#i know i don’t owe anyone

[auras3ye]

activity psa

hey friends, so if it wasn’t already obvious i haven’t really been around recently anywhere, due to a number of factors. i am here to inform you that this is probably not going to be changing much anytime soon. well the disassociation has finally let go of my brain, i am faced with another present hurdle. as of tonight ( sun 12am ) i am the full time shift lead till feb. my supervisor is going back to africa on mon for two months holiday, which he is more than deserving of as he doesn’t take holidays during the year at all. as the deputy supervisor, operating on the weekends, i have now inherited his position five days a week. with the tensions among the various staff even two days can take a lot out of me. my job in itself is already exhausting, now with that on top of it. i am only getting christmas day off in dec as i am too important to let go for a week but hey they let my shitty coworker with less seniority take five days and i am definitely not upset about that : )))))) so i will not have any down time from this. i am going to be very tired and anxious at times during this period. my motivation is going to fluctuate excessively. i can be here for a few days straight and then vanish for weeks. it all depends on my mental state.

i love warren, and all my blogs so much and i am not abandoning them. but i wanted to explain that the activity dips will continue for the next two months. on the plus side, being the supervisor full time means i have computer access all five nights i am on, so realistically there is more chance for writing. but all of this is going to depend on my mood and work load. i am also going to stop making “i’ll be active soon, or maybe tonight” posts. they have been wigging me out lately and then i feel guilty for not delivering. in short, consider this a semi hiatus, and i will be active when and where, wherever i feel like it.

i appreciate your patience with me and i encourage mutuals to reach out to me on disco : warrdenpowers. (with the dot) for those that don’t have me yet. for plotting and chatting purposes. hell it might even be easier to rp in servers. so msg me about that if you are interested. anyway, thanx for reading this. i adore you all 💜💙💛 xoxo

[evermorepeyton]

i love the video, i’ve already rewatched it three times Today what can i say

i’ve seen some people saying there was something “off” or “uncomfortable” about it. i can’t relate like im having a blast.

i honestly don’t know what people expect from them, sure dan’s complimented phil many times unprovoked and that’s lovely, but i understand how it can be a bit too much to just do it on camera so directly.

the camera’s on and it’s hard for them to not be a tiny bit like no homo. when that was all they did for years in front of the public. old habits die hard especially when it’s a habit that probably caused them so much anxiety for so long.

imagine being like this is my friend my buddy my roommate for years and trying to deny anything else but constantly being told that no one believes you, so it becomes even more frustrating, and then all of a sudden you both come out and it’s been a few years and it should be okay now, but it’s still a little bit weird (which if you’ve programmed yourself to act a certain way for years, formative ones too, and you’re now going against it, it should be). how is he supposed to look at this man and be like “phil you are the most beautiful man to have ever walked on planet earth”? or whatever you wanted from him.

and still, despite all of that, they’ve managed to make the gayest videos ever since post hiatus. so how is it uncomfortable if they aren’t like sitting on top of each other or something in front of the camera? (and also like they just might someday but not because a card says it)

like i made jokes about it myself because i found it funny that when people don’t ask it from him he will say something like “you looked lovely phil” or point his way when he hears the phrase “beautiful but dense” or whatever. so he’s not incapable of it, it was just a little uncomfortable because they were playing a couples game which they haven’t done before and he’s probably already hyper aware of everything he’s saying, on top of that he’s supposed to be like omg phil you have the most beautiful blue eyes or whatever???

let him post his little ocean blue eyes story and we can all freak out about it, like we do. it’s honestly more than enough. and this video is fantastic to me, what can i say

[thus-spoke-lo]

Hello friends in my phone, hope you’re all having a decent December ❤️ I’ll probably start lurking again here and there but won’t be back on tumblr in any meaningful capacity (aka making content) for a while. Ask box will be turned back on, but I haven’t really had the wherewithal to be super social so if you send something and it goes unanswered, it’s not you, it’s me. (More irl stuff below the cut, it’s not mandatory reading but it’s there. cw for medical talk.)

The tl;dr is both of my parents (who live across the country from me and have no other family or friends who live close to them) have both been hospitalized for various reasons—my mom for symptoms of (previously undiagnosed) congestive heart failure and a severe infection, my dad about a week and a half later after a car accident he had on the way to visit my mom in the hospital. (T-boned by an unlicensed teenager speeding with no lights on in the dark.)

I can’t do much from where I am, have my own household to run and a full-time job and limited PTO. I’m sort of at a loss for how to help them long-term, but they’ve also made a series of choices over their life together that led them to where they’re at now financially and health-wise, so I’m sort of just having to let go and let them figure this out beyond the little bit I can do.

I’m tired, I’m emotional, I’m an only child parenting my parents yet again after I thought I was done with that by moving away from them. I’m also adjusting to being on SSRI’s for the first time in like 8 years (for reasons unrelated to this situation), which is. Fun. Luckily Mr. Lo has been a real champ through all of this but I’m a wreck atm trying to manage everything from 2,500 miles away lmao.

