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west end question: i obviously love my brooklyn girls and would die for them all, but is it bad that it’s taken away the sprace dynamic for me? like i’m still 100% on board with a nowhere near canon ship and it shouldn’t affect me they’ve decided to have spot be a girl, but it lowkey has? and i feel kinda guilty about it? idk i love my proshot boys. but i am 100% here for all the uk newsies cast they are amazing and so talented and it’s definitely my favourite production by far!! idk if i’m making sense
ok part of me feels a litle baited actually because like. i feel like... im vocal abt mlm musical sprace not being a big vibe for me in the first place. so im a funny person to ask if you were looking for relief lmao. anyway here's my thesis below.
wait also if ur a white newsie fan a read-thru+rb of this would be much appreciated thank youuu (also yall have been eating up my character analyses anyway sooooo!)
TL;DR THESIS: if you're feeling genuinely let down that your ship did not see the light of day and a black girlsie spot conlon got to instead, then yes, you should reevaluate that.
followers, if you've been with me long enough, you know that i have quite strong opinions about how this show gets treated when it comes to interpretations and fandom/fanon. mostly, this is because i literally work in theater, and it's extremely backwards in my brain personally when shows get treated more like a movie or tv show than a performance piece.
im also one of the only ppl in this fandom that ever seems to dare speak on race (not the damn character smh). and anon, buddy, kiddo, this does have to do with race, gender, and sexuality.
firstly, what i think needs to be understood about newsies, is that it is theater, which means it is meant to be mutable. there is no one way. there should never be one way. it does not exist. secondly, theater does not exist in a fandom vacuum. its live every night, conceptually. theater is a live performance art.
interpretations change- it's the nature of theater. so i think asks like these really do illuminate the difference between fans of the show's content or fans of... i guess the show's culture's content.
this is a culture content ask.
one thing i really, truly, deeply need you all to understand: from an objective, script- and staging-based perspective, proshot sprace does not exist. they do not speak. they barely see each other. race does not even volunteer to go to brooklyn. the ship originates from the 1992 movie, where they do actually interact, which is why the ship has prevailed through the 90s to today. they're from the movie, not the musical.
of course, this doesn't bash the ship- it has history, and naturally fans want to create new history when they get a new source material (the musical). it's true for like every newsie ship lowkey (but also not lowkey because all the manhattan newsies do interact and sprace literally does not but thats a different post!!), which is something i do admire about the fandom- we do a lot of our own legwork here, we invent relationships and backgrounds from one-liners that could be given to tbh any frickin newsie. i respect the 30 years we have invented ships.
however.
when a huge, publicized, consistently sold out production comes along with spot conlon as not only a woman, but a woman of color (specifically black rn!) as the leader of the most feared group on stage, there becomes something much more important than a "sprace dynamic", which does not canonically exist in the musical anyway bro. you can't miss something that isn't there imo. often the story and casting within a story comes first, and goddamn if this isn't one of those times. lillie-pearl's spot brings bravado, swagger, confidence, and intimidation that is literally....fine maybe i'm being personal but it is slash gen incredible to see in technically a period piece! a black woman in leadership with that kind of assuredness! in such a popular musical! how is that not– automatically surpassing an often obsessed-over (yes i am. hinting at something here, straight girl fans) mlm ship?
and while i'm on the topic of the over-obsessiveness of mlm musical sprace, let me talk about uksies sprace. because what's also wack abt this ask is that sprace is not a hopeless case in this production- it literally has about as much 'evidence' as the proshot imo!!!!!
i got to hop over to 2nd row brooklyn seating for act 2 so i saw once and for all really close up, right. there's a moment when race is upstage letting the newsies in/down from the stairs. spot comes down and she does, in fact, share a look with him. race gives spot a nod and she keeps moving.
and like im gonna see the show again (every day i am counting my mf blessings fr), so if i'm wrong or they don't do it every time i'll correct myself, but that's what i saw with my own dang eyes on saturday. they do acknowledge each other in uksies.
