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dykedvonte · 4 months ago

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no I understand, tbh I kinda wish that’s how my special interests work but no they just are Always There even if there’s no active content,,, and I appreciate you saying you won’t abandon it, it’s genuinely kinda upsetting whenever authors do just quit a story without finishing it or at least explaining where they wanted it to go (like don’t get me wrong I understand losing interest but imo if you’ve gotten people invested u kinda owe it to em to give closure)

You had me till the end where I need to remind you I don’t owe anyone anything??? No matter how invested you get I don’t charge for any thing I put on the internet cause I write mostly gay fanfiction for copyrighted properties and do this because it’s fun and I want to share. CDAP if far from my first fic or au to get attention and I am aware of the people who want it to continue. I’ve been in and likely will be in the same boat again but never have I ever had the audacity to think the author or artist owes me more of their work just because I was invested.

I have and will delete fics I’ve written at a moments notice for reason more petty than i just felt like it. I make the habit of keeping up or reposting old work just to track my growth, fandom trends and as a curtesy to those who may want to go back and read it. I have literally thought of deleting it for asks just like this because it’s extremely upsetting to me to have people try to compliment sandwich me with “I love your fic and understand the burnout/lack of interest… but I want to read more so like get over it it’s not fair :/“ CONSTANTLY. Like I don’t clearly have other interests I mention or post about and maybe trying to hound me into focusing on only one may actually make me stray farther from it? If I don’t share anything about it ever again that’s my choice. I don’t need to give an outline for anyone to visualize or the ending.

Never ever try to tell anyone that shares their craft in a fandom that they owe anyone anything not paid for. Like I get the frustration, I really do but this is not the way to go about it. I continuously said on this newer blog and my old one that I would continue the fic when my interest in UTDR came back and gave the vague estimate that would be whenever new official stuff came out for it. It’s not concrete but that was my answer and it’s only changed because you’ve made me certain that I won’t be working on it in the foreseeable future, thank you for the help with the realization 🤟🏾

#the owing really got to me cause why would I owe you anything? I don’t know you there’s no agreement here #I write when I have the time and motivation to write and i choose what to write #like I make it clear in my asks I just don’t want to write about it rn #that I’m not interested and will get back to it when I can like I was into Spamton and dr for a year or so #i was obsessed #obviously I burnt myself out and don’t wanna do anything with UTDR and honestly it’s hard for me to want to in the future cause I can’t #for anyone who knows to read my tags at this point save the fics if you want imma gonna go to sleep and then delete them whenever I get up #cause this right here is exhausting like owe my ass sorry to disappoint dickhead #sorry if this seems like a tantrum to some but like I can’t just sit down and write for something I don’t want to big project or not #had I actually seen this in the morning I would’ve just responded with a screenshot of the deleted fics cause how dare you #like when ao3 comes back im deleting the fics cause im not doing this anymore

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