[the-darkestminds]

The reason I take issue with Cassian never telling Nesta he loves her (aside from personally enjoying my romance novels to end with a declaration of love from both MCs) is because on the very last page, Nesta is still thinking to herself that she will work hard to earn and deserve Cassian’s love. She still thinks she doesn’t deserve her father’s love, the man who failed Nesta and her sisters so horribly that he was ready to let them starve. Her journey should have taught her that love isn’t conditional. So for her to still believe that she didn’t deserve it bothered me. It would’ve been nice to hear Cassian say it at least once.

[jinstronaut]

some 5am thoughts bc my cat woke me up:

solo stan’s and solo behavior can kick rocks

there is no right or wrong way to use a tracked tag — ppl have lives and ppl are busy, don’t get mad bc someone isn’t reblogging something within 2 hrs of it being posted. some of us use a tag to catch up since we’re too busy to be here 24/7, that’s not a bad thing.

if you’ve never ever ever spoken to someone personally you don’t get to speak on who they are as a human being. if you’ve never actually reached out and had a convo with someone abt who they are you’re doing a disservice to them and yourself when you just assume things abt them based on perception instead of fact

most importantly HOBI IS HOME so let us celebrate 😌🎉✨💖

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

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[whenthegoldrays]

and yes. yes I am bitter that I don’t get to go to my friend’s wedding. yes I am bitter than she’s whooshing off to Colombia to get married when her whole life is here, everyone who knows and loves her and her fiancé is here, and so many people in her circle have neither the money nor the circumstances to fly to another country to support them on their wedding day.

[financeprincess]

you either get it or you don’t, I’m sorry I don’t make the rules… and no I’m not going to explain it to you

[bloomnova]

[resident-rats]

Very back and forth on if it’s even worth making a post about lol. But basically long story short, I’m unsure when I’ll next post a fic. I’ve started one and I’m a good bit into it, just very uncertain as to when I’ll have it finished at the moment

[lauraisakilljoy]

just came across a video of shawn mendes doing an interview and the comments are filled with jokes about his sexuality. leave that man alone or so help me god

[farmlesbians]

ghosting someone after a date is something like wildly unfathomable to me which is why i’m still kinda like…. ouchie ow owie over it a couple months later like what do u MEAN??? how can u do that to someone so casually idk maybe i’m too sensitive but how can u treat people u have met so disposably (not a word)

[dykedvonte]

no I understand, tbh I kinda wish that’s how my special interests work but no they just are Always There even if there’s no active content,,, and I appreciate you saying you won’t abandon it, it’s genuinely kinda upsetting whenever authors do just quit a story without finishing it or at least explaining where they wanted it to go (like don’t get me wrong I understand losing interest but imo if you’ve gotten people invested u kinda owe it to em to give closure)

You had me till the end where I need to remind you I don’t owe anyone anything??? No matter how invested you get I don’t charge for any thing I put on the internet cause I write mostly gay fanfiction for copyrighted properties and do this because it’s fun and I want to share. CDAP if far from my first fic or au to get attention and I am aware of the people who want it to continue. I’ve been in and likely will be in the same boat again but never have I ever had the audacity to think the author or artist owes me more of their work just because I was invested.

I have and will delete fics I’ve written at a moments notice for reason more petty than i just felt like it. I make the habit of keeping up or reposting old work just to track my growth, fandom trends and as a curtesy to those who may want to go back and read it. I have literally thought of deleting it for asks just like this because it’s extremely upsetting to me to have people try to compliment sandwich me with “I love your fic and understand the burnout/lack of interest… but I want to read more so like get over it it’s not fair :/“ CONSTANTLY. Like I don’t clearly have other interests I mention or post about and maybe trying to hound me into focusing on only one may actually make me stray farther from it? If I don’t share anything about it ever again that’s my choice. I don’t need to give an outline for anyone to visualize or the ending.

Never ever try to tell anyone that shares their craft in a fandom that they owe anyone anything not paid for. Like I get the frustration, I really do but this is not the way to go about it. I continuously said on this newer blog and my old one that I would continue the fic when my interest in UTDR came back and gave the vague estimate that would be whenever new official stuff came out for it. It’s not concrete but that was my answer and it’s only changed because you’ve made me certain that I won’t be working on it in the foreseeable future, thank you for the help with the realization 🤟🏾

[mearcatsreturns]

I’m rereading the Alpha and Omega series (on Burn Bright—I typically just reread Fair Game) by Patricia Briggs and oof. If I were Leah, I would have betrayed Bran after 200 years of being treated like shit and being called an idiot by the various Cornicks (even Anna is, unknowingly, pretty casually cruel to her in her own home). Anyway, #JusticeForLeah

[itspileofgoodthings]

💕💚

[twinksintrees]

my brain hurts