and since they do, i really like. i have to ask. what is bothersome/unpopular abt uksies sprace, other than oh idk.... its not white/white mlm with a twink/manly bf trope? why can't race still love who spot is as a character, this strong and fearless ruler of brooklyn, in uksies? because tbh josh's racer...nahhhh because. this is such a side note now but they'd be so good together oh jesus am i gonna ship uk sprace. and it's not like they're 'taking away' from a queer ship because a) you can headcanon spot as a queer girl and race being trans is consistently popular and b) newsies has ten billion gayass ships bro we've been eatin for literal decades.
anon, i'm sure you didn't mean harm by this ask. i'm sure, honestly, that a lot of fans are feeling the same way as you and weren't quite sure how to put it in words. but, i'm also not surprised you sent an ask like this on anonymous specifically.
should you feel guilty about it? i don't think guilt is the right word. but i believe you should think more about how newsies is not.....static. it does not exist in one form, and it never will. if you're feeling genuinely let down that your ship did not see the light of day and a black girlsie spot conlon got to instead, then yes, you should reevaluate that. in theater, you should always question why something impacted you the way it did- a major point of theater is to discuss and think about it when you leave! i know this because ive spent three years literally studying it, to back up my thesis credentials.
thank you for reading this, newsies fandom. i do honestly say all this with love, and i hope it made u think !! ♥️
#i just. damn dude. im tired#sprace#race x spot#racetrack higgins#spot conlon#newsies#sprace newsies#newsies uk#uksies#newsies the musical#newsies live#livesies#west endsies#west end newsies#race higgins#race newsies#spot newsies#anyway josh's race would fall ridiculously in love with lillie-pearl's spot. like goddamn#i believe in them and you should too!! uk sprace!!!!#rizz.analysis
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If you’re doing requests maybe Jonathan reaction to Byler?? Supportive brother moment 😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏 you’re awesome and your art rules btw :)
this dude never gets a break. i wish upon him prozac and some fucking rest like he is NOT OKaY
credits to the original text post i could not find it
#also no u!!!! you are so so cool and your art is fucking incredible like????? damn dude#byler#stranger things#mike wheeler#st mike wheeler#mike wheeler stranger things#st mike#will byers#st will#stranger things fanart#byler fanart#Jonathan byers#love that guy#tired ass brother who has to deal with homoerotic bullshit#this is probably not what you meant but#i always think of Jonathan in s4 just like. standing their awkwardly while mike is lowkey flirting with will#like u probably meant something more wholesome im sorry jdjdn
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I always get detained at da border because PROFUNC never ended but basically I'm like if a targeted individual didn't even care
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well well well if it isnt Socializing Feeling Easier When I Give Someone Space And Let Things Happen Naturally Instead Of Being Neurotic And Obsessed…
#never thought id see u round these parts….#also my boss gave me constructive criticism and was not thrilled w me#and *gasp* i didnt take it super personally or catastrophize…#im honestly not sure if the pain and discomfort and tiredness are just making me kinda blerg but im hoping this is all pointing in a good#direction bc im tired of being so fucking neurotic#damn its almost like theres a reason i liked this dude in the first place and its that we get along and i enjoy talking to hi#and i dont have to like be so fucking on edge worrying ab everything#nor do i need to be talking a fuckton
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heyo! it's been a hot minute since that post abt ur living situation after the hurricane(?) and all and just wanted to check in if you were doing ok!! it always makes my day to see you pop up on my dash or notes :D
hi!!! yeah, things have been calming down finally so there hasn't been much to report for me :)
i think i said it a few days ago, but im still without wifi rip. in fact, almost everyone i know is without wifi right now, and a lot are still only getting super weak phone connection at their house. mine works great at home but hardly does anything when im at work.
i think there's still a handful of people i know without power still, but most of us seem to have finally gotten it back! my coworker was yelling at me cus of how soon i had gotten my power back while he had still been waiting for his (he finally got it back a few days ago)
but yeah :) im still super anxious about every hurricane i hear about right now, and bc of altered work hours this week and my drs office closing early on fridays i still haven't figured out my medicine situation, but im less anxious about losing my power again and finally feel comfortable getting cold/frozen food again!
