiancé and partner for the last 1o years.” 

Dan leans over and kisses Phil on the cheek and Phil feels a bit flush at all of this. Like he doesn’t know what’s happening anymore but he also doesn’t entirely mind it. 

“Okay, now get off the stage you dork. You’re stealing my show.” 

Dan turns to Phil and wraps a hug around him and Phil hugs him back, holding him close as he kisses Dan’s neck once and lets him go, lingering their hands touching for a bit too long as he disembarks down the stage with Dan’s security guard and stands in the audience once again, looking up at Dan with all of the love in the world. 

Social media went crazy that night, but really Phil didn’t mind. He went to the rest of the shows as promised and recorded all of them too. At the end of the tour, he finally asked Dan what the footage was for and Dan finally told him. 

“It’s for our wedding.” He says, not adding anything more. 

Phil just holds him tight and kisses his cheek some more. 

Life is going to be a bit hectic for a while, but at least he won’t be seen as the stalker fan anymore, and now he’ll be treated as Dan’s fiancé: a title he is more than proud to have. 

[randomfandomimagine]

Amazing ‘The Amazing Devil’ Things (Horror and the Wild)

I need to fangirl for a little because I absolutely love The Amazing Devil and I was so excited for the new album, and it did not dissapoint!! They put so much love and passion into this and it is art! I have been saving a bit of money and since their music makes me so happy I might buy the album. I wanted to talk about my favorte things about it under the cut (warning: it’s long). If anyone wants to listen to this piece of art, they posted it on Bandcamp here :D

The Rockrose and the Thistle

The sound of wind in the background, such a cool little detail!

Joey’s soft voice and how it breaks on ‘thistle’, omg

The sewing metaphor, I absolutely love it!

Madeleine subtly joining in 😍

The atmosphere! How unsettling and moving the song is

‘The kindest thing is to never leave you alone’

The Horror and the Wild

I thought I couldn’t love this song more and then came the studio version

I am a nerd and have so much fun singing this one!!

Even if it’s almost impossible to sing both their parts hahah

The beginning reminds me of Led Zeppelin’s Kashmir and I love it!

Some lyrics I trully adore, like:

‘You’re the words I promise I don’t mean’

‘and I am Time itself, I slow to let you play, I steal the hours and turn the night into day’

The change after ‘remember me I ask, remember me I sing’

How they move on to the chorus using a similar sounding word

‘Give me back my heart you wingless thing / think of all the horrors’

I absolutely adore how they sing ‘wild’ in this version

How Joey’s voice raises with ‘the’ and ‘your’ in the chorus

‘Fret. Not. Dear. Heart. Let. Not. Them. Hear’ and the drums!!

Joey singing that growly ‘remember me’

Then what is probably my favorite part of the song:

Just how cool it sounds, how fun it is to sing along, the awesome lyrics…

Fret not dear heart, let not them hear

The mutterings of all your fears, the fluttering of all your wings

Welcome to the storm, I am thunder,

Welcome to my table bring your hunger

The repetition of ‘old man’ and how the song slightly fades at the end

Wild Blue Yonder

How upbeat it is!! Catchy and fun rhythm!

When they sing ‘wonder’ and ‘yonder’ together

‘Hold’ (pause) ‘this time we’re done for’ 👏

‘So hold me like you used to, so tight I’d bruise you’

Everytime they use the word ‘love’ I melt

Or ‘dear heart’, ‘darling’ or anything like that, for that matter 😍

It is my absolute kryptonite, seriously!

‘All those books we both drowned’

‘I’m lost, I’m found, in you’

‘Can you hear that scratching’

‘robot vampire’…. just 😂

Madeleine’s voice when she sings the high ‘hide under the covers’

Welly Boots

One of my personal favorites!! (if you can’t tell)

The guitar!! Love that riff!!

The changes in tone, I love them so much

As many have said before, it reminds me of the Witcher episode 6

Just these lyrics!!

The change in rhythm after this last part!! So good!!

And I love you, don’t you know

That I’ll be with you all along, as long as you are kind

To those who are not strong and cannot find their scarlet welly boots

Cos when it’s cold

I’ll wrap my scarf around you

And when it’s hard

I’ll place your head into my hands

And when you scream that it’s not fair,

It’s like I’ve gone off to the coast

Left you behind just standing there

Pretending not to see your ghost

If only you could hear my voice

But you are screaming far to loud to hear me swear

Just because I left doesn’t mean that I’m not still there

The drums set the rhythm so well and I love them in this song especially!

‘But I’ll stick up for you, even though you haven’t got a clue, you haven’t got a fucking clue, And I’m so proud of you‘

Bonus points for Joey swearing 😂

‘I know you’re strong enough to do this on your own’

As always, Madeleine’s beautiful voice joining in 😍

‘Just when you’re about to give up every hope you have you turn around Perched by the stairs, someone’s gone and left behind, A brand new pair of scarlet welly boots’

That part hits me right in the feels and I can’t even tell why

The outro guitar riff, even if it makes me sad that it’s over

Farewell Wanderlust

THE PIANO FOLLOWED BY MADELEINE’S VOICE? I’M DEAD

THE SONG LITERALLY JUST STARTED, WTF? I’M IN LOVE

Joey’s voice lowly accompanying Madeleine’s 

‘I’m the hardest goodbye that you’ll ever have to say’

Just… Madeleine’s voice, it’s too gorgeous, I can’t handle it!!

How the piano stops at ‘I’m the Jesus of wishing to Christ he’ll come back‘

The way she sings ‘She’s down. She’s dead’ and the piano? Aaaaah

Joey whispering the lyrics and then his voice gathering strength

‘I promise you I’m not broken, I promise you there’s more’ gets me every time 😭

The way Joey sings ‘adieu’ is amazing and I don’t know why?

When they sing the chorus together it’s too much!! Omg, this is art!

The fucking ending is so brilliant, perfect end to a perfect song!

The tune also reminds me of an Avenged Sevenfold song, ’Acid Rain’

Maybe it’s the piano? Idk, but it just moved me all the more

Because Avenged Sevenfold is one of my favorite bands 😚

So when favorite bands collide I just can’t even hahah 😊

Fair

Probably my favorite along with Welly Boots (this is gonna be long)

This one reminds me so much of my series Soul of a Warrior (Jasnissa!)

‘It’s what my heart just yearns to say, In ways that can’t be said’

The first lyrics and I am already in love with the words in this song

Let’s just assume I fell in love with every single word of this one

Joey’s voice is so beautiful to listen to, I am s w o o n i n g

‘And he holds her close just to keep the world at bay’

‘It’s not fair how much I love you’ 😱😍😭

I really love the guitar in this one too

Again, those lyrics!!! Absolutely captivating:

The way his voice kind of breaks a little sometimes when he lowers it

And if you asked me to, if you asked me I would lose it all

Like petals in a storm, cos darling I was born

To press my head between your shoulder blades at night when light is fading

Just to let you know I’m old, waylaid and feels like I am wading into

carpet burns and carousels oh Christ you’ll be the death of me

And calm throughout his melodrama she will turn and say ‘dear heart It’s me, its me

You don’t need to pretend to be someone you’re not

The Office reference and the ‘that’s what she said’? Joey, you nerd 🥰

Also, how he kind of laughs as he is saying it? 

‘cos you make me ache you bastard’ aaaaaaaaah

That Unwanted Animal

This one gives me very specific vibes that I can’t identify

It’s like kind of medieval and dark but there’s something else

Still, I absolutely love them, this one is so unique!

When Madeleine whispers ‘you light the candle’, literal chills

Why is her voice so beautiful?! Stop it, ma’am, you are too powerful!

‘You try so loud to love me, But I cannot seem to hear’ 

The hushed ‘Throw the plate at the wall’ and the change? Amazing!

The vocals in the background are incredible!

More fanfastic lyrics, they never stop!

‘Be good to me, I whisper. And you say what. And I said nothing dear’ 

‘And these plates they smash like waves’ Battle Cries!!!

And you rip my ribcage open

And devour what’s truly yours

And our screaming joins in unison

I cry out to the lord

The lyrics never fail to amaze me, they are so damn good!

‘No, not I’ Joey? Sir, please, have mercy 😂

That ending with Madeleine’s voice and the drum and the guitar and the violin? *chef’s kiss*

Marbles

Again, knew this by heart because of the live version

And the studio version just improves it if that’s possible?

The instruments at the beginning already give me chills

And then Joey and Madeleine taking turns to sing? Ugh! 

When the drum comes in I absolutely love it

I think this version is a bit slower than the live one? I like it!

It’s also softer, they’re almost whispering at the start 💗

‘And you’re the thigh high hemline I just can’t stop staring at’ is, for some reason, such a fun line to sing :)

‘The flat we rented was a palace for my queen’

‘She sang do you think I’m sexy? And oh god I really did’

‘You’re not flawed darling, you’re just a little under-rehearsed’

My favorite part, even if I can’t exactly say why:

This song just tells such a compelling story!

And I’d sink to the floor, what’s the point anymore,

And you, you’d reply with a glint in your eye

(And you, you’d reply with a drink in your hand)

Saying ‘I don’t know, but I’m here, I’m all yours, dear heart don’t cry’

THE CHORUS IS PURE LOVE, OKAY?

‘Your eyes aren’t rivers there to weep but a place for crows to rest their feet’ is such a lovely thing? 

More amazing lyrics:

How Joey holds the note in ‘day’ and shifts back into the chorus

I’ve loved you, for a hundred years

Certainly fucking feels like it

The minute I met you the colours of my life begun to pour

I’m scared of the dark

And now, even though you’re mad and these memories won’t stay, it’s okay.

Cos now I get to meet you for the first time every single day

This song also reminds me a bit of the Witcher and Jaskier

‘The crows feet are new‘

‘Are you perhaps short of a marble?!′

Again, they nail the ending with Madeleine’s beautiful vocals

Battle Cries

As always, the guitar sounds great!

Something they often do that I love is how they sing different lyrics at the same time, Joey and Madeleine singing together is my weakness

THE LYRICS!

‘After summers of fasting I feel hunger at last’

But that breathing you hear don’t mistake it for sighs

Don’t you realise - They’re just battle cries dear

And these lines aren’t wrinkles dear heart

Hardly knew the words

They’re just dollops of paint on a new work of art

I’m dolled up love don’t I deserve to just

And as I walk away I know I’ve been through the wars,

But that creaking you hear in my bones is not pain, it’s applause

‘Our devils broke rank, and out of the depths came an army’

With you I could summon the gods and the stars

Watch them dance out the plays that we wrote from the heart

And we’d laugh at the ghosts of our fears. We were kids.

‘This isn’t a break up, dear heart, it’s a season finale’

This one just gets me with the tune and the lyrics together!

All it took to unearth in the dust and the dirt

Some release or respite from the heat and the hurt

Was taking the time now and then to ask how I am

And now at the end, at the end of all things,

I’m not going to scream, beat my chest at the wind,

I’m doing fine.

Also, Madeleine’s beautiful melody before the chorus, omg!

To summarize, this album made such an impression on me. I literally don’t remember last time I connected so much with someone’s music. They are all such incredible people and talented musicians, and Joey’s lyrics just stayed in my heart, he’s so incredible! 

[cloudyyoonji]

Our TicTac Love.

Han Jisung X Reader

Summary: Awkward moments can sometimes reveal hidden truths, especially when it comes to Han Jisung. Genre: FLUFF! HIGH SCHOOL SENIOR YEAR FLUFF!!

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Drama was your absolute favorite subject. Why? Because you got to spend a whole hour and a half with your best friend and awesome teacher, playing ‘educational’ pranks and goofing off.

You’ve always been competitive with your best friend, Han Jisung, the absolute do-gooder in anything he did, so today; when your teacher told you you’d be all competing in a race, you two were more than ready before it even started.

The race was challenging, a bombshell that your teacher dropped on the whole small class.

“So, you’re all going to have a box of tic tacs - which I have counted to see that the same amounts are in all the boxes, don’t worry. But you’re going to run around the school, and offer every person you see a tic tac. First back to the circle wins.” Your teacher grins, “The rules are only 2 tic tacs per person and no entering classrooms. I have eyes around the school to see that happen.”

You’re all buzzing with excitement, your eyes narrowing in on Jisung who is mouthing “You’re going to lose” to you, eyes glinting with a hint of mischief.

“Oh, it's so on.” You mouth in reply, gesturing to him as you receive your box of tic tacs.

“Ready. Set. Go!”

You’re all off your seats the instant ‘Go!’ is yelled, everyone scrambling down the stairs in a mad rush to make it out to the quads and oval, looking for any sign of a class, teacher or even a student walking.

Maybe this challenge was harder then you’d anticipated… Giving out only 2 tic tacs per person was exhausting, especially when class was on and there was nobody walking around during the periods.

5 Minutes till the hour is finished. You’re running, sprinting back to the classroom, only 2 tic tacs left in your container. “Mr. Williams!” You yell, hailing the science teacher with a wave of your hand. “Can I ask you something?”

The male nods, computer in hand as he watches you, a breathless student, approach him with heavy footfalls.

“Would you like some Tic Tacs?” You ask, holding out the container.

His eyes narrow on the container. “Is this for Mr. Walsh’s Drama class?”

You nod quickly, holding in your heavy breaths.

“I’ve had 2 students already come up to me. But sure, go ahead Y/N.”

You smile, quickly pouring the 2 remaining mints into his open palm. “You’re the best Sir! I won’t let you down!”

As you’re rushing off to the drama classroom, you hear him yell after you something along the lines of focusing in his class more.

The classroom is clear, your teacher surrounded by empty chairs. You’ve almost reached the top of the stairs, when the elevator dings, Jisung stepping out and walking towards the classroom.

Your blood boils, adrenaline kicking in as you spring to the classroom, literally neck to neck with him. Taking your seats next to each other, you breathe a sigh, lips twisting in a smirk. You so won, and Jisung totally knew you did.

So one by one, the students return, some having still half full packets of TicTac’s.

As the bell rings, you’re all anxious for lunch, but also anxious to know the result of the quest.

“Okay okay, quiet down!” Your teacher yells, standing up. Chatter fades into silence, everyone waiting, anticipating.

“The winner of today’s challenge is... Han Jisung! And Y/N Y/L/N in a very very close second.”

Whilst the boy next to you cries out in excitement, you can only groan as he points to you.

His torment doesn’t stop there. All the way down the stairs and onto the oval, the boy is non stop talking about how he won, even if it was down to a fraction of a second.

You shove him in the chest, fixing your bag back onto your shoulder. “Yah, it was a second difference!”

“Yeah, and I still won!” The boy replies, holding out his arms in victory, now walking backwards to face you as he rubs his victory in.

You roll your eyes, turning to walk towards where your group of friends sat in the quad. “I’ll see you next period.”

And so you two part ways, a light smile on your features as you think of how happy the boy was.

You were fond of Jisung, a type of fondness that existed between true best friends. However, you’d spoken to your friends, concern lacing your tone when you told them how you thought you might fancy the boy after his hug had truly left you breathless on more than one occasion. Your friends confirmed the feelings after your explanation, which left you even more nervous.

How could you develop stupid feelings for your even stupider best friend?!

Upon getting to your spot, you notice the absence of people. Sighing to yourself, you turn back around immediately, heading back to the oval. How could they just ditch you?!

Ignoring the twinge of excitement that comes your way at the realization of getting to sit with Jisung and the rest of the boys too, you head off back to the oval.

You can hear the music the instance you’ve finally reached the oval, spotting the group, a few guitars on laps and a whole lot of amazing vocals. It’s always one thing you’d envied, their amazing ability to sing. You had no concept of music, not on how to play nor on singing either. You more liked the dancing aspect of it, the way the music made your body move.

Moving closer, you can hear the familiar chords of “Waves”, Seungmin’s vocals harmonizing with Chan’s beautifully.

You’re careful not to disturb, waving a small “hi” to each of the boys as you take a seat next to Changbin, who has a guitar on his lap.

This was normal practice for them at lunch. They would joke around, singing or even rapping to different songs. You loved it, hearing their voices and how well they blended together.

Jisung has a seriously amazing voice.

Even now, as he closed his eyes, singing out the chorus of the song, your heart skipped a beat. His voice was so sweet, soft and silky. He blazed through the notes like he’d been singing his whole life.

“The freedom, of falling. A feeling I thought was set in stone.”

As he opens his eyes, your heart skips another beat when they meet yours, a little flustered at his piercing gaze.

So when the song ends, his lingering gaze sends literal shivers down your spine. The bell signals half of lunch has passed, but you hardly hear it over the sound of the heartbeat in your ears.

As the boy sits down next to you, pulling out some lunch, you’re jittery, standing up to walk around, scared that maybe the boy would see how you looked at him even after he’d finished singing.

“I’m going to the shop.” You blurt out, hands shaking as you reach for your bag. “Does anyone want anything?”

Chan looks up at you, slightly concerned.

“I’ll be back in time.” You tell him. You all have a meeting to head to in the next period, which was luckily one of Jisung, Seungmin, Felix and your own free periods.

“Okay... we’ll save you a spot.”

And with that you’re running, running to the shop, running away from your fluster with Jisung.

How could he make you feel like this with just a look?!

Browsing the aisles, your a little conflicted at what to buy. But there it was, as clear as day, the rack of tictac’s calls to you like a cheesy beacon.

You had to tell him.

They're in your hands before you know it, taken up to the counter, $5 bill in one hand as the cashier takes the pack from you and scans it.

You’re staring at them, pen in one hand, box in the other. Your concentration was strong as your shaking hand-scrawled on the box, blatant words that you knew couldn’t be misconstrued.

“I like you.”

The handwriting was messy; very you. The cursive letters forming the sentence seemed to radiate your nervousness as you ran back to the oval, the tictac’s hidden in your hand.

The bell rings as your halfway across the oval, the boys noticeably missing from their regular spot. You sigh, visibly stressed, running towards the staircase.

The auditorium was on the other side of the school!

You let a few choice words leave your lips as you trip over on the staircase, the cement grazing your knees. People lurch towards you, trying to help you up. But you’re quick to brush it off, continuing up the stairs and turning the corner to race up the 2 flights that separate you from the auditorium.

