#i just. oof i miss hanging out with like minded people every day
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i miss my college friends :(
#i just. oof i miss hanging out with like minded people every day#there were 10 of us and we were all in this together#we were all so different like our ages ranged from 18 to 56 and we all came from very different backgrounds#but we were all here to make music and learn to make music with kids#and we were vibing bro#we were vibing#i think it was the only time in my life when i felt like i was truly part of a group and an important part#and now it's like#yeah my colleagues are nice and we hang out sometimes#but we're not vibing#we're like surface level vibing but there's no closeness#i don't feel like i can be myself with them#through no fault of their own like we're just too different and without a common goal#my college crew were all different but we were all in the soup together#now everyone's in their own separate dish#:/#rain.stuff
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the violence of the dog days.
pairing: jeongguk x reader
summary: In the midst of summertime, after a week of neglect, your boyfriend has a way of making you feel even more heated.
OR
you're hot and horny for jeongguk.
rating: matuređ (minors please dni)
genre: non-idol au, college au, established relationship, smut, fluff, pwp
word count: 9.2k words of unadulterated smut.
warnings: reader and jeongguk are absolute horny simps for each other, but they're also so inlove, soft boyfriend jeongguk (because yes that is a warning), jeongguk is a law student (oof), overuse of the petname 'baby', reader hasn't been getting it seven days a weekđ, switch jeongguk (kinda), hair pulling, hickeys, making out, thigh riding, nipple play (jeongguk is proudly a boob guy), religious imagery because jeongguk worships reader like a god, usage of the words 'c*nt' and 'p*ssy' (because i know some people are iffy about that), cunnilingus (f-receiving), jeongguk is low-key a sadist y'all (in his fantasies), a bit of dom/sub dynamics, prayers for reader because jeongguk's got that big dđđ˝, unprotected sex, doggy style, degradation, a teeny weeny bit of overstimulation, creampie - like this is just pure smut guys đŹ, possessive sex, choking, aftercare, reader kinda hints at having attachment issues (but don't we all).
author's note: 1. please ignore any typos :). of course, i'd appreciate any feedback or constructive criticism. but if you find yourself uncomfortable by any of the themes in this fic, there's no need for hate, just kindly move on. 2. also, this is a lot longer and softer than i intended. this fic was supposed to be purely hard smut, but i fell in love with the characters and their relationship, and some aspects of the story just turned out sickeningly sweet - so proceed with caution.
You're an hour into tossing and turning when you can't take it anymore.
The heat.
With June coming to a close end, the surviving remnants of summer creep in through your bedroom window with barely a whisper of a breeze. It clings to every part of your skin, that ever-lingering humidity thickening the air, and wraps itself around your body like a cloak. For some reason, you thought that scrolling aimlessly through the various apps on your phone would help distract your mind from the muggy weather or maybe, by some miracle, even lull you to sleep.
But it hasnâtâof course it hasn't. Because summer is here to stay, burrowing deep within your bones and making a home there. Each passing minute is a testament to that, insomnia creeping up your spine with ill intent and wriggling into every cranny of your mind until you feel like you're losing it.
Perhaps you are, you think.
Because when the desk fan a few feet away suddenly stops whirring and the fumbling grasp you had on sleep slips from your reach like a fleeting dream in the morning light as a result of itâdrifting further and further awayâyou hit your breaking point. The lack of white noise and cool air blowing your way mounts your frustration into place. It hangs there in the ether like a looming shadow but, unlike your slumber, has no plans of deserting you.
With an annoyed huff, you drop your phone back onto the nightstand for the umpteenth time and kick your leg out from under the duvet.
âFuck.â You sigh, rolling onto your back.
A thin sheen of sweat lingers on the surface of your skin, causing the sheets to stick uncomfortably to every part of your body. You spread your limbs out like a starfish in some futile attempt to cool them down, hoping that you'll catch a draft, but the action only reminds you of how largely cavernous your bed feels right now.
The space beside you is missing a particular doe-eyed boy and, as your hand brushes over the empty spot, you realize that it's not so much the seasonal heat that's making you feel weirdly restless, but rather Jeongguk's absence. In an inconveniently clingy way, you need his body settled next to you at night, your legs and arms a tangled mess beneath the blankets.
You don't know why that is. Why sleep eludes you like a compass without direction, unable to find its way to you when Jeongguk isn't near. But you don't mull over it or give the thought a foothold to stand amongst the endless anxieties already in your head.
All you know is that cuddling up with him in the evening is perhaps one of your favourite pastimes. Akin to a baby with it's bottle, falling asleep in his embrace is something you've grown incredibly used to, maybe even a little dependent onâlike a security blanket or night-lightâand there's nothing you can do about it.
Sneaking a glance towards the dim light spilling in from beneath the bedroom door, you picture Jeongguk on the other side. Chances are, heâs still where you last left him. Sitting cross-legged on the couch with a laptop balancing carefully on his lap, eyebrows scrunched together in concentration, as he catches up on coursework.
You worry your lip, the thought of your boyfriend causing your mind to wander...
He looked so good tonight; adorned in a pair of grey sweats and a baggy t-shirt with his tattoos fully exposed. His dark hair was strewn across his forehead, falling into his eyes in a way that made your fingers itch.
You, on the other hand, are sporting an old, oversized shirt you opted to steal from Jeongguk's wardrobe to combat the high temperatures, but it hasn't helped much. The heat still loiters, creeping up the back of your neck and imbuing your cheeks with warmth.
It makes you long for winter, for the bitter nip of frosty ice and pelting rain, and the desire for that inadvertently reminds you of that fucking silver lip ring Jeongguk had gotten recently.
The memory of its cold, metal sting against your lips as he kissed you goodnight sends a distant, carnal hum coursing throughout your veins. It's probably tugged anxiously between his teeth right now whilst he types away, eyes deadset on the screen before him, and the image of that sends you reeling. Makes your skin flush further, yearning to feel its steel bite again.
For some reason, it propels you into motion, skin prickling as you throw your legs over the edge of the mattress without a second thought.
The last thing you want to do is bother his progress or interrupt his work, but selfishly, you persist. That gnawing feeling deep within your chest is too hard to ignore, heart beating voraciously with each step you take because it longs to be satiated by Jeongguk's presence. Your boyfriend is only one room over, just four thin walls separating the two of you, yet stillâyou miss him, want him.
Treading lightly, you hear the persistent click-clack of his keyboard and the muffled sound of typing only grows louder as you step out into the hallway. The wooden flooring is frigid beneath your feet, a sensation you immediately relish in as soon as the fiery crawl of discomfort across your skin begins to lessen. Your shirtâor more precisely, Jeonggukâs shirtâfalls flat from your waist, landing a few inches above your knees, as you wander further into the apartment.
Just as youâd predicted, Jeongguk is all pretzelled up on the sofa, too focused on his work to hear you enter. A few empty bottles of soju and convenience store snacks litter the coffee table, serving as silent witnesses to the length of time he's been out here. He must have dimmed the lights as well because a faint, warm glow shrouds every facet of the room, making him look particularly soft at this hour.
You walk up behind him, wrapping your arms around the length of his shoulders as you bend over the couch's headrest to envelop him in a hug. âHey,â You hum softly, pressing a kiss to his cheek.
Jeongguk startles slightly at the contact, shaken from his deep concentration as he angles his head to look up at you. âShit, baby. You scared me.â He breathes, voice rough from disuse. It rumbles through you like a distant thunderstorm, body vibrating with electricity.
âSorry,â You murmur, glancing at the assignment he's been working on and tiny pangs of guilt gradually trickle into your stomach. âI didn't mean to disturb you, but-â
âYou're not disturbing me.â Jeongguk instantly reassures, scanning your face with a knowing look. âCanât sleep?â He asks and you nod, burying your face into the crook of his neck. The scent of his body wash immediately encompasses you like a warm embrace, wild pinewood and bergamot invading your senses.
âI thought youâd be in bed by now.â You mumble against his skin, unable to hide the pout in your voice.
Jeongguk frowns, eyes flickering to the time at the bottom of his laptop screen.
Shit, he hadnât even noticed how late itâs gotten, the hours skulking along the cusp of a new day. He should probably be turning in for the night, head to bed and worry about this project tomorrow, but heâd rather not postpone his responsibilities. Not when youâre staying over the weekend and he could be spending that time with you instead.
âI know.â Jeongguk responds, hand coming up to intertwine with yours. âIâll be there soon, okay?â He promises, bringing your knuckles to his lips. The featherlight kiss he presses there soothes you like a curative balm.
âOkay,â You relent, untangling yourself from his body. âBut, can I stay here for a bit? Itâs too hot in there.â You half lie, gesturing towards the bedroom while simultaneously walking over to the kitchen only a few feet away.
âYeah, of course.â He murmurs, eyes following your movements.
âThanks, Kook.â You smile, sparing him a glance over your shoulder as your eyes sparkle with mirth. âBy the way, your fan broke down again.â
âAgain?â He laments, eyebrows furrowed together whilst he runs a disgruntled hand through his hair. âI seriously need to get that old thing repaired or maybe even replaced.â He grumbles to himself, before a guilty afterthought occurs at the sight of you. âFuck, I'm so sorry, baby. No wonder you couldn't sleep.â
You don't tell him that it's not so much the heat keeping you awake but, more so, him.
âNo, don't worry about it.â You settle on instead, trying to dispel his concerns. âIt's not your fault.â
This isn't the first time that Jeonggukâs fan has given him problems. He's had the thing since high school; so itâs no surprise that the motor tends to give in every now and then, running a little too hot. Heâs been meaning to get the issue sorted, but hasnât really found the time to do that these days.
âPlus, I'd much rather be out here with you.â You add.
Jeongguk smiles at you so sweetly then, dimples making an appearance, and your body flushes all over, burning once again.
God, what is wrong with you tonight?
You need to calm down, cool down. At this rate, you feel like an overheating engine, bound to crash in on yourself and combust.
Grabbing a glass of ice water from the fridge dispenser, you rein yourself in, distracting your mind with conversation. âI promise not to be a bother though, like you won't even notice I'm here.â You say, before chugging the cold liquid down on the spot, completely ignorant to the way that Jeongguk drinks you in.
A welcome sight is what you are, so cute tonight with your hair all mussed, practically drowning in his shirt. âYouâre never a bother.â He responds, mouth going dry when you lean back to empty the glass. The action causes your shirt to hike up, the creamy expanse of your thighs further exposed to his hungry eyes.
He feels his dick stir at the sight.
âHow much longer do you think youâll be?â You ask, wiping your lips with the back of your palm, as you place your cup in the sink and shuffle over towards your boyfriend.
âUhhâŚâ Jeongguk clears his throat, broken out of his stupor. He turns back to face his laptop, skimming the Word document that's open before him when he feels you nestle into his side a second later. Automatically, he brings a hand down to rest against your leg.
âIâm not sure,â He grumbles, thumb rubbing soothing circles against your bare thigh. The absent-minded touch ignites something in you, skin blazing at the contact, and you try your best to suppress the goosebumps that rise in Jeonggukâs wake. âMaybe another hour or so?â He guesses.
âOh.â You mumble and, although you fight the disappointed curl of your lips, Jeongguk doesnât miss the deflated look on your face.
âIâm sorry,â He squeezes your thigh apologetically, frown overtaking his pretty features. âI know itâs been a while since we spent time together.â
A week exactly, you note, but ultimately keep that detail to yourself. After all, neither one of you is to blame for being so busy, constantly caught between work and university.
You think that's maybe the reason you're feeling so needy tonight, body set ablaze by every minor look and touch from your boyfriend. In a way, you're feeling a little neglected since your relationshipâs taken the backseat, not by choice but by consequence, and you donât know how to deal with it.
âIt's fine.â You shrug. "It's not like we can help it.â
You try to be nonchalant about the matter, injecting the slightest hint of indifference into your tone, but Jeongguk sees right through you.
He always does.
âCome here.â He says suddenly, voice soft as he shifts his laptop onto the coffee table.
You look up at him, confusion clear on your face.
âWhat?â You blink, but your question falls on deaf ears because Jeongguk merely uncrosses his legs and pats his lap.
âCome here,â He then repeats and reaches for your waist.
You're uncertain for the briefest of moments, eyeing Jeongguk suspiciously, before you ultimately give in like malleable clay in his soft hands, allowing him to pull you onto his lap with ease. âI've been working for hours.â He grumps once you're comfortably straddling his waist, hands resting on either side of your hips. âHardly seen you since you got here.â
You hum, pulling your bottom lip between your teeth in thought. It's no secret that you've been spending a lot more time at Jeongguk's place in lieu of your ratty little dorm room. You felt bad about it at first, feeling as though you were invading his space and overstaying your welcome. But your boyfriend couldn't be happier about it. He rather likes the idea of your lives interlocking, melding together as if they were puzzle pieces falling into place. He likes that when he's working, like on nights like this, that you're just on the opposite side of the door, not one phone call or car ride away.
He likes that you're his and he is, equally as much, yours.
âI wanted to leave you to your work.â You explain, curling your arms around his neck. Your fingers absentmindedly play with the ends of his hair that have grown out and the light touch only brings about the memory of how much he has missed you these past few days.
âWell, it's about time I take a break, don't you think?â Jeongguk muses and you become hyper-aware of the way his fingers brush up your spine. âGive my girl some attentionâŚâ He trails on, eyes flickering to your lips.
You practically preen at the idea, smiling shyly as you lean into his touch. âI wouldn't object to that.â Your heart patters in your chest, beating wildly at the mere sight of Jeongguk. At the thought of him finally touching you, kissing you, quenching your thirst after this week-long drought. âI've missed you.â
Jeongguk chuckles faintly. âMe too, baby.â He murmurs, perching his head upwards to press his lips against yours.
The kiss is gentle, chaste, his plush lips feeling so featherlight against yours. You almost imagine they were never there to begin with because Jeongguk pulls away before you can truly savour the taste of them.
âYou know, you look so pretty in my clothes.â He begins, large hand spreading lazily around your left hip and up your back. âKinda makes me want to wreck you.â
âYou already wreck me.â You breathe without missing a beat.
âYeah?â Jeongguk rasps, his voice low and a little dark. It sends a thrill straight up your spine.
You nod in response, feeling the heat rush to your cheeks. âNo one makes me feel the way you do.â You admit, eyes flitting across his face. It's an unwavering truthâone that simultaneously scares and excites you in this quiet dead of night.
âCan I kiss you again?â The words come out as a breathy whisper; as if you've been holding on to them for too long, as if they're the oxygen you so desperately need to breathe, and Jeongguk tilts his head, bewildered frown on his face.
âHow is that even a question.â He gripes, slanting his head in a means to meet your mouth halfway, but you have another idea.
You press into him instead, leaning forward, and set out to peck lovingly along the curvature of Jeonggukâs jawline. He huffs in amusement, endeared by the way you take control. Because, although heâs usually the dominant one in the bedroom, he doesn't mind when you take charge like this. In fact, he's grown to love it. Loves the way you come into your own, toying and teasing with him, until your own actions cause you to grow desperate.
It's one of his greater weaknesses, his Achilles heel, and right now, you want nothing more than to expose it. Unveil a certain side of him. The one that'll see how far you can push before he starts to push back. The one that'll give in and take you right here on this couch after he's entertained your antics for long enough and you finally beg him to fuck you.
Your body practically hums at the thought.
You map out his skin, lips brushing against the surface like you're exploring a new land. Every movement careful, every touch claiming what's yours. And it almost goes to your headâhow quickly Jeongguk submits to your mouthâs assault, his body relaxing into the couch like he's letting you have your way with him.
Jeongguk doesn't tell you that he is. That your lips are a holy grail he'd happily yield to.
When your teeth graze lightly at a particular soft spot below his ear, he lets out a small groan, eyes falling closed at the sensation. You feel the sound roll through you, the ache between your legs becoming hard to ignore when you think about the fact that you've roused that melody from his mouth.
It spurs you on, makes you want to hear it again and again. You want to paint the entire column of his neck red and then watch your confession of love fade to a bruised purple in the weeks to come. You want to rediscover all the ways that you can make Jeongguk sing, and the way your body dances to his tune in turn. Your lips lap him up, kisses becoming indelicate with desperation, teeth nipping with intent along his upper jaw, tongue tracing over the skin before you repeat all these gestures twicefold.
You can feel yourself growing wet, relish in the way that Jeongguk's hands tighten around your form. âShit,â He mumbles and your body crows. Without pause, you shift against his lap and move to the neglected side of his neck, targeting the skin there. You can feel him getting hard beneath you, your core situated right above his growing erection, and it causes a shiver to run down your spine.
You plant a few messy kisses against his throat, nibbling vehemently, but then Jeongguk tuts and pries his eyes open before you have the opportunity to really sink your teeth into him.
âBaby,â He warns, curling a hand into your hair to form a makeshift ponytail. âNo marks. I've got a presentation on Monday.â He says and pulls you back by an inch. His movements are somewhat hesitant, voice rough, like he's not entirely sure he truly wants you to stop.
But he has to. He can't afford to show up to class on Monday and present the most important project of his life with hickeys all over his neck.
âNext time.â He promises, but you consider outright ignoring him for a second, even though it's nonsensical, like some twisted form of punishment for a week of neglect.
But itâs JeonggukâJeongguk whoâs been extra stressed lately about completing his degree. Jeongguk whoâs carving time out of working on his big assignment right nowâone which, not only counts forty percent of his grade, but could also earn him an internship at one of the top law firms in Seoul if he's lucky enoughâall to pay special attention to you.
So, âFine.â You give in, albeit a little petulantly, and brace your hands against his chest, face feeling flushed. âIâm sorry. I just wanna be close to you is all.â
âI know. Me too.â He rasps, grip on your hair loosening a touch, but not completely. âWe don't have to stop though, just don't mark me up.â He explains, free hand rubbing up and down your thigh.
âOkay,â You slide your palms up his chest, feeling the toned muscles tense beneath your touch. âI really love you, you know?â
Jeongguk's eyes soften, a hint of a smile creeping up on his face. âI know,â He hums, tugging at your hair in a way that makes your scalp tingle. âBut I don't think it comes close to how much I love you.â He rasps, using his grip as leverage to pull your head backwards until the delicate skin of your throat is exposed. âIt's incomparable.â He murmurs, placing a single kiss on the side of your mouth before he travels south, lips peppering across your jawline.
You shiver, hands twisting into the thick material of Jeongguk's t-shirt. You want to tell him that it's not a competition, that you'd love him until the sun stops rising and, even if this one week of distance had been more, you know that he feels the same.
But the heavy palpitations in your chest causes the words to dissolve on your tongue because Jeongguk pulls the collar of your shirt to the side a second later, exposing more of your skin, before he traces a path along your dĂŠcolletage. He's touching you like a starved man, mouth just as desperate and feverish as youâre starting to feel.
A stuttered gasp escapes your lips, your hands moving upwards, unsure of where to be, when he nips at a particularly sensitive spot. You settle them on his shoulders.
âJeongguk,â You moan, the tingling between your legs maturing into an unbearable ache.
âI know, baby.â He abruptly pulls away from your clavicleâlips red, eyes blown. âTell me what you want.â
His demand goes over your head because you don't know what you want; can barely think straight with the lingering feeling of Jeongguk's lips on your neck. With the growing wetness sticking uncomfortably to your panties. With the burning, hot embers laying at the base of your stomach, begging to be set ablaze. And Jeongguk knows that. Knows that you're neither here nor there, only somewhere in the middle, teetering on the line of endless choices. So he lets go of your hair then, manoeuvres your body until you're straddling only his left thigh.
âDon't think about it, baby.â He murmurs, both hands moving to your hips. He guides them back and forth, slow and gentle, with just enough pressure to relieve that desperate throbbing in your pussy. âJust feel.â
And you do, sinking into your own little bubble, a paradise as impenetrable as the gates of heaven. You take your time to grind up against him, moving in tandem with the flow of his hands and a soft whimper climbs up your throat at the sensation of your clit brushing against the firm muscles of Jeonggukâs thigh. You're already so soaked, underwear absolutely sodden from the relentless pendular motions of your pelvis, and when you look down to find a dark, damp spot beginning to stain Jeongguk's sweatpants, you can't help but intensify your movements.
It should be embarrassing, how quickly you've become turned on, how much you're dripping, when Jeongguk's barely touched you, but instead you just feel liberated. Pure power coursing through your veins because your boyfriend has given you the reins, is letting you use his body like a bitch in heat, and it's exhilarating; intoxicating every facet of your mind.
âThat's it,â Jeongguk purrs, deserting your hips once you gain momentum to instead sneak both hands up the hem of your shirt.
Your breath escapes its chambers when he trails past the soft curve of your waist and straight to your breasts. âFuck, you're so beautiful.â He grunts, gaze intent on your every reaction, like he's watching artwork unfold. His nimble fingers circle your nipples, tracing them with the most tantalizing pattern, until they begin to harden.
âPlease,â You choke, clasping his shirt in between your fists like it's some sort of lifeline. You're not even sure what you're begging for, pace quickening as you ride Jeonggukâs thigh more aggressively. Every rut forward sends sparks shooting throughout your body, nerve endings alight, and when Jeongguk pinches your nipples between his thumb and forefinger, your back arches in pleasure. A throaty moan penetrates the room otherwise filled with nothing but your uneven pants and the sound of Jeongguk's voice.
âGonna make you feel so good,â He groans, hands inching towards your shirtâs lower seam. He drags it over your torso, itching for better access to your breasts. Even in your muddled state, you meet him halfway, raising your arms above your head until the damned thing is off and you're left in nothing but your lacy underwear.
You hardly have time to adjust to the humid air hitting your torso, when Jeongguk tips his head forward, enveloping your right nipple into his mouth with reckless abandon. The response is instantaneous, a strangled sob slipping past your lips at the feeling of his warm mouth encased around your stiffened peak. His tongue swipes across your nipple, shockwaves manifesting at the blissful contact, and you don't know how much longer you're going to lastâan embarrassing feat you donât ponder on too much.
Instead, you squeeze your eyes shut, focusing on the attention Jeongguk pays you. Whimpering when the pads of his fingers move to fondle the nipple of your forsaken breast while the other submits to his mouthâs pleasurable torment, each purposeful pinch causing them to tighten all the more. Your skin feels like it's on fire, the warmth of Jeongguk's touch igniting the cinders glowing from deep within your belly. âI-I think,â You swallow, your pussy rubbing deliciously into Jeongguk's leg. âI think I'm going to come soon,â You manage to admit through a repressed whine, voice so strained it sounds foreign even to your own ears.
You don't think you've ever hit an orgasm this quickly. You've never had to. Because you and Jeongguk are like inseparable magnets; every atom in your bodies drawn to each other, always connecting like two poles seeking the other outânever going more than a few days without some form of intimacy. Never mind a week.
At least, not until now.
So when Jeongguk bounces his leg upwards to meet the force of your pussy coming down on his quadricep, adding to the way you slam into him, your clit positively throbbing at the impact, you feel the onset of that familiar coil in your stomach tightening.
âJust let go, baby.â Jeongguk rasps, granting you permission with one final flick of your nipples and then you're coming undone, white fiery heat flooding every fiber of your body, as you cry out his name. Only his name, forever on your lips. You feel the way your entire form convulses, the way Jeongguk helps you through it, flexing his thigh so that you can get the most out of your orgasm, and your hips buck forwardâunrelenting and greedyâbefore they finally ease into a slow rut. Grinding into him until the receding, minuscule waves of pleasure begin to fade.
With the last few clenches of your pulsating core, you slowly catch your breath, muscles slackening as you become pliant in Jeongguk's arms, the weight of your body suddenly too much for you to bear. Your boyfriend holds you tight though, both hands moving to your waist to keep you secure.
Behind the darkness of your closed eyelids; you hear Jeongguk softly murmur your name and feel the way his hand comes up to your face, tucking a few stray strands of hair behind your ear before he cups your cheeks. âYou okay, angel?â He asks, voice emerging as a hushed tone.
When you manage to tear your eyes open and give him a soft, affirmative nod, Jeongguk seems satisfied, pressing a delicate kiss to your sternum before he shifts you from his lap and onto your back in one fell, but gentle swoop.
Your head hits the soft leather of the sofa with the aftermath of your climax still lingering against your skin like crackling electricity, fuzzing up your mind. âYou think you can take more?â He asks, eyes flitting across your face to get a read on your current state of mind.
You nod your head assuredly, reaching out to make a grab for his body, to bring him closer. âYeah I can,â You say confidently, arm's snaking up his back to explore the taut muscles that reside there.
Jeongguk is hovering over your body, thigh pressed hotly between your legs, and even though you can feel the rush of arousal, brought on only a second ago, pooling uncomfortably in your underwearâyou want more. You want him. âI want to carry on.â
Jeongguk studies your demeanour, casting your body and expression a careful once-over, because he wants to feel you, be in you, wants to make you see stars. But it's only a matter of whether you're able to handle that right now. He has barely had his way with you, but you already look so fucked out, so perfect for him. It makes the blood rush straight to his dick. âYou make me crazy.â He rasps, eyes locking with yours as he brings a hand up, tracing his thumb along your bottom lip.
You almost cower beneath his touch, beneath the sincerity of his gaze; appraising the very depths of your being as if you were a delicate treasure, as if he were staring at a god or something of a divine beauty.
Jeongguk thinks that maybe he is; thinks youâre the light, the one thing heâd worship morning, noon and night through blind faith. And there are barely enough words in the dictionary for him to express this notion to you, so instead he settles for âI love you.â Voice as rough as the high tides, but softer than moonlight.
He feels compelled to tell you this every chance he gets, a hopeless slave to his feelings for you. âLike I've never loved anything else in my life.â He continues. It's a quiet confession in the night, not a new one, but the words mean just as much as the first time he admitted them to you.
You feel yourself melt, can't remember ever feeling this cherished. Not since before Jeongguk and hopefully, never after. âI love you too.â You murmur, taking a moment to drink in every detail of the man who has left you restless all night.
Your eyes flicker over the defined cut of his jaw. The delicate curve of his lips and the pretty mole resting just beneath it. The small kissable scar on his cheek. The feathery flutter of his eyelashes. The strands of hair that have fallen over his face, and you retract your hand from his back to push them away.
How did you ever get this lucky?
âSo much.â You emphasize and your voice thickens with the weight of your words, spoken from the very depths of your soul. âMore than you could ever know.â Because there aren't enough words in the dictionary to get this notion across, so instead you lift your head, planting a firm kiss to Jeonggukâs lips as if sealing a vow, a promise of forever.
Jeongguk receives your kiss like he does with everything else related to you; openly, hungrily. His tongue swipes across your bottom lipâonceâtwiceâand you instantly become pliant under his weight. Your fingers find his hair, tangling into the dark tresses as you deepen the kiss. Itâs hot and itâs heavy, and in the distant part of your mind, you register that Jeongguk tastes like peaches, most likely from the alcohol heâs been drinking.
The sweetness of his lips immediately goes to your head; drunk and euphoric, and all grace flies out the window the next second. âTouch me,â You murmur breathlessly against his mouth, fingertips skimming over the nape of his neck. âPlease, I need you.â
Jeongguk groans, a husky sound resonating from deep within his throat. âFuck,â You can feel how rock hard heâs gotten, his erection pressing into your inner thigh and it's making you delirious with need. âIâll give you anything you want.â Jeongguk rumbles, his mouth forming a wet, messy trek away from yours to embrace the flesh of your breasts.
You want to tell him that it's him, only him you want. Puppeteering your every move, body relinquishing itself to his touch. But you don't. You can't, not when Jeongguk's teeth leave scarlet marks across your chest that render you mute, words evaporating on your tongue like sacramental bread.
âMy pretty baby,â He coos tenderly and you fight the urge to rut up against him. âAlways so fucking ready for me.â He praises, kisses traveling southward and it burns, searing, everywhere that Jeongguk touches you. You think you might erupt or shatter, and nothing less, if he doesn't meet you where you really need him to, your cunt begging to be satiated with his fingers, or his tongue, or his dickâanything.
A whimper escapes your lips, an embarrassing, desperate sound hanging in the thick air, as you glance down past your heaving breasts. You watch as Jeongguk abandons your boobs, planting a trail of kisses across the expanse of your stomach, your hip bonesâtakes the tiny little ribbon on your underwear between his teeth and tugs. The deliberate gesture causes your panty to rise up a bit, ever so slightly brushing against your clit in the process, and you bite down on your bottom lip, holding back an ungodly moan.
You can't take it anymore, all this teasing.
Jeongguk can read it on your face; sees it in the way you swiftly tilt your head back, eyes closed, brows scrunched together. He knows you like the back of his hand, which is how he gauges that you've fallen back into a place of submissionâdone with the tortuous foreplay, done with calling the shots, done with delaying the inevitable. You want him to fuck you, to use your body the same way you had used his mere minutes ago. And if his dick could get any harder at the thought, it would.
Jeongguk licks his lips, slips a finger into the curve of your waistband as he murmurs, âIâm gonna take this off now, okay?â
You nod your head, not daring to open your eyes to confront the image of Jeongguk's face a mere hair's breadth away from your cunt. It's too erotic. Too much. You feel him drag the thin garment down your legs, a string of arousal following suit, and suddenly feel self-conscious, attempting to close your legs to hide how shamefully wet you are.
But Jeongguk's not having any of that.
He carelessly chucks the lacy material to the side like itâs nothing but a rag, a nuisance, and then grips your inner thigh. âDon't you dare,â He grunts, using his grasp to keep your legs apart, lifting them upwards until your knees are bent to your chest and your ankles are resting over his shoulders, giving him the perfect view of your dripping cunt.
You barely have time to register the ticklish feeling of Jeongguk's breath fanning against your core before he dives straight in, licking a long stripe across your pussy, and your hips instinctively buck up. âShit,â You mewl, rejoicing in the way his tongue traverses from your slit to your clit, lapping up every drop of arousal.
Jeongguk groans, a sound so low, stemming from the heart of his diaphragm, when he samples that first morsel of your leaking nectar. You taste like heaven, so sweet and unbearably wet, and all just for him.
âSo fucking good,â He grumbles, mouth drinking you in. His tongue is unrelenting in its efforts to devour your pussy, and the overwhelming sensation of him slurping and suckingâof him eating you out like a connoisseur tasting the rarest of delicaciesâcauses frenzied pools of pleasure to ripple within the base of your belly.
He keeps at it, nose brushing against your clit as a byproduct, and after a few minutes the pure, unwavering rapture of Jeongguk's tongue becomes excruciating. A feeling so good, itâs almost too much. âJeongguk,â You wail, heels digging into the couch as you try to back away from his mouth, but your boyfriend merely hooks his arms around your legs and pulls you closer. Holding you in place; unable to run or escape from the ruthless onslaught of his tongue, from the metal bite of his piercing brushing against your lower lips. âI can't,â You cry, writhing beneath his touch.
With his grip keeping you firmly anchored, Jeongguk brings one hand down to toy with your swollen clit, fingers moving in languid, clockwise motions. âYou can,â He grunts thickly, tongue slipping between your folds and prodding deliciously at your hole. âI know you can, baby.â He mumbles in between fucking your drenched pussy with his fleshy muscle.
You shake your head frantically, eyes screwed shut, as you feel the waves of your second orgasm surfacing. âNot like this,â You beg, using your hands to reach down, fingers twisting into his fluffy hair as you desperately try to push him away. âPlease, I want you in me.â A sob runs free, your walls pulsating around nothing because Jeongguk is taking his time with you, teasing your opening like he's got all night. But you don't. You're close, so fucking close, you can feel it in the tightening muscles of your pelvis, in the quivering of your legs.
But Jeongguk isn't giving you enough. He isn't giving you what you need. Your boyfriend, in all his hot glory, is taking you there with his tongue, swirling insufferably along your orificeâbringing you right up to the edge of the plank with an ocean of pleasure waiting just below your feet, but then he pulls you back. Drags you from the precipice before you can allow yourself to fall in, and it causes a frustrated whine to escape your lips. You need his cock deep inside, filling you up, pushing you off the ledge and into troubled waters. Your pussy throbs at the very thought. âPlease Kook,â You find yourself beseeching for the second time. âI wanna cum with you in me.â
And any thread of composure Jeongguk has been holding on to up until that point, snaps at the pure neediness burrowed within your tone.
He looks up at you; lips glistening, eyes dilatedâa mess of a man. But you don't look any betterâor, if you were getting a glimpse of yourself through Jeongguk's point of view, never betterâskin flushed, gleaming with a fine film of sweat, lips swollen from the way you've been biting them, and all at once, Jeongguk is overcome with the desire to give you everything you've ever wanted.
âFuck, okay,â He curses, rising to his knees and you force your eyes open at the rough edge tainting his voice, at the overwhelming relief of getting what you wished for. âBut itâs going to be a bit of a stretch, baby.â He says, not having prepped you fully. It's been a while since the two of you have had sex and, if he had it his way, he would have given you his fingers first, would have warmed and widened your lubricated walls, to ease the initial discomfort of him entering you.
But you look so pretty beneath him, so impatient, andââI can handle it,â You mollify, voice a sweet concoction of sultry persuasion.
He nods in response, a curt motion, because if he thinks about how eager you're being, about how you're willing to take a little bit of the pain for the insurmountable pleasure, he might just come right there. Might just think of all the other ways you like to hurt; of the way you'd react if his palm made rough contact with your ass cheeks, or what would happen if he handcuffed you to his bedpost and stuffed you full with a vibrator and butt plugâif he fucked you tonight with no end in sight. He wonders if you'd cry, if you'd beg him for more or want him to stop, sopping and spent. More than that, he wants so badly to find out.
Jeonggukâs dark eyes find yours, their typical doe-eyed demeanour having turned hooded a long time ago. Yours are twinkling with anticipation, watching intently as he pulls his sweatpants down, letting them hang low beneath his buttocks. His cock immediately springs free, slapping against his stomach, and you sink your teeth into your bottom lip at the sight.
âCome here,â Jeongguk's voice carries a jagged intonation, raw and untamed, and breaks through you like crashing waves. But when he makes a grab for your body, his hands are nothing but gentle, hoisting you up onto your knees and positioning you on all fours.
With your ass bared before him, face pressed into the cold faux leather of the couch, Jeongguk smooths a hand down your back, watches with satisfaction as your spine yields before his touch, and then he takes a hold of his dick. Doesn't even bother giving it a few preliminary pumps because he's already painfully hard, precum leaking from the tip as he lines himself with your hole.
He doesn't put it in though.
First, he teases your little cunt with only the head of his length, not fully embedding himself within your warmth just yet. You whimper pathetically at the testing prod, fingers balling into frustrated fists, while Jeongguk watches in awe as your entrance narrows, pleading to be stuffed.
âGod, look at you.â Jeongguk groans, eyes traveling from your glistening pussy to the state of your overall servile form.
He places one hand on your hip, fingers digging into the skin there, as he inches just the slightest bit forward, his dick slowly pushing into you. Your mouth parts at the sensation and you shakily prop yourself up onto your elbows, head falling forward with a moan. âSo fucking needy, huh.â He goads when you attempt to meet him in the middle, subtly backing up against his pelvis.
âNo,â You shake your head as if it's some sort of lie, as if you haven't been thinking about this moment since you stepped over the doorsill of Jeonggukâs apartment earlier. And your boyfriend laughsâhe actually laughsâa maniacal, derisive sound that rings in your ears.
âThere's no need to deny it, baby.â He drawls like smooth liquor hitting the back of your throat, a silky succour that, for some reason, has you dumbly nodding along. Because Jeonggukâs entering you more now, his dick fighting against the tight restraint of your heat, and you're too distracted by the feeling of it to fully comprehend what he's saying.
âI mean,â He continues, reaching down between your legs to gather the wetness clinging to your folds before he bends over your back, lips brushing against the shell of your ear. âYouâd think you've never been fucked a day in your life.â He murmurs, bringing his slick fingers to your level of sight.
You flush instantly, burning at the way your arousal dwells on Jeongguk's digits and forms a translucent web when he parts them into a V shape. âI can't help it,â You breathe shamefully, about to protest that it's his fault for letting you go so long without attention, for not taking care of your sexual needs and making you this susceptible to moments of depravity, when Jeongguk fully entrenches himself into your heat without so much as a warning.
âAah,â Your jaw slackens at the sudden stretch of his length against your walls, the sensation so unfairly delicious you find yourself clenching around the intrusion with a gasp, and your boyfriend uses the opportunity to stuff his letch-laiden fingers into your mouth.
âClean them.â He grunts, lazily rocking forward and you choke back a moan, mouth instantly closing around his fingers. Head full of clouds, pussy filled to the brim, you obey. Your tongue licks up the juices stuck to his slim digits, gliding sensually across each one with care, and you vaguely hear Jeongguk curse below his breath, hips grinding into your core. âFuck, just like that, angel.â He praises, allowing you to suck them clean for a few more seconds before he pulls them from your lips altogether with a lewd pop.
âSuch a good girl,â He murmurs lovingly, pressing a singular kiss to your shoulder blade before he straightens to his full height behind you. âAlways so perfect for me.â
Jeongguk's hands find your ass again and he gives the supple flesh a few gentle squeezes, savouring the way you whine in response.
âPlease,â Your words come out embarrassingly broken and wretched, heart hammering in your chest with want, as you peek at Jeongguk over your shoulder. âPlease, no more teasing. Just fuck me.â
âWhat do you think I'm doing?â Jeongguk asks, eyebrow raised, voice harbouring a hue of cockiness. He withdraws his thick length from your warm embrace at an agonizingly slow rate before thrusting right back in, repeating the motion steadily. âI'm fucking you right now, aren't I?â
You want to cry, your need to come so severe, it's starting to physically hurt.
Your fingers leave deep indents in the couch as you tackle the burning coals of frustration setting every inch of your body on fire. âM-More,â You stammer, feeling a pearl of arousal trickle down your thigh. You're so turned on right now, your mind an empty haze as Jeongguk edges you into oblivion, cunt so wet, you can barely feel the brush of his shaft against your walls anymore. âI need more.â
Jeongguk grins, feels the crown of his cock brush against a particular soft spot, and then decides to give you what you want. Because he loves it when you beg, when you become a blubbering mess beneath him, so cock-hungry, you forget yourself.
Without a moment's pause, Jeongguk pounds into you with unbridled vigour. His hips slap against your ass, the sound echoing throughout the room, and your body jerks forward at the impact. Your core is so drenched he's able to enter you with little resistance now. Emitting a rough, throaty groan, he fixates on how your creamy arousal coats his cock, disappearing in and out of your cunt.
âF-Fuck,â You hiss, your hand reaching back to firmly grip Jeonggukâs wrist for support, but he takes advantage of your extended arm and yanks you up until your back is pressed to his chest.
The new position gives him better access to your front and Jeongguk ghosts a hand around your waist without a second thought, smooths it down your stomach until he reaches your clit. Your body jolts the instant his fingers make contact with the swollen bud, legs quivering with the strength it's taking you to stay upright.
Your boyfriend notices your struggle and hooks his other arm around your waist, his fingertips holding you so tightly you won't be surprised if some bruises appear there tomorrow.
âFuck, I've missed this.â He rasps, more to himself than you, whilst drilling against your g-spot. But the words affect you just the same as your pussy tightens in response, squeezing him into a death grip, and Jeongguk's hips stutter. âJesus,â He groans, making a mental effort to stave off his own orgasm, trying to focus solely on you.
You really are going to be the death of him.
He breathes heavily through his nostrils before starting up again, slowly driving into you and his cock burrows so deep, you swear you can feel it in your uterus.
His fingers skim over your clit, tracing the nub ever so slightly because you're starting to flinch from his touch, starting to grow sensitive. And when your head falls back against his shoulder, a choked whine forcing its way out your throat, Jeongguk knows that you're close.
âYou gonna come for me?â Jeongguk's lips brush against your temple, his hand deserting your pussy in sympathy to knead your breasts instead. You feel his thumb run over your nipple, static lightning steamrolling across your skin with each sweep.
âI-ah!â You can barely form a coherent sentence, the inklings of even one lucid thought slipping from your empty, fucked out mind as Jeongguk slams into you. He's setting a brutal pace, the noise of skin-against-skin undeniably obscene, but you can hardly find the will to care when the muscles in your abdomen begin to tense. They twist up like a clockwork toy, winding and winding, until Jeongguk hits a particular spot that makes your toes curl, and then you're coming undone for the second time tonight, knees buckling with the sheer force of your orgasm.
It hits you like a freight train, your body spasming. White dots of euphoria blur your vision, the pleasure so blinding, and Jeongguk's hold around your midsection is the only reason you don't collapse right there onto the couch.
âThat's it, baby.â He reveres, hips never ceasing their movements even as your walls contract sporadically, determined to fuck you through it. An uncannily pornstar moan spills from your lips, mind and body having finally plunged into the silvery, stormy torrents of your climax, and the strangled sound causes something impossibly primal to rupture within Jeongguk. It thrashes at his chest like a wild caged animal, demanding release, and he recognizes the feeling all too well.
âYou're mine, right? â He finds himself grunting, voice husky with strain. The hand that was attending to your boobs instinctively ascends to your throat, squeezing slightly as he chases his own high, gives in to that grueling streak of possessiveness that only every rears its head when he has you like thisânaked and vulnerableâand you groan at the familiar pressure.
You hum, walls clenching around him. âOnly yours.â Your own hand reaches up, cuffing around his wrist for support as a tremor runs down your spine.
Jeongguk feels his balls tighten, the knowledge that heâs the sole witness to this side of you, so subservient and docile, sets him off the deep end.
Then you angle your head to the side, joining your lips with his. It's a messy, sloppy kiss, but the intimacy of it all causes Jeongguk's last bit of composure to crack.
He spills into you with a groan, the sound muffled by your mouth, as he rocks forward until every last drop of his seed is snug within your warmth.
The feeling of his cum bursting inside of you, length twitching, causes your pussy to flutter by reflex, milking Jeongguk of every ounce of cum, only suspending their contractions once he's thoroughly depleted.
By the end, you're both a heaving mess; chests rising and falling in unison as you come down, the electric current pulsing through your bodies fading into a comfortable hum.
Your skin is still buzzing, head befuddled, when Jeongguk presses a few lazy kisses across your shoulderâas if to ground you, to bring you back from the constellations he's painted behind your eyes.
âYou were so good, baby.â He commends, smoothing the hair at the side of your profile and you can't help the soft, but dopey smile that breaks out onto your face then.
âI've been dreaming about that for forever.â You murmur, submitting to the assault of his lips. Your boyfriend chuckles in return, nuzzling your neck as he commits the smell of your skin, an alluring scent of sex and lavender, to his memory.
âMe too,â He hums, thumb gliding gently across the contour of your waist. Your sensitive pussy throbs at the light touch, rousing from the stimulation; which only reminds you of the unpleasant remnants of arousal coating your inner thighs.
As if reading your mind, Jeongguk whispers against your skin. âLet's get you cleaned up, okay?â
He eyes your figure carefully, waiting for any hint of consent before he leaves you here alone.
You manage to muster a nod and then feel his dick slip from your entrance a second later, withdrawing in a way that makes you cringe and leaves you feeling oddly empty.
âIâll be right back.â He assures, his lips quickly, but comfortingly, brushing against your hairline. Thereafter, from your peripheral, you see Jeongguk detach himself from your side, pulling his pants back up as he disappears into the bathroom to do what he does bestâtake care of you.