also still sad about the damage everywhere but that's not going away any time soon, so it's a grief ill have to learn to live with
#im glad i got my power back so im glad that i didnt have to go live with anyone else during that time#and also that my sisters didnt ask to stay with me since they got their power back much later than i did gjsjcjaj#i love them but Dear Lord i dont want to live with them again :'))))#i just toughed it out at my place and so did they#but ik several of my coworkers are staying with friends/family or did before getting their own power again#also yes hurricane helene! motherfucker. i like my state just fine but every day i get closer to moving elsewhere#and knowing now that we're ABLE to be hit by hurricanes???? that they've gotten string enough that they reach#the part of the state i live in?????#makes me wanna move cus i cant go through that shit again it SUCKED#i didnt even have it that BAD but DAMN DUDE#you think georgians are bad about essentials+gas when it snows but that hurricane raised the bar so damn high#ok ill stop rambling now fjsjfjjad#me getting off work: gosh im so tired i dont wanna think or talk to anyone else today at all#me the moment i start typing: and and aND AND AND AND#askers#elizeshiro#shh ac
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btw what they dont tell you about socializing more & putting yourself out there more often is that after 3 days of doing so you will find yourself alone in your room in a perfect recreation of the family guy death pose
#yes i fully moved back into my dorm and started my sophomore year of college in the time its taken me to do the fucking ebony arc#dont worry about it im trying not to think about it its Fine#anyway aauauugfhoghofghiu i have been socializing so so so very much lately and it has been very fun but oooughaghuhg the consequenceiss#even just now i had to cancel on a movie night bc i can feel myself inching closer to burnout come onnnnn#yes this is a big jump from how i am normally but this is what i have been WANTING why am i TIRED !!!!!!!!#at the very least can my damn heart give me a break!!! shits supposed to be fixed but apparently that just means it caps at 170bpm now#which while obviously better than 190+bpm is still somewhat inappropriate for Walking Uphill And Nothing Else#im only on my second day of the semester man i have 3 classes tomorrow im gonna fucking die dude#(i have a doc appt in september its not serious dw. and also i think the adderall maybe is a good fit after all so thats cool. but AAAUGHGH#<- imagine the mournful caterwauling of the saddest wet cat you've ever seen in your life)
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christ i know its her birthday but i just have too much to do i cant manage that i really cant. but the paralysing fucking dread of having to tell her that sure is something lol
#love her a lot and we've been friends for almost 10 years now but the way im always walking on eggshells around her#to make sure i dont upset her because i know it only takes the tiniest bit of fuckup and she's mad before you even realise it#like fucksake not to say im jesus or sth but i try so hard to be understanding and not get mad at people because damn dude stuff happens#or sometimes there is no stuff. sometimes you just feel Bad and dont wanna hang out. and i get that i truly viscerally get that#and ive never ONCE gotten mad at her for cancelling. scratch that. never once got mad at her for ANYTHING#never once told her she disappointed me or let me down because good christ i just dont look at people like that#i just wish so desperately this approach would be extended to ME every once in a while#im so fucking tired man i dont get it#i couldnt imagine going through life thinking anyone owes you anything.#she forgot my birthday this year and i didnt care. she didnt arrive to the planned weekend out at my place with our friends#and i said dw about it its fine i understand that you're not feeling well rn its okay no problem we'll hang out another time#have i EVER heard that from anyone else. no it's always the ✨getting mad✨ option#god i wish i could like. Not Care. like genuinely not care instead of gaslighting myself into not caring lol
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*crawls out from the ground, worms crawling from my body and beetles scuttling from the dirt*
HOLY FUCK I'M ALIVE
#starspeak#hi i died for like 5-6 months (more? idk) bc life became Actual Hell#partner almost got FUCKING ARRESTED bc of a god damn traffic ticket#food has been p scarce#dated a dude who turned out to be a fucking groomer and almost killed him#shits wild#but haaaaiiiii im not dead i swear i was just VERY tired
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What do you think about the lack of importance Edenia have in the last (and probably in the upcoming too) games?