Hm, perhaps this is why your teachers always told you to not run on cement.

Ignoring your bleeding knees you knew would bruise later, you shove the box into your pocket, letting out a big exhale as you try and compose yourself.

The seats are mostly full, leaving you searching for the large group with hasty flicks of your eyes.

Ah, of course, they’re right at the back.  Rolling your eyes a little, you begin to trek up the staircase, knees throbbing in protest. By the time you reach the seats, you are quick to collapse into its cushion, examining your knees, which are bleeding quite bad.

“Shit! Y/N, what happened?!” Felix is quick to tend to you, catching the attention to the rest of the gang.

“Yah, y/n! Why would you run on concrete?!” Jisung asks you, examining your other knee.

“I’m okay guys,” You laugh, whacking the two boys away. “It’s nothing, really.”

Mrs. Last launches into her explanation about what she’s called everyone there for, explaining that the theater production rehearsals will begin next week, and people should just read the script to prepare themselves for rehearsals, no matter if their part is big or small.

“Sorry I ran off before,” you whisper to Jisung. “I forgot that I needed to go to the shop.”

“No, don’t worry! It’s fine,” the boy reply’s with a smile, ruffling your hair. “But are you sure you’re okay?”

You nod in reply, a smile on your lips.

As the teacher mentions the script, you elbow the boy in the ribs.

“Have you even read the script?”

He’s a little sheepish, smile giving everything away before he even speaks.

“Not at all.”

You shake your head at him, stifling a laugh as Mrs. Last shoots you two a look, concluding her lecture with “I won’t keep you from your classes any longer.”

The buzzing of people talking fills the room, voices echoing as everyone grabs their bag for their next class.

As the group disassociates as they head to different classes, Felix motioning for you and Jisung to head to your next class without him.

“I’ve got to get something from my PE teacher. You two head to science. I’ll meet you there.”

And so you two head to the labs, which is situated on the other side of the school. The tictac’s rattle in your pocket, their noise filling in the silence.

He helps you up the flight of stairs, grip on your hand to make sure you don’t trip again.

“Jisung,” You stop him with a touch of your hand on his, alone at the top of the stairs. “I... ah... we need to talk.”

The boy can only look at you, concerned and slightly confused as you pull out this damned pack of tictac’s, messy scrawl bold against the white.

“I...ah this hard!” You exclaim, shoving the pack into his outstretched hand, turning slightly to avoid embarrassment.

But a hand embraces you, pulling you back to face the boy, your cheeks red.

“Yah, Y/N. Don’t run away again, please.”

His smile makes you blush even more, almost melting into his embrace.

“You dork, I like you too! I thought I was being so obvious!” He exclaims, shaking you a little.

“Well,” you sigh, cracking a smile as you scratch the back of your neck, a little nervous. “I am an idiot.”

You cannot even describe how insane your heartbeat is now. You’re happy, so unbelievably happy that your feelings are mirrored by the boy. You’re also so nervous, unsure of what exactly will happen next now that you’ve both confessed.

His eyes glitter as they search your own, their fierceness only something you’d seen when he sang.

“Yes Y/N, you are. But now, I guess you’re my idiot.”

[minchiutau]

QUARTET NIGHT LIVE FLY TO THE FUTURE 2018 Report (Day 1&2)

Most details are from 1st day because we usually can’t see 1st day performances except for MC in DVD/BD anyway so i tried to focus on writing details of performance from 1st day more than 2nd (tho in term of perf there weren’t many differences) It contains most of the MCs and my thoughts about it!

Warning: Both reports and translations of the dialogue ARE not 100% accurate.  It’s based on what i and my friend remembered and took notes of. The post is extremely long! And i spent tons of time typing this so there might be a lot of grammar and typing errors. I’d be happy if you would overlook all of my mistakes here!

Edit: Let me apologize for the extreme delay.. I actually had this finished a week after it happened, and i was probably super tired when i finished it. I’m not sure how that happened, but apparently i didn’t post it and this had been sitting on my drafts for six months because i went on a hiatus afterwards.... I realized it after opening tumblr a day ago. I was super sad because it was so long and i spent tons of time writing it.. if possible i don’t want to delete it so here it is!

Opening lines by QN members

Opening VTR, there isn't anything like last QN live but it was visual picture slideshow of previous live and it shows how QN has been around since 2012~now. QUARTET★NIGHT instrumental was playing on the background.

Followed with clock'tick tock sound, bell rang and the main stage monitor was split into two and QN appeared with gold stage outfit and big clock on the background! Tattsun and Morikubo had similar hairstyle to the previous live with minor change (styling?) while maenu had brown hair tied like in 6th live melting of snow performance and shoutan with ai's hairstyle+hair color (bleached in some parts, not entirely but it looks really nice!)

1. THE WORLD IS MINE I actually guessed this would be the first song and i was right! It started with really pretty acapella ;;_;; THEIR HARMONIES WERE PERFECT IT WAS LEGENDARY like it was probably one of the best harmonization i've heard in my life (if previous live wasn't enough) I kinda forgot what happened during this performance because i was too amazed by how good they sang tbh. Pretty sure people know how good QN harmonize, but this one was especially good! If i remembered it right, there were some dance moves! The audience also sang "The world is mine!" part in the bridge, it was fun! I literally cried the moment they appeared i can’t remember much AHAHA //sweats

2.Poison KISS As soon as the intro started people around me went crazy with their screams xD It's more or less similar to what we've seen in previous lives. Do they have any tradition bc they always sing this song since 3rd live xD Except of course, they were dancing a lot more now and this song is actually one of the good example of their improvements! This song is still as hyped as always. They walked from the main stage to the front stage and during that they also did some poses and fanservices

MC (or not really since they were talking in character voice the whole time? kinda like opening serifu) Maenu: *Camus butler mode* Welcome to "QUARTET NIGHT LIVE FLY TO THE FUTURE" ladies and gentlemen. I'm Camus and let us enjoy tonight together. *Camus usual mode change* Or did you really think i'd say that, you peasant?! Be sure to follow us to the end. (In 2nd day camus didn't say the peasant thingy tho idk why) Shoutan: I'm Mikaze Ai. I'll make it a fun and dokidoki live until the end! *throw kiss* Tattsun: It's Kurosaki Ranmaru! It's finally our rocking time! Let's enjoy it till the end! Morikubo: Rei-chan’s the one left here~! My girl and my boy!! It's okay for Rei-chan to start first, right~?! and it went right to the next song

3. On Your Mark! I personally thought that this song sounds hard to sing (maybe bc of the key progression??) but Morikubo did great! His singing was super stable and consistent, as usual. He danced A LOT more on this one! Probably the most i've seen from reiji's solo so far! And he did super great! ;; It’s similar to the perf he had in 6th live except i think he did even better this time!! He must've worked really hard! He forgot a bit of his part in 1st day xD but he recovered right after!

4. Futari no Monogram I HAD FEELING THIS WOULD COME bc it was the only ai's solo shoutan didn't sing in QN 1st solo con.. and I definitely saw improvements! He was dancing (almost) all of the time and but he sounded A LOT more stable than 5th live (and i think 5th live was already great) it looked so easy for him xD But all in one it's similar to the one we've seen previously, except i think there were some additional moves? (Edit: many parts are entirely different too) In the end shoutan also said "Da~isuki" like 5th live, except it was in a bit more playful tone (kinda teasing tone?) Overall i think he did even better than 5th live! He also did some fanservices and i personally like the part where he fixed his silver gloves.

5. Saintly Territory Maenu appeared with his (this time a bit thin?) white mantle and did the dance like in previous live! Same with shoutan, i think he improved a lot with his singing stability and this time it sounded extremely stable and he looks a lot more relaxed with his dancing too!;; I really love how they keep on improving even tho they were already that good to begin with. He came to from main stage to front stage and suddenly he appeared with camus' stick from halfway and danced with it! xD He danced a lot! I’m not sure if it’s in this song or not but if i remember it right on first day, he also gave us a fanservice of him smirking in front of the camera and people went crazy over it (i mean, me too AHAHA)

6. BE PROUD Remember how legendary 6th live performance of this song was? Yeah, this time it was equally amazing. He appeared with stand-mic and it was a straightforward+simple performance, yet his singing was really amazing i kinda stopped swinging penlight.. The adlib on the bridge was really powerful and it just hit me hard i almost teared up ;; On last reff he went down on his knees and made really pained expression ;; in general he had pained expression on his face and it made me emotional.. also the trademark super-long notes in the end was also there, it was just amazing! I got chills. Personally i like last reff "hoeru shika naku (I have no other choice but to howl)" because he sounded like he was actually howling. BUT SERIOUSLY it was extremely emotional, both days were powerful and all in one it’s just simply amazing. Fight me you don’t like Ranmaru and tattsun after you listen to this performance AHAHA

The screen suddenly said "Acoustic corner, Reiji Camus", Morikubo and Maenu appeared with long sleeves shirt. Morikubo (reiji's) was black (with stage-like vest?) and maenu was white (with blue tie).They greeted the hall and live-viewing audience. Maenu wore camus' glasses. They said they were doing something new, which was acoustic corner! The band (?) was preparing on their back while they were doing the MC. Chairs were also prepared for them and they talked while sitting on it, also telling the audience to sit throughout acoustic performance.

Day 1 They talked about there weren't many chances to have only the two of them on MC and how rehearsal have passed in a blink of eye. It seemed like they were doing it under a lot of pressure (considering last live extreme high quality i'm not surprised tbh lol) Maenu: "It's hard to gather all of us together on the rehearsal" Morikubo: "We only managed to get all together once (?!) on the rehearsal. We sometimes did it with three of us present and for some reasons most of the time one of us couldn't be present." (audience sounded surprised! Me too, they performed really good together i just didn't expect it) Maenu: "I started rehearsal mainly from September. Though of course,  i received choreography videos beforehand." Morikubo: "The red person started really early, didn't he?" (audience laughed) Maenu: "He always got to start rehearsal really early every live" Morikubo: "He always got to start really early i couldn't help but thinking "Eh?! He started already?!" when i heard it." Maenu: "And he'd contact us with "I started with it!" first everytime" After that they were talking about the live and how it started with a new song! Apparently they were practicing it it a lot to the point that they saw it on their dreams lol Morikubo danced a bit (?) of the choreo with his hand, pointed at Maenu and said he often did those moves (practicing the move, the usual maenu’s greatness; not sure but i think it was killer kiss moves?) xD They talked about how it was the first time for the four of them to perform an acoustic corner on utapri live and that the live was fun. Morikubo: "I always receive the choreography video from the dance teacher first and i got to voice my opinion first if the dance was too hard or if it needs to be changed into easier moves. If i'm okay with it then the three of them will follow. (Because he's the oldest) Until now if some parts were too hard i'd say so and got scolded by certain someone (Tattsun LOL). But this time, after receiving it I said nothing about it and did it the way it's supposed to be." (Audience cheers) Maenu: "The choreography was really hard, wasn't it?" Morikubo: "Neverthless, our duty this time is to follow after Quartet Night. If the four of them are supposed to do it that way, then we will do our best to follow after them. We did our best without making excuses." (Audience cheers) Morikubo: "Up till now, there are a lot of idol groups existing right? They dance and sing." Maenu: "They do." Morikubo: "But look at us, we're dancing, singing AND harmonizing. Isn't that rare to be found?" Maenu: "It's rare indeed!" Morikubo: "We're dancing, singing AND harmonizing! (2nd time xD)" (Audience cheers) Morikubo: "If the four of them aim for even higher level, we'll also aim for it and chase after them(characters)!" After that they called for the acoustic band members. They also talked about Maenu's Camus glasses and apparently, Maenu being the biggest Camus fan he is, got the glasses by himself xD (If i remember right it got sold out really fast so i think he meant he put tons of effort to get it)

Day 2  They talked about how they’re doing it on Kobe this time. Up till now utapri live (or most events actually) was held in kanto region/near tokyo but this time the live was held in kansai region (Psst as someone who lives in kansai i’m extremely happy) They greeted people at live-viewing. Maenu: *to the camera* “Can you see us here?” Morikubo: “Live-viewiiiing!” Some of the audiences in the hall went “Fuuu~↑” even tho they were calling for the live-viewing LOL Maenu: “*a bit puzzled* O--oh I could hear their voices, i heard the Fuuu~“ xD From this point they’ll keep on doing this few times if someone let out voices when they were calling for people in live-viewing LOL There was also a small accident of the staffs bringing wrong water-bottle for Maenu (it was tatsu’s) xD They talked about how the penlight color change was automatically controlled by the staffs (like the one on previous live) Morikubo: “I thought it was amazing!” Maenu: “At first i thought ‘they changed the color so quickly!!’ but it seems like that was not the case” xD Morikubo: “Ah, but it’s possible to switch it into your favorite color, right?” Maenu: “Yes, it’s possible to do both” Morikubo: “If i say a color right now would it be possible (for the staffs) to change the color right away?” Maenu: “It’s supposed to be on programmed automatically isn’t it?” Morikubo: “Let’s try it!” Maenu: “I’m not sure, we haven’t told the staffs beforehand!” xD Morikubo: “We haven’t told them anything!” Maenu: “They must be panicking right now” Morikubo: “Everyone, I’ll say ‘red’ so please switch your penlight into another color and don’t change the color manually! Let’s see if it’s possible” Morikubo: “Here i go, red!!!” They waited few seconds and the color didn’t change xD Morikubo: “So it’s not possible!” *audience laughed* Maenu: “It has to be programmed beforehand” in the middle of their talk suddenly all of the penlight on the hall turned red Morikubo: “OHHH IT’S RED!!” Maenu: “That’s amazing!!! The staffs definitely panicked just now” Morikubo: “I’m sorry for doing it suddenly!”  Maenu: “(it’s all in red) So this is what Tatsu saw while singing” Morikubo: “(to audience)Ah, you can turn it back to your favorite color now. Thank you very much for your cooperation” They talked about how the concert hall is a good hall (and i totally agree) and how they could see the audience clearly. Then they talked about how it was a 2 days concert as opposed to prev one. Afterwards Morikubo told us that they’re ready to do it for another day or two xD Maenu agreed Maenu: “Even the rehearsals were fun. Of course there were a lot of hardships, but the sensation of being able to stand with the four of us.. it’s just addictive” Morikubo: “Lately, there’s something all of us often do. Inside the dressing room, when the four of us were sitting in front of the mirrors and our songs were played on the background, we’ll do an imitation/impression of our own characters”  Maenu: “A bit exaggerated one” Audience screamed “Do it~~” and the two of us fell into silence all of sudden xD Maenu: “If you said something like that of course it’ll come into this!” Morikubo: “It’s more or less just what you always hear from us” Audience told them to do it again Morikubo: “Yesterday we talked about such topic. We were talking about how Shouta used to sing demos of most utapri songs and we asked about how he did our character voices. *stares at maenu* How did he do Ran-Ran again?” Maenu: “?! I’d be the one doing it?!”  He did an impression of Ranmaru’s “Arai hou ga ii~” of Poison kiss and it was super funny! xD He made his voice really hoarse and also made funny expression with his eyes wide-opened LOL Morikubo then apologized at him for making him suddenly do it Maenu: “You told me to do it!” Morikubo: “I wasn’t expecting you to do it with that expression” Maenu: “I’m sorry please forget the thing i did just now” LOL Maenu: “At rehearsal we often do something like that to fill the part of the member that wasn’t there. For example Morikubo-san’s part” Morikubo: “They’ll start imitating ‘Tee ↑ ee↑ (the vocal swing he often does, you’d probably get what i mean if you listened to Reiji’s singing in general)” Maenu: *imitates* “More and More and~~(poison kiss w/hands movements too)” Morikubo: “It’s not “Mori mori ok?!”  (means to do something vigorously in japanese) Maenu: “Even all of those things were really fun” Morikubo: “Camus’ (impression) were amazing too you know” Maenu: “Tatsu totally did that on purpose!” Morikubo: “If Tatsu comes later, tell him to do it here” And they called the band

7. KILLER KISS When they talked about how they were going to perform it acoustic i actually couldn't imagine how it would sound with this song but it actually sounded really pleasant! I mean, it sounded a lot quieter than the actual song so you could hear their great voices and amazing harmonization crystal clear! It sounded really refreshing! They also did a bit of the little hand choreography similar to the one on 6th live. They sounded really powerful!

Shoutan and Tattsun appeared. Shoutan had white shirt with lilac-colored flower on his left pocket and Tattsun had black shirt they also talked while sitting like Morikubo and Maenu (At some parts they also stood?).