In the meantime, you resist the temptation to slump back onto the sofa, feeling a hefty load of cum leaking down your thighs. Every muscle in your body feels relaxed, those sparks from earlier sizzling down into sleepy, smoky remnants that weigh you down. Mind a dazed mess, not sure of how much time has passed, you almost give inâthe slumber you so desperately sought out at the beginning of the night finally settling into your bonesâwhen Jeongguk walks back into the living room. He's changed into a pair of briefs and is carrying a wet cloth, as well as, a small tube of ointment.
Your body instantly perks up, a little rejuvenated by his presence.
âHey,â Jeongguk murmurs once he's back in your close vicinity, fingers brushing against your cheeks as he peers down at you with a soft smile.
âHey,â You tiredly grin back, pointing a finger at the items in his hand. âThose for me?â
Jeongguk hums, draping an arm around your waist to steady you. If you had the energy to freshen yourself up, you honestly would but currently, you can barely keep your eyes open. So instead you lean on your boyfriendâfiguratively and literallyâclutching onto his biceps as he brings the warm cloth to your nether regions. You hiss a little at the contact, still feeling delicate down there, but Jeongguk handles you with a gentle mindfulness that makes your heart swell. Makes you think back to a little over an hour ago, when you were alone in bed unable to fall asleep because he wasn't there.
And sometimes it worries you. How much you need him. How much something as simple and basic as sleep, needs the warmth of his touch to make its mark on you. How much youâve grown to love him in the span of a few months, your life endlessly orbiting around him like the earth to the sun. How much the deepest crevices of your soul, where the vile fear of abandonment and instinctual desire to run, relinquish themselves to the light of Jeonggukâs unconditional love.
You watch him toss the used washcloth to the side before unscrewing the top of the ointment. Sigh; as his fingers, tender with purpose, apply dabs of vitamin K salve to your hips where the marks from his fingertips are starting to surface. âShit, I'm so sorry baby.â He apologizes, the raspy, hushed tone of his voice communicating how guilt-ridden he feels. âI didn't mean to be this rough.â
And, you've never known a love like this. One that rustles through your hair like the wind on the drive down to your parents. One that meets you in the dead of winter between classes, wrapped up in coats and scarves, and coffee as the snow falls. One that kisses you goodnight, hands cupping your cheeks while the street lamps flicker outside.
One that dresses all your bruises.
It makes you want to run in the opposite direction every now and then, fleeing until you forget that you ever knew it could be this good, this safe.
But, staring at Jeongguk and the careful, intricate way he's massaging ointment onto all your black-and-blues, you bury these trepidations away, laying them to rest in the one place they belongâthe past.
Because yes, youâve never had this sort of love beforeâthe seriousness, the commitment.
The emptied-out drawers for your clothes.
The spare toothbrush at his place.
The conversations of a future togetherâthe clear line being crossed from fling to forever.
Even though it's a concept so scary and unfamiliar, and foreign to youâyou never want to let it go.
You never want to let him go.
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my only wish - knj | m
â santa can you hear me? i have been so good this year. and all i want is one thing. please tell me my true love is here â - my only wish (this year), britney spears
âš summary- There are few things you hate most in this world. Hornets, unnecessary fruit pieces in otherwise perfectly good jello, certain shades of orange⌠But nothing takes the cake more than two simple things. Christmas. And Kim Namjoon. So why did you agree to pretend to be Kim Namjoonâs girlfriend at his family Christmas party? Bah-Humbug.
âš rating- explicit/18+/nsfw
âš pairing- kim namjoon x reader
âš word count- 15.1k OOF
âš genre- smut, fluff, tiny tiny angst if you squint, enemies to lovers, fake dating au, idiots to lovers, brief mention of YoonMin
âš warnings- penetrative sex, unprotected sex (dont do it), daddy kink lolol, namjoon has a big dick, oral sex (m/f receiving), cum swallowing, light cum play, dirty talk, light degradation (very light tbh), praise kink, lots of mentions of joon being a beefy boy, masturbation,
âš a/n- its here!! finally! my contribution to rockin around the christmas tropes. big big big shout out to @ladyartemesiaâ @xjoonchildxâ @untaemedqueenâ @underthejoonâ @yeojaaâ @snackhobiâ for being my co collaborators. and a warm shout out to @wwillowwâ and @hobi-gifâ for being some very lovely betas. thank you thank you! i hope you enjoy!
There are few things you hate most in this world.Â
 Hornets, unnecessary fruit pieces in otherwise perfectly good jello, certain shades of orangeâŚ
 But nothing takes the cake more than two simple things:Â
 Christmas.Â
 And Kim Namjoon.Â
Christmas, in your opinion, is nothing more than a consumerist holiday, anchored on ensuring youâre guilted enough from November 1st to the 25th of December to spend your hard earned money on shit your friends and loved ones wonât even use. Itâs a time for people to pretend they love giving and caring, while shoving you out of lines in stores, buying up all the groceries as if itâs the end times, and forcing party after mindless party for âcelebrationâ that ends in seeing your boss drunk and pants-less by the punchbowl.Â
 And donât even start on Kim Namjoon.Â
 On paper, heâs your colleague, to put the terms friendly. In reality, heâs your opponent, your adversary. Heâs annoying, rude, stuck up, and not to mention a douchebag heartbreaker. Heâs everything you hate wrapped in one disgustingly handsome face.Â
 The man never misses a chance to steal a case from underneath your nose, rub the praise he receives from your bosses in your face, and look ridiculously delectable in his tight suits that he insists he wears around the office. He absolutely infuriates you.Â
 And now, as you sit in the company-wide meeting, your heart sinks as you realize the worst thing about Namjoonâheâs about to get the promotion youâve been vying for your entire career.
 That position was as good as yoursâat least, you had thought.
 That was until lead counsel, Seokjin, stands in front of all the attorneys present and calls out Namjoonâs name, commending him on winning his latest caseâthe case that you had done the bulk of the work for. Seokjin even tells the rest of the lawyers in the room that Namjoon is âsomeone to watchâ with a glint of pride in his eyes.Â
 The smug smile Namjoon sends in your direction as he teasingly nibbles on a pen with his sultry mouth is enough to make you want to tear his eyes out and use them as olives in the martini you sorely needed.
 Namjoon smirks as he walks past you once the meeting ends.
 âMake sure you watch me, baby,â he whispers into your ear.Â
 His hand rests on your lower back and you hate how much he aggravates you, and hate even more so that he frustrates you sexually as much as he does intellectually.
 Unfortunately, your body canât keep up with your mindâs distaste for the elder lawyer. His presence around you makes your blood vessels tighten and your head feel lightânipples prickling against your bra when he winks at you.
 âAsshole,â you whisper under your breath as you pack up your notebook.
 âOh, ___!â Seokjin calls out just as youâre about to leave the all-glass meeting room.
 Your head suddenly screeches to a very frustrated, sexual halt when you turn to face the lead counsel of your company.
 âYes, Mr. Kim?â
 âIâve got a case for you.â
 The smile on his face makes you relax. Maybe he sees your potential. Maybe heâs testing you just as much as heâs testing Namjoon. Maybe youâll be the âone to watchâ and you can rub that right in Namjoonâs perfect, stunning face.
 A thick manila folder slides across the oak table towards you from Seokjinâs hands. The impressive volume of the dossier makes you giddy with anticipation.
 âI know you wonât let me down.â
 You nod, nibbling at your lips, before bowing to your superior and dashing out of the room as fast as your Louboutins can handle.
 Itâs not until you sit at your desk, a cramped little cubicle next to Park Jimin, your best friend and paralegal assistant, that you open the folder.
 Your heart sinks as your eyes hurriedly rush over the title page.
 Personal Injury Suit.
 A dejected sigh leaves you as you throw the folder onto your desk and slouch back in your ergonomic office chair.
 âWhatâs up, pussycat?â Jimin smiles as he rolls his chair over to your side of the cubicle. âNamjoon got you worked up again?â
 You groan as you take off your reading glasses, setting them aside to rub at the burgeoning headache building at your temples. You had momentarily forgotten all about Namjoon in the hurried hope that youâd land a case of significance, something you could finally use to prove yourself.
 Instead, you gained yet another in-and-out, settle outside of court case. Likely some elderly geriatric suing a corporation for too-slippery floors.
 âAnother fucking personal injury suit,â you whine as you thrust the folder into the lithe paralegalâs hands.
 He looks over the documents and sucks his teeth.
 âMan, Seokjin really has it out for you.â
 You level a look at your best friend, before nodding and holding your head in your hands.
 âNamjoon is getting all the good cases! He gets the media attention, the litigation deals, everything! Itâs like Iâm not even given a chance to show what kind of lawyer I can be when Iâm stuck with all the nursing home and car accident suits!â
 Jimin bows dutifully, nodding his head as you express your woes.
 âI can do more than just personal injury litigation⌠and Seokjin knows that! Itâs just that Namjoon keeps getting all the air-time!â
 âI know, babe. I know.â
 With one last sigh of disbelief, you take the folder out of Jiminâs hands and sit upright at your desk.
 âWell, I guess if Iâm going to be a personal injury lawyer, Iâm going to be the best fucking one yet. Letâs get to work.â
 âYeah! Fighting!â Jimin cheers.
  Namjoon sighs as he listens to his mother blabber on and on through his phone. He leans back in his chair and surveys the wide expanse of his corner office.
 Seokjin gave him this space, an upgrade from the desolate cubicles when he won his last big case, Kim Taehyung, artist v. the city of New York. He canât help but smirk as he glimpses you from his window, pouring over a case file. He notes the curve of your back in the silk blouse youâre wearing and the way it tucks into your pencil skirt. He wishes he could see the outline of your ass and watch as it sways back and forth when you walk.
 âI just donât understand why you canât ever bring anyone home for the holidays!â
 His mother breaks him from his silent reverie of detailing every aspect of your backside.
 âYou know your grandmother will not be alive much longer! And all she wants is her only grandson to be happy and in love! And a few grandchildren wonât hurt!â
 âI am her grandchild, Mom.â
 Sheâs silent for a moment.
 âWell, I wouldnât mind some grandchildren either.â
 He groans again and presses his fingers to his forehead, a headache bubbling up behind his eyes.
 âDonât you act like that, young man! You have a big empty house, big car, big life, and no one to share it with. I just want you to be happy.â
 She continues on and Namjoon canât help but let her words sink in.
 He has it all. Expensive luxury apartment, enormous bed, gorgeous kitchen, money to spend on traveling and enjoying life. Yet he spends most of his time here, stuck in his office. Heâs utterly alone, regardless of how many social guests he tries to entertain, horrid dates he attempts to go on. Heâs always left alone, and he feels it deep at the very bottom of his heartâthe loneliness and desire for a companion.
 âMom! Mom!â He interrupts her diatribe on the futility of his adult life. âStop!â
 âNamjoon, Iâm just conce-â
 âIâll bring home my girlfriend for the holidays, okay?â
Thereâs a stunned silence on the other end.
 âA girlfriend?â she asks, tentatively. âReally?â
 âYeah,â he breathes, wincing already at the lie heâs spoon-feeding his poor motherâall in the name of getting her off his back. âSheâs kind of shy, so I didnât want to tell you about her yet, but now seems like the best time. Iâm... Iâm even thinking of proposing.â
 The words come out of Namjoonâs mouth before he can stop them. His mom bursts into screams of delight, and he can tell sheâs running to his beloved grandmother to tell her the news.
 âOh, Namjoon! This is all weâve ever wanted for you. Iâm so proud of you! I canât wait to meet her! Oh, goodness, I canât want to tell your father. Goodbye, son! Iâll see you two soon!â
 She hangs up before Namjoon has a chance to even breathe.
 âFuck.â
 He drops his phone to his wooden desk and grimaces.Â
 How the hell is he going to find a fiance in the next 3 days before the holiday break?Â
 Thereâs Jennie, his ex.
 He thinks about it for a moment, before quickly dismissing it. No, much too clingy and possessive. Sheâd take it to be real, and heâd be stuck with her.
 His last hookup, Jihoo?
 No, too aloof. His mom would never buy that they were a love-sick couple on the brink of engagement.
 A crash outside his office startles Namjoon, making him stand and exit the large corner suite.
 The commotion is coming from your cubicle, where he can see youâre struggling to use the decrepit computer. The crash must have been from you slamming the keyboard to the desk, causing the individual keys to pop off the board.
 âShit! Jimin, help me put this keyboard back together!âÂ
 You shimmy out of your chair and onto your knees, an excellent sight for Namjoon if he wasnât so concerned about your well-being.
 The paralegal is standing above you, watching as you kneel to gather the pieces of the obliterated keyboard.
 âOh no, honey. Itâs against my personal constitution to be on my knees unless itâs for a handsome man.â
 âGod, Jimin, come on.â
 âHey, itâs not my fault you hulk-smashed the life out of that poor keyboard.â
 Namjoon smirks, turning back into his office and sliding into his desk. He easily opens his MacBook and emails Yoongi in IT, requesting a brand new computer for your deskâno holds barred. He wants the top of the line for you.
 He suddenly has just the person in mind to be his fake fiancĂŠe.Â
  A brand new, gorgeous computer is at your desk the next day you arrive. You nearly spill your hot peppermint mocha when you see the sleek machine atop your old plastic desk instead of the broken clunker that was there the day before.
 âWhat the hell?â You ask Jimin as you set your coffee down gently as if any movement might scare the new computer away. âDid you order this?â
 âI love you, but I would never order you something this nice.âÂ
 You canât help but roll your eyes as you sit down to marvel at the modern machinery. At least Jimin is honest.
 âMaybe Iâll call Yoongi and ask him where it came from,â you wonder aloud, hand hovering over your phone.
 âYOONGI?â Jimin screeches, eyes suddenly wide and crazed.
 âYeah? The IT guy?â
 âI know who Yoongi is, you dumbass! Here, let me call him! Iâm your assistant!â
 He scrambles to grab the phone out of your hand.
 âYou literally refuse to do anything I ask.â
 Jimin smiles cherubically, completely ignoring your confusion. Heâs suddenly the picture of a model employee.
 âDonât you worry! Iâll be right on it!â
 He hops from your desk with your cell phone gripped tight, and saunters away to a secluded area out of your eyesight.
 âWhat the fuck is going on today?â You ask out loud, settling into your chair and unloading your bag of files.
 âHow's the new computer?â
 The sudden intruder makes you jump, nearly spilling your coffee, yet again.
 âFuck!â You shriek as you attempt to right yourself and the dangerously hot liquid sloshing in the paper cup. âYou scared me!â
 The chuckle that comes from behind you makes your stomach flip. You know that laugh. You could recognize that laugh a hundred miles away, in a hurricane, with headphones on.
 That laugh is the sultry demon himself, Kim Namjoon.
 âIâHow did you know about my computer?â
 Namjoon takes a knee, bringing his face to your level in your chair. Heâs close to you, so dangerously close. You can smell the Giorgio Armani cologne applied to his pressure pointsâthe heat of his skin warming the scent and mingling with his own subtleties. Your eyes nearly roll back in your head. He smells so comfortingâlike a home you never knew you were missing until he arrived. Â
 âI saw it when I walked in this morning.âÂ
 He breaks you from your daydreaming of warm, firm hands caressing your body and youâre thrown headfirst back into realityâthe reality where you canât stand the man mere inches from you.
 You push back from where you are and stand, eager to get away from Namjoonâs sudden interest in close proximity. He smirks and rises from his spot, pocketing his hands in his tight cream suit.
 âCare to join me in my office for some coffee?â He asks.
 His office. The one he scored after he won the Kim Taehyung case. The bitter betrayal still lingers in your mouth.Â
 For the longest time, you had been equal in every sense; both living in the dingy cubicles with the computers long-destined for retirement. Then, Seokjin awarded him with the corner office, the one with the view of the entire city. Youâd never forgiven either of them.
 âI have my own coffee.â
 Namjoon smirks as he eyes your paper cup, clearly a quick grab from the 7-Eleven around the corner.
 âLooks fancy.â
 You purse your lips and clutch your coffee even closer.
 âPlease,â he asks again. âI need to talk to you. Itâs important.â
 Namjoonâs face loses its snark, and youâre curious about what could cause the man to become so serious.
 âFine.â
 You motion with your arm towards his office, encouraging him to walk ahead. He smirks again, ahâthereâs that smirk, before he turns and heads into the gorgeous corner room.
 He lingers by the door as you enter, waiting until youâve crossed the threshold to close the door behind you. It surprises you. Something about being in a closed room with Namjoon sets you on edge. You can nearly imagine the man bending you over that fine oak desk, hiking your skirt up and spanking your ass until itâs red.
 âCoffee?â He asks as he moves towards the in-office espresso machine.
 âAre you fucking kidding me? You have a Nespresso in your office?âÂ
 All desperate and wanton thoughts of Namjoon sliding into you leave once you see the stainless steel contraption in the room's corner. Of course he has a $500 coffee machine in his office. He has everything you want.
 âYou like it?â His question is cocky. He already knows the answer.
 âFuck off.â
 Namjoon grins and turns the machine on, pulling out two mugs while you sip your now lukewarm coffee. It suddenly tastes disgusting.
 âSo, whatâs the deal, Namjoon?â You ask as he rests against the wall and waits for the coffee to brew. âYou said it was important.â
 Namjoon nods, a more reserved look taking the place of his usual cocky grin on his face. His gaze turns down to his shiny dress shoes.
 âI need a favor.â
 âNo.â Your answer is quick.
 Namjoon looks up at you in surprise.
 âYou havenât even heard it yet!â
 âYeah, wellâŚ,â you huff. âIâm not interested in helping you.â
 Namjoon leaves his post by his elaborate coffee maker, forgetting about the piping-hot liquid drizzling into white mugs, as he stands in front of you. Thereâs that fucking cologne again. Why does he have to smell so good?
 âYouâve got to help me. Please.â
 His sudden closeness to you sets your brain offâyour steely resolve begins to crumble.
 âFine, Iâll bite. What is it?â
 His face lights up again. God, he has such a handsome mouth.
 âI need you to pretend to be my girlfriend for my family Christmas party.â
 If you hadnât had such a good grip on the convenience store cup of coffee, itâd surely drop from your clutch and splatter on the expensive carpet of Namjoonâs office.
 Your eyes widen, and your mouth falls agape.
 âYouâYou what?!â
 Namjoon sighs and lowers his voice.
 âLook, IâŚâ he struggles. âI told my mom I have a girlfriend, so sheâd get off my back about it.â
 âAnd why am I suddenly your best option for that?!âÂ
 You step away from the man, determined to clear your mind as the scenario weaves its way through your head.Â
 Namjoonâs girlfriend. He wants you to be his girlfriend.
 Well, his fake girlfriend.
 He would hold your hand. He would kiss you. He would touch your body in ways you convince yourself you donât think of often.Â
 âYouâre the only girl I know whoâs got a good enough poker face to go along with it. And honestly⌠youâre the only girl I really know well enough.â
 His last admission shocks you. Namjoon seems like the womanizing typeâone to bring a different girl home every night.
 âThat doesnât explain why the fuck I would want to help you.â
 Namjoon steps back and moves towards the coffee machine again.
 âIf you help me, Iâll take all your shitty cases that Jin is giving you.â
 Your eyes narrow at the tall man. It seems too good to be true.
 âHow d'you know about them?â
 Namjoon shrugs and grabs a mug full of freshly brewed expensive coffee.
 âI can hear you complain to Jimin about it every day.â
 You grumble under your breath, sucking on your teeth as you try to process the terms of Namjoonâs deal.
 âSo you want me to be your fake girlfriend for your familyâŚâ you muse.
 âYes,â he agrees. âAnd Iâll do all your worst cases for the next 2 months. Iâll even give you my next big one. I know you want that.â
 God, heâs right. Thatâs all you want. A chance to prove yourself to Seokjin, to the company.
 With an aggravated sigh, you relent.Â
 âFine! But it better be a good fucking case. And, Iâm using your coffee maker every morning.â
 Namjoon canât help but chuckle, loving the fire in your voice.Â
 âDeal?â He murmurs.
 He holds out his hand to shake on it, and it takes you by surprise how warm and soft his large hands are once you slide your own into his grip. Â
 âDeal.â
 Jimin is not going to let you live this one down.
  Jimin doesnât let you live it down.
 Heâs sitting on your couch, legs crossed underneath him as he hoists his wine glass filled to the brim. He holds it away from his body as he shakes with laughter.
 âYouâre telling me,â he wheezes. âThat you agreed to be Namjoonâs fake Christmas girlfriend? You hate that man!â
 Flopping into the couch beside him, you sigh.
 âYeah, well, it was my only option. He made me an offer I couldnât refuse.â
 âOkay, Godfather,â Jimin snickers. âLord knows you still want to bone that man, anyway.â
 âJimin!â You admonish. âI do not! And that wasnât the deal!â
 He sips at his red wine with an impish smile. You hate it when Jimin looks at you like that, like he can see behind the lie youâve so carefully crafted of your hatred for Namjoon.
 âThen tell me, what was the deal?â
 You fiddle with the stem of your own wine glass, sighing.
 âHeâs offered to take all our shitty personal injury suits for the next two months. And heâs giving me his next big case.â
 Jimin actually looks surprisedâas if he didnât expect Namjoon to provide a deal so worth the cost.
 âWow,â he breathes.
 You nod in reply, taking a large gulp of the pinot grigio in your glass.
 âYouâre still going to fuck him though, I know it,â Jimin adds.
 You splutter your wine from your mouth, hand reaching over to gently slap Jimin on his taut abdomen.
 âShut up!â You cry.
 Jimin looks proud of himself, sipping his red wine gleefully while he settles further into your couch. Wine nights with Jimin is the highlight of your weeks. Together, you bitch over cases, coworkers, dating struggles, and eat too much cheese and cured meats and nurse a hangover the following day with brunch.
 âHey,â you say to Jimin as you set your wine down on the coffee table. âDid you ever talk to Yoongi?â
 Jiminâs cheeks immediately turn a shade of rouge.
 âYoongi? Yoongi who?â
 âOh my god,â you groan. âYoongi from IT. You stole my phone to call him today? To ask about my new computer?â
 Jimin swallows a large swig of his wine.
 âOh. Yes, I did.â
 âAnd?â You encourage the blonde to answer further.
 âAnd heâs doing well,â Jimin replies demurely.
 âJimin!â You huff. âThe computer?!â
 Jimin makes an âOâ shape with his mouth and bites his lip.
 âI⌠might have forgotten to ask.â
 Your mouth drops open.
 âYou literally stole my phone out of my hands to call him! What did you talk about?!â
 Thereâs his blush again. The shade of pink on Jiminâs cheeks would be adorable if you werenât so flabbergasted by his answers.
 âI have a date tomorrow night.â He takes another sip as you let the reply sink in.
 âOh. My. God.â You gasp, a smile now overtaking your features. âYou have a crush on Min Yoongi!â
 Jimin sets his wine glass down next to yours and turns to you.
 âI had no idea if he was into me! But when I called, I totally forgot why I was calling him and we sort of just⌠started talking and next thing I know, heâs asking me out to dinner tomorrow night.â
 You playfully slap at Jiminâs thigh.
 âYou little slutâusing my phone to get yourself a date. On company time!â
 Jimin sticks his tongue out at you, before grabbing a pillow and slapping you with the overstuffed cushion.
 âAt least I didnât agree to be his fake girlfriend!â
  Itâs the sound of your phone ringing at 7:32 am that wakes you from your spot on the couch, wine glass still clutched in your hand.
 âWhat the fuck?â You grumble, eyes blearily seeking the offending object disturbing your sleep.
 Jimin grumbles next to you, kicking at your foot as if it will stop the phone from ringing. Â
âStop,â he whines and cuddles into his fetal position. âTurn it ooooff.â
 You locate your cell phone and groan as you recognize the name on the caller ID. Namjoon. What the fuck could he possibly be calling for? And why did he have to call at seven in the goddamn morning?Â
 âWhat do you want?â You snap as you hold the phone to your cheek and throw yourself back onto the couch.
 âWell, good morning to you, sunshine.â
 Namjoonâs voice, as sexy and sultry as it sounds, still aggravates you.
 âWhy are you calling me? Itâs Saturday. Its seven am.â
 Namjoon chuckles and you fight the shiver that works through your spine at the sound.
 âI tend to keep human hours on the weekend.â
 You canât hold back the sarcastic guffaw that escapes you. Â
 âOkay, Mr. Perfect,â you sigh. âThat doesnât explain calling me.â
 Jimin kicks at your foot again.Â
 âStop talking,â he grumbles.
 God, Jimin is such a diva when heâs hungover.
 âMeet me at the cafe on First Street,â Namjoon says casually. âIâll tell you when you get here.â
 âRight now?!â You ask, incredulous.
 âIâm literally already here. Hurry before your coffee gets cold.â
 You let out a whine that could rival a 5-year-oldâs temper tantrum.
 âFuck you. Iâll be there in ten minutes.â
 Thereâs no care about your phone when you end the call and throw it to the floor. Jimin grumbles and rubs at his eyes.
 âWhy the fuck are you having phone sex with Namjoon so early in the morning?â He asks.
 âJimin, I swear to God.â
 He wraps himself in the throw blanket and buries his face back into the couch while you stand and retreat to your bedroom to throw on some semblance of appropriate clothing for the occasion.
 âFucking Namjoon,â you grumble under your breath as you change into jeans and a sweater. âFuck him and his stupid, sexy face. And his unbelievable ass. And his stupid, probably enormous penis. Man, I hate him.â
 As youâre re-entering the living room and grabbing your important items (keys, wallet, lip gloss just in-case), Jimin pops his head out of his blanket cave.
 âWhere are you going?â He asks, suddenly less annoyed and more pathetic. âYouâre leaving me?â
 âI have to go meet Namjoon for coffee. I donât know why, so donât ask.â
 âYouâre really going to let me suffer here? Alone? With no coffee?â
 You spin around to face your best friend, whoâs giving you an absolutely soul-crushing pout and puppy eyes.
 âYes. Call Yoongi.â
 His precious pout is wiped away, and a devious smirk takes its place.
 âGreat idea!â He says as he digs around for his phone. âBe careful out there! Itâs icy! Wouldnât want you to slip and fall on Namjoonâs dick.â
 Your only reply is one singular middle finger in Jiminâs direction as you exit your apartment.
  Namjoon canât help but smile as he sips his warm coffee. The cafe is warm and bright, despite the chill outside.Â
 Things feel peaceful. Tender flakes of snow trickle down outside and frost up the shopâs window. Thereâs something about this time of year that strikes him down to the core. Something cozy, something warm.
 Itâs odd to think this will be his first year not celebrating the holiday alone.
 Even if it is... well, fake.Â
 The bell over the door chimes an arrival, and Namjoon can tell by the grumbles and grunts and stomps of snowy boots that itâs you.
 âOver here!â He calls, raising a hand and turning to face you.
 Wow, he thinks. You look gorgeous, even without trying.
 You hurry your way over to the booth and plop yourself on the opposite side, immediately lunging for the obvious mug of coffee waiting for you on the table. You donât waste a minute gulping the liquid down your throat, then spluttering when you realize itâs still hot.
 âI thought you said it was getting cold!â You cry, airing out your burnt tongue. Namjoon canât help but imagine that tongue sliding up and down his cock.
 Not now. Wrong time and place to get a boner.
 Namjoon smiles as he sips his cappuccino.Â
 âI got you a fresh one.â
 You make a face, but your features soften. As if youâre pleased with the idea that Namjoon cared to freshen up your cup.
 âOh, well--â, you manage. âThank you.â
 Namjoon doesnât reply, but merely tips his head. The silence is thick enough to cut with a knife. Normally, youâre both normally so wound up in aggravating the other that a moment of calm is strange, but not unwelcome.
 âSo, why the early morning wake up?â You finally ask, fiddling with the handle of the mug.
 Namjoon settles his cup down.
 âWe need to get to know each other. Deep shit, you know. The shit that lovers would know about each other.â
 He notices you, watches as you nibble at your lip. You try hard to hide it behind the mug you lift to your lips, but Namjoon notices.Â
 âIâm hoping maybe we could spend the day together,â he adds. âI need to get some Christmas gifts for my family and⌠well, itâs rather lonely doing it on my own.â
 Thereâs a slight smile at the ends of your lips.
 âAnd you needed me at seven thirty in the morning to do that?â
 He stifles a laugh.
 âLike I said, I operate at regular human hours. Even on weekends,â he replies.
 With a dramatic sigh, you agree.
 âFine,â you say. âIâm an open book. Ask me anything.â
 He watches as you settle into the seat of the booth, hands gripping the warm mug like itâs a personal heater. He notices youâre only wearing jeans and a sweater--no properly warm clothing for the snow storm ahead. Heâll have to fix that, and soon. Â
 âWhat are you doing for Christmas?â He asks.
 You level a look.
 âSpending it pretending to be in love with you.â
 Namjoon canât help but snort a laugh.
 âI meant after that.â
 You shrug as you settle back into the seat.
 âI donât like Christmas. I donât do much other than force Jimin to kiss me under the mistletoe and watch shitty movies with a gallon of boxed wine.â
 âHmm,â he hums. âYouâre sort of a Grinch.â
 A scowl comes over your face.
 âI am not! I just donât buy into this whole âprove how much you love me by buying me thingsâ shit. Itâs a big scheme, I tell you! Capitalist propaganda! They encourage you to spend all your money, and if you donât, they shame and guilt you by telling you you donât love your family enough.â
 Namjoon canât help but laugh as you rant. Itâs what makes you such a talented lawyerâyour ability to feel a passion so deep within you youâre able to convince a stone-faced jury of your side.
 âDonât laugh at me!â You cry. âIâm serious! My family doesnât celebrate, I donât celebrate. Iâd rather just buy gifts for my loved ones when I see something theyâd like. Why do we have to put a time of year on it?â
 He shrugs and scooches his mug around the carbonate table.
 âI suppose that makes sense,â he muses. âBut youâre still a Grinch. And a Scrooge. Youâll definitely get visited by some Ghosts at midnight.â
 âHa ha,â you snark sarcastically. âHilarious, Namjoon. Donât tell me youâre a big festive guy.â
 âSomewhat. Itâs my Momâs favorite holiday. Itâs why sheâs so bent out of shape about me having a girlfriend. Something about family and love and shit.â
 You nod, understanding him completely. Your own mother, despite her reservations towards the holiday, still makes a fuss over your single status. There must be some Mom code to obsess over your childrenâs woeful dating life.
 âWell, I say letâs get on with it then. Ready to hit the shops?â He asks.
 Youâre mid-sip of your finally cooled coffee and you send a desperate look to the man in front of you.
âAlready?!â
 âWeâre burning daylight, baby.â
 Namjoon stands and you canât help but feel a roar of flames in your belly at the pet-name. Your cheeks are surely flaming up and you admonish yourself for getting so peaked about such a trivial name.
 âPlease donât tell me weâre walking,â you murmur as you sneak a peek outside.
 The snow is falling down harder now, and youâre dreadfully underdressed for the weather.
 Namjoon tsks at your lack of outerwear, but then shakes his head.
 âNo, weâll take my Range Rover.â
 You roll your eyes and grimace.
 âOf course. You have a fucking Nespresso machine and a Range Rover. Asshole.â
 Namjoon doesnât even think about it as he grabs your hand and laces his fingers in between yours. If anyone asked, heâd say itâs practiceâto familiarize himself with the way your fingers slot between his own so itâs not such a foreign concept when he does it in front of his family.
 âYeah, but Iâm your asshole now, princess.â
 Christmas shopping with Namjoon is mostly painless.
 Normally, you dread the lines and the crowds and the confusion and the expense.
 But with Namjoon, you relax and banter away with the tall lawyer. Youâre completely at ease as you walk through crowded aisles and sort through racks of cashmere sweaters and stacks of fuzzy blankets.
 âMom will love this, donât you think?â Namjoon asks, holding up a thick, exquisite looking blanket.
 Youâre about to answer with an affirmative when you catch yourself. You donât even know his mom. Youâve never met the woman. Why does it feel as if Namjoon is someone youâve known your entire life?Â
 Why do things feel so easy with him?
 âSure, Namjoon,â you reply. âSeems like something most motherâs would be into.â
 He smiles at you. Itâs a genuine smile too, one that nearly knocks you on your ass. Your body is sent into overdrive constantly. He holds your hand, he places his hand at the small of your back to guide you through a thick crowd. He calls you baby and princess and doll.
 Itâs confusing.
 Itâs amazing.
 You canât tell if you love it or hate it.
 Namjoon pushes the shopping cart and walks beside you, chatting easily about his various aunts and uncles names that you likely must remember at some point but you just canât think about anything but Namjoon, Namjoon, Namjoon.
 You hate him. He stole that corner office from you. Heâs going to take the promotion you want from right under your nose. He has a goddamn Nespresso in his office and a Range Rover.Â
 And yet, you canât help but fall in place next to him and listen to him tell stories of his childhood, weaving tales of uncles who snuck him his first sips of alcohol and aunts who spoil him rotten. Heâs easy to listen to, a natural story-teller. Your body feels warm, as if youâre sitting on a large hearth by a roaring fire. Heâs comforting.
 Itâs infuriating and wonderful all at once.Â
 âAnd thatâs when my cousin Jungkook got caught smoking cigarettes. My grandma beat our ass so bad I couldnât sit for a day.â
 Namjoon finishes his story and turns to look at you. Youâve been staring at the man for nearly a minute straight now.
 âHey,â his voice is soft. âYou listening?â
 You shake out of the trance Namjoonâs deep voice sends you into.
 âYeah!â You reply with a smirk. âSounds like this Jungkook is a guy Iâd like to meet.â
 Namjoon sucks his teeth and nudges you.
 âHey, youâre my girlfriend, remember.â
 You stick your tongue out at him playfully.
 âFake girlfriend. Iâm still a single, desirable lady at the end of the day.â
 Namjoon hesitates before answering. He wants to reply something snarky, something sarcastic and witty. But he takes a moment to pause, allows himself to fully immerse himself in you. Even hungover, in yesterdayâs jeans and an old sweater, youâre still an absolute catch. Youâre the definition of desirable and Namjoon canât help but allow himself to desire.
 âHmm, is that what you call it?â He asks, now allowing the sarcasm to permeate his words. âI was thinking youâre more of the spinster, cat-lady type.â
 âHey!â You pout as you slap at his arm. âIâm allergic to cats!â
 âBut you donât deny being a spinster.â
 âFuck you, Namjoon.â
 He grins and pushes the carts towards the candle aisle, a sure-fire gift for his aunties.
 âIn due time, my love.â
  By the time Christmas Eve arrives, youâve spent nearly every day with Namjoon. At work, he brings you fresh coffee from his Nespresso and buys you lunch. Youâve even landed his big case, an incredibly complex lawsuit that will showcase your skills. Namjoon gives you pointers and space to talk through the case with him.
Namjoon is, in fact, simply being kind. And it unsettles you.
 Your heart and brain are at war with each other constantly. You should hate him, loathe him. Heâs going to nail that promotion regardless of what you prove to Seokjin.
 But your heart tells you he deserves it. Heâs an incredible attorney and has earned every ounce of respect. You want Namjoon to get that promotion just to see that smile on his face. Heâd do incredible things as Seokjinâs protege to take over the firm.
 You hate to admit it, but Namjoon has melted the ice around your heart. And youâre dreading the day after all this is over, because it will be the day Namjoon stops holding you close and pressing soft kisses to your temple. It will be the day he stops pretending this is all real.
 Itâs Christmas Eve and youâre sitting in Namjoonâs expensive Range Rover, plush leather seat toasty from the built-in seat warmer. You canât help but marvel at the way the oncoming headlights brighten up Namjoonâs features as he drives you down a snowy mountain lane. They always hold the Kim family holiday party at Namjoonâs late grandfatherâs cabin in the mountains, a quiet getaway for the family to gather and spend the night together to wake up on Christmas morning and gather around for presents and food.
 Which means waking up to Kim Namjoon.
 Itâs something youâve dreamt of often, but denied yourself any actual possibility of it. Namjoon was always out of reach, and it was easier to hate him for his success he rightfully deserved than it was to admit the feelings that were always inside.
 And now, although itâs artificial, you canât bear to think of not spending your time with Namjoon anymore.
 You steal a glance again at him, and smile as you hear his faint humming. He loves Christmas music. You learned that early in the week during another early morning coffee and âget to know youâ before work. Namjoon couldnât stop singing Mariah Careyâs classic pop song under his breath as it played over the speakers in the cafe.Â
 âItâs so pretty up here,â you muse as you force your vision away from Namjoonâs gorgeous face to the snowy scenery outside.Â
 The snow is falling gently, not enough to cause a blizzard but enough to make it seem like youâre trapped in a picturesque snow-globe. Leaving the city and entering the magical forest stirs an emotion inside you you hadnât felt in some time.
 Itâs Christmas Eve and thereâs just something magical.
 Ugh. Unbelievable.
 Namjoon has even made you actually enjoy Christmas.
 He nods. âYeah, itâs my favorite place in the world, I think.â
 âI can see why,â you sigh. âIt looks like a painting.â
 Namjoon glances over at you peering through the window. His heart hammers in his chest hard as your glittering eyes bounce around from tree to tree, a pretty smile on your face. The diamond ring in his pocket feels like it weighs a literal ton and he nibbles at his lip.
 He bought it for the showmanship of it all, initially. It was his first purchase he made when he set up this whole rouse.
 But now, it feels real. It feels like heâs really about to get on one knee and ask you, the girl heâs absolutely head over heels for, to marry him.
 And then it will be over.
 Heâll make up some story to tell his mom about how it didnât work out and youâll go back to being his coworker, and nothing more.
 Namjoon canât fight the sinking feeling in his stomach.
 Nothing more.
 He pulls into the driveway before you even have time to realize youâre there. He puts the car in park and smiles over at you.Â
 He looks so cute in his puffy winter coat, hair pushed to the side and a smile thatâs all dimples and cheeks.
 Fuck.
 âWeâre here,â he whispers. âYou ready?â
 Suddenly, the nerves of meeting your fake boyfriendâs entire family slap you right in the face. You hope that youâre a good enough actress to get Namjoon through the night and into the morning.
 âReady as Iâll ever be.â
 He nods and squeezes your hand, an unspoken comforting âI got youâ.
 Namjoon gathers his wrapped gifts and stacks them all in his arms, ignoring your pleas and giggles to help carry them in.
 âNo, no,â he assures. âI have to make sure my mom sees me being manly and helpful.â
 As if on cue, the front door opens and Mrs. Kim is bursting out into the snowy night.
 âNamjoon!â She shrieks, completely overjoyed. The rest of the family is standing by the door, eyeing you carefully with smiles and whispers. You pray to whatever Christmas God thatâs listening that you can do this.
 Namjoon sets the pile of gifts down just in time to wrap his delicate and tiny mother in his arms, hugging her tightly while she gleefully buries her face into her tall sonâs chest.
 âOh, my son, Iâve missed you.â
 Namjoon kisses the crown of her head and smiles.
 âMissed you too, eomma.â
 The scene has you misty-eyed and you swipe at your eyes to stop the tears. Thereâs no way youâre ruining the fantastic makeup you did for the occasion, but the reunion of Namjoon and his mother is heart-warming. He clearly cares for his mother more than he would outwardly admit.Â
 Namjoon and his mother unwrap from each other and Namjoon turns towards you.
 âEveryone, this is ____,â he breathes. âMy girlfriend.â
 His motherâs gleeful squeals now turn to you, and within an instant sheâs gathering you up in just as tight of a hug as she did to her son.
 âOh, darling, we are so happy to meet you,â she beams.
 The excitement in her voice makes you feel badâlike youâre conning an old woman out of her retirement. Youâre instilling a sense of hope in the kind woman, and you canât help but send Namjoon a look as you wrap your arms around her and return the embrace. His eyes sparkle with something you canât read.
 âIâm happy to meet you too,â you smile as you pull apart. âThank you for letting me come.â
 âNo thanks necessary,â she admonishes with a wink. âWe had to beg Namjoon to bring you. It seems he wants to keep you all to himself.â
 âEomma!â Namjoon snaps. âBe appropriate!â
 She nudges you with her elbow knowingly, which makes your cheeks flame hot, before she leads the way back into the house.
 âCome in, come in! Letâs get out of this snow.â
 Namjoon encourages you to step inside with a gentle hand at the small of your backâa touch that makes your body light up brighter than a Christmas tree.
 âThank you,â he whispers in your ear from behind. You can feel the warmth of his lips and your body reacts.
How is it that any simple act makes you desperately horny for the man? You pray for some respite from your sexual frustration over the next day. How are you going to last over 24 hours?
 Namjoon deposits his massive haul of gifts under the tree and returns to your side, wrapping an arm around your shoulders to bring you close. He introduces you to uncles and aunts and cousins. He even introduces you to his infamous cousin, Jungkook, who smirks at you in a way that makes Namjoon pull you in closer to his body.
 âAre you doing okay?â Namjoon finally asks after the rush of relatives greeting you dies down. He turns you towards him, to face him directly with his hands on either of your shoulders. âYouâre killing it.â
 You canât help but smile. Namjoonâs family is all incredibly kind and funny. They welcome you into the family with ease and it chips away a little more each time at your heart.
 Because this is all fake.Â
 One day, Namjoon really will have a girlfriend to bring to Christmas and to show off to his relatives and it wonât be you. Youâll be back at your apartment, watching shitty TV re-runs and binging on Chinese takeout, as you do every year. Itâs a jab at your heart each time the bitter truth rears its ugly head.
 âYeah,â you nod. âIâm great.â
 âLook!â Jungkook shouts. âTheyâre standing under the mistletoe!â
 Namjoon blushes a shade of red that likely matches a blush on your own cheeks. Sure enough, the green branches of the mistletoe taunt you from above.Â
 Youâve never kissed Namjoon before. In all the skinship and closeness of the last week, youâve still yet to close the gap to kissing the man.Â
 âOh, come on Kook, thatâs a stupid tradition,â Namjoon murmurs awkwardly, rubbing at the back of his neck.
 Jungkook smirks as he steps up next to you.
 âWell, if youâre not going to do it, Iâd be more than happy to take your place.â
 Jungkook wraps a loose arm around you and gives you a charming smile. He must be very popular with the ladies, you think. Thatâs a charming smile.
 âHey!â Namjoon grabs for your hand and tugs you out of Jungkookâs predatory gaze. âSheâs my girlfriend.â
 Namjoon looks at you for a moment, assessing your comfort level with everything about to take place. His lips look so inviting, so plush and warm. Now that youâre thinking about kissing him, you canât help but focus on the way his lips pucker so gently and naturally.
 And then it happens. Namjoon lowers his face towards you and it feels as if the world is in slow-motion. Itâs happening.
 The first press of his lips is soft and conservative. You take a split second to register, but instinctively you press against his lips with determination and wrap your arms around his neck to deepen the kiss.
 He groans softly as you trail your tongue out to seek purchase in his mouth, and he opens for you without hesitation. His hands grip at your waist and bring your body flush against his. You can feel his cock twitching and rising from the kiss thatâs gone from innocent and playful to passionate and deep. It feels like the world around you has stopped and the only thing that matters is Namjoon, his mouth, his body against your own. He tastes like hot chocolate and peppermint, and you want more, more.