Seriously, it makes me really Sad. Edenia was so important in the first timeline. What the hell happened? Only a few characteres mention this realm in MKX
It sucks. Big time
If you'll note, basically none of the realms matter anymore, aside from Earthrealm and Outworld.
Sure, the Netherrealm exists, but that's pretty much it. Dreamrealm is of dubious canonicity (introduced to explain Freddy Krueger as a guest fighter, then used to explain Tremor's glow up. Given he isn't shown in the storyline and arcade endings aren't canon in that game, I don't feel comfortable saying "yeah. That's important to the story"), and means nothing to the plot.
Chaosrealm and Orderrealm also don't show up despite being neat concepts.
What I'm getting at is that it makes the MK universe feel small. Edenia is only part of the problem, but I think it's a good example. Mortal Kombat feels more focused on nostalgia bait, Realistic Graphics, and more grisly Kombat than being, y'know, Mortal Kombat. None of that is necessarily Bad, but it's making it feel a little generic to me.
Maybe it's my bias and nostalgia, but that's just wrong. I'm not saying they need to bloat the worldbuilding, that would suck too. I'm just saying that they have these fun concepts, could they PLEASE do something with them???
Not to be the "they changed it, and now it sucks" guy, but I really love the original timeline's absurd worldbuilding. That's a major draw for me. Not only is it absurd, but it was constantly rolling and acquiring new and interesting bullshit. To me, that gave it a personality.
The original timeline feels like you took Enter the Dragon, the Matrix, Magic the Gathering, and classic slasher films, mixed it all up, then used it to bread and batter the gameplay. Deepfry that sonuvabitch until golden brown and serve it hot. Its the fried fish and hush puppies of gaming. I wouldn't say that it's Good For Me, but it's fucking delicious.
Its also not widely palatable and, just as Long John Silver's isn't exactly a big name restaurant, MK was kinda in a slump for a while, profit wise.
I think what happened is they cut back the weirder shit in order to make the games more popular. Its a chicken tender now. Not bad, but it's more of a "I'll take it if there's nothing better/nothing else I feel comfy eating" dish. Still not Good For Me, but often dressed up to seem healthier. By which I mean "able to be taken seriously by more people." The worldbuilding is more Serious ™️, so is the Gameplay. Don't get me started on the State Of The art Graphics.
Its all done this way for profit reasons. I don't doubt that folks on the team are still passionate about the games, but you can't forget that NRS is owned by a bigger company than Midway was. There's more executive meddling, so we see less of the more niche worldbuilding elements like Edenia
#gopher rambles#mortal kombat#To be clear; of the NRS games I've only played MKX. I have 11 but a few things#(game design; character design changes; plot stuff I know about through the fandom) have put me off it.#So just be aware that I'm not working with full knowledge of the whole sitch#also im very tired and this is more of a brain dump answer than anything. sorry dude#if you want me to clarify any of my thoughts let me know. im sure some of this is word salad.#long post#oof. damn sory for the rant. i just. have a lot of feelings about this whole deal. asking me about how i feel about an aspect#of the original timeline is a surefire way to make me ramble about shit i miss. I MISS THE WEIRDNESS. WEIRD SHIT WHERE FID YOU DO I MISS YOU#BABY COME BACK. EDENIA. CHAOSREALM. KENSHIS STUPID BABOON ASS AND RED CROTCH COMBO.#YOU WERE ALL SO SILLY WHAT HAPPENED#*fukin sobs* where did the time go?#im so sleepy. voodnight
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I love it when someone sneaks up on you because they think it'll be funny and act like you're a bitch for being startled and annoyed. Woah what a concept, some people react negatively to unpleasant, loud, and unexpected shit 🤯
#i was going back to my room after a 2 hour call in my office that i didn't even want to be on#and my dad turned on a loud ass LEAF BLOWER right behind me and naturally i was surprised because who the fuck does that#and he's like geez get out of your room for once#dude i have been for the past two hours...#i had two back to back work weeks that have been more hellish than usual pls just let me rot in peace#and stop acting like i have a bad attitude for wanting that#and for being irritated that 1. you're making incorrect assumptions about how i just spent my time and 2. judging me for that#and that you turned on a FUCKING LEAF BLOWER indoors right behind me like why the fuck would you do that???#he's like damn chill - dude what??? if anyone needs to chill it's you. I'm just minding my own business.#i want to move out but ill be bled dry if i do and im just tired#vent