Day 1 Shoutan talked about how it's refreshing to be able to talk with just the two of them and tattsun agreed to it. In the middle of convo Tattsun just went with sudden "Let's introduce ourself" and the audience laughed. Shoutan: "Everyone, good evening! I'm Mikaze Ai's good friend Aoi Shouta!" Tattsun: "You went with that?! I'm the one who's always standing closest to Kurosaki Ranmaru, Suzuki Tatsuhisa." Tattsun: "Aaa~ It's refreshi-- *looks at shoutan turning his back from audience* Hey! Don't fix your belt here!" (Shoutan a bit panicking lol) Tattsun: "This is why before the live started i told you not to eat that many cream puffs!!"* (if you don't get this reference go search for game and drama CDs involving Ai lol) Shoutan: "That's not true!" lol Tattsun also said Morikubo and Maenu talked a lot so almost no topic left for them to talk xD Shoutan told the camera to zoom at Tattsun's nails. Apparently at previous lives Tattsun's nail colors were normal red but this time he finally had Ranmaru's burgundy dark red! Also Shoutan tried to let his nails grow but at rehearsal two of it hit the mic and broke. He also had Ai's color nail btw. Tattsun: "This time, at rehearsal we were often together. Of course we were looking at each other practices a lot too. The more i see him, to be honest I could only see Shouta as a girl!" Shoutan: "You said that a lot! Stuffs like "what's with that body line!?" Tattsun: "His girl power (女子力) is increasing day by day! If it's me i definitely wouldn't be able to do it! For example this pose *posing*" Shoutan: "This one? *posing*" (hard to describe so take a look at matoni-sensei's report pic here! the pose at the very middle of the pic) Tattsun: "How did you do that?" *imitating but failed* (Audience laughed) Tattsun: "This time, for example the dance, like previously talked, we're following the footsteps of our characters. As they go higher, we as one try to follow them. To begin with I only do stuffs like this once a year here you know!" Shoutan: "This kind of chance doesn't happen often, right? But actually tatsu-nii at his own will, you know, even after the rehearsal was supposed to end--" Tattsun: "Hey~ Stop this topic!" Shoutan: "When the rehearsal ended he'd go around saying "I'm sorry, can i do it just one more time?" you know! Of course we have to make sure we're in good condition by resting well too, but his feelings reached me and it made me want to reply it with same thing." Tattsun: "Right, at that time i had the time so i tried to use all of my time practicing and when i realized it i've been doing it for six and half hours." Shoutan: "Really, how many times did you do the live that time?"   (Audience laughed) Tattsun: "And Shouta was also there the whole time."(Not sure if he said he was standing there or singing behind him) Tattsun: "To be honest, I couldn't produce Ranmaru's voice easily. And so i'd need time to adjust my throat beforehand. Sometimes i got frustrated and was troubled with it alone. And at such times, he'd come closer to me and said "Tatsu-nii, what about doing quartet night songs together?". Among us, Shouta　is the one who's always trying to consider others feelings. At that one time all of us got together, we were troubled with a thing and couldn't come into agreement. At such time, Shouta was the first one to speak up "What about doing this way? Maybe it's going to change for the better!". He was always thinking about our feelings and what to do about it. In that way, he's the one supporting our backs and i think that's what's good about him." After that they talked about how they're going to sing after this with the acoustic band. Tattsun: "We were talking a lot prior to this performance, like how to make it sound better and what to add and improvise." Shoutan: "That's right, we talked a lot about it." Tattsun: "I was thinking of supporting Shouta while he's singing freely with his all, but actually Shouta also adjusts with how i'm singing. It feels like a matchmaking (お見合い)." Shoutan: "It feels like we're sharing same atmosphere!" Tattsun: "It made me feel like, "Ah, so singing with others could be this interesting!" It's really fun. I haven't had chance to sing with someone with such a different type of voices and it feels refreshing. *suddenly bowing?* Thank you so much" Shoutan was off guard because Tattsun just suddenly thanked him and was like "nn?!" xD Tattsun: "So, are we doing it?" Shoutan: "(to the audience suddenly) Do you want to hear us~?" (and of course we said we want to hear it) Shoutan: "They said they want to~" Tattsun: "Why did you start it and answer it yourself?" (Audience laughed xD) Shoutan: "I'm sorry" (Audience screamed "Cute~!") Tattsun: "That part! That's the cute part of you, you know" And i kinda forgot what they said after this.. but not long after they started with title call and the next song started! Day 2 Shoutan: “Good evening~ It’s finally our turn” Tattsun: “No matter how many times we did it, it always feels refreshing to be here (doing MC) with just the two of us” Shoutan: “It does! The previous two’s MC/perf was really heated up” Tattsun: “Right” Both: ”Right~” (audience laughed xD) Tattsun: “First, please introduce yourself” Shoutan: “I’m Mikaze Ai’s best friend, Aoi Shouta!” Tattsun: “I’m the one with privilege to stand closest to Kurosaki Ranmaru, Suzuki Tatsuhisa” Shoutan: “Isn’t it interesting that our introduction changed a bit everytime?” They talked about live-viewing and called out to them Shoutan: *to camera* “How are you guys?” Tattsun: “Everyone at live-viewing places, how are you?” the audiences in the hall went “Fuuu~↑” again Tattsun: “I could hear voices even though it’s supposed to be live-viewing! Amazing!” LOL After that they changed topic into the outfits they wore on acoustic corner Shoutan: “After the first day ended, there was something a lot of people were talking about regarding this acoustic corner. As opposed to our previous gold outfits, in this corner we have a shirt as our outfit. *Tattsun spun to show the audience his outfit*”  Shoutan: “It has Ranmaru’s color on it” Tattsun: “(the red cloth of the lower part of his outfit) I requested this” Shoutan: “For me, i wanted a symbol at Ai’s left chest. The staffs also added Ai’s color on it” (whoever manage to understand the symbolism i love you) Shoutan: “The real topic starts here. The shirt i’m wearing right now is  an oversize shirt. So it has a bit of kare-shirt (It’s a situation when someone is wearing their lovers’ clothes) vibe on it. “ *audience loud screams* xD Tattsun: “Right” Shoutan: “And that’s..” Tattsun: “That’s why you should just say you were staying over in my place” *fangirl squeal* Shoutan: “And there’s the fact that the two of us are doing MC together too.. For a moment i thought 'Eh?! Did i actually stay in Tatsu-nii’s house and borrow his shirt?!'”  Tattsun: “I thought it would look good on you, so you can have it” *embarrassed shoutan* xD Shoutan: “This person right here... Why does he always say this kind of embarrassing lines like it was nothing?! This is embarrassing” (you two so cute stahp) Tattsun: “Could you stop getting ‘seriously’ embarrassed?” xD Shoutan: “Of course i would! *to male audience* Even male would feel the same, right?!”  A male audience answered and tattsun laughed at it Shoutan: “I told you so!” Tattsun: “I could hear your voice (male audience) really clearly! Wait a bit, let me take off my in-ear monitor. (He looks happy to hear them) *male audience cheers*  Tattsun: “This is awesome, i could hear you guys really well! *laughs* Oi, you guys sure have great voices!” (they both look really happy xD) Shoutan: “And obviously, all of you girls, it made your heart throb right?!” *audience cheers* Shoutan: “I told you!” Tattsun: “Wait a bit, why did you put yourself in girls side?!” LOLOL Shoutan: “After standing on many stages of utapri, i feel like i could understand what everyone is thinking about!” Tattsun: “That’s what i told you in the rehearsal wasn’t it?! When i was watching your solo, i told you 'Your girl power(女子力) is increasing even more!'“ Tattsun: “Especially when he was dancing and singing, his body-line definitely doesn’t look like a male!  Shoutan: “Really? *does the same pose as the one on 1st day MC* I ended up doing it like that” Tattsun: “If i’m the one doing it, it looks like a plastic model *does the same pose* So stiff” Shoutan: “But in return you have the coolness of Ranmaru!” Tattsun: “All i could do is being aggresive (オラつくit’s a bit hard to explain)” Shoutan: “That’s Ranmaru!!” After that they talked about flower stand! (btw for some reasons if i go to QN events i always see many cool and artistic flower stands so if you’re curious be sure to look it up) Tattsun: “We wanted to see it by ourselves but it was close to where the audience was waiting so we couldn’t see it. But our managers took a VTR of the flowers for us and we all watched it together. While we were talking about how big and pretty it was suddenly a panel appeared and we were like ‘Eh?! You can create such flower stand?!’” Shoutan: “It was amazing wasn’t it?” Tattsun: “And also, i know it’s a form of love and i probably shouldn’t say an unnecessary comment like this, but there was a flower stand with Ranmaru’s silhouette and an instrument on it. The thing is, that silhouette wasn’t a bass, it was a guitar!!” Shoutan: “A-Ah, the instrument Ranmaru plays is..” Tattsun: “Bass” Shoutan: “And what came was...” Tattsun: “Guitar...” Shoutan: “That was close! So close! B-but it was a silhouette so..” Tattsun: “But.. it was a guitar...” Shoutan: “So close!” Tattsun: “That shape was probably an SG (gibson SG? i’m not sure) guitar..” Shoutan: “You sure know a lot!” xD Tattsun: “*asks a band member* Right?! But i could feel the love and so i think ’It’s okay, a guitar is fine too’” Shoutan: “After all, they made it so pretty!” Tattsun: “Indeed! Among them there were also outfits right? The quality was so high i thought ‘Eh?! Did we wear that outfits?!’” Shoutan: “Eh?! It’s the real thing?!” Tattsun: “Did we give/show the real thing to them?!” xD Shoutan: “Was it leaked somewhere?” Tattsun: “Without realizing it, do they know our three sizes?!” Shoutan: “That’s bad!!” Tattsun: “No way, no way!!! We’re in trouble!” (what are you guys doing LOL) Afterwards they talked about how it represents audience love for the series Tattsun: “It was so amazing it feels like being on an exhibition! Don’t you think we could charge an admission fee for this?” Shoutan: “That’s right!!” xD Tattsun: “A lot of people also sent it directly to certain character and on that part too i could totally feel your affection for them.” Tattsun: “Yesterday, after 1st day ended we had a small after-party with the four of us plus few people. We talked about a lot of things there and there were a lot of talks full of love for the series. We’ll talk about it in depth after the four of us are all here.” Tattsun: “Also, on dressing room lately, doing an impression of QN members has became a trend, right? Shoutan: “We do impression of each other’s characters. It’s before the live so tatsu-nii brought a stereo--  Is this the right word? I’m hopeless when it comes to such thing..  ” Tattsun: “Shouta” Shoutan: “Yes?” Tattsun: “Ba~ka” (in teasing tone asdhjkf what is this, a shoujo manga?) *Audience screams* Shoutan: “ *a bit of sulking tone* He said i’m an idiot..” Tattsun: “That’s called a bluetooth speaker!” Shoutan: “Ah! It’s a speaker!” Tattsun: “Don’t just go and group everything into 'latest model machine’!” Shoutan: “I’m sorry.. -- so he used a speaker to play the setlist of this live inside our dressing room. And then we’ll hum or sing along” Tattsun: “I thought if there’s no sound maybe the atmosphere would be a bit gloomy so i brought a rather big one and played the playlist of the setlist. And when i did that, suddenly we could hear Rei-chan that wasn’t Rei-chan” LOL Shoutan: “You’re right. After that we would hear an addition of one more person, and another one, we would then hear someone who did an impression of ranmaru, and so on...” Shoutan: “But the thing is, when Camus’ part comes..” Both: “All of us would do it” LOL Shoutan: “It was amazing wasn’t it?” Tattsun: “All of us would gather and sang the “kindan no kajitsu~♪ (killer kiss)” Shoutan: “We did it. Not only our own character, but did such to another character of the same group” Tattsun: “We did it” Shoutan: “Ai’s impressions were also amazing” Tattsun: “When doing Ai we would pucker our lips” Shoutan: “That’s right! Actually, i have such a small mouth/lips so when they’re doing it like that i could hear some similarities.. Tomo-nii also did it. That’s what’s trending on our dressing room lately” Tattsun: “When doing an impression of Ranmaru, all of them would sound so hoarse!” Shoutan: “First of all we would strain our voices” Tattsun: “Raise the distortion to the max..” Tattsun: “Do you still remember the first time you voiced Ai?” Shoutan: “I do! At that time i was just started learning how to be a voice actor. With an illustration of Ai right in front of me, I was thinking of how to make him alive. While thinking of such things i would practice over and over again. After spending a lot of time, i finally managed to do that.” Tattsun: “The staffs were really careful about it weren’t they?” Shoutan: “Yes. What about Ranmaru? How was it?” Tattsun: “A bit roughly but at that time I saw all of the utapri series first. And at that time, i thought that there weren’t many people with low tone voices. As a senpai, when i read the script at that time Ranmaru also said so many harsh words. I was thinking of what to do with it and came into conclusion that to make it sounds manly i should do it with low tone. And so it became like that.” Tattsun: “But that time, i didn’t give it much thought and let out the lowest tone i could at that time.” Shoutan: “I see!” Tattsun: “And so when i’m voicing Ranmaru i have to keep my throat wide opened the whole time” Tattsun: “The first time i thought ‘i’ve done it wrong’ was at the singing recording. At that time i realized that i have to practice hard to produce Ranmaru’s voice well. Especially at the very beginning, i have to warm-up my voice well before recording something as Ranmaru. At that time i’d practice “*Ranmaru’s voice* Oi” with my throat wide open.” Shoutan: “And so it becomes Ranmaru” Tattsun: “*points at the area between throat and chin* the shape of my face here would disappear (bc he’s keeping his throat open).  It would turn into a neck of a dinosaur. ” xD Shoutan: “But after going through all of that Ranmaru was born” Tattsun: “That’s right” Shoutan: “A lot of stories were there”

And they announced next song

8. HARUHANA ONE WORD TO DESCRIBE: BEAUTIFUL. I guess this one is easier to imagine in acoustic ver. It sounds really classy~ I must say this arrangement fits this song A LOT! Both of them sang super emotionally ;; Tattsun used softer tones at some parts and shoutan sang some parts more dynamically than others creating an emotional performance;; When this song was released i saw someone said that they voices don't go well with each other, but nah they really need to watch this performance. Their chemistry was heavenly.. their timing, the way their voice overlap and harmonize, even how they put power in their singing, it was a perfection. To be honest, the two of them in this performance probably had the best chemistry i've ever seen in utapri live performances. They shared A LOT of eye contacts! (they were staring at each other like most of the time? lol) They also inserted really pretty adlibs and even harmonize on it. Before last reff they sang it really passionately before suddenly (intentionally) stopped singing for seconds and left a bit of silence. After seconds they start again with really emotional last reff! It was amazing. (Explanation: "Oru youni kasaneatte, koe e to, uta e to~~~ (long notes) Aa *stops for like 3 seconds* yokaze ni fukarete...") Also last reff's "..mune wo sasu kedo ↑" was improvised as the notes went up instead of down. I couldn't say anything other than perfection. I personally like their perf of this song on the first day more than the second day (tho of course it was awesome too) so i kinda hoped utapri would ever release DVD/BD of 1st day of their lives too...

A bit of MC. Tattsun said that because they finally had the chance to sing acoustic they wanted to sing with the four of them and called Morikubo and Maenu!

Day 1 Morikubo said he had two things to say to them Morikubo: "First, the two of us talked about a lot of topics (that Tattsun said they have nothing left to talk) because it took a lot of time for the band to set their instruments on the stage!" xD Maenu: "It can't be helped!" Tattsun: "Talk about of such circumstances when we're on backstage instead of here!" (Audience laughed) Morikubo: "Also second, Tatsu is amazing with his practice and all, but sometimes there's also time when he's only stretching for 2 hours!" LOL ((After this they talked a bit more but i forgot the details, i think my memory went overcapacity starting from here, i'm really sorry //sweats)) They talked about how QN appeared for the first time at 2012. If i remember it right Tattsun also said previous live was only last year (6th) but he felt like it's been longer than that. I didn't remember who brought it up first (Tattsun maybe??) but they then talked about how Shoutan used to provide his singing for the demo/prototype version of utapri songs before the respective seiyuu sing the song! (I think a lot of you knew it already, as people around me already knew abt this too) Shoutan: "You promised you won't talk about this, right?!" xD and they realized they didn't give us enough explanation about what they were talking about and decided to explain. Maenu: "For a period of time, Shouta used to sing for all utapri demo song alone by himself. " Tattsun: "Not to mention, he also sang it the way the character would" Morikubo: "You did STARISH songs and Quartet Night songs right? And what about HEAVENS'? Shoutan: "I also did HEAVENS song!" (Audience and the rest of them were surprised) Tattsun: "That's why, i mean, isn't it a good idea to release those CDs?" Shoutan: "*panicking* No way! No way!" (Audience screamed they want it xD) Shoutan: "It's only good because they (respective char/seiyuus) are the one singing you know! Demo songs are just demo" Tattsun: "Even so, how did you do sing it (the way other characters/seiyuus would)?" Shoutan: "Of course, first i heard each of their CDs. After that i tried thinking of how to sing it so that it's easy to understand who is singing which part. If i sang it all the same way, it'd be hard to understand!" Morikubo: "If that's the case, for example how would you do it if you're doing Ranran's part?" Shoutan: "Wait!! I'd get scolded for this!!" xD (Audience laughed) Tattsun: "You won't!" Morikubo: "Like first, do you need to get your feelings fired up or such? Tell us how you do it! Maybe the audience will have the chance to sing Ranran's part at karaoke or something!" (I kinda forgot this part) Tattsun: "But for some reason, when everyone was imitating Ranmaru's voice, they'll make their voice hoarse. And they'd start saying "I'll kill you!"? Ranmaru didn't even say such thing!" Maenu: "We, and other utapri members (starish seiyuus?) sometimes imitate other character voices on rehearsal and practice." Shoutan: "We did! Also personally same here, when doing Ranmaru's voice i tried to make it sounds threatening (? (LOL xD)) and put my attention on creating more breathy sounds” Morikubo: “Did you hear it guys? Breathy voices!” Shoutan: “But the original singer actually didn’t even do it on purpose right?” Tattsun: “Yes, i’m not aware of it myself” Morikubo: “What about me?! Me?” Shoutan: “With Reiji i’d insert many vocal swings” Morikubo: “Ah, i see!” Shoutan: “Even with Ai there are times i used that kind of singing technique, but after listening to a lot of songs i tried to think of the way i could get the feel with my own voice” Maenu: “What about me?” Morikubo: “With Camus, the first thing is to put in a lot of sugar right?” Shoutan: “Yes xD a lot of sugar cube!” *Tattsun agreing lol* Maenu: “So how did you do it?” Shoutan: “With Camus.. i tried to sing a bit through my nose?” Maenu: “I see! It’s like when Tatsu imitated my voices with bad intentions (LOL) He does it a lot on the dressing room” Tattsun: “Didn’t you do that a lot too?!” Maenu: “We all do! *shoutan and morikubo laughed* Morikubo: “When we all stand side-by-side the ‘let’s imitate other characters tournament’ would just suddenly start!” Tattsun: “Inside the make-up room we were all sitting side by side. At that time the setlist of the concert was playing on the bgm. And then suddenly someone would just start singing a part that isn’t even theirs!” Morikubo: “Didn’t you *points at Maenu* also sing your own part exaggeratedly?!” Tattsun: “He did!!” *shoutan laughed*  Tattsun: “What were you even doing?!” Maenu: “I just thought maybe it would be interesting, i tried to guess how my singing sound for people around me” xD Morikubo: “In the prev live i talked about how singing with the three of you feels so good, right? This time while listening to ourselves in acoustic corner, the existence of Maeno’s solid low notes, Shouta’s clear high notes, and for mid-high notes i’ll be there together with Tatsu’s mid-low notes, make a great balance.” Shoutan: “I thought so too!” Morikubo: “Especially because it’s acoustic you could hear the voices clearly. It felt so nice! What do you guys think of it?” Maenu: “I ag...ree with you *stumbled with his words*” Tattsun: “Which position are you standing on right now?! Also where is your glasses (camus’ glasses) ?!” Maenu: “I took that off” Shoutan: “You took that off!” Maenu: “It’s a coincidence but our voices balance out each other extremely well. They’re so compatible with each other. It’s such a wonder.” Morikubo: “What do you guys think of it? (audience)” *audience claps* Morikubo: “Today is the Culture Day (a holiday in Japan) but we’re able to be here. Why don’t all of you start your own QUARTET NIGHT with 4 people around you right now? (xD LOL)”  Tattsun: “Live-viewing too!” And they show themselves on camera for people in live-viewing! Tattsun: “It’s QUARTET NIGHT~~~~” (his tone was so cute xD karunai dayo~) Tattsun: So, a lot of QUARTET NIGHTs would be born from among the whole country today? (LOL)

Morikubo: “Let’s sing together shall we?” They talked about the outfit a bit before getting into the next song

Day 2 After the performance Tattsun said that it was really fun and called for the other two. Morikubo&Maenu: “It was a great performance!” Morikubo: “I could listen to your (haruhana duo) talk and performance forever” Tattsun and shoutan laughed Shoutan: “Really?!” Morikubo: “I mean it. But Shouta, how could you mistook a speaker for a stereo?!” Maenu: “But i think Tatsuhisa who mistook a video for a VTR (video tape recorder) is also more or less the same” Morikubo: “What has gotten into you?! a VTR?!” *to tattsun* Tattsun: “EH?!” LOL Shoutan: ”I sure made a grave mistake..” Tattsun: “At least i didn’t say something like ‘a beta’ (betamax)” Morikubo asked the audience about the acoustic corner Morikubo: “It felt really good” Shoutan: “It was fun!” Maenu: “It was!” Tattsun: “During today’s rehearsal showtaro-san also talked about this but I feel like we could make a lot more stuffs with this corner” Morikubo: “Like for example, an acoustic live or something” (OMG YES PLS) *Audience cheers* Maenu: “It’ll be great” Tattsun: “For example wouldn’t it be nice if we do it with night sky in the background?” Morikubo: “Our dream keeps on getting even bigger” Tattsun: “We keep on saying this kind of thing, i’m sorry!” (about what they want to do in the future onstage without consulting to staffs xD) Morikubo: “I think it’s important to have a specific dream!” Maenu: “It’s also important to say it out loud” Morikubo: “That’s right, let’s keep on saying it. Right, everyone?” a bit of short silence Morikubo: “You’re not going to say it?!” LOL Everyone laughs Maenu: “It’ll be nice if it becomes true in the future!” Morikubo: “When the two of you were talking I could hear the voice of ‘my boy’ (male audience) so clearly! Let us hear it again, ‘my boy’!!” *male audience cheers* Maenu: “Oh! It’s amazing!” Morikubo: “*to a male audience* Thank you! It makes me happy!” *male audience cheers*  Tattsun: You guys sure have great voices! I’m so happy!” (he looks super happy xD) Morikubo: “What about in the live-viewing?” Tattsun& Maenu: “My boy?” Morikubo: “My boy!” Morikubo: *to the camera* “My boy in the live viewing~!!” *Male audience in the hall cheers xD* Shoutan: “There must be some of them!” Maenu: “I could hear them!” Tattsun: “That true, even though it’s live-viewing i could hear their voices!” LOL Maenu: “It reached us! Words filled with feelings definitely gets across, doesn’t it? xD Morikubo: “Right, it’s amazing. We’re so grateful that a lot of people from the whole country came to see us. Thank you very much” Morikubo: “This time it’s a 2 days concert. What do you think of it?” Tattsun: “Yesterday i felt extremely nervous.. I was full of momentary nervousness, but as i talked on previous MC the four of us had an after-party, didn’t we? It seems like i was really happy. The moment i woke up today all i could think of was about that!” Morikubo: “Actually, it seems like the four of us were really happy about it” *the four of them laughs* Morikubo: “We’re surprised about it ourselves. But it seems like the four of us put our arms around each other's shoulders and walk back to the hotel on that position!” (o mg cute) Shoutan: “It’s a real story!” Maenu: “We were all pretty drunk” Tattsun: “To reach the hotel there was a bit of distance so we decided to just walk to the hotel. The four of us keep on putting arms around each other during our walk back to the hotel! “ Shoutan:“That’s true!” Maenu: “Our managers happened to be on the lobby of the hotel and took a picture of us!” Tattsun: “They were like, ‘what are you guys doing? It’s funny so can i take a picture?’  and took a picture of it! Morikubo: “It was so fun!” Tattsun: “It was a blast! We talked about a lot of things” Morikubo: “We were able to feel this feeling thanks to the group named QUARTET NIGHT. So, Shouta, how was it?” Shoutan: “Even though yesterday was only the first day, I already felt like tearing up many times on the stage.. I tried my best to endure it”  Tattsun: “It’s okay to cry though” Shoutan: “And this person would say something like that!! Near the end when i was about to tear up he would come and say “Oh? Oh? Are you about to cry?” (he’s like provoking shoutan to cry xD) and i’d say “That’s not true!” ”  Tattsun: “That’s okay Shouta~ if you cry I’ll pat your head”   (asdahkf) Shoutan: “But in truth, *points at maenu* tomo-nii was also about to cry in certain song!” Maenu: “A sweat, i was just sweating a lot!” Tattsun: *points at maenu “This guy right there, all he could do it say stuffs like that till he actually breaks into tear!” Maenu:“It was just a sweat!” Shoutan: “Something like that happened! Everytime i stand on this stage, i could feel all of your feelings directly. It directly reached my heart. I’m sure, it also reaches the four of them (chars) directly too.” Morikubo: “It’s our second solo live, so to surpass our previous live, we thought a lot about what our stage is supposed to be. For example the acoustic corner. After this too, we have a lot in store to show all of you here in Kobe. Please look forward to it!” Tattsun: “Among us, Maeno is the most passionate about QN, isn’t he?” Maenu: “That’s not true, all of us are equally passionate about it!” Tattsun: “Of course, we’re all passionate about it! But in terms of concentrating himself to the characters, i feel like he inspires us the most.” Maenu: “That’s not true!” Morikubo: “That’s true, whenever i see him he’s always practicing!” Shoutan: “Exactly! Everytime i’d see him practicing on the corner of the room” Tattsun: “So, how’s this concert for you?” Maenu: “Just as always, while looking forward to it i hope i could leave good memories in the history of QN’s journey. Every moment is so precious and dear to me, it happened to me during 6th live too, but that’s why when the show ended and i have to take off the sparkly and beautiful outfits, i would feel so sad. But of course, if there’s a beginning eventually there will come an end too, so i want to create a lot of memories with all of you before it ends. “ Maenu: “But really, the moment four of us are all here together, i always feel so at ease. It just feels like we’re unbeatable. It’s so addicting.” Morikubo: “That’s true.” Tattsun: “I agree” Shoutan: “When we’re practicing there are a lot of formations. In most of them, we’re supposed to stand a bit apart from each other, but when we started to talk with each other without even realizing it we’d suddenly stand so close to each other!” Tattsun: “Without even realizing it!” Morikubo: “in the previous live something like that happened too wasn’t it? Even though the stage was big, suddenly we all were already in the middle of the stage standing so close to each other! We’re supposed to use the wide stage!” Maenu: “I mean, don’t you think it’s already unusual for four fully-grown adults to walk back to hotel with their arms on each other’s shoulder?!” xD Tattsun: “And the thing is, aside from QUARTET NIGHT we actually always go on our separate ways, right?” Maenu: “That’s true! Even if we meet on another works we’ll just say greetings and go our separate ways!” Tattsun: “Actually this time, the day before the concert, i heard that we could do rehearsal on the hall and i was on the same bullet train with Maeno. I met him in the station of Tokyo. We exchanged “Good morning” and just went our separate ways just like that!” Shoutan: ”Eh?! Really?!” Morikubo: “You didn’t come together?!” Tattsun: “We just exchanged good morning. It’s not like i had any reason to go together with him.” (The way he said it was a bit funny xD a bit tsun) Maenu: “That’s right! I was buying something in the convenience store and Tatsu came in when i was about to quit the store. So it was like ‘Oh so you’re going to buy something here, i see. See you later!’ “ Tattsun: “And so i replied ‘Yeah, i’m going in. Later!’ and went to opposite direction“ Maenu:“But the moment we met up on the rehearsal we would start saying things like ‘Let’s do this part!’ to each other.” Shoutan: “That’s very like Ranmaru and Camus!” *audience laughed xD* Morikubo: “You’re right! That’s exactly the same!” Shoutan:“Exact same!” Morikubo: “The two-shots of these two is interesting so let us see it! *goes away from the other two and gets closer to shoutan* Yesterday when we were eating together it was like that too. They were like Ranran and myuu-chan” Maenu: “But at the group line Shouta also enthusiastically does stuffs like that!” (acting like characters) Tattsun: “He said stuffs like that!” Maenu: “He’d say stuffs like ‘I won’t forgive you if you’re late!’”  Shoutan: “We uploaded a photo of our hands and mics, didn’t we?” Tattsun: ”We actually created a diamond on that photo” (the more you know) Shoutan:”We’re a group so it’d be better to upload it on the same time. Showtaro-niisan suggested that we all upload it on 21:00. Tatsu-nii edited the photo for us. After he sent it to us, tomo-nii replied with “Can’t be helped, i’ll use it” (like camus xD)”  Morikubo:”Then our whole in-char conversations started!” Maenu:”*points at tattsun* He replied with “You’re not being honest” Tattsun: ”That’s normal thing to say, right?! If you’re going to use it you could just say thanks, right?!” Shoutan:“And they i’d reply with “*Ai’s voice* They’re at it again” and added *back to usual shoutan* let’s do it on 21:00″  Tattsun: “We sure talk in our characters personality don’t we? Shoutan:”We do!” Morikubo:”Speaking of LINE, we actually have an utapri all cast group line and yesterday all of the STARISH members gave us encouraging messages.” Tattsun: ”It made me really happy!” Morikubo:”All of them did!” Tattsun: ”We’re standing here right now as QUARTET NIGHT, but we want to treasure the fact that it’s STARISH who opened the path for us. So it makes me really happy! I feel like that it fired us up even more, it made us stronger” Morikubo then said that they’re going to sing the next song and he suddenly told tattsun and maenu to stand beside each other to which maenu replied with “It’s not like we’re close with each other or anything!” xD and they started with next song

9. Marriage

Because it was acoustic arrangement there weren't any background vocals so instead they sang all of the english background vocals live too (ex: "under the starlight~ let's find our love part" etc) and it was really pretty! ;; if i remember well it's mostly shoutan for higher octave (i thought i heard female voice LOLOL) and switched between maenu/morikubo/tattsun for lower parts! Tbh listening to the reff reminded me how much maenu has improved with his singing/harmonies. It sounded really pleasant. On the middle of the song they introduced band members (i think it was percussion, violin, guitar, bass and keyboard??) while they were sitting on the front stage floor xD it was cute!!

Questions VTR. Seiyuus were asked some questions about their characters (impression, stuffs they like about them, etc) Maenu joked a lot, (or stuffs he said were just purely funny lol) shoutan too! In general it was really funny! But it was pretty long and fast so i didn’t manage to remember/take note of most of them, i’m sorry!;; Stuffs written here are not in order and is more or less just the gist of it. They didn’t show each of their full interview as one but instead cut their sentences halfway, switch to another person and so on so it was a bit hard to remember their full answer but here are the questions:

Was there something you couldn’t understand from your character?

Morikubo→ “Thank you very very Macho-cho “ LOL Tattsun→ How harsh he was toward ppl around him Shouta→ He sleeps on siting position LOL Maenu→ He puts way too much sugar on his drink (Saw that coming xD)

Which part do you like from your character from the very beginning?

Morikubo→ As a moodmaker, he actually could read the atmosphere well Tattsun→ He’s extremely straightforward and devoted (abt his work/in general?) Never compromise (to aim for better thing) Shouta→He’s like a cute younger brother. His voice is beautiful LOLOL Maenu→ His “strong heart”. He’s not afraid of being hated and says stuffs the way he think it is. 

What was your first impression of your character?

Morikubo→ Bright but hard to figure out (his inner thoughts etc) Tattsun→ Scary Shouta→ Difficult to deal with Maenu→ Full of dignity

When did you feel like you’ve become best friend with your character?

Morikubo→ The moment  “Yoroshiku Macho-cho “ was born  Tattsun→ The moment some parts of Ranmaru he didn’t know started to appear, when he felt grateful for the chance to learn more about Ranmaru Shouta→ The moment he learned that Ai is not a human being Maenu→ The moment he woke up and mistook Jan 23 (Camus’ birthday) as his own birthday

Is there something you still can’t understand about your character?

Morikubo→ Wonder how did Reiji become such a “strong” person Tattsun→ “Aside from his honest and serious personality he also cooks well, is kind to animals, Isn’t his ‘spec’ too high?!” He said he couldn’t forgive Ranmaru for being too ‘high-spec’ xD Shouta→ He still sleeps in sitting position (He talked about how sleeping on bed def works better to recover yourself many times LOL) Maenu→ When he drinks something he put in a lot of sugar

What is something you like from your character now?

Morikubo→ (not sure i’m sorry;;) He pushed himself to limits for members Tattsun→ Everything (Aaaaaa) Shouta→ Became a lot softer. Understands his own position well Maenu→ He doesn’t try to flatter others/sugarcoat things

Is there a (bad) thing you want your character to fix/improve?

Morikubo→ He’s strong but he should stop keeping his feelings bottled up inside and relax more Tattsun→ He should stop wearing different color contact lenses for both eyes LOL Stop depending on color lenses Shouta→ Stay the way he is Maenu→ He’s drinking way too much sugar for his health

Is there anything you hope for your characters?

Morikubo→ There must still be a lot of Reiji’s side we’re not aware of so he should show us more sides/charms of him Tattsun→ Stay just the way he is Shouta→ Ai might be a robot but he should meet a lot people, move forward with his comrade, treasure each of the moment of his life Maenu→ He believes Camus could make the impossible possible so he wants to see him fly in the sky LOL

What should you/character do to achieve higher heights?

Morikubo→ Not only about what about to happen in the future, for now they should look at what is right in front of them. Tattsun→ They should clash more, and at the same time also try to understand each other, tolerate each other more. Shouta→ They should sing more variety of songs Maenu→ They might not in ‘that’ good term with each other, but in return those colliding powers are creating an even stronger power. By that, they boost each other up and that’s the kind of group QN is. They should keep going they way they are.

If you were to describe your character in a word, what would it be?

Morikubo→ Wedge Tattsun→ Flame Shouta→ Love (Ai) Maenu→ Ice  

All: “That’s.. QUARTET NIGHT” And next song started! Outfit change, white pants, white and their respective colors? a bit casual, design is different for each of them! 

10. The dice are cast Powerful singing, as we already knew! The choreography looked like 5th and QN 1st solo con? They moved around the area and stopped when all of the carts became one in the middle of arena seats. I also noticed that tattsun's part of the adlibs on the bridge was a bit different (improvisation with higher notes and i think i heard him doing it in both days)

11. STARLIGHT MEMORY I PERSONALLY LOVE THIS SONG so i was really hyped up for it! They sang while still on the cart and like on QN 1st solo con they used stand-mic for the choreography. It was really heated up, the "Just say Quartet Night!" parts were also sang by the audience and our voices were LOUD! It was fun!

12. Evolution Eve The first acapella sounded as heavenly as what i've heard in previous lives! ;;_;; Also the first acapella which was supposed to be lines without harmony for some reasons was harmonized? pretty sure it was tattsun with higher harmony! The instrumental break dance part we already knew from previous lives were changed, i'm pretty sure it wasn't the same. The previous one was good but this one was even better! I remember morikubo doing a really smooth turn. Proud of their improvements!

13. Double Face *Camus butler mode voice* "Let me show you my everything" *Camus usual mode voice* "You peasant! Fine, i'll do it according to your wish. Witness my 'love'!" Suddenly Maenu appeared with this song! I wasn't expecting this at all but it was a good surprise! Two dancers in white and black (like in QN 1st solo con) were present and maenu was also singing on a stand-mic. It was really similar to QN 1st solo con performance. As usual his voice change was amazing! In first day, it was clear that maybe the fast voice change made him a bit confused sometimes tho xD it was cute.. In 2nd day he did super great tho! One of my favorite thing about watching over QN seiyuus’ growth is watching Maenu getting more confident and glowing each live ♡ 

14. Synchronism Shoutan appeared on front stage with dancers. Apparently his outfit this time had animal ears (i'm not sure is it cat? or not..) fur hoodie and he had his hoodie up! It was extremely cute!! The dance was similar to 6th, but i think there were additional moves? Also if 6th live performance wasn't cute enough this one was even cuter it was illegal //no On 2nd day he also made a lot of different expressions from the one in 1st day during dance break (you probs know which one if you watched 6th live) As expected from shoutan, lot of fanservices were given! In 2nd day last reff "Amaku shite~" part he gave us a thrown kiss too! lol Been thinking about it for a while but it’s actually amazing how stable he was even at extremely low notes.