 âOh my god, stop,â Jungkookâs voice shatters your illusion of being all alone with Namjoon. âNow youâre just showing off.â
 Namjoon pulls away from you, eyes dazed as he tries to right himself.Â
 âYou two are just so perfect for each other,â Namjoonâs mother says, whoâs suddenly appeared in Jungkookâs place. âLet me show you your bedroom.â
 âOh, weâre sharing?â You ask without thought. Itâs a large house, with ample bedrooms surely for you to have your own space.
 Namjoon nudges you in the ribs gently, eyes widening and mouthing a âwhat the fuck do you mean?âÂ
 âOf course dear, donât be silly,â his mother replies with an eyebrow waggle and a chuckle. âI remember when your father and I were dating. He would sneak into my room after my parents went to bed and keep me up all night long. Your grandfather would ask me if I had terrible dreams that night, because I looked so tired.â
 Namjoon makes a face. âEomma, please,â he begs. âPlease donât talk about my parents like that.â
 As his mother guides you down a long hallway, your mind is whirring with too many thoughts of Namjoon, of sharing a bedroom with Namjoon, of seeing his sleeping face and waking up next to him. Itâs all too much, too overwhelming. You pray thereâs a couch in the room you could sleep on, because youâre far too weak and youâd rather fight the desperation in your body than face the fact that you want nothing more than to curl right into Namjoonâs strong arms and let him hold you all night to sleep.
 Fuck.
 âHere we are!âÂ
 His mother opens the door with grace, and flicks on the light. The room is beautiful in its simplicity. A king sized bed, a fireplace, and a balcony with a view of the sprawling snowy scene outside. Itâs cozy and warm and decorated with its own Christmas tree.
 âWow,â is all you can muster.
 âAish, Mom,â Namjoon sighs as he drops his bags. âYou didnât need to do all of this for us.â
 Mrs. Kim holds his hand in both of hers. âWell, I know how special this Christmas is going to be,â she winks. âI want you to enjoy your time here. Now, Iâll leave you two alone for a bit. Dinner is in an hour, so âfreshen upâ!â
Another wink, and Namjoon makes another face. She definitely wants grandchildren, that much is for certain.
 She closes the door behind her and youâre left standing in the room, overnight bag in hand.
 âThis isâWow, this is amazing.â
 Youâve never experienced Christmas like thisâwith decorations and warmth and family. Itâs as if the love of the Kim family permeates the very walls of the expansive cabin, like itâs built into the foundation itself. For a moment, you allow yourself to soak it all in. This is all yours. Itâs your Christmas and you finally understand why so many make such a fuss over it. The results are nothing short of remarkable.
 âYeah, she really does the most,â Namjoon laughs.Â
 He takes the bag from your hand without your notice and you step towards the balcony to peer into the night. The landscape looks as if everything has been covered in soft marshmallow. The snow is untouchedâpicture perfect.
 âIâve never had anything like this before.â
 Namjoon settles your bag and his on the bed, watching as you soak in your own wonder. The smile on your face is not one he sees often, one of pure joy. Namjoon swallows hard as he realizes he wants to be the one to always put that smile on your face.
 âNot such a Scrooge after all, eh?â
 You turn from the still-life view outside and back to Namjoon, where he stands at the foot of the bed. He looks so different outside the office. Heâs wearing skinny jeans and a flannel shirt, his puffy jacket hanging by the door. No cream suit, no slicked back hair or shoes shiny enough to see your reflection. Just simply Namjoon.
 Heâs no longer the man who steals the limelight in the office. Heâs no longer the man you see as your adversary or your rival.
 Heâs the man whoâs showing you the magic of Christmas, the spirit of love and kindness that embodies the season.
 Heâs the man youâve fallen in love with.
 And yet, heâs the man who will leave once this is over and return to his proper life, and you to yours. Heâll return to sleeping with models and movie starlets, and youâll return to binge watching Great British Bake-Off with Jimin and a carton of Chicken Tikka Masala.
 And Christmas will never feel as special as it does now.Â
 So, youâre determined to soak in it for a little longer. Itâs going to hurt regardless, so why not push that hurt off until tomorrow and allow yourself to pretend you live the lie youâre spinning for Namjoonâs family?
 âI think Iâll just freshen up and change into my dinner outfit, then?â You ask out loud, grabbing for your overnight bag and heading towards the ensuite.
 Namjoon, who expected a witty retort, takes a moment to reply.
 âOh,â he coughs. âYeah, sure. Iâll errâ, Iâll just get ready out here.â
 You quickly escape into the bathroom, closing the door and resting on it as you exhale a breath you didnât realize you were holding.
 The tension in the bedroom with Namjoon was too thick, too powerful, especially after the kiss you just shared. His cock had been there, straining in his jeans as you licked into his mouth. The kiss felt so natural, as if you had always kissed Namjoon like that. Your heart beats loud and hard in your chest just from the thought of it.
 You really needed to get a handle over yourself. You still have dinner to get through, and an entire night in a bedroom with Namjoon. A bed with Namjoon.
 No, you wonât allow yourself to go that far. You can pretend youâre his girlfriend, but all thoughts of his delectable body doing scintillating things to yours is strictly off-limits. You shake all thoughts of a thick, heavy cock sliding into your mouth and warm hands spreading you open, and set about fixing your makeup and changing into the gorgeous cocktail dress you purchased for the occasion. It wasnât often you got to get dressed up. The emerald green velvet dress clings to your body and highlights your curves. Itâs a sexy dress, definitely, but also appropriate for a formal evening with your boyfriendâs parents.
 Well, your fake boyfriend. Right.
 After fixing your hair and buckling your heels, you take one last glimpse in the mirror for good luck and exit the room.
 Your breath is nearly knocked out of your lungs as you see Namjoon.Â
Youâve seen him dressed up for court and for TV appearances millions of times, but youâve never seen him like this.
 He wears a blood red button up without a tie, a few buttons open to emphasize the casual look, tucked into the tightest and sexiest slacks youâve ever seen. They hug his thighs and sit at a spot on his waist that you just know is rippling with cut lines from his work in the gym. His hair is tucked back with a bit of hairspray, and heâs fixing the sleeves of his shirt when he sees you.
 His eyes widen and his hands fall to his sides as he soaks in your appearance.
 An absolute vision.
 He can see the gentle valley between your breasts and the way your dress pushes up your cleavage and displays your collar. The dress follows the delicate curve of your waist and hips and ends at your knee, but teases him with a glimpse of thigh that has him wiping his mouth in case heâs drooling.Â
 âYou look incredible,â Namjoon murmurs as you step closer.
âSo do you.â
 You swallow hard as he continues closer to you, breathing harshly as he stands right in front of you. You could reach out and unbuckle his expensive slacks and fist his cock right there. Youâd fall on your knees for him, if he asked.
 Thereâs a moment of silence as Namjoonâs face inches closer and closer to your own, each unable to verbalize just how desperate either of you feel for the other.
 âNamjoon, Iâ,â you start. You want to tell him. You want to tell him everythingâthat you donât want this to be fake, that you want this to be real, and you want to be his and his forever.
 âYes?â
 You swallow hard, shaken by just how close his lips are to yours. Heâs inches away and all you can focus on is the way his plush lips look and how well they fit against your own under the mistletoe.
 âI justâ, I really um, Iâm just veryâŚâÂ
 Youâre not making sense. Comprehension of language is quickly soaring out the window because the only words you know are âPlease, for the love of God, kiss me and make me yoursâ, but you canât bring yourself to speak them out loud.
 Namjoonâs hand cups your cheek, as if he can tell what youâre trying to say.
 âYeah,â he breathes. The inches between you turn to centimeters, to bare millimeters. Your eyes flutter close as you feel his breath dance over your lips and your heart beats so loud youâre sure the entire household can hear it. Heâs right there and moves in to close the distanceâ
 âKnock Knock!!â
 The forceful, cheery voice of cousin Jungkook forces both of you to jump away from each other as if youâve touched a burning stove. Your head feels light, like youâve forgotten to breathe for the last ten minutes and youâve suddenly taken in too much air.
 The wooden door squeaks open and Jungkook pokes his head in, a shit-eating grin on his face.
 âAuntie sent me to get you. Itâs dinnertime!â
 Namjoon rubs his face frustratedly. âYes, thank you, Jungkook.â
 Jungkook doesnât leave, however. He smiles at you and winks.Â
âWould you like an escort to dinner, madame? You look tastier than the roast beef downstairs.â
 A blush creeps over your cheeks as Namjoon storms to the door where his cousin laughs.
 âThatâs enough, Kook. Weâll be down in a minute.â
 He sends you one more grin, then retreats from the door and closes it behind him.
 âSorry about that,â Namjoon apologizes. Youâre not sure what heâs apologizing forâJungkook, or the moment before.
 âItâs alright. Letâs go?â
 Namjoon nods and holds out his hand with a smile.
 âLetâs go, girlfriend.â
  Dinner with the Kim family is as delightful as every other interaction with them has been. Theyâre polite and funny and ask questions about your life and your family.
 They ask how you met Namjoon (at work), what your favorite quality about him is (his smile and his ass), and what your first date together was (coffee at seven in the morning).
 You tell stories of Namjoon in the office, of your best friend Park Jimin whoâs secretly trying to date the IT manager, of your parents and Christmases past.
 By the time dessert is served, Namjoonâs mother looks at you as if youâve put the very stars in the sky.
 Namjoon doesnât miss that look either. He can see the way his family is falling in love with you and somewhere deep in his stomach, he feels the guilt rising. All of this is a lie. Not only is he going to break his own heart, but every heart of his family memberâs too.Â
 âWeâre all just so overjoyed that Namjoon has found someone to share his life with,â his mom speaks softly. Itâs the first time sheâs been thoughtful and quiet. Sheâs a woman whoâs larger than life, youâve found, so the softness in her tone strikes a chord. âYouâre absolutely perfect for him. Iâve never seen him happier.â
 Fuck.Â
 âThank you,â you murmur sincerely to his mother. âIâve never been happier.â
 Namjoon peers up from where heâs been pushing around his uncleâs famous chocolate cake on his plate to watch as you speak.
 âTruthfully, I never cared much for Christmas. I thought it was a rubbish holiday and spent it alone every year with a bottle of wine and some takeout. Namjoon really changed that for me,â you smile at the man and place your hand in his lap to hold his free hand. âHe showed me more about Christmas in one week than Iâve felt in my entire life.â
 Namjoonâs mom wipes away an errant tear and he squeezes your hand under the table.
 âI guess the Grinchâs heart has grown 3 sizes, after all.â
 Namjoonâs joke lightens the soft mood, and suddenly thereâs chatter around as the family members move about to wash dishes and clean up the mess of dinner. Everyone leaves the table except for you and Namjoon.
 âThat was some good acting,â he whispers with a sad smile.
 âRight,â you whisper back, nibbling your lip anxiously. âActing, of course.â
  You should have thought through the bedroom sharing thing more.
 Because sharing a bedroom is one thing.
 And sharing a bed is another.
 And of course, the only pajamas you thought to bring tonight is a very sexy long shirt that says âno coffee, no talkingâ with a bedazzled pair of shushing lips. Thatâs it. Just a single shirt. Not even a pair of shorts or pajama pants.
 You slip into the bed first, as far onto one side of it as possible. Itâs a king sized bed, and it still feels too intimate, too close.
 Namjoon exits the bathroom after his shower, rubbing at his wet hair with a towel. Heâs shirtless, wearing only a pair of flannel pajamas, leaving his bare chest on display.
 Sweet lord in heaven, you nearly cry out loud. Heâs absolutely ripped, pecs defined and droplets of water from his hair streaming down. You want to chase each drop with your tongue and circle back again. You shut your eyes tight and clench your teeth. Why, oh why, does he have to look so fucking sexy at a time like this?
 Namjoon sees you at the edge of the bed, shutting your eyes closed like youâre a shy schoolgirl afraid to see a naked manâs body. He feels guilty for making you be here. He knows youâve likely got better things to do than spend time with a man you openly hate.
 âIâm sorry,â he apologizes for nothing in particular.Â
 You ignore it. Instead, youâre trying to think of every un-sexy thing in the world you can possibly imagine. Taxes, a bunch of bees, old people, shark attacks.
 Thereâs absolutely nothing that can stop the image of Namjoonâs perfectly sculpted body from bursting into your mind. Youâre nearly pleading with yourself to just go to sleep and contemplate how hard youâd need to hit your head to knock yourself out as fast as possible.
 âIâll sleep on the floor,â he says as he grabs a small throw blanket from the closet and throws it to the ground by the fire.
 It snaps you from your musings of how best to forget how badly you want to suck Namjoonâs cock through his pajama pants.
 âWhat?â You sit up in the posh bed and finally make eye-contact. âWhy? Itâs freezing. Thereâs a literal snowstorm outside.â You motion to the window of the balcony. What was once a gentle snowfall is now a full-on winter storm.
 âThereâs a fire. Iâll be fine, I sleep hot anyway.â Namjoonâs voice is low and without energy. He almost sounds sad.
 God, is being with you that hard for him? You know youâre just the artificial replacement until he has the real thing, but youâd actually hoped Namjoon had found it as comforting and warm as you had.
 âNamjoon,â you sigh. âThis is a king-sized bed. You donât need to be waking up with back pain because you gallantly slept on the floor.â
 To emphasize your point, you tug back the blankets on the other side, beckoning him to join.
 He hesitates for a moment, as if heâs weighing the proâs and conâs and sliding into bed next to you in his mind, then stands and pads his way on the plush carpet towards the bed and slips in.
 Thereâs an entire football field of distance between you two in the bed, but it feels like heâs right beside you. You imagine sliding in right next to him, wrapping your arms around his taut chest and pressing soft kisses to his stomach.
 You squeeze your eyes closed again. Stop it, you horny slut.
 âThank you, again.â Namjoon breaks the silence. âI really appreciate you helping me out.â
 âYeah,â you swallow hard. âOf course. What else was I going to do? Jiminâs probably sucking Yoongiâs dick right now, so Iâd be watching baking shows alone.â
 Namjoon laughs for a moment, then quiets.
 âYou know, I donât even really want that promotion at work.â
 Youâre surprised by the sudden change in topic, but you turn over to face Namjoon.
âWhat?! Really?â
 Namjoon nods and stares at the ceiling. âI donât think Iâm that good of an attorney to get it, anyway.â
 His statement makes you sit up in bed again, staring at the man in disbelief.
 âAre you fucking kidding me, Namjoon? Youâre the best lawyer in the firm.â
 Namjoon says nothing, just turns to stare at you curiously as you continue.
 âYouâre like⌠literally better than Seokjin, too. The way you handled the Taehyung case was nothing short of historical. Like, that was an impossible case, and you nailed it. That was your âOJâ case, you know?â
 Namjoon barks a laugh.
 âMy what?â
 âYour OJ case!â You use your hands to emphasize the importance of what youâre saying. âLike, theyâll write about you and how impossible the odds were of winning that case. And you won it! Not even Seokjin could have won that case.â
 Heâs silent again, watching as you speak directly from your heart with all the fire and passion you feel about the things you care about. Itâs what makes you such an incredible lawyer, too.
 âWow,â he breathes. âThank you.â
 You settle back down from your excitement, suddenly bashful at how fanatical you became. Â
 âYouâre welcome,â you murmur. âYou deserve that promotion. And the office.â
 Namjoon smirks.
 âAnd the Nespresso?â
 Your eyes narrow and send a glare to him he can see even with the faintest of light in the room.
 âNo, no one deserves the Nespresso, except for me.â
 He chuckles and settles down into his pillows.
 âGoodnight,â he whispers.
 âGoodnight, Namjoon.â
 Thereâs a beat of silence and your eyes flutter shut easily. Itâs quiet, and all you can hear is the crackle of the log in the fireplace and the wind blowing past the balcony windows as the storm outside rages.
 âOh,â Namjoon whispers again. âAnd, Merry Christmas.â
 You canât fight the smile that creeps onto your face.
 âMerry Christmas, Joonie.â
  âHappy Christmas!â A voice bellows through your bedroom at approximately seven fifteen am.
 You groan, immediately grimacing and burying your face into your firm, warm pillow.
 âNooooo,â you whine, trying to hide from the offending noise.
 Namjoon shakes awake, and notices Jungkook standing at the bedroom door once again.
âItâs time for presents!â He giddily explains. âAnd, they gave me the job of waking you two up.â
 âOf course,â Namjoon yawns.
 âYou look a little wrapped up,â Jungkook smirks, eyeing your sleeping body. âIâll give you two a minute. Donât get distracted.â
 Namjoon rolls his eyes and watches as the door closes, before he turns his attention towards you.
 Somehow, in the middle of the night, youâve scooched yourself to his side of the bed and draped your body around his. Your face is buried in his chest and your legs are haphazardly intertwined in his own.
 He bites his lip. His cock is rock solid, not just from his usual morning wood, but from the way he can feel your tits through your shirt, and from the sight of your pink panties. Namjoon wants to take them off with his teeth and bury his face in your delicious cunt, and his cock is nearly screaming at him to get on with it.
 âHey,â he whispers to you, actively ignoring the demon that is his turgid length. âWake up.â
 This causes you to cling harder to his chest, rubbing your sleepy face on him.
 âWhat is it with you and early mornings?â You ask, blearily raising your head to peer at him judgementally.
 Namjoon bites his lip, curious about your reaction to the tight embrace youâve got on him. He doesnât want to say anything, doesnât want to break the spell. Frankly, he wants to push your sleep shirt up and stuff you full of his cum.
 âMerry Christmas?â He offers shyly.
 You take a full minute to recognize whatâs happening.
 Youâre no longer on your edge of the bed. Youâre wrapped around the man like a koala, legs strewn over him without care and clinging to him like heâs a lifeline.
 âOh!â You gasp as you jerk out of his grasp.Â
 In your movement, your leg brushes over an obvious tent in Namjoonâs pants, making him groan softly. You shut your eyes, embarrassed at how disgustingly horny you are for the man whoâs not even interested in you sexually.
 âChrist, Iâm so sorry,â your cheeks flame bright red and you scoot further from him.
 âNo, no, donât be,â Namjoon wheezes as he tries to fix himself. âItâs fine. Itâs more than fine. Itâs great. It happens. Donât worry.â
 He continues to stammer out reassurances as he leaves the bed and bolts into the bathroom to fix his unruly tented pants, leaving you sitting atop the bed washed with shame.
 âFucking hell,â you whisper to yourself as you rub at your cheeks. âGet a grip of yourself.â
 Inside the bathroom, it only takes Namjoon a few fisted jerks of his cock and the mental image of you beneath him, begging for him, until heâs silently cumming on an expensive towel. He bites his free hand to stifle the moans he makes as his cock pulses.
 By the time he arrives back in the bedroom, youâve changed into a hoodie and yoga leggings that accentuate your ass so delectably that Namjoon thinks about turning right back into the bathroom for a second round.
 âIâm sorry!â You nearly shout when he walks into the room. âAbout the bed. You were warm and I was cold. Thatâs all.â
 Nmajoon simply nods, doesnât want to have to explain how he wishes he could wake up like that every day. Doesnât want to describe in vivid detail how heâd wake you up with his tongue buried deep in your cunt.
 âLet me grab a shirt and weâll head out, yeah?â
 Your eyes dance over the defined ridges of his body, a little crest-fallen at the idea that this might be the last time you see him shirtless, but you nod anyway.
 âYeah.â
The ring box sits in a deceptively large box beneath the tree. Namjoon wrapped it last night and hide it at the very back. His heartbeat hammers in his ears as his family passes around gifts and opens each with squeals of delight.
 His mother gave him new ties for the office, ones that Namjoon prefers. Sheâs even gifted you with jewelry, which makes your eyes water at the sentiment.
 It all begins to be too much. Itâs harder and harder to hold back the tears as each of Namjoonâs family members gives you gifts. It doesnât matter the value, not at all. The fact that they specifically set out to include you in their gift-unwrapping makes your heart snap in two.
 This is all too much, itâs too real.
 Itâs everything you never dreamed you could have. A loving partner who lets you sit in the space of his legs and rubs your arms soothingly. A family who goes out of their way to include you in the abundance of love and company. A cabin so warm and cozy.
 The tears donât stop.
 Itâs at the end of the gift exchange that you finally allow yourself to breathe.Â
 âThereâs one more,â Namjoon whispers as he moves from behind you and fetches a large box from behind the tree. âItâs for you, princess.â
 Curiously, and suspiciously, you eye him as he sets the enormous gift in your lap. You had done nearly all his Christmas shopping with him, and canât remember a single thing he would have gotten for you.
 âI hope itâs the Nespresso from your office,â you snark with a smile. His family members all laugh and exchange knowing looks to each other.
 Namjoon doesnât think he can breathe. He watches as you begin to carefully unwrap the large box, which reveals another box, slightly smaller. He canât help but grin as you continue to unwrap the nesting-doll style gift until youâre down to the smallest one, the one that holds the ring box.
 With one last tear of paper, your eyes widen as you recognize the velvet box.
 âOh--,â you breathe as you delicately pry open the gift.
 Inside sits a dazzling and gorgeous diamond ring. It catches the light from the fire and sparkles like a firecracker.
 âOh my god,â you whimper as the tears flow again.
 Heâs proposing.
 Namjoon settles himself onto one knee and tucks an errant piece of hair behind your ears.
 âYouâre the best thing that has ever happened to me. I knew from day one that you were always the girl I wanted to marry,â
 Namjoonâs speech sends daggers to your heart. Heâs so convincing for something so counterfeit.Â
 âIâve been in love with you for as long as I can remember, much longer than weâve been together. Youâre who I want to come home to every night, and who I want to wake up with every morning.â
 It hurts. It hurts so badly that youâre crying even harder as he continues to speak. His family must think youâre simply overcome with emotion and love that the crying doesnât give it away, but inside youâre absolutely dying.
 Thereâs no way you can recover from this.
 Tomorrow, Namjoon will take the ring back to where he got it from and return to what he had before. Heâll leave you behind, broken and hopelessly in love with a man who faked a relationship so well that you fell for it, hard.
 â____, will you marry me?â
 You take several large, gulping gasps to reply. You canât shatter the illusion. Namjoonâs parents are weeping with joy, while his relatives record the moment on their phones and wipe away errant tears. Even Jungkook looks soft, proud of his cousin for taking the next step in his life.
 Oh, how you wish this were all real.
 âYes,â you lie with a smile. âYes, Namjoon, of course!â
 Namjoon grins and pulls you to standing, gathering you in his arms as he hugs you tight. His family cheers and hollers in the background, and you sob into his shoulder as you cling to him.
 He easily slides the diamond ring out of the box and onto your finger, where it sits and taunts you. The weight is heavy, and you whimper at the realization that this will never be for you. It will sit atop a pretty modelâs finger sometime soon, when Namjoon resumes his regular life.
 âOh, my darlings, I am so happy for you!â Namjoonâs mother appears and wraps you both in a hug, weeping and kissing cheeks. âWe must discuss planning!â
 Itâs the straw that breaks the camelâs back. The tears and weeping turn to wracking sobs, which quiets the family as they watch you hold your face in your hands.
 âIâm sorry,â you apologize through your grief. âIâI just need a moment.â
 Without another word, you turn from the scene and bolt back towards the bedroom.
 Itâs silent and Namjoonâs heart sinks.Â
 This must be too much for you, too much for you to pretend to love him. He knew it was too much and he should have discussed it with you beforehand.
 âSheâs just a little err--,â Namjoon tries. âEasily emotional. Iâll go check on her.â
 His family understands as Namjoon hurries towards the bedroom and gently opens the door.
 Youâre sitting over your overnight bag, trying to shove any clothing into it you can, while you sob openly.
 âIâm sorry,â he whispers. âI should have told you. I sort of... told my mom Iâd be proposing to my girlfriend.â
 Thereâs pain in your eyes as you snap your head up to look at him. It nearly destroys him.
 âYou should have warned me!â You gasp. âNamjoon, I canât do this.â
 Namjoon lowers his head and shoves his hands into his pockets of his pajama pants.
 âI get it. I know you want to go back to your regular life. I can take you home now.â
 Youâre silent for a moment, standing and moving towards the man.
 âDonât you get it, Namjoon?â
 He raises his head to look at you curiously, brow knitted together with confusion.
 âIâm in love with you, you asshole!â You cry, pushing at his chest. âI canât continue to pretend this is real anymore. I love you, I absolutely love you and I canât go on watching you pretend you love me too. Itâs too much for me to handle.â
 Namjoonâs world freezes in time as he watches you slide the ring off your finger. He grasps your hand to stop you, his eyes boring into your own.
 âI never had to pretend.â
 Before you can speak, Namjoon cups your cheek and pulls you in close, mouth sealing over your own in a desperate kiss.
 You donât fight it, not at all. You sink into his grasp and kiss him back with fervor, with all the pent-up emotions youâve held back all this time.
 âIâm in love with you,â he whispers as he pulls away from the kiss. âI meant every single word I said.â
 More tears stream down your cheeks, and Namjoon is quick to wipe them away with his thumb.
 âI know itâs maybe too soon for us to really be engaged, but IâI want that, with you,â he adds. âI want you to be my girlfriend⌠for real.â
 âAre you being serious right now?â You ask as your hands cling to Namjoonâs waist.
 He canât help but to laugh, nodding in reassurance as he leans down to press his lips to yours in a tender kiss.
 âNever been more serious in my life.â
 âI canât believe youâre mine,â Joon murmurs into the nape of your neck.
 You were supposed to be driving home to your apartment now, back to real life, but the snowstorm raged on and Namjoon decided it might be best to spend yet another night in the cabin. Together. As a couple. A real couple.
 You didnât put up much of a fight.
 Heâs pressing soft kisses into your tender skin as he closes the door to the bedroom.
  âAll mine, all mine.â He chants it like a mantra.Â
 Youâre trying to maneuver your way into the dark bedroom, only guided by the light from the fireplace. Namjoon stops you and pulls away from your neck, eyes soaking in every inch of you.
 âYou have no idea what Iâve been dying to do to you,â he speaks after a moment of appreciating your beauty.
 âHmm, I think I have some idea,â you say, a finger at Namjoonâs chest, directing him towards the bed. âIâve been dying to suck your cock, Joon,â you whisper in his ear as he makes his way backwards. âWill you let me?â
 Namjoon nods in a daze as he sits on the edge of the bed and watches as you kneel. Your eyes are full of hope, full of lust. It makes his cock harden further.
 âPlease do,â he breathes. âIâve wondered what youâd look like with your mouth full of my dick.â
 You smile as you tug at his flannel pajama pants, pulling them down thick thighs and calves until theyâre completely off. Your mouth waters at the sight before you. Namjoonâs cock is thick, head weeping with pre-cum and straining hard against his taut chest. Heâs been working out more, you can tell. His arms are full and strong, and his chest is so firm and defined.Â
 Heâs an entire three-course meal.
 Before you move closer to his cock, Namjoon stops you.
 âTake your shirt off.â
 You comply easily, already settling well into an obedient role. He discards the shirt to the side and marvels at your breasts. He canât wait to mark them up, suck them until youâre crying.
 âPerfect,â he sighs. âYouâre fucking perfect.â
 He allows you to resume your work, eyeing the length of his cock before wrapping a hand around it and gently pumping.
 âShit,â he breathes as his head falls back. âIâve dreamt about how itâd feel having my cock in your hands.â
 âWhat else have you dreamed about?â You ask with a teasing smile, bringing your lips to the tip to paint tiny stripes. He tastes salty, somewhat earthy, and the pre-cum thatâs gathered at the top gets swept up by your tongue.Â
 Namjoon canât believe how lucky he is. Canât believe how incredible it feels to have you here, licking at his cock like a lollipop. Heâs enchanted by the way your delicate tongue swirls around his head, testing and teasing.
 âYou look so good, princess,â he whispers as he tucks stray hair behind your ears.Â
 Youâre encouraged by his sweet-talk and soon descend to take his cock fully in as far as you can go. Youâre definitely out of practice, but you steel yourself up to take him completely to the back of your throat. Namjoonâs desperate moans and cursing only encourages you further.
 Soon enough, youâve started a rhythm of bobbing your head and swirling your tongue and pumping your hand down his thick length. The noises leaving your mouth are sinfulâslurping and sucking and whining around him. Namjoonâs got a hand on the back of your head, holding your hair in a makeshift ponytail and coaxing your bouncing head further down his cock.
 âOh, shit, baby,â he grits through a tight jaw. âIâm gonna cum baby girl, fuuuuckkkâoh god, yes baby, just like that.â
 You slurp and swallow around his cock as much as you can, head bobbing at a frantic pace while you cast your eyes upwards to the man to watch him come apart. He meets your eye contact and loses it at the fire burning in your beautiful eyes.
 âFuck, fuck, fuck,â he gasps as his cock pulses. âCumming, babyâohhhh, shit, take it all, baby.â
 After slowing your pace completely, you sweetly moan around his length as his salty cum splatters on your tongue. Bringing Namjoon to climax with your mouth is already one of your favorite hobbies, and youâre desperate to do it again.
 When heâs completely spent in your mouth, you pop off carefully and present your tongue to your boyfriend, who smiles.
 âYou gonna swallow my cum, baby girl?â He asks, cupping your cheek sweetly.
 You nod in reply, and he groans as he watches you close your mouth and visibly swallow his load.
 âFuck, that was so hot. Fucking kiss me already,â he demands, pulling you up gently by the hand and pressing his mouth to yours. He doesnât care if he can taste himself still lingering in your mouth. In fact, he thinks your mouth should always taste like him.
 Namjoon holds you close as he kisses you, tongue diving around and seeking purchase in your mouth. His hands are roaming your body, cupping your breasts and caressing your curves. He canât get enough. He doesnât think there will come a time in his life when he wonât love touching you.
 His hand smoothes over the satin of your panties and he smirks into the kiss as he feels how wet they are.
 âOh my,â he tuts as he rubs at your clothed slit. âAll this from sucking my cock, princess?â
 Itâs too late to be ashamed of it. You simply nod and whimper as his thick fingers rub at your core. Youâre dying to feel those fingers inside you, scissoring you open to prepare you for his massive cock.
 âP-please,â you gasp, needing more of him. âPlease, Joon.â
 He lets out a breath of contentment, loving the way his name sounds in your breathy moans. In one quick swoop, he flings your panties off and onto the floor and slides down to his knees where you knelt moments before.
 âI want to see this pretty pussy up close,â he murmurs as he lays you out at the edge and spreads open your thighs as wide as he can.Â
 Youâre gorgeous, absolutely mouth-watering. He licks his lips as he watches your folds drip with arousal and takes a delicate finger to trace the slit gently.
 âFuck,â you gasp as he swirls his finger around your sensitive clit. Itâs been so long since someone else has made you orgasm, youâre sure you wonât last a second with the man of your sexual dreams face-first in your cunt.
 âThis is my pussy now,â he states as he leans in close and licks a fat stripe from your hole to your clit. âIâm going to make you cum every fucking night, baby. Gonna claim this cunt as my own.â
 Youâre trembling from his words and his actions as he soon buries his face into your pussy and eats as if heâs a man starved. His tongue swirls around your hole before swiping up to your clit, making your back arch and keen off the bed. His lips wrap around your throbbing clit and sucks gently, lewd noises echoing off the walls of the bedroom.
 âNamjoon!â You squeal as he slides two of his fingers inside you and slowly pumps. Theyâre thick and perfect, and theyâre better than you could have ever dreamed.
 âCum for me, baby,â he coaxes as he licks at your clit. âI know you want to.â
 Heâs right. Youâre desperate for it and the string inside your belly that tightens with each thrust of his solid fingers has it nearing a snapping point.
 Namjoon speeds up, adds a third finger and fucks into you like a man on a mission. He watches your face pinch in agonized delight and is hypnotized by the way your tits bounce with each thrust up. His cock is rock solid again, aching to bury itself deep inside your womb and coat you with his cum.
 âThatâs it, baby girl,â he breathes as he watches your body quiver. âCum on my fingers, let daddy see you fall apart.â
 He presses his lips to your clit one last time and sucks, and it sends you reeling over the edge into bliss. Namjoon moans as he feels your cunt convulse and squeeze his fingers as if theyâre his cock, and he nearly whines at how good itâs going to feel when heâs balls deep inside of you.
 âFuck!â You cry as your back lifts off the bed and your legs shake. âOh, my god!â
 Namjoon kitten licks at your pussy as you come down, cleaning up the juices that coat his fingers. He doesnât break eye contact with you as he does it, sucking up your essence like itâs an expensive wine he wonât waste a drop of.
 âYouâre so fucking sexy,â he says as you try to catch your breath. âI canât wait to fuck you in my office.â
 The smile on your face turns lustful as you spread your legs open once again and present yourself to him.
 âWhy donât we practice right now?â
 Namjoon grips the base of his cock and gives himself a few pumps as he stares at your gorgeous bodyâlaid out and ready for him.
 âMerry Christmas to me,â he murmurs as he presses a kiss to your lips and lines himself up.
 In one swift motion, he slips inside your juicy channel and buries himself to the hilt. Youâre so wet and warm and tight that Namjoon falters and groans out loud.
 âHoly shit,â he cries. âSweetest fucking pussy Iâve ever felt in my life.â
 Namjoon filling you up to the brim is something youâve only ever dreamt of, and now that itâs happening you feel intoxicated. Heâs so thick inside you, stretching you past what you thought you could handle, and the burn is so sweet.
 âFuck me, Joon,â you beg as he continues to still inside you. âPlease, fuck me, daddy.â
 Itâs the magic word for Namjoon and instantly heâs snapped back to feral, ready to claim you as his own. He grips your hips tightly as he pumps in and out of you, delighted by the squelching juicy sounds of your cunt as he takes you.
 âThatâs right, baby girl, Iâm your fucking daddy,â he grunts. âTake this fat cock for daddy.â
 Your legs quiver with each thrust and Namjoon sucks a nipple into his mouth, nibbling gently on the bud which makes your body thrum with electricity. Heâs marking you, claiming you inside and out, you realize. You whine and keen for him to continue, and Namjoon growls as he doubles his pace.Â
 He thrusts into you without abandon, desperately seeking his release that will have him spilling his cum anywhere he possibly can.
 âMmm, look at my pretty princess,â he groans as he stares at your blissed-out face. âTaking daddyâs cock so good, being a perfect little slut.â
 His words make your eyes roll back into your head. Youâd never had someone speak so nasty to you while being so kind and praise-worthy that you donât think you can now ever live without it.
 âG-gonna cum, daddy!â you cry as you feel your body nearing the edge. âPlease let me cum!â
 Namjoon gasps for air and drops a thumb to your clit to rub circles on the sensitive bundle.
 âYes, baby girl, cum for daddy. Cum on my cock, princess.â
 Namjoonâs unrelenting pace and thumb handily stroking your clit brings you to the end, sending you screaming into orgasmic delight.
 Namjoon nearly weeps at how good your cunt feels convulsing around his cock, walls coaxing him and gripping him tight as if your pussy is begging for his own release.Â
 âCum inside me daddy, please,â you beg as you try to catch your breath.Â
 Namjoon needs no more permission. He gasps as your channel tightens around him impossibly and sends him into his own release. He whimpers as his cock pulses with ferocity, loads of cum splattering your walls.
 He doesnât pull out. Instead, he rests his sweaty forehead on yours as you both try to catch your breath.
 âHoly shit,â you gasp as you feel yourself returning to Earth.
 Namjoon laughs and presses a kiss to your lips, before nodding.
 âYeah,â is all he can manage.
 After a few shuddering breaths, you wrap your arms around your boyfriendâs naked body and hold him close, as close as you can.
 âIf this is what Christmas is all about, sign me up.â
 Namjoon buries his face into your neck and kisses you sweetly, before lifting and giving you a playful smile.
 âI guess all Scrooge needed was a good fuck. Dickens got that part all wrong.â
Returning to work after the New Year was easier this year than it had ever been in your career.
 Namjoon was given the promotion. He told Seokjin he wanted to keep his corner office near you because he âlikes the viewâ, and that he would give all his top cases to the best lawyer in the officeâyou.
 Jimin wonât stop screaming when he sees the diamond ring on your finger. You havenât wanted to take it off since the moment you put it on. Maybe itâs not an engagement ring quite yet, maybe itâs just more of a promise. Either way, Jimin is ecstatic and confused as he shakes you down for answers.
 He walks with you to your desk, chattering away about his week with Yoongi, while you sip your convenience store coffee.
 âWhat the fuck?â Jimin asks as he notices something on your desk. âWhat is that?â
 As you round the corner, your eyes catch sight of a gleaming silver contraption on your desk, right next to your brand new computer.
 A Nespresso.
 A smile crosses your lips as you approach the expensive machine and notice a folded up card on top.
 Inside, the card is simple.
 âTo the only girl in the world who deserves a Nespresso. Love, Namjoon.â
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So I'm like... Never a fan of the 'Imma kill my bros for u' kind of scenario especially since I very much love all the turtle bros, so here's my version of an obsessive lover 2012 Mikey!
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Dark!2012!Mikey x Reader
-Michelangelo is the youngest out of the four turtle brothers, so he was easily the most childish and energetic one, much to his older brothers' annoyance.
-He was loud yet small. Just a few inches shorter than you. A social butterfly, but can be oblivious to most things.
-Mikey may not be the smartest turtle, but he does have own way of getting what he wants.
-And he has his eyes dead set on you.
-When he first realised his crush on you, he openly welcomed it with zero resistance. It felt great being in love so why should he deny it?
-He loves expressing himself so there was little to no filter when he's showing you his love.
-"(y/n)~!!!!" Mikey threw his arms around you "I missed you so much!!!!!" He cried in excitement rubbing his cheek on yours.
-You laughed at the youngest turtle and placed your hand on his head "Mikey! I just went for a glass of water!"
-"Yeah! But you took sooooo long so I still missed you!"
-He would be all over you. Wherever you go, Mikey is expected to be following close behind.
-Sometimes without your knowledge.
-Whenever his brothers weren't looking, he would slip by to your apartment to watch you sleep.
-But he did it to make sure you're safe! Don't worry!
-He would always be the first one to tackle you as soon as your foot entered the lair. Then proceed to trap you in a cuddling session with him for hours before anyone could get to you.
-"Oof--!"
-"Dibs on (y/n)!!!!"
-"Ow--Mikey!!" You groaned in protest.
-"No time to talk dudette! Look--" He held up a glowing flower watch "--it's hug time!"
-You squinted your eyes at the familiar looking gadget "Did you force Donnie to make you that hug-watch thing from the Trolls movie?"
-"Maybe~!" Mikey avoided your eyes "So hug time...?"
-Physical contact is his love langauge! Mikey's insides would be all mushy and gushy if you respond to them even the slightest bit. And if you return the favor? This little boy will melt into your arms!
-When you do ask him to let you go, he would just simply say "Nope!" popping the 'p' then proceed to tuck himself below your chin.
-"Awwh come on!!"
-Everytime he feels your soft hands scratching his shell, he immediately starts churring in delight. You thought it was cute, so you'd pat him in the head which made him even more happy!
-He can't help it! Mikey is just obsessed with how soft and plush you feel against his skin! He would definitely glue himself on you if you'd allow him to.
-"You are so squishy~!" Mikey mumbled against your shoulder while hugs you from behind for the nth time today.
-You flicked his forehead earning yourself a small 'ow' "And you are a big baby."
-You didn't mind his clinginess thankfully. It was just Mikey being cute as always. For real how can you resist this baby?
-He's loves it when you give your full attention to him. But if you're talking to someone else, he would just simply have an arm over your shoulders. Silently brooding towards the intruder, giving them a silent warning.
-If the boy isn't hugging you or initiating some kind of physical contact with you, he would be content holding the hem of your shirt or any kind of clothing you own (he may or may not have kept a few in his room that he may or may not have been using as a pillowcase to cuddle). Something that became a norm whenever he's at your apartment and you preparing both of your meals.
-Damn he loves your food! It was then only food he worships other than pizza! He especially loves watching you cook. Like an angel preparing to give him heaven.
-Speaking of Heaven.
-This orange fluff have TONS of pictures of you saved in his phone. If you ever made the mistake of sleeping in the lair, this guy is just snapping pictures of you in every possible angle. Sideways? Upside down? Close up? Bird's eye view? They all made you look perfect!
-His wallpaper is a selfie of you and him enjoying your home made chocolate icecream pizza that you made just for him. Aren't you just the sweetest? He considers that as your first date even though you two aren't official.... yet.
-I mean you made that treat just for him so it must mean that you return his feelings right?
-As time went by, his little crush for you grew into something more.
-You were starting to see his brothers and your other friends a little less and him and little more.
-It was just Mikey. Only Mikey.
-Just the way he likes it
-Everyday you'd wake up and find him cuddled up to you. When you ask him what he's doing he would just look up at you with his innocent baby blue eyes and say "But cupcake! I'm cold and you're suuuuper comfy~!" Cue those puppy dog eyes and you're 100% powerless.
-He would bring you all sorts of goodies like food, favourite drinks, movies, videogames--anything he could carry just for you!
You couldn't say that you didn't like the attention. Mikey is just so sweet especially whenever he brings little trinkets saying "They reminded me of you!" With that adorable freckled smile of his! It just makes you blush every time.
His innocent sweet smile just melts through your heart!
His brothers thought it was weird when he's always out and about after training and patrolling. But hey! The lair is a lot more quiet and Donnie doesn't have to worry about his stuff being broken anymore. Besides they knew you, you were a great friend so they trust you.
After a while you started to miss your friends. Having Mikey around was fun but you wanted to see what the other guys are up to these days.
One day you decided to visit everyone in the lair with pizza and had a great time chatting and playing with the turtle brothers. Oddly enough Mikey wasn't there.
But he was. Mikey was there. Hidden in the dark corners of the lair. Not even his brothers noticed him. His smile was gone. His eyes were dark as he kept himself one with the shadows, silent as a ghost.
He didn't like the way you were smiling with other people. Of course he was fine with letting you talk to his brothers sometimes, but still there were some boundaries to be made.
"Mine..." Michelangelo silently growls.
Although he doesn't favor this image of you with other people, he does take pride in the way your eyes would flicker to his bedroom door every now and then. Good. Very good.
Finally it was time for you to go. He immediately left. Time to take action.
When you got home you saw your favorite orange turtle curled up on the floor sobbing. Your heartached at the sight of the big crocodile tears falling from his face.
-You dropped down on your knees and asked him what was wrong.
-"I was waiting for you here all day b-but you didn't come home... you left me.." He cried miserably "I-I understand... if you don't want to h-hang out with me anymore... no one really wants to. I p-promise won't bother you anymore.." Mikey sniffed then left before you can get a word out.
-That was three days ago and you haven't seen Mikey since. He stopped visiting, stopped replying to your calls or texts. He was just gone.
-You realized just how much you loved having the small orange ninja around. Your home became cold and lonely. You started to miss him terribly.
-You went back to the lair, ignoring the others as you went straight for Mikey's room and knocked on his door.
-Mikey opened the door for just a crack. His eyes were red from crying. He looked absolutely miserable, but you pushed the door open and pulled him into a hug.
-You apologized to Mikey. You told him that it wasn't your intention to make him sad or feel neglected. That you loved having him around you.
-Mikey hugged you back of course. He closed his bedroom door to give you both privacy while you continued to hold him tight.
-He nuzzled his snout on your chest and told you he missed you too.
-Your soul ached when his shoulders started to shake. You placed your cheek on his head with your hand on his shell to calm your crying turtle.
-Except he wasn't.
-Mikey's smile was as wide as it could ever be. His eyes held a victorious sinister glow as he felt his entire body shake from excitement when he as in your addicting scent.
-Mikey was a good liar.
-He didn't mean to make you this sad. But he had to in order to make you come to him.
-And believe me when I say those three days of not seeing you was torture to him. Sure he had a folder full of your pictures saved on his phone (and his cuddle pillow) but it just can't compare to the real thing.
-But it was worth it though.
-He already had you right where he wanted you. He just needs to give you a little more push for you to confess your love for him and you two will be happy together forever!
-He knew he couldn't keep you to himself. You would surely retaliate if he forces you.
-But that doesn't mean he can't push you into making you claim him as yours instead.
-Oh how it feels so good to be in your love and care again!
-Mikey started churring as he pulled you even closer.
-Yeah Mikey definitely wasn't the smartest.
-But he's definitely the most cunning.
-And he would do anything to have you.
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Kakashi Relationship Headcanons
Guess whoâs back with another relationship headcanon today? And as usual, I had a good time writing this one even got slightly carried away, hehe. Enjoy! XX.Â
Wellâ Hatake Kakashi, huh? Dating him would be such a roller coaster ride, tbh. Itâs like, one moment heâs so clingy, fragile, so afraid of losing youâ but one moment heâs like, âJust do what you need to do. I donât really care.â This is due to the fact that heâs got a lot of things in his mind and occasionally struggled to sort out his priorities.Â
Anyway, of course youâve complained about his âreading-smut-in-publicâ issue, especially when youâre together. You two would come up with an agreement somehow. But to piss you off, heâd pretend like youâre the one whoâs obsessed with reading smuts.
Youâre browsing for some important books and he playfully yelled, âY/N! Come here, itâs your favorite bookâ Icha Icha Tactics! My, I know youâve had four books, but another one wonât hurt, right? Since you love it that much!â making everyone in the bookstore giggled.
He received âY/N Signature Punchâ that day.
To your surprise, heâs not very secretive about his relationship with you. In fact, youâve caught him frequently use you as an excuse for him to escape some unwanted occasions.
Letâs say Gai was asking Kakashi to fight him like usualâ and he wasnât having it that day. âGai, with all respectâ I would gladly accept your challenge. But canât you feel the springtime of romance youth is blooming? I must see Y/N immediately.â
Gaiâs tearing up.
Donât worry, he actually went to your place.
âYo. Can we hang out? I just told Gai that I would come to your place. Please say âyesâ to make me less of a jerk, will you?â
Would totally show up in front of your place at an ungodly hour.
At first it surprised you but now youâre used to it.
You just finished your mission, it went pretty well but you felt there were some wasted chances due to your captainâs miscalculation. Itâs nearly 2 AM but you caught yourself wide awake, reviewing back your battleâ only to got distracted by a knock on your bedroomâs window. Instead of turning your head in surprise, you already knew who it was. To have a little fun for yourself, you ignored the sound, which was later followed by a second knock. Walking over to the window, you saw a silver-haired man with a mask. Although half of his face was covered, itâs obvious that a smile was apparent. âYo.â he greeted, but you replied with a sigh. âYou could actually knock on the door and Iâd let you in through the door. Itâs something normal people would do, Kakashi.â you grumbled, opening the window for him to get in. âAh, spare me the lecture!â
So, reverse psychology works best for Kakashi. Like the Icha Icha Tacticsâ the more you ignore his behavior, he would actually try not to read his book in public like you told him to. But the more you complain, heâd read it in places where he shouldnât be reading it at all. This method works in almost every cases.
Youâve been dating for weeks, but you havenât seen his face.
Yes, when kissing, too.
Youâve had enough of kissing fabric.Â
You had planned to make a dinner together at his place. He was preparing the dishes and youâre about to finish your cooking, when he suddenly asked, âHey, Y/N. Have you ever wondered what would I look like under this mask?â You were dying to know actually. So, now youâre stuck with two options: (a) be honest about it, (b) pull out another reverse psychological answerâ and you chose the latter. âHuh? Not really,â you shrugged, âI donât really care so itâs not like Iâm eager to see it.â and of course, this was a lie. Kakashi went silent for a while. âAnyway, dinnerâs reââ you swore you couldâve dropped the whole pan when you saw an unfamiliar presence. âKakashi?â you asked hesitantly. The man looked up with a questioning look, âWhy are you blushing?â he replied casually.
âANYONE WITH A DECENT EYESIGHT WOULD BLUSH TOO, YOU STUPID.â
Heâs honestly so heavenly to look at.
Sometimes itâs just too overwhelming to see his whole face, you thought.
Itâs safe to say that itâs a privilege to be able to see his face. But due to his immense charm, youâd prefer to have him with a mask on.
âY/N, I feel naked without my maskââ , âAnd I honestly feel like Iâm being forced to see an illicit nudity, too. Put your mask on, itâs fine honestly.â
Heâs been very good at his job for almost his whole life, a fine shinobi. So, heâs rarely exposed to mundane things, moreover a relationship. Thus, making him quite restrained in expressing himself. Plus, he was labelled with some negative titles, saying how cold-blooded he was and he just decided to live with it. This, obviously, requires a lot of patience.
But heâs determined to change, the first step he took was letting you inâ into his life.
It started rocky, though.
Heâd say something like how he didnât care much about you and sadly, he really didnât.
But as the time went by he realized how your presence has been the one that helped him through it. How youâve always been there to comfort him, by listening to him, giving him a lot of supports, or simply by reminding him that heâs not completely alone.
And when that moment came, heâs sworn to protect you with all his might.
He had a lot of nightmares, he still does, unfortunately. But when youâre around, your presence eases him up a little.
When youâre not around, however, heâd rather spend all night unhealthily tiring himself until he fall asleep.
His personal favorite would be curling up next to you with his hand around your waist while hiding his face near the crook of your neck as heâs giving you some soft neck kisses.
Again, NECK KISSES.
He had a hard time trying to open up himself fully to you and this applies to romantic gestures, I believe. He surely would take his time to explore you, what you like, and what he likes.
Would shower you with kisses, all over your face without missing a spot. He greatly admires every inches of yourself.Â
Body worship, oof.
Lowkey (semi highkey) protective.
Lowkey (semi highkey) a show-off.
Would straight up jump to save you if itâs necessary.
And since heâs a show-off, he lowkey loves PDAâ but the soft ones, of course. You two would always get spotted together. He would casually sling his arm around your shoulder or lazily has his hand wrapped around your waist.
Favorite time to spend with you is training together. No matter how many times youâve told him to âfight with an intent to winâ he simply refusesâ saying how, heâs âfar too powerfulâ for you.
But deep down he just doesnât want to hurt youâŚ
Chatting in the middle of a training
âTsunade-sama hasnât assigned me any missions lately *throws kunai*â , âMaybe if you threw your kunai accurately, she will. *dodge kunai*â , âKakashi, shut your pretty mouth up. *throws MORE kunai aggressively*â
When you turned him down while he was showing off his new tricks, though, it weirdly turned him on.
He loves someone powerful, with a right amount of cocky.
Doesnât talk big. Heâs a man of actionâ his action speaks louder than words!
Doesnât spoil you that much, though. Because itâs actually him who needs to be spoiled.
Really loves it when you trace your fingers all over his skinâ itâs intimately soft, he claimed.
LOVES YOUR SCENT. Has it memorized probably.
Heâd prefer someone independent. Someone who could actually take care of themselves instead of relying on him completely.Â
Anyone too childish would remind him of Team 7, tbh.
Speaking of Team 7, they would probably be the one to get introduced to you.
Naruto was so shocked to find out that his sensei was capable to develop a romantic feeling towards someone. But he had his doubtâ do you really know Kakashi? He started to bombard you with questions to test your knowledge.
âSo, do you know whatâs Kakashi Senseiâs favoriteââ , âIâve seen his face. Multiple times.â , âYOU WHAT?â
Complained and sulked about it, âKakashi Sensei, weâve trained together for years. How could you?!â
Sakura was confused.
âHow? I know heâs probably very handsome under that mask but come on, Y/N, reading smut in public? Thatâs an absolute no.â
On the contrary, Sasuke was thrilled, internally.
âYeah. Finally. Old man has someone to annoy besides us. About time.â
He has a pretty bad behavior, too. Unlike Gaara, whoâd put an emotionless facade when heâs only in the Kazekage mode, Kakashi would treat you just how he feels like doing it that day.Â
Letâs be real, he has so many bottled up feelings inside his heart so itâs not a surprise that someday, somehow, a random painful emotion just hit himâ hard, and he shut himself out.
The hospital is the place you immediately visit right after Kakashiâs arrival after a mission because you know heâd be thereâ reading his book with a few bruises here and there. But this time was a bit different. When heâs hospitalized, he would whine about you not being able to stay more than an hourâ but right now youâre puzzled, since heâs been completely silent and avoiding you, answering your questions with a mere shrugs.
Tsunade told you that the mission went pretty well, thanks to Kakashi for eliminating all the enemies on the field, singlehandedly. You automatically knew that it must brought up his past traumas. âKakashi, itâs not your fault.â you decided to speak, earning a glance from Kakashi, but thatâs it. âItâs a mission and you protected all of your comrades!â
âI killed them, Y/N. I didnât have to, but I did.â he said, with his eyes still glued elsewhere. âEvery time I look at my hands, I feel dirty. It reminded me of thatââ, âKakashi, look at me.â
You moved closer to his bed, reaching out your hand and traced your fingers softly on his face. His cheeks were cold, and you could clearly see how he was slightly trembling with teary eyes. âKakashi, if you didnât do itâ it couldâve been your own comrades. Now theyâre safe and sound, thanks to you.â, you paused as he slowly began to move his sight to you. âAnd if I could meet you way sooner, I would remind you every day that itâs never your faultâ itâs never been. Youâre a good person, Kakashi. I, and all of us, are forever thankful for the things youâve done.â you whispered, now wiping a few tears that fell down to his cheeks. A weak smile started to bloom, âIâm forever thankful for you as well, Y/N.â
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okay so we all love dad dumo and he's an incredible parent but even dumo isn't perfect. Could we maybe have dumo snapping at logan (or sirius, if it strikes your fancy, but i love dumo+logan dynamics) and then apologizing for it like a parent actually f*cking should
Oof, yes. Combined with asks for Sirius and Logan bonding, as well as some pre-Cap and James. SW credit goes to @lumosinlove!
TW for parental figure disappointment
The car rumbled. Dumoâs hands squeaked on the wheel as he flexed his fingers. Logan felt like he was going to throw up.
Can we turn around real quick? No, too vague. Can we go home so I can use the bathroom? No, heâll say I can wait another ten minutes. I forgot my phone at home? No, he saw me put it in my pocket. Logan ran through every possible way of asking to go back to the Dumais house without giving away his dilemma; with each scenario, they grew further from where he needed to be.
âHey, Dumo?â he began quietly, swallowing around his dry mouth. What was it his father always said? Honesty is the best policy. âWe need to go back to your house for a moment.â
âWeâre already running late,â Dumo said, not even sparing him a glance in the rearview mirror. The traffic around them was a mess. âIf we go back, weâll miss the first part of warmups.â
âI know, but itâs kind of important.â
âSo is the game. If itâs your wallet, you donât need it rightââ
âI left my skates by the front door.â
Dead silence filled the car as Dumo slowed to a stop at the fourth red light. Loganâs heart sank and his stomach crawled into his throat. âWhat?â
âI left my skates by the front door,â he repeated, staring at his hands. âIâm sorry, I wasnât thinkingââ
âTabernak, Logan!â Dumo snapped. He felt something inside him wither and die. âFirst the nap, then forgetting to wash your jersey, and now you left your fucking skates behind? Whatâs going on in your head? You are an adult now with responsibilities, and itâs your job to keep track of your shit.â
âI know,â Logan said quietly.
Dumo huffed. âClearly you donât! Do you just not care? Is that it?â
âI care.â
âThis isnât a college team, Logan.â Dumoâs accent grew harsh around his name. It had been a bad day for himâAdele came down with a nasty cold just after Celeste left to visit her parents for the weekend, and there was always an added pressure with home games. Logan knew that, and he knew he should have been paying better attention.
âI know.â
Dumo muttered a curse under his breath and pulled onto a side road, then swore again when his duffle bag slid in the passenger seat. Logan closed his eyes; there was no way they would make it all the way to the house and back to the rink in time for pre-game rituals. Damn it, Tremblay. What were you thinking?
They drove the rest of the way in silence. Dumo parked the car with a quiet âgoâ, and Logan hurried inside with a slight nod to the babysitter as he grabbed his skates before slinking back to the car with his head hung low.
âIâm really disappointed in you,â Dumo said when they reached the freeway again.
âIâm sorry.â
He received no response.
They won the game despite skipping all their superstitions, no thanks to Logan. He played like shit; Arthur barely gave him four shifts the whole night. Finn shot him a concerned look as he rinsed off and slipped back into his street clothes, but Logan didnât have the energy to confront both his best friend and the upsetting feelings connected to the aforementioned best-friend-slash-secret-crush. If he tried, heâd certainly end up doing something stupid.
He packed his things, slung his bag over his shoulder, and followed Dumo out to the car like a stray dog with his tail between his legs. âI really amââ
âI donât want to hear it,â Dumo interrupted as they pulled out of the parking lot. Logan pressed his lips together. âAre you hungry?â
Starving. âKinda.â
âIâll heat up some leftover lasagna when we get back to the house. Will you pay the babysitter and make sure the kids are in bed?â
âSure.â
âThank you.â
Logan ground his teeth around the steady ache building in his chestâhe hated disappointing people in general, but it was a whole different story with Dumo. He was his second father, the person Logan admired most on the team. He gave him a home and a substitute family to ease the homesickness, and was always there to cheer him on. And Logan let him down.
They went through their nightly routine silently, which was a sharp contrast to their usual banter. Marc and Louis refused to go to bed at first, nearly bringing Logan to tears in his frustration, but he eventually got them settled down and tucked in. By some miracle, both the girls were already asleep.
âIâm going to call Celeste,â Dumo finally said as Logan unloaded the dishwasher. He nodded without a word, not trusting his voice.
As soon as the dishwasher was full and running, Logan took his phone out and dialed the only person he wanted to hear from. It rang twice before connecting. âHello?â
âHey.â His voice cracked and he cleared his throat. âHey, Cap, whatâs up?â
âNot much.â Sirius sounded confused, and more than a little tired. âĂa va?â
Loganâs eyes burned. âNot bad. Do you have a minute?â
There was a rustling noise from the other end, followed by the clink of keys. âYouâre at Dumoâs, right?â
âOui.â
âIâll be there in ten.â
âThanks,â he managed around his tight throat. âSee you soon.â
Hushed voices came from the living room and Logan padded down the hall, knocking gently on the doorframe. Dumo looked up and furrowed his brow. âUn moment, mon amour. Are you alright?â
âSirius is coming by in ten. Weâre going to hang out for a bit, if thatâs okay.â
âTell him I say hello.â Without another word, Dumo uncovered the base of his phone and returned to his conversation. Logan nodded and headed back out into the hall, swallowing down the tears forming behind his eyes.
Ten minutes turned out to be seven minutesâLogan was simultaneously flattered and concernedâand a soft knock startled him out of his thoughts. Sirius already looked worried when the front door swung open. âWhat happened? Is everyone okay? Did something happen to Celeste?â
âSheâs fine. Dumo says hi.â And heâs horribly disappointed in me. Logan took several deep breaths through his nose to control the tremor in his voice and Sirius gave him a worried once-over. âCan we drive around for a bit?â
âOf course.â
For all of his bluster and general brooding vibe, Sirius continued to be the king of empathy and (in Loganâs opinion) a secret mind-reader. The second his arm draped across Loganâs shoulders and held him close as they walked down the sidewalk, he felt some of the pressure in his chest release. âSorry about the late call,â he sniffled. It was a cold nightâthe snot threatening to drip from his nose was frigid already. âI justâI needed to get out for a minute.â
âĂ tout moment.â Any time. Logan didnât feel deserving of that kindness after the mess he had been on the ice. The heaters kicked on as soon as Sirius started the car and Logan closed his eyes, leaning back into the warm seat. âCan you tell me what happened?â
âItâs so stupid.â
âDoesnât sound like it.â
Logan took a moment to breathe before shaking his head. âI forgot my skates. We were already running late, and I forgot my fucking skates at the house.â
Sirius hummed, but said nothing.
âItâsâDumo has been having such a horrible day.â Tears clogged his throat again. âAnd I took a nap earlier because I stayed up late last night like an idiot, and Adeleâs sick so he had all the kids and no help while he was trying to get ready, and then I overslept so it was already going to be rushed and forgot to clean my jersey and thenâand then I forgot my skates. God, Iâm so stupid.â
âDonât say that.â
âItâs true.â
âItâs not.â Logan wanted to kick him for being so infuriatingly patient. Sirius glanced at him out of the corner of his eye. âThatâs not why youâre upset, though.â
âHeâsââ Logan broke off and swiped the first tear away with his sweatshirt cuff. âHe said he was disappointed in me.â
âAh.â
âItâs such a stupid thing to be upset about.â
Sirius sighed through his nose and pulled into the parking lot of a 24-hour Taco Bell, then turned off the car and faced Logan with one eyebrow raised. âStop doing that.â
âDoing what?â
âBelittling yourself.â
âOkay, Heather,â Logan snorted. Sirius reached over and flicked him on the forehead. âHey!â
âYou forgot your skates. Big deal. Weâve all been there.â
Logan shot him a glare. âYouâve never forgotten your skates.â
âYes, I have. My very first game with the Lions, actually. Except I didnât realize it until we were already at the rink.â
âDid Dumo drive you back?â
âThe whole damn way. He was mad as hell, but he did it.â Siriusâ face softened, and he poked Logan gently on the thigh. âStop kicking yourself for this one. It sounds like it was a bad day for you both.â
âI still feel like shit.â
Sirius shrugged. âI bet. Disappointing Dumo is the worst feeling ever.â
âHe wouldnât even let me apologize.â
âHe will.â
They sat in silence for a full minute as Logan tried to find the right words. âHow did you deal with it? Letting people down. It feels like Iâm drowning, sometimes.â
âReally, really poorly,â Sirius half-laughed, crossing his ankle over his knee. âIt wasnât until I was named captain that I started accepting that people werenât lying when they forgave me for fucking up.â
âWhy?â
âBelieve it or not, the people I was around as a kid didnât make a habit of apologizing to me when they did something wrong.â
Logan looked up from the faded letters on his sweatshirt sleeve and sniffled. âThanks for bringing me out here.â
âPas de problem. I figured you could use some company outside the house.â
âYouâre the best.â
âI try.â
âYou succeed.â Youâre like a brother to me, actually. âIs this what James did for you?â
âNo,â Sirius laughed. Affection took over his face, bright even in the dim light from the streetlamps. âNo, he snuck me onto the roof of the rink with massive amounts of junk food and stayed with me until the imposter syndrome faded. It was fantastic, but we nearly got hypothermia several times in the winter. This is much more comfortable.â
âThanks for helping me keep all my fingers and toes,â Logan said wryly. He lapsed back into silence and folded his forearms on the dashboard, sighing at the pleasant stretch of his back. âI know I have to go back eventually, but Iâm scared.â
âHonestly, Logan, I bet heâs already forgiven you. He knows it was an accident.â
âBut what if he doesnât?â The words came out as little more than a whisper. Siriusâ hand rested hesitantly between his shoulder blades until Logan leaned back into it, then began rubbing gentle circles.
âHe does,â Sirius said softly. âAnd he loves you so much.â
Logan sniffed back more tears. âReally?â
âOuais. Youâve been living with him for nine months now, and heâs so proud of how far youâve come.â
âHow do you know?â
âBecause he told me. Last week, after your hat trick. People fuck up, Logan, but that doesnât mean theyâre unforgivable. You donât need to flay yourself for one bad day.â
Logan shut his eyes with a slow exhale and buried his face in his forearms. âI think Iâm ready to go back now.â
âAre you sure?â
âYeah.â
âDâaccord. Buckle your seatbelt.â
He straightened up and stretched, wincing at the crack of his back. Sirius drove out of the parking lot and hummed under his breath to the radio, but Logan didnât miss the careful glances out of the corner of his eye. âYou donât need to worry about me,â he finally said. âIâll be okay.â
âI know,â Sirius said casually, though he looked like he was holding something back. Logan didnât press; Sirius would talk in his own time if he wanted to. He opened his mouth, paused, then sighed. âBut I do worry about you.â
âWhy?â
âBecause.â
Thank you, Captain Black, for the most media answer of all time. âYou really donât have to.â
Sirius parked the car and leaned his head back against the seat. âYouâre my friend, and I care about you, so I worry.â
Logan blinked at him. âYou care about me?â
âObviously,â Sirius muttered. Even in the darkness of the street, his cheeks were pink. âNow go on, you've got someone waiting for you.â
âI care about you, too.â
âOut of my car, Tremblay.â Despite his words, a smile quirked at the corner of Siriusâ mouth. Logan socked him lightly on the arm and opened the door, shivering in the night air as it bit through his hoodie.
âDrive safe, Cap.â
âI will.â
The walk to the front door felt less like a trip to the gallows and more like coming home; Logan felt his muscles relax, and saw the curtains shift as someone moved away from the window. Dumo opened the door before he could even knock.
âIâm sorry,â they said in unison. Logan raised his eyebrows and Dumo opened the door the rest of the way, ushering him inside.
The moment the door closed behind him, Dumo wrapped him in a hug. âIâm so sorry for what I said earlier, Logan. You made a mistake, and I shouldnât have come down hard on you.â
âIâm sorry I made us late,â Logan said into his soft shirt. âAnd for not helping earlier. It wonât happen again.â
âAll is forgiven.â Dumo patted him on the back of the shoulder and held him at armâs length with a sad smile. âI should have kept a better handle on my temper. You donât deserve to be spoken to like that.â
Logan bit back the urge to say itâs okay or I deserved it and instead pulled him in for another hug. âThank you for everything youâve done for me. I didnât realize how much youâve helped me until today.â
Dumo made a quiet sound and held him tighter. âItâs a gift to have you here.â
Logan squeezed his eyes shut as a wave of emotion rolled in his heart. âThere is nowhere I would rather be,â he whispered. They stayed like that for a long moment, swaying slightly, before Dumo stepped back.
âGet some rest. We have early practice tomorrow.â He mussed Loganâs hair and gave him a nudge toward the stairs. âBonne nuit, mon fils.â
Mon fils. Loganâs breath caught for a second and he smiled. âBonne nuit.â
#logan tremblay#sirius black#pascal dumais#finn o'hara#james potter#sweater weather#lumosinlove#my fic#fanfic#hurt/ comfort#cap and logan bonding#dad dumo
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AYUMIE PLS FIND YOU IN OUR DREAMS IS SUCH A MASTERPIECE OMG 𼺠YOUR TALENT IS OVERFLOWING đŠâźď¸ also can i request h from soulmate alphabet + jake from enha? i think it'd be such a concept + with your top-tier writing... I AM CRAVING SIM JAEYUN CUDDLES AND YOUR TALENTED WRITING, I WILL DO ANYTHING đłđĽ
hearts beating together.
gn!reader Ă jake soulmate!au, fluff, friends to lovers, mentions of itzy's ryujin, itzyâs yuna, stray kid's jeongin, nctâs chenle
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aaaah thanks so much for liking it you flatter me too much oml <33 this was such a fun request i hope you like it!!!
send in a letter + an idol/character and i'll write a little about it! my request guidelines are on the link in my bio
warning(s): swearing, mentions of food, petnames used platonically(?)
h...eartbeats (the soulmates share the same heartbeatâwhen one feels panicked, shocked, tired, etc, the other can feel it too).
your heart confuses you. it races when you relax, slows in the worst of times. a heartbeat bond is strange and uncomfortable at times, but the rush of excitement you feel when your heartbeat changes is incomparable to any other feeling. but of course, it has its downsides.
"...left leg on the ground, right leg bent, stretch out those muscles," of course your soulmate is getting into a stressful situation just as you're trying to relax. you press pause on the yoga video and flop onto your bed. youâre so excited to meet your soulmate, but the way theyâve messed your plans up so many times, youâre looking forward to giving them a good punch too. you focus on the ba-dump, ba-dump of your heart, like it could somehow lead you to the person behind it. huffing out a sigh, you pull out your phone, shooting off a text to your groupchat with your friends
RYUJINâS HOES
sent: are any of you free? my heart personâs being an asshole so i may as well go out
delivered, jeongin: well shit sucks to be you iâm at work with my SOULMATE
sent: fuck right off
sent: ryujin jake chenle please
delivered, ryujin: iâm omw to practice but you can come?
delivered, ryujin: i know you have swim after just hang out till then
sent: YES THANK YOU BABE this is why iâm only ryujins hoe smh
âget in loser!â ryujin is pulled up in front of your door, watching you scramble to not drop your bags. you run down the driveway, waving goodbye to your parents as you slide into the passenger seat.
âgod youâre such a lifesaver, whoeverâs attached to my heart has it out for meâ she chuckles, completely used to your rants about your soulmate. she hasnât found hers either, but her soulmate has a much less intensive schedule, so sheâs not very bothered by her bond, although, the pink-haired girl next to you is an athlete, so her soulmate is probably just as aggravated as you.
the ride to the school is short, and you find a parking spot quickly, so youâre out on the football field in no time. ryujinâs teammates are already on the grass, adjusting uniforms and stretching. she joins them quickly, changing inside and running out. you take a seat on the benches lining the field, settling in to watch them play. your heart is still pounding, but watching the others play, you donât notice it as much.
the boyâs team is playing one field over, so you can watch them as well. familiar faces dot that field too, and because they let out before the girls, you get to talk to them while waiting. chenle and jake plop down next to you, teasing you about your obviously heaving chest.
âyou all worked up watching the games?â chenle nudges you from his side, the feeling of his sweaty shoulder making you shudder. âas if. my soulmates running a marathon or something, like they like to do every day,â jake twists his face in sympathy, "well you've got practice in a bit right? give them a taste of their own medicine!"
"yeah, you know what? i will! thank you jake, for being a good friend," you speak pointedly, gesturing towards chenle. pushing yourself up off the bench, you walk towards the changing rooms near the pool, yelling out a goodbye to your friends.
changing quickly, your walked out to the pool, greeting your teammates with a smile. time for some payback. tugging on your fins, you dove into the water, relishing the instant comfort it gave. following your coachâs orders, you, along with the rest of the swim team, start swimming laps around the pool. half an hour in, your heart is pumping, and the fact that you were the cause for it makes it so much more sweet. friends have begun to line the sides of the pool, yelling out encouragements and teases. you can easily spot the soulmates of the people swimming with you, their chests heaving, but big smiles on their faces. ryujin, chenle and jake are sat near your lane at the leftmost side of the pool. the three of them, still sweaty and tired from their practice, watch you swim, happy grins on their faces. an hour or so later, you are doing a few mock races, and jeongin has joined them too, his usually teasing visage now smiling with pride. you streak through the water, enjoying the burn in your arms, feeling the exhaustion through your bones in a way that swimming only gives you. you reach for the edge of the pool, and itâs coming closer, closer, until you feel it, slippery on your soaked skin. your friends jump up, yelling out in excitement, filling your heart to the absolute brim.
âalright y/n, good job! you can go change, see you next time,â your coach calls out to you, signalling for you to climb out of the water. your friends swarm you, words of happiness and congratulations surrounding you.
âyou did good, fucker,â ryujin ruffles your hair. ânow go shower and cool down so you can do that in the actual races,â chest heaving, you flash a huge grin at them, âbe right back! iâll meet you in the parking lot!â they nod their assent, and you begin to walk to the showers, barely catching chenle say something.
âjake, are you really still tired from football? youâve been panting for ages.â
hours later, you find yourselves in your usual post-practice spot, the local diner near the school. chatting and laughing, you lose track of time around the point when your fries arrive. jeongin regales you all with stories of the crazy customers he dealt with at work, and ryujin gives you the rundown of all the drama that happened in her football practice(seriously, how do they even have time to kick the ball around when so much is going on??). you get that heady feeling of pure happiness, when youâre not thinking or worrying about anything, just paying attention to the amazing people you get to surround yourself with.
you only snap out of that headspace when chenle looks down at his smartwatch(rich boy) and lets out a noise of surprise.
âitâs 19:42! i need to go, fuck,â he begins to clean up his stuff and lays down money for his meal. the rest of you follow suit, appalled at how long youâve been sitting in this booth. all the money is on the table, and you rise from your seat, ready to go home.
âryujin, can you drive me home?â you hold the girl's arm, pleading with her so that you wonât have to walk. she opens her mouth, ready to speak, but then she hesitates, a look of mischief crossing her features.
âokay-â you rejoice, pumping a fist in the air, until she goes on: âonly if you can beat me to the car. okay 3,2,1 GO!â she starts sprinting, long legs bringing her halfway across the parking lot in no time. you let out a groan of exhaustion, and start pumping your legs to follow her.
by some miracle, you reach the car at virtually the same time, doubling over to hold your knees in your worn-out state. ryujin, in between her attempts at gulping down air, tells you sheâll take you, and you wait for the rest to reach you.
jeongin, chenle and jake walk leisurely up to you, starting to say their farewells. you straighten up, grabbing first chenle, then jeongin into a hug. they yell out some more goodbyes as they walk off to their cars, when you hug jake.
for having just walked here, his heart is racing. why? you focus your hearing on his heartbeat. itâs almost as if he sprinted here. pulling your head away from him, you look up at him, voicing your concerns.
âare you okay? your heartâs beating really fast.â he frowns at you, and presses a hand to his heart. you follow suit, feeling the thump, thump, thump of his chest. it feels familiar. why do you feel so used to this heartbeat? confusion ripples through your mind, until it clears, with a feeling of shock. you know this heartbeat. you know it because itâs your own.
grabbing his other hand, you place it over your heart. his face twists with surprise, and then an emotion youâre not familiar with crosses his features. he pulls you back into a hug, excitement so evident that itâs crossing over to you. jake is your soulmate! which a choked laugh, you pull him impossibly closer to you. he tucks his head next to yours and whispers in your ear.
âit was always you, wasnât it?â
bonus:
you pull back from the hug, your smile dropping into a serious face. he looks in confusion, as you rear your arm backwards. you push forward, landing a punch in his gut, and he stumbles backward with an âoofâ
âthat was for never letting me rest!â
âYEAH GET HIM!â ryujin yells from her seat in the car. the only thing sheâs missing is popcorn, a whole-ass soap opera just happened in front of her.
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a/n: this is my submission for @antoineroussel 's summer fic exchange 2k21! thank you for organizing this all demi. i recieved @timstuetzle and i am so excited to finally share this! im sorry it's so late but i had a lot of fun writing for Tim and i hope i did him justice! i made this a gender neutral reader again, so please enjoy my take on some friends to enemies to lovers :)
pairing: tim stĂźtzle x reader
word count: 18k+ (holey moley)
warnings: some angst, set in no covid-universe, a few swears, an odd timeline
disclaimer: this is a work of fiction and real person fiction if you donât like that, please donât read! the banner is made by me, with photos found from pinterest and the transparent made by @art-and-the-hockeys (thank you!!!)
The start of the season was your favourite. The chill of the rink, the sound of skate edges on the ice, the smell of skate sharpening- it was all so familiar. As an analyst, the start was the best. There were new lineups, new plays, and a chance to try new things. Considering this was your first year as a real analyst, not just checking over others' work, you were excited. You got to actually help to build a Stanley Cup winning team.
What you didnât love was how everyone seemed to lose their heads and decide to run around the arena. Youâd been looking for the coach of the Ottawa Senators for the past twenty minutes. Youâd think the man would be in his office the first day back, but no. He decides to take a stroll to who-knows-where and leaves you to follow invisible breadcrumbs.
Eventually, you found yourself on one of the lower levels. You continued down the hallway, entering an open space with concrete floors. The bustle of the new season was in full swing as you swerved between various people working like gears in a machine. You tried to do your best to stay out of other peopleâs way but you still ended up walking into a hard surface.
âOof!â Shit. Hard surfaces donât usually talk. You looked up at what you ran into and saw two men staring at you. Both were wearing Senators hoodies but one was a taller blond and the other a slightly shorter brunet. The brunet has a backwards snapback on but that wasn't what made you stop in your tracks. It was his eyes. They were soft and welcoming, something like a home cooked meal, but they had a glint of adventure in them.
âOh my gosh, I am so sorry! I wasnât really looking where I was going. I am so sorry.â You apologized to the blond you ran into.
âHey, all good. Iâm-â
âNumber 7.â You turned toward the brunet. âAnd...number 18, right?â When they both gave you a weird look, you shrugged. âIâm an analyst here so, uh, youâre just numbers to me.â
âOkay, ouch but you are the reason weâre going to be winning more games this season, so I'll give it to you. Iâm Brady, and this is Jimmy.â The blond gestured to himself first, before gesturing beside him.
âItâs Tim, actually.â
You introduced yourself to the two players, before looking around the hallways. âUm, would either of you happen to know where the coach is? I canât find him,â You held up the file folders in your hands. âIâve got new numbers for him.â
âOh yeah heâs probably close to the ice, weâll show you.â Brady started down a hallway, both you and Tim falling in stride behind him. âSo Numbers-â
â-Y/n-â You glared at Brady for the nickname, rolling your eyes as he continued on. From your peripheral vision, you saw the corners of Tim's mouth turn up.
â-If you donât mind me sayingâŚ.either you look really good for your age, or you arenât old enough to be working here,â He continued, giving a glance your way.
You looked down at your shoes and gave a sigh. âI get that a lot, and I am young-er than my colleagues but I assure you, I am qualified to work for this organization.â
âWasnât doubting that, just seeing how much I get to tease ya. Jimmyâs the rookie,â He elbowed him and Tim tried to swerve around it, only to bump into a stack of pylons. Brady and you shared a grin at his expense. âSo he gets all the teasing. Same for the numbers people. Youâre the rookie.â He shrugged
âWell, Iâm not actually a rookie anymore. This is my second year here,â You mentioned, looking towards the two guys. Brady looked impressed whereas Timâs eyes went large and his jaw slack a little.
âHow?â He asked, and you laughed. The three of you turned a corner, and you walked slightly faster to talk.
âI graduated high school pretty early. And then took my statistics undergrad at the University of Ottawa. I minored in sports studies and I met your GM at a conference for the department. When he found out I was in Ottawa alone, he kinda took me under his wing, checked in every now and again. When I graduated two years ago, he offered me an analyst position and I was lucky enough to land it. I love working here, even if Iâm way younger than everyone else. Last year, I stayed in my office a lot, double checking peopleâs work but this year, they gave me more responsibility. Iâm excited for the challenge.â
âYou are going to be great.â Tim said, meeting your eyes, his gaze showing that his comment was genuine. You ducked away from his gaze but muttered a âthanksâ. The three of you rounded another corner, Brady ducking out to talk to a reporter, but Tim said heâd help you find the coach.
You settled into a comfortable silence as you walked beside each other through the chilled hallways. He abruptly took a left turn, cutting you off and causing you to bump into him. You immediately apologized, this being the second time today youâd run into a hockey player.
ââS my fault, Iâm still getting used to the new arena,â He said, a sheepish smile appearing on his face. He nodded his head down the hallway, as a silent âafter youâ and you started walking. As you got further down, you realized Tim walked you out to the bench. The light became brighter, the air a little crisper, and the floor turned from a concrete grey to a bright red. Your eyes wandered up, admiring the view from down here. Youâd be truthful earlier, youâd only ever visited your office. But from down here, you could see everything- the thousands of seats, the banners hanging from the ceiling, the crystal white ice. You stood close to the wall, as if to try to intimidate a fly on a wall, seeing everything as if you werenât there. You could feel Tim could up from behind you, letting you take it all in for the first time.
âThatâs Coach,â He leaned closer to you as he pointed across the ice towards someone in a tracksuit. You nodded and although Tim dropped his hand, he stayed close to you. The coach eventually noticed the two of you and started to skate over to the bench. Tim cleared his throat and you looked at him.
âI got to- I have to go now, but, um, Iâll see you around?â You nodded to his question, a soft smile on your lips. He rocked back and forth on his heels, as if he knew he had to leave but he kept getting pulled towards you. âGood luck with the season.â
âGood luck with yours too.â At that he turned away from you, and you turned to the coach, pulling out your file folder to talk with him.
***
A week or two later and the start of the season was upon the Canadian Tire Centre. The home opener was in a few days and your week had been hectic, trying to get notes from practices and implement what you saw into your analysis. After a morning full of spreadsheets, you decided to take your lunch break in your sanctuary. Last year, the arena felt too big to stick around in on your lunch break. So you had headed outside, where you discovered a small hiking trail about a ten minute drive from work. It quickly became a place where you went whenever you needed to clear your head. And after the morning you had, it was the perfect place to go, so you hopped in your car and started towards it.
At the top of the hill, you put the car in park, grabbed your lunch bag and started towards your spot. It was past the picnic tables that had a nice view of the suburbs, but it wasn't secluded. Your spot was off the beaten path, but there was a small ledge with a perfect view of the arena, highway, and surrounding green spaces. You turn the corner, ducking under a tree branch, ready to exhale the heck of the morning you had.
But there was already someone sitting in your spot. Their head was down, but you recognized the logo and number 18 on their hoodie. Cautiously, you approached him.
â18...Is it okay if I sit here?â You asked, and his head shot up. He shot you a small smile and quick nod. You sat down, placing your bag in front of you, taking out a granola bar.
âYou can call me Tim, you know. That is my name,â You gave him a shy smile and you could feel your cheeks heat up at his comment.
âI didnât think anyone knew about this place, Tim,â You mentioned quietly. It felt weird, to be honest, to be sharing your spot with someone, but it didnât feel like he was intruding.
âMy city in Germany has a lot of parks. Thereâs a forest near my house where Iâd go when I needed a break. This is the closest I could find near the rink. I hope you donât mind?â
âJust donât go telling the whole team about our place,â you winked at him and took a bite of your snack.
âI can keep a secret, donât worry.â He laughed lightly and sent you a smile.
âI donât know if you remember me but-â
âYouâre the analyst, you graduated super early right? Y/n, yeah?â
âYeah, thatâs me,â You smiled at him. âSo, how are you liking Ottawa?â
âItâs alright, I havenât seen very much of it. The ice is very good. My house is nice.â He shrugged and you gaped at him.
âThatâs all youâve seen? So you havenât been to Parliament Hill or ByWard market orâŚ?â you trailed off when you saw him biting his bottom lip and slowly shaking his head. âWell, you are missing out, you should go see the city sometime.â
âDo you think you could show me around? You seem to know all the best places,â He offered. You met his eyes and nodded. He dug his phone out of his pocket, passing it over to you. You raised your eyebrows at the gesture but he just pushed his phone closer to you. Silently, you imputed your number, placing a small graph emoji beside your contact name. You handed it back to him and a small smirk graced his face when he saw the emoji, before he pursed his lips at the device. You furrowed your eyebrows.
âSorry, itâs all good. Thank you. Itâs- I have to go back now, but Iâll text you, yeah?â You nodded as he handed back your phone. He walked towards the parking lot, but turned around to wave at you before he disappeared around the bend.
Later that day as you sat in the stands, a clipboard and pen in your hands, you got a text from an unknown number.
Hi
It's 18 :)
You chuckled at his use of his number and texted him back.
i thought you said i could call you tim? :(
also itâs practice?? how are you on your phone?
It starts in a couple minutes
your teammates are already on the ice
Spying on me already??
itâs literally my job to watch you practice
Guess I'll see you in the stands then :)
Oh and I'm free this weekend for that showing of the city, team bondingâs on friday
iâll check my schedule and get back to you
now get out on the ice or youâre going to be late :)
***
You had checked your schedule, and agreed to meet that Saturday. You said youâd pick him up since you knew more of the city. You didn't want to be late so you arrived five minutes early in front of Tim's place. He walked out in his signature backwards snapback, some curls poking out the front, and a monochromatic beige outfit. Waving animatedly at you, he jogged to the car, his ever present smile on his face.
The twenty minutes ride into the city was quiet yet comfortable. A few words were exchanged about how each otherâs day was so far but nothing groundbreaking. The low hum of the engine filled the silence as you drove into the city.
After parking in a Superstore (âFree parking in downtown Ottawa is hard to come by, Tim. Weâre parking in the grocery store parking lotâ) and walking a few blocks, you come to the far end of the market. Lined with local businesses and brick streets, it felt homey. Tim smiled as it reminded him of back home.
âSo, what are we going to see first? Your school?â He asked as the two of you walked along the streets. You laughed and shook your head.
âPfft no. It isnât all that interesting. I figured weâd see some of my favourite places, if thatâs okay?â He assured you it was and the two of you continued through the streets, Tim with his head down as you passed people. He wasn't famous just yet, but in Canada you find hockey fans at every corner. Soon, you arrived in a small plaza with coloured picnic tables and muskoka chairs.
âTa-da!â You gestured to the large block letters that spelled âOttawaâ in the middle of the space. âItâs not much, but youâve got to be a tourist in your own city at least once right?â He laughed along with you and you got out your phone, ready to take a picture of him so he could send it to his parents. You thought he would want a picture of him but he was quick to insist you had to be in the picture as well.
âIâm sorry, but would you mind taking a picture of us?â You asked one of the girls who were taking turns with the Ottawa sign.
âOh sure!â You stood beside him, between the two âTâs in Ottawa, his arm slung over your shoulders. You smiled and looked up at Tim to see him smiling as well- and not one of those classic boy coy half smiles, a genuine one. She took a few landscape and a few portrait ones before handing your phone back. âYou two are such a cute couple!â
Before you could correct the girl, Tim answered for you. âWeâre just friends actually.â She apologized profusely before rejoining her group. You shuffled your feet as an awkward silence overcame you for the first time since youâd met. Your body shivered and you promptly changed the subject.
âHey, you hungry?â He shrugged and nodded. You nodded and led him away from the sign, through a few back alleys lined with a few merchants, home artists and such. You entered a building, bustling with people. It was long and narrow, with brick flooring and merchants on either side of the middle. There were lots of people, ranging from people doing their weekly grocery shopping to tourists looking for souvenirs. You weaved between strollers and friend groups, Tim grabbing your hand to avoid getting lost. He kept his head low, hoping it would disguise him enough. This day was about you and him, not you, him and the hockey world. Eventually, the two of you exited the indoor market and came to a small opening. Instead of staying in the opening, you turned left, tugging Tim across the street to two small shacks, one red and one blue. The red one had a classic fairytale vibe to it, with beige wainscotting, red painted window frames, and topped with a white and light brown canopy over the window. Underneath the canopy, there was a string of small Canadian flags.
âDo you trust me?â He arched one of his eyebrows but nodded. âIâll be right back.â Confused, Tim stood there as you walked up the window, spending no time looking at the menu as you ordered. He looked above the shack to see in fancy lettering the word BeaverTails. When you came back, you were holding two paper containers and had a smile on your face. He looked at the sign and then back to the bags in your hands.
âA beaverâs⌠tail?â You laughed at him and handed him his BeaverTail.
âItâs not actually a beaverâs tail. Itâs just a fried pastry that looks like one. They come in lots of flavours but I got you the best one, cinnamon sugar.â You could tell he was hesitant but bit into his and you took a bite of your own.
Almost instantly, he groaned. âDo you take every guy here? Wow. Oh my god,â He got cinnamon smeared over his chin and you laughed as he tried to wipe it off while holding his pastry.
âHilarious Tim, but Iâll have you know youâre like my only friend here. So⌠no I donât take anyone here.â He scoffed and you raised your eyebrows.
âYouâre joking. How do you not have other friends? Youâre great,â
âI started university as a 16 year math major. Itâs not a surprise people didnât want to talk to me. But itâs okay. Iâm used to it by now.â
âDonât you have people from home come and visit?â
You scoffed. âI donât really get along with my mum. We moved around a lot when I was younger and I always sorta resented her for not seeing how it affected me. And then, when I got accepted to school out here, she sold the house and started travelling. Last I talked to her, she was in Tahiti.â He raised his eyebrows.
âWhat about your dad? Or brothers or sisters?â You swallowed your piece of BeaverTail before answering him.
âI have an older sister, Dani. But sheâs eight years older than me, so we're not the closest. She checks in every week or so because she knows my mum doesn't. Sheâs never come out to visit though, she runs her own business back in Seattle.â
âIt must be nice to have someone though. Especially when you were growing up. What about your dad?â
âI donât- I donât talk about my dad.â You picked at the pastry before changing the topic. âCâmon, you have to see this place.â You gestured to a side street and the two of you made your way towards your favourite destination. You exited beside a taller building and you pressed the button to allow the two of you to cross the street. As you were waiting for the light to turn, you turned to Tim.
âSo, Iâm guessing you donât have any siblings then?â
âNo, but the guys at the rink were like my brothers so it wasnât bad.â The light turned red, and the âwalkâ light turned on. You made your way across, staying close to each other as people walked both ways.
âHockey tends to do that,â
âIs that why you picked to work in hockey?â
You glared at him as you made it across the street. âThatâs personal.â
âWeâre friends, arenât we? Friends share personal stuff.â
âThatâs⌠itâs just different.â You shook your head and lowered the volume of your voice. âBesides, weâre here.â The two of you had stopped in front of some shallow steps that led to a tall archway, with black statues underneath and on top of the arch. It had some engravings on it, both small and large letters. From where they were standing, Tim could make out some numbers, but not well enough to understand the significance. Behind the monument and slightly to the right was the green tipped roof and gothic architecture of the Parliament building.
âWhat is this place?â He tilted his head as he looked at the arch in the middle of the square. To him, it wasnât anything special, perhaps another statue of one of the colonizers of the country.
âItâs Canadaâs war memorial.â You whispered, and he nodded, clasping his hands in front of his body and lowering his head. âWhen I was going to school, Iâd come here at least once a week.â
His head stayed where it was but he raised his eyes to meet yours. âWhy?â
âI know itâs not exactly everyoneâs favourite place...because I know so many people died for the country, but for me, itâs a place of silence. Of reflection. It reminds me to be grateful for everything I have. Some days school would be really bad, so this place was perfect to sit and remember that life isnât bad at all. Not when I was in a safe country, not when I had an education, not when I had a warm house to go back to.â
He nodded. âThat seems...perfect. Some days are too loud, thereâs too many people saying stuff. I get that.â His voice was quiet as well, as he lifted his head to focus on the stonework and engravings. The two of you stood in silence in front of the memorial for a few minutes more before you tugged on his arm.
âSee that building?â You leaned in close to him, your finger extending to point at a building in the distance, a little taller than the ones around it. âThatâs the universityâs mathematics and physics department. I had most of my classes in that building.â He nodded, leaning in closer to you, your heads almost touching. You lowered your hand and nodded with your head towards the way you came.
âCâmon, weâre not done yet. Youâve got to see the Parliament building.â He shoved his hands in his pockets and headed left towards it. You quickly grabbed his hand and pulled him right. âIâm the tour guide, remember? Trust me, thereâs a better view.â You dropped his hand as he started to walk in time with you but you had to shove it in your pocket to replace the heat his hands gave you.
A quick ten minutes walk later and you stood atop a hill overlooking the river. It was a large park with benches and an eccentric art installation in the corner. You walked close to the peak of the hill and stopped, breathing in the fresh air.
âThere is Canadaâs capital building. Itâs nicer to see it from here than from the front where thereâs a bunch of tourists. Besides, from here, you get to see more of the architecture.â The building was across the river, its massiveness more pronounced from your viewpoint. There was a dome nearest the river that was covered in flying buttresses, each support beam having intricate details that stood out. The clock tower and green tinted roof completed the gothic look.
âThis view is better. Quieter. It reminds me more of home,â You bump your shoulder against his lightly.
âGlad you like it.â The two of you stood in silence until Tim shivered, at which case you decided you should start heading back. If the hockey player was cold, it was cold enough for you too.
The walk and drive back was uneventful, aside from the two of you passing jokes back and forth. When it came to drop him off, he unbuckled his seatbelt but didnât make an effort to leave the vehicle.
âHow much for our snack? Iâll pay you back,â
You waved him off. âIt was my treat, donât worry about it.â He pursed his lips, then shook it. He pulled out his phone from his pocket. A few seconds later, your phone dinged. You glared at him as you opened the text to see an e-transfer. Before you could protest, he cut you off.
âYou never said I couldnât pay for your gas," He laughed, and despite your annoyance at the loophole, you found yourself laughing along with him. He had that effect on you; he seemed to be able to ease any tension you held. âI had a good time today. Maybe we could meet again sometime?â
âIâd like that. Iâll see you at the rink?â He nodded before getting out of your car, waving like he did that morning as you drove off to your place. When you arrived home, you saw a new text from him.
Can you send those pictures you took today?
You tried to suppress a smile, sending them over to which he responded with a âThank youuuuâ. You set your phone on your nightstand and turned off the light. Despite your efforts, you fell asleep with a smile on your face from a perfect day with a great person.
***
âHey, Numbers!â You stopped in your tracks and turned around to see Brady sticking his head out of the dressing room. He had taken a liking to calling you that, especially as you had started hanging around the house more. It was nice, movie nights and sometimes youâd take a pre-game nap with Tim, you had even stayed for lunch at Timâs request. At this point, it wasnât anything out of the ordinary for Brady to shout the nickname from anywhere. Practice had ended and you had given your notes to the coach about what to focus on for the Toronto game. âYou didnât happen to see Jimmy, did you?â When you shook your head, his face scrunched into a small frown.
âWhereâd he go? Didnât media like just end?â
He shrugged. âHe didnât even bother to change from media, he just stalked out. He didnât say anything to any of the guys, so I thought you mightâve seen him.â
âIâll keep a lookout for him,â You told Brady before he returned to finish dressing and you returned to your office. But even after youâd settled back into your work, there was a feeling in your stomach you couldnât quite place. Sending a quick text off to Tim, asking where he was, you dove back into work. But it only took five minutes before you were checking your phone, seeing if heâd read the text or responded. When neither happened, you gave him a call. It sent you straight to voicemail and you hung up before you could leave a message. The feeling in your stomach grew and you packed up your bag, knowing no more work would get done tonight. It wasnât like Tim to sulk or get in his head; he was a generally happy guy. Something must have set him off for him to be acting this way -- even with you. And if it was something this big, there was only one spot he wouldâve gone.
âBrady said you stalked out of media. Figured Iâd find you here.â He turned around at the sound of your voice, his shoulders dropping a little. He shrugged, which you took as your cue to take a seat beside him at your lookout space. The sun was setting, the golden hour light reflecting on his stress lines, and the sky was littered with wispy clouds.
Your hands were in the pockets of your hoodie, your legs tucked together. Despite being here for close to six years, the Canadian chill always surprised you. You sat with your shoulder pressed to his, a silent symbol of you being there for him. With his head down, he mumbled something too quiet for you to hear, so you leaned your head down to hear him better. At your movement, he huffed and lifted his head.
âIâm supposed⌠They wanted me to come and make a difference and to help win games. But Iâm not helping! Iâm supposed to be putting up points and helping win games, but weâre still losing! Like, why do I suck?â
Your chest got tight at his words. âTimâŚâ
âYou canât deny it, the numbers say weâre losing.â
âLosing doesnât mean you arenât producing. This is your first year in the NHL, you wouldnât be here if they didnât think you were worth it. Hockey is a team sport, it isnât just your job to win the game.â
âBut they wouldnât have gotten me right out of the World Juniors if they didnât need me to start making an impact right away! They were counting on me. And Iâm not living up to itâŚ.â
âYou are nineteen years old. Nineteen. The five other rookies ahead of you in points are all at least two years older than you. Let that sink in. You have so many years ahead of you. And secondly, no one here is expecting you to turn this team around. McDavidâs first year he didnât turn the team around. And sure, yeah, the next year, the Oilers had more success but guess what? They missed the playoffs the next three years. Hockey is a team sport, one person, not even McDavid, can completely turn a team around. No one is expecting you to turn this team around in one season. This isnât on you.â
âBut the numbersâŚâ
âAre you going to trust the analyst on the numbers or the assholes on Twitter?â He glared at you but let you continue on. âIf you really want to talk numbers, we arenât last in the league anymore. Weâve beat the top team in the division a couple times now. Youâre putting up points, youâre helping us win. Cut yourself some slack. Youâre nineteen and living in a new country. This team isnât expecting you to be Ottawaâs saviour, okay?â
âThereâs pressure to be better though! Everywhere I go, I just see how I should be doing more, how if I donât produce more, Iâm going to be a draft bust. Iâm the young guy, Iâm supposed to be the new blood and be able to make a difference. I feel like Iâm letting everyone down.â His words lingered in the sunset glow, a contrast to the darkness he was feeling. You fell silent at his outburst, the air feeling too quiet, even with his heavy breathing. âIâm sorry, I didnât mean to take it out on you.â
You ignored his apology, knowing he would never intentionally hurt you. âI graduated with a 3.8 GPA. I didnât have enough job experience but my grades were one of the only reasons I was able to get hired so young. My first year, all I did was double check other peopleâs stats and predictions, and it was okay. No one expected much out of me because I was young and they didnât really give me any responsibilities. But this year⌠theyâre looking to me more. Teams with more than two analysts are more likely to produce teams that make the playoffs. Iâm number three; I should be helping make a better team. But Iâm not. Iâm not getting the numbers we need or the stats we need. I know more updated methods and technologies but...itâs just not working. Iâm not finding solutions to problems that this team has had for years. And the board and my colleagues see that. I know I shouldnât worry about them firing me, but I still do. I mean, Iâm not producing, why would they keep me around? This wasnât what they wanted when they gave me the job.â
âThey wonât fire you, youâre doing your best. And youâre young, you graduated early. They have to give you a chance to prove yourself in the workplace before they fire you.â
âYou wanna take your own advice?â He flushed at your words, but you smiled. âThanks, though.â He nodded and looked out over the suburbs surrounding the arena.
âThe pressure in this league sucks.â He said and you leaned your head on his shoulder.
âYeah. It does. But weâll get through it right?â
âWeâll figure something out. Together.â He placed his hand on your thigh and the two of you looked out at the sunset, his touch lingering on your body until the sun disappeared behind the horizon. Silently, he helped you to your feet, and walked you to your car, making sure you got in okay, before he got into his car. On the drive home, your chest felt lighter from the conversation.
***
The final buzzer rang, signalling a 4-2 win for the Senators. You smiled at the scoreboard and gathered your papers. The game was nothing spectacular, but for you, it was a career defining game. Some of the lines you'd suggested were risky, but you had the numbers to back it up, and it worked. It worked. The conversation with Tim earlier last week helped with your confidence to take risks in terms of your analytic advice.
You went back to your office after the game, wanting to type up a report of how you impacted tonight's outcome. If it worked this time, who's to say it couldn't work again? But in a higher stakes game? You felt like you were finally contributing to the team, and damn, it felt good.
Your office was barely even that. It was small, but you had a desk, a window, and your name on the door. It was enough for your first major gig. You'd made it a little homey-er with a small succulent and some motivational quotes. You opened up your laptop and began to type up a document report. The words flowed from your fingers and you used the numbers you counted from the box to back up your findings. Time seemed to stand still as you typed, the document becoming longer and longer.
A knock broke your train of thought and you looked up to see Tim poking his head through your office door. He had a shy smile on your face and you shook the writing haze out of your eyes.
"Hey! Come on in," He nodded, closing the door behind him before leaning against the wall. "You played a good game." His cheeks flushed and he lifted his hat, running his fingers through his hair.
"Thanks, thank you. Anyway, did you eat yet?"
"I mean, I had an iced coffee before the game and a granola bar during the second period. So yeah?" Immediately he started shaking his head and he pushed himself away from the wall. You open your hands as if to say 'whatâ?" and he outstretched his hand to you.
"Coffee and a granola bar isn't a meal. Let's go get some real food, I'm hungry." He made a grabby hand with his outstretched hand and you sighed.
"I have to finish my report, I can't." He sighed, pushed your laptop shut, and grabbed your hand.
"That can wait. Besides, the boys went out and I need a ride home." He flashed you a shy smile and you rolled your eyes, before picking up your bag and leaving your office with him. You tried not to notice how Tim was still holding onto your hand, but as he tugged you along to a quiet area of the concourse, it was difficult to do. He stopped at a small table with two bar stools. He let go of your hand, cold enveloping you, and you hung your bag on the back of the chair. As you hopped onto the chair, he stayed standing, tapping his fingers on the tabletop.
âWhat do you want to eat?" When you shook your head again, he pulled out his puppy dog eyes. "Tim, seriously, I'm fine."
"I'm getting some fries and you will eat some of them. Deal?" Your face pulled into a frown and he repeated himself. "Deal?"
"Yes, Mom, deal."
He gave himself a self assured smile. "Great. I'll be right back."
A few minutes later he came back with a container of fries and two small containers. He set them down in front of you before he got seated. A closer look at the container showed one was ketchup and the other wasâŚ
"Is this mayo?" He picked up a fry, dipped it in the white substance, and popped it into his mouth. With his mouth full, he nodded. "You eat your fries with mayonnaise?"
"You don't?"
"No!" You shook your head. He took another fry, dipped it again, and ate it.
"You have to try it, it's good!"
âNo, no thank you. You can keep your weird German eating habits to yourself." You laughed, dipping a fry in ketchup before eating it.
"Nope, you've got to try one. Please?" You scrunched up your nose, and he held out a white coated french fry. You gave in, taking it from his hands and shoving it in your mouth. You chewed it slowly, contemplating the taste.
"It's...not horrible." He raised his eyebrows at you. "Fine, it's alright." He gave you another look, a small smile forming on his face despite his efforts to hide it. "Okay, okay, I like it. Happy?" He let out a loud laugh.
"Yes! I knew you'd like it!" You laughed a little with him, before dipping another fry in the mayo and popped it in your mouth. The two of you ate in silence, the sounds of the zamboni in the background.
"Why didn't you go out with the guys? You had a good game,"
He shrugged. "I wanted something quieter. Besides, I was hungry and the guys wanted to go out to a bar. Bar food isn't exactly a meal."
"Neither is french fries,"
"Well, maybe, you're just better company than the guys."
"Damn right, I am." You smiled, tapped his fry with yours in a makeshift sort of 'cheers' way. When the two of you had finished your snack, you picked up the container and threw it in the compost bin near the table. You grabbed your bag off the chair, holding up your car keys. He got up off the table, joining you in a slow walk towards the parking lot.
You wished the custodians a good night as the two of you left the arena, the street lights in the parking lot illuminating the way to your car. Silently, you unlocked the car and you both got in. You gave him your phone, telling him to pick any playlist he wanted while you started the car. He picked one of your favourite playlists, a mix of relaxing beats and soft music, which was perfect for late night drives.
"You should have some lo-fi on here, it's a lot like this. I think you'd like it," he said, after you had merged onto the highway.
"Yeah?" He only nodded, allowing a comfortable silence to come back to the car. The rest of the drive was easy, the road being mostly empty and the music filling the car. He gave you quiet directions to the house, more points and here's than actual directions but you were able to find it.
"Thank you for the ride," He said, once youâd put the car in park.
"Thanks for sharing your food with me,â He shook his head and smiled at you, the corners of his eyes crinkling.
âIâll always share with you.â You caught his gaze, his brown eyes filled with sincerity. You could feel your cheeks flush and you waved him out of your car.
âI gotta get home too, you know.â You joked and he got out, popping his head back into the doorway for a second.
âText me when you get home, yeah?â You murmured an âof courseâ and he nodded, closing the car door and making his way to his front door. You waited until he entered the house before you drove away, turning on a lo-fi playlist from Spotify.
***
âYour turn to pick the movie, but no subtitles please, Iâm too lazy to read today.â You handed Tim the remote for his TV while you pulled the blanket closer to your chin. The October chill had settled in his apartment and you hadnât dressed for his room to feel like the arena.
âJimmy!â Someone called from the kitchen and a loud clang dissolved any annoyance Tim had from his roommate interrupting his time with you. He rushed to the kitchen and you followed behind shyly. There were platters across the kitchen island, each with a different coloured dish. It looked like there was a salad, a couple casserole dishes, and some plates of desserts. A taller brunette was standing in the kitchen, frantically gesturing between Tim and a pot on the stove. There was a lid on the ground, a splatter of pinkish red liquid surrounding it. You entered the kitchen, picked up the lid before placing it in the sink. The other guy was still explaining to Tim what exactly he wanted to do, even though his head was tilted like a confused puppy. You brushing him aside llightly, grabbing the spoon Tim was holding to stir the pinkish red liquid on the stove. You sent him a small smile back over your shoulder and all you could see in his eyes was relief.
âThank you!â The oven beeped and you noticed an embroidered #9 on the roommate's Senator sweats. You moved to the side to allow him to get another baking dish from the oven. He placed it on the stovetop and took off his oven mitts. âThank you for doing that. I didnât think heâd be that helpless in the kitchen.â
âIâm surprised anyone in this house can actually cook,â You laughed. The liquid that smelled of oranges and cranberries started to boil, so you reduced the heat and continued to stir it. You look at the baking dish that he brought out of the oven. âAre those brussel sprouts?â
âYeah! My momâs recipe; theyâre delicious! Do you like them?â
âTheyâre one of my favourites! My recipe uses bacon though.â
âOh nice! Youâll have to share it with me, Iâd love to try it. And, sorry, I didnât introduce myself. Iâm Josh,â
âI know.â He shot you a look and you backtracked. âI-Sorry, itâs just-I actually work with you? Iâm in the analytics department, so I know your jersey number and I saw it on your sweats and put two and two together. Iâm not being a creep, Iâm sorry.â The sound of laughter behind you made you blush.
âNot being a creep my ass. They did the same thing when me and Jimmy ran into them for the first time!â Brady commented, walking into the kitchen. He was wearing a nice pair of dress pants and a button up shirt. You shook your head before nodding towards his attire.
âGoing somewhere nice?â He looked down at his outfit and shook his head.
âItâs Thanksgiving? Itâs why they gave us the day off?â That...that would explain the amount of food in the kitchen. No matter how many years you lived here, youâd always forgotten that Canadian Thanksgiving was a whole month earlier. You placed the stir spoon on a plate next to the pot and wiped your hands on your pants.
âOh! Um, right, well, uh in that case, I should be, I should get going. You guys must have plans. Nice to meet you Josh.â You made your way out of the kitchen to the foyer where your coat and shoes were without so much as a goodbye to the guys. You could hear Tim coming after you, his steps lighter and more graceful than Brady or Joshâs. But, he didnât make a move to do anything except stare at you as you got ready to leave. It wasnât until you were getting ready to put on your shoes that he spoke.
âYou should just stay. Weâve got lots of food.â
âOh, I donât want to intrudeâŚâ
âBradyâs bringing his girlfriend and a couple other of the guys are coming over. You wouldnât be intruding.â
âI really shouldnâtâŚâ
âYou should. Why wonât you stay?â
âI donât know if you have this holiday in Germany, but Thanksgiving is a family thing, Tim.â You sighed. âBesides, shouldnât I have brought something? Am I even dressed okay?â You looked down at your outfit - a simple pair of jeans and one of your comfiest graphic tees. He shrugged.
âDonât worry about that. You look great, just enjoy the night with me. Stay? Please? Câmon schatz, youâre like my family to me.â The two of you maintained eye contact until you broke it and took off your coat. You could see Timâs smile widen and when it came to walking back into the kitchen, he extended his arm. You took it and the two of you made your way back towards what would end up being a wonderful evening full of laughs and smiles shared between friends.
***
You had come over for a trashy reality TV binge after a particularly hard day at work. None of the numbers were adding up the way you needed them to and your laptop was having a hissy-fit all day. Soon enough, you called it a day and texted Tim, telling him youâd be over in twenty minutes. He greeted you at the door with your favourite chocolate treat, a box of Timbits, and âthereâs popcorn in the microwave right now, itâs almost doneâ. You couldâve melted right on the spot. Instead, you made your way over to the couch where you collapsed and pulled the blanket he had already set out for you up to your chin. You breathed in the smells of pine and sock tape and felt your body relax. HGTV played in the background while you waited for him to bring the popcorn out when his phone dinged.
âTim, your phone!â You yelled to him from across the living room.
âWho is it?â You sighed and moved from your comfortable spot on the couch to check his messages. You turned on the phone to see a message from Josh, saying heâs five minutes away. You went to lock the phone, seeing the unimportance of the message but something caught your eye. You swiped to clear the notification and his background came into focus. It was the two of you standing in front of the Ottawa sign at ByWard market, his arm around your shoulders and a grin on both your faces.
âWho was it?â He entered the room as he repeated his question.
âJust Josh,â you whispered, turning around to face him holding up his phone. âAm I your lock screen?â He blushes, opening his mouth stammering for words. âI am! I knew I was important to you.â You poked him a couple times for an extra tease when his face settled into a small pout and he retaliated by tickling you. You shrieked and hopped up from the couch, laughing as he chased you around the house.
âStop doing that!â He laughed as you escaped his clutches once more. Your laugh echoed through the house as he tried again to try to tickle you, but you grabbed Josh and used him as a human shield.
âNo fair schatz,â He relented his tickling and sat on the couch. You took a seat beside him, but kept your distance in case he decided to start his torture again.
âYou know, youâve never told me what that means,â You look over to him and heâs already scratching the back of his neck.
âWhat what means?â
âThat thing you keep calling me. Like shats?â
Josh laughed and spoke up. âIt means swe-â
âFriend! It means friend!â Tim interrupted loudly, his cheeks rosy. âIt means friend.â You raised your eyebrows at his outburst and his explanation.
âYou call your friends, âfriendâ?â
He scratched at his jaw and slowly nodded. âIn my city, itâs common for friends to just call each other âfriendâ. Itâs normal,â You managed out a âokayâ between breathy laughs, wondering why he was being so strange about it. It was just a nickname. But the blush in his cheeks didnât diminish until well after Josh left the room, muttering under his breath about âidiotsâ, and you couldnât help but think that maybe it meant more than Tim was letting on.
***
âAre you going to be at the gala on Saturday?â Tim asked you as the two of you ate (lunch for you, pre-practice snack for him) on the concourse. It was your first concourse snack since the All-Star break and you had missed him. WhatsApp messages and Instagram messages just werenât the same as being in his presence. You finished your bite, and shook your head.
âItâs only for players isnât it?â
âWould you want to come with me?â
âLike...as a date?â You looked up at him, your eyes wide. Maybe this was the clue you were waiting for.
âAs friends?â Your eyes darted down onto the counter and Tim took that as a sign you didnât want to go with him. âThereâll be puppies there.â
âWell,â you swallowed the lump in your throat, âIf thereâs going to be puppies, I need no more convincing.â You forced a smile onto your face and he returned the sentiment, before finishing up the food. You wished him good luck before the game, and left to go the the box.
Soon enough, it was Saturday night and you found yourself in front of the Fairmont Château. You gazed up at the stone walls and admired how the orange glow from the lights gave it such a warm feeling, compared to the shivers that were going up and down your back. You had found time to go and get a fancy outfit for the night, its gold fabric being a perfect fit on your body. Tim had told you heâd meet you inside, so walked upt the steps alone, avoiding the other guests in fancy attire. They looked like they belonged here. You couldn't relate. The front entrance of the hotel was exactly as you expected -- it had marble floors, crown moldings, and a domed ceiling. You followed the chatter to one of the conference rooms, someone offering to check your coat. With just your clutch, you entered the ballroom with the sound of your shoes following you.
You looked around to try to find Tim among the executives, easily spotting him when you heard Bradyâs booming laugh in the corner. You made your way over to the group, including Brady, Josh, Drake, Tim and some respective dates. Josh waved at you and Tim turned around to see you walking towards him.
Tim stood there, memorized by the way the Senators gold fabric hugged your figure and the way your eyes had lit up when you saw one of the puppies. You came over to him, brushing his arm before joining the group. Hellos were thrown your way and it wasnât long before everyone went back to their conversations and you were able to speak with Tim.
âYou look handsome." You handed him your clutch, which he held unashamedly, as you adjusted his gold bowtie, letting your hands linger on the front of his chest. You gulped before snapping out of your trance and took your clutch back from him.
âUm, uh, thanks. You look...good too,â His voice was breathy and his cheeks had flushed a little. You smiled at him, before noticing another golden retriever stumbling around next to its trainer and darting off to pet it. Tim watched you go and he stood back, blown away by the way his heart was beating faster and how he couldnât seem to get enough air into his lungs.
âYou finally figured it out, huh?â He turned around at Drakeâs voice. He had recognized the look on Timâs face, it was the same one he had when he looked at his partner. Tim furrowed his eyebrows.
âFigured what out?â
Drake scoffed and took a gulp of his drink. âGod, you already know and youâre denying it. Youâre in love with them.â Tim shook his head, waving off the thought. You were his best friend, nothing more. âCâmon man, you can keep lying to yourself but itâs obvious to everyone else.â He was then swept away by a reporter, leaving Tim to his thoughts.
He wasnât in love with you. He was sure of it. You were his best friend, his safe spot. Itâs not like when he sees you his heart beats faster or he notices how your eyes crinkle when you laugh or when the sun hits your skin just right, you look like an angel. Itâs not like the more he looks at your lips the more he wants to know if they taste like your sweet honey lip chap. Itâs not like your smile could cure his darkest days or that he could see himself introducing you to his family as his partner.
Except it was like that.
Tim saw all of that with you. He saw more galas, more late night drives, lazy Sunday mornings. He wanted to see you after his games, not in your office, but in the tunnel where youâd be wearing his jersey and a special jean jacket. He wanted to take you home to meet his family, his hometown friends. He wanted to show you all the places that were special to him, just as you showed his places special to you. He wanted to meet Dani and see if she thought he was good enough to be your partner. As he stared at you petting the small golden pup, he realized Drake was right. He was in love with you.
He was in love with his best friend.
Fuck, what was he supposed to do now?
You didnât give him too much time to think about that as you came up behind him, telling him everything about the golden retriever you just met. He smiled at you, and motioned with his head to find your seats as dinner was going to be served soon. You sat next to him, your leg brushing against his under the table. Even from that, he got shocks-- tiny lightning bolts trailing up his body. It was like every sense was heightened after he came to the realization that he loved you. How am I supposed to even act around them? He thought.
The meal passed without issue and while Tim went about schmoozing all the executives and donors, you stick with the other halves. You had already met Emma, Bradyâs partner, and she introduced you to Dakota, Briar, and Marissa (she had also told you who they came with but that information had not stuck with you).
âSooo⌠Emma, howâs the wedding planning going?â Briar asked. She had gotten engaged over the holiday break. She laughed and waved off the question.
âOh, not at all! Weâre just enjoying being engaged, itâs like the honeymoon phase all over again,â
âJust like you and Tim,â Dakota nudged you and wiggled her eyebrows. You coughed on your drink at her statement.
âWhat?â You managed to sputter. Emma looked uncomfortable but didnât say anything. âWhat do you mean, like me and Tim?â
âOh come on, itâs so obvious the two of you are in your honeymoon phase! Donât be ashamed of it, youâre such a cute couple!â
âOoh yes!! How his bowtie matched your outfit is like goals, I wish my boyfriend did that with me,â Marissa mentioned. Your voice felt caught in your throat and you were instantly aware of the breeze in the room and the sweat on the back of your neck.
âWeâre just friends,â Your voice was small.
âIâll believe that when pigs fly, babe. Oh, look, here comes your man.â Dakota winked at you before turning into her own date. You turn around quickly to see him walking over to you, laughing with Brady and Josh. Normally, the sight of him would calm you down. He was such a genuine person and you appreciated how you never had to shrink yourself to fit in with him. But with the girlsâ comments, you suddenly couldnât be around him. When his hand met the small of your back, you flinched before relaxing into his touch. It was just Tim, your Tim. Itâs not a big deal unless you make it a big deal.
âTimmy, I was just telling Y/n what a cute couple you two are!â
âWell, what do they say? Oh right, they complete me,â He sent you a wink and pulled you closer to his side. You went stiff in his hold, and he noticed, instantly letting you out of his grip. You muttered out an excuse about work and said quick goodbyes to the group before you were out of the gala as fast as your shoes could allow. Your cheeks were hot with...embarrassment? No, that wasnât quite it. But they were hot, and the room felt small with Dakotaâs teasing so just needed to escape. You needed to have fresh air in your lungs, needed to feel the cool Ottawa air on your arms. Needed to be somewhere other than beside him and his light teasing that left your stomach in knots.
But you hadn't even reached the front door and grabbed your coat from the coat check when Tim caught up to you. He watched you try to put on your coat, as he rocked back and forth on his heels like that first day you met.
âDo you⌠do you actually have work in the morning or were you just saying that?â You looked up and met his eyes, the orbs holding a certain vulnerability you hadnât seen before.
âI got called at the last minute. I forgot to tell you, Jodyâs kid got sick so Iâm covering the game on Sunday but I havenât prepared my notes or anything and you know me, Iâve got to be prepared or I wonât make a coherent analysis and then Iâm really in trouble-â Tim cut your rambling off with a murmur of your name and you slowed your frantic movements to look at him.
âWeâre okay, right?â
You smiled at him before you walked out the glass door. âYeah, weâre alright.â
***
Last night was confusing to say the least. You could still feel the heat in your cheeks from...embarrassment? No, it wasnât that. It was more like you couldnât stand around to see what he meant by his comment. You couldnât stand around why everyone else say you as a couple when you knew you werenât. But you were okay with not being a couple werenât you?
Itâs like not you liked him that way. Yeah, a simple smile from him could turn your day around and your concourse snacks were the highlight of your week. But thatâs because he was your best friend. Itâs not like you wanted to spend every morning waking up to him or spend your afternoons running your fingers through his hair. Itâs not like you wanted to take him back to Seattle to meet Dani or how you wanted to wear his jersey to call him yours. Itâs not like you daydreamed about him gently holding your hand as you walked through ByWard market or how soft his lips would be as he leaned in to kiss you or what his abs felt like without a shirt separating your fingers from his skin.
Except it was like that.
And then came the comment at the gala. Did that mean he liked you too? But he said you were just going as friends. Did he mean it platonically? What if you read things wrong? Fuck, why were feelings so complicated?
Dani, you needed to call Dani. Sheâd know what to make of all this. She picked up on the fourth ring. âThanks for calling Books By The Ocean, may you please hold?â
âDani, itâs me.â Hold music filled your ear and you rolled your eyes. A few minutes later, there was almost certainly a hole in your rug from your pacing and she finally picked up.
âWhyâd you resort to calling the store? I wouldâve answered my phone eventually,â
âYeah, eventually. I just really need to talk to you now,â
âOkay, so whatâs up?â
âThereâs this guyâŚâ
âIs it Tim? Please tell me itâs Tim.â When you didnât answer, she rejoined before reeling it in and telling you to continue.
âAnyways...weâre pretty good friends, I've known him since like the start of the season, and I donât know, like I think he likes me? And I mean, I like him, heâs really great but, like, I just-â
âCan you get to the point please?â
âI want to take the next step with him. I want to be more than friends with him. I want all those things but⌠I just seem frozen. Like when I think about telling him, my body feels like it wonât move. It feels like Iâm underwater. But I want to do more with him. I want that. Why wonât my brain get that and let me⌠I donât know, let me act on my feelings?â
âYouâre protecting yourself. Youâve never got hurt before,â You scoffed at her statement.
âWhat do you mean, of course I have,â
âOkay, sure, when you scraped your knee or when Nancy Peters called you dumb in second grade but you havenât got hurt before. You havenât opened yourself up to someone and let someone into your heart and let them see you for who you are.â
âWell, yeah, okay, but thatâs because they might not like what they see,â
She sighed. âYou canât go through life with your walls up, kiddo. Itâs hard, but you have to trust yourself. You have to let yourself feel. You have to let people in. When we were little and moved around a lot, maybe it was a survival tactic. But youâve been in Ottawa for close to five years now and have unpacked all your boxes? Have you had any friends over? Youâve put down roots there but youâre still holding onto a survival tactic when you need to be living, not just surviving.
âI let people in--â
âNo. You donât. Has Tim ever been in your apartment? Has he seen that even though you resent Mom, you still have family photos of the four of us in your living room? Does he know about Dad? You might have told him stuff but youâre still living behind walls.â She sighed.
âLook, I donât mean to be hard on you, but I want to see you thrive kiddo. I want you to experience life, and yeah, hurt is a part of life. You arenât doing life right if you come out unscathed. And sure, maybe heâs a great friend. But in some instances, that romantic partner can fill a more emotionally secure place. People usually place more trust in their partner than just a friend. Youâve got to open up to him more than you already have if you want more from him.â
âHow do I do that?â
âYouâve got to figure that out on your own kiddo, but it probably wouldnât hurt to talk to him. Honestly; no hiding behind your friendship.â You nodded to her advice, before realizing she couldnât see you, and thanked her for her help. She hung up with the promise to chat again on Wednesday like you normally did. You threw your phone beside the sink and leaned your head against the cool counter.
Be honest with him
Okay, you could do that. Easy enough right? You just had to make a plan to tell him. You could do that.
***
You were walking through the halls close to the bench to deliver your latest stats to the coach. It was your job after the other analysts determined you âhad the youngest feetâ and could go scouring around to find the coach. You didnât mind. Besides⌠if you just happened to bump into Tim while you were down here, well then that was a completely unplanned coincidence. Since the gala and your chat with Dani afterwards, you were feeling good about where you stood with Tim. And youâd made your plan. After the game, youâd meet up for after-game snacks like most home games and you had told yourself youâd talk to him then.
You had given the latest report to the coach on the bench, walking past the locker room towards the box when you heard Tim's voice.
â...I donât know man, I just need a break from Y/n.â You stopped in your tracks. It wasnât that you meant to be nosy, but at the mention of your name⌠you wanted to see what else he had to say. You hadnât meant to smother him but you guess he saw it differently. Your shoulders dropped and you bit your lip.
âI only have a problem around them!â You could feel the breakfast in your stomach start to turn, the feeling of bile starting to rise up. A ringing started to fill your ears, the white static noise only being pieced by his once comforting voice.
âItâs just⌠We work together, you know? Itâs awkward,â Where was this attitude when you were hanging out at the start of the season? Last week? If this is how he felt, why didnât⌠what did he mean by his comment to Dakota?
His voice shook you out of your trance. âLike at the end of the day, Iâm me⌠they pay me a lot to play my game and theyâre...them.â At that, you rushed away from earshot. If that was how he really felt, then screw him. If he was the hockey star and you were just the analyst, then thatâs what role youâd play. Nothing more, nothing less. And he wasnât brave enough to say that to your face, youâd say it first.
This is why you didnât open yourself up. If you were going to get hurt either way, it might as well be the least damaging option.
Over the next few games and practices, you kept your distance from the players. You avoided the bench, sending Jody to give reports to the coach. You kept your office door closed, the blinds closed, and you made sure to time your exits of the arena to avoid Tim. If avoiding him meant you avoided the inevitable conversation where he would tell you your flaws and point out every way you misread things, then you would do that.
After you heard that, you stopped going out of your way to pass by the boys in the arena. You went into your office, closed the door, and didnât leave until you went home. When you had to sit in the stands for practices, you sat higher than you used to and ignored the waves and stared you got from the team. He sent the occasional text but you replied with an im busy too many times that he stopped trying. It was odd to you how he kept reaching out when he was the one who said he needed a break but you ignored that voice in your head.
It was a Friday when he finally confronted you. You had been so close to leaving the arena, just one more hallway, and you wouldâve been out the door and into the parking lot. He had called your name and you tried to turn the corner without him but he caught up easily, grabbing your wrist to get you to stay.
âWhatâs up? It feels like I havenât seen you in forever,â He let go of your wrist as you turned to face him.
âWell thatâs what happens when youâre a bigshot NHL player and Iâm a lowly analyst.â He squinted his eyes and furrowed his eyebrows at your statement.
âWhat?â
âLook, I donât-- I donât think we should be friends anymore,â
He slowly nodded, thinking your words over in his head. âOkay. Um...I think⌠yeah, that could be good. I donât think we should be just friends either.â He shot you a shy smile with a spark of hope in his eyes but you frowned.
âGood. Itâs settled then.â You turned on your heel and walked away from him, only wiping your teary eye once you had rounded the corner, refusing to let him see you cry. You missed the way he frowned as you retreated.
The weekend was spent in bed, repeat episodes of Loki playing in the background. Loki never hurt you the way Tim had, the way his words dug into your insecurities of being alone creating a wound like no other. You had turned your phone off earlier as it kept buzzing with messages from him. You didnât want to hear his excuses of why and you didnât want to explain that youâd overheard his conversation. But the season wasnât over yet so you gave yourself two days to grieve. When Monday morning came, it was like nothing had ever happened.
Tim caught you in the main entrance way at the rink. It was close to 8am and you knew he didnât have practice until 11, so it was obvious he was waiting for you. You walk right past him until he softly calls your name and you stop walking, but donât turn around. âWhy are you ignoring me?â
âYou know why.â You whipped around and scoffed at him. âAnd you know what else? If you had a problem with me, you couldâve just said something. You didnât have to keep hanging out with me.â
âWhat?â
âI think we should just keep this professional, 18. Iâm nothing more than a background analyst to your hockey superstar, so letâs just stick to our jobs, yeah?â
âWhat are you talking about?â
âWe work together, we shouldnât be friends, you said it yourself. Itâll be better this way. Now, please, just leave me alone.â You brushed by him, bumping your shoulder with his, and you missed the way his jaw fell open at how quickly your relationship seemed to change.
He seemed to leave you alone after that. He didnât check in and he didnât send funny memes he found. He didnât text you to tell you he landed safely on road trips and you didnât congratulate him on a game well played. You could tell Brady and Josh thought it was weird but didnât say anything, just gave you pitying looks when you passed by or caught their eye in the halls.
The Senators failed to clinch a playoff spot, thanks to an overtime loss to Winnipeg. The end of the season for you was nice. It meant a shift in your work to more prospects, and thankfully, a more flexible work schedule. You didnât have to go into the arena and most of the players went back to their hometowns to visit. It was supposed to be a reprieve for you, knowing Tim wasnât even in the country. It was supposed to be relaxing, going to all the places that had helped you in the past to regroup your thoughts.
But instead, it felt suffocating, strolling through the market. Youâd been here thousands of times to clear your head, but this time the deeper you walked, the more the thoughts in your head swirled into a hurricane.
Youâd never know what home felt like. Youâd had friends tell you itâs having like extended family over around the holidays or itâs the peacefulness they felt at their lake house. You thought you had found it in Ottawa, its quaintness and history bringing you a sense of calm you hadnât had before. But only with Tim did you feel that inner peace that home felt like. Only with Tim did you feel like you could take on the world. Only with Tim did you feel whole.
And that was scary.
Feeling like one person could complete you, like they had a piece of your heart you didnât know you gave them, was scary. You were used to being on your own. Youâd done it throughout your levels of schooling and throughout the beginnings of your career. And all it took for that strength to come crashing down was a bashfully confident German hockey player.
He couldnât even tell you why. It wouldâve hurt more to hear the exact reasons why you werenât good enough for him, but it would have quelled your mind from picking on every single insecurity your mind could come up with.
Before you knew it, you were staring at the Ottawa sign. You glanced around to see couples waiting for their turn at the sign. Some of the guys had their arms around the shouldersâ of their girlfriends. Some of the girls had their hands clasped in their girlfriendsâ. Some people had their arms around the waist of their partner. But they all had a smile on their face, a fondness that was reserved for the love of their life.
Your eye caught the sight of a backwards Senators cap and your head whipped around. The person was tall and was wearing a grey hoodie. The man turned to the side and you caught a glance of the brown tufts of hair that stuck out of the cap. He threw his head back and the corners of your mouth turned up. Timâs laugh was always infectious, even if you were upset with him.
But it wasnât him.
He hadnât reached out since the day in the hallway. As much as you knew you didnât want to hear him say things more hurtful than what you overheard, you couldnât help but wonder where you went wrong. The what-ifs tumbled around in your head, the possibilities of why suddenly your friendship was too much for him.
As you stood there in the market, the memories racing through your mind mixed with images of happy couples all around you, you knew you had to get out. You donât really remember the rush of leaving, all you know is that the city that felt big for so many years now felt too small. You canât go anywhere without being reminded of him, his smile, his laugh. How his eyes glimmer from the light of a movie. You drove yourself to the airport, knowing there wasnât going to be a cab this early in the morning.
Before you knew it, you were standing outside of the familiar blue painted bookstore with your duffle bag in your hands. It was raining and overcast in Seattle, which wasnât unusual, but even the fat teardrops felt melancholic. The sign in the window said closed, but you knew Dani would be in the back, organizing new stock. You knocked on the window, the sound rattling through the worn building. A few seconds later, her head of light pink hair came to the door, opening it. Before she could question your presence, you spoke.
âHe didnât want me,â you cried. âHe didnât even see all of me and he didnât want me.â You dropped your bag as she pulled you into a hug. One hand cradled the back of your head as she pulled you out of the rain and into the store. You inhaled her scent, a mix of sea salt and the old bookstore, and squeezed her tightly. When she released you from the hug, she tucked a piece of hair behind your ear, her fingers grazing down your jaw. She gave you a soft smile, before walking to the back of the store, where her apartment was. Your shoes squeaked against the old hardwood floors as you followed her towards the kitchen, where you could smell a pot of tea brewing.
She was silent as she poured you a cup, kissed your head, before whispering everything was going to work out. She slipped out of the room, giving you your space.
You didnât even have to ask. Dani let you stay with her for the summer, as long as you helped out around the store when you werenât doing your own work. She didnât push you for details about Tim, she just let you be. You tried your best to be cheery around the customers but that facade only lasted so long. When you were alone, you didnât try to hide the emptiness you felt there.
***
Too soon did the days start to get shorter, the nights colder, the pitter-patter of raindrops became more constant which meant fall was coming. The season was starting up again, and you had to head back to Ottawa. This summer at home was a nice break but you knew that running away wasnât going to solve all your problems. You were packing when a text from Josh came in.
So when are you getting in?
i land at 9pm on the 20th. Why?
Canât I wonder when my friend gets into the city?
weâre friends?
Of course we are Numbers! I donât share family recipes with just anyone :)
good to know thanks :)
You continued packing, thinking about what he said. You knew the two of you were friends, but he was Timâs teammate. His roommate. To hear him say, regardless of where you and Tim stand, that you two were still good was a relief. As much as youâve enjoyed your time away from the city, you missed work. You missed sitting in the arena, a brisk chill over your shoulder, the sounds of scraping ice and whistles. You missed the quaintness of Ottawa and, as much as heâd never let you forget it, you missed Joshâs cooking. Nights with Dani didnât compare to nights with Brady (and sometimes Emma) and Josh.
Dani parked in the loading zone of the airport. She got out of the car to help with your bag, even though you had only brought one.
âHey, listen, um. I know you donât want to talk about what happened with Tim but⌠I think you need to talk to him.â
âDani...â
âNo, listen. I think you need some closure. You ran away from a city you havenât left in five years, a city you so obviously love, because it hurt to think about him. Maybe closure means you talk to him. Maybe it doesnât. But youâve spent this whole summer looking lost, like youâre waiting for something to magically appear and make everything better. You look like youâve lost a piece of yourself and you donât know how to get it back. And thatâs not you, kiddo. Itâs never been you; youâve always been so straightforward and sure of yourself. I want you to feel like yourself again, thatâs all.â
âWhat ifâŚâ You swallowed the lump in your throat. âWhat if the piece of me that I lost isnât something I can get back?â
âThen you fill it. It might not be perfect and maybe you need lots of tape, and maybe you accept that there will be small cracks in it, but those holes make your souls yours. Itâs a part of life, and you canât avoid it no matter how hard you try.â You pulled her in for a hug, some of the tears in your eyes dropping onto her shoulder.
âThank you Dani. For everything.â She pulled back to wipe the tears from your face, a smile on her face.
âYou know Iâm always here for you, kiddo. Take care of yourself, okay?â You nodded, knowing if you spoke again, more tears would bubble over. You walked towards the departures gate, walking towards the reality you ran from.
Several hours later, you were happy to be back in Ottawa. You had missed it, as much as it pained you when you were here. Tim Hortons, bilingual signs, friendly smiles, and oh god you could have real poutine again. Yeah, it was nice to be back.
Daniâs words mulled over in your head throughout the flight, and continued to as you made your way through the airport. She was right, maybe you needed closure. Accept what happened and move on. Youâd lost friends when you graduated early, youâd lost friends when you moved away. Youâd lost friends before and this was no different.
Except you knew deep down it was different. It was Tim; it was always going to be different with him.
You shook your head, as if to physically rid yourself of the thought. If Tim didnât want to be around you, then you werenât going to waste your time waiting for him to show up. Youâd suck it up everything you had to look at a stat, but other than that youâd focus on work, focus on proving yourself in the company. You started to walk towards where youâd parked your car (without wondering how much the parking was), ignoring the happy reunions of students and families. You had been perfectly fine being in Ottawa on your own until you realized how much better it could be when you had someone.
A hand grasped your wrist and instantly, you turned around and ripped your arm from the stranger. You looked up, first to see a bouquet of flowers made up of peach roses, white tulips, and hydrangeas. Behind the colours of the flowers, you see a familiar face, eyes full of sorrow and hope. Even when you were ignoring him, he was still so easy to read.
âNumber 18.â You struggled to keep your voice even, but you lifted your head to appear as if he had no effect on him.
âHi Y/n,â He met your eyes, which you quickly darted away. âThese are for you.â He tried to hand the bouquet to you, but you shook your head.
âHow did you know when I got in?â The coldness in your voice surprised Tim, but he didnât show it, swallowing slowly before answering you.
âJosh told me." You folded your arms, your hands gripping your bag in case you needed to get away from this conversation.
âJosh mentioned it or you asked Josh?â When he didnât answer, you knew it was the latter and scoffed at his sneaky actions. You quickly turned away from him and moved faster towards the exit. You heard him sigh from behind you and before you could make a sly comment about it beneath your breath, he was ahead of you, blocking your way. You tried to side-step him, but hockey reflexes prevailed. You glared his way and tried again, silently begging him to move.
âCâmon, you have to talk to me sometime, we work together,â He commented.
âThatâs exactly it. We work together. Youâre the high and mighty NHL superstar and Iâm the nerdy analyst. We have our places. They donât mix, so really I donât have to work with you at all. So, please, if you could just move, I have nothing else to say to you.â You tried once more to step around him, but he lightly grabbed your forearm to stop you.
âBut I have stuff to say to you.â
âYou had months to say it, so Iâll say it again, please let me by.â Suddenly, he was on his knees in the airport, the flowers still outstretched in his hands.
âY/n,â
âWhat are you doing?â You hiss to him, your face darting around to see people starting to stare at Timâs grand gesture.
âI need you to talk to me, and you wonât, so Iâll beg until you agree to hear me out,â You could feel more people staring, the shutter of camera phones, the eyes of everyone in the Ottawa airport (or what felt like it) easily making up your mind. There was a reason you were an analyst, away from the spotlight, doing your work behind the scenes.
âGet up,â you started to pull on his arm, but he just stayed anchored to the ground.
âYouâll talk to me?â
â18, I will do anything as long as you stop making a scene,â At this point, your cheeks felt as if youâd stood under the beating sun for an hour. He got up from his knees, the flowers still outstretched in his hands, and you let go of his arm. You grabbed the flowers from his arms, dropping them in a garbage bin as you stalked out of the airport. Tim caught up to you and walked by your side.
You said nothing as you reached your car, unlocking the doors. You didnât even wait for him to have his seatbelt on before you were backing out of the stall and driving away. Thoughts were running wild in your head; you were angry and embarrassed at the stunt he pulled at the airport, appalled at the audacity he had to show up after what he said, and last of all you were reluctantly happy to be back in his presence again. So you went to the one place you knew you could think.
You put the car in park overlooking the suburbs. You turned it off and rested your arms on the steering wheel. You couldnât make the effort to get out and walk to the lookout spot, the car creating a safe bubble for your thoughts.
âWhy wonât you talk to me?â His soft voice broke the tense silence in the car and you scoffed.
âWeâre not friends anymore. Youâre the Senators star player and Iâm just the nerdy analyst. Thereâs no reason for me to need to talk to you.â
âSee, you keep saying that but I-I donât get it! What does that even mean?â You furrow your eyebrows as you turn to face him, his own face scrunched up and his eyes hard.
âWhat do you mean you donât get it? You said that! The last game against MontrĂŠal? I was walking past the locker room and⌠I overheard you talking with the guys.â You looked down to your lap, findling with your hands. You briefly saw Timâs hand start to move towards you, but you shook your head and it stayed in his lap. âYou said you needed a break from me. You said that âat the end of the day they pay me a lot to play my game and theyâre.. themâ. You said you had a problem with me. What was I supposed to take from that except that you didnât want me to be in your life?â
He stammered for words but you cut him off. âNo, I donât think you understand how much it hurt. Hurt to have the one person who I thought understood me to talk behind my back about how I wasnât enough for them. It hurt to know that the one person who I always wanted to talk to, didnât want to talk to me. Hurt to think that youâve only ever seen me as just some nerdy analyst who has no place in your life. I had been fine before, without you in my life, but then you came in and knocked down every barrier I ever had. And then left as if you didnât just break my life into pieces!
âI left Ottawa because it hurt too much to go to all my favourite places, because I went there with you. I let you into my safe spaces, and when you left, you shattered that security. You tainted all the good I had there. I thought that Ottawa was home before I met you,â you scoffed. âNot even close. You feel like home to me. And for you to say that I was a problem in your life?â You shook your head at him and looked down at your hands. âI tried to get over it, believe me I did. But every single place I went I was reminded of you⌠and how everything we had didnât feel like a big deal to you.â
âI never meant for that to happen.â His voice was quiet and strained, as if he was trying to keep his emotions within him.
âYou know the hardest part? I didnât just have to get over losing my best friend. I had to get over someone I fell in love with! I lost the single most important relationship with one tiny little passing conversation. And you acted like nothing happened! Like we were still friends, like you still cared for me-â
âIch liebe dich du trottel!â His outburst caught you off guard and you gulped. His heavy breathing was the only sound in the car as you whispered.
âYou know I donât speak GermanâŚâ
âYou donât need to know German to know what I said,â His eyes were hard, a look you had only seen during games.
âOh.â You shook your head and looked at him. âWait what?â
âI didnât say those things you think I did! You didnât listen to the whole thing! Brady was teasing me about me saying I donât have a problem talking to people I like and I donât normally but youâre the exception! I needed a break from you because everytime I see you, my heart starts beating faster and my hands get sweaty and I donât know how to act! And the guys said that sounds like Iâm in love with you-- and I am! I am! But when I finally started to do something about it, you ran away from me! I didnât know what to do. Besides, if I fell in love with you...it could mess with our jobs. Because if for any reason, something happens, theyâd fire you before theyâd ever trade me. And youâve worked too hard to have an opportunity like this be taken away from you because of me. So... I didnât know what to do. And then you just kept ignoring me and saying those things about how youâre just a nerdy analystâŚ. It felt like we werenât on the same page anymore and I didnât know where it came from or what to do either so I tried to give you space. But then you shut me out. And you said we shouldnât be friends. So I thought that meant.... you wanted to be more than friends? And the boys were saying that you being mean to me was just you having a hard time having feelings for me but then you⌠uh, yelled at me so I left you alone. But that doesnât mean I stopped thinking about you.â He placed one of his hands on top of your tentatively, giving you the option to shoo his hand away. When you didnât, he rubbed the skin on top of your hand. âIt never meant I stopped caring about you.â
He sighed. âI guess I see now that I should not have given you space. I shouldâve been better for you because thatâs what you deserve.â
âI couldâve been better too, this isnât all your fault. I said some mean things.â
âI promise you, that when weâre together Iâm not a NHL player. Iâm just me⌠just Tim from Germany who likes hockey. You have always seen me for who I am, and thatâs...thatâs something I love about you.â
Your breath got caught in your throat. Love⌠was a big word. Love was for confident people. Love was for those who didnât understand the weight of that four letter word. Love wasnât a word you threw around. Love was scary. It asked you to place your bandaged heart in someone elseâs hands and hope they didnât drop it, shattering the pieces into smithereens. Love meant letting down those walls that time and time again had proved that needed to stay up. To protect you. To avoid the heartache of broken trust.
And here he was, throwing that word around as if the implications didnât matter. As if he didnât leave. As if he didnât call you a problem. As if he didnât know the months you spent trying to forget him and the fragments he left behind.
As if he still wasnât understanding.
âI⌠I canât do this.â You go to open the car door only for it to lock. You gasp, and you whip your head around, your eyes sharp. âThis is my car, you canât do that!â His eyes went wide and you tried again, only for it to be locked again. You gritted your teeth and he spoke before you could reprimand him again.
âDonât shut me out again! You say you canât do this, okay, but tell me why. Weâre supposed to-to talk to each other! We wouldâve had no mess if you had just talked to me after you heard what I said! So.. talk to me,â You met his soft eyes, your resolve breaking with just one look. âPlease, schatz.â
You slowly pulled your hand off the handle, letting it fall into your lap. You picked at your fingernails while trying to compose your thoughts, Timâs concerned eyes never leaving you. He murmured your name and you took a deep breath, steadying yourself.
âIâm sorry I just- I donât know if I can jump back into where we were. I know that⌠itâs different than I thought but I canât-â you cut yourself off before you said something you regret and a cold chill ran through you. âIt still hurts. I canât just unhear those things you said. Especially when they came from you. So, Iâm going to need time to process everything.â
He placed one of his hands over your fidgeting fingers and you lifted your head to meet his soft eyes. âIâll give you some space. Just let me know when you know, yeah?â Before you could nod your head, he had opened his door and got out of your vehicle. You quickly got out to question him.
âWhat are you doing?â He turns around at the sound of your voice.
âIâm⌠Iâm giving you space?â
âHow are you planning to get home? Uber?â He shrugged before nodding, with his hands stuffed in his pockets. âUh, no. No. Get in.â He raised his eyebrows and you sighed. âItâs almost 11pm, weâre in a dark forestry area, and you are the least threatening person I know. Iâm not going to let you get stabbed by some murder psycho; you still mean something to me, you know.â
At that he came over to the car, and the two of you got settled back into your seats. After you buckled up and started the engine, Tim broke his silence.
âDid you mean that? That I still mean something to you?â
You swallowed slowly and took a while to answer his question, your hand resting on the gear shift. You put the car in reverse, and looked over at him. âYouâre always going to mean something to me. Just what exactly you are changes.â You backed out of the parking lot and started the drive to his place. He was quiet for a few minutes, pondering your answer, but when he spoke his voice had the quiet confidence he always carried around with him.
âCan I ask what I am right now?â Streetlights illuminated his face and out of the corner of your eye you see him slightly turned towards you, his face unsure.
âNo. Iâll keep you updated?â
âGood enough.â
The rest of the drive back to his house was quiet, aside from the lo-fi beats you had playing in the background. Despite the tension, the drive felt comfortable. When you parked in front of his house, he cleared his throat.
âUm, thank you for the ride. Iâll see you around I guess,â He unbuckled his seat belt and placed his hand on the handle.
âGoodnight Tim.â Despite your smile, Tim really hoped your goodnight didnât also mean goodbye. He got out of your car, walked up the steps to his door, unlocked it and gave you a small wave before he went inside.
Tim was true to his word. He gave you space. He didnât go back to the lookout spot or the war memorial, knowing those were your sanctuaries before they were his. He didnât ask for updates, he didnât stop by your office, he didnât ask Josh how you were doing.
And you appreciated it. The time and space left you alone with your thoughts and you often visited the lookout spot or the war memorial, trying to find some peace, but those spots were now shared with Tim. So, for the first time in a long time, you spent time in your apartment.
When you moved in, you hadnât done anything to the place. Spaces were temporary in your experience. It was more hassle than it was worth to try to make the space your own if, in a year everything was a clean slate. But Dani was right. It had been close to six years now since you moved in. Six years. You had a stable job, you had friends here, it was time to accept that maybe this was more than temporary.
You started by unpacking the last few boxes that were stacked in the hallway. You replaced the command hooks hanging your picture frames with nails. You got new paint to liven up the living room from the basic beige it was before. You put the work into making your apartment really yours. You had to stop living behind walls and this was a first step.
The next step was to really open up.
***
You were waiting outside the dressing room for Tim to get out. You came down as soon as practice finished so you knew you wouldnât miss him. You leaned against the cool concrete, trying to control your bouncing leg. He was one of the last out of the dressing room and you shyly smiled at the other players who left. When he came out, you popped off from the wall and stood in front of him.
âDo you still want to know why I picked hockey?â You could tell your question caught him off guard but he nodded nonetheless. âYou had asked and I brushed it off...because it hurt to think about. Because it was my dad...He loved hockey. Everywhere we went, there was a team he could cheer for, but he always wished that his hometown team would win, no matter how bad they were. He took me to a game once. I had asked why he liked it so much, it was cold and loud and people were drunk and Iâm pretty sure our team was losing. We were down in the crowd and he said to me, âHockey is this great sport. It connects people. It creates families right before your eyes. Enemies can become teammates. This...this sport can be a family for you, anywhere you go. I hope one day you can find something that does the same thing for you.â Two weeks later, he had a heart attack. So, I held onto the one thing that he found belonging in. I liked my math, it made sense, and Iâm good at it. But when it came to doing something with my life, I just- I wanted something to make my dad proud of me, you know? I wanted to feel connected to him.â
Tim was silent but he pulled you into a hug, your head going into the crook of his neck. His arms went around your waist and he held you for a minute. âYour dad would be proud of you. I know he would. Whyâd you tell me now though?â
âWell, friends share personal stuff, right?â You pulled away from the hug just enough to catch his eyes. You looked up at him hopefully, and he smiled.
âYeah, they do.â He broke the hug, but kept an arm slung over your shoulder. âCâmon, friends also eat brussel sprouts for each other.â You laughed at his distaste for them and the two of you walked out the parking lot together, his arm still slung around your shoulders.
***
You looked up at the ceiling, your bedsheets twisted beside you. It had been about two weeks since you told Tim about your dad, and since then, the two of you had been exchanging texts daily. It felt familiar, even though both of you knew it was different. Not a bad different, just⌠different. Youâd been over to his place a couple times and he came over for your place for a âwelcome backâ dinner.
You were nervous to show him your apartment, but you knew you had grown into the space. It was no longer generic beige walls and command strips. The living room had an accent wall and you put nails in the wall to hang your family photos in the hallway. Tim took his time looking around your space, spending extra time in the hallway. He stopped in front of the picture of your family, all four of you, and smiled.
âMy parents are coming into town when we play the Caps in December, if you want to meet them?â He had said when you sat down to eat. You sputtered your drink a little and set down the glass.
âOnly if...you meet Dani when we go to Seattle in January?â His face broke into a grin and he nodded.
âIâd love that.â The rest of the dinner had no issues, just two friends catching up and getting familiar with each other again.
But he wanted you to meet his parents. He wanted you to meet the people who raised him, his family. And you didnât have any hesitations. You wanted to meet the people who made Tim who he is.
This past week solidified that you knew what you wanted. You wanted to meet Timâs family, you wanted to show him around Seattle, you wanted to be with him. If he still wanted to be with you.
If.
He had been pretty clear where he stood on his feelings, but the voice in the back of your mind taunted you with that one tiny two letter word. He might have seen how you reacted, how unstable you were, and how you werenât ready to jump into things as a sign you didnât want this. He couldâve taken your steps to being friends again as being just friends again. He couldâve-
You werenât going to wait around to let what-ifâs and might ofâs and couldâveâs waft around in your head. You needed to talk to him, needed to see him. So in your pajama pants and a hoodie, you braved the Canadian night and drive to his house. You parked the car, rather haphazardly, but it could wait. You skipped a step walking up to his door and quickly phoned him.
You paced back and forth on the small porch as the phone rang three times before he picked up.
âHallo?â His accent was thicker in his native language, the harsh constants sounding so soft from his lips.
âCan you come open the door?â
âWhat?â
âIâm outside. Can you open the door?â
âWhat? Itâs like...early,â
A sigh escapes you. âTim. I know. I know now.â
âWell if you looked at a clock before you left your place, you wouldâve known earlier. That wouldâve-â
âTim.â You gulped and your voice trembled slightly. âIâm ready. I know what I want.â The tone of your voice dropped its lightheartedness and that alone was enough to shake the sleep from his mind. But your words? More than enough to get him out of bed and racing (as quietly as he could in the dark) towards you.
He opened the front door in his sleep joggers to see you pacing and shaking your arms. You hadnât noticed him yet, so he took the opportunity to admire you. The way your hair fell, your Senator pajama pants that Brady gave you as a gag gift, the way you bit your lip between your teeth.
âHey.â His voice broke you out of your trance, your head whipping around to see him standing in the doorframe.
âHi.â Your voice was quiet, the nerves getting the best of you. You stood there for a while, just looking at each other. His hair was a mess and he was wearing the grey hoodie you knew for a fact was his favourite. âOh, right, I have to go first. Um...Are- are you still sure about your feelings for me?â He nodded. âAnd-and theyâre for sure, good feelings?â
â⌠Theyâre such good feelings.â You nodded and gave your body another shake through, as if to dissipate the nerves racing throughout your veins.
âI know itâs taken me a while to kinda sort everything out but⌠I like you too. Thatâs why hearing those things hurt so much. Thatâs why I had to take some time. I've been alone for most of my life and it was scary to let someone in so easily, unknowingly. You just waltzed in and made yourself at home in my heart and it felt like you belonged so I⌠I didnât even realize you could hurt me. And when I heard those things, it hurt more. It just solidified that I shouldâve stayed alone. You canât get hurt if thereâs no one to hurt you right? But every talk, every late night drive, everything we had...it was worth all the hurt. So Iâm ready. I want to do this with you, even if it hurts. I donât know if I can do life without you.â He pushed himself off of the doorframe and came to stand in front of you, his hand cupping your cheeks, soothing the skin under your eyes.
âI didnât mean to hurt you and I donât plan on doing it ever again, Y/n, you have to know that.â You nodded against his hands and you could feel some of his tension fade from his body. âDoes this mean⌠we could be more than friends?â
âI want to be much more than friends with you, Tim.â You bit your lip to try to stop your smile from growing so wide, but it broke through when you saw how wide his smile was and how his eyes crinkled with joy.
âDoes this mean I can kiss you now?â He asked softly, already leaning in. He left space between the two of you so you could decide but you easily leaned into him, your lips meeting. It was gentle but it was loving. You moved in sync, Timâs hand moving to the back of your head to push you closer to him. Eventually, you pulled away for air.
âSchatzâŚâ He breathed and you laughed lightly.
âYou know, I don't think you've told me what that really means,â You said with a cheeky smile.
âWould you like me to say it in English, sweetheart?â He brushed his nose with yours.
âHmm, German is fine,â You tilted your head upwards, almost brushing your lips with his. With your teasing, he let out a groan, bringing you in for another kiss. This time he broke for air, his eyes still slightly closed.
âYou know, you cured my homesickness. I never felt like I missed home because I found home in you,â He whispered. Your heart melted and you brought your lips together with a passion he hadnât seen from you before. Your hands tangled in his hair and he chased your lips as if it was a breakaway. When you broke for air, the two of you were breathless.
âAs much as I want to keep doing that, itâs also very early and I am tired. Can we go back to bed please?â His arms were still around your waist, but he leaned back enough that you could see his face, puppy dog eyes and all. You nodded to his request with a soft smile, and went to remove yourself from his arms and go back to your car, but he tightened his grip.
âI got you now, so Iâm not letting you go.â You buried your head in the crook of his neck and slowly the two of you made your way into the warm house. He led you through the dark hallways to his bedroom, giggling and sneaking kisses where you could.
You fell asleep so easily, the quickest you have the entire time you had lived in Ottawa. And it wasnât only Timâs warmth, or the way his sheets smell like hockey tape and his peppermint shampoo. You had finally opened yourself up. You had found that belonging your dad always wanted you to. And you found that in Tim; whether he knew it or not, he was home.
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"Dude" â Bakugou Katsuki x Reader [P.2]
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[ Part 1 ]; [ Masterlist ]
The new message plastered on your phonescreen earned a small smile from you. After a couple of days of sitting together at the same table due to Mei dumping your lonely ass for her babies, Mina suggested to text just to keep in contact more often. Something you did not expect was to be thrown in a group text with her and her friends.
They were absolutely hilarious; until recently they found out you had decent grades and started asking for your assistance, bugging you to join their study sessions, adding something about Bakugou being an absolute beast whenever he tutors them.
Pinky: Aww sucks that you're not coming! You're missing out Bakugou strangling Kaminari lmfao
You rolled your eyes in amusement. Why of course he'd be doing that.
What a strange little man. He really was; just as you started sitting with them, he'd mainly mind his own business, wearing his normal resting gremlin face and poking his food as if he was practicing murder just for the sake of it. First he orders you to sit with them, then he turns into an antisocial bastard most of the times. Yet, somehow, lunch with them was delightful and you found yourself looking forward to spend time with them, hear about their amusing stories and to top it all, making fun of The Great Bakugou Katsuki turned the whole event into a whole different level of fun.
As you weren't completely oblivious, his wandering eyes were really hard to miss anyway; you'd catch his gaze from time to time and he'd look away, annoyed, grunting like the man-child he actually was. Infuriating; how your heart skipped every single time it happened and how you wanted to have those deep crimson orbs on you again and again.
One thing you did not want to do was to leave Mei to the side; whenever she couldn't hang out she would inform you and you'd find something else to entertain yourself with; in occasions you did march in her workshop and sat your royal ass down without permission. Like as you did today, sitting in silence, you enjoyed the normal machinery sounds and her focused hums as she worked with you by her side. It was calming. The much needed calmness that you craved.
It's been a couple of weeks after the glorious incident and you have been noticing how your classmates, mostly the popular ones, started giving you the stink eye; your spidey-senses very much aware that it had to be Midori's doing yet the girl was keeping a very low profile. The hairs on the back of your neck rising whenever you thought about her next step because this level of radio silence was suspicious.
Between your growing interest into the blond and the dread related to your nemesis, Mei stopped her hard work to frown at you.
"Something's on your mind?" She probed, adjusting her goggles better on her head. "You're awfully quiet~"
Through a small giggle, you nodded but took some time to answer. "I guess?"
"Let me rephrase that." She cleared her throat dramatically "Someone's on your mind?"
A sharp gasp left your lips, realization kicking in; you had Hatsume Mei's full attention for the first time ever. In the workshop. Where her babies were! About to point it out, she narrowed her eyes at you, zooming onto you.
"[Y/N]." It's all she needed to say before you looked down, mind on one person in particular, not noticing how your friend smiled fondly to herself as she placed her hands on her hips; she chuckled lightly.
"Mind sharing what's funny with the class, Mei?" You asked trying to decrypt her expression still locked on you. She shrugged and shook her head, her wild pink locks moving wildly.
"OI, WERDâ" the brash voice interrupted itself in reconsideration. The owner of said voice clicked his tongue and entered her workspace with indifference, looking around. "My gauntlets fixed?" He asked, curiously checking the lone couch in the corner, then turning his glare at her.
Ignoring his question, Mei's inquisitive gaze locked on him. "Are you looking for someone?"
It was as if she pressed a Total Destruction button because even the hairs on his head spiked up more than normally as he threw her a bloodshot glare.
"WHY THE FUCK WOULD I LOOK FOR [Y/N]?! I DON'T EVEN CARE WHEREâ"
"I didn't mention [Y/N] at all though." she cheerily retorted, seeing his position stiffen even more.
"WHATâ WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUTâ WHO EVEN IS [Y/N]?!" Word-vomit took over; he was shaking at this point, panicked and cringing at his own mistake. "I'm SO FUCKING DONE with people giving me SHIT about that dumbass!" he kicked a table trying to prove a point but the girl was unimpressed.
"So you do know [Y/N]."
"YOU KNOW WHAT? FUCK YOU, GOGGLES! Fucking bothersome assholes always buttin' inâ" his voice started fading into the distance as he walked out, fuming with nerves.
She blinked before screaming "What about your gauntlets?" through a smile.
"OH, FOR FUCK'S SAKE, GIVE MEâ" he appeared once again, agitated.
A wave of lava filled your chest as she told you casually, even trying to copy the way he talked, making you laugh in exchange. You shouldn't feel that way, shouldn't you? It was ridiculous since he truly only insulted you and screamed in your general direction; well, it seems he screamed in every direction but it wasn't the point. The point was the warmth in your chest only gave you hope and the still functioning part of your brain begged to differ.
"He's a good guy." You whispered, suddently shy under Mei's knowing gaze.
And he called her Goggles too. You giggled fondly.
â
A few days later, wild gutural screams made you jolt from your desk in panic. You would've recognized that voice anywhere by now so you rushed towards the infirmary door just to find professor Aizawa and two cocoons made of his scarf behind him. His eyebrow was twitching and had a dark aura around him, eyes glowing menacingly but not directed to you.
"I'll fucking kill youâ"
"But Kacchaâ"
"Silence." The irritated and tired looking man said entering the room, dragging said cocoons behind him, knocking one in the door and pulling harder. You cringed, sure thinking he wasn't having a good day.
"OOFâ What the shit was that?" The bundle started to shake uncontrollably which made you giggle. It stopped; halted and froze in place listening attentively as you tried to hide your laughter, trying not to annoy the teacher that seriously gave off a whole Done with life aura.
"You must be [L/N]." he pointed out, undoing one of the cocoons, a big fluffy broccoli like head appearing, big green eyes trying to focus.
"Yes, sir."
"They're beaten. Broken leg and broken rib. Can you heal them or should we wait for Recovery Girl?" The dark haired man went straight to business.
"I can handle that so no need to wait for her."
"Good. I'll leave them in your care." With a nod, he also released the blond, making him tumble and fall on his face. The poor guy groaned but bolted up with a raised fist.
"Behave." The older man said walking away, not really caring about Bakugou's heated muttering. The door shut gently and you found yourself looking at two boys; one fuming and avoiding your eyes, the other on the floor, staring up at you. His leg looked wonky so you fought back a face of discomfort before going to his aid.
"You." You pointed at Bakugou then at the bed. "Sit." A grin spread on your face as you used his words, meanwhile you leaned down to help Midoriya Izuku.
His eyes were absolutely intimidating, as if the boy tried to search within your soul as you helped him up.
"My name is [L/N] [Y/N] and I'm going to heal you today." He returned your smile with ease and nodded, his fluffy green hair shaking through the action.
"I'mâ"
"Midoriya Izuku, yes. You're pretty popular, you know?" His face went all red, taken back by the fact.
Curses could be heard behind both; your hand was supporting Midoriya's weight as he only hopped ahead with his good leg, leaded towards a bed. Shuffling sounded too, still accompanied with another round of indistinguishable curses and grunts.
When the green-haired boy was securely placed, you turned towards the other, finding him sitting on the edge of the bed furthest away from Midoriya, pouting adorably.
"So you've got a broken rib, right?"
"What's it to you?" It was his turn to be a petty little shit and copy your words, still not looking up. His leg was shaking and his posture looked uncomfortable so it was not the time to get into your usual bickering.
"Lay down." He tsk-ed sharply. "Please." You pleaded, pursing your lips at his childish attitude. He finally snapped his eyes on you, just slightly widened in what could be surprise but you couldn't tell. All that mattered was that he ended up doing what you said. Though with more huffing, as if it bothered him immensely.
"Ya happy now?" He snapped.
"Very! Nowâ" you're taken back yet again by the intensity of those green eyes that looked between you and Bakugou with interest. "I'm gonna have to give you an anesthesic and adjust your leg back in place before healing youâ"
Like a working bee, you ran around the infirmary getting your syringe ready, a little bit too nervous as two pair of eyes burned into your back.
"Where do you know each other from, Kacchan?" Izuku asked. Even if his leg hurt like a bitch, he couldn't help but be curious about the person Kacchan has been having lunch with for the past weeks; but what type of response could you get from the one and only?
"Mind your own damned fucking business!"
You sighed, irritated but the nickname didn't fly above your head. In all means, he shouldn't be screaming. He had a broken rib and he was screeching like an idiot. Didn't it hurt to even breathe?!
"Bakugou, you need to lay low and shut up."
There wasn't any time to play around; Midoriya behaved exemplary, just barely wincing at the syringe probing his knee but did not complain at all. The polar opposite of the blond beds away.
After letting the anesthetic to take effect, you moved towards the guy that's been living rent free in your head. He looked beaten up, had a bloody nose, open-wounded knuckles and shaky hands.
"Okay, I need you to relax." You whispered, trying to lift his tank-top but he stopped your wrist.
"The fuck yOu doing?!" his voice cracked momentarily while hyperventilating.
"Dude, take slow, steady breaths. In order to heal you I need to touch the skin closer to the wound." It wasn't entirely true but not exactly a lie either. After a pause for consideration he nodded but his eyes remained wary. "You've seen me do it before! Now show me where it hurts."
You needed concentration, focus, steady hands, rock-hard abs and tanned skinâ Nooooo, [Y/N]!
All your might; all of it to act nonchalant and professional, to not fucking stare like a degenerate because he was absolutely built. But you couldn't help it. You couldn't help placing your palm on his ribs gently, instead of just the tip of your fingers as you normally would've needed. His sigh of relief made you incredibly giddy, feeling accomplished and fulfilled knowing you've done a great job for him. You also couldn't help healing his most visible wounds one by one instead of doing it all together in one single touch.
Were you flustered? Definitely and his attention only made it worse. You picked one of his hands and he spasmed away but ultimately gave in with a choked grunt; then grabbed the other and channeled your energy into his body.
Your heads were tilted downwards, both staring at how his knuckles healed slowly. What neither him or you noticed was how all his scratches and bruises all over him healed too, or the prying eyes of a third wheel that was already taking notes of your quirk.
"Okay." You whispered, not really wanting to let go. Your brain screamed Dishonor! but your heart skipped a beat, then another, then exploded when you lifted your gaze.
Crimson eyes looked at you in awe, wide and never this clear. They were shining too and you couldn't help but give his strong hands a squeeze, feeling in the calloused skin of his palm and wondered which one of you was shaking... He blushed then and opened his mouth, yet his brows furrowed as his focus shifted behind you.
"THE FUCK YOU STARING AT, PUNK?!"
Oh, yeah. Your other patient.
In a heartbeat you were by Midoriya's side and got to work, chest heavy and no words coming out of you. No snappy or cheeky retorts either, just trembling hands and warm cheeks. Only with murmurs you guided him through the procedure before healing him completely.
Dizziness overtook you; the downside of your quirk and something you've been training with Recovery Girl for the whole semester.
"That was amazing, [L/N]-san! Thank you!" The boy cheered, staring down at his leg in utter disbelief. His compliment made you grin, full and proud.
"Of course it was!" Your normal self surfaced.
"Fucking woo-hoo." Nevermind. Mood dropped and your face did too.
"Well, since you've been a good patientâ" you start and ruffle through your bag "You get a lollipop!" Said candy was thrown in Midoriya's lap and he stared at it baffled. Meanwhile you turned towards the bane of your existence and raised a brow, shaking another lollipop in your hand. "You don't. This one is mine because I deserve it."
His angry, stupid and scandalized expression was everything you were looking for. Did you get out of your way to buy lollipops knowing Bakugou would end up in the infirmary sooner or later? Maybe. Was it worth it?
"What the fuck does that mean, dammitâ Iâ" words caught in his throat as he choked with air, looking at the candy in your fingers with murderous intentions. Definitely worth it.
"Thank you?" Broccoli Boy asked but started unwrapping it, probably not to insult your kindness, and the whole interaction fueled Bakugou's anger. He snapped out of the bed and so did Midoriya, but one was marching towards you while the other just wanted to run away in fear, direction Exit.
"Gimme that shit!" He tried to grab it out of your grasp, but you moved away, laughing at his face.
"Midoriya has been nice and thanked me for the healingâ" at this point he was boiling. "Say Thank you, [Y/N], you're amazing and awesome andâ"
"LIKE FUCKING HELL IMMA SAY THAT, DUMBASS!" he was so sweet, the guy you liked; yeah, your sudden realization hit as he looked like a tomato ready to bite your head off and the only thing you could think was how adorable and sweet he was. All gurgling in rage, spitting cussed words left and right; dreamy, he was dreamy. He caught the lollipop from your hands, his scowl turning into a full blown victorious grin. So shiny... so bright... God, he was so handsome...
You're suddently falling in his arms in slow-motion, the world around you twisting and turning with him in the center of it all. Warmth engulfed your frame as you hit the most comfortable pillow of your life. His chest.
"Oi, [Y/â" he cursed, taking no time to place you on the bed with ease. "You okay?"
"W-What happened? Is she okay?" It seemed the famous Deku decided to remain for the spectacle.
"Get lost!"
Even if you wanted to pass out, his snaps wouldn't let you and with that thought you chuckled breathlessly. "I'm fine, I just need a nap after healing this much..." you assured into the air.
"Will you be okay, [Y/N]-san?" You turned your head until you spotted him and nodded through a smile but someone else answered for you.
"I see you took matters in your own hands." The sweet, gentle voice of your mentor put you to ease but scared poor Midoriya to the core as she appeared behind him at the door. Bakugou was still hovering over you in bed, not really knowing what to do. "You should leave [L/N] rest, boys." With tiny steps she walked around, not really paying any more attention to the scene.
The blond gave you a glance and pursed his lip, analyzing the candy in his hand. Through half-lidded eyes you saw him secure it in his fist and give you a nod. At this point everything was blurry.
"Thanks... or whatever." He didn't waste any time to bolt towards the door, his broad uncovered shoulders were the last thing you saw before closing your eyes in contempt.
"Kacchan, is [Y/N]-san yourâ?"
"MIND YOUR GODDAMâ" the door shut close, making the room tremble and you giggled like a drunk fool.
â
Bakugou walked with his hands in his pockets, looking around with little interest as Dunce Face and Racoon Eyes blabbered without pause to breathe. Fuck, he was exhausted and the concept of shoving food down his throat sounded fucking fantastic. His insides turned and twisted knowing you'd be meeting them soon.
"Yo, isn't that [Y/N]?" Like a flash, his head bolted in the direction Denki pointed at and before he spotted you, the blond already wanted to punch himself in the jaw. Why the fuck is he acting like that? The answer faded in his mind as the scene unfolded in front of him.
â
"You're such a fucking bitch, you know that, [Y/N]?" Arms crossed, you placated the poor first year that was whispering behind you.
"Wow, Midori, so original." With a dead tone and rolling eyes from you, the white haired demon only twisted her face in disgust. "My feelings are hurt."
"Who do you think you are? You're a fucking nobody, [Y/N]! You think you're doing any good here? Go kill yourself!"
"And give you the satisfaction? No, not happening, you fork-tongued lizard." Your nails looked interesting.
Her pale purple eyes got ignited and her diminute frame puffed, like a rabid little mole-rat ready to bite someone. And just like that, she took a deep breath and started yapping and barking. "YOU'RE BETTER DEAD ANYWAY, YOU WHORE! YOU RUIN EVERYTHING! NOW EVERYONE IS TALKING ABOUT ME! ABOUT HOW YOU STOLE HIM FROM ME! DIE ALREADY!"
Sadly you didn't have any cookies on since you definitely felt like shoving one in her fanged, venomous mouth and patting her head for the effort. Your lips turned oh, so slowly into a grin, enjoying her reaction way too much.
"That's nice. Now can you like, I don't know, go back to making potions with your coven or some crap? Leave the kid aloneâ"
"This pathetic little shit was talking about me! ME!" her screech hurt your ears so you covered them before you turned to the kid to just see him standing there, petrified.
"Did you try to summon Satan and she appeared insteaâ?"
"I'M SO FUCKING DONE WITH YOUR CRAP, YOUâ" she pushed you but grasped your uniform, a ripping sound following. "UGLYâ" nothing prepared you to get attacked by her. "FATâ" she raised her palm. "WHORE!"
No way in hell you were going to back down, instead you clenched your jaw and got ready to block it and finish the fight. She never remotely attended to hit you in a somewhat public place as she was a careful witch, always brewing something in that rotten brain of hers and making sure to keep her sweet appearance on point for the public.
You blinked.
"That was insane!"
The scenery in front of you suddently changed with that one single blink and a tall blond mass of muscle just popped out of nowhere. It knocked the air out of your lungs for a moment and seeing him staring down at her with such hatred, holding her wrist high in the air made you feel immense relief, much to your own surprise.
Were you that tense before?
"Midori-chan, I didn't know you were this rotten." Kaminari appeared in your field of vision too but got ignored by the girl. Her only goal was to free herself from Bakugou's grip but he wouldn't bulge.
"Y-You got it all wrong, Bakugou-s-san!"
Everyone stood there silent, utterly disgusted with her attempt to even try to twist reality.
"Don't even fucking think about it." He warned and those words rumbled deep, threat held within.
"We heard it all, Midori." You shook in place, twisting to see Mina by the kid's side, patting his back. After being used to seeing her easy-going attitude it was only natural to be amazed by her somber tone and serious manner.
Why were you so relieved? kept creeping in your mind. Why?
He then threw her wrist out of his grasp and bared his teeth in her direction, globes so bloodshot scrutinizing her. He oozed rage and fury and was combusting in place. But he did not scream. Bakugou Katsuki did not scream for once when he started talking, instead he growled his words, each with care and clarity.
"If i ever fucking hear you talking like that to anyone ever again I willâ fuckingâ break you." you could hear his teeth grit, the sound making you shiver both in terror and excitement. "NOW GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY FACE! I BETTER NOT FUCKING SEE YOU OR HEAR ABOUT YOU EVER AGAIN!" she yelped, fluttering her tears away and scurrying so fast it could've been comical.
Bakugou then spun to study you, chest raising and falling heavily. You couldn't descypher his appearance at the moment; there was the aggravation, the outrage, the burning flame in his orbs but also... Uncertainty? Guilt? Shame? It wiped off his face before you could figure it out.
"We're taking him to talk to a professor about what happened." Mina's voice faded in the distance. He nodded at Kaminari, who was behind you, and got a nod in response plus a pair of thumbs up, and with that they were gone.
He still tried to control himself, but as soon as you parted your lips to say anything at this point, he snarled into the nothingness. "THAT FUCKING BITCHâ"
"Bakugou..."
"FOR HOW LONG?" he then screamed at you, malice gone but tone just as rough and loud.
"For how long what?" You said calmly while also noticing and adjusting the ripped sleeve of your uniform. He ran his palm over his face, eyeing it too.
"For how fucking long has this been going?"
"Oh, herâ" there was this pressure to say it out loud, to confirm what it really was, like saying it out loud would give it weight, importance...
"Her bullshit, yeah." he didn't force it either, thankfully.
"Since we were in middle-school." you shrugged, chest and neck aching without an apparent reason. You cleared your throat.
"Stop thatâ Stop that fucking shit. Don't do that." He got close to you in a single step and you had to look up at him, feeling so small out of a sudden by his side. You smiled, as you taught yourself to do whenever things got tough.
"Do what?" It came out shaky, too shaky for your own taste but he was so close.
"Act like it doesn't fucking matter! Like it's no big fucking deal!" His breath fanned your face.
"I mean..." you started shrugging again but he stopped the action, palms holding your shoulders in place as he gave you a pissed off look. "It doesn't really mattâ"
"YES, IT FUCKING DOES!"
His fingers held you in the spot as he inspected your features with a clenched jaw and classic furrowed brow. Flames erupted in your ribcage at his words and you couldn't even breathe anymore.
You licked your lips, not sure if you could say the next words but the fact that he focused on the action too attentively gave you the push needed. "What's it to you?"
His breath hitched, fanning over your face as he stiffened. Deep crimson waved between your own orbs and your lipsâ
Those flames? The flames that burned your inside? They were spreading throughout your body rapidly, the epicenter at the spot where his thumb caressed your skin at the edge of your shoulder, just touching the start of your collarbone. Even through the layer of fabric you felt it, as tiny as it was, but he did not do anything, just stood there with red tinted cheeks in daze. Much like you were.
"Thank you for saving me today, Bakugou." You whispered and he just nodded, still enthralled with your lips. At least you knew he was somewhat still there with you. Involuntarily, you bit your lower lip, just a little, smiling softly, taking the smallest step towards him; the corner of his lip turned up slightlyâ
"[Y/N]! Director Nezu wants to talk to you too!"
The spell was broken; you yelped into him, grabbing his shirt for support and checked your surroundings. A waving hand caught your attention; Kaminari was signaling you to go to him then froze and started running away; little did you know someone was sending him a death glare.
You cleared your throat, still warm and fuzzy from head to toe and separared from the blond that caught you in his arms. Bakugou seemed to have noticed the position too because he jerked away a step back and looked completely out of place.
Ridiculous. And hilarious, looking anywhere but you and still made no attempt to move. Neither did you, instead opting to hide a giggle.
Because you felt warm, tingly, all while he was a complete gremlin, sweet in his own personalized way, in which he cared for you, he defended you.
And you're in disbelief because how come this guy, this adorable, blushing porcupine with anger issues made you feel so soft and fragile? How did you end up in this situation and how can you stay in it forever?
"What's so fucking funny, hah?" There wasn't any bite to what could've been an aggressive wording, just hidden tenderness. He fought a smile too and had the audacity to try to act annoyed. Sadly, you had to go, so you shook your head and took a step back.
Bakugou understood, so he nodded and shoved his hands in his pockets.
"I'll see how later, ok?" You promised and he glanced at you from the corner of his eye. Now you had his ear in full view for you to see the tips reddened too. You want to melt, even coo at the sight, but you really did have to go. However, you couldn't leave without sending him a cheeky smile.
"Yeah, whatever." His jaw sinked a little in the collar of his shirt as he stomped away too.
â
The whole afternoon was spent talking to a counselor and to the principal himself about a problematic individual. The first year student was encouraged by your new friends to report it as they escorted him to safety and soon an internal investigation started; maybe, possibly because of you.
Why were you so relieved?
Because they listened to you. Because they believed you. Because you didn't have to prepare yourself every single morning to take verbal hits from all directions. Because you've been given a voice, unlike your old school where everything was brushed off; "It's your word against hers" and much more bullshit. No, this time was real and they proved it by listening to every single word you said.
You were dropped at your dorms just before 9 P.M. and it was too late to meet anyone at the point. But it wasn't important; the moment you landed on your bed a smile broke on your face, a few tears fell and you had the best sleep in forever.
â
The air changed. The aura around your class switched. Midori was clearly missing, which instantly turns a bad day into a fantastic one, but it wasn't only that. Students were called, one by one, again and again interrupting class and took hours to come back. Meanwhile the Divas in particular looked concerned, another great view to enjoy now and until the rest of time.
It was obvious why this was happening and you never felt this much peace and satisfaction. Even so, you started to feel overwhelmed because people suddently started greeting you. The people that weren't in Midori's toxic and constricted entourage.
They said your name! Without hatred! The school's goldenboy's name, Kaminari Denki, was dropped again and again too. It seems he just casually started mentioning what he witnessed the day before and you suddently felt the need to hug him tight. Gossip spread like wild fire thanks to him, after all.
Maybe you fell into a parallel universe but you couldn't bring yourself to care, you just waltzed on the hallways after the bell rang, wanting to go get some food, then hide at Mei's workshop for some recharging. Another part of you wanted to meet the explosive boy too, though.
In all honesty, it didn't matter where you ended. You were in an incredible mood.They talked to you and it was exhausting but nice!
Was this what it felt in horror movies when the demon-child with rotating head and projectile vomit was finally exorcized? Was the curse really released for good?
As you floated in the skies, high on life and what-not, you turned the corner just to run nose straight into a wall. Your brain decided to take a break for the day, it seems, and you genuinely hoped nobody saw you march head first intoâ It wasn't a wall, but a boy that gave you a raised brow and narrowed eyes.
"Watch where the fuck you're going, dumbass."
"Great to see you too!" you chippered, walking around him, knowing for a fact his attitude wouldn't be able to piss you offâ
"What's with the idiotic expression?" Nevermind, he can go fuck himself. Yet you smiled because you're a Godsend angel and that's what winged saints do.
"Just really happy." You shrugged, walking away with ease and tried to bite a bigger smile off your face when you noticed him turning to walk with you. "What are you doing on this side of the campus?" You inquired.
"Came to walk you to lunch or whatever." Well, damn, that made you halt in surprise. He's behind you, staring out the window with disinterest but froze when he saw your dumbfounded face. "WHAT? IT WAS IN MY WAY, OK? Want me to leave? I can leave! You can fuck offâ" You placated your hands and started laughing.
"No, noâ" Your eyes glint. "It's really sweet of you." You said, awaiting his reaction with mischief.
He first choked on air, like one normally does, and then showed the worst allergic reaction to mere words. "SWâ! THAT'S NOTâ I'M NOTâ YOUâ Iâ NOâ" in no time you're crackling like a deranged witch, adoring every single second of the show he was pulling. He was basically howling and your laughter actually infuriated him more.
"FUCK OFF!" Your amusement calmed down as you studied him, his puffed cheeks, red eyes avoiding you; with a few stomped steps he placed himself ahead of you but made no attempt to stand you up and go be a hermit somewhere else.
Bakugou Katsuki. Ash blond hair, broad back, pink ears... Swears like a sailor, is all bark and and all bite, except with his friends. Has a big heart...
"Something strange is happening." You find yourself saying.
"Hah?" He glances back.
"People have been acting weird." That stops him.
"They better not be fucking messin' with youâ"
"No, on the contrary, they're nice to me..." you assured, voice faint as his comment repeated in your mind and your chest warmed up once again because of him.
They better not be fucking messin' with you.
"Good." He says and you can't bite your tongue.
"You're a good guy, Bakugou."
He gives you a face. "Hah? Now you fucking notice?!" But he's grinning at the end of the sentence, cocky and so full of himself and you'd lie if you said you didn't consider him incredibly handsome. Although it seems he did not get the message.
"No. I mean it for real. You really are a good guy." He grunts like he hurt himself in his own confusion, staring stupidly at you, slightly blushing. "You're gonna be such a great hero too." Mouth agape to try to answer, he just gives you plate eyes and nothing else. On the other hand you genuinely expected more explosive reactions but this seemed to have broken him for some good seconds. He stared and watched and stood there like an idiot in front of you, making you want to both bury yourself in your own embarrassment and laugh at him.
You opted to look up at the ceiling, flustered and amused, yesterday's events suddently washing over you; they never really left your thoughts but now all the feelings decided to come visit once again.
"Oiâ" he better not ruin it. "Whâ The fuck you kissing my ass for?!" You breathe out, long and loud for him to understand how stupid he sounded and stalked ahead; only food could save the day he's been actively ruining and that's what you were gonna get. He followed your rushed steps with cusses and questions until he grabbed your wrist to slow your pace. "Slow down, dumbass!"
The issue was that his obnoxiously loud voice caught then attention of some students that were just minding their own business.
"Is that Bakugou Katsuki?" Earning a groan from him as if it wasn't his fault!
"âwith [L/N] [Y/N]?"
"Are they holding hands?!"
"So they're really together?" You cringe in embarrassment.
"Is that a confession?!" No, no, absolutely not happening. You rush out of the scene, gut burning, the boy on your toes cursing and mumbling whatevers but you didn't reach far until he talks. At least he had the decency of stopping you at an empty spot before giving you a heart attack.
"This is when you confessâ or some fuckingâ dumb shit like that." Even without seeing him, back turned and absolutely petrified, you heard the cocky vibration in his tone that was sprinkled with some light stuttering.
Son of a bitch. That prinkly ass cocky fuck. That absolutely handful of a sea urchinâ
You checked the closest stairway, your nearest exit and pathway to your salvation but something in that attitude of his just made you shake as you covered your face and laugh.
"You're... You're the worst." You mumble in disbelief but the grin that almost broke your face got even bigger as he choked and inhaled sharply.
"Hah?! Wasn't I the fucking best a minute ago?!"
"I did not say thaâ"
"Same shit!" He bites when you glanced on him through your fingers. Your skin was burning so hot it would've been mortifying if he didn't look just as rattled. The view managed to calm your nerves and spike them at the same time.
"You're the worst..." Finally uncovering your face, he takes in your grin and visibly calms his fuming yet remains just as discomposed. "âand I like you."
Still, you cover your mouth because the blond in front of you started combusting and it was glorious to watch. Hell, you felt like grabbing a snack and watching him go through all those feelings that slapped his face on repeat. First his eyes widened, the teasing from before forgotten, then his skin, already splashed with red transformed completely into the same color, so deep it in resemblance with his eyes, eyes that were reading into you intensely. He went rigid too and as time passed and passed and he did not move, the only thing left was to break him out of his misery. Yes, break him.
"This is when you say it back."
He snapped. "Iâ DON'T FUCKINGâ DON'T FUCKING MAKE ME SAY EMBARRASSING SHIT LIKE THAT!" Birds flew away in one mile radius, windows trembled, your eardrums cried for mercy and you hid your smile because even through deafening volume, Bakugou Katsuki did not deny it. A zoo totally high on crystal meth started a revolution in your insides and the feeling threatened to burst out at any moment.
This is it. This ball of emotional constipation was taking your breath away while cussing you after you confessed and all you wanted to do was to squeal... What have you become?
But you said nothing, just stared with your hand covering your mouth, taking in the boy that looked like he wanted to throw fists with you, bared teeth and all, and also simultaneously die of a stroke.
"Iâ" he tried, you had to give him credit because he really did try. Like a challenge, like he wasn't going to back down, he gave his best and not without looking like it killed him inside. "Fâ" cuss word got stuck in his throat when you couldn't help a scoff. Suddently the show comes to an end when he halts, gives you a glare and takes a deep breath. For a moment you feared he'd walk away. Oh, how wrong you were because deep down you had to know he did not back down easily.
"I likeâ you, too." Beautiful words came out of his mouth, looking like it physically pained him to say them. "THERE, I SAID IT! YOU FUCKING HAPPY NOW?!" He howls indignantly, crossing his arms, trying to hide his clear flustered self yet it takes him one glance at you to return to his self induced stroke. "Don't fucking make that dumb fucking faceâ" he struggled to exist. "Don't look at me like that, dammit!"
You giggle, relieved and happy and in all honesty about to cry a tiny bit. You couldn't help it, enamored with how blissful this moment was. Bakugou stops his grunts and watches you in awe, small, minuscule grin taking over his face and he clicks his tongue, trying to fight it.
And deflects, as always.
"C'mon. Have to walk you there before you get lost or some shit like that." You breathe in and nod, even thought you were perfectly capable of walking to the cafeteria as you've done it for a year and some now.
"Okay."
"You'd be starving if it weren't for me." You snort and roll your eyes, but beam like a lovestruck idiot.
"Sure thing, dude." It instantly earns a grunt, then a pout, followed by grumbles and heavy feet by your side. You check on him, noticing his shrugged shoulders and tinted nose and you almost trip with your own legs because of it. He doesn't say anything for the longest time, which you didn't mind as you yourself needed some time to shoo away the butterflies and rainbows that floated all around in your very empty head. It wasn't until you almost reached the cafeteria that he stops you by the arm and looks away.
"Youâ You shouldn't call your boyfriend dude, dumbass."
Remember the butterflies? Now they're radioactive and fluttering around, crazed and disoriented.
"Says the one that calls me a dumbass, Bakugou." You relent, thankful he took the initiative to answer the question that lingered in the air throughout all the walk.
A wild flush takes over him and he refuses to turn toward you, just observing from the corner of his eyes.
"It'sâ It's Katsuki to you, dumbass." And he drags you inside without giving you a chance to process it. But when you do, you grin like mad and whisper just as you were manhandled through the door, preparing yourself for his explosive gargling and screaming and silently apologizing to everyone in your general proximity.
"Okay, Kacchan~"
Note: Thank you for reading and for any sweet mesages! I read each and every one of them and they make me so incredibly happy!! I would like to point out that the phone editor switches around paragraphs and it's very confusing. I edited some mistakes and for now it's good but I'm scared it wasn't fixed since I edited before too and I encounter the same problem again... If you find something off, could you please let me know? I want the reading to be enjoyable for everyone after all. Thank you again! đ
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I Know Who You Are
Tobi/Obito x Reader
Synopsis: You knew his secret and when it came to light that you knew who he was, you were slightly worried about his reaction... Lets just say, it didnât go as planned.
A/n: oof this gives me Phantom of the Opera vibes and I am NOT sorry
Tag: @brithedemonspawn (I have been so inconsistent so sorry)
You knew the minute you laid eyes on him, that he was an Uchiha. You werenât sure if it was the way his red eye shone through the hole of his mask, the way he acted like a God, or if it was just a feeling.Â
But you knew... You knew he was an Uchiha.
He didnât know you knew, in fact, in the 4 months that you had been dating the Akatsuki member you not once saw his face. Well, youâve seen it but he was unaware of that fact. Now you two are reaching the 5 month and your fingers are aching to rip the mask off and kiss him...
A silly desire, but a desire nonetheless.
âCome my cutie pie!!! I wanna cuddle!â Deidara rolled his eyes at the way Tobi called out for you, causing you to shoot a smirk to the younger boy. âIâll get him off your back, sorry...â your weak apology only annoyed Deidara more as Tobi once again called out your name, why was he stuck with you two?? Sure Tobi was slightly less annoying when you were around, but he managed to be more annoying PDA wise. Every second the masked man could, he was hanging on you or forcing you to hang onto him. You didn't mind, but it irked Deidara like no other.
Which is why you tried to put distance between Deidara and you two, hoping it would help ease his murderous instincts to try and kill Tobi. Because of this attempt, it meant that you and Tobi slept somewhere else. It was usually close to where the fire was, but you figured that Deidara would need the heat since he was by himself.
Breaking through the tree lines, you saw Tobi propped against a tree with a tiny fire by his feet. His body heat alone was enough to keep you warm but there was something special about sleeping next to a fire, curled up into your lovers arms. The mere sight of him had your mind reeling and your heart pounding, that silly desire once more emerging and making your fingers itch in anticipation. God, you just wanted to rip everything off of him. Cloak, shirt, pants...
Mask.
"Y/nnnnn" Tobi's high pitched voice pulled you from your sultry imagination. His arms were outstretched and his large hands were opening and closing violently as he whined for you to come to him. He looked almost childish doing the grabby hands, but it made your stomach flip all the same. Tonight was the night.
You were going to tell him.
Your feet shuffled across the forest floor and you oddly found comfort in the way the leaves crunched beneath your soles. You could do this, you had to do this. His hands grabbed your wrists as soon as you got close and before you could stop it you were pulled down into his embrace. "I missed you my dearest cutie pie!!" He hollered out into the night air, arms wrapping tighter around you as if his goal was suffocating you. Soon, his grip loosened and you two fell into a comfortable silence. Now was your chance.
It was time for both of you to come clean.
"Did I ever tell you my obsession with the Uchiha clan?" Tobi slightly stiffened beneath you but he relaxed quickly after, as if he was flexing a muscle... But you knew better. "No. Why are you obsessed with a clan that's dead?" His childish voice seemed to drop to a whisper, but it wasnt the deep voice you wanted to hear. You wanted the real voice behind that mask, the real man behind that facade. You wanted Obito Uchiha, not Tobi.
Not anymore.
"It really is silly" you started with a giggle "The Uchiha in my grade didn't notice me... But I noticed him. Fell in love with him-" Tobi instinctively tightened his grip, jealousy raging through him as he thought of the other Uchiha men who were better than him. Ignoring the jealous aura radiating off of him, you continued on hoping he'd get the hint. "His best friend was one of the best... Everyone loved Kakashi... But not me... No, I wanted the goofy one with the goggles-"
Your body hit the ground as Tobi hovered over you, and while you couldn't see his face, the bright red peering through the darkness told you that you struck a nerve. Deep down, you knew that he would react like this at first... He would think that you were a spy tasked to kill him and that today was the day for said task. But he was wrong.
Your lip curled into a pout, tears brimming in your eyes at the sheer intensity of his anger. "I loved him so much... But he died" a light gasp could be heard from the man above you as he loosened his grip on your wrists. The emotion you were showing wasn't fake or forced, it was pure. He leaned off of your chest, allowing you to sit up in front of him. Your head was tilted up, mere inches away from the mask that you wanted to destroy. Slowly, you lifted your hands from the ground and towards the edge of the mask, eyes focused on his Sharingan to see if he was about to snap again. But he didn't and instead, he let you grab the mask.
"I know who you are, Obito" you breathed out as your fingers slipped under the edge, trembling in anticipation at the thought of seeing him again. Your one true love, the person who didn't even know you existed. He was still the love of your life and he always would be, but now.... Now he knew who you were.
"And I've never stopped loving you, my favorite Uchiha"
The mask came off with the utterance of his last name. Your chest felt hollow as your heart bounced around wildly within, he was beautiful. He was alive. You let out a stuttered cry of relief, fingers brushing across his cheeks before cupping them in angst. Obito averted his gaze, embarrassed at how he looked and afraid that you'd be disappointed. In all honesty, he knew who you were and some could argue that he did have a crush on you as well. But Rin came first, she always did. So what the hell changed? Why is it that you, of all people, come into his life and change how he feels about everything. "You're so beautiful Obi" his eyes flicked back to your tearful ones, heart swelling at how you looked at him with pure love and adoration. "I'm a monster" the wind seemed to be knocked out of you as he finally let his real voice come through, deep and terrifying to anyone who didn't know him well enough. Your lips curled into a smile as you moved to press his forehead against yours. "If you're a monster, then I want to be one too" silence filled the tense air at your words, and that's when he realized something.
You joined the Akatsuki because of him.
You saw his eyes widen and knew that he finally figured it out, but before he could speak a word you slammed your lips onto his. It took him a second before he joined in to the kiss, his inexperience evident by the way he was clashing his teeth with yours. Obito once again encircled his arms around your body before pulling you closer, wanting nothing more than to sink deeper into the kiss. Finally, he could be real with someone who wasn't Zetsu.
Finally, he found you.
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lesson learned
pairing: nerd!jaemin x reader
genre: smut / slight fluff
warnings: language, unprotected sex (stay safe!), riding, thigh riding, grinding, finger sucking, dirty talk, slight degradation
prompts: none
summary: tinted cheeks and sheepish glances mightâve been a delight to observe every time his eyes scanned intellectual phrases on books, but as your words reached dangerous levels, you realized not all is what it seems.
requested by anon.
word count: 2.5k
note: anonnie... I think I got carried away with this a lil bit, oops. I hope you enjoy this though, thank you for requesting! jaemin with glasses is superior oof
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Na Jaemin. Pink cheeks and flushed neck and ears, thin-rimmed glasses that rested peacefully on the bridge of the most perfect nose youâd seen, and his sharp eyes that appeared narrow and hooded as they scanned over way too complicated words that showed up unnecessarily in fiction books.
He wasnât the stereotypical nerd, in fact, he quite honestly debunked endless labels and beliefs that people like him had endured for years. Unlike portrayed in movies or anywhere else, Na Jaemin was impressingly handsome if you said so yourself. Masculine yet soft features adorned the smooth of his skin like a freshly painted artwork, facial structure built with a jawline that youâd mistake to be carved out by the gods themselves if you didnât know any better, and an overall physique that even the most athletic guys at college envied. How come the schoolâs certified nerd was also the biggest hottie? Pair that up with a well-mannered and gentle personalityâyou get the sweetest boy at heart.
Conservative and reserved most of the time, with his second home being the local library, Jaemin was almost always indulged in some sort of imaginary world. Although popular for his looks, nobody dared approach him, as everybody knew how much he overflowed with shyness, and even oftentimes unintentionally blocked out the social souls that made an effort to utter a word to him.
It didnât come as a surprise that his grades were also astronomically A+ class and more. There was no need for him to search with concern over universities and a promising education, because unlike you, they actually chased after him. On the other hand, though you did an okay job at even the most challenging subjects, it wasnât enough to you or to your demanding and irritable parents. Given that, your teacher thought that if you really wanted to improve, getting Jaemin assigned as a tutor seemed like a perfect idea.
Indeed; it was.
Somehow the smartest and quietest senior also turned out to be picky. His looks werenât the only thing he was popular forâhis constant declines on those who wished desperately for his help was too. To say you were shocked that he agreed to lend you a hand, was an understatement.
You officially met Jaemin on a Monday afternoon when the bell rang loudly throughout the empty halls and students escaped tiredly the dull classrooms as if they were prisons. Your calculus teacher called you and the boy over to her wooden, polished desk, where piles of papers that were filled with red marks stacked up. Jaemin carried himself gracefully at all times, dressed in black sweatpants and a white t-shirt with black shoes, you genuinely wondered how such a simple outfit suddenly looked expensive. Not only did his clothes seem to be put together, so did his life in general. He would never miss a day of college even if destiny wanted him to, and his schedule was so precise you felt like an absolute shame next to him.
âMr. Na Jaemin,â the teacher cleared her throat, hands twirling a red-inked pen between her fingers as she smiled at the boy standing next to you. âAt this point, I donât know why I bother with you anymore, you always seem to decline. But, I thought I should ask you if you were up to helping your fellow classmate over here. She surely has potential, but is clearly struggling.â
You shifted nervously on your feet, cheeks becoming a faint tint of rosy red as your teacher slid over your calculus test towards Jaemin. It read D+. Nearly the entirety of the front page was marked in red, multiple comments explaining why your answers were wrong and circles pointing out your hideous mistakes all for a genius to judge.
His eyes skimmed over your answers, a smile threatening to creep up on his pink lips at just how ridiculous and senseless your processes could get. âI see. Yeah, she seems to have an idea of the topics but probably gets confused easily.â
Ouch.
âWell, would you do me the favor of maybe tutoring her every week for, say, a month?â
He glanced down at you for a split second, gaze returning back to the test in his hands as fast as he had looked away from it. His words sounded direct, leaving his lips with security and firm knowledge; yet, you were sure you could feel his timidity from classrooms away.
âSure.â
Two weeks later, Jaemin had been tutoring you patiently, sharing his knowledge and tips as best as he could. You discovered, conversational skills and socializing definitely werenât Jaeminâs specialty, his words spilling from his lips in stumbles and stutters that sounded adorable nonetheless. Contrary to the way he spoke whenever you casually asked him something about himâwhether it be his personality, where heâs from, the things he enjoysâto the way his sentences flowed flawlessly whenever he was explaining how a math problem worked, was intriguing to you.
There was something about him that felt new, and mysterious. He was introverted, quite protective of his surroundings and himself; though, somehow the way his middle finger elegantly pushed his spectacles up a tiny bit, and the way his hand occasionally brushed with yours whenever he turned to a new page on your alarmingly huge calculus textbook was doing things to you.
âSo, Jaemin,â you interrupted him, his head rising up in question at your sudden intrusion, hand holding a pencil he had been using to point out esencial steps for Definite Integrals. The two of you were currently sitting at your study desk in your bedroom, home alone on a slightly rainy Friday evening, with papers lying around the table and the floor that had infinite math practice tests he had obligated you to do. âHow are you so good at calculus. Well, everything, honestly?â
The tip of his ears flushed a deep shade of pink at your indirect compliment, visibly swallowing as his Adamâs apple swiftly moved up and then down. âUh, I donât really know. I guess Iâve always practiced a lot as a kid? Maths is my favorite subject so itâs not hard for meâŚâ
His attention was never on you, instead, his eyes shifted awkwardly as long as they successfully avoided your own. You were enjoying his confusion more than youâd like to admit, collecting your thoughts and speaking up once again before he returned to explaining boring equations or graphs. âWhyâd you agree to help me? You never help.â
He wordlessly shrugged, hand scratching the back of his head with what appeared nervousness as his eyes solely rested on the paper before him and the paper alone. You thought his face became progressively warmer, a light smile etching across your face. âAre you sure you donât know?â You glanced at him, turning your chair around to face his side profile directly. âI think there must be a reason.â
âThereâs none.â He muttered through gritted teeth, the apple of his cheeks becoming impossibly redder by the minute. âLetâs move on to the next topicââ
âOh, but are you sure there really is no reason at all? âCause you seem to be hardcore blushing right now.â Your finger moved under his chin, gently guiding his eyes towards yours. âAm I the reason for your obvious struggle, Na Jaemin? Do you, maybe, have the hots for me?â
âY/N, justâyou need to, uh, continue practicing.â
âI donât want to practice anymore.â A giggle left your lips, face nearing the boyâs hot ears. âIâll let you in on a little secret. I think you are so handsome, and I can tell you like me too. Or donât you?â
âY/Nââ
âDonât you, Jaemin?â
A quiet curse rumbled throughout his chest and out his lips, hands quickly snapping up to grasp your own. âYou really donât want to bother me right now. Stop.â
âI do want to bother you. I know youâre not some innocent, saint boy, Jaemin. Stop putting up that pure act with me, itâs not working.â
âAlright,â Jaemin mumbled, eyes sharply boring into yours, âthen you asked for it.â He roughly pulled you towards him, your wheeled chair sliding back at the impact as your legs almost instantly straddled him. With no more words said, his hands softly kneaded your ass, pressing his hardening member directly on your heat as he began rapidly guiding you up and down his covered length.
Whimpers stumbled off your lips at his movements, hands flying up to hold onto his shoulders for balance. Quite frankly, you never thought Jaemin would do this.
âCat got your tongue suddenly, princess?â Your breath hitched at the pet name, and Jaemin could only smirk at your reaction. âYou were all talk and no game? Where did that confidence go? You are such a needy, little bitch. Be a good girl and ride my thigh like the desperate slut you areâwanting to fuck me instead of practicing your math equations.â
He parted his legs, and you were quick to take off your shorts, sitting on the textured fabric of his denim jeans as your hips continued their previous ministrations with Jaeminâs harsh grasp. Moans were leaving you in an uncontrollable mess, feeling so little and helpless under a boyâs gaze whom everybody believed is a harmless child. There was a look plastered on his features that you wanted engraved in your mind forever; pearly whites sinking tenderly into a swollen, red bottom lip, glasses hanging lowly on his nose, and a hooded stare due to the growing wetness on your sheer panties that seeped out onto his jeans.
Fuck, did those glasses make him look so sinful.
âJaemin,â you stuttered, âI need to cum.â
âAlready? We just started the fun, princess.â His actions contradicted his words, hands moving your hips faster on his thigh as he squeezed the muscles, igniting louder sounds of pleasure from you. âAre you close?â
You nodded frantically, no longer giving care to the huge wet patch you had created on his pants, allowing his hands to move you as fast as he wished, pussy clenching around nothing every time your clit ran over the coarse fabric.
âGo ahead, princess, come all over my thigh, you fucking dirty girl. Make a mess.â
His whispers were enough to bring you to your climax, legs shaking unstoppably as your hips stilled abruptly. Jaemin rubbed your back softly, bringing your chin up to lock lips with you. Ardent, and full of lust, the feeling of his tongue running over your bottom lip brought another wave of heat that pooled between your legs, and he could surely feel it. Pulling away, with a string of saliva attaching the two of you, Jaemin unbuckled the leather belt before unbuttoning his jeans, only pushing them down enough to release his dick. It sprung proudly out of his briefs, gently hitting his belly and begging to be played with.
Jaemin smirked at your wide eyes, your gaze running up and down the veiny cock, with a final touch of an angry and red tip at the top that was leaking with pre-cum.
âCan I suck you?â
âNot today, babygirl, do that some other time,â he shook his head, fingers moving your panties to the side and placing you on top of his hard length, âright now all I want is to feel your dripping, pretty pussy. Ride me.â
You silently obliged like the good girl he thought you were, wet cunt sinking on his dick as your walls instantly welcomed him with endless warmth.
âFuck, youâre so tight,â he lowly cursed, âsuch a fucking good girl. Why donât we teach you some basic math while you ride my dick? Come on.â His index and middle fingers tapped your bottom lip, your mouth wrapping around them. âYouâre going to answer while you suck on my fingers as if it were my cock.â
On cue to his words, your tongue swirled around his digits experimentally while he ruthlessly thrusted up into your tight pussy with a never ending pace.
âWhatâs seven plus five, princess?â
You whined on his digits, finding the task harder than you expected as his dick was everything you could think about. Jaemin filled you up so well, fingers occasionally driving into the back of your throat as you choked around them. Tears had begun pooling in your eyes, threatening to fall at any moment as you gagged around his digits once again. âTwelve!â
âGood job,â he delivered a particularly hard thrust, hitting on your sweet spot successfully and earning himself nearly a scream from you. âWhat about eighteen plus nine? Whatâs the answer?â
At this point, he was doing all the work, dick sliding in and out of your walls so fast and deliciously. The only sound you could hear around your bedroom was both your skinsâ slapping, and sometimes the choked up cries that left your lips whenever his fingers reached too far back in your throat. Your thoughts only revolved around how good Jaemin was fucking you, and how good the glasses sitting on the bridge of his nose looked as he bit his lip. âTwenty-seven!â You struggled to answer, but managed to regardless of his merciless thrusts.
âFour minus nineteen? You got three seconds to answer, sweets.â Jaemin smirked, free hand reaching down to circle rapidly around your clit, his hips speeding up even more. âOne.â
âJaemin, Iâm so close!â
He pulled his fingers out of your mouth, drool running down your chin as he wiped his digits on his shirt. âAnswer me, or you donât come.â
Your thoughts were absolutely jumbled, puzzled and confused, searching hazily for a simple answer you couldnât remember.
âTwo.â The movements of his fingers on your swollen bud were beginning to slow down.
âJaemin, wait!â
âThreeââ
âNegative! Negative fifteen, the answer is negative fifteen.â
He cooed at you, speeding up his actions once more as you cried out, head resting on his shoulder tiredly while you slightly bit into the flesh, eliciting hisses that flew from his lips.
âFuck, Iâm so close. Princess, can I fill you up with my cum?â
âPlease,â tears ran down your face, your cries muffled as you nuzzled your face into his neck, âplease do. Come inside of me, Jaemin, fill me up so well.â
Your desperate pleads and the frantic clenching of your pussy were enough to bring him to the edge, your release following not much long after as his warm cum completely coated your walls white, some seeping out from your cunt and onto his member. Jaemin eventually slowed down his thrusts to a stop, chest heaving up and down as pants left the two of you.
âFor your information, I do have the hots for you, too.â He exhaled out a laugh, pulling your body closer to his and gently pecking the top of your head.
âI canât believe everybody calls you a nerd,â you chuckled, âyou literally fucked me into oblivion.â
âWell, you were riling me up. I hope you learned your lesson, little miss.â
âYeah, I did.â You admitted with a giggle.
âWell, you better keep that pretty mouth closed, we donât want people knowing the schoolâs nerd wrecked you so bad, right? Besides, I donât think I want this to just be a one time thing.â Your head rose at his confession, eyes looking into his own for an answer. âHow about a date tomorrow?â
You smiled, sweetly pecking his cheek. âIâd love that. How about I suck your cock after that?â
Jaemin smirked, âyour house or mine?â
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Yena (IZ*ONE) as Your Girlfriend
Request: âcan i request iz*one's yena as your girlfriend please đđťđđť thank you đĽşâ
A/N: took a lil break from studying to write for a bit, ( i hope this all makes sense, iâm really freaking sleepy rn yall T-T )
- C
Choi Yena - is she an idol or a stand up comedian? i guess weâll truly never know
her bubbly personality and quick-witted jokes were actually the main reason you wanted to get so close to her in the first place, absolutely in awe of how she could bring a smile anyoneâs face in mere seconds
which is why, after a few days of pep talks from your friends, you built up the courage to ask miss Yena on a date, to which she absolutely accepted
Yena was over the moon when you asked her, and the shocked look on her face told you just that as she hadnât expected you to reciprocate her feelings - but her composure dropped for a mere nanosecond before she was back to her cheeky self, her arm already wrapping around your shoulder as she couldnât wait to go on a date with you :]
one date quickly turned into much more, and you both felt the time flying by as you fell further and further for one another, leading to Yena asking you to make it official just a couple weeks later!
Everyone around you immediately gets soulmate vibes as soon as they see you two together, your chemistry is truly unmatchable
as wild and unhinged as Yena is, she always finds a sense of calm around you that she doesnât with anyone else, and itâs always so cute to see her her usual cool girl facade bubble away when sheâs with youÂ
she has such a soft spot for you that no one else could ever get, and you love it so much when her chivalrous side comes out - plus the way she looks at you with so much makes you feel like the only person on the entire planet
Lowkey very cheesy, as in hand in your back pocket, donât touch my baby type cheesy
(which you are an absolute sucker for, by the way)
every sentence ends with baby, no matter the context or who youâre with, she just loves calling you that SOO so much hehe
your guysâ relationship is truly like something out of like a 90â˛s teen movie, and no matter what Yena does, she always looks so damn cool that you canât help but get an overwhelming amount of butterflies in your tummy
imagine Yena dropping you a text at the early hours of the morning telling you to come outside - you look out and see her on her motorbike, clad in her leather jacket and black jeans, lollipop lazily hanging from her lips as she waits for you to come outside GOD
and then sheâll take you to a little beach on the edge of town, the two of you snuggled up on the sand, only the sound of the waves to be heard as you shiver a little, even though youâre wrapped up in Yenaâs leather jacket, and buried into her side :â)
Cuddles usually start with you laying in bed and Yena throwing herself on top of you, making you go âOOFâ and making her giggle like an idiot
but once she gets comfortable, you best believe you guys arenât moving for HOURS
and if you arenât wearing an item of her clothing at ALL times its a national emergency and Yena must rectify that immediately
shows her love in many different peculiar ways, from squishing her cheeks against yours, poking her finger in your nostril, randomly nipping your earlobe or blowing raspberries against your skin while she lays her head on your stomach
funky little yena doing funky little dances in public whenever something makes her happy
which you have soon become a part of, leading to the two of you popping and locking in your local convenience store when the ice cream is on sale
However, while she presents herself as a strong, carefree person, none of us are free from worries, even Yena
when her thoughts get too loud, sheâs feeling down, or even if she just had a bad day, youâre always there waiting for her with open arms and willing to listen to any of her worries; which she truly appreciates more than you could ever know.
Yenaâs truly her authentic self when sheâs with you - thereâs no front, no shyness, sheâs just pure Yena around you, and itâs so comforting to know she feels that comfortable around you to be that way.
(back to the fun stuff, sorry hjdfsjsd)
if you donât already know how to skateboard, well youâve basically got your very own tony hawk here to teach you how to become a pro skater
or if you suck sheâll just make you sit on her board and pull you along by the hand, both of you giggling like kids as she speeds up down the street
Her ideal date is somewhere where you two can have fun together, like the arcade, fair, going on trips (although no matter where you go, Yena always makes it fun :] )
you also both love the drive in theater near your house, and you guys go so often that youâve basically created cuddle paradise in the back of Yenaâs car, bundling up in the back, wrapped up in each others arms with the seats pushed down, wanting the night to go on forever <3
has probably said âno homoâ after a makeout session before
but to be honest, no matter what she says or does makes your heart flutter and fill with joy, because she truly is the m0st loving and happy spirit youâve been honoured to have in your life, and you would never, ever change a single thing about her :)))))))))))
NSFW From Here:
yena cockiest little shit wbk
whenever sheâs fucking you and youâre in any way trying to suppress your moans, she is NOT having it, simply opting to fuck you harder until you scream her name in that desperate tone that she loves so much
her favourite thing ever is memorizing the spots that make you moan a little louder, abusing your weaknesses over and over again until youâre a whimpering mess beneath her
HAS to mark you all over or else sheâs not happy - leading to hickeys on the inside of your thighs, on your abdomen, your neck, collarbones, anywhere she can get access to she will always claim as hers
plus the satisfaction of seeing your spent body the morning after, the purple marks on your skin a sign of how good she made you feel makes her SO cocky n possessive and like. youâre HERS and no one is going to change that okay?
has fucked you in the back of her car after, or even during, your dates to the drive in theater,,, cuz girlie doesnât really give a fuck, in her world its just you two and only you two
whenever youâre watching the movie, it usually ends up with you being engrossed in each scene, leaning into Yenaâs side comfortably, thinking sheâs paying as much attention as you - that is until you feel her hand creep towards the inside of your thigh, and thatâs when you know youâre about 5 minutes away from screaming Yenaâs name at the top of your lungs <3
when she invites you over to the practice room under the guise that she wants to teach you izoneâs new choreo but then somehow you ended up on a chair in the middle room while Yenaâs giving you a lap dance>>>>
when youâre in between her legs making you feel good and sheâs looking down at you, her eyes hooded and her lip tucked between her teeth telling you how youâre doing such a good job....... FUCK
the kind of girl to whisper the filthiest words she can possibly think of in your ear then pull away and make a cheesy joke that leaves you mind absolutely REELING because like. her duality what the fuck
yena in nothing but a signature black choker with you riding her thigh in one of her oversized t-shirts, falling to pieces as she holds you close, relishing in the feeling of your dripping core against her skin,,,
also THAT mf thatâll tease you under the tables even when youâre with a group of people,, her annoying ass will just be relishing in the way your jaw clenches as you try so hard to not squirm as she teases you with her fingers
and those random times where youâ˛re just like, at work or out shopping or vibing with your friends and then all of a sudden you get a video notification from Yena,,, and its a video of her in front of the mirror on your room, her legs spread and her fingers deep in her own heat, her breathes uneven as she does her best to keep her phone steady as she moans out your name
she LOVES doing that shit, knowing youâre turned on as fuck thanks to her just,, makes her feel so powerful
on those nights after Yenaâs been away with schedules for a while and you finally get to see her, everything is always so intimate between, with longing kisses and lingering touches that truly are filled with not only lust but love too, pulling one another impossibly closer until all your senses are clouded with another.
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If Thatâs What it is
A difficult reunion. Â cw for strained friendships.
Tim doesnât remember how to be friends. Â
The was never the oneâŚÂ He could fake it⌠once. Or maybe he really was like that. Was he ever as friendly as people seemed to think? Was he just filling a roll? Covering for his hurt? Where does the facade end?
It doesnât help matters that this is Jon. Jon. How can he rebuild bridges long set on fire then torn down then had both sides bricked over and a cemetery developed between the halves. Â
Sat on opposite ends of the couch in the quiet of a London flat. Â
The distance of a few handspans may as well be a journey of a thousand steps. Â
It may as well be made of pages of misdeeds, or the longest novels written stacked end to end and must be read to cross. Â
Why is he even here? Â
It was fine when he⌠what did he even think? Â
That Jon had gone full monster? That he intentionally ended the world? That he died trying to prevent whatever the fuck that was? That he simply died years before, maybe when Tim supposedly had. He doesnât know what he thought but he had deniability, for whatever that was worth. Â
Jon keeps opening his mouth, as if to speak, but shuts it tightly every time. Â
This isnât the first attempt. Nor is it the second. Â
Just⌠the most awkward, as hard as it was to beat the previous encounters. Â
Encounter one:
Scene: the grocery store. Â
Enter Tim, minding his own damn business with his headphones in. Loud enough that he can actually hear it, even if it means just about everyone else in the store can hear it too. Probably should be paying more attention to his surroundings as he runs into someone when heâs trying to buy peanut butter. The someone probably says âoof,â but Tim canât hear it. Â
âSorry, mate.â He offers a bit of an apologetic smile. (Smiling has gotten easier, but⌠But not as easy as it was.)
He doesnât plan to meet the eyes of whoever he ran into, but even he can hear the squeak when the someone, Martin, catches sight of him properly. Â
âTIM?â Â
Oh shit. Itâs Martin. Martin Blackwood. Martin K. Blackwood. Archival assistant. (Does he count as a one night stand if the âone nightâ was over two weeks on in the nightmarish magical mystery ride of the Distortionâs hallways?) Friend? Abomination apologist. Friend. âŚYes, a friend who thinks Tim is very very dead. Â
Martinâs shopping is on the ground, and without thinking, Tim has helped Martin to the ground and is pushing his head between his knees to stave off what is shaping up to be a panic attack. Â
Tim hasnât even paused his music. Â
Itâs still blaring something irritatingly of the wrong mood into his ears. Â
Once Martin has his breath back, he starts signing furiously. Â
And Tim has to stand back stunned at the barrage affection and anger and resentment and relief, and off balance that Martin still remembers the sign he learned for Tim.Â
He leaves without his peanut butter, and with a coil of guilt deep in his gut, with nothing to curb the ringing in his ears because he canât tolerate music right now, and an address and a number âonly if he is ready to step on his anger and listen to Jon, for once.â He hadnât even gotten a word in. He hadnât even told him that Sasha was alive. Â
Just been yelled at in a grocery store. Â
Encounter two:
Scene: A Living Room, night. Â
âJon isnât here.â Martin tells him this before even letting him in. âHe knows you are, but he isnât here. Heâs having dinner with some other teachers in his department. Itâs just us.â Martinâs signing this. Â
Tim is wearing his hearing aids, but Martin is signing anyhow. Maybe itâs easier for him to get it out through that halfway-to-icy expression on his face. Maybe itâs out of coldness, but Tim canât help but feel a warmth deep in his chest that Martin remembered the BSL he labored over when he was assigned to the archives. Â
Tim swallows hard around the hope and bitterness and anger and regret and longing. He nods. âThanks for having me.â He signs quietly. Â
Martin ushers him in, and hands him a cup of tea. Itâs still hot. Itâs just how Tim takes it. And heâs sat on a squashy couch, staring at a squashy cat who is glaring at him. Â
Well. That seems fitting. Â
Cat glaring. Martin⌠almost glaring. No, not glaring. Heâs got his own tea. And he is sipping it, giving a very chilly look to the poor wall. Â
Tim takes in the photos on the wall, while avoiding Martinâs eyes. All Polaroids. Thereâs Jon and Martin in Martinâs ratty looking jumpers (ones that were significantly more new when they first met) standing in the countryside squashed together and laughing their assess off. Jon in oversized wellies, covered in mud, facing off against a cow. Jon standing in the shallows of a pond, looking peacefully into the distance. Martin asleep, in a rustic bedroom, golden morning light spilling across his lax and happy face. There is a frame containing the Litany Against Fear from Dune. A frame with a page from Slaughterhouse Five. âŚA frame with a picture of a young and unsecured Jon looking grumpy, a young and happy and probably drunk Tim with an arm slung around him, and an arm around Sasha who is giving a blushing Martin bunny ears. That one has a place of honor. Itâs a little worn looking, but in a way that makes it clear it survived a lot⌠the end of the world, in fact. Â
Seeing it hits Tim square in the chest. It hurts. Â
Martin finishes his tea and turns towards Tim. Â
âSo.â Â
Tim puts his nearly cool tea down on the coffee table. The squashy cat keeps glaring at him from an equally squashy arm chair. He faces Martin, but canât quite meet his eye. Martin is waiting for him to talk. Â
âDidnât die. Thought I would. Thought I had. Didnât. Walked away. Got a job. I⌠I uh. Found Sasha. Stranger had fucked her up pretty badly, so donât be mad at her for not calling, she had a lot of trouble remembering and being remembered. Survived the apocalypse. Got on with life, or tried to. Got some therapy.â
He braces himself for the impact. Heâs mentioned Sasha over text, but still. Not to mention, itâs all a lot. Â
Martinâs jaw tightens. Â
âThought you could just, let me think you died? Tim, the only person who came back from the Unknowing was Basira. The only one. Call me selfish, but you died, Jon essentially died, we thought Daisy had died. Then my mother died too. I know you had your head up your ass, but do you know what that did to me? Yeah, sure, great, you got out. Whoop-de-fucking-do. You could have called. Or texted. Or sent a letter. Anything! And you know what? Partly it was a relief, because at least I thought you were happy. Or at peace. Or at the very least you wouldnât be there to harass Jon anymore. But you all died. It was just me. Everyone I cared about was dead. Six month Jon was dead. And no, donât you dare get on Jonâs case about that. He mourned you. He still is mourning you. Heâs been walking on air since you and SashaâŚÂ Tim, I swear, if you hurt him⌠If you hurt him again, you will regret it. You will only see him if you are ready to listen. You donât have to forgive, but you are not allowed to be cruel.â Â
Tim doesnât have a single doubt. âIâŚÂ Iâve missed him. Iâm sorry.â Â
âNo yelling, no grabbing, no sudden movements, nothing passive aggressive. And I will be in the next room and so help me, if you scare himâŚâ
Martin lets the threat hang. Â
It hurts. It isnât anything heâs ever gotten from Martin. Didnât think Martin had enough of a spine for it. âŚBut. But he guesses when everyone dies(? he has a lot of questions, but it doesnât look like Martin is in the right headspace to answer them, and Tim might not be either. His breathing is uneven and his face is hot and he isnât sure if he wants to break something or cry or scream or maybe just repaint his and Sashaâs home all in one go.)âŚÂ Well⌠he doesnât have to guess. He knows exactly what that can do to a person. And it isnât pretty. He feels the guilt coiling again. He wants to tear it out and stomp on it. But⌠but he guesses, the guilt can guide him. He needs to do right by the people that used to be his friends. The people heâs missed every day since he got his head on straight with extensive therapy and a variety of coping mechanisms. Â
The scene: The same squashy couch, in the same quiet flat. Â
The squashy cat is in Jonâs lap. The cat is glaring, and Jon is staring at him with those giant, hopeful, tired, guilty eyes. Haunted and rimmed in shadow, as ever. Â
He knows Martin is in the next room, ready to step in if he needs to. Â
All Tim needs to do⌠is reach out. Â
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The BNHA x Chobits AU that no one, not even Mineta, asked for.
The ramblings of my mind under the cut. Warning, itâs loooong.
Okay, so bear in mind that I only watched four episodes of Chobits and it was probably about 14 years ago, and also I didnât really like it, lol
-Todoroki finds Midoriya laying on some bags of trash next to a dumpster.
-First heâs like âoh no, I need an adult,â because for all his âtraining,â dad never actually told him what to do when he found a dead body, (this is the summer before he starts U.A., so heâs still living at home). Endeavor is away for a week, and Fuyumi doesnât count to him (sort of an Aristocats, âsheâs not [an adult,] sheâs just a sister!â thing). While heâs trying to remember that the police exist, he notices this dead body has very strange ear-like things. He comes closer to investigate. There are lots of weird body types in the world, because of quirks, but these things look metal, which isnât unheard of, but something about these ears just strike him as unnatural.
- Good news, it seems like a robot, not a dead body. The ears open easily, and there are buttons inside. A power button (thatâs right CHOBITS!! Itâs in the ear! My love story isnât going to start with molestation), some USB ports, an aux port, a slot for a microchip or SIM card or whatever, some sort of safety switch (he flips that on)âŚwhat really convinces him this is totally a robot are the blutooth and volume buttons (thatâs right, Midoriya in this au can charge phones AND heâs a speaker, although the volume buttonsâ primary function is to control the volume of his voice).
- He has no good reason for taking this thing home. It weights a ton, itâs awkwardly naked, except for some bandages wrapped around it, which do nothing to hide how anatomically correct this robot is, and he already has a phone charger, so he really has no use for it.Â
- He feels weird about it though. While he was checking out the ears, he touched its face and the skin was soft and warm. He checked for a pulse, just out of curiosity, and found one. It looks like a person, aside from the ears, and it feels like a person. He feels bad leaving it in the trash. So he takes it home.
- Cue comedy routine where he gets this thing, not just in the house, but to his room without Fuyumi noticing.
- Once in his room, he hits the power switch. Nothing happens. He holds the power switch. Bingo. Robo-boy powers to life, bright, adorably large green eyes open. Heâs holding it in his arms, and itâs still all tied up. It looks up at him and says hello.
- He drops it.
- He apologizes as he picks it back up, tugging at the wrappings to try to get its arms free. He realizes he needs to get pants, or at least boxers, for it, because itâs awake now and very much naked.
- For the very first time, he realizes that this adorable, thin-yet-lean-muscled, between 14-16 looking robo-boy might have been someoneâs weird sex doll. They probably threw it away because they found a real person to date and they didnât want them to know about their underage sex robot. This also sort of explains the pulse; the mystery pervert person probably programmed a fake pulse and did something to make his skin warm, to make him feel more real. Gross.
- Heâs broken from these thoughts when the robot speaks. It says, âPlease insert memory bank files or turn on base memory.â Todoroki is already freaking out, because this thing wants its memories, and he doesnât have them. He opens the ear again and investigates. Next to the empty slot, thereâs a small button labeled BM. Base memory? Sure, why not. He pushes it.
- The robot goes blank faced for a few seconds. When he comes to, he looks at Todoroki, then the room, then down at himself. He flexes his arms, trying to break the bands around him, but stops, saying, âSafety mode is on.â
- Todoroki finishes helping unwrap him, awkwardly doing so while pointedly looking away, once he gets to his lower half. Once heâs free, he goes and gets a pair of boxers and throws them in his direction. âCan you put them on?â Heâs curious if the robot can do something like that unaided, and also he doesnât want to cloth it himself, because even though this is a robot, it looks like a very cute boy his age. And it has a pulse. He canât stop thinking about that.
- The robot puts on the boxers, after inspecting them for a second. He honestly does struggle to figure it out for a moment, cause he has zero common sense, but he does figure it out. It probably takes him about a minute. Once theyâre on, he stands and starts inspecting the room.
- âDo you have a name?â seems like a dumb question, but he asks anyway and the robot answers, âIâm Project Midoriya.â
- Background info time. Midoriya is not fully a robot. He was kidnapped just seven months ago, coming home from school. It was the day of the sludge villain attack, but he got nabbed before they could cross paths. AFO wanted a quirkless person to experiment on. He did his research and found Midoriya Izuku, a quirkless boy with no friends and little family, who wouldnât be missed very much. Heâs confident enough that he wonât get caught that he titles his new project by its name: Midoriya. Midoriyaâs memories are still in his mind, but theyâre suppressed. AFO found it easier to backup his memories to a chip, so he could remove them as needed. When they were installed, Midoriya responded best to his own name anyway, so calling him that was also the easiest thing. Without his memories, AFO found him a bit annoying, because he had no social skills or common sense. He needed to be taught, which he didnât have the patience for, so usually he just left the memories in. He was a timid boy anyway and easy to intimidate, especially if he threaten to hurt his mom.
- The cops figure his disappearance was maybe a runaway situation, but given his track record and the profile on him theyâd compiled from listening to his mom, classmates, and teachers, they figure itâs more likely a kidnapping or murder. Fun fact though, he got kidnapped the day Bakugou told him to kill himself. Obviously no body is found, but he knows people go to forests to hang themselves, or put weights in their pockets and drown themselves. Those bodies can take years to find. So while all of this is happening, Bakugou is out there just every day, âwhat have I done, what have I done, what have I done?â When they finally see each other again, Bakugou freaks out and Midoriyaâs suppressed memories are triggered. Bakugou demands answers, Todoroki is confused and defensive, and Midoriya is just, âSystem overload. Shutting down,â and then face plants to the floor.
- Anyway, back to Shouto. He asks Midoriya if he remembers anything. Midoriya has exactly one memory (or at least, one easily accessible memory), and itâs this: âA man. He looked like this.â He put his hand over his face. âHe said, âSensei put so much work into you. Why are you so useless (Deku)?ââ
- More bg info, AFO gave Midoriya to Shigaraki, telling him to try to make him useful, and Shigaraki DID try for a couple of months, but he was over the whole situation after basically one day. With his memories, Midoriya was scared and traumatized, had morals, cried a bunch and sometimes tried to escape, and was just UGH. He could mute his voice, but even that didnât help, cause this kid was just sooo annoying. Without his memories he was awkward and boring and still annoying. Eventually he just yeeted him into a trash heap, but took his memory chip, since it technically contains LoV information.
- Midoriya considers his only memory and thinks being called Deku feels sort of normal, so he says as much. âDeku might also be my name. You can call me that, if you want.â Todoroki says heâll stick with Midoriya, because Deku isnât a nice name for his new robot friend.
- So the first section of the story after this is fairly light-hearted. Todoroki has to keep Midoriya a secret from Endeavor and Fuyumi (I feel like she does find out eventually, but agrees to help hide him, as she sees itâs good for her little bro to finally have this (maybe?) living thing/person to talk to and take care of.) Speaking of care, Midoriya is very easy to care for. He can eat, drink, and sleep, but doesnât need to. He has some sort of self-charging system. Most of his âcareâ involves teaching him social skills (which oof, blind leading the blind, but they say teaching is the best way to learn, so this is actually good for Shouto too). Embarrassing stuff happens. Fluffy stuff happens. Itâs a good time.
- Shouto spends the summer with Midoriya this way. Most of their interactions are fluffy and light, but not all. The first time he comes back to his room after training with his dad, he learns two things: Midoriya has first aid knowledge programmed into him and heâs capable of crying. As the trainings continue, Midoriya eventually reveals that he has over a hundred fighting styles programmed into him and knows over 70 ways to kill a person, but he canât access any of that information while his safety is on. Todoroki is just like, âUuuuuh, thatâs really good to knowâŚbut weâre gonna keep the safety on for now, okay? I hate my dad but also please donât murder him. Heâs famous so we wouldnât get away with it. Also murder is bad, donât kill people.â
- Midoriya wants to know if all heroes are like Endeavor and Shouto is like, noooo and shows him the debut video of his personal favorite hero: All Might. Watching this video is the first time Midoriya has a âSystem overloading. Shutting downâ moment. Shouto has an absolute panic attack, because if Midoriya reboots and his memories are wiped, then heâll have lost the best friend he ever had. But Midoriya restarts and heâs fine. He explains that sometimes he shuts down, to prevent a system failure, which would damage hisâŚidk, hard drive or whatever. He quietly admits that the All Might video is very familiar, and he thinks maybe it used to be important to him. Shouto questions him about his memories and Midoriya theorizes that perhaps he has them backed up, but he isnât sure how to access them.Â
- This is exciting for Shouto, because he thinks maybe if Midoriya experiences more âtriggers,â like the video, he might regain his memories and be able to shed some light on the general mystery of where he came from/who made him/what his purpose is. Whenever Endeavor is away, he tries to sneak Midoriya out, so he can see the real world. He isnât too concerned about his ears, because in a world of quirks, there are plenty of odd looking people around. So far heâs been wearing Todorokiâs clothes, which a little too big on him, so they go shopping and get him clothes. None of their outings seem to trigger anything, except one time when they pass a park where Midoriya and Bakugou used to play as kids. Midoriya grows quiet and seems far away for a moment, but he doesnât overload and shakes off the familiar feeling.
- Whenever they see All Might stuff heâs just !!!!!!! He canât remember why he likes All Might, but he remembers how he feels about him. The more All Might stuff he sees, the more his old feelings return. One day they pass a large All Might poster and Midoriya says, âI think maybe I wanted to be like him, once.â
- Eventually Todoroki starts school. He feels bad about leaving him, but Midoriya is content to stay in his room and occupy himself until Todoroki comes home. Heâs part computer, so heâs a total boss at helping with math homework. He likes doing homework with Todoroki in general, because he likes learning. This is great for Todorokiâs grades because again, the teaching thing helps everything stick better for him.Â
- The attack on USJ happens and Todoroki sees Shigaraki, who has a hand on his face, and heâs like, âShit, shit, shit, this is the guy who threw away Midoriya,â and he has NO idea what to do with that information. Midoriya belonging to the LoV does explain the â70+ ways to killâ programming though. He tells Midoriya what happened and Midoriya is kind of whatever about it. He says, âMaybe I belonged to villains, but I belong to you, now.â And Shouto is like, âNo, no, no, no. You do not. You belong to yourselfâ and Midoriya is just ????
- I think for the Sports Festival, Midoriya convinces him to use his fire. Itâs sort of like, âItâs your power, even though its origin is Endeavor. Just like how everything I can do is my power, even though I was programmed by villains. Being made by villains doesnât make me a villain. Using the resources they gave me doesnât make me a villain. Being Endeavorâs son doesnât make you Endeavor, and using your fire doesnât either.â Todoroki turns off Midoriyaâs safety, confident he has nothing to fear.
- Midoriya watches the Sports Festival on tv (using his blutooth, he can actually just hear the volume in his head, so he can watch silently). He sees Bakugou. Seeing him on screen doesnât have a huge impact on him, but he does feel something. Fear, unease, admiration, and affection. Heâs confused and uncomfortable, and ends up looking away from the screen whenever heâs shown for too long.
- Shouto actually starts making friends at school. Being with Midoriya has taught him a lot about being kind and the joy having other people in your life can bring. Still, he doesnât trust anyone enough to tell them about Midoriya. Heâs terrified of losing him.
- For the Hosu incident, Midoriya is home alone, probably doing something on Shoutoâs laptop. He sees the breaking news and is just, âWelp, thatâs where Shouto, the official best person in the world, is, so guess Iâm going to Hosu to make sure heâs safe.â He leaves the house alone, for the first time ever, and just runs to Hosu. Idk how far away Hosu is from the Todoroki residence, but Midoriya doesnât fatigue and heâs also outrageously fast, so itâs fine. Also he can see in the dark, but only if he activates his night vision, which makes his eyes glow. Not good for sneaking, but very pretty and cool. Iâm not sure how he finds Shouto, or how Shouto found Iida, but I imagine Stain is like, seconds from skewering him and then Midoriya comes out of nowhere and collides with Stain (which is a big deal, cause remember, Midoriya is filled with metal parts and is super heavy). They fight together and at some point Stain cuts Midoriya and he bleeds, which for Shouto is like !?!??! And then he licks his blood and the paralysis works and Shouto is just !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Later, after the life threatening stuff is over, Todoroki has some seriously thoughts about this, because what if Midoriya is human? Or part human? That would be a huge development, and also kind of relief for him, because he sort of feels like heâs been falling in love, but heâs been desperately stomping down on those feelings, because he knows falling in love with a robot probably isnât healthy. But falling in love with a half robot? I mean, Iida could be called part robot, with his legs, if you want to get technical about it. And Todoroki does want to get technical about it, thank you very much. If Iida is dateable, then so is Midoriya.
- Back to Hosu. They beat Stain and, after securing him, Todoroki tells Midoriya to go home, before his dad arrives. Once he leaves, he begs Iida not to tell anyone he saw him and promises to explain later. For ease of narrative, Native was unconscious the entire fight.
- Endeavor shows up, as does the Nomu. It takes Shouto but Stain rescues him. At the hospital, Todoroki explains the Midoriya situation to Iida, revealing that this incident was the first time he realized Midoriya had blood in him. Iida agrees to keep the secret, but urges Todoroki to tell someone. Maybe Aizawa. He agrees to consider, but he doesnât want Midoriya to get taken away and like, locked up to be studied or something. He and Iida become better friends, bonding over almost dying together and sharing the secret of Midoriya.Â
- Midterms! Shouto scores higher because he has an awesome robot tutor. He doesnât actually care, but good for him regardless.
- Summer field trip time. Midoriya canât come, obviously. Iâm thinking during this time, he decides to sneak out of the house and explore on his own. He feels guilty, because Shouto would worry if he knew, but he just feels this draw. He feels like maybe his old memories were important, and heâs becoming curious. He keeps thinking about the boy from the Sports Festival and about All Might. He ends up in his old neighborhood. He sees his middle school and he doesnât remember anything, but seeing the building makes him feel lonely and sort of bad about himself. It reminds him of Shigaraki calling him Deku, and the familiar feeling that gave him. He leaves and finds himself on his old street. He isnât close at all to his old home - he can barely see the apartment building - but he can still see it. He almost shuts down, but turns away quickly and starts back the way he came. He doesnât remember anything, but seeing that building fills him with overwhelming emotions. The strongest one reminds him of his feelings for Shouto, but itâs different. He canât place it, but he knows heâd die to protect Shouto, and he feels like maybe he once knew someone in that building that he would also die to protect. Once he gets home, he realizes heâs crying. He decides to sleep and he dreams of green eyes and a smile that looks like home.
- Shouto is injured during the villain attack and goes to the hospital. Once heâs released, he agrees with Kirishima that theyâll go rescue Bakugou. That whole thing pretty much goes at it did in canon, except All Might never found a successor, so heâs more powerful. He defeats AFO and does not have to retire, though heâs feeling an overwhelming pressure to find a successor now, because he knows heâs hanging on by a thread.
- Dorms!! Shouto is bringing his boy with him. He figures he can hide him just as easily there as he can at home. Getting him in is a little tricky, but he manages. From there, itâs smooth sailing.
- Except not really, because living with 18-19 other people (19 if Hitoshi is in the class, which, maybe) is way different than living with 2. Midoriya is discovered in like, a week and everyone is freaking out, most of all Bakugou, who basically breaks down. He tries to hit Midoriya and screams at him, about thinking he was dead and going to his funeral and how it was his fault and having to face his mom and did Midoriya even think about his mom??? As previously mentioned, Midoriya just shuts down and face plants to the ground.
- Shouto finally learns Midoriyaâs full name. Midoriya Izuku. A+ name. Very cute. He plans to use it immediately.
- Bakugouâs insight changes the situation completely. Now they know Izuku was once 100% human and something awful happened to him. They end up bringing him to Aizawa and explaining the situation and everything they know. Todoroki gets scolded, cause Izuku could have been dangerous and he should have known better, but he doesnât even pretend to have regrets. Endeavor would have made him throw Izuku back into the trash where he found him. His best friend isnât trash.
- Now the name of the game is helping Izuku restore his memories. Bakugou is a huge help, but patience is required, to keep Izuku from overloading. He remembers bits and pieces at a time, all centered around Bakugou. Aizawa agrees to let him attend classes, so they can keep an eye on him. Heâs also hoping a school setting might trigger more memories. He meets All Might and he doesnât even get to announce his system malfunction before heâs out. He sees him, starts smoking at the mouth and hits the floor. All Might is very alarmed.
- Tsukauchi is made aware of the situation. He wants to keep things under wraps though. If the LoV is aware Midoriya is out and about, they may target him. If they can restore his memories though, they may gain insight into the groupâs plans. That being said, he thinks itâs only right that they tell Inko. They tell her they have information on her son and make her sign a contract, agreeing not to release any information. Once she agrees, they brief her on what they know and, at the end, bring in Izuku.
- Izuku has been talking with Bakugou about his mom, to prepare for this (he usually wants Shouto with him for these conversations, and Shouto and Bakugou sort on inadvertently become friends). He canât remember her at all, but he remembers the face in his dream. He knows itâs her. While talking, heâs shut down a few times (which drives Bakugou up the wall, and also scares him a little, cause he kind of looks dead when it happens), but he thinks he might be ready to see her now. Heâs brought in and he does not shut down, not fully, but he comes close. He definitely glitches a little, maybe doing a quick reboot, quick enough that he doesnât even fall, and his voice comes out cracked and metallic when he speaks, and there are sparks in his mouth, but he manages, âMom?â They both cry and she holds him while he tells her, voice wavering between sounding normal and sounding robotic, that he doesnât remember her, but he loves her, he knows he loves her so so much and he knows heâs missed her, even though he didnât know who she was. Itâs very emotional, and extremely hard for both of them when they finally have to separate, because Izuku canât go home with her. Sheâs allowed to visit though, and each visit helps him restore little pieces of his memory. Between her and Bakugou, he starts making enough progress that he stops shutting down when he gains a new memory, and he starts remembering his old hopes and dreams. He doesnât remember what AFO did to him, but he remembers enough of his past to feel self-conscious now, about his body. He breaks down one day and Shouto holds him while he grapples with his identity, his humanity, and his future.Â
- Iâm picturing a scene where heâs crying and Shouto takes his face in his hands and explains all the beautiful things about him that make him human, and he finishes up with something corny like, âI know you, Izuku. Youâre human. You have to be human, because Iâm in love with you.â And then they KISS and it is ROMANTIC!
- He decides he still wants to be a hero and he becomes a real member of 1A, instead of just a visitor. The whole class helps him design a costume and come up with a name and in general are just like, âCyborg Hero, yay!!â
- And thatâs all I got. I think eventually he would fight the league, and probably retrieve his chip, giving him 100% of his memories. Thereâs a LOT of trauma to deal with there, because he was basically torn apart and put back together several times by AFO, but they do gain all the information they need to take down the LoV for good. And the Overhaul arc is in there. Izuku might still intern with Nighteye, because All Might is like, âRobot successor? Maybe???â and he wants Nighteyeâs opinion. Nighteye canât see his future, because heâs not fully human, but eventually he gives his stamp of approval. Eri is rescued and thatâs a very personal fight for Izuku, because he identifies with what sheâs gone through. And of course she loves him and thinks his ears are cute and his glowy eyes are pretty.
- Oh, and the School Festival. I honestly donât even know what to do with him. He can learn any instrument just by like, downloading some YouTube tutorial videos. He can learn any dance by watching it once. Heâs really strong, really fast, and can also operate as a speaker (though that can be awkward, cause itâs through his mouth, so heâd just be standing there with his mouth open). They might keep his role same as canon, idk. Theyâd probably all fight over him.
- Iâm sure none of this was anything like Chobits. Sorry. I just think the ears are neat, really, and liked the idea of Izuku being a cyborg (Chobits isnât even about cyborgs, lol).
Sorry this is outrageously long! If you want to write this into a full fic, feel free to use my ideas! Just give me a shoutout, maybe? And tell me about it, so I can read it!
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For the Renji birthday prompt: A fic where Renji discovers that he can't go tits out anymore now that he's married (maybe with some jealous Rukia thrown in perhaps)?
I maintain that the new tits-in regime is self-imposed; I present to you my thesis. (I did not attempt to take on The Vest; I assume it came later, and I eagerly await more Vest Lore from Kubo himself)
Warning that I sincerely hope deters absolutely no one: This fic is about boobs. It contains many, many synonyms for boobs. Some of them are rude.Â
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âIâm telling you, youâre jumping to conclusions. Sometimes he puts them away when he fights. He told me this.â
âI havenât seen them in weeks.â
âItâs been winter.â
âThat has never stopped him before. And itâs April now. Open season. And yetâŚ?â
âI think we should just ask him.â
âYou canât just ask a guy, âhey, where did your tits go?ââ
âI could, but I refuse. Abaraiâs aesthetic is his own business.â
âSince when?â
âOkay, heâs here, someoneâs gotta do it.â
âNot it!â
âAlso not it!â
âMatsumoto, you have to do it. Youâre the one who talked him into letting them hang out in the first place.â
âI agree with Yumichika. Renji knows what heâs doing, and if he has decided that the puppies are off-limits, thatâs on him.â
âHey, guys!â Abarai Renjiâs cheerful voice rang out over the din of the bar. âSorry Iâm late!â
âJust means you have to catch up quick!â Rangiku declared, pouring him some sake.
âNo missus tonight?â Shuuhei asked.
Renjiâs entire face went pink and he got the same moony look in his eyes he always got whenever someone mentioned his wife or his marital state generally. âShe sends her regards and says Iâm supposed to drink extra for her. She goes over to the Manor on Wednesday evenings now to hang out with her brother.â
âHave you actually managed to call him by his given name yet?â Iba asked. âNow that youâre related?â
âHis given name is âCaptainâ and I call him that all the time,â Renji replied snottily.
âSo. Renji,â Izuru said, leaning forward on his elbow. âAre you doing something different? With your look? I feel like thereâs something different about you.â
Renjiâs face lit up. âYou noticed!â He swung his head around, his long braid swinging over his shoulder. âIâve started braiding it!â
âOh, no, itâs permanent?â Yumichika moaned.
âThatâs not new,â Iba scoffed. âYou slept with it like that the whole time we were roommates. I just figured that you didnât have time to fix your hair in the morning anymore because you were too busy taking care--oof!â
âIt looks very nice, Renji!â Momo said sweetly, extracting her elbow from Ibaâs rib cage.
âItâs different,â Renji glowered at Iba. âI braid it loosely at night to prevent breakage and lock in moisture. This is an action braid.â He wheeled on Yumichika. âAnd Iâm only French braiding it for now, because itâs shorter in front than in the back, you know, because of the accident. Once Iâve grown it out to all one length again, Iâll just do a regular braid.â
âYou could just cut it to the length of the shortest part and go back to the pineapple hair,â Ikkaku suggested. âI always liked the pineapple hair.â
Renji turned pink again. âAh, well. Rukia likes it long.â
âYeah, I donât think the braid is⌠what I was thinking of,â Izuru soldiered on.
Renji sucked his teeth thoughtfully. âI got a new tattoo? A pair, actually.â
âOh! Did you?â
âOn your chest?â Shuuhei asked hopefully. A healing tattoo would be a good excuse to cover up.
âNah, on my thighs.â
Izuru sighed. âSince when do I look at your thighs, Abarai?â
âI have good thighs, Izuru.â
âHe probably just looks different because heâs so happy now,â Rangiku suggested. âBy which I mean getting your back blown out every night.â
âThat could be it!â Renji agreed cheerfully. âOh, I was wearing a scarf for a while there, when we had that cold snap! Is it the scarf? Or maybe the lack of scarf? Itâs a nice scarf, Captain gave it to me for a wedding present. He says a man of quality should own a scarf.â
âI give up,â Izuru sighed.
âHey, jocks, whatâs going on?â a new voice interrupted.
âAkon!â half the table chorused and Renji scooted over so Akon could slide in next to him.
âGlad you could make it!â
âYeah, sorry, I had an experiment I wanted to get finished up.â
âWe were just talking about how thereâs something different about Renji,â Shuuhei pressed.
Akon surveyed Renji for a moment. âWell, heâs got his tits tucked in for once. Arenât you hot? You told me once you did that for ventilation.â
âThat was very much a lie,â Renji clarified. âAnd Iâm a married man now, my cans are closed for business. Speaking of which, Rangiku, fill âer up again, please, Iâve gotta keep up my wifeâs reputation.â
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Momo couldnât believe this was happening to her. Out of their entire friend group, she was pretty sure she was the least interested in Renjiâs⌠bosoms. There was a time⌠long, long ago when she had thought he was pretty hot stuff. She still counted him among her closest friends and favorite people, but had long ago come to the conclusion that big and beefy just wasnât her type.
âWhy, Lieutenant Hinamori! What brings you to my office?â Acting Captain Kuchiki Rukia leaned back in her chair, steepling her fingers. She must have been practicing, because the last time Momo had seen her do that, she had nearly fallen backwards out of the chair.
Momo sighed. âI have to tell you, this isnât business.â Not exactly. It sort of was, in the sense that Shuuhei and Matsumoto (who apparently did care very much about Renjiâs chest situation, so long as she wasnât the one who had to confront him about it) had come over and dramatically draped themselves all over the Squad 5 couch and complained about the dreary state of affairs to Captain Hirako until he ordered Momo to go do some investigating.
âGood, because I have been filling out Nanaoâs new skills-inventory-for-seated-officer forms all morning and Iâm about to lose it,â Rukia said with an overly cheerful grin.
âWe could go out to the yard and fight?â Momo offered hopefully. Maybe she could tell Captain Hirako that she got distracted and forgot to ask about Renji.
Rukiaâs face fell a little. âEr, Iâd love to, but I really shouldnât today. Sentarou just made me this pot of tea, though. Do you want some? Itâs lemon ginger, itâs really good.â
âSure,â Momo agreed.
âSo whatâs up?â Rukia asked again, once Momo was perched in the guest chair, a fragrant cup of tea cradled in her hands.
Well, might as well just rip the bandage off. âI need you to know that I was put up to this by⌠you know. The idiots. The cowards we go drinking with.â
âUnderstood,â Rukia agreed.
âThere is⌠some concern⌠about your husband.â
Rukiaâs eyebrows shot up. âMy sweet pumpkin pants?â
âIâm leaving,â Momo announced.
âIâm sorry, Iâm sorry!â Rukia waved her hands, laughing. âIâll be serious. What has that lunkhead done now?â
âThis is so dumb,â Momo muttered. She cleared her throat. âHeâs stopped going around with his bazongas hanging out all the time, and everyoneâs losing their minds over it.â
Rukia stared at her. âExcuse me, his what?â
Momo made a vague gesture at her own chest. âYou know. His⌠boobies.â
âThatâs what I thought you meant,â Rukia nodded, her brow creased in thought. âBazongas. I like that.â
âNot that I care!â Momo excused. âI mean, I agree, he should be allowed to dress how he likes, but you two seem to have a very equitable relationship and I said that I was sure he wasnât doing anything that he hadnât agreed to--â
âHold on,â Rukia interrupted. âYou think I had something to do with this?â
âYou didnât?â Momo asked. âHe said he was keeping them tucked in because he was married now. We assumed it was at your request.â
âI didnât even know!â Rukia replied. âI mean, I came home yesterday, and he was just--â she made a hand gesture like she was pulling her kosode open, â--completely out--â
âI donât need to hear this,â Momo begged.
âWell, I tell you I had nothing to do with it,â Rukia assured her. âNo one is more supportive of Renji acting slutty in public than me. Everyone knows I have that locked down, and honestly, it just makes me seem more powerful.â
Momo squeezed her eyes shut. âIâm going to punch Shuuhei so hard.â
Rukia rubbed her index finger over her chin. âItâs possible this came down from BrotherâŚâ
Momo whimpered, although, honestly, having a conversation with the other Captain Kuchiki about Abaraiâs pectorals couldnât possibly be more awkward than this.
â...or it might be⌠something else.â Rukia frowned. âIâll talk to him, okay?â
âYou will?â Momo asked hopefully.
âYeah, Iâll take care of it. I canât promise to bring the jugs back, but Iâll make sure itâs just Renji being a doofus and not Renji hiding his anxieties under aesthetic choices or Renji being oppressed by his brother-in-law.â
âThank you, Rukia,â Momo said. Rukia could be bossy at times, but it wasnât necessarily a bad thing. âSometimes, Renji has to be bullied into taking care of himself.â
âYouâre telling me!â Rukia exclaimed. âThank you for caring about him,â she added warmly.
âFor the record, I care about him,â Momo replied. âEveryone else just misses the view.â
âNoted,â Rukia replied.
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Renji had his nose stuffed in his cookbook, which lately, wasnât a good sign. Renji only owned one cookbook, an encyclopedic tome that he only cracked open when he was trying something new or otherwise wasnât sure what he was doing.
âI hope you arenât making that kale curry again,â Rukia noted dryly.
Renji jumped three feet in the air. âAaah, shoot! Rukia! I didnât hear you come in! Iâm so sorry!â
Rukia hopped up on her kitchen stool and leaned across the counter to give him a kiss. âWeâve been married for four months now. You donât have to greet me at the door every single day, you know.â
âSixteen weeks, three days,â Renji replied. âAnd I can still be sorry about it.â
âJust tell me weâre having something normal for dinner, and Iâll forgive you,â Rukia replied.
Renji jerked a thumb toward the stove behind him. âI made oden,â he explained. âItâs simmering, probablyâll be another ten minutes.â
âOhhhhhh, I love your oden!â Rukia stretched her arms across the counter and did grabby hands at his hands until he laced his fingers through hers. âDid you make enough for me to take some for lunch tomorrow?â
âDepends on how much you eat tonight,â he replied. âYour appetiteâs been really hit or miss lately.â
âYeah, well...â Rukia agreed. âSo whatâs with the cookbook, then?â
âOh,â Renji said vaguely. âIâm thinking about learning to bake cookies?â
âIâm in favor of that,â Rukia agreed, although her mind immediately went back to the conversation sheâd had with Momo that afternoon.
âIâm not sure this book is helping,â Renji admitted. âIf I was any good at baking, it would be one thing, but itâs too different. Iâve always been better at learning stuff from other people. Do you think it would be weird if I asked Ibaâs mom to teach me? She used to make these little sesame biscuits for Iba. I would always steal them from him. They were so good and he didnât properly appreciate them anyway.â
âIt would absolutely be weird, and I think you should do it anyway,â Rukia proclaimed. She paused. âBut maybe you could wait a few more weeks until we tell everyone weâre pregnant so all your friends will stop asking me whatâs wrong with you.â
Renjiâs eyes widened. âDid your brother say something last night? Because he told me he liked the braid!â
Rukia snorted. âNo. Heâs worse than you are anyway, heâs been reading books. Please make him stop, if you can. Actually, Iâve been getting complaints about,â she circled a finger in the vicinity of Renjiâs chest.
Renji glanced down, and realized that his kosode was still neatly folded up to his collarbone. âOops, sorry! I told you I didnât hear you come home.â He immediately began untucking it.
Rukia leaned her chin on her palm, watching his progress. âI realize that making emotionally constipated people face their feelings is usually your department, but it seems youâve got something heavy rattling around in there. Wanna talk about it?â
Renjiâs eyes slid to one side. âTalk about what?â
Rukia cocked an eyebrow and waited.
Renji heaved a sigh. âDo you remember that time, back in Inuzuri, the first time I used my reiatsu in public? When I blocked a lead pipe with my arm?â
Rukia almost choked. âWhat do you mean, do I remember it? Of course I remember it.â
âWell, not so much that, but do you remember afterward, when you said I was too big and mean to be a sneakthief anymore? That it was better to confront the world and show it what we were made of?â
âI do remember that. I did not call you mean.â
âYou probably didnât. Itâs probably just something I thought about myself.â He looked pensive for a moment. âIn any case, it was something I really took to heart, especially after we split up. At first, I just wanted to make myself as big and loud and scary as possible. I liked the way people shied away from me. Later on, after I started hanging out with Yumichika, I realized that walking around sexy could be intimidating in a different sort of way, and I liked that, too.â
Rukia had a comment for that, but she decided to just listen, instead.
Renji smoothed the page of his book with his fingers. âI donât want to look scary anymore.â
âYou donât look scary,â Rukia reassured him. âYou havenât looked scary in a long time.â
âI want to do better than that, though,â Renji frowned. âHas your brother ever talked to you about his dad?â
Rukia blinked, surprised, mostly that Byakuya had talked about Soujun with Renji. âA few times.â
âI, uh, asked him what his dad was like. Since I never had one myself. I expected him to either blow me off or start bellyaching, like he does about his granddad, but he didnât. He said his pop was very gentle and kind. He said he was a good dad.â
âByakuya loved his father a lot.â
âYeah, that was pretty clear.â
âI hope he finished by saying what a good father you will make, but itâs my brother, so Iâm sure he didnât.â
âHe said something about how he was sure I would proceed in my own way.â
Rukia sighed again. âRenji, youâll be a great dad. Itâs super obvious. Iâve only told half a dozen people that Iâm pregnant and all of them who arenât Byakuya have immediately reacted with âRenji is going to be such a good dad.â You donât need to change anything about yourself.â
Renji sucked his teeth for a moment. âWell, all my good dad instincts are telling me our kid is gonna wanna fight the world bad enough as it is, that the last thing they need is a dad who wants to fight the world, too. Iâve fought the world long enough. Iâm probably never gonna be gentle, but I can try my best to be kind, and I can dress like a normal person in public for a change and⌠maybe I can make a cookie? Itâs worth a try, I think.â
Rukia flashed him a sad, but fond smile. âYouâre such a dork. A sweet, thoughtful dork, though, and I will support your experiment, even though you know I love your bazongas more than anyone.â
ââBazongasâ? Oh no, did those assholes make Momo come and talk to you?â
Rukia shrugged and tried to look innocent.
âAnyway, youâre my wife, I will take them out for you whenever you want.â
âYay!â
Renji furrowed his brow into its âdeterminedâ configuration. âDo not get me wrong. I am actually upping my chest day routine. I am going to keep them immaculate, and when my shirt gets ripped off in a fight, people are going to lose their minds over how lush my boys are.â
âI love you so much,â Rukia replied.
#renji's birthday 2k21#my writing#this was a lot of fun i got to use all my favorite horrible synonyms for da tiddies#ok maybe not allll my faves
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The Eye of the World Ch 34-35
The Team bad Luck (Rand and Mat) whump continues! Then it some relief is finally found. Not a lot but some!
Longer one under the cut but probably not the longest so far.
Disclaimer: this is my first read thru but Iâve watched all of the show this far and been spoiled on some book things. So⌠Iâm going to lean into that. Enjoy figuring out what I know, and what I think I know, and what I just donât. Also s/x I add commentary when I edit.
Spoilers for the first book and up to the most recent episode under the cut. Potential spoilers for latter books.
Ch 34
Rand POV
âŚhonestly Iâm a bit worried about Egwene and Perrin
Itâs only been three fucking days since that?!!
Yes. It feels like a year to me and Iâm just readin it
Also in Carysford
Honestly the paranoia just not unfounded. Like unreliable narrator aside these kids have been chased, for what feels like weeks, by actual monsters. People. And plagued by nightmares which may also affect reality. Yup, some paranoia seems like a normal response to that
Shit river they got there
Huh. These kids really are from the middle of nowhere. Like itâs /Andor/ mostly wilderness. /technically Andor but everyone basically forgets that/
Early book: people are just people everywhere (hopeful). Mid book: People are just people everywhere (ominous).
Now itâs Mats turn to resume breaking down.
Rand and May are probably in the âdanger of becoming unhealthily codependentâ zone. But what are ya going to do?
Oof. Mats not even convinced theyâll get to Caemlyn
We really missed out on so much uh⌠sadness and sleeping in haystacks in the show. Iâm not actually complaining, like a couple things wouldâve been nice to see and I donât mind reading this but itâs. Itâs just pitiful. And long.
Like⌠this is two homeless teenagers hitchhiking through the States being wronged by adults at every other turn âbad timesâ
Rand trying to scratch his back having woken up sleeping in a hay stack- âIt was while he had one hand down the back of his neck and the other tied up behind him that he became aware of the people.â That is horrifying.
Iâm really starting to think the being watched stuff does in fact be settings some stuff up.
Luckily itâs outside on the road, not like around the haystack looking at them. Which Iâd assumed by this point
Yea dragon watchers.
âHaha yes that is why we go to Caemlyn. To see the.. the dragon.â
Ah weâve reached the travelers are a nuisance part of the country
Everyone sucks!
Rand almost just lost an eye to a carriage drivers whip
Ah Karens
At least the guards do not care
Oh boy is there! At least there will be, not exclusively of course
Tingling again. The tingling is rarely good
Innkeeper- Raimun Holdwin
Almun Bunt, man in cart who noticed Holdwins of conversation too
Oh great. The old enemy, doing evil boringly. Spreading lies, placing bounties, etc.
Like a fox in the henhouse.
Elaida, some Aes Sedai advisor(?) to the Queen in Caemlyn
Yes the tradition, which sounds old is not a problem until right now when things start going badly. And like Iâm for questioning tradition. But dude, really, you just donât get or like Ses Sedai. We got it. Thnx for the ride, plz shut up
Wait⌠are these people important? So Queen(?) Morgase, Elaida Sedai, Lady Elayne -pretty sure Iâve heard of her uh elsewhere-, Lord Gawyn (familiar), the not Prince Luc (dead), Princess(?) Tigraine (vanished when she was supposed to take the throne). Taringail Damodred, husband of the last queen (?), but not Prince Consort(?) (dead).
Cairhein is the nation that the Aiel donât like. Now.
Lol. No thought at all that maybe she can channel this Lady Elayne.
âThe heron-marked sword lay on the table between them [Rand and Tam]âŚâ -Randâs dream.
âThe queen is wed to the land, but the Dragon⌠the Dragon is one with the land, and the land is one with the Dragon.â -Randâs dream, being told to him by juggling unconcerned dream!Thom
Then he sees a Fade with Moiraine and Lanâs heads hanging from its saddle and Mat, Perrin, and Egwene bound and being forced to follow it. âNot her!â -Rand. The Fade burns Egwene. Thom repeats: âThe Dragon is one with the land, and the land is one with the Dragon.â
Then he seems to wake, but a raven tells him âYou are mine.â And stabs him in the eye with its beak.
Bunt you are a strange man.
Ch 35
Rand POV
âYay a city! Ahhh a city, a massive bustling city!â
Caemlyn was built by Ogier? Neat!
How are you going to hide in a massive crowd of people? Iâm sure youâll find out soon enough. But itâs a roll of the dice at first
Rand sees it!
âCaemlyn the city of dreams!â
Interesting that the main road in entering the city is indeed wide. Wonder if roads will get narrower further in?
âWhat they did not see, they could ignore; what they did not see was not really there.â -teotw (Rand) on the people in Caemlyn who appear to ignore the lack of spring this year so far.
Narrower side street! Still enough for a cart and more
Dude youâre asking this now? Isnât ignorance bliss at this point? Youâve already take them this time if they are thieves itâs a bit late
See back to the old adage âI donât know and I suppose I donât want to; plz stay away from me. I have a familyâ
So the boys are sharing brain cells and immune system cells
Ya I doubt heâs gonna do that. Good advice tho
Did⌠Thom didnât say anything about red and black Ajah outside Randâs fever dream did he?
âRand grabbed Matâs collar in a fist that he was trying hard to keep from trembling. He needed Mat.â -after Mat (again) starts to doubt everything and express his hopelessness. (Wtf am I supposed to do with that I? /wearing shipping goggles/)
Who will win? The cursed anxious optimist or the cursed depressed pessimist? Both are very paranoid, traumatized, and stubborn but in many -but not all- opposite ways
âPlease donât let us be alone.â -Randâs thoughts
Ok. âQueenâs menâ is a phrase that keeps being used and I think it implies something bigger about the world or something. Idk what tho⌠civil war brewing maybe?
Tbh Iâve been wondering where the sex workers were. Like⌠they gotta exist still here right? Iâm sry but they must
Relics of Logain? Really? The guy can not have been active more than, what? A year or two? No. Thatâs nothing; ignore that, Iâm confident they at least know this and otherwise they donât have money
Well Rand knew.
Plz just avoid the cursed Whitecloaks
Dude just do that yourself. You have the means, Iâm sure, to cover the mark somehow. Heâs gonna do that eventually isnât he?
âŚAlmost immediately did that.
So what does the red mean? And the white? Sure it means something⌠wait
Probably Mat. Probably
Mm yup. That tracks. Have to get the tension right and whatever
Dude. Iâve got news. Theyâll always going to be more people in the cities.
The pattern âoh thank fuck he figured out to cover the mark. Finally! Now he can go to the innâ
Found- The Queenâs Blessing. Inkeeper Basal Gill (fat, thankfully)
Just believing Thoms dead now. Well⌠suppose that does track regrettable
âIâll believe heâs dead when I see a corpse.â -Gill when informed of Thomâs death.
Lol Gill âit Aes Sedai bs isnât it? Always is with Thom and young men.â (Thereâs no good way to say that so there. Do whatever you like with that I guess)
Lol. Sure no channelers here Gill. None at all. /s
Dude giving them shit beds and shit food is a miracle at this point free or not. Now what do you want?
Finally. Someone whose like âAes Sedai? Sure they suck but they are not the most pressing problem by farâ
Huh. The state supports the Aes Sedai here. Interesting. Makes sense but interesting how many common people donât -tho also makes sense.
Wtf did Thom do to upset the literal Queen?
Thom? Thom was famous across the lands? That guy?
He did mention the courtyard thing but not, like in the royal palace, I donât think
Damn Thom. Really probably *knew* and then pissed off a queen and an Aes Sedai. Respect the loyalty to family tho
Ha! They remember (I quickly learn Gill agrees)
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