Feeling super torn up at the moment. A long time ago, when GITM was small, I gave blanket perms for people to make NSFW content. At the time, I genuinely thought I would be fine with it. Generally I just want people to have fun with characters and I didn't want to gatekeep stuff when I can just, you know, curate my own space and not look at the content that people make that I don't like.
So that's what I've been doing for the last half a year, not looking at stuff I dont want to and I thought that that would be fine. But, I'll be real, it's eating me the fuck up. I hate the idea that people I dont know are making this stuff en masse, even when I can't see it. Just knowing it exists feels bad. And I hate that I feel this way. I don't want to be the kind of person that tells people 'no you cant do XYZ', these feelings clash hugely with how I identify myself. I wanna be live and let live. As long as they aren't hurting anyone, its fine right?
But fuck. Lately its just been giving me this constant low level anxiety. I know I wont rescind the perms- I feel like that would be super shitty- especially after so many people have put so much effort into creating this content. And I don't know if I'm still gunna feel this way in a year or whatever. If I was fine with it before (when it was just a couple of people I knew personally) shouldn't I be fine with it now? What changed? Is it possible for my feelings to be valid and for them to be unfair at the same time? I'm trying so hard not to make my feelings other people's problem.
I don't know man. This post is the classic, felt cute might delete later. I just needed to shout these thoughts into the void.
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real-life adulting, man. i'm still my ex's emergency contact 6.5 years after we broke up and he just gave me his new girlfriend's phone number so that i can contact her if something happens to him. this is in lieu of making her his emergency contact, which may seem like it would make more sense, except that he hasn't told his parents about her. so i get to be the emergency contact who then would contact both the girlfriend and the parents. this all makes total sense to me despite the fact that i don't even live in his city. it's whatever! we've known each other a long time!!
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"Are you here about the secretary job? I'm afraid I've no time for another interview unless you've got something very impressive to show me..." His words were extremely dismissive, maybe a bit irritated. A hand waved at the other for them to exit the cramped, messy office space.
There were stacks of papers everywhere; cardboard boxes piled in corners, trinkets and newspapers, broken bits and bobs, several empty coffee mugs as well as his own fresh one, cigarette butts, an overflowing trashcan, stacks of books, old receipts. He looked rugged. And that was putting it lightly. His hair was a fluffy mess atop his head, his skin pallid and eyes sunken from lack of sleep. He had already talked to 13 other applicants today and none had been very impressive. Chewing on the tip of a pencil, his eyes scanned over a folder full of documents, clearly searching for something amidst the absolute chaos of the small space.
Tossing the folder aside, he pressed his lips into a thin line, hands on his hips as he finally took a moment to look up at the stranger. A heavy sigh. If only he had another cigarette handy...
"And if you've something else to say, you've got less than 3 minutes to say it. I'm not taking on anymore cases at the moment unless it's something worthwhile."
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also I got rly scared abt this last night or the night before because I suddenly realized sometimes people interpret it this way,,
so i just wanted to say that the reason i dont interact w people very much is NOT bc i think im better than ppl or anything - i am just very genuinely Petrified of messing up in social situations, to the point that I end up isolating and avoiding rather than risk making mistakes ^^;; WHICH ISN'T HEALTHY but . i havent figured out how to work through this yet dhdjdkl
BUT YEAH i just wanted to try to make sure nobody is thinking I'm some hoity-toity goober, I am literally just Extremely Terrified fjdjdkdl
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ngl i reeeeeeaaally dislike the term tme. like, i get what the term means and is supposed to reflect, but idk if labeling someone as being 'exempt' from this specific prejudice is necessarily someone else's call to make.