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Thank you cole for making me obsessed enough to daydream a full plot for half an hour without any kind of stimuli other than my own creative juices
#God I missed that#I really need to allow myself more daydream time#i love you cole ninjago#I was daydreaming with the idea of cole forgetting everything and accidentally helping the enemy and the team trying to make him remember#Like imagine#He would be just working away and the ninja see him and go “cole????”#And he's like “who tf are you wtf”#And theyre like “my dude#“We're the ninja... We're your friends#And him being like “im no ninja#I only have abnormal super strenght#What do you mean thats part of my earth powers#And then they go every day with gifts and stuff trying to make him remember#And cole its so tired of them#Until he screams their names without knowing and everyone cheers#Damn it would be such a bad story but I enjoyed my daydream so go me
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ok looking at artfight is literally giving me a headache i think i should be done for today
#went thru and updated. all of my characters#separated them by story/universe#updated a few of the descriptions (i HATE writing those though so. only some of them)#and drew new things for a handful of them#but . god damn i am so tired but i still have soooo much to do#gagaughhhhg#i always do this every year im like oog ive got plany off time and then its 3 days before the event and im SCRAMBLING#sigh#I JUST WANT THEM TO OPEN EARLY TEAM REGISTRATION ALREADY. GUH#sorry guys im gonna be sooooo annnooying about my ocs for the next month. get ready#ill go back to drawing trigun when artfight is over#danny devito voice hold on im shifting into oc mode#god. i also updated my global permissions and added links to all my pinterest boards and character tags on my sideblog...#AND playlists for those that have them... fuck dude#i think this year im gonna focus on like. jus doing headshots.#bc i get into this slump of like. the mindset that Everything i make for artfight has to be perfect and#make it a huge massive piece with a background and shading and everything#but that takes sooooo much energy out of me. im gonna focus on doing a lot of little things.#i wanna draw somthing for every character i have bookmarked i think. as long as theyre on the other team#i also think i wanna try drawign more anthro/furry characters. for practice. i like drawing animals its fun#which is. fitting. for the werewolf year lmao#so. hey. if u or a friend are on team werewolf this year and want me 2 draw one of ur little guys.#no guarantee bc my energy gets soooo spotty and i want to save it for the ones i rlly wanna do#but like. im always open 2 suggestions. especially for artfight#send me ur little guys if i think theyre cool i gotchu.#man. ive been looking at my computer all day i think i am going 2 go read my book. catkiss goodnight i love you#(<< i will still be on tumblr probably. but that felt fitting.)#blahblahblah
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i havent seen my therapist in like 2 months n considering i have no drive for shit anymore and constantly lethargic and feeling stuck once again in life with no fulfillment anymore
i should make an appointment but also idk if i should make an earlier appointment w my psych.. or both
but also am like
pushes fingers 2gother hi anna i know its been 2 months since i got back to u prommy u wont be mad--
#candyredtext#KSDJFGF#idk aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.#like it sucks dude like..#i have no drive to like..do anything#none of my art. writing. playing games. socializing.#even hanging out w my bf im like#damn i kinda wanna be home rn#he talks/jokes all the time how all i ever wanna do#is take a nap when we hang out#n that im tired constantly.#like man.man.#idk if this is something i need to talk w my therapist bout#or talk to my psych about like#up my dosage or try new meds or what#cus idk if my adhd meds are even ;like. working anymore i dont feel any different anymore after taking them#i still am just.#sits staring at the wall-
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fully convinced at this point that if theres anything in my life im bad at/ have been bad at its solely due to lack of confidence
#theres so many things that ive tried again in college and was 'suddenly' good at because im not like#beating myself up over the fact that im a beginner?#or trying to make myself small or quiet#or even just thinking that maybe i can't do it#this even works for fucking executive functioning#over the summer i got a new skincare routine#and im historically prone to falling off routines pretty quickly especially skincare#but i just said you know my parents paid a lot of money for this stuff and i have an apartment now i can do this im going to do it#of course it helps that im in a generally good mental space this year compared to past years#and that i have access to a private bathroom thats a big one#but i couldve so easily just let it go#i almost have a couple times#but i just look myself in the mirror and ask myself if im really too tired to do hygiene or if im catastrophizing again#9 times out of 10 its the latter#and when it is i just say ok so you can do this then do it#and then i do it#i feel like a neurotypical dude is this what its like to not have to constantly fight your brain?#idk i mean ive known my entire life even before i had a word for it that my biggest problem is anxiety#its pretty much the root of all evil in my life#but damn i didnt realize how much of a superpower it was to have any confidence at all#cloudy rambles
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who’s up making sound effects ☝️☝️☝️
#talkingcore#realizing that the little pshooo noise I make when moving an object from one place to another can in fact be heard and perceived by others#purely on the basis I don’t hear anyone else making sound effects… you’re telling me I’m supposed to just push elevator buttons in silence??#like when you’re looking for things you don’t do like a lil choochoo chugging a long situation? okay… 👁️👁️💥💥💥💥#hot girl walk backfired I am so sleepy fuck this group project I can’t do anything til other people put info in…. I want to sleep#they pushed it off an extra 50 minutes pls let’s just get it done so I can go to sleep peacefully at like idk 8:30 (this is unrealistic)#I can sense the stress and disappointment. so sad so sad#maybe I’ll wait to post so I can have as much of my woes in one place (I am so sleepy)#this is hell I forgot we had a floor meeting at 830. the dude whose work I’m waiting on is not done. I’m feeling like the Arthur dad#tip: I am so fucking mad though the mad is really just Tired it’s due at 9 am tomorrow I do not want to be thinking about this past 10pm#it’s 8:49 maybe it’ll be good soon Please I need Slumber though also there’s Clunking going around who’s clunking#919 literally no progress this is super hell. DUDE WHERE SRE YOU GOING WE ARE ALL WAITING ON YOU AHHHHHHHHHHHH#man…………….. this is twisted. and sick :((((#THEY FINALLY FREED ME 9:37 GOD DAMN… AND THEYRE STILL NOT DONE IM JUST NOT TRAPPED ON ZOOM#this is my attack on London for Realsies we already had an extension it should’ve been due this morning. ass cheeks up for Real for real for
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Artist is Zhang Xiaoyuan/zxy698 on Douyin
People who can do this amaze me.
#i fought for my fucking LIFE trying to find this guy#i think i spent at least 20 minutes trying to find his name through reposts of his videos without giving credit#i had to search through comments of people telling the reposter how great ''their'' art looked and how talented they were for ''their'' art#just. fucking credit artists im so tired#also along with finding his name‚ finding any social media of this dude was so damn hard#i was like maybe he has an instagram or facebook or smth????? i was about to give up until i finally fucking found it oh my god#first i found the name yi hao which came up with pictures of him but his douyin and an article said zhang xiaoyuan?#idk anyway im 100% sure this is him#fucking credit artists so people dont have to go hunt them down!!!!#its not fucking hard to credit the artist or not repost their artwork in the first place!!!#i know more than half of yall dont ask the artist permission in the first place bc most would say no or yes but TO CREDIT THEM#im so tired#i really hate the bots on here that repost art and u cant even do anything about it unless the art is copyrighted its such bullshit#ALSO SORRY PREV FOR THE LONG ANGRY TAGS IN UR NOTIFS LMAO SORRY 🙇♂️
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