15. Not bad Tattsun and dancers came from main stage! He danced most of the time and both his dances and singing were amazing and powerful! ;; Also i'm really sure some parts of the dance moves changed entirely, for example the reff's "yoku kike yo, nidoto wa iwanai ze" part? It was such a passionate performance and i have no words except it was SUPER COOL ;;_;; There was also fire burst (?) stage effect and it was cool! He walked from the main stage to front stage! Instead of singing it, the music suddenly stopped and he said the "Ore ni *a bit pause* tsuite koi (follow.. me)" as a serifu

16. NEVER Morikubo appeared with his hat and he threw it away xD I think he improved a lot with his dancing compared to previous performances of this song! The choreography looked similar to the one on 5th live with some additions? I really love the part where monitor behind him turned into a big green　→　rainbow ferris wheel! ;; I personally really love Never's Reiji and the performance was wonderful ;; On the quiet part he usually went with falsetto on "honki to iu na no imi ga tsumatteru" but this time he went full power on that part! He also inserted a bit of adlibs after that and it was pleasant

17. Non-fiction Main stage was engulfed in red light and non-fiction intro was played, people around me went wild xD Tattsun and Maenu appeared sitting on a (what seemed to be) luxurious sofa while singing! It's interesting how the way they sit reflected their character personalities lol (Maenu legs crossed? and tattsun had his right leg up on the sofa) lol Maenu had his camus glasses on. They also danced a lot on instrumental parts and did some poses/combination dance(?) together! I love how they were posing with the sofa (for example if one of them sit the other stand behind the sofa etc) and also posed together (ex maenu put his hand on tattsun's back etc). Tattsun "Aaaa ↑" high notes part (you know which one) sounds amazing on live, it was powerful and on point. They also danced a lot on front stage. All in one it was GREAT and i’m pretty sure a lot of you would like this performance a lot

18. Fiction Started with pretty adlibs. As opposed to Non-fiction, It was an emotional and melancholic performance. Their harmonies were really pretty and their singing were great/emotional too! They weren't doing many moves, instead at some parts it feels much like drama posing (There were still kinda melancholic choreography at instru break). It somehow had really sad vibe ;; Shoutan was a great actor, they posed like stageplay at some parts. For example shoutan (ai) was looking at morikubo (reiji) but shook his head and decided to turn back, or morikubo staring at shoutan from afar, etc. At one part they had their hands up and joint their hands, but shoutan/ai let go of his hand and went away ;; At the end they stared at each other and shoutan/ai walked away from the stage first (from the middle of main stage) and morikubo/reiji followed after. The outro was still playing, with only falling petals (2nd day correction i think it was white feathers?) being lighted-up. I kinda teared up during this performance

All: "Fiction or non-fiction"

19. KIZUNA As usual, the harmonies of this song were really pretty. They also sit on main stage stairs and pose like car-scene on the anime (like they did on QN 1st solo con) with morikubo acting like he's driving the car. The whole thing felt similar to QN 1st solo con, it was amazing nonetheless. Last slow part never fails to make my eyes teary ;; I MEAN who doesn’t.. they also did the last part where they pointed at the characters on screen. 

20. QUARTET★NIGHT I ACTUALLY WASN'T EXPECTING THIS TO COME HERE LOL but i love this song with passion bc it's the start of QN so i was really hyped for it! The choreo was also similar to QN 1st solo con. I personally think their 3rd live (aka 1st appearance as QN ever) of this song was unrivaled, but this performance was probably even better than that! It was easy to see how much they improved and i was extremely happy. Their vocals gave me chills and it also reminded me of when i first came to like QN, it was amazing.

Morikubo/Reiji told us it's his DJ time (wasn't really DJ-ing like prev live tho) and introduced dancers as the rest of them sit on the main stage stairs. They took turn to introduce the dancers. Reiji→Ranmaru→Ai→Camus

Tattsun (in Ranmaru’s voice) told us it's last song after this

21. FLY TO THE FUTURE I knew it LOL I guessed this song would be the last song after encore and i was right! When i first heard this song i was amazed at how QN managed to even surpass their previous harmonization with this song. The live version was amazing, their harmonies were heavenly. It was perfectly done, i can't help but crying halfway... They also danced quite a lot on this song. There was LONG (like 10 secs?) pause before the serifu "Arigato, soshite kore kara mo" (last reff after "nakeru hodo waite~").  Basically they sang That part was really emotional. It's also fun to do "Fly to the future~" call with other audience. It was easily one of my favorite QN performances of all time.

Encore “QUARTET NIGHT!!” calls started. I think i LOVE the Kobe World Hall they're using this time. It's not as small as previous QN solo con (to the point that the "Quartet Night" call wasn't really that loud bc there weren't that many people to begin with) but it's also not too big to manage a perfectly synced encore call. It's probs one of the most synced encore i've heard in my life (in BOTH days). Actually, i was really moved by how amazing the audiences were this time around. Super interactive and cooperative. The acoustic of the hall was amazing, both voices and instru were easy to listen to and sound crystal-clear. It’s easily one of my favorite concert hall ever.

22. Force Live They danced the choreography from the MV (except maybe the kick thing at the beginning lol) This song sounded great without autotune btw LOL i have to say QN sounds great on their own so they sound a lot better without autotune live. There isn't much to say except both of their dancing and singing were awesome! Morikubo also did front kick on 2nd verse if i remember it right! It was really cool watching the MV on the screen behind while looking at their performance/dance. You could see how much effort they spent to perfect their performances.

MC Announcement→ Renewal of utapri movie website Day 1 by Camus Day 2 by Ai (+DVD/BD announcement of the concert) Day 1 Maenu: “I’m the one trusted to voice Camus, Maeno Tomoaki. I’m sure all of you managed to feel the characters through our performances, so i’m not going to talk a lot this time. It’s been a year and half since the first solo live. At that time, i talked about how i was the only one without any singing career among us and how i felt about it. I felt like i had nothing at the beginning. Of course, i still feel it now even if it’s just a bit. But now that i look back at it, maybe i was able to bring something new to the group precisely because i had nothing. And i was able to do it thanks to the other members, all of your support and the utapri staffs. Thank you very much. As for me, i’ll keep on chasing after Camus’ back. If i have the chance again in the future, i’ll do my best to perform as Camus onstage. So, from now on please keep on supporting STARISH, QUARTET NIGHT and HEAVENS. Thank you for coming today!”

Shoutan: “I’m the C.V of Mikaze Ai, Aoi Shouta. Whenever this time (last MC) comes I somehow could never put my thoughts together well.. This time, we got to sing a lot of new songs. Among them are the newest Fiction and Non-Fiction. The recording was a bit painful and i got to feel a lot of different feelings. Up till now I always felt like i just couldn’t catch up to Ai and it gave me chance to think a lot about myself.  Their time (chars), and of course our time will never stop moving forward and will pass. I hope Quartet night could be the group to keep on challenging themselves. I really love all of the members/my comrades. Being able to stand on this stage always makes me rethink about a lot of things. With these feelings, I want to be able to find more “possibilities” and take it to the future. I’m really grateful to be able to stand here. Please keep on supporting utapri!”

Tattsun: “I’m the one standing closest to Kurosaki Ranmaru, Suzuki Tatsuhisa. I had a lot of things i wanted to say. During the rehearsal, when i was practicing with the members of QUARTET NIGHT, i felt something. At that time what crossed my mind was ‘Ah, today i feel “scared”. My heart was racing, and it reminded me of the first time i became Ranmaru. ((Stuffs i couldn’t remember after adjalksjf i’m really sorry;; I think he said about how he was not sure if it’s alright for him to stand as Ranmaru onstage and also made a joke about it but i just can’t remember what was it ;;)) But the ‘idol’ Ranmaru is, without me even realizing it, has already moved so much away in front of me. The Ranmaru inside me keeps on telling me “I should do it like this” and thanks to that i caused a lot of troubles (bc he keeps on being idealistic), practice a lot. I would imagine how all of you would react and feel, and to be honest right now I’m extremely anxious. When i stand as QUARTET NIGHT, i could hear all of your supports directly, and seeing your happy expressions i’m just glad i could be here. Everytime, i’d think about how i just purely love all about this series. I love all of my comrades (starish+heavens too?), there’s no one i dislike, I respect all of them from the bottom of my heart. I love each of them. And so that those words won’t turn into lies, I hope that all of the people watching this, be it here or on live-viewing could feel it through my performances today. That’s the only thing i have on my head right now. I’m really happy i could stand as Kurosaki Ranmaru. It’s all thanks to the staffs, utapri casts, all of you who come today, a lot of others who couldn’t come today, STARISH who opened the path for us. I couldn’t thank all of you enough. Thank you!”

Morikubo : ”To all of you who take us to the world we could never imagine before, to QUARTET NIGHT who gave us the chance to spend this time, thank you very much. (the topic mentioned in prev MCs) It’s true that we’re the one standing closest to our characters. But we’re standing ‘behind’ the characters, the one standing besides them is all of you. You’ll be the one guiding our characters, and so that the four of us could also move forward. This time we’re blessed with a chance to do a 2nd solo live, so of course I intended to do my very best! Experiencing a lot of things, in previous solo live the word “payback” naturally became our theme. And after that we got the chance to stand on 6th live with HEAVENS also joining us. I was happy at that time for the fact that at that time we had ‘future’ performances waiting for us. The words “evolution” “thanks” “kizuna/bonds” of course are still naturally here with us, and we’re about to see what’s going to be the next theme. Did you manage to feel something through us? Thank you. From the day of last solo live up till today, i’m sure QUARTET NIGHT was the one taking all of us to the future we have today. From now on, please keep on standing by your favorite characters! Please create a future for us! We’ll be following from behind. Let’s enjoy it just like that! As long as we have your love and feelings, we’ll keep on advancing. I hope to see you again if the chance comes. I’d be looking forward the day when we could dance, sing, along with STARISH and HEAVENS in front of you again. To all of you on the hall, live-viewing, thank you very much!!”

Morikubo : “Sooo~~ what do we do now? *laughs* Let’s drink the water shall we?” And they drank the water onstage xD love how the audience let out a big reaction and they were like we’re only drinking water here xD After that they had a short MC connecting to the next song

Day 2 Morikubo: “And n-now, for the e-end *stumbled with his words many times*  let each of us say our last messages! (him stumbling) It’s my body showing you all my feelings or not wanting it to end!” xD Shoutan: “I can feel it!” Morikubo: “Let us begin with Maeno!” Maenu: “*in camus voice* I refuse!” (audience screams) Shoutan: “So he feels sad!” xD Morikubo: “That’s a convenient word!” Maenu: “*in camus voice* Well, sure i’ll do it. Wait a bit" "closes his eyes for a while and opens it* Maenu: *back to normal “ I’m the one trusted to voice Camus, Maeno Tomoaki. Since October started and we started our rehearsal, almost every night i saw a dream of yesterday and today concerts. Expectations, anxiety, pressure, i’m sure i saw those dreams due to a lot of feelings. And now, to see all of you here, people on the live viewing, spending time together, it all feels like a dream. I’m sure even tomorrow and the day after, i’ll see it on my dreams. As a part of QUARTET NIGHT, i think i managed to create many great memories here. On previous live, our theme was to do “payback” to starish, to utapri and to all of us. And this time too, we talked a lot and decided on a theme but our journey of ‘payback’ will never stop as long as utapri still exists. With that as the foundation, so that a “ final destination” will never come to the future of QUARTET NIGHT, it’s a journey that will never ends. I’ll do my very best so that i could see the back of Camus who’s standing so far in front of me. From now on, please keep on supporting STARISH, HEAVENS, QUARTET NIGHT and utapri. Thank you so much for coming today.”

Shoutan: “This moment finally comes once again.. (audience says ganbare) Thank you! I’m the C.V of Mikaze Ai, Aoi Shouta. Did you have fun? While doing my very best to sing in front of all of you, i keep on thinking about what to say here. I had a lot of things i wanted to say, but whenever this moment comes I can’t put my feelings together.. That’s just how big it is. After the first day ended, we had a little after-party. At that time we talked about how there’s still today. There was still a future called “tomorrow” for us. I’m standing here today with the hope of creating beautiful memories together with all of you here, people on live-viewing and with all of the staffs. With starish opening the path, the four of us then joined in the middle of the story. To be honest, as a member of QUARTET NIGHT, i’d be lying if i say i didn’t feel inferior to others. But the fact that i could stand here right now and be with all of the people who love utapri, like starish and heavens, makes me feel that i’m actually spending the time together with everyone. To stand as a proud member of QUARTET NIGHT, to be someone who supports the utapri series which i really love from the bottom of my heart, that’s what i want Ai to become. That’s why, from now on as a part of QUARTET NIGHT, as Mikaze Ai, i’ll do my very best to liven utapri up. I hope to spend good time with all of you. I’m still no good, but thank you for always being here. From now on, let us love uta no prince-sama together. Thank you very much.” Morikubo: “You’re getting a lot better on giving comments. I talked about that with Maeno on the underground backstage when we were listening to your MC at acoustic corner” And suddenly Shoutan teared up ;;; morikubo then followed him up Morikubo: “Is that some kind of malfunction?” (ref to Ai’s identity) (Audience laughs)

Tattsun : “I play the role of Kurosaki Ranmaru, Suzuki Tatsuhisa. I keep on thinking of what to say. This time, i felt anxious too. Yesterday Showtaro-san said a really good thing. The four of us are standing behind the characters, and the one standing besides them is all of you. I thought it was a really good words. I’m always chasing after him. He runs very fast, you know (audience laughs). He keeps on doing his best and moving forward. He’ll say “I want to do something like this!” “I want to do this kind of performance!” “I’m still nowhere my limit!” and will run even faster. I can’t help but think that “He’s too fast”, and everytime i have the chance to stand on this stage I always feel like it’s way too much for me. For me, objectively speaking as part of the audience, Utapri’s live is so fun. I always get overexcited like an idiot on the backstage. Humming the melodies of the songs. But i wonder if it’s okay for someone like that to stand here. It’s not like that i have something beautiful to show to all of you. But even so, i decided to at least do the very best i could. So that, i can proudly tell him that I’ve done everything i could. So that i could tell him I managed to let out everything he has to show. I’m standing here now so that i could say all of those words. I sincerely hope my thoughts could reach you even if it’s just a bit. The only thing i could do is to give him a voice and to push him forward. With my singing, i can move forward together with him. But the one who could take him further ahead, is all of you. You’re the one who makes it “amazing”. Isn’t it the best? Nothing but the best isn’t it? I really love utapri that gives me the chance to do so. I love STARISH, I love QUARTET NIGHT, and I love HEAVENS. I love everything about it. I could love all of the characters. I just love it so much. From now on there might be both positive comments and criticism. Bring it on! I’ll shoulder everything and stand behind the mic, be it onstage or not, as Kurosaki Ranmaru. No matter what it is, i’ll shoulder it all. I believe it’s all because of something carved deep inside of my heart. That’s why i’ll keep on moving forward just like that. To the future! Thank you so much for today!”

Morikubo: “Did you have fun? And live viewing?” Morikubo: “Just like the other three, i have many things i want to say. I came up with the words after listening to Tatsu’s “I’m the one standing closest to Ranmaru” yesterday. But it feels a bit off if i say ‘beside’ them, because each of us are standing behind quartet night. The one should be beside them is all of you.  Please take them to the future, and so the four of us will also follow, that’s what i said yesterday. And such feeling is getting stronger today. Just as what maeno said, we talked about how we should stand on the stage today. A keyword, our share motive. Up till now, it naturally came to us. For example on the previous live it naturally came to us on our LINE group chat. We then just naturally agreed on it. And having a keyword/theme managed to bring us together as a group. “If the four of us are together we feel at ease” we talked earlier was also something like that. This time, actually until the day before, we had no such keyword. But that’s actually something to be grateful about. In the past there were a lot of things, a lot of stories and hardships that built up and naturally provided us with a keyword. But this time, when we realized it we have nothing like that. That means we’re just purely advancing towards the live. Rather than something like “Let’s beat something!”,  it was purely “Let’s do the live!” kind of feeling. But in return, then it was hard to come up with a keyword. We were wondering if we should have one. The day before the live, this time too, Tatsuhisa started asking about it. I came up and say something like “Do you have a bit of time? Why don’t we gather and talk about it? It won’t take long” on our group LINE. Because the next day we have to wake up early, Maeno was about to stop us but suddenly he got no signal and it was unsent!” Maenu: “He said something like that on 12 pm when the day was about to change and we were all tired after practice!” Tattsun: “It can’t be helped! It crossed my mind when doing the rehearsal!!” Maenu: “So i was about to send a message about how we should just talk about it the day after, but suddenly i had no signal and it was unsent! Afterwards, the others were ready to do it so i have no choice but to erase that message.” Tattsun: “So that’s why! I thought it was rare for you to say nothing” Maenu: “And so in the end.. *gets it back to Morikubo*” Morikubo: “We ended up talking about a lot of things. Looking back at stuffs we’ve done in the past, and a lot more. And so a keyword was born. I won’t say it here. It’s the best to feel it through our performance. But there was talk about DVD just now, so maybe~ they will have a commentary video or something right? I’m not sure, i haven’t heard anything about it! But we stood onstage with that keyword on mind. I’ll be happy if each of you could feel it through our performances. And if someday the chance comes, we’ll talk about it there and not right now. This time we’ve done everything, the best of the best we could’ve done. We’re doing our best to chase after QUARTET NIGHT. If they move forward, we’ll do so too. We believe that all of you will take them even further. But Maeno, Aoi, Suzuki and Morikubo who are standing here right now, had done everything we could possible do. If you’re okay with us, if you’re okay with this kind of atmosphere and performance, the four of us will be more than happy to stand on the stage again! We’re serious about them. I’m sorry, but even if you try and search through the whole world, you won’t find someone who is as serious as we are toward them. Please believe in us for that matter! Please take them to the future. Will you show us the future?” (audience cheers) Morikubo: “Thank you! Thank you very much for today!” They then talked about how it’s not like them to be emotional. But then no one continued the convo bc they don’t want it to end and Morikubo was like ??!? Morikubo: “I understand that feeling! But! I’m not going to take up that offer again! I’ve became an adult” (He meant the scene on 1st live when they talked about not wanting it to end and he lay his body on the floor and sulked xD) And they finally got it into next song

23. GOD'S S.T.A.R The serifu at the beginning completely changed! *u* This song was so fun to do!!! The call and response was extremely fun and the hall was fully heated up by this song. It's probs hard to get the hype of this song if you haven't experienced this song live and only see this song on videos. BUT THIS IS the song that got the audience fired up/hyped more than any other song. The choreography was similar to QN 1st live and 6th live. I remember Maenu went down on his knees at some point at the reff and people around me went crazy over it!

Double encore I had feeling there would be double encore considering the amount of song they did plus they weren't changing into encore T-shirt on 1st encore. This time they had live t-shirt, Maenu wore camus prince parka on top of it. Day 1 Morikubo:  “This is the first time we had double encore right? *audience cheers*  Let’s go to the last song, the one that will unite all of us together. Let us begin!” *silent of other members xD* Morikubo: “Mmm?! We’re not starting?! You three had that kind of faces (of not wanting to start next song)” Tattsun: “If it’s possible i just want to get closer to everyone/audience”| Morikubo: “And now you’re saying something like that again~ Let’s do it shall we?” Day2 Morikubo: “Thank you for the double encore! I was worried all of you would just return home after that..” Morikubo: “It seems like we’re allowed to sing one more song!” Shoutan: “Yaay!” Tattsun: “There’s still that one song we haven’t sung, isn’t it?” Morikubo: “Let us sing that song! But please remember that when it comes to our feelings, we’re actually super ready to do another day or two!” Tattsun: “If it 's possible, to be honest i really want to do it” Morikubo: “We keep on talking about stuffs like that! But those feelings, please use that feelings to create a path to future!” And they started with the next song ;;

24. You're my life It seems like we need this song to end every QN solo con and i’m totally not complaining! They went around the hall with carts and the whole performance was similar with QN 1st live, except they were a lot cheerier and weren't crying that much?? (edit on 2nd day they did look teary) Since they were circling around, i also got the chance to see all of them up-close! ;; We were also singing lalalala part like in QN 1st solo con! I really love their smile at this song ;; they look like they were having tons of fun Audience also sang last "Kimi no moto ni todoke~" together and it was really touching. 2nd day "Kimi no moto ni todoke~~~~~~" was really long. On 2nd day i also remember the moment carts pass each other they did hi-touch with each other! tattsun and shoutan also had a hug? at one part

When they were doing the farewell greeting they went around like how it usually goes, fly to the future instrumental was playing on the background and the audience sang the "Fly to the future" part together ;; it was really touching!! At first day they weren't crying but i saw shoutan and maenu having teary eyes. 

Day 2 Shoutan was crying a bit, at one point he was crouching down and hid his face. On 2nd day audience was singing along to fly to the future too and they took off their in-ear monitor to listen to our voices and they looked really touched by it ;; They hugged each other starting from tattsun and maenu and so on. I remember tattsun and shoutan hug was a bit longer bc shoutan got so emotional and tattsun comforted him and patted his head ;; Shoutan was tearing up but at last moment before stage closes he smiled and it was memorable. When the stage was closing shoutan dragged morikubo close to him and shoutan+morikubo+tattsun peek through the remaining open gap and at last seconds Maenu also went to the middle except i could only see his rings in dark xD Also, can you believe that all of us the audience keep on singing along to the instrumental ver of QN songs (god’s star) EVEN AFTER the live ended? That’s just how cooperative and interactive the audiences were for both days and It was a BLAST. I felt so glad to be able to take part on it. The audience was extremely passionate and i’m sure you’d be able to feel it too even through BD/DVD vids. 

This felt awfully short compared to previous live maybe because the amount of the song! instead we got a lot of MCs tho. Utapri, thank you so much for getting all of these awesome people together. I can’t understand tbh, how did producer Agematsu gather four people whose voices blend like heaven even tho they have such a different voice characters...? Plus they also harmonize like heaven and perform really well.. I’m just so grateful I discovered such an amazing group.

(From Morikubo’s tweet!) Thank you so much for reading and i hope all of you love Quartet Night as much as i do ♡

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Secret Studies ch.21 -Looking Forward

The Elementalist AU

Beckett x MC (Oriana)

Words: 2457

Masterlist (Catch Up Here)

 We've arrived at the final chapter of this series! I can't believe it! Thank you so much to those who are still reading! But the good news is, I'm planning a new series that will tie into this, but there will be a major time jump. I just love Beckett and Ori so much I can't let them go :)

 3 years later

  Beckett blew out a long breath. Today is graduation, and he knows that at some point, all eyes will be on him, and he was nervous as hell. The past three years have been tough. He tried to visit his mother in prison several times, but she never agreed to see him. She’d been convicted to a life in prison, her magic contained, with no eligibility for release. She blames Beckett and Oriana entirely, and to this day is convinced she did nothing wrong except “try to rid the earth of a parasite.”

  “You okay?” Oriana came up behind him, wrapping her arms around his waist. He nodded, relaxing in her arms. She was the only thing getting him through. He couldn’t understand why she didn’t break up with him after everything, didn’t blame him for anything. In fact, when Katrina and his father came home for the trial, Oriana greeted them with open arms, and they did the same. He never admitted it, but he cried later that night, wondering why his mom couldn’t see her the way he did, the way his father and Katrina did. They apologized for not being around and not having any idea what she was up to. It was two years since her case finally went to trial. There was one year where she kept getting the trial delayed while filing appeal after appeal and trying to have the pending charges dropped completely. Finally, the judge denied all new requests and his mother was convicted of those same charges.

He turned around in Oriana’s arms, pressing a kiss to her forehead. “Everything’s fine.” He assured, and she smiled wanly.

“It’s okay to miss her, you know. And want her at your graduation.”

He shook his head. “But that’s the thing. I don’t want her here. I don’t miss the woman she became, and I’m glad she’s behind bars. Am I terrible for feeling that way about my own mother?”

She cupped his cheek in her hand, and he leaned into the touch. “You are the opposite of terrible. And I love you, you’re my everything. Don’t you know that yet? Not even after last night?”

The tips of his ears turned red as he remembered the previous night and everything they’d done. It was a magical evening and he’d never been happier in his life.

“Come on, we should go. Don’t want to be late.” She took his hand and together they walked to the auditorium, taking their places among the other graduating students.

Zephyr and Shreya greeted them excitedly. “Guys!! We finally made it!! Eeeeeee can you believe it??” Shreya squealed excitedly.

Beckett rolled his eyes. “Yes, I certainly can. We all studied hard, attended all the classes, did all the homework, and took all the tests. I was definitely expecting to graduate on time. Although, I am a bit disappointed that it didn’t happen earlier.”

“Of course, you are.” Zeph sighed. “But on the bright side…you got to hang out with all of us for all four years!!! I wouldn’t want to graduate without you guys. It just wouldn’t be right.”

“Aww, we love you too, Zeph” Oriana laughed. “You are all the best friends a girl could possibly have. Thank you, really, for everything you’ve done.”

“Selfie time!” Shreya whipped out her phone. “Everyone gather in and say graduation!!” Shreya, Zeph, and Oriana leaned in automatically.

“Come on, Beck.” Oriana laughed again, pulling him in to her. After the photo was taken, they all ooh and ahh’ed over it…Everyone except Beckett.

Oriana turned to him and lowered her voice. “Talk to me, what’s wrong?”

“Everyone will stare at me.” He mumbled.

“Beck, you’re going to give a great speech. We’ve rehearsed it a million times, you’re ready.” She squeezes his hand.

“And then everyone will stare at you, and then stare at both of us.”

Her face fell, the hurt evident in her bright eyes. “Oh. Well, I’m sure I can go ask them to change…”

“No, no. Nothing’s changing, I’m just…I don’t know. You’re not nervous that Zeph and Shreya will be angry with us?” He asked.

She shook her head. “No. Don’t forget, we’re throwing the party, so even if they’re annoyed it won’t last. You aren’t having regrets…are you?” She asked nervously.

He smiled softly at her. “Certainly not. You’re the one thing I will never regret, no matter what life throws at us.”

Relief flooded throughout her as Dean Swan began the commencement. After speaking several moments, she moved on to the next part of the ceremony.

“It is with great pride to announce our Valedictorian...Beckett Harrington!”

The crowd erupted into cheers as Beckett made his way to the podium, his ears red. He took a deep breath before beginning.

“When I was first accepted into Penderghast, I knew my life was about to change. I just didn’t anticipate exactly how much. I had an entire path laid out for myself. Study hard, get good grades, don’t waste time at typical college social interactions, become Valedictorian, and graduate with honors. I didn’t want anything more than that, and never even thought about anything more than that. Almost immediately, I bumped into Oriana Miller, and…my entire world changed. She forced me to go to those typical college social interactions, forced me to do something other than study…forced me out of my comfort zone. It’s funny how one single moment can change your life forever, but you never realize it at the time. Now, all our lives are about to change, but we’re facing the change head on. Some of us are starting careers, others are continuing their education, and some are ready to start families.”

He looked directly at Oriana, and she grinned, giving him a thumbs up.

“Today is a beautiful day. The sun is shining, the birds are singing, and as I look at all of you, I see an ocean of hope. Being hopeful on days like this is easy. On days like today, it’s easy to see tomorrow and feel you can take on the whole world. But there will be dark days too, and it’s important to stay true to ourselves. Sometimes hope is lost, buried, hidden behind the storm clouds. But I promise you that you’re better than your suffering. You will rise above it as long as you hold onto even the tiniest strand of hope. Hope can be found in all places, you just need to be open to it. We are all coming out of our comfort zones today, and I’m proud to say that I’m part of a graduating class that will do great things in the future. Congratulations, everyone. Each of you have earned this moment.”

He stops talking, and Oriana, Zeph, and Shreya all leap to their feet, clapping and whistling. The rest of the crowd joined in immediately, and Beckett gave a slight nod, his cheeks a light pink, as he head back to his seat.

“So mortifying.” He muttered as he sat back down.

Zephyr burst out laughing. “So, you planned to be valedictorian, but failed to realize that would require an epic speech? You did awesome, buddy.”

“Agreed. You were brilliant up there.” Shreya chimed in.

He turned to Oriana, who kissed him passionately. “You ready for what’s next?” She whispered.

He nodded, and they both reached into their pockets, each grabbing something valuable to them. Dean Swan began announcing the names of the graduates, as each crossed the stage one by one.

“Beckett Harrington.” She called, and Beckett strode across the stage, accepting his diploma. After receiving it, he stood off to the side, not leaving as every else had.

“Oriana M…” She paused a moment, staring at the card in her hand. “Oriana Harrington.” She finished, and gasps erupted throughout the area.

When Oriana reached the Dean’s side, Beckett joined her, interlacing his fingers with hers. “I…I’m sorry, Oriana, your diploma says ‘Miller’, but my reading card says…”

“Here.” Oriana handed her a document, and then the Dean read it, eyes widening, looking down at their hands and seeing the rings they had just put on again. Breaking into a huge smile she hugged them both. Oriana hugged her back tightly, while Beckett hugged rigidly.

“Ladies and Gentlemen, I’m so pleased to announce that not only are these two graduating today…they were also wed last night! May I be the first to say congratulations on your nuptials!!”

Right before they walked off stage, the Dean said one more thing. “I do wish you two all the happiness in the world. You’ve had enough darkness. I wish you only light. I couldn’t be more proud of you both.”

After everyone receives their diplomas, and the ceremony ended, both Beckett and Oriana were surrounded by people, asking questions about how they were married and no one knew. Shreya and Zeph pretended to be mad for all of five seconds before joining in on the excitement.

“Your rings are amazing!!! I cannot believe you didn’t let me help with everything!! Oriana, I thought we were better friends than that. We have the roommate bond. Oh my…you’re pregnant, aren’t you??” Shreya accused.

Oriana laughed. “We wanted something just for us. The graduation party we’re throwing…is actually our wedding reception!! And no, I’m not pregnant, although we are trying.”

“What?” Zeph gasped. “You want to be pregnant already? But you just graduated!”

Oriana shrugged. “What can I say? My husband is going to be amazing dad.”

Beckett felt a blush creep up his neck and into the tips of his ears as she continued. “I literally want all of his babies. I mean, look at him, how cute is he?”

“He is pretty cute…for a little brother.” Beckett looked up in surprise at the new voice.

“…Katrina? Dad? You…came?” He couldn’t believe it. “You said you couldn’t come.”

“Yes, well, your lovely bride made a very convincing argument. And there’s no way I’d miss your wedding reception.” Katrina grinned, yanking Beckett into a tight hug.

“I’m proud of you, son.” Mr. Harrington said. “And congratulations on your wedding. You’ve worked so hard on your grades, on your relationship, and even…” He trailed off, his eyes clouding. After a moment he cleared his throat. “I’m sorry your mother couldn’t be here.”

Beckett cast his eyes to the ground. It was his fault what happened. He slid his eyes over to Oriana, who was watching him worriedly. He glanced at her left hand, the cool metal of the band, and a small diamond in the center. He tried so hard to give her a bigger diamond, but she kept saying she loved her ring so much she doesn’t want it overpowered by anything else. The only other difference to the ring was a small inscription saying, “Love conquers all.”

“It’s fitting.” She’d said at the time, and finally he agreed to get it inscribed into his own band as well.

He turned is hand outward until he felt her hand slip into it. He lifted hers to his lips and pressed a gentle kiss.

“Beckett feels responsible for everything.” Oriana informed.

Mr. Harrington’s eyebrows furrowed. “That’s nonsense. Your mother made her own choices. That she tried to hurt you as well as kill Oriana, even if you were in the way…it’s unforgiveable. She pays the price as she should. You were never responsible.”

Beckett gave a half smile. “Thanks.”

“Whatever happened to Griffin, anyway?” Katrina asked. “I never heard.”

“Well…” Oriana began. “In return for his testimony against Mrs. Harrington, he was put on probation for five years and restricted from school grounds. No one’s heard from him, and I don’t think anyone will.”

The four of them fell quiet a moment before Oriana broke the silence. “So, are you coming to our party? You’ll be able to see our house! We’re so excited to have a home.”

“Wouldn’t miss it.” Katrina smiled.

“Then let’s go!”

Hours later, standing in their new backyard under a sky full of stars, Oriana and Beckett surveyed the dwindling crowd.

“Hey, Ori. I’m not sure I ever thanked you.” Beckett said.

“Thank me? For what?”

“For not leaving me. For fighting with me…fighting for me, for us, for everything we have right in this moment.”

“We’ve come a long way, huh?” She agreed. “If we can survive all this, Beckett…I think we can survive anything. I don’t think I could ever be happy without you.”

“I know I couldn’t.” He returned. “I’d probably turn into a miserable prick.”

She laughed. “You mean the way you were when we first met?”

“Hey!” He feigned offense, before they both were in a fit of giggles.

“You know…in the beginning I was always annoyed with the way I couldn’t get you out of my head. I hated it, I hated thinking about you, it was absolutely infuriating. But now...I get it.”

“Get what?” She asked.

“I think I knew right away that you were the one for me. We’re like pieces of the same puzzle, but there were a couple pieces missing from it.”

“Are you about to start spewing random spiritual facts, Beckett?”

He chuckled. “No. I’m just saying that the moment we came together, I think my soul recognized yours, and the puzzle was suddenly complete. And as long as we’re together…we’ll never be lost”

Oriana closed the distance between them in a heated kiss, their tongues dancing, his fingers in her hair as she wrapped her arms around him, pulling him flush against her body.

“Hey! The newlyweds want to get laid! Party’s over, people!” Zeph’s voice rang out loud and clear and laughter came from the yard as they broke their kiss, looking sheepishly at their friends and family.

Beckett shrugged slightly, murmuring in Oriana’s ear. “They’re not wrong.”

“Yeah, I’m pretty tired. I definitely see myself in bed in a few minutes. How fast do you think we can kick everyone out of here?”

“As fast as we want.” He replied. “It’s our home.”

She nodded, and they began their goodbyes, giving each person individual attention. Shreya was crying, Zeph was trying to pry her away, Katrina and Mr. Harrington giving them their best wishes.

When everyone was finally gone, Beckett and Oriana stood in front of each other, hands clasped, foreheads together.

“I love you Mrs. Oriana Harrington.”

“And I love the sound of that.”

He grinned, playfully nudging her. “I hope that’s not all you love.”

“No, I love this house too.”

He narrowed his eyes before sweeping her off her feet as she squealed in delight, carrying her over the threshold of their new home, both of them feeling ready to face whatever the future will bring their way.

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all i ask of you - c.h

Hey guys! I’ve been wanting to do a broadway!sos series. This one focuses on Calum, and if it goes well I may make more centering around the rest of the boys. This is based around The Phantom of the Opera. Y/N gets the role of her dreams, Christine Daaé, and Calum isn’t happy with Y/N not having any broadway experience while being the female lead. Please send me an ask if you would be interested in broadway!sos for the rest of the boys and maybe suggest what show you think they’d be good in :)

Word count: 3.5k

And for reference…. Here is everyone’s part they play in the story

Y/N - Christine Daaé

Calum - the Phantom

Luke: Raoul

Ashton - director

Michael - lighting engineer and set designer

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You collapsed onto the cheap IKEA futon in your tiny, cramped studio apartment and let out a long sigh. Working at a restaurant for minimum wage in New York City was definitely not where you thought you’d be at this time in your life. You joined several local theatre groups, did Shakespeare in the Park and more, but you still hadn’t had your big break quite yet. But tomorrow, however, you were auditioning for a huge on broadway show: The Phantom of the Opera. This musical in particular is one of the most known ones, it’s one of the longest running musicals of all time, and you signed up to audition as soon as you heard it was having another run.

Being on broadway is your biggest dream; ever since you played Dorothy in your middle schools production of The Wizard of Oz, it’s all you’ve ever wanted. The exhilaration of being on stage is your favorite feeling in the world, and you couldn’t imagine not having that feeling for the rest of your life. And if that meant being a starving artist until you made it, so be it. You were determined to make your dream come true.

You then went to sleep, eager for your audition tomorrow afternoon.

-

You sprung out of bed as if it was your last day on earth. Today is the day. You dressed to impress and went over your monologue and song more than a dozen times on the subway to be sure that it was perfect.

You felt butterflies in your stomach as you walked into the building where auditions were taking place. You took a seat on one of the fold out plastic chairs and took a deep breath, this was your moment. You scanned your surroundings and examined the people at the audition. Everyone was dead silent, so you decided against uttering a word.

“Y/F/N Y/L/N!” Your name is called by someone with a clipboard. It was time.

You got up from your seat and walked through the door onto the stage. A young man with dark blonde hair and hazel eyes like daggers, who you assumed was the director, gave you a warm smile. Suddenly his eyes weren’t daggers anymore and you settled down a bit.

“Alright Y/N, show us what you’ve got young lady.” His tone was gentle and friendly. The weight on your shoulders was lifted, and you read off your monologue flawlessly. You put in every ounce of feeling imaginable, and you sang until your lungs gave out. You hit every note, treating it like it was the last time you’d ever sing. That was the most you had ever put into any audition, and you hoped it would pay off.

A week passed and you got a phone call from an unknown phone number. You looked at your coworker worriedly, this could be the call of a lifetime. She took the drink tray from your hands and watched you answer the phone.

“Hello, is this Y/N?” You hear a familiar voice, the director.

You swallowed nervously, “this is she.” You choked out.

“It’s Ashton Irwin, the director of The Phantom of the Opera. I’d like to see you for a callback Friday at 9 am, would you be interested?”

You felt that same butterfly in the stomach feeling and let out a breath, almost laughing, “Yes I would love to, thank you so much.”

He ended the conversation and you cried of happiness, you got a callback for the show of your dreams. Everything was getting so real. One part of you was terrified, but the other part of you was determined to get that role.

The rest of your day at the restaurant you worked at, you were the happiest waitress anyone had ever seen. You were attentive and cheery to even the grouchy customers. You were on top of the world and no one could ruin your good mood.

-

Two days have passed since your callback. You anxiously kept checking your phone. You took the day off so you wouldn’t miss the call. With every notification on your phone you jumped to check it. You had never been so anxious, this was more nerve wracking than any opening night she’s performed on. Then finally, he called.

“Hey, this is Y/N right?” Ashton questioned, your heartbeat picked up faster than ever.

“It sure is.” Your voice was shaking, this was the moment. This was the call that would determine everything.

“I would love to have you apart of my production of The Phantom of the Opera as Christine Daaé, do you accept?”

You almost cried on the phone. You regained your composure and took a deep breath, accepting his offer and taking down the date of the first rehearsal and everything you needed to know.

—

You walked into the room where rehearsal took place, taking in your surroundings. It being the first day, everyone was on book. You saw everyone talking together casually, and you found yourself nervous to also make conversation. Thankfully, a guy with blonde hair and icy blue eyes walked up to you with a kind energy.

“You must be the one playing Christine! It’s nice to meet you, I’m Luke. Or, while we’re rehearsing, Viscount Raoul de Chagny.” He smiled and shook your hand, it was nice to meet someone so kind already.

“It’s nice to meet you! I’m Y/N.” You smiles and shook his hand.

“The Phantom is running late, as usual,” he rolled his eyes, “I’ve been in three shows with him and he’s always late because he thinks he’s entitled.” Luke was obviously very annoyed with whoever was playing the Phantom. That made you nervous, the phantom is supposed to be someone you would be around almost constantly, yet he’s apparently an asshole. In the distance, you start to hear yelling from a male voice.

“Why should I even be on time? I can’t believe my costar has no experience being in an actual broadway show and she’s the lead! Shakespeare in the Park doesn’t count as real experience.” Whoever this was, they did not agree with you being the lead. He walked into the room with a coffee in his hand, his script in his arms, and a scowl on his face. What a ray of sunshine. He had tan skin and midnight black hair. His brown eyes were like daggers, he stares at you and turns around with an eye roll. This must be who Luke was talking about.

“Good luck with him,” Luke looked at me sympathetically, “don’t listen to what he has to say. You deserve to be here.” You smiled, it was nice to know there was at least one person who believed in you.

“Thanks, Luke.” You gave him a hug and went up onto the stage where everyone else was.

Ashton walked in front of everyone onto the stage and everyone settled down, “Alright everyone, it’s the first rehearsal and we will be on book. We’ll be on book for three weeks, but I would prefer you to be off book before that; If you need three weeks, then you’ve got three weeks.

Calum scoffed, looking at Ashton, “I think some people can’t even get off with that much time, Mr. Irwin. Some people don’t even know what it’s like to have this opportunity, performing in front of thousands of people every night and not being able to mess up one line. Not everyone can handle the pressure.”

You hated him already. He was on the highest horse imaginable, and there hasn’t even been one rehearsal yet. You could see his head growing as every second would pass. This show was going to be a living hell.

The egotistical actor walked over to you with a look of disinterest that you wanted to just smack off of his face, “So you’re the newbie playing the female lead, huh?” He looked you up and down with disapproval, obviously unimpressed.

“That’d be me, yes.” You try to be polite but God, it’s nearly impossible. You already have a burning hatred for him. He was judging your skill without ever seeing you act before. That’s when you decided you were going to prove to him you were cut out for the role. You weren’t going to let some arrogant actor you just met talk bad on you; you weren’t one to let people walk all over you. It’s on.

“Break a leg, take that metaphorically or literally, it doesn’t matter to me.” You were appalled at his remark, you turned around and walked away, your heart filling with anger.

“Just you wait.” You mutter, walking back to Luke to discuss your first scene together.

__

Rehearsal finally began and you were on top of everything. The first song you’re going to rehearse is Think of Me, and you’re performing it with Luke. It’s sung very high, and you’re prepared to prove you could handle it.

All eyes turned to you and Luke; the piano played the familiar tune of the song.

You took a deep breath, “Think of me, think of me fondly when we've said goodbye
, remember me, once in a while
 please, promise me you'll try.” You sang every note with all you had in you, Ashton had never seen someone with such passion as you for a role. He’s pleased he casted you. As you did your last note, it was silent for a moment. But then, everyone clapped, they were smiling and giving you genuine compliments and suggestions.

Calum, on the other hand, said nothing. He did not clap or compliment you. He stayed silent with a look of disapproval on his face. You tried ignoring it, but it was hard. After running through every song, rehearsal ended. You left without a word.

—

Next rehearsal, Calum’s attitude towards you didn’t change one bit. With every line you said he criticized you and said you could do better. You’d never please him, and it made you want to scream.

“You know, Y/N, you could put way more feeling into this” he’d say, or “this is Broadway, not Shakespeare in the park.” Never anything helpful. All he would ever do is criticize every little thing you’d do. You finally snapped, you were tired of it.

“Why can’t you give me anything helpful Calum!? All you do is criticize my experience. Acting is acting, Broadway or not. I deserve to be here, so fuck off and start treating me like your costar, not your toy to fuck with.” He stared at you, shocked at your fiery remark.

“Well then, Christine Daaé, I’ll give you another chance to prove to me that you’re fit for the role. I’ve been in Cats, Newsies, and Wicked. All on Broadway in front of thousand of people every night. I’m experienced, and I expect you to be perfect. Are you up for trying to impress me?”

You stared at him, scoffing, “I don’t need to impress you. Just Mr. Irwin and the audience. You don’t mean shit.” And with that you left, leaving him appalled and surprised that you were one to fight back.

—-

You sat at the coffee shop with Luke, a black coffee at his fingertips and a tea in yours.

“He thinks he’s so fucking entitled. The only leg I plan on breaking at this point is his! I hate him and I have to see him 6 days a week! And I have to kiss that asshole too, this is such a shit show.” You buried your face in your hands, stressed out of your mind.

“Hey it’s completely valid to be upset. He’s just pissed because you’re better than him and he’s trying to mess you up.” He smiled at you reassuringly, but it wasn’t working for you. You just wanted him to think you were capable, but all he would do is bring you down.

“Maybe I should just quit-“

“Fuck no. You’re gonna prove him wrong and show him you’re the most talented one there. I’m gonna help you, too.”

“You’re gonna help me?” You were surprised, but also so grateful.

He nodded, raising his coffee cup. You raised your mug to his and you clinked them together, Calum will learn to never say anything negative to you again.

“First you need a new look. Minimum wage and tips at the diner aren’t helping you at all, I’m paying to get you new clothes.” He got up and put on his jacket, quickly drinking the remainder of his coffee.

You follow him out the door, a bit flustered, “What is this, Luke, pretty woman?”

“Sure we can call it that.” He takes you to his car and drives like no tomorrow. This would be a wild ride.

—

You arrived to an area of New York with an array of stores at every corner. You went into a store that you’d never even think of entering, and god damn everything was expensive. You looked at a shirt you thought was mildly cute, and it was 70 dollars.

“Luke this store is too expensive! I’m trying to be a bad bitch not a broke bitch!”

He laughed and shook his head, “I’m trying to be Edward from pretty woman and like... grant all your wishes. I’m like a fairy godmother but instead I’m on broadway and not magical, just well off with money. Also, when the show kicks off, you can leave the diner and live your dream so calm down.”

“What does changing my wardrobe have to do with any of this? I’m trying to prove to him I’m talented…” you were genuinely confused with this whole situation. Did Luke misunderstand your frustration?

“Well first off, he’s a privileged prick so if you don’t dress well he’s gonna assume you’re less than him. You’d know if you’ve known him as long as I have,” He sighed, handing you clothes, “but we’re gonna prove him wrong.”

You went through what felt like hundreds of clothes; it was as if you were in a rom com outfit change montage and Luke was your super cool best friend. It was a magical experience honestly, although you hated that this was a thing you had to do.

“Alright, pretty woman, lets pay and get out of here.”

—

Rehearsal the next day started early: 7 in the morning. You were wearing some of your new clothes, and you even did your makeup for once. When you walked in, you saw Luke talking to Calum. You usually weren’t one to eavesdrop, but in that moment you couldn’t help it. You got close enough to hear, but far enough so it just looked like you were casually sitting in one of the chairs minding your own business.

“I don’t hate her Luke, I really don’t. I think she’s talented and she can sing but I just don’t know if she can handle being on Broadway in front of thousands 5-6 nights a week for 3 months. In all honesty, she interests me. I can’t help but think about her. I think about what her dream role may be, and I wonder when she started acting. I want to know more about her but I feel like I have to be hard on her to prepare her. I hate being a dick, I really do. Yes, I admit, first rehearsal I was not happy about co-starring with someone with no broadway experience but now that I’ve seen her act God, she’s so passionate and witty, but I think it’s too late to go back and not be an asshole.” Calum sighed, he was frustrated. He hated how he acted; there were so many other ways to help you be better but he chose the route of being an asshole.

“I know Calum, I know. Stop worrying, you can fix your actions. I’ve been talking to her and we’ve gotten quite close, and she’s trying to prove herself to you. She’s kinda pissed at you at the moment, but I’m sure you can fix everything.” Luke pat Calum’s shoulder, giving him reassurance. Now you understood everything.

Part of you thought what Calum was trying to do was sweet; the other part of you was still upset about how he executed it. You felt conflicted and you weren’t sure what to do. Your thoughts were interrupted with Ashton telling everyone to get ready to rehearse scenes four, five and six of act one: The Labyrinth Underground, The Phantom’s Lair, and The Phantom’s Lair the next morning. These scenes were a few of the ones with only Calum, and no one else.

You both sang The Phantom of the Opera, The Music of the Night, and I Remember/Stranger Than You Dreamt It together in these particular scenes, and you were prepared to hear criticism after they ended. You both got up and stood in front of the rest of the cast. You took a deep breath and listened to the organ play the beginning notes of your first song. You both sang the song together, and as always, you put in your all. The song ended with the highest note you’ve ever sang in your life, and although it wasn’t perfect, it was better than you ever thought you’d do on that type of note.

Calum turned to you, and you prepared for the worst.

“That was really really nice… you’ve improved a lot.” He smiled at you, and you were surprised.

“Thank you… thank you Calum I really appreciate it,” you smile at him, and then give him your signature smirk, “you should be less of an arrogant jerk more often, it’s pretty attractive when you’re nice.” A blush crept to his cheeks and the notes of the next song played, and you sang together like there was no tomorrow.

The scene where you tear the Phantom’s mask off began, and you now saw just how dedicated Calum was to this role. He wanted this just as much as you. He put so much emotion into his singing and the moves he made, and you caught yourself warming up to him. When he looked into your eyes as you handed his mask back to him as instructed in the scene, you noticed the color of them. They were just brown, but a special kind of brown. They were a warm brown, and they shined like constellations in the night sky. Ashton told everyone to take 5, and you turned back to Calum.

“You were really amazing just then…” you were growing fond of him. You wanted to know more about him. The show was in 3 weeks, so you decided against it so you could focus on the show.

You heard the lighting engineer talking to Ashton, “This is the most sexual tension I’ve ever seen in my life.”

“Michael, just because it’s true, it doesn’t mean you should say it. But you’re right and I hate saying you’re right, so cherish this moment.”

You also agreed, but you didn’t want to agree.

—

Three weeks of non stop rehearsal went by and it was finally opening night. You were sitting in your chair in the dressing room wearing your first costume, and Calum walked in.

“Break a leg tonight, Christine Daaé.” He smiled at you, wearing the mask that covered half his face.

You laughed, “You too, Phantom.”

“I wanted to apologize for being arrogant when I first met you… when I heard you sing for the first time, I wanted to take it all back. I could tell right then that you have what it takes. I’m ecstatic that you’re my co-star, Y/N. I mean it.”

Without hesitation, you got up from your seat and hugged him tightly. You didn’t care if he thought that was weird; you just felt the need to tell him you appreciate him.

“We’re on in 5! Get in your places!” Michael’s voice rang through the dressing rooms.

“Michael I can do my job! Just do yours!” Ashton was stressed out of his mind, and you laughed at Michaels attempt of destressing Ashton by helping him out. It’s the thought that counts.

—

The lights went dark and the curtain closed. The lights slowly went back up and the curtain call began. The cast filed out in order of how big their role was. You and Calum walk together to the middle of the stage last, bowing in sync. Everyone then holds hands and bows together, and that’s when you knew you wanted this feeling forever. Everyone files out and goes back into the dressing room, and you find a bouquet of flowers on your vanity. There’s a note with your name on it, and you open it.

Y/N, or should I say Christine,

I know in the play I end up falling in love with you and you go for Raoul instead, but that doesn’t have to happen in real life. Let’s get dinner sometime. I want to know more about you.

- The Phantom, or Calum, whichever you prefer.

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The Northside Serpent: Part 15

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Sweet Pea x Keller!Reader

Word count: 2068

Warnings: Death

Y/N: Your Name

Summary: You’re Kevin Keller’s little sister when you’re mom left to go to war and your dad started cheating (I’m making it so he’s been cheating since season 1) You started rebelling; dying your hair, getting a nose piercing, tattoo, and hanging out on the southside.

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Kevin made me come to school with him early to ask Jughead to be the videographer. I really didn’t want to go to school early but I didn’t have a choice. So I was also forced to go to the before school musical practice. I watched them sing and dance and I sat next to Fangs while they did this. After they were done everyone sat in a circle on chairs and Kevin smiled.

“Welcome to Carrie: The Musical.” He said and then Fangs pulled his chair into the circle, next to Kevin and Toni.

“Okay. Next, introductions.” Kevin said and I rolled my eyes. Jughead was behind everyone filming the behind the scenes.

“I’m Archie, I’m playing Tommy Ross. The boy next door.” Archie said.

“I’m Betty, I play Sue Snell. The good girl.” Betty said.

“Veronica Lodge, playing mean girl, Chris Hargensen.” Veronica said.

“I’m Cheryl Blossom, playing the iconic role of Carrie White.” Cheryl said standing up.

“Tone deaf.” Josie said with a cough and I bit my lip. Oh boy…

“Who’s playing your mom? Margaret White.” Ethel asked.

“I am.” Alice Cooper said walking in.

“Ah!” Kevin said with a smile.

“Mom?” Betty asked.

“Wait, seriously?” Ethel asked.

“Settle down. Yes, it’s untraditional but to me, there’s nothing more amateur than age-inappropriate casting.” Kevin said and I rolled my eyes.

“It’s a school play.” I said and Kevin narrowed his eyes at me.

“I’m really looking forward to getting to know who this woman is, you know, get under her skin. And, of course, to spend some quality time with my daughter, Elizabeth.” Alice said and Betty smiled.

“Uh, sorry.” Chuck said walking in and everyone rolled their eyes.

“I thought rehearsal were in the Music Room.” He said.

“No problem. All are welcome here.” Kevin said and I scoffed. Chuck sat down and they kept talking.

“Why am I even here, Kevin? I’m not even in the play.” I asked when they took a break.

“Because, you don’t have anywhere else to go.” He said and I narrowed my eyes at him.

“Anywhere is better than watching you guys put on a stupid play.” I said crossing my arms.

“Dad wants me to keep an eye on you, so you’re staying here.” He said and I rolled my eyes.

“Of course he does.” I said annoyed and just walked over to Toni and Fangs.

“Hey Quinny, how are you doin’?” Fangs asked.

“Eh, I’d rather not talk about this…” I said and Toni placed her arm around me.

“Forget about that, we’re talking to him. Besides that, how are you and Kevin?” She asked and I groaned.

“Ughhh, I still don’t want to talk to him or my dad.” I said annoyed and they sighed.

“He’s your brother, you gotta talk to him.” Fangs said and Toni nodded.

“Maybe when he gets his head outta his ass.” I said crossing my arms and they laughed. The break ended and I went back to sitting on the sidelines.

“Okay. Act one scene one.” Kevin told everyone as they looked at the scripts.

“Actually, before we begin…” Cheryl said standing up and putting her script down.

“I’ve heard whisperings that some of you ensemble-vultures don’t think I’m fit to play or sing-” She said and looked at Josie.

“No.” Josie said shaking her head.

“The role of Carrie White. So, to settle this matter once and for all. Maestro?” Cheryl called out.

“Okay, uh, Cheryl-” Kevin said but she cut him off by starting to sing. Cheryl finished and Toni stood up to clap. I also started clapping and soon everyone else joined in.

“Wow, I think I speak for everyone when I say that was undeniable, Cheryl.” Kevin said. Cheryl was walking back to her seat when a sandbag fell and almost hit her. We all looked at her in shock. After that happened Kevin decided to call it for practice. I stayed in the shadows throughout the day just like I have been for the past week. I just really couldn’t kick the horrible feeling I felt from Sweet Pea breaking up with me.

After school Kevin and I went home and he told me that he found a letter in his locker from the Black Hood. He said that the Black Hood didn’t want Cheryl to play Carrie but he wasn’t going to recast her. After he told me that I just stayed in my room until dinner where I ignored my family. I really didn’t want to talk to them since they literally ruined my relationship. During the whole Carrie rehearsals Kevin forced me to go with him. When I refused him he had Toni, Fangs, or Jughead make me come. They all claimed they wanted me to keep my mind of Sweet Pea. I watched as Betty, Archie, Veronica, and Chuck practice their scene where they were both wanting to help/hurt Carrie. Once it was finished Kevin told everyone it was finished and then we went home. The next day I was dragged there once again. Cheryl and Josie were practicing their scene and honestly this was probably the only scene I was excited to see.

“In this scene, gym teacher Mrs. Gardener is being a friend when out girl has none, out of sheer kindness.” Kevin said, I was sitting behind him and Fangs.

“I’ll fake it as best I can.” Josie said with a sigh and Cheryl looked her up and down. The music started and Josie was the first one to sing.

“Stop, stop, stop.” Cheryl said and everyone stopped.

“Okay, Cheryl, I’m the only one that’s allowed to stop.” Kevin said and I rolled my eyes. God he’s taking this too seriously.

“I can’t do this! I can’t have you hating me while we’re singing a song about friendship.” Cheryl said and my brother shook his head.

“I know everything I did was legit crazy, Josie, but I was wrestling with some dark, Carrie White-like demons, and I’m so, so sorry. So please, please forgive me.” Cheryl said and they started singing again. I sighed and watched as they both were making up. Ugh, I wanted some drama… After that was done Veronica was up to practice her World According To Chris scene. God could Kevin cast anymore obvious? Betty the good girl, Veronica the bad girl, it’s a little on the nose. She finished and everyone clapped.

“Okay, Veronica, I am obsessed with everything that just happened.” Kevin said walking up to her.

“Thank you, it helps to be off-book and in full costume.” Veronica said with a smile and Betty laughed.

“Don’t be so modest. You are the literal embodiment of Chris.” She said and I smirked, guess I’ll be gettin my drama after all.

“Never has a role been so perfectly type-cast.” She added.

“Betty…” Archie said trying to stop her and my brother sighed.

“What was that, Betty?” Veronica asked.

“I mean, think about it. Spoiled rich girl, check. Major daddy issues, check. Bad to the bone, trying to control everyone around her, including her boyfriend and best friend. Check, check, check.” Betty said and I smirk nudging Jughead.

“Looks like your girlfriends finally figured it out.” I said and he shook his head at me. Kevin told everyone they could leave and they did. I was stuck with Jughead and he was watching as Archie was talking to Betty in the back.

“A little jealous are we?” I asked him.

“Shut up Quinny.” He said shoving me.

“How are you anyway?” He asked turning the camera off.

“I’m doing as best as I can be after my first boyfriend broke up with me because of my family.” I said sitting back in my seat.

“Hey, we’re talking to him okay? Toni said you made him happy so he’s not just gonna throw that away.” Jug said giving me a side hug.

“He already did…” I sighed. I could feel a wave of tears ready to escape. I got up and walked over to my brother who was with Fangs.

“Hey Kev… I’m gonna go home…” I said and he looked at me worried.

“What’s wrong? Are you okay?” He asked and I nodded.

“Yeah… I’m just tired. I’ll see you at home.” I said and walked out. I walked home and locked myself in my room. I took out my phone and started going through mine and Sweet Pea’s texts. Why was I torturing myself like this? We haven’t talked in weeks, hell I haven’t even seen him besides in class. Maybe Toni was wrong and I didn’t make him happy… I cried myself to sleep again that night.

The next day I was yet again forced to go to rehearsals but this time Cheryl wasn’t there. I looked at everyone confused. Where was she? She wouldn’t be late, she wanted to play Carrie more than anything.

“Due to some unforeseen circumstances, Cheryl will no longer be playing the role of Carrie White.” My brother said and Fangs tried to place his hand on his shoulder? Did Fangs have a thing for my brother? Good luck with that.

“What? Why?” Toni asked.

“Let’s just say that Penelope Blossom isn’t much of a stage-mom.” Kevin said and I scoffed.

“I think Cheryl’s by the gym bleachers.” He told Toni and she grabbed her stuff and left.

“In the meantime, Cheryl’s understudy will assume the role.” My brother said.

“Understudy?” Ethel asked.

“I appointed one after the sandbag incident. Midge Klump!” He said and everyone clapped. After that announcement everyone took their seats. Midge and Alice were going to practice one of their scenes. Everything was going well until Alice said Betty instead of Carrie..

“Mom?” Betty asked.

“Don’t leave me, Betty. Don’t leave me like all the others.” Alice said while crying then ran off. Betty got up and followed her.

“Am I directing a train wreck? And where’s my tea?” Kevin asked Fangs.

“Yeah you are. What did you think was gonna happen?” I asked rolling my eyes.

“Shut it you!” Kevin said looking at me.

After what felt like forever it was finally the night of the play. Kevin made sure we were dressed nice, so I was dressed in black lace dress, black and silver flower earrings, a black and silver flower necklace, and some black heels. For makeup, I up on a dark red lip and black and silver eyeshadow with a wing. I also curled my hair and put a bow in the back.

It was definitely too dressy for a school play but Kevin was making us so we had to. I was sitting next to Cheryl and Jughead and he was sitting next to my brother. We were watching the play and everything was going great. Alice was singing one her songs where Carrie was locked in the closet and everyone was loving it. They set looked amazing too.

“Alright Carrietta, it’s time to come out of your closet.” Alice said and the set lifted. What everyone saw was horrific.

“Uh, Kevin, did you re-block this scene? Why isn’t she on her knees singing?” Cheryl asked.

“I-I…” Kevin just stuttered, he didn’t know what to say. There on the wall was Midge Klump stabbed with multiple knives and with things written in her blood…

“I am back from the dead all those who escaped me before will die. B.H.” I read and we all just stared in shock, not processing what was happening.

“I don’t think that’s part of the show.” Jughead said shocked.

“Oh my God!” Kevin said.

“Somebody should help her! For God’s sake, help her!” Cheryl yelled and Alice finally turned around. She screamed and everyone started screaming and freaking out. We all got up and Kevin grabbed me pulling me to the stage but I got out of his grip and ran for the door. Two people stopped me and I looked up to see Fangs and Sweet Pea. Fangs grabbed me and pulled me out of the school with them.

“What the hell was that?” Fangs asked shocked.

“I don’t know, the Black hood must be back…” I said scared and Sweet Pea wrapped his arm around me. I froze not really knowing why he was doing this.

“Don’t worry, we’ll keep you safe.” Sweet Pea said and they took me on their bikes to Sunnyside Trailer Park.

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ARAMAKI YOSHIHIKO 08/08/18 BLOG POST TRANSLATION - Looking Back on Tousute: Hiden Yui no Me no Hototogisu

VERY VERY ROUGH TL ;; MASSIVE SPOILERS AHEAD!

so many typos (?) and i took liberties with most… anyway we got a very relatable boy right here… the best mknb fic ive ever had the pleasure of reading.. from the man himself. we don’t deserve him.

Read under the cut! 

Tousute Hiden ended 10 days ago.

How is everyone doing?

I am currently doing Sengoku Night Blood’s rehearsals

And in other days I do a lot of other work too.

Two months

No, when you add the practice time

I did Tousute for three months

A few days after the final performance,

Somehow, there’s a suffocating, wrong, and murky feeling

I did the Nico Nico broadcast,

I was able to share even just a little of my own thoughts to everyone

That calmed [the wrong feelings] down.

Because Senbura Live has ended,

I thought I should write a looking-back blog post.

I have so many feelings over Tousute

So this might become a bit incoherent but,

Please pardon me.

And it will probably be long.

When you have the time, I would be happy if you could read it.

Then–

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Stage play Touken Ranbu Hiden Yui no Me no Hototogisu

Tousute Kyouden was two years ago.

From then

Kyouden Saien (replay)

Giden

Gaiden

Jyoden

Hiden

I have performed in them all.

I have always worked in all of the Tousute’s up until now Because I was allowed to appear.

Hiden is my 6th work [in the series].

If you count all of the performances together, a total of 178.

For a really long time, I have been in Tousute

It’s a really great honor.

By the time of Kyouden’s premiere

I have been decided to appear as Yamanbagiri Kunihiro

From there,

Mikazuki and Yamanbagiri’s story begun.

Hiroki-kun and I,

Since the rehearsals for Saien

This Tousute’s story, what kind of concept would it be

From Suemitsu-san I was allowed to hear just a little bit.

Eventually, Mikazuki and Yamanbagiri will fight.

When I heard that

“I want to do that scene already!!

But before I could do that scene, I had to do so much more first

First, I had to look ahead.

But I want to do it already!“

I had those fluttering thoughts.

I didn’t think that the ending

would turn out to be like that.

I was played. (or literally: he got me there.)

I was really surprised.

When I heard that Yamanbagiri would fight Mikazuki,

That Yamanbagiri would surpass Mikazuki,

Maybe it was a story that would show his growth

Is what I thought!

To think that he would lose.

And with a farewell, at that!!

Suemitsu-san really played [me] there.

If this ending has been planned from the very beginning of Tousute’s story,

I would like to take a look in Suemitsu-san’s head.

Just what is going on in there?

I had those thoughts while I was in rehearsals,

The real thing

The first performance in Meijiza Theater

From the stage where we practiced,

It’s a play that really exhausts your energy Is what I thought but

The amount of passion the audience has shown Further exceeded my expectations.

The people who saw it too, In such a fast pace,

Surprised,

then saddened,

I wonder if you were all tired after the performances?

I think that would be a given if you were to see something like Hiden

The citadel was attacked. Mikazuki cut Shokudaikiri down.

Our Master made an appearance.

Hasebe and Fudou came back

Mikazuki left the citadel

And lastly, Mikazuki and Yamanbagiri fought And it ends there.

I’m sure it was a story that no one saw coming.

A painful story.

Every after performance, I felt varying levels of tiredness.

One of the reasons why I felt absolutely knackered

Was because of the scene with Mikazuki.

The story’s ending,

The scene of parting with Mikazuki

I didn’t want to cry but my tears came out anyway.

Before me,

When I see the Mikazuki that is disappearing

A lot of memories will come up to me

No matter what, my tears will come up.

There were performances where I silently cried,

and performances where I was wailing and sobbing

I entrusted all of my emotions to that single moment.

A play.

No,

it was no longer just a play anymore.

I was really mourning.

In the first performance(s),

I was merely sad to be fighting Mikazuki,

But after repeatedly performing,

“I will definitely save you.”

Is what I was thinking,

while fighting and crying with my heart out.

I fought with those feelings,

Losing was saddening,

I was frustrated with my weak self

And after I bid farewell to Mikazuki,

It was also hard to part there*

I always cried in that place.

But I wasn’t allowed to cry,

so I cried backstage**

There,

The Touken Danshi and the staff will greet me,

They will pat my back and say,

“Thank you for your hard work.”

Although there was only Mikazuki, Yamanbagiri, and Kogarasumaru on stage,

We fought together in every performance,

And got better in every performance.

But you know,

I myself was waiting for Yamanbagiri’s awakened form.

Thank god…

When will Manba-chan awaken…

Not yet? Not yet? I was waiting impatiently.

It was in the end of all ends, huh.

And now is different from the past

Awakened in slow motion

I was really happy to be able to awaken in such a strong and impactful highlight

And,

To be honest, I seriously pulled up my muscles

Even in the scenes where I was normally moving,

Slowly, in the slow-motion, I used my muscles in using the sword

But during those times the slow-motion really shines through

That slow motion with awakened form,

I personally loved it.

And to the people who waited for Manba-chan’s awakened form too, I’ll be happy if you are satisfied.

With that Manba-chan who’s awakened, I won against Mikazuki.

A promise with Yamanbagiri,

Mikazuki in another loop of time.

Mikazuki Munechika who is trapped in the loop,

Just how many times have you repeated the same thing?

The same with the number of our performances?

No,

Even more?

This is only my thinking but,

Since the very first time,

Mikazuki himself is trying to change his fate and,

He might have resisted and struggled with different ones.

But

Whatever he does

No matter how much he struggles

It all seems to end the same way.

In the end, he has to become enemy to the Touken Danshi

But there is one hope found somewhere in that repeating loop

The sun that illuminates the moon.

Mikazuki said so in the performances,

susuketa taiyou. (“You’re quite the sooty sun.”)

I wonder if that was referring to Manba-chan.

That’s why in Kyouden

He tutored Manba-chan in that short time.

Inside the endless loop,

Over and over, making mistakes, amidst trials and errors

He guided Manba-chan.

To a one-on-one talk with Manba-chan, and a last farewell

Time and time again, over and over, he called for Manba-chan

He wished for a ray of sunlight.

That was probably what Mikazuki was thinking

While he suffered.

However.

The long number of performances has passed

And in the final performance,

Yamanbagiri managed to win against Mikazuki.

A divergence from the initial endings

This place too shows that Suemitsu-san is amazing.

Only,

In that final performance’s fighting scene,

I don’t remember much.

The fighting scene which was a one-off sword fight.

I wanted to show off carefully in the real thing.

But in that moment,

I lost myself in the feeling of my victory

When I came to notice, Mikazuki has already withdrawn his sword.

Together since the rehearsals

No, together since Kyouden

With Hiroki-kun, who I crossed swords with for several years

It may just be my one-sided belief

With one another,

I’ve learned to understand my partner’s breathing patterns too,

Because it was with Hiroki-kun who I’ve been through so much with,

From that, the final performance’s fighting scene was born.

That’s what I think.

I want to watch it in DVD soon.

That fighting scene.

The farewell with Mikazuki.

Mikazuki’s unbelievable fate.

The Manba-chan who has carried this burden.

Even Mikazuki is looking to the future.

Looking forward to that someday when Yamanbagiri can once again be reunited with Mikazuki.

Walking together towards Tousute’s citadel

For sure, someday.

To laugh together again with Mikazuki

For the day when that will arrive,

I’m wishing for it.

Truthfully,

For the time that the sun can illuminate the moon.

For the time that his existence can become a guiding light.

Yamanbagiri can smile then.

Will that day come, I wonder?

To appear in this production,

I,

On a crossroad, decided on my right knee’s ligament’s (ACL) surgery.

After the surgery, to not let my ligament rupture again

I paid utmost attention

I challenged the real thing

Supported by the staff and cast,

All 53 performances.

I was able to finish them all without injury.

But the fight with rehabilitation and weight training is not yet over.

In order to shine even more.

So I can give my fans much bigger dreams

I will devote myself to that.

Uguisumaru.

An elusive and philosophical person***

He loves Ookanehira too much.

Kogarasumaru.

Father.

Thank you for watching over everything.

Ookanehira.

Your upright heart encouraged us everyday.

Tsurumaru.

Day by day, with lies and surprises.

Someday, a moment will come when that will become reliable.

Kasen.

Fellow starter sword.

I’m glad I was able to fight with you in this show for so many times.

Shokudaikiri.

You’re good in cooking.

And good in singing too.

Fudou.

You’ve been kiwame’d.

You’ve gained a mantle.

You’ve grown, huh.

Hasebe.

A fellow comrade.

The Hasebe who has always silently supported Manba-chan and wished for his success.

Thank you.

Honebami.

We didn’t have much scenes together this time but

The scene where Honebami cried was a great scene too.

Daihannya.

Cool.

Really cool.

The figure who watched over Honebami was cool.

Nue.

Hototogisu.

You too, We are both fighting to protect our Masters.

Although we stand on different grounds,

You’re an excellent

Sword.

Mikazuki…

Because of you…****

Awakened Manba-chan.

The state of my repairs. Lol

Filling the trashcan up with ice water

In all the ends of performances,

I’d cool down my leg with this.

It’s very effective!

Then,

Thank you for reading up to this

I apologize for such a long and hasty writing.

The letters I received for these performances,

Presents,

Colored papers.

Thank you so much, everyone

I’ll gladly cherish and treasure all the presents

The letters and colored papers too

I’ll read them all carefully

It always brightens me up when I receive stuff from you guys

That energy

I wish I can return it to everyone

I’ll devote myself [to that] even more and more so,

From here on too

I’m looking forward to your support for Aramaki Yoshihiko.

Lastly.

From Kyouden

to Hiden’s story

Yamanbagiri Kunihiro has grown so much

I myself grew through this Tousute

Alongside Yamanbagiri Kunihiro I’m thinking I want to grow even more as him.

Through This participation in Stage play “Touken Ranbu”

I met Yamanbagiri Kunihiro

I’m really thankful.

The things that I could obtain from here Piece by piece

I’ve received the best and most important things in my life.

Thank you.

Touken Ranbu.

Touken Ranbu.

Someday,

Let’s start again.

Source: (x)

NOTES:

*円環 is literally a circle, or a ring.. but i translated it as The “loop” as implied in the play. 

** literally “the wing of the stage”, but to make the flow better i used “backstage”. the wing is the place where the actors exit from the stage, so like... almost backstage (lol) 

** ハケ not sure what this is meant to mean at all omg… i tried using “back” meaning backstage which would fit but idk man maybe he means entirely something else ;; it means brush as i recall but… was he brushing off his tears? i didnt think this could be used as a verb in that sense tho,, literally means like brush as in paintbrush or hairbrush? Sorry about this line!!

*** Not really sure if I read this right but it’s this 達観した物事の捉え方

**** Not sure how I wanted to translate it but it’s あんたのおかげで。。。if anyone is wondering hehe