for example, a butch cis woman is harassed in the bathroom because others believe shes a trans woman (which has happened before!). is she exempt from transmisogyny, despite being directly impacted by it? dont get me wrong, i DO think the term transmisogyny is important, and describes a very specific prejudice against a group of people. but to say someone is 'exempt' from it makes a LOT of assumptions about a person's experiences that im just not comfortable with. if someone is being attacked due to another person's transmisogynistic beliefs, even if they themselves are not a trans woman, i dont think they should be considered 'exempt' from it. bigots rarely care for those distinctions, and all it does is further divide an already divided group of people into an 'us-and-them' dynamic
to me, it would be like saying a feminine straight man was 'exempt' from homophobia, despite the fact that we know homophobes dont typically care about a person's specific sexuality if they 'act' in a way that seems effeminate. that probably sounds silly, but i dont think we should be so quick to 'exempt' people from prejudices that could very well be impacting them, even if they arent actually a member of the typical target group.
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so I've been watching the KH Union Cross stuff (in order, thank goodness, this would be so confusing to piece together otherwise), and like, I knew enough about UX that the appearance of the foretellers at the end of KH3 wasn't confusing bc I knew who they all were, but getting the expanded, explained lore and I'm like okay, actually these weirdos in animal masks are pretty cool, glad to know they'll show up (presumably) in future games
also I'm glad that memorizing the Latin names for the seven deadly sins is finally paying off
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weird question. but in ur opinion, what major would tim do at college? I was thinking comp sci but making him a business major would be so funny
good question! to be honest.. i want to say it’s difficult to pin down any one major he’d choose, especially because i feel like he’s not exactly academically inclined, at least if he’s doing vigilante stuff? school was always a big issue for him hence him dropping out to focus on The Mission and that seems like All He Is Doing right now thank you dc editorial. but if he isn’t… comp sci is a good choice but for me, i lean towards maybe something like mechanical engineering? or electrical engineering? kinda feel like he has comp sci in the bag already from having to learn it/having learned it in his time as a vigilante (largely due to babs im sure!)
but mechanical or electrical engineering just because of how much stuff he created for his suit when he was robin and how he was always reconfiguring redbird and messing with all of it. although where those skills and that degree could be applied is Another Question Entirely. my best guess is — and this is probably super basic — with WE? or maybe if we want to have a little fun. somewhere like kord industries. or even STAR labs. or maybe a teaching position? could see him being down for that as he gets older
a little more indulgent would be photography but even if not a major i would like to think he at least minors in it or something!
business major would be SO funny because he would be miserable the entire time. i think.
but yeah! he’s just. idk. probably hates prerequisites. probably wants to take ten classes at once. he’d really need to slow down i think which is the goal. ultimately. for me. in any case This got very long my bad <3 i’m just. fascinated by him and his mysterious future
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I've been slowly fleshing out the plot for my game, and I was telling my wife about it (hi wife, I love you wife), and having it all in one spot really hit me hard. I decided to make the plot something more meaningful to me, but in the process I think I have accidentally dug up some unfortunate feelings. I have been reminded of some things I would rather forget, and I hope that making this game helps me through these memories.
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Fun Fact I just gathered: Before he got popular, Majima conceptually was just gonna be a fun psychotic rival for Kiryu and nothing beyond that, however they still wanted to keep him grounded. Then he became popular, so the writers had him be in almost all the games, even if he was never gonna be at his peak. However for the movie, they went back to that original concept for Majima and just amped up that energy to a cartoonish degree, just had the actor do what he had to do with the character (like move the eyepatch to the right so he can see better) and the end result is Majima's second best appearance in any Yakuza media. Then we get to Kiwami and we basically get the best of both worlds. In short, any adaptation of Yakuza 1 is Majima at his best. Makes me wonder how this kind of rehauling and remastering would've benefited characters like Aoki, Mine, or Ryuji
honestly the best way to summarize this ask is that majima got the vegeta treatment: he was supposed to be a one-off/non-overly-interesting antagonist, yet due to popularity he was essentially brought back/revamped
i feel like rgg tried to do something like that with ryuji and dead souls, but ultimately stopped themselves before they could bring him into any major mainline